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- Dance.
- Man: Dance, come on.
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( music playing )
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Lindsey!
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Lindsey!
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Lindsey.
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Audience chanting:
Lindsey! Lindsey! Lindsey!
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Lindsey:
Looking back over my life,
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I can't believe everything
that has happened to me.
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I'm a very different person
than I was,
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and it's not because
I woke up one morning
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and it changed.
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I know what it feels like
to be afraid.
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I know what it feels like
to not believe in myself.
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I know what it feels like
to look in the mirror
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and hate everything
you see.
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I've fallen multiple times
as I've been on this journey.
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Moments like this,
I just try to stop feeling
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because I'm too scared.
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All my trials really
helped me prepare myself
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to become more brave.
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Every time you get up
a little bit stronger.
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This is who I am
right now.
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( cheering )
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- Girl: We love you!
- Man: Yeah!
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( music playing )
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♪ Don't let this feeling
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♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
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♪ Turn it up
let me hear you live ♪
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♪ Don't let this feeling
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♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
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♪ One life, one love
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♪ Don't let this feeling
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♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
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♪ Turn it up
let me hear you live ♪
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♪ Don't let this feeling
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♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
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♪ One life, one love.
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( clapping )
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You got a slow clap.
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Erich, put your hands
in the air.
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- Look excited.
- Whoo.
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Yeah, thank you, Chad.
Yeah.
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Whoo.
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( violin playing )
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♪ Some
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♪ Somebody shine a light
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Okay.
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Okay.
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♪ Somebody make me
feel alive ♪
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♪ And shatter me
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Can you put some reverb
and a tiny bit of delay on it?
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♪ Make
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Just cover it up
a little bit, you know?
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I'm not a singer.
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The very first day of the tour
will be on my 30th birthday.
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( music playing )
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Whoo.
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Turning 30 does
make you evaluate
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where you've been
in your life.
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My career has taken me in
so many unexpected directions.
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Like, how can, you know,
this crazy dancing violin thing
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that no one's gonna like,
how does that happen?
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Yay.
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The thought of turning 30
has mostly made me think
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about who I want to be
in the future.
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( music playing )
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( violin playing )
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( laughter )
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Lindsey is the most
hands-on artist you'll ever see.
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( muttering )
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- From the live show...
- Walk it back.
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- The choreography...
- Bum, bum, turn.
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- The videos...
- Might just cheat it
a little bit.
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I was a little behind.
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Du, du, du, ba, da, da, one.
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- Lindsey does do it all.
- Are you ready to go?
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Let's do it.
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( music playing )
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Ha ha!
Yeah, I think this is good if,
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during their thing if it just
kind of sleeky--
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- If it's dark, yeah.
- Sleekly come out.
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Yeah, they can definitely get up
there and do their thing.
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There's so much going on
in this new tour.
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White is not matching at all.
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She's the creative everything
behind it, too.
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So there's just stress there
to begin with.
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Ahh! I'm gonna--
( groans )
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White doesn't glow every well
under blacklight.
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It has to have
some pigment to it.
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( music playing )
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It's good enough.
Look, I fixed my costume.
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- Yeah. Is that gaffe tape?
- Did you see it before?
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How'd you do that?
Is it really?
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Just stand back, Bertie, please.
It'll look great.
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( violin playing )
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The whole concept
of this Brave Enough tour
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is about the courage to feel,
to feel everything.
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( violin playing )
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You know, I wrote the album
very much inspired
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by the passing of, you know,
my best friend
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and that extreme loss
and learning to reopen again.
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( music playing )
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You know, we can't block
ourselves from emotions.
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If you numb the bad,
then you'll numb the good.
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Who's here for me?
Oh, Drew's here for me.
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Drew:
We've all had moments
where we've worried about her,
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especially on this tour
with the stress
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and this heartache
and this loss.
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But she's still, like,
that spritely, like,
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"Hey, guys, what's going on?
How you doing?"
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Look at the back.
I just made it so pretty.
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Look at you. You should,
you know, be a costumer.
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You know what? In my next life,
that's what I'm gonna do.
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( indistinct chatter )
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Today is the first show.
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My mom talked to me
yesterday,
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and she was devastated
that she couldn't be here today.
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She's been at almost
every first show.
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They can't leave Arizona
because of my dad's health.
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All right, let's do this.
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( cheers and applause )
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Life got a lot harder
this year.
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And I am so nervous
to go up there
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and play these songs
that stir up grief.
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I hope I can
get through them.
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( violin playing )
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The show starts with a song
called "The Phoenix,"
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using the phoenix,
the mythical bird,
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as a symbol of rising
from the ashes,
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going through cycles
of being at the top
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and then falling down.
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Life is about picking yourself
up over and over again.
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and that basically is the story
of my entire life.
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( music playing )
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( cheers and applause)
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( music playing )
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I'm Diane Stirling, and I'm
Lindsey Stirling's mother.
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I've been at her first show
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in the last two tours,
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and I really wanted
to be here for this one.
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( audience cheers )
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I was so surprised, and, um,
made me start to cry.
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My mom means so much to me,
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and she's always
taking care of me.
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Oh, this is one
of your green juices.
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Thanks, yeah.
That Mom makes.
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This is what you made
Dad drink all the time.
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It is, yeah.
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I want her to know that even
though there's tough things
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going on in our lives
and our family
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that, um, she still matters.
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Oh, I'm so glad
you were surprised.
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These milestones are important
to her entire family,
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and her father would be here
if he could.
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He can't.
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Diane:
But her father has cancer
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and is going through
the battle of his life.
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Lindsey:
Oh, look at that smile.
That's the smile I love.
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A little less than a year ago,
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my dad was diagnosed
with cancer.
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He's been going through
chemo treatment.
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My dad has played
a huge role
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in little bits and pieces
of all the details
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that make up who I am.
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His signature
is in everything I do.
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How you doing, Papa?
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Pop's fine.
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You know, he wouldn't just say,
"You can do this"
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and then send me on my way.
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He'd say, "You can do this,
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and I'm gonna do
everything I can to help you."
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Father:
Keep at it, Linds. Come on.
You can do this.
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Thing is, he didn't
just do this with me.
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He did this with his students.
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He taught religious studies
to teenagers.
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He had thousands of students
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that he taught
through the years.
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Everybody else got chocolate,
I got pumpkin seeds.
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They're incredibly nutritious.
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And delicious. Right, Dad?
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Mm. I'll say so.
Nutritious.
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My parents, they're just--
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I wouldn't be here
today where I'm at
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if they hadn't
just helped me along
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every step of the way.
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- One more surprise...
- ♪ Happy birthday to you...
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Mostly, I'm proud
of the person that she is,
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how she has
stuck to her values
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and stayed true
to who she is.
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Thank you, guys.
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She's just a bundle of light.
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Ever since she was
a little tiny thing,
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just a bundle of light.
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I was six years old
when I first picked up
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my first violin.
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My parents,
they loved classical music.
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(classical music playing)
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That was the majority
of what I was exposed to
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in terms of music as a kid.
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That's kind of what I thought
it was to be a star.
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I would see the violinists
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and that they always
got the solos.
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You know, they seemed to be
the rock star of the orchestra,
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so in my mind
as a six-year-old,
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I was like,
"I gotta get my hands
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on one of those
wooden things.
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That's how I become a star."
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I begged my parents
for two things:
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violin lessons,
and I begged for dance lessons.
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They were able to scrape up
enough money for one.
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I've always loved dance,
but I chose the violin.
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I was in a pageant-style
competition.
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It was called Junior Miss.
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And there was a lot of
violinists in this competition,
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and I remember thinking,
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"If I do something
really different..."
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It was the first time
I ever danced
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while playing the violin.
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That was the moment
I fell in love with performing.
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( cheers and applause )
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It was unlike any reaction
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I'd ever had
from an audience.
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I'd had, like, approval,
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and I'd impressed
people before,
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but I had never felt
like I had entertained
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until that moment, and it
was this addictive feeling.
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I thought,
"I have to figure out
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how to make this my life."
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Musically, I was starting
to write music.
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I was starting
to dabble in it.
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I was realizing that, you know,
I wanted to do music,
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but didn't
have any idea how.
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I was in college
trying to discover
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what I want to do
with my life.
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Classes were overwhelming.
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I felt like my life
was out of control.
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I just started
to cling to food
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and become obsessive
about it.
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It's all I thought about.
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I remember going to parties,
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and all you see
is the food tray.
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And then you're like, "Who's
the skinniest girl in the room?
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Is it me?"
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You know, I'd go on dates,
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but all I could
think about was panicking
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when I realized they
were taking me to a pizza spot
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and, like, thinking, "How can I
avoid eating the pizza?"
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Feeling like I could
control my weight
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seemed very empowering to me.
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Even though you think this is
giving you a sense of control,
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there starts to be
this inner dialogue
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that is actually
controlling you,
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telling you
that you're worthless.
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I didn't really care
about my passion.
255
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I wasn't playing
the violin anymore.
256
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My mom kept saying, "I think we
need to figure something out.
257
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I think something's wrong."
258
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And one day, finally,
it clicked,
259
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and I realized,
"I think I'm anorexic."
260
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"Shatter Me" used the ballerina
in a music box
261
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to be a metaphor
for me being, you know,
262
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stuck in an eating disorder
263
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and feeling like
I couldn't break free.
264
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♪ Somebody shine a light
265
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♪ I'm frozen
by the fear in me ♪
266
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♪ Somebody make me
feel all right ♪
267
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♪ And shatter me
268
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( cheers and applause )
269
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♪ If only the clockwork
could speak ♪
270
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♪ I wouldn't be so alone
271
00:16:31,826 --> 00:16:35,630
♪ We'd burn every magnet
and spring ♪
272
00:16:35,663 --> 00:16:39,667
♪ And spiral
into the unknown ♪
273
00:16:45,372 --> 00:16:48,676
♪ Somebody shine a light
274
00:16:48,710 --> 00:16:52,145
♪ I'm frozen
by the fear in me ♪
275
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♪ Somebody make me feel alive
276
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♪ And shatter me
277
00:16:58,686 --> 00:17:02,256
♪ So cut me from the line
278
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♪ Dizzy spinning endlessly
279
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♪ Somebody
make me feel alive ♪
280
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♪ And shatter me
281
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♪ Shatter me
282
00:17:26,179 --> 00:17:29,449
♪ If I break the glass
then I'll have to fly ♪
283
00:17:29,483 --> 00:17:30,852
♪ There's no one to catch me
284
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♪ If I take a dive
285
00:17:33,120 --> 00:17:36,123
♪ I'm scared of change and
the days stay the same ♪
286
00:17:36,156 --> 00:17:39,359
♪ The world is spinning
but only in vain ♪
287
00:17:39,393 --> 00:17:42,597
♪ If I break the glass
then I'll have to fly ♪
288
00:17:42,630 --> 00:17:46,166
♪ There's no one to catch me
if I take a dive ♪
289
00:17:46,199 --> 00:17:49,269
♪ I'm scared of change
and the days stay the same ♪
290
00:17:49,303 --> 00:17:52,640
♪ The world is spinning
but only in vain ♪
291
00:17:52,674 --> 00:17:55,475
It was one thing
to change my eating habits,
292
00:17:55,510 --> 00:17:57,645
but it was a completely
different process
293
00:17:57,679 --> 00:17:59,814
to try to change
my automatic thoughts.
