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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:13,650 --> 00:00:16,680 How did I get to this place? 2 00:00:16,680 --> 00:00:19,020 Draped across a man's lap. 3 00:00:19,310 --> 00:00:22,250 Being punished like a disobedient child. 4 00:00:22,510 --> 00:00:26,020 Willingly submitting myself to him. 5 00:00:26,020 --> 00:00:28,020 Surrendering control. 6 00:00:28,600 --> 00:00:31,650 How does anyone get to this place? 7 00:00:31,650 --> 00:00:36,740 Where every single fiber of who you thought you were suddenly vanishes. 8 00:00:36,740 --> 00:00:38,110 ...someone new. 9 00:00:38,110 --> 00:00:40,110 ...is born. 10 00:00:42,510 --> 00:00:45,020 This is my story. 11 00:00:51,220 --> 00:00:53,080 Normal. 12 00:00:53,080 --> 00:00:56,600 Webster's dictionary defines normal as.... 13 00:00:56,600 --> 00:00:59,820 ...conforming to the standard or the common type. 14 00:00:59,820 --> 00:01:08,000 ...Usual...not abnormal...regular...standard. 15 00:01:08,000 --> 00:01:14,650 But ... how does anyone define that for themselves. 16 00:01:15,540 --> 00:01:23,250 By society's standards it would be anything that doesn't challenge an expected idea or behavior. 17 00:01:25,820 --> 00:01:31,200 Living the textbook perfect life in order for everyone else to accept you. 18 00:01:31,200 --> 00:01:35,170 Even if you, don't accept you. 19 00:01:38,420 --> 00:01:41,800 Yes! Yes! 20 00:17:58,730 --> 00:18:02,800 Congratulations! It's over 2 karats. 21 00:18:02,800 --> 00:18:04,800 Impressive. 22 00:18:04,260 --> 00:18:09,200 Thank god it was a Tiffany cut. I would've shot myself if it was a marquis! 23 00:18:12,000 --> 00:18:14,600 Do you think I should update my Facebook status? 24 00:18:14,600 --> 00:18:18,200 I don't want to seem to look like one of those girls that want everyone talking about their engagement. 25 00:18:18,200 --> 00:18:20,200 I'm just so excited! 26 00:18:20,200 --> 00:18:22,250 Aren't girls supposed to talk about their engagements? 27 00:18:22,250 --> 00:18:25,110 I mean...isn't that part of the point? 28 00:18:25,110 --> 00:18:27,110 What the hell is wrong with you? 29 00:18:27,110 --> 00:18:29,110 Nothing. 30 00:18:29,110 --> 00:18:31,110 You're gonna be my maid of honor, Emma. 31 00:18:31,110 --> 00:18:34,340 The least you can do is pretend to be happy for me. 32 00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:36,340 What!? 33 00:18:36,340 --> 00:18:39,940 Well....wasn't he just threatening to break up with you last week? 34 00:18:40,480 --> 00:18:42,600 He was threatening to break up with me? 35 00:18:42,600 --> 00:18:45,020 Because I was pressuring him about getting married. 36 00:18:45,020 --> 00:18:48,170 Now that we're engaged...there's no more pressure. 37 00:18:48,170 --> 00:18:51,200 That's entirely logical. 38 00:18:51,200 --> 00:18:53,200 I'm sorry!... 39 00:18:53,200 --> 00:18:58,770 But I'm a little shocked that you feel entitled to give me advice about relationships! 40 00:18:58,770 --> 00:19:02,880 When have you ever been in a relationship? 41 00:19:02,880 --> 00:19:06,050 I didn't entirely blame her for being mad. 42 00:19:06,050 --> 00:19:07,570 She was right. 43 00:19:07,570 --> 00:19:09,570 What did I know about relationships? 44 00:19:09,570 --> 00:19:14,400 And just so you know...everyone, including mom and dad, think you're gay! 45 00:19:14,140 --> 00:19:16,400 I'd never even had one. 46 00:19:16,400 --> 00:19:19,340 I hated the phoniness of twenty-somethings dating. 47 00:19:19,340 --> 00:19:22,340 All those text-messages with emoticons.... 48 00:19:22,340 --> 00:19:24,940 ...liking of each other's Facebook's status"... 49 00:19:24,940 --> 00:19:26,940 ...but the fact still remained. 50 00:19:26,940 --> 00:19:31,200 While the rest of the world seemed completely comfortable embracing each other's clichés... 51 00:19:31,200 --> 00:19:34,940 ....when it came to love and romance, I was hopelessly detached. 52 00:19:34,940 --> 00:19:40,220 Disinterested to the point that I wondered if there was something psychologically wrong with me. 53 00:19:40,220 --> 00:19:42,220 Until one February morning.... 54 00:19:42,220 --> 00:19:46,220 ...I met the man that changed...absolutely everything. 55 00:19:48,600 --> 00:19:51,050 Mr. Frederick's ready for you. 56 00:19:51,050 --> 00:19:56,340 I met him while working on my master's thesis about gender equality in the workplace. 57 00:19:57,110 --> 00:20:05,000 I'd interviewed everyone from female executives to male nurses to transgender women battling the glass ceiling. 58 00:20:05,480 --> 00:20:13,200 William Frederick was of interest because 97% of his 2000 employees were female. 59 00:20:16,450 --> 00:20:18,770 You that girl doing the paper? 60 00:20:18,770 --> 00:20:21,880 Emma Marx. Yes. 61 00:20:25,140 --> 00:20:29,600 I have some interview questions that I'd like to ask you. 62 00:20:31,370 --> 00:20:34,080 Let's just get started. 63 00:20:40,820 --> 00:20:43,310 The interview lasted about 30 minutes,... 64 00:20:43,310 --> 00:20:47,570 ...covering topics ranging from his overly arrogant hiring process... 65 00:20:47,570 --> 00:20:50,220 There's no one who's better at hiring than I am. 66 00:20:51,170 --> 00:20:57,310 I can tell more about someone in the first 5 seconds than even their on parents can. 67 00:20:57,770 --> 00:21:00,820 ...To his sexist reason for hiring predominantly women. 