Original subtitles

Are you nervous?

Jacob?

Jacob, are you hiding?

Jacob?

Hmm.

I wonder where Jacob could be.

Hey!

I got you.

Yeah, you got me. What are you doing up in the attic?

You know you're not supposed to be up here.

I, um, was hiding.

Yeah, well, why don't we get your best man clothes on

so we can get this show on the road?

No, thank you.

Whoa! Oh!

Hey, hey, hey.

The sooner we get this over with, the sooner we can all have cake.

I don't wanna wear the tie.

You're gonna look really good with the tie on.

You're gonna look like me.

Then I want two pieces of cake.

Deal.

And I want a real train set with lights, bridges, and houses.

You drive a hard bargain.

Let's go get married.

And now, Mark and Elizabeth will recite their vows.

No pressure, just pretend like we're not here.

I, uh...

Uh, summer before law school,

I spent half my financial aid money on a really expensive bike,

and then I crashed it in some middle of nowhere trail.

But I was lucky because there was this beautiful girl out hiking that day.

Me.

And she gave me her whole pack of Life Savers.

And kissed me to take my mind off the pain.

Thank you for saving my life.

I vow to make it up to you every day.

I was kinda hoping you'd vow to fix up this house.

Okay. Yeah, all right. I'll do that, too.

And Elizabeth. Oh.

Hold that.

We had, um, eight years, one child,

one unrealized dream house, your law school,

and my MFA to think about this whole marriage thing,

and now I don't know

why it took us so long, because there is no me without you.

- Is that it? Are we married? - Yeah!

-Rings. -Okay.

Okay, buddy. All right.

-Okay. -Thank you.

Okay.

It fits.

And now, by the power vested in me by the Church of Universal Life

and by the Internet, I finally pronounce you husband and wife.

And you're already kissing the bride, so my work here is done.

Time for cake!

Cake!

Aw.

Aw.

Time for the honeymoon?

Yeah, it's time for the honeymoon.

♪ Are you sleeping? Are you sleeping? ♪

♪ Brother John, Brother John ♪

♪ Morning bells are ringing Morning bells are ringing ♪

♪ Ding, ding, dong Ding, ding, dong ♪

♪ Are you sleeping? Are you sleeping? ♪

♪ Brother John, Brother John ♪

♪ Morning bells are ringing Morning bells are ringing ♪

♪ Ding, ding, dong Ding, ding, dong ♪

New interns?

I am so sorry.

It's parent-teacher conference day

and I, I totally missed the memo. But my sister's on her way in to get them.

So... Guys.

Is that my monkey?

Um...

Riley, we don't take things that are not ours. Okay?

That, that belongs to Mr. Bennett. So let's please bring it inside.

Go on.

Thank you.

Sorry about that. Let's go. Thank you.

Mr. Johnson, please report to the rec room.

Mr. Johnson, in the rec room.

Hi, Dad. It's me. It's Mark.

I know.

I know my own son when I see him.

Why you eating this crap? It's all sugar.

-I thought you moved away. -I did, Chicago.

But I'm back.

Been back a year. How you doing?

I'm up for a promotion. Head of the department.

Not sure I'm going to take it, obviously.

I don't know if I wanna manage a whole department.

You're retired, Dad.

You don't have to manage anything.

- That woman looks just like Elizabeth. - Coming up next, author Elizabeth Welles

is celebrating a remarkable year on the bestseller list for her memoir--

- It is Elizabeth. - ...Upwelling, A Year By The Sea.

What's she doing on TV?

She wrote a book.

Well, that's wonderful. How is she?

We're divorced, Dad.

We've been divorced for six years.

I hope you're not letting her raise that boy all alone,

because a boy needs his father.

Jacob's dead.

Seven years.

Seven years ago, today.

Hey, Gary, what's up?

Hey, buddy, how's it going?

Look, I got some bad news for you.

Your tenants moved out in the middle of the night

and managed to trash the place

-before they went. -They just moved in.

Gary, what is so hard about finding a nice long-term tenant?

What can I say? People are pigs.

Do you want me to list it again? I can get a crew in there to clean up.

Sell it.

You sure?

Let me stop by, pick up some stuff out of the attic.

I'll call you when I'm done.

Shoot.

Hey!

Hey!

What? What's going on? Huh?

Oh, my God! Are you okay? I'm so sorry.

I promised to take him fishing. It's totally my fault.

