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I really need to go.

Why are you still seeing this guy?

Everybody else has given up on him, honey.

- It"s not going to be me. - Let him go.

He"s not worth it.

Listen, I have to go straight from the office tonight.

Please do not be late.

I promise.

I love you.

This is Maddison Taylor with Edward Johnson.

Today"s date is June 8th.

Can we begin?

Yeah.

Eddie, have you eaten today?

Yeah.

How about dreaming? Any dreams?

Not really.

Well, when you do dream, what do you dream about?

A childhood home.

Clean counters and silverware.

A table set for a family.

You ever eat at a table?

No.

I... I do remember feeling like...

like everything, you know, the kitchenware and the dishes

and the food...

it was like they had their own place, you know.

Like, dishes went in the cupboard

and the silverware in the drawer.

Food in the fridge.

If you had a place,

where would it be?

A toast to James and Jeremy"s new merger.

Oh, it"s not a merger, honey, it"s an acquisition.

Oh, he has to correct me.

I"m very happy to raise a glass

to my best friend, my sister, and my wife

to celebrate this wonderful occasion.

- I love you all, cheers. - Cheers.

But in all seriousness, hats off to Jeremy.

You really burned the midnight oil to push this thing through.

I"m very excited about this venture.

We"re going a whole new corporate direction.

Huge asset sale, major re-staffing...

Cynthia, show them your anniversary gift.

That is absolutely stunning.

Thank you for not being late.

Goodnight, sweetheart.

Goodnight.

Madison, you want water?

All right, now you rest.

Mrs. Taylor.

I"m Detective Thompson.

Can you tell me what happened?

Hey, hey, relax.

Oh, oh my god.

How long have I been in here?

Two days.

Look, I know this is very difficult

but I"m gonna need you to tell me what happened.

Is that all you can remember?

Detective, where"s my husband?

Look, I"m sorry, Ms. Taylor but...

your husband didn"t make it.

What?

What...

What... what are you saying?

What are you saying?

Oh god, oh god!

We"ll find out who did this.

After the police left

I had the maids come in.

The fridge is fully stocked.

Everything"s back in its place.

Oh and uh...

I had your locks changed.

Mad, is there anything else I can do for you?

No, no, I"m okay.

Do the police have any leads?

No.

But you saw his face right?

Yeah, I saw his eyes.

Well that "s good, that"s good.

But is it enough to identify him?

I think so?

Maddie, are you sure you don"t want me to spend the night?

Thank you.

I"ll be okay.

I"ll be okay.

Madison.

Everything is in its place.

Madison, everything is in its place.

But you saw his face, right?

I saw his eyes.

So how are you these days?

Okay.

I"m going to show you several photos and I want you

to tell me if you recognize any of these men.

Take your time.

- Do any of them look familiar? - No.

Are you sure or can you take a closer look?

It"s not him.

Look, I know you"ve been through something traumatic.

- But I"m... - It"s not him!

He"s not in that book!

Can I suggest something?

Being a detective I"ve seen a lot of shit.

Maybe you need to see someone.

Someone with experience.

Now what you"ve been through there"s no real way to cope.

I thought you were someone with experience, Detective.

I guess I was wrong.

You can see yourself out.

I can"t live here.

Can you find me a real estate agent?

Sure.

It"s an artist warehouse.

We"ve converted it to a pristine loft.

It has one bedroom, one bath.

And outstanding views of the river.

Mila, this isn"t what I asked for.

I know, I had to show it to you.

It just came on the market.

You"re the first one to see it, Maddison.

There must be so much noise, look at all these windows.

The windows are sound proofed.

- When"s it available? - Immediately.

If you like it I recommend you put in an offer.

What are you photographing?

People.

Why not shoot in daytime?

Because I like to shoot at night.

What are you doing, ma"am?

I didn"t like my father.

He made it very clear he didn"t like me either.

After my mother died...

He locked me in a basement.

What would you do in the basement?

I read the only book I had.

Over and over.

"A wild longing for strong emotions and sensations

seethed in me.

A rage against this toneless, flat,

normal and sterile life.

I have a mad impulse to smash something.

A warehouse perhaps or a cathedral.

Or myself."

Steppenwolf, hm.

You"ve read it?

Same time every week.

How are you, Ms. Taylor?

I"d be better if I knew who was sending these.

I know, I "m sorry I"m just...

I know, I know, the messenger.

Yeah.

Thank you.

