All language subtitles for Station 19.S05E08.All I Want for Christmas is You.720p.HDTV.x264-SYNCOPY - NHI

Life on Eris' "Silent Night"
plays...

♪ Silent night

♪ Holy night

♪ All is calm

♪ All is bright

♪ Round yon virgin

- Oh, um... I'm sorry.
- Hey.

- Hey, man.
- Oh, sorry.Gibson.

Sorry.

He's three sheets
to the wind.

You're drunk,
Gibson?

I was not supposed to be
out today, so...

Eh, I dragged him out.

I... thought
he needed some air

- and the smell of pine trees.
- Yeah, yeah.

Same. I mean, I...
You know, look, we usually

do our tree shopping
as a family,

but the boys have homework,
and I just really needed a walk.

Um, I'm gonna go check out
those Balsam Firs.

- Was that Pru?
- No.

No, but she really
looks like her, though,

- doesn't she?
- Wow, that's pretty.

The Millers,
are they...

Oh, they are officially
contesting the will, yeah.

They've let us see Pru,
like,

maybe twice
in the last three weeks.

I hate everything now.

I didn't think
it was possible

to hate Christmas trees,

but...
I hate those now, too.

Do I need to worry
about you, Gibson?

You gonna stop drinking

in time
for shift tomorrow?

No... Eh, you don't,
and I am,

because...

Marsha confiscated
my whiskey.

♪ Christ the savior is born...

I always...

- You never used them as a kid?
- Yeah.

- Open pipes?
- Yeah.

- Are they safe?
- Mm-hmm.

Oh, cookies.

I always wanted
a GI Joe set.

- Keep it.
- Keep it?

It's for
Toys for Tots.

I'm not stealing toys
from needy children.

Come on.
Something smells good.

That's Carina's baking.

Nonna's recipe.

She just told me

to steal toys
from Toys for Tots.

I'm getting you
a toy army guy for Christmas.

You know,
you can't leave

your divorce papers
in the freezer forever.

♪ From now on, our troubles... ♪

There's no rule
that says that.

♪ ...of sight ♪

Try.

What am I
supposed to do?

I don't know.

Mmm.

That is so good.

Yeah.
We'll give her a cookie.

Mmm.Yeah.

Mnh-mnh. Mm. Nope.

I can't wait anymore.
I have to give it to you now.

Um, I think
we were getting there.

No.
Your Christmas present.

You'll get the other thing after.
Don't worry.

Oh.
Oh, that reminds me.

Uh, I invited my mom

to stay with us
for Christmas.

Ignoring that.

♪ Here we are as in olden days ♪

What...
Okay.

- Where did you even hide that?
- In Vic's room.

Alright.

- You ready?
- Yeah.

Okay, cool.

Merry Christmas.

It... It might need

some highlights
around the eyes still,

a little bit, but...

Do you hate it?

- No.
- No?

I... I love it.

- Yeah?
- Yeah.

- I can't believe it.
- Yeah.

You painted me.

Yeah.

Yeah, I mean,
it's not too cheesy?

I just...
I thought you looked so...

Uh-huh. Okay, thank you,
thank you, Dr. Altman.

I'm good to go!
Oh! Yeah?

They cleared you?

Yeah,
I'm coming back to work. Yes!

Oh, wow.
That seems kinda soon.

Oh, she said another week
if I wasn't feeling good,

but I am, so I'm cleared,
and sweet baby Jesus.

Look at
this painting.

♪ ...a merry little Christmas

♪ Now

I'm telling you,
it was like

the most romantic gesture
anyone's ever done.

- And you hate it.
- I don't hate it. It's just...

It's too much.

It was...
It was a lot. It was too much.

It's too much.

Is everything good
with Theo?

Feels like I haven't seen him
in a while.

Oh. Uh, yeah.

He was just doing laundry
last night.

Cool.

Morning.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Ruiz.

You subbing?

You didn't tell me
you were subbing today.

You didn't tell me
you were cleared for work.

Yeah.

What's going on, Vic?

I-I don't get it.

I...

My... My friend died,
Theo.

That's what's going on.