-That's not a toy. -Can I get you a Band-Aid?

Have you had a tetanus shot in the last ten years?

You might want to get a tetanus shot.

Peggy?

Peg?

-What? -Hey! Uh, is Peggy around?

No, Peggy is not around. Who are you?

I'm Janice. I come in peace.

You know when she'll be back?

Never, by the look of things.

She and her boyfriend, Steve,

trashed the place and skipped out on the rent.

-Are you the landlord? -Owner.

You know where I can find Peggy and Steve?

No. I had their number in my phone,

but it bricked when I tried to upgrade my operating system.

That is why I stopped by.

All right. Good night.

Well, is everything, um, okay?

-You know, with the house? -Why?

Well, you said it was trashed

and I noticed the broken windows.

What can I say? People are pigs.

Yeah, well, just in case you need to reach me, here's my card.

I'm a medium.

I was doing some consulting for Peggy and Steve, you know.

So if you feel like you need some consulting,

then you know where to reach me.

Great.

I also walk dogs.

-You got dogs? -No dogs.

Good night.

Okay. Good night.

You've reached Elizabeth Welles.

Please leave a message and I'll return your call.

Uh, hi.

Elizabeth, Mark here.

I wanted to let you know that I'm finally selling the house,

and there is a lot of stuff up in the attic.

Uh, figured you might want some of it. So, why don't you call me back on this number, and I'll...

♪ The first time ♪

♪ Ever I saw your face... ♪

♪ I thought the sun ♪

♪ Rose in your eyes ♪

♪ And the moon and the stars ♪

♪ Were the gifts you gave ♪

♪ To the dark ♪

♪ And the endless skies ♪

♪ My love ♪

♪ To the dark ♪

Daddy.

Shit.

Oh, Mark. I've been trying to call you.

-What... -My phone is dead.

And there are some pictures on here that I need.

All right. I will take care of it. I'm sure it won't be a problem.

Listen. Don't go in there yet.

Kate's in the conference room with everyone already, okay?

They've been waiting for you.

Mark, are you all right?

Okay, um...

Here.

Eat these, I'll tell them you'll be right in. Okay?

We know your project is on an accelerated schedule,

with extensive environmental issues.

Our firm is prepared to represent your interest

in every level of local and state government.

Mark actually has a lot of expertise in the area.

He used to counsel the other side. Mark?

Mark?

Hey. New phone.

They couldn't bring your old one back to life,

but they recovered all your data.

Thank you.

You're, you're welcome.

Thanks for those Goldfish and the Band-Aids.

How is your shoulder? You okay?

Listen, I would appreciate it if you asked your kid not to play in my house anymore.

Dash? In your house?

Yeah.

No, no. He stays here.

Sometimes he plays out in the yard, but...

Well, someone was running around in my attic last night.

Maybe you have rats.

Where's Mommy?

I miss Mommy.

-Elizabeth? -Mmm-hmm?

-Someone's here. -Hmm?

-I'm sorry. I'm sorry. --Mark?

-I, uh... I called you. -Wow.

Hi!

Did you get my messages?

I'm not sure. I've just been... I've been, um...

Who is he?

Oh, um...

Uh, Emma, Isabelle, this is my friend, Mark.

- Okay. Okay. - All right, just five minutes.

I'm gonna go over there. Will you stay with Martha?

- Come, ninas. - Go get the bubbles.

If it's about the house, you don't need my permission.

I need to talk to you.

Look, I don't really have time to chat.

It's your house now, you bought me out.

I need you to come out there with me.

I'm busy, Mark. I'm working,

I have a deadline, I have the girls.

It's important. Elizabeth, it's about Jacob.

I don't need things to remind me of my son.

It's been six years. I don't ask you for anything.

Okay, um, obviously, there's something going on with you.

Whatever it is, I hope it works out.

Sell the house or don't sell the house,

you do whatever you need to do, okay?

Goodbye, Mark.

Girls, are you almost ready for lunch?

Jacob?

I tried, but your Mommy's...

On a trip.

So she can't see you right now.

But she told me to bring you a present.

You wanna see it?

Army men.

You always wanted army men, but...

We never let you have them

because they're violent and barbaric and probably toxic,

but all that seems pretty stupid now.

So...

Army men.

All right, Mr. Bananas.

It's me or you.

Stress.

Early onset dementia.

Accidental mescaline ingestion.

Drunk, and drunk.

I lied. I want the stuff.