I grew taller than him.

I realized I was stronger than him.

Was that your turning point, Eddie?

It was when I realized the rules don"t apply.

But Eddie, the rules do apply.

That "s why you" re here.

Well you try to make bad things disappear.

Like they never happened.

I couldn"t let what he did to me be forgotten.

How would I without making him pay for it?

How far does one get pushed before...

they start to push back?

And what specifically were you pushing back against?

Tell me, what did it feel like when you killed your dad?

It felt like being at the beach.

Breathing in clean ocean air.

Did you finally feel free?

Mrs. Taylor.

We picked up a guy the other night.

He has some similarities.

Gloves, same vicinity.

We have him on trespassing charges

but I need you to come down here and ID him.

He"s in lock up right now.

Can you come down tomorrow?

So as far as we know...

you"re the only one to see his face.

Bring him in.

Face the front.

Do you see him?

Number two.

Number two, step forward.

Is that him?

Come get number two, get his ass out of here.

Hey.

Take a deep breath, okay.

I know this hasn"t been the easiest thing for you.

I"m going to need you to come down to court and testify.

Okay?

My name is Ian Kerns, I"m an Assistant District Attorney

for the State of New York.

This deposition is being held in accordance

with the New York State penal code

on the criminal proceedings against the defendant,

Francis Tate.

Good morning, Mrs. Taylor.

Can you state your name clearly.

Doctor Madison Taylor.

Your answers are going to be given under

penalty of perjury, do you understand?

Yes, I do.

Please raise your right hand and repeat after me.

I, Doctor Madison Taylor, swear to tell the truth,

the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help me God.

I, Doctor Madison Taylor, swear to tell the truth,

the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help me God.

Dr. Taylor, will you please state in your own words

what happened on the evening of June 8th?

I was asleep.

I woke up because I heard some loud noises

and I looked over to see my husband and he wasn"t there.

So I went to the hall and heard a scuffle in the bathroom.

When I opened the door a man in a mask

was attacking my husband

and he knocked him to the ground

and then the man grabbed me.

Threw me against the wall and I went unconscious.

Do you remember if this man had any distinguishing features?

His eyes.

Do you think you"d be able to identity this man

based off of the description you remember?

Yes.

Doctor Taylor, do you see the man in question

in front of you in the deposition room at this time?

No, I do not.

Mrs. Taylor, you do understand that your responses

are given under penalty of perjury.

I do.

Please take another look at the man sitting in front of you.

Is this the man you remember seeing in your home

on June 8th?

No, I "m sorry, it"s not.

Madison!

Madison?

What the fuck was that?

Answer me.

It wasn"t him.

But you said it was.

Well, I was wrong.

- You Eddie"s friend? - Yeah.

- Hi, I"m... - No names.

Sure hope you know what you"re doing, honey.

Coffee?

We should get to know each other.

Sit here.

Can we?

Something to drink?

Just coffee, thanks.

Your face healed up nicely.

- Your face. - Thank you.

Why didn"t you turn me in?

It wasn"t because you wanted to follow me here.

I wasn"t following you.

Yeah, I was hoping we could be honest with each other.

Why did you pick my house that night?

I guess same reason you chose that dress.

I liked the way it looked.

I can"t sleep because of you.

Yeah, you look tired.

I am, I am.

What do you do when you can"t sleep?

I follow.

I follow people.

And I... I take photographs.

People...

eating? People having sex?

People doing what?

People I find interesting.

What do you do for a living?

I"m a forensic psychologist.

I help prisoners with their parole.

Criminals.

Criminals like you.

Okay.

And um...

how long have you been doing this?

Years.

God, I admire that.

I mean, how do you change someone?

You can"t.

Not unless they want help.

Most people put on a facade on what they want to be.

Sometimes catching someone off guard

you can tell who they really are inside.

Unless you break into their lives

and change them forever.

Your husband was an accident.

I mean, if you hadn"t been there I might be the one who"s dead.

I"m sorry.

I am.

I tripped the alarm on my way out

to make sure the ambulances got to you.

Are you the one who"s sending me flowers?

What do you think will happened today.

I want you to remember everything I"m saying, okay.

You had a psychotic break and you don"t remember anything.

- Okay. - Now repeat after me.

I had a rush of emotion, I blinked and it was over.

I just don"t remember what happened.

Repeat.

All right.

I don"t remember anything that happened.

I felt a rush of emotion.

