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[Music] me

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this [Music]

[Music] so

so [Music]

no no no no no i'm telling you william

no no no no no i'm telling you william friedkin directed it there's no

friedkin directed it there's no d-o-u-b-t about it no no no no you are

d-o-u-b-t about it no no no no you are so full of

so full of s-h-i-t whatever what's he bitching

s-h-i-t whatever what's he bitching about this time

about this time he's saying that william friedkin is the

he's saying that william friedkin is the one who directed body double

one who directed body double well did he yes no yes he did

well did he yes no yes he did no you did not that's that uh one film

no you did not that's that uh one film with that one

with that one frankie goes to hollywood yep yeah

frankie goes to hollywood yep yeah [ __ ] i i thought uh paul schrader

[ __ ] i i thought uh paul schrader director

director oh you two are so full of it

oh you two are so full of it come on someone help me out here i can

come on someone help me out here i can chime in um

chime in um it's actually brian de palma what

it's actually brian de palma what brian de palma directed body double who

brian de palma directed body double who the [ __ ] is this guy some brian de palma

the [ __ ] is this guy some brian de palma aficionado

aficionado i've seen all of his movies so i kind of

i've seen all of his movies so i kind of think that should count for something oh

think that should count for something oh he's seen all of his movies give this

he's seen all of his movies give this man an oscar whoo

man an oscar whoo okay shut up and stop him you remember

okay shut up and stop him you remember the scene uh in the bathroom right after

the scene uh in the bathroom right after the frankie goes the hollywood team sure

the frankie goes the hollywood team sure right okay

right okay there's a small cameo right in the

there's a small cameo right in the mirror of that scene

mirror of that scene it's almost like a brief second remember

it's almost like a brief second remember who that director was think really hard

who that director was think really hard that was bryan de palma it

no i can see how you get that confused

no i can see how you get that confused though because the whole like weird

though because the whole like weird sex thing but it was brian de palma

sex thing but it was brian de palma son of a [ __ ] when i first laid eyes on

son of a [ __ ] when i first laid eyes on you at the party

you at the party i knew you were the one

the way you looked at me holding that

the way you looked at me holding that beer your face lit up by the headlights

beer your face lit up by the headlights of a nearby truck

of a nearby truck you look like an angel sent from heaven

you look like an angel sent from heaven i see that now even how things turned

i see that now even how things turned out

out i see that

that day the park will go down as one of

that day the park will go down as one of the best days of my life

the best days of my life and realized that but i do know

that was the first time in a long time

that was the first time in a long time i've ever felt that genuinely happy

and i feel the same is true for you

and i feel the same is true for you [Music]

okay ready

okay ready [Music]

is

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[Music] go

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okay what's your favorite movie

