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Where's my primer?
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Vada, we're late!
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- Vada.
- Mmm.
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- God...
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Dude,
we are so fucking late!
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Are the cake pops
different flavors
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or are they just
different colors?
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Different flavors.
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What are
the flavor differences?
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Honestly, it is a miracle
that we made it on time.
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Dude, we are killing it!
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Per ushe, yes.
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Also, is it just me
or does coffee
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immediately make you
have to shit?
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- Oh, immediately, yeah.
- Like I smell coffee
and I'm shitting my pants.
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Pause the shit-talking
till Justin Dragonas passes.
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Oh, my God, I want him.
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We need to come up with a code
for shitting.
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You're right!
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Alright, let's think.
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- Okay, like--
- We can say like
I need to talk to my boss.
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- What are you talking about?
- Are you picking
what I'm putting down?
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It's like, "Okay, I need to
have a long call with my boss
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and he's mad."
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Oh my God,
my boss is so mad at me
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that I got a penis call
this morning.
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Oh, and then when you...
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It could be like you're texting
your boss.
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You're texting
your boss. I love it.
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- We love that.
- You have to keep it fancy.
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We love
to keep it fancy,
that's what we do.
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Now that's also a concern
because most of that water
is paleo water.
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Dating back to the most rec...
Yes, Vada?
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Does the kind of rock affect
how long the aquifer last
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or how quickly it recharges?
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Oh, that's a great question,
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but that depends on
many factors.
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Anybody wanna guess
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what the next biggest
aquifer is?
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So we have to think about
what we know
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about the aquifers, right?
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So the Ogallala Aquifer is one
of the largest eight
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in the world,
not to... Yes?
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I'm sorry,
can I use the restroom?
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Yes.
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It dates back
to the recent ice age.
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So when we think about that
we have to say, "Wow,
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this is one of the largest
in the world."
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Are you okay?
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- No.
- What happened?
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I don't want anyone to hear me.
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Dude, literally just tell me,
you're freaking me out.
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I got my...
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What? I can't hear you.
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I'll just text it to you.
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Jesus, Amelia!
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You don't text 911
when you get your period!
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You scared the shit
out of me. Oh my God!
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I'm sorry.
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It's okay.
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Wait, haven't you been dyin'
to get your period
for like a year?
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I thought you'd be stoked.
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It's different than I thought.
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Oh, you mean shitty as hell?
Yeah, I know.
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You're the worst.
I'm hanging up now.
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I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.
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Do you, um...
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have everything you need?
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Yeah, I stole it from your room
a few months ago.
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It's in my backpack.
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Just in case.
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I was just gonna
tell you to stuff a bunch
of toilet paper
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in your pants till
you get home,
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but that...
That's some pro-level shit.
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Nice move!
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Oh, my God.
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How about this?
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Let's go to dinner tonight,
just you and I, okay?
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And I will fill you in
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on all the bloody, chunky,
gooey, goopy details.
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Ew, shut up.
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I love ya.
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Congratulations.
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Don't say congrats, you freak.
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I love you, too.
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Photo day.
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Better get my shit together.
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You don't even need
to wear makeup.
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Sorry, what?
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I just said, "You don't even
need to wear makeup."
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- I...
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- What was that?
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- Come on, come on!
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- Was that a gun?
- Get down!
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Take 'em off!
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No! Oh!
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We're gonna die.
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Go, go, go, go, go!
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Oh my God. Oh my God.
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Is it over?
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Is it over?
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Who's in there?
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I'm not the shooter.
It's Matt Corgan, I saw him.
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Do you know where he is now?
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I don't know, I don't know.
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My brother.
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Come, come under. Just...
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Oh, fuck, are you shot?
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My brother.
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You! Drop your weapon!
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Drop your weapon now!
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Down on the ground!
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Maybe we should
wake her up.
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She needs to rest.
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I just wanna
talk to her.
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Did you know him?
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He follows you on Instagram,
so he knew you.
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It's like on every channel.
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Like CNN was interviewing
your friend Melody.
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So crazy.
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Did you know anyone who died?
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- Amelia.
- What?
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Is there like a list
or something?
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Sometimes, I'm just like,
"What year are we living in?"
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I'm literally gonna Amazon
a bulletproof backpack.
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Amelia!
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What?
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Please don't cry, Mom.
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I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry.
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Do you need something?
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Was just gonna take a bath.
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Okay
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Okay.
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Fuck.
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I'm glad
you're going to see Nick.
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How's he holding up?
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I think okay.
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Good!
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Good.
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What about you?
How... How are you feeling?
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Better.
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That's good,
so good.
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I'm really so glad
to hear that.
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I literally thought
it was a drill
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'cause Cambie had us locked in,
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shades over the window
in like two seconds,
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so I was like, "Okay, clearly,
this is a drill."
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- Right?
- Yeah.
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And Olivia Metis is
like talking,
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you know, being annoying,
and Cambie goes
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- "Olivia, be fucking quiet."
- No.
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And we're all like, "Oh shit.
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Like this is real deal,
no joke."
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It's just so...
It's so fucked.
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I can't stop hearing
the sound of it.
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So last night,
I was like, "Okay,
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why did I survive?
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Like out of everyone,
like why me?
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Is it so that
I can do something
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to like make this
never happen again?"
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Hmm.
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So, I set up this Zoom
with Everytown
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and we're gonna talk
about like
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how to be more reactive,
how to start a movement,
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how to get
a fuckin' bill passed.
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Like something.
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Why do you think he did it?
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I don't know,
is there like ever a reason?
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After initial reports
of a shooter,
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officers surrounded
the campus,
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directing the evacuation
of hundreds
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of students from the scene.
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This tragedy is.
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I think Anderson Cooper
is cute.
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We've been
on the scene.
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He is. Don't get too attached.
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Disturbing videos
from the students' cellphones
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In the video, gunshots can be
heard in the hall,
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answered by children screaming
in their classrooms...
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I'm gonna go to Nick's.
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Uh, okay.
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...during the escape,
children fled the building.
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Hey.
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Hey.
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Wanna come in?
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Thank you.
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Want some water or somethin'?
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Okay.
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You have a really nice house.
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Thanks.
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Really nice, it's a cool vibe,
with the wood and uh...
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You have a lot
of cool art here, too.
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Yeah, uh, my dads
are artists, so...
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- Your parents are artists?
- Yeah.
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That is so cool.
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It all makes sense now.
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Do you know
when they'll be back?
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I'm actually not really sure.
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Yeah, they're gone
like all the time.
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Uh, I have to be honest
with you,
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'cause if I'm not then
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I'll probably feel really bad
about it.
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But I watched some of...
Thank you.
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Some of your dance videos
on Instagram.
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In the videos, you come off
like, so like hard.
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And whatever.
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What I'm tryin' to say
is you're a completely
different person
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when you're dancing
and in real life,
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you're like so different.
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Yeah, I don't know why
I'm like that.
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It's like... Yeah.
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It's cool though that you're
able to like just switch into
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a different mode.
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Like I could never
do something like that.
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It's dope.
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Thank you.
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Yeah.
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00:21:14,139 --> 00:21:16,408
Is that...
Is that wine okay for you?
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00:21:16,475 --> 00:21:18,010
Oh, yeah, no, it's so good.
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Are you sure?
I have like
a couple of others--
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No, it's... Yeah...
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That's like the best one
I've ever had, so.
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Okay.
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- I'm sorry, I'm gonna--
- Oh.
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I'll turn this off,
my mom keeps
checking in on me.
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Okay.
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Nick told me that
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Quinton's brother's service
is tomorrow.
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Already? That's--
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- Yeah, I--
- That's great.
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I guess some religions
do them fast.
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I was thinkin' about going.
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Do you think
that would be weird?
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No. No, I don't...
I don't think so.
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Okay.
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I mean, I can,
like, come with you
if you want.
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Yeah, no, I--
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- Yeah, I want... Yeah.
- Yeah, if you...
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Um, yeah.
If that's cool with you, so...
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- Yeah, let's do it.
- Cool.
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Can I ask you a question?
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Mmm-hmm.
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Did you have like
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the craziest nightmares
last night?
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You have to be able to sleep
to have nightmares.
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Hey.
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- Hey.
- Hey.
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Uh, thank you for coming.
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Of course.
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Do you wanna go to Starbucks?
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No.
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Do you want a Starbucks?
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Mmm, no.
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Okay.
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00:25:05,737 --> 00:25:08,907
I'm literally gonna
make Mom get me something
with caffeine .
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I only do that when I play
with my little dinosaur.
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Do the cat pitch.
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Never again.
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I only do that when I play
with my little dinosaur.
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Do the cat pitch.
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Never again.
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00:25:52,684 --> 00:25:54,219
Are you hungry?
263
00:26:00,458 --> 00:26:02,761
- That's really good.
- Mmm.
264
00:26:02,861 --> 00:26:04,462
I'm spilling it everywhere.
265
00:26:06,064 --> 00:26:07,365
It is really good.
266
00:26:10,068 --> 00:26:11,636
Are your dads really chill?
267
00:26:16,241 --> 00:26:18,109
They travel a lot though, huh?
268
00:26:18,209 --> 00:26:19,444
Mostly, Europe.
269
00:26:20,145 --> 00:26:21,413
For like fun?
270
00:26:22,647 --> 00:26:24,149
Work.
271
00:26:24,249 --> 00:26:25,784
Do they send people
to spy on you
272
00:26:25,884 --> 00:26:29,087
or they trust you just to not
throw a bunch of ragers.
273
00:26:30,922 --> 00:26:35,927
I mean, they know I'm not
like a rager person, so.
274
00:26:37,395 --> 00:26:38,797
Who do you hang out
with at school?
275
00:26:39,931 --> 00:26:40,899
Like...
276
00:26:42,267 --> 00:26:44,302
Like different people.
277
00:26:45,470 --> 00:26:47,172
Like a bunch
of different people, so.
278
00:26:49,240 --> 00:26:50,809
I'm gone a lot with dance.
279
00:26:51,643 --> 00:26:52,978
How often do you dance?
280
00:26:53,778 --> 00:26:55,480
Every day.
281
00:26:55,580 --> 00:26:56,815
Like classes?
282
00:26:56,915 --> 00:26:58,083
Mmm-hmm.
283
00:26:59,351 --> 00:27:02,320
But I haven't gone
284
00:27:02,420 --> 00:27:05,156
since the thing.
285
00:27:12,297 --> 00:27:13,832
Are your parents chill?
