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" Previously on This Is Us..."

First day of summer,
we don't want to be

the last ones in the pool.

Hey, where you going?

Heard the pool closed down.

Just want to check it out
before it disappears.

What are you doing?

I hate that I'm doing this
over FaceTime,

- and I miss you.
- I miss you, too.

36 blissful hours

until I have to listen to
the Southwest flight attendants

turn the safety protocol
into a parody song again.

If you and Toby need your space,
just tell me.

Yeah, Kev, it's...

that's not even
our problem right now.

We have a lot more
going on than that.

Hey, can you just, can you help
me instead of instructing me?

Yeah, Tobe, I can.

I'm here with them every day
doing the hard work.

What do you want me to do?

Just not have any opinions
about our kids

because you're overly sensitive
about everything I say?

We just keep having the same
argument over and over again.

You're upset that
I'm not around more.

I'm sensitive about that.

Pointed jabs. Rinse and repeat.

♪

Come on, guys, come on.
First day of summer,

we don't want to be
the last ones in the pool.

And guess what Mom and Dad
have for you guys.

Swim goggles!

- I want one.
Yeah?

- Okay.
- Come on, come on.

Hey, Bug, you want some goggles?

I want to go on
the diving board.

Don't you think we ought
to teach you how to swim

- first, Kev?
Yeah, I know

you didn't like
taking your swim lessons,

but they helped your brother
learn how to swim at the Y.

Guys, I'm gonna touch the drain!

That girl is swimming
upside down.

No.
She's doing the backstroke.

And you would've learned
how to do that, too,

if you stayed in class at the Y.

I want to dive
off the diving board

- and touch the drain.
Hey,

once more for the cheap seats.

We got to teach you
how to swim first, okay?

There's Mr. Mike.
Can I go see him?

Hey, you got Kate?
Yeah.

I got Kate.

Sweetheart, how about,

- we try going in? Yeah?

- Yeah, let's take
those shoes off. Come on.

Come on. Baby...
- It's too cold.

No, no, no, no, no,
but we have to get in first.

It's not gonna be too cold
once you get in.

Come on.

Come on, g-- Ow, Kate.

Come on, baby doll.

No? It's fun.

It's nice and warm. Try it.

Ow. You're hurting Mommy.
You're hurting me.

Come on. Here.
Take my hand. Come on.

Wow.

Can't believe we'll never
be back here again.

I know. It feels weird.

Goodbye, pool.
Thanks for the memories.

Because of you, pool,

Randall got to see our mother
in a bathing suit every summer,

and for that
he is forever grateful.

- You're demented.
- Ow. You know it's true.

- Hey.
- Get help.

I... Where's the brick?

- What brick?
- The brick that propped open
the door.

- Nice.
- Oh...

- Hmm?
- This brick?

Great. Great, yeah,
so we're locked in?

Oh, God, yeah,
so this is how

my obituary will read-- um...

"Sunny Delight poster boy,
valedictorian

and 'other'
die trapped in pool."

No, come on, Kate.
You know they're gonna mention

the fact I got cut out
of Days of Our Lives.

- Stop.
- Ah.

Can you not hit me?

Hey, hey, hey, can we look
for another way out?

Come on.

How is this my life?

I need you all to hear
my voice right now.

Your mother's voice
with all of her faculties.

You will not make your lives
smaller because of me.

This thing that's
happening to me

will not be the thing
that holds you back.

So, take the risks.

Make the big moves,

even if they're small moves.

Forge ahead with your lives

in any and every direction
that moves you.

I'm your mother,

and I'm sick,

and I'm asking you
to be fearless.

Safe travels, siblings.

Okay, we'll see you guys in L.A.

for Mom and Mig's
anniversary party.

All right, you ready?
- Yeah.

Hey, Tobe.

We can't sustain this,

living in two different cities,

so I'd like to go
to San Francisco

with you for the weekend.

- See how it feels.
- Really?

Yeah.

Okay, yeah, I'd like that.

Okay.

I'm really excited
for this weekend.

I know. Me, too. Only four
more days till you come see me.

A whole weekend just you and me.

- When's the last time
we did that?
- I don't know. One, two...

three lifetimes ago, at least.

- Oh, man, I am so excited.

Oh, you know what, I got to run

All right, babies,
I love you so much.

I'll see you soon.
Be good to Mommy, okay?

You say bye to Daddy?

- Bye, babies. I love you.
- Bye.

