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90210 #419
"The Heart Will Go On"
Closed Captioned

Previously on 90210:

We were only together
because of my cancer,

and it's gone.

So, I think that me and you
need to live our own lives.

You did not tell me

your mystery man was PJ.

How do you know him?

I know him because he's mine.

You can have Preston.

You deserve him
far more than I do.

What's that?

Uh, it's from Jen.

She's following PJ.

She lied to me.

I might have a cancer gene.

Let me take the test.

Would you go with me?

When I look at you, I think
about more than just the moment.

I think about the future.

Can I call you my girlfriend?

Yes, please.

MAN:
We want to sign you

to a record contract.

I can't wait to tell Ade.

It's not for her.

It's for you alone.

(phone rings)
DIXON: Oh, I'm sorry.

Okay, here you
go, thanks.

This is Dixon.

Guess what I'm listen to
right now and loving?

Dixon Wilson's solo track
and our next hit.

Just need to sign a deal

and get you into the
recording studio, buddy.

Yeah, you know I-I-I'm really
glad that you like it,

but I haven't decided
on whether I'm moving forward

without Adrianna or not.

Well, you're definitely not
moving forward with her.

Dixon, life's too short.

We're interested now.
We might not be later.

(hangs up)

Here.

Low-fat, decaf,
and something with fiber.

Ah, huh...

Annie, uh, you know
how much I love

these brother-sister
breakfastses

that we have once a week,

but you really got to stop
worrying about me

and my digestive system.

Fine, we can talk
about something else.

Using drugs again?

Are you serious right now?

I heard you on the phone.

You're starting
to run yourself ragged

with the music thing again,
and that's exactly how

your drug problem started
to begin with.

That phone call wasn't
about the music business.

Really?

Okay, look, that producer
that was at the music festival

wants to sign me to
a recording contract...

(gasps)

...without Ade.

Oh.

So, what'd you say?

Well, I just sent them some solo
tracks to keep them interested.

How did Adrianna
feel about that?

I haven't told her yet.

What?
What am I supposed to say?

"Babe, they want me
and not you."

That's like telling her,
I'm a rising star

and she's just the crazy baggage
holding me back.

Dixon, Ade is not gonna be upset
if you just tell her the truth;

that you think
the recording company is wrong,

so you're not going
to take the deal.

Yeah, yeah, I should do that.

Hello. I hate to intrude

on your little
brother-sister breakfast,

only because I find the concept
nauseatingly Midwestern,

but I just had
to show you something:

A tiny CU sweater.

Oh! Oh, my goodness.

Chuck's going to look
so adorable in that.

So, I guess you and Jen
made up, huh?

Who?

Jen, your sister?

Oh! (chuckles)

No.

I don't have a sister.
Jen's dead to me.

And when she gets back
from Napa and sees this,

her Ivy League head will explode

and I'll ship her remains
back to Paris

and never speak to her again.

Enjoy your breakfast.

The study of
form and function.

You would seriously go
to college for that?

Damn, white people
got money to burn.

Okay, okay, okay,
or maybe I could go work

for that environmental group,
Surf for Good.

They loved the logo
I did for Annie

and they invited me
on some sailing trip

as a surfer activist.

They called your art a "logo."

Nuh-uh. Pass.

Look, I made something
that people are responding to.

Okay, Diego? I'm not just
going to lay around here

and not take advantage of it.

I happen to like you
laying around here.

Maybe that's because
you make it look fantastic.

Are you kidding me?
Are you kidding?

Diego, you are so
friggin' talented.

You've got to do
something with this.

All I got to do is my art
and hang out with you.

Is there anything

in that pile of fan mail

that's going
to make that happen?

Spoke too soon.

This is big.

The Downtown Artist-
in-Residence Program.

This is what
you should be doing.

It's a really cool group,

and you'd get a workspace
just down the street from here.

It's the next best thing
to, uh, moving in with me.

And who said I was trying
to move in with you?

