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THIS IS A TRUE STORY.

SOME NAMES AND LOCATIONS HAVE BEEN
CHANGED TO PROTECT THE CAST.

Rip by: @amarantalila

What does the word "home"
mean to you?

A house?

It's a safe place.

It's a place

that you know you can stay,
and you don't have to move on.

It's not a temporary place.

Come up a little, just a little.

Now move down.

Like that. Perfect.

I should do that too.

So if you close your eyes...
Yes, i'm sorry.

Try to take a deep breath.
And relax completely.

Have you told your story before?

No.

And can you tell me?

Yes.

I think that

you don't have to tell me about it.

Just think back
to your earliest memory.

What's the first thing you remember?

I was about four.

Hey! Careful!

Where are you?
- Afghanistan in Kabul.

Can you describe yourself?

I think I always had a tendency...

to be a little different.

Let's just put it that way.

I wasn't afraid to wear
my sister's dresses.

The sweater
of my youngest sister.

I liked the attention.

Where are you in Kabul?

In the house where I was born.

Where are your parents?
My mother's in there.

I know she is.

Here, darling.

That should help.

At night, I put my head
on her lap

and she strokes my hair.

Nobody knows how to do that like her.

When I think of my mother,

i wish i could see her
how she was as a young woman.

I saw pictures of her
with dark black hair,

but I only remember her gray.

Go and play. Dinner
will be ready in an hour.

Daddy took me by the hand and
We walked along the airstrip together.

He lifted me up and put me in the cockpit.

There was no steering wheel.

It was like a joystick,
with buttons everywhere.

My sister's telling us
stories about my father.

And then we take off

He said:

It is important that you do not
touch any buttons.

"If you get it wrong - Kaboom!"

So we flew through the clouds...

and we could see the end of the world

It was too much

A lot of that is true,
but she also makes up a lot.

My brother and I

we were completely happy
with what she's telling us.

He said that while he was there,
nothing would ever happen to me.

I remember feeling jealous.

Why did you get jealous?

Because she's telling us
a lot of amazing stuff

that my siblings and i were
never able to experience...

with our father.

Where's your dad?

Can we talk before we start?
Yes, of course.

Some things are hard to talk about.
It's still hard,

but I need to overcome them.

It's my past, I can't
run away from it, and I don't want to.

I can get
in half a year, one year.

Yes, of course.

We'll do it at your own pace.

I'm glad you're finally
ready to tell your story.

I remember high school,
And I had no idea.

There were so many stories
rolling around, like:

"Did you know he came
from Afghanistan? "

That's good!
- I didn't know what to believe.

There were stories like that.

I remember
The first time I saw you.

There weren't many immigrants
At that time.

You were wearing a black and white
checkered shirt. Remember?

Yes, I do.

- And Buffalo shoes.
I'm going to do it myself.

I thought, "He's cool."
Fearless.

You kept looking ahead,

as if to avoid
all the attention.

I don't think you noticed me. It caught my
attention that we got off at the same stop

Look, I think it was
in high school.

Yes, at the prom.

Look at those fancy shoes!
Everything was cutting-edge.

Here it is.

It's here
that my story begins.

I wrote it all down,
when I arrived in Denmark.

Can you read it?

It's going to be tough.
I can't read Dari right anymore.

I can't even read
my own handwriting.

After the Mujahideen...

The Mujahideen have taken power
in Afghanistan...

They killed my father,
kidnapped my sister,

and killed my mother
and my brother.

If I had stayed, I probably
they would have killed me too.

It was very intense.

You told Kasper
any of these stories?

No.

Kasper, I'm going to start shooting.

See if it needs more salt.

When are you getting married?

When we find
a place to live.

First of all
I want you to come home.

Second, I want a place
where we can throw a party.

If we wait
until we can throw a party,

it's going to take a while.

Maybe I'll just buy us a house
while you're away.

You'll just have to deal with
with that then.

When do you leave by the way?
I have to be at the airport by 10:00.

How long this time?
Until June.

I'll be back for a few months
and then I leave again.

Are you going out again?
I think so, yes.

Kasper has no idea.

Where are you going?
Back to the States.

You received an email
from your professor at Princeton?

No, a letter. He wants me to
do a postdoctoral degree.