294
00:17:59,847 --> 00:18:01,583
Like, these voices in my head
that would look in the mirror
295
00:18:01,616 --> 00:18:03,350
and say, "You're ugly."
296
00:18:03,383 --> 00:18:05,587
I would stop and I would
say out loud, like,
297
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"You're beautiful."
298
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♪ Somebody shine a light
299
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♪ I'm frozen
by the fear in me ♪
300
00:18:14,862 --> 00:18:17,865
♪ Somebody make me
feel alive ♪
301
00:18:17,899 --> 00:18:21,536
♪ And shatter me
302
00:18:21,569 --> 00:18:24,872
♪ So cut me from the line
303
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♪ Dizzy spinning endlessly
304
00:18:28,241 --> 00:18:31,244
♪ Somebody make me feel alive
305
00:18:31,278 --> 00:18:34,314
♪ And shatter me
306
00:18:44,592 --> 00:18:48,195
♪ Shatter me
307
00:18:54,468 --> 00:18:57,905
♪ Somebody make me
feel alive ♪
308
00:18:57,939 --> 00:19:01,308
♪ And shatter me
309
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In the road of recovery,
310
00:19:02,944 --> 00:19:05,445
I went on a search
to find myself.
311
00:19:05,479 --> 00:19:07,815
Then I started
to write music again,
312
00:19:07,849 --> 00:19:11,686
and, uh,
I would never go back.
313
00:19:16,724 --> 00:19:18,726
How you doing?
314
00:19:18,760 --> 00:19:21,929
Good to see you too.
315
00:19:21,963 --> 00:19:23,665
They sensed the energy.
316
00:19:23,698 --> 00:19:26,266
Okay, let's do this.
317
00:19:33,240 --> 00:19:34,709
Good morning.
318
00:19:34,742 --> 00:19:36,511
We're backstage
at the Dolby theater.
319
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Doughnuts.
320
00:19:38,412 --> 00:19:40,915
We've done the show
over 30 times on this tour,
321
00:19:40,948 --> 00:19:42,650
but the Dolby theater,
322
00:19:42,684 --> 00:19:44,251
it's one of the biggest
shows of my career,
323
00:19:44,284 --> 00:19:47,722
and how lucky am I
that I get to be here?
324
00:19:47,755 --> 00:19:49,322
Whoo!
325
00:19:49,356 --> 00:19:51,425
Do you know if, uh,
the dancers are awake?
326
00:19:51,458 --> 00:19:52,694
- Uh-huh.
- Yeah?
327
00:19:52,727 --> 00:19:54,294
They're in their room there.
328
00:19:54,327 --> 00:19:55,462
- Oh, really?
- At least a couple of them.
329
00:19:55,495 --> 00:19:56,664
Must be a special day.
330
00:19:56,698 --> 00:19:58,365
Being here
at the Dolby theater,
331
00:19:58,398 --> 00:20:00,233
it's, you know,
the biggest show of the tour.
332
00:20:00,267 --> 00:20:02,235
I mean, this is where
they hold the Academy Awards.
333
00:20:07,274 --> 00:20:10,712
Wow, I haven't
come out here yet.
334
00:20:10,745 --> 00:20:15,248
This is so--
wow, this is so beautiful.
335
00:20:15,282 --> 00:20:16,918
Holy cow.
336
00:20:16,951 --> 00:20:18,586
Drew:
Looking up
at those empty seats
337
00:20:18,619 --> 00:20:21,321
and just being like, "These are
all going to be full
338
00:20:21,354 --> 00:20:23,624
of ravenous, crazy fans,
339
00:20:23,658 --> 00:20:25,292
it literally
gives me goose bumps
340
00:20:25,325 --> 00:20:27,494
and just makes me giddy
with excitement.
341
00:20:27,528 --> 00:20:29,964
Little spaceships
all, like, you know,
342
00:20:29,997 --> 00:20:31,933
like Star Wars pods.
343
00:20:31,966 --> 00:20:34,802
"Emperor!
We have a request."
344
00:20:34,836 --> 00:20:36,470
It's the LA show.
345
00:20:36,504 --> 00:20:38,506
The LA show always
brings extra pressure
346
00:20:38,539 --> 00:20:40,675
because all the industry
folks come out.
347
00:20:40,708 --> 00:20:42,510
This is your chance
to be like,
348
00:20:42,543 --> 00:20:44,779
"I deserve to be on this stage,"
you know.
349
00:20:44,812 --> 00:20:46,413
Impress everyone.
350
00:20:46,446 --> 00:20:48,883
- Are you ready in five?
- Uh, sorry.
351
00:20:48,916 --> 00:20:51,619
I'm just admiring my glory.
352
00:20:51,652 --> 00:20:53,353
Just, uh, running late.
353
00:20:53,386 --> 00:20:54,555
Oh, sorry. I'm sorry.
354
00:20:54,589 --> 00:20:55,757
It's all good.
355
00:20:55,790 --> 00:20:57,592
- Bye!
- Bye.
356
00:21:01,495 --> 00:21:03,564
LA just makes you nervous,
you know,
357
00:21:03,598 --> 00:21:04,999
'cause, like,
all your friends are coming.
358
00:21:05,032 --> 00:21:07,769
Yeah, up in--
I kept having nightmares
359
00:21:07,802 --> 00:21:09,302
for the last, like, week.
360
00:21:09,336 --> 00:21:10,872
There was a tornado
coming in one,
361
00:21:10,905 --> 00:21:13,340
and I was stuck in this car
that wouldn't drive.
362
00:21:13,373 --> 00:21:14,976
Like,
that kind of nightmare.
363
00:21:15,009 --> 00:21:16,343
Wake up in a panic?
364
00:21:16,376 --> 00:21:17,779
And I wake up in, like,
a panic.
365
00:21:17,812 --> 00:21:19,680
I'm nervous,
but I'm excited.
366
00:21:19,714 --> 00:21:21,849
It's crazy to be playing
at such an amazing,
367
00:21:21,883 --> 00:21:23,718
historic venue,
368
00:21:23,751 --> 00:21:25,485
especially
when you think about
369
00:21:25,520 --> 00:21:29,389
how, you know, my career
really started.
370
00:21:29,422 --> 00:21:32,760
After college,
I had found my passion again
371
00:21:32,794 --> 00:21:34,461
and I wasn't about
to give it up.
372
00:21:36,931 --> 00:21:38,833
I was starting to dabble
373
00:21:38,866 --> 00:21:41,736
in this new style of playing
the violin and dancing.
374
00:21:41,769 --> 00:21:43,403
I was doing covers.
375
00:21:43,436 --> 00:21:44,872
I joined a country band,
376
00:21:44,906 --> 00:21:46,473
and it was the first time
I was hired
377
00:21:46,507 --> 00:21:48,910
as a professional musician.
378
00:21:48,943 --> 00:21:50,845
I actually bought a book
that was
379
00:21:50,878 --> 00:21:52,680
"How to Make It
in the Music Industry,"
380
00:21:52,713 --> 00:21:54,749
and it became something
that I was obsessed with.
381
00:21:54,782 --> 00:21:57,819
The more I tried, the more it
started to sound impossible,
382
00:21:57,852 --> 00:22:01,022
because agents and management
and record labels
383
00:22:01,055 --> 00:22:03,423
all just kept saying to me,
384
00:22:03,456 --> 00:22:04,926
"It's really interesting,
385
00:22:04,959 --> 00:22:08,095
but, you know, you just
don't fit in the box."
386
00:22:08,129 --> 00:22:10,965
I just kept knocking on door
after door after door,
387
00:22:10,998 --> 00:22:13,534
and they just kept closing
in my face.
388
00:22:13,568 --> 00:22:17,370
And then finally
I had my moment.
389
00:22:17,404 --> 00:22:20,107
The energy in here tonight
is on fire.
390
00:22:20,141 --> 00:22:21,776
And here are three words
391
00:22:21,809 --> 00:22:23,978
you don't often hear
in the same sentence.
392
00:22:24,011 --> 00:22:25,746
Hip-hop violinist.
393
00:22:25,780 --> 00:22:27,515
But that's exactly
what our next act is.
394
00:22:27,548 --> 00:22:30,918
She's Lindsey Stirling.
395
00:22:30,952 --> 00:22:34,121
I felt so inspired
to go on that show.
396
00:22:34,155 --> 00:22:36,090
They tell you that
this is your make or break.
397
00:22:36,123 --> 00:22:39,426
Like, this is your moment
for you to have your shot.
398
00:22:39,459 --> 00:22:42,964
- I'm gonna say yes.
- You're going to Hollywood.
399
00:22:42,997 --> 00:22:44,832
Lindsey:
When I made it
to the quarterfinals,
400
00:22:44,866 --> 00:22:48,102
like, in my mind, that meant
that I was probably gonna win.
401
00:22:48,135 --> 00:22:49,971
Good seeing you.
402
00:22:50,004 --> 00:22:51,672
Piers Morgan:
One problem. The violin.
403
00:22:51,706 --> 00:22:53,774
You end up missing
loads of notes,
404
00:22:53,808 --> 00:22:55,509
and there were times
when it sounded to me
405
00:22:55,543 --> 00:22:57,111
like a bunch of rats
being strangled.
406
00:22:57,144 --> 00:22:58,613
Seriously. That bad.
407
00:22:58,646 --> 00:23:00,681
( audience boos )
408
00:23:00,715 --> 00:23:02,116
Lindsey:
At that moment, I thought
what they said was God's word.
409
00:23:02,149 --> 00:23:04,085
Like,
"I don't have what it takes.
410
00:23:04,118 --> 00:23:07,588
You're right.
I did sound terrible."
411
00:23:10,091 --> 00:23:12,760
I ran backstage,
and I just found the only place
412
00:23:12,793 --> 00:23:14,729
I could be alone,
which was the bathroom.
