All language subtitles for Work in Progress s02e09 Hey, Dad.eng

[Abby] Previously on
Work in Progress...

[Dr. Oh] If something
comes up during the week

that you'd like
to talk about,

or you don't understand,
just jot it down.

[Grace] Everything's fine,
everything's okay.

Go back downstairs, okay?

Grandpa and I loved this album,

and we'd listen to it
all the time.

I just wish you
were around more.

Killed any therapists lately?

-[laughs]
-[Abby] Okay...

Hey, man.

Six fucking feet.

[whispering] It's your father.

Dad?

[Edward] Hey, kid.

I think it was this one time

when I was really sick...

I think it was strep,
I'm not sure,

but I had a really
high fever, and...

my mom just held me.

We were in this old blue,
upholstered,

ugly as fuck rocking
chair that we had, um,

just waiting for
the fever to go down.

Through the scariest
part of the night,

her hand on my forehead.

Either that or the one time
I missed Halloween,

and she took me out
trick-or-treating the next day.

[woman over PA] Dr. Carter
to psychiatric services.

I was a skeleton.

And Mom made the costume.

Uh, she had sewn
white bones on

this old black
PJs that I had.

What about your dad?

What about-- what about him?

Abby McEnany?

Just follow me.

[Abby] He wasn't there.

He was never fucking there.

[Dr. Franklin] There's not one
memory you can think of?

I know that brain of yours

-has already pinpointed...
-[Nurse] Thank you.

...which journal.

Which box.

Okay.

My father was around sometimes.

But he was also
not around a lot.

And if you're looking for some
proof that he was around...

We're not.

This is about experiential,
formative touchstones.

The moments, the places,

the people that shaped the way
you see yourself in the world.

The memories that come back
to you when you think,

"Who am I?

Who made me me?

Why am I the way I am?"

Hey, Dad.

Hello, daughter.

Hey, Dad.

You got somethin'...

on your face.

Ooh...

I got something on my face, huh?

Yup.

-Did I get it?
-All right.

How about now?

You fuckin' idiot.

No. [chuckles]

Jesus.

Good donut, right?

The best.

This place seems...

nice.

[scoffs]

So?

What do you want to know?

Come on, Dad. There's a reason
you asked to see me,

and not Alison or Carol Lynn.

Well, I'm your father.

I should be looking after you.

Jesus.

Dr. Edward Claire McEnany,

I am a 46-year-old human adult.

Well, I... [clears throat]

I never thought or...

never believed that

I would end up here.

But what I mean to say is

I wasn't planning
on botching things up

and being here right now.

Well, luckily for us,

environmentally-friendly cars
are not in your wheelhouse.

Damn newfangled cars.

They don't make
'em like they used to.

Whatever happened
to dependability?

Dad, they are dependable.

Just not the way
that you had hoped.

Okay.

So...

what do I want to know?

I have no idea.

Okay, Dad, why don't
we think about it this way?

What would you say to me

if you were the one here
visiting me

after I had tried
to kill myself?

You'd want me to get help.

See doctors, try meds, anything
that would help me get better.

[imitating Edward]
"It's your health, kid."

-Yeah, but...
-But what?

I don't understand
the difference.

Are you saying it's different
because you have

some big career and a family?

No.

You need help.

[scoffs] And if you're
too ashamed to get it,

you're just gonna
end up back here,

or alone in some hybrid.

Dad, I love you,

and your family loves you,

and we are not
ashamed of this or you.

The only thing we're thinking
about is figuring out

what we can do
to keep you alive.

Okay, how?

I can't tell you that.

You just told me
I needed to forgive my dad.

Abby, I said finding
a way to forgive him

would be beneficial to you.

I... can't.

He's ashamed of my fatness.

He believed that no one could
ever fall in love with me.

I'll have you know
I was not born a self-loathing,

whiny cunt. Okay?

I come by it very honestly.

Abby, did you ever think
of the possibility

that your father was afraid?

Oh, look at that.
We're almost out of time.

