All language subtitles for Station.19.S05E12.720p.HDTV.x264-SYNCOPY - No HI

♪ I was reminded

Open today at Station 19.
See you there.

♪ Riding trade winds,
buried treasure ♪

♪ I got on fine
with modern living ♪

♪ But must I be

Yeah, I know.
Don't suck. Got it.

♪ And the world, still so wild,
called to me ♪

♪ And the world, still so wild,
called to me ♪

Congratulations on following
your dreams today, 19.

In my experience,
following your dreams

is how you end up homeless.

Which, funny enough, is who
we can expect to see today.

Are we supposed to clap
for that?

Um, hey... hey, everyone.

Uh, I just want to say that
walking into a doctor's office

or a hospital
can be downright scary,

especially when you feel like
you don't have a voice

and someone else
has all the power,

even if they're saying
they want to help.

I-I know from experience.

But thanks to all of you
for saying yes

and, uh,
putting in the work.

Those who feel like I once did
now have a place to go,

and that's no small thing,
right?

And maybe we should
give ourselves a hand?

Now, that I will clap for.
Alright, yeah.

- Alright.
- Go, Jack.

It's been an hour
and... and no one's come.

Yep, I can see that,
Gibson.

W... Did we not get the word out
enough, maybe?

No, no. We got the word out,
alright?

They'll come.
They'll come.

Lieutenant Gibson. Looks
like you're off to a good start.

Ye...
Yeah, I mean, a little...

...slow at first,
but we'll g... we'll get there.

The department got the word out.
I'm sure it'll pick up.

I hope so.

Well, me too.

This clinic's the first thing
I approved as chief,

so don't embarrass me.

It's starting to feel like
he'll never talk to me again.

Can you blame him?

Whose side are you on?

Uh, mine, always.
Maybe yours.

Help me get him back.

Come on, I need to think
of some, you know,

big, grand
romantic gesture.

Well, have you tried
talking to him?

He's not picking up
the phone.

- Okay.
- Or checking texts.

Or answering the door
in the middle of the night.

So, I get the no dating thing,
but no sex?

- Like, at all?
- No. No, not even a little bit.

Well, you can still,
you know...

- with yourself?
- Oh. Oh, yeah.

I mean, I'm not...

Look, I'm not marrying God
or anything.

I'm just freeing up
some space in my head

to think
about other things.

Yeah, like what?

Like what I want to do
with the rest of my life.

What'd you figure out?

I haven't gotten
that far yet.

Okay, 23, listen up.

Today's the opening day
of the clinic at 19.

Your fam just can't get enough
extra work, huh?

I know. It's almost like
they became firefighters

to serve their community.

Right?

Yeah.

19 will be busy
with walk-ins

and we will be picking up
the slack.

Any calls going to them
will come to us and 54 today,

so I want everyone
to look sharp,

stay ready,
and don't complain.

What if we only complain
behind your back

so that you can't hear us?

Right?

Got it, Cap.

Alright, everyone.
Make sure your gear is set.

I don't want
any response time delays today.

Let's go!

Yep. Mm-hmm.
Okay.

Yeah, thanks.

You think they don't
respect you, but they do.

- Mm-hmm.
- Trust me.

You wish
you were there today, huh?

Yeah, of course.

I mean,
look what they're doing.

Gibson created that clinic
out of thin air,

and now it's
up on its feet.

- My dad would want me
- No,

- to be there.
- He would be proud

you're supporting not one,

but two houses.

Yeah, well.
I can barely organize

this team
to make pancakes.

Welcome to the Dean Miller
Memorial Clinic.

- Can I help you?
- Hello. I'm, uh, looking for

Dr. Benjamin Warren.

Patient registration's right over
there, ma'am.

Oh, I'm not a patient.

I'm here to see Dr. Warren
on a personal matter.

Okay.
Oh, there he is.

Dr. Warren, this non-patient
would like to see you.

Hope you learned your lesson
with Ingrid.

What can I do for you?

I'm Tabitha Salzman,
the Guardian Ad Litem

assigned by
the family court.