Hey, can we...
Are... are we...

Vic, I-I don't know
what's going on.

Look, I just...
Can we just work?

- Because I really...
I'm excited to be at work. - Yeah.

- Yeah.
- Can we?

- Yeah, okay.
- Let's... Let's work.

Okay.

Line up, please!

Come on, line up!

We have a familiar face
with us today.

Welcome to Lieutenant Ruiz.

Hughes is back.
Good to have you back, Hughes.

Hughes has agreed
to desk duty today, all day,

with the exception
of Crisis One calls.

- I didn't agree to that...
- Some housekeeping.

- Okay.
- Let's see.

The SFD toy drive's
starting today,

so we'll have more public
stopping by than normal

to drop off their toys
and such, so remember...

Please be courteous, be kind,
be here to serve, yeah?

And Sullivan, if you...
If you want a, uh,

sexy photo op,
just call your publicist.

Now, I'm sure you've all been
hearing the rumors about

McCallister being under
investigation by the department

since the pipeline explosion.

Apparently, he's taking
an early retirement.

- What?
- I know there's no love lost there,

but he's still
our former fire chief,

so try not to celebrate
too loudly.

Have they named
a new chief?

Someone's been appointed.
I don't have a name.

All I know
is that we have a lady chief.

- What? Seriously?
- Oh, my God.

- This is huge.
- Yes, indeed.

The city of Seattle's
first female fire chief.

It's very exciting,
if you're into that kinda thing.

More to the point,
she's gonna be making the rounds

the next few weeks
to each house,

so let's please keep this house
in tip-top shape.

And thank you.

Dismissed.

Island Police's "Snow" plays...

♪ Snow is falling down

♪ Staring at a flicker
burning in a streetlight ♪

♪ All the cars
are gonna pass me by ♪

♪ Winter making me remember
what you felt like ♪

♪ Now all I see is snow

♪ Snow

♪ Snow

Crisis One requested

- to 1163 Forrester Lane.
- Thank God.

Alright.

Ah, crap.

Hughes,
you sure you're good?

Yeah,
you sure you'regood?

Alright, guys,
so the patient's name is Amy.

Dispatch said she's having
some kind of anxiety attack.

Who called it in?

They didn't say,
so I'm assuming a neighbor,

but it must be pretty bad.

Hi, this is Seattle FD,
Crisis One.

Go ahead.

Hello?

Seattle Fire Department.

Amy,
we're from Crisis One.

We're here to help.

- Your neighbors are worried about you.
- Hey. Hey, Amy.

You look like you're having
a panic attack,

but we can help,
okay?

I-I just need you
to breathe in.

Breathe in for me.
Breathe in for four.

This looks like
a domestic-violence situation.

Yeah, then we need
to call the police.

I need you...
I need you guys to...

- I'm sorry.
- It's okay.

I need you to...
I-I can't breathe.

Okay, just breathe with me.
Breathe with me, okay?

- In for four.
- Hold for four.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,
whoa. What's going on here, huh?

Is someone hurt?

Amy, did you
call them?

Gonna go see Mom.

- No.
- Yeah, no, sir, uh, we got a call

actually
from your neighbors.

Uh, we're Seattle FD,
and... and... Okay.

...we heard
that your wife was struggling.Honey.

She has these panic attacks.
Poor thing.

We'll get you
a juice, okay?

Shh. It's okay.
Look, I'm gonna get you a juice.

Look, look, look, look.

Hey, look,
you guys are good to go.

Yeah, she has these
panic attacks, you know?

Uh,
gets a little worked up

when she has
one of these episodes.

You should have seen
what she did to the chandelier

last time this happened.
Right, babe? Remember that?

Hey, you know, Amy, I'm gonna
get you some oxygen. That'll help, alright?

You know,
I actually think

we should get you
on the aid car, Amy.

- Okay?
- Can you stand up?

- No.
- Okay. Can you...

I just needed to buy some time
because he was getting scary.

I made eggs for dinner
for the baby

and Greg got furious.

I can't leave.Okay.

Amy,
did you call this in?

If I leave,
he'll take him.