286
00:27:16,334 --> 00:27:19,037
My dad more than my mom,
for sure.
287
00:27:19,137 --> 00:27:22,474
- My mom's like
very white and anxious.
288
00:27:24,209 --> 00:27:26,344
I don't really tell 'em
anything though, 'cause like
289
00:27:27,012 --> 00:27:28,113
they worry.
290
00:27:30,982 --> 00:27:33,818
I feel kinda bad for it.
They're actually
really good parents.
291
00:27:39,157 --> 00:27:40,659
I see you're packing
for a trip.
292
00:27:40,725 --> 00:27:41,993
What's your favorite
country to visit?
293
00:27:42,060 --> 00:27:43,294
Paris.
294
00:27:43,361 --> 00:27:45,063
What's the last country
you visited?
295
00:27:45,163 --> 00:27:46,498
Europe.
296
00:27:46,564 --> 00:27:48,066
What country
do you wish to visit?
297
00:27:48,166 --> 00:27:49,300
Persia.
298
00:27:51,136 --> 00:27:53,571
What's the weirdest word
in the English language?
299
00:27:53,672 --> 00:27:55,974
Moist. Yuck.
300
00:27:56,041 --> 00:27:57,409
When was
the last time you cried?
301
00:28:01,146 --> 00:28:02,414
Can you stay?
302
00:28:05,517 --> 00:28:06,718
It's late.
303
00:28:07,852 --> 00:28:09,354
Just till I fall asleep.
304
00:28:13,858 --> 00:28:14,859
Okay.
305
00:28:15,860 --> 00:28:16,928
Thanks.
306
00:28:23,034 --> 00:28:24,069
What's your
favorite movie?
307
00:28:24,169 --> 00:28:25,103
Mmm, Pizza.
308
00:28:25,203 --> 00:28:27,038
Favorite TV show?
309
00:28:27,105 --> 00:28:29,240
Um, I would have
to say my pilot
with Kate Berlant
310
00:28:29,340 --> 00:28:31,209
that was passed on
by every major network
and streaming platform.
311
00:28:31,276 --> 00:28:33,378
Meanwhile, rapists everywhere
continue to freely make up 10.
312
00:28:33,445 --> 00:28:34,713
What up, bitch?
313
00:28:34,779 --> 00:28:36,948
Dude, I'm so sorry I missed
the march.
314
00:28:37,048 --> 00:28:40,218
I mean, it's fine.
I was just, like,
legit worried about you.
315
00:28:40,285 --> 00:28:42,087
It was cool, though.
They let me speak.
316
00:28:42,187 --> 00:28:44,956
I wish you'd been there,
but it's fine,
I'll send you a link.
317
00:28:45,056 --> 00:28:47,592
I know, I'm sorry.
I just...
318
00:28:47,692 --> 00:28:50,295
It's a long story,
but I ended up goin' to
Mia's house and--
319
00:28:50,395 --> 00:28:52,263
Wait, lol, Mia Reed?
320
00:28:52,797 --> 00:28:54,265
What?
321
00:28:54,365 --> 00:28:55,700
Yeah.
322
00:28:55,767 --> 00:29:00,071
She... She's just been alone
and I feel bad.
323
00:29:00,138 --> 00:29:04,109
- So I just--
- No, no, no, I mean, it's fine.
It's just like random.
324
00:29:04,209 --> 00:29:05,376
Is she okay?
325
00:29:05,443 --> 00:29:06,911
I mean, she will be.
326
00:29:08,580 --> 00:29:10,115
Are you okay?
327
00:29:10,215 --> 00:29:11,149
Yeah.
328
00:29:11,950 --> 00:29:13,218
Just tired.
329
00:29:16,087 --> 00:29:18,923
We wanna
know how a 16-year-old
can have access
330
00:29:18,990 --> 00:29:22,327
to a military assault rifle
and that's considered okay?
331
00:29:22,427 --> 00:29:24,329
- It's not okay!
332
00:29:24,429 --> 00:29:26,231
We want change.
333
00:29:26,297 --> 00:29:29,400
We deserve to feel safe
going to our own school
every day...
334
00:29:52,924 --> 00:29:55,860
It feels like so soon.
It's been like two weeks.
335
00:29:55,960 --> 00:29:57,295
No, I hear you.
336
00:29:57,362 --> 00:29:58,997
It's... It's intense,
but I just...
337
00:29:59,097 --> 00:30:01,766
I don't want us to be ruled
by fear, you know?
338
00:30:01,833 --> 00:30:03,668
I feel like it'll be less scary
if we were together.
339
00:30:03,768 --> 00:30:04,936
I gotta go.
340
00:30:05,003 --> 00:30:06,004
Okay, love you. Call me later.
341
00:30:06,104 --> 00:30:07,539
Hey! Honey, can I come in?
342
00:30:07,639 --> 00:30:09,841
You don't have to ask
to come in, Mom.
343
00:30:09,941 --> 00:30:12,377
Okay.
344
00:30:12,477 --> 00:30:16,481
So it sounds like Nick's going
back today, huh?
345
00:30:16,548 --> 00:30:19,717
Yup. He is.
346
00:30:19,818 --> 00:30:21,719
Well...
347
00:30:21,820 --> 00:30:23,688
Well, as long
as you wanna stay home,
348
00:30:23,788 --> 00:30:28,059
you know,
your dad and I support that.
349
00:30:28,159 --> 00:30:29,127
Thank you.
350
00:30:33,498 --> 00:30:35,733
There's just one thing.
351
00:30:42,307 --> 00:30:44,209
Were you tired a lot
before the incident?
352
00:30:47,078 --> 00:30:48,580
LOL.
353
00:30:50,682 --> 00:30:52,350
You called it "the incident".
354
00:30:52,417 --> 00:30:54,686
Um...
355
00:30:54,752 --> 00:30:57,388
No, I guess I'm just
always tired.
356
00:30:57,488 --> 00:30:59,657
I mean, I guess, that's what
caffeine is for.
357
00:30:59,724 --> 00:31:00,925
Right?
358
00:31:02,193 --> 00:31:04,929
What do you do
when you get tired?
359
00:31:05,029 --> 00:31:07,498
Sleep for like
14 hours straight.
360
00:31:07,565 --> 00:31:09,868
Ooh, I really like watching
early seasons
361
00:31:09,934 --> 00:31:11,002
of the Kardashians.
362
00:31:11,069 --> 00:31:12,837
The OG Hidden Hills shit.
363
00:31:14,239 --> 00:31:15,940
That is my vibe!
364
00:31:23,214 --> 00:31:26,284
What's this, you're just
gonna fax that
to my mom or...
365
00:31:26,384 --> 00:31:28,720
- Fax?
- Yes. Fax.
366
00:31:28,786 --> 00:31:31,256
What are you, a time traveler
from the '80s?
367
00:31:32,924 --> 00:31:36,394
I mean,
I had my suspicions when
I saw those sneakers,
368
00:31:36,461 --> 00:31:38,963
but now I'm pretty convinced.
369
00:31:39,063 --> 00:31:40,865
Touche.
370
00:31:40,932 --> 00:31:42,901
Touche.
371
00:31:42,967 --> 00:31:46,571
Look, I know this whole
therapy thing is weird
372
00:31:46,638 --> 00:31:48,072
and can be uncomfortable.
373
00:31:48,139 --> 00:31:50,208
But everything that you say
in here is confidential.
374
00:31:50,275 --> 00:31:53,211
And, side note, I actually do
really like your shoes.
375
00:31:53,278 --> 00:31:55,113
They're very cool.
376
00:31:55,213 --> 00:31:57,782
No, I know. Thank you.
377
00:31:59,484 --> 00:32:01,386
Are there things that you don't
feel comfortable talking
378
00:32:01,452 --> 00:32:05,123
to your parents about
that maybe you wanna
share with me?
379
00:32:10,929 --> 00:32:12,163
Yeah.
380
00:32:14,465 --> 00:32:16,167
My porn addiction.
381
00:32:16,267 --> 00:32:18,102
Okay.
382
00:32:20,338 --> 00:32:21,639
I'm so sorry. I'm...
383
00:32:21,739 --> 00:32:23,241
When I get nervous,
384
00:32:23,308 --> 00:32:25,510
I make really inappropriate
jokes, so, my bad.
385
00:32:25,610 --> 00:32:27,645
You don't have to be sorry.
386
00:32:27,745 --> 00:32:29,414
And you don't
have to be nervous.
387
00:32:30,982 --> 00:32:34,419
Well, I know that my parents
are worried about me
388
00:32:34,485 --> 00:32:36,754
and they think I need help.
389
00:32:36,821 --> 00:32:39,624
But I get it,
and that's fine,
390
00:32:39,691 --> 00:32:42,193
but I personally am fine.
391
00:32:42,293 --> 00:32:45,930
Like I feel like
I'm really good
at managing my emotions.
392
00:32:45,997 --> 00:32:47,031
It's...
393
00:32:48,299 --> 00:32:49,834
What do you mean by that?
394
00:32:51,502 --> 00:32:53,705
I'm just very chill.
395
00:32:53,805 --> 00:32:55,873
Like a very low-key person.
396
00:32:55,974 --> 00:32:59,644
So when it comes
to emotional stuff
or drama I'm like
397
00:32:59,711 --> 00:33:03,014
"Okay, is this
really productive?"
398
00:33:04,482 --> 00:33:06,617
Yeah. I get it.
399
00:33:06,684 --> 00:33:08,820
But you know, just because--
400
00:33:08,886 --> 00:33:12,323
It doesn't necessarily mean
that someone's
being dramatic
401
00:33:12,390 --> 00:33:14,726
because they're emotional.
402
00:33:14,826 --> 00:33:16,194
You know, for a lot of people,
403
00:33:16,294 --> 00:33:17,795
they need to fully experience
their emotions,
404
00:33:17,862 --> 00:33:20,131
in order to process
what they've been through,
405
00:33:20,198 --> 00:33:22,400
so that they can begin to heal.
406
00:33:22,500 --> 00:33:25,169
It's actually really healthy
to show your emotion.
407
00:33:33,411 --> 00:33:34,746
I know most people
come in here crying
408
00:33:34,846 --> 00:33:36,414
about their cheating husbands.
409
00:33:36,514 --> 00:33:38,483
Vada, I wanna talk about you.
410
00:33:40,018 --> 00:33:42,086
I wanna know
how that shooting
at your school
411
00:33:42,186 --> 00:33:43,554
has made you feel.