68 00:21:00,820 --> 00:21:05,400 Women are hormonally optimal for working at this company. 69 00:21:05,400 --> 00:21:08,820 I like women. I can read women. 70 00:21:08,820 --> 00:21:10,820 Even better than I can read men. 71 00:21:11,220 --> 00:21:14,400 Women are malleable and I like malleable. 72 00:21:14,400 --> 00:21:19,340 But it was one part of the conversation that stood out over all the rest. 73 00:21:19,340 --> 00:21:23,600 Something that resonated with me in ways that I couldn't even begin to understand. 74 00:21:23,600 --> 00:21:29,480 I like employees who enjoy submitting to authority rather than challenging it. 75 00:21:29,480 --> 00:21:31,480 They make the best employees. 76 00:21:32,110 --> 00:21:36,000 Why, because that way you're always in control? 77 00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:38,000 I'm entitled to control. This is my company. 78 00:21:38,000 --> 00:21:42,280 You'd be surprised. People like being told what to do. 79 00:21:42,850 --> 00:21:44,280 You don't. 80 00:21:44,280 --> 00:21:45,710 No. 81 00:21:45,710 --> 00:21:47,710 I don't get off on it. 82 00:21:47,710 --> 00:21:49,710 I get off on control. 83 00:21:50,310 --> 00:21:53,800 I get off watching other people submit to it. 84 00:21:53,800 --> 00:21:58,250 People enjoy that rare sense of freedom when someone else is in the driver's seat. 85 00:21:58,250 --> 00:22:01,020 I don't think controlling someone liberates them. 86 00:22:01,020 --> 00:22:03,020 Do you think you're liberated? 87 00:22:04,510 --> 00:22:06,510 Yes, I do, actually. 88 00:22:06,510 --> 00:22:08,510 Well you're not. 89 00:22:08,200 --> 00:22:09,910 Excuse me, but... 90 00:22:09,910 --> 00:22:14,000 ....I don't think you're as good judging people as you think you are. 91 00:22:14,000 --> 00:22:16,000 I'm very liberated. 92 00:22:16,000 --> 00:22:21,340 I'd like to see your version of liberated and then show you mine. 93 00:22:24,250 --> 00:22:28,140 [announcer speaks] 94 00:22:29,450 --> 00:22:32,510 Have her hold. 95 00:22:33,110 --> 00:22:34,770 I've got to take this call. 96 00:22:35,510 --> 00:22:37,650 I hope I didn't offend you. 97 00:22:37,650 --> 00:22:40,540 I'm just not usually one for self-restraint. 98 00:22:41,880 --> 00:22:44,250 That's too bad. 99 00:22:50,800 --> 00:22:53,650 Thank you for your time. Uhh... 100 00:22:53,650 --> 00:22:55,650 ...it was a pleasure. 101 00:22:55,650 --> 00:23:01,020 Has anyone ever told you that you are absolutely breathtaking! 102 00:23:01,800 --> 00:23:04,450 Everything about you. 103 00:23:04,450 --> 00:23:06,450 Breathtaking! 104 00:23:08,540 --> 00:23:11,970 In that moment my world turned upside down. 105 00:23:11,970 --> 00:23:15,740 William Frederick found me breathtaking? 106 00:23:15,740 --> 00:23:18,910 I wanted to laugh out loud I was so happy. 107 00:23:21,770 --> 00:23:23,820 This is what people always talked about. 108 00:23:23,820 --> 00:23:28,600 Those insane attractions to another person that leaves your head spinning. 109 00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:33,000 And no matter what I did I couldn't shake the thought of him. 110 00:23:34,080 --> 00:23:36,540 The intensity of his stare. 111 00:23:36,540 --> 00:23:40,600 The casual way insults rolled off his tongue. 112 00:23:40,600 --> 00:23:44,420 The sexual undertone of his conversation. 113 00:23:44,420 --> 00:23:46,420 I imagined it all. 114 00:23:47,250 --> 00:23:50,600 I couldn't shut off my brain from thoughts of him. 115 00:23:51,170 --> 00:23:53,880 I craved his scent. 116 00:23:53,880 --> 00:23:55,880 His taste. 117 00:23:55,880 --> 00:23:58,800 His touch against my body. 118 00:24:20,650 --> 00:24:23,820 You never sleep this late. What's wrong with you? 119 00:24:23,820 --> 00:24:25,820 Nothing. 120 00:24:28,540 --> 00:24:29,510 What's that? 121 00:24:29,510 --> 00:24:34,650 Well, ... I stayed up all night arguing with Greg... 122 00:24:34,650 --> 00:24:37,200 ...about where we're gonna have our engagement party. 123 00:24:37,200 --> 00:24:40,050 He wants to have it at some sports bar! 124 00:24:40,820 --> 00:24:45,970 Anyways, by the time I got to sleep at 8 am this morning... 125 00:24:45,970 --> 00:24:50,450 ...some asshole delivery guy comes knocking on the door! 126 00:24:50,450 --> 00:24:53,910 He says he has a telegram marked "urgent". 127 00:24:54,570 --> 00:24:58,820 I didn't even know people still sent telegrams! 128 00:24:58,820 --> 00:25:00,820 Who's it from? 129 00:25:01,200 --> 00:25:02,480 William Frederick. 130 00:25:02,480 --> 00:25:04,110 Who's that? 131 00:25:04,110 --> 00:25:05,820 No one. 132 00:25:05,820 --> 00:25:07,200 Emma! 133 00:25:07,200 --> 00:25:12,280 The pleasure of your company yesterday was worth any jab you took at my character. 134 00:25:12,280 --> 00:25:14,280 The day of your graduation... 135 00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:16,280 ...you will receive information... 136 00:25:16,280 --> 00:25:19,220 ...about an opportunity that will change your life. 137 00:25:19,220 --> 00:25:23,600 Do not contact me before that time or I take the offer off the table. 138 00:25:23,600 --> 00:25:25,600 William B. Frederick. 