To continue your research?
Yes, i'm sorry.

What does Kasper think of that?

Actually,
we haven't talked about it.

Last time we talked,
We were talking about your father.

Can we talk a little more
about that?

Yes, it's very sad.

If we go back to Kabul
during your childhood,

Where's your father?

We don't know.

He was taken away.
Why?

Stand up, victims of the land!

Get up,
you prisoners of hunger!

Because the Afghan government
saw him as a threat

to the communist government,

after they brought down
the monarchy in the late 1970s...

In 1979.

They took about 3,000 people,
including my father.

My mother told me
about the day he was caught.

She said he
was expecting this.

Akhtar Nawabi?
Yes, i'm sorry.

We have orders to take you.

Wait, I'm going to get my coat.

Okay, but hurry up!

They came for me.

Keep this.

just in case.

I'm not a threat to anyone.
I'll be right back.

Then,
he went to prison.

My mother told me that the family

would visit him frequently,

but three months later,
he disappeared...

out of the blue.

Amin, listen. You must leave it high
and keep some tension in the string.

I spent a lot of time
with my brother.

He's a true boy,
someone who gets their hands dirty.

He bred pigeons
on our roof.

Hold on tight! Amin, Amin!
Give me this! Give me this!

Sorry.

I have 69 cards. How many do you have?
I have 52.

How about I trade with you,
Vivek Mushran for Anil Kapoor?

No, I won't.
Please, Sabia.

I said no.
I'm not interested.

But you have two Anil Kapoors!

I'll give you Vivek Mushran
and Mamik Singh for him.

I don't need them.

and it's always nice to have
a spare Anil.

Look at him, look at him! He's so beautiful.

Ffa! You really piss me off!

How much do you want him?
I don't give a damn.

In fact
I'm not in the mood for this.

When did you realize
for the first time you were gay?

I wasn't very old.

I think I had fantasies
about men since the age of 5-6.

I remember one of them
very clearly.

I was in love
with Jean-Claude Van Damme.

Seriously!
I had fantasies about him.

I liked Jean-Claude Van Damme
also, but for other reasons.

I think
I "liked him" in a different way.

Good, but I

kinda knew all along
I liked men,

without really knowing
what it meant

In Afghanistan
homosexuals did not exist.

There was not even
a word for them.

It would be embarrassing.
for the family,

so it was hard to
accept being gay.

We'd play Volleyball every day.

Let's go

My brother and I
we made a great team.

My brother is very tall
and great in attack.

Focus!

Currently
terrorists are getting

long-range missiles -
new ones from the U.S. government.

The U.S. wants the Vietnam War
with the USSR in Afghanistan,

but I'm telling you

that when the U.S. provides
the terrorists with help

to destroy Afghanistan,

Afghanistan could very much become
a second Vietnam for the USA!

The civil war began
when my father was taken.

They fought the Mujahideen.

The war didn't happen
properly in Kabul,

so we didn't realize much.

The only reason I know
is because of my brother.

He was a teenager
growing up.

He didn't want to join the army,
but you have to.

Saif!

The police are coming!
Stop, stop, stop, stop!

Run!

Saif!

Saif!

Saif!

Mom

Mom, they're here.
They've got him!

You can't stay here.
You need to hide.

Go to uncle Mahdi! Go!

Come back when it gets dark.
Be careful!

My brother was always running away.
He wasn't the only one either.

Thousands of Afghan boys
they didn't want to go to war.

And rightly so.
Most of them wouldn't come back.

They would die.

My country, you suffer,
because you've been betrayed.

My country,
You've lost your melody, your voice.

Mycountry,
you are in pain and there is no cure.

My country...

Mujahedeen attacks increase
in Kabul after the Soviet withdrawal.

Yesterday, 7 people were killed
near Kabul airport.

Overseas today, the last of the American embassy personnel in Afghanistan flew out of the capital Kabul today

and went to India.

Most other Western embassies
are either closed or closing.

The conventional wisdom is that

when the Soviets have finally completely withdrawn
from the country, some time in the next couple of weeks,

the Afghans will set on one other

and the capital will be even more
dangerous than it is now.

The Soviet transport circles quickly downward,
firing magnesium flares

to divert any heat-seeking missiles.

