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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:02,352 --> 00:00:04,305 REPORTER: Angelenos head into day five 2 00:00:04,390 --> 00:00:06,882 of record heat and a citywide power outage. 3 00:00:06,967 --> 00:00:08,321 (Jee-Yun gasping) 4 00:00:08,406 --> 00:00:10,335 If you think this is great, 5 00:00:11,101 --> 00:00:12,994 wait till I show you the ocean. 6 00:00:14,132 --> 00:00:15,431 (Jee-Yun babbling) 7 00:00:20,180 --> 00:00:21,438 (gasps) 8 00:00:21,764 --> 00:00:24,617 (Jee-Yun crying) 9 00:00:24,765 --> 00:00:26,282 I think she's gonna be fine. 10 00:00:26,367 --> 00:00:28,343 - But how are you doing? - Shaky. 11 00:00:28,984 --> 00:00:30,790 I just feel like the adrenaline's wearing off. 12 00:00:30,875 --> 00:00:32,280 Then you should get her home. 13 00:00:32,458 --> 00:00:35,050 I bet you both could use a good night's sleep. 14 00:00:35,444 --> 00:00:36,660 Hi. 15 00:00:38,523 --> 00:00:40,430 (sighs) I am sure 16 00:00:40,556 --> 00:00:42,656 that you're confused 17 00:00:43,885 --> 00:00:45,827 and hurt and... 18 00:00:46,352 --> 00:00:48,669 and probably really scared. 19 00:00:52,330 --> 00:00:55,089 I don't... (sighs) really know what to say. 20 00:00:56,062 --> 00:00:58,711 You don't need to go to the police, 21 00:00:59,562 --> 00:01:01,804 or come looking for me. 22 00:01:05,566 --> 00:01:09,320 I'm not in any danger, and no one is making me do this. 23 00:01:13,999 --> 00:01:16,658 But Jee is not safe with me. 24 00:01:20,249 --> 00:01:22,833 Not now and maybe... 25 00:01:25,556 --> 00:01:28,265 I know that you're gonna take really good care of her. 26 00:01:32,234 --> 00:01:34,898 And she's better off without me. 27 00:01:36,975 --> 00:01:38,609 I love you. 28 00:01:41,136 --> 00:01:42,921 I love both of you. 29 00:01:45,213 --> 00:01:47,439 And I'm really sorry. 30 00:01:50,837 --> 00:01:52,471 (gasps) 31 00:01:58,393 --> 00:02:01,133 - What is going on? - Maddie, what did you do to him? 32 00:02:01,218 --> 00:02:02,602 Where did you get that? 33 00:02:02,687 --> 00:02:04,127 You should have left it where it was. 34 00:02:04,274 --> 00:02:06,266 Do you think this was my fault? 35 00:02:06,351 --> 00:02:07,639 No, it was my fault. 36 00:02:07,879 --> 00:02:09,061 That's right. 37 00:02:09,163 --> 00:02:11,436 You're never the one getting left behind. 38 00:02:11,736 --> 00:02:13,710 You're the one who leaves. 39 00:02:14,618 --> 00:02:16,601 If something was to happen to you or her, 40 00:02:16,733 --> 00:02:18,082 I can't carry that, Maddie. 41 00:02:18,167 --> 00:02:20,334 That will be the thing that breaks me, so please... 42 00:02:20,494 --> 00:02:22,171 (Jee-Yun crying) 43 00:02:22,255 --> 00:02:24,335 (gasping) 44 00:02:25,280 --> 00:02:27,506 (panting) 45 00:02:31,766 --> 00:02:33,337 (waves crashing) 46 00:02:33,421 --> 00:02:35,421 *9-1-1* Season 05 Episode 12 47 00:02:35,552 --> 00:02:37,552 Episode Title: "Boston" Aired on: March 28, 2022. 48 00:02:39,088 --> 00:02:41,939 DR. THOMPSON: Have you had any suicidal thoughts recently? 49 00:02:42,033 --> 00:02:43,533 Yes. 50 00:02:43,760 --> 00:02:46,664 DR. THOMPSON: Frequently, sometimes, or rarely? 51 00:02:46,749 --> 00:02:48,232 Past few months. 52 00:02:49,220 --> 00:02:52,656 Have you had suicidal thoughts in your past? 53 00:02:53,978 --> 00:02:55,329 Sometimes. 54 00:02:55,863 --> 00:02:57,964 DR. THOMPSON: How long ago? 55 00:02:59,283 --> 00:03:01,718 I was in an abusive marriage. 56 00:03:03,204 --> 00:03:05,763 I had thoughts then, but not like this. 57 00:03:07,559 --> 00:03:10,294 What about before that? Growing up, 58 00:03:10,379 --> 00:03:13,305 did you have any feelings of depression? 59 00:03:13,390 --> 00:03:15,964 - Suicidal ideations? - Depression? Yeah. 60 00:03:16,050 --> 00:03:18,375 Off and on. It started when I was a kid. 61 00:03:19,404 --> 00:03:21,738 DR. THOMPSON: At what age? 62 00:03:21,965 --> 00:03:23,359 I don't know, like, nine, 63 00:03:23,546 --> 00:03:26,351 - ten. - You were very young. 64 00:03:26,773 --> 00:03:28,578 My brother died. He was sick. 65 00:03:28,663 --> 00:03:30,282 I'm sorry for your loss. 66 00:03:30,367 --> 00:03:32,586 That must've been hard at such a young age. 67 00:03:32,671 --> 00:03:35,007 Is there a history of depression in your family? 68 00:03:35,092 --> 00:03:37,140 My mom. She, uh... 69 00:03:38,572 --> 00:03:41,924 ...talked a lot about wanting to die after losing my brother. 70 00:03:42,921 --> 00:03:45,781 Do you engage in any form of self-harm? 71 00:03:45,866 --> 00:03:47,207 No. 72 00:03:49,309 --> 00:03:53,007 But three days ago, I tried to drown myself in the ocean. 73 00:03:56,342 --> 00:03:58,274 ♪ The winter here's cold... ♪ 74 00:03:58,359 --> 00:04:00,485 SHONDA: Okay, after Patty's done taking your blood, 75 00:04:00,570 --> 00:04:02,960 we'll take you to get an ECG and a CT scan, 76 00:04:03,097 --> 00:04:05,182 and then you can get some rest. 77 00:04:05,266 --> 00:04:07,024 What happens tomorrow? 78 00:04:07,118 --> 00:04:09,360 Breakfast starts at 7:00. Meds at 8:00. 79 00:04:09,512 --> 00:04:11,704 Group starts at 9:00. 80 00:04:13,440 --> 00:04:16,210 ♪ To long too far ♪ 81 00:04:16,294 --> 00:04:18,628 ♪ From home ♪ 82 00:04:18,779 --> 00:04:22,523 ♪ I feel just like I'm sinking ♪ 83 00:04:22,616 --> 00:04:25,376 ♪ And I claw ♪ 84 00:04:25,470 --> 00:04:28,679 ♪ For solid ground ♪ 85 00:04:30,475 --> 00:04:34,685 ♪ I'm pulled down by the undertow ♪ 86 00:04:35,721 --> 00:04:37,480 ♪ I never thought ♪ 87 00:04:37,565 --> 00:04:40,475 ♪ I could feel so low ♪ 88 00:04:40,931 --> 00:04:42,022 ♪ And, oh... ♪ 89 00:04:42,187 --> 00:04:45,039 SHONDA: Okay, and meds are at 8:00. 90 00:04:45,124 --> 00:04:47,899 ♪ Letting go ♪ 91 00:04:50,829 --> 00:04:53,496 ♪ If all of the strength ♪ 92 00:04:53,647 --> 00:04:56,557 ♪ And all of the courage ♪ 93 00:04:56,650 --> 00:04:58,650 ♪ Come and lift me ♪ 94 00:04:58,744 --> 00:05:00,372 ♪ From this place ♪ 95 00:05:00,529 --> 00:05:02,580 SHONDA: You should eat something. 96 00:05:02,665 --> 00:05:05,349 ♪ I know I can love you... ♪ 97 00:05:05,457 --> 00:05:07,013 DR. THOMPSON: Ms. Buckley, 98 00:05:07,098 --> 00:05:09,436 your TSH levels are borderline. 99 00:05:09,528 --> 00:05:12,022 Do you have family history of thyroid issues? 100 00:05:12,107 --> 00:05:14,208 - Not that I'm aware of. - Hmm. 101 00:05:14,607 --> 00:05:16,514 Although, my mom and I don't talk about stuff like that, 102 00:05:16,598 --> 00:05:19,865 or... anything really. (Sighs) 103 00:05:20,169 --> 00:05:23,036 Okay. Let's run some more tests. 104 00:05:23,844 --> 00:05:26,480 ♪ It's better this way ♪ 105 00:05:27,013 --> 00:05:28,772 ♪ I say... ♪ 106 00:05:29,130 --> 00:05:30,785 Doctor's ordered another test. 107 00:05:30,869 --> 00:05:34,036 - More blood? Seriously? - You might wish it were blood. 108 00:05:35,522 --> 00:05:37,356 You-you want me to pee in that? 109 00:05:37,441 --> 00:05:40,411 For the next 24 hours. 110 00:05:40,578 --> 00:05:41,687 (scoffs) 111 00:05:41,771 --> 00:05:44,714 ♪ Hurts us all the more... ♪ 112 00:05:44,865 --> 00:05:47,775 MADDIE: Postpartum thyroiditis? How did I miss that? 113 00:05:47,868 --> 00:05:50,212 At first, your thyroid is over active. 114 00:05:50,296 --> 00:05:53,705 The symptoms can feel like typical baby blues. 115 00:05:53,799 --> 00:05:56,032 Anxiety, insomnia, irritability. 116 00:05:56,117 --> 00:05:59,415 Looks like the stress of having a newborn, but then 117 00:05:59,500 --> 00:06:02,868 it starts to slow down, or in your case, shut down. 118 00:06:02,953 --> 00:06:06,281 So, I-I'm just... cured? 119 00:06:06,414 --> 00:06:07,993 Well, now that we have 120 00:06:08,078 --> 00:06:10,433 identified the underlying condition, we can get you 121 00:06:10,518 --> 00:06:13,125 started on some hormone therapy. 122 00:06:13,938 --> 00:06:15,346 Maddie, you all right? 