Dad, do you remember sitting
with me in my intake interview

for that OCD FDA drug trial?

And you heard me tell

that psychiatrist at Berkeley

about all the shit that
was going on in my brain

and how I was anxious every
single moment?

And...

my hands were bloody
because I'd washed them raw.

That's the only time
I can remember when I spoke,

and you didn't say a word.

Which I'm sure was
very difficult--

-Very difficult, yes.
-[chuckles] Right.

But I remember...

looking straight ahead
at that doctor

and not ever looking at you
because I was so scared.

Because I told him
that I wanted to kill myself.

And at the end, I looked at you
and you had tears in your eyes.

And...

I felt like for
the first time in...

our relationship that you
heard me and really understood.

[breathes shakily]

[Edward] Well, I have
a feeling I'll be forced to

face that at some point.

All right,
we're gonna try this again.

-We're going to...
-Re-frame.

Re-frame, thank you.

You have been given this amazing
gift to finally confront

all of your shit.

Ooh... ladies and gentlemen...

And gender-queers
and nonbinary folx.

Yes, what she said.

Introducing therapy's
hype woman.

Holy shit, I would
fuckin' kill that job.

[Abby] Remember when
we were in Boston,

on the rare weekend day
you'd be home,

and you'd be so tired

that you would take
these long-ass naps.

And you be fuckin'
lying there...

arm over your eyes,
mouth wide open

with a little bit
of drool right here.

[chuckles]

Hey, Dad.

Dad?

What's wrong?
I love that memory.

Well, I-- I look at Mike.

I wish I'd been there
for you and Aly,

the way Mike is for

Meg and Matty.

Yeah, Mike is an amazing dad.

And you also were never home.

But because of your hard work,

you paid for my college

and I'm not up
to my neck in debt.

I always had a roof
over my head, food on the table,

clothes on my back.

And Dad, when I got sick,

you and Mom had the means...

to find me care.

And to pay for that care,

and if you didn't,

I wouldn't be here
talking to you today.

Now I understand why
we were always moving.

Was that hard?
I... know it was hard.

It's not like I ever asked.

Actually, Dad,
studies show that

a lack of stability
in a kid's life

does wonders for them.

[chuckles] Look at me.

-[school bell rings]
-Hello, class.

I'd like to introduce you
to your newest classmate.

Her name is Abby.

And she's moved all
the way from--

Columbus, Ohio.

Providence, Rhode Island.

Jolly, jolly, jolly old London!

[student] Hi, Abby.

The uprooting was hard.

Realizing there
were so many friends

you were never
gonna see again.

Hold on a second.

I spent the night at
your house once, right?

But for the life of me,

I can't remember your name.

It's Meaghan Jones.

Hmm.

No, nothin'.

You owe me a dime.

I don't owe you a dime.

You owe me a dime, bitch!

[whispers] This is getting
to be embarrassing.

[whispering] Well,
it's gonna get a lot worse

so buckle up, sweetness.

[Abby] Yeah, Dad, it was hard.

But it doesn't matter.

If it did do one thing,

I think it helped my ability

to reset and rebuild,

see beyond endings.

You know, maybe...

just a little.

I was sorry to hear
about you and Chris.

Aly told me a bit.

Thanks.

He seemed nice.

He was.

What--what happened?

Okay. [exhales]

There was this
bitch at work who gave me

a fuckin' jug of almonds.

[ominous music playing]

And I was standing there.

I was-- I was looking
at the almond.

And I just wanted to hurl it
as far as I could,

and walk out into traffic.

But I didn't want to be this
shattered bag of bones

in one of those full-body casts
that you see in the cartoons.

And then this random guy walked
right up to me on the street.

Are you supposed to be like

one of those robot
statues or something?

What?

But my brain was
completely fried.

And then he was all...

Uh, you gonna eat that?

No.

So I wandered home...

Suit yourself.

I was like, discombobulated.

And I thought
I knew what was going to happen.

What I was gonna do.