413
00:23:14,762 --> 00:23:17,598
You know, that's the only place
the cameras wouldn't find me,
414
00:23:17,632 --> 00:23:20,935
and I just sat on the floor
and I sobbed for hours
415
00:23:20,968 --> 00:23:23,170
until the cleaning staff
came in,
416
00:23:23,204 --> 00:23:26,107
and they were like, "Oh,
we didn't know anybody
was still here."
417
00:23:26,140 --> 00:23:28,009
Like, "Hon, we're closed up
for the night."
418
00:23:28,042 --> 00:23:29,744
Like, "You gotta go home."
419
00:23:29,777 --> 00:23:31,746
I don't think
what you're doing right now
420
00:23:31,779 --> 00:23:36,684
is enough to fill
a theater in Vegas.
421
00:23:39,787 --> 00:23:43,124
( cheers and applause )
422
00:23:43,157 --> 00:23:44,926
I remember feeling that night
423
00:23:44,959 --> 00:23:47,628
that I had blown the biggest
moment of my life.
424
00:23:47,662 --> 00:23:49,864
Thank you so much, LA!
425
00:23:49,897 --> 00:23:51,232
But I've come,
since that moment,
426
00:23:51,265 --> 00:23:52,967
to realize that life is kind,
427
00:23:53,000 --> 00:23:55,169
and it will give you
another opportunity.
428
00:27:33,854 --> 00:27:36,423
( cheers and applause )
429
00:27:46,767 --> 00:27:49,136
Lindsey:
After "America's Got Talent,"
it hurt so bad,
430
00:27:49,170 --> 00:27:51,972
but something inside me
wasn't ready to give up yet,
431
00:27:52,006 --> 00:27:53,774
and so I started to write,
432
00:27:53,807 --> 00:27:56,443
and I started experimenting
with dubstep music.
433
00:27:56,477 --> 00:27:59,446
There was not
a lot of EDM producers
434
00:27:59,480 --> 00:28:00,915
living in Provo, Utah,
435
00:28:00,948 --> 00:28:02,116
but I found one guy...
436
00:28:02,149 --> 00:28:03,884
This is Mark OG, everybody.
437
00:28:03,918 --> 00:28:05,085
- How you doing?
- Yeah.
438
00:28:05,119 --> 00:28:06,921
He is the best,
and he makes me
439
00:28:06,954 --> 00:28:08,989
look super--
and sound super good.
440
00:28:11,292 --> 00:28:14,061
( imitating music )
441
00:28:17,231 --> 00:28:19,033
I would have to,
you know, pay him
442
00:28:19,066 --> 00:28:20,901
before I even started
to create a track with him,
443
00:28:20,935 --> 00:28:22,303
because I had this idea
444
00:28:22,336 --> 00:28:23,938
of being a dancing,
electronic violinist.
445
00:28:23,971 --> 00:28:25,839
No one's gonna
take a risk on that,
446
00:28:25,873 --> 00:28:27,908
so I-- you know, every time
I could earn enough money,
447
00:28:27,942 --> 00:28:29,511
I would create a new track.
448
00:28:29,544 --> 00:28:32,514
Basically, all my savings
went into this project
449
00:28:32,547 --> 00:28:34,281
that I didn't even know
if I could do.
450
00:29:52,192 --> 00:29:54,395
Lindsey:
We wrote three songs,
they'd been sitting on iTunes.
451
00:29:54,428 --> 00:29:57,464
My mom bought them
and my grandma bought them,
452
00:29:57,498 --> 00:30:00,502
and that's about it.
453
00:30:00,535 --> 00:30:03,538
Suddenly, I put up
this one video on YouTube,
454
00:30:03,571 --> 00:30:05,005
and they started to sell.
455
00:30:05,039 --> 00:30:06,407
I saw the iTunes spike.
456
00:30:24,592 --> 00:30:26,393
( plucks string )
457
00:30:26,427 --> 00:30:28,329
I finished my first album
when I was 26.
458
00:30:28,362 --> 00:30:31,932
And I was on my first tour,
like, a week later.
459
00:30:31,965 --> 00:30:34,968
Everybody wanna introduce
yourself to the camera?
460
00:30:35,002 --> 00:30:37,204
I'm Drew, the drummer.
461
00:30:37,237 --> 00:30:39,239
Gavi, the piano guy.
462
00:30:39,273 --> 00:30:40,642
Lindsey:
Can't see Gavi
the piano guy.
463
00:30:40,675 --> 00:30:43,377
- Piano guy.
- Lindsey: Yay.
464
00:30:43,410 --> 00:30:46,914
- Wow, that is amazing.
- This is 'cause this guy.
465
00:30:46,947 --> 00:30:48,583
Lindsey:
I met Gavi and Drew
466
00:30:48,616 --> 00:30:51,919
two days before my very first
ever ticketed show.
467
00:30:51,952 --> 00:30:54,121
Just kinda got them
word of mouth, you know.
468
00:30:54,154 --> 00:30:55,590
I'd never met them before,
469
00:30:55,623 --> 00:30:58,125
and here we are rehearsing
for my first ever show.
470
00:31:00,094 --> 00:31:02,930
On that first tour, we were
doing these tiny, little venues
471
00:31:02,963 --> 00:31:04,298
that were, like, 200 people,
472
00:31:04,331 --> 00:31:07,067
and I was, like,
living the dream.
473
00:31:07,101 --> 00:31:09,002
I was like, "I can't believe
I'm a rock star."
474
00:31:09,036 --> 00:31:10,371
Like, "I love this."
475
00:31:10,404 --> 00:31:12,172
And I was meeting fans
for the first time.
476
00:31:12,206 --> 00:31:13,608
Thanks so much
for coming out today.
477
00:31:13,641 --> 00:31:16,210
Ugh. Have you guys had fun
at the festival?
478
00:31:16,243 --> 00:31:18,245
- Yeah!
- Yeah?
479
00:31:18,278 --> 00:31:21,148
Drew:
As a band, our
relationship grew over time,
480
00:31:21,181 --> 00:31:24,351
and Lindsey and Gavi
got very, very close
481
00:31:24,385 --> 00:31:26,387
as far as, like--
they just became best friends.
482
00:31:26,420 --> 00:31:29,156
Gavi:
She's being a good
team member right now.
483
00:31:29,189 --> 00:31:31,392
My band colors with me.
484
00:31:33,460 --> 00:31:35,563
Don't pretend you're not
enjoying this.
485
00:31:35,597 --> 00:31:37,364
Oh, this is awesome.
486
00:31:37,398 --> 00:31:39,066
Man: You're showing
your manlihood right now.
487
00:31:39,099 --> 00:31:40,702
Yeah, I'm flexing
while I do this, though,
488
00:31:40,735 --> 00:31:42,403
so it's all good.
489
00:31:42,436 --> 00:31:43,605
From the moment I met Gavi,
490
00:31:43,638 --> 00:31:45,573
he made me feel just at ease.
491
00:31:45,607 --> 00:31:46,974
Almost like an older brother.
492
00:31:47,007 --> 00:31:48,275
Gavi and I can never sleep
493
00:31:48,308 --> 00:31:50,344
past, like,
7:00 in the morning,
494
00:31:50,377 --> 00:31:54,281
so we hang out here
in the captain's seat.
495
00:31:54,314 --> 00:31:56,283
But it's nice being up here.
496
00:31:56,316 --> 00:31:57,985
We get first glance
at the scenery
497
00:31:58,018 --> 00:32:00,020
while everybody else
is still asleep.
498
00:32:00,053 --> 00:32:01,556
We would just talk about life
499
00:32:01,589 --> 00:32:03,625
and, you know,
and laugh together.
500
00:32:03,658 --> 00:32:06,026
I just took picture by
the Christmas tree out there.
501
00:32:06,059 --> 00:32:07,562
- Oh, my gosh.
- Christmas came early.
502
00:32:07,595 --> 00:32:10,464
( laughter )
503
00:32:10,497 --> 00:32:12,065
You know,
when you have people
504
00:32:12,099 --> 00:32:13,133
that you can sit there
and do nothing with
505
00:32:13,167 --> 00:32:14,435
and love every second of it...
506
00:32:14,468 --> 00:32:16,738
Wolf pack.
Animal pack.
507
00:32:16,771 --> 00:32:18,472
You know,
those are your best friends.
508
00:32:18,506 --> 00:32:21,208
Those are the people
that will be with you forever.
509
00:32:21,241 --> 00:32:23,143
( cheers and applause )
510
00:32:29,249 --> 00:32:32,252
For the first
18 months of touring,
511
00:32:32,286 --> 00:32:34,488
every single show sold out.
512
00:32:34,522 --> 00:32:37,324
For nearly
a year and a half.
513
00:32:37,357 --> 00:32:39,993
Then it was like,
"Oh, well, that 400-seater
514
00:32:40,027 --> 00:32:41,261
sold out really quickly.
515
00:32:41,295 --> 00:32:42,362
Let's go up
to the 800-seater."
516
00:32:42,396 --> 00:32:44,131
That one sold out again.
517
00:32:44,164 --> 00:32:45,567
"Okay, let's go up
to the 1,200-seater."
518
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:48,202
We're like, "This is real."
519
00:32:51,338 --> 00:32:53,474
( cheers and applause )
520
00:34:14,254 --> 00:34:16,356
( cheers and applause )
521
00:34:19,393 --> 00:34:22,764
Man: Gavi? Gav--
522
00:34:22,797 --> 00:34:25,331
- What's up?
- I was just gonna ask you
about this show.
523
00:34:25,364 --> 00:34:26,466
Your thoughts right now.
524
00:34:26,501 --> 00:34:28,368
This is fun.
525
00:34:28,402 --> 00:34:32,507
I've come to the conclusion
that you never take for granted
526
00:34:32,540 --> 00:34:34,474
the people that come
to see you play.
527
00:34:34,509 --> 00:34:36,143
I think it's very cool
people are out here.
528
00:34:36,176 --> 00:34:37,679
We're in the middle of Tokyo
529
00:34:37,712 --> 00:34:39,880
and people are out here
to see Lindsey play,
530
00:34:39,914 --> 00:34:42,282
so I'm excited.
531
00:34:42,315 --> 00:34:43,483
I've been begging
my booking agent
532
00:34:43,518 --> 00:34:45,217
to bring us
to Asia for a while,
533
00:34:45,252 --> 00:34:47,487
and now it's just crazy
that here we are.
534
00:34:47,522 --> 00:34:49,389
I was making all these
little music videos.