Cool. Good.

Come in.

Uh...

You want a drink?

Nice army men.

Thank you.

I thought you stopped drinking.

I did, mostly.

Mostly...

I did.

I just want the stuff, Mark.

Is this it? Did you already take what you wanted?

Yeah.

-I gotta show you something. -What are you doing?

-I gotta show you this. -Mark!

Mark, stop it!

Boo!

Boo, Mommy!

Wait, that was him!

Elizabeth!

That was, that was Jacob!

Hey, he was there!

You didn't see him?

You're sick, Mark. You get yourself some help.

Jacob.

Hey.

Hey.

Hey.

I know I'm not supposed to be in your house, but the door was wide open.

And I wanted to see if you were dead.

Thanks.

She hit you really hard.

I'll live.

Keep your hands up in front of your face, like this.

If she wants to fight again.

Who taught you that?

My taekwondo teacher.

It's a good tip.

Is she your girlfriend?

My wife.

We're divorced.

My parents are divorced.

I don't see my dad.

He doesn't like kids.

I'm sure that's not true.

-I don't think you like kids, either. -I like kids.

Why don't you have any?

I did. I had a son.

He died when he was five.

My cat died last year.

He had eye cancer.

What happened to your son?

Car crash.

It was raining, I swerved.

He was thrown from his booster seat and his head hit the glass.

It happened fast.

I always wear my seat belt.

Even on the school bus. All the other kids make fun of me.

Fuck 'em.

Dash, it's time for school.

Look, don't, don't tell my mom I'm here.

So, uh, you're a dog walker/medium, huh?

I walk dogs on the side.

It's good money, it's steady work, plus dogs are awesome.

Unlike people.

So, what's going on?

I saw my dead son. In the house.

You saw him?

You didn't conjure him, did you?

No.

You have a brain tumor or some other terminal condition?

Not that I'm aware of, no.

Family history of mental illness?

My father has dementia.

Technically, that's a cognitive disorder, not a mental illness, so...

What did he want? What, what did you talk about?

It wasn't exactly a conversation, but...

Uh...

He wants his mother.

Hmm, well, bring her to him.

I tried, and, um, she didn't believe it was him.

Then I guess it's up to you.

What is up to me?

Your son is dead.

So, what is he doing here in the land of the living?

Maybe he's lost. Maybe he has some unfinished business.

What kind of unfinished business could a five-year-old have?

How should I know? I'm not a child psychiatrist.

The point is, he needs you to help him move on.

What if I don't want him to move on?

Your son does not belong here.

He's lost.

And he needs something from you.

You need to ask him what he wants. Be direct.

And then give it to him.

Okay.

Good luck.

Hey.

My room's all back.

My fort!

You made this train.

I remember.

I stayed up all night sanding, so I could give it to you on your birthday.

Can I ask you something?

Okay.

Do you know why you're here?

I lived here.

Do you need something from me?

You promised me you would get me a real train set that runs by itself,

with bridges, lights, and little houses.

I did?

At the wedding.

That rings a bell.

When's Mommy coming back?

It might just be you and me for a while, buddy.

Mommy can't see you like I can.

Yes, she can. She's just afraid.

-I just want to talk. -Talk to a shrink.

Will you please come back to the house with me?

You don't believe in God, now you believe in ghosts?

He says you knew it was him.

-You were drunk. -But you weren't.

I can't explain it.

I don't know why he's here. But he is.

And he's asking for you.

You can't touch him.

Mommy! I knew you'd come.

Elizabeth, you can't touch him.

How is this possible?

Again?

-What? -Again?

-Yeah. -Okay.

I don't understand.

I mean, what?

I know.

He's got his little tooth.

He never...

He never lost his tooth.

Yeah, he's got that sweet tooth.

Oh, my God.

He's so funny, isn't he?

He is. Yeah, he is.

I guess I'll get some stuff and come back in the morning?

I'm gonna...

I'm gonna tell Smith that I need an office outside the house

and that I'm working on a follow up to my book, so...

So maybe we can switch off.

I can take the days since you have to go to the office, and you can have the nights

and the weekends. Okay?

Okay.

What else should we make?

Rocket ship.

Rocket ship?

-Yep, rocket ship. -Rocket ship it is!

Okay, here it comes.

Okay, there's the, that part.

Jets.

Now we need some fire at the bottom and some boosters.

Okay. Boosters.

Okay. What do you think?

It looks more like a popsicle.