Well, you haven't heard
the benefits yet.
Mm-hmm.

We can paint,

and kiss, and paint.

Let me help you visualize.

(giggling)

DIRECTOR:
Cut!

Turning around.

MAN: Check the gate.
MAN 2: Second team in.

That was a
convincingly passionate

human-to-alien lip-lock.

(scoffs) Yeah, well,
it wasn't easy.

Apparently they don't believe
in breath mints on her planet.

(chuckles) Well, good news is,
uh, you're off tomorrow.

So, um, I booked
an appointment

for the ecancer gene test
tomorrow at 2:00.

Okay.

But if you can't go,
if you're busy...

Silver, I'll be there.

(sighs)
Thanks.

Thanks for keeping it
just between us.

Um, till I know more,
I'm not ready to talk about it.

Hey... not talking is
pretty much my specialty.

What does a girl have to do to
get a call sheet around here?

(chuckles)
Got'em.

Thank you.
There you go.

(chuckles)

Wow. That Silver--
she is an eager beaver.

Yeah, yeah.
(chuckles)

(chuckles)
Yeah.

Is that lipstick
on your mouth?

Oh, (scoffs), making out
with an alien.

Oh. Well, in that case.

Um, I'd say you deserve this.

$50,000.

That is a signing bonus
plus initial compensation

equals reason to celebrate.

(both chuckle)

I say we take a nice drive
up the coast,

maybe check in
to a seaside inn and...

Okay.

...roll around naked
in your new money.

Oh, man, you have
the best ideas.

And you don't work tomorrow.

Yeah, tomorrow, um, I've
actually got something at 2:00.

There's nothing on
the call sheet.

Publicity photos.

That's what Silver
was just talking to me about.

Well, if Silver says it,
it must be true.

Yeah, yeah.

Hey...

we'll find time
to celebrate this.

Mm.
Trust me, okay?

Hey, look at this.
Oh, my God.

I didn't make the call!

LIAM: I'm blaming you.
I'm blaming you.
(Silver laughs)

I'm home.

Oh, I had the most
stomach-turning flight back from
Napa in coach.

(sighs)

Why are my bags
in the living room?

I booked tickets
for you and Jacques

to fly back to Paris tonight.

Ugh, Naomi, if you're angry
because I outmaneuvered you

in our contest for Preston
Hillingsbrook, don't be.

I couldn't get near him
all weekend.

His family has some sort of
impenetrable compound.

I don't care about
penetrating PJ's compound.

You lied to me, Jen.

Naomi, all is fair
in love and war.
Not with family.

You said being my sister
meant something to you.

And do you know
what hurt me the most?

I actually believed you.

It was just another lie you used

to get what you wanted.

Like the time, for example,

when you wrote me this postcard
from riding camp.

You wanted my fur collar jacket

because you wanted to have
something to remember me by!

And this! This is the map
that you drew of our house.

You said the bedroom
with the smallest closet

had secret treasure!

Oh, and this.

This is a picture of us
at my fifth birthday party.

You are wearing
my birthday dress

because you told me
it made my butt look big!

Naomi, stop, please, okay?

I feel awful.

Yeah? I am done feeling awful
because of you.

No, I mean I feel
physically awful.

(sighs) That flight
was like a petri dish.

I think I'm gonna be sick.

No, no, no.
This is the part

where I kick your bony butt
to the curb!

I already updated
my Facebook status.

Believe me, after that little
hate speech of yours,

I would love nothing more

than to walk out of here
with my head held high.

Wha...?
Okay, no. No, no, no.

This doesn't change anything.

I still want you
out of my house.

And my life!

Forever, Jen!

And don't expect me
to hold your hair!

♪ ♪

According to the doctor,
Jen can't fly for 48 hours

because she has a stomach virus.

I just think she's allergic
to being an evil bitch.

Look, maybe this is your chance
to make up with her.

Okay, sometimes when
you have to be there

for somebody who's sick,
it makes you both realize

how much you care
about each other.