139 00:25:27,940 --> 00:25:30,140 Well, what's it say? 140 00:25:30,140 --> 00:25:32,140 Nothing. 141 00:25:33,370 --> 00:25:39,310 So someone sent you a telegram...that says nothing? 142 00:25:39,940 --> 00:25:43,680 Whatever. 143 00:25:43,680 --> 00:25:45,680 Uhh. 144 00:25:50,510 --> 00:25:52,880 Graduation was nearly four months away! Four months! 145 00:25:52,880 --> 00:26:00,000 Four months of waiting in anticipation without even a hint of what William Frederick was offering. 146 00:26:00,850 --> 00:26:03,540 And my curiosity had become an obsession. 147 00:26:03,540 --> 00:26:06,770 My mind an endless barrage of unanswered questions. 148 00:26:07,310 --> 00:26:11,970 Why did I have to wait? What was this amazing opportunity? 149 00:26:12,940 --> 00:26:18,020 Was this even a legitimate offer or merely a mind game in an attempt to control me? 150 00:26:18,020 --> 00:26:20,710 Me...who always had to be in control. 151 00:26:20,710 --> 00:26:22,710 Who always had to have the answers. 152 00:26:25,710 --> 00:26:29,620 Who always had to have things neatly tied off and logically explained. 153 00:26:29,940 --> 00:26:34,310 And so I did the only thing I could do to make the time pass more quickly. 154 00:26:34,310 --> 00:26:37,170 I worked on my thesis tirelessly. 155 00:26:37,170 --> 00:26:40,420 And I got off on the fact that as much as I hated to admit it... 156 00:26:40,420 --> 00:26:43,420 This man had complete control over me. 157 00:26:43,420 --> 00:26:45,420 And I absolutely loved it. 158 00:26:45,420 --> 00:26:47,080 [phone rings] Hello. 159 00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:49,080 It's driving you crazy isn't it? 160 00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:51,080 Who is this? 161 00:26:51,080 --> 00:26:53,080 Do you really have to ask that? 162 00:26:53,600 --> 00:26:55,080 How'd you get my cell phone number? 163 00:26:55,080 --> 00:26:58,850 And more importantly how'd you get my address? 164 00:26:59,680 --> 00:27:04,710 Those sorts of things are not particularly challenging to someone with money and resources. 165 00:27:04,710 --> 00:27:06,710 Of course they're not. 166 00:27:06,710 --> 00:27:08,000 So... 167 00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:10,000 ...is it driving you crazy? 168 00:27:10,000 --> 00:27:12,000 You're the expert at reading people. 169 00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:14,000 Why don't you tell me. 170 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:16,910 It excites the living hell out of you. 171 00:27:16,910 --> 00:27:18,910 Not particularly. 172 00:27:18,910 --> 00:27:21,710 You're a bad liar. 173 00:27:21,710 --> 00:27:24,540 You've thought of nothing else. 174 00:27:24,540 --> 00:27:27,800 I like knowing you're frustrated. 175 00:27:28,650 --> 00:27:29,800 Ohh! 176 00:27:29,800 --> 00:27:32,970 Do you realize how pathological that sounds? 177 00:27:33,450 --> 00:27:35,370 I'll see you soon. 178 00:27:35,370 --> 00:27:38,450 If you know how to follow instructions. 179 00:27:41,680 --> 00:27:44,110 Hello. 180 00:27:46,200 --> 00:27:48,680 Four months passed like four decades. 181 00:27:48,680 --> 00:27:51,050 But the day was finally upon me. 182 00:28:05,800 --> 00:28:07,820 Dear Emma,... 183 00:28:07,820 --> 00:28:14,650 Meet me at 6 pm at 2134 Olympia Drive tonight. 184 00:28:18,050 --> 00:28:19,170 Shower first. 185 00:28:19,170 --> 00:28:24,510 Put on a cocktail dress with thigh-high stockings and heels... 186 00:28:25,050 --> 00:28:30,140 The door will be unlocked. Let yourself in. 187 00:28:30,510 --> 00:28:33,880 Go immediately to the dining room and wait for me. 188 00:28:33,880 --> 00:28:36,680 Bring the signed paperwork with you. 189 00:28:52,340 --> 00:28:56,510 Looking back it seems almost unbelievable how relaxed I was. 190 00:28:56,510 --> 00:29:00,250 I had no clue why he invited me here or what to expect. 191 00:29:00,250 --> 00:29:03,080 The paperwork ended up being a non-disclosure agreement. 192 00:29:03,080 --> 00:29:05,840 Asking that I keep my conversations with him confidential... 193 00:29:05,840 --> 00:29:08,560 ...in order to protect his privacy from the media. 194 00:29:08,560 --> 00:29:10,560 It seemed reasonable enough. 195 00:29:19,860 --> 00:29:21,780 Sit. 196 00:29:33,660 --> 00:29:37,640 Well with a place this big, I half expected you to have a butler. 197 00:29:38,920 --> 00:29:39,640 No. 198 00:29:39,640 --> 00:29:41,640 No butler. 199 00:29:43,200 --> 00:29:47,220 I don't really like inviting people into my world. 200 00:29:54,660 --> 00:29:58,100 Thank you for agreeing to meet with me. 201 00:30:02,480 --> 00:30:08,520 Well the...the curiosity is killing me. I'm sure you already know that. 202 00:30:24,140 --> 00:30:26,540 Eat. 203 00:30:42,020 --> 00:30:45,320 You are going to tell me why I'm here, right? 204 00:30:45,320 --> 00:30:49,240 I've been waiting for nearly 4 months. 205 00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:51,240 It's a date. 206 00:30:51,240 --> 00:30:53,240 A date? 207 00:30:53,520 --> 00:30:58,120 When was two people getting dressed up for dinner not a date? 208 00:31:01,460 --> 00:31:03,780 Okay, it's not a date. 209 00:31:03,780 --> 00:31:05,780 Here. 210 00:31:05,540 --> 00:31:07,780 Read that. Tell me what you think. 