We spoke on the phone.

Of course. O-Of course.

But, um... But the home visit
isn't until next...

Yes, but you gave me
your schedule for two weeks

so that I could come
and observe you at work.

Right.

Right. Um, honestly,
any other day would be better.

See,
today is not a normal day,

so if you're looking
for "a day in the life,"

this isn't that.

I mean,
I'll be busy and doing...

Oh, a busy day is ideal for me
to observe you

without being interrupted by us
having any conversation at all.

So you're literally just gonna
watch me all day here?

And take notes and gather
what I can for my report,

which will be going
to the judge.

What I do here at work
isn't all that relevant

to my parenting skills.
I...

I disagree.

Oh.

I... I guess then you can
just, you know, watch.

Don't mind me. I'll let you know
if I have questions.

Otherwise, I'm, uh, just a fly
on the wall.

Okay. Oh.

What studies
are you referring to?

All of them.
I mean, everything I have read

says that being open
and transparent

about the conception
or adoption details

is the healthiest path
for the child.

No surprises.
No unanswered questions.

You can even custom design
your own children's book

to tell your child
who their donor is.

I've read
all these studies, too,

but knowing the person has
its own set of complications.

Not any more than not knowing
who the person is.

You know, I guess

I just would rather know

- the source of the complications.
- Okay. But, ugh.

Oh, crap.

I have to get
to the hospital.

My patient
is in premature labor.

What, now?

Yeah, now.

Uh, tell Jack and Warren
that I hate to leave,

but I'll be back
as soon as I can.

Where's she going?
Where's she...

Carina,
where are you going?

I have to deliver
a baby.

No, no.
I can't do this without you.

You'll be fine. Jack,
you don't even have

patients yet, but I do.

I have to go.
You'll be okay.

*STATION19*
Season 05 Episode 12

Episode Title: "In My Tree"
Aired on: March 17, 2022.

Bar fight?

This is where you say,

"You should see
the other guy."

You know, there's an AA meeting
every night at 8:00 p.m.

at Lifebridge City Church.

You should join me.

Yeah, I don't do church.

It's all anonymous.

Look, if you think offering me
something I don't need

is gonna keep me quiet about
your situation with Chief Ross,

you're not very smart.

Two co-workers
sharing a meal after hours.

No rules against that.

And a man slipping
and falling at home after hours,

no rule against that.

A-Andy, I'm...
I'm freaking out.

No one's showing up, the Chief
won't stop grilling me,

and Carina just left.

It's the first day.

Yeah, grand opening,
grand closing.

I'm just happy Dean's not around
to tell me

to take his name
off this failure.

Was Crisis One a big hit
from day one?

No. No, I think
Dean even said

that it flopped
on the first call.

Right,
and then what happened?

And then he got better
and he trained us

and you guys
and the other fire stations,

and now Crisis One
is the national model

for what it actually looks like
to defund the...

Okay,
I-I see what you did there.

Hey, I got a question, actually,
about this, uh, pact.

What exactly
constitutes sex?

No. No.

Do not bail on me now

just because you're
feeling sorry for yourself.

- Absolutely not.
- I'm just asking.

Alright, look who's back!

Uh...

Gibson, it'll get there,
alright?

Baby steps.
Okay, I gotta go.

Okay, okay. So now that
you're outta the wheelchair,

does that mean no more
sponge baths from hot nurses?

Well, that's one thing
I'll miss.

Hey!

- Oh, there she is.
- Yes.

- Just stopped by to say hi to the boys.
- Okay.

Dr. Webber
says that my recovery

is progressing faster
than they expected.

It must be
all those curls.

- Look at those guns, man.
- Whoo!

Look at that, it's the only part
of my body I could work out.

- The only part?
- Hmm? Okay.

Uh, i-it's good
to see you, Cap.

When do you think
you'll be back?

Looking like 6 weeks
or so.

- Okay.
- God willing.

Aid Car 23, Ladder 23

- to Bellflower Park, north gate.
- Sorry, Cap, looks like we're gonna have

to do a tea time
another day.

