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The fear in her eyes and the knife in the chest

That's my last memory of my mother

That's why I had to go to prison for four years

Even though she survived it

After that it went good for a while

Until I met that 70 year old

"Oh my god" were her last words

Then she was dead

I didn't know her and I didn't steal anything

That damned idea was suddenly there

I just had to

I couldn't explain it

So I went to prison for 10 years

Then the psychologists got interested in my inner life

When they asked me about my dreams, I told them about flowers

Flowers

Always just flowers

Apart from that, I could phantasize in my mind whatever I wanted

It helped me control this urge to...

Just let it all out

Prison exists so one can better oneself

But that urge to torture a human, that's one thing I never could get rid of

If you sum everything up

Then I've been behind bars more than half of my life

Only, I never commited a crime out of pure joy

There was always a little something, that was added to it.

I knew: It will happen again

It has to

But this time they won't get me

Nobody came to pick me up

No family Nothing

I would've been to excited anyway

I couldn't sleep the whole last night

Finally free

I already had a concrete plan

The details were all fixed

Now it was only neccesary to find somebody

But I didn't know where I was

I've lived in this town for 10 years

Only, behind bars you can't get to know a city

My first question was: "Where to?"

I thought. Where can you meet somebody?

So I went to the first Caf� that was open

There were really two sitting there

They were still pretty young

But that would've worked

I felt a bit awkward, dressed as I was

But after 10 years of prison, you can't be dressed modern

They stared at me

I was on it immediately

They literally provoked me

My fantasy immediately began to go wild

I wondered how I could approach them

That excited me enormously

I immediately imagined the greatest things

But it would've caused too much attention in the Caf�

Everybody could've heard us

That wasn't a good opportunity

It was absolutely neccesary to find a quiet place

and everything would've gone by itself

Then a coincidence helped me

Where to?

Straigt ahead, please

The opportunity in the Texi was just great

It shouldn't be a robbery, I wasn't interested in money

That woman reminded me of my first girlfriend, Anna-Marie

A real whore

I was 14 at the time, and she was significantly older than me

She nearly could've been my mother

We sat on a bench in the park

I had to remove a shoe

- She took the shoe away from me... - What are you doing?

...and she only would return it to me

- ...if I gave her a kiss - What are you doing there?

Anna-Marie then took me home with her

She seduced me

That's when I was able to get active for the first time

First I tied her up, then sealed her mouth shut...

Then I hit her

With a belt and later with a real whip

She couldn't get enough

I really enjoyed it

I became that Anna-Marie's slave, and it really excited me

What are you doing there?

Nobody had followed me

Where to and how long I'd run, I don't know

I didn't know that area

I'd never been there

The house seemed desolate to me

I wasn't sure if somebody would live in there

I noticed nobody

and didn't hear anything

No human soul around

I thought, that's a paradise for me

The house was well protected by the park and the trees

I didn't have to be afraid of neighbours here

The locatin was perfect

No danger of being spotted here

I could hardly breathe

I was incredibly excited

The opportunity to meet someone in here...

nearly made me go mad

I thought I couldn't take it much longer

I was sure someone lived in here

My victims

I was afraid

Da-dy?

Not of the law

I was in a state of mind that excluded every kind of logic

I was afraid of myself

Already earlier in my life, I had been in great fear

For example, as a child it was impossible for me to be alone in a room

My grandmother once locked me alone in the dark room for a whole night

I thought she was trying to kill me

That I'd die of fear

The only thing that helped me were those sounds

What luck I had

What luck I had

This house was perfect for me

My plan would work

Mommy

Daddy is here

Don't be stupid, he's long been dead

As a child, I always had to fear for my life

First my mother threw out my father

Then she lived with another man

My stepfather

And she tried to kill me

She winded me in wet diapers

and put me in front of the open window

I should get cold at the windows and freeze to death

Sylvia!

Sylvia

Sylvia

I was never safe of my mother

She hated boys

For my mother, I was only an attempt to get a girl

She didn't want a boy like me

She developed a real infatuation for my sister

I didn't exist for her

My sister could do with me whatever she wanted

My mother always just laughed

But one time, I caught my sister alone

I really gave it to her then

I wanted to hit her until she was dead

In her eyes I saw that she was afraid of me

That excited me enormously

Because my mother didn't want me, I grew up at my grandmother's

But she always just said that she had to be ashamed of me

That I was a shame for the whole family

Because I was a illegitimate child

She was incredibly religious

...and to purge the guilt, she sent me to a convent

I didn't want to

But I had to become a priest

Whe students lived in that convent

...and the nuns and priests had a farm there

There were all kinds of animals there

One afternoon, I secretly snuck into the barn

...and used a knife until the blood fleow

It was a pig

It was afraid of me and squeaked so loudly that the nuns came and caught me

After this incident I had to leave the convent

For my grandmother, a world collapsed

She was so religious...