211 00:31:13,980 --> 00:31:15,440 Up until this moment... 212 00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:18,600 ...nearly everything about William had been a mystery to me. 213 00:31:18,600 --> 00:31:22,520 Who he was, what he was about, what made him tick. 214 00:31:23,840 --> 00:31:27,340 But now....mapped out in the finest print on watermarked paper... 215 00:31:27,340 --> 00:31:33,720 ...were his innermost secrets so perverse...so shocking, I never could've dreamt them up. 216 00:31:33,880 --> 00:31:40,140 This document that he casually slid across the dining room table was not so casual at all. 217 00:31:40,140 --> 00:31:43,300 Words like fisting, flogging, and nipple clips stood out. 218 00:31:43,300 --> 00:31:49,100 Words like dom and sub and master and slave were thrown around with no consequence. 219 00:31:55,800 --> 00:31:59,420 Is this a contract soliciting me... 220 00:31:59,420 --> 00:32:02,620 ...for a BDSM relationship? 221 00:32:02,620 --> 00:32:04,620 What if it was? 222 00:32:08,120 --> 00:32:11,660 Is it? 223 00:32:22,480 --> 00:32:24,820 Wow! [hmmm] 224 00:32:24,820 --> 00:32:29,040 Thank you for the ... life-changing opportunity, Mr. Frederick. 225 00:32:29,040 --> 00:32:31,040 But... 226 00:32:31,460 --> 00:32:33,820 ...I'll have to pass. 227 00:32:38,280 --> 00:32:40,820 I prefer being the one in control. 228 00:32:40,820 --> 00:32:43,660 Not the one being told what to do. 229 00:32:45,420 --> 00:32:49,380 That's where you're wrong! 230 00:32:49,380 --> 00:32:52,440 Because if it was true, then why show up tonight? 231 00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:54,220 Shear curiosity! 232 00:32:54,220 --> 00:32:56,220 I told you that. 233 00:32:57,960 --> 00:32:59,460 Fair enough... 234 00:32:59,460 --> 00:33:00,960 But... 235 00:33:00,960 --> 00:33:06,000 ...that's not why you're wearing the thigh-high stockings I told you to wear is it? 236 00:33:10,360 --> 00:33:14,040 You are wearing them, aren't you? 237 00:33:33,260 --> 00:33:38,340 I like.... being in control. 238 00:33:39,260 --> 00:33:41,660 Is that a fact? 239 00:34:41,560 --> 00:34:44,900 No, I want you to get undressed. 240 00:34:48,460 --> 00:34:50,740 It was out of character for me. 241 00:34:50,740 --> 00:34:54,600 Following orders, but for whatever reason.... 242 00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:58,280 ...I wanted to obey him. 243 00:35:41,580 --> 00:35:44,220 And your underwear. 244 00:36:02,300 --> 00:36:04,960 Now I want you to touch yourself. 245 00:36:53,300 --> 00:36:55,720 Look at me while you do it. 246 00:37:09,080 --> 00:37:11,880 Yeah. 247 00:37:22,060 --> 00:37:25,740 Come on. Get yourself off. 248 00:38:05,580 --> 00:38:07,680 Good. 249 00:38:34,940 --> 00:38:38,860 Now sit on the table. 250 00:43:10,440 --> 00:43:13,340 Now take my clothes off. 251 00:43:22,060 --> 00:43:24,640 Look at me. 252 00:44:33,320 --> 00:44:35,920 Now the zipper. 253 00:44:53,920 --> 00:44:56,720 Give me your hand. 254 00:45:10,980 --> 00:45:13,660 Look at me. 255 00:45:42,880 --> 00:45:53,900 256 00:47:22,420 --> 00:48:01,280 257 00:48:01,280 --> 00:48:07,770 Hands behind your back. 258 00:55:11,880 --> 00:55:24,470 259 00:56:01,170 --> 00:56:09,290 When I woke the next day, as much as I wanted to convince myself that this was a dream, it wasn't. 260 00:56:09,760 --> 00:56:11,450 And last night's sex marathon.... 261 00:56:11,450 --> 00:56:15,730 ...had ended in a series of negotiations that I'm still fuzzy about. 262 00:56:15,730 --> 00:56:17,240 Come or go or stay. 263 00:56:17,240 --> 00:56:18,650 Is yours of course. 264 00:56:18,650 --> 00:56:20,650 You can leave anytime you want. 265 00:56:21,170 --> 00:56:23,800 And...I won't chase you. 266 00:56:23,800 --> 00:56:25,910 Although, I'll probably want to.... 267 00:56:31,170 --> 00:56:33,060 I don't ... nipple clips... 268 00:56:33,060 --> 00:56:35,550 ....and absolutely nothing involving suffocation. 269 00:56:35,550 --> 00:56:37,550 ...choking... 270 00:56:39,300 --> 00:56:42,660 I can't believe I'm having this conversation! 271 00:56:42,660 --> 00:56:44,660 Go on. 272 00:56:44,980 --> 00:56:47,980 I'm also not a fan of gynecological devices. 273 00:56:47,980 --> 00:56:49,330 And... 274 00:56:49,330 --> 00:56:52,120 ...I'm definitely nervous about the punishment part. 275 00:56:52,120 --> 00:56:54,120 And I'm on the fence with anal. 276 00:56:54,850 --> 00:56:56,850 Pain is the pleasure. 277 00:56:56,850 --> 00:56:58,850 We'll see. 278 00:56:58,850 --> 00:57:00,850 As for the other things they can go. 279 00:57:01,110 --> 00:57:04,770 But anal stays and we'll revisit that when the time comes. 280 00:57:05,430 --> 00:57:08,470 So...do we have a deal? 281 00:57:08,470 --> 00:57:10,250 Not yet. 282 00:57:10,250 --> 00:57:12,250 what? 283 00:57:12,860 --> 00:57:15,400 Give me a job at your company. 284 00:57:15,400 --> 00:57:19,100 And in a position that I can...control my own life. 285 00:57:21,360 --> 00:57:24,480 Huh! You drive a hard bargain. 286 00:57:24,990 --> 00:57:26,360 Well... 287 00:57:26,360 --> 00:57:30,080 I might look submissive, but I can assure you, I'm not. 288 00:57:30,450 --> 00:57:32,080 Huh.... 289 00:57:35,200 --> 00:57:37,490 I'll give you a position at my company... 