Original subtitles

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Lucie: Awesome, okay.

So we go straight

and then at the stop sign we turn right.

Alan: So, it's like what, 3 o'clock?

And this is how dark it is?

I mean, it's not-

Lucie: It's not as dark as it's gonna get but-

Alan: It's not as dark as it's gonna get.

Lucie: Yeah, that's right.

Alan: Is it too dark to shoot

even in a car, John?

(Background Chatter)

Alan: So why did you tell me that the red colour

was the worst colour to get of these coats, Tatanniq?

Because you look like a fucking tourist.

Alan: This is a bit weird, eh?

We talked on the phone for five years,

I just landed in Iqaluit,

I met for the first time

and already we're starting to film.

So, now tell me about your uncle

before we get there.

Lucie: He's an incredible man.

He was my grandfather's eldest son.

All of a sudden one day he gets...

Praise the Lord.

And uh- Alan: He found Jesus?

Lucie: Yeah, he found Jesus.

And he ended up becoming a priest.

And then he ended up being the very, very first Inuk

um Bishop of the Arctic.

Alan: Why is he on the two dollar bill?

Lucie: There was a man by the name of Doug Wilkinson

So he took the picture at Aullativik

where my family's originally from.

That photo would have been I think taken

in 1953 or '54,

'cause my family got relocated to Resolute Bay in '55.

Lucie: Merry Christmas! -Yeah.

Um, we're just waiting for Alan to come in,

and he wants to talk to you.

The filmmaker.

Yeah. -Yeah.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Maybe you could explain first what this movie is about,

so he can understand.

Alan: Um, really?

I just got here.

I don't know what the film is about myself.

Lucie: I think it's important.

Alan: You know, it's like,

after all the shit you told me over the years,

I had to come see for myself.

Do you mind if I swear?

Paul: Yeah (laughs).

Alan: I know you're a bishop, I don't wanna-

You don't mind?

Lucie: I don't mind.

Alan: Okay, so one time I was talking to your niece on the phone,

and she said to me,

"It's a third world up here motherfucker".

And I thought,

why is it a third world

in my country?

Why is there-

Why is part of my country the third world?

So I'm assuming you didn't grow up in a house.

You didn't have a house.

You didn't have TV?

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Lucie: He's not feeling comfortable to get interviewed.

Alan: Oh.

Okay well, next time I won't-I won't, um,

I won't swear again.

I wasn't comfortable doing it but he said "go ahead".

Do you think he didn't like the camera being on?

I-I don't know because it's not his first time on film.

So I don't-

I don't know where he was coming from.

Alan: He didn't like me.

I think he's antisemitic I think is what it was.

Fucking jerk.

Alan: Okay, so now,

who are these people that are gonna kick me out?

What's their names?

Lucie: Hi. (Speaking Inuktitut)

I just brought a film crew,

do you mind being interviewed?

Natsiq: Oh, yeah.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

So, Joshua's, my husband's question is,

you suddenly showed up.

Alan: Well that, right, okay.

Right? And now he wants to know,

why are you here?

What do you want to learn?

What do you want to hear?

Alan: This is not my only reason,

but I wanna know what we can do for

to make life as happy as your home seems to me.

I want to know what-what we can do to make-

To make everybody's life here as happy as your home seems.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Natsiq: Um, you know what?

What you're asking for is-

Is very large as well.

Um, it seems that-

Lucie: We're unhelpable.

We, there is uh-

(Sighs)

It seems there's nothing you can do to help.

That's-let's put it that way.

There's really nothing you can do to help.

What can you do to help?

Alan: And is that because we were the ones

who-who hurt you in the first place?

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Natsiq: Do you believe in Satan?

Do you believe in the Devil?

Alan: Personally, no.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

If you don't then there is no way you can help us.

Alan: Okay, can you explain that?

Do you believe in the Devil or do you believe in God?

Do you believe in both of them?

That's his question.

Alan: Okay, so I feel like I'm supposed to say yes,

and then you'll keep talking to me,

but personally I don't believe in God

and I don't believe that there's a man

under the ground and a man in the sky.

I don't believe that.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

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Alan: Is uh, can I speak to Tatanniq?

Isacky: (Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: Okay, so Isacky,

is she hiding 'cause she doesn't want to go

'cause she doesn't want to be in the film?

Isacky: No, no, no.

She-she's not here.

She's not here.

Alan: Is she going to come back soon

and make the flight or is she-

Isacky: I will make sure Alan

she will make the flight.

I will make sure she'll make the flight. Okay?

Alan: Is there anywhere you would tell us to maybe go

to find her?

Isacky: You know what?

It's better if you just

drive away and then go, come back in 15,

10, 15 minutes or something.

Maybe like it-it's up to you.

Alan: Okay.

(Barking)

Alan: Can you put your shoes on and let's get the

heck out of here.

Lucie: I need to get dressed first.

Alan: Okay, well, you have 15 minutes

at the most for us to leave, okay?

Lucie: Okay. Isacky, can you get my toiletries together

with my make-ups and what not

and put all of these in my suitcase?

Isacky: That's where Isacky comes in.

Isacky, you're-you're-you're the best kind of boyfriend,

you don't even have to- - Ex-boyfriend.

Ex-boyfriend. -No I'm saying,

you do everything and you don't have to put out.

Or do anything for-

Alan: Yeah, you're like, uh-

For that matter.

Woman: Except almost get stabbed four nights ago.

Lucie: Uh, well, and last night.

Yeah. The one that-that almost stabbed me

came back last night.

Alan: But you were-

She didn't actually attack me but

she had, she pushed-

Woman: She attacked Lucie.

Lucie. Alan: Yeah.

The thing about living in the Arctic is

you never deny somebody entry-

Alan: Really? -Into your house.

Alan: Even if they have a knife and they're trying to kill you?

If you knew a woman was standing there

wanting to come in and beat you up.

Somebody is not coming at you like this that you let in.

Alan: But she did,

she was four nights before.

No. - Isn't it the same woman?

She did it when she came in,

and the thing is,

you wanna make sure that

somebody is not getting frozen to the ground outside.

Isacky: We don't know what the outcome is gonna be

but we let them in anyway.

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(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: Hi. We are here with Tatanniq Idlout,

she's our friend,

and we met in Iqaluit

and she wanted us to come to this town

where she spent a few years.

