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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1471 01:22:53,695 --> 01:22:57,945 ♪ I don't need you to sell me on reasons to want you ♪ 1472 01:23:00,529 --> 01:23:04,613 ♪ I don't need you to search for the proof that I should ♪ 1473 01:23:07,363 --> 01:23:10,946 ♪ You don't have to convince me ♪ 1474 01:23:11,071 --> 01:23:14,863 ♪ You don't have to be scared you're not enough ♪ 1475 01:23:14,988 --> 01:23:17,863 ♪ 'Cause what we've got going ♪ 1476 01:23:17,988 --> 01:23:20,196 ♪ Is good ♪ 1477 01:23:21,197 --> 01:23:25,531 ♪ I don't need more reminders of all that's been broken ♪ 1478 01:23:27,947 --> 01:23:32,697 ♪ I don't need you to fix what I'd rather forget ♪ 1479 01:23:34,406 --> 01:23:38,115 ♪ Clear the slate and start over ♪ 1480 01:23:38,240 --> 01:23:42,698 ♪ Try to quiet the noises in your head ♪ 1481 01:23:42,823 --> 01:23:45,907 ♪ We can't compete with all that ♪ 1482 01:23:48,490 --> 01:23:50,573 ♪ So what if it's us? ♪ 1483 01:23:50,698 --> 01:23:55,408 ♪ What if it's us and only us ♪ 1484 01:23:55,533 --> 01:24:00,449 ♪ And what came before won't count anymore or matter? ♪ 1485 01:24:00,574 --> 01:24:02,699 ♪ Can we try that? ♪ 1486 01:24:02,824 --> 01:24:06,074 ♪ What if it's you, what if it's me ♪ 1487 01:24:06,199 --> 01:24:10,034 ♪ And what if that's all that we need it to be ♪ 1488 01:24:10,159 --> 01:24:13,492 ♪ And the rest of the world falls away? ♪ 1489 01:24:14,659 --> 01:24:15,825 ♪ What do you say? ♪ 1490 01:24:15,950 --> 01:24:17,617 ♪ I never thought there'd be ♪ 1491 01:24:17,742 --> 01:24:20,534 ♪ Someone like you who would want me ♪ 1492 01:24:20,659 --> 01:24:21,867 Well... 1493 01:24:21,992 --> 01:24:25,118 ♪ So I give you 10,000 reasons ♪ 1494 01:24:25,243 --> 01:24:27,285 ♪ To not let me go ♪ 1495 01:24:29,660 --> 01:24:33,701 ♪ But if you really see me ♪ 1496 01:24:33,826 --> 01:24:38,035 ♪ If you like me for me and nothing else ♪ 1497 01:24:38,160 --> 01:24:39,868 ♪ Well, that's all that I've wanted ♪ 1498 01:24:39,993 --> 01:24:44,119 ♪ For longer than you could possibly know ♪ 1499 01:24:44,244 --> 01:24:46,119 ♪ So it can be us ♪ 1500 01:24:46,244 --> 01:24:51,119 ♪ It can be us and only us ♪ 1501 01:24:51,244 --> 01:24:56,245 ♪ And what came before won't count anymore or matter ♪ 1502 01:24:56,370 --> 01:24:58,203 ♪ We can try that ♪ 1503 01:24:58,328 --> 01:25:01,953 ♪ It's not so impossible ♪ 1504 01:25:02,078 --> 01:25:04,787 ♪ Nobody else but the two of us here ♪ 1505 01:25:04,912 --> 01:25:08,745 ♪ 'Cause you're saying it's possible ♪ 1506 01:25:08,870 --> 01:25:12,120 ♪ We can just watch the whole world disappear ♪ 1507 01:25:12,246 --> 01:25:17,496 ♪ Till you're the only one ♪ 1508 01:25:17,621 --> 01:25:24,288 ♪ I still know how to see ♪ 1509 01:25:27,704 --> 01:25:29,330 ♪ It's just you and me ♪ 1510 01:25:29,455 --> 01:25:31,747 ♪ It'll be us ♪ 1511 01:25:31,872 --> 01:25:36,747 ♪ It'll be us and only us ♪ 1512 01:25:36,872 --> 01:25:41,455 ♪ And what came before won't count anymore ♪ 1513 01:25:41,580 --> 01:25:44,080 ♪ We can try that ♪ 1514 01:25:44,206 --> 01:25:47,706 ♪ You and me ♪ 1515 01:25:47,831 --> 01:25:50,998 ♪ That's all that we need it to be ♪ 1516 01:25:51,123 --> 01:25:54,540 ♪ And the rest of the world falls away ♪ 1517 01:25:54,665 --> 01:26:00,666 ♪ And the rest of the world falls away ♪ 1518 01:26:02,666 --> 01:26:05,332 ♪ The world falls away ♪ 1519 01:26:06,499 --> 01:26:09,499 ♪ The world falls away ♪ 1520 01:26:15,541 --> 01:26:17,583 ♪ The world falls away ♪ 1521 01:26:18,917 --> 01:26:21,667 ♪ The world falls away ♪ 1522 01:26:22,667 --> 01:26:25,417 ♪ The world falls away ♪ 1523 01:26:26,542 --> 01:26:29,458 ♪ The world falls away ♪ 1524 01:26:37,168 --> 01:26:38,584 ♪ The world falls away ♪ 1525 01:26:38,709 --> 01:26:40,709 All right, let's just start without him. 1526 01:26:40,834 --> 01:26:44,418 ♪ The world falls away ♪ 1527 01:26:44,543 --> 01:26:50,419 ♪ And it's only us. ♪ 1528 01:27:06,628 --> 01:27:07,503 No. 1529 01:27:07,628 --> 01:27:08,878 I'm famous for doing that. 1530 01:27:09,003 --> 01:27:10,003 I've been told that many times. 1531 01:27:11,128 --> 01:27:12,003 Hi, honey. 1532 01:27:12,128 --> 01:27:13,461 Come join us. 1533 01:27:13,586 --> 01:27:15,878 - I just put dinner in the oven. - Hi. 1534 01:27:18,295 --> 01:27:19,586 She made me swear to keep it a surprise. 1535 01:27:19,711 --> 01:27:20,962 I'm surprised. 1536 01:27:21,087 --> 01:27:22,254 Hi. 1537 01:27:22,379 --> 01:27:23,879 It's so nice to finally meet you. 1538 01:27:24,004 --> 01:27:25,462 - Hi. - Hi. 1539 01:27:25,587 --> 01:27:27,129 Yeah, great. 1540 01:27:27,254 --> 01:27:29,129 It's great. 1541 01:27:29,254 --> 01:27:30,796 Come on, Evan. Sit. 1542 01:27:32,754 --> 01:27:34,712 I-I thought that you were working tonight. 1543 01:27:34,837 --> 01:27:36,922 Cynthia called and invited me for dinner, 1544 01:27:37,047 --> 01:27:38,797 so, you know, I'm playing hooky. 1545 01:27:38,922 --> 01:27:41,047 We were just discussing how sneaky you and Connor were. 1546 01:27:41,172 --> 01:27:43,672 I had no idea that he and Connor were even friends. 1547 01:27:43,797 --> 01:27:45,172 We were the same. 1548 01:27:45,297 --> 01:27:46,713 You know, boys love their secrets. 1549 01:27:46,838 --> 01:27:48,713 Something smells good. What's for dinner? 1550 01:27:48,838 --> 01:27:50,547 It's chicken Milanese, your favorite. 1551 01:27:50,672 --> 01:27:52,506 Actually his favorite is 1552 01:27:52,631 --> 01:27:53,881 my great-grandmother's black beans. 1553 01:27:54,006 --> 01:27:55,089 Really? 1554 01:27:55,214 --> 01:27:56,423 Well, he's the only one 1555 01:27:56,548 --> 01:27:57,714 that appreciates my cooking, so... 1556 01:27:57,839 --> 01:27:59,256 - That's not true. - Another drop? 1557 01:27:59,381 --> 01:28:01,381 No, no. I'm-I'm fine. Thank you. 1558 01:28:01,506 --> 01:28:03,839 Um, fascinating story about the wine. 1559 01:28:03,964 --> 01:28:06,548 It's from a vineyard in Napa, 1560 01:28:06,673 --> 01:28:09,632 and the entire growing process from start to finish, 1561 01:28:09,757 --> 01:28:11,549 100% sustainable. 1562 01:28:11,674 --> 01:28:13,007 Is that right? 1563 01:28:13,132 --> 01:28:15,465 Not to mention, it tastes good, too. 1564 01:28:15,590 --> 01:28:16,715 It does. 1565 01:28:16,840 --> 01:28:19,090 You know, I-I didn't realize... 