123 00:06:15,440 --> 00:06:17,257 Yeah, I'm... relieved. 124 00:06:17,650 --> 00:06:19,000 Since having her, 125 00:06:19,085 --> 00:06:20,945 I didn't know what was wrong with me, so... 126 00:06:21,406 --> 00:06:24,097 I guess now there is an answer. (chuckles) 127 00:06:24,392 --> 00:06:26,117 Yeah. 128 00:06:26,921 --> 00:06:28,479 Okay. 129 00:06:31,169 --> 00:06:32,169 (chuckles) 130 00:06:32,254 --> 00:06:33,603 MADDIE: You're transferring me? 131 00:06:33,728 --> 00:06:35,442 You're responding well to the treatment. 132 00:06:35,527 --> 00:06:38,195 I think it's time to move you to the outpatient program 133 00:06:38,280 --> 00:06:40,548 at the women's center. 134 00:06:40,632 --> 00:06:42,557 This is good news, Maddie. 135 00:06:43,268 --> 00:06:44,951 You get to go home. 136 00:06:45,086 --> 00:06:46,479 Yeah. 137 00:06:46,735 --> 00:06:48,443 Great. 138 00:06:54,237 --> 00:06:55,822 So now what? 139 00:06:55,906 --> 00:06:58,573 - Let's take a walk. - Okay. 140 00:06:58,799 --> 00:07:00,313 MADDIE: So, are you from Boston? 141 00:07:00,398 --> 00:07:02,903 Yeah, born and raised in Roxbury. You? 142 00:07:02,987 --> 00:07:04,487 Pennsylvania. Now, California. 143 00:07:04,639 --> 00:07:07,834 What brought you here? Plenty of good hospitals in California. 144 00:07:07,918 --> 00:07:10,503 I trained at this hospital. 145 00:07:10,587 --> 00:07:12,338 I used to be a nurse. 146 00:07:12,422 --> 00:07:13,748 So, why'd you quit? 147 00:07:13,832 --> 00:07:15,832 Just got to be too much. 148 00:07:15,984 --> 00:07:17,317 I get that. 149 00:07:17,502 --> 00:07:19,982 Some of these patients will make you question your career path. 150 00:07:20,079 --> 00:07:22,097 (chuckles) Present company excluded. 151 00:07:22,182 --> 00:07:23,198 Ah, thank you. 152 00:07:23,508 --> 00:07:25,781 But I still think the good outweighs the bad. 153 00:07:25,953 --> 00:07:29,813 Helping people, being able to watch them heal and get better. 154 00:07:30,923 --> 00:07:33,026 I'm talking about you, by the way. 155 00:07:33,110 --> 00:07:35,184 You really think that I'm getting better? 156 00:07:35,337 --> 00:07:39,100 I am no doctor, but I've been where you are, 157 00:07:39,185 --> 00:07:41,351 and I think you're getting stronger. 158 00:07:41,952 --> 00:07:44,953 You're stronger than you think you are, Maddie. 159 00:07:47,624 --> 00:07:49,208 LANDLORD: We do a lot of short-term. 160 00:07:49,292 --> 00:07:51,711 Visiting nurses needing a place to crash. 161 00:07:51,795 --> 00:07:53,672 - It's not fancy, but... - It's fine. 162 00:07:53,757 --> 00:07:54,796 - I'll take it. - Great. 163 00:07:54,947 --> 00:07:56,873 I just need you to fill out some paperwork. 164 00:07:57,025 --> 00:08:00,093 Uh, what if I just pay in advance? Six months. 165 00:08:04,135 --> 00:08:07,228 Are you part of the program over at the hospital? 166 00:08:07,313 --> 00:08:09,080 Yeah. 167 00:08:13,057 --> 00:08:15,142 WENDY: I know he means well, 168 00:08:15,226 --> 00:08:16,977 but I'm so tired of him trying to help. 169 00:08:17,061 --> 00:08:20,155 I can't just turn that frown upside down, Jim. 170 00:08:20,382 --> 00:08:23,399 Maybe you can bring Jim to our next friends and family session. 171 00:08:23,551 --> 00:08:24,985 Okay. 172 00:08:25,069 --> 00:08:26,654 Well, that's it for today. 173 00:08:26,738 --> 00:08:29,873 Thank you all. I'll see you on Thursday. 174 00:08:40,179 --> 00:08:42,449 So, where are they all rushing off to? 175 00:08:42,593 --> 00:08:45,622 Oh, uh, school pickup, daycare, the usual. 176 00:08:45,707 --> 00:08:47,141 Not you? 177 00:08:47,226 --> 00:08:49,575 My daughter's with her dad. 178 00:08:49,669 --> 00:08:51,554 Can't see her right now. 179 00:08:52,327 --> 00:08:53,674 Me either. (Chuckles) 180 00:08:54,666 --> 00:08:55,987 Oh, no, no. 181 00:08:56,072 --> 00:08:57,467 There's better coffee down the street. 182 00:08:57,551 --> 00:09:00,410 Um... Do you want to go grab some? 183 00:09:00,680 --> 00:09:03,114 If you don't have anywhere else to be. 184 00:09:06,036 --> 00:09:09,120 I have nowhere else to go. 185 00:09:16,287 --> 00:09:18,004 (keys clicking) 186 00:09:24,888 --> 00:09:26,963 CHIMNEY (over video): Keep going. 187 00:09:27,057 --> 00:09:28,130 Come to Daddy. 188 00:09:28,225 --> 00:09:32,020 (chuckles) That's it. You're doing it. 189 00:09:32,105 --> 00:09:34,722 - You're doing it, Jee-Yun. - (chuckles) 190 00:09:34,806 --> 00:09:38,316 CHIMNEY: Wait till Mommy sees this. She's gonna be so proud. 191 00:09:38,693 --> 00:09:40,746 No, wait. Don't touch that. 192 00:09:40,847 --> 00:09:42,689 (laughs) 193 00:09:54,066 --> 00:09:56,233 CHIMNEY (over video): Keep going. 194 00:09:56,327 --> 00:09:57,503 Come to Daddy. 195 00:09:57,587 --> 00:09:59,829 That's it. You're doing it. 196 00:09:59,923 --> 00:10:02,341 You're doing it, Jee-Yun. 197 00:10:02,878 --> 00:10:06,505 Wait till Mommy sees this. She's gonna be so proud. 198 00:10:07,079 --> 00:10:08,838 (phone rings) 199 00:10:09,814 --> 00:10:11,497 BUCK: Maddie? 200 00:10:11,582 --> 00:10:13,352 Thank God. Are-are you okay? 201 00:10:13,566 --> 00:10:15,661 Why is Chimney in Utah? 202 00:10:15,755 --> 00:10:16,914 He left town looking for you. 203 00:10:16,998 --> 00:10:18,006 Found out what happened to Jee-Yun... 204 00:10:18,090 --> 00:10:20,008 I told you not to tell him. 205 00:10:20,092 --> 00:10:21,936 No, he-he figured it out on his own. Wait a minute, 206 00:10:22,020 --> 00:10:23,945 h-how do you know where Chimney is? 207 00:10:24,096 --> 00:10:25,780 Did... did you talk to him? 208 00:10:25,931 --> 00:10:28,776 He emailed me a video. I guess Jee's started crawling. 209 00:10:28,860 --> 00:10:31,056 Maddie, please just 210 00:10:31,141 --> 00:10:33,763 tell me where you are. 211 00:10:33,848 --> 00:10:35,031 I can come and get you. 212 00:10:35,117 --> 00:10:37,109 I-I-I can send Chimney, whatever you want. 213 00:10:37,201 --> 00:10:40,168 We just, we need to know that you're safe. 214 00:10:40,379 --> 00:10:42,302 I am safe. I'm just... 215 00:10:42,387 --> 00:10:45,705 - Not ready, not yet. - (church bells tolling) 216 00:10:47,879 --> 00:10:50,713 Uh, I got to go, okay? Love you. 217 00:10:50,807 --> 00:10:52,223 - (Buck stammers) - (phone beeps) 218 00:10:53,959 --> 00:10:55,459 KIRA: So, you're freaking out 219 00:10:55,628 --> 00:10:58,099 over the Old North Church bell? 220 00:10:58,184 --> 00:11:00,412 I can't see him yet. I'm not ready. 221 00:11:00,497 --> 00:11:02,324 What-what-what do you mean, you're not ready? 222 00:11:02,408 --> 00:11:04,435 I'm not ready to go home. 223 00:11:04,519 --> 00:11:07,895 I still have so much that I have to work through. 224 00:11:07,980 --> 00:11:09,507 I'm just not ready to face all that. 225 00:11:09,592 --> 00:11:10,924 Maddie, are... 226 00:11:11,009 --> 00:11:13,496 are you afraid of your ex? Is he... 227 00:11:13,581 --> 00:11:16,415 God, no. No, he would never... 228 00:11:17,198 --> 00:11:19,116 But I do think he probably hates me. 229 00:11:19,200 --> 00:11:21,409 Why would he hate you? 230 00:11:23,898 --> 00:11:26,624 I almost killed our daughter. 231 00:11:27,422 --> 00:11:29,531 I was giving her a bath. I guess I... 232 00:11:29,987 --> 00:11:33,231 nodded off. She slipped under the water and... 233 00:11:33,809 --> 00:11:35,411 Oh, God. 234 00:11:36,441 --> 00:11:38,377 What kind of mom does that? 235 00:11:39,066 --> 00:11:40,606 Um... 236 00:11:40,793 --> 00:11:42,734 The-the week before 237 00:11:42,898 --> 00:11:46,927 I met you, I was finishing up a 28-day 238 00:11:47,324 --> 00:11:50,151 court-mandated rehab program. 239 00:11:50,306 --> 00:11:52,139 I got a DUI. 240 00:11:52,224 --> 00:11:54,074 Um... 241 00:11:54,159 --> 00:11:56,379 My-my-my son 242 00:11:56,522 --> 00:11:58,504 was in the backseat. 243 00:11:59,348 --> 00:12:01,315 I-I swear, I swear I never 244 00:12:01,432 --> 00:12:03,933 meant to put him in any danger. 