okay what's your favorite movie better question better question we'll

better question better question we'll get to that one

get to that one what kind of movies do you like um i

what kind of movies do you like um i like action movies

like action movies okay and and comedies i can get down to

okay and and comedies i can get down to a good comedy okay

a good comedy okay so what's your favorite thing

um for movies i would say a full metal

um for movies i would say a full metal jacket

jacket [ __ ] for my jacket yeah

[ __ ] for my jacket yeah yeah what

yeah what that's a good question um

that's a good question um it was my grandpa's favorite movie

it was my grandpa's favorite movie yeah yeah um i would spend summers at

yeah yeah um i would spend summers at his house

his house when i was a kid and

when i was a kid and we would watch that damn near every day

we would watch that damn near every day and it was crazy because i remember him

and it was crazy because i remember him laughing his head off at

laughing his head off at sergeant just shouting guys in their

sergeant just shouting guys in their barracks and he was just

barracks and he was just like so confused um

like so confused um but it kind of brought us together and

but it kind of brought us together and even after he passed away

even after he passed away i i will play it and it feels like it's

i i will play it and it feels like it's silly

silly i can still feel his presence yeah

but he does have solid

but he does have solid i mean top notch

i mean top notch solid solid

yeah yeah i mean stanley kubrick is by

yeah yeah i mean stanley kubrick is by far

far one of the best directors around i've

one of the best directors around i've studied him down to a t

studied him down to a t down to the last k of his name like i'm

down to the last k of his name like i'm i'm deadly serious

i'm deadly serious check me out okay you love full metal

check me out okay you love full metal jacket you said it was your favorite

jacket you said it was your favorite okay

okay doctor strangelove

clockwork orange the shiny

clockwork orange the shiny 2001 a space odyssey all great films not

2001 a space odyssey all great films not a single flop

a single flop you know why best director to ever live

you know why best director to ever live hands down hands down

hands down hands down wow okay

wow okay sorry i don't want to annoy you with

sorry i don't want to annoy you with that though cause

that though cause i'm a big film nerd and i can

tend to be long-winded when it comes to

tend to be long-winded when it comes to films because

films because they're my everything i i mean i have

they're my everything i i mean i have one for every mood

one for every mood genuinely patient you're not

genuinely patient you're not annoying it was really cute it was

annoying it was really cute it was really cute to see you geek out over

really cute to see you geek out over movie [ __ ]

movie [ __ ] thank you everyone has something that

thank you everyone has something that they keep out over

they keep out over what do you get

what kind of music that's a good

what kind of music that's a good question

question um yeah

um yeah kind of like you i'm all over the place

kind of like you i'm all over the place um

um i can get into my real emo side and i

i can get into my real emo side and i will just

will just blare the black parade or often heights

blare the black parade or often heights and my favorite band is asking

and my favorite band is asking alexandria

alexandria and um i don't know i can get into like

and um i don't know i can get into like a real gangster rat mood

a real gangster rat mood but um i don't know like at the end of

but um i don't know like at the end of the day i just like to relax and listen

the day i just like to relax and listen to

to the caves and the bad seeds and the avid

the caves and the bad seeds and the avid fathers you like the aven brothers

would you believe i've been to their

would you believe i've been to their concert five times

concert five times no i'm i mean it they're one of my

no i'm i mean it they're one of my favorite bands

favorite bands i've if i'm not at an ava brothers

i've if i'm not at an ava brothers concert

concert then i'm chilling listening to some

then i'm chilling listening to some childish gambinos and jazz the rob or

childish gambinos and jazz the rob or something like that

something like that or if i'm really wanting some crazy [ __ ]

or if i'm really wanting some crazy [ __ ] to get my blood pumping

to get my blood pumping russian death metal wow

russian death metal wow yeah slaughtered the veil is just

yeah slaughtered the veil is just gives you a rush it's good to have

gives you a rush it's good to have something for every mood

something for every mood you know i do that with movies i do with

you know i do that with movies i do with music too

music too speaking of moods what's your move

full metal jacket [ __ ]

full metal jacket yeah

wait but that's the movie you watched

wait but that's the movie you watched with your granddad as a

with your granddad as a kid yeah i was five years old running

kid yeah i was five years old running around in the backyard

around in the backyard shouting at the top of my lungs this is

shouting at the top of my lungs this is my rifle this is my gun

my rifle this is my gun this is for fighting this is for fun

this is for fighting this is for fun this is my friend

this is my friend this is for fighting this is for fun and

this is for fighting this is for fun and did you know what that

did you know what that meant no of course not

meant no of course not that's incredible that's just gold

that's incredible that's just gold wow yeah

okay yeah good times

okay yeah good times i want it

okay are we doing your magic trick now

okay are we doing your magic trick now you want magic i got you i got you

you want magic i got you i got you completely

completely okay

put out your palm now ball them up into

put out your palm now ball them up into a very

a very tight fist

put my palms over yours open your pops

for a warm ball of

bit energy

now here's where the magic happens but i

now here's where the magic happens but i need you to promise not to get mad at me

promise me yeah okay no say i promise i

promise me yeah okay no say i promise i won't get mad

won't get mad okay i promise

it's a magic trick

that bridge will forever be one of my

that bridge will forever be one of my favorite spots in the world

favorite spots in the world i can't believe i had the courage to

i can't believe i had the courage to kiss you it was

kiss you it was the greatest guess of my life

the greatest guess of my life it's hard to explain but the way your

it's hard to explain but the way your lips tasted

lips tasted and the passion behind it i've never

and the passion behind it i've never quite had

quite had that feeling before

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me

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so

so [Music]

my

my [Music]

we went and looked at dogs you said it

we went and looked at dogs you said it was the next step in our relationship

was the next step in our relationship i didn't argue

i know it was a test to see if we could

i know it was a test to see if we could keep an animal alive and see if we could

keep an animal alive and see if we could work

work as parents and we looked at them all day

as parents and we looked at them all day but i said i didn't quite like any of

but i said i didn't quite like any of them and i wasn't ready wasn't part of

them and i wasn't ready wasn't part of my plan

my plan not yet

not yet [Music]

so

so [Music]