535
00:34:49,422 --> 00:34:51,391
My fan base
grew exponentially,
536
00:34:51,425 --> 00:34:53,159
And Drew and Gavi and I
537
00:34:53,193 --> 00:34:56,396
set out to do basically
a full world tour.
538
00:34:59,534 --> 00:35:01,234
I've said
the wrong city twice.
539
00:35:09,443 --> 00:35:12,446
- Wow.
- I'm freezing.
540
00:35:12,479 --> 00:35:14,348
The crazy part.
Right there.
541
00:35:14,381 --> 00:35:16,584
You're on an animal.
You're on an animal.
542
00:35:16,618 --> 00:35:18,786
Lindsey:
Last year,
we were actually on tour,
543
00:35:18,820 --> 00:35:21,388
and, um, you know,
in the middle of tour
544
00:35:21,421 --> 00:35:25,359
we found out that Gavi had,
uh, lymphoma cancer.
545
00:35:39,239 --> 00:35:41,441
Gavi got sick very quickly.
546
00:35:41,475 --> 00:35:43,878
He went home immediately.
547
00:35:47,548 --> 00:35:49,349
Okay, so I'm gonna
send this to you.
548
00:35:49,383 --> 00:35:51,552
I think you guys
are about to go on right now.
549
00:35:51,586 --> 00:35:54,656
9:30.
So I'm gonna be a part. Ready?
550
00:35:54,689 --> 00:35:58,693
This is why...
551
00:36:01,428 --> 00:36:04,899
Lindsey:
The doctors were very sure
that he would get better.
552
00:36:13,641 --> 00:36:16,243
He did get better.
He was cancer-free.
553
00:36:16,276 --> 00:36:17,879
He left the hospital.
554
00:36:17,912 --> 00:36:20,213
We had a welcome home
party for him.
555
00:36:29,322 --> 00:36:31,391
I didn't think
that that welcome home party
556
00:36:31,425 --> 00:36:32,927
would be the last time
that I saw him.
557
00:36:43,336 --> 00:36:46,373
It was the most devastating
moment of my life,
558
00:36:46,406 --> 00:36:48,810
realizing that my best friend
was just gone.
559
00:37:14,434 --> 00:37:18,271
Before he got sick, Gavi and I
started writing a song together
560
00:37:18,305 --> 00:37:19,473
one day during sound check,
561
00:37:19,507 --> 00:37:21,475
and I kept promising him
562
00:37:21,509 --> 00:37:24,679
that we're gonna finish
that song that we started.
563
00:37:24,712 --> 00:37:26,379
And it never
even occurred to me
564
00:37:26,413 --> 00:37:27,849
that he might not get better.
565
00:37:27,882 --> 00:37:30,017
It just wasn't
a possibility in my mind.
566
00:37:31,919 --> 00:37:35,322
So this is Gavi's song.
567
00:38:02,817 --> 00:38:05,352
( applause )
568
00:38:13,728 --> 00:38:16,898
After Gavi passed away,
I just kind of closed up.
569
00:38:16,931 --> 00:38:20,001
I was so almost numb
to everything.
570
00:38:20,034 --> 00:38:23,403
But one thing my dad
tells me all the time,
571
00:38:23,436 --> 00:38:25,106
he's told me my whole life,
572
00:38:25,139 --> 00:38:28,441
is that you're never alone
no matter how alone you feel.
573
00:38:28,475 --> 00:38:31,411
Our loved ones aren't gone
after they pass away.
574
00:38:33,548 --> 00:38:35,016
Every time
I went in the studio,
575
00:38:35,049 --> 00:38:37,118
I wore something
that reminded me of him,
576
00:38:37,151 --> 00:38:40,855
and I would also pray
that Gavi would help me write.
577
00:38:43,791 --> 00:38:45,492
It's been really hard.
578
00:38:45,526 --> 00:38:47,862
I remember just being
terrified to go on the road
579
00:38:47,895 --> 00:38:49,530
without Gavi.
580
00:38:49,564 --> 00:38:51,065
Being surrounded
by that environment
581
00:38:51,098 --> 00:38:52,867
that I knew him the best in,
582
00:38:52,900 --> 00:38:55,069
seeing, you know,
the keyboard setup,
583
00:38:55,102 --> 00:38:56,737
and just all these things
584
00:38:56,771 --> 00:38:59,941
stirred up so many memories
that were so close.
585
00:38:59,974 --> 00:39:02,442
Just-- I couldn't believe
they weren't there--
586
00:39:02,475 --> 00:39:03,945
they weren't happening anymore.
587
00:39:03,978 --> 00:39:06,479
And this goes down
further to the ground, right?
588
00:39:06,514 --> 00:39:08,516
Man:
Uh, actually, I'm not sure.
589
00:39:08,549 --> 00:39:09,984
I haven't looked
at the framing of it yet.
590
00:39:10,017 --> 00:39:11,886
Still gotta be lower.
591
00:39:11,919 --> 00:39:14,789
It's about a foot too high.
592
00:39:14,822 --> 00:39:17,859
Grief is a very strange thing.
593
00:39:17,892 --> 00:39:20,460
It comes at you
when you least expect it.
594
00:39:20,493 --> 00:39:21,996
It comes in waves.
595
00:39:22,029 --> 00:39:23,898
And it can be triggered
by something
596
00:39:23,931 --> 00:39:26,033
that you would
never even imagine.
597
00:39:26,067 --> 00:39:28,669
( coughs )
598
00:39:28,703 --> 00:39:32,740
So I'm really upset
599
00:39:32,773 --> 00:39:37,545
because, um, man...
600
00:39:37,578 --> 00:39:39,981
oh, I'm just so disappointed.
601
00:39:40,014 --> 00:39:43,517
I've planned
this whole show.
602
00:39:43,551 --> 00:39:45,853
Half of it is built
around this idea
603
00:39:45,887 --> 00:39:50,024
of this scrim, and I was told
it would look a certain way,
604
00:39:50,057 --> 00:39:51,959
and, um, it's not working,
605
00:39:51,993 --> 00:39:55,096
and I'm just kinda
devastated about it.
606
00:39:55,129 --> 00:39:57,932
You know, man, if I was just
607
00:39:57,965 --> 00:40:01,035
a better violinist,
608
00:40:01,068 --> 00:40:02,837
if I could just play better,
609
00:40:02,870 --> 00:40:08,109
I wouldn't have to plan
all these stupid tricks and...
610
00:40:08,142 --> 00:40:12,513
visuals and dancing
and costumes
611
00:40:12,546 --> 00:40:15,349
to cover up the fact
that I'm just mediocre.
612
00:40:19,220 --> 00:40:22,657
I'm at a loss.
613
00:40:22,690 --> 00:40:24,892
So disappointed,
614
00:40:24,926 --> 00:40:28,696
and also right now I'm just,
615
00:40:28,729 --> 00:40:31,464
you know, this is when...
you know,
616
00:40:31,498 --> 00:40:34,201
it's moments like this
when Gavi would come find me
617
00:40:34,235 --> 00:40:38,105
and he would, you know,
he'd give me a big hug
618
00:40:38,139 --> 00:40:42,043
and he'd tell me that everything
was gonna be okay.
619
00:40:42,076 --> 00:40:45,546
He was always the first person
to come find me
620
00:40:45,579 --> 00:40:48,816
when I'd run off
and, you know, be worried,
621
00:40:48,849 --> 00:40:52,186
and now he's not here.
622
00:40:52,219 --> 00:40:55,122
My whole album was written
about being brave enough--
623
00:40:55,156 --> 00:40:57,725
brave enough to feel.
624
00:40:57,758 --> 00:40:59,894
And sometimes I have--
this is a dark time,
625
00:40:59,927 --> 00:41:01,595
and at moments like this,
626
00:41:01,629 --> 00:41:04,265
I just stop-- I almost
just try to stop feeling
627
00:41:04,298 --> 00:41:08,269
because I'm too scared.
628
00:41:08,302 --> 00:41:10,137
I got that one, though.
629
00:41:10,171 --> 00:41:11,539
Yeah, that little rat.
630
00:41:11,572 --> 00:41:13,708
Hi, Luna.
631
00:41:13,741 --> 00:41:16,544
Oh, gosh, I look terrible.
632
00:41:20,047 --> 00:41:22,850
( music playing on computer )
633
00:41:22,883 --> 00:41:25,086
Do you like this shot?
634
00:41:25,119 --> 00:41:28,522
( laughs )
I don't think I ever saw that.
635
00:41:28,556 --> 00:41:31,592
In so many ways,
Gavi's a huge part of this tour,
636
00:41:31,625 --> 00:41:33,260
of this album.
637
00:41:33,294 --> 00:41:34,829
I know
he's been there with me
638
00:41:34,862 --> 00:41:37,965
not only in the studio,
but he loved the stage,
639
00:41:37,999 --> 00:41:39,600
and I know
he's there with me.
640
00:41:39,633 --> 00:41:41,569
Lindsey: This one's
gonna make you cry.
641
00:41:41,602 --> 00:41:42,937
- Man: It already did.
- Really?
642
00:41:42,970 --> 00:41:44,538
Oh, my goodness.
Every time.
643
00:41:44,572 --> 00:41:46,841
Think we're all
gonna be bawling every day.
644
00:41:46,874 --> 00:41:48,242
Lindsey:
I invited his mom
to the show,
645
00:41:48,275 --> 00:41:50,011
and I was like,
"There's gonna be, like,
646
00:41:50,044 --> 00:41:51,712
a big tribute to Gavi in it."
647
00:41:51,746 --> 00:41:54,648
Gavi's mom is coming
to the show tonight,
648
00:41:54,682 --> 00:41:57,118
and it's the first time
she's been to a show
649
00:41:57,151 --> 00:41:59,220
since he passed away.
650
00:41:59,253 --> 00:42:02,990
And I actually haven't seen
his mom since his service.
651
00:42:03,024 --> 00:42:04,992
I'm hoping
that I say the right things
652
00:42:05,026 --> 00:42:07,028
and that it comes out,
um, you know,
653
00:42:07,061 --> 00:42:09,296
comes out
in a very special way.
654
00:42:09,330 --> 00:42:11,799
At his service,
over and over again,
655
00:42:11,832 --> 00:42:14,802
people kept saying
that Gavi was so brave--
656
00:42:14,835 --> 00:42:16,904
he was so brave
with his heart,
657
00:42:16,937 --> 00:42:19,173
and that struck me,
and I thought, "That's so true."
658
00:42:19,206 --> 00:42:22,943
Gavi lived with his whole heart
and he was so brave in that way,
659
00:42:22,977 --> 00:42:26,614
something that I had never
been brave enough to be,
660
00:42:26,647 --> 00:42:29,617
and so my album
is called "Brave Enough."
