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[Edward] Previously on Work in Progress...

[Jamal] Your dads in the ICU.

I was obsessed with disappearing.

I ached to blink out of existence.

I just dont know what happens next.

Julia!

I want you to bury Pat.

I want to be accountable.

Jags is in their pod?

[Abby] Oh, yeah.

[Abby] Oh, yeah.

And I made some offhand joke that they were in a throuple

and Alison flipped out, so I kind of think its true.

and Alison flipped out, so I kind of think its true.

On the night of the breakup,

my anger took over and I screamed out his deadname.

I was looking at that last almond.

I was looking at that last almond.

It broke the pattern just enough.

All youve overcome to get to this moment,

All youve overcome to get to this moment,

all that hard work, itll never go away.

[sighing]

[rustling]

[rustling]

Hey...

[young Abby] Look at all your snacks.

Could you please be careful up there?

Theres so much variety.

Uh, yeah, theyre a variety pack.

Whoa... whoa, hands off.

Those are all mine.

Aw, but I am you.

Aw, but I am you.

And Im so hungry.

You were sleeping in there forever.

Okay, dont judge, and Im just doing bits.

Okay, dont judge, and Im just doing bits.

Have as many as you like.

Yes!

Dont worry, Im not gonna get these on Moms couch.

Dont worry, Im not gonna get these on Moms couch.

[chuckling] Good.

Yup!

Yup!

You really did it.

Did what?

Look at this rad apartment.

Yeah, I mean, its a one-bedroom,

Yeah, I mean, its a one-bedroom,

three-floor walk-up, but I like it.

Are we married?

Are we married?

No way.

[chuckling] Good.

Youre like Mary Tyler Moore.

Single woman, big city, livin her life

Single woman, big city, livin her life

without anyone tellin her what to do.

-Okay. -Does Alison know?

That Im not married?

That Im not married?

No, how cool you are!

Thats a good question.

Abby, you made it.

Abby, you made it.

Did I, though?

I am literally, and I never use that word lightly,

talking to myself right now.

talking to myself right now.

Dyou have a job?

Yeah.

Uh, downtown.

-Downtown? -Um-hmm.

-Downtown? -Um-hmm.

-In an office. -In an office?

Oh my God, you are so set!

Im not really sure you know what the word "set" means.

Im not really sure you know what the word "set" means.

But I do, though.

[crunch]

I should tell you now...

I should tell you now...

that none of this

ends the sadness,

ends the sadness,

the scariness,

that terrifying pit in your stomach.

It never goes away.

It never goes away.

[laughs]

Okay.

Okay.

Why are you laughing?

If it never ends, then why did I try so hard to make it stop?

If it never ends, then why did I try so hard to make it stop?

Dont you think thats kind of funny?

We-- We spent so much time trying to make something stop

that never was gonna stop.

[chews] [chuckles]

Its weird about Dad, huh?

[sniffles]

Yeah.

Was it my fault?

Was it my fault?

Absolutely not.

But I was such a burden.

No, you were not.

You were the child and he was the parent.

He was sick.

And he didnt learn how to talk about his feelings,

And he didnt learn how to talk about his feelings,

and that is not on you.

But when he could show up as Dad, it ruled.

But when he could show up as Dad, it ruled.

I think he was giving

as much as he could at the time.

as much as he could at the time.

I just really hate that you,

we,

were left holding the bag

and feeling...

and feeling...

Every single thing.

All the time.

All the time.

But I know now

that nobody is perfect.

Mom was.

Mom was.

Ha!

No, she wasnt.

Heres a little fact for ya.

Every child needs to feel that one of their parents

has all of their shit together.

It helps make the world feel stable.

It helps make the world feel stable.

Ah... news flash,

world felt unstable anyways.

And news flash, [imitates breaking news music]

And news flash, [imitates breaking news music]

uh, that never ends.

-Huh. -We are truly fucked.

-Huh. -We are truly fucked.

[chuckling]

You are so dark.

Rink!

[message alert]

That is a phone?

Youre like Captain Kirk.

Youre like Captain Kirk.

Ah, mm-mm, Captain Kirk was Alisons crush.

I loved Bones.

I loved Bones.

Hubba hubba.

Hello?

Hello? Can anyone hear me?

[robotic voice] Do you read me?

[robotic voice] Do you read me?

Over.

Whats the switch by the sink?

[grinding]

Oh, thats the garbage disposal.

-[turning off and on] -So-- youre-- a-- millionaire?