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um

so where do you see yourself in five

so where do you see yourself in five years

um

i don't know hopefully still right here

i don't know hopefully still right here with you okay

with you okay where do you see yourself in five years

who knows i would like to travel the

who knows i would like to travel the world though

world though go places see things

go places see things be somebody

but not without you next to me

really really

are you sure i wouldn't ruin you

so what if your roommate

i wouldn't mind it because it's you

i wouldn't mind it because it's you only you love are allowed to ruin

well i don't know you would have to fall

well i don't know you would have to fall in love with me all over again in every

in love with me all over again in every city that we visited

city that we visited that's fine we'll do it again and again

that's fine we'll do it again and again and again and again and again

oh yeah yeah just don't ruin me too bad

oh yeah yeah just don't ruin me too bad oh oh you want to be ruined is that what

oh oh you want to be ruined is that what you want you you really want to be real

you want you you really want to be real nice i'm going to ruin you

nice i'm going to ruin you i'm going to ruin you so bad

i'm going to ruin you so bad you're not getting rid of me that

i'm not trying to get rid of you

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the

the [Music]

[Music] i can only think

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[Music] is

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[Music] the lucky stars

the lucky stars [Music]

[Music] crazy

crazy [Music]

is

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[Music] my lucky

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good morning

good morning [Music]

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is

is [Music]

and

now that i caught you does that mean i

now that i caught you does that mean i get to marry you

you want to marry me well how else are

you want to marry me well how else are we going to travel the world together

we going to travel the world together [Music]

[Music]

thank you

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uh what time was it

uh what time was it it is late o'clock in the a.m

it is late o'clock in the a.m we have to get up what time is it really

we have to get up what time is it really you slept almost nine hours we need to

you slept almost nine hours we need to get up

get up now we have things to do what you saw

now we have things to do what you saw and told me what time it is

and told me what time it is well if you get up maybe you can check

well if you get up maybe you can check okay okay five more minutes no

okay okay five more minutes no no no no don't make me be yours i'm

no no no don't make me be yours i'm gonna beat your ass if you do that

gonna beat your ass if you do that you just say pound my ass no no no no no

you just say pound my ass no no no no no no that's really no no no

no that's really no no no i'm gonna show you what about no feet

i'm gonna show you what about no feet down hey

down hey i show you right now okay

i show you right now okay i get it i get it the early bird gets

i get it i get it the early bird gets the worm

the worm yada yada but you know i'm not early

yada yada but you know i'm not early birds at this point

birds at this point well you know humans have evolved a lot

well you know humans have evolved a lot we can kind of just like order pizzas

we can kind of just like order pizzas stay in cuddle all day [ __ ] all day

stay in cuddle all day [ __ ] all day you know we we have more options

you know we we have more options well now that you say all that well that

well now that you say all that well that makes the decision

makes the decision really hard to not get up and do all the

really hard to not get up and do all the things that we

things that we have to do today we were gonna get out

have to do today we were gonna get out and drive and everything and now we're

and drive and everything and now we're like two hours

like two hours behind yeah but we can drive anytime

behind yeah but we can drive anytime the car is not going anywhere five more

the car is not going anywhere five more minutes

minutes please i am losing patience three

please i am losing patience three minutes 2.5 i will give you 2.5

minutes 2.5 i will give you 2.5 245.