I blinked and it was over.

- That"s what you tell them. - Okay.

Sorry that I"m late.

Doctor Madison Taylor,

this is our second hearing on parole for Edward Johnson.

Yes, I"ve spent just under 121 hours

of unmonitored sessions with Mr. Johnson.

Eddie suffered what we call a psychotic rage.

All of his emotions came out at once.

He doesn"t remember the event, he just remembers getting rid

of all of his feelings.

He doesn"t remember murdering his father.

Eddie has shown signs of guilt and remorse

and attachment to societal norms.

Do you believe he"s a threat to other inmates

- or to himself? - No, I don"t.

What is your clinical recommendation?

That Edward Johnson is prepared to assimilate back

- into the population. - Thank you, Dr. Taylor.

We will review your recommendation.

Thank you for your time.

♪

Mad, where"d you go?

I"m so sorry, did you say something?

I know you miss him, I miss him too.

Maddie, let"s... let"s talk, come on, we"re a family.

You can tell me anything.

I"m just having...

trouble...

fitting in.

Feeling like I can...

get back in the groove of things.

Well, that"s understandable.

Been through a traumatic experience.

I just don"t feel like myself.

Something has to...

shift, something has to change.

Well, maybe your career.

Maybe.

I don "t know how you" ve done it all these years

sitting in a dark room with all those killers.

It"s not that, you don"t understand.

Look, I just want you to be happy,

like James and I.

Honey, you"re a catch and I... I know it"s too soon.

I know it"s my brother, but...

maybe you"ll meet somebody.

Maybe.

All right, well, listen, I"m getting a little tired here

- and I kinda wanna get a cab. - You want me to get you a cab?

No, it"s a nice night, I"m gonna walk.

- Oh, okay. - Okay.

- I love you. - I love you.

- What? - I did something.

I had to see you.

You"re the only one who"ll understand.

Give me the details.

God is in the details.

I saw her.

She was...

She was walking down the street.

I thought my heart was gonna...

beat out of my chest.

So, I followed her.

Her, uh...

Her apartment was pastel,

and it was oddly calming,

and the sheets

arc on her bed and they smelled like...

fresh laundry,

and they were so soft.

And I saw that there was whiskey on the mantle,

and I... I stole her...

Don "t, don"t tell me what you stole.

Okay?

She is the only one who should know what you took.

And don"t ever wear gloves.

That way a part of you always stays there.

Continue.

I could smell her perfume.

When she came in the apartment,

she was so scared.

She could barely walk.

Oh, it was exhilarating.

Yeah.

And now you want more.

You"re not the only one that likes to watch other people.

Madison.

Why didn"t you ever have children?

I don"t know.

Why is your house still on the market?

I don"t know.

You look like an angel while you"re sleeping,

that"s what I wanted to say before.

Don"t, no!

Oh, my God, you scared the shit out of me!

And now is not the time, I have work to do.

- What"s going on? - I have new clients.

Clients?

It"s confidential, Cynthia.

I"m gonna have to ask you to leave.

Oh, are you smoking?

What is going on with you?

I... I don"t understand.

You wouldn"t understand.

You and I are a lot alike.

When I was a kid I used to break into houses.

I felt suffocated by the life that I had been given

and the choices that I had to make.

So, I would break into these houses at night,

and I would get in people"s beds,

and I would put on their clothes,

and I would read their books, and it just felt so nice

to take a break

from all the choices that Madison had to make.

What is it that you want from me, Madison?

Do you wanna kill me?

You wanna fuck me?

And then, I thought I could help you.

♪ I walk the masses, stranger to my own life ♪

♪ I"m a lonely, bleeding on the inside ♪

♪ A burning wound craving for eternity ♪

♪ Unearthing love, something pure and beautiful ♪

♪ Something pure and beautiful ♪

♪ It"s something deep inside of me ♪

♪ It"s something deep inside of me ♪

♪ It"s something deep inside of me ♪

♪ There"s something wrong ♪

♪ People cry, starving chores and duties ♪

♪ Never touching, talking without reason ♪

♪ To a point where life gets a meaning ♪

♪ A Buddhist hedonist, a smile on our faces ♪

♪ A smile on our faces ♪

♪ A smile on our faces ♪

♪ There"s something wrong ♪

♪ There"s something deep inside of me ♪

♪ There"s something deep inside of me ♪

♪ There"s something deep inside of me ♪

♪ There"s something wrong ♪

♪ There"s something deep inside of me ♪

No, no!