245 00:12:04,061 --> 00:12:06,238 I... 246 00:12:06,322 --> 00:12:07,832 I was just so 247 00:12:07,916 --> 00:12:09,823 overwhelmed and... 248 00:12:09,918 --> 00:12:11,560 You were self-medicating. 249 00:12:11,644 --> 00:12:13,327 That doesn't make you a bad person. 250 00:12:13,479 --> 00:12:15,414 It's the only way I know how to deal 251 00:12:15,498 --> 00:12:17,340 when things get hard. 252 00:12:18,296 --> 00:12:21,215 Now, my-my ex won't let me see my son. 253 00:12:21,487 --> 00:12:23,422 I have to prove... (chuckles) 254 00:12:23,506 --> 00:12:26,840 That I am not a danger anymore. 255 00:12:26,935 --> 00:12:30,095 I miss him so much. 256 00:12:30,179 --> 00:12:32,939 Maddie, 257 00:12:33,157 --> 00:12:35,488 please stay. Please. 258 00:12:35,580 --> 00:12:37,602 I... (sighs) 259 00:12:37,687 --> 00:12:41,906 I think you're probably the only friend I have right now. 260 00:12:43,062 --> 00:12:44,980 No one else, 261 00:12:45,119 --> 00:12:47,678 no one else knows what this is like. 262 00:12:47,771 --> 00:12:51,031 I just want to get better for her. 263 00:12:51,184 --> 00:12:53,292 I know, I know, and we... 264 00:12:53,377 --> 00:12:55,119 we can help each other. Okay? 265 00:12:55,279 --> 00:12:58,382 - Get better together. - Okay. 266 00:12:58,466 --> 00:13:00,040 Then we both go home. 267 00:13:00,193 --> 00:13:02,026 Yeah. 268 00:13:02,119 --> 00:13:03,552 Okay. 269 00:13:05,139 --> 00:13:06,931 (sighs) 270 00:13:13,422 --> 00:13:14,965 HEN (over phone): Boston? 271 00:13:15,059 --> 00:13:17,552 Yeah, Buck is convinced he heard the bells 272 00:13:17,637 --> 00:13:20,237 of the Old North Church in the background when she called. 273 00:13:20,379 --> 00:13:22,630 The "One, if by land, two, if by sea" church? 274 00:13:22,715 --> 00:13:24,825 As far as leads go, is that a lead? 275 00:13:24,910 --> 00:13:26,333 CHIMNEY (over phone): It's a place to start. 276 00:13:26,417 --> 00:13:29,441 So, how's my apartment? You trash the place yet? 277 00:13:29,555 --> 00:13:31,215 Uh... 278 00:13:31,574 --> 00:13:33,888 It's fine, uh, but you seriously 279 00:13:33,973 --> 00:13:35,746 need to cancel the diaper subscription, okay? 280 00:13:35,853 --> 00:13:37,027 I'm running out of room here. 281 00:13:37,112 --> 00:13:39,204 Well, that explains where they are. 282 00:13:40,605 --> 00:13:42,508 Why do you think Maddie went to that church? 283 00:13:42,659 --> 00:13:44,613 I don't remember her ever going to mass. 284 00:13:44,730 --> 00:13:46,846 No, but I hear there's a pretty great pizza joint 285 00:13:47,090 --> 00:13:49,099 - around the corner. - So, where you staying? 286 00:13:49,605 --> 00:13:50,843 ♪ One night to be confused... ♪ 287 00:13:50,927 --> 00:13:54,579 Room rate's a lot lower than what you're paying at the hotel. 288 00:13:54,671 --> 00:13:56,287 You sure about this? I mean, it feels like 289 00:13:56,371 --> 00:13:57,775 one hell of an imposition, Eli. 290 00:13:57,859 --> 00:14:01,343 Nah. We don't come down here that much this time of year. 291 00:14:01,699 --> 00:14:04,864 Once opening day rolls around, that's a different story. 292 00:14:06,425 --> 00:14:08,199 We'll be gone by April, I promise. 293 00:14:08,284 --> 00:14:09,933 I just got to find Maddie first. 294 00:14:10,018 --> 00:14:11,777 You do your thing. 295 00:14:12,026 --> 00:14:13,192 Thanks. 296 00:14:13,338 --> 00:14:16,149 ♪ To call for hands of above ♪ 297 00:14:16,234 --> 00:14:19,187 ♪ To lean on, wouldn't be... ♪ 298 00:14:19,272 --> 00:14:21,455 So, the detective still said no? 299 00:14:21,607 --> 00:14:23,341 ATHENA (over phone): He said there wasn't much he could do, 300 00:14:23,425 --> 00:14:25,451 but he did take Buck's statement, 301 00:14:25,536 --> 00:14:28,770 and now he will file a missing persons report. 302 00:14:28,863 --> 00:14:30,724 - But that's it. - Well, we have 303 00:14:30,809 --> 00:14:33,617 no proof that she's in Boston, Chimney, or even anywhere 304 00:14:33,710 --> 00:14:36,453 - in the state of Massachusetts. - Commonwealth. 305 00:14:36,996 --> 00:14:38,927 - What? - It's the Commonwealth 306 00:14:39,012 --> 00:14:40,641 of Massachusetts. Apparently, 307 00:14:40,735 --> 00:14:42,387 they really care about that here. 308 00:14:42,472 --> 00:14:44,298 (Jee-Yun crying) 309 00:14:44,383 --> 00:14:45,863 (sighs) 310 00:14:46,785 --> 00:14:48,052 CHIMNEY: I'm coming. 311 00:14:48,395 --> 00:14:50,729 I know, I know. 312 00:14:50,814 --> 00:14:52,665 Aw... 313 00:14:52,922 --> 00:14:55,766 (Jee-Yun crying harder) 314 00:14:55,991 --> 00:14:57,334 I know, I know. 315 00:14:57,418 --> 00:15:01,829 ♪ To lean on, wouldn't be good enough... ♪ 316 00:15:01,997 --> 00:15:04,777 Yeah, I wish your mom was here, too. 317 00:15:04,862 --> 00:15:07,585 ♪ To call for hands of above ♪ 318 00:15:07,670 --> 00:15:10,180 ♪ To lean on ♪ 319 00:15:10,264 --> 00:15:13,682 ♪ Wouldn't be good enough ♪ 320 00:15:15,085 --> 00:15:16,595 ♪ And you... ♪ 321 00:15:16,777 --> 00:15:19,163 - Hey, Gail. - Good evening, Mr. Han. 322 00:15:19,256 --> 00:15:20,624 I'd ask what brings you in here today, 323 00:15:20,708 --> 00:15:22,126 but I'm afraid you're about to tell me. 324 00:15:22,210 --> 00:15:24,795 I'm just doing the rounds. Making sure you haven't admitted 325 00:15:24,879 --> 00:15:26,966 a Maddie Buckley or a Maddie Kendall 326 00:15:27,051 --> 00:15:28,355 - as a patient. - Mr. Han... 327 00:15:28,440 --> 00:15:30,824 I guess I'll hit the morgue next. 328 00:15:33,737 --> 00:15:37,043 Been to the women's clinic yet? Next building over. 329 00:15:37,262 --> 00:15:39,783 They specialize in postpartum depression. 330 00:15:39,877 --> 00:15:41,332 Thank you. 331 00:15:41,480 --> 00:15:43,738 Good luck. 332 00:15:43,847 --> 00:15:46,106 ♪ Of above ♪ 333 00:15:46,302 --> 00:15:47,527 ♪ To lean on ♪ 334 00:15:47,612 --> 00:15:50,964 ♪ Wouldn't be good enough ♪ 335 00:15:51,049 --> 00:15:52,713 ♪ To lean on ♪ 336 00:15:52,798 --> 00:15:54,309 ♪ To call for hands ♪ 337 00:15:54,394 --> 00:15:56,137 ♪ Of above ♪ 338 00:15:56,222 --> 00:15:58,066 ♪ To lean on ♪ 339 00:15:58,151 --> 00:16:01,620 ♪ Wouldn't be good enough. ♪ 340 00:16:05,537 --> 00:16:07,168 There you go, Jee-Jee. 341 00:16:07,496 --> 00:16:09,329 It's your favorite. 342 00:16:09,414 --> 00:16:11,015 Come on, honey. 343 00:16:11,167 --> 00:16:12,371 Come on. 344 00:16:12,631 --> 00:16:14,200 It's your favorite. It's vanilla bean... 345 00:16:14,285 --> 00:16:15,763 ELI: You know, this seems like the part of the movie 346 00:16:15,847 --> 00:16:17,168 where the detective becomes 347 00:16:17,253 --> 00:16:18,546 a little too obsessed with the case, 348 00:16:18,630 --> 00:16:20,630 and his boss has to send him home. 349 00:16:21,084 --> 00:16:23,762 - First off, you're not my boss. - (chuckles) 350 00:16:23,846 --> 00:16:25,746 And, second, if we're overstaying our welcome 351 00:16:25,831 --> 00:16:27,145 - with you and Molly... - No. 352 00:16:27,230 --> 00:16:30,262 I don't care if you stay in the basement forever. Okay? 353 00:16:30,347 --> 00:16:32,698 Though, I may have to start charging you rent. 354 00:16:32,830 --> 00:16:34,104 (crying) 355 00:16:34,189 --> 00:16:36,285 ELI: But I don't think this is healthy, Howie. 356 00:16:36,433 --> 00:16:38,535 I know it sounds crazy, 357 00:16:38,619 --> 00:16:40,059 but I just got this feeling that, 358 00:16:40,144 --> 00:16:41,585 one day, she's gonna walk out 359 00:16:41,670 --> 00:16:42,945 of that building, 360 00:16:43,607 --> 00:16:45,542 and I want to be here when she does, 361 00:16:45,626 --> 00:16:47,201 even if it's not today. 362 00:16:47,360 --> 00:16:48,324 Come on, baby. 363 00:16:48,409 --> 00:16:49,928 You know that's not how it works, right? 364 00:16:50,012 --> 00:16:52,631 - What? - The universe. 