Yeah, Herrera's got us covering
for 19 all shift.

Wow.

This is a disaster.

No, it's not.

Yeah, it is.
It's a PRT-level disaster

but, like, less guns.

PRT?

Yeah,
the Physician Response Team.

Was a vehicle that I made
that was, um...

It was a mobile O.R.

Why isn't it in use?

The city
decommissioned it.

It was a...
It was deemed unsafe.

There might have been
an incident

where a junkie held
a paramedic at gunpoint.

I'm sorry, okay?

I say dumb things
when I'm stressed.

The PRT program provided care
to the community,

which meant that we sometimes
went into parts of the city

that are...
I see.

So instead,
you're making people come here?

Less chance
of being held at gunpoint?

No. No, no, no.

That's... That's...
That's not...

I'm kidding, Dr. Warren.

Okay. Okay.

Hey, oh, it's happening.
It's happening.

Calm down. It's...

We got this.

Uh, welcome, sir.

Welcome to the Dean Miller
Memorial Clinic.

Um, how can we help?

Never mind.

No, no, no, no.
Sir. Please, no, sir.

We can... We can help.

We can help you.

- Yeah.
- Right this way.

Uh, you're our first customer,

so there's gotta be a prize
for that or something, huh?

I guess things are gonna go back
to the way it was

when Aquino returns.

Maddox and Barnes...
The boys' club.

Don't you want to fight?

Maddox? Yes.
Every day.

- No, for your spot.
- Oh.

You turned this house around
in what, two months?

I always knew
it was temporary.

It shouldn't be.

You earned that spot.

I'm not poaching
Aquino's house.

I'm not talking
about poaching.

Or I guess I am,
but for good cause.

I've been at 23
a long time.

It's always been kind of
a, you know, stupid boys' club.

The team is more of a family
under your leadership.

It's worth fighting for
if that's what you want.

What if we role-played?

You're not my type.

What if I got
Emmett, like, a whip...

Hmm.

...to take out his frustrations
on me?

I don't think
he's into that.

Well,
nobody is the first time.

What...
Ooh, ooh, what if I

- painted a nude portrait of him...
- Seriously?

- ...to match the one that he painted of me?
- Okay, how about this? How about this?

Here's a thought.
How about you just tell him

about how the stuff
with your dad

has brought up some issues
for you

and how it's making you
resent him,

and how you shared that
with literally everyone,

everyone but him.
Maybe.

Can we do that
while eating

his-and-his edible underwear
off each other?

Is that a thing, or...?

Alright, I'll call him.

Sir, come on in.

Hey, it's Emmett.
Leave me a message.

Ah, Emmett.

Hey, it's Travis again.

Can we please talk?

Please call me.

That was so embarrassing.

Hi, sir.
How can I help you?

Speaking Korean...

Oh, I-I'm sorry.

My Korean
is embarrassingly bad.

Uh...

Speaking Korean...

Do you want to use
my phone translation?

I know what I'm doing.

Right this way, sir.

Right... this way.

- She fell out of the sky!
- She fell out of nowhere!

Somebody hoist me up.
I'm gonna get her down.

Hey, sir,
do not do that.

We don't need to rescue
two people today.

Maddox,
get the ladder in place.

Duvall, I need everyone away
from this tree.

Looks like
a parachute malfunction.

Okay, back. Way back.
I need everybody over here.

- Hey, ma'am. Can you hear us?
- I-I think she just woke up.

Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

Oh, my God!
Oh, my God!

Help me!

- She's got multiple impalements.
- Yeah.

Please help me!

- What's you name, man?
- I'm Jack.

Hank.

Hank.

You know, I've noticed
you've been scratching a lot.

Do you mind
if I take a look?

Okay.

Sorry.

So this is
body shampoo,

but really it's just a cream
for lice and scabies.

You just pop the top,
apply all over,

and wait a few hours.

You want me
to put that on in here?

Right, you don't want
to undress in public.

Um...

I'll tell you what,
why... why don't we go upstairs?

Upstairs?

Look, I'm gonna level
with you, man.

