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Your Sensibility My Destiny

Episode 19

Love changes a person.

It makes you go mad and insecure.

You can't help doing foolish things.

Ice turns into fire.

Steel becomes ductile.

Losing yourself in that way,

will you be hesitant and afraid?

Fear not.

Maybe you can find a new

and better self.

One whom I still love the most.

At first, I wanted to become a good wife.

But I ended up getting swayed.

I even lost control and got mad.

You're just too spoilt.

You can't see how happy your life is now.

I'm learning all those tiring rules and manners

not just for my own good.

Did Mo Qing Chen pressure you?

No.

Silly girl.

Let me ask you.

Prince Jing only likes to eat coarse grains now.

Do you know why?

Because master and you spent all his money.

Don't change the topic.

If mastering palace rules,

tea ceremonies and flower arrangements

can capture Mo Qing Chen's heart,

then the other daughters of noblemen

have long become Mo Qing Chen's concubines.

What kind of wife does Mo Qing Chen like then?

One who is obedient, motherly and strictly dutiful?

Or one who can help him in the military, like Mulan?

Chi.

Just be yourself.

You and Mo Qing Chen have come a long way.

You've pulled through so much.

Why would you lose your footing

just because of what other people say?

Just be myself?

Hus... Husband.

Are you looking for me?

I...

It's Qiu Wan. She said the rice cakes are ready.

I'm here to inform you two.

But when I passed by the kitchen just now,

the rice cakes had just been placed into the pot.

Really?

You don't have to bother about those details.

Why are you out here without your cloak?

This is inappropriate.

If I'm an inappropriate wife,

can you accept it?

Here we go again.

I'm sorry.

You're sorry?

Why... why are you sorry?

Why are you not talking?

I'm trying to put myself

in your shoes

and think from your perspective.

Think about what?

Think about a reason for being sorry.

Are... Are you alright?

You're unbelievable.

You don't even know why you're sorry.

Ding Luan told me that.

That's how he deals with Miss Qiu Wan.

How was he able to use

the skill of saying sorry so well

but not I?

Stop mimicking him.

You won't be you anymore.

Just do

whatever you think is right.

Whatever I think is right?

Won't you be mad?

If it's something valid, of course I would.

But I got mad some time ago

not because of you.

I was just feeling anxious.

But I get it now.

Thank you for accommodating me at that time.

What a relief.

What are you doing?

My dear wife.

Stop it.

Long Yang Palace

Your Highnesses.

How is Father doing?

His condition is unstable.

He's still not letting anyone visit him.

Although we can't accompany His Majesty,

we can still fulfil our duty as his son and daughter-in-law.

My father had been a medical practitioner.

Under his influence,

I know a thing or two about pharmacology.

We could go to the Imperial Kitchen

and brew some medicine for His Majesty

to show our filial devotion.

What do you think?

You're right.

Although we can't see Father,

we can still help out in some way.

Please take us there, Eunuch Dai.

But...

What is your concern?

Both your intentions are admirable.

But His Majesty seems distracted lately.

He only allows the medicinal ingredient from the northern region.

He doesn't want anything else.

May I ask what ingredient is that?

It's the misty grass that is uniquely grown there.

Twenty years ago

when His Majesty led the northern expedition,

he consumed that before.

It's good for relieving cold, clearing blood clots,

and revitalising the body.

Misty grass?

Misty grass is a type of ginseng.

Due to its remote origin and miraculous effect,

people gave it this nickname.

That's true.

The imperial physician thinks so too.

But after consuming misty grass,

why did Father's condition become unstable?

I'm not really good at

explaining pharmacology.

But the imperial physician seems to mean that

if it's just a superficial ailment,

normal medicine can do the trick.

If the organs and bones are infected,

only strong medicine can turn the disease around.

Amethyst, quartz and stalactite.

The pot materials are really unique.

I remember my father mentioned

the ingredients for cold-food powder.

It's made of amethyst, stalactite

ginseng and platycodon.

Although it can increase perspiration and dissolve blood clots,

overdose can lead to poisoning and addiction.

Could it be...

Eunuch Dai, may I ask where this pot comes from?

This is a gift from Xiyue years ago.

A while ago, someone took it out

for the Imperial Kitchen to brew medicine.

Your Highness.

Do you think something is wrong with the pot?

Yes, Your Highness.

Your Majesty.

Compared to some time ago,

His Majesty's pulse has become more stable lately.

Although still weak,

if given careful nursing,

His Majesty will recover in a few days.

Good.

You can leave now.

Thank you, Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

Lan'er and his wife were really observant.

They thought about the counteractive effect

of misty grass and the brew pot.

The imperial physician then adjusted your prescription.

The prescription is right this time.

An item in the palace

that is counteractive to misty grass

nearly aggravated Father's illness.

Someone must have intentionally done it.

I'm willing to investigate this.

You don't have to.

I've asked Eunuch Dai to investigate.

Nobody else is allowed to interfere.

However...

Ding Yue.

There's something I want you to do.

Please tell me, Father.