-[turning off and on] -So-- youre-- a-- millionaire?

I really forgot how low my standards were.

-[message alert] -[grinding stops]

So, how are we gonna treat ourselves today?

How do you mean?

Well, Dr. Oh says you gotta treat yourself every day.

Well, Dr. Oh says you gotta treat yourself every day.

[Abby] You belong to this place?

[Julia] Guilty. Al loves to golf.

Uh, your husband is the most aggressively normal person

Uh, your husband is the most aggressively normal person

-Ive ever met. -[chuckles]

Well, people are full of surprises.

Well, people are full of surprises.

[chuckling] Yeah, they are.

I figured if we came now,

we could avoid a lot of cart traffic.

And this lagoon is going to be perfect

for our little ceremony.

Ceremony?

Ceremony?

Well, Ive been searching for a way

to make my feelings real.

To take action,

to make a bold gesture!

to make a bold gesture!

Oh, okay, Norma Rae.

[gasps]

Here we are.

Isnt this perfect?

Isnt this perfect?

The curator of the NBC museum

The curator of the NBC museum

has reached out several times about this costume,

but I cant profit from pain anymore.

but I cant profit from pain anymore.

Julia, I cannot believe youre doing this.

Oh, yes, Im doing it.

Holy shit, Julia, what--

Are you starting a fire?

Oh, we go through so much of this when Al barbecues.

He likes an even sear.

I have to make sure the fire is a real blaze,

I have to make sure the fire is a real blaze,

or I risk not truly letting go for the cleansing.

I read that on the Health and Wellness blog.

I read that on the Health and Wellness blog.

Its called Nans New Leaf of Life Lessons.

You should check it out.

Its a spiritual game changer.

Its a spiritual game changer.

-[chuckling] -[chuckling] Here you go.

-Here we go. -Get it right.

Oh! [chuckles]

Shoot! Im not a good aim.

Thats okay.

Oh, for Petes--

Dont look at me. This is all you.

Dont look at me. This is all you.

You gotta do it.

Okay.

[startled] Whoa!

Oh!

Oh!

Holy shit, Julia!

[Julia] Oh! Oh, okay.

Oh, boy. Okay,

here we go.

here we go.

All right.

Oh.

[inhales, exhales]

Goodbye, cruelty.

Goodbye, cruelty.

Goodbye, persecution of the gender-nonconforming.

Goodbye, hurtful scratchy khakis.

And finally...

Oh, God.

Its okay.

Im a member. Were doing a ritual.

Its very healing for us.

Its very healing for us.

Weve been going through a rough patch.

Okay, where was I?

Okay, where was I?

Um... hurtful scratchy khakis.

Okay, yes.

Pat,

Pat,

I release you.

You are released!

You gave me so much.

And many still cherish you to this day.

But...

but now...

Julia?

-Oh! -Julia, what are you doing?!

-Oh! -Julia, what are you doing?!

I cant do it!

Im still getting residuals.

NYU is very expensive!

I need you, Pat!

I need you, Pat!

-I need you! -Julia, you dont need Pat!

-Come back! -Julia!

-Come back! -Julia!

I cant.

I need you, please.

-I need you! -Julia!

Im kind of embarrassed about my freak-out back there.

Im kind of embarrassed about my freak-out back there.

That was harder than I thought it was gonna be.

I know it was.

I know it was.

Oh, God.

Hi!

Yes, its us again.

Hi!

Im just helping my friend incinerate her past

with a floating golf course funeral pyre!

with a floating golf course funeral pyre!

Say hi to your mistresses.

[chuckles]

I think that Al should find a different boring hobby.

I think that Al should find a different boring hobby.

Yeah, well, I think its going to be mandatory.

[chuckles]

I like going someplace with someone more

I like going someplace with someone more

destructive than me.

-It feels good. -[both laugh]

So Mike and I are prepping Matty for Saturday,

So Mike and I are prepping Matty for Saturday,

but I think he might still try to hug you.

Well, uh, Aly, you know thats my effect on men.

What are you gonna do?

[chuckling] You know what?

Dont forget a blanket.

Okay.

Oh, look who it is.

Oh, look who it is.

-Hi, Abby. -Hey, bub.

Uh, sorry, but I cant hug you on Saturday.

I know. Im bummed too. Well still have fun.

I know. Im bummed too. Well still have fun.

We cant wait to see you. Well see you soon, okay?

-We love you. -Okay, great. I love you too.

Matty, never smoke.

Oh, yeah. Dont do whats Abby doing.