Um... pretty much my whole career
might be riding on today,

and right now, you're my best
shot at calling it a success,

so you'd be doing me a favor
if you just came up...

Yeah.

Okay, cool.

Just, right this way.

Hey, uh, do you mind
just waiting just a sec?

Yeah, um, he looks like
he has scabies.

Yeah,
I'm pretty sure he does.

I'm taking him up
to the showers.

Yeah, you can't, alright?

He could be very contagious
and at the hospital,

we have a special bathroom
just for this.

Warren, I-I know it's hard to
let go of hospital procedures,

but look, this guy came here
to ask us for help,

and he should be able to do so
with dignity intact.

Look, if we undress and hose him
down here in the barn,

I mean, we might as well drive
by a homeless encampment

chucking canned goods
at them, you know?

Alright, alright.

But... But if Carina asks,
I know nothing.

Alright.

See? Things are already
looking up.

How can I help you?

Um... my son needs
some help.

Alright, well, that's
what we're here for.

Come on.
Come on.

Ma'am,
can you hear me?

Yeah.
Please... Please, help me.

Oh, my God. Please. I'm Captain Herrera,

and we're gonna get you down
from there, okay?

Am I gonna fall?

I-I'm gonna fall!

I'm gonna fall!
Please!

Duvall, let Grey-Sloan know
we're coming.

How soon?

As soon as we can
carefully bring her down

without pulling
any of those branches out.

It could be awhile,
but she's gonna need blood

the second
we get her there.

Aah!
Everything hurts!

Just bear with us!

We need to keep her calm.

Hang tight.
We're gonna come get you.

Ladder's set. Alright,
be careful up there.

Any movement
of those branches,

we'll risk her bleeding out,
so I need slow and steady.

Copy.
Slow and steady.

What's your name?

- I'm Andy.
- Sam.

Sam, we're gonna go nice
and slow

bringing you down,
alright?

Is there anyone
you want us to call

to come meet you,
or keep you company?

No, not really.

I-I just want to get down.

I... Aah! Aah!

Hey, hey, Sam.
Try not to move, okay?

We're gonna get you down.

See them?

They're making their way
nice and slow, alright?

Oh.
Hey.

Hi, uh, Chief Ross.

Your team's downstairs
running a clinic

and you're running
on the treadmill?

Well, yeah, it was, um...
It was slow.

Relax, Bishop,
I meant it as a compliment.

Oh. So, we're past due
for our sit-down.

Your temporary demotion
was well over a year ago,

and that can't be contributing
to your success on the job,

having that hanging
over your head.

Let's talk.

Tuesday?

Great.
I'll see you then.

Alright.

You know, uh,
my mom is from Korea, too.

But her dad was
a diplomat,

so she kind of
lived everywhere.

Anyway, I'm speaking English,
like an idiot.

Uh...

Okay, uh...

Just, um...

Uh...

Please slow down.

This stupid app.
I, um...

Uh...

So he has unexplained
weight loss,

constant fatigue,
and new edema in his legs.

My mom's from Seoul.

Mine is, too.

Well, I guess one of us
paid attention

in our Korean lessons,
huh?

Okay, Aston.
I'm gonna numb you up

and then we'll drain
the abscess.

Will it hurt?

Oh, now
you're afraid of needles?

Sorry, continue.

No, you'll, uh...
You'll only feel a pinch.

I spent the past year hooked up
to a dialysis machine

three days a week,
trying to save my life.

All the while, my son here
was actively destroying his.

Kidney disease?

I'm a cancer survivor,
so I... I understand the toll

that any serious illness
can take on the entire family.

Yeah, I bet your kids didn't
start using heroin, though.

Was this all
just retaliation?

You're having a hard time
with mydisease?

- "I'll show her"?
- What are you even talking about?

Hey, I may have dead kidneys,
but I am still your mother,

- and you will not talk to me in that tone of voice!
- Hey, hey, hey, hey. Everyone just needs to take it easy.

I tried to sit with you
and keep you company

when you first
started dialysis.

I held your hand.
I watched you sleep.