365 00:16:52,716 --> 00:16:54,836 You've been sitting here for months trying to manifest 366 00:16:54,952 --> 00:16:57,711 Maddie walking out of those doors, but... 367 00:16:57,926 --> 00:17:00,121 you know, have you considered maybe there's a... 368 00:17:00,206 --> 00:17:02,363 a cosmic tab you got to pay first? 369 00:17:02,449 --> 00:17:03,894 I'm gonna go with "no" 'cause I have no idea 370 00:17:03,978 --> 00:17:05,794 what the hell you're talking about. 371 00:17:05,888 --> 00:17:09,315 Look, you need to stop being so obsessed with what you want. 372 00:17:09,466 --> 00:17:10,874 Okay, you need to get off the bench 373 00:17:10,968 --> 00:17:12,968 and get back into the world. It needs you. 374 00:17:13,053 --> 00:17:15,156 To do what? 375 00:17:15,590 --> 00:17:17,434 To be of service. 376 00:17:19,051 --> 00:17:21,568 Maybe the universe will return the favor. 377 00:17:21,739 --> 00:17:24,657 Or give up and go home. 378 00:17:26,726 --> 00:17:29,084 - Come on. - All right. 379 00:17:32,998 --> 00:17:35,250 "Wild Rover" by Dropkick Murphys playing.. 380 00:17:37,086 --> 00:17:39,720 (indistinct chatter) 381 00:17:41,924 --> 00:17:43,902 ♪ And it's no ♪ 382 00:17:43,987 --> 00:17:46,487 ♪ Nay, never ♪ 383 00:17:47,004 --> 00:17:49,596 ♪ No, nay, never no more... ♪ 384 00:17:49,690 --> 00:17:52,841 Let us bow our heads. As we gather 385 00:17:52,935 --> 00:17:54,853 this morning to honor St. Patrick, 386 00:17:54,937 --> 00:17:57,196 let us give thanks for this glorious day 387 00:17:57,347 --> 00:17:58,731 and the chance to come together 388 00:17:58,816 --> 00:18:00,574 as Faith of Men. 389 00:18:01,777 --> 00:18:05,197 I'm not feeling so good. Ever since rehearsal 390 00:18:05,281 --> 00:18:08,942 this morning, i-it's like I'm... I'm having trouble breathing. 391 00:18:09,026 --> 00:18:11,618 Well, what do you want me to do? Just rally. 392 00:18:11,771 --> 00:18:13,707 We still got the parade. 393 00:18:13,792 --> 00:18:15,582 Thank you, Lord, for this time together, 394 00:18:15,715 --> 00:18:17,198 and for continuing to guide us 395 00:18:17,283 --> 00:18:20,194 and inspire us as we carry out your good work. 396 00:18:20,279 --> 00:18:22,285 - ...swelled up just like a melon. - MAN: Shut up! 397 00:18:22,370 --> 00:18:24,621 Nobody wants to hear about your glory days. 398 00:18:24,892 --> 00:18:27,219 Stuff it, O'Malley. Ain't nobody talking to you. 399 00:18:27,303 --> 00:18:29,035 Go to hell, jackass. 400 00:18:29,120 --> 00:18:30,598 Gentlemen, please. This is not 401 00:18:30,731 --> 00:18:33,190 how Faith of Men are supposed to behave. 402 00:18:36,386 --> 00:18:37,811 Start playing. 403 00:18:37,896 --> 00:18:41,031 Maybe the music will calm these idiots down. 404 00:18:41,116 --> 00:18:44,518 (bagpipes playing) 405 00:18:49,262 --> 00:18:50,991 (groans) 406 00:18:51,143 --> 00:18:52,449 Oh, God. Murray! 407 00:18:52,543 --> 00:18:54,712 (grunting) 408 00:19:02,178 --> 00:19:03,898 CHIMNEY: All right, let's make a hole, guys. 409 00:19:03,989 --> 00:19:05,656 I'm confused. Why are they serving beer 410 00:19:05,749 --> 00:19:07,600 - at a prayer breakfast? - Eggs and kegs. 411 00:19:07,751 --> 00:19:10,354 - St. Patrick's Day tradition. - If you say so. 412 00:19:10,669 --> 00:19:11,919 What happened here? 413 00:19:12,059 --> 00:19:13,723 Uh, he went down while we were playing. 414 00:19:13,848 --> 00:19:15,396 Before that, he said he was having trouble breathing. 415 00:19:15,480 --> 00:19:17,605 Randall, let's get him on some oxygen. 416 00:19:22,434 --> 00:19:25,951 BP is extremely elevated, 160/95. 417 00:19:26,036 --> 00:19:29,129 Heart rate is rapid and irregular. 418 00:19:30,015 --> 00:19:32,866 Legs and ankles also appear to be swollen. 419 00:19:33,018 --> 00:19:35,340 Oh. Pitting edema. 420 00:19:35,425 --> 00:19:37,474 Could be possible right-sided heart failure. 421 00:19:37,559 --> 00:19:38,715 Does your friend have a history 422 00:19:38,799 --> 00:19:40,292 - of heart trouble? - No, not that I know of. 423 00:19:40,376 --> 00:19:41,692 - What about diabetes? - JOE: No. 424 00:19:41,785 --> 00:19:43,193 He's not the healthiest guy, but I never 425 00:19:43,277 --> 00:19:44,842 heard him mention anything about diabetes. 426 00:19:44,926 --> 00:19:46,681 Um, he has had a cough for a while. 427 00:19:46,766 --> 00:19:48,408 Cough. 428 00:19:52,014 --> 00:19:53,699 Getting a crackling sound. 429 00:19:53,915 --> 00:19:56,000 Sounds like serious lung damage. Is he a smoker? 430 00:19:56,085 --> 00:19:57,410 Not Murray. He never touched them. 431 00:19:57,495 --> 00:19:58,671 Maybe pulmonary fibrosis, 432 00:19:58,756 --> 00:20:00,175 but what would cause him to go down now? 433 00:20:00,259 --> 00:20:01,652 Are you for real asking me? 434 00:20:01,787 --> 00:20:03,871 Because our volunteer training didn't go that in depth. 435 00:20:03,955 --> 00:20:05,410 You're like, smart. 436 00:20:05,495 --> 00:20:08,182 You're volunteers? I called the paramedics. 437 00:20:08,267 --> 00:20:10,618 And we arrived first 'cause our tent is across the street. 438 00:20:10,703 --> 00:20:12,954 - Medical Volunteer Corps. - Okay. 439 00:20:13,039 --> 00:20:14,785 Looks like he's coming around. 440 00:20:14,870 --> 00:20:16,942 Welcome back, Murray. Let's figure out 441 00:20:17,027 --> 00:20:17,949 what's going on with your lungs. 442 00:20:18,034 --> 00:20:20,470 - Bagpipe lung. - That can't be a real thing. 443 00:20:20,578 --> 00:20:22,570 Hypersensitivity pneumonitis, 444 00:20:22,655 --> 00:20:24,666 if you're looking for the medical term. 445 00:20:24,751 --> 00:20:26,642 Happens to people who play wind instruments, 446 00:20:26,727 --> 00:20:28,202 and also bagpipes. 447 00:20:30,131 --> 00:20:32,707 W-What are you doing? You're gonna ruin his bagpipes. 448 00:20:32,792 --> 00:20:34,559 Yeah. Pretty sure they're already ruined. 449 00:20:35,441 --> 00:20:37,835 I'm gonna need a bio hazard bag. These are full of mold. 450 00:20:37,972 --> 00:20:39,725 You've been inhaling this for God knows how long. 451 00:20:39,809 --> 00:20:41,028 It's wreaked havoc on your lungs. 452 00:20:41,112 --> 00:20:42,911 When was the last time you cleaned those things? 453 00:20:42,995 --> 00:20:44,412 Never. 454 00:20:44,746 --> 00:20:45,811 That'll do it. 455 00:20:46,270 --> 00:20:47,980 You're lucky. If you kept going, 456 00:20:48,074 --> 00:20:49,730 these bagpipes would've killed you. 457 00:20:50,184 --> 00:20:52,002 They're gonna do X-rays and blood work 458 00:20:52,153 --> 00:20:54,997 at the hospital, probably put you on 459 00:20:55,293 --> 00:20:58,043 corticosteroids to reverse the damage. 460 00:20:58,326 --> 00:21:01,052 (applause) 461 00:21:02,710 --> 00:21:03,816 (Chimney exhales) 462 00:21:03,923 --> 00:21:04,848 Bagpipe lung. 463 00:21:04,999 --> 00:21:06,509 First time I've seen that. 464 00:21:06,593 --> 00:21:07,833 Buckle up, my friend. 465 00:21:07,927 --> 00:21:09,771 You're about to have a lot of firsts today. 466 00:21:10,324 --> 00:21:11,837 What do you mean you're a volunteer? 467 00:21:11,931 --> 00:21:14,183 Boston Medical Volunteer Corps. 468 00:21:14,324 --> 00:21:15,933 It's mostly handing out Band-Aids and 469 00:21:16,086 --> 00:21:18,010 bottles of water to drunk people. 470 00:21:18,179 --> 00:21:19,678 There have been a few doozies, though. 471 00:21:19,773 --> 00:21:21,023 You ever hear of bagpipe lung? 472 00:21:21,107 --> 00:21:23,175 Well, it sounds like you're really settling in 473 00:21:23,260 --> 00:21:24,425 to life in Boston. 474 00:21:24,519 --> 00:21:26,520 Honestly, I really signed up to keep busy. 475 00:21:26,605 --> 00:21:28,591 Just wish it really kept me paid, too. 476 00:21:28,676 --> 00:21:31,033 My savings account balance is getting pretty low. 477 00:21:31,117 --> 00:21:34,012 Well, you still have a full-time job waiting for you here. 478 00:21:34,714 --> 00:21:36,035 Chim? 479 00:21:36,520 --> 00:21:38,374 People are starting to ask questions. 480 00:21:38,458 --> 00:21:40,291 My answer is still the same, Bobby. 