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- A woman cooks.

- You look tired, beti. - I am tired.

I just need to get through the next two days,

take the bar, and then I can rest.

- Shouldn't you be studying instead of cooking?

I am mentally reviewing tort law while I grate.

- Hmm. - Well, this has been fun,

as usual, but I have to go.

I have to finish making my chunda.

And next time you make it, Mom, add a pinch of turmeric.

- Wait, before you rush off, I found someone for you.

- Angali Auntie's nephew's son.

He's a doctor. - Mom, I can't see that.

Can you hold it a little back?

- I emailed it to you. - Good family. Good career.

His mother's a bit of a cow, but his father is very kind.

He's handsome.

- Is it too fast, deekra?

We can wait a little bit if you want.

- She's already 26. You want her to get stuck

with someone divorced or unemployed?

Uh-uh. She needs a good husband.

- He's perfect on paper. - What do you think?

I need to get back to his mother.

Just tell them no.

I told you, I want it to be arranged.

I said that to you on our first date.

Yeah, like four years ago.

Before all the birthdays, the friends, the fights.

One pregnancy scare, two trips to the ER.

Nish, that was before we fell in love.

I know.

- Do you still love me? - So much.

Then how are you okay

with the idea of marrying someone else?

I know it's difficult to understand,

but I want my kids to grow up eating the same foods I ate

and speaking the language and knowing their culture.

I can't change the fact that I'm not Indian.

No. I don't want you to. You're perfect the way you are.

It's just that law school's ending,

and I need to-- I need to start figuring out

what I'm doing with this phase of my life.

Well, if you're ready to get married...

marry me.

You don't believe in marriage.

What are you doing?

Oh, my God.

I didn't believe in marriage.

And then I met the most complicated,

challenging, hilarious, beautiful woman in the world.

And then I did believe.

Will you marry me, Nish?

Good morning, Javier.

- Ruby, Elena. - Hey.

- Late again. - Was not.

Well, you were almost late.

You can't be almost late. Either you are or you aren't.

Listen, I'm very busy.

I don't have time for all of the sexual tension between us.

Okay--

Nisha Shah.

This is Elena Roarke, your host.

And this is my associate, Ruby.

It's so nice to meet you, Ms. Shah.

So wonderful to meet both of you.

I can't wait to begin.

Well then, let's go to my office and get started.

After you.

Whoa, whoa. Hold up. Elena.

Yes.

I'm gonna stop by your office later.

I have a question.

- Can you ask me now? - Eh, it's about a fantasy.

- I have one. - What? Um...mm-mm.

Don't you even want to know what it is?

Nope.

Which one should I marry?

Yeah, the Island doesn't answer questions.

It fulfills fantasies.

Okay.

My fantasy is for an answer.

Your semantics won't get you as far here

as they do in the courtroom.

Look.

Oh. Wow. This is, um...

- laminated. - Wow, okay.

I've hit every life goal either on time

or ahead of time, and marriage is next.

Say, 'I do.'"

I normally know what I want. But this time, I'm at a loss.

So tell us a little bit about each man.

Hmm.

Well, Josh is creative and thoughtful and smart.

And he doesn't make much, but he's developing an app.

And, well, I can't say much about it,

but it has tremendous potential.

And I can be a little intense.

- Is that right? - Josh evens me out.

He makes me feel like everything's gonna be okay.

But Savin, see, now,

I can see myself building a life with him.

He's stable. He's ambitious.

And he understands where I come from.

I mean, we're gonna connect

in a way that Josh and I never could.

These need a pinch of cinnamon.

Oh. It says here that Savin

is a head of cardiology at City Memorial.

And he's not even 30.

I mean, he is the responsible choice.

A pinch of cinnamon and two more minutes in the oven.

Thanks. So what do you think, Ruby?

The creative and full of potential,

or the safe and stable?

Well, I-I really couldn't say.

Look, if I don't get married, it means no kids by 30,

empty nest by 52, and retirement by 55.

And if I don't retire by 55,

I won't have time to pursue my actual dream:

opening a restaurant by 60.

Wow.

I'm 26 and out of time.

So let's try this again.

What can the Island do for you?

Marriage changes people. I know that.

My fantasy is to find out

which version of who I become is better.

- You see, that we can do. - Really?

Welcome to Fantasy Island.