412
00:33:47,925 --> 00:33:49,727
I feel...
413
00:33:55,700 --> 00:33:57,769
It's okay.
414
00:33:57,869 --> 00:33:59,203
I mean, it makes sense.
415
00:34:02,774 --> 00:34:05,076
I want you to track
how you're feeling
416
00:34:05,176 --> 00:34:07,378
using this worksheet.
417
00:34:07,445 --> 00:34:09,280
So there's questions on there
that'll guide you.
418
00:34:09,380 --> 00:34:10,782
You don't have to overthink it,
419
00:34:10,882 --> 00:34:12,683
it's just basically there to
hold space for you to...
420
00:34:12,750 --> 00:34:16,220
To understand whatever
emotions may come up.
421
00:34:17,388 --> 00:34:19,524
All you have to do
is try and feel.
422
00:34:19,590 --> 00:34:20,725
That's it.
423
00:34:20,792 --> 00:34:22,860
No matter what
those feelings are.
424
00:34:22,927 --> 00:34:26,197
Then you can bring it back
next session and we'll
go through it.
425
00:34:26,264 --> 00:34:28,065
Or you know,
you can fax it to me!
426
00:34:28,132 --> 00:34:29,300
If that's easier for you.
427
00:34:33,071 --> 00:34:37,575
She said
you were incredibly bright,
and smart, and funny.
428
00:34:37,642 --> 00:34:39,944
Wait,
is she in love with me?
429
00:34:40,044 --> 00:34:41,813
Oh, what's the point of
goin' to therapy,
430
00:34:41,913 --> 00:34:43,981
if they're just gonna tell
their parents everything
they said after?
431
00:34:44,081 --> 00:34:45,716
Honey, she didn't
tell me anything.
432
00:34:45,783 --> 00:34:47,985
She gave me
a general assessment
of how the session went.
433
00:34:48,085 --> 00:34:50,054
- That's all.
- She thought
you were doing really well,
434
00:34:50,121 --> 00:34:51,489
considering what you
went through.
435
00:34:51,589 --> 00:34:53,324
- Excuse me?
- Amelia!
436
00:34:53,424 --> 00:34:56,727
She was on speakerphone.
It's not like I was
trying to listen.
437
00:34:56,794 --> 00:34:57,895
I'm sorry.
438
00:34:57,962 --> 00:34:59,764
Whatever. Do I need
to go again?
439
00:34:59,831 --> 00:35:01,933
Because it sounds like
she thinks everything is fine.
440
00:35:01,999 --> 00:35:03,634
Well,
I don't know, honey.
441
00:35:03,734 --> 00:35:06,304
I mean, do you think you're
ready to go back to school?
442
00:35:10,108 --> 00:35:11,576
- Aren't you coming with us?
- No.
443
00:35:11,642 --> 00:35:13,010
Well, I don't know
what you want.
444
00:35:13,111 --> 00:35:14,846
- I don't know, turkey.
- Toasted?
445
00:35:14,946 --> 00:35:16,647
I don't care, Mom!
446
00:37:10,361 --> 00:37:12,863
We won't live our lives scared
to go to school every day.
447
00:37:12,930 --> 00:37:15,299
We can't accept a world
in which the federal government
448
00:37:15,399 --> 00:37:17,535
thinks American
high school students
getting gunned down
449
00:37:17,602 --> 00:37:19,904
in their classrooms
isn't a priority.
450
00:37:19,971 --> 00:37:23,140
We won't accept
that our leaders have NRA money
in their pockets
451
00:37:23,241 --> 00:37:25,443
and our blood
on their hands.
452
00:37:25,543 --> 00:37:27,111
We want real change.
453
00:37:27,211 --> 00:37:29,280
We want real leadership,
honest politics that make
454
00:37:29,380 --> 00:37:32,950
our schools a safe place
for us to learn and grow.
455
00:37:33,050 --> 00:37:34,485
And we want it
before it's too late.
456
00:37:34,585 --> 00:37:35,820
Can I have some wine?
457
00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:37,388
That was Nick Feinstein,
458
00:37:37,455 --> 00:37:38,756
one of the several
surviving students.
459
00:38:03,447 --> 00:38:05,082
Does it get stuck
on your fingers?
460
00:38:06,017 --> 00:38:07,652
Yeah.
461
00:38:07,752 --> 00:38:10,588
I don't know,
it's gonna be good, you know?
462
00:38:13,357 --> 00:38:15,626
- You just gotta get in it,
you know?
- Yeah, like that?
463
00:38:19,263 --> 00:38:21,098
- It's the shoulders.
- It's all in the shoulders.
464
00:38:21,165 --> 00:38:23,334
- Like you can't do it
without the shoulders.
- Okay, my bad.
465
00:38:26,103 --> 00:38:27,371
I feel like that felt right.
466
00:38:27,471 --> 00:38:29,307
- Yeah. Yeah, I think so.
- Like now it feels ready.
467
00:38:29,373 --> 00:38:31,275
- I think if you did it anymore,
it'd be overkill.
- Okay. Okay.
468
00:38:38,983 --> 00:38:40,151
Oh, where did it go?
469
00:38:41,686 --> 00:38:42,987
It wasn't enough.
470
00:38:43,054 --> 00:38:45,356
No, you definitely have to
grind it way more.
471
00:38:45,456 --> 00:38:46,824
I need more?
472
00:38:46,891 --> 00:38:48,959
Little more.
473
00:38:49,026 --> 00:38:52,496
Ooh, yeah.
Stoner vibes.
474
00:38:52,563 --> 00:38:53,731
It's gonna be good.
475
00:38:53,831 --> 00:38:55,166
- So good?
- So good.
476
00:38:55,232 --> 00:38:56,400
Can't wait?
477
00:38:56,500 --> 00:38:57,335
Can't wait.
Are you getting pumped?
478
00:38:57,401 --> 00:38:59,737
Go! Go! Go! Go!
479
00:38:59,837 --> 00:39:01,238
This is it.
480
00:39:02,740 --> 00:39:05,643
- Ooh.
- Look at us.
481
00:39:05,710 --> 00:39:07,878
- Who'd have thought?
- Who'd have thought?
482
00:39:07,978 --> 00:39:09,980
That is fat.
483
00:39:10,047 --> 00:39:11,816
Why do you trust me?
484
00:39:11,882 --> 00:39:14,985
'Cause you've smoked before.
485
00:39:15,052 --> 00:39:18,255
- Okay. Not like too much.
- It's so thick.
486
00:39:20,057 --> 00:39:22,393
Is it ever too much?
487
00:39:22,493 --> 00:39:25,396
- We'll find out.
- Stoner thoughts.
488
00:39:25,496 --> 00:39:27,865
- Hey, did you just say
"stoner thoughts"?
- Yes, I did!
489
00:39:32,002 --> 00:39:33,070
Oh!
490
00:39:34,905 --> 00:39:36,273
It's kinda thick.
491
00:39:36,374 --> 00:39:39,677
- Curvy queen.
So beautiful!
- She has curves.
492
00:39:39,744 --> 00:39:41,078
- Holy, how do I?--
- Do the honors.
493
00:39:41,178 --> 00:39:42,947
- No, just... Just... No.
- Do I--
494
00:39:43,047 --> 00:39:44,682
Is this cigarette
or is it like this?
495
00:39:44,749 --> 00:39:46,117
- Cigarette? Weed?
- You choose.
496
00:39:46,217 --> 00:39:47,752
- Weed? Cigarette? Weed?
- You choose. You choose.
497
00:39:48,886 --> 00:39:50,955
Wait, other--
498
00:39:51,055 --> 00:39:52,923
Oh!
499
00:39:54,759 --> 00:39:57,094
Okay. This is it.
500
00:40:00,731 --> 00:40:03,601
Yo, it has gotten
so bad though,
like so bad,
501
00:40:03,701 --> 00:40:06,237
to the point where they're
cutting the elephant tusks off
502
00:40:06,303 --> 00:40:07,471
before they release them,
503
00:40:07,571 --> 00:40:08,939
so like the poachers
can't kill them.
504
00:40:09,039 --> 00:40:10,741
So, it's like,
"Okay, they don't have tusks,
505
00:40:10,808 --> 00:40:12,877
but like at least,
they're alive." You know?
506
00:40:12,943 --> 00:40:15,045
It's so messed up!
507
00:40:15,112 --> 00:40:17,448
No, and then it makes me think
about the uh, what's his name?
508
00:40:17,548 --> 00:40:19,316
The Jimmy John's founder?
509
00:40:19,417 --> 00:40:21,285
Apparently, he's like
some trophy hunter.
510
00:40:21,385 --> 00:40:23,120
But the thing about that one is
like I don't know
511
00:40:23,220 --> 00:40:24,922
if I have the right to be mad
about that,
512
00:40:24,989 --> 00:40:26,457
'cause I don't know
if it's true or not.
513
00:40:26,557 --> 00:40:29,126
So every time I see it,
I'm like, "Is this real?
514
00:40:29,226 --> 00:40:30,461
Or is it like this fake news?"
515
00:40:30,561 --> 00:40:35,232
Like, "Can I trust this meme?"
516
00:40:35,299 --> 00:40:38,436
Can you be honest with me
for like 2.5 seconds?
517
00:40:38,502 --> 00:40:41,672
- Am I being annoying?
518
00:40:41,772 --> 00:40:43,174
Because personally for me,
I feel like this weed
519
00:40:43,274 --> 00:40:44,942
is making me
a little bit chatty.
520
00:40:45,009 --> 00:40:48,145
Like I don't even feel sad
at this point, I'm just chatty.
521
00:40:48,245 --> 00:40:50,481
I don't know, is that bad?
What about you,
what do you feel?
522
00:40:52,149 --> 00:40:53,984
I feel chill.
523
00:40:55,653 --> 00:40:57,521
You always feel chill.
524
00:41:05,963 --> 00:41:07,364
I feel nothing.
525
00:41:09,633 --> 00:41:12,036
- Fuck!
526
00:41:22,279 --> 00:41:24,782
- I hate weed.
527
00:41:31,856 --> 00:41:33,457
I hope that's not your dinner.
528
00:41:33,524 --> 00:41:34,892
Yup.
529
00:41:34,992 --> 00:41:36,293
Ew, Vada.
530
00:41:37,361 --> 00:41:39,063
Where's your sister?
531
00:41:39,163 --> 00:41:43,067
Um, filming a nighttime routine
for her YouTube channel.