I was gone for a few days.

Five days.

Hundred and twenty billable hours.

So what's going on?

You've been with us for how long, six years now?

Three different cities.

You're a machine.

I love that. But I have to be able to depend on you.

How did it go today?

Good. It was really good.

-So you're taking off? -Yeah. I'll see you tomorrow.

You used to make monsters on the wall with your hands.

Like this?

Here is my two-mouthed bulldog.

Hello?

Mark? You're supposed to be at work.

-I quit. -You quit?

So, what? You're just, you're just planning to...

Spend some time here.

As long as he's here, I'm gonna be with him.

What's going on up there? What's he up to today?

What's the problem?

Can't stand to be in the same house with me?

I need time. That's the problem.

You don't get to take him away from me again.

I'm not taking him away.

What are you talking about? I have no idea what you're talking about.

You took him away from me.

You wouldn't talk about him, you put away his pictures,

-you wouldn't celebrate his birthday. -Because he was gone.

You put everything into a little box, and you wouldn't let me in.

You forgot him!

You just sat in your chair and drank your whiskey, and you forgot everything.

I didn't forget.

-You left me all alone! -No, that was you.

You're the one who left, you walked out that door and never came back!

Because I didn't wanna watch you drown yourself in denial.

But I didn't drown, did I?

Hey, maybe it wasn't pretty and spiritual and poetic, but I got through just fine.

You wanted to punish me. You still do.

-What are you talking about? -It wasn't my fault!

- So it was my fault? - Yes!

-Because I swerved for a dog? -You were driving too fast!

It was raining!

Well, you should've hit the goddamn dog!

How hard is it to buckle a goddamn seat belt?

I want it to be like before.

-Okay. -Okay.

We'll clean it up.

No, I want you to be like before.

Hold hands.

Now you could read me a story.

"No sooner had Pinocchio got into bed,

"then he fell asleep at once and began to dream.

"And he dreamt that he was in the middle of a field

"and the field was full of vines covered with clusters of gold coins,

"and as they swung in the wind they went zin, zin, zin,

"almost as if they would say,

'Let who will, come and take us.'"

Okay.

-Okay? -That's enough.

-Oh, you're cut. Your neck is cut. -Hmm?

God, I loved this house.

Me too.

Oh, come on. No, you didn't. You hated this house.

You're wrong.

I just felt bad that I never fixed it up.

I'm sorry.

I didn't want to leave.

I just felt like I didn't have a choice.

-Truce? -Truce.

No more sleeping!

Time to get up!

Time to get up!

Hey.

- Monkey, no jumping. - Why not?

Yeah.

You're right, why not jump on the bed?

Maybe we should both jump on the bed.

Why don't we both jump on the bed?

No, no, you're too big!

You would break it.

Yeah, you're right.

Good call.

-Hey, buddy. -What?

Yesterday, did you do that?

Did you break the glass and throw the toys?

You can't do that anymore.

It's dangerous. Someone could get hurt.

You shouldn't fight.

We're working on it.

I'm serious, Jacob. No more wig outs, okay?

Okay.

I pushed the button.

It's okay.

Just don't do it again.

Rematch!

Whoa! Whoa!

Rematch.

Oh, my God.

Oh, what's that?

I started this list before he was born.

All the things I wanted to do with him.

-I thought I lost it. -Hmm.

"Ride a cable car,

watch shooting stars from the desert,

hike to Yosemite Falls,

teach him to make sun catchers,

watch the sun go down over the ocean

and see the green flash,"

which somebody told me was blue because he's color blind.

Wow.

It's long.

Mmm.

I thought we'd have more time.

-A little... -Where do you want it, here?

How about the top?

You know, my mom and I used to make sun catchers

when I was your age.

You probably don't remember your grandma.

You were so little when she died.

I know. I was just a baby.

You were.

Nice.

Yeah, I think that's good.

Except for one finishing touch.

Okay.

All right, what do you think?

-Good? -It's perfect.

Perfect.

I pushed the button.

Yes, you did.

Yeah, bake. Should we set the timer?

Okay. Where is the timer?

We don't have everything in stock,

but I can order anything you see.

I'll take the whole set.

Daddy went to buy me a real train set.

With lights and houses.

I don't know anything about real trains.

That's between you and Daddy.

Hey. Which blue do you like?

Do you like Pale Winter Dreams

or Arctic Adventure?

Maybe Blueberry Crush, what do you think?