1566 01:28:19,215 --> 01:28:20,465 Cynthia and Larry were telling me 1567 01:28:20,590 --> 01:28:22,132 that you spend so much time here. 1568 01:28:22,257 --> 01:28:23,924 Yeah, I... you've been working a lot, so... 1569 01:28:24,050 --> 01:28:26,008 Why did I think you were at Jared's? 1570 01:28:26,133 --> 01:28:27,508 I-I don't know. 1571 01:28:27,633 --> 01:28:28,966 Evan was showing me 1572 01:28:29,091 --> 01:28:32,216 all of those scholarship contests that you found. 1573 01:28:32,341 --> 01:28:33,383 It's really impressive. 1574 01:28:33,508 --> 01:28:36,175 Well, Evan is a great writer. 1575 01:28:36,300 --> 01:28:37,800 Well, that does not 1576 01:28:37,925 --> 01:28:39,341 surprise me at all. 1577 01:28:40,301 --> 01:28:42,717 His English teacher last year told me that he wrote 1578 01:28:42,842 --> 01:28:45,176 one of the best papers she'd ever read on Sulu. 1579 01:28:45,301 --> 01:28:46,259 Is that right? 1580 01:28:46,384 --> 01:28:48,676 - It's Sula. - What? 1581 01:28:48,801 --> 01:28:50,176 You said "Sulu." It's Sula. 1582 01:28:50,301 --> 01:28:52,259 Yeah, I believe Sulu's 1583 01:28:52,384 --> 01:28:54,176 a character on Star Trek. 1584 01:28:57,802 --> 01:28:59,177 My mistake. 1585 01:29:00,885 --> 01:29:04,093 So, speaking of scholarships... 1586 01:29:05,052 --> 01:29:06,427 Right... 1587 01:29:06,552 --> 01:29:08,718 Yeah, well, I guess... 1588 01:29:08,843 --> 01:29:12,094 now's as good a time as any. 1589 01:29:14,428 --> 01:29:16,636 Cynthia, do you want to...? 1590 01:29:17,761 --> 01:29:19,719 Well, um... 1591 01:29:19,844 --> 01:29:23,344 Zoe happened to mention that Evan was having some difficulty 1592 01:29:23,469 --> 01:29:27,136 in terms of the financial burden of college. 1593 01:29:27,261 --> 01:29:30,554 And Larry and I started thinking, 1594 01:29:30,679 --> 01:29:32,387 and we've been fortunate enough 1595 01:29:32,512 --> 01:29:34,720 to set some money aside for Connor. 1596 01:29:38,304 --> 01:29:39,929 Um, I'm good. 1597 01:29:40,054 --> 01:29:41,720 - I'm okay. - Yeah. 1598 01:29:41,845 --> 01:29:44,180 Heidi, with your blessing, we would like to give Evan 1599 01:29:44,305 --> 01:29:45,930 the money that we set aside for our son 1600 01:29:46,055 --> 01:29:49,971 so he can fulfill his dreams. 1601 01:29:55,638 --> 01:29:58,055 Thank you so much... 1602 01:29:58,180 --> 01:29:59,805 but we're gonna be fine. 1603 01:29:59,930 --> 01:30:02,222 I don't have a lot of money, but I-I do have some. 1604 01:30:03,972 --> 01:30:05,556 No, no, no, no, no. I didn't mean to intimate... 1605 01:30:05,681 --> 01:30:08,056 No, no, I understand, but, um, we do have money, 1606 01:30:08,181 --> 01:30:11,639 so I'm sorry you were under the impression that we didn't. 1607 01:30:11,764 --> 01:30:13,889 And whatever money we don't have, 1608 01:30:14,014 --> 01:30:16,890 Evan will either make up for with a job 1609 01:30:17,015 --> 01:30:18,557 or he'll get a scholarship. 1610 01:30:18,682 --> 01:30:21,473 I don't want my son to get the idea that it's okay 1611 01:30:21,598 --> 01:30:23,015 to rely on other people for favors. 1612 01:30:23,140 --> 01:30:24,932 - Well, it's not a favor. - No. 1613 01:30:25,057 --> 01:30:27,223 But as his mother, I need to set that example. 1614 01:30:27,348 --> 01:30:29,265 You can't expect things from strangers. 1615 01:30:29,390 --> 01:30:31,223 We're not strangers. 1616 01:30:31,348 --> 01:30:33,599 No, of course not. 1617 01:30:34,599 --> 01:30:36,474 But you're not family either. 1618 01:30:44,058 --> 01:30:45,558 Mom, just hold on. 1619 01:30:45,724 --> 01:30:47,433 No, I think I better get to work, 1620 01:30:47,558 --> 01:30:49,225 see if I can grab a shift now that I know 1621 01:30:49,350 --> 01:30:51,309 how concerned you are about our finances. 1622 01:30:51,434 --> 01:30:52,725 Mom, will you please come back inside? 1623 01:30:52,850 --> 01:30:54,767 My God. Are you kidding me? 1624 01:30:54,892 --> 01:30:57,017 Will you just come back inside, please? 1625 01:30:57,142 --> 01:30:59,059 They think you're their son, these people. 1626 01:31:00,100 --> 01:31:01,100 They're not "these people." 1627 01:31:01,225 --> 01:31:02,559 They don't really know you. 1628 01:31:02,684 --> 01:31:04,601 Well, they like me. They like me. 1629 01:31:04,726 --> 01:31:06,226 I know that that's very hard for you to believe, 1630 01:31:06,351 --> 01:31:07,726 that they don't think I'm... 1631 01:31:07,851 --> 01:31:09,185 you know, that there's something wrong with me, 1632 01:31:09,310 --> 01:31:10,643 that I need to be, like, fixed, like you do. 1633 01:31:10,768 --> 01:31:12,560 - When have I ever said that? - My God. 1634 01:31:12,685 --> 01:31:13,893 Mom, I-I have to go to therapy, right? 1635 01:31:14,018 --> 01:31:15,268 I have to take drugs. I have to... 1636 01:31:15,393 --> 01:31:16,935 There's-there's nothing wrong with that. 1637 01:31:17,060 --> 01:31:18,226 There-There's nothing wrong with needing help, honey. 1638 01:31:18,351 --> 01:31:19,310 Just stop. I know that there is, 1639 01:31:19,435 --> 01:31:20,894 and I know that I'm a burden, 1640 01:31:21,019 --> 01:31:22,394 that I'm the worst thing that ever happened to you, 1641 01:31:22,519 --> 01:31:23,436 and I just... well, I just ruined your life, okay?! 1642 01:31:23,561 --> 01:31:26,477 No. You are the best thing. 1643 01:31:26,602 --> 01:31:28,811 You're the best thing that's ever happened to me. 1644 01:31:30,311 --> 01:31:32,269 I'm sorry I can't give you anything more than that. 1645 01:31:33,727 --> 01:31:35,853 It's not my fault if other people can. 1646 01:31:43,187 --> 01:31:44,103 I'll see you at home. 1647 01:31:55,646 --> 01:31:57,188 Hi. 1648 01:31:57,313 --> 01:31:59,021 I'm so sorry. I meant to be there yesterday. 1649 01:31:59,146 --> 01:32:02,313 Okay, well, we have two days left, and we're $25,000 short. 1650 01:32:02,438 --> 01:32:04,313 Yeah, I just... Everything... 1651 01:32:04,438 --> 01:32:05,938 You're right. I know. I'm sorry. 1652 01:32:06,063 --> 01:32:07,646 Things have been really busy, so... 1653 01:32:09,980 --> 01:32:11,439 I've been wondering something. 1654 01:32:14,314 --> 01:32:16,064 Were you ever actually friends with him? 1655 01:32:17,855 --> 01:32:19,397 What are you talking about? 