He'll take my baby.

He'll tell them
I'm crazy.

He... He tells everyone
I'm crazy.

Mommy.

I'll lose my baby.

I can't leave.

Okay.

Okay.

*STATION 19
Season 05 Episode 08

Episode Title:
"All I Want for Christmas is You"

Aired on:
December 16, 2021.

Okay, we should probably

separate the toys
by age group so...

Am I a masochist?

- Or not.
- Is that it?

I mean,
why do I torture myself

by hanging out here?

You're not
hanging out here.

You're volunteering
because you love us.

We need scissors.

Yes, we do.

I actually love
spending my days off here.

It's like the house
of the friend

that you had
when you were a kid

whose family
you wished would adopt you.

You know,
Captain Beckett, uh, announced

that they appointed
a new fire chief.

No name yet,
but it's a woman.

Hot damn.

You a little sad
you weren't the first?

Only a little.

With McCallister gone,
I imagine

they'll be wrapping up
your investigation soon, so...

That piece of absolute dog crap.
He buried the investigation.

I can't for the life of me get
an answer from the department

about when I'll receive word
a year later,

and he's just
sneaking out the back door

before closing my case...
Scissors.

Uh-huh.

Well, with any luck,
they'll come to their senses

and give, uh,
Beckett the boot.

Beckett's not
the problem here.

No, but he's certainly
aproblem.

Maybe not for you, Herrera...

But for those of us
who have to work with him.

Tell me again
why the divorce papers

are still
in our freezer.

I don't know.

I just...
I hate the idea

of being somebody
that cuts and runs.

Oh, no. If something
doesn't feel good,

it's healthy
to let it go.

I think
we need more toys.

We definitely
did not need more toys.

Oh.

Hi.

Oh, thank you.

Happy holidays.

- You didn't strike me
- Thank you.

as one
to kiss and tell.

Oh, my God.

- Did Sullivan say something?
- He didn't have to.

Not the first dude
to look at me

like he knows, uh,
I slept with his wife.

Wow.

Okay, you don't have to
sound so proud.

Look,
I'm sorry I told him.

I-I know
you're his boss,

but he was pissing me off,
and I-I said it.

Herrera, if you're using me
to make him jealous

or spice up your situation
or whatever,

I'm totally fine
with it.

- Mm-hmm.
- Okay.

As long as this isn't
about daddy issues.

Engine 19 requested
at 535 Christopher Court.

To be continued.

It's really not.

Yeah, we'll see.

Oh, my God.

Hey.

- Everything okay?
- Yeah.

- With... With me? Yeah.
- Yeah, everything's... dope.

Uh-oh.

You only say "dope"
when everything's awful.

Just having a thing.

You wanna
talk to me about it?

I mean,
we're friends, right?

You're Vic's friend.

It's a Vic thing?

Never mind.

Thanks anyway, man.

Call was a car
versus pedestrian...

Oh, my God.

Hey, guys.

Ain't no party
like a Christmas party, huh?

Breathe in.

Okay, Amy,
are you unsafe here?

You can just nod
yes or no.

Mommy!

Okay.

This is outside our purview.
We need to call the police.

Agreed.
I'll take care of it.

- Okay.
- Play with that.

Hey, listen, guys,
thanks for the help, right,

but you're upsetting
my kid, okay?

Now, she's never
needed oxygen before,

so just get an ice pack,

gonna put it
on the back of her neck,

huh, and we're good.

You're good, right, babe?

Yeah. Yeah.

- We... We... We're good. Thank you.
- Mommy!

I'm... I'm... I'm good.
Thank you.

Thank you, guys.
We're fine. You can leave.

I-I'm just such a wreck
at the holidays.

Yeah. Tough to live with,
but I sure do love her.

Amy.
Amy, come on.

- Let's go.Whoa.
- What the hell are you doing? Hughes...

What the hell are you doing?
Sit down.

What the hell are you doing?
Put him down.

Let's go. Are you nuts?

Please stop.
Vic.

Put my kid down! Amy...

That's it. That's it.
I'm calling the cops.

It's okay.

Vic,
what are you doing?