481 00:21:40,376 --> 00:21:42,678 - I'm not coming home without Maddie. - (man whoops, glass shatters) 482 00:21:42,762 --> 00:21:44,305 All right, I got to go. 483 00:21:44,389 --> 00:21:46,176 (line beeps) 484 00:21:46,413 --> 00:21:48,063 (sighs) 485 00:21:49,903 --> 00:21:51,402 MADDIE: When I came here, I didn't 486 00:21:51,487 --> 00:21:53,405 know what to expect. 487 00:21:53,714 --> 00:21:54,731 I felt so many 488 00:21:54,816 --> 00:21:55,901 terrible things about myself, 489 00:21:55,985 --> 00:21:58,578 I thought everyone else would, too. 490 00:21:58,795 --> 00:21:59,855 Then, when I got here, 491 00:21:59,940 --> 00:22:04,028 um, I realized I wasn't crazy or... 492 00:22:04,113 --> 00:22:05,366 alone. 493 00:22:06,260 --> 00:22:08,035 You guys healed me. 494 00:22:08,563 --> 00:22:09,998 You made me feel stronger, 495 00:22:10,082 --> 00:22:12,082 and I finally feel like I'm ready to go home. 496 00:22:12,855 --> 00:22:15,251 So, I just wanted to say thank you to all of you. 497 00:22:15,336 --> 00:22:17,904 I'm very grateful. Es-Especially you, Kira. 498 00:22:19,740 --> 00:22:22,425 Oh, special shout-out. 499 00:22:22,510 --> 00:22:24,084 (laughs) 500 00:22:24,321 --> 00:22:26,014 Lucky me. 501 00:22:26,098 --> 00:22:29,075 You were there when I needed a friend. 502 00:22:29,160 --> 00:22:30,518 I couldn't have done this without you. 503 00:22:30,602 --> 00:22:32,928 Hmm. Okay, let's all, 504 00:22:33,012 --> 00:22:36,255 let's all give her a round of applause. 505 00:22:36,349 --> 00:22:39,598 (sighs) I'm so glad that you are fixed. 506 00:22:39,683 --> 00:22:41,895 VAL: I don't think that's what Maddie's saying, Kira. 507 00:22:42,263 --> 00:22:44,607 None of us have it figured out. If we did, 508 00:22:44,691 --> 00:22:46,841 - we wouldn't be here. - Whatever. 509 00:22:46,934 --> 00:22:50,332 I am so happy for you. 510 00:22:50,417 --> 00:22:52,196 Okay? But, too bad 511 00:22:52,281 --> 00:22:55,098 for the rest of us who still have problems. (Laughs) 512 00:22:56,424 --> 00:22:57,879 VAL: (sighs) That's it, everyone. 513 00:22:58,051 --> 00:23:00,066 Have a great afternoon. I'll see you next time. 514 00:23:00,151 --> 00:23:02,869 (quiet chatter) 515 00:23:07,973 --> 00:23:09,121 (sighs, clears throat) 516 00:23:09,215 --> 00:23:10,633 Hey, Kira, wait a second. What was that? 517 00:23:10,717 --> 00:23:12,884 I'm really not in the mood 518 00:23:13,036 --> 00:23:14,770 - for a lecture. - Okay, that's fine. 519 00:23:14,855 --> 00:23:15,879 I just wanted to check on you 520 00:23:15,963 --> 00:23:16,898 'cause you don't seem like yourself. 521 00:23:16,982 --> 00:23:18,890 Mm. Maybe it's the depression. 522 00:23:18,984 --> 00:23:21,235 Maybe it's the whiskey. (Sniffs) 523 00:23:21,319 --> 00:23:22,715 You're drunk. 524 00:23:22,800 --> 00:23:24,926 What do you care? (Laughs) 525 00:23:25,011 --> 00:23:26,420 You're leaving. 526 00:23:26,817 --> 00:23:30,410 My only support system's just hightailing it out of here. 527 00:23:31,388 --> 00:23:34,916 I came here to get well and to go home to my family. 528 00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:37,333 That was the plan, for both of us. 529 00:23:37,560 --> 00:23:39,253 (scoffs) 530 00:23:39,337 --> 00:23:43,006 I've messed up too badly. (chuckles, sniffles) 531 00:23:43,157 --> 00:23:45,008 I don't deserve to be a mom. 532 00:23:45,235 --> 00:23:47,844 Okay, you know what? I told myself exactly that same thing 533 00:23:47,995 --> 00:23:50,829 six months ago, and I was wrong. 534 00:23:50,924 --> 00:23:52,433 I got better. 535 00:23:52,517 --> 00:23:53,683 You can, too. 536 00:23:53,834 --> 00:23:56,707 Not by this afternoon. 537 00:23:57,043 --> 00:23:58,117 Ugh. 538 00:23:58,431 --> 00:24:00,690 I have a supervised visitation. 539 00:24:00,841 --> 00:24:02,121 No, no, no. You can't, you can't 540 00:24:02,252 --> 00:24:04,009 - show up like this. - I can't not show up. 541 00:24:04,103 --> 00:24:05,586 Okay, what time is the appointment? 542 00:24:05,680 --> 00:24:08,448 Um... 3:00. 543 00:24:09,943 --> 00:24:12,285 Come on, I have an idea. 544 00:24:15,874 --> 00:24:18,023 What are you doing? No, no, no, no. 545 00:24:18,117 --> 00:24:20,870 I-I-I cannot be admitted. No. If my ex finds out, 546 00:24:20,954 --> 00:24:22,634 I won't be able to see my son. I'm sorry... 547 00:24:22,772 --> 00:24:23,798 Okay, I'm not admitting you. 548 00:24:23,882 --> 00:24:24,789 I'm not admitting you. I'm helping you. 549 00:24:24,941 --> 00:24:27,108 (sighs) Sit right here. 550 00:24:27,201 --> 00:24:29,552 I'm gonna get you a banana bag. It'll sober you up. 551 00:24:29,738 --> 00:24:31,213 I'll be right back. 552 00:24:32,304 --> 00:24:34,313 Maddie? 553 00:24:34,398 --> 00:24:37,007 Why is your face on the bulletin board? 554 00:24:46,404 --> 00:24:48,112 What? 555 00:24:50,558 --> 00:24:52,075 That's you. 556 00:24:52,226 --> 00:24:54,662 Oh, my God, he's still looking for me. 557 00:24:54,746 --> 00:24:57,247 I thought you said he hated you. 558 00:24:59,677 --> 00:25:01,402 You lied. 559 00:25:01,743 --> 00:25:03,910 - I didn't lie. - All this time, 560 00:25:03,995 --> 00:25:06,598 I thought that we were in the same boat. 561 00:25:07,441 --> 00:25:08,842 Being punished by our exes. 562 00:25:08,927 --> 00:25:11,410 Not being able to-to see our kids. 563 00:25:11,832 --> 00:25:14,924 But you could've gone back any time, right? 564 00:25:15,008 --> 00:25:18,601 I'm fighting like hell to see my son, 565 00:25:18,686 --> 00:25:19,869 and you left them. 566 00:25:19,954 --> 00:25:21,120 I had to. 567 00:25:21,514 --> 00:25:24,192 Okay? It was dangerous for her and for me, and I... 568 00:25:24,276 --> 00:25:27,145 I needed to get help and to get better. 569 00:25:27,230 --> 00:25:30,277 Congratulations, Maddie. 570 00:25:31,508 --> 00:25:33,199 You're better. 571 00:25:38,848 --> 00:25:41,124 You don't need me anymore. 572 00:25:42,777 --> 00:25:44,627 MADDIE: Kira! 573 00:25:44,854 --> 00:25:47,522 Excuse me. Sorry. 574 00:25:47,615 --> 00:25:48,923 Sorry. 575 00:26:02,379 --> 00:26:06,407 - (crowd cheering) - (drums playing) 576 00:26:08,237 --> 00:26:10,246 (bagpipes playing) 577 00:26:25,445 --> 00:26:28,301 (firetruck horn honks) 578 00:26:28,387 --> 00:26:32,810 Snake bite. Looks like localized tissue damage. 579 00:26:32,895 --> 00:26:35,395 Let's immobilize his hand and elevate it above his heart. 580 00:26:35,546 --> 00:26:37,713 Don't want it to swell more than it is. 581 00:26:37,798 --> 00:26:38,873 Oh, no. 582 00:26:38,958 --> 00:26:41,129 The venom's making my heart swell. 583 00:26:41,456 --> 00:26:43,197 Oh, I'm gonna die. 584 00:26:43,282 --> 00:26:45,559 No, I meant your hand, and statistically speaking, 585 00:26:45,644 --> 00:26:46,964 people don't die from snake bites. 586 00:26:47,104 --> 00:26:48,191 Stupidity, 587 00:26:48,276 --> 00:26:49,694 - that's another story. - RANDALL: So, that's it? 588 00:26:49,778 --> 00:26:51,353 What about a tourniquet? Or maybe 589 00:26:51,453 --> 00:26:52,825 we can cut it and suck out the poison? 590 00:26:52,909 --> 00:26:54,927 That is exactly what you're not supposed to do. 591 00:26:55,278 --> 00:26:56,953 - Antivenom is his best bet. - Oh, 592 00:26:57,038 --> 00:26:58,011 - And I don't know about you, - it stings! 593 00:26:58,095 --> 00:26:59,379 But I'm not packing any. 594 00:26:59,570 --> 00:27:00,487 That's not a bad idea. 595 00:27:00,598 --> 00:27:01,747 We should ask for that. 596 00:27:01,831 --> 00:27:03,749 Every year, there's always some ass hat 597 00:27:03,833 --> 00:27:05,880 dressed as St. Patrick pretending to drive the snakes 598 00:27:05,964 --> 00:27:06,887 out of Ireland. 599 00:27:06,972 --> 00:27:09,847 And I thought Cinco de Mayo in Los Angeles was crazy. 600 00:27:09,999 --> 00:27:13,408 - (bagpipes playing) - (people whooping) 601 00:27:13,493 --> 00:27:15,262 Hey. Kira, it's Maddie. 