- Bye.
- Bye.
- Bye.

- Love you. Bye.
- Bye. Love you.
- Love you.

Okay. Oh, 9:25.
It's time to go to the park.

- Park.
- Yay, we're going to the park.

♪ Tuesday♪

♪ In the park♪

♪ Jack's excited
for the swing set♪

♪ And 12 steps
to the sidewalk.♪

And then what are we gonna do?

Then we make a turn to the...

- Left.
- The left. Exactly.

♪ To the lover of my youth♪

♪ The solace for my age...♪

You just wrote
your first song, Courtney.

♪ From what harms♪

♪ You will reach for me♪

Is that silly?

♪ On our darkest days♪

♪ And I will come home♪

♪ To your arms♪

Can we do it? Can we do it?

♪ And I will hold...♪

♪ Hey, hey, hey,
we're on our way♪

♪ Wave to Gregory♪

♪ How's your day?♪

You know what? Stop putting me
in your dumb songs

if I'm not getting
a writer's cut.

Come on, you're part
of the neighborhood.

You're a part of the song.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Slow down, bud. Slow down.

♪ Sheila's a jolly good fellow♪

♪ Sheila's a jolly good fellow♪

Thank you. Thank you, Kate.

You made an old gal
feel very special.

Oh, good.

- Thank you.
- Yes.

Aren't you gonna have some, too?

No, I'm good.
I'm just gonna have some water.

♪ There is time upon♪

♪ Your faces♪

♪ I will cherish you♪

♪ Till you leave me for...♪

...sensitive side, then you
turn into a total ass.

Is that a pretty
accurate description

of our relationship, Tyler?

So, Edward Norton

was just imagining Brad Pitt

the entire time?

Are you just now
realizing that?

We've seen this, like, 18 times.

It's just so much
shirtless Brad Pitt.

- I get distracted.
- No, I...

Fair. Fair.

You know what's funny? Um...

Sometimes, I...

imagine hanging out
with Old Toby.

"Old Toby"?

Yeah. You know, who he was

before he lost
all the weight at the gym

and got his fancy job
and better clothes.

I guess Old Toby's
like my Tyler Durden.

I-I know that sounds crazy.

You guys
just need a good weekend.

Yeah. We do.

You're right.
Which is why I'm just...

I'm gonna go to the Bay
to be with my bae,

you know, with an open heart
and mind.

Old Toby is still in there.

Go find him.

Yeah. Okay.

Hey, babe. Don't worry,

I'm already packed
and leaving on time.

- Miracles do exist.
There's a,

there's a, uh, slight hitch
in our giddy-up.

Okay, my-my meeting for my
Tokyo project got rescheduled,

so I won't be able
to be at the airport,

so I-I booked you
the finest electric vehicle

that San Francisco has to offer
to pick you up,

and I am...
I am, uh, hustling here

to make sure I can
get back to the apartment

to personally roll out
the red carpet for you myself.

No worries,
we have the whole weekend.

Oh, I know it, Kate.
I am very excited.

I have made plans.
I've made so many plans,

my plans have plans.

Listen, I'm gonna try
and clear my plate here.

Uh, I'm gonna text you
the guy's info.

I'll leave my phone on,
in case there are any problems,

and I hope
you have a safe flight.

- All right, I love you.
- Okay, love you.

♪ I know these days♪

♪ Will pass away...♪

Well, that sucks.

- You would've picked me up.
- Without question.

But do not fret, my sweet pet,

I will be with you
the whole time.

It's gonna be fun.

♪ So I will hold♪

♪ You dear.♪

Come on, Kate, just take
one more step in.

- I don't want to.
- But look.

Mommy took one more step in,
and she's fine.

Just put your face in the water.

Pretend it's one giant bathtub.

You blow bubbles
in the bath all the time.

Right? Watch.

Mommy'll do it.

Ooh, there's probably
a lot of pee in here.

...sinking to the bottom.

Hey, how about you swim
to that wall.

- Think you can do that?
- See?

- It's easy.
Okay, here we go.

But, Kate, how will we know

that your brand-new
bathing suit even works

if you don't get it wet?

Jack.

Yeah, I-I got him.

Jack.

Okay. I got you.

- He's just a child, Jack.
- Yeah,

- and someday
he's gonna be a man.

Hey, you're not ready
for the deep end yet, bud.

Leave me alone.

Okay, uh, hey,

Bug, you're gonna
stay here with Daddy.