All while
you were strung out! I even told you
how the machines worked

when the doctors
were talking too fast!

I can't live my life
in there with you!

You spend entire days
at the hospital and come

home looking like crap,

and it's so depressing, all of
it! I was trying to save my life,

and I still am!

Okay, that's enough!
No more yelling!

I'm serious.
That's enough.

Okay.

Just, um... one second.

So, my dad died
from cancer,

and his legs swelled up just
like that when he was Stage 4

'cause the fluid drainage
was blocked.

Yeah.

Uh...

So what's the move?
Do we give out diagnoses,

send him to Grey-Sloan?

I think
we should ask Warren.

Have you seen my father,
Jae-Jin Park?

Ah.

I'm so sorry.
He just left the house

without telling my mom
where he went.

She found a flyer
for your clinic on his dresser.

Actually, sir,
just... just a second.

Um, can...
Can we, um...

Uh, we actually think that
your dad may need the hospital.

I know.

He has cancer.
It's metastatic. It's Stage 4.

But we haven't told him.

My chute didn't open.
I fell straight down.

Oh, God.
How are you still alive?

I've done this jump 100 times.
I don't know what happened.

Ow! Ow.

Ruiz,
you're in charge.

I gotta make
a phone call.

Copy.

That's a lot of blood.
Am I gonna die up here?

Sam, listen to me.
You're okay.

The branches are stopping
most of the bleeding.

That's why we can't just
pull you down.

Warren, please.

You did it for Terrence
and it saved his life.

We need the PRT.

Any other day, Herrera.

Any other day.

This woman is dying today,
right now.

Just screw the rules!

Look, I got...

I got a woman here
from the court watching me,

and if I screw up...

You lose Pru.

Yeah.

Then can you
get it approved?

To make it official?
I'd need an anesthesiologist.

I'd need a scrub nurse.

It doesn't seem like
you have that kind of time.

No, I don't.

I can call Grey-Sloan.

I already did that.

I'm sorry.
Thanks anyway.

No, I-I-I can't wait.
I-I need to get down now.

I need to get down, okay? Ah!

Crap.

Oh, my God!

Oh, my God! It's okay. It's okay.

Oh, my God! Unbelievable.

I can go up.

No, I need to get
face to face with her.

I'll, um...

I'll start on your back.

How do you know
the Chief?

Come on, let's skip the part
where you tell me

you don't know her again,
because I have eyes,

and Beckett said that thing
about sexual favors

the other day, and, uh...

I have eyes.

Hmm?

She wants to finally meet
about my demotion.

I need to nail this
and get my job back.

What do you know?

I don't know anything.

If I get my captaincy back,
we get rid of Beckett.

We were friends
a long time ago. Oh!

I hadn't seen her
in 15 years.

Hadn't stayed in touch
till she showed up in Seattle.

And, yes, she promoted me,
but for no other reason.

You were more than worthy
of that promotion.

I know you get it.

You might be the only person
at this house

that gets how ambitious
I am,

and I get
how ambitious you are,

so let's help
each other out.

You tell me
how to win her over

and I make sure that nobody else
at 19 figures out your secret.

We... We can help you.

We can connect you
with the best doctors,

the best surgeons.

We're way past that.

His cancer is inoperable.

So why doesn't he know?

We want to celebrate
what's left of his life,

spend time together,
go on trips.

But he won't if he learns
what's really happening to him.

He's too proud.

He'll hide from all of us

because he'll think
he's a burden,

which is worse
than a prognosis.

Yes, it's a lie,

but it's a lie
out of love.

But he knows that you're hiding
something from him,

otherwise, he would have told
you where he was going today.

He deserves the truth.

I'm... sorry we wasted
your time today.

Uh...

Goodbye.

I need to call my mom.

Same.

How do you think I feel
seeing you like this?

Probably the same way
he feels seeing you like that?

Oh, God.

Look, Aston, I know
you feel like

you can't listen to your mom
because she's, you know,

beating you up every day
about everything you do,

but... I'm hoping
you'll listen to me.