290 00:57:37,490 --> 00:57:38,810 But... 291 00:57:39,060 --> 00:57:42,310 I'd like to extend our little arrangement... 292 00:57:42,310 --> 00:57:43,580 ...to the workplace. 293 00:57:43,580 --> 00:57:45,580 It could be fun. 294 00:57:46,180 --> 00:57:47,970 Only from the hours 8 to 5... 295 00:57:47,970 --> 00:57:51,540 ...and once the work day is over so is your obligation to me. 296 00:57:52,180 --> 00:57:53,540 ...until the weekend. 297 00:58:00,990 --> 00:58:05,160 Give me a salary of $75,000 and we have a deal. 298 00:58:12,080 --> 00:58:15,330 I'm not sure why this arrangement initially appealed to me. 299 00:58:15,330 --> 00:58:17,840 I think it had more to do with my attraction to him. 300 00:58:17,840 --> 00:58:21,430 ...and any genuine interest in pursuing this lifestyle. 301 00:58:21,430 --> 00:58:24,750 Patience and submission had never been my forte. 302 00:58:43,530 --> 00:58:44,160 Yes... 303 00:58:44,900 --> 00:58:47,380 We have to stop this. People are starting to stare at me. 304 00:58:47,940 --> 00:58:50,000 Come to my office immediately. 305 00:59:14,800 --> 00:59:20,420 Now... 306 00:59:20,420 --> 00:59:22,100 Lift up your skirt. 307 00:59:22,100 --> 00:59:24,100 Right here. 308 00:59:24,100 --> 00:59:32,220 Don't ask questions. Just do as your told. 309 00:59:36,220 --> 00:59:38,050 Now bend over the desk. 310 00:59:38,050 --> 00:59:41,470 I don't want you to hurt me. 311 00:59:41,470 --> 00:59:43,470 You don't follow instructions... 312 00:59:43,470 --> 00:59:44,870 ...you'll be punished. 313 00:59:44,870 --> 00:59:46,870 You know this. 314 00:59:54,350 --> 00:59:59,470 There are no gray areas with me, Emma. 315 00:59:59,470 --> 01:00:01,470 [smack...uhh!] 316 01:00:01,470 --> 01:00:04,070 What am I even being punished for?! 317 01:00:04,500 --> 01:00:09,100 Our level of discretion is my decision not yours. 318 01:00:09,100 --> 01:00:14,170 Your job is to follow instructions given to you by me. 319 01:00:14,170 --> 01:00:16,170 [smack] Uhh! 320 01:00:16,850 --> 01:00:20,850 From the hours of 8 am to 5 pm... 321 01:00:20,850 --> 01:00:24,170 ...I control what you do... 322 01:00:24,170 --> 01:00:26,170 ...how you act... 323 01:00:26,170 --> 01:00:28,170 ...what you say... 324 01:00:28,170 --> 01:00:29,950 ...what you think... 325 01:00:29,950 --> 01:00:35,000 For this relationship to work...you need to surrender, completely. 326 01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:37,000 [smack] 327 01:00:37,000 --> 01:00:40,750 So surrender. Do as your told. 328 01:00:40,750 --> 01:00:42,750 [smack] 329 01:00:44,470 --> 01:00:48,820 Now get back to work. 330 01:00:58,070 --> 01:01:02,050 The sting of the paddle permeated every fiber of my body. 331 01:01:02,050 --> 01:01:07,850 ...A throbbing pain that was so real, so raw that I was still recovering from the shock of it all. 332 01:01:07,850 --> 01:01:13,000 That, and the fact that deep down in my demented mind... 333 01:01:13,000 --> 01:01:15,000 ...I liked it. 334 01:01:15,270 --> 01:01:19,170 ...Oh my god! 335 01:01:19,170 --> 01:01:21,970 What happened to you?! Nothing. 336 01:01:21,970 --> 01:01:23,970 That is not nothing! 337 01:01:23,970 --> 01:01:27,470 It really is nothing. I fell on the way into work yesterday. 338 01:01:27,350 --> 01:01:32,100 Oh, my god! You fell smack on your ass? 339 01:01:32,520 --> 01:01:36,750 Oh, that was so embarrassing! 340 01:01:36,750 --> 01:01:40,120 Oh, my god, I would've shot myself. 341 01:01:40,850 --> 01:01:44,900 Well... I was just going to tell you dinner was ready. 342 01:01:44,900 --> 01:01:46,900 Yes. 343 01:01:54,320 --> 01:01:58,950 I felt like a deviant. Here I was headed down a strange new path.... 344 01:01:58,950 --> 01:02:04,020 ...strange new life that nobody would have suspected from looking in.... 345 01:02:04,270 --> 01:02:07,950 It was my own little Pandora's box of pleasure.... 346 01:02:47,370 --> 01:02:50,350 It was the start of my first weekend with William... 347 01:02:47,470 --> 01:02:50,050 And it was a secret that only William and I shared.... 348 01:02:50,350 --> 01:02:57,550 ...and I'd be lying if I said I didn't get off on not knowing what awaited me. 349 01:02:57,550 --> 01:03:04,720 ...the anticipation was like foreplay without any touching or human contact. 350 01:03:04,720 --> 01:03:08,650 The ultimate mind-fuck. 351 01:03:59,020 --> 01:04:02,200 Hi. Hi. 352 01:04:10,800 --> 01:04:12,970 I got lost in his touch. 353 01:04:13,270 --> 01:04:17,550 His gentle nature masked such intense power. 354 01:04:17,550 --> 01:04:22,520 I felt instantly safe wrapped in his arms. 355 01:04:26,370 --> 01:04:29,220 I spoke of the gift he left for me at work. 356 01:04:29,220 --> 01:04:34,120 My concern over his presumptive nature that I would one day succumb to anal sex! 357 01:04:34,120 --> 01:04:36,120 What do you want me to do with them? 358 01:04:36,970 --> 01:04:38,500 They'll prepare you... 359 01:04:38,470 --> 01:04:40,420 for... 360 01:04:41,050 --> 01:04:42,670 ...anal,,,, 361 01:04:42,670 --> 01:04:45,720 he derived great pleasure from my honesty. 