Oh, yeah. Dont do whats Abby doing.

-Goodbye. -General good rule.

-Goodbye. -Bye.

I have that same ribbon.

I have that same ribbon.

How its goin?

Ugh, fuck.

Ugh, fuck.

Hey, Abby.

Hey, Chris.

Whatre--whatre you doing here?

I just wanted to come by and say thank you in person

for donating to my GoFundMe.

for donating to my GoFundMe.

I-I didnt.

You did.

[scoffs] Thats supposed to be anonymous.

[scoffs] Thats supposed to be anonymous.

The fundraiser is given the names of everyone

who donates along with their emails

who donates along with their emails

and their donation amounts.

Well, thats not very anonymous, is it?

Look, Chris,

I just want you to know that this isnt

I just want you to know that this isnt

coming from some savior bullshit place.

Im not getting off by don--

Im not getting off by don--

I-I know.

-I know. -You owe me nothing.

I mean, you can reject the donation if you want.

I mean, you can reject the donation if you want.

I thought about that.

In the end, Im practicing the radical self-care

In the end, Im practicing the radical self-care

of being okay with accepting your money.

Okay. [chuckles]

Well, thats good then.

Well, thats good then.

It comes from some corporate bullshit job,

so Im glad it can do something good.

Its an almond cake.

You know what? Im good.

Oh, I got it especially for you.

Chris, I texted you that I didnt want to meet up.

Chris, I texted you that I didnt want to meet up.

I know.

Ive said all that I wanted to say.

If you had listened to my messages--

I did.

I did.

All of them, many times.

Okay.

And you didnt call me back?

-I-I couldnt. -And look, thats your right.

-I-I couldnt. -And look, thats your right.

-I totally get it. -Look, Abby, I was afraid.

I... I couldnt return your calls because I was afraid.

I... I couldnt return your calls because I was afraid.

And then you sent in that donation and--

[exhales] Fuck.

[exhales] Fuck.

Can I put this somewhere?

I mean, yeah, you can put it there.

So about the cake.

Abs, Im sorry.

It was just a bad idea.

Yeah.

I thought it would be this cute icebreaker that would...

I thought it would be this cute icebreaker that would...

make it easier to talk, but it wasnt.

And it isnt.

Chris, what are we even doing?

What is there left to say?

What is there left to say?

I dont understand.

I hear about you sometimes from King.

They dont say much.

I think theyre being protective of me.

And you.

And you.

But its nice to hear that youre doing okay.

I think King is somewhat of an eternal optimist.

I think King is somewhat of an eternal optimist.

Maybe.

Chris, Ive done a lot of work since that night.

Chris, Ive done a lot of work since that night.

And I cannot wrap my brain around what I did to you.

And I cannot wrap my brain around what I did to you.

That act of violence.

And I just need

And I just need

to figure out how to live with that.

After Galena, and that night at the MTA,

I realized it was over.

[exhales]

I realized I had a way out.

My escape.

My escape.

I was relieved.

[exhales]

I never let on how scared shitless I was

of those fucking almonds.

of those fucking almonds.

Thats why I never answered your calls.

I was too scared.

I was too scared.

Too overwhelmed.

Too overwhelmed.

Im glad you made it out on the other side of

that whole thing okay.

that whole thing okay.

And I am ashamed that I couldnt help you through it.

And that is something I have to live with.

[sniffs]

Chris, were two people that could only go that far.

I have my limits and you have yours.

And we werent gonna be able to take it beyond that night.

And we werent gonna be able to take it beyond that night.

Abby, I am glad we met.

Abby, I am glad we met.

You mean youre glad my sister forced us to meet, right?

[chuckling]

Yeah, me-- me too.

Yeah, me-- me too.

[sniffs]

Well, please dont take my thoughtlessness

Well, please dont take my thoughtlessness

out on the cake.

Cakes innocent in all this.

Ill think about it.

Ill think about it.

[scoffs]

♪♪ Not supposed to make you cry? ♪♪

♪♪ Not supposed to make you cry? ♪♪

♪♪ Damn, I... ♪♪

Holy shit!

Holy shit!

♪♪ I just dont know good lovin ♪♪

♪♪ The right way ♪♪

♪♪ I cant be your baby no more ♪♪

♪♪ I cant be your baby no more ♪♪

♪♪ I cant be your baby no more... ♪♪

♪♪ I cant be your baby no more... ♪♪

Hmm. All right.

Oh my God, there she is.

Oh my God, there she is.