you know you just gave yourself five

you know you just gave yourself five seconds less right

seconds less right okay i'll take that no all right move

okay i'll take that no all right move over over

over over but we're gonna be concentrating on

but we're gonna be concentrating on getting up right

getting up right yeah concentration mode yeah

yeah concentration mode yeah heavily concentration mode okay

heavily concentration mode okay gonna get up so we can get all the

gonna get up so we can get all the things done before we go out and drive

patient

no no

asia you're snoring again zombies

oh [ __ ]

do i do i still got my five minutes

do i do i still got my five minutes it's definitely like one and a half now

it's definitely like one and a half now okay that's

okay that's that's enough i just

i love you patience

you're really [ __ ] with me now aren't

you're really [ __ ] with me now aren't you

i mean if you weren't beating on my

i mean if you weren't beating on my chest

chest maybe i could actually get back to sleep

okay

okay [Music]

[Music] love is complicated i don't know if it's

love is complicated i don't know if it's true to say it's easy to fall in love or

true to say it's easy to fall in love or if it's

if it's too complicated

because i think we as people are the

because i think we as people are the ones that make it complicated

ones that make it complicated life is a journey

one that i had a plan for but the thing

one that i had a plan for but the thing about life is you can't plan for it

about life is you can't plan for it you have to play with the hand you're

you have to play with the hand you're dealt as you go

dealt as you go no matter how hard you try to fight it

no matter how hard you try to fight it you can't escape

you can't escape what we're destined to do

what we're destined to do [Music]

[Music] no i'm just scratching my back

[Music]

[Music] but

but [Music]

what are you doing

what are you doing some say the biggest gesture of love and

some say the biggest gesture of love and relationship is

relationship is committing yourselves to each other

committing yourselves to each other so i did it about your commitment

so i did it about your commitment they say you know when it's right but

they say you know when it's right but they also say that love is blind

they also say that love is blind they say you know when you found the one

they say you know when you found the one but they also say

but they also say you have to work to make it work

i think you're ruining me now

i think you're ruining me now what is this a secret plot or something

what is this a secret plot or something hey it's okay

hey it's okay it's okay

i don't know what you want

look at me i feel like this isn't really

look at me i feel like this isn't really what you want

what you want i question if i bought it for us for you

i question if i bought it for us for you but if it keeps me and you on track with

but if it keeps me and you on track with the plan

the plan it was all worth it and your

it was all worth it and your tears seem to agree

tears seem to agree [Music]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music]

hey

what you up to not much

what you up to not much so much with me

unsolved mysteries is on again

okay not bad not bad just a little tired

okay not bad not bad just a little tired but i'm glad to be home

but i'm glad to be home how's your day been it's good

how's your day been it's good it's good

i'm gonna go back a little bit you okay

i'm gonna go back a little bit you okay yeah yeah it seems like there's

yeah yeah it seems like there's something on your mind

something on your mind no i'm just tired just tired of this

no i'm just tired just tired of this long day

okay

what you should do all day

just just um

just just um yeah just i mean there was a lot of

yeah just i mean there was a lot of stuff to do today and um

stuff to do today and um yeah i mean not really let's talk about

yeah i mean not really let's talk about i'm just tired

huh do you mean anything

huh do you mean anything you should

if i had some really there was some like

if i had some really there was some like really big news that would

really big news that would like change the course of

like change the course of your life or our life

your life or our life [Music]

[Music] just hypothetically you know just i mean

just hypothetically you know just i mean we used to want to do still fight to be

we used to want to do still fight to be with me

yeah why would i not

[Music]

[Music] quit stressing whatever you're doing

quit stressing whatever you're doing you're probably just overthinking too

you're probably just overthinking too much

much okay everything's gonna be okay

right

i love you

make sure you don't talk about it cause

make sure you don't talk about it cause we can talk about it nothing

we can talk about it nothing it's nothing i'm just knowing

come on i know i know i've been avoidant

come on i know i know i've been avoidant and i've been distant

and i've been distant i apologize about that

i apologize about that i want to get better so i'm trying to

i want to get better so i'm trying to open

i just want to be together

we'll be together

i'll be together no sorry i just got

i'll be together no sorry i just got scared that we weren't gonna be together

scared that we weren't gonna be together is this something i did no no no i'm

is this something i did no no no i'm just

just i'm really tired i'm really tired i i

i'm really tired i'm really tired i i shouldn't be talking right now i just

shouldn't be talking right now i just wanted to bless something

wanted to bless something okay yeah we can drop it that's fine i'm

okay yeah we can drop it that's fine i'm sorry

sorry come on i'm sorry you had a long day

come on i'm sorry you had a long day come here

sorry i'm being really stupid i know i

sorry i'm being really stupid i know i know

know okay

we'll figure it out okay no don't

i'm fine i'm fine i'm fine

i'm fine i'm fine i'm fine i'm being really stupid okay okay

i'm being really stupid okay okay [Music]