And sometimes that
person gets well,

and serves you
with divorce papers,

which I think you
should sign immediately

and move on with your life.

I will, okay?

Put the past mistakes
behind you.

That's what I'm doing.

The second Jen isn't patient
zero, she is out of here.

Until then,

I think a breakfast
of day-old lo mein

should settle her stomach.

Oh, my God, that's so nasty.

ANNIE:
Well, thanks to Desert Valley,
our bag sales

should hit maybe $20,000
by the first quarter,

so we really need
to pick a charity to fund.

This one sounds interesting.

It provides services
to needy...

strippers.

'Cause you know those poles
they dance on can get so cold.

Tragic.

Can you pay attention
for two minutes?

Not when I'm being ignored.

I've been here an hour.

No one's done a cartwheel
in a bikini yet.

(scoffs)
Not gonna be me.

Okay, sorry to burst
your little bubble,

but your flirting three-way
with Naomi and Jen is over.

Now, maybe you can
apply yourself

to something that's
actually important.

Do you want me
to pick a charity?
Yeah.

Fine.
Ivy, pick a charity.

Um, how about Surf for Good?

They're sponsoring
a beach cleanup today.

Perfect. We're in.

Cool.

You're going to
clean up the beach?

Oh, no, no, no, no.

I'm going to have drinks
at the beach.

You're going to the beach
and getting a life.

I have a life.

Being a buzzkill?

You don't go out on any dates.

You don't have any fun.

You're always on my back
because I do.

Now you're going to go to
that beach, get some action,

and maybe some guy will find

your compulsive do-gooding
attractive,

perhaps even a rugged, tan
homeless man.

I am not using a charity event
to pick up some guy.

Well, I'm not signing
a check till you do.

Consider it my donation

to the Get Annie Wilson Laid
Foundation.

All right.

(phone rings)

(chuckles wryly)
It's Vanessa.

She wants to know how
the photo session's going.

I'm sorry. I shouldn't
have asked you to be here.

I can do this by myself.

I mean, they're
just gonna ask questions

and take blood.
Yeah, and tell you

if you're gonna get cancer.

(knocking)

Erin Silver?

Yeah. Uh, I mean,
it's not me; it's her.

I'm with her.

That's okay.
It's important to have support.

If you test positive
for the BRCA gene,

you're gonna be facing
some tough choices.

Some people don't
even want to know.

Yeah, I...
I didn't know if I did,

but I watched my mom die
of breast cancer, so...

if knowing means that
won't happen to me...

DOCTOR:
If you have

the BRCA gene, there are
things that can be done.

A preventative double mastectomy
can reduce your risk

of breast cancer from 90%
in your lifetime to almost none.

However, the gene also increases
your risk of ovarian cancer.

At some point you'll
also have to consider
removing your ovaries.

Have you two talked about
a plan for having children?

No, he's-he's not, um...
We're not...

I don't have a boyfriend.

Or a plan for kids.

I kind of just thought
I would meet somebody
and fall in love.

Well, that could still
be the plan. Right?

Fertility is something
that we can discuss

when the test
results come in.

(laughs softly)
You may not even
have the gene.

ANNIE:
Why does every guy

think that the answer
to a girl's problems

is to get a guy?

Because they're guys?
Exactly.

Look, forget
PJ Moneybags.

Coming from somebody
who is not a guy,

it kind of does seem like you've
lost all interest in dating.

I'm just trying to do
something positive

with my life,
no big mystery there.

Uh, unlike why you haven't
signed your divorce papers yet.

I... know.

It's not like I didn't know
the divorce was coming.

It's just... God, signing
the papers, you know?

It feels like this whole
marriage never even happened.

Ivy, your marriage
happened.

I was there.

I even have a photo
of the elephant.

Look, my-my life is exactly
as it was before I met Raj.

You know? I have this
huge, huge year ahead of me,

and on the other hand, there's
this amazing guy I really want

to be with, but I feel
like I can't have both

of those things.
Why not?