The American-armed anti-Soviet
Mujahideen guerrillas

are in the mountains
around the city.

We know that the Afghan army

is not strong enough
to ward off the Taliban,

so it's just a matter of time
until they invade Kabul.

We know that they
seek revenge

against people they
consider "non-believers".

Amin!

We need to leave immediately.

We pack a few things, but
we don't have time to sell anything.

Amin, let's go.

So you're barely escaping?
Yes, at the last minute.

I cry all the way to the
airport and then on the plane...

We fled to Moscow.

Russia was the only country that
would grant us a tourist visa.

Russia was such a strange place
to be at the time.

We arrived a year after
the fall of communism.

People were starving
and supermarkets were empty.

The ruble continues to depreciate
and they keep printing new notes.

There's a lot of crime
and you can't trust the police.

At last! Abbas! Oh, my son!

My oldest brother,
who lives in Sweden,

found us in Moscow
when we arrived.

He rented an apartment
for us.

Oh my god! You've grown up!

He ran away in the '80s,
because he didn't want to go to war.

Back!

Back

Wow!!

We need to get them to Sweden
as soon as possible,

so they can
start school.

If we wait,
they're going to get too old.

I know. What about you, darling?
Sweden is treating you well

Cleaning doesn't pay well,
But it's okay.

$4,600 was all I could get
together. I'll get more when I can.

Thanks.

When do you have to go back?

Tomorrow.
I only have two days off.

Come here, you two!

I bet it sucks to go out with Mom.
and our sisters all the time.

I'm going to make you real men,
when they get to Sweden.

Wait!
The girls of Sweden are beautiful!

What's the plan?
Get out of Russia.

It costs a lot to be
smuggled into Sweden.

For drug dealers?

Yes, human traffickers.
It's the cheapest way.

You can get to Sweden
for $3,000.

$15 to 20,000 for all of us.

My oldest brother is
under enormous pressure because of it.

He doesn't earn a lot.

Stop! Documents, please!

Documents

Just stay there.

Your visa has expired.

Thanks.

Proceed.

I've dropped out

We couldn't move
freely through the city,

because we didn't have
the right documents,

so we're
in Russia illegally.

I was running away from the police.
whenever I saw them in the street.

So I stayed home all day,
watching Mexican soap operas.

The whole family.
It was the highlight of our day.

Let me help you with the bag.
Thank you, i'm sorry.

It's your first time
in Mexico City?

Yes! I've never seen anything like it.

And so we are
sitting there for a year.

Just sitting there,
waiting to leave.

It's very difficult for my brother
put all that money together.

He just has enough
to send my sisters.

Call me as soon as you get there.

Clear.

We weren't very informed
about the trip.

Typically, traffickers
don't know each other.

So we're just waiting for
the call from Sweden,

hoping that they were there
saying they're safe

These smugglers
They're bastards!

I...

think they're
a bunch of psychopaths.

Get in

You two! Get in.

They are loaded inside a shipping
container, with many other people.

It's kind of hot in here.

Then the container is loaded
on a huge cargo ship

and surrounded
by other containers,

blocking it, so they can't get out.

My older brother called.

It was... I say...

Everything looked normal

when MS Estonia came out
from Talinn to Stockholm this morning.

The 1,100 passengers did not know
of the drama going on below deck.

That's incredibly inhumane.
It's the worst human trafficking.

Havio 64 refugees confined
in a tráiler struggling to escape.

It's unclear how long
they were in there.

Of the 64, 26 were children,
the youngest was only 8 months old.

They almost died on the way.

They're not okay.

I think it's mostly the shock,
But they're not talking much.

I know someone
who can take a look at them.

I just need to clarify one thing:
Your two sisters survived, right?

Yes, i'm sorry.
They're not dead?

And you have an older brother,
and everyone lives in Sweden?

Yes.

Because I thought your
whole family was dead.

Yes, i'm sorry.
But no, they're not.

No.

Oh, that's great!
It's really good to hear that.

But in all these years, you've never
Did you tell anyone about your family?

I think it was only after
I went to university

that I started to open up a little bit.

for an ex-boyfriend.
But it didn't go well.

I told him a little bit
about my family.

At first, he seemed

very understanding,

but when we had a big
argument, he used it against me.