1656 01:32:19,522 --> 01:32:22,022 Well, the thing about the emails, it's just that, 1657 01:32:22,147 --> 01:32:23,981 like, you and Connor keep talking about 1658 01:32:24,106 --> 01:32:25,690 climbing this tree together in June. 1659 01:32:26,898 --> 01:32:29,106 We were in school in June. 1660 01:32:30,106 --> 01:32:32,273 You didn't have a cast until September. 1661 01:32:32,398 --> 01:32:34,065 Well, you know what? 1662 01:32:34,190 --> 01:32:35,940 We probably just wrote down the wrong date or something. 1663 01:32:36,065 --> 01:32:39,481 It's not just the emails, Evan. 1664 01:32:39,606 --> 01:32:41,941 You've missed, like, three meetings in a row. 1665 01:32:42,066 --> 01:32:43,857 If I were his best friend, 1666 01:32:43,982 --> 01:32:45,649 I would be doing everything I could to make sure 1667 01:32:45,774 --> 01:32:47,274 his dream of rebuilding the orchard came true. 1668 01:32:47,399 --> 01:32:49,024 Okay. 1669 01:32:49,149 --> 01:32:50,774 Look, it's terrible that people aren't giving 1670 01:32:50,899 --> 01:32:52,524 as much money as we hoped they would. 1671 01:32:52,649 --> 01:32:54,941 It is, but-but it's not like it's him. 1672 01:32:55,066 --> 01:32:56,317 You know what I mean? 1673 01:32:56,442 --> 01:32:58,358 It's-it's just... it's an orchard, Alana. 1674 01:32:58,483 --> 01:33:01,108 ♪ ♪ 1675 01:33:02,400 --> 01:33:05,400 We have people watching us, 1676 01:33:05,525 --> 01:33:07,733 hoping... 1677 01:33:07,858 --> 01:33:10,858 praying that we can prove Connor wrong. 1678 01:33:10,983 --> 01:33:14,151 And if the orchard is just an empty promise, 1679 01:33:14,276 --> 01:33:17,318 all of those people will know that Connor was right. 1680 01:33:18,984 --> 01:33:20,443 That no one cares. 1681 01:33:23,484 --> 01:33:25,484 Did you lie to me? 1682 01:33:29,777 --> 01:33:31,860 Did I lie to all these people? 1683 01:33:38,527 --> 01:33:40,360 Just go to your email. 1684 01:33:40,485 --> 01:33:41,735 Another email? 1685 01:33:41,860 --> 01:33:43,820 It's not... 1686 01:33:43,945 --> 01:33:45,986 it's not another email. 1687 01:33:53,903 --> 01:33:56,028 "Dear Evan Hansen..." 1688 01:33:57,986 --> 01:34:00,029 If we weren't friends, then he wouldn't... 1689 01:34:02,029 --> 01:34:04,487 ...he wouldn't have written his note to me. 1690 01:34:07,529 --> 01:34:10,279 Look, only his family have seen this, okay? 1691 01:34:10,404 --> 01:34:14,029 You can't, you can't show it to anybody else, okay? 1692 01:34:14,154 --> 01:34:15,988 Alana. 1693 01:34:16,113 --> 01:34:17,447 Okay. 1694 01:34:27,113 --> 01:34:28,780 He wasn't right. 1695 01:34:30,155 --> 01:34:31,906 You know that, don't you? 1696 01:34:52,032 --> 01:34:54,574 ♪ The parts we can't tell, we carry them well ♪ 1697 01:34:54,699 --> 01:34:57,282 ♪ But that doesn't mean they're not heavy ♪ 1698 01:34:57,407 --> 01:35:00,115 ♪ The parts we can't tell, we carry them well ♪ 1699 01:35:00,240 --> 01:35:02,574 ♪ But that doesn't mean they're not heavy ♪ 1700 01:35:02,699 --> 01:35:05,408 ♪ The anonymous one ♪ 1701 01:35:05,533 --> 01:35:07,783 ♪ Noticed by none ♪ 1702 01:35:07,908 --> 01:35:10,325 ♪ The parts we can't tell, we carry them well ♪ 1703 01:35:10,450 --> 01:35:13,616 ♪ But that doesn't mean they're not heavy ♪ 1704 01:35:14,575 --> 01:35:17,033 ♪ ♪ 1705 01:35:17,158 --> 01:35:19,867 ♪ The parts we can't tell ♪ 1706 01:35:19,992 --> 01:35:22,409 ♪ We carry them well ♪ 1707 01:35:22,534 --> 01:35:26,992 ♪ But that doesn't mean they're not heavy ♪ 1708 01:35:27,117 --> 01:35:29,409 ♪ The parts we can't tell ♪ 1709 01:35:29,534 --> 01:35:31,617 ♪ We carry them well ♪ 1710 01:35:31,742 --> 01:35:38,327 ♪ But that doesn't mean they're not heavy ♪ 1711 01:35:41,993 --> 01:35:44,035 ♪ ♪ 1712 01:35:49,035 --> 01:35:51,994 ♪ The anonymous ones ♪ 1713 01:35:52,119 --> 01:35:56,119 ♪ Who might just need this moment to remind them ♪ 1714 01:35:58,119 --> 01:36:01,786 ♪ That there are more anonymous ones ♪ 1715 01:36:01,911 --> 01:36:06,244 ♪ They're out there if you take the time to find them ♪ 1716 01:36:14,037 --> 01:36:19,537 ♪ Just to know we're somehow not alone ♪ 1717 01:36:19,662 --> 01:36:26,121 ♪ Isn't that all we're ever really looking for? ♪ 1718 01:36:30,746 --> 01:36:32,246 ♪ ♪ 1719 01:36:48,789 --> 01:36:51,539 ♪ Maybe we ♪ 1720 01:36:51,664 --> 01:36:54,206 ♪ We don't have to be ♪ 1721 01:36:57,915 --> 01:37:00,082 ♪ Anonymous anymore. ♪ 1722 01:37:05,707 --> 01:37:07,123 ♪ ♪ 1723 01:37:28,917 --> 01:37:31,709 ♪ ♪ 1724 01:37:36,000 --> 01:37:37,542 Can you imagine? 1725 01:37:55,460 --> 01:37:57,251 Wh-What's wrong? 1726 01:37:57,376 --> 01:37:59,001 ♪ ♪ 1727 01:38:02,919 --> 01:38:04,794 Yep. 1728 01:38:17,920 --> 01:38:20,087 ♪ ♪ 1729 01:38:38,296 --> 01:38:39,588 Hi. 1730 01:38:39,713 --> 01:38:41,379 Alana, you have to take it down, okay? 1731 01:38:41,504 --> 01:38:43,046 They've been through enough. 1732 01:38:43,171 --> 01:38:44,838 I took it down already, Evan, but it-it doesn't matter 1733 01:38:44,963 --> 01:38:46,213 because it's everywhere. 1734 01:38:51,505 --> 01:38:54,255 ♪ ♪ 1735 01:38:54,380 --> 01:38:55,422 Zoe, it's me. 1736 01:38:55,547 --> 01:38:56,672 Please call me back, okay? 1737 01:38:56,797 --> 01:38:58,422 I'm worried about you. 1738 01:38:58,547 --> 01:39:00,172 They have pictures of us now. 1739 01:39:00,297 --> 01:39:01,589 Just put it away. 1740 01:39:01,714 --> 01:39:03,590 "His parents act like they are bereft, 1741 01:39:03,715 --> 01:39:06,298 but where were they when their son was actually alive?" 1742 01:39:06,423 --> 01:39:08,465 Please stop reading them. 1743 01:39:10,923 --> 01:39:13,131 - Hey. Is Zoe here? - She went home. 1744 01:39:15,298 --> 01:39:18,048 ♪ ♪ 1745 01:39:29,382 --> 01:39:30,549 Things really aren't good here. 1746 01:39:30,674 --> 01:39:33,007 I know. I just... I had to come. 1747 01:39:34,174 --> 01:39:36,008 Where did they even... How did they get Connor's note? 1748 01:39:36,133 --> 01:39:37,508 I don't know. 1749 01:39:37,633 --> 01:39:39,258 Like, did they hack our computers? 1750 01:39:39,383 --> 01:39:40,967 They hacked our emails? Did... These people are adults. 1751 01:39:41,092 --> 01:39:42,550 Did you see their pictures? 1752 01:39:42,675 --> 01:39:43,800 These people are adults. 1753 01:39:43,925 --> 01:39:45,425 Look, maybe let it ring. 1754 01:39:45,550 --> 01:39:47,717 I'm sick of hiding. Hello? 1755 01:39:47,842 --> 01:39:49,258 Yeah, have-have fun with your miserable life. 1756 01:39:49,383 --> 01:39:51,050 What did they say? What's the number? 1757 01:39:51,175 --> 01:39:52,384 It's blocked. 