Well, Diego's pushing me to do
the Artist-in-Residence thing

I was telling you about,
which looks cool,

and we could be together,

but, you know,
what I really want to do

is go on that Surf for Good
sailing trip,

in which case we would be apart.

Well, you've got to
follow your dreams,
right? Not his.
Last time

I tried that,
my husband left me.

So I don't want to make
that mistake again.

Diego is not Raj,
and you're not the same person

you were a year ago, either;
none of us are.

So whatever you decide,
you're not gonna make
the same mistakes.

So you just get
to make new ones.

Excuse me, uh...

Annie Wilson, right?

Please tell me a guy
in very expensive loafers

did not pay you to talk to me.

Uh, no. You started the bag
sales for charity, right?

It's very cool.

Thanks.
(laughs)

I'm Caleb.

I helped organize the cleanup.

Also very cool.
I'd love to hear more

about how your foundation works.

Any chance I could buy you
a cup of coffee,

bore you with some questions?

Assuming that the coffee
is not in those disposable cups

that we throw into the ocean.
I bet

she would love that.

Consider that my donation
to Shut Up PJ.

Consider it a date.

Great.

DIXON: Hey.
I'm Dixon Wilson.
Hey.

Uh, I've got an urgent text
to come down here.

Is Carter from House
of K Records here?

No. But, uh,
your girlfriend is.

(laughs)

Hi.

Hey, babe! Um...

Hey.

Mwah.
Mwah.

Wh-What are you
doing here?

Well, you've just been
so stressed out since
the music festival,

so I wanted to
make it up to you.

I got us studio
time. (laughs)
Yeah.

Who else would send you
a text saying:

"I want to make music together"?

Nobody.

(both laugh)

But you should've
just talked to me.

Yeah, well,
I would have,

but you haven't really
been talking to me.

Look, I know
that that was

a once-in-a-lifetime
opportunity,

and I blew it... okay?

But maybe if you let me
call the record company
and explain myself...

I already told you:
there's-there's no point.

Okay. Well, then let's cut a
demo and make a new opportunity,

okay?
Yeah.

(laughs)

Hey, can you play back
that track?

(mid-tempo intro playing)

Where'd you get that?

Your computer.

We can't use that.

Why not?

Because it's mine.

I mean, b-because
it's not ready.

Yeah, well,
it sounds ready to me.

And since when do you start
working on music without me?

Since I had to do it

at Desert Valley.
Okay, Dixon,

I don't know how many other ways

I can apologize.

♪ ♪

What's wrong?

I can't breathe.

O-Okay, sit down.

Put your head between your knees
or something, okay?

Just breathe.
My chest hurts.

It's gonna be okay.

Call 911!

You're gonna be okay.
Just breathe, okay?

I-I think I'm having
a heart attack.

You're gonna be okay.

(gasping)

Doc, I really don't know
what happened.

I don't know.
My chest just tightened up.

We had a fight.

Could that give someone
a heart attack?

The blood test showed
no sign of cardiac damage.

Then what was it?

Were you recently prescribed
any medication,

anything with a
stimulant effect?

W-Well, I was addicted
to ADHD medication,

but I'm clean now-- swear.

Yeah. He went to rehab
a couple of months ago.
I'll order you

an ECG and an ultrasound,

but I suspect you have
an atrial septal defect.

Okay. Wh-What's that?
A heart defect.

Something you were born with.
Your drug use

compounded the problem by
damaging your heart's ability

to contract,
causing an arrhythmia.

Whatever stress you were under
caused you to throw a clot.

Your condition is
treatable, but for now

just avoid any stress that
increases your heart rate.

(exhales)
I'm sorry, Ade.

No, don't, okay?

This is... my fault.

I'm just so happy
to still have you.

ANNIE:
So, you actually

saw a mermaid.

Okay, it was a fish,

caught in a wig,
but I'm telling you,
(laughs)

beach cleanup is
full of excitement.

Clearly.
Here you go.