No I was no longer allowed to become a priest

After the incident ant the convent, my mother said

that my family had to be afraid of me

For her, I now was a monster

She punished me by not letting me back to my grandmother

That was because my stepfather decided to take over my ubringing

But he hated me

He was always good to my sister

He only couldn't stand me

She was never treated badly

One time, he hit me so badly, that I had to crawl on the floor

My mother and my sister just stood there and laughed at me

I wanted to take revenge on my stepfather

I wanted to kill him, out of rage

Da-dy

But I was too weak

So I had to run away from home

I slept in the park

There I observed a swan

First I strangled it

Then I cut off its head

It was expelled by his group and didn't go back into the water

It lived all by itself in a corner of the park

It liked humans very much

But it was afraid of me

I imagined, that I was taking my revenge then

Everything went wrong

Everything happened to fast

I had it imagined totally differently

Much much more dramatic

At least now I wanted to stick to my plan

First the mother should visit her dead son

She should observe very carefully

...how he no longer could move

That would teach her some respect

But...she wasn't moving anymore herself

I thought she was playing a trick on me

Like a fox that pretends to be dead

I really thought she was simulating

Then I noticed that there was really something wrong with her

Nobody can act that well

That's impossible

But she shouldn't be unconscious

She had to experience every phase very thoroughly

I had lost control

A catastrophe!

That couldn't happen to me

What are you doing?

Mother is ill

She needs her medicine

In the kitchen

- She could help me - Please

The old one had to stay concscious no matter what

I wanted to strangle her after all

And the daughter should watch how her mother slowly died

She should see what it meant to die

The young one tried to get me

Either she liked me that much or she was just trying to rescue herself

But that didn't matter, she just didn't know it yet

I had planned something very special for her

She would take the most, that was obvious

The thing with her is going to be very special

In the kitchen I had already noticed various tools

With her, I'll do it in the most precise manner

Exactly that, what I had always imagined

But first I had to get up the old one

She had to gain consciousness again

After all, she was supposed to whimmer and be afraid of me

Then the daughter would have to watch how she would die

She can't give up

Just like that

I finished her

Now only the girl was left to me

You!

You

You

You

You...You

I didn't want to leave the corpses in the house like that

I decided to take the family with me

The thought that I could have the corpses with me all the time

...excited me tremendously

I no case would I leave without them

I had my plans with the corpses

I was determined that this all was only the beginning

I wanted to live out my fantasies

At that moment, I didn't care where that would lead

I didn't think about it at all

I wanted to get new victims as soon as possible

I was crazy about it

I made a new plan

I wanted to show the corpses to the new victims

I was convinced that I could really scare them with that

I had the idea, that I lock the new victims together with the corpses

That would scare them enormously

Some would surely die of fear

They couldn't stand being tortured that way

And then I would finish them off

After the act I felt very well

My head felt lighter

Also my whole body felt lighter

I thought that everything I did was easier now

As if I was floating

I was in a bright, yes even cheerful mood

Of course I knew that this state of mind...

....that this relief wouldn't last long

That this urge would return

Hey!

Hey!

Hey, get out of there!

Get out of there already!

Hey!

Come on!

I can't pity the victims

I wanted to continue to murder

I already had a perfect plan

The two women were sitting there again

I was on it immediately

My fantasy immediately began to go wild

It was irresistible

Just phantastic

I thought

How could I approach them?

Then I decided:

I'll take them all

I'll take all four of them right now right here

Show me your registration

I don't have anything to do it with!

The registration!

I got that car from someone else, I don't know how that happened

- I don't care, show me your registration - I...

What now?

Do you have a registration or don't you? - It's not my fault, that's not my car...

I don't care, show me your registration

The moment was very enthralling

It really excited me

- But I don't have anything to do with it! - Open up the trunk!

Now everybody's going to be scared to death

Now everybody is afraid of me

I'm famous

It's a pity about those girls, though...

That would've been a nice tango

Excerpt from the psychiatric opinion

The patient planned and commited the crime consciously

to get physical satisfaction

His personality is labile and perverse

The worst mental disorder is a pronounced sadism

A mental illnes wasn't diagnosed, though

That by hurting somebody and by using violence

on other people, he could get sexually excited

is known to the patient since earliest childhood

His relation to society is severy disturbed

This is because already as a baby he was abandoned by the mother

and would later never know a stable family

The patient is 100% responsible...

but one cannot speak of guilt in the common sense in this case

The prospect of punishment didn't stop him from murdering

Sentence on behalf of the public:

Prison for life

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