Thank you for welcoming us to you town,

to Iglulik um,

whatever you share with us would be welcomed.

Ah, Merry Christmas and,

uh, I doubt there's any Jewish people out there but,

Happy Hanukkah to them.

(Laughing)

Man: Okay, folks, goodbye.

Alan: Goodbye.

(Cheering and Laughing)

Announcer: Yay, all right.

Hello!

Merry Christmas!

Can I see?

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Alan: I don't know when you made your first record,

I don't know what it was called.

Lucie: Is that even interesting?

Alan: If you're in the movie,

there's gotta be some context,

there are certain things about your life

that I wanna know about.

Lucie: All right,

I started off as a model

and then got into dance.

I made my first album,

I made my second album,

three soundtracks for film.

How many songs did I write in between on top of that.

Alan: Okay, so,

why did you give up your rock n' roll career

and come back home?

Lucie: I can't actually say that I've given it up.

What I did was,

I knew I didn't want to go on tour.

It was a very rock n' roll lifestyle

when I lived in Toronto.

But it was not fulfilling for me.

I had a very active social life.

I had a beautiful apartment that I loved very much

but there was always something missing.

Alan: We talked for five years.

In those five years

I would have certainly said you were

an eccentric person.

But I didn't feel like you were struggling

until I came here.

I don't know any other way to put it,

it feels to me like there's a lot of

drama in your life.

Is that just you,

or is that something about

the condition in Iqaluit for

the people that you're in contact with?

(Sighs)

How do I answer that?

You know, um,

I don't have any kids living at my house.

So, and I don't have a man

in my house.

And so-

people just come

because it's an easy place for them to

do their misbehavings.

And my problem is I allow them in.

Alan: So I find that

you guys are all kind of tough in your own way like-

Fucking right we are!

Alan: I'm here in the land of some of the gentlest,

most beautiful people in the world

who are also at the same time,

fucking hardcore.

Like, they know violence

in a way that I don't know violence.

And-

I can show you some violence if you'd like.

Alan: No, but you, I mean, you know I'm not gonna-

I'm kidding. I'm kidding.

Alan: I'm not gonna go there but like a few months ago

you told me that something had happened to you

and then you said,

"And I went to that guy the next day

and kicked the shit out of him".

Like, it's just like,

but you said it to me on the phone so

matter-of-factly this thing.

And that's-

an interesting thing that you bring up because

even the worst experiences up here

seem very matter-of-fact,

"I got raped".

"I got beat up".

"I was in the middle of a stabbing match."

"I got hit by a car".

"The RCMP abused me".

Alan: Are you saying,

"I got raped, no big deal.

That's what happens up here?"

I'm certainly not saying no big deal,

I'm just saying

it happens and people up here

are much more honest about

what they're willing to talk about.

Alan: You didn't talk about it,

you just told me about it.

You made it seem like

"Oh, all in a days",

you know, that shit-

Shit happens.

Shit happens.

One thing that I think we as Inuit have

is a common understanding

of those experiences

and through that understanding

we don't necessarily

instantly forgive somebody for

being a fucking prick.

But,

we get why.

(Forlorn Guitar Music)

(Background Chatter)

Alan: So, were those your grandchildren here?

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Samueli: Yes.

Alan: Are they gonna learn how to hunt?

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Samueli: The older ones, they are hunting already.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Michelline: He'll always be learning from watching his father,

but this boy did something that

the grandfather has never done.

He caught his first polar bear

just last month at the age of thirteen, all alone.

Alan: Wow! That's amazing.

How did you do that, can I ask you?

I shoot it.

Alan: Huh?

I shoot it. -You shot it?

How far away was it?

Maybe close.

Alan: Wow.

Michelline: So we start hunting young.

Alan: Okay, so-

Woo.

That's-that's called tough love.

Um, Mark told me you've been in a lot of documentaries.

The short ones were very educational for me

because um, when I was, um,

born to up to six-six years old,

I was, we were living out on the land

before my parents moved to Iglulik

And then, at the age of seven

I had to go out to school

so, to me it was a time to start really learning

about life but they took me away.

Alan: I see.

So I had to get it back

and that-that only way was

being in those short movies with other women,

them telling me what to do.

Alan: You learned the things you might have learned

if you'd stayed on the land. -Yes.

I had to.

There was a must inside me

that I had to relive.

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Alan: So that is that an Inuit mermaid fish person?

Bart: Yeah, yeah.

And she's very famous and,

when I do it

I try to make it very detailed

and very expensive.

Shaman and christianity,

you know I'm a shaman and a person,

a registered person,

having a cross to the demon,

the demon or devil, you know.

Alan: That the shaman and Christianity fighting or?

Yeah, it's like an expression like fighting, you know,

because they don't mix together.

Alan: Who's gonna win?

Um, I don't know.

I-I only know the shaman won.

Alan: The shaman won.

Yeah.

Alan: So you're not a Christian?

I'm-I'm-I'm raised as a Catholic so.

But I don't go to church too much anymore

because um,

residential school,

have you heard about that?

Alan: I've heard about that. -Yeah, I've been there, so.

Bart: Because I'm a residential school person,

I'm a bad sleeper,

I have my own bedroom

because when I sleep,

someone seemed to be touching me I-

You know, I would kick and,

I'm very dangerous.

That's called trauma I think.

Alan: So, you were asking me if I wanna talk to anybody else,

who were you thinking?

Bart: Um, you could speak to Peter Awa.

Peter Awa, he's an elder.

I don't know if he speaks too much English,

but the wife speaks English.

(Dance Music)

Woman: Do you say "Toronto News?"

Woman #2: Yeah.

Peter: You're American?

Alan: Canadian.

Peter: Oklahoma? (laughs)

Alan: Toronto.

Toronto?

Alan: We need your radio off.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

He's eating a seal, seal meat.

Seal meat.

Alan: Seal meat? That's what, seal?

Yeah. Mhm.

Alan: The skins that are stretching outside?

Elizabeth: Yeah.

Alan: He caught those?

Elizabeth: Yeah.

Alan: And what are they gonna be?

Elizabeth: Ah, I can make them for

kamiks, pouch,

or a jacket, or mitts,

whatever I-I can make.

Or a purse or

whatever I wanted to make.