602 00:27:15,355 --> 00:27:16,537 Um, just, please, 603 00:27:16,790 --> 00:27:18,290 call me, okay? I... 604 00:27:18,579 --> 00:27:20,513 Just want to make sure you're all right. 605 00:27:22,333 --> 00:27:24,527 - Thank you. - MADDIE: Sir, I'm looking for a woman. 606 00:27:24,612 --> 00:27:26,051 She's late 30s. Blonde. 607 00:27:26,136 --> 00:27:27,724 About this tall and probably drunk. 608 00:27:27,809 --> 00:27:28,949 Oh, a drunk woman. 609 00:27:29,034 --> 00:27:30,200 That narrows it down. 610 00:27:30,285 --> 00:27:32,719 You know it's St. Patrick's Day, right? 611 00:27:34,809 --> 00:27:36,698 Lean forward a bit for me. There you go. 612 00:27:36,792 --> 00:27:38,376 - If you could hold that, please. - Nothing's broken. 613 00:27:38,460 --> 00:27:40,453 Looks like he's all yours. 614 00:27:40,537 --> 00:27:42,278 OFFICER: Thanks. Let's go. 615 00:27:42,371 --> 00:27:45,215 So this guy tried to rob a bank with a stick? 616 00:27:45,300 --> 00:27:48,043 Uh, technically it's a shillelagh. 617 00:27:48,128 --> 00:27:50,629 - And a rubber one at that. - What were you thinking? 618 00:27:50,714 --> 00:27:53,207 She stole me pot o' gold. 619 00:27:53,533 --> 00:27:56,176 You know you're not actually a leprechaun, right? 620 00:27:56,717 --> 00:27:57,742 (laughs) 621 00:27:57,827 --> 00:27:59,385 Hey, Kira, call me. 622 00:27:59,470 --> 00:28:01,270 I'm really worried about you. 623 00:28:01,483 --> 00:28:03,891 Hey, I'm gonna go grab a lobster roll from the food truck. 624 00:28:03,976 --> 00:28:05,121 - You want anything? - Sure. 625 00:28:05,206 --> 00:28:06,691 Just make sure there's no mayo on it. 626 00:28:06,965 --> 00:28:09,629 I sense you have no idea what a lobster roll is. 627 00:28:09,754 --> 00:28:10,920 Just grab him one anyway. 628 00:28:11,072 --> 00:28:12,922 Three lobster rolls coming up. 629 00:28:13,074 --> 00:28:16,511 So how is it? Being of service again. 630 00:28:16,595 --> 00:28:20,597 Honestly, it's the best I've felt in probably a year. 631 00:28:20,765 --> 00:28:21,931 (line rings) 632 00:28:22,158 --> 00:28:24,309 (siren whoops) 633 00:28:25,829 --> 00:28:28,496 Get in the car. 634 00:28:28,665 --> 00:28:29,421 (people screaming) 635 00:28:29,515 --> 00:28:31,349 - Hey, watch it. - (shattering) 636 00:28:31,501 --> 00:28:33,269 Come on. 637 00:28:33,353 --> 00:28:35,612 - (body thuds) - MAN: Whoa. Is he all right? 638 00:28:35,697 --> 00:28:37,789 WOMAN: Look at this. 639 00:28:37,890 --> 00:28:39,724 CHIMNEY: Is that an axe? 640 00:28:39,879 --> 00:28:41,645 MAN: You gotta see this. 641 00:28:42,287 --> 00:28:44,285 MAN: Gabe. Gabe! 642 00:28:44,697 --> 00:28:46,541 Oh, my God, Gabe! 643 00:28:46,625 --> 00:28:48,042 You did this? 644 00:28:48,126 --> 00:28:49,842 We were axe throwing, and he stumbled in front of me, 645 00:28:49,926 --> 00:28:51,961 and I-I hit him instead of the target. 646 00:28:52,046 --> 00:28:53,919 No pulse. He's not breathing. 647 00:28:54,004 --> 00:28:55,303 I'd say start compressions, but... 648 00:28:55,387 --> 00:28:57,051 There's an axe in his head? 649 00:28:57,426 --> 00:28:59,724 Randall, that sandwich board, bring it over here! 650 00:28:59,809 --> 00:29:01,568 ELI: Okay. Okay, let's get him into a seated position. 651 00:29:01,652 --> 00:29:03,535 CHIMNEY: I got his head. 652 00:29:05,551 --> 00:29:07,136 - What do I do? - Randall, put the board behind him. 653 00:29:07,220 --> 00:29:09,192 Eli will hold him up while I do compressions. 654 00:29:09,277 --> 00:29:11,106 - What do I do? - Okay, hold his head, 655 00:29:11,191 --> 00:29:12,975 - keep his airway clear. - I can do that without 656 00:29:13,059 --> 00:29:14,651 looking at his head, right? 657 00:29:15,065 --> 00:29:16,582 Howie, on your count. 658 00:29:20,049 --> 00:29:22,082 Feels like old times, doesn't it? 659 00:29:22,552 --> 00:29:24,661 Well, nobody's puked on me yet. 660 00:29:24,802 --> 00:29:26,076 (Randall gags) 661 00:29:26,161 --> 00:29:28,937 - Oh, God. - That is not an invitation, Randall. 662 00:29:30,184 --> 00:29:31,668 Pulse check. 663 00:29:31,996 --> 00:29:33,311 Pulse is back. We got him. 664 00:29:33,396 --> 00:29:35,171 Dispatch, this is Paramedic Cobb. 665 00:29:35,322 --> 00:29:38,341 About to transport a young male with an axe in his head 666 00:29:38,426 --> 00:29:40,077 to Mercy Shore Hospital. 667 00:29:40,161 --> 00:29:41,739 Okay, let's secure it and move him. 668 00:29:41,824 --> 00:29:42,824 What can I do? 669 00:29:43,037 --> 00:29:44,138 You can take up chess. 670 00:29:44,223 --> 00:29:46,683 - Oh! - Sorry. 671 00:29:46,834 --> 00:29:48,919 I hate this day. 672 00:29:49,003 --> 00:29:51,847 (phone ringing) 673 00:29:51,931 --> 00:29:53,754 - Ah, Kira? - MAN: No. 674 00:29:54,012 --> 00:29:55,863 This is the bartender down at Father Sean's Pub. 675 00:29:55,947 --> 00:29:59,557 - I think your friend needs some help. - Okay. 676 00:30:05,770 --> 00:30:09,038 Hey. Our axe man's heading into surgery. 677 00:30:09,238 --> 00:30:12,895 Okay, great. Oh, my shift's over. 678 00:30:13,168 --> 00:30:14,703 I should get back, maybe, and turn in this vest. 679 00:30:14,787 --> 00:30:16,927 Oh, ride in the rig with me. I'll drop you off. 680 00:30:17,011 --> 00:30:17,997 You sure? 681 00:30:18,082 --> 00:30:19,217 What if another call comes in? 682 00:30:19,301 --> 00:30:20,840 I'll let you use the lights and sirens. 683 00:30:20,925 --> 00:30:23,334 (music playing in distance) 684 00:30:23,419 --> 00:30:25,112 (gagging) 685 00:30:25,300 --> 00:30:27,374 Oh, God, she's puking. 686 00:30:27,581 --> 00:30:29,253 No. No, she's aspirating. 687 00:30:29,363 --> 00:30:30,826 Come on, we've got to get her on her side. 688 00:30:30,910 --> 00:30:32,201 Kira?! Call 911. 689 00:30:32,286 --> 00:30:34,286 MAN: All right. 690 00:30:34,499 --> 00:30:36,645 (phone dials, line rings) 691 00:30:36,735 --> 00:30:38,468 - OPERATOR: 911. - Yes, I'm calling 692 00:30:38,552 --> 00:30:39,872 - Kira, come on. Come on, come on, come on. - From Father Sean's Pub. 693 00:30:39,956 --> 00:30:41,809 MAN: We have a young woman here who needs help. 694 00:30:41,894 --> 00:30:43,824 - We think she might be aspirating. - Wake up. 695 00:30:43,949 --> 00:30:46,380 Good. Good! There's a unit just down the block. 696 00:30:46,465 --> 00:30:48,060 - Good. Wave 'em down. - Okay. 697 00:30:48,145 --> 00:30:49,786 Kira, come on, wake up, wake up, wake up. 698 00:30:49,871 --> 00:30:51,450 - Come on, Kira, wake up! - Over here! 699 00:30:51,535 --> 00:30:52,656 - Come on. - MAN: Hey! 700 00:30:52,751 --> 00:30:54,226 - Yeah, yeah, yeah, come on. - Kira, wake up. 701 00:30:54,310 --> 00:30:55,734 - Over here. - (siren wailing) 702 00:30:55,870 --> 00:30:57,349 MAN: She's here. Come on! 703 00:30:57,434 --> 00:30:58,825 MADDIE: Oh, my God, hurry. 704 00:30:58,910 --> 00:31:01,153 MAN: Over here. Over here. She's right here. 705 00:31:01,238 --> 00:31:03,334 - Come on. She's right here. - Excuse me. Excuse me. What do we got? 706 00:31:03,418 --> 00:31:05,645 She's 38 years old. Alcohol poisoning. 707 00:31:05,730 --> 00:31:07,755 She's aspirated vomit. She's unresponsive. 708 00:31:07,840 --> 00:31:09,920 - ELI: How long has she been out? - MADDIE: I don't know. 709 00:31:10,004 --> 00:31:11,521 I did a sternal rub but she's not coming to. 710 00:31:11,605 --> 00:31:14,138 - Is she on anything? - Prescriptions for antidepressants. 711 00:31:14,223 --> 00:31:17,402 - Any other drugs? Illegal substances? - I don't know. 712 00:31:17,605 --> 00:31:21,071 CHIMNEY: Pardon me. Make a hole! Coming through. 713 00:31:24,965 --> 00:31:26,649 Maddie? 714 00:31:28,528 --> 00:31:30,027 Howie. 715 00:31:38,994 --> 00:31:41,161 We have acute alcohol intoxication, 716 00:31:41,262 --> 00:31:43,033 heart rate severely low. 717 00:31:43,117 --> 00:31:45,359 BP 80/60 and she's cold to the touch. 