362 01:04:45,720 --> 01:04:47,200 assure me that... 363 01:04:47,200 --> 01:04:51,950 364 01:04:51,950 --> 01:04:58,370 Look, nothing in this relationship happens without you being okay with it. You know that. 365 01:04:58,370 --> 01:05:02,800 But, what if I'm never okay with it? 366 01:05:02,800 --> 01:05:07,650 Don't worry. You'll be begging me for anal before you know it. 367 01:05:07,650 --> 01:05:12,750 It didn't seem to compute. The possibility of my begging for something I never wanted. 368 01:05:12,750 --> 01:05:14,750 But I wasn't going to over think things. 369 01:05:14,750 --> 01:05:17,500 I wanted to relish in this moment. 370 01:05:17,500 --> 01:05:19,350 Him spoiling me. 371 01:05:19,350 --> 01:05:20,920 Him worshiping me. 372 01:05:20,920 --> 01:05:24,050 He was the perfect balance of pleasure and pain. 373 01:05:24,050 --> 01:05:26,050 And it was intoxicating! 374 01:06:30,620 --> 01:06:33,670 The first few weeks served as a mini-boot camp for sexual deviance .... 375 01:06:33,670 --> 01:06:37,420 ...as we both solidified the rules of our relationship. 376 01:06:38,770 --> 01:06:41,250 My bedroom is off-limits. 377 01:06:41,250 --> 01:06:44,620 When you're here you sleep in one of the guest bedrooms. 378 01:06:45,700 --> 01:06:49,420 You wear what I tell you to, when I tell you to. 379 01:06:49,420 --> 01:06:51,420 No resistance. 380 01:06:53,270 --> 01:06:55,800 Our weekends begin at noon every other Saturday. 381 01:06:55,800 --> 01:06:58,050 Enter the house and kneel at the front door. 382 01:06:58,050 --> 01:07:01,000 Until you are instructed to do otherwise. 383 01:07:01,000 --> 01:07:02,100 Do not get up, no matter how long you're forced to wait. 384 01:07:02,100 --> 01:07:05,800 No matter how long you're forced to wait. 385 01:07:06,920 --> 01:07:09,050 I control your orgasm. 386 01:07:09,050 --> 01:07:13,070 Which means absolutely NO masturbation. 387 01:07:17,900 --> 01:07:21,470 Absolutely no touching my face ever! 388 01:07:22,750 --> 01:07:24,450 You call me, Mr. Frederick. 389 01:07:24,450 --> 01:07:28,570 And nothing else. Your coffee Mr. Frederick. 390 01:07:29,770 --> 01:07:31,970 You make me happy. 391 01:07:34,070 --> 01:07:37,320 [keys snap] 392 01:07:37,320 --> 01:07:39,050 And as each week progressed.... 393 01:07:39,050 --> 01:07:41,950 So did our individual commitment. 394 01:07:47,000 --> 01:07:52,800 Discovering the pleasure of pain.... 395 01:07:52,800 --> 01:07:56,920 ...and the sweetness of reward. 396 01:08:01,400 --> 01:08:05,250 He continued to test my limits. 397 01:08:09,670 --> 01:08:12,500 You beg me to. 398 01:08:12,970 --> 01:08:16,000 And my personal boundaries. 399 01:08:22,000 --> 01:08:24,910 I enjoyed the deviance. 400 01:08:27,650 --> 01:08:31,110 And relished in the tenderness! 401 01:08:34,510 --> 01:08:40,200 And before I knew it... I wanted nothing more than to give him everything he desired. 402 01:08:40,200 --> 01:08:41,710 He was right. 403 01:08:41,710 --> 01:08:43,710 I don't believe....I was begging for it!\ 404 01:08:43,710 --> 01:08:45,710 Uhhh! 405 01:08:46,250 --> 01:08:50,110 And slowly...my walls began to crumble. 406 01:08:50,110 --> 01:08:53,280 The closer and more connected we became. 407 01:08:55,880 --> 01:08:59,740 And eventually everything came easy. 408 01:09:00,510 --> 01:09:04,000 Like we were free falling. 409 01:09:06,200 --> 01:09:10,850 [foot steps] 410 01:09:12,400 --> 01:09:16,480 I'm ready. 411 01:10:46,970 --> 01:10:49,080 Woo. 412 01:10:54,140 --> 01:10:56,910 [breath catches] Ohh. 413 01:13:47,040 --> 01:13:52,880 Please give it to me! 414 01:13:52,880 --> 01:14:00,880 Please, you've been so good. 415 01:14:22,160 --> 01:14:31,840 Do you want it now? Yes please. 416 01:15:15,040 --> 01:15:18,720 I want it! I want it please! 417 01:15:27,360 --> 01:15:33,760 Go ahead and give it to me now please! 418 01:18:12,800 --> 01:18:17,600 Go slow! 419 01:18:17,600 --> 01:18:23,360 Oh, please! 420 01:18:23,360 --> 01:18:29,920 Oh, thank you. 421 01:21:46,320 --> 01:21:54,960 422 01:26:45,200 --> 01:26:48,080 But like they say... 423 01:26:48,080 --> 01:26:50,080 ...nothing worth having... 424 01:26:50,080 --> 01:26:51,420 ...ever comes easy. 425 01:26:51,420 --> 01:26:56,500 I really can't decide. I really like teal, but Sidney hates teal. Though it really shouldn't matter to anyone but me. 426 01:26:56,500 --> 01:26:57,480 Hey guys. 427 01:26:57,320 --> 01:26:59,260 Teal or no teal for the bridesmaid's dresses? 428 01:26:59,260 --> 01:27:01,260 I thought you weren't trying to make a big deal out of your wedding? 429 01:27:01,260 --> 01:27:04,640 I'm trying not to, but everyone else seems to. 430 01:27:04,640 --> 01:27:09,300 Well, everyone looks good in teal, so, just go with teal. 431 01:27:10,680 --> 01:27:13,960 How 'bout magenta?! 432 01:27:13,960 --> 01:27:15,680 Did you see her arms? 433 01:27:15,680 --> 01:27:16,800 No. 434 01:27:16,800 --> 01:27:19,880 She had rope burns all over her wrists! 435 01:27:20,240 --> 01:27:21,200 Rope burns? 436 01:27:21,200 --> 01:27:23,200 Like restraint marks. 437 01:27:23,380 --> 01:27:24,980 I read about it in GQ. 438 01:27:24,980 --> 01:27:28,120 Something about BDSM relationships. 439 01:27:28,120 --> 01:27:30,500 It's where they like tie people up. 440 01:27:30,500 --> 01:27:31,940 ...beat them! What?! 441 01:27:31,940 --> 01:27:36,020 Yeah, it's this whole underground world of freaky, bizarro sex! 442 01:27:36,020 --> 01:27:37,480 Oh my god! 443 01:27:37,480 --> 01:27:39,960 You know the other day when she came home from work... 444 01:27:39,960 --> 01:27:41,600 ...she had a big bruise on her ass. 445 01:27:41,600 --> 01:27:44,040 She tried to pretend like it was no big deal! 446 01:27:44,040 --> 01:27:47,720 Huh, she's a closet freak! 