Thank you.

No, no.

Allow me.

It's enough you're
saving the world.

I'm just doing my part.

Why?

Don't get me wrong:
I think it's great,

but most people
don't even bother,

so why do you?

Probably the same reasons
you do.

I doubt that.

I lost someone
very close to me,

and there was nothing
I could do about it.

Made a promise:
anytime I can do something,

I will.

Um...

well, I had a really bad year,

and I did...
some really bad things.

(sighs) But I
can't undo them,

so I just thought that
maybe by doing good things,

it would help me move on.

I'm sorry; I don't
really talk about this,

not even with my friends.

Well, you just did.

(laughs)

Here, lunch.

Is it a dead rat?

I saw that in an old movie.

The crazy younger sister
tortures the beautiful invalid

until she dies.

I'll make sure
to put that in my queue.

I love a happy ending.

(grunts)
You know, I want to...

I want to be here even less
than you want me here.

So now hating each other
is a competition, and Jen wins?

What a surprise.
You know,

you have an amazingly selective
memory when it comes to me.

I want you
to take a look

at this birthday photo,
and you tell me

that you wouldn't have looked
awful in that dress.

If you don't stop talking

and put that thermometer
into your mouth,

I will find another place
to stick it.

I tricked you
into taking

that little bedroom.

You know what the treasure was?

It was the only room
in the house

where you couldn't hear
Mom and Dad fighting.

Is that true?

Between the marble floors
and vaulted ceilings,

we lived in an echo chamber
of marital discord.

Who else do you think

was gonna spare you from that?

Annie needs me to help her
with the charity event.

Well, don't stay
on my account.

I could get more compassionate
care in a prison infirmary.

Fine. I'll hire a nurse

who specializes in treating
severe cases of bitch.

Well, that
wasn't so hard.

I'm sorry I dragged you
into this.

I'm not.

Silver, you can't
do this alone.

And when you find out
everything is okay,

it's gonna be the best
day of your life,

and you're gonna want to
share that with someone.

Thank you.

Quick, quick, quick.
Dixon and Ade.

(gasps):
What? Oh, my God.

Wait, I-I can't see them.
They can't see me.

I'm not ready
to answer any questions.

Scene 43, Liam.
What?

Where you have
to go to the door,

'cause the aliens are there
and you have to save your squad.

I need a scene 43.
I'm on it.

Just-just go.

Oh!
Whoa. Liam?

What are you
doing here?
Oh, I-I hurt my wrist on set,

and they wanted me
to get it checked out.

Dixon almost died.

Ade. No.

It's-it's fine.
I'm okay.

How is nearly
having a stroke okay?

You wait outside;
I'll go get the car.

No more stress for today.
Can you watch him?

You had a stroke?

No.

I have a minor
heart defect.

But I'm fine, as long
as Annie doesn't find out.

Dixon...
No, dude,
seriously, okay?

Annie's gonna flip.

She's done nothing
but worry about me

for the last
couple of months.

Do you know what
she went through

when I had to go
to rehab?

Yeah.

You know, uh...

actually, I don't really
want Vanessa to find out

about this, either.
Maybe neither one
of us were here.

Take it to the grave?
Hey.

Watch out.
Coming through.

Whoa.

Patient has
stage 4 leukemia.

No longer receiving treatment

He experienced loss
of consciousness

due to a high fever.

All right, contact the hospice.

Make sure that
he's comfortable, okay?

It's the best
we're gonna be able to do.

He doesn't have much time.

Um... M-Mrs. Kher, hi.

I don't understand.

I thought Raj was in Baltimore.

His treatment didn't work.

After Thanksgiving,
when he knew he was dying...

he came home.

(sighs)

Don't tell Ivy.

♪ ♪

PRESTON (laughing):
Oh, my God.

Wilson's smiling.
I was right.

All you needed was a date
with a hunky boy

in board shorts.

I am just smiling

because we found a very
worthwhile cause to donate

our first check to.

And Caleb's kind of great, too.