You okay?

Mark?

Stay right here. Okay?

There was someone or something in the house.

Did you see anything?

No.

Oh, Elizabeth.

-What? -You, you blew a gasket.

-What? -Your nose.

Are you okay? Here, give me.

Yeah. Oh, shit.

Was I supposed to buy the kind of paint without the lead?

You're not supposed to eat it.

I just want to hold him, you know?

His skin was so soft

and he was always so warm, even in the winter.

Like a little furnace.

I need him to stay.

How come she doesn't sleep here at night?

What am I, chopped liver?

You are chopped monkey guts.

Hey, you're chopped mealworms.

You're chopped orca brains.

She has other kids now.

Yeah, she does.

But she loves you

very much.

She loves you, too.

She just forgot.

Elizabeth?

I can't sleep.

Let's get you in here.

Is Daddy home?

He'll be home soon.

Okay.

You wanna see what I was looking at?

Yes.

Ready? Here it is.

Yeah.

-Is this from your other wedding? -Mmm-hmm.

There's me.

That's the decoration.

Is that the man who came to the house?

Mmm-hmm.

He was my husband.

I know.

Is that your son?

Yeah, that's Jacob.

He's cute.

Yeah, he's cute.

He looks like you.

-He does, doesn't he? -Yeah.

Mmm.

I look like my mom, too.

Yes, you do.

Is that good?

It won't happen again, cross my heart,

'cause I'm gonna set two alarms now.

Stop worrying about it, Smith. It's not a big deal.

Okay, I'll talk to you later.

I love you, too. Bye.

Where have you been?

The paint store.

Oh, first I slept through the alarm,

then I took the girls to get donuts and then school.

Obviously, they were late but, like,

by a half an hour, so what's the big deal?

You usually come earlier.

Well, I got stuff, Mark, responsibilities.

Not everybody's blissfully unattached.

I'm sorry, that was unnecessary.

I get it. You have a life.

Sometimes I think you had the right idea.

To just forget everything.

Seems like you got everything you wanted, Elizabeth.

Reliable husband,

two cute kids, house that doesn't need fixing up.

You let all the cold, hard grief pass through you,

and leave space for the happiness to grow.

So you read my book?

Yeah, I read it.

I used to read everything you wrote.

I remember.

I just didn't think you'd wanna read it.

Yeah, I wanted to know.

Know what?

How you got through it.

Well...

...don't believe everything you read.

Any part in particular?

I don't know.

All of it, maybe.

I thought I had gotten through it, but...

That book is just a lie that I told myself

and I wrote it down and I told it to everybody else.

That's disappointing.

Here, I thought you had everything figured out.

Well...

No.

Nope.

You deserve to be happy.

No!

He hit his head on the window.

He's broken.

Do you think it hurt?

No, I think it happened really fast.

What do you think?

It didn't hurt.

We have to have a funeral.

God bless this bird.

She was so good at flying,

except for today.

She'll miss migrating south and laying eggs.

We're really sad to see her go.

Thanks for everything.

Um, God bless you. Amen.

Amen.

Mark? -Hey! - Hi!

Hi! I'm Amy, we haven't officially met.

Hi.

Um, I know this is a total imposition,

but is there any way you can watch Dash?

My sitter just called, and she's got food poisoning,

and I tried to find somebody at the hospital to cover my shift,

but I couldn't.

Um, I promise, I will make it up to you.

- Yeah, sure. - Thank you!

I'm coming over.

- Oh, thank you so much. - What's up, buddy?

Well, my pole broke when I was trying to use it as a catapult.

Yeah, I see that. - You got him? - Come here, chief.

-AMY; Okay. -Hey!

Fixed up pretty good with super glue and duct tape though.

Yeah, it's all right.

Do you think he's a crust or a no crust guy?

No crust.

Yeah.

I want, I want to play.

I'll play with you.

Do you wanna go upstairs and play in your fort?

I wanna play outside with Daddy and Dash.

When you're fishing, you just gotta go like this.

Gonna shoot it like that.

Jacob.

Jacob?

I don't wanna go yet.

Jacob?

I'm staying with Daddy, too.

Ow.

Jacob?

Jacob, what's happening?

Jacob, who are you talking to?

Her.

Daddy!

Liz?

Hey, what happened?

Mommy fell.

Hey? Hey, are you okay?

Are you all right?

-Someone was here. -What?

Someone was here.