447 01:27:48,580 --> 01:27:50,680 Should I say something to her? 448 01:27:50,680 --> 01:27:52,440 To be honest I wouldn't worry about it. 449 01:27:52,440 --> 01:27:54,440 You can't reason with freaks. 450 01:27:59,340 --> 01:28:02,380 Judgment had reared its ugly head. 451 01:28:02,380 --> 01:28:05,280 And right when my guard was fully down... 452 01:28:05,280 --> 01:28:07,280 ...it suddenly had popped back up. 453 01:28:08,960 --> 01:28:11,540 The only solace I had ever known... 454 01:28:11,540 --> 01:28:13,540 ...was with Mr. Frederick. 455 01:28:14,140 --> 01:28:17,200 And as he had always done before,.... 456 01:28:17,580 --> 01:28:22,760 I hoped that this time he could provide me with some much needed clarity. 457 01:28:23,560 --> 01:28:27,340 I think I'm falling in love with you. 458 01:28:29,200 --> 01:28:31,280 What makes you say that? 459 01:28:31,280 --> 01:28:35,180 I just get this feeling whenever I am with you. 460 01:28:35,180 --> 01:28:37,180 Like I'm finally at peace. 461 01:28:37,680 --> 01:28:39,180 Safe. 462 01:28:42,400 --> 01:28:44,940 I'm glad to hear that. 463 01:28:45,040 --> 01:28:47,960 That's a ... rare thing to feel. 464 01:28:49,200 --> 01:28:53,180 It's just the times I'm not with you that have me worried. 465 01:28:53,560 --> 01:28:55,180 What do you mean? 466 01:28:56,120 --> 01:29:00,000 I mean we're not like normal people! 467 01:29:00,320 --> 01:29:04,760 You know like people that go out on dates and hold hands. 468 01:29:04,760 --> 01:29:07,080 ....Fall asleep together. 469 01:29:07,720 --> 01:29:11,800 Do you think people would really accept us with ball gags and duct tape? 470 01:29:11,800 --> 01:29:14,320 Do you really care what other people think? 471 01:29:14,320 --> 01:29:15,880 I'm just trying to understand. 472 01:29:15,880 --> 01:29:18,080 I have no real reference point. 473 01:29:18,080 --> 01:29:19,780 And it's just like... 474 01:29:19,780 --> 01:29:22,740 They don't have relationship experts for people like us! 475 01:29:22,740 --> 01:29:24,740 What are you doing?! 476 01:29:25,360 --> 01:29:26,960 I'd hit a nerve with him. 477 01:29:26,960 --> 01:29:28,680 One that would prove beyond repair. 478 01:29:28,680 --> 01:29:30,720 I want you out of this house! 479 01:29:30,720 --> 01:29:31,720 What?! 480 01:29:31,720 --> 01:29:34,480 Please Mr. Frederick! Wait! Why are you doing this?! 481 01:29:34,480 --> 01:29:36,480 You are not cut out for this! 482 01:29:36,480 --> 01:29:40,520 I don't want you to hate yourself because you are incapable of ending this! 483 01:29:40,520 --> 01:29:42,520 No! I am cut out for this Mr. Frederick! 484 01:29:42,520 --> 01:29:44,520 No! Please! 485 01:29:45,080 --> 01:29:46,520 Everything's just new for me! 486 01:29:46,520 --> 01:29:48,140 Can't I question it?! Can't I wonder?! 487 01:29:48,140 --> 01:29:50,700 Questioning seldom leads anywhere good, Emma. 488 01:29:50,700 --> 01:29:53,300 I've been down this road. Let me tell you where it ends! 489 01:29:53,300 --> 01:29:56,860 You will lie awake at night comparing what we have to what other people have. 490 01:29:56,860 --> 01:29:59,220 And you'll convince yourself that there's something wrong with us. 491 01:29:59,220 --> 01:30:00,250 Because we're different. 492 01:30:00,250 --> 01:30:01,470 You can't handle that! 493 01:30:01,470 --> 01:30:02,640 No! No! 494 01:30:02,640 --> 01:30:04,640 I'm doing this for your own benefit, not mine! 495 01:30:04,640 --> 01:30:07,100 No! Mr. Frederick, please! 496 01:30:07,100 --> 01:30:07,720 Oh! 497 01:30:07,720 --> 01:30:09,720 I'm sorry! 498 01:30:11,230 --> 01:30:13,170 You are not normal, Emma! 499 01:30:13,880 --> 01:30:16,140 You're gonna have to figure out a way to deal with that. 500 01:30:16,860 --> 01:30:20,100 I felt guilty for making him doubt my commitment. 501 01:30:20,600 --> 01:30:22,040 And so I did the only thing I could... 502 01:30:22,040 --> 01:30:24,940 ...in hopes of salvaging what I feared I had already lost. 503 01:30:24,940 --> 01:30:26,030 No. 504 01:30:26,250 --> 01:30:28,030 I asked him to punish me. 505 01:30:30,880 --> 01:30:34,080 I want you to count out loud! 506 01:30:34,660 --> 01:30:35,610 [Smack] 507 01:30:35,610 --> 01:30:36,460 Count! 508 01:30:36,680 --> 01:30:37,260 One. 509 01:30:37,260 --> 01:30:38,800 [Smack] Two! 510 01:30:38,800 --> 01:30:40,140 [Smack] Three! 511 01:30:40,140 --> 01:30:42,140 [Smack] [Screams] 512 01:30:46,130 --> 01:30:47,760 Red... 513 01:30:47,760 --> 01:30:49,760 The safe word. 514 01:30:50,340 --> 01:30:51,960 Never before uttered. 515 01:30:51,960 --> 01:30:54,420 Now echoed through the entire house. 516 01:31:15,140 --> 01:31:17,100 I was broken. 517 01:31:18,690 --> 01:31:22,590 And trying to come to grips with it all was crippling. 518 01:31:26,730 --> 01:31:29,290 I didn't run from Mr. Frederick that night. 519 01:31:29,290 --> 01:31:30,520 I ran from myself. 