- Mommy.
- Yes, hi.

Vic. I'd like to report
an attempted kidnapping

in my home.

Mommy.

We don't move the car,
we do not move anything.

Right now, that car
is crushing his lower body,

but it's also pressing against
all of his internal injuries.

The minute we move it,
he's gonna start to bleed out.

- How fast?
- Real fast.

Likely, his intestines,
kidneys, and liver.

He'll be in cardiac arrest
before we know it.

Bishop,
you need to turn the car off

and... and press down
on the emergency brake.

Sullivan, hold on to her so that
she does not rock the car.

Alright? And the instant
she puts that brake on,

get the chock blocks
thrown underneath the tires.

Who's calling
the shots today, Warren?

Captain, right now,
he's stable,

but if we move that car
even an inch

without the proper medical equipment,
he will die on the spot.

I'm aware
of the stakes, Warren.

Gentle.

Got it.
Alright.

Alright, good.
Montgomery, I'm gonna need you

to climb up top
and secure from above.

Okay. Climb on top of this car

- because it's not the one
pushing into his abdomen.- Copy.

Alright.

We were having
an early Christmas dinner

at my mother-in-law's today,

and it was all systems go
this morning.

Any of you got kids?

Yeah,
I got two boys at home,

and a little girl
we, um...

Well, then,
you know what it's like.

I've got three,
as well.

My wife was up this morning
running around

wrapping
and hiding presents

while my oldest daughter
was having a meltdown

over a guy she likes.

Who commented a heart emoji
under her picture.

One of my twin boys

kept throwing a football
at the other,

even though he knows
that's not his brother's thing.

And we all
raced out of the house

to the other side of town,

and we ordered
last-minute groceries.

When we got there,

I realized that I accidentally
put in our home address.

No way my kids were gonna go
without their egg nog.

Gotta have the egg nog.

Gotta have the egg nog.

Feeling a lot of pain?

Surprisingly,
not as much as you'd think.

Yeah, well,
that's the adrenaline talking.

Can you feel
your legs?

Yeah.

Can you move your toes
inside your shoes?

Yeah, I can.
That's good, right?

Yes, it's good.

I'm sorry.

I, uh...
I laugh when I'm nervous.

Anyway, I run back over here
to grab the groceries,

and they'd left them all
in the driveway.

So, I park the truck up top,
run down,

but before I can even
pick up a bag... bam.

I meant to get
my brakes checked last week.

They were squeaking.

My wife always tells me

push the parking brake
when I park.

I should listen to her more.

That's universally sound
advice, my man.

That your wife?

You should answer it.

It'll just worry her.

Eh, she'd rather know.
Trust me.

Montgomery,
take over for me here.

Yeah, I got you.

I'm not letting that man die
a week before Christmas.

I'm not letting that man's kids
come home to a dead dad.

Not again.
We need the PRT.

- Your knife-mobile?
- It's his only chance for survival.

Look, if I have the PRT,
some blood,

and another set of hands,
maybe I can save him.

I can't authorize the PRT,
Warren.

Well,
call somebody who can.

Hey, hey, we have a new chief,
right? Call her.

Tell her the man is gonna die
unless we have the PRT.

She'll be happy
to have a feel-good story

on her first day.

Leave it to Fire Zaddy
to find the PR angle.

He's right.
It's our best shot.

I'm gonna call Miranda
to have the blood ready.

You get
the PRT approved.

I'm not
making any promises.

Carina's at the station
if you need some extra hands.

Yes. Yes.

The cops are coming.
You wanna give me my kid?

Do you wanna give me my kid?
Amy.

Amy, all you have to do
is come with us.

You're scaring him. No,
you'rescaring him!

Hughes, Hughes, what the hell are
you doing? You're also scaring your wife.

She's obviously terrified of you.
Did you tell her that?

No.
No, of course not.

Um, please, just leave.
We're fine.

The police are on their way, okay?
Hughes...

I'm not gonna
leave him here to terrorize his family!

Hughes. What's that noise?

Outside. Now.

What the hell
is that noise?

Hughes. Hughes.