I'm trying to get her
to put her face in the water,

- so good luck with that.
- Okay. Great.

Hey, no problemo. We got this.

Put your face in the water.

Daddy, it's not gonna happen.

All right, why do they make it
so hard to get out?

They're trying to make it
hard to get into

so teenagers like you aren't
wandering around drinking beer,

- playing with safety equipment.
- Hey.

- What? Oh.

I'm literally trapped.

Ah, don't worry.

We're not gonna be
stuck here all night.

No, I'm not... I'm not
talking about the pool.

Although, if I die where I had
my first sloppy kiss

with Stuart,
I will be pissed. Um...

No, I'm...

trapped in Pittsburgh.

What's so bad about Pittsburgh?

Nothing. Nothing's wrong
with Pittsburgh. It's...

It's my life in Pittsburgh.

Yeah, I mean,

I wake up, eat breakfast,

go to the diner where I serve
greasy food to unhappy people,

then I go home
and eat dinner, watch TV.

Oh, yeah, there's-there's
the added bonus lately

of listening to Mom
get flirty on the phone.

She has a flirty voice.
It's... it's haunting.

Only thing
I get excited about is

eating ice cream at the end
of the day, but, um...

we can all see
where that's gotten me.

So...

Aren't you glad you asked?

♪

You being here felt like
cause for celebration.

This is some of
the finest bubbly going.

- Well...
- I am so excited

that you are finally here.

I can hardly stand it.

- I can't believe it.
You're here.
- I know.

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

- Mmm.
- Mmm.

- Très délicieux.
- Mmm.

Come here.
I want to show you something.

Over to the right is Coit Tower,

over the hill is North Beach,

and if you look right through
there, when there's not fog,

- which is... never...

- ...is the Golden Gate Bridge.
- Wow.

It's a really beautiful view.

It really is, isn't it?

Mmm.

It has been...

forever.

It sure feels like it.

I think I'm nervous.

- Oh...

Well, it's cute.

Can we just...

promise to not let
this much time go by?

I promise.

Now, I think we have
about 20 minutes

before the vegan barbecue
arrives,

which I know doesn't sound sexy,
but I promise you that it is.

- Well, then, bon appétit.
- Mm-hmm.

I missed that. Mmm.

Well, I mean... you.

- W-Well, everything.
- Yeah.

- You know what I mean.
- Yeah.

- Is that offensive?
- Offensive?

I want those words
written on my tombstone.

Oh, babe, The Great
British Bake Offis back.

You want a little
cake and a cuddle?

How about a little
squeeze and a scone?

Ah, I would love to,
my sweet profiterole,

but I have... I actually have

a work phone call that
I have to make real quick

that I would've made earlier,
were it not for

the eight-hour
time difference in Tokyo,

so I'm gonna knock this out real
quick-- I will not be long--

then it is just me, you,
Paul and Prue, okay?

Okay, yeah, I'll just be here.

You know I'm always down for a
little Netflix and chill, right?

Wink!

- Let's see what
this guy's watching.

Oh, right,

Inside Bill's Brain:
Decoding Bill Gates.

- What is this, school? Ick.
- Ew.

Let's see here.

Oh, oh, oh,
who-who-who are these

stranger dangers?

He doesn't even know
how many quarters there are

in a baseball match.

- Ridiculous. And 5K is...

Since when does he run
without being chased?

Oh, and these-these fancy pants,
these fancy clothes.

Ooh! Look at me.

What, do you get poured
into these pants? Ugh.

Hello.

The name's Boring.

James Boring.

Oh, uh-oh, Kate, uh-oh.

Yeah.

It's a...

a fat guy

in a little coat.

A fat guy in a little coat.

- All right, that's enough.
- Come on! You guys have sex

for, like, the first time
in a millennia,

and dude gets up
to take a phone call?

At least he waited
to put his earbuds back in.

- Give me the jacket.
- Okay, all right, all right.

I took it too far.

I was just trying
to have a little fun.

I was trying to make you laugh.

Do you have any idea
how much I miss your laugh?

Fine.

But you're gonna miss me.

Good morning, love of my life.

- Hi.
- What's this?

This is some of
my favorite coffee

from my favorite coffee shop
in the entire city.

I ran down and picked us up a...

- a couple of cups.
- Ooh.

"Brew Can Do It."

You know I love a coffee shop
with a good pun name.

Yeah, and check this out. Okay.

So, I have marked

everything that I think
we can do today.