I'll definitely do my best.

A rumour suddenly spread in Ming Capital lately

about the coming of a demon in Nanlu

that will destroy the entire state.

Ding Yue, investigate thoroughly

the origin of the rumour

and the culprit who is trying to scare the people of Nanlu.

I will do that.

Your Majesty, your health has just started to improve.

You'd better take more rest.

You can all leave now.

Yes.

I'll leave now.

You can all leave too.

Is everyone gone?

Yes, they are all gone.

Zhou Gong was afraid when the rumours spread.

Wang Mang was humble before seizing the throne.

If they died before the truth was revealed,

who can tell their real character?

Your Majesty faked your illness.

That's really wise.

Even the ever-devoted Empress

couldn't notice it.

You get to observe the imperial court

and test the loyalty of the princes.

What a wonderful plan indeed.

What have you heard about Ding Yue?

Your Majesty.

Prince Rui is starting to clean up his act.

Your Majesty. You're really loving towards your children.

You took great pains

to lead Prince Rui to the right path.

I hope he sees it.

Who do you think sent the pot?

The eunuch in charge of the Imperial Kitchen went missing suddenly.

We have lost all possible leads.

Did Prince Rui do it?

No one could have elicited the demon rumour

except him.

But we don't have proof now.

We can't do anything about it.

Don't frown.

At least Father's health has turned for the better.

Your hand smells nice.

Arranging flowers is really good.

The floral scent will linger on the hands.

I was clumsy when I was little.

But Yan'er was different.

She's good at planting and arranging flowers.

She's better than me at everything.

Do you miss your sister?

Even until now,

Yan'er still believes in Prince Rui.

How can I make her leave Prince Rui?

He's cruel and ruthless.

If Yan'er continues to be with him,

it will only spell disaster.

There's something I haven't told you.

Constable Du and I had found that

the assassin who died

was Leng Feng.

She worked for Prince Rui.

In that case,

the mastermind is...

Prince Rui.

If my sister wasn't in love with him,

I would have gone there to kill him now.

Tomorrow...

I'll find her tomorrow.

I must make her leave Prince Rui's residence as soon as possible.

Lin Chi.

If you want Ling Yan

to leave Prince Rui willingly,

I'm afraid it won't be that easy now.

There must be a way.

I can definitely make her believe me.

Why are you looking for me again?

Do you find this sword move familiar?

Try to recall where you have seen it.

Don't beat around the bush.

The scar on Mo Qing Chen's back

was inflicted by the person who used this sword move.

This person was loyal

and would rather die than reveal the mastermind.

Are you talking about Leng Feng?

Leng Feng is dead.

So is Wu Zuo who was involved in judging the case back then.

The imperial court is in turmoil now.

You clearly know who is behind this.

Don't be used.

I'm fully aware of

my saviour and my foe.

You can mind your own business.

Father and Mother died because of Prince Rui.

You can't continue to turn a blind eye.

I'm not you.

I'm not confused like you

who married our parents' killer.

One day,

I'll personally kill Mo Qing Chen.

You have plenty of time for that.

Listen to me.

Just move back in here first.

Calm down and give it a good thought.

If Father and Mother could see us from heaven,

they would want to see you do that.

Don't use Father and Mother to pressure me.

You have no right to do so.

Have you dealt with everyone who knew about the pot?

They are all eliminated.

Don't worry, Your Highness. Nobody will know.

How about those who spread the demon rumour?

They have escaped to Xiyue.

Good.

One more thing.

I asked you to investigate

the marriage alliance with Xiyue.

How did it go?

Your Highness, I've got what you need.

The only unmarried princess in Xiyue

is Princess Ai Mai La.

Ai Mai La?

Xiyue is rich in resources and has a strong army.

And they are located beside Nanlu.

If I marry a princess from Xiyue,

it'll definitely be a great help to my ambition.

I should make a request to Father as soon as possible.

You heard everything?

About your grand ambition,

I'm no longer able to help.

I'm here today

to bid Your Highness goodbye.

Yan'er, let me explain.

Yan'er.

Do you still remember how my mother died?

If I can't demand redress for her,

how can I as a son

live and face this world?

But Father only listens to one side of the story.

He trusts only Ji Ding Lan.

I had no choice but to do that.

So,

you used me to deal with Ji Ding Lan

because you didn't have a choice too?

I'm your tool for revenge. Is that so?

Of course not, Yan'er.

Deep down in my heart,

you're the only one I ever loved.

Nobody can replace you.

But that's not what my sister said.

You met Lin Chi?

Did she say

that I was the culprit

behind the massacre of your family?

Did she also say

that I was behind

the entire political turmoil?

Am I right?

My mother was driven to her death by them.

To obtain their goal,

they'll definitely be unscrupulous.

You've been with me for so long.

How can you be persuaded so easily?

Just because she's your sister?

You couldn't trust what I say now?

Since you're not going to trust me anymore,

you can leave.

I'll not hold any grudge.

Yan'er!

Yan'er, you're really pretty.

Promise me.