Okay.Hughes.

Now.

Please,
just give him back.

Mommy.

Come on.
Come on.

I know. I know.
Okay. Okay.

I know.

Okay.

Okay.

It's okay.

Please.

It's okay. It's okay.
I got you.

Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.

Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh.

Come on, Beckett.
Come on.

This is
a highly unique situation.

Can you please
just approve this for us?

Just give it
to me straight.

The facts.

This car is pressing against
your abdomen and pelvis,

and when we move this car,

your body will succumb
to the injuries,

and I will have minutes to try
to stop the bleeding,

but we are working on
a solution.

So, until then,
we just have...

Just wait.

Yeah.

Okay, I'm officially tipping
into panic mode,

and I'm not my best
when I'm panicked,

so someone tell me

your funniest Christmas story
or something.

No, no, no.

- I... Okay, I got one.
- No.

So, there was
this one time, I, uh...

I came home
Christmas morning.

Don't do it.
I-I lived with a roommate,

and his boyfriend
was over a lot...

Please stop.
And, uh...

No, don't stop.
Don't stop.

And when I got there,

my roommate was setting up
Christmas brunch,

and you know, I'm like,
"Hey, Merry Christmas,"

and then I hear
from down the hallway...

Oh, God, kill me.

"I have some bells
you can jingle."

No.

Actually,
it was, "Ho, ho, ho.

Come jingle my bells."

Please tell me
he was wearing...

A Santa hat
and nothing else.

Where was the hat?

Not where
you want it to be.

Why'd you
come over unannounced?!

- Bro, I lived there.
- Right.

Terrence, she...
She has time to get here.

I think you should answer
that phone.

We're supposed to
go caroling this weekend.

I swear,
when that woman sings...

her voice, her smile,
her whatever,

she always
makes me feel better.

No matter what.

Then you have to
be brave now.

Give her the respect
she deserves.

Hey, honey.

Okay, listen,
I love you.

Just try
not to freak out, okay?

I don't want you
to scare the kids.

So, try and just listen,
okay?

Screw it.
I'm getting the PRT.

Alright, here we go.

Eh, so,
how does it work?

Do people come here
and pick out toys?

Uh, no,
right before Christmas,

we, um...
We go around town,

drop them off at hospitals,
shelters,

you know, places where kids

- might not get a present this year.
- Nice.

Can I come?

Yeah.

I-I think
it's my mom.

- Hi!
- Hm.

I...

I'm afraid
to file the papers

because then that means
I cut and run like my mom,

and... and it sounds so dumb
to say out loud.

Like, "Oh, boo-hoo,
my parents wounded me

and all my problems
are because of them."

It doesn't sound dumb
at all.

Well, you're not special.

We're all just undoing
what our parents did to us.

Okay, well,
if you're so wise,

why haven't you
and Maya told anyone

that you're gonna
have a baby?

Because there is
no baby yet.

There is
not even sperm yet.

Ah, you're afraid

she's gonna change her mind,
aren't you?

She has massive walls
around her heart.

And she's
taking them down.

Brick by brick.

For you.

Hey, Warren,
what's up?

Yeah,
she's still here.

Hey, Warren.

Come with me.

Yeah? Okay.

I hope Delilah's not speeding.

- Okay. Hold on. I got you.
- Oh. Hey.

This is freaking brutal.

There's nothing
we can do?

There has to be something
that we can do.

Okay, well,
we're gonna keep him alive

so he can say goodbye
to his wife.

That's what we can do.

No. No.

You need
to make this happen now.

Thank you, Bishop,
for telling me how to do my job.

I keep getting
the run-around.

Doesn't matter.

Herrera's on the way
with the PRT.

So is DeLuca,
who can assist.

Warren,
this is not how this goes.

It is today.

Look,
suspend me if you want,

but not until after
I save this man's life.

Terrence.
I have good news.

We're getting a vehicle here
called the PRT.

It's basically
a mobile operating room.

What'll you
have to do?

Well, first,
a group of us

are gonna get this vehicle
off of you.

W-W-Won't that make me
bleed out?

That's what
you said earlier.