Alan: So, do your kids have the traditional knowledge

that your husband taught them?

Yeah. - So they can all go hunting?

Not really.

Only when we go out in springtime

and summertime.

Alan: When you go with him hunting,

is it fun?

Very much,

it's fun and nice fresh air and

more energy.

Alan: More energy? -Yeah.

Alan: You like it. -Yeah, we love it.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Elizabeth: He wanted to show you something about (Inuktitut).

Alan: Oh, that's nice!

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: Is that, uh, you put oil in there?

Right now we use, um, this kind of oil.

Alan: Right and you- -Now, yeah.

Alan: When you hunt you bring that with you to warm-

Yeah, with seal-seal-seal fat.

Alan: It's heat. It's light.

It's a stove.

It's lots of things. - Yeah.

Elizabeth: Now he want to show you this.

You know what that is?

Alan: Well, that's a spear

but I don't know what it's made out of.

That's made out of, uh, this is harpoon.

Alan: Harpoon?

Yeah.

Elizabeth: A big, those bearded seal.

Those big, big seal.

Alan: Oh, seals. -Yeah.

Alan: The rope is made out of seal skin.

Seal skin.

Alan: That you-did you have to-

He-he's made it,

round and round and cut it and then make it long.

Alan: Right.

Elizabeth: You have to hold it like this.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

They're waiting for seals like this.

The rope doesn't touch the ground,

just lift it.

Alan: Right.

When they touch the ground the seal will hear it.

Alan: Will hear it, yeah.

So, they have to wait like this for quite a while.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Elizabeth: Not try to move around

and his feet doesn't move either

for quite a while.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: So, and he needs the rope because the seal will swim away

and you have to haul it back?

I see.

Sometimes I think yes my grandparents told me stuff

but, eh.

I don't mind that I don't remember it,

but then I come here and I see this,

and it's like,

it's affecting me

to see you guys talk about your culture

even though my culture,

that I grew up in

doesn't mean that much to me, you know.

That's what I'm saying.

Yeah, maybe because you are living in a city,

big city. - Right.

Yeah, maybe that's why.

But we are living in a small town.

We still remember our way of life,

because uh we still use it.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Our grand, youngest grand.

Alan: What's his name?

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Erin. -Erin

We adopted him because, um,

his mother was passed away around 2012 so,

he-he's mine now,

he's ours now.

We love him a lot.

Alan: Eric is you English name,

what's your Inuit name?

Eric: (Speaking Intuit)

After my mother's grandmother's father,

I think he was one of the great hunters.

Alan: So, what do you think your great-grandfather would think

about Inuit life now?

Eric: I think he will say to me

"You ought to go more hunting than stay home

"and play that stupid iPad.

"Cause you gotta provide your family with country food".

I think he would tell me to go be good

if you can build an igloo

so you can get a marry or

if you know, if you gotta survive

when you're out on the land.

Alan: Did you finish high school?

No. I finished grade 9 and 10.

Alan: So, up here, if you don't finish high school,

does anybody care?

Yeah, the people care.

They-they want us to finish school,

that's the only way you can get a god job.

If you don't finish school it's very hard to get a job

and if you have a criminal record,

it's very hard to get a job.

So you have to be a really nice person

in order to get a job.

But it's hard for me to get a job

'cause I have a criminal record too, so.

I got drunk,

broke my parents home

and I pointed a firearm

with no bullet to a police officer.

Alan: Wow.

Yeah, and I served two years less a day.

I got so mad 'cause my best friend died

and when I went to his parents

they-they told me he passed away

and I started drinking

that's when I got mad and

maybe I was so lost

'cause I never had a friend like him before.

Ever since I've changed a lot,

do stupid stuff,

started smoking, drinking,

I tried couple suicides.

I've done it, I've tried it.

Hanged myself but my girlfriend saved me.

I personally, I've never had kids of my own,

only adopted.

Right now I have a adopted 22 year old

with I have three grandkids.

After 12 years I separated and I met another woman.

Seven years ago now,

we adopted a boy,

I raised him for seven years

and just about almost two months ago,

we've been split up so,

I have a rough life right now.

Alan: What happened with?

I heard something happened with-

Eric: Yeah, I didn't wanna get mad but,

made me so mad that

just telling me that I'm cheating

and that I go with this woman and that,

and put me down so much

and she wouldn't sleep with me for a year.

Alan: So what happened?

Assault, I mean bodily harm,

I mean just grab, you know,

but little punch,

but that's not good but that's what I,

I just grabbed her and- (Sighs)

The counselling in the mental health

I've been seeing

and the, um, ah, Probation Officer,

that's, I've been talking to those three

and the elders,

That's, if I get those support and my-

that she charged me will be acquitted.

I already apologized to her and forgave her.

Now, past is past so we just moved on.

But I get to see my little boy.

Alan: You get to see him, what's his name?

Yeah. Eli.

Alan: And Eli, what's Eli-

What does Eli wanna do when he grows up?

I don't know.

I have no clue.

I don't care if he becomes a cop.

One day I might be bad and he can arrest me

and tell me, "Look, look at you".

(Soft Guitar Strumming)

Alan: So, Michelline, usually I start slow,

work my way up.

But I don't wanna do that now.

If you're willing to talk about your time in residential school,

since you brought it up

when we first interviewed you,

I just wanted it anything else you wanna tell us about that,

if you're willing,

that's what I'm,

what I'd most like to hear about.

Michelline: When I was six my father didn't want me to go

so I didn't go.

And, um, by the next summer,

I was excited to go.

But, um, once we got here,

we were living further up north,

out on the land

so, my father brought us here by boat,

then he disappeared,

then I got mixed feelings.

I didn't want to go at all anymore.

The next thing I know is we're in a airplane.

There are no seats,

so we're all sitting on the floor.

No seat belts.

There are about 20 to 30 of us inside that plane.

Then we go to Rankin.

We overnight in Rankin,

then a smaller plane

brings us back and forth to Chesterfield.

We didn't have to speak Inuktitut in our class,

if we did,

we would either go into the corner

or be given a dunce hat,

or a baby nipple,

because we're babies,

we're dumb.

We're stupid for speaking our language.

Even in the hostel,

we were not really allowed to speak Inuktitut

maybe because the nun thought we were talking about her

or whatever and so-

Alan: You probably were.