1758 01:39:52,509 --> 01:39:53,926 It doesn't... No, it doesn't matter. 1759 01:39:54,051 --> 01:39:55,676 That's it. I'm calling the police. 1760 01:39:55,801 --> 01:39:56,718 No, look, right now, maybe the best thing to do 1761 01:39:56,843 --> 01:39:58,593 is to just stay calm, all right? 1762 01:39:58,718 --> 01:40:00,384 - And sit... - That's always your solution, isn't it? 1763 01:40:00,509 --> 01:40:01,801 Wait and see. Let's just wait and see, right, Larry? 1764 01:40:01,926 --> 01:40:02,968 What are the police going to do? 1765 01:40:03,093 --> 01:40:04,301 It's the Internet. Wh... 1766 01:40:04,426 --> 01:40:05,926 Are they gonna arrest the Internet? 1767 01:40:06,051 --> 01:40:07,051 I had to beg you, every step of the way, 1768 01:40:07,176 --> 01:40:08,177 for-for therapy, for-for rehab. 1769 01:40:08,302 --> 01:40:09,927 What? N-No, no. 1770 01:40:10,052 --> 01:40:11,719 You went lurching from one miracle cure to the next... 1771 01:40:11,844 --> 01:40:13,427 You're... Really? 1772 01:40:13,552 --> 01:40:15,385 ...because all he needed was another $20,000 1773 01:40:15,510 --> 01:40:16,469 weekend yoga retreat. 1774 01:40:16,594 --> 01:40:17,969 What was your alternative, 1775 01:40:18,094 --> 01:40:19,427 other than picking apart everything that I did? 1776 01:40:19,552 --> 01:40:21,469 How about putting him on 1777 01:40:21,594 --> 01:40:23,219 one program and sticking to it? 1778 01:40:23,345 --> 01:40:25,136 Remember what he said 1779 01:40:25,261 --> 01:40:27,220 the first time that Connor tried to kill himself? 1780 01:40:27,345 --> 01:40:28,803 - That he's just looking for attention. - For Christ's sake. 1781 01:40:28,928 --> 01:40:30,428 He just wants attention! 1782 01:40:30,553 --> 01:40:32,136 I'm not gonna sit here and defend myself! 1783 01:40:32,261 --> 01:40:33,595 You couldn't understand him. 1784 01:40:33,720 --> 01:40:36,678 You never understood him because he wasn't yours! 1785 01:40:36,803 --> 01:40:38,845 Mom, what the hell? 1786 01:40:38,970 --> 01:40:40,679 I raised him from the time he was three years old. 1787 01:40:40,804 --> 01:40:42,304 He was getting better, and you refused to see it. Ask Evan. 1788 01:40:42,429 --> 01:40:44,262 Tell them, Evan. 1789 01:40:44,387 --> 01:40:46,054 Evan did everything that he could. 1790 01:40:46,179 --> 01:40:48,971 Evan? Evan was in denial of what was happening. 1791 01:40:49,096 --> 01:40:50,762 Do not bring him into this. 1792 01:40:50,887 --> 01:40:51,971 Read the note, Larry. 1793 01:40:52,096 --> 01:40:53,596 Read what he said. 1794 01:40:53,721 --> 01:40:55,638 "I just wish that everything was different." 1795 01:40:55,763 --> 01:40:57,555 I tried. 1796 01:40:57,680 --> 01:40:59,097 - But he was my son! - He wanted to be better! - ZOE: Please. 1797 01:40:59,222 --> 01:41:00,347 I-I tried everything! 1798 01:41:00,472 --> 01:41:02,013 Stop it! Just please stop! 1799 01:41:02,138 --> 01:41:04,430 - Please stop fighting! - He was trying to be better! 1800 01:41:04,555 --> 01:41:05,430 He was trying! 1801 01:41:05,555 --> 01:41:07,013 And he was failing. 1802 01:41:07,138 --> 01:41:09,263 We failed him. 1803 01:41:10,305 --> 01:41:11,723 No, you didn't. No, you didn't. 1804 01:41:11,848 --> 01:41:12,973 You didn't fail him. 1805 01:41:15,181 --> 01:41:16,431 Read the note. 1806 01:41:18,306 --> 01:41:19,973 He didn't write it. 1807 01:41:25,764 --> 01:41:27,056 I wrote it. 1808 01:41:27,181 --> 01:41:30,557 You didn't write Connor's suicide note. 1809 01:41:31,515 --> 01:41:35,265 Um, it was an assignment from my therapist. 1810 01:41:35,390 --> 01:41:37,307 Write a letter to yourself, um, a pep talk. 1811 01:41:37,432 --> 01:41:39,349 "Evan Hansen, Dear Evan Hansen, today's gonna be a good day. 1812 01:41:39,474 --> 01:41:41,057 - Here's why." - I-I don't, I don't think that... 1813 01:41:41,182 --> 01:41:42,849 I was supposed to bring it to my appointment with me, 1814 01:41:42,974 --> 01:41:45,058 but Connor took it, and then I guess he must have had it 1815 01:41:45,183 --> 01:41:47,058 with him, um... 1816 01:41:49,225 --> 01:41:51,600 ...when you found him, so... 1817 01:41:56,391 --> 01:41:57,850 What are you saying? 1818 01:41:59,601 --> 01:42:01,142 We weren't friends. 1819 01:42:01,267 --> 01:42:02,642 No. 1820 01:42:02,767 --> 01:42:04,142 No, no, no, no. 1821 01:42:04,267 --> 01:42:06,601 ♪ I never meant to make it such a mess ♪ 1822 01:42:08,642 --> 01:42:11,392 ♪ I never thought that it would go this far ♪ 1823 01:42:11,517 --> 01:42:13,892 There were emails. You showed us emails. 1824 01:42:14,017 --> 01:42:18,185 ♪ So I just stand here sorry ♪ 1825 01:42:18,310 --> 01:42:20,810 ♪ Searching for something to say ♪ 1826 01:42:22,143 --> 01:42:23,518 ♪ Something to say ♪ 1827 01:42:23,643 --> 01:42:25,935 Y-Y-You knew about the orchard. 1828 01:42:26,060 --> 01:42:28,185 He-he took you to the orchard. 1829 01:42:28,310 --> 01:42:29,977 That's where you broke your arm. 1830 01:42:30,102 --> 01:42:33,644 I broke my arm in Ellison Park, um, by myself. 1831 01:42:33,769 --> 01:42:36,144 But that day at the orchard... 1832 01:42:37,894 --> 01:42:39,811 You and Connor at the orchard. 1833 01:42:39,936 --> 01:42:41,978 ♪ ♪ 1834 01:42:44,103 --> 01:42:46,144 ♪ Words fail ♪ 1835 01:42:47,229 --> 01:42:49,270 ♪ Words fail ♪ 1836 01:42:50,729 --> 01:42:53,395 ♪ There's nothing I can say ♪ 1837 01:42:53,520 --> 01:42:54,979 God. 1838 01:42:56,937 --> 01:42:59,354 But you said that you guys would talk about me. 1839 01:42:59,479 --> 01:43:01,354 He would... 