He said he'd call
the police and inform them

that my asylum
was based on a lie.

Even after i'm done with him,
I've been terrified of it for years.

The house is great.

That's nice.

- The property is too big.
It's huge!

Is that part of the property, too?
Yes, all the way to the road.

There's so much potential.
There's a cat!

He's out there
as if he were the owner of the place.

If we bring our cat,
they're going to fight a lot.

Try calling.
How do you say in Danish?

Here, kitty, kitty!
Come here.

He wants it, he's flirting.

Love, look at all
those hazelnuts!

- I think they're hazelnuts.
Come on, come on.

They're hazelnuts?
Yes.

He's so cute.

- They're hazelnuts, right?
Kitten...

I'm not so sure about that.
They're not hazelnuts. It just looks similar.

You really get in the mood
summer with the heat and...

But you can do it
see yourself living here?

Yes, I can.
Can you?

What do you think?

Would you be able to live here, love?
I don't want to be here alone.

Yes, of course.
So you're not going.

Suddenly having several
commitments at one time.

The narrow roads
and the big fields...

remind me
of my time in the asylum.

I'm scared
of getting depressed here.

You're never going to be a part of this family.
Get out! I never want to see her again!

But I'm carrying
our son!

You can't
just expel me!

Police!

We heard noise. Open the door!
We just want to talk to you.

We need to see your papers!
Open the door.

Oh, fuck! I hate them.
They're the worst people in the world.

They stu nk of vodka.
It was disgusting.

We know you're there, Abram!

The most unpleasant people
that you can imagine!

Worse than the traffickers!

We've got all day.

I don't remember
the day we ran away,

or how we got out of Russia.

I don't remember.

We drove for hours.

Now I remember. We're in a big truck,

that usually carried wood.
They lead us.

We went out in a forest
and we had to sit and wait.

It's too cold, and our clothes
are not warm enough.

there are two things i will
never forget about that night

Come on, Mom,
We need to keep up.

Faster, faster! And don't say anything.

Wait

Stop.

You there! Keep walking!

He needs some other shoes.
We don't have any.

Are you kidding me? You know we're
sneaking across the border, don't you?

What do you want me to do?
Take them off!

He can't just
take off his shoes!

If you don't take them off, I will!

What's the matter with you?
You can't stop.

You must keep walking.
Let's go!

No! Stop! I'm going to carry him.

I'm going to carry him.

We're not going to wait for him. Go!

You must stay there, love.
He's helping us.

Thanks.

Wait! Come and help us

She's slowing us down.
Why don't you just shoot her in the head?

"Let's shoot her in the head
and leave her here." How cold-blooded.

I'm going to do it. It's easy enough.

No, I'll make sure she walks.
Let's hurry up.

I think he said that to her son.

My mother was old too.

That woman...
It was good she didn't understand Russian.

They'll get a boat
to take us to Sweden.

Across the Baltic Sea to Sweden.

I know the boat won't go.

My mother's afraid of water.

Are we all going on this boat?
I guess so.

But is there enough room?
There has to be.

We'll never convince Mom
to get into it.

She's going to have to get in.
She can't stay here.

You must stay
below deck,

so the coast guard
won't see you.

We stripped out the inside,
there's space down there.

It will take two days to get to Sweden.
Let's go!

No, no, no, no, no, no, no,

No, no, no, no, no, no, no,

We sailed for hours.
I think.

People threw up.

It was horrible, very bad.

Water! The water's coming in!
Help! Help!

Open up!

So we bail out the water,
in torrential rain.

We keep taking it out,
because it kept coming in.

The boat has no radio,

so we can't ask for help.

Nobody can swim either.

It would have been easier
if I were alone.

My mother was terrified.

Whenever she talked about death,
she mentioned water.

Dying in the water, drowning,
was her worst nightmare.

What's going on
in your head?

Who do I save first,
if the boat sinks?

Why, did you know how to swim?

No.

I really didn't think about it.

Maybe I thought I could. I have no idea.

I was more worried.

who I'd choose.

Some days go by.

Help! Here!

Here! Help

It's from Norway

I don't know why, but
looking at that ship,

i just can't
feel happiness.

What's wrong with that?

I'm embarrassed.

Embarrassed and ashamed
by our situation

People want to jump in the water
and swim to the ship.