532
00:41:43,167 --> 00:41:44,568
Don't ask.
533
00:41:44,668 --> 00:41:46,971
Do you think we should take her
phone away?
534
00:41:47,037 --> 00:41:50,374
No, but you should probably get
that app where you can see
everything she does online.
535
00:41:50,474 --> 00:41:52,510
That exists?
Who knew!
536
00:41:52,576 --> 00:41:55,746
Wow, where we'd be without you?
537
00:42:00,017 --> 00:42:04,755
So Vada, honey, I was um...
538
00:42:04,855 --> 00:42:06,490
I wanted to talk to you
about school.
539
00:42:10,394 --> 00:42:11,896
What's up?
540
00:42:11,996 --> 00:42:13,831
Well, I don't
want you to fall
too far behind.
541
00:42:13,898 --> 00:42:15,099
I won't.
542
00:42:15,199 --> 00:42:16,600
Well,
you can't stay home forever.
543
00:42:16,700 --> 00:42:19,537
Why not?
544
00:42:19,603 --> 00:42:22,006
Sure, I just think that
the longer you stay home,
545
00:42:22,072 --> 00:42:26,210
the harder it's gonna be
for you to go back.
546
00:42:26,744 --> 00:42:28,712
All...
547
00:42:28,779 --> 00:42:31,515
All I want is what's best
for you.
548
00:42:31,582 --> 00:42:34,184
I wanna see that sparkle back.
549
00:42:39,557 --> 00:42:41,592
You know,
Amelia got her period.
550
00:42:42,293 --> 00:42:43,394
What?
551
00:42:45,229 --> 00:42:47,064
- When?
- Forever ago.
552
00:42:47,131 --> 00:42:49,366
Guess she just didn't
want you to know.
553
00:42:59,777 --> 00:43:02,313
My mom's tryin' to make me go
back to school.
554
00:43:03,414 --> 00:43:05,649
Fuck.
555
00:43:05,749 --> 00:43:07,084
When are you gonna go back?
556
00:43:09,053 --> 00:43:10,588
I don't know.
557
00:43:10,654 --> 00:43:12,623
My dads said I could
do homeschooling
as long as I want.
558
00:43:14,758 --> 00:43:16,226
Lucky you.
559
00:43:20,264 --> 00:43:22,132
I'm gonna try
and get some sleep.
560
00:43:22,232 --> 00:43:23,434
Goodnight.
561
00:43:25,402 --> 00:43:26,337
Night!
562
00:43:45,522 --> 00:43:48,826
Get out of the building and far
away from it as you can.
563
00:43:48,926 --> 00:43:50,828
Next, you need to find...
564
00:44:01,672 --> 00:44:03,474
Always remember
these three things.
565
00:44:34,672 --> 00:44:36,874
That should
be enough for today.
566
00:44:36,974 --> 00:44:39,643
You can basically just review
your notes for the test.
567
00:44:39,710 --> 00:44:42,980
Again, if I've talked about it,
it'll be on the test.
568
00:44:43,047 --> 00:44:44,415
And guys, remember, I said,
569
00:44:44,515 --> 00:44:45,916
"No phones
during classes, please."
570
00:45:12,042 --> 00:45:13,110
Shit.
571
00:45:14,111 --> 00:45:17,081
Oh, you bitch.
572
00:45:18,615 --> 00:45:21,118
You dumb fucking bitch.
573
00:45:24,555 --> 00:45:26,256
It was a fucking soda can!
574
00:45:29,259 --> 00:45:30,928
Dumb fucking stupid--
575
00:45:31,028 --> 00:45:33,697
So today at PE,
Jack Booth was whopping
the beanbag
576
00:45:33,764 --> 00:45:36,066
and one hit me in the forearm,
and the PE teacher saw it,
577
00:45:36,133 --> 00:45:37,735
and didn't say one word.
578
00:45:37,801 --> 00:45:39,436
And I was like, "Okay, you're
terrible at about your job."
579
00:45:39,536 --> 00:45:41,805
I'm sure he's not terrible
at his job, Amelia.
580
00:45:41,905 --> 00:45:44,074
Dad, he's protected
by union and tenure.
581
00:45:44,141 --> 00:45:46,810
That's the only reason
he's still there.
582
00:45:46,910 --> 00:45:48,312
How about you, Vada?
How was...
583
00:45:48,412 --> 00:45:49,613
How was your first day back?
584
00:45:53,217 --> 00:45:55,586
Just low-key.
585
00:45:55,652 --> 00:45:58,255
So, is everyone
settling in okay?
586
00:45:58,322 --> 00:46:01,892
I don't know,
it's... It's heavy,
but I think everybody's
587
00:46:01,959 --> 00:46:03,727
just tryin' to move on.
588
00:46:03,794 --> 00:46:07,431
Good. That's good.
I'm so glad.
589
00:46:07,498 --> 00:46:10,167
Yeah, it's amazing.
590
00:46:10,267 --> 00:46:11,802
Ugh, I'm so full.
591
00:46:11,902 --> 00:46:12,836
Finish your salad.
592
00:46:14,238 --> 00:46:15,472
It's wilted.
593
00:46:15,572 --> 00:46:17,274
It's good for you.
Finish it.
594
00:46:17,341 --> 00:46:20,577
I just
can't do arugula, Dad.
It's the texture!
595
00:46:32,322 --> 00:46:33,290
Hey.
596
00:46:35,192 --> 00:46:37,027
Uh, hey.
597
00:46:38,462 --> 00:46:40,197
Do you have any E?
598
00:46:40,964 --> 00:46:43,200
Uh, what?
599
00:46:47,871 --> 00:46:49,273
How much do you want?
600
00:48:10,721 --> 00:48:12,222
There's gonna be
a quiz, okay? Um...
601
00:48:14,424 --> 00:48:16,927
May I go to the restroom?
602
00:48:17,027 --> 00:48:18,061
Sure.
603
00:48:20,264 --> 00:48:22,232
Okay,
so make sure that you
are studying.
604
00:48:22,299 --> 00:48:23,800
You have to know the difference
605
00:48:23,901 --> 00:48:26,637
I'm not gonna help you on this
when you have a pop...
606
00:48:26,737 --> 00:48:29,907
quiz for this on Friday.
607
00:48:53,130 --> 00:48:54,765
- Nick.
608
00:49:42,012 --> 00:49:43,613
Vada, Vada!
609
00:49:43,680 --> 00:49:44,881
Oh my God, Vada! Hey!
610
00:49:44,982 --> 00:49:46,883
Hey, hey, hey!
Vada, what'd you take?
611
00:49:46,984 --> 00:49:49,052
I hate it here.
612
00:49:49,152 --> 00:49:51,655
Vada, what're you doing?
Hey, what'd you take?
613
00:49:51,722 --> 00:49:53,290
Hey, what's on your face?
Vada, come on!
614
00:49:53,357 --> 00:49:54,524
Spaghetti.
615
00:49:54,624 --> 00:49:55,726
No.
616
00:49:55,826 --> 00:49:56,893
Hey, you need
to get your shit together
617
00:49:56,994 --> 00:49:58,161
before someone sees you.
Come on!
618
00:49:58,228 --> 00:50:00,530
Ready? We're going.
We're going!
619
00:50:00,630 --> 00:50:02,733
We're going, okay.
620
00:50:05,669 --> 00:50:07,537
Is it at least a good high?
621
00:50:11,375 --> 00:50:13,744
Is that an elbow?
622
00:50:18,515 --> 00:50:20,183
Why's your mouth
all blue?
623
00:50:20,250 --> 00:50:22,652
Jesus, Millie,
what do you want?
624
00:50:24,421 --> 00:50:26,156
A pen exploded in my mouth.
625
00:50:26,223 --> 00:50:27,824
Oh, that happened
to me once, too,
626
00:50:27,891 --> 00:50:28,992
but like it was a marker.
627
00:50:29,059 --> 00:50:30,260
Good story, what do you want?
628
00:50:31,695 --> 00:50:33,196
Nothing.
629
00:50:52,749 --> 00:50:54,117
Mmm.
630
00:50:59,856 --> 00:51:01,858
Ugh.
631
00:51:09,766 --> 00:51:11,568
Motherfucker.
632
00:51:12,869 --> 00:51:13,970
Shit.
633
00:51:18,875 --> 00:51:22,279
Oh,
okay, so I guess
you weren't playing.
634
00:51:22,379 --> 00:51:23,780
What does that mean?
635
00:51:23,880 --> 00:51:25,782
Let me read you this text.
636
00:51:25,882 --> 00:51:29,152
"Uh, Q, I did drugs,"
with a Z, by the way.
637
00:51:29,252 --> 00:51:31,555
That was the Z
on the drugs.
638
00:51:31,621 --> 00:51:34,724
Uh, "And I'm YOLOing hard.
Hit me up, honey.
639
00:51:34,791 --> 00:51:36,326
Let's party."
640
00:51:36,426 --> 00:51:40,664
And then you did this emoji,
and then this emoji,
641
00:51:40,764 --> 00:51:42,265
and then a hockey stick.
642
00:51:42,332 --> 00:51:44,734
You just spammed, uh,
spammed emojis.
643
00:51:44,801 --> 00:51:46,269
No, I did not.
644
00:51:46,336 --> 00:51:48,171
Yeah,
yeah, you did.
645
00:51:48,271 --> 00:51:50,474
But uh, now why'd
you do the drugs,
uh, with the Z?
646
00:51:50,574 --> 00:51:55,812
Dude, I literally don't know,
so what had happened was...
647
00:51:55,912 --> 00:51:58,014
Is, um...
648
00:51:58,115 --> 00:52:02,652
I was walking
past Dan Bonavure,
and I was like, "Okay,
649
00:52:02,752 --> 00:52:05,655
I know he's a dealer.
I know he has E.
650
00:52:05,755 --> 00:52:07,524
I'm gonna take some like
right now."
651
00:52:07,624 --> 00:52:09,426
Oh shit, okay.
Uh, and how're...
652
00:52:09,493 --> 00:52:11,595
How're you feelin' now?
653
00:52:11,661 --> 00:52:13,330
To be determined.
654
00:52:13,430 --> 00:52:16,099
Well, I'm here if you need me.
655
00:52:16,166 --> 00:52:17,334
Um...
656
00:52:18,869 --> 00:52:21,171
What are you doing later?
657
00:52:21,271 --> 00:52:23,507
'Cause I was just
gonna be low-key
658
00:52:23,607 --> 00:52:24,608
and like watch a movie
or something.