1840 01:43:01,479 --> 01:43:02,937 How could you do this? 1841 01:43:03,062 --> 01:43:05,605 ♪ I guess I thought I could be part of this ♪ 1842 01:43:07,021 --> 01:43:09,938 ♪ I never had this kind of thing before ♪ 1843 01:43:11,355 --> 01:43:14,438 ♪ I never had that perfect girl ♪ 1844 01:43:14,563 --> 01:43:19,689 ♪ Who somehow could see the good part of me ♪ 1845 01:43:21,189 --> 01:43:23,647 ♪ I never had the dad who stuck it out ♪ 1846 01:43:25,147 --> 01:43:28,939 ♪ No corny jokes or baseball gloves ♪ 1847 01:43:29,064 --> 01:43:31,439 ♪ No mom who just was there ♪ 1848 01:43:31,564 --> 01:43:36,940 ♪ 'Cause mom was all that she had to be ♪ 1849 01:43:37,065 --> 01:43:40,940 ♪ That's not a worthy explanation ♪ 1850 01:43:41,065 --> 01:43:43,898 ♪ I know there is none ♪ 1851 01:43:45,940 --> 01:43:51,441 ♪ Nothing can make sense of all these things I've done ♪ 1852 01:43:53,399 --> 01:43:58,108 ♪ Words fail, words fail ♪ 1853 01:43:58,233 --> 01:44:01,691 ♪ There's nothing I can say ♪ 1854 01:44:01,816 --> 01:44:05,274 ♪ Except sometimes you see everything you wanted ♪ 1855 01:44:05,399 --> 01:44:07,484 ♪ And sometimes ♪ 1856 01:44:07,609 --> 01:44:09,942 ♪ You see everything you wish you had ♪ 1857 01:44:10,067 --> 01:44:15,025 ♪ And it's right there, right there, right there ♪ 1858 01:44:15,150 --> 01:44:17,359 ♪ In front of you ♪ 1859 01:44:22,234 --> 01:44:25,360 ♪ And you want to believe it's true ♪ 1860 01:44:31,401 --> 01:44:34,360 ♪ So you make it true ♪ 1861 01:44:38,068 --> 01:44:41,736 ♪ And you think maybe ♪ 1862 01:44:41,861 --> 01:44:47,319 ♪ Everybody wants it ♪ 1863 01:44:49,986 --> 01:44:51,652 ♪ And needs it ♪ 1864 01:44:53,569 --> 01:44:57,070 ♪ A little bit, too. ♪ 1865 01:45:13,654 --> 01:45:14,904 Zoe. 1866 01:45:17,613 --> 01:45:19,196 ♪ ♪ 1867 01:45:24,154 --> 01:45:26,988 I think it's time for you to go. 1868 01:45:45,531 --> 01:45:47,573 ♪ ♪ 1869 01:45:59,157 --> 01:46:00,324 Go away, Evan. 1870 01:46:00,449 --> 01:46:01,866 It isn't fair, okay? 1871 01:46:01,991 --> 01:46:03,282 You can't, you can't let people 1872 01:46:03,407 --> 01:46:05,449 just blame you and your parents. 1873 01:46:05,574 --> 01:46:06,782 They need to know it was me, okay? 1874 01:46:06,907 --> 01:46:08,116 I'm the one people should hate. 1875 01:46:08,241 --> 01:46:10,699 Yeah, well, we're not telling anyone. 1876 01:46:10,824 --> 01:46:12,282 Well, that's... I... 1877 01:46:12,407 --> 01:46:15,283 You can't... You have to. 1878 01:46:15,408 --> 01:46:17,450 It's not my decision. 1879 01:46:17,575 --> 01:46:19,158 It's my mom's. 1880 01:46:19,283 --> 01:46:20,742 She doesn't want to ruin your life. 1881 01:46:20,867 --> 01:46:23,242 She's afraid you'll do something stupid. 1882 01:46:23,367 --> 01:46:25,325 Like hurt yourself. 1883 01:46:29,408 --> 01:46:31,993 She said they already lost one son. 1884 01:46:36,409 --> 01:46:38,868 Can you just... 1885 01:46:38,993 --> 01:46:41,368 leave my family alone, okay? 1886 01:46:41,493 --> 01:46:43,534 ♪ ♪ 1887 01:47:03,203 --> 01:47:05,245 ♪ ♪ 1888 01:47:08,953 --> 01:47:13,120 ♪ This was just a sad invention ♪ 1889 01:47:14,495 --> 01:47:17,245 ♪ It wasn't real, I know ♪ 1890 01:47:19,037 --> 01:47:20,912 ♪ But we were happy ♪ 1891 01:47:22,621 --> 01:47:26,037 ♪ I guess I couldn't let that go ♪ 1892 01:47:28,079 --> 01:47:30,829 ♪ I guess I couldn't give that up ♪ 1893 01:47:32,412 --> 01:47:35,080 ♪ I guess I wanted to believe ♪ 1894 01:47:35,205 --> 01:47:37,747 ♪ 'Cause if I just believe ♪ 1895 01:47:37,872 --> 01:47:40,622 ♪ Then I don't have to see ♪ 1896 01:47:40,747 --> 01:47:42,997 ♪ What's really there ♪ 1897 01:47:44,872 --> 01:47:46,747 ♪ No, I'd rather pretend ♪ 1898 01:47:46,872 --> 01:47:49,913 ♪ I'm something better than these broken parts ♪ 1899 01:47:50,038 --> 01:47:52,831 ♪ Pretend I'm something other than ♪ 1900 01:47:52,956 --> 01:47:54,873 ♪ This mess that I am ♪ 1901 01:47:54,998 --> 01:47:57,789 ♪ 'Cause then I don't have to look at it ♪ 1902 01:47:57,914 --> 01:48:00,164 ♪ And no one gets to look at it ♪ 1903 01:48:00,289 --> 01:48:05,123 ♪ No, no one can really see ♪ 1904 01:48:05,248 --> 01:48:09,332 ♪ 'Cause I've learned to slam on the brake ♪ 1905 01:48:09,457 --> 01:48:13,915 ♪ Before I even turn the key ♪ 1906 01:48:14,040 --> 01:48:18,290 ♪ Before I make the mistake ♪ 1907 01:48:18,415 --> 01:48:22,165 ♪ Before I lead with the worst of me ♪ 1908 01:48:22,290 --> 01:48:24,375 ♪ I never let them see ♪ 1909 01:48:24,500 --> 01:48:33,000 ♪ The worst of me ♪ 1910 01:48:38,166 --> 01:48:40,667 ♪ ♪ 1911 01:48:42,667 --> 01:48:44,334 ♪ 'Cause what if everyone saw? ♪ 1912 01:48:48,584 --> 01:48:51,084 ♪ What if everyone knew? ♪ 1913 01:48:53,209 --> 01:48:55,585 ♪ Would they like what they saw? ♪ 1914 01:48:57,752 --> 01:49:00,752 ♪ Or would they hate it, too? ♪ 1915 01:49:11,961 --> 01:49:16,253 ♪ Will I just keep on running away ♪ 1916 01:49:16,378 --> 01:49:20,419 ♪ From what's true? ♪ 1917 01:49:23,461 --> 01:49:28,962 ♪ All I ever do is run ♪ 1918 01:49:32,295 --> 01:49:36,754 ♪ So how do I step in ♪ 1919 01:49:41,420 --> 01:49:49,505 ♪ Step into the sun? ♪ 1920 01:49:51,130 --> 01:49:57,713 ♪ Step into the sun. ♪ 1921 01:49:57,838 --> 01:49:59,839 ♪ ♪ 1922 01:50:32,341 --> 01:50:33,591 Evan? 1923 01:50:34,549 --> 01:50:36,174 Evan? 1924 01:50:44,841 --> 01:50:46,091 Evan? 1925 01:51:02,801 --> 01:51:04,260 Honey. 1926 01:51:10,093 --> 01:51:11,968 "Dear Evan Hansen..." 1927 01:51:14,093 --> 01:51:16,343 You wrote this? Connor's note? 1928 01:51:20,011 --> 01:51:21,469 I didn't know. 1929 01:51:21,594 --> 01:51:23,177 No one did. 1930 01:51:23,302 --> 01:51:25,177 No, honey, that's... 1931 01:51:26,594 --> 01:51:28,636 ...that's not what I meant. 1932 01:51:30,511 --> 01:51:32,552 I didn't know that you were... 1933 01:51:33,719 --> 01:51:35,928 ...that you were hurting like that. 1934 01:51:36,053 --> 01:51:38,303 That you felt... 1935 01:51:38,428 --> 01:51:40,095 I didn't know. 1936 01:51:42,595 --> 01:51:44,262 I lied. 1937 01:51:48,220 --> 01:51:50,512 I lied about so many things. 1938 01:51:53,179 --> 01:51:55,221 Not just Connor. Um... 1939 01:52:00,013 --> 01:52:02,263 So, last summer, um... 1940 01:52:05,054 --> 01:52:06,513 ...I just... 1941 01:52:09,055 --> 01:52:11,639 ...I just felt so alone. Um... 1942 01:52:14,722 --> 01:52:16,180 You can tell me. 1943 01:52:19,347 --> 01:52:21,014 The tree. 1944 01:52:24,056 --> 01:52:26,056 I didn't fall. 1945 01:52:29,140 --> 01:52:30,390 I let go. 1946 01:52:34,598 --> 01:52:36,848 - Evan. - Do you hate me now? 1947 01:52:39,224 --> 01:52:42,724 You should. You should. 1948 01:52:42,849 --> 01:52:47,224 If you knew who I am, just how just broken I am. 1949 01:52:48,224 --> 01:52:50,099 I already know you. 1950 01:52:51,599 --> 01:52:52,849 And I love you. 1951 01:52:58,892 --> 01:53:00,975 I can promise you that... 1952 01:53:03,392 --> 01:53:04,850 ...someday... 1953 01:53:06,017 --> 01:53:09,392 ...all of this is gonna feel like a very long time ago. 1954 01:53:16,851 --> 01:53:18,893 Your dad, um... 1955 01:53:21,893 --> 01:53:24,226 Do you remember when he drove by to get his things? 