I didn't realize how much

I missed having someone
to talk to.

Maybe you and Dixon were right.

I could use a date.

Hmm.

So can I.
Hey!

Maybe you shouldn't.

Wilson, come on.
Let me have some fun.

Well, you having fun
is the reason why

Naomi and her sister
may never speak again.

What are you talking about?

Naomi and Jen are no
longer fighting for you

because they are just
fighting... for real.

Hey, uh, you
got a minute?
Yup.

It's about
the other day.

Whoa! Uh... (laughs)

Thought we weren't
gonna talk about that.

Take it to the grave, remember?

Let's... (laughs)

Let's not use that anymore.

Um...

when you left, I saw
Raj at the hospital.

He's dying, dude.

What?

Ivy said he was cured.

Yeah, well, he lied.

He said he'd rather
go through it alone

than have Ivy watch him die.

And then he begged me
not to tell her.

Then you can't.

This is life or death, dude.
Raj's life.

Hey, clearly,
he wants to protect Ivy

and let her move on.

(sighs)

Look, as hard as it is to keep
someone's secret,

if you tell, Ivy...

you're going against
a dying man's wish.

I just wish I didn't know.

Well, maybe Ivy would feel
the same way.

♪ ♪

The surf's going off.

You sure you don't want
to try this time?

Uh, you know, I think
I'll stick to asphalt.

Ocean's not
really my thing.

Well, then, guess
we're just different.

Hey, I was kidding.

You want to go for a surf,
I'm down.

Look, Diego, I, uh...

I filled out an application
for Artist-in-Residence program.

That's fantastic.

You're gonna love it.
It's an amazing program.

No, I'm not, but maybe you will.

Filled it out for you.

Look, if the Artist-in-Residence
thing is your dream, Diego,

you go and do it, okay?

It's not mine.
Mine is to go off and...

travel around the world and...

I mean, I could ask you
to change,

or I could try
to change myself for you,

but I've made that mistake,
and somebody always winds up

unhappy, and I don't want
to do it again, all right?

So, I'm... I'm gonna go
on the Surf for Good trip.

I'm gonna go,
and if that's a deal-breaker,

you know, I guess it's better
that we figure that out...

Do you want to have this entire
conversation by yourself,

or do you want to
ask me how I feel?

Okay. Um...

how do you feel?

I don't want you
to give up on your dream, Ivy,

or break up with me
and pretend that it's my idea

'cause it isn't.

What I feel for
you is bigger

than you living
down the street,

or halfway across the world.

Go where you need to go.

Do what you got to do.

This is not good-bye.

♪ ♪

Hey. Um, Annie needs
more champagne glasses

for her presentation toast.

Have you seen Liam?

I thought he was with you.

Like he was yesterday.

What does that mean?

I called the
production office

to find out
about the publicity photos

Liam was supposedly taking.

They don't exist.

And you called in sick.

Hey.

What's going on?

Nothing.

Uh, someone in the production
office made a mistake.

You know,
I shouldn't be surprised

you'd go after
another girl's boyfriend.

I mean,
you've done it before.

Vanessa!
Excuse me.

You told me
to trust you, Liam,

so tell me the truth.

Where were you

yesterday afternoon?

SILVER:
Wait.

Liam was with me. He drove me
to a doctor's appointment

that I didn't want anyone
to know about.

And then he just helped
an old lady cross the street?

She's telling the truth.

If you don't believe it,
ask Dixon.

He was at the hospital because
of something with his heart.

What? (gasps)

Annie, wait!

I'd, uh, like to thank everybody
for coming out today,

and enjoying the clean
sand and water,

and, uh, supporting
Surf for Good,

especially
Annie Wilson

and PJ Hillingsbrook
of the Just One Step Foundation.

You were in the hospital,
and you didn't even tell me?!

Calm down, all right?!

Geez, it's... it's not as bad
as you think!

It was a stroke brought on
by his drug use,

and if you yell at him,
he could have another one.