You ready? Okay,

so after we enjoy our java,
I'm going to take you

for a delicious brunch
at the Fairmont.

After that, I thought
we could go to this cool

photography exhibit
at the de Young Museum

in Golden Gate Park.

I know how much you enjoy it

- when we pretend
to understand art.
- I do.

For ten minutes at a time,
of course.

Yeah, anything longer
just, like, defeats the purpose.

Then we're coming back here to
get all gussied up for my boss's

cocktail party tonight.

After which, I am taking you

to a very, very exclusive dinner
at the Top of the Mark,

where I have procured,
using my wit, my charm,

and yes, my best friend
Benjamin Franklin,

a table right on the window

with a view of the entire city.

- Wow.
- Yeah.

Well, you got
this city down.

I have been living here alone
for three months,

so Mr. Frommer and I
have become pretty tight.

- So, what do you say?

It really...
It sounds amazing.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

I was just... I don't know.

Babe, I was just hoping
that we could have an old-school

KaToby day, where there's just
no fancy plans or pressure.

We could just go out
and see where the day takes us.

Oh. Um... Okay.

Sure. Yeah.

Well, if that's what you want to
do, then that's what we'll do.

Really, babe? 'Cause I know
that you worked so hard.

- I'm just...
- No, listen to me.

Being together is the only thing
that matters, okay?

Plus, you said "KaToby,"
and you know well and good

that when you use our ship name,
you get whatever you want.

I love that.

Yeah!

Didn't you love those
Rice-A-Roni ads as a kid?

♪ Rice-A-Roni♪

♪ The San Francisco treat.♪

Do you think they'll let me
ring the bell?

Maybe.

Maybe. Let's ask. Here.

♪ Gathering flowers♪

♪ Both red and blue♪

♪ How little thought of what♪

♪ What love♪

♪ Could do♪

♪ Don't you...♪

Hi, babies. Hi.

We're having a great time,
but we're missing you.

- We are.
Where's Daddy?

Daddy's here, too. Yeah.
- Yeah, yeah, if you guys

could just put all of that
in an email, okay?

Yeah, I got to get on, uh,
an important call.

Big VIPs on the other line.
Yeah. Thank you. Bye.

We wanted to show you the
sea lions that are usually here,

but today they went
somewhere else.

Not all of them.

♪ Break my heart♪

♪ Ah♪

♪ Don't you♪

♪ Break my heart.♪

So, where are we now?
Wait, let me guess.

Is this the neighborhood
where they filmed

So I Married an Axe Murderer?

"Look at the size
of that boy's head.

It's like a... an orange
on a toothpick."

- N-Not quite.

- Oh.
- I-I wanted you...

- Uh-huh.
- ...to see this.

We haven't really mentioned
the elephant in the room,

and I think it's time that we
at least start talking about it.

I miss you.

I miss the kids, and I think,
I think that this would be

perfect for us.

To... buy?

To think about,
if you're willing.

Can I show you?

Come on.

There's three bedrooms upstairs,
each with their own bathroom.

And don't forget
the converted ADU

off the garage for grandma.

- Good to see you, Toby.
How are you, Larry?

Thanks for seeing us.

- This is my wife.
- Kate.

So nice to finally meet you.

- Hi.

Toby, in answer to your
question, I found out the owners

updated the kitchen and the HVAC

- five years ago.
- Great.

And they'd be open

to leaving the trampoline
for Jack and Hailey.

Yes!

- I'll let you guys explore.
- Thank you.

Oh, yeah, there's a trampoline.

How many times
have you been here?

Just a couple.
I run by here all the time.

I've always loved this house.

One day, a "for sale" sign
went up, and, I don't know,

it just got me thinking.
The great part is that

the kids' rooms aren't too far
from what would be our room,

so we'd be close but not
right on top of each other.

Come on, I want to show you.

Larry, thank you so much.
I'll call you, okay?

I will. Don't do anything
until I call.

So... so, what'd you think, huh?

I think it's overwhelming.

I'm... I am sure. I know that,
I know that this feels quick,

but don't panic, the owners
aren't accepting offers

until the day after tomorrow,
so we have plenty of time

to think about it and put
together a pros-and-cons list.

Uh, the day after tomorrow
is not enough time

to-to make this...
this huge decision.

I mean, Toby,
can we even afford it?

Yes. We can.

Because I may have
already gotten us

preapproved for a loan

and talked to a real estate
agent back in L.A.

about what we could get
for our house.