661
00:42:29,650 --> 00:42:31,786
This tour
is the "Brave Enough" tour
662
00:42:31,819 --> 00:42:34,021
and it's all based
around this idea
663
00:42:34,055 --> 00:42:37,058
of what I was inspired
by Gavi to be,
664
00:42:37,091 --> 00:42:40,628
and it was to live life
in a brave enough way.
665
00:42:40,661 --> 00:42:43,330
( music playing )
666
00:42:50,871 --> 00:42:55,743
♪ I remember,
I remember those days ♪
667
00:42:55,776 --> 00:43:00,648
♪ Laughing out loud,
staying up too late ♪
668
00:43:00,681 --> 00:43:06,187
♪ Staring out the window
as I see your face ♪
669
00:43:06,220 --> 00:43:08,722
♪ I remember, I remember
those days ♪
670
00:43:08,756 --> 00:43:10,724
♪ I remember those days
671
00:43:10,758 --> 00:43:15,096
♪ We had a little bit of time,
but it's never enough ♪
672
00:43:15,129 --> 00:43:16,964
♪ Remember driving all night
673
00:43:16,997 --> 00:43:20,901
♪ We'd been
talking 'bout love ♪
674
00:43:20,935 --> 00:43:25,139
♪ Now that you're gone
it sure is tough ♪
675
00:43:25,172 --> 00:43:28,642
♪ We had a little bit of time
but it's never enough ♪
676
00:43:28,676 --> 00:43:30,845
♪ No, it's never enough
677
00:43:33,447 --> 00:43:38,719
♪ I remember,
I remember those days ♪
678
00:43:38,752 --> 00:43:41,755
♪ I remember,
I remember those days ♪
679
00:43:41,789 --> 00:43:43,824
♪ Yeah
680
00:43:43,858 --> 00:43:48,329
♪ I remember,
I remember those days ♪
681
00:43:48,362 --> 00:43:50,931
♪ I remember those days
682
00:44:10,751 --> 00:44:15,823
♪ I remember,
I remember those eyes ♪
683
00:44:15,856 --> 00:44:20,728
♪ They saw my heart
without any disguise, yeah ♪
684
00:44:20,761 --> 00:44:25,466
♪ And in your arms
there's nothing to hide ♪
685
00:44:25,499 --> 00:44:28,869
♪ I remember,
I remember those eyes ♪
686
00:44:28,903 --> 00:44:30,971
♪ I remember those eyes
687
00:44:33,274 --> 00:44:38,479
♪ I remember,
I remember those days ♪
688
00:44:38,513 --> 00:44:41,849
♪ I remember, I remember
those days ♪
689
00:44:41,882 --> 00:44:43,918
♪ Yeah
690
00:44:43,951 --> 00:44:48,722
♪ I remember,
I remember those days ♪
691
00:44:48,756 --> 00:44:50,891
♪ I remember those days
692
00:45:43,210 --> 00:45:48,516
♪ I remember,
I remember those days ♪
693
00:45:48,550 --> 00:45:53,555
♪ I remember, I remember
those days ♪
694
00:45:53,588 --> 00:45:58,859
♪ I remember,
I remember those days, yeah ♪
695
00:45:58,892 --> 00:46:01,362
♪ I remember those days
696
00:46:01,395 --> 00:46:04,865
♪ I remember,
I remember those days ♪
697
00:46:04,898 --> 00:46:06,467
Love you.
698
00:46:06,501 --> 00:46:08,869
Love you guys.
699
00:46:08,902 --> 00:46:11,105
♪ I remember those days
700
00:46:11,138 --> 00:46:13,907
( applause )
701
00:46:13,941 --> 00:46:16,544
- Oh.
- I know. I'm gray now.
702
00:46:16,578 --> 00:46:20,281
You look beautiful.
703
00:46:20,314 --> 00:46:22,182
Such a beautiful,
704
00:46:22,216 --> 00:46:24,084
beautiful tribute to him.
705
00:46:24,118 --> 00:46:25,953
I was crying, so I missed...
706
00:46:25,986 --> 00:46:27,555
You know, we have in spirit
brought Gavi
707
00:46:27,589 --> 00:46:30,291
around the world with us
the last few months.
708
00:46:30,324 --> 00:46:32,192
He's still a part
of what we do,
709
00:46:32,226 --> 00:46:34,395
and he'll always be a part
of this show.
710
00:46:34,428 --> 00:46:36,497
That makes me feel so good
711
00:46:36,531 --> 00:46:39,366
to know that he's still
appearing in people's lives,
you know.
712
00:46:39,400 --> 00:46:41,135
Oh, 100%.
713
00:46:41,168 --> 00:46:42,936
Just hearing her talk
about Jason
714
00:46:42,970 --> 00:46:47,241
and what, you know, he meant
to her was wonderful,
715
00:46:47,274 --> 00:46:49,343
and he was always
goofy and silly,
716
00:46:49,376 --> 00:46:51,845
and I think he found
a kindred soul in Lindsey,
717
00:46:51,879 --> 00:46:53,480
'cause I think
she's like that too,
718
00:46:53,515 --> 00:46:55,449
so they had a wonderful
time together.
719
00:46:55,482 --> 00:46:57,484
I hope that you...
720
00:46:57,519 --> 00:47:00,154
felt his spirit there.
721
00:47:00,187 --> 00:47:02,289
Being vulnerable and living
with your whole heart
722
00:47:02,323 --> 00:47:03,991
is a lifelong pursuit.
723
00:47:04,024 --> 00:47:05,560
It's not something
you learn in a year.
724
00:47:05,593 --> 00:47:08,996
I've been sharing this story
of being brave enough,
725
00:47:09,029 --> 00:47:11,999
you know, now every night
for 40 shows.
726
00:47:12,032 --> 00:47:16,003
It took me about 20 shows
to not sob through that number.
727
00:47:16,036 --> 00:47:18,906
Like, I'm at a good place.
It's been kinda therapeutic.
728
00:47:18,939 --> 00:47:21,609
You know, it felt like
I hoped it would feel
729
00:47:21,643 --> 00:47:24,278
to be able to see
what the show meant to her.
730
00:47:24,311 --> 00:47:26,880
Thank you for being here.
You're amazing.
731
00:47:26,914 --> 00:47:28,916
And also it made me realize
732
00:47:28,949 --> 00:47:30,351
that it's so important to me
733
00:47:30,384 --> 00:47:33,320
to continue
to share this message.
734
00:47:35,456 --> 00:47:37,157
Oh,
I just got a great idea.
735
00:47:39,460 --> 00:47:41,328
Yeah, it's really cool.
736
00:47:41,362 --> 00:47:42,896
Um, I'm actually thinking--
737
00:47:42,930 --> 00:47:44,465
let me see.
Open this up.
738
00:47:44,498 --> 00:47:46,166
The show gets kinda heavy
at a certain point,
739
00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:48,603
where I talk about loss,
I talk about grief,
740
00:47:48,636 --> 00:47:50,304
talking about
how life goes on
741
00:47:50,337 --> 00:47:52,206
and, you know,
playing Gavi's song,
742
00:47:52,239 --> 00:47:54,475
and so I wanted
to kind of come out of that
743
00:47:54,509 --> 00:47:56,910
into something
a little lighter,
744
00:47:56,944 --> 00:47:58,680
and so I decided
I would do some magic.
745
00:47:58,713 --> 00:48:00,447
Yeah, so come out with it,
746
00:48:00,481 --> 00:48:02,349
spin it around,
and also, like,
747
00:48:02,383 --> 00:48:04,952
you know, when you unveil
and I'm in there,
748
00:48:04,985 --> 00:48:06,588
um, you know,
you guys do that--
749
00:48:06,621 --> 00:48:08,590
( gasps )
and then quickly open it.
750
00:48:08,623 --> 00:48:10,924
Magic makes things new.
It makes things exciting.
751
00:48:10,958 --> 00:48:12,493
It makes people feel
like a little kid again
752
00:48:12,527 --> 00:48:13,561
when they're watching it.
753
00:48:13,595 --> 00:48:15,597
Woman: Perfect.
754
00:48:15,630 --> 00:48:17,931
You know, even though there's
all this hard, heavy stuff
755
00:48:17,965 --> 00:48:20,602
that is in everyday life,
you know,
756
00:48:20,635 --> 00:48:23,571
there's also magic.
757
00:48:23,605 --> 00:48:25,607
Woman: Come in.
758
00:48:25,640 --> 00:48:27,575
Hi.
I just wanted to say hey--
759
00:48:27,609 --> 00:48:29,977
- Oh!
- Hi. How you doing?
760
00:48:30,010 --> 00:48:31,513
What's up?
I'm so good. How are you?
761
00:48:31,546 --> 00:48:34,047
Good to see you. Good.
Thanks for having us.
762
00:48:34,081 --> 00:48:36,216
ZZ and I wrote
"Hold My Heart" together,
763
00:48:36,250 --> 00:48:38,085
so she will be singing that
764
00:48:38,118 --> 00:48:39,654
and performing that
live with us.
765
00:48:39,687 --> 00:48:41,689
- How's the tour going?
- It's been so good.
766
00:48:41,723 --> 00:48:43,390
- Yeah?
- Been a super fun tour.
767
00:48:43,424 --> 00:48:45,159
Like, I love the show,
768
00:48:45,192 --> 00:48:47,428
and I think my favorite number
is "Hold My Heart."
769
00:48:47,461 --> 00:48:50,097
- Really?
- Yeah, we do, like,
a whole magic thing.
770
00:48:50,130 --> 00:48:53,100
- Yes!
- People love that song.
771
00:48:53,133 --> 00:48:56,069
Six months ago, uh, went in
the studio with Lindsey.
772
00:48:56,103 --> 00:48:58,172
She really knew
what she wanted.
773
00:48:58,205 --> 00:49:02,409
You know, for her to want me
to bring my style
774
00:49:02,443 --> 00:49:06,280
and my artistry
to the collaboration is great.
775
00:49:06,313 --> 00:49:09,116
Can I watch the magic show
as it's happening, though?
776
00:49:09,149 --> 00:49:11,452
Oh, like, what we're doing?
777
00:49:11,485 --> 00:49:13,053
How it works?
778
00:49:13,086 --> 00:49:14,622
Yeah, what you guys
are doing is so cool.
779
00:49:14,656 --> 00:49:17,124
A magician
never reveals her tricks.