659
00:52:24,674 --> 00:52:25,775
You should come by.
660
00:52:25,842 --> 00:52:28,145
Okay. And I'll
bring the acid.
661
00:52:28,211 --> 00:52:29,112
Goodbye.
662
00:52:34,818 --> 00:52:36,786
So is he
your boyfriend?
663
00:52:36,853 --> 00:52:38,121
What are you making?
664
00:52:38,188 --> 00:52:40,657
Slime. And don't
avoid the question.
665
00:52:40,724 --> 00:52:42,192
This is way too juicy.
666
00:52:42,292 --> 00:52:43,994
You've literally never
had a boy over
667
00:52:44,060 --> 00:52:45,462
that was straight before.
668
00:52:45,529 --> 00:52:46,963
Oh, sorry, sorry.
669
00:52:47,030 --> 00:52:48,665
I shouldn't assume
his sexual orientation.
670
00:52:48,732 --> 00:52:50,400
So like how does he identify?
671
00:52:50,500 --> 00:52:52,302
You're asking
way too many questions.
672
00:52:52,369 --> 00:52:55,405
Vada, you are gonna stay
in the living room, right?
673
00:52:55,505 --> 00:52:57,741
No, I was thinking
we're gonna snuggle
in the dark in my room.
674
00:52:57,841 --> 00:52:58,909
Yes, Mom!
675
00:52:59,009 --> 00:53:00,744
I was just asking.
676
00:53:02,412 --> 00:53:04,247
Please don't embarrass me.
677
00:53:04,347 --> 00:53:07,384
I'm serious, Amelia.
Oh my God.
678
00:53:09,920 --> 00:53:11,821
No!
No, no, no, don't go
in the river!
679
00:53:11,888 --> 00:53:13,657
- Why is he going in the river?
- I don't know.
680
00:53:13,723 --> 00:53:16,193
This is the saddest shit
I have ever seen in my life.
681
00:53:16,259 --> 00:53:17,761
This is terrible!
682
00:53:17,861 --> 00:53:20,430
This is so bad!
Why would they
let kids watch this?
683
00:53:20,530 --> 00:53:22,199
Yeah, you said
you wanted to watch this.
684
00:53:22,265 --> 00:53:23,767
- I cannot... You picked this.
- You said this was your fa--
685
00:53:23,867 --> 00:53:25,669
I gave you options.
I gave you options--
686
00:53:25,735 --> 00:53:27,037
- Come on.
- And you chose this one.
687
00:53:27,103 --> 00:53:27,737
What are you guys
laughing at?
688
00:53:30,874 --> 00:53:31,675
Amelia!
689
00:53:31,741 --> 00:53:33,510
Sorry, sorry!
690
00:53:33,577 --> 00:53:35,779
I just wanted to let you guys
know that the slime
is almost ready.
691
00:53:35,879 --> 00:53:37,280
If you wanna try it,
I'll allow it.
692
00:53:37,380 --> 00:53:38,848
I love slime. I wanna try.
693
00:53:38,915 --> 00:53:40,417
Okay! Do you want blue or red?
694
00:53:40,517 --> 00:53:41,618
Blue, please.
695
00:53:41,718 --> 00:53:43,286
Vada?
696
00:53:43,386 --> 00:53:46,189
I don't...
Red. I don't care.
697
00:53:46,256 --> 00:53:47,591
Coming right up!
698
00:53:50,093 --> 00:53:51,528
I am so sorry.
699
00:53:51,595 --> 00:53:53,363
She's so cute.
700
00:53:53,430 --> 00:53:55,065
Do you wanna watch
The Staircase?
701
00:53:55,131 --> 00:53:56,800
- Do you know what that is?
- No, what's The Staircase?
702
00:53:56,900 --> 00:53:58,768
It's this white guy,
who murders
his second wife,
703
00:53:58,868 --> 00:54:01,404
and probably his first wife,
and gets away with both.
704
00:54:01,471 --> 00:54:03,473
Oh, a tale as old as time.
705
00:54:03,573 --> 00:54:04,808
Tale as old as time, really?
706
00:54:04,908 --> 00:54:06,309
Yeah.
707
00:54:06,409 --> 00:54:08,144
Wait, no, have you seen
the memes of like you know,
708
00:54:08,245 --> 00:54:10,080
all these women are obsessed
with these murder docs,
709
00:54:10,146 --> 00:54:12,449
people have
like taken these photos
of the Stepford Wives
710
00:54:12,549 --> 00:54:14,150
you know, with the smile,
with the knife?
711
00:54:14,251 --> 00:54:15,585
- It's like--
- Nah, I haven't seen--
712
00:54:15,652 --> 00:54:17,621
Uh, and it says,
"Murder me, Daddy."
713
00:54:17,721 --> 00:54:18,722
Nah, I haven't seen that.
714
00:54:18,788 --> 00:54:20,090
You've never seen that?
715
00:54:20,156 --> 00:54:22,926
It's everywhere.
Check your timeline, dude.
716
00:54:24,794 --> 00:54:26,263
It's really funny.
717
00:54:30,967 --> 00:54:32,269
Everything okay?
718
00:54:34,738 --> 00:54:36,239
Is everything alright?
719
00:54:36,306 --> 00:54:38,441
Yeah, uh, I'm sorry.
720
00:54:38,508 --> 00:54:40,443
I just have to go home
right now.
721
00:54:42,112 --> 00:54:44,314
I'm sorry, but you know, uh,
family stuff.
722
00:54:44,414 --> 00:54:47,817
Yeah, don't even apologize.
That's totally fine.
723
00:54:49,819 --> 00:54:52,689
Yeah, um, honestly,
I just can't believe that
724
00:54:52,789 --> 00:54:56,192
you're gonna leave alone
to watch this cat flow down
the river all by myself.
725
00:54:56,293 --> 00:54:57,627
Oh, you're actually
gonna finish it?
726
00:54:57,694 --> 00:54:59,262
I have to!
I have to see what happens!
727
00:54:59,329 --> 00:55:03,633
Okay, well, uh, text me
and let me know,
728
00:55:03,700 --> 00:55:04,634
you know, what happens.
729
00:55:08,038 --> 00:55:10,440
I hope everything's okay
at home.
730
00:55:10,507 --> 00:55:12,175
You know how it is.
731
00:55:12,709 --> 00:55:13,943
Yeah.
732
00:55:14,944 --> 00:55:16,713
I'll see you.
733
00:55:35,198 --> 00:55:37,567
No, no, no, no, no
734
00:55:37,667 --> 00:55:39,202
- You don't trust me?
- No!
735
00:55:39,302 --> 00:55:40,904
- You don't trust me?
- No, mom!
736
00:55:41,004 --> 00:55:42,639
- You don't trust me?
- Oh my God.
737
00:55:42,706 --> 00:55:44,074
- You don't trust me?
- Stop! Stop!
738
00:55:44,174 --> 00:55:45,342
No, now let me see
which one you have.
739
00:55:45,408 --> 00:55:46,543
- No, no, no, no, no, no.
- Stop!
740
00:55:47,177 --> 00:55:49,079
Stop.
741
00:55:49,179 --> 00:55:50,380
- But this one, I heard
this would be better.
- That smells like strawberries.
742
00:55:50,480 --> 00:55:51,848
No, that's too--
743
00:55:51,915 --> 00:55:53,416
No, smell, smell.
Smell, smell. Smell.
744
00:55:53,516 --> 00:55:55,151
Oh! Ew!
745
00:55:55,218 --> 00:55:57,587
- Disgusting,
I know. Oh God!
- You're so bad.
746
00:56:00,523 --> 00:56:01,725
This one does
smell good, though.
747
00:56:01,825 --> 00:56:04,527
Just take a little sniff.
Come on.
748
00:56:09,032 --> 00:56:12,602
- Ow, Jesus!
749
00:56:13,536 --> 00:56:15,004
- V!
- What?
750
00:56:15,071 --> 00:56:17,173
- Let me in!
- No.
751
00:56:17,240 --> 00:56:19,209
You never
lock the door. What are
you doing in there?
752
00:56:19,275 --> 00:56:20,510
None of your business!
753
00:56:46,202 --> 00:56:48,271
Are you wearing my lipstick?
754
00:56:48,371 --> 00:56:49,973
What? No.
755
00:56:50,073 --> 00:56:52,275
Can you tell Mom
I don't need a ride?
Nick's gonna take me.
756
00:56:52,375 --> 00:56:54,911
Only if you tell me why you're
wearing my lipstick.
757
00:56:54,978 --> 00:56:58,415
I think those fake glasses
are messing with
your vision, dude.
758
00:56:58,481 --> 00:57:00,750
Well, you know, everyone wears
fake glasses now.
759
00:57:00,817 --> 00:57:02,419
It's socially acceptable!
760
00:57:04,120 --> 00:57:06,089
Okay, wait,
serious question.
761
00:57:06,156 --> 00:57:07,323
Okay.
762
00:57:07,424 --> 00:57:10,593
Now Drake?
Degrassi Drake? Choose.
763
00:57:11,494 --> 00:57:12,429
I like wheelchair Drake.
764
00:57:12,495 --> 00:57:14,731
Wheelchair Jimmy!
765
00:57:14,798 --> 00:57:16,833
- Jimmy!
- Jimmy!
766
00:57:18,067 --> 00:57:18,968
Jimmy!
767
00:57:25,275 --> 00:57:27,110
You're, like, yodeling.
768
00:57:27,177 --> 00:57:28,912
You probably
didn't know this about me,
769
00:57:28,978 --> 00:57:30,680
but I'm the best yodeler
in my family.
770
00:57:30,780 --> 00:57:31,915
Prove it!
771
00:57:31,981 --> 00:57:34,350
You can't put me
on the spot like that,
772
00:57:34,451 --> 00:57:35,685
'cause then that's just like,
you know...
773
00:57:35,785 --> 00:57:37,153
This is like
a little preview.
774
00:57:37,253 --> 00:57:38,955
- Yeah, this is like warm-up.
- Okay.
775
00:57:39,022 --> 00:57:41,324
You know, but I'm gonna get you
when you're not even ready.
776
00:57:41,424 --> 00:57:44,127
And you're gonna
be like...
777
00:57:46,262 --> 00:57:48,765
Hey, you know,
this might sound weird,
778
00:57:48,832 --> 00:57:52,101
'cause like I haven't known you
for that long,
779
00:57:52,168 --> 00:57:54,003
but, like, I feel
so comfortable with you.