We'll move you quickly
into the PRT

and we'll do CPR
if we need to.

We'll give you blood.

And I will perform
what is called a thoracotomy.

I'm gonna operate
on your chest

to clamp the blood flow
to the lower part of your body

so that you don't
bleed out.

Sounds easy.

They let you do all that
as a firefighter?

Well, I'm also a surgeon.
My man.

How did this happen?!

- Slow.
- Ma'am.

Slow down.
Slow down.

Why is this car
still on him?!

What are
all of you doing?!

Honey, honey, listen.

These people are doing

everything
that they can, okay?

And soon, they're gonna push
this car off me,

and when they do...
there's a chance...

No. No. No.
Stop.

I-I cannot lose you.

You came back for egg nog.
Egg nog.

Honey, I need you to listen
to what I'm about to say.

And please don't stop me.

Let me finish, okay?

Because I'm a little scared,

and I need to say this.

Tell Penelope
that no matter

how many boys
comment on her photos,

that her love
starts with her herself,

and that way,

she's always got a place
to come home to...

...when times get hard.

Alright?

Tell Rory
to be good to his brother.

He needs to embrace
the fact that...

That Tommy's favorite color
is pink

and that he...
He idolizes Janet Jackson, okay?

Because there are gonna be

enough people
that give him a hard time,

and his brother
cannot be one of them.

Tell them to dream big

- and to... to love boldly, okay?
- Mm-hmm.

And most importantly,

tell them that no matter
where this life takes them,

that I'll be right there
with them,

every step of the way.

And please,
please don't let them

grow up
to hate Christmas.

Because we're Tillermans,

and we love Christmas,
okay?

- Okay.
- Warren!

Good news!
PRT's approved.

I was doing this
either way.

You don't need to do this.

Well,
Gibson says I do.

Okay.

What happened?

Police found
multiple bruises on Amy,

so they're
taking him in.

But first,
I had to convince them

that Greg was in fact
the bad guy and not you.

We should have been doing
crisis intervention.

And, Hughes,
what you did in there...

- Yeah, I know. I know.
- No, you don't know,

because if you knew,
you wouldn't have done it.

Our job is
to help people.

What you did was put
that entire family at risk.

I think the family
was already at risk.

How is Amy?
Is she alright?

No, she's pretty shaken up,
actually.

Hughes, stop.

I left my heart monitor
in there.

- No, I will get it for you.
- I have to at least apologize.

Hughes, stop!

Amy?

It's Vic, the firefighter.

I for... Uh, I forgot my watch...
My watch thing.

You...

I-I am sorry.

I was trying to help,
and...

- You could've gotten us killed.
- Yeah.

Can I... so...

Thank you.

I saw they took him in.

Yeah.

Just for the night,
until he calms down,

but he'll be more pissed
when he gets home.

Okay.

Okay,
let's get you packed.

What?

I-I can sit with him
or I can pack for you.

- Which do you prefer?
- I can't leave.

You can't stay.

You don't understand.

He owns everything.

He controls everything.

I come from nothing.

I've tried.

He threatens me
with lawyers.

He tells everyone
I'm crazy.

Well... Uh, do you...
Do you have anyone...

Anyone he doesn't
know about, or...

I-I have a cousin
in Portland.

Okay, great.
You call your cousin,

and then you're gonna
call the police

and tell them
you want to press charges

so they can keep him
longer than overnight,

and then we're gonna pack.

I-I know
I-I did not help earlier,

but I am here
to help now.

You are staying here
because you love your son

and you want to
protect him,

and I get that,
but if you really...

If you really
want to protect him,

you have to leave.

If your son is not safe
from his father...

Amy, if you are not safe
from his father,

then it is time
to leave.

Amy. Amy.

It's... It's time to leave.

Okay.

I have a suitcase
in the closet upstairs.

Okay.

I prepped
as much as I could.

Set up
your thoracotomy kit.

Thank you.

Will you sing for me?

Baby.

Please.

♪ O holy night

♪ The stars
are brightly shining ♪

♪ It is the night

♪ Of our dear Savior's birth

♪ Long lay the world

♪ In sin and error pining

♪ 'Til he appear'd

♪ And the soul felt...