1956 01:53:24,393 --> 01:53:26,434 ♪ ♪ 1957 01:53:29,810 --> 01:53:32,477 It was a few weeks after he moved out. 1958 01:53:34,185 --> 01:53:36,227 Temporarily, we said. 1959 01:53:37,602 --> 01:53:40,144 ♪ It was a February day ♪ 1960 01:53:41,852 --> 01:53:46,853 ♪ When your dad came by before going away ♪ 1961 01:53:48,228 --> 01:53:51,561 ♪ A U-Haul truck in the driveway ♪ 1962 01:53:53,228 --> 01:53:58,103 ♪ The day it was suddenly real ♪ 1963 01:53:59,562 --> 01:54:02,479 ♪ I told you not to come outside ♪ 1964 01:54:03,604 --> 01:54:09,146 ♪ But you saw that truck, and you smiled so wide ♪ 1965 01:54:10,854 --> 01:54:15,313 ♪ A real live truck in your driveway ♪ 1966 01:54:16,313 --> 01:54:20,355 ♪ We let you sit behind the wheel ♪ 1967 01:54:23,063 --> 01:54:27,772 ♪ Goodbye, goodbye ♪ 1968 01:54:28,772 --> 01:54:32,398 ♪ Now it's just me ♪ 1969 01:54:32,523 --> 01:54:35,481 ♪ And my little guy ♪ 1970 01:54:37,814 --> 01:54:42,273 ♪ And the house felt so big ♪ 1971 01:54:44,273 --> 01:54:49,190 ♪ And I felt so small ♪ 1972 01:54:50,482 --> 01:54:54,982 ♪ The house felt so big ♪ 1973 01:54:56,482 --> 01:55:01,065 ♪ And I felt so small ♪ 1974 01:55:03,150 --> 01:55:05,983 ♪ That night, I tucked you into bed ♪ 1975 01:55:07,358 --> 01:55:12,816 ♪ I will never forget how you sat up and said ♪ 1976 01:55:12,941 --> 01:55:17,025 ♪ "Is there another truck coming to our driveway? ♪ 1977 01:55:18,316 --> 01:55:23,859 ♪ A truck that will take Mommy away?" ♪ 1978 01:55:25,692 --> 01:55:30,942 ♪ And the house felt so big ♪ 1979 01:55:31,942 --> 01:55:37,443 ♪ And I felt so small ♪ 1980 01:55:38,485 --> 01:55:43,485 ♪ The house felt so big ♪ 1981 01:55:43,610 --> 01:55:46,568 ♪ And I ♪ 1982 01:55:46,693 --> 01:55:50,443 ♪ And I knew there would be ♪ 1983 01:55:50,569 --> 01:55:53,403 ♪ Moments that I'd miss ♪ 1984 01:55:53,528 --> 01:55:56,736 ♪ And I knew there would be ♪ 1985 01:55:56,861 --> 01:55:59,278 ♪ Space I couldn't fill ♪ 1986 01:55:59,403 --> 01:56:02,778 ♪ And I knew I'd come up short ♪ 1987 01:56:02,903 --> 01:56:07,279 ♪ A million different ways ♪ 1988 01:56:07,404 --> 01:56:09,904 ♪ And I did ♪ 1989 01:56:11,779 --> 01:56:15,529 ♪ And I do ♪ 1990 01:56:17,070 --> 01:56:19,570 ♪ And I will ♪ 1991 01:56:21,779 --> 01:56:24,446 ♪ But like that February day ♪ 1992 01:56:26,071 --> 01:56:28,155 ♪ I will take your hand ♪ 1993 01:56:28,280 --> 01:56:31,821 ♪ Squeeze it tightly and say ♪ 1994 01:56:31,946 --> 01:56:35,446 ♪ "There's not another truck in the driveway ♪ 1995 01:56:36,946 --> 01:56:39,447 ♪ "Your mom isn't going anywhere ♪ 1996 01:56:39,572 --> 01:56:42,364 ♪ "Your mom is staying right here ♪ 1997 01:56:42,489 --> 01:56:45,114 ♪ "Your mom isn't going anywhere ♪ 1998 01:56:45,239 --> 01:56:48,489 ♪ Your mom is staying right here" ♪ 1999 01:56:49,447 --> 01:56:51,531 ♪ No matter what ♪ 2000 01:56:53,864 --> 01:56:58,282 ♪ I'll be here ♪ 2001 01:56:59,282 --> 01:57:04,323 ♪ When it all feels so big ♪ 2002 01:57:05,573 --> 01:57:10,533 ♪ Till it all feels so small ♪ 2003 01:57:11,533 --> 01:57:16,158 ♪ When it all feels so big ♪ 2004 01:57:17,491 --> 01:57:20,574 ♪ Till it all feels ♪ 2005 01:57:20,699 --> 01:57:26,950 ♪ So small ♪ 2006 01:57:29,367 --> 01:57:35,909 ♪ Till it all feels so small. ♪ 2007 01:57:44,368 --> 01:57:46,910 It's gonna get better, I promise. 2008 01:58:01,494 --> 01:58:03,744 I was never friends with Connor Murphy. 2009 01:58:05,202 --> 01:58:07,494 I lied, 2010 01:58:07,619 --> 01:58:09,244 repeatedly, 2011 01:58:09,369 --> 01:58:12,161 to his family, 2012 01:58:12,286 --> 01:58:14,745 to Alana, 2013 01:58:14,870 --> 01:58:16,745 to all of you. 2014 01:58:18,370 --> 01:58:19,912 I'm not asking for your forgiveness. 2015 01:58:20,037 --> 01:58:21,037 I don't deserve it. 2016 01:58:21,162 --> 01:58:23,703 But, um, please... 2017 01:58:25,328 --> 01:58:27,787 Connor's family doesn't deserve your hatred. 2018 01:58:29,453 --> 01:58:30,913 I do. 2019 01:58:33,246 --> 01:58:34,704 I'm sorry. 2020 01:59:39,458 --> 01:59:41,500 ♪ ♪ 2021 01:59:47,375 --> 01:59:49,958 ♪ Spent so many seasons ♪ 2022 01:59:50,083 --> 01:59:53,293 ♪ Lost inside my mind ♪ 2023 01:59:53,418 --> 01:59:57,751 {\an8}♪ Lost inside my mind ♪ 2024 01:59:59,418 --> 02:00:01,668 {\an8}♪ Like a message in a bottle ♪ 2025 02:00:01,793 --> 02:00:04,626 ♪ I thought nobody would find ♪ 2026 02:00:04,751 --> 02:00:08,960 ♪ That nobody would find ♪ 2027 02:00:10,710 --> 02:00:13,877 ♪ I've been drifting, I've been dreaming ♪ 2028 02:00:14,002 --> 02:00:16,794 ♪ I would land upon the shore ♪ 2029 02:00:16,919 --> 02:00:20,210 ♪ To a haven, to a harbor ♪ 2030 02:00:20,335 --> 02:00:24,753 ♪ That felt so far before ♪ 2031 02:00:26,128 --> 02:00:28,961 ♪ Well, today ♪ 2032 02:00:29,086 --> 02:00:32,003 ♪ Today ♪ 2033 02:00:32,128 --> 02:00:34,545 ♪ What felt so far away ♪ 2034 02:00:34,670 --> 02:00:38,045 ♪ Feels a little closer ♪ 2035 02:00:38,170 --> 02:00:44,337 ♪ For today, today ♪ 2036 02:00:44,462 --> 02:00:46,629 ♪ Today ♪ 2037 02:00:48,754 --> 02:00:53,504 ♪ It feels a little closer ♪ 2038 02:00:56,672 --> 02:00:58,922 ♪ How long these days of darkness ♪ 2039 02:00:59,047 --> 02:01:02,338 ♪ At the bottom of a well ♪ 2040 02:01:02,463 --> 02:01:06,838 ♪ That old, familiar well ♪ 2041 02:01:08,713 --> 02:01:12,173 ♪ Sitting heavy with these secrets ♪ 2042 02:01:12,298 --> 02:01:14,631 ♪ With nobody to tell ♪ 2043 02:01:14,756 --> 02:01:18,589 ♪ Nobody to tell ♪ 2044 02:01:19,589 --> 02:01:21,631 - Okay, your turn. Come on. - ♪ High above ♪ 2045 02:01:21,756 --> 02:01:23,298 ♪ A streak of sunlight ♪ 2046 02:01:23,423 --> 02:01:26,089 ♪ And a wall too tall to climb ♪ 2047 02:01:26,215 --> 02:01:29,965 ♪ All the reaching, all the wanting ♪ 2048 02:01:30,090 --> 02:01:33,465 ♪ Just to tumble every time ♪ 2049 02:01:33,590 --> 02:01:34,674 I think we got it. 2050 02:01:34,799 --> 02:01:36,382 All right. 