[scoffs] But this pipe
burst in my apartment

and ruined like
all my journals,

so I had to move them
that night.

By the time I got back home,
I was wrecked.

And my brain just shut down.

It's like that

extra almond

threw everything out of whack.

It broke the pattern
just enough.

And then the next day,
Campbell's dog Ethel died.

She moved in with me.

She's my best friend, Dad.

There we were holding
each other up.

But we didn't know exactly
how we were even doing that.

It's like all this random shit

that kept happening to me

was keeping me alive.

Get the fuck out,
you fucking cunt dog.

Oh my God.
What a little bitch. Excuse me.

And Campbell and I, like,
fell into this routine and

all of a sudden,

that was it.

One day, I couldn't see
into tomorrow,

and then I could.

I'm so sorry that
I didn't know...

what a hard time
you've been having.

When he dumped me...

he said I was a lot.

And he's not wrong.

Well, your mom almost
left me a couple of times.

Really?

I'm not that
easy to be with either.

Fuck!

[exhales sharply]

[chewing]

Hey, Mom.

Oh...

Abby?

What time is it?

I'm sorry. I'm a bit late.

Did you see
your father out there?

Dad?

No.

Okay.

Well, go get some sleep, dear.

[Abby] I had always thought
those walks were

because of stress or insomnia.

Well,

that's part of it,

but just a small part.

When did this all start?

[exhales]

Long time ago,
15, 16 years old.

Back in Missoula,

[exhales]

it came on pretty hard.

And I did this thing
where I used to take...

[exhales]

take long walks after school,

dinner, homework,

chores, whatever.

[exhales]

I needed to get
out of the house.

Just get away, you know.

And each night,
I'd go further and further.

Let the lights from town

recede a little bit more.

I fantasized about
some accident happening to me,

like falling off a cliff or
getting hit by a car, or...

attacked by an animal
or something.

And I'd come back some nights
with borderline hypothermia.

I was obsessed
with disappearing.

I ached to blink
out of existence.

What happened?

Dad's liver failed and...

your grandmother
packed us all up,

moved to Minneapolis.

Flight instinct.

And remember,
this was not too far off

from when her brother
shot himself.

I think she shoved me

into every extracurricular
activity that she could find.

Thought it would distract me
from, you know,

what went on with my dad
and my uncle.

But what it did was...

it gave me something to...

distract me

from myself.

Which was pretty precarious,

and at times untenable, but...

it worked.

And it was like that
through med school.

Actually...

it's always been like that.

[exhales]

Jesus, Dad.

[muffled] Well, I remember
the time your mother and I

were taking this long trip...

Dad, I cannot understand you.

And that fancy-ass
plaque-fighting fluoride

foaming out of your damn mouth
is not helping.

[muffled] Sorry.

[chuckles] You're such an idiot.

[muffles] Now I'm an idiot?

This is not news.

I've been telling you
that for years.

[sighs]

Why do they hate me, Grace?

[chuckles]

[Steve Martin speaking
indistinctly on record player]

[both laugh]

[Steve Martin on radio]
I'm not trying to brag,

I'm not trying
to be a big shot.

I have the, you know,
that, uh...

quality great comedians have,

and I'm talking about
the one element

that is crucial to all delivery
of comedy material.

I'm talking about, of course...

[all] Timing, timing, timing!

[laugh]

-[both] I feel good tonight.
-Night!

[chuckles]

[Abby and Steve]
Timing is very important.

[Abby] Well, I have another
surprise for you.

Another gift?

Oh, I'm sorry.

You thought...

I was giving you the speaker?

You're a fuckin' idiot.

This is Bluetooth, Dad.

And you would never get it.

What a rip.

[Abby] All right.

This thing is the thing
I'm giving you.

The very first therapist

I ever really connected with

was Dr. Oh.

She gave me a toy,
just this little thing.

But it became

a touchstone.

Almost like a religious
icon for me.

And if I held it,

and really concentrated on it,

it helped calm my mind.