780
00:49:17,157 --> 00:49:21,094
I think it's amazing when
someone can put their own story
781
00:49:21,128 --> 00:49:25,499
into their music
and into their whole show,
782
00:49:25,533 --> 00:49:28,570
and, uh, I think
the song is boss.
783
00:49:28,603 --> 00:49:30,471
I really love the song.
784
00:49:30,505 --> 00:49:34,742
♪ I need a hero to save me
785
00:49:34,776 --> 00:49:38,378
♪ I'm not a girl
to set free ♪
786
00:49:43,217 --> 00:49:48,255
♪ It's nothing
you did to me ♪
787
00:49:48,288 --> 00:49:51,391
♪ I've always been this way
788
00:49:59,767 --> 00:50:02,336
♪ I might be strong
789
00:50:02,369 --> 00:50:05,105
♪ I might be weak
790
00:50:05,138 --> 00:50:09,409
♪ There might be a part of me
that I won't let you keep ♪
791
00:50:09,443 --> 00:50:11,746
♪ Been on this road
792
00:50:11,779 --> 00:50:13,748
♪ And come this far
793
00:50:13,781 --> 00:50:16,116
♪ Don't need a man
to hold my hand ♪
794
00:50:16,149 --> 00:50:18,786
♪ I just want one
to hold my heart ♪
795
00:50:26,628 --> 00:50:28,495
♪ I just want one
to hold my ♪
796
00:50:28,530 --> 00:50:30,097
♪ Heart
797
00:50:36,871 --> 00:50:38,105
♪ Hold my
798
00:50:38,138 --> 00:50:39,674
♪ Heart
799
00:50:46,614 --> 00:50:49,617
♪ Don't be afraid
to hold this ♪
800
00:50:51,451 --> 00:50:54,454
♪ Even the thorns
have roses ♪
801
00:50:56,724 --> 00:50:59,727
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh
802
00:50:59,761 --> 00:51:01,529
♪ I know I can stand alone
803
00:51:04,231 --> 00:51:06,266
♪ But I can't love
on my own ♪
804
00:51:06,300 --> 00:51:09,169
♪ I might be strong
805
00:51:09,202 --> 00:51:11,506
♪ I might be weak
806
00:51:11,539 --> 00:51:16,143
♪ There might be a part of me
that I won't let you keep ♪
807
00:51:16,176 --> 00:51:18,478
♪ Been on this road
808
00:51:18,513 --> 00:51:20,314
♪ And come this far
809
00:51:20,347 --> 00:51:22,449
♪ Don't need a man
to hold my hand ♪
810
00:51:22,482 --> 00:51:25,218
♪ I just want one
to hold my heart ♪
811
00:51:33,460 --> 00:51:35,295
♪ I just want one
to hold my ♪
812
00:51:35,329 --> 00:51:36,396
♪ Heart
813
00:51:44,204 --> 00:51:47,508
♪ Ooh
814
00:51:47,542 --> 00:51:50,210
♪ Oh
815
00:51:56,918 --> 00:51:59,587
♪ Oh
816
00:52:06,426 --> 00:52:09,429
♪ Oh
817
00:52:12,667 --> 00:52:15,235
♪ Want you to,
want you to hold my heart ♪
818
00:52:15,268 --> 00:52:17,572
♪ Want you to,
want you to hold my heart ♪
819
00:52:17,605 --> 00:52:19,807
♪ Want you to,
want you to hold my heart ♪
820
00:52:19,841 --> 00:52:22,242
♪ Want you to,
want you to hold my heart ♪
821
00:52:22,275 --> 00:52:24,579
♪ Want you to,
want you to hold my heart ♪
822
00:52:24,612 --> 00:52:27,414
♪ Want you to,
want you to hold my heart ♪
823
00:52:27,447 --> 00:52:29,483
♪ Want you to, want you to,
want you to, want you to ♪
824
00:52:29,517 --> 00:52:31,819
♪ Want you to,
want you to hold my heart ♪
825
00:52:31,853 --> 00:52:34,622
♪ I might be strong
826
00:52:34,656 --> 00:52:36,624
♪ I might be weak
827
00:52:36,658 --> 00:52:41,228
♪ There might be a part of me
that I won't let you keep ♪
828
00:52:41,261 --> 00:52:43,898
♪ Been on this road
829
00:52:43,931 --> 00:52:45,867
♪ And come this far
830
00:52:45,900 --> 00:52:48,335
♪ Don't need a man
to hold my hand ♪
831
00:52:48,368 --> 00:52:51,706
♪ I just want one
to hold my heart ♪
832
00:52:51,739 --> 00:52:55,510
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh
833
00:52:58,513 --> 00:53:00,748
♪ I just want one
to hold my ♪
834
00:53:00,782 --> 00:53:02,282
♪ Heart
835
00:53:04,852 --> 00:53:09,691
♪ Ooh, I just want one
to hold my heart ♪
836
00:53:13,528 --> 00:53:15,663
Drew:
The record's extremely
personal for her.
837
00:53:15,697 --> 00:53:19,433
She's learned how to
kind of reopen herself
838
00:53:19,466 --> 00:53:22,302
and reopen her heart into
actually finding happiness
839
00:53:22,335 --> 00:53:25,707
and not being shut off
from the world emotionally.
840
00:53:25,740 --> 00:53:29,010
Thank you so much.
How you guys doing?
841
00:53:29,043 --> 00:53:31,378
( cheering )
842
00:53:31,411 --> 00:53:34,782
What about the top balcony?
How are you doing up there?
843
00:53:34,816 --> 00:53:37,018
( cheering )
844
00:53:37,051 --> 00:53:38,385
Whew!
845
00:53:38,418 --> 00:53:39,987
Lindsey:
It means so much to me
846
00:53:40,021 --> 00:53:42,489
when you get this connection
with your audience
847
00:53:42,523 --> 00:53:44,659
and when you can see
that they felt it,
848
00:53:44,692 --> 00:53:46,794
they felt all the things
that I felt on stage.
849
00:53:46,828 --> 00:53:50,832
Hi, Luna!
Hey, nice suit, by the way.
850
00:53:50,865 --> 00:53:53,000
Okay, spin. Spin.
851
00:53:53,034 --> 00:53:55,636
My favorite comment
is when people say
852
00:53:55,670 --> 00:53:58,271
they laughed and they cried
853
00:53:58,305 --> 00:53:59,841
and they had fun.
854
00:53:59,874 --> 00:54:01,876
( laughter )
855
00:54:01,909 --> 00:54:04,545
Everyone, give it up
for Miss Luna!
856
00:54:04,579 --> 00:54:05,880
( cheers and applause )
857
00:54:08,916 --> 00:54:10,852
I wanted to make sure
that it was something
858
00:54:10,885 --> 00:54:12,854
that people walked away
from uplifted.
859
00:54:12,887 --> 00:54:14,488
That's really important to me.
860
00:54:14,522 --> 00:54:16,057
I know that
every single one of you
861
00:54:16,090 --> 00:54:17,892
has talents,
you have passions,
862
00:54:17,925 --> 00:54:19,060
you have things that
you're amazing at,
863
00:54:19,093 --> 00:54:21,394
things that
you want to share.
864
00:54:21,428 --> 00:54:23,898
But I also know
how terrifying
865
00:54:23,931 --> 00:54:25,566
and almost
crippling it can be,
866
00:54:25,600 --> 00:54:28,401
the thought of taking
something that you love
867
00:54:28,435 --> 00:54:30,671
and putting it out there
for other people to judge.
868
00:54:30,705 --> 00:54:33,541
People that succeed
fail a lot.
869
00:54:33,574 --> 00:54:35,076
They failed many, many times.
870
00:54:35,109 --> 00:54:37,678
But they know how to rise
every time they fall,
871
00:54:37,712 --> 00:54:40,047
and so that's what
this next song is about.
872
00:54:40,081 --> 00:54:42,083
It's about shutting
out the voice
873
00:54:42,116 --> 00:54:45,787
and having the courage
to step into the arena.
874
00:56:39,600 --> 00:56:43,638
( cheering )
875
00:56:43,671 --> 00:56:46,574
Whoo! Yeah!
876
00:56:46,607 --> 00:56:48,576
It was this massive show.
Dancers!
877
00:56:48,609 --> 00:56:50,211
- Oh, my God.
- Magic!
878
00:56:50,244 --> 00:56:52,713
Magic was the best part!
879
00:56:56,751 --> 00:56:58,786
Lindsey:
I'm so happy with
how it was received.
880
00:56:58,819 --> 00:57:01,454
As much stress
and as much fear
went into the show,
881
00:57:01,488 --> 00:57:02,590
it was all so worth it.
882
00:57:02,623 --> 00:57:04,625
- ( cheering )
- Oh, my God!
883
00:57:04,659 --> 00:57:06,160
Just a little bit nervous
884
00:57:06,193 --> 00:57:08,195
because some of my friends
were here tonight.
885
00:57:08,229 --> 00:57:10,031
It's almost easier
to talk about these things
886
00:57:10,064 --> 00:57:12,967
in front of strangers
than it is to, like,
887
00:57:13,000 --> 00:57:14,635
really be raw and vulnerable
888
00:57:14,669 --> 00:57:16,537
in front of people
that you care about.
889
00:57:16,570 --> 00:57:18,506
And by the way, the show was
absolutely well done.
890
00:57:18,539 --> 00:57:19,573
Oh, thank you.
891
00:57:19,607 --> 00:57:21,642
Thank you for being here.
892
00:57:21,676 --> 00:57:23,476
It's so special
to have you all.
893
00:57:37,525 --> 00:57:40,995
( sobbing )
894
00:57:43,164 --> 00:57:45,633
This tour has been
an example, personally,
895
00:57:45,666 --> 00:57:48,970
of perseverance for me,
because as I'm talking about
896
00:57:49,003 --> 00:57:51,505
these experiences of loss,
897
00:57:51,539 --> 00:57:54,175
no one really knows
what I'm going through
with my dad.
898
00:57:56,010 --> 00:57:57,878
It's stage-four cancer.
899
00:57:57,912 --> 00:57:59,180
It started out as something
900
00:57:59,213 --> 00:58:02,183
that I knew
my dad would beat,
901
00:58:02,216 --> 00:58:03,818
but they're really having
a hard time treating it.
902
00:58:03,851 --> 00:58:08,222
My mom was just calling
to tell me, like,
903
00:58:08,255 --> 00:58:11,225
"We're going to hear
news back next week,
904
00:58:11,258 --> 00:58:14,028
but just prepare yourself,
905
00:58:14,061 --> 00:58:16,163
because I don't want you
906
00:58:16,197 --> 00:58:19,200
to get really bad news
out of nowhere."