718 00:31:45,585 --> 00:31:47,434 Let's start suction and get her on a gurney. 719 00:31:47,519 --> 00:31:48,910 Copy that. 720 00:31:51,445 --> 00:31:52,702 You okay? 721 00:31:53,613 --> 00:31:55,802 Y-Yeah. Is Jee with you? 722 00:31:55,887 --> 00:31:57,200 She's fine. 723 00:31:57,285 --> 00:31:58,120 She's staying with a friend 724 00:31:58,224 --> 00:32:00,057 while I play paramedic again. 725 00:32:00,434 --> 00:32:02,485 All right, suction's ready. 726 00:32:10,472 --> 00:32:12,849 38-year-old female with acute alcohol poisoning, 727 00:32:12,934 --> 00:32:15,427 unresponsive on the scene after aspirating vomit. 728 00:32:15,512 --> 00:32:18,208 Administered fluid and bolused one liter of LR. 729 00:32:18,293 --> 00:32:20,285 Used mechanical suction to clear airway. 730 00:32:20,370 --> 00:32:22,596 Vitals are stable. 731 00:32:24,025 --> 00:32:26,042 (sighs) I think she'll be okay. 732 00:32:26,512 --> 00:32:28,170 It's a good thing you found her in time. 733 00:32:29,012 --> 00:32:31,513 I'm, uh, I'm Eli, by the way. 734 00:32:31,598 --> 00:32:33,105 We were never formally introduced. 735 00:32:33,324 --> 00:32:35,767 - Maddie. I've heard a lot about you. - Same. 736 00:32:35,912 --> 00:32:37,012 You and that little girl are about 737 00:32:37,096 --> 00:32:39,515 all he talks about these days. 738 00:32:39,599 --> 00:32:41,302 Where is he? 739 00:32:41,387 --> 00:32:43,631 Uh, probably outside. 740 00:32:43,716 --> 00:32:45,419 I think he needed a minute. 741 00:32:45,789 --> 00:32:47,755 Me, too. 742 00:32:48,324 --> 00:32:51,959 (sighs) How is he... really? 743 00:32:52,044 --> 00:32:53,730 I mean, I know that I could ask him myself. 744 00:32:53,815 --> 00:32:55,949 But he'd probably sugarcoat it for you? 745 00:32:56,207 --> 00:32:57,781 When he showed up, he was a mess. 746 00:32:58,380 --> 00:32:59,841 He was worried about you. 747 00:32:59,943 --> 00:33:03,129 He was worried about Jee-Yun, and he was racked with guilt. 748 00:33:04,530 --> 00:33:06,850 Guilt? I'm the one that left. 749 00:33:07,027 --> 00:33:09,520 Yeah, but he's the one that feels responsible. 750 00:33:12,880 --> 00:33:14,873 Eli said you would be here. 751 00:33:15,341 --> 00:33:17,718 He was right. 752 00:33:18,338 --> 00:33:19,514 He usually is. 753 00:33:19,599 --> 00:33:22,391 It's one of his more annoying traits. 754 00:33:23,536 --> 00:33:25,902 But actually, this time he was wrong. 755 00:33:27,263 --> 00:33:29,233 You see, all those days that I spent sitting 756 00:33:29,318 --> 00:33:30,983 right here on this bench convinced 757 00:33:31,068 --> 00:33:32,623 you would walk out those doors, 758 00:33:32,708 --> 00:33:34,693 he said I was crazy. 759 00:33:34,880 --> 00:33:36,146 And here you are. 760 00:33:37,388 --> 00:33:39,233 I know that you must have a lot of questions. 761 00:33:39,318 --> 00:33:41,092 I know why you left, Maddie. 762 00:33:41,177 --> 00:33:43,092 Still not sure why you stayed away. 763 00:33:43,177 --> 00:33:45,568 Because I didn't think I'd ever get better. 764 00:33:45,700 --> 00:33:47,944 And it didn't feel safe to be around any of you. 765 00:33:48,029 --> 00:33:50,139 What happened with Jee-Yun and the bathtub, 766 00:33:50,224 --> 00:33:51,256 that was an accident. 767 00:33:51,341 --> 00:33:53,512 But trying to kill myself wasn't. 768 00:33:57,615 --> 00:33:59,052 You what? 769 00:34:01,083 --> 00:34:02,765 When I dropped her off at the firehouse I thought 770 00:34:02,849 --> 00:34:06,333 that's it, she's safe. 771 00:34:08,854 --> 00:34:13,302 So I drove up the coast, I found a beach, 772 00:34:13,951 --> 00:34:16,036 and I walked into the ocean. 773 00:34:19,052 --> 00:34:21,037 My head was so full of all the mistakes 774 00:34:21,122 --> 00:34:22,827 I had made in my life, and I just thought 775 00:34:22,912 --> 00:34:25,296 everybody would be better off without me. 776 00:34:26,247 --> 00:34:28,513 Sad at first, yeah. 777 00:34:29,099 --> 00:34:30,798 But that would fade. 778 00:34:31,846 --> 00:34:33,756 And Jee, she's so young, she wouldn't even 779 00:34:33,841 --> 00:34:35,511 remember me as her mommy. 780 00:34:36,271 --> 00:34:37,947 How could you even think that? 781 00:34:42,262 --> 00:34:43,779 Maddie, if you died, I would never... 782 00:34:43,864 --> 00:34:45,597 Never forgive yourself. 783 00:34:49,284 --> 00:34:52,208 I got out of the ocean for you. 784 00:34:53,539 --> 00:34:55,521 For both of you. 785 00:34:56,661 --> 00:35:02,154 But I had to stay here to learn to stop running. 786 00:35:03,075 --> 00:35:04,516 Maddie... 787 00:35:06,101 --> 00:35:08,284 I would have done anything to help you. 788 00:35:08,382 --> 00:35:12,475 I beat myself up every day that I didn't do more. 789 00:35:12,560 --> 00:35:16,502 I'm so sorry for everything that I put you through. 790 00:35:17,555 --> 00:35:20,073 I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you. 791 00:35:20,747 --> 00:35:23,392 - You were there. - Not enough. 792 00:35:24,505 --> 00:35:26,544 I blame myself for you leaving, 793 00:35:26,650 --> 00:35:29,025 for missing the warning signs. 794 00:35:30,994 --> 00:35:33,253 Or maybe ignoring them. 795 00:35:35,089 --> 00:35:38,341 I just wanted so badly for you to be okay, I just... 796 00:35:39,958 --> 00:35:41,958 I pretended that you were okay. 797 00:35:43,591 --> 00:35:45,765 I think I did, too, for a while. 798 00:35:50,254 --> 00:35:52,161 (both sniffling) 799 00:35:54,573 --> 00:35:55,906 (Chimney exhales sharply) 800 00:35:56,208 --> 00:35:58,131 I guess we both spent too much time 801 00:35:58,216 --> 00:36:01,022 hiding from the truth, and I don't want to do that anymore. 802 00:36:01,116 --> 00:36:02,896 Me either. 803 00:36:03,969 --> 00:36:05,869 No more pretending. 804 00:36:07,605 --> 00:36:11,365 From now on, let's just be honest about how we feel, 805 00:36:11,460 --> 00:36:13,585 and what we want. 806 00:36:15,021 --> 00:36:16,588 Okay. 807 00:36:19,283 --> 00:36:20,884 What do you want? 808 00:36:23,794 --> 00:36:26,553 She should be awake from her nap soon. 809 00:36:27,326 --> 00:36:30,122 - (coos) - There she is. 810 00:36:30,701 --> 00:36:33,938 Look who's here, Jee-Yun. It's Mommy. 811 00:36:36,876 --> 00:36:38,411 She's so big. 812 00:36:38,904 --> 00:36:42,021 I swear to God, I've been feeding her normal portions. 813 00:36:42,382 --> 00:36:44,065 You probably want to hold her. 814 00:36:44,159 --> 00:36:46,411 Uh, she never liked strangers. 815 00:36:46,638 --> 00:36:48,655 Maddie, you're not a stranger. 816 00:36:48,740 --> 00:36:51,072 I think I am. 817 00:36:51,388 --> 00:36:52,954 Maddie... 818 00:36:55,074 --> 00:36:59,208 She's grown up so much. I missed it. 819 00:36:59,415 --> 00:37:01,249 I missed all of it. 820 00:37:01,419 --> 00:37:04,411 - (sobbing) - (Jee-Yun crying) 821 00:37:16,529 --> 00:37:18,474 So you figure out what's next? 822 00:37:18,727 --> 00:37:20,209 I mean, back to L.A., 823 00:37:20,294 --> 00:37:22,054 or should I be getting you a job application? 824 00:37:22,431 --> 00:37:23,855 I don't know. 825 00:37:24,029 --> 00:37:25,909 It didn't feel right asking her about the future 826 00:37:26,013 --> 00:37:28,146 when she was so clearly mourning the past. 827 00:37:28,521 --> 00:37:31,083 Not the glorious reunion you'd been dreaming of, huh? 828 00:37:31,168 --> 00:37:32,614 I never really thought that far. 829 00:37:32,699 --> 00:37:36,183 I mean, I imagined finding her a million times, you know? 830 00:37:36,294 --> 00:37:39,028 I'd see her, she'd see me. 831 00:37:39,919 --> 00:37:42,114 Movie always ended right there. 832 00:37:42,199 --> 00:37:43,834 They live happily ever after. 833 00:37:43,919 --> 00:37:45,777 (scoffs) Yeah. 834 00:37:46,403 --> 00:37:48,314 Kind of wishing the end credit sequence 835 00:37:48,399 --> 00:37:49,999 was less of a bummer. 836 00:37:53,412 --> 00:37:56,037 You know, I was really mad at her 837 00:37:56,122 --> 00:37:58,139 for not being there. 