I don't see anything. She was right...

It was...

It was right there.

You all right? Liz, look at me.

Are you okay?

Beat it. Let me get the rest.

I can do it.

Hey, go sit down.

I'll dry.

♪ I saw your face ♪

♪ I thought the sun ♪

♪ Rose in your eyes ♪

♪ And the moon and stars ♪

What? I'm so good.

I'm good.

Yeah.

Yeah, you still got it.

♪ To the dark ♪

♪ And the endless skies ♪

♪ And the first time ♪

♪ Ever I kissed your mouth ♪

♪ I felt the earth move in my hand ♪

♪ Like the trembling heart... ♪

Knock, knock. Hi, sorry, I, um...

I tried the front door.

No one answered, so I just came around the back.

That's okay. That's cool.

I'm really sorry.

You know... Oh, Dash is,

he's sleeping on the couch in here.

Oh, okay. Thanks. Sorry.

I owe you one.

It's fine.

♪ At my command, my love ♪

Ooh!

Buddy, can I ask you something?

Your mom saw someone in the house today.

Did you see it, too?

Monkey, was someone in the house today?

Not just today.

I don't know what you want from me.

I told you to send him back.

But did you do that?

No.

Instead, you're playing house with him.

I did what you told me to do.

I asked him why he was here.

I asked him what he wanted.

He won't answer me.

I don't wanna hand out parenting tips,

but even I know you gotta ask a five-year-old,

like, fifteen times before you get an answer.

How hard are you really trying to send him on his way?

What if he wants to stay?

You want him to stay.

Is it possible to close whatever door he's opened?

Yeah.

Let him go. Send him back.

That's how you close the door.

Hey, Mark, why are there two dogs tied up on the porch?

You must be the ex.

-I'm Janice. -Hi.

She lives in the neighborhood.

-She's a dog walker. -Oh.

I'm more of a medium, actually.

Spiritual advisement and such.

The dog-walking thing is on the side.

Mark told me about your visitor.

No offense, but that's really none of your business.

I'm so sorry about your little boy.

And I know it must feel like a miracle just to lay eyes on him again,

but just so you know, you can't keep him here.

Please leave.

This world is for the living.

Get out of my house now!

Uh, you know where to find me.

You want to send him away?

-No, I don't. I'm just... -Where is he?

Jacob!

Jacob!

Jacob, answer me!

Look, Mommy, I have my sand castle bucket.

I see that.

Can we go to the beach?

I don't know if you can.

Last one to the car is a rotten egg!

What are we waiting for? Let's go.

Yay, we're at the beach!

I wanna build a giant sand castle as tall as the sky!

I don't understand any of this.

Maybe he'll stay forever.

Maybe he's an angel.

So you're bunking with Dad now?

Right.

Where's Mr. Bananas? Here he is.

Here you go. Good night. You could stay.

- Please stay? - Um...

Please, please, please? With extra cheese.

Okay. But just for a little while.

Can you read me a story?

Well, um, just so happen to have Pinocchio right here.

Shit.

You okay? Just dying of thirst.

I fell asleep.

Yeah, me too.

I should go.

Don't go.

Are you sorry?

-I'll see you later. -Yeah.

Be back soon, okay?

Newspaper.

How's the book coming?

Smith?

What are you doing here?

Uh...

You told me he destroyed your life, so...

What?

This is what you want now? -No, it's... -Someone who, uh,

abandons you, who's, uh, selfish,

who destroys things?

It's more complicated than that.

Yeah? Okay, what's complicated about it?

Can we talk about this at home?

No. Tell me right now.

Please.

I can't.

Fine, you know what, just stay.

I'll figure out something to tell the girls.

My girls. -Smith, wait!

Wait.

Wait.

Oh, God.

Okay.

When's the real train coming?

How soon do you need it?

Soon.

When's Mommy coming back?

I don't know.

Daddy?

Yeah?

I pushed the button.

What button?

Don't be mad.

I'm not mad.

What button?

The red button on the strap.

I wanted to touch the rain, but I couldn't reach.

You took off your seat belt?

You're not mad? Is that why you're here?

It wasn't her fault.

I know that.

But she doesn't know that.

Mommy!

I told him that I was going through some stuff

and that I needed some time to sort things out.

What did he say?

Doesn't matter.

I'm here.

I wanna be here.

Can I ask you something?

Maybe.

Did you come back for Jacob or for me?

I just wanna be happy, Mark. Okay?