yes

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all hey it's okay

all hey it's okay whatever it is we'll we'll figure it out

whatever it is we'll we'll figure it out it's okay

whenever you're ready to talk okay

i won't be mad at you

i think you probably we might get

i think you probably we might get through it it might be something really

through it it might be something really good

good it can be really good it doesn't have to

it can be really good it doesn't have to help you but

we'll fix it we'll make it go right okay

we'll fix it we'll make it go right okay i just want it i just love you and i

i just want it i just love you and i want to be with you

i don't want anything to take us away

i don't want anything to take us away i don't want to take you away from me

i don't want to take you away from me i'm sorry sorry sorry i don't know what

i'm sorry sorry sorry i don't know what i'm saying

i'm saying okay it's okay it's okay

just turn this up a little bit

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i love you love i felt

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it

it [Music]

[Music] i i i can't i can't yet

i i i can't i can't yet not not yet

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[Music] please

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so

so [Music]

okay i'm going to run to the store is

okay i'm going to run to the store is there anything you need before i go

there anything you need before i go no you sure

okay right back

can you what

can you what can you take out the trash please

can you take out the trash please i guess you know when i get back you

i guess you know when i get back you never

never this see this is the problem it is over

this see this is the problem it is over full like it is overflowing with trash

full like it is overflowing with trash and there's another one there like you

and there's another one there like you couldn't take the one trash that's right

couldn't take the one trash that's right there

there like why do i have to be the responsible

like why do i have to be the responsible adult all the time here

adult all the time here i feel like i'm the only one taking care

i feel like i'm the only one taking care of everything and it's just

of everything and it's just like just trash everywhere just what is

like just trash everywhere just what is this

you feel better that make you feel

you feel better that make you feel better now

you want me to take out the [ __ ]

you want me to take out the [ __ ] trash is the trash the [ __ ] problem

there took out the [ __ ] trash

just believe oh lee

just believe oh lee oh you want me to leave now

oh you want me to leave now cause i remember you saying for days on

cause i remember you saying for days on end

end oh just promise me you'll never leave

oh just promise me you'll never leave promise me you won't regret this

promise me you won't regret this i feel like right now you're the one

i feel like right now you're the one starting to regret this or there's

starting to regret this or there's something else going on you're like

something else going on you're like pmsing some [ __ ] like just

pmsing some [ __ ] like just just talk to me because you haven't such

just talk to me because you haven't such an [ __ ] okay

an [ __ ] okay this has nothing to do with all of this

this has nothing to do with all of this and you just made a huge

and you just made a huge mess everywhere that i'm gonna have to

mess everywhere that i'm gonna have to clean up now like i don't have

clean up now like i don't have so much other [ __ ] to deal with right

so much other [ __ ] to deal with right now what do you have to deal with

now what do you have to deal with show me cause i haven't seen [ __ ]