You probably think it's old fashioned

to care so much about getting married.

No, I understand.

I was married for decades.

You were what?

You know one thing I learned?

It's not just about who you marry.

It's about the commitment you make

and the life you build

and the love, that... well, grows over time.

Oh, and okay. And here we are.

Good luck. Okay?

Okay.

Prepare for the unexpected.

We're married.

I wonder how long it will take before they feel normal.

You're expected inside in ten minutes.

Sumit Uncle is already drunk.

And Priya Mahee is mad

she isn't sitting closer to the stage.

We'll be right in.

So this is nice.

Kind of weird.

I have something for you.

I know we kept the whole thing traditional,

but I wrote vows for you.

May I?

Nisha, I am probably gonna make a thousand mistakes

getting to know you,

but I already know your smile makes me smile...

and that our conversations will never be boring.

I promise to support you however you need me to.

I promise to be a good father.

I promise to treat your family with respect

and to tell your mother

her dhokra is the... best I've ever had.

Oh, I promise to tell my mom to shut up

when she starts to nag you about

what detergent you're using or the length of your hair.

I promise to make our family the center of my life

for better and for worse.

Was that okay?

- Tch, tch, tch, tch. - Sorry, Mom.

Don't be sorry. I want grandchildren.

Just don't make them in the middle

of the hallway of the hotel, okay?

Okay. Have I ever mentioned

that your dhokra is the best I've ever eaten?

You have ten minutes before you're expected inside.

Sumit Uncle is already drunk

and Priya Masi is mad that there's meat in the buffet.

- Come. - Thanks, Mom.

How do you want to spend the first ten minutes

as man and wife?

It'll take me 20 just to get out of this thing.

Here.

This is for you.

Thanks?

I know you were saving that money for a house,

and giving it to me for the startup

was not part of the plan,

but I still wanted us to have a place that's ours.

It's small, but... it's got a lot of character.

You signed a lease without even talking to me?

I thought it would be romantic.

But roses are romantic.

A lease is a big decision that I made unilaterally.

We'll stick to the plan?

Yes. I will move into your apartment,

and we'll make it ours.

And I will gracefully back out of this lease.

Well, you are married to a lawyer.

I got your back.

Hey, I think we just had

our first fight as a married couple.

Oh, seems like a fitting way

to spend the first ten minutes as man and wife.

Ready?

Yes. He knows, Mom.

Josh, you have to touch the elder's feet as you--

He knows, Mom.

Excuse me for wanting to make sure

this non-Indian boy doesn't embarrass the family.

Come.

Okay, when you said this would take 20 minutes,

I assumed you were joking. -

Can I just unravel you like a roll of toilet paper?

- Okay. - Oh. Right.

Kinda wanted to get down on the cardboard.

Go wait in the other room.

- I have a surprise. - Ooh.

Can I watch "Chopped" while I wait?

Go.

Maybe I shouldn't have.

No, it's fine. I wasn't expecting you to--

It's--it's too much.

I'll just go wear PJs.

Wait. You look beautiful.

I just want to remember this moment,

how you look right now.

- You're such a cheeseball. - You love this cheeseball.

How is it going?

Okay. That was intense.

You know, a mild fantasy

wouldn't be much to write home about, would it?

Savin and Josh are both great.

A good man is hard to find. And you found two.

I'm waiting to pop the champagne.

Come on.

This isn't helping me know who to choose.

You likely need more than a glimpse of your wedding night

to choose a life partner.

Okay, what's next on your life goals list?

- First kid by 28. - You're right.

How could I forget?

Um, you should head outside, you know, get some fresh air.

Yeah, go, go, go.

Why doesn't anyone tell you morning sickness lasts all day?

Because everyone except for us is terrible.

It's gonna be okay, all right?

Look, when the baby does come, I'll get a real job.

You already gave up Silicon Valley

so I can stay closer to my family.

I'll go back to work

and my parents can help with the baby.

You want to go back to work?

I wanna have electricity and hot water.

When my app makes $100 million,

you can quit.

We'll have nannies for the kids.

You can open up that restaurant.

What's gonna be on the menu?

Hmm.

Peri peri chicken,

steak--but only ever served rare, as God intended.

Of course. What else?

Cream...

Oh, no.

Talking about food was a mistake.