I don't know.

Hey, I-I know the time,

I remember that time,

I even could picture that time.

She farted and we were-

We were not allowed to laugh.

If we laughed it was scary.

So, with very straight faces,

we're all speaking Inuktitut making fun of her.

No wonder she-

She didn't want us to speak Inuktitut.

Alan: Those nun farts are the worse.

Especially be-because she was so scary.

But, by the age of 9

she abused me.

She sexually abused me.

I didn't know that it was abuse.

I didn't know.

I really didn't know.

So, in the-in the summer,

she told me not to tell anybody.

If-if I did, she would do worse.

And then-

She came here in May with us,

maybe to make sure that I didn't say anything,

I don't know but,

she spent the summer with us.

My parents were never in Iglulik

when we were about to leave

for Chesterfield Inlet.

I think they couldn't handle it.

My uncle wanted to take us three sisters,

his daughter,

in his own boat so,

we stopped by my parents camp

and I'm yelling my head off because I don't want to go.

So, um, I'm crying, crying, crying.

I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go.

And because my mother,

like I couldn't tell her.

If I told worse was going to come.

So, I don't want to go.

My parents were not workers so

they hardly ever have any money.

My mother gives me a whole dollar bill.

I don't want it.

She puts it in a little bag-purse

and still hands it to me.

There and then I thought,

she doesn't care about me.

Because here I'm crying, I'm crying.

I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go,

and she's still trying to get me out.

So, by the age of nine,

my closeness to my mother really blocked off.

Never ever opened again.

She died not knowing why I didn't like her.

She died not knowing

why I was always so against what she said.

She wasn't my boss.

She didn't care about me,

so I didn't care about her.

I am grateful that the (Inuktitut) gave me this.

That I'm able to express my emotions

to the public

whereas our parents were never told to do that.

They would get a bad name if they did.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: Well, as a Qallunaat, let me say you're welcome.

Thank you.

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I'm such an asshole sometimes (laughs).

Alan: I probably should have asked you the first time

I came out here instead of the second time but,

do you have any hints for how to interview

or talk to the people of your territory?

Lucie: (Laughs)

Ah, good question!

Alan: Well one time you said to me on the phone,

this is, I'll never forget this,

"Inuit don't like to answer questions".

Lucie: It's true, well, no,

Inuit don't like to be asked questions.

Alan: Oh, they don't like to be asked? Why?

Let me think about this one.

Okay, so one day

I called my mom and I asked her

"Anaana, when you were young,

why were you not allowed to call elders

by their first names?"

And she said, "I don't know, I never asked"

And I said, "Why didn't you ask?"

And she said to me,

"You ask too many questions".

So, it's the way that we're raised.

We're raised not to talk too much

and when you're young,

not to ask questions

and you learn what you're meant to learn.

Alan: If I'd come here a year ago

I would have got to meet your mother.

Lucie: True.

Alan: But I didn't get to meet your mother,

so tell me about your mother.

Lucie: Wicked lady.

Tough as beans.

Fierce.

Feisty but kind,

loving, giving.

I got taken away from foster (in Inuktitut)

'cause my mom was a heavy drinker.

Her story is kind of complicated,

but she was to be married off at a very young age.

Prearranged wedding.

She ran away on the C.D. Howe,

which is a ship,

and by the time she came back,

my family gets relocated to Resolute Bay.

And the hardships that they experienced

while they were there, you know,

they basically got dumped on a beach

and they were told that they were going to the land of plenty

so that there'd be, you know, good income,

and by Inuit standards in the Pond Inlet area,

my grandfather was very wealthy,

he had tons of dogs to feed,

he had all the equipment that he could ever wish for,

and he was an avid hunter,

and a man of some notoriety.

And then when he got dumped on the beach in Resolute Bay,

he was a big fat nobody.

A lot of people died,

a lot of people suffered,

in the end my grandfather ended up committing suicide

and so that experience was my mother's experience.

(Birds Screeching)

Isacky: I was 14 year old

when I was first introduced to alcohol.

This is the actual road that we're going on

is where I was first introduced to alcohol

by my sister.

Alan: This is a dump.

Isacky: Yep.

It's a place where nobody's gonna bother you

and nobody's gonna find out

what you're doing.

I was drinking heavily last week and

I managed to lose my job.

It's a cycle.

I've lost more than one job 'cause of drinking.

Alan: Isacky, you adopted a boy,

if you didn't drink,

could he be with you?

Isacky: Yes!

He's always with me when I'm not drinking

over at my place,

but it's when I do drink,

I bring him to my sister

so that he won't get to smell the alcohol

or experience looking at me,

myself getting drunk, you know.

Alan: So he is not enough reason to quit drinking.

Isacky: Oh, he is a reason to quit drinking but it's

all different kind of problems in my head

that do come back and I relapse, you know.

(Screeching)

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(Laughing)

Lucie: You know, every time I come back here

it feels like I never left.

Ruth: Yeah.

Alan: So, why do you call her "mom"?

Lucie: When my mom passed away,

I became orphaned,

so she adopted me.

Ruth: I miss her a lot sometimes.

Lucie: Yeah.

Ruth: Those are my grandchildren.

The thing is they have to make a makeshift bed

to sleep here and that goes on every day.

I have sons here,

and a daught-and daughters are with me.

But these two usually will sleep on the same bed with me

while the rest are here.

Either that or

one of them stay here with them.

And that's how we live.

Alan: How many people?

1,2,3,4,5 adults,

twins and these three.

That's one of my daughters.

Alan: So is it ten in a two bedroom?

Three bedroom. - Okay.

And it's tiny.

What happened was

my mother had passed away

and then I ended up with all the kids that she had left,

and the grandchildren, everybody.

I ended up with two other,

two others. - Okay, so-

One she had adopted from birth from me

and one she-she adopted from one of my sisters.

They ended up being with me.

Alan: So, does anybody ever get confused?

'Cause I get confused.

(Laughing)

I think everyone knows everyone

so they don't get confused.

Alan: Right. I think that the,

that definitely one of the things most surprising,

but I'm getting used to it,

how casual "so I got one of my sisters,

my mother was raising mine,

then I got this one". -Yeah.

Alan: "This kid I don't even know,

he walked in the house one day,

I guess he's my kid now".