Let's try and be happy.

Happy birthday, Dad.

Come on, make a wish.

I know about the surprise.

What surprise?

The party your mother's throwing for me tonight.

I've told her a thousand times

I hate a fuss, but you know how she is.

-She loves a party. -Mmm-hmm.

Huh?

-Oh, you want your present? -Mmm-hmm.

Yeah.

Oh.

It looks like the real thing.

I know there's no party.

Your mother's been gone for years.

Heart attack.

That's okay, Pop.

We're having a party right now.

Maybe next week Jacob will come by.

Jacob's gone, too.

You're a good son.

We were camping.

I can't believe you remember that.

- That's me. - Right.

What's "upwelling"?

What?

That's your book. What's it mean?

Oh. Well, it's when the current pushes the dark,

cold water from the bottom of the ocean all the way up to the surface,

and it wipes out all the worn out water and feeds it nutrients and food.

Even though it's cold and dark?

That's right. Mmm-hmm.

You shouldn't be afraid.

I'm not.

Okay.

Jacob?

Oh, my God.

What's going on?

Look, it's my mom.

It was my mom in the house all along.

She's trying to say something to me.

Elizabeth, come on. It's just us.

No, she's right there. She's right by the door.

She's trying to say so...

Elizabeth! Hey! Elizabeth, what's going on?

No, I'm okay.

Hey! Oh, no. You're not okay.

Elizabeth? Elizabeth, what's wrong?

Help.

Help. It's okay, Liz. Stay with me.

Help! I need some help.

Hey.

-Hi. -I heard your wife was brought in.

Yeah.

Come on, I'll take you to see her.

Here you go.

-Thank you. -Sure.

What's going on?

I stopped taking my anti-depressants. Cold turkey.

Stupid, I know.

Apparently, I'm in withdrawal.

Have you ever heard of a brain shiver?

It's like this tiny jolt of electricity zapping through your brain,

and then, boom. Lights out.

-And that's it? -That's it.

Just need a little R and R and I'll be good as new.

You ready to beam me out of here?

-Yeah, I'll get the car. -Okay.

Hey! My trains came.

I'm going to go take a rest, okay?

Okay.

Wow. You've been busy.

I went on a train.

By myself.

You did?

It was a long ride.

Where was it goin'?

Everywhere.

Mommy's coming with me next time.

What do you mean?

She's coming with me.

Are you sick?

Don't bullshit me.

Tell me what the doctor said.

T-cell prolymphocytic leukemia.

What? What does it... What does that mean?

It doesn't mean anything good.

Elizabeth!

Very aggressive and very advanced.

I was sick before.

What? When?

Right after Smith and I got married.

Why didn't you call me?

What was I supposed to say?

"Hi, I married someone else. I might be dying"?

I thought I'd beat it, so...

Okay.

So, what happens now?

I mean...

When do you start treatment?

I don't.

What are you talking about?

I'm not gonna get better this time.

You don't know that.

Yes, I do.

Look, there has to be something!

I don't want what they're offering me.

It's not gonna save me,

it's just going to make the time I have left a living hell.

Please understand that.

No. No.

Jacob told me something.

He said he took off his seat belt.

He took off his seat belt before the crash.

It wasn't your fault.

It was nobody's fault.

Come here.

Seed bombs.

I wanted wildflowers at the wedding so I threw a bunch of seed bombs,

because I suck at gardening.

And they worked.

And they're still working.

Remember you had to get Jacob out of the attic?

Yeah. He wouldn't put his tie on.

And that dog barked the whole time.

The dog barked through the whole wedding.

I was scared I'd mess it all up.

Well, we did.

But we got it back.

Thank you for picking me.

I promise to always tell you the truth.

I vow to love you.

And I vow to forgive you.

I vow to be a good father to our boy.

I vow to make you laugh.

Tell the bike trail story.

And don't forget the Life Savers.

At least I got that part right.

We are so lucky.

Please don't forget that.

Don't forget.

Hey.

Hey.

Guess what?

Caught two rainbow trout yesterday.

Oh, yeah?

Mom took me fishing for my birthday.

-Happy birthday. -Thanks.

Having a party on Saturday.

Cake, clowns, balloons.

It's kind of baby-ish, but it makes my mom happy.

You can come if you want to.

Okay.

Really?

Yeah, I like cake.

Do you still have the train?

Yeah.

Do you wanna go inside and look at it?