(sighs)

PRESTON:
And that is why we
are both very proud

to give our foundation's first
donation to Surf for Good...

Dixon, I can't
believe this.

Annie, it's totally treatable,
okay? I'm gonna be fine.

Besides, I didn't tell you
because I didn't want you

to stop your life and
start taking care of me.

I was protecting you.
By lying?

Dixon, you were using drugs.

I didn't know,
so I wasn't there.

Do you have any idea
what that did to me?

If something were
to happen to you again,

and I couldn't be there...
how do you think I'd feel?

You'd feel awful
for the rest of your life.

CALEB:
Artist, surfer
and activist,

Ivy Sullivan.

(cheering and applause)

Thank you.

Okay, guys, I know today is
about what each of us can give,

but I got to say right now,

I feel like I'm the one
who's getting everything

that I've ever dreamt of,
so thank you

so much for being here
and for supporting our work.

WOMAN:
Yeah! Good job, Ivy!

Dude, I got to tell Ivy.

You're gonna tell her now?

I wish I had my camera,
but then again,

I don't really need a picture
of this

because I'll remember this day
for the rest of my life.

What is wrong
with you guys?

MAN:
Thank you guys all...

Um...

(laughs)

I-I saw Raj.

What?

At the hospital.

Yeah. Dixon,
he moved to Baltimore

after he broke up with me.

I don't know
what you're talking about.

DIXON:
He lied.

The cancer didn't go away,
and he didn't want to tell you.

Ivy, Raj is dying.

Hi. Could we get some help
here, please?

Um, I'm looking for Raj.
Raj Kher.

Yeah. Uh, he came
into the ER last night.

He's in room 109, but there are
no visitors allowed.

Just family.
She's his wife.

Follow the hallway
through the double doors.

I'm gonna kill Dixon.

How could you lie to me?

How could you lie to me, Raj?

Ivy, I don't need you here.

I didn't want you to see this.

Oh, my God, please,
please don't do that, okay?

Please do not pretend
that you were protecting me

because when you left,
Raj, I cried.

I cried anyway,

and it wasn't because
you were sick, all right?

It was because...

because you broke my heart...

...and I didn't think
that you loved me.

(sniffles)

A breakup isn't as bad
as watching me die.

You know what? Nothing is as bad
as not being here.

Okay, nothing.
Damn it, Raj!

(sighs)

What do you think
was gonna happen?

Did you think
I was gonna get over you

and-and be happy one day?

And then the minute
I actually started

living my life, then
that would be the perfect time

to find out
that you had lied to me?

And that you died
here alone?

I mean, how can you be
so selfish?!

Okay, how could you...?
I'm sorry.

No!
Ivy...

No, no, no,
okay?
Stop.

I don't care
if you don't need me here.

I don't...
Stop.

I don't care.
Stop. Stop.

This is where I want to be.

(sobbing):
Okay, what if this is
where I want to be?

♪ ♪

Couldn't stay
in there, man.

Especially with Annie
looking at me

like every breath
might be my last.

I'm sorry.

She was gonna find out.

So was Ivy.

As hard it was
telling the truth...

...you did do the right thing.

You know, with, like,
everything that's happening,

I should already know

that telling the truth
is always the right thing.

I hate this place.

I hate that I know where
the coffee machine is.

Just to think what Ivy
must be going through,

and what happened
to Dixon...

Hey, that's not the same thing.

Dixon's gonna be fine.

You don't know that.

Dixon's got
a heart defect.

Something he was born with
just waiting to hurt him.

Yes, and now that he
knows about it,

he's gonna be fine.

You don't know that.

I never should
have yelled at him.

Dixon was just trying
to protect me

from what Ivy's going
through right now.

I mean, her whole life
stopped today.

And I was just mad at him
because he didn't tell me?

You were scared.

He's your brother.

It doesn't matter
what he does.

You couldn't stand
the thought of losing him.

I'm gonna go
check on Jacques.