Yeah, that's always I think

it's always been going on with Inuit families though.

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(Children Laughing)

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Bart: Hey, there young man.

Alan: Hey, how are you, young man?

Bart: I'm not as good as you but I'm trying.

Long time no see.

Alan: Yeah, since Christmas.

Alan: Bart, I always wanted to thank you

for introducing me to Peter here.

We heard that he was sick

and that you were in Montreal helping him.

I'm glad to see Peter's better.

How was it down in Montreal?

At the Metro in Montreal,

there was some guy who was kind of dying and um,

he was in need to be helped but

we pretend that we didn't see him.

And all the people with us,

many people that pretend that didn't see them

and that was the most disturbing um thing we um did.

As Inuit person,

we don't do that.

But, as our ancestors saw you like the Gods,

and you were like the Gods and,

the white man was like the Gods.

But as we learned from the Gods and

how the people down there are dying and

they don't pretend to see

and we learned it's very different from our culture.

And it's very sad

that you pretend to be like Gods

but you're not.

I'm sorry to say that but, you know.

Now we are more knowledgeable

and we are more reading your books and who you are,

it makes more sense, okay?

Like you, because I'm not have your camera to you,

you're having your camera to me,

that makes a difference.

But I'm not criticizing you.

I think you are precess, um,

you are doing a lot better now,

because you are trying to be more curious

about how we are.

Before, you just tell us that we are savages or

it...it didn't make any sense to us, you know?

But now you are much better and you think more.

You're um more intelligent.

Elizabeth: It's better you come and see,

learn a lot of things to Inuit way of life.

Anybody who really wanted to come, we invite them.

We really want them to come,

to learn a new things.

Oh, its happiness on the land.

We love it.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

There are three more missing.

Alan: Is there any controversy over

whether your grandfather died accidentally or on purpose?

Lucie: That depends on who you talk to.

There are people who say that my grandfather drove his skidoo

over a cliff and committed suicide

and then there were other people who said

my grandfather did not commit suicide.

I guess part of the reason why

people believed that he did commit suicide

is because he knew the land so intimately

that he would have known there was a cliff there,

why would he drive over it accidentally?

Alan: You know, there is a connection,

it's not a perfect connection but a connection of some kind

between the story of your grandfather and uncle

being relocated and, to some degree,

you being relocated.

Lucie: Well, you know, I don't want to diminish the um,

the severity of what residential school survivors experienced.

But there have been times where I would say

my experience in a foster home was akin

to what people might have experienced

in residential school.

I wasn't-I wasn't beaten or tortured.

If I was lucky I was allowed to see my mom once a year.

Um, when I spoke to her on the phone

I was not allowed to speak Inuktitut.

Anything that had to do with my culture,

they tried to get me the hell away from it.

You will never be accepted by Inuit

and you will never be accepted by white people.

But you might as well give up the eskimo side

because you're with us now.

I wasn't allowed to have my hand

on my lap under the table

because it looked like I was playing with myself

while I was eating.

That's the kind of stuff that they did.

Alan: Were there other foster kids?

Who plays with themselves while they're eating?

Oh, Jesus Christ!

You know, this stuff is coming back to me

as I'm talking to you and-

and I still wonder like was that really my life?

Did I really experience that?

But yeah, I did.

(Laughing)

Alan: You told me you never wanted to have a baby.

Were you alienated from people here

for you not wanting to have a baby?

Lucie: No. No, I wouldn't say I was alienated.

I had Thomasie for the first two years that I was here-

Alan: But he's adopted.

I mean I'm not saying-

Lucie: No, I know.

Nobody ever made me feel like "what's wrong with her?"

But I think people wondered

"what's wrong with her?"

(Laughing)

Alan: Is there any relationship between the fact

that you lived alone with your son here

and in Iqaluit you don't see your son?

Lucie: That's very much an Isacky question.

Isacky uses my son as a pawn

and it's a power play for him,

that I refuse to play into.

So, where he tries to use my son as a pawn

to suck me into the whole Isacky world,

I refuse to play it

and so that's why I haven't seen my son.

(Barking)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: So, I've been told that

you've seen all the changes from being out on the land,

to the settlements, to this.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Ruth: When they actually lived out on the land it was, uh,

there was less to worry about.

It was just the family there together and uh,

and the hunting was the only um,

thing they could do at that time.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Ruth: They actually settled here in 1964,

here in Iglulik.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Ruth: What his father told him was

now that you'll be in a place where there's more people,

you'll be seeing all sorts of things going on.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

They'll be finding out things that are happening,

things they've never seen ah before

such as adults fighting each other.

His father told him um,

make sure you don't get involved in drinking and things like that

because they may be happy for a while

and then afterwards something might happen,

something bad might happen.

Lucie: Can you ask him what he remembers

about my grandfather?

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Ruth: He had heard that he had

fallen off the cliff or something

but he particularly questioned about why,

how that could happen to Iluk.

He had recollected and remembered um,

his father telling him that there'll be um,

bad things happening to different people

and his father had said

that that was going to start happening

in larger communities

and things will be happy going very well

and the next minute something might happen.

That was one of the things that happened unfortunately,

Iluk falling off the cliff.

David: (Speaking Inuktitut)

Ruth: He had even thought if-if um,

liquor or booze was never brought up here

maybe that wouldn't have happened.

(Slow Guitar Strumming)

Bingo Announcer: (Speaking Inuktitut)

O64.

G60.

I25.

N40.

O62.

B4.

O69.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Loudspeaker: Excuse me, door duty now staff,

please, door duty.

Grade 4, 5, 6, and 7

would you go out and line up in your spot.

Celina: Iglulik will be speaking English

when all the elders are gone.

They'll be speaking broken English.

Alan: But they'll still be Inuit.

Celina: Inuit but no more Inuktitut.

'Cause they don't know their culture anymore.

Everything is in English.

Alan: How many of the teachers are Inuit?

Celina: Quite a few but they're all lower grades like

beginner, kindergarten, grade one.

And all those teachers,

new teachers we see

are speaking broken Inuktitut too.

So they're (speaking Inuktitut) like um baby talk.

So they're talking like that so

they're passing it on to the children

and the children are speaking like them, so.

Alan: We heard you on the radio last night.