Toby, I thought that
we were just, like,

wrapping our heads around the
idea of San Francisco, and...

and now we're making
this big decision

and putting an offer on a house

- that I'm-I'm seeing
for the first time?
- I know.

I'm sorry. I just, I-I didn't,

I didn't want to present you
with hypotheticals.

Kate, trust me, I have put
a lot of thought into this.

There are these
incredible hiking trails

that lead to an awesome park
right on the Bay.

We're near the airport
for easy trips back to L.A.

Kate...

we can do this.

We can make a life up here,

together.

Come on, let me show you where
your mom and Miguel can stay.

Come on. You're gonna love it.

Okay, Katie girl. You ready to
get your face in the water, huh?

Come on, come on. Let's do it
together, let's do it together.

- We'll do it together.
- No, no, no, no, no!

Okay, okay, how about, uh...

How about a new tactic, okay?

How about... how about
we float on your back?

Okay? I'll be right here so
that you don't go under, okay?

All right, here,
just let go, just let go.

Okay, so...

you're in a bad spot,

but that's just for now.

Dad hasn't been gone that long.

- Everything's weird.
- Yeah.

And maybe instead of focusing
on what's not so great,

you can focus on what
you want to happen next.

Like, what do you want to do?
What do you want to be?

God, you guys. Come on.

Guidance counselor's not
a good look on either of you.

If you could dream
of doing anything,

what would it be? Anything.

That is the problem.

I can't think of anything.

Okay, I'm not like you guys.

You know, you want
to be an actor,

and you want
to change the world.

We're the exact same age,
and you guys are

way ahead of me.

Randall, you've already met
the love of your life.

And, Kevin, I mean,

you're so far ahead, you've
already ruined one marriage.

I just...

When I look into my future...

I literally see

nothing.

No job, no family.

Nothing.

You know,

you wouldn't think it would
take this long to get a Lyft

in the town
where the company was started.

Hey, listen, I'm sorry

that I sprung the house thing
on you like that.

I-I meant for it
to be a grand gesture,

and I think it might have been
a grand mistake.

I'm just excited
for you to be up here.

I know. I am, too.

I'm just processing is all.

- Okay. Yeah.
- Yeah.

Everybody at work is really
excited to meet you tonight.

I think we're gonna have
a really good time.

Me, too.

- The driver can cancel?
That's a thing?
- Mm-hmm.

- Okay.
- Can we just walk?

Uh, it...
No, I'll just get another one.

Well, I thought you said
your boss lived close by.

Yeah, it's not far,
but it's... it's...

- You know.
- But what?

It's-it's all up...
uphill, so...

There we go. Casey is gonna
be here in eight minutes.

Why is the car spinning
in circles?

Oh, this is so beautiful.

Yeah, my-my boss
sold his first company

to Google
for a boatload of money.

Like, literally,
that's how he got his boat.

But he's surprisingly down
to earth, as is everyone,

especially for a bunch
of tech weenies.

Oh, and here's a warning.

Do not ask anyone
what they actually do

for work, trust me.

There they are.
The couple of the hour.

Finally, I get to meet
the famous Kate.

- Hi.
- Kate, this is my boss, Amir.

Nice to meet you,
and you are way too young

to be the Amir
that I've heard so much about.

What are you, like, 25?

I love her instantly, Toby.

- I knew you would.

- Well, thank you
for having us tonight.
- Are you kidding?

I've been wanting to meet you
ever since Toby joined us.

- Come on, I'll give you a tour.
- Okay.

So you've been with the company
a while, then?

Yupper.
Started here after Facebook,

- and just never left.
- Wow. And what do you do?

Uh, you know how
most businesses can't afford

non-technical managers
ideating unrealistic features?

Mm-hmm.

And your kids are so cute.
Toby showed me the picture

of Hailey wrapped around Jack
like a baby koala.

I called my wife immediately and
told her, "Let's have a baby."

- Oh.
Their cuteness
is powerful.

- Oh.
- It really is. Thank you.

So, whether it's reporting
or machine learning,

I automate tasks for the company

because no one wants
communication

and product inefficiencies
between the engineers

and everybody else, right?

- Right.
- Which is where I come in.

What do you know
about infrastructure platforms?

- Um...
- She thinks they're overrated,
just like Smash Mouth.

Have you tried this? Try this.

- Oh. Thanks. Sure.
- Thanks so much.
Can I borrow her? Hey, come on.

