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You're crazy.

How do you get inspired?

Do you carry a notepad?

Do you observe and turn that into a character?

Do you get ideas looking at a landscape?

I read everything you wrote.

It's wonderful!

Why are you so quiet?

What do you want from me'!

What do I want from you?

I've nothing to offer, boy.

Nothing.What are you doing here?

The book might be horrible but you'll like the coffee

Bad joke.

Don't burn yourself!

No, I’m a pro!

It's without sugar.

To you.

Sorry...

Not good.

Open your eyes. It's a special occasion.

Let's celebrate. I haven't seen you in so long.

You're always busy with this guy.

What's his name'!

What's his name'!

Fábio

I like him.

I thought it was platonic.

- Platonic. - Something non-physical.

- Of course, because I’m a writer. - But you'd start coloring your hair'!

Who would've thought.

I'd have a platonic affair to write a book or a theatre piece for you, a great actress.

Maybe.

So tell me more about Fabio

I think I'm in love.

Better not!

He enjoys being a prostitute.

What do you mean?

He's young and he has the life he wants.

His friends have the same life.

I cannot judge. I never thought of this possibility.

I’m dealing with it.

It's going well.

I’m enjoying it-

I don't think it's dangerous.

Everything will be ok.

It's already ok.

So, what's the matter'!

Writing...

Why this face?

Do you want a massage?

Each day another neurosis.

Let me guess.

No genius ideas today'!

Then you looked at the sky...

...this rainy sky

and you came here longing for...

I don't know, you need to tell me!

I love it when you're like that.

Ok, let's be silent and enjoy the view.

I think...

Hallelujah!You're talking.

You think?

I think we...

that we...

That our relationship is a bit...

...risky

Our relationship?! We do have one! I didn't know.

Don't play the fool. I'm serious.

No, I’m sorry.

Our relationship...

It's a bit risky and we should reconsider that.

It's not easy to talk about it but it's important.

Whatever. You got someone new and now you're...

That's not true.

Relax!

You can be with whomever you want.

Thank you!

But that's also a problem.We should be more careful in our relationship.

We should...

We should...

Say it!

What's really the point'!

Let's go inside. It's raining.

No, it's not. Say it!

We should face the situation with more responsibility.

We are using... actually we're not using condoms. We're having risky sex.

We should get tested.

Do you know what a test is?

You want me to be with you only at no risk'!

No, I know you. I couldn't want that.

Why get tested now?

How could it help?

If I’m sick, I am. If you're sick, you are. That's all.

- It doesn't work like that. - It doesn't?

No.

There are lots of related problems.

- Which are? - We could...

...protect ourselves. Together we can deal with it.

It's a big deal. Don't get me started.

What if I were?

Would you stay by my side? Or look for someone else?

I go with you. I’m worried about you.

You do it.

- I want you to go with me. - I don't need to.

Am I your pet, which you take on a leash?

If my doggy is dirty, I put it in the kennel.

Diminutive doesn't fit you.

You're not a kid anymore. You're a man. Think of your profession.

- You know how I earn my living! - You probably don't use condoms with others.

I don't want to use condoms. I do whatever I want to do.

- Do what you want! - Do you want to stay here or leave?

Do you want to make a scene?

It's your house. Keep it low.

Are you telling me to shut up at my own place?

No, I want you to get tested.

- Furious... - Stop!

Stop.

You're making me nervous.

Boring.

Forget it.

Will you give it a thought?

Listen! I won't do any test.

If you like, we meet up later for a drink.

It's you, who is in the worse position.

What are you doing with your life'!

I can be your friend. I'd stand by you if something bad happened.

You wouldn't be friends with an HIV-positive prostitute.

Would you still come here?

Stop being a hypocrite!

That's reality.

Do what you want. I won't change.

Ok?

Grow up.

Tasty rain!

Leave the house!

Go out, get out of this tower.

Come to our rehearsal.

It'll be good for you.

Young people, jumping around.

Shake this depression...

and creative block.

Inspiration!

I'll think about it.

You're bothering me.

I know.

Wait. Wait.Wait.

What are you doing?

If you wanna walk around, drink, smoke...

Just do it!

Why do you walk around like that?

So cranky all the time...

Brooding and arms crossed.

Relax!

Come here. No no no.

Let me go! Grow up!

I don't like your rehearsal. It's boring.

Got it?

I won't say it again:

I don't wanna live your life.

There's no reason for that.

Do you understand?

Is that clear?

Go on alone!

Go!

I don't want you around anymore.

Anyone in?

Wanna sleep?

Talk to me.

Explain, so I can understand.

Something with Fabio?