Delilah, Terrence.
It's... It's time.

Turn your back, baby.

- I don't want you to see this.
- No!

- I don't want to...
- But please keep singing.

No.Come right over here.
You just sit right over here.

I love you.

I love you, too, baby.

I'm gonna do
everything in my power.

Thank you.

- I promise.
- Thank you.

- Okay, hands around.
- I'm ready.

♪ Fall on

♪ Your knees

On my count.

- One, two, three!
- ♪ O hear the angel voices

♪ O night divine

♪ O night

♪ When Christ was born

♪ O night...

Mom?

♪ Divine

♪ O, O night divine

♪ Fall on your knees

♪ O hear the angel voices

♪ O night divine

♪ O, O night divine

Okay.

Yeah.
I clamped the aorta.

- It's time to go. We gotta move.
- Yeah.

Tell Herrera to drive us
to Grey-Sloan.

While he's still open?

He's in
cardiac arrest.

Tell her not to speed.
Alright, nice and slow.

It's his only shot.

Herrera,
we gotta get to the hospital.

- Excuse me.
- Copy. On my way.

En route to Grey-Sloan.

I'm coming.

What does that mean?

What does that mean?

What does that mean?

That siren
means life, okay?

In this situation,
at this moment,

that siren
means he's alive.

Let's go.
Let's go.

Thank you!

Thank you so much.

Oh.

- Hughes. You're benched.
- Fine.

I'm serious.

Yep. Me too.

You disobeyed orders today...
Twice.

You put the department
and the program in jeopardy.

Yeah, I heard you, Gibson.
I'm on desk duty. I got it.

No, no, not desk duty.
You're benched.

Go home. You're done this shift.
You're out the next two.

Oh, h-hold on.
You are not the Captain.

You can't tell me
to do that.

I'll inform Beckett myself.
You're not okay.

Is this...
Is this punishment

- for what happened at my place?
- No, Hughes.

Is that what you...
No.

- It has nothing to do with that.
- Okay.

Or you know what?
Actually, yeah, it does,

because it's further proof
that your judgement is just...

Oh, myjudgement?

Yeah.
My...

- That's... That's hilarious.
- No, no.

- We're not...
- I'm not dealing with this.

- I don't want to fight with you, Vic.
- Okay.

I understand
that you're hurting,

that you're angry.
I get that, okay?

But you can't be like that
out in the field.

You especially
can't be like that

on a Crisis One call.

- Hughes. This
- What? What?

Program
that you fought for

is all we have left of him.

You know what?

You can sabotage your life.
I don't... I don't care,

but I'm not gonna let you
take down his legacy.

Go home.

Dispatch,
this is PRT 19,

heading back
to the station.

Copy.
Thank you, PRT 19.

You know
what I realized today?

You and I...

We didn't
make each other happy.

You just realized that?

I mean,
not just this past year,

but when we were together...
at our best.

We were always
sort of...

- Fraught.
- Exactly.

It was never easy
between us.

You know what I mean?

Yeah,
I think I know why.

Mm?

I've been...

working out
my crap lately,

trying to figure out

why I keep making
such messy decisions.

So, what'd you figure out?

That I've been recreating
my parents' marriage.

That sounds twisted, but...

Not really.

That was me and Claire.

My mom is cold.

Then I married Claire,

and she made my mom seem
warm and cuddly.

But you helped me
break that pattern.

I'm not exactly
warm and cuddly.

No,
you're something else.

You're like
an open flame.

Andy,
you're not your mom, okay?

No, I'm not.

And you're not my dad.

And... my mom leaving
was not my fault,

and me leaving
is not my birthright.

Do you think if we hadn't had
such messed-up parents,

we could've made it?

Maybe it was just
bad timing.

Hey, my attorney said

that the papers
haven't been filed yet.

I'm taking them
out of the freezer.

- What?
- The papers.

They've been in Maya
and Carina's freezer.

You put them
in the freezer?

What's wrong with you?

Like, next to the Popsicles?

Ah...

Ah...