If he catches Jen's stomach flu,
they'll never leave.

Will you call me
when you talk to Ivy, please?

Jen?

We need to talk.

She left.

I was, uh, dropping something
off to Annie, and, uh,

she asked me
to give this to you.

(chuckles)

She was right.

That dress is ugly as hell.

You okay?

I was so angry at her,

I told my sister
she was dead to me

without even think about what
those words actually meant.

It's not your fault.

I wanted to blame Jen

my whole life.

Mostly because she was
a royal pain in the ass,

but I guess in
some warped way,

she was there for me.

She's... my pain in the ass.

She's the only sister

I've ever had,
and I just lost her.

(clears throat)

All right, uh, look,

I was an only child, and I-I
always got what I wanted.

So I don't know the rules
of sibling rivalry.

It's my fault

you and Jen are fighting.

I-I could have stopped it.

What are you talking about?

How?

By doing this.

I should have just told you
you're the one I wanted.

(dance music playing)

I can't believe you think
this track is no good.

I like it.

It sounds like a heartbeat.

Hey, um, look, uh...

I got to tell you the truth
about us working together,

and what happened
at the music festival.

(sighs)
No, you don't.

I quit.

Y-Y-You what?

You heard
what the doctor said

about stress.

Okay, it's bad enough
that working together

puts pressure
on our relationship.

It's not worth your life.

Yeah, yeah, right, but...

No.

I've already
made up my mind, Dixon.

All right,
you can't talk me out of it.

Hey.

I'd do anything for you.

Even give up music.

Hmm.

Isn't that what you
were going to say?

Uh, yeah.

Yeah, it was.

How's your friend?

He's got people around
who care about him.

Hey, we never got
to celebrate that check.

Well, it's a little late
for a drive up the coast.

(clears throat)

Well, I hope it's not too late

for this.

What's this?

That's, uh,
our new production company.

We're partners,

if you think you
could ever trust me again.

(quietly)
Thank you.

♪ ♪

Hey, Diego.

Did you talk to Ivy?

No, she's still in with Raj.

I think I should probably
just head out.

Are you sure?

Yeah, this is where
she needs to be right now.

What's new?

Raj.

I haven't seen you
in three months.

I want to catch up.
Yeah, but I

don't want to talk
about that, okay?
Well, I don't want

to talk about what you want
to talk about.

Well, I guess it's a good thing
we're getting divorced.

Some people from hospice
came by.

They wanted to talk

about the choices
that I can make

so I can die with dignity.

There's a form to fill out
about how I want my life to end.

I don't know what the answer is.

All I know is what I don't want.

What's that?

I don't want to be in pain.

I don't want to watch
my mother cry.

(sighs)

And I don't want to be apart
from you ever again.

Not being with you

is the hardest thing
I've ever had to do.

I'm not going anywhere.

(groans)

The nurse left
some pain medication.

I'll get some water.

Hey.

Just wanted to wait
and make sure you're okay.

Not that you can be okay.
I'm so sorry.

I really wish there was
something I could do.

Do you know how to pray?

All right, thanks.

Hey, Annie?

Tell Dixon I'm glad
he told me the truth.

(phone ringing)

(ringing continues)

(groans)

It's Jen.

(beeps)

Jen, where are you?

I couldn't get on the plane

without telling you,

"Screw you, you crazy bitch."

You're my sister,
and I love you,

whether you want me to or not.

Screw you.
I love you, too.

Jen, I'm...

I'm sorry we fought.

I'm sorry about everything.

Especially
Preston Hillingsbrook.

Thank God neither one of us

ended up with him.
Wait. What?

I ran into a mutual friend
in the first-class lounge

who told me
the most scandalous secret.

Oh, my flight's boarding.
I've got to hang up.

Jen, wait.

Jen?

Glad to hear
you two made up.

Hi Erin, this is Dr. Harper
from the genetic screening.

We've received your results.

Please call us back to schedule
a review as soon as possible.

♪ ♪

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you need to talk.

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