Retired?

Well, of course shes retired, Abby.

Shes in her fucking 70s.

Shes in her fucking 70s.

Moving on.

[mutters] Depression, suicidality for kicks,

[mutters] Depression, suicidality for kicks,

hmm... loving.

hmm... loving.

H. Joy?

Thats a little on the nose.

Oh.

Okay, Dr. Joy.

This is Abby McEnany coming in hot,

Rink!

[sighs]

♪♪ Must be dead ♪♪

♪♪ Must be dead ♪♪

♪♪ Am I sick ♪♪

♪♪ In my head? ♪♪

♪♪ Am I wrong? ♪♪

♪♪ Am I wrong? ♪♪

Hmm.

Oh, fuck it.

Oh, fuck it.

[door opens, closes]

[message alert chimes]

[message alert chimes]

Sam?

-[driver] Hyde Park? -Yes, please.

[shouts] Whats your name?

[shouts] Whats your name?

Sam, that is the most shared oxygen Ive had with a stranger

-since early March. -[chuckling]

-since early March. -[chuckling]

-Enjoy your family. -Bye.

[indistinct chatter]

[indistinct chatter]

[Carol Lynn] My loves...

[Abby] Hey.

...the birthday boy.

[all cheer]

[all cheer]

-Happy birthday, Grandpa! -[Abby] Oh, my God.

Matty?

Matty, is that you?

I can hear you, but I cant see you.

I can hear you, but I cant see you.

-Classic. -This is wonderful.

Um,

seventy-three...

seventy-three...

never thought Id live to see the day. [chuckles]

What? Too soon?

Yeah, Dad, actually way too soon.

Fuck.

Fuck.

[Matty over megaphone] Language.

What do you want from me, Matty?

Another five bucks?

You cleaned me dry.

You cleaned me dry.

[upbeat music playing]

You look good, kid.

I was gonna say the same thing to you.

I was gonna say the same thing to you.

[Edward] You know, Carol Lynn was right.

I needed this.

I think we all did.

And Im...

Im really glad that youre here.

Im really glad youre here, too.

And lets not forget Jags.

Thank God hes here.

Thank God hes here.

-I mean, what the fuck? -[both laugh]

[Edward] I was gonna say the same thing.

Maybe they adopted him.

I think that we have made the kids wait long enough.

Time for cake.

Time for cake.

-[Mike] Thank God. -Yes.

-Shall we, Dad? -We shall.

All right.

Its a really nice party.

You did a good job.

And at least its not a funeral.

[chuckles]

Carol Lynn let me plan the whole thing.

Carol Lynn let me plan the whole thing.

-Okay. Yeah. -So thank you, and ha-ha.

I mean...

I gotta say, it seems like youre doing way better

I gotta say, it seems like youre doing way better

than you were the last time I saw you.

Yeah, I am.

[Abby] Do you want to go join them?

[Abby] Do you want to go join them?

Oh, no, no. Im good. Yeah.

Hey, whats the deal with you guys?

Nothing.

You can tell me.

I dont...

I dont...

Whats going on with you and Mike?

What did he tell you?

[Abby] Nothing.

He didnt have to.

He didnt have to.

Ali, its been clear for months

that theres something youre all going through.

Its just, um, you know, with Dad and COVID,

its been stressful around the house.

its been stressful around the house.

Aly, all this started way before

any of... this.

Ive just been feeling frustrated with my life...

you know, my job, and...

Mike is....

Okay, look.

I am so sick of being

I am so sick of being

the only adult in my relationship.

I didnt sign up to mother my husband.

And then, you know, once lockdown started,

it just got really intense in the house,

like, exponentially more intense.

like, exponentially more intense.

And, you know,

when we realized that it wasnt gonna end anytime soon,

when we realized that it wasnt gonna end anytime soon,

we just, um,

we... we broke quarantine, and...

And Jags came over, and...

we all had a little wine, and...

we all had a little wine, and...

got a little high.

Okay. Before you continue,

I think Im gonna need to sit down.

Nothing happened. Okay?

Jesus, Abby.

Jesus, Abby.

Its just Jags does so much for me around the house,

you know, and hes really good with helping with Meg and Matty,

you know, and hes really good with helping with Meg and Matty,

and Meg actually likes talking to him.

and Meg actually likes talking to him.

Things just got a lot easier having him around.

For all of us.

Hey, hey, hey. Aly, look at me.

Look at me.

Look at me.

I love you, okay?

And youre gonna be all right.