Don't ever say you're leaving me.

I'll promise you

never to think of that princess from Xiyue.

You're the only one I want to marry.

I'm grateful

to have saved you back then.

And now we are here.

You almost died that time.

If your mother didn't hide you,

I'm afraid...

Your Highness.

How did you know about the last moments before my mother died?

You've been here for ten years.

There's nothing you didn't tell me.

I'm going to the palace to brew medicine for Father.

Wait here for me.

Leng Feng was always around to protect you.

Hence I was never worried.

But now that Leng Feng had...

You worry too much.

Leng Feng was a martial arts prodigy.

Her sword skills were eccentric and unpredictable.

When she was still alive,

I should have learned some skills from her.

I'll teach you martial skills in future.

Peace

How did His Highness know about the last moments before my mother died?

Was Mo Qing Chen right all this while?

In memory of the Lins

In memory of the Lins

Father... Mother...

I'm not a good daughter.

I can't continue to turn a blind eye.

In memory of the Lins

Father... Mother...

The person who killed you wasn't Mo Qing Chen.

It was Leng Feng.

But I mistook them as my saviour.

In memory of the Lins

Father... Mother...

What should I do?

Yan'er?

Yan'er...

Yan'er...

She probably didn't want to see me yet.

In memory of the Lins

Father... Mother...

Yan'er will definitely move back here.

Don't worry.

Mo Qing Chen is very good to me.

I never thought he was

that secret patient at our residence.

Too bad I didn't know him then.

Yan'er has grown into a pretty lady.

She still has some features

from when she was young.

To Lin Chi

Yan'er...

Yan'er...

Peace

Just let the servants do this.

Why do you tire yourself out?

I want to familiarise myself with this place.

When Yan'er moves back,

I can make this place look the way it used to be.

Peace

Yan'er left this.

My dear sister.

Please take this letter as our meeting.

It has been ten years since that tragedy befell our family.

But I've always missed you.

Throughout the ten years of my adoption,

although life was good,

I had always felt surreal and orphaned.

Luckily with the thought of you,

I could survive to this day.

But I met bad company and blinded my eyes.

I nearly wrong you and make a bigger mistake.

I can't face you right now.

I now know the person who raised me is the enemy.

This time, I'll end this grievance.

Don't worry. Take care.

What is Yan'er trying to do?

No, I need to find her.

As of now,

you can't go to Prince Rui's residence hastily.

Don't worry.

I'll get Ling Shu to ask around.

I'll take you there tomorrow.

Alright then.

Back then, Your Highness took me in selflessly

and raised me.

You're really a benevolent and venerable man.

The demon created havoc.

My single effort

wasn't enough to make amends.

You wanted to meet me here

to tell me this?

Dealing with demons is easy.

You just need to kill it.

It's the demon that you owe a debt of gratitude

and also bear a grudge, that makes things difficult.

What should I do?

If it were you, you'd leave no room for the demon

and kill it instantly.

This

was found in Leng Feng's room.

I still remember the sound it made.

My sister didn't lie to me after all.

Leng Feng was the one who killed my family.

And you're the mastermind!

You lied to me for ten years.

Why can't you just

pretend to not know?

Back then,

I never thought I would fall for you.

How I wish all of these never happened.

But it did.

How can I pretend

nothing ever happened?

For your revenge towards Ji Ding Lan and the Empress,

you didn't care about my parents' lives.

I kept saying my sister is foolish.

I kept persuading my sister to see the truth.

But I...

I was the most foolish one of all.

I'll avenge my parents' death today!

Draw your sword.

Draw your sword now!

Alright.

The ten years living with you

have been the happiest and calmest time of my life.

As matters now stand,

let's die together, Yan'er.

We don't need to care about our grievances anymore.

Are you willing to?

You knew

I would hold back,

isn't that right?

I'm sorry, Yan'er.

I have no choice.

Yan'er... Yan'er... Yan'er!

Yan'er...

Yan'er...

Father... Mother...

I'm coming to you.

Yan'er...

Yan'er!

Yan'er!

What have you heard?

After rushing to Prince Rui's residence,

only then did I know...

What happened at Prince Rui's residence?

What is it? Just tell us.

Prince Rui's household is keeping it under wraps.

But after much probing, I found out

that Miss Ling Yan

had passed away.

What did you say?

According to Prince Rui's household,

Miss Ling Yan caught the plague

and died a sudden death.

Impossible.

Impossible.

Impossible.

This is impossible.

This is impossible.

I don't believe it. I don't believe it.

I don't believe Yan'er is dead.

I want to find her.

Lin Chi.

-Let me go. -Lin Chi.

Let me go find her.

Why are you stopping me?

Lin Chi, calm down.

How can I calm down?

Yan'er was fine.

I just saw her earlier today.

You saw her too.

How do you expect me to believe that she's dead?

She is dead.

How is it possible?

It's impossible.

You still have me.

If I can exchange our sensory perception now,

Lin Chi won't be in so much pain.

But maybe

nothing can be done about such pain.