780
00:57:54,103 --> 00:57:55,839
Like we're bonded
or something.
781
00:57:58,775 --> 00:57:59,776
Same.
782
00:58:05,215 --> 00:58:07,016
When'd you lose your virginity?
783
00:58:09,219 --> 00:58:10,620
I haven't.
784
00:58:10,687 --> 00:58:11,821
You haven't had sex?
785
00:58:11,888 --> 00:58:12,989
No.
786
00:58:13,056 --> 00:58:14,657
Do you mean
you haven't had today?
787
00:58:14,724 --> 00:58:18,228
- What?
- You dance like
such a fuck princess!
788
00:58:18,328 --> 00:58:19,662
What? No, I do not!
789
00:58:19,729 --> 00:58:21,331
- Yes, you do!
- What does that even mean?
790
00:58:21,397 --> 00:58:23,233
It means exactly what it sounds
like it means!
791
00:58:23,333 --> 00:58:24,400
You know, th...
The fuck princess!
792
00:58:24,501 --> 00:58:26,135
- Nah. no.
- Okay, I get...
793
00:58:26,202 --> 00:58:27,370
Okay, that's on me.
794
00:58:27,470 --> 00:58:29,305
- Never assume.
- You never...
795
00:58:29,372 --> 00:58:31,207
Wait, like, have you?
796
00:58:34,677 --> 00:58:35,845
What?
797
00:58:35,912 --> 00:58:37,714
Obviously not!
798
00:58:38,414 --> 00:58:42,752
I am so awkward
799
00:58:42,852 --> 00:58:44,487
and like embarra...
Like, no!
800
00:58:45,188 --> 00:58:47,357
Like, oh my God!
801
00:58:47,423 --> 00:58:48,691
I will say this.
802
00:58:48,758 --> 00:58:51,227
I feel like high school sex
is very '90s.
803
00:58:51,327 --> 00:58:52,428
Okay.
804
00:58:52,529 --> 00:58:56,900
And waiting until college
is more now.
805
00:58:57,000 --> 00:58:59,936
I mean, I feel like
I'm probably gonna wait
until I'm like in love.
806
00:59:02,505 --> 00:59:03,940
Oh.
807
00:59:04,941 --> 00:59:07,944
Oh, that's really sweet.
808
00:59:08,044 --> 00:59:11,848
Or when you go on tour with
Drake one day.
809
00:59:13,283 --> 00:59:14,350
You just let him have it.
810
00:59:16,586 --> 00:59:18,588
What's wheelchair Jimmy
like in bed?
811
01:00:25,788 --> 01:00:27,757
What are you
thinkin' about?
812
01:00:28,424 --> 01:00:29,859
Hmm?
813
01:00:44,374 --> 01:00:47,644
Okay, I know
you're a woman
of very little words,
814
01:00:49,145 --> 01:00:52,649
but I know you got
some deep shit happening
815
01:00:52,715 --> 01:00:56,152
- in this nice little head
of yours.
816
01:00:57,487 --> 01:00:59,689
Beep.
817
01:01:00,390 --> 01:01:02,859
God.
818
01:01:02,959 --> 01:01:04,293
Anything?
819
01:01:06,129 --> 01:01:08,498
Okay.
820
01:01:08,564 --> 01:01:13,069
Let's say this.
Let's say you die tomorrow.
821
01:01:13,169 --> 01:01:15,038
Okay?
822
01:01:15,138 --> 01:01:18,408
And what if you die sad,
'cause you regret not saying
what you wanted to say?
823
01:01:20,843 --> 01:01:22,078
Then what?
824
01:01:31,421 --> 01:01:33,056
I can't say it.
825
01:01:33,156 --> 01:01:34,590
Why?
826
01:02:08,925 --> 01:02:11,027
Is this okay?
827
01:03:35,478 --> 01:03:36,712
Where have you been?
828
01:03:36,813 --> 01:03:38,681
We've been freaking out!
829
01:03:38,781 --> 01:03:40,216
I was at Nick's.
830
01:03:40,316 --> 01:03:43,286
Nick's been calling all morning
wondering where you are.
831
01:03:46,222 --> 01:03:47,890
Vada, your phone was dead.
832
01:03:47,990 --> 01:03:49,325
We didn't know
if something terrible
had happened to you or--
833
01:03:49,392 --> 01:03:52,962
I'm sorry. I'm fine.
834
01:03:53,029 --> 01:03:55,298
The perfect child
tells a fat one.
835
01:03:55,364 --> 01:03:57,233
She better lose screen time
for that one, Dad.
836
01:03:57,333 --> 01:03:59,001
Vada, come back here!
837
01:03:59,902 --> 01:04:01,170
Vada!
838
01:04:02,905 --> 01:04:04,707
I told you,
you don't have to know!
839
01:04:04,807 --> 01:04:06,509
- Vada
- Vada, don't be rude.
840
01:04:06,576 --> 01:04:08,744
Vada, what were you doing
last night?
841
01:04:08,845 --> 01:04:11,214
Nothing, Jesus!
842
01:04:11,314 --> 01:04:12,915
Are you...
Are you seeing someone?
843
01:04:13,015 --> 01:04:15,384
LOL, seeing someone. No!
844
01:04:15,484 --> 01:04:17,587
Uh, I'll do it...
I'll do it.
845
01:04:21,824 --> 01:04:23,693
If you're gonna be
spending the night
846
01:04:23,759 --> 01:04:24,894
at someone's house, Vada--
847
01:04:24,994 --> 01:04:28,064
I'm not
having sex, Mom!
848
01:04:28,164 --> 01:04:30,333
- Okay.
- Oh, my God!
849
01:04:30,399 --> 01:04:31,868
What are you doing?
850
01:04:38,040 --> 01:04:40,443
Last night, I slept over
at my friend Mia's house
851
01:04:40,543 --> 01:04:42,678
- and I got drunk.
- You got drunk?
852
01:04:42,745 --> 01:04:45,348
Yeah, Mom, I got drunk.
853
01:04:45,414 --> 01:04:48,251
I am 16 years old
and I drink alcohol,
854
01:04:48,351 --> 01:04:50,686
and here's the thing,
I don't even like drinking.
855
01:04:50,753 --> 01:04:52,955
I was just tryin' to live
in the moment,
856
01:04:53,055 --> 01:04:56,259
and feel shit, and YOLO
or something, okay?
857
01:05:03,933 --> 01:05:07,870
Now if you excuse me,
I am hungover as shit
858
01:05:07,937 --> 01:05:09,805
and I'm gonna go barf
in the shower.
859
01:05:12,942 --> 01:05:14,410
Who's Mia?
860
01:05:14,477 --> 01:05:15,945
Who's Mia?
861
01:05:29,592 --> 01:05:31,127
I'm not even tryin' to be rude,
I'm just--
862
01:05:31,227 --> 01:05:33,129
I'm super busy
and I don't have the time.
863
01:05:33,229 --> 01:05:34,597
So.
864
01:05:35,598 --> 01:05:36,933
Okay.
865
01:05:40,903 --> 01:05:42,338
I'm sorry
I never called you back,
866
01:05:42,438 --> 01:05:45,074
but you didn't have
to get me in trouble, dude.
867
01:05:45,141 --> 01:05:47,076
Vada, I was just
worried about you.
868
01:05:47,143 --> 01:05:48,311
When I didn't hear back
from you,
869
01:05:48,411 --> 01:05:49,745
I felt like I had to call
your mom,
870
01:05:49,812 --> 01:05:51,147
'cause the last time
I had seen you,
871
01:05:51,247 --> 01:05:53,616
you had literally done drugs
at school.
872
01:05:53,683 --> 01:05:55,151
So I was like, "Okay, cool.
873
01:05:55,251 --> 01:05:58,187
Maybe she's like having
a serotonin drop from hell
874
01:05:58,287 --> 01:06:02,458
and she's like suicidal
on a bridge somewhere and...
875
01:06:02,525 --> 01:06:04,694
Then to hear like how freaked
your family was all night,
876
01:06:04,794 --> 01:06:06,162
I just...
877
01:06:06,262 --> 01:06:08,030
I don't know, I hoped that
878
01:06:08,130 --> 01:06:10,199
whatever you went and did
was worth everything
you put them through.
879
01:06:10,299 --> 01:06:12,034
But, you know what?
880
01:06:12,134 --> 01:06:13,869
I'm guessing
uh, it's more likely you were
with Mia Reed somewhere,
881
01:06:13,970 --> 01:06:15,871
acting like nothing happened.
882
01:06:15,972 --> 01:06:18,874
Why're you being like this?
883
01:06:18,975 --> 01:06:21,510
Because I've
waited for you, Vada.
884
01:06:21,610 --> 01:06:26,449
For a month,
I've given you space
and love to heal.
885
01:06:26,515 --> 01:06:28,384
But I've been dealing with this
my own way!
886
01:06:28,484 --> 01:06:31,554
You haven't
dealt with anything,
that's the problem!
887
01:06:31,654 --> 01:06:33,823
All I wanna do
is try my hardest
to stop this
888
01:06:33,889 --> 01:06:35,224
from ever happening again.
889
01:06:35,324 --> 01:06:39,462
Like why is that so hard
for you to understand?
890
01:06:39,528 --> 01:06:41,731
That's not fucking fair, Nick.
891
01:06:41,831 --> 01:06:44,066
None of this is fair, Vada.
892
01:06:47,837 --> 01:06:50,473
Yeah, yeah.
Mmm-hmm, go be with Mia.
893
01:06:50,539 --> 01:06:52,875
She's gonna save the world
with her hot ass.
894
01:06:52,975 --> 01:06:54,243
Fuck you, Nick.
895
01:06:54,343 --> 01:06:55,244
Wow.
896
01:06:56,846 --> 01:06:58,080
Nice.
897
01:07:02,251 --> 01:07:04,253
He's just hurtin',
I think we all are.
898
01:07:04,353 --> 01:07:08,557
He was so cruel about it!
899
01:07:08,657 --> 01:07:11,427
Yeah, but you know,
he's under a lot of pressure.
900
01:07:11,527 --> 01:07:12,895
He has to be the face of this,
901
01:07:12,995 --> 01:07:17,433
just act brave, but, well,
he's scared, too.
902
01:07:17,533 --> 01:07:19,268
You know,
fear makes people act crazy.
903
01:07:21,704 --> 01:07:23,572
Okay, I...