And look, Im not saying that its not normal

to be frustrated with Mike.

Its valid. Just... but Jags?

Its valid. Just... but Jags?

Oh, God.

I mean... Jags.

[Aly] I know.

[Aly] I know.

Okay, I mean, he has a SCUBA license.

-That is cool. -True. [soft chuckle]

Hes very kind to his mother,

which I find very nice in a straight man

which I find very nice in a straight man

whos single and in his 40s.

And he also has...

And he also has...

Look, were just figuring things out. Okay?

Were just figuring out, thats all.

And you know what? Maybe you could have

And you know what? Maybe you could have

a little bit more of an open mind.

Oh, youre doing a little role reversal here.

I dont care for it.

Im gonna put my foot down.

Girls!

Come over here!

Im telling the one about the carrot!

Im telling the one about the carrot!

[laughs]

Thats my favorite one.

Oh, please dont encourage him.

So the dog had eaten the carrot.

And then, like, probably peed on it,

And then, like, probably peed on it,

and I was like, "Oh, where did I get this carrot?"

-Oh, my God. -[chuckles]

Um...

I dont know.

But I was really feeling...

But I was really feeling...

desperation.

Like I couldnt just have him walk away.

Like I couldnt just have him walk away.

It was like, I have to do something or say something.

And what did you say?

[exhales]

I yelled out his deadname.

I yelled out his deadname.

And then what happened?

You heard what I said, right?

Then what happened?

Then what happened?

I yelled out his deadname.

Yes, I heard.

You do know what a deadname is, right, Dr. Joy?

I mean, I checked out your website.

I mean, I checked out your website.

It says you work with a lot of trans people and like...

Yes, I have many trans patients.

Im trans. I know what a deadname is.

Im trans. I know what a deadname is.

What Im hearing is that you made a mistake.

A mistake?

No, this wasnt a mistake.

No, this wasnt a mistake.

I look back at that moment,

that horrible,

that horrible,

heinous and hurtful act

that I did,

and the only thing more outrageous than

and the only thing more outrageous than

what a giant piece of shit I am

is that I didnt go fucking straight home

and check the fuck out.

and check the fuck out.

Only a monumental piece of shit

could live with themselves after what they had done.

could live with themselves after what they had done.

What I did.

Okay, okay.

Okay, okay.

So what is Chriss deadname?

I beg your pardon?

Tell me Chriss deadname.

What is it?

Have you lost your mind?

Have you lost your mind?

Im not gonna tell you Chriss deadname.

Of course you wont.

Why would you?

Why would you?

Cause youre not a horrible, heinous and hurtful,

monumental piece of shit.

You-- You wrote that all down?

You get good at note-taking in this business.

-[timer beeping] -Wha--?

That went way faster than I thought it would.

Abby, I can hear how much emotional hurt

Abby, I can hear how much emotional hurt

youre carrying regarding this one event.

I can tell its a deep pain.

But as a queer woman

with a strong tendency towards non-binary ways of being,

I would encourage you to apply a little bit of that queering

I would encourage you to apply a little bit of that queering

towards your extremely black-and-white,

good-or-evil judgment on this

good-or-evil judgment on this

We dont live in a binary world, Abby.

Thats something I often have to remind myself of too.

Thats something I often have to remind myself of too.

And maybe

its something we can work on

if youd like to make another appointment.

Yeah.

Id really like to do that.

Id really like to do that.

Maybe we could even find a regular time?

[soft rock music playing]

[screams]

♪♪ Cold ♪♪

♪♪ Cold ♪♪

♪♪ When it starts to change the leaves ♪♪

♪♪ I start ♪♪

♪♪ To see ♪♪

♪♪ To see ♪♪

♪♪ You in my dreams ♪♪

♪♪ They carved some words ♪

♪♪ Into a stone ♪♪

♪♪ Into a stone ♪♪

♪♪ After you left for the great unknown ♪♪

♪♪ I really hoped it would mean somethin ♪♪

♪♪ I really hoped it would mean somethin ♪♪

♪♪ Smoking another cigarette

♪♪ I read the auburn epitaphs

♪♪ I read the auburn epitaphs

♪♪ I pause to feel the gravity ♪

♪♪ I pause to feel the gravity ♪

♪♪ That permeates a part of me ♪

♪♪ So... ♪♪

♪♪ So... ♪♪

♪♪ I press my pen into the page ♪♪

♪♪ Pretending that these words cant change ♪♪

♪♪ Pretending that these words cant change ♪♪

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