show me cause i haven't seen [ __ ] go

huh what

huh what leave me alone anytime

leave me alone anytime you want to talk i stop what i doing to

you want to talk i stop what i doing to have a conversation with you even when i

have a conversation with you even when i don't want to

don't want to i stop why because i care but the moment

i stop why because i care but the moment that i ask what's going on with you

that i ask what's going on with you you want to walk away what the [ __ ] up

you want to walk away what the [ __ ] up with that

with that hmm this is the problem with us

hmm this is the problem with us okay like you you just don't understand

okay like you you just don't understand anything you

anything you did even bother to listen to me no

did even bother to listen to me no you just get completely riled up and you

you just get completely riled up and you don't even ask what's

don't even ask what's wrong except to throw that i'm pmsing

wrong except to throw that i'm pmsing and then just make

and then just make all the stupid trash everywhere because

all the stupid trash everywhere because i have to keep guessing with you

i have to keep guessing with you because every time i ask what's wrong

because every time i ask what's wrong you don't give me answers

you don't give me answers you want to walk away you want to go be

you want to walk away you want to go be by yourself no it's not true oh it isn't

by yourself no it's not true oh it isn't then what were you [ __ ] doing just

then what were you [ __ ] doing just now you walked away from me i that's not

now you walked away from me i that's not okay all right i don't always do that

okay all right i don't always do that and i

and i i just are you totally i don't want to

i just are you totally i don't want to talk right now okay just

talk right now okay just just go and just leave all this mess

just go and just leave all this mess everywhere

everywhere no just talk to me

just no no

this is how we're gonna be this is how

this is how we're gonna be this is how it's always going to get whenever

it's always going to get whenever we have a slight problem

then just talk to me all i want to know

then just talk to me all i want to know is what's going on with you

is what's going on with you nothing it's not your business [ __ ]

nothing it's not your business [ __ ] it is my business

it is my business this is an us thing we said we wanted to

this is an us thing we said we wanted to keep this moment alive well i haven't

keep this moment alive well i haven't felt this moment

felt this moment since the day we [ __ ] met

since the day we [ __ ] met what happened what changed

what happened what changed [ __ ] this i'm going to the grocery store

[ __ ] this i'm going to the grocery store i'm going to get some milk i'll get

i'm going to get some milk i'll get whatever the [ __ ] you need to calm down

whatever the [ __ ] you need to calm down i'll get you some chamomile tea or some

i'll get you some chamomile tea or some [ __ ]

[ __ ] i'll be back in maybe an hour maybe i

i'll be back in maybe an hour maybe i [ __ ] feel like coming back

it's [ __ ] oh you [ __ ] [ __ ]

it's [ __ ] oh you [ __ ] [ __ ] you [ __ ] finished

oh

i don't know what to do

how can two people who are so deeply in

how can two people who are so deeply in love

descend into chaos so quickly

the selfishness of love can be deadly

uh-huh

i am

is

i feel like you're not there

me

i don't want to do that

i don't want to do that i want to do this to it

i want to do this to it please make it go away

so

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ready back of the road only got about

ready back of the road only got about six more hours till we hit colorado

six more hours till we hit colorado i don't think i can

look it's just it's just once in the

look it's just it's just once in the procedure

procedure once that's all done we can get back on

once that's all done we can get back on the road

patient it's not just one simple

patient it's not just one simple procedure okay

we've done some pretty [ __ ] up [ __ ] in

we've done some pretty [ __ ] up [ __ ] in our lives but this is

something else

something else don't you want to get back to normal

don't you want to get back to normal get back to our plans

get back to our plans hitting every dive bar going to every

hitting every dive bar going to every waterfall

waterfall seeing the world you and i right

if we go through with this i don't i

if we go through with this i don't i don't think we're gonna be the same

don't think we're gonna be the same people

people anymore i don't think i'll be the same

anymore i don't think i'll be the same person ever again

how can you go back to something after

that

what do you want me to do what do you

what do you want me to do what do you want me to do love

want me to do love i'm not ready to deal with something

i'm not ready to deal with something like that

like that i'm not ready to ruin our plans

but we have so much more time left

but we have so much more time left right we can worry about that later

do you remember where you took me

do you remember where you took me our first date

our first date yeah i remember

take us up on that little trail

i saw the most beautiful waterfall i've

i saw the most beautiful waterfall i've ever seen in my life

i remember like it was yesterday

it was a good time it was almost as

it was a good time it was almost as beautiful

i'm not ready for this i'm not ready for

i'm not ready for this i'm not ready for that

i need to think about that

what do you mean

i mean that wasn't a part of the plan

i mean that wasn't a part of the plan the plan was supposed to be you and i

the plan was supposed to be you and i keeping that moment alive no matter

keeping that moment alive no matter where we went

where we went what happened to that

what happened to that don't you still want that

patient i'm gonna go through with this

patient i'm gonna go through with this with or without you

i want to do it with you

i want to do it with you so i hope you come with me

[ __ ] [ __ ]

our love was serendipitous a downfall

our love was serendipitous a downfall was completely orchestrated by my own

was completely orchestrated by my own self-sabotage

i don't know if we were ever in love

i don't know if we were ever in love with each other or

with each other or just in love with the idea of being in

just in love with the idea of being in love with each other

[Music]

i'm such i'm such an awful person

i feel like a fraud

i feel like a [ __ ] piece of [ __ ]

i i didn't want it to be like this

i pushed you away i pushed everyone away

i pushed you away i pushed everyone away i lost you

love of my life

i'm so sorry

i'm so sorry [Music]