The drugs you are doing are
the number-one cause of death

amongst young people
in this country.

Do you hear me?
Number one.

You seem like a good kid,
so I really don't want

to get called to the park
one day

and find
your body there.

People die every day
from things they can't control.

This... you have a shot.

Alright, you have
a shot of living

if you get to rehab today.

Okay. Okay.Okay.

I'll get you
some information.

It's gonna be okay.

Hey,
how's day one go...

Mm.

That good, huh?

I have had this stranger
breathing down my neck,

watching my every mistake
all damn day,

and when I finally do
something good, she's not there.

Plus, I had to say no to helping
Herrera save a life

because, you know, there's so
much damn red tape in the world.

I mean,
I'm sick of red tape.

Alright, Sam.

Come on, deep breaths, okay?
Deep breaths.

Sam, it's me, Andy.

I'm right here.

Look,
this has to be terrifying.

But you did a free fall
from a mile high and you lived.

That's freakin' baller.

You should be
a firefighter.

I'm a waitress.

And I can't die.

Okay?
I can't die a waitress.

Hey, it's okay.

I'm supposed to be
a journalist.

I'm supposed to win
a Pulitzer.

I was gonna
change the world.

I-I was too afraid
to fail.

I didn't try.

I've been jumping out of planes,
trying to work up the courage,

and... and I keep thinking,
"After this jump,

I'll be brave enough
to write.

To at least try."

I didn't even get
to try.

And now some journalist
who had the stones to try

is gonna write
the headline,

"Waitress Destroys
Ancient Tree."

Sam, you are brave.
You are.

I knew what I wanted,
and I-I didn't go after it.

We're almost done
with this one, Sam.

Herrera,
you should head back down now.

Nope,
I'm staying right here.

Sam,
I'm right here with you.

Sam?

Sam?

Sam?

♪ Ooh, ooh

♪ Ooh

Ready, bring us down!

♪ Ooh

- Come on.
- ♪ There's more to be said ♪

- ♪ In the silence ♪

♪ Fill in the blanks
that you left ♪

♪ There's way more quiet
in a siren ♪

♪ I hear what's in your head

♪ We've been coming undone

♪ Holding on to a thread

♪ Learning to pick my battles

♪ Or I'll be the only one left

♪ I only know you're home
when the door speaks ♪

♪ Ooh, I swear,
ooh, I swear ♪

♪ Blink twice
if you still love me ♪

♪ Anymore, anymore

♪ I'll never know,
unless you tell me ♪

♪ Tell me,
won't you tell me? ♪

♪ Did you ever really love me?

♪ Yeah

♪ Did you ever really love me?

♪ Ooh, ooh

Yeah, man.

You look handsome.

We're... We're open again
next week.

You can come back
as much as you want.

It's been so long since
I've seen my face clean shaven.

Since my wife, you know?

She passed away
about six years ago.

Since then.

You know, she had these little
porcelain figurines

of farm animals
that she'd line up

on the windowsill
in the kitchen,

and I hated them.

Every morning
I'd go down there

and I'd take them away
and hide them,

just, you know...
Just to mess with her.

It really got her going.

When she died,
I just left them there

on the windowsill
in a line.

Didn't have the heart
to take them down.

Didn't have the heart to do
much of anything anymore.

The bills,
the foreclosure.

I couldn't see the point
of carrying on, you know?

She was my only reason.

No one
has looked at me...

I mean, looked at me
and seen me in six years,

till today.

Thank you.

So, um, Chief Ross.

Mm-hmm?

When can I take you out
to dinner again, hmm?

Well, Lieutenant Sullivan,
my schedule's a little full

now that I promised
every captain and lieutenant

in Seattle a meal,
but...

Sully, this is messy.

I think we should
just lay low a beat.

Let me get a few
more rubber stamps in,

and then, you know...
we'll see.

We'll see, huh?

Mm-hmm.

We'll see.

You know, I could...
I could set aside

a private bunk
for you two.

I'll even put up a little
"do not disturb" sign.

Captain,
there's a call for you.

Who is it?