No, no, leave it on.

That was fucking hot.

Money"s on the table.

What the fuck, Robert?

You"re not taking my recommendation?

- Take a breath. - This man has done

10 years longer than you have even sat in that chair.

He deserves to be back in society.

No, you misdiagnosed that, he"s a stone-cold psychopath

who has no signs of remorse.

And... and you recommended a release?

- Unacceptable, Madison. - You don"t even know him,

- Robert! - What do I need to know?

It"s all right there in the file.

This is a man who murdered his father

because he was pushed over and over again.

What if I pushed you over and over again?

Maybe you need to take some time off.

Yeah, because I"m the problem.

No, you are the problem.

This office is the problem.

You"re trying to control me, just like all

- of the rest of them. - Look, Madison,

I have been very respectful and caring about the fact

that you have gone through a trauma.

At some point, you gotta stop using excuses

and move ahead.

Okay, now we all want you to get better.

I"m better than ever, Robert,

and I am gonna fuck your life up.

Take some time, Madison.

Doesn"t have to be permanent.

Yeah, fuck you.

I feel like this...

weight has been lifted,

and I"m finally in my skin.

But, I can breathe ocean air.

Must feel nice.

I wonder if things had been different

if you and I would"ve ever met.

I don"t know.

Like, if I were just

at a coffee shop or something.

I would come over to you

and introduce myself.

Hi.

I"m Sean.

I"m Lisa.

Nice to meet you, Lisa.

I like your whole look, your whole vibe.

It "s... it"s good.

Thank you, it"s something, uh, new I"m trying.

It feels more me.

It"s working.

Have some of mine.

What if

it wasn"t what you thought?

What if I was here for revenge?

Revenge?

Like, I brought you here just so I could...

Kill me.

I mean, you could also kill me.

But, isn"t that part of the thrill?

The lights were on.

- What? - The night

you broke into my house.

The lights were on.

That was no accident.

You knew I was home.

How long were you following me?

Two weeks.

Did you like what you saw?

I did.

Did it turn you on?

Ah, yes.

What are you guys doing here?

We wanna help.

We"re here because we love you.

Maddie, come sit down.

Come on, you"re in a safe place.

We"re just here to support you.

James and I, we care.

We...

We don"t think that you"re coping with this

in a healthy way.

How would you like me to cope, Cynthia?

Come on, Madison, don"t bullshit me.

You"ve changed.

I have.

Do you think I"m stupid?

The man that you set free

who murdered my brother,

your husband.

Oh, my...

Oh, my God.

You planned this.

- You did this! - Cynthia.

Cynthia, sit down, calm down.

Everybody, calm down.

All right, let"s just settle down.

Listen, we know that this hasn"t been easy.

Okay, and we"re willing to pay for you to go

to a treatment facility.

You know, Cynthia and I just want you to feel better.

- What do you say, Madison? - Don"t touch me.

Hey, Madison.

- You"re confused. - No, James,

you"re confused.

This isn"t friendship or family.

This is control.

You don"t care about me, you care about things.

How things look, what you"ve got,

all your stuff, money in the bank.

I can"t believe we ever loved you.

I can"t believe you ever thought you fucking knew me, Cynthia.

That"s not love.

It"s judgment.

Everything is in its place.

And it"s my house,

and I can burn it down if I want to.

So, get out!

My things.

No.

I"m so sorry.

I"m so sorry.

When you try to make bad things disappear,

like they never happened.

How could I know what you did to me before that?

A rage against this toneless,

flat, normal, sterile life.

Your husband was an accident.

If you hadn"t been there, I might be the one who"s dead.

I just saw his face.

Right?

Just those eyes.

Madison, you"re confused.

Felt like being at the beach.

Like breathing the clean ocean air.

Hm.

What are you supposed to do, what are you supposed to do?

Madison.

What are you supposed to do?

Go home.

Pack my bags and you"ll pick me up in the morning.

Go be a good girl.

Go be a good girl.

Go be a good girl.

Let him go.

He"s worthless.

James?

I understand that, um,

pressure fit in and look a certain way

and do a certain thing.

Be someone you"re not.

I know what it"s like to really feel free.

To hold someone"s life in your hands.

If you listen closely and pay attention,

I might be able to teach you something.

How to

get the best of both worlds.

When to put the mask on, when to take it off.

Be who you really are.

Shall we begin?