- Enjoy.

How you doing? You doing okay?

Yeah. Yeah, I really am.

- I mean, Toby,
everybody's really great.
- Yeah.

- Hi, Kate. Sorry to interrupt.
- Hi.

But Warren said you agreed
to trade him Steph Curry.

- What? No!
- Is that true?

Why would I do that? Curry's
like the heart of my team.

Sorry.
This is fantasy basketball.

I'll be back in one
and a half seconds. Bro.

What are you...

What are you talking about,
I give you Curry?

You said it.
I said it in a bar.

Oh, no.
- I said it in bar.

You can't believe anything
anyone says in a bar.

That counts.
- That does not count.

- Not in the state of California.
- It's happening. I'm sorry.

I'm so happy you came.

Toby's been a lifesaver up here.

Most popular at the company
by multiple degrees

in an office where everyone
genuinely likes each other.

Well, the feeling
is very mutual.

Thank God he turned down
the job offer back in L.A.

Losing him would've been
a huge blow for us.

♪

- Will you just excuse me
for a second?
- Sure.

♪ That this is only night♪

♪ This is only night, son♪

♪ The setting sun♪

♪ It has no tomb♪

♪ The stars above us
are angels♪

♪ And that is
the messiah moon.♪

- Do you understand it?
- No, not at all.

- Do you understand it?
- Uh... Warren might.

- We work here,
and we don't understand it.
- Yeah.

- This is my point.
- We need to leave.

Uh, yeah, good-good call.

We got to... We have
dinner reservations, okay?

Let's just find Amir,
and we can say goodbye.

We're not saying goodbye.

We're not going to dinner.
We need to leave.

Okay. I'll just call us a Lyft.

Hey, what is...? Okay.

Kate? Kate? Kate, Kate, Kate.

What is...?
what's-what's the matter?

You got a job offer in L.A.?

Y-Yeah, I applied for that job

long before
I got the job up here.

And the official offer came in

two weeks ago,
and it was a joke.

It was, like, a big step-down
in title, and barely any money.

You made a decision
that directly affects me

and our children
without telling me?

- You lied to me.
- I didn't lie to you.

And you made a fool
out of me in there.

Uh...

Can we just talk about this
before we get in this car?

No. I need a minute.

All right, how much?

How much what?

How much more
does the job pay up here?

You want me to give you numbers?

Yeah. Yeah, Toby,
I'd like numbers.

I need to know how much is worth
me giving up my job,

and a house
where Jack feels comfortable,

not to mention being near
my family and my sick mother

in the same city as Hailey has
two cousins the same age

- to grow up with.
- That's not a fair question.

It's not fair that you're not
thinking about our family?

I'm not thinking
about our family?

Wow. That's awesome.

How have you been, then?

What do you think
I have been doing up here?

Living out of a suitcase,

not-not sure
which city I'm waking up in,

spending all these lonely nights
in this antiseptic apartment.

This is all
for our family, Kate.

Do you know
that we have a blind son?

Oh, really?
I-I didn't realize.

I thought he was just clumsy.

He knows every inch
of our house.

We're teaching him a song
to get to the park.

Okay, you think
it's easy to just, like,

uproot him and-and put him
in a new environment?

Okay, you get to ask
a bunch of questions.

Let me ask a few.

Have you penciled out
how expensive it would be

to send Jack to a special school
if he needs one?

Because I have.

Never mind all of the assistive
technology he's gonna need.

Do you know a braille notetaker
alone costs six grand?

And that-that-that...
that's just

when he's living
at home with us.

What if he wants to go off
to college

or live on his own one day?

I have big dreams
for our son, Kate,

and I'm gonna be damn sure
that he has whatever he needs

to live his life
however he so chooses.

And we can't afford any of that
on an assistant teacher salary

and some middling job
in Los Angeles

that doesn't pay me
any real money.

Right. Money. Still haven't
told me the number.

It's not just about the money,
is it?

It's kind of about you. Right?

Watching you up here--
I don't know--

you're pretty much the happiest
you've ever been, aren't you?

Kate, I am away from my family.

I'm-I'm on four planes a week.
I am exhausted.

Yeah, but you're happy, right?

You're happy with your job,
with your stature.

- Personally, you're happy.

I-I don't know why
you just can't admit it.

Yes, yes, I'm happy!
I'm happy.

And this is gonna sound
like a strange question

to ask my wife,
but don't you want that for me?