I mean...

They think if they jump
in the water and swim,

the ship will pick them up.

Everyone is
so desperate...

And it's such a fantastic opportunity !

Suddenly.

all we want to achieve
is right there.

You can almost reach out
your hand and touch it.

We have called the Estonian border police.
They are on their way.

They wi ll take you back.

We have called the Estonian border police.
They are on their way.

They will take you back.

So the police come and take us.

Men in camouflage,
with balaclavas and face paint.

They scream
and scream like crazy.

I have no idea
of what's going on.

I keep crying and crying.
I can't stop.

I can see the fear in my eyes
adults. They're terrified!

Even the strongest men...

You see it in their eyes.
They're petrified.

It really scared me.

If they are scared,
What will happen to us?

It must be serious.

We're locked in
an abandoned building.

There are guards, and that very day,

they put barbed wire
around the building.

People were in shock.

The way they treated us,

we call that we would stay there
for the rest of our lives.

We have no idea what's going to happen.
to us. Nobody tells us anything.

The journalists come and film us.
We hope something will happen, but no.

They go home to make
TV programmes...

But nothing really happens.
It's just us and the guards.

It seemed like my life
had stopped.

Then, six months later,

they gave us two options:

Stay there and rot, or...

be sent back to Moscow.

As soon as we got to Russia,
We were arrested by the Russian police.

They wanted to send us back
to Afghanistan,

but fortunately
the Russian police were so corrupt

that when we offered them the last
of our money, they let us stay.

Thank you for
letting me stay here.

Would you like a snack?
No, thanks.

What's the matter with you?

I just had to leave.

I told Kasper I'm doing it.
My postdoctoral degree at Princeton.

It didn't go well?
No, it didn't.

He feels stupid because
we looked at all those houses.

He doesn't understand.

Looks like it's more Kasper's project
than yours?

I don't know, i don't know. It's his dream, but
I also wanted a place to settle down.

That makes me a little nervous.

Because...

Leaving Russia
it was a tremendous gift...

A great gift.
I have a life now.

I couldn't just
give it up or...

Yes.

If it wasn't for my brothers,
I wouldn't be where I am today.

So I carry a huge burden
on my shoulders...

you can tell.

For example, my brother had a
Finnish girlfriend for 10 years.

They wanted children,
but couldn't have them,

because he had to save
every penny to get us out of Russia.

His girlfriend left him.

Then... why the move to the country
rather than helping your family?

Shouldn't you
be on my side?

- When are you going to America?
Sunday.

Sunday?
Yes, i'm sorry.

How long are you going to be gone?
I'll spend a few days at home.

So, in about four months?
Yes, i'm sorry.

Look at this place.
I can't believe it's ours!

Only the best for you, my love.

Something happened to my mother.

She began to act
strangely in Russia.

She had some allergies.

I think she's homesick.

She's missing Afghanistan.

And it's so boring to stay at home.

I'm a teenager and I want to
try something different.

Then I'll leave.

This is a restaurant
a Moscow-McDonald's joint venture.

This company is known around the world
for its prompt food service.

When we leave Russia, we must go
to McDonald's to celebrate.

I'd want a Big Mac and Coke
please! It's going to be great.

Hey, you! Come with me!
No! We didn't do anything!

Let me see
your documents then.

Just as I thought.

Stop, stop, stop, stop! No...
Where's your money?

We've got nothing! We just wanted to
see what's going on.

Let me see that watch
a second?

Don't touch him

Give it to me

Look what I found.

Cool! I'd like to have
a little fun with her.

Let's go. Sit down

What's the point with them?
- They need to learn a lesson.

Sir!

Why are they here?

These two? They're greedy.
They're not going to pay.

What about her?
She doesn't have any money either.

We thought she might
pay us another way.

You two! Outside

I remember her face.
her black hair...

big dark eyes...

Oh, fuck! Why didn't I protect her
And I didn't say anything? I let it happen.

It's one of the most horrible
feelings i've ever had.

I can't look at that any more.

My brother is not so old,

but he took over
responsibility for us.

He wants to send my mother
and me first.

This time,
we take great care.

We did a deal with a
very expensive trafficker,

because we didn't want to
go through the same things again.

We insist on a safe route,
protected,

and for that we only have
enough for one of us to go.