I... I think I understand.

So I wanted to give you
something like that.

Just to remind you...

you are not alone,

and show you that you can
get to tomorrow.

Volume one.

Wow, wow, wow,
wow, wow.

Wow.

My little lady.

What can I say?

I was a little bit obsessed.

-[chuckles]
-I am still workin' on it.

[Edward] This was Christmas.

[Abby] Oh, my skeleton costume.

[Edward] Yeah.

That was, uh, an unusual phase.

I'm not sure you'd call it
a phase.

I mean, I was the president of
my kindergarten nihilism club.

Forty years later,

and you still
can't pronounce the word.

Mm. Sticks, that one.

I remember that
Halloween, you were, uh,

you were sick that Halloween
with an ear infection

or something.

We let you trick-or-treat
the next day.

What the fuck are you
talking about?

You weren't there.

The hell I wasn't!

Who do you think provided all of
those full-sized Nutty Creams?

Are you serious?

I had no idea.

You were an easy mark.

I was trusting.

Not anymore.
Now I know why.

So you went to all the houses
ahead of me then?

Well, you didn't
think it was weird

that they all gave you
full-sized Nutty Creams?

I thought it was weird the first
couple times they did it.

But the rest gave me
fucking oranges.

That shit was heavy.

Well, how was I supposed
to know you'd keep going?

Are you kidding?

They're full-sized Nutty Creams!

Well, I only bought
a couple of candy bars.

I had to think on my feet.

I was hoping all those oranges
would slow you down.

That costume was
a funny thing to fixate on.

You know, I didn't give it
much thought

until you made me
widen the mouth

on the mask so that you
could wear it every day.

[Abby chuckles] Yeah.

[Edward]I mean,
talk about Fellini-esque.

I totally remember that.

It was around then that...

I started to sense that...

you were like me.

And even though that
broke my heart,

I was glad that we
were in the same boat.

Dad,

you're gonna be all right.

You're gonna get through this.

And I'm gonna be here.

I... I don't think
I can do this.

Dad, yes, you can.

Abby...

Listen to me.

Hour by hour,

you get through the day.

Okay?

It's gonna be all right.

You're gonna be all right,
I promise.

I love you, Dad.

I love you too, kid.

[Abby] It's gonna be okay.

[Dr. Franklin]
Abby, what're you thinking?

Everything.

I'm...

overwhelmed by...

everything.

My mind is

filled with worry all the time.

And I just feel like my body

and my brain just are fucking
shutting down.

Like I barely even
have the energy

to just fuckin' sit here
and form words.

Abby, how long have you
been in therapy?

Why?

Just a question.

I don't know...

Thirty-five years maybe,
I don't know.

That's great.

How is that great?

You know what that tells me,
Doctor Franklin?

That proves to me that none
of this shit is ever gonna end.

Abby, you're not gonna like it
when I tell you this.

No, it's never gonna end.

But the reason
I asked that question

is to try to put it
in perspective for you,

for you to take a moment

and look back on all that work,

all you've overcome

to get to this moment right now.

Because all that hard work

-doesn't go away.
-[sobs softly]

It'll never go away.

[siren blares]

Yeah, so, Aly,
I think that's about it.

I did tell him, uh,

[chuckles] that he needs to
start thinking about things

day by day,

and you know he hated that.

[Aly] Abby,

I-- I want you
to know how strong

and amazing
I think you are for doing this.

Uh, well, you know
I'd do anything for him.

I know.

Me too.

Try and get some sleep, okay?

Okay.

-I love you.
-I love you too.

Bye.

Well, fuck.

♪ If your pilot light
should die ♪

♪ Do not quake
and do not bark ♪

♪ You will find the spark ♪

♪ If your tree
should bare no fruit ♪

♪ Do not worry, do not spill ♪

♪ You are beautiful ♪

♪ If the wind
surrounds your house ♪

♪ Do not turn and twist about ♪

♪ Just wait it out ♪

[harmonica playing]

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