[Music] i lost you forever

and now i can't even apologize

and now i can't even apologize and i have to live with that

and i have to live with that i know i do

but [ __ ]

living just seems too hard

you deserve to be here more than i do

you deserve so much better

you deserve so much better love if you can hear me i'm sorry

i'm so goddamn sorry

i'm so goddamn sorry it was supposed to be like this

we're gonna travel to work

we're gonna travel to work but i ruined it

but i ruined it [Music]

[Music] you always said that you wanted to ruin

you always said that you wanted to ruin me

me and for a while i thought you did

now i realize i ruined myself

now i realize i ruined myself do you feel better he asked

do you feel better he asked i feel fine she said

i feel fine she said there's nothing wrong with me i

there's nothing wrong with me i feel fine

feel fine the thing about human nature is that

the thing about human nature is that we're all programmed to love and care

we're all programmed to love and care but we are selfish and self-destructive

but we are selfish and self-destructive the hypocrisy is

the hypocrisy is programmed into our nature

rolling stones saying you can't always

rolling stones saying you can't always get what you want

get what you want but if you try you'll find

but if you try you'll find you get what you need well i got what i

you get what you need well i got what i needed

needed and then i pissed it away

and then i pissed it away [ __ ] man no no

[ __ ] man no no no [ __ ] you dude this is your [ __ ]

no [ __ ] you dude this is your [ __ ] fault i didn't do [ __ ] [ __ ]

fault i didn't do [ __ ] [ __ ] i didn't do [ __ ] [ __ ] wrong

i didn't do [ __ ] [ __ ] wrong [Music]

[Music] [ __ ] [ __ ]

[ __ ] [ __ ] [Music]

[Music] [ __ ] phone pick up the [ __ ] phone

[ __ ] phone pick up the [ __ ] phone you get it yet are you [ __ ] kidding

you get it yet are you [ __ ] kidding [Music]

[Music] you well why the [ __ ] not i'm not ready

you well why the [ __ ] not i'm not ready to have a [ __ ] child

to have a [ __ ] child [Music]

[Music] you know what you're [ __ ] selfish

you know what you're [ __ ] selfish you're a selfish [ __ ] [ __ ]

you're a selfish [ __ ] [ __ ] you know i bet that [ __ ] ain't even

you know i bet that [ __ ] ain't even sniping my kid i bet you

sniping my kid i bet you [ __ ] [ __ ] you don't [ __ ] hang up on

[Music]

me

[Music]

[Music] show me show me how tough you are

show me show me how tough you are you talking to utah

you talking to utah [Music]

[ __ ] love

i lost love

i lost love [Music]

wiggle wiggle

[Music]

[Music] i don't need a single thing holding

i don't need a single thing holding back i got too many things riding on

back i got too many things riding on all my dreams to have [ __ ]

all my dreams to have [ __ ] and i'm the one that's childish

and i'm the one that's childish [ __ ] [ __ ]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] it's how you won't do it all right

ah

i wonder why i didn't kill myself in

i wonder why i didn't kill myself in those dark times

those dark times was i too selfish for suicide or did i

was i too selfish for suicide or did i just

just lack the constitution for it

lack the constitution for it it'll be this time overdose

it'll be this time overdose this girl never said a chance

this girl never said a chance should we try to resuscitate what's the

should we try to resuscitate what's the use

use she's already gone what's the use

she's already gone what's the use what do you mean what's the use this is

what do you mean what's the use this is a person

a person she had ambitions dreams

she had ambitions dreams she had love dude what the [ __ ] going

on

[Music]