In the end my brother decides
that it should be me.

It was horrible, because I felt
lousy to leave them behind.

Every week, every month, every year,

your chance to have a
decent future is diminished.

Right. Remember your name
and date of birth by color.

You're Russian. Remember that.

Speak Russian, if anyone
asks you something.

Destroy the passport as soon as
you reach the final destination.

If the police catch you
with a fake passport,

They'll send you back to Russia.

Keep up with the story
we gave you. It's crucial.

From now on, you don't have
family. They're dead.

You fled Afghanistan
on your own, without any help.

If you say anything else, you
will be sent back to Afghanistan.

What's that supposed to mean?

Don't tell anyone
about your family.

You don't have a family. Understand?

Good. Now get some sleep.
We have a long day tomorrow.

The traffickers had all
power over my life.

You remain
completely powerless.

I went with another young man,
also alone, just like me.

He was cool and funny.
And he made me laugh.

He was kind of childish, but there was
an age difference between us.

He's was closer
to becoming a man.

I thought that was sexy.

I think i had
little crush on him.

Your gold necklace
it's so beautiful...

You want to try it on?

I'm sure it will
look good on you.

It looks great!

Our flight to Istanbul
will take about two hours.

Thank you for flying with
Ukrainian International Airlines.

As soon as you get past the
passport control to your right...

Don't look! After you pass,
you will be on your own.

You will be heading
to different destinations.

You're going to Zurich.
Gate D27.

You to Copenhagen.

Gate A9.

I'm not going to Sweden?

No, you're going to Denmark.

Denmark? But...

It's the last trip,
that you'll have to

manage on your own
from now on.

Remember to call home
as soon as you land.

It's very important.

That's the only way I can get my money.

OK. Now you can go!

Are you going to Zurich?
- yes, it's in Switzerland.

Do you have family there?
-Yours is in Copenhagen

Hey, thanks for lending it to me.
No, keep it.

Are you sure?

Thank you.

Good luck.
For you, too.

It's weird.
i don't remember his name

and he was very
important to me.

He was part of something that had
a great influence on my life.

Then all of a sudden,

i'm flying on my own
and landing in Copenhagen.

I sit and
wait for a while.

I see a group of people
and I'm beginning to follow them.

Get out of the way.

I think I said "refugee."

What's that? Refugee?
Refugee.

Where's your passport?

Karin's here because you're a minor
and arrived without a guardian.

A guardian must be present
in your interview.

The interpreter is Iranian and I am
Afghan, so we miscommunicated.

Let's start with the formalities.
What is your name?

Amin.

We need to know
how you got here.

There's nothing to worry about.
Just tell us what happened.

I was interrogated for hours.

I'm the only survivor
of my family.

I must inhabit the story
that the smuggler gave me.

I imagined that my mom
and brothers were killed.

I cry.

The damn story really
hits me, even though it's not true.

I cry uncontrollably.
The tears keep falling.

My father and I hid for a
year in the wilderness, before he was killed.

I was surprised to cry
about something that wasn't true.

It took a month to get
from Afghanistan to Denmark.

As soon as I'm finished,
I write everything,

every word, in Dari,
in my notebook.

I don't have anyone.
I'm on my own.

And now I've told you my story...

everything... up until now.

Only when we were driving
through the town square

and I see the neon lights...

that I understand...

that i'm not being
sent back.

Hello?
Abbas?

Amin?
Yes, i'm sorry.

At last! Are you okay?
Yes, i'm sorry.

Where are you?

In Denmark.
Oh, uh...

Why didn't you call earlier?
I couldn't get a phone.

What? I can't hear you.

I couldn't get to a phone.
-OK.

I'm going to call Moscow.

They asked me to say
that you are all dead...

But you're not...

What do I tell people?

What do I say?

You must do what the smuggler
said. Keep it a secret.

But...

I'll find form urn
to meet.

I'll let you know. Take care of yourself.

All right, bye.

It took years for me to visit
my brothers in Stockholm.

It was very lonely
and frustrating.

The fear of being caught and being
sent back was so strong

that I couldn't tell the truth.
There were many consequences.

I couldn't be myself.

It was very painful.

Most people
can't even imagine

how running like this affects you...