Work?

No.

Is it about life?

I’m worried.

No joke. Not even a smile.

What's wrong?

What's the matter?

Ed“?

I’m really worried.

I’m a drama queen. I'll imagine the worst.

Want some tea?

Talk to me.

Ed, how are you?

- Alright! - Good to see you here.

What a coincidence.

We'll have a party with Fabio.

You're invited. Fabio would be happy if you come.

Are you inviting me or Fabio?

Everybody will be there.

It'd be nice if you came.

Ok.

Tomorrow evening.

I'll drop off the address later.

Ok

I'll talk to Fabio.

Ok

I come by anyways.

Let's smoke?

I’m in.

Wait a minute.

Do you have light?

Open another one

Sit down

Hi. What's up?

Cool.

Positive.

What a relief!

I begged you...

Calm down!

That's great!

Now we really are together.

That's great!

Very good.

What music is this?

It's so true.

Want some'!

Are you a good friend of Fabio?

Yes, a close friend.

He is very special.

Fabio is a free person, like me.

We enjoy being out in the streets.

You should use protection...

because...

life is at risk.

I’m saying because I like you.

Look, I need to write now.

- Feel free to drop in another time. -I’ll come.

Great.

We can go out all together.

And feel more comfortable.

I like being comfortable.

Don't be wary.

I just want the best for everyone.

I’m a nice guy.

Hi.

What is that?

A kitty.

Cute?

Whose cat is this?

Somebody gave her to me on the street.

Somebody?

An old man.

This cat belongs to Ed.

Give her to me!

You know his cat. You see him everyday.

What's up with you'!

Is it a problem that he gave me the cat'!

- He gave you the cat?! - Yes!

You stole the cat.

He gave me the cat.

He gives you clothing and money. I got the cat.

Learned it.

What's the matter?

I went for a job and he gave it to me.

When were you there?

This afternoon.

I just came back.

Where were you'!

Calm down.

What do you want from him?

Tell me!

Give her to me!

Let go!

Hey!

I’m your friend.

Calm down.

You're too tense. What's going on'!

Do you wanna take the cat?

Take her!

Go!

Go live your life.

- Don't touch me! - Grow up!

He's your client, stupid!

You're too young to understand.

You still believe...

You're in love with him.

I can see it in your face.

I’m your friend.

Go!

Surprise.

Where were you'!

I’m not feeling well.

What's the problem now?

Talk to me.

I need you to leave.

- I need you to leave. - You want me to go now. And later'!

Relax!

- What's the matter? - Go away!

Now.

Are you serious'!

I know what you need.

I know exactly what you need.

Do you know Ayahuasca?

What's that for?

If you're not feeling well

You can walk around.

Here is water.

What's going on?

Something! I can tell.

Have you heard of Ayahuasca?

- What? - Ayahuasca.

Is it a tea?

Like a syrup. Something bitter.

- It's a tea... - Yes hallucinogenic.

It's an experience.

- Is it voodoo? - No it's not voodoo.

- It's an experience. - That's what I heard.

It's a ritual.

Some people even consider it a religion.

It was an experience. Fabio took me there.

- And I did it. - When was it?

Last week.

I'll have a cigarette.

I’m tired

And you're also a bit tired, aren't you?

It's not easy.

It's like if you were out of your body.

You're not 20 anymore.

Don't judge me.

What?

I’m not 20 anymore. But what's the problem?

Because our bodies react differently

If I was 19 it would've been the same.

I've read about it.

-I'd love it to last. - What do you mean'!

I'd like to be hugging him.

Nice smell.

How are you?

- I’m alright.

Are you writing again?

Yes. I have a meeting here.

I like you a lot.

It's enough.

Too much?

I have a doctor's appointment.

When?

The day after tomorrow.

I have to check my condition.

If I’m dying...

You're not dying.

- Of course not. - Of course not.

We're together.

Aren't you afraid'!

We shouldn't fear. There's nothing.

Don't be afraid.

Will you stay by my side?

- I am already. - Always?

- Always. - Always is a big word.

Always.

Euro.

Today we'll go out.

Hallelujah.

What do you wanna eat today?

No kidding.

Sushi.

Sashimi.

Coffee, tea or me?

Sashimi.

Very good!

Isn't it'!

It's great.

Great.

Great.

I wasn't expecting that.

Did I read it right?

How can it be?

I don't know.

- It's written. - Me?

It doesn't make any sense.

It's impossible.

- I could get tested again. - No. Relax.

- I go. Maybe it's wrong. - I could've been wrong.

I’m not.

So let's do it again.

Let's do it.

I’m happy for you.

Really.