No. I'm okay.

We're doing everything you said.

I wear red every Friday,

and we're fasting three days a week.

She drinks tulsi water every morning.

Still no baby?

No.

You were a good match when you got married.

But now, the spirits aren't in your favor.

It's not meant to be.

There has to be something we can do.

- Anything. - Can you give us a minute?

- I'll wait in the kitchen. - Yeah.

I can do this.

But do we really want to?

The IVF alone was brutal, and now this...

What are you suggesting?

We've been at it for two years.

Maybe it's time we just start considering other options.

Adoption or a donor.

Or...

maybe we just don't have kids at all and we travel more.

No.

Kids was always part of the plan.

Plans can change.

That's not who I am, Sav.

It's Josh.

He's the one I'm supposed to be with.

- Are you sure about that? - I want to have a child.

And Savin can't give me that.

Okay, what about the rest of your list?

Don't you want to see how it all pans out?

Part of me just wants to make a decision and be done with it.

Your fantasy is to figure out the best version of yourself,

and I don't know that you've done that yet, right?

Go have some dinner and relax.

Let the future unfold, hmm?

Hey. Hey, it's me. Um...

I need your help.

Hi. Yes, I ordered the steak,

but you cooked it one minute too long for a medium-rare.

And I'd recommend fewer capers in the butter sauce.

I'm actually about to take a bath,

so if it could come in about 40 minutes,

that would be great.

Thank you.

Hi, Mom. -

Why?

We're on our way, Mrs. Shah.

This can't be happening. This can't be happening.

Hey, hey, hey, right now, we just need to focus

on getting there, okay? I got you.

- Nisha? - It's okay, buddy.

Mommy's okay.

Nisha!

- Nisha?

Hey, hey, hey, hey.

It's all right.

It's just a fantasy. You're gonna be okay.

Come on. Come on.

Come on, come on, come on.

Yeah, we're stuck.

Well, it's okay. Just--you know what?

Just drive me home, and I'll--

I'll deal with my car in the morning.

- It's fine. - No. No, no.

We're stuck. Both of us.

- What are you doing? - We're gonna make camp.

A nice, flat spot right over that way.

What?

What, we're gonna spend the night out here?

Are you crazy?

It's too dark to hike back now.

Might as well try to get comfortable.

Here you go. Go ahead, take this.

Wait, wait, wait, wait.

I didn't ask to see this.

I wanted to know about Josh and Savin, not about this.

Well,

hard times tell you who people really are.

After my dad died,

Mel would get me an �clair every year on his birthday

to celebrate him.

And I hate �clairs.

But my dad loved them.

And it was actually lovely

to have someone there who knew and...

cared enough to do that for me.

You can't hide from the hard parts of life.

All you can do

is find the people who will support you through them.

I have to face this, don't I?

Mm-hmm.

Well, you ready?

- Ready. - Okay.

You know, I think you're meant to do this.

I'm scared.

Hey, look.

Just be a tiny bit more brave than you are scared,

and you'll be okay. Okay?

All right.

He was really lucky to have you.

I think it's time we move Mom in with us.

Maybe we should talk about this later.

She can't manage on her own.

Nish, we can move her into a home nearby,

but she can't live with us.

We don't move our parents into homes.

- But your mom hates me. - She hates everybody.

I must go greet the family.

It's time for her to come stay with us.

I can clear out my office.

Okay.

I think we should look into adoption.

Really?

This is the reminder I needed

that...life is short and unexpected.

And sometimes we need to pivot.

That's all it is. A pivot.

And there's no one I would rather do it with than you.

Ahh...there we go.

I'm impressed.

- I'm very impressive. - Okay. Relax.

And in the morning, we should hike to my house.

What?

Well, well, I finally get to see

the famous Roarke family hacienda.

- You've never been? - I've never been invited.

Hmm. Well, it's much closer than the resort from here.

Then that's what we'll do.

Salud.

Salud, Javier.

They're six and five,

but they think they're teenagers already.

I know what you mean, man.

My kids are better at technology at three and seven

than I ever will be.

They're smart when they aren't trying to

kill each other.

Nisha?

I heard you were in San Francisco.

Well, less heard, more read on "Forbes."

Yeah, I moved out right after graduation.

Needed a change of scenery after...

Anyway, I got hooked up with a couple of the right people.