838 00:37:58,934 --> 00:38:02,102 But tonight was the first time I realize what leaving 839 00:38:02,187 --> 00:38:04,504 actually cost her. 840 00:38:05,890 --> 00:38:07,982 You know, 841 00:38:08,838 --> 00:38:10,446 after we had our girls, 842 00:38:10,941 --> 00:38:12,567 Molly wanted to stay home with them, 843 00:38:12,652 --> 00:38:15,122 so I went back to work. 844 00:38:15,447 --> 00:38:18,514 And every time I left, I always said the same thing: 845 00:38:18,599 --> 00:38:20,802 "I love you. I'll call you later. 846 00:38:20,911 --> 00:38:22,830 Don't let 'em do anything cool while I'm gone." 847 00:38:22,924 --> 00:38:25,166 (laughs) 848 00:38:25,318 --> 00:38:27,436 Maybe if I'd just found her earlier. 849 00:38:27,521 --> 00:38:29,592 You did everything you could, Howie. 850 00:38:29,677 --> 00:38:31,482 All right, no matter what else you're feeling, 851 00:38:31,567 --> 00:38:32,567 know that. 852 00:38:32,652 --> 00:38:34,615 I just wanted to fix her, you know? 853 00:38:34,700 --> 00:38:36,210 Just make it all okay. 854 00:38:36,295 --> 00:38:38,974 Even though you know fixing her isn't your responsibility? 855 00:38:39,169 --> 00:38:40,281 Yeah. 856 00:38:40,873 --> 00:38:42,965 Why do I always do that? 857 00:38:43,051 --> 00:38:44,942 It's how you're wired. 858 00:38:45,027 --> 00:38:47,038 Helping people is how you help yourself. 859 00:38:47,123 --> 00:38:48,697 And because you love her. 860 00:38:48,782 --> 00:38:51,374 (chuckles) 861 00:38:51,574 --> 00:38:53,166 (sighs) 862 00:38:54,124 --> 00:38:58,185 I knew I had missed a lot, and it's been six months, 863 00:38:58,310 --> 00:38:59,384 but seeing her... 864 00:38:59,478 --> 00:39:01,154 Made it real? 865 00:39:01,238 --> 00:39:02,979 Too real. 866 00:39:04,344 --> 00:39:07,685 I just wasn't prepared for how much it was gonna hurt. 867 00:39:08,067 --> 00:39:11,872 I mean, looking at her, I saw every milestone I've missed. 868 00:39:12,356 --> 00:39:14,652 But that doesn't mean that you can't be there for... 869 00:39:15,114 --> 00:39:16,927 all the other ones. 870 00:39:18,589 --> 00:39:19,781 What about you? 871 00:39:20,482 --> 00:39:22,153 Did you talk to your social worker? 872 00:39:22,238 --> 00:39:23,673 (sighs) 873 00:39:23,853 --> 00:39:25,771 Yeah. (clears throat) 874 00:39:25,855 --> 00:39:28,331 Um, I have to go back to detox, 875 00:39:28,415 --> 00:39:29,786 then... 876 00:39:30,018 --> 00:39:33,753 another 60 days outpatient. 877 00:39:33,838 --> 00:39:35,554 And are you gonna do it? 878 00:39:36,499 --> 00:39:38,653 If I want to see my son. 879 00:39:39,777 --> 00:39:41,994 Yeah. I have to. 880 00:39:43,825 --> 00:39:47,493 Thank you for saving my life. 881 00:39:48,224 --> 00:39:50,687 I don't remember everything I said, 882 00:39:50,771 --> 00:39:53,196 but, um, I know how I can get. 883 00:39:53,318 --> 00:39:55,495 - I'm sorry. - It's okay. 884 00:39:55,626 --> 00:39:57,042 You were hurting. 885 00:39:57,127 --> 00:39:59,638 We're not always our best selves when that happens. 886 00:39:59,950 --> 00:40:01,548 I'm really glad you're okay. 887 00:40:01,632 --> 00:40:03,475 Well, not yet. 888 00:40:03,559 --> 00:40:05,708 But I'm gonna keep trying. 889 00:40:05,877 --> 00:40:08,562 I have to. (laughs) 890 00:40:08,789 --> 00:40:13,901 Not just for me, but for Robbie. 891 00:40:18,632 --> 00:40:20,824 Was I gone too long? 892 00:40:22,894 --> 00:40:25,405 I can't get back the time I lost. 893 00:40:26,224 --> 00:40:27,489 No. 894 00:40:28,278 --> 00:40:30,492 But you can move forward. 895 00:40:30,586 --> 00:40:33,253 And the only way to do that is to forgive yourself. 896 00:40:33,874 --> 00:40:35,217 And, Maddie, 897 00:40:35,302 --> 00:40:37,325 don't be afraid... 898 00:40:39,020 --> 00:40:42,196 to fight for what you want. 899 00:40:48,761 --> 00:40:51,020 (knocking, door opens) 900 00:40:51,165 --> 00:40:52,265 - Hey. - Hey. 901 00:40:52,349 --> 00:40:53,883 Aww, how's my girl today? 902 00:40:53,967 --> 00:40:55,183 (Jee-Yun fussing, crying) 903 00:40:55,336 --> 00:40:56,593 (Chimney sighs) 904 00:40:56,687 --> 00:40:58,854 I promise it's not you. 905 00:40:59,252 --> 00:41:01,420 We walked by a park on the way here, 906 00:41:01,505 --> 00:41:03,897 and she got very angry when I said it wasn't playtime. 907 00:41:03,982 --> 00:41:07,303 Oh, that's okay, we can go to a park. That's fine. 908 00:41:07,388 --> 00:41:09,764 Uh, I think we should wait at least an hour. 909 00:41:09,849 --> 00:41:10,709 I don't want to make it look like 910 00:41:10,794 --> 00:41:12,529 I caved in to a tantrum, you know. 911 00:41:12,614 --> 00:41:15,997 Right. Oh, right, she's old enough to have those now. 912 00:41:16,177 --> 00:41:18,949 Oh... come on, Jee-Yun. 913 00:41:19,374 --> 00:41:20,629 Don't you want to say hi? 914 00:41:20,714 --> 00:41:22,973 (fussing, crying continues) 915 00:41:23,639 --> 00:41:25,950 Come on, Jee-Yun. 916 00:41:26,044 --> 00:41:28,475 Don't you want to say hi to Mommy? Hmm? 917 00:41:28,627 --> 00:41:30,886 (Jee-Yun crying harder) 918 00:41:30,980 --> 00:41:32,972 I'm not gonna lie, this might be worse than 919 00:41:33,056 --> 00:41:35,315 going through colic all over again. 920 00:41:35,542 --> 00:41:36,817 Can I try something? 921 00:41:37,044 --> 00:41:40,904 Be my guest, but don't be offended if it doesn't work. 922 00:41:43,216 --> 00:41:47,486 ♪ The wheels on the bus go round and round ♪ 923 00:41:47,571 --> 00:41:48,904 (crying stops) 924 00:41:49,056 --> 00:41:51,341 ♪ Round and round ♪ 925 00:41:52,034 --> 00:41:53,809 - ♪ Round and round ♪ - (Jee-Yun laughs) 926 00:41:53,894 --> 00:41:55,732 You like that? 927 00:41:56,230 --> 00:41:57,872 ♪ The wheels on the bus ♪ 928 00:41:58,010 --> 00:42:01,354 ♪ Go round and round. ♪ 929 00:42:01,439 --> 00:42:03,439 - Mama. - (gasps) 930 00:42:03,620 --> 00:42:05,411 Did she just... 931 00:42:05,496 --> 00:42:07,038 She recognized your voice. 932 00:42:07,281 --> 00:42:08,888 How does she remember me? 933 00:42:09,076 --> 00:42:10,844 Of course she remembers you. 934 00:42:10,928 --> 00:42:12,686 Six months, six years. 935 00:42:12,771 --> 00:42:14,966 Neither of us could ever forget you. 936 00:42:16,174 --> 00:42:18,852 (sighs) Okay. 937 00:42:19,036 --> 00:42:21,320 So, what do you want to do now? 938 00:42:22,985 --> 00:42:25,094 I want to go home. 939 00:42:27,617 --> 00:42:30,969 - Okay. - Okay. 940 00:42:31,669 --> 00:42:33,018 Hi. Hi. 941 00:42:33,103 --> 00:42:35,802 - Go home with us, Baby Jee? - Want to do it again? 942 00:42:35,887 --> 00:42:37,747 ♪ The wheels on the bus ♪ 943 00:42:37,880 --> 00:42:39,771 BOTH: ♪ Go round and round ♪ 944 00:42:39,864 --> 00:42:40,956 MADDIE: Whoo! 945 00:42:41,050 --> 00:42:42,457 ♪ Round and round ♪ 946 00:42:42,551 --> 00:42:44,259 ♪ Round and round. ♪ 947 00:42:46,825 --> 00:42:49,740 Each year, for every one person that dies by suicide, 948 00:42:49,825 --> 00:42:53,280 316 others consider taking their own life 949 00:42:53,365 --> 00:42:55,256 but do not go through with it. 950 00:42:55,341 --> 00:42:56,691 If you or someone you care about 951 00:42:56,776 --> 00:42:59,380 is contemplating suicide, help is available. 952 00:42:59,645 --> 00:43:02,107 Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at: 953 00:43:02,192 --> 00:43:05,560 1-800-273-8255. 954 00:43:05,693 --> 00:43:08,545 Or visit suicidepreventionlifeline.org. 955 00:43:08,685 --> 00:43:12,370 The Lifeline is available 24/7 across the United States. 956 00:43:12,455 --> 00:43:14,455 It is free and confidential. 957 00:43:14,540 --> 00:43:17,016 There is hope. There is help. 958 00:43:17,209 --> 00:43:19,138 And you are not alone. 959 00:43:22,130 --> 00:43:24,638 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH access.wgbh.org 960 00:43:24,722 --> 00:43:26,722 Sync corrections by srjanapala69429

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