i'm you sorry this

what

you're the reason for this patient what

you're the reason for this patient what do you mean i'm the reason

how can i

i'm sorry i'm so sorry

i didn't want it to be like this

[Music]

i never thought you'd let your hair get

i never thought you'd let your hair get that long

that long what would love say all about this

love's gone forever

love's gone forever she's not coming back yeah yeah listen

she's not coming back yeah yeah listen i know it's saturday night and i know

i know it's saturday night and i know you're in your mom's garage doing bong

you're in your mom's garage doing bong hits talking about all the hollywood

hits talking about all the hollywood blah blah blah

blah blah blah all while you were wishing someone would

all while you were wishing someone would just wake you

just wake you up wake you up from this

up wake you up from this nightmare but

this is a nightmare that you won't wake

this is a nightmare that you won't wake up from

up from a trap door that you won't come back

a trap door that you won't come back from

from love is gone your dreams of love and

love is gone your dreams of love and grace are now over

grace are now over and you're just sitting there graceless

and you're just sitting there graceless you know i woke up sucking on a lemon

you know i woke up sucking on a lemon the other day

remember when you used to play baseball

remember when you used to play baseball all you wanted to do was make dad proud

all you wanted to do was make dad proud but in the end you always [ __ ] it up

striking out letting the ball hit

striking out letting the ball hit between your legs

between your legs you've let that happen too many times

you've let that happen too many times you've struck

you've struck out too much

all i see is her face

all i smell is her scented candles

all i smell is her scented candles sprouting plants her innocence

stop being so dramatic she's

stop being so dramatic she's on to bigger and

on to bigger and better things you know

better things you know you have this bad tendency of making up

you have this bad tendency of making up these grand ideas these

these grand ideas these grand dreams

but in the real world you know that

but in the real world you know that would never

would never ever happened

your dreams of love and grace

your dreams of love and grace they will never happen

they will never happen over my dead body

over my dead body you're not dead yet brother you're still

you're not dead yet brother you're still alive and well

alive and well which begs the question

what do you look like when you're nude

what do you look like when you're nude i'm so sorry

i don't know what [ __ ] happened i i

i don't know what [ __ ] happened i i don't know

things were supposed to be like this

awesome

[Music]

[Music]

[Music] my patient hey

my patient hey hate love

it's okay

all things must come to an end

that's the cycle of life

you're safe now

can be with

what's next

it's entirely up to you mother

what would you like to have happen next

oh no

oh no part of me wants to live

and keep going

part of me just wants to die

part of me just wants to die well there you have it those are your

well there you have it those are your options

come be with me again

die and release your soul

or you can keep on living

and raise our child

live the life that you were supposed to

live the life that you were supposed to meet

but ultimately the choice is yours

child

shhh

love is a drug it gets you high when you

love is a drug it gets you high when you have it and you keep going back for more

have it and you keep going back for more hits like an addict but that being said

hits like an addict but that being said the detox is

the detox is worse than any substance you can smoke

worse than any substance you can smoke or ingest

or ingest broken hearts and broken dreams

broken hearts and broken dreams sometimes

sometimes never get mended i'm not afraid to keep

never get mended i'm not afraid to keep on living and i'm not afraid to walk

on living and i'm not afraid to walk this world alone

life has a weird way of second chances

life has a weird way of second chances who gets them

who gets them who doesn't but when whatever you call

who doesn't but when whatever you call it

it god universe whatever

god universe whatever when it gives you a second chance you

when it gives you a second chance you can't waste it

you can't waste it

you can't waste it

you can't waste it [Music]

what brings you here i was just

what brings you here i was just wondering if he was here yeah yeah he's

wondering if he was here yeah yeah he's here

here um would it be cool if i came in for a

um would it be cool if i came in for a little bit

little bit of course i know now what it means to

of course i know now what it means to care

care about someone other than myself

about someone other than myself [Music]

[Music] they say committing yourselves to each

they say committing yourselves to each other is the biggest gesture of love

other is the biggest gesture of love i say it's creating new life to love

i say it's creating new life to love [Music]

[Music]

[Music] [Applause]

[Music]

[Music] is

is [Music]

[Music]

is

is [Music]

and i need you more than

you