One thing led to another, and the rest is history.

It was 2% a good idea, 98% luck.

The most humble billionaire I know.

Nisha, how have you been?

Not reading enough "Forbes," apparently.

You're still at the same law firm?

No, I actually stopped practicing a few years ago.

Well, that's amazing.

You finally opened up that restaurant.

I knew you would take the leap one day.

- I'm so proud of you. - Restaurant?

Um, no, no, actually, I stopped working,

you know, after we had kids.

It just didn't make sense for both of us

to be so busy all the time.

Savin was so busy

with the hospital and his private practice, so...

it just made the most sense for our family.

Well, that's great. I'm sure you're a great mom.

Can I get my former roommate

another drink?

- A prince among men. - I'll go with you.

I want to see what wines they have.

You look really great, by the way.

So do you.

Why would you embarrass me like that?

That was not my intention.

You called my app a "little hobby."

It was just a slip. I've had too much wine.

I knew you resented me for not making as much as you.

It's not about the money. I carry us financially.

And on top of that, you have to make me the buzzkill?

You get to be the fun parent, and I have to be the one

to tell you you can't pull him out of school

on a random Tuesday to take him to the zoo?

Two waters, please.

Whiskey, neat, double.

- What's going on? - We're going under.

We're having a fight. We're--

Not us.

The app.

My "hobby" is dead.

I didn't know how to tell you.

You used to tell me everything.

Don't put this all on me.

We haven't been like that in a long time.

Oh, I love this song.

You two should go dance. I'll watch your drinks.

I don't dance, unfortunately.

I knew you couldn't really be the whole package.

Well, you two go.

She's always looking for a dance partner.

Oh, no, he doesn't want to be saddled with me.

It would be my pleasure.

- * If your color's gone won't let me *

* And it's pulling me down down down down *

* You and me, we can be magic, magic *

* Come on and see, we can be magic, magic *

* Do you believe in magic magic *

* Come on and see we can be magic, magic *

* Falling falling fast *

* Burning, burning, burning bright *

* Like stars across the sky *

* Like stars across the sky *

* Even in the dark *

* We can light, light up the night *

* Like stars across the sky... *

Stop!

My eyes are up here.

Um, where did you get that scar?

- Ah... - Okay.

You don't have to talk about it if it's too personal.

It's okay.

Oh, it's okay.

Before I came to the Island, I was in the Air Force.

Lost some friends in unthinkable ways.

I got injured.

And when I was sent home,

I thought the worst of it was over, but...

just couldn't adjust.

Never thought I'd feel comfortable anyplace

ever again, then I found the Island.

I'm glad the Island can give that to you.

It's not the same for you, is it?

I'm comfortable here.

Yeah, but it's not what you would choose.

I did choose to be here.

And what we do... is very important.

But...

I'm a little drunk,

so I'm just gonna... go to bed.

Oh, okay. Oh, you don't want to tell me your secrets?

- No, I don't. - So hold on, hold on.

- No, I don't. I don't. - Let me give it a shot.

- Oh. - Yeah.

- Interesting. - Yeah, are you ready?

- Ready. - Here we go.

Vamos.

When you're stressed,

you wear your hair in a ponytail.

And I try not to bother you on those days.

Your favorite treat is chocolate cake,

which you eat with your hands.

And when you're drunk,

your cheeks get all red and you look sunburned.

You act so tough, but deep down, you're a softie.

And the thing that you hate more than anything

is asking people for help.

- That was thorough. - Hmm!

I pay attention.

Yeah.

You know, people from all over the world come here

asking you for help.

Why is it so hard for you to do the same?

People make promises.

I-I've made promises, Javier.

Big promises, and...

I've broken them.

You know, I would've done anything

for the guys in my unit-- anything.

As far as I'm concerned, you're my unit now.

If you ever need anything, I'll be there.

No questions asked.

Let's go to-- let's go to sleep.

Good night, Elena.

Good night, Javier.

It was really nice to see you again, Nish.

Thanks for keeping my drink warm.

Are you still in love with him?

Just up ahead.

Are you sure this is the right way?

Hey, trust me. Okay?

Wait, was this your fantasy?

Come on, Roarke. Just figuring that out?

Oh, so you wanted me to want you.

Wait, what?

No, I wanted to spend time with you.