520 01:31:30,520 --> 01:31:35,630 I ran from all the fears and judgments that had plagued me my entire life. 521 01:31:41,080 --> 01:31:46,910 I wanted to accept our relationship, but my fear of the outside world had paralyzed me. 522 01:31:50,240 --> 01:31:55,280 Emma, are you okay? 523 01:31:56,240 --> 01:31:59,080 I couldn't tell Nadia the truth. 524 01:31:59,080 --> 01:32:01,840 She would never understand it anyways. 525 01:32:01,840 --> 01:32:03,840 Nobody could. 526 01:32:03,840 --> 01:32:05,840 I couldn't. 527 01:32:09,440 --> 01:32:15,360 Two days later I resigned from my job. 528 01:32:15,960 --> 01:32:23,560 I knew there was no way I could ever make heads or tails of the situation without any distance. 529 01:32:28,560 --> 01:32:31,680 And just as he'd promised... 530 01:32:33,050 --> 01:32:35,200 He didn't try to stop me. 531 01:32:38,250 --> 01:32:40,370 Good luck to you, Emma. 532 01:32:41,750 --> 01:32:44,400 Goodbye, Mr. Frederick. 533 01:32:47,670 --> 01:32:49,350 It took a while, but... 534 01:32:49,350 --> 01:32:55,200 ...Finally I found a new job working for one of the female executives I'd interviewed for my thesis. 535 01:32:57,770 --> 01:33:00,900 And in my free time I helped my sister with her wedding. 536 01:33:00,900 --> 01:33:03,720 Trying to keep my mind off the heartache. 537 01:33:03,720 --> 01:33:08,750 Spending a ridiculous amount of time working on her seating chart. 538 01:33:11,550 --> 01:33:16,970 And watching her wedding plans turn from reasonable to full-blown addictions. 539 01:33:23,650 --> 01:33:26,770 The thoughts of Mr. Frederick were always there. 540 01:33:26,770 --> 01:33:30,350 Lingering beneath the surface. 541 01:33:36,950 --> 01:33:41,220 It was an empty feeling that I couldn't escape from. 542 01:33:41,520 --> 01:33:44,820 Whether in the company of others... 543 01:33:44,820 --> 01:33:48,370 ...or completely alone. 544 01:33:50,170 --> 01:33:53,420 Would happiness always elude me? 545 01:33:58,120 --> 01:34:00,700 You're glowing. 546 01:34:00,700 --> 01:34:03,020 Am I? 547 01:34:03,020 --> 01:34:05,020 Yeah. 548 01:34:06,570 --> 01:34:10,220 This is the best day in my life. 549 01:34:14,170 --> 01:34:16,620 Sorry, that I... 550 01:34:16,620 --> 01:34:19,700 ...wasn't more supportive earlier on. 551 01:34:20,650 --> 01:34:22,470 It's okay. 552 01:34:22,470 --> 01:34:24,470 A lot of people weren't. 553 01:34:24,850 --> 01:34:27,300 Life's about being happy. 554 01:34:27,300 --> 01:34:31,770 Nobody can define that happiness for me, but me. 555 01:34:32,670 --> 01:34:34,920 You're absolutely right. 556 01:34:34,920 --> 01:34:39,450 After spending months anguishing over everything that had come to pass... 557 01:34:39,450 --> 01:34:42,300 ...clarity somehow found me. 558 01:34:42,670 --> 01:34:46,620 Nadia had found the person she wanted to share her life with... 559 01:34:46,900 --> 01:34:49,070 ...why should I deny myself the same thing. 560 01:34:49,070 --> 01:34:52,020 Even if what I wanted was different from everyone else. 561 01:34:52,250 --> 01:34:55,200 Did I need the rest of the world's validation? 562 01:34:55,200 --> 01:34:57,200 Or did I need mine? 563 01:35:00,200 --> 01:35:03,670 Did I make a beautiful bride? 564 01:35:06,950 --> 01:35:09,500 Huh... 565 01:35:13,320 --> 01:35:17,550 I knew there was no guarantee we could repair what had been broken. 566 01:35:17,550 --> 01:35:20,070 But I had to at least try. 567 01:35:22,770 --> 01:35:24,400 I loved him. 568 01:35:24,400 --> 01:35:26,400 And I was safe here at his home. 569 01:35:26,400 --> 01:35:30,250 Safe inside a world in which the power came from simply letting go. 570 01:35:56,050 --> 01:35:58,350 He didn't give in easily. 571 01:35:58,350 --> 01:36:00,650 I didn't expect him to. 572 01:36:01,120 --> 01:36:03,000 But I wasn't going to back down. 573 01:36:03,000 --> 01:36:04,320 I knew what I wanted. 574 01:36:04,320 --> 01:36:09,280 And had he made me wait for an entire year just to prove it I would have. 575 01:36:09,710 --> 01:36:13,130 There was no where in the entire world where I belonged. 576 01:36:13,130 --> 01:36:15,130 Other than his home. 577 01:36:16,170 --> 01:36:20,170 Fully surrendering to the only world that had ever made sense to me. 578 01:37:14,880 --> 01:37:18,680 You've earned this. 579 01:39:13,130 --> 01:39:16,170 I'm gonna play some music for you now. 580 01:39:16,400 --> 01:39:19,930 If at any point you feel uncomfortable and want me to stop.... 581 01:39:19,930 --> 01:39:21,170 Safe word. 582 01:39:21,170 --> 01:39:23,170 Good girl. 583 01:54:04,080 --> 01:54:09,120 Some people think of romance as bouquets of flowers on special occasions. 584 01:54:09,120 --> 01:54:13,440 Or champagne and strawberries in the wee hours of the night. 585 01:54:13,440 --> 01:54:14,840 But for me... 586 01:54:15,160 --> 01:54:17,360 Romance is the inner peace I get... 587 01:54:17,360 --> 01:54:22,020 ...when I completely surrendered my control to the person that I loved. 588 01:54:23,920 --> 01:54:26,740 Everybody has their own version of normal. 589 01:54:26,740 --> 01:54:29,720 And I had finally come to accept that this was mine. 590 01:54:29,720 --> 01:54:33,580 The beauty of finding someone who shared my same perversions. 591 01:54:33,580 --> 01:54:37,420 And created...a different kind of normal. 592 01:54:37,420 --> 01:54:39,420 42380

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