That's the extent
of my receptionist skills.

See?

You scratch my back...

Yeah, I get it, Bishop.

I'll help you,
alright?

- Mm-hmm.
- First thing is, she hates a suck-up.

Oh.
Alright?

What about skywriting?

Oh, my God. Trav, you spent
the entire afternoon

trying and failing
to communicate with that man.

If you can't see the metaphor
here, I'm actually...

I do. I see it! Okay?
I see it! I know!

I know I'm supposed
to communicate and listen

and learn
and tell my truth,

but what if the truth
is hurtful, you know?

What if... What if it's kinder
to lie to protect someone?

Like your dad did
to your mom?

My truth is horrible,
okay?

I am a judgy,
self-righteous hypocrite.

You're supposed
to refute that.

I'm pretty sure I've said
all those things to you

multiple times today.

I just... Trav,
you don't actually want to...

What if I don't deserve him
taking me back?

What about that?

Okay, Travis, stop.

I think...
I think it is okay

if you don't want him
to take you back.

I know you don't want
to hurt him again,

and maybe you already
told him the truth.

Gibson, that was
a beautiful thing you did

for that man today.

Yeah, um... kinda bummed
we only had 12 patients,

but it'll pick up.

Those 12 patients
had their lives changed,

and they might just go out
and change some other lives.

What you did today
is not a small thing,

and word's gonna build.

I am impressed, Gibson.

Take the win.

Nothing you saw here today shows
you what's most important.

My wife and I, we love Pru
with every fiber of our being.

Everyone
in this building does.

So...

That's why she belongs
with us.

I think you're wrong.

I think today was an important
piece of the puzzle,

'cause what I saw today
was a man who works hard

and cares deeply,

a man
who goes the extra mile,

a good human who
is very likely a good parent.

I will represent the fullest
picture of the story

in my official recommendation
for the judge.

That's why we do
these visits.

But I have also been doing this
for years,

and I want to brace you
for the possibility...

...ready you for how
I've often seen it shake out.

You and your wife
are very impressive,

but the Millers
are blood.

And, yes,
I do have a lot of say,

but I don't have
the final say.

Hey,
how'd that delivery go? 4 pounds, 7 ounces.

Everyone is healthy.

I heard you did good.

Yeah, I, uh...
I think I actually did.

You don't have to say "actually"
like you're surprised.

Oh, but I am.

Yeah, I did not think
I could do this, Carina.

Um,
up until I was doing it,

I thought,
"This is gonna fail.

I'm a failure."
Mm.

And then somehow, suddenly,
I wasn't?

I will always hate you,
just... just a tiny part of me,

for sleeping with Maya,

but working on this clinic
with you,

I've watched you become
the man you really are,

and...

what I'm saying...

- You kinda like me?
- No, I did not say that.

- Yeah.
- No, no, no.

You do.
You like me.

- Speaks Italian...
- Kinda thinking it?

- Shh, no! Come on, Jack.
- You thought it.

Not a word to Maya,
shh.

Emmett, hi.
I've been calling you.

Yeah, I know,
and... and just stop, okay?

There's a reason I haven't been
answering, so just stop, Travis.

- Wait, I just want to talk to you.
- No, I don't... I don't want to talk!

I am asking you to please have
just enough respect

to notice that I don't want
to talk to you,

and that I haven't been
answering for a reason.

So, Travis, please,
just stop.

Emmett, I-I love you!

- Emmett, please, wait.
- No, you don't.

No, I... I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, okay?

I'm really, really sorry.

I was angry with you because
you reminded me of my dad,

and I know that
that's not fair.

And I didn't talk to you
about it

and that was also
not fair,

but I know
that you are not my dad,

and I know that what you two
had in common

was just
a very rational fear... No, I don't...

...and it was not my place
to judge, and I'm sorry.

And I want
to talk about it.

I want to talk about it
and I want to be honest,

and I-I want to listen,

and I do love you.

I do.

No, but...
Maybe you love me, Travis,

but you don't respect me,

and I don't think I can be
with you anymore

and... and still respect myself,
okay?