Get to know you, talk. I swear.

Well, that's-- it's almost sweet.

It's nice to know you want me.

- I didn't say that. - No, I heard you.

- No, I didn't. - You said it.

- No, I didn't. - You said--you said--

- I didn't say that-- - "You wanted me to want you,"

which means you want me.

You're annoying.

Super annoying.

Okay. Keep telling yourself that.

I shouldn't have asked you about him.

- That wasn't fair. - We're married.

You can ask me anything.

Are you happy?

I don't love Josh.

But seeing him again, it just--it reminded me

of who I used to be before we got married.

The version of myself that was happy, optimistic, and free.

I don't miss him. I miss me.

I didn't realize I made you give that up.

It's not you. It's just--it's all of it.

It's this whole life we built together.

The day we got married, I made those vows to you.

I promised I would be a good partner.

- I haven't been. - Of course you have.

I didn't even know your dream was to open a restaurant.

When we get back home, I am going to do better.

Let me try and fix this, please.

You've supported me for all these years.

Now...it's my turn to do the same for you.

Okay.

Do you want to stay here for a little while

before we have to go back?

My company isn't the only thing going under, is it?

When we get home, we should probably talk about--

Separating?

I think so too.

Can we sit here for a while before we have to go back?

Yeah.

Let's do that.

Are you any closer to an answer?

No.

The more I learn, the more complicated each option gets.

Please, join me.

Well, life is funny that way. Ha.

Have you ever been at a crossroads?

Ha. Oh, yes. A very similar one.

Before Mel, there was someone else.

Meredith.

Meredith?

Tell me more.

Oh, well, she was just magnificent.

But, um...

being with her would have meant an entirely different life.

And mind you, this was 50 years ago.

But if you could go back, would you pick differently?

Not a chance.

And he gave me my children.

And without them, my life would be incomplete.

Food.

Yeah.

- Here you go. - Yes.

Yes, yes, yes.

Mmm.

Cake.

Forks?

Nah. No forks.

Mmm. Mmm.

Mmm.

I'm sorry.

Hey, hey, it's okay.

I never thought we'd end up like this.

It's not your fault, Nish.

You knew what you wanted when we met.

Instead of listening... I proposed.

We tried our best.

And it wasn't good enough.

Maybe now we can stop trying to be people we're not

and go back to being friends.

It's the movers.

Mom, where's my red shoes?

- Wear the black ones. - Mom?

I'm sorry.

Ms. Desai,

I'm afraid I have some bad news.

Your husband was running across the street.

A truck took a wide turn.

I'm sorry, but he didn't make it.

Hey, I need to get back to the resort,

and you should get dressed and get the plane ready.

Nisha should be about ready to go.

Don't you think we should talk about this?

Um...

Javier,

it was a lovely fantasy.

- A lovely fantasy. - Oh...

But the thing about fantasies is they...they end.

Come here.

- Hey. - Oh, wow.

You look refreshed. You sleep well?

- Oh, look, here's Nisha. - Oh, okay.

Did you reach a verdict?

I have.

Me.

I'm the one I should pick.

Oh. So you're--you're not going to marry either of them?

I wanted to know which version of myself

would be better,

but with both Savin and Josh, I lost myself.

I love them both, but in different ways.

And in the end,

getting a divorce from Josh was...a relief.

And Savin, losing him was heartbreaking,

just awful.

But if I'm being honest with myself,

maybe after the grief faded,

I'd feel a little bit of relief as well,

just to be able to take charge of my own fate.

So I am making the last thing on my list

the first thing.

I am going to culinary school.

- Oh! - Now, not when I'm 60.

I'm done with this list.

Hmm!

I am happy for you.

Try one.

- You added cinnamon. - I did.

And I left them in two more minutes.

- Now they're perfect. - Mm-hmm.

Thank you both for everything.

I didn't know choosing myself was an option until this.

I'm just so glad that you got the answer

you were looking for.

Ruby, I have a few things that I have to do.

Do you mind taking Nisha down to the plane, please?

To Javier?

To the plane,

which incidentally is operated by Javier. Yes.

Okay, sure. All right.

Great. Okay.

Please.

Enjoy.

Bye-bye.

You really helped me.

Well, I hope you get everything you want

in whatever order you want it.

And I hope you find another Meredith.