907
00:58:19,233 --> 00:58:20,701
I was just
starting to get up
908
00:58:20,735 --> 00:58:22,203
from the wave
that just hit me,
909
00:58:22,236 --> 00:58:26,874
so it's really hard
to experience this again.
910
00:58:26,907 --> 00:58:29,076
And it's really hard
911
00:58:29,110 --> 00:58:30,644
not to go back
into a little shell.
912
00:58:30,678 --> 00:58:33,881
I wasn't expecting that today.
913
00:58:33,914 --> 00:58:35,216
Drew: Yeah.
914
00:58:35,249 --> 00:58:36,717
I don't think you could
ever be prepared
915
00:58:36,751 --> 00:58:39,587
to be told
to prepare yourself.
916
00:58:39,620 --> 00:58:40,888
No, not at all.
917
00:58:40,921 --> 00:58:42,289
Basically, we were told
by the doctors
918
00:58:42,323 --> 00:58:44,759
to prepare for good-bye.
919
00:58:44,792 --> 00:58:47,595
I started flying home
every day off.
920
00:58:47,628 --> 00:58:51,899
You know, from New York,
to Arizona, back to D.C.
921
00:58:51,932 --> 00:58:55,302
I'm just trying to spend
as much time as I can.
922
00:58:55,336 --> 00:58:56,837
He's fought such a hard fight,
923
00:58:56,871 --> 00:59:00,641
and in so many ways
924
00:59:00,674 --> 00:59:03,110
I am the woman I am today
because of my dad.
925
00:59:03,144 --> 00:59:05,780
- What do you think?
- I think it's awesome.
926
00:59:05,813 --> 00:59:10,751
I really attribute this sense
of adventure to him.
927
00:59:12,820 --> 00:59:16,690
It's really hard when you see
people start to lose hope.
928
00:59:18,893 --> 00:59:20,795
What time is meet and greet?
929
00:59:20,828 --> 00:59:22,830
Man: 6 to 7.
930
00:59:25,366 --> 00:59:29,136
Drew:
With her father's diagnosis,
931
00:59:29,170 --> 00:59:32,973
obviously there are days
where it's extremely difficult
932
00:59:33,007 --> 00:59:35,843
and we just all try
and be there for her.
933
00:59:35,876 --> 00:59:38,646
It's been a really,
really rough one.
934
00:59:38,679 --> 00:59:40,281
There's just stress there
to begin with,
935
00:59:40,314 --> 00:59:43,651
let alone these two massive,
major issues in her life.
936
00:59:45,953 --> 00:59:46,987
( no audible dialogue )
937
00:59:47,021 --> 00:59:49,824
But she flips a switch,
gets up,
938
00:59:49,857 --> 00:59:51,358
wipes the tears off,
and just, like,
939
00:59:51,392 --> 00:59:55,129
"Okay, I've got to be
Lindsey Stirling.
940
00:59:55,162 --> 00:59:57,264
I can't be...
Lindsey Stirling."
941
01:00:03,070 --> 01:00:05,139
- Oh, I'm so ready.
- Let's do it!
942
01:00:05,172 --> 01:00:07,074
- Hey, come on in.
- Hi!
943
01:00:07,108 --> 01:00:08,409
- Oh, my gosh.
- Hello!
944
01:00:08,442 --> 01:00:11,679
Ooh, you're so pretty.
I love your hair.
945
01:00:11,712 --> 01:00:13,814
Lindsey:
I try to be really
optimistic with my fans.
946
01:00:13,848 --> 01:00:14,849
So cool.
947
01:00:14,882 --> 01:00:16,217
You want to be uplifting.
948
01:00:16,250 --> 01:00:18,652
Yeah! Where does one get
a stormtrooper helmet?
949
01:00:18,686 --> 01:00:21,155
It's a constant battle
to be that kind of person.
950
01:00:21,188 --> 01:00:22,289
( chattering )
951
01:00:22,323 --> 01:00:23,958
Yeah, come over here.
952
01:00:23,991 --> 01:00:26,660
But it doesn't mean
I don't have days
953
01:00:26,694 --> 01:00:28,863
when I don't win the fight.
954
01:00:28,896 --> 01:00:31,899
...what to do with my life.
955
01:00:31,932 --> 01:00:33,968
And a few days later
your album came out
956
01:00:34,001 --> 01:00:37,671
and that song "Don't Let
This Feeling Fade" came up.
957
01:00:37,705 --> 01:00:41,809
God, like,
I just knew right there
that I had something to do.
958
01:00:41,842 --> 01:00:43,144
I'm so glad
that you enjoyed it
959
01:00:43,177 --> 01:00:44,812
and that it
meant something to you.
960
01:00:44,845 --> 01:00:45,980
- Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
961
01:00:46,013 --> 01:00:48,015
Everybody has bad days,
962
01:00:48,048 --> 01:00:50,684
but when bad days
are compounded by grief,
963
01:00:50,718 --> 01:00:52,987
it's really hard to feel like
I can be everything
964
01:00:53,020 --> 01:00:54,989
I need and want to be
for my fans
965
01:00:55,022 --> 01:00:58,225
when you hurt so much inside.
966
01:00:58,259 --> 01:01:00,728
You know,
you really saved my life.
967
01:01:00,761 --> 01:01:02,463
I was going through
a really dark time and,
968
01:01:02,496 --> 01:01:05,866
um, I was at the brink,
969
01:01:05,900 --> 01:01:07,368
and your music came on
970
01:01:07,401 --> 01:01:09,737
and it just reminded
to hang on.
971
01:01:09,770 --> 01:01:11,172
And your music
always pulls me through.
972
01:01:11,205 --> 01:01:13,040
Oh, girl.
Thank you for sharing that.
973
01:01:13,073 --> 01:01:15,075
That's so beautiful.
974
01:01:19,514 --> 01:01:25,119
( music playing )
975
01:01:31,492 --> 01:01:33,160
A lot of the songs
on "Brave Enough"
976
01:01:33,194 --> 01:01:35,329
obviously were written,
inspired by,
977
01:01:35,362 --> 01:01:37,097
you know, losing Gavi,
978
01:01:37,131 --> 01:01:39,099
and they kind of gain
a whole new depth now
979
01:01:39,133 --> 01:01:40,502
thinking about the fact
980
01:01:40,535 --> 01:01:42,403
that I'm probably
going to lose my dad.
981
01:01:54,348 --> 01:01:57,251
"Lost Girls" is about
being lost emotionally.
982
01:01:57,284 --> 01:02:00,387
and fighting the urge
to go back
983
01:02:00,421 --> 01:02:02,524
into your comfort zone.
984
01:02:02,557 --> 01:02:04,425
It's this really beautiful
985
01:02:04,458 --> 01:02:05,926
symbolic journey
of this little ballerina
986
01:02:05,960 --> 01:02:07,461
discovering herself
in the forest.
987
01:02:07,494 --> 01:02:10,497
And she almost goes back
into her snow globe,
988
01:02:10,532 --> 01:02:12,866
but chooses to stay free.
989
01:03:27,074 --> 01:03:28,976
♪ Lost girls
990
01:03:31,011 --> 01:03:34,982
♪ Lost girls find a way
991
01:03:35,015 --> 01:03:37,017
♪ Lost girls
992
01:04:14,421 --> 01:04:18,425
♪ Lost girls find a way
993
01:04:42,082 --> 01:04:46,588
( applause )
994
01:04:49,089 --> 01:04:51,091
Lindsey:
I can't believe
we've now been on tour
995
01:04:51,125 --> 01:04:52,226
for three months.
996
01:04:52,259 --> 01:04:54,361
Tonight is our final show,
997
01:04:54,395 --> 01:04:57,197
in Phoenix, my hometown.
998
01:04:58,499 --> 01:05:00,300
My dad will be at the show.
999
01:05:00,334 --> 01:05:02,604
He is so excited to see it.
1000
01:05:02,637 --> 01:05:06,306
My dad has just
always been so proud.
1001
01:05:06,340 --> 01:05:09,644
I think it's going to be
really, really special.
1002
01:05:09,677 --> 01:05:12,279
I can't believe
it's the last day.
1003
01:05:12,312 --> 01:05:13,715
It's insane to me.
1004
01:05:13,748 --> 01:05:15,215
Woman:
Yeah, I hear you.
1005
01:05:15,249 --> 01:05:18,285
This has been an extremely
exhausting tour,
1006
01:05:18,318 --> 01:05:20,120
not only just physically,
1007
01:05:20,154 --> 01:05:22,122
but also have
the built-up emotions
1008
01:05:22,156 --> 01:05:23,424
about what my family's
going through
1009
01:05:23,457 --> 01:05:25,125
and worrying about my dad.
1010
01:05:25,159 --> 01:05:28,495
- Want me to push him?
- Sure, that would be great.
1011
01:05:30,665 --> 01:05:32,700
Hi!
1012
01:05:32,734 --> 01:05:35,637
- Here's the man himself.
- Look who's here.
1013
01:05:35,670 --> 01:05:37,971
Stephen: My name
is Stephen J. Stirling
1014
01:05:38,005 --> 01:05:40,174
and I am Lindsey's father.
1015
01:05:40,207 --> 01:05:44,344
I've come to see the last
performance in Phoenix.
1016
01:05:44,378 --> 01:05:46,581
What do you
warm up to first?
1017
01:05:48,182 --> 01:05:50,317
I usually do scales
and then I play--
1018
01:05:50,350 --> 01:05:52,620
I like to play
the song I open with
1019
01:05:52,654 --> 01:05:55,557
so I can imagine
that I'm doing it.
1020
01:05:58,292 --> 01:05:59,661
I'm really excited.
1021
01:05:59,694 --> 01:06:01,028
I'm going home with
my parents tonight.
1022
01:06:01,061 --> 01:06:02,597
I'm loading up in the car
1023
01:06:02,630 --> 01:06:04,264
and we're going to go home
1024
01:06:04,298 --> 01:06:06,099
and just spend time
with my family.
1025
01:06:06,133 --> 01:06:08,368
- How you feeling today?
- A lot better.
1026
01:06:08,402 --> 01:06:10,204
- You look better.
- You do.
1027
01:06:10,237 --> 01:06:13,373
You look really
just awake today
and you look great.
1028
01:06:13,407 --> 01:06:16,210
There's color in your skin
and light in those eyes.
1029
01:06:16,243 --> 01:06:18,546
I was dead yesterday
because they worked me out
too much yesterday.
1030
01:06:18,580 --> 01:06:21,048
I know.
You know, that was pretty,
1031
01:06:21,081 --> 01:06:22,216
pretty intense
what you go through.