2051 02:01:36,549 --> 02:01:39,465 ♪ But today ♪ 2052 02:01:39,590 --> 02:01:42,090 ♪ Today ♪ 2053 02:01:42,216 --> 02:01:44,466 ♪ What felt so far away ♪ 2054 02:01:44,591 --> 02:01:48,008 ♪ Feels a little closer ♪ 2055 02:01:48,133 --> 02:01:54,466 ♪ For today, today ♪ 2056 02:01:54,591 --> 02:01:56,925 ♪ Today ♪ 2057 02:01:59,759 --> 02:02:02,759 ♪ It feels a little closer ♪ 2058 02:02:03,717 --> 02:02:05,759 ♪ ♪ 2059 02:02:12,092 --> 02:02:18,468 ♪ And the days carry on ♪ 2060 02:02:18,593 --> 02:02:20,427 ♪ The clouds come rolling in ♪ 2061 02:02:20,552 --> 02:02:23,927 ♪ And then they're gone ♪ 2062 02:02:24,052 --> 02:02:30,928 ♪ As the days keep coming on ♪ 2063 02:02:31,053 --> 02:02:35,303 ♪ The midnight sky turns to dawn ♪ 2064 02:02:45,469 --> 02:02:51,470 ♪ Today, today ♪ 2065 02:02:51,595 --> 02:02:54,054 ♪ What felt so far away ♪ 2066 02:02:54,179 --> 02:02:57,887 ♪ Feels a little closer ♪ 2067 02:02:58,012 --> 02:03:04,138 ♪ Today, today ♪ 2068 02:03:04,263 --> 02:03:06,513 ♪ What felt so far away ♪ 2069 02:03:06,638 --> 02:03:10,971 ♪ Feels a little closer ♪ 2070 02:03:11,096 --> 02:03:16,763 ♪ For today, today ♪ 2071 02:03:16,888 --> 02:03:19,764 ♪ Today ♪ 2072 02:03:22,389 --> 02:03:25,472 ♪ It feels a little closer ♪ 2073 02:03:25,597 --> 02:03:28,139 ♪ A little closer ♪ 2074 02:03:28,264 --> 02:03:31,722 ♪ It feels a little closer ♪ 2075 02:03:31,847 --> 02:03:34,973 ♪ A little closer ♪ 2076 02:03:37,682 --> 02:03:41,890 ♪ It feels a little closer. ♪ 2077 02:04:23,685 --> 02:04:26,518 You must start school pretty soon. 2078 02:04:26,643 --> 02:04:28,518 Two more weeks. 2079 02:04:30,518 --> 02:04:32,893 When do you leave for college? 2080 02:04:33,018 --> 02:04:37,518 Um, actually I decided to take a year off, so... 2081 02:04:37,643 --> 02:04:39,352 Just try to save some money. 2082 02:04:39,477 --> 02:04:41,061 Get a job. 2083 02:04:41,186 --> 02:04:44,727 Take some time. 2084 02:04:44,852 --> 02:04:47,186 So, I'm taking classes at the community college. 2085 02:04:47,311 --> 02:04:50,186 I'll have credits to transfer in the fall, so... 2086 02:04:51,269 --> 02:04:52,352 That's smart. 2087 02:04:52,477 --> 02:04:54,353 Yeah. We'll see. 2088 02:04:58,103 --> 02:05:00,270 I always picture you and Connor here. 2089 02:05:01,645 --> 02:05:03,312 Even though... 2090 02:05:05,145 --> 02:05:07,020 This is my first time. 2091 02:05:08,520 --> 02:05:10,188 It's nice. 2092 02:05:11,521 --> 02:05:13,146 Peaceful. 2093 02:05:14,396 --> 02:05:17,354 My parents come here all the time. 2094 02:05:17,479 --> 02:05:20,688 We do picnics, like, every weekend. 2095 02:05:20,813 --> 02:05:23,688 Lots of gluten-free sandwiches. 2096 02:05:27,522 --> 02:05:29,564 It's helped them a lot, actually. 2097 02:05:30,980 --> 02:05:32,230 Having this. 2098 02:05:38,272 --> 02:05:39,939 What I did... 2099 02:05:41,814 --> 02:05:43,523 ...I can't even... 2100 02:05:47,690 --> 02:05:50,856 It's the worst thing anyone can do. 2101 02:05:58,191 --> 02:06:00,232 I wish we could have met now. 2102 02:06:01,982 --> 02:06:04,066 Today. 2103 02:06:04,191 --> 02:06:05,899 For the first time. 2104 02:06:06,857 --> 02:06:09,232 Me, too. 2105 02:06:13,607 --> 02:06:14,692 I should probably... 2106 02:06:14,817 --> 02:06:16,192 Yeah. Yeah, of course. 2107 02:06:16,317 --> 02:06:18,192 Of course. 2108 02:06:20,650 --> 02:06:22,317 Hey, can I just... 2109 02:06:23,358 --> 02:06:25,400 Can I just ask you... 2110 02:06:27,275 --> 02:06:28,942 Why did you want to meet here? 2111 02:06:35,234 --> 02:06:37,693 I wanted to be sure that you saw this. 2112 02:06:42,193 --> 02:06:44,651 He really loved it here. 2113 02:06:56,569 --> 02:06:58,610 ♪ ♪ 2114 02:07:00,610 --> 02:07:02,820 Dear Evan Hansen... 2115 02:07:04,195 --> 02:07:07,528 ...today is gonna be a good day, and here's why. 2116 02:07:08,778 --> 02:07:12,570 Because today, no matter what else, 2117 02:07:12,695 --> 02:07:15,153 today at least you're you. 2118 02:07:15,278 --> 02:07:16,736 No hiding, no lying. 2119 02:07:16,861 --> 02:07:18,821 And that's... 2120 02:07:18,946 --> 02:07:20,404 that's enough. 2121 02:07:20,529 --> 02:07:23,446 So no matter how hard it gets, 2122 02:07:23,571 --> 02:07:27,487 even if it feels... impossible, 2123 02:07:27,612 --> 02:07:29,487 this time you'll know. 2124 02:07:30,654 --> 02:07:32,862 Don't let go. 2125 02:07:32,987 --> 02:07:36,447 Just hold on and keep going. 2126 02:07:38,238 --> 02:07:39,738 Just keep going. 2127 02:07:39,863 --> 02:07:41,905 ♪ ♪ 2128 02:07:44,405 --> 02:07:53,406 ♪ Today, today ♪ 2129 02:07:53,531 --> 02:07:54,989 ♪ Today ♪ 2130 02:07:58,906 --> 02:08:05,614 ♪ It feels a little closer. ♪ 2131 02:08:08,574 --> 02:08:10,615 ♪ ♪ 2132 02:08:52,992 --> 02:08:57,202 ♪ Have you ever felt like nobody was there? ♪ 2133 02:08:59,077 --> 02:09:04,952 ♪ Have you ever felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere? ♪ 2134 02:09:05,077 --> 02:09:09,577 ♪ Have you ever felt like you could disappear? ♪ 2135 02:09:10,744 --> 02:09:13,411 ♪ Like you could fall ♪ 2136 02:09:13,536 --> 02:09:15,911 ♪ And no one would hear? ♪ 2137 02:09:17,286 --> 02:09:21,411 ♪ Well, let that lonely feeling wash away ♪ 2138 02:09:23,661 --> 02:09:29,204 ♪ Maybe there's a reason to believe you'll be okay ♪ 2139 02:09:29,329 --> 02:09:33,870 ♪ 'Cause when you don't feel strong enough to stand ♪ 2140 02:09:35,245 --> 02:09:37,412 ♪ You can reach ♪ 2141 02:09:37,537 --> 02:09:40,954 ♪ Reach out your hand ♪ 2142 02:09:41,079 --> 02:09:46,913 ♪ And, someone will come running ♪ 2143 02:09:47,038 --> 02:09:54,163 ♪ And I know they'll take you home ♪ 2144 02:09:54,288 --> 02:09:57,163 ♪ Even when the dark comes crashing through ♪ 2145 02:09:57,288 --> 02:10:00,331 ♪ When you need a friend to carry you ♪ 2146 02:10:00,456 --> 02:10:03,789 ♪ And when you're broken on the ground ♪ 2147 02:10:03,914 --> 02:10:06,372 ♪ You will be found ♪ 2148 02:10:06,497 --> 02:10:09,081 ♪ So let the sun come streaming in ♪ 2149 02:10:09,206 --> 02:10:12,539 ♪ 'Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again ♪ 2150 02:10:12,664 --> 02:10:15,748 ♪ Lift your head and look around ♪ 2151 02:10:15,873 --> 02:10:20,998 ♪ You will be found ♪ 2152 02:10:21,957 --> 02:10:26,832 ♪ You will be found ♪ 2153 02:10:29,165 --> 02:10:33,958 ♪ There's a place where we don't have to feel unknown ♪ 2154 02:10:35,708 --> 02:10:38,166 ♪ And every time you call out ♪ 2155 02:10:38,291 --> 02:10:41,666 ♪ You're a little less alone ♪ 2156 02:10:41,791 --> 02:10:46,334 ♪ If you only say the word ♪ 2157 02:10:46,459 --> 02:10:50,584 ♪ From across the silence ♪ 2158 02:10:50,709 --> 02:10:55,667 ♪ Your voice is heard ♪ 2159 02:10:55,792 --> 02:10:58,709 ♪ Even when the dark comes crashing through ♪ 2160 02:10:58,834 --> 02:11:01,918 ♪ When you need a friend to carry you ♪ 2161 02:11:02,043 --> 02:11:05,376 ♪ And when you're broken on the ground ♪ 2162 02:11:05,501 --> 02:11:07,918 ♪ You will be found ♪ 2163 02:11:08,043 --> 02:11:10,460 ♪ So let the sun come streaming in ♪ 2164 02:11:10,585 --> 