Of course I want that for you.

Then why doesn't it
feel that way?

You know,
sometimes I look at you, Toby,

and I don't even know
who you are anymore. I don't.

You drink expensive champagne.

You know how to work a room.

You're not the guy who wore
those terrible Hawaiian shirts

or would make those loud,
inappropriate jokes.

You're not the guy
who'd ask for the wine list

and says,
"Bring me the whole left side."

The goofy guy
from our first date,

the Old Toby, the guy
that I fell in love with.

I miss him.

I miss him so much
that I've been picturing him

this weekend here with me.

So this whole time
that I've been thinking

that we're really connecting,

you've just been
imagining yourself

with a different version of me?

That is not what I said.
That's not what I'm saying.

- Is he... is he here?
- Don't do that.

Is he here now? Oh, you know,
maybe we should just...

we should get him out here.
Hey, let's get Old Toby out here

to join in on this fun! Huh?
Hey, you know...

you know what I'd love
to say to Old Toby, Kate?

He was a mess.

He was miserable
and insecure and self-loathing.

And all-all of that goofiness

and-and the loud jokes--
that was out of self-defense.

Kate, you fell in love
with a coping mechanism.

And FYI, if that guy
hadn't changed,

he would have jumped off a
bridge or died of a heart attack

making a joke
at his own expense.

Wait.
I almost did that last part.

What is so terrible
about me right now?

That I don't want
to dress like a clown?

That I want to buy a nice house
for my family?

I don't know, Toby.

You're just different.

And you're not, Kate?

Why is this conversation
all about me?

When-when...
when we first got together,

it felt like you and me
against the world.

And today, you couldn't go
20 minutes

just us,
without FaceTiming the kids.

After shooting down
an entire day

that I spent weeks planning
for you.

Admit I'm happy?

Kate, what about you?

You love the life
that you are living,

this life that you are building
without me,

where you're the...
you're the working supermom

who gets to live
with her brother again.

You finally get to be
the fully realized

version of yourself,
and all you had to do

was get me out of that house.

When I was younger, I would...

well, I couldn't even think
about the future

because it just was blank.

And...

I felt that way for a really...

a long, long time
until I met you.

And you... you took away a lot
of that emptiness.

And so, yeah, Toby,
now I have a full life

that I could have never dreamed.

And I feel healthy,
I feel connected,

I feel like I have a purpose.

I love my life.
I'm-I'm really, really happy.

Except for the one thing that's
making me really, really sad.

Thank you.

We should have talked
about the L.A. offer

even if it wasn't a good one.

We probably
should have also talked

about the fact
that for most of my life,

I have been desperate, desperate
to feel valued at my job,

to not just feel like
I'm taking up space.

I can relate.

And... I'm not just
taking up space here, Kate.

And neither are you.

As wrung out
and as exhausted as I am,

I'm happy for us.

We have both
figured out our worth.

We evolved.

I love you. I love our family.

But there are some real-world
logistics at play here,

and we are gonna have to move
to San Francisco.

That's how these logistics
are gonna play out.

I need you to get on board
because...

moving here is the only way
that we are gonna stay a family.

It is the only option.

I'm gonna go get some air.

Okay.

All right, gang, it's time
to get the hell out of here.

How?

We climb.

Hey, Katie girl, look at me.
Look at me.

I believe you can do it.

Okay, and Mommy,
Randall and Kevin--

they believe you can do it.

Now the only thing
that needs to happen

is that youbelieve
you can do it.

Okay?

I'm gonna go over
to the other side,

and then I'll help you down.

Just...

I'll meet you at the top.

One step at a time, Kate.
No sweat.

Okay, Katie girl.
Here's the moment.

Just let go.
Katie, just let go. Let go.

I will never let go, Daddy,
ever!

Yeah? Why not?

Why would I?

Come on, Kate. Just grab it.

- Guys...
- You got this.

- You got this, Kate.
- You got it.

Okay.

- You got it.

You're almost there, Kate.
Let's go.

Almost there! Oh!

- No.
- Okay.

- Okay, relax.
- Uh-uh. No.

- We're gonna try it again.
- No, I can't.

I can't, no.

No.

This one.

How'd she do?

Today is not the day.

Hey, Kate. How's Frisco?

Is it foggy and expensive?

Did you, uh,
fill Sheila's job yet?

Uh, no, but we're looking
at applicants.

I'd like to be considered.

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