You were talking about housing.

I keep telling people I read on the plane

that you need a billion dollars

to make enough houses

but you're not even getting close to that.

That's my new campaign,

1 billion dollars for Nunavut.

Don't buy another Bombardier jet.

Buy houses for Nunavut.

What were you talking about housing?

I was trying to start a petition and I plan to,

and the subject is on ah there's government rental units

ah, that are only for government employees.

They've been standing vacant here ever since

those-those houses were built which

I'm-I'm not sure, maybe a little over ten years or so

or something.

I'm stuck with uh three adults in one-one room,

my 40 year old daughter,

23 year old

and 16 year old all in the same room

with three grandchildren in-in there as well.

It's-it's really frustrating

to have no privacy all the time,

a hundred percent of the time.

'Cause we're, my husband and I (stutters)

we're married but we also have grandchildren in the other

in my room.

You know, I've never been alone in the room with my husband

since we got married 17 years ago.

I'm 63.

Um, when I was 5 1/2 years old

I was sent to boarding school

and I spent almost 10 years in the boarding school.

Alan: When you say you went to a

boarding school for 10 years

you mean a residential school?

Residential.

Alan: Where?

Chesterfield Inlet.

Alan: Okay.

Is that a nightmare that you still visit?

Celina: That's old stuff.

It should be forgotten.

Alan: Right. -Yeah.

We shouldn't maybe mention it anymore

I don't like to hear about it because

its a thing in the past.

Alan: If 20 years from now

you're gone and people are speaking broken Inuktitut

and broken English,

but they're going out on the land

and they're still eating caribou,

and they're still eating country food,

would that be okay?

Mhm.

Yes, if in 20 years they could improve everything here,

but as I see it right now its gloom and doom.

If you understood it the way I understand it,

you would pity what's going to happen in 20 years.

You would pity the present people

who are gonna live in those 20 years.

Look at our price,

the-the cost of living right now!

Look at how it's gonna be down the road.

People drink a lot of pop up here.

Alan: And it's five bucks! -It's cheap.

It fills the stomach.

Alan: Well, it's not that cheap.

We saw it for five dollars a can at the store.

Yeah, but it's cheaper than buying um,

ready made food.

It fills the stomach.

Alan: Thanks for the optimism there.

Lucie: (Laughing)

You find this to be um,

um like all negative pretty much,

but you haven't seen what I've seen.

I'm a gambler.

I go out at night and I gamble

and you should see the house with about 70 people,

all crowded into this building

with alcohol by their side

and they're drinking from it.

9, 10, 11 years olds,

playing outside by the hamlet and on the street,

2 o'clock in the morning

and that's not just one night,

it's almost every night of the week,

whether it be winter or summer.

Alan: And where are their parents?

I don't know.

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Alan: We were here in December,

we made friends with a couple people and

we joined, we got on a Facebook group for Iglulik

and I was looking at it

and I saw that there was a men's group.

I was surprised, it seemed

incongruous with the culture that I

encountered when I was here.

So when the men's group started,

how many men joined?

Less than the fingers of my left hand.

The most people that ever attended were two people.

You know I-I, um,

grew up ah English community

and um, and it was pretty hard growing up as a youth,

and um, I always felt like I have to talk with somebody

in order to get my problems solved but

unfortunately there was no one around

or if I tried to talk to somebody they would ah

just walk away.

So I figured that I might help out Junior here

to um run and administrate the men's group

so that at least um somebody um,

might come in because even if one person comes,

it's gonna make-make a lot of difference

for that person.

Junior: Both my mother and father were

they did go to residential school.

And as I was growing up,

all I remember is that they were always drunk

and I thought the whole world was like that,

everybody was drunk all the time,

always happy

and then all of a sudden, very sad.

Around 8 or 9 years old,

there was a priest,

a fake priest that did come to Iglulik

and ah I was one of those victims

that was molested by that fake priest.

And for a very long time

I felt worthless and I've gone through so much that

most of my teenage years up right up until I was 30's

that I was sniffing away gasoline,

glues, propane and so on and so forth,

and eventually um I started looking back at myself

when I was reaching the 40th year

and I started receiving counselling from

wherever I can get it.

Basically just talking away helped me out to a point

where I became a counsellor here in Iglulik.

So from this,

ever since I became the counsellor here in Iglulik,

I've been trying to tell people that

just even talking about it

helps you out a lot 'cause

a lot of the triggers that we do feel,

they're everywhere

and even me,

the most horrible trigger was the smell of ah rotting wood,

moldy rotting wood.

Alan: Why does the smell of moldy rotten wood,

why was it a trigger?

Ah it was the first time

when a penetration did occur in during molestation

and my deep breath,

my first deep breath going "ah",

that was the smell and ever since that time,

I just couldn't stand the smell of it.

First ah half of my life

was nothing but violence for me.

It was a lot of fighting and what not

so um I'm pretty traumatized myself.

Junior: He was my target,

he was the younger brother,

so like any good older brother

he did beat up his younger brother.

Constantly, all the time,

whenever I have the chance,

he would be crying.

Yeah, he needed to cry all the time,

and that's how we grew up.

Even in 1992 I killed him

for about maybe 4 seconds, maybe longer.

He uh snagged my neck um,

yeah we were-we were drinking

and we had a wild fight.

We were flying and kicking.

Junior: Kicking, punching and what not.

It was very- - He was about to stab me

with a knife just in my heart. -Yeah.

I wanted to kill him.

I did kill him.

Oh my goodness.

But, what I noticed ever since we tried to kill each other,

me and my brother we never argued or fought ever since.

Never had a problem.

I never have to swear at him or be angry at him

for any reason.

Alan: You just adopted one,

did you adopt one of your own grandchildren?

No, it was my wife,

one of my wife's cousin's child.

It was October,

my little bro-one of my little brothers committed suicide.

When we lived in Iqaluit for 4 years,

he was being molested by a person

where he would be brought into a shack and molested

repeatedly for about 2 years

just before we came back here to Iglulik.

He was very successful,

graduated high school,

went to college,

became Master Instructor for Arctic College

and had a great family.

One week before he committed suicide he did ah told my mother

that he was molested as a child

when we were in Iqaluit,

and he told my mother the name of that person

who molested him

and one week after telling my mother,

he hung himself.