904
01:07:23,672 --> 01:07:25,541
Like I'm sorry for like
905
01:07:25,608 --> 01:07:28,010
calling you and dumping
all of this on you,
906
01:07:28,077 --> 01:07:32,048
especially, because it's
been the hardest on you.
907
01:07:32,114 --> 01:07:33,682
It's hard on everyone.
908
01:07:37,353 --> 01:07:40,389
I think for me, you know,
when it hurts too much,
909
01:07:40,456 --> 01:07:44,560
I think about
how this can't be for nothing.
910
01:07:44,627 --> 01:07:46,695
Like, oh,
we won't even let this
be for not... Like, it...
911
01:07:46,762 --> 01:07:48,397
It can't be for nothing,
you know?
912
01:07:48,464 --> 01:07:50,699
Fuck. Yeah.
913
01:07:56,906 --> 01:07:58,274
Tell me about your brother.
914
01:08:03,279 --> 01:08:04,980
I just wanna know
more about him.
915
01:08:09,485 --> 01:08:12,888
He was, uh, real quiet
916
01:08:12,955 --> 01:08:14,290
when you first met him.
917
01:08:15,758 --> 01:08:18,394
He watched everything now,
you know.
918
01:08:18,461 --> 01:08:19,829
Like, he'd be like,
919
01:08:19,929 --> 01:08:21,497
"Oh, that girl is gonna go home
with that guy
920
01:08:21,597 --> 01:08:23,632
and that guy is gonna go home
with that girl and..."
921
01:08:23,732 --> 01:08:26,735
Like, he was always right.
922
01:08:26,802 --> 01:08:28,804
He was funny.
923
01:08:28,904 --> 01:08:31,640
Like always making me laugh.
924
01:08:36,278 --> 01:08:37,580
He, uh...
925
01:08:39,682 --> 01:08:41,317
He sounds dope.
926
01:08:47,423 --> 01:08:49,692
I feel him.
927
01:08:49,792 --> 01:08:53,696
Now I know this sounds crazy
to say like...
928
01:08:53,796 --> 01:08:57,133
I just...
I know he's still with me.
929
01:08:57,199 --> 01:08:59,201
He's not gonna let me
go back and be sad,
930
01:08:59,301 --> 01:09:02,538
he's not gonna
let me go forward
and freak out.
931
01:09:02,638 --> 01:09:05,474
He keeps me here.
932
01:09:05,541 --> 01:09:07,476
He keeps me calm.
933
01:09:10,346 --> 01:09:12,648
I think he's definitely
still here.
934
01:09:14,450 --> 01:09:16,619
Lot of people
don't ask me about him.
935
01:09:16,685 --> 01:09:20,789
They think I'mma like
cry or somethin'.
936
01:09:20,856 --> 01:09:24,226
Um, well, thank you.
937
01:09:29,365 --> 01:09:32,034
You can always talk
about him around me.
938
01:09:49,185 --> 01:09:51,420
Wait, wait.
I'm sorry, I...
939
01:09:51,520 --> 01:09:53,756
What's wrong?
940
01:09:53,856 --> 01:09:57,026
I'm just going through a lot
right now, it's just...
941
01:09:57,092 --> 01:09:59,762
I just don't know
if I'm in the right headspace
right now.
942
01:10:02,264 --> 01:10:04,333
- I'm sorry.
- Oh, my God.
943
01:10:04,400 --> 01:10:06,368
- I am so sorry!
- No, you're okay.
944
01:10:06,435 --> 01:10:08,170
I'm... No, of course, you are.
I'm so sorry.
945
01:10:08,237 --> 01:10:10,039
You're perfect, I like you,
it's just...
946
01:10:10,105 --> 01:10:11,373
- I'm so sorry.
- V, I swear, you didn't do
anything wrong.
947
01:10:11,440 --> 01:10:12,875
I am so sorry, okay?
948
01:10:12,942 --> 01:10:14,610
No, don't be sorry, it's...
It's not like that.
949
01:10:14,710 --> 01:10:15,911
I am so sorry. I am so sorry.
950
01:10:48,711 --> 01:10:50,212
I can't sleep.
951
01:11:01,624 --> 01:11:04,793
You know, I can always see
where you are on Find A Friend
952
01:11:04,893 --> 01:11:06,795
when your phone isn't dead.
953
01:11:06,895 --> 01:11:09,231
You better delete me
off of that.
954
01:11:09,298 --> 01:11:10,599
Like tomorrow,
955
01:11:10,666 --> 01:11:12,501
so I don't tell Mom
about your Finsta.
956
01:11:12,601 --> 01:11:13,802
Fine!
957
01:11:15,604 --> 01:11:17,172
Why do you care where I am?
958
01:11:17,273 --> 01:11:18,440
I don't.
959
01:11:21,477 --> 01:11:24,246
You're always at a house
in North Bay.
960
01:11:24,313 --> 01:11:25,414
Why?
961
01:11:25,481 --> 01:11:27,650
It's where my friend Mia lives.
962
01:11:27,750 --> 01:11:28,917
Hmm.
963
01:11:37,259 --> 01:11:40,696
V, I'm scared.
964
01:11:40,796 --> 01:11:42,331
Of what?
965
01:11:45,034 --> 01:11:47,670
What if...
966
01:11:53,142 --> 01:11:56,478
What if a shooter comes
to my school next?
967
01:11:58,113 --> 01:11:59,882
It won't happen.
968
01:11:59,982 --> 01:12:01,483
How do you know?
969
01:12:11,360 --> 01:12:13,796
Sorry, I almost got you
killed in a shooting.
970
01:12:20,235 --> 01:12:21,970
What're you talking about?
971
01:12:22,037 --> 01:12:24,373
If I hadn't texted you
about my stupid period,
972
01:12:24,473 --> 01:12:26,675
you wouldn't have
left the classroom.
973
01:12:26,742 --> 01:12:29,311
You would've been safe.
974
01:12:29,378 --> 01:12:31,814
- You could've died.
- That's not true.
975
01:12:31,880 --> 01:12:33,215
Yes, it is!
976
01:12:33,315 --> 01:12:34,483
Quinton's brother died,
'cause he was walking
977
01:12:34,550 --> 01:12:36,218
in the same hallway.
978
01:12:39,822 --> 01:12:42,257
It wasn't safe anywhere
979
01:12:42,358 --> 01:12:44,093
Definitely wasn't your fault.
980
01:12:44,193 --> 01:12:48,530
Then why have you been
so mad at me?
981
01:12:48,597 --> 01:12:51,200
I haven't been mad at you.
982
01:12:51,266 --> 01:12:52,868
Why do you keep thinking that?
983
01:12:52,935 --> 01:12:54,770
Because...
984
01:12:55,871 --> 01:12:58,507
You're never home anymore.
985
01:12:58,574 --> 01:13:00,409
You never talk to me.
986
01:13:01,844 --> 01:13:05,180
We never went to dinner
to talk about...
987
01:13:05,714 --> 01:13:07,082
periods.
988
01:13:12,254 --> 01:13:14,289
I'm sorry, but I'm definitely
not mad at you.
989
01:13:20,195 --> 01:13:23,065
Can I tell you something that
I've not told anybody before?
990
01:13:28,904 --> 01:13:30,773
We were in the bathroom.
991
01:13:32,241 --> 01:13:34,042
And the stall where we hid,
992
01:13:35,878 --> 01:13:37,913
there was a moment where I...
993
01:13:37,980 --> 01:13:39,648
really thought
I was gonna die.
994
01:13:41,817 --> 01:13:44,052
And it was
the scariest moment of my life.
995
01:13:47,089 --> 01:13:52,060
And the only person
I could think of was you.
996
01:13:52,127 --> 01:13:54,763
Do you remember when I sent you
that "I love you, too"?
997
01:13:56,432 --> 01:13:58,400
I thought I only had time
to text one person,
998
01:13:58,467 --> 01:13:59,568
so I texted you.
999
01:14:02,504 --> 01:14:04,173
I didn't know that.
1000
01:14:07,743 --> 01:14:10,512
You're my favorite person
on Earth, Millie.
1001
01:14:15,451 --> 01:14:17,085
Even if you get married
one day?
1002
01:14:17,152 --> 01:14:19,154
No, fuck a husband.
1003
01:14:21,023 --> 01:14:22,624
You're my number one.
1004
01:14:29,765 --> 01:14:31,834
Don't let go.
1005
01:15:25,854 --> 01:15:27,589
I don't know
what's wrong with me.
1006
01:15:28,690 --> 01:15:30,559
Nothing is wrong with you.
1007
01:15:30,659 --> 01:15:33,495
Oh, Dad, I...
1008
01:15:33,562 --> 01:15:35,063
I feel so...
1009
01:15:36,698 --> 01:15:38,033
empty.
1010
01:15:38,100 --> 01:15:41,603
Vada, you went
through something
1011
01:15:41,703 --> 01:15:44,239
no one should ever have
to go through.
1012
01:15:47,409 --> 01:15:49,444
I can't imagine
how scared you feel.
1013
01:15:56,552 --> 01:15:58,453
Life's fuckin' hard.
1014
01:15:58,554 --> 01:16:01,523
I'm sorry
for saying "fucking".
1015
01:16:01,590 --> 01:16:03,892
No, you're right.
1016
01:16:03,959 --> 01:16:06,094
Life's fucking hard!
1017
01:16:06,194 --> 01:16:07,296
Dad.
1018
01:16:07,396 --> 01:16:09,197
What? No one's around.
1019
01:16:09,264 --> 01:16:12,100
Try it, it feels good.
1020
01:16:12,200 --> 01:16:14,803
Life is fucking crazy!
1021
01:16:18,707 --> 01:16:20,108
Yeah!
1022
01:16:21,043 --> 01:16:22,144
Fuck!
1023
01:16:24,046 --> 01:16:26,715
Life's fucking confusing!
1024
01:16:35,924 --> 01:16:38,327
I can't fucking feel anything!
1025
01:16:38,427 --> 01:16:39,394
Good one.
1026
01:16:40,662 --> 01:16:42,631
Fuck you, Matt Corgan!
1027
01:16:42,731 --> 01:16:45,167
Yeah, fuck you!
1028
01:16:46,802 --> 01:16:50,472
I'm scared to go to school
every day!
1029
01:16:50,572 --> 01:16:53,842
I'm scared to take my children
to school!
1030
01:16:55,143 --> 01:16:56,612
I'm scared to sleep!
1031
01:16:57,913 --> 01:17:00,282
I'm scared of...
1032
01:17:00,349 --> 01:17:02,117
time!