02:11:14,085 ♪ 'Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again ♪ 2165 02:11:14,210 --> 02:11:17,460 ♪ Lift your head and look around ♪ 2166 02:11:17,586 --> 02:11:20,502 ♪ You will be found ♪ 2167 02:11:20,627 --> 02:11:29,419 ♪ You will be found, you will be found ♪ 2168 02:11:29,544 --> 02:11:32,502 ♪ You will be found ♪ 2169 02:11:32,627 --> 02:11:40,087 ♪ You will be found, you will be found ♪ 2170 02:11:43,087 --> 02:11:45,670 ♪ Out of the shadows ♪ 2171 02:11:45,795 --> 02:11:48,337 ♪ The morning is breaking ♪ 2172 02:11:48,462 --> 02:11:54,921 ♪ And all is new and all is new ♪ 2173 02:11:55,046 --> 02:11:57,879 ♪ It's filling up the empty ♪ 2174 02:11:58,004 --> 02:12:00,254 ♪ And suddenly I see ♪ 2175 02:12:00,379 --> 02:12:03,588 ♪ That all is new ♪ 2176 02:12:03,713 --> 02:12:07,839 ♪ All is new ♪ 2177 02:12:07,964 --> 02:12:11,089 ♪ Even when the dark comes crashing through ♪ 2178 02:12:11,214 --> 02:12:14,297 ♪ When you need a friend to carry you ♪ 2179 02:12:14,422 --> 02:12:17,922 ♪ And when you're broken on the ground ♪ 2180 02:12:18,047 --> 02:12:20,589 ♪ You will be found ♪ 2181 02:12:20,714 --> 02:12:23,506 ♪ So let the sun come streaming in ♪ 2182 02:12:23,631 --> 02:12:27,090 ♪ 'Cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again ♪ 2183 02:12:27,215 --> 02:12:30,631 ♪ Lift your head and look around ♪ 2184 02:12:30,756 --> 02:12:35,840 ♪ You will be found. ♪ 2185 02:12:53,007 --> 02:12:55,008 ♪ Ever look at all the people ♪ 2186 02:12:55,133 --> 02:12:58,217 ♪ Seem to know exactly how to be? ♪ 2187 02:12:58,342 --> 02:13:01,758 ♪ How to be, how to be now, how to be ♪ 2188 02:13:01,883 --> 02:13:05,592 ♪ You think, they don't need piles of prescriptions ♪ 2189 02:13:05,717 --> 02:13:08,175 ♪ To function naturally ♪ 2190 02:13:08,300 --> 02:13:12,051 ♪ Functioning natural ♪ 2191 02:13:12,176 --> 02:13:15,384 ♪ Take a look and you might just catch it ♪ 2192 02:13:15,509 --> 02:13:17,551 ♪ Stay a minute more ♪ 2193 02:13:17,676 --> 02:13:20,801 ♪ Minute more, minute more now, minute more ♪ 2194 02:13:20,926 --> 02:13:24,884 ♪ There's a little moment after the sunny smile ♪ 2195 02:13:25,009 --> 02:13:27,094 ♪ Their eyes fall to the floor ♪ 2196 02:13:27,219 --> 02:13:30,219 ♪ To the floor, to the floor now, to the floor ♪ 2197 02:13:30,344 --> 02:13:33,677 ♪ The truth starts peeking through ♪ 2198 02:13:33,802 --> 02:13:35,010 ♪ Peeking through ♪ 2199 02:13:35,135 --> 02:13:39,677 ♪ They're a lot like me and you ♪ 2200 02:13:39,802 --> 02:13:44,761 ♪ They can fake a smile, too ♪ 2201 02:13:47,511 --> 02:13:49,970 ♪ The anonymous ones ♪ 2202 02:13:50,095 --> 02:13:53,386 ♪ Never let you see the ache they carry ♪ 2203 02:13:53,511 --> 02:13:56,678 ♪ They carry, they carry, they carry ♪ 2204 02:13:56,803 --> 02:13:59,762 ♪ All those anonymous ones ♪ 2205 02:13:59,887 --> 02:14:03,137 ♪ Never name the quiet pain they bury ♪ 2206 02:14:03,262 --> 02:14:07,096 ♪ They bury, they bury, they bury ♪ 2207 02:14:07,221 --> 02:14:11,221 ♪ Keep on keeping secrets that they think they have to hide ♪ 2208 02:14:11,346 --> 02:14:16,013 ♪ What if everybody's secret is they have that secret side? ♪ 2209 02:14:16,138 --> 02:14:20,222 ♪ And to know, to know we're not alone ♪ 2210 02:14:20,347 --> 02:14:22,847 ♪ Is all we're hoping for ♪ 2211 02:14:24,055 --> 02:14:26,263 ♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪ 2212 02:14:26,388 --> 02:14:28,763 ♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪ 2213 02:14:28,888 --> 02:14:32,139 ♪ I don't wanna be anonymous anymore ♪ 2214 02:14:39,848 --> 02:14:43,264 ♪ Anymore ♪ 2215 02:14:50,474 --> 02:14:52,765 ♪ Spot the girl who stays in motion ♪ 2216 02:14:52,890 --> 02:14:56,224 ♪ Spins so fast so she won't fall ♪ 2217 02:14:56,349 --> 02:15:00,057 ♪ World spins so fast, spins so fast ♪ 2218 02:15:00,182 --> 02:15:02,350 ♪ She's built a wall of her achievements ♪ 2219 02:15:02,475 --> 02:15:04,141 ♪ Keep out the question ♪ 2220 02:15:04,266 --> 02:15:08,850 ♪ Without it, is she worth anything at all? ♪ 2221 02:15:08,975 --> 02:15:13,391 ♪ And truth starts peeking through ♪ 2222 02:15:13,516 --> 02:15:18,226 ♪ They're a lot like me and you ♪ 2223 02:15:18,351 --> 02:15:23,309 ♪ They can fake a smile, too ♪ 2224 02:15:26,184 --> 02:15:28,559 ♪ The anonymous ones ♪ 2225 02:15:28,684 --> 02:15:31,892 ♪ Never let you see the ache they carry ♪ 2226 02:15:32,017 --> 02:15:35,102 ♪ They carry, they carry, they carry ♪ 2227 02:15:35,227 --> 02:15:38,268 ♪ All those anonymous ones ♪ 2228 02:15:38,393 --> 02:15:41,477 ♪ Never name the quiet pain they bury ♪ 2229 02:15:41,602 --> 02:15:45,477 ♪ They bury, they bury, they bury ♪ 2230 02:15:45,602 --> 02:15:47,893 ♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪ 2231 02:15:48,018 --> 02:15:50,436 ♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪ 2232 02:15:50,561 --> 02:15:52,519 ♪ I don't wanna be anonymous anymore ♪ 2233 02:15:52,644 --> 02:15:54,894 ♪ The parts we can't tell, we carry them well ♪ 2234 02:15:55,019 --> 02:15:57,269 ♪ But that doesn't mean they're not heavy ♪ 2235 02:15:57,394 --> 02:15:59,728 ♪ The parts we can't tell, we carry them well ♪ 2236 02:15:59,853 --> 02:16:02,061 ♪ But that doesn't mean they're not heavy ♪ 2237 02:16:02,186 --> 02:16:04,436 ♪ The parts we can't tell, we carry them well ♪ 2238 02:16:04,561 --> 02:16:09,229 ♪ But that doesn't mean they're not heavy ♪ 2239 02:16:09,354 --> 02:16:11,687 ♪ Heavy ♪ 2240 02:16:11,812 --> 02:16:14,270 ♪ The anonymous ones ♪ 2241 02:16:14,395 --> 02:16:17,645 ♪ Never let you see the ache they carry ♪ 2242 02:16:17,770 --> 02:16:20,854 ♪ They carry, they carry, they carry ♪ 2243 02:16:20,979 --> 02:16:23,938 ♪ All the anonymous ones ♪ 2244 02:16:24,063 --> 02:16:29,105 ♪ Never name the quiet pain they bury ♪ 2245 02:16:31,271 --> 02:16:35,521 ♪ Keep on keeping secrets that they think they have to hide ♪ 2246 02:16:35,646 --> 02:16:40,147 ♪ What if everybody's secret is they have that secret side? ♪ 2247 02:16:40,272 --> 02:16:44,147 ♪ And to know, to know we're not alone ♪ 2248 02:16:44,272 --> 02:16:47,939 ♪ Is all we're hoping for ♪ 2249 02:16:48,064 --> 02:16:50,314 ♪ I don't wanna be anonymous ♪ 2250 02:16:50,439 --> 02:16:52,856 ♪ Why you gotta be anonymous? ♪ 2251 02:16:52,981 --> 02:16:56,773 ♪ I don't wanna be anonymous anymore. ♪ 56985

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