How it interferes with your
relationships with other people...

When it destroys you...

There were things I couldn't
say about my family,

that I had brothers in Sweden,
and my mother was living,

because it didn't fit
with my made-up story.

There were always restrictions.

Things had to be adjusted,
held back and suppressed.

So, what do you want to talk about?

I'd like some medicine.

Okay, you're going to have to see the doctor,
but I can make an appointment.

What's wrong with that?
We talked about it last time...

It's about me
being attracted to men.

Oh, that, yes.
I'd like some medicine.

What's that supposed to mean?

I want to be normal.

I don't want to like men.

Not that I considered it a disease,
but I thought i could be cured,

that it was something
that could be cured.

But she told me
that it wasn't that simple.

Okay, fuck... It's something
i have to live with.

The fear of being rejected
from my family,

for being gay,
because it wasn't acceptable.

Family meant
a lot to me,

since I'm out on my own
in Denmark.

Brother
You're finally here!

It was the only point of reference
in our crazy lives.

The thought of losing it
it was very scary.

When are you going to find a girlfriend?

The girls of Denmark
aren't they pretty?

Maybe I should go help you.

I'm sure I can
find one for you.

I didn't even want to tell my brother.
I'm in Stockholm

and had no plans to tell him,
but it just happened.

He kept pestering me
about not having a girlfriend.

Finally, I felt so
intimidated and said:

"I don't have a girlfriend because
I'm not interested in girls."

Everybody stayed
completely quiet.

Are you sure?

Yes.

Have you ever been with a girl?

Amin, come with me

Where are we going?
Just come.

Come.

What's going on?
You'll see.

In here. Have a good time.

There's nothing to worry about.
We've always known.

Thank you.

Can I help you? What do you want?

Can I help you? What do you want?

There I was. My first time
alone in a gay club...

and i didn't go home

I've always made my career
the priority.

When should I choose between
a guy, a career or an education?

I've always chosen education.
Cold and cynical.

Please welcome us
to the next speaker: Amin Nawabi.

My brothers sacrificed themselves
so much for me.

I had to do well. I felt
a huge responsibility.

It was important to be tough.

Just now, that I'm
talking about it,

i'm beginning to realize
how difficult it's been.

It hurts to think about it.

Being back in the States...

i admit to becoming very tired of
being constantly on the move.

It's good for my career,

- but it's not so good for...
It's not that good for you.

It's not so good for me.

The first time I interviewed you
in my house, you mentioned

there were things that needed
to come to an agreement

You grow up.
You grow up too fast.

When you run away from the child,

it takes time to learn

to trust people.

You're always on guard,
All the time...

You're always on guard,
All the time...

All the time...

Even when you're in a safe place,
you're on guard.

I feel like something needs to happen.

4 MONTHS LATER

Ta-da!

I'm not going to carry you in my lap.

Prefer to carry a cactus
instead?

It's almost the same.

That's all I'm going to put away.

It's a little...
Yes, i'm sorry.

Look at the view. It's amazing.

Look at the view. It's amazing.

Every time you look at it,
you think, "Wow!"

The garden is really beautiful.

I wonder if we have enough
things to fill the place.

Baby, I think I saw a big
clump of raspberries off the lot.

Look! That's all raspberries!
Wow, that's great.

That's nice.
We just need to take care of this.

It's wet.
You can see it from here.

The view from the house is better than from here.

AMIN AND KASPER
GOT MARRIED THAT YEAR

AMIN'S BROTHER AND MOTHER GOT OUT
OF RUSSIA A COUPLE OF YEARS LATER.

THE FAMILY IS SCATTERED
ALL OVER EUROPE.

THEY STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT
HAPPENED TO THEIR FATHER.

Rip by: @amarantalila

THANKS TO AMIN, HIS FAMILY
AND ALL THE PARTICIPANTS.

FROM AMIN: "HEARTFELT THANKS TO MY BROTHERS, WHO HAVE SACRIFICED A LOT IN VARIOUS WAYS

SO I COULD BE WHERE I AM TODAY.
KR, YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME.

LASTLY, I THANK THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WHO PUT UP WITH 4 YEARS OF TURBULENCE

AND FOR PUTTING HIS DREAMS ASIDE
SO I COULD PURSUE MINE."