I know how it feels growing up with that pain

throughout his life and

he just didn't know how to reach out.

He sort of reached out but I think it wasn't enough

so he ended up killing himself.

Alan: I know it doesn't matter, but I have to ask,

was that person white or Inuit?

He was an Inuk.

Alan: He was Inuk.

For a while I thought I wouldn't want to adopt a child

but when we were asked if we could adopt a child

I just decided why not,

I'm going to name him after my late brother

so we adopted a child

and we named him after my little brother and-

Alan: What's his name?

Frank.

Edward: Frankie.

Frank.

Alan: Is that Frankie?

Yes, that's my Francis.

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Don't try and help me now

when you've been useless this whole time.

I'll do it myself.

(Bittersweet Instrumental)

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(Children Chatter)

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Alan: Lucie, it's nice to see Thomasie here in Iglulik but

I never heard the story,

how he came back into the picture after what's it been,

2 years?

He just started coming around.

He decided that he wanted to come around.

Isacky: Just out of the blue, he just showed up.

Lucie: I'm glad we were there when he showed up.

Alan: So what happened when you asked him

if he wanted to come here with us?

Lucie: He didn't want to come.

He absolutely didn't want to come.

It was terrible.

Um, in the end he was willing to come

if Isacky came.

Alan: You kind of didn't want to come.

Well I kinda didn't want to come,

but he wasn't gonna come here

if I didn't come.

So, I said, sure, why not.

Alan: Is it okay if we put a microphone on you

and ask you questions?

Yeah. -You're willing to do that?

I'll answer everything what I can answer.

Okay.

I don't know what I wanna know yet but-

So let's uh mic her.

Marie: You should have decided before you came in.

(Laughing)

Alan: Is there anything you wanna complain about?

No.

Alan: Nothing?

No.

Alan: How about the lack of housing in Iglulik?

You wanna complain about that?

Yes,

if I know how to complain.

I don't like complaining but I could talk.

Alan: Okay, so-

I could talk behalf of the people

but not complaining.

Complaining could make the thing get worse.

Lucie: Hey, Alan, do you mind if I sit in,

'cause I just wanna hold her hand.

Alan: Yeah, go ahead.

Hi, Lucie.

Hey, Marie.

When I finished the residential school, he,

my oldest brother,

he teach me how Inuit people

look after other people

when they are sick,

when they are dying.

When somebody suicide,

I clean them,

wash them,

dress them.

If the family are crying,

Inuit people cry lots.

Lots.

Um, he taught me how to

not just cry with them,

how the feeling,

feeling to them.

Marie always takes good care of me.

We go out hunting together,

we go out fishing together

She asks me to help her

take care of her place and what not

and she's a spitfire

and that's why I wanted you to speak to her

because she's real.

You know what?

I want you to ask her stuff that's gonna make her angry

so she can tell you real things.

Alan: She's not a complainer,

I tried to get her to complain.

Lucie: She doesn't complain but she'll get mad at you.

No, I- Alan: I don't have to-

I don't have anything in me anymore to make her mad.

I am not going to get angry at all, even-even-

Lucie: Marie! How did you feel when the co-op came here?

What co-op?

Lucie: Co-op, when the co-op came here and the co-op manager

(Speaking Inuktitut)

When they came here how did you feel?

Happy. Lucie: For what?

Because If we are only Inuit trying to do all this stuff,

we can't!

We can't do it! - Okay, so we can-

We need-we need the people like this (speaking Inuktitut)

can help us to grow our whole community.

Lucie: Mom! What I want you to do

is tell them something very serious that is true about us.

I'm telling the truth.

Lucie: I know you're telling the truth but I want you to say something

strong that is true about us.

I could talk quietly, strongly.

That's what I'm trying to do

but I'm not going to shout the way you are shouting.

Lucie: No, I don't want you to shout.

I get scared very, very easily.

Lucie: So what scares you?

Um, you sounds like very angry person.

Lucie: Okay.

Marie: That makes me get scared.

Lucie: I need to go for a cigarette

because I'm getting a little bit upset,

but I wanna ask you some real questions

about suicide.

Can we talk about that?

Would you be willing?

Yeah.

Marie: Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm okay

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Once upon a time,

we went from being so very much survival.

You know like,

we need to have enough food for the winter

or we need to take care of our camp.

My grandfather was such a-

(Sighs)

He always made sure that

everybody was taken care of for long period of time,

and everything was so much about survival back then,

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Where we arrive today-

Why are we killing ourselves?

It went from being so strong, survival, to now

get me out.

You know why we're killing ourselves?

If I want to be drunk everyday,

everyday I will become less care about myself.

And getting to become useless.

If somebody talks "younger people are doing nothing,

it looks like everybody is pointing at me".

And then we think that

"I'm good for nothing,

I don't do things".

But mom-

"I don't know how to-"

Do you think that we talk to each other that way?

"I-I-I better kill myself".

We have to talk to our children,

put our words upside down.

"You're good,

you could do it.

You know how to do it.

You know how to help your father.

You know how- -So is that the answer?

You know how to do the hunting,

and they could start becoming proud of themselves-

So is that the answer?

And there's no-there's no thinking

of doing something to-to themselves.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

That's right! I agree with you.

Mmm hmm.

If I learn that my parents who are not looking after me,

the way how they should be,

then my life would be all broken.

That's kind of the way I am, Marie,

because my mom was an alcoholic,

she was a single mother.

I spent part of my life down south,

part of my life up here,

and my mom was a very strong woman

but she was broken so I'm kind of broken.

(Indistinct Chattering)

(Indistinct Chattering)

(Engine Rumbling)

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(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

That's good.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: You look different.

So do you!

Alan: No, you look beautiful right now.

Aw, thank you.

Alan: Yeah, really.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

I was really looking forward to this.

It's good.

Alan: Your eyes look clearer.

My mind feels clearer.

Thomasie: Baby seals?

Lucie: Yeah.

You really gotta watch what he's doing

'cause if you catch one

you're gonna have to do the same thing.

Alan: Hey.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Thomasie.

Elder: Huh? -Thomasie!

Elder: Thomasie?

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Thomasie.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Canada!

Canada!

Alan: Canada!

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: I wish I could speak Inuktitut

so I could talk to your husband.

Oh, okay.