Which I do.

Wait, will you just
No, I-I respect myself,

even if I am...
kinda like your dad.

Okay.

Let's just...
No, no.

Please don't call me
again.

Why knock if you're just
gonna barge in, Sullivan?

My worst day
when I was using,

I found myself on the floor
of my office

with a probie putting Narcan
up my nose.

I never heard
that part of the story.

Well, I bet you didn't hear
that I pissed my pants.

That my body thought I'd died,
so my bowels emptied themselves.

"Oh, I'm good at what I do.
I'm... I'm excellent."

I kept leaning into that
inside my head.

"I'm good at what I do.
I'm just having a rough patch.

I'll stop tomorrow."

But you know what?
Tomorrow never came,

and I wasn't good
anymore.

I was on the floor
in my office,

lying in a puddle
of my own filth.

Look, I-I don't know if
you're drinking at work or not.

I'm not drinking at work,
Sullivan.

Well, maybe not yet,
but it's just a matter of time.

Look, I'm not sleeping
with the Chief.

I'm not trying
to blackmail you,

and I'm tired
of playing games.

I'm trying
to save your career, man.

I'm trying
to save your life.

Come to a meeting.

Look, I'm not... It's not a church.

It's a basement
of a church,

where people come to
and they tell the truth

about the worst days
of their lives,

and... and somehow, telling
the truth makes you better.

One day at a time.

When's the meeting?

Thursday, 8:00.

I don't know.

Is "co-worker" a little close
for comfort?

You know,
I guess it might be weird,

especially when I get reinstated
as captain.

Like, "Line up in 10

and I want your sperm on my desk
by lunch"?

And what if you don't get
your captaincy back?

I will.

So whoever this person
might be,

you want that somebody to be
in the baby's life?

You know, I don't think I ever
thought about it like that

until just now, but...

You know, look
at what happened with Miller.

I mean, my job is so high-stakes
and high-danger.

- If something ever happened to me...
- No, don't you dare.

I am just saying,

God forbid,
something happened to me,

I don't want
to leave you alone.

So you want a third parent
in this?

No, no, no.

Not a parent, exactly.

But he could be
like an uncle.

Okay, there is something
I have to tell you.

Jack offered.

Offered what?

His sperm.

When?

It was practically
a joke.

He was like, "Um, I have extra
if you need some."

And he took it
immediately back,

like,
"It's a dumb thing to say."

Because it is.
Exactly.

You tell your grandma that you
get one bedtime story, not two.

No, two!

No, one.

No, three!

Ooh, ooh.
Me, me, me.

I wanna say hi.

Come on.

Hi, Uncle Jack.

Hi, Pru.

Guess what?
What?

Chicken butt.

I have no idea
who taught her that.Yeah.

Chief Ross.

Herrera?
What happened?

I lost a life.

A life that could have been
saved if the PRT

hadn't been shut down
by people without a vision

who prioritized protocols

and avoided lawsuits
over human life.

Captain Aquino is expected
to return in a month or so,

and after some careful thought,
I...

You feel like you should be made
captain of 23 permanently.

No.

The team
my father put together

has spearheaded programs

that are saving taxpayers
thousands of dollars a year

and are changing this city
for the better.

Crisis One, the clinic, PRT,
which I want to fight for.

I want to fight for the PRT,
but it's not my place,

'cause 19's not my house,
but it should be.

I was able to make some changes
during my time as captain at 23,

but the problems at that house
go deeper

than hazing
and sex jokes.

I...

I want to be at 19.

19's my home.

You just solved a big problem
for me.

Yeah, I finally worked my way
through McCallister's desk,

and what I found
was a massive budget issue,

bigger than I thought.

I have to find $14 million or
SFD has to declare bankruptcy,

so all week, I've been trying
to figure out

which station to shut down,
and after the way

that you just spoke about 23,
that's an easy decision.

No, no, no.
I'm... I-I didn't mean to...

I know.
I know you didn't.

Thank you
for your transparency.

Let's get dinner next week,
and we'll figure out

how to get you home,
okay?