1033
01:17:03,318 --> 01:17:05,354
We're not even
swearing anymore, Dad.
1034
01:17:05,454 --> 01:17:06,788
Still feels good.
1035
01:17:09,691 --> 01:17:12,294
I'm incredibly proud
1036
01:17:12,361 --> 01:17:15,697
of how smart and amazing
1037
01:17:15,797 --> 01:17:17,032
my daughter is!
1038
01:17:17,132 --> 01:17:20,535
Dad, don't be fucking cheesy!
1039
01:17:20,636 --> 01:17:22,638
- Please!
1040
01:17:23,872 --> 01:17:26,041
Never again.
1041
01:17:28,443 --> 01:17:30,012
Ah!
1042
01:18:17,159 --> 01:18:18,226
Mia?
1043
01:18:36,845 --> 01:18:38,346
Mia?
1044
01:18:51,426 --> 01:18:53,061
Oh, my god!
1045
01:18:54,096 --> 01:18:55,697
Mia?
1046
01:18:57,466 --> 01:18:59,101
- Mia?
1047
01:19:00,736 --> 01:19:02,204
My God.
1048
01:19:03,605 --> 01:19:05,107
I'm just sweating out.
1049
01:19:05,207 --> 01:19:06,742
I thought you were
fucking dead, dude.
1050
01:19:06,808 --> 01:19:08,410
Don't scare me like that.
1051
01:19:08,477 --> 01:19:09,745
Ah...
1052
01:19:09,811 --> 01:19:10,912
Come on.
1053
01:19:10,979 --> 01:19:12,280
Come on.
1054
01:19:24,760 --> 01:19:26,228
Do you hate me?
1055
01:19:28,497 --> 01:19:31,733
No. Why would I hate you?
1056
01:19:36,438 --> 01:19:38,173
Just scared the shit out of me.
1057
01:19:45,347 --> 01:19:46,915
And I don't regret it.
1058
01:19:49,951 --> 01:19:53,121
Just scared it was gonna like
ruin our friendship
or something.
1059
01:19:57,526 --> 01:19:59,928
Yeah, I was scared
of that, too.
1060
01:20:06,134 --> 01:20:08,370
Then let's not ruin anything?
1061
01:20:11,106 --> 01:20:12,641
Okay.
1062
01:20:33,862 --> 01:20:37,365
I think I'm gonna go back to
dance tomorrow.
1063
01:20:37,465 --> 01:20:40,335
Even though, I'm like literally
scared to leave my house,
1064
01:20:40,402 --> 01:20:42,204
I know I need to do it.
1065
01:20:42,304 --> 01:20:44,239
That's amazing.
You totally should.
1066
01:20:49,211 --> 01:20:50,378
Well, what are you gonna do?
1067
01:20:50,478 --> 01:20:52,547
I'm gonna go with you.
1068
01:20:52,647 --> 01:20:54,482
No, you're not.
We never discussed this.
1069
01:20:54,549 --> 01:20:57,352
Stop trying to get rid of me!
1070
01:20:59,588 --> 01:21:01,523
I am Postmate-ing us
frozen yogurt.
1071
01:21:05,727 --> 01:21:07,229
I think I actually want some.
1072
01:21:07,329 --> 01:21:09,164
Okay, then push.
1073
01:21:12,400 --> 01:21:14,269
I like the doodles.
1074
01:21:14,369 --> 01:21:17,172
Who's that guy?
Is that Harry Potter?
1075
01:21:17,239 --> 01:21:18,607
That's Paul Dano.
1076
01:21:18,707 --> 01:21:20,075
He's my celebrity crush.
1077
01:21:25,080 --> 01:21:26,448
How was this?
1078
01:21:26,548 --> 01:21:29,384
Processing through
all these emotions?
1079
01:21:29,451 --> 01:21:30,452
Good.
1080
01:21:32,287 --> 01:21:36,024
I had a lot of ups and downs,
1081
01:21:36,091 --> 01:21:39,728
but I feel like
I felt everything.
1082
01:21:39,794 --> 01:21:41,630
So that's...
1083
01:21:41,730 --> 01:21:43,431
It's good, I guess.
1084
01:21:43,531 --> 01:21:47,135
I noticed that you used
the word "scared" a few times.
1085
01:21:47,235 --> 01:21:48,737
When did you feel
the most scared?
1086
01:21:53,708 --> 01:21:55,277
Being at school.
1087
01:21:57,746 --> 01:22:00,315
I don't feel comfortable
being back there.
1088
01:22:00,415 --> 01:22:04,219
Can you tell me more
about that?
1089
01:22:04,286 --> 01:22:05,654
You know,
all these kids from my school,
1090
01:22:05,754 --> 01:22:09,324
specifically one of
my closest friends, Nick,
1091
01:22:09,424 --> 01:22:12,394
who I love so much, um...
1092
01:22:13,595 --> 01:22:16,264
they've been able to take
1093
01:22:16,331 --> 01:22:18,400
what happened, and...
1094
01:22:20,402 --> 01:22:25,507
are literally using it
to change the world.
1095
01:22:25,607 --> 01:22:28,410
Like, they're doing so much
amazing stuff and...
1096
01:22:32,914 --> 01:22:36,251
For some reason, I feel like
I'm unable to do that.
1097
01:22:40,188 --> 01:22:44,092
I feel like
it has kind of ended
our friendship.
1098
01:22:48,363 --> 01:22:49,864
Sucks.
1099
01:22:51,533 --> 01:22:53,468
'Cause I really,
really miss him.
1100
01:22:55,337 --> 01:22:57,005
What are you feeling right now?
1101
01:23:00,175 --> 01:23:02,010
I don't know.
1102
01:23:02,110 --> 01:23:03,445
Yes, you do.
1103
01:23:13,321 --> 01:23:14,889
I feel...
1104
01:23:19,027 --> 01:23:20,662
mad.
1105
01:23:23,298 --> 01:23:24,466
Mad about what?
1106
01:23:24,532 --> 01:23:28,136
I feel mad,
because I had no idea
1107
01:23:28,203 --> 01:23:29,337
one guy with a gun
1108
01:23:29,404 --> 01:23:31,906
could fuck up my life so hard
1109
01:23:32,007 --> 01:23:34,342
in six minutes.
1110
01:23:34,409 --> 01:23:37,078
Fuck up so many lives!
1111
01:23:37,178 --> 01:23:40,248
Then I think I should be
grateful to be alive.
1112
01:23:42,050 --> 01:23:44,252
I feel like, I don't know,
maybe there's some
1113
01:23:44,352 --> 01:23:46,321
weird fucked up reason why
1114
01:23:46,388 --> 01:23:50,025
I made it
and other people didn't.
1115
01:23:50,091 --> 01:23:53,528
Um, but then when you sit back
1116
01:23:53,595 --> 01:23:58,233
and you think about it,
you realize, "No!
1117
01:23:58,333 --> 01:23:59,701
There isn't.
1118
01:24:02,337 --> 01:24:03,605
There's no fucking reason."
1119
01:24:05,373 --> 01:24:07,375
None of us should've died.
1120
01:24:26,728 --> 01:24:29,697
I'm having a really hard time
moving on.
1121
01:24:51,319 --> 01:24:53,721
Oh, hi.
1122
01:24:53,788 --> 01:24:55,323
I'm sorry.
1123
01:24:57,392 --> 01:24:59,461
I love you.
1124
01:24:59,561 --> 01:25:02,730
Sweetheart, I love you, too.
1125
01:25:02,797 --> 01:25:06,000
I'm gonna try to be more honest
with you about my life.
1126
01:25:07,335 --> 01:25:08,403
You know what?
1127
01:25:08,470 --> 01:25:12,774
I would really,
really like that.
1128
01:25:17,112 --> 01:25:19,013
I've been really struggling.
1129
01:25:19,114 --> 01:25:20,515
Mmm-hmm.
1130
01:25:20,615 --> 01:25:22,684
And I don't know why it's been
so hard to tell you like,
1131
01:25:22,784 --> 01:25:24,486
'cause I just didn't
want you to worry.
1132
01:25:24,586 --> 01:25:28,089
And you're right, I was acting
funny that time I was drunk,
1133
01:25:28,156 --> 01:25:31,259
because I did have sex
with someone.
1134
01:25:31,326 --> 01:25:33,928
And I was a little bit stoned,
but not as stoned
1135
01:25:33,995 --> 01:25:36,464
as I was when I was on E.
1136
01:25:36,531 --> 01:25:38,032
Jesus, that was rough.
1137
01:25:38,133 --> 01:25:40,201
And the person I was having sex
with wasn't the person
1138
01:25:40,301 --> 01:25:42,337
that I thought
I was maybe gonna
be having sex with,
1139
01:25:42,437 --> 01:25:44,339
but I'm...
I'm telling you all of this,
1140
01:25:44,439 --> 01:25:47,041
because I want you to know
that I'm...
1141
01:25:47,142 --> 01:25:50,278
I'm never gonna do any of that
stuff ever again.
1142
01:25:50,345 --> 01:25:52,313
You know, the bad...
The bad stuff.
1143
01:25:53,982 --> 01:25:55,717
Mmm-hmm.
1144
01:25:57,152 --> 01:25:58,486
Mmm-hmm.
1145
01:26:00,688 --> 01:26:03,958
Okay. Well,
thank you for uh...
1146
01:26:05,326 --> 01:26:06,528
For trusting me.
1147
01:26:07,328 --> 01:26:08,696
With this information.
1148
01:26:15,136 --> 01:26:16,304
Was that too much?
1149
01:26:16,371 --> 01:26:18,406
No! I am...
1150
01:26:20,175 --> 01:26:21,676
I'm processing.
1151
01:26:24,179 --> 01:26:25,547
Don't worry,
it was with a girl.
1152
01:26:25,647 --> 01:26:26,681
Hmm?
1153
01:26:26,748 --> 01:26:28,149
The sex stuff.
1154
01:26:28,216 --> 01:26:30,552
It was with a girl,
1155
01:26:30,652 --> 01:26:32,353
so it's not
like I'm gonna get pregnant.
1156
01:26:32,420 --> 01:26:34,589
That's a bonus, right?
1157
01:26:34,689 --> 01:26:36,591
Yeah.
1158
01:26:36,691 --> 01:26:38,660
Bonus.
1159
01:26:48,369 --> 01:26:50,572
Okay.
1160
01:26:50,672 --> 01:26:52,941
I'm... I'm ready
to talk about it more now.
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