Yeah.

Hey.

Hey.

I figured
you were up here.

Why are you not
in uniform?

Uh, Gibson benched me.

What?
Yeah.

I don't know.
I deserved it.

Vic.

Listen, I know you've been
going through a lot lately,

and, you know,
I'm trying to be here for you,

but you know...

I made out with Jack.

W... Uh,
"made out" is actually

extremely generous
a description,

which implies sexiness,
which there wasn't.

There was zero sexiness,
but there was a lot of whiskey

and we were smashing the tile
and we were sad.

You smashed the tiles
like a week ago.

Yeah,
I know, I know, I know,

and I know
I should've told you sooner.

I know that.

- Then...
- Vic, stop. Just stop.

I'm sorry.
I pulled away from you

instead of telling you
the truth, and I'm so...

I don't have
an excuse.

Do you hate me?

No, I don't hate you, Vic.

I wouldn't blame you
if you did.

Were you
in love with him?

What? Gibson?
No. Oh, my God, no.

I told you, Theo,
it was not that.

- No, no, no. No.
- It wasn't even...

Miller.

Were you in love
with Miller?

No. No, no.

I wasn't
in love with him.

I loved him.
He was my friend.

He was like
my family,

and you know how it is
to lose someone like that,

how one minute,
you think you're getting better,

and then the next,

you're just freaking out
on some guy on a call.

I'm sorry.
I-I don't know what else to say,

so I just
keep saying that.

I'm sorry.

I love you.

And I know I'm doing
everything wrong, and...

I get it if you never
want to see me again.

Well, you said that
like three times

in the last two minutes.

That you wouldn't blame me
if... if I leave.

So, um,
is that what you want?

I love making you happy.

But lately, all I'm

- Yeah. Screw lately.
- doing is just messing...

- I don't care about lately.
- Okay.

I'm talking about
the long haul.

No, I know.

I don't...
I don't want to push you away.

But you are.

Leslie Odom Jr.'s "I'll
Be Home for Christmas" plays...

♪ I'll be home for Christmas

♪ You can count on me

♪ Please have snow
and mistletoe ♪

♪ And presents under the tree

She doesn't trust Santa,
and it feels right.

- It does.
- Hey.

Marsha made us cookies.

- Mm.
- Oh! Nice.

Yeah.

They're pretty good.

- Huh?
- Huh. It's festive.

If you're ready.

Uh, we have
an announcement.

We are gonna have
a baby.

- What?
- What?

Eventually.
Eventually,

- Are you serious?
- eventually. Yes!

Yeah!

- Wow! That's amazing!
- Whoo!

Oh, my gosh.
Oh, my gosh.

- Whoa.
- Congrats.

Yeah. If... If I may
get in here.

Wondering if you're gonna
gift them a onesie

with my face
painted on it.

I-I knew
you hated it.

- No. I love it.
- No, I knew you hated it.

Even if
I'm too much of a wimp

to accept epic romance
in the form of a portrait.

Yeah, you know what?
You area wimp.

I know,
and just for saying that,

I'm gonna hang it
above the bed.

Of course you are.

That's what I planned
all along.

- I knew it.
- Yeah.

Say hello, everyone.

- Hi! Hi!
- Hi! Hi!

Oh!

Hi!
Merry Christmas.

Here she is.

Oh.

Okay, did you kidnap
this child?

No. Uh, Ifeya let me take her.
Willingly.

Just for tonight.

I'll take it.Okay.

Oh, Terrence made it.

Yeah,
it was a lot of surgery.

He'll have a long recovery,
but, uh, when I left,

his wife and kids

were singing carols
in his ICU room.

Aww. That's great.

Hey.

Let's take your coat,
sweetie.

Oh, yeah.

Right. Yeah.

♪ And presents under the tree ♪

Alright.
Take it off.

What are you doing?

Making presents!

♪ Christmas Eve will find me

♪ Where the love light gleams

♪ Baby, baby

♪ I'll be home for Christmas

♪ If only in my dreams

♪ If only in myyyyy

Hey.

Merry Christmas.

♪ Dreams

♪ Yeah

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