I'm very happy.

It's not right.

Check your test again. Maybe it's wrong. It happens.

It's wrong. I'll check it.

Let's forget about it.

It's over.

It's gone.

I don't know you very well...

Neither what's between you and Fabio...

You're an experienced person. You know what you're doing.

What do you want to say?

You probably had another young boyfriend.

You don't know me, boy. I come back later.

- It's better. - No, sorry.

- Don't touch me! - Sorry.

I’m trying to be your friend.

Thank you very much..

...honestly

...and for your advice.

Thanks a lot.

Fabio needs freedom.

He has it.

- Does he? - Yes

I'll put it differently.

Fabio will not stay with you much longer.

Fabio is only...

21 years old.

In 5 years he won't be interested anymore.

If you're smart, you should split up now.

Let's talk!

I've seen you with Fabio.

Which Fabio?

Get in.

Which Fabio?

You had dinner with him some days ago.

That young guy?

Yes, the young one.

- What is his problem'!

No problem. I wanna know...

What do you want to know? What's the matter?

I’m going out with him. Are you seeing him'!

- He's your boyfriend? - Why not?

- He's your little boyfriend? - It's his age'!

I didn't know you were seeing young guys now.

Is he your boyfriend?

Yes, he is.

- I didn't know. - Could you stop seeing him?

Ok, I won't call him again.

He wanted to go out with me.

That's why you called me? Are you pissed?

No, sorry.

I saw you guys and I've wondered what you have.

Nothing happened.

He is boring and silly.

Sounds good?

Why...

What?

What's up'! Eduardo!?

Sorry.

I’m not at my best.

- Life is hard sometimes. - It's not easy for me.

Sorry. I shouldn't have asked.

I didn't think.

I forgive you.

I've forgiven you so many times. Why not now.

That's all?

Yes.

What do you mean "forgave"?

You didn't know?

No.

You never gave me a chance.

You've always ignored me.

You didn't know that you were a dork'!

No, I didn't know.

How's that?

I didn't.

You don't see anything but yourself.

I was in love with you.

Did you know that'!

You didn't care about me.

I'll never forget the day we went out.

I suffered.

I cried.

I was devastated.

We didn't have anything.

No commitment. How should I know'!

We had sex sometimes. So what?

- You have no feelings. - Am I guilty, now?

What the fuck. All because of Fabio?

I've made a mess.

You can even be with Fabio.

- Take him. - I won't.

Do you think...I’m hurting people without realizing it'!

- What are you saying? - I really want to know.

Not more than anyone else.

Why that?

Once you said something you shouldn't have

I was pissed off and didn't forget.

- I know you didn't mean it. - It's not about that.

All my life I've thought...

that I am someone...

An amazing person.

Amazing is a superficial word.

I thought it was a very Brazilian word

I thought I was a good man who couldn't hurt anyone.

I get the impression I'm hurting everyone badly.

Who is everyone?

I thought I was the victim.

If you're playing the victim I won't talk to you.

It's absurd.

- Do you think so'! - I do.

That's why I like you.

I met Thiago.

He put me down, destroyed me!

What did he say?

That I'm a monster.

Anyways, I put him down.

I thought I've opened him to a world of possibilities

But I was the problem.

It seems like...

- I was... - What were you?

...the trouble maker.

He said I destroyed his life.

How can I destroy anyone's life'!

You cannot deal with life like that.

We have to live the moment.

You cannot blame only one person for everything.

Human being.

Applaud the human being!

What a cheap spectacle.

The classics. We are doing nothing new yet everything changes.

I think you have a backbone.

Some people are not honest with themselves nor with others.

And you are honest.

Do you agree with me'!

Tell it Edu. He doesn't believe me.

I need to talk to Fabio. Where he is?

No.

I have to talk to him urgently. Please help me!

I have to. Please.

Tell me where he is.

I don't know where he is.

- He's with clients. - It's important.

Someone is paying more than you.

It's important for me to see him.

Now! Please!

I can't help.

Tell him it's urgent.

Give him this message, please.

- Maybe I'll meet him. - It's really important!

Do you want me to say anything else'!

No

Just that I need to talk to him today. Please.

Long time no see.

Like my whole life is passing in front of me now.

How are you?

Fine.

And you?

- Good? - Good.

Writing?

Writing a lot.

Still won't let me take a look?

What for'!

You didn't change.

No!

Not at all?

You're still the same.

I did change.

I applied for university.

Do you think I'll get accepted?

Philosophy.

- I don't believe it. - I swear

Philosophy?

I’m happy to see you're doing well.

Good to see you.

Good seeing you, too.

Very good.