1032
01:06:22,249 --> 01:06:25,219
And today, uh-oh.
1033
01:06:25,252 --> 01:06:28,222
So today you didn't
have to go to the doctor?
1034
01:06:28,255 --> 01:06:31,058
- Nice! Day off.
- Are you done?
1035
01:06:31,091 --> 01:06:32,560
Stephen:
It's delightful for me
1036
01:06:32,594 --> 01:06:34,361
to come to these venues,
these experiences.
1037
01:06:34,394 --> 01:06:36,163
First concert I went to,
it blew me away.
1038
01:06:36,196 --> 01:06:38,533
Little girls there
that came to see Lindsey.
1039
01:06:38,566 --> 01:06:40,367
"Will you sign my violin?"
1040
01:06:40,400 --> 01:06:43,370
And then I was standing
in front of a guy.
1041
01:06:43,403 --> 01:06:46,541
He was a great big
burly biker, you know,
1042
01:06:46,574 --> 01:06:48,375
with braids down
the back of his--
1043
01:06:48,408 --> 01:06:51,078
and he's just--
just having a great time.
1044
01:06:55,415 --> 01:06:57,785
I've taken a lot of inspiration
from just watching Lindsey
1045
01:06:57,819 --> 01:06:59,453
and seeing how she's coped
1046
01:06:59,486 --> 01:07:02,322
and handled
her father's cancer.
1047
01:07:02,356 --> 01:07:06,594
In many ways, these trials
have brought us together more.
1048
01:07:06,628 --> 01:07:10,264
There's always
a silver lining.
1049
01:07:10,297 --> 01:07:12,299
We stick together.
1050
01:07:12,332 --> 01:07:13,801
You need to stop worrying
about everybody else--
1051
01:07:13,835 --> 01:07:16,504
Well, I will.
1052
01:07:16,538 --> 01:07:18,438
Well, of course
I'm proud of her.
1053
01:07:18,472 --> 01:07:22,109
I'm proud of her for the way
she has used her talents
1054
01:07:22,142 --> 01:07:24,111
to share with
the world the joy
1055
01:07:24,144 --> 01:07:26,280
and the brightness
that is her life
1056
01:07:26,313 --> 01:07:28,115
and her personality.
1057
01:07:28,148 --> 01:07:30,284
Stephen:
What Lindsey does
is also quite fearless.
1058
01:07:30,317 --> 01:07:32,286
With Lindsey, it's more
than just the performance
1059
01:07:32,319 --> 01:07:34,454
or more than just
becoming a rock star.
1060
01:07:34,488 --> 01:07:36,456
Lindsey has
a statement to make.
1061
01:07:36,490 --> 01:07:39,293
She wants someone to walk away
having learned something.
1062
01:07:39,326 --> 01:07:41,128
I don't think there
are words to describe
1063
01:07:41,161 --> 01:07:43,798
what a father can feel,
that I feel,
1064
01:07:43,831 --> 01:07:46,868
that Lindsey's accomplished.
1065
01:07:46,901 --> 01:07:49,804
Man on PA:
Final ten-minute call
for show.
1066
01:07:49,837 --> 01:07:52,139
- Last one!
- Last pray, last pray.
1067
01:07:52,172 --> 01:07:54,107
Father, we're so grateful
1068
01:07:54,141 --> 01:07:55,810
that we can all
be here together...
1069
01:07:55,843 --> 01:07:57,377
There was a lot
all happening at once
1070
01:07:57,411 --> 01:07:58,680
as I was preparing this album
1071
01:07:58,713 --> 01:08:00,180
and preparing this tour,
1072
01:08:00,213 --> 01:08:02,684
and I was turning 30,
1073
01:08:02,717 --> 01:08:05,753
I had just lost
my best friend.
1074
01:08:05,787 --> 01:08:08,188
I feel like
I've been really brave.
1075
01:08:08,221 --> 01:08:10,357
And it's not because
I was born that way,
1076
01:08:10,390 --> 01:08:11,859
and it's not because
it's natural to me,
1077
01:08:11,893 --> 01:08:13,795
because it's not.
1078
01:08:13,828 --> 01:08:17,397
But it's because Gavi
and my dad made me realize
1079
01:08:17,430 --> 01:08:19,198
that every time
we go through a big trial,
1080
01:08:19,232 --> 01:08:20,602
we get a little braver.
1081
01:08:20,635 --> 01:08:24,136
- Jesus Christ, amen.
- All: Amen.
1082
01:08:24,171 --> 01:08:27,575
- ( music playing )
- ( cheering )
1083
01:08:32,245 --> 01:08:34,881
♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
1084
01:08:34,916 --> 01:08:39,854
♪ Launch into the sky
like a private plane ♪
1085
01:08:39,886 --> 01:08:42,857
♪ Hang on,
we'll ride this wave ♪
1086
01:08:42,890 --> 01:08:45,859
♪ Watch the tide
come in a little ♪
1087
01:08:45,893 --> 01:08:48,563
♪ Just a little
more each day ♪
1088
01:08:50,229 --> 01:08:52,399
♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
1089
01:08:54,535 --> 01:08:55,903
♪ Don't let this feeling
1090
01:08:55,937 --> 01:08:59,272
♪ Hang on,
we'll ride this wave ♪
1091
01:08:59,305 --> 01:09:01,943
♪ Launch into the sky
like a private ♪
1092
01:09:01,975 --> 01:09:05,178
♪ Fly like a private plane
1093
01:09:19,993 --> 01:09:21,696
♪ Don't let this feeling
1094
01:09:23,798 --> 01:09:26,868
♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
1095
01:09:26,901 --> 01:09:28,368
♪ Turn it up,
let me hear you live ♪
1096
01:09:28,402 --> 01:09:30,270
♪ Don't let this feeling
1097
01:09:32,238 --> 01:09:34,942
♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
1098
01:09:34,975 --> 01:09:36,343
♪ One life, one love
1099
01:09:36,376 --> 01:09:38,680
( cheers and applause )
1100
01:09:44,819 --> 01:09:47,522
Lindsey: Whoo!
Thank you so much, Phoenix!
1101
01:09:47,555 --> 01:09:49,791
I want to bring out
my whole crew!
1102
01:09:54,028 --> 01:09:55,830
♪ Don't let this feeling
1103
01:09:57,565 --> 01:10:00,501
♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
1104
01:10:00,535 --> 01:10:02,302
♪ Turn it up,
let me hear you live ♪
1105
01:10:02,335 --> 01:10:06,473
♪ Don't let this feeling
1106
01:10:06,507 --> 01:10:09,276
♪ Don't let
this feeling fade ♪
1107
01:10:09,309 --> 01:10:10,845
♪ One life, one love
1108
01:10:10,878 --> 01:10:14,314
( cheering )
1109
01:10:35,503 --> 01:10:37,638
Lindsey:
I didn't have time with Gavi
1110
01:10:37,672 --> 01:10:40,007
to say all the things
I wanted to say.
1111
01:10:40,041 --> 01:10:42,476
I didn't get to say good-bye
1112
01:10:42,510 --> 01:10:44,645
or tell him everything
I wanted him to know,
1113
01:10:44,679 --> 01:10:46,446
or how much I cared.
1114
01:10:46,480 --> 01:10:47,949
I think the process
of losing Gavi
1115
01:10:47,982 --> 01:10:50,450
helped me realize
that I wanted things
1116
01:10:50,484 --> 01:10:51,719
to be different with my dad.
1117
01:10:51,753 --> 01:10:54,856
I knew that this was coming,
1118
01:10:54,889 --> 01:10:56,858
and I made changes in my life
1119
01:10:56,891 --> 01:11:00,494
so that I would have as
little regrets as possible.
1120
01:11:00,528 --> 01:11:05,398
What a blessing it was to have
some time with my dad.
1121
01:11:07,568 --> 01:11:10,370
You're the best puppy
in the world.
1122
01:11:10,403 --> 01:11:11,873
The best Luners.
1123
01:11:11,906 --> 01:11:16,409
( music playing )
1124
01:11:19,113 --> 01:11:20,882
I'm finally
going back on tour.
1125
01:11:20,915 --> 01:11:24,051
It's just hitting me
right now.
1126
01:11:24,085 --> 01:11:26,554
I'm about to head out
on the European run
1127
01:11:26,587 --> 01:11:28,022
of the "Brave Enough" tour.
1128
01:11:28,055 --> 01:11:30,290
I'm so excited.
1129
01:11:46,406 --> 01:11:49,409
( line ringing )
1130
01:11:49,442 --> 01:11:52,445
- Hi, Lindsey.
- Hey, Mommy!
1131
01:11:52,479 --> 01:11:54,682
I'm on my way
to the airport right now,
1132
01:11:54,715 --> 01:11:56,784
but I just wanted to
call you to say,
1133
01:11:56,818 --> 01:11:58,619
you know, say good-bye
before I leave.
1134
01:11:58,653 --> 01:12:00,555
Did you take your
supplements with you?
1135
01:12:02,489 --> 01:12:05,960
I... brought some of them.
1136
01:12:05,993 --> 01:12:07,962
Okay. All right,
I love you, sweetheart.
1137
01:12:07,995 --> 01:12:09,831
- Good-bye.
- Love you, too. Bye.
1138
01:12:11,966 --> 01:12:14,502
She's such a mom.
1139
01:12:16,469 --> 01:12:19,640
Life is not one journey
to a destination.
1140
01:12:21,642 --> 01:12:23,544
It's a constant fight,
it's a constant battle
1141
01:12:23,578 --> 01:12:26,113
to stay optimistic,
1142
01:12:26,147 --> 01:12:29,650
even if you've been hurt
multiple times.
1143
01:12:33,154 --> 01:12:34,454
The scars that you carry,
1144
01:12:34,487 --> 01:12:36,456
they can either make you hard
1145
01:12:36,489 --> 01:12:38,458
or they can make you strong,
1146
01:12:38,491 --> 01:12:42,129
make you empathetic
and not bitter.
1147
01:12:42,163 --> 01:12:44,732
And we all have that choice.
It's a climb.
1148
01:12:44,765 --> 01:12:47,501
You can rise past your trials.
You can be brave.
1149
01:12:49,036 --> 01:12:51,438
As I continue to perform,
1150
01:12:51,471 --> 01:12:53,107
I know my dad
will be there with me,
1151
01:12:53,140 --> 01:12:56,844
because he's always been
my biggest fan.
1152
01:12:56,878 --> 01:13:00,715
( cheers and applause )
1153
01:13:11,626 --> 01:13:16,030
( music playing )
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