Alan: I mean, I never will,

I never will speak it,

I'll never learn it. -You can learn.

Alan: But when I see him I-

In a few weeks you can learn Inuktitut.

Alan: Okay, well, anyway he makes-

If you try.

Alan: Your husband makes me wish I could speak Inuktitut

so I could talk directly to him.

Okay, do you want him to come here?

Alan: Oh no, no, no.

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Alan: We'll see him out there. -Okay.

Alan: Anyway, I just wanna tell

you're the one who made us feel welcome so

we'll see you out there.

You're welcome.

Bye!

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Alan: Okay, so,

what do you think Thomasie would say

if somebody like his aunt asked him

what did you do with us last week?

Isacky: Well I'm pretty sure he would be excited

and tell each and every experience

that he just went through in Iglulik,

like he'd be so excited

just telling the auntie uh,

that he's went to his seal haul

and waited for a seal for the first time in his life.

I love you son.

I'll see you later.

He would be so excited to tell her

that he shot a gun for the first time.

It's the beginning of becoming

a big boy

and a man.

Alan: You looked like a different person out there

Isacky: I felt like a different person.

It made me realize that uh,

I'm missing out on a lot of things

that has to do with camping and just hunting itself,

you know.

I gotta regain that-

I gotta regain the power to

get myself back into that life.

Alan: I was gonna read you a few things

you said to me over the years.

(Alan Speaking Poor Inuktitut)

Alan: What does that mean?

Those are little songs that you should sing to your

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Alan: Oh, okay. -When she can fall asleep,

To help her fall asleep. -Okay.

(Singing "Frère Jacques" in Inuktitut)

It's for your daughter (in Inuktitut).

Alan: But they don't mean um,

"are you sleeping, are you sleeping,

brother John?"

Isacky: Yeah! That's the same thing.

It's exactly the translation.

Isacky: Yeah.

Alan: Hm.

Lucie: We'll have a nice fire right here.

Alan: Right there? - Yeah.

Alan: Okay.

Lucie: And we can talk about whatever you want.

Alan: Well you can talk about whatever you want.

Lucie: Well I've got some things to talk to you about.

Alan: Maybe you should tell me before the fire,

'cause the fire could take a while.

No, they're just gonna shred up the cardboard

and put the woods on top

Also I'm gonna fall off this thing

'cause it's not really comfortable.

This damn thing has been sitting in my pants for

the last two hours.

I thank you for bringing my son on our trip to Iglulik.

It was pretty special,

having my son there,

watching him change

over the short time that we were there.

He grew up a little bit.

You have a way of seeing things that I don't understand,

but that's the world outside of us.

We're insular.

We live in a third world conditions.

We adapt and overcome

and we prevail.

Alan: Okay, one sec.

Okay, so you can't turn the camera around,

point it at them and then be pissed at them

for being in your shot.

Sorry.

Can you guys get out of the shot?

You guys are fucking up my story

because I'm trying to say a nice letter to Alan,

even without you guys.

I don't give a fuck whether this makes it on the movie or not.

We're insular.

We live in third world conditions.

We adapt and we overcome and we prevail.

That's the way we are!

We're Inuit!

Alan: You're a strong,

independent, Inuit woman.

There's no doubt about it!

I don't know how strong or independent I am but-

Alan: Okay, you said to Marie the other night,

I'm broken.

You told the story about

going to foster care

and being like your version of residential school.

But you never talk about

how this brokenness manifests itself.

How does it-

What do you do?

What are you struggling with?

What is-

You fucking asshole!

I'm not struggling!

Yes, I'm broken!

Yes, I'm struggling!

Yes...

You know, there's all these things that are,

you know, that could be so much better.

But I need to-

And keep going.

Because if I stop for a second,

I'm gonna stop forever.

When you stop to feel your feelings,

you're fucked.

You're done.

Alan: So you're not feeling your feelings?

Oh, Christ!

You wanna sit down for several hours?

Alan: Do you know,

okay, so you have a lot of stories

of horrible things that happened to your family.

I got a pile of good stories too,

don't just put it that way.

Alan: I know, but do you-

do you know that that's what drives your sadness

your trauma,

or-or is that a mystery to you still?

A lot of bad things happened.

By Inuit standards, yes,

a lot of bad things happened.

It's like I told the doctor the other day

"Does it hurt?" "I don't know".

Because I don't know

the difference between pain

and not pain anymore

so I don't know.

Alan: How does drinking help any of that?

That's what I wanna know.

It doesn't.

I don't drink to make it feel better.

Alan: Then why do you do it?

Why do I drink?

I'm not having this conversation with you.

It's not on the table.

I won't talk about it.

You come here for little windows of my life

and you seem to have some perception of how I live

and I say you're wrong.

You put a focus on drinking, that's your-

Alan: I'm not focused on it.

That's-that's your movie. That's not mine.

Alan: No, you're focused on denying it, I'm not focused on it.

No, I'm not focused on denying it.

I'm focused on saying,

"You're an asshole who wants to talk about drinking

and I don't wanna talk about it".

Ask a question that doesn't involve drinking.

Alan: Okay.

What do you do

to stuff your feelings

from your trauma?

Fishing! I go fishing.

Alan: Ah! That's good!

Do you go to the gym?

I go to the gym.

Alan: You told me when you were way younger

you did have those feelings,

I don't know,

or you told me you tried to kill yourself 8 times

or something.

But it sounded like um,

sort of youthful folly rather than real truly-

Well, yeah, no.

Now it's got nothing to do with suicide it's,

I look at the land over there

I see how incredible it is.

I know that there is no man,

no matter.

Anyone who could recreate that,

I just wanna go lie on the side of it

and be a part of it.

So, yeah.

It's not like I wanna commit-

I don't wanna shoot my head off or-

I don't wanna hang myself,

I don't wanna suffer.

I don't wanna make anybody else suffer.

I just wanna go be a part of the beauty.

(Bittersweet Instrumental)

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(Chattering in Inuktitut)

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(Chattering in Inuktitut) (Bittersweet Instrumental)

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Even though we're not so hungry,

we eat because we want to be warm and happy.

We don't wanna get cold.

And we love fresh seal.

(Speaking Inuktitut)

Eskimos!

You know Eskimos?

Like that.

(Speaking Inuktitut)