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[Crush]

[Episode 9]

It's my duty to carry the family's burdens.

But I don't want him to face these problems.

If we get into a relationship,

and it becomes serious,

he'll have to face this one day.

I don't want him to deal with this.

I think you should at least give it a try.

Give him and yourself a chance.

Although I understand what you mean,

I feel that

avoiding starting something

because it might end one day

means you're not being true to yourself.

OK, I'll stop talking.

You should decide how it goes between the two of you.

Where are you going?

To my boyfriend's place.

Boyfriend?

The one I met before this?

The school is going on a break soon.

Where are you going to stay?

I can still stay at the hostel for a few days.

After that I'll go for a short term rental.

Why go through so much trouble?

Just stay at my place.

I'll just inform Cheng Yin about it.

Hold on.

Thank you.

Don't need to be so polite with me.

Look at the environment here.

There should be everything you need.

You don't need to move anything in.

Just give me a call if you need anything.

I'm leaving.

I'm taking this with me.

You can have the rest.

Thanks for your fruits.

Six lemons.

That's enough.

Su Nian Qin,

you look like you're part of the sofa.

Here, have some lemon juice.

You're not drinking it?

Don't you like this?

I made it with fresh lemons.

I'll drink it later.

OK.

What are you doing?

Are you going to listen to some radio?

Xiao Lu sent an audio file to me.

She wants me to listen to it.

Audio file?

♫ The overlapping wishes ♫

Isn't this Xu Qian's voice?

♫ Plays up the colour and fragrance ♫

♫ The so called stubbornness ♫

Why did she send Momo's voice recording

♫ Never worries about time ♫

over to you?

Momo?

♫ The raindrops evaporate right away ♫

It's my best friend's band.

♫ The elders speak with feelings ♫

They're also my university coursemates.

♫ A flower is incomplete without its leaves ♫

♫ Finally I found my way ♫

You've met them.

Wei Hao and Xu Qian.

♫ The long awaited summer ♫

Do you remember?

Your childhood friends with a complicated relationship?

♫ Is burning with heat ♫

♫ It's as if the heat is waving ♫

♫ The fluctuation is just a pretence ♫

Indeed,

even though they haven't practised for a long while,

♫ The day is quiet ♫

it still feels good when you listen to it.

♫ And the sunset is bustling ♫

I really feel like watching Momo's jamming session.

♫ Now I'm putting on the badge of transformation ♫

Drink your lemon juice, quick.

♫ We long for fire ♫

♫ Longing for boastfulness as it speaks my mind ♫

♫ We long for fire ♫

♫ The expansion in our hearts ♫

♫ Kickstart my journey ♫

♫ The expansion in our hearts speaks my mind ♫

[The expansion in the heart acts out my thoughts]

We played well today.

Yes.

When did we not play well?

The bass seems to have been submerged in water.

-Hello? -I think something's wrong with it.

Look.

Let me see.

It's rusted.

Is it time to get a new one?

It's alright. I'll make do.

Do you mean

that I got in?

Are you sure?

Of course.

Thank you.

See you then!

By the way, the band that you brought over the last time,

I let Nian Qin listen to the recording of their practice session.

Nian Qin says it's quite good.

Really?

I plan to produce a show

that focuses on young, indie artists.

I think getting people who are extremely new like them,

basically amateurs,

is very interesting.

By the way,

how has Nian Qin been recently?

Haven't heard about him in a while.

I'm going to tell you secretly.

Nian Qin has been busy dating recently.

I've known that he is interested in that girl since the beginning.

I'm so curious.

What kind of girl is she?

She's quite an adorable girl.

Has a unique name too.

She's called

Wu Yan.

Senior, you need to keep it a secret.

Or else, you know what's going to happen.

I know, don't worry.

What are you busy with so early in the morning?

I'm bringing my boyfriend on a date.

We're going to an early movie. There's fewer people.

Are you trying to choke your boyfriend?

Nonsense.

I'm trying to awaken all the senses in the body.

So that even in a crowd,

he'll be able to find me. Do I smell good?

What is this?

I came back at 3 a.m. last night.

Didn't even have the energy to change.

Poor you.

Rest well then.

I'm leaving.

Bye bye.

He's going into the Egyptian centre.

He's hiding in the corner

and waiting for the mummy to appear.

The shadow appeared.

The mummy...

Stop watching.

The scarier I get, the more I want to watch it.

[The scarier it gets, the more she wants to watch it.

It really is like being poisoned.]

-Make way, make way. -Excuse me.

Make way, make way.

Excuse me. Excuse me.

Move inside.

I'm sorry, please make way.

I'm sorry.

Go that way.

Don't push.

Oh no, his phone is in my bag.

He's so stubborn,

he's not going to ask for help.

Oh dear.

Su Nian Qin!

That was fast.

I was so worried.

What is there to worry about?

No matter where we split up,

I'll be waiting for you at the same spot.

But what if I'm the one who got lost?

The scent of your perfume is so strong

it's going to be easy to find you.

Su Nian Qin!

Where's Wu Yan?

I've downloaded all the movies she spoke about.

She went to the grocery store right outside to get some Hawthorn sticks.

On the way back,

she saw some candied haws,

but we didn't get the ones that she loved.

She kept thinking about it since we got home.

She couldn't stand it anymore,

so she went to get some food to curb the craving.

Nian Qin, why are you suddenly talking so much now?

It's nothing. That's quite nice.

I'm leaving. You go on.

Sir, I didn't hear you wrongly, did I?

Correct. After you hand over your tasks,

you can go over to the crew to see Nie Xi.

Thank... thank you sir.

Thank you for the care you've given during this time.

I'll come back and visit often.

So, I... I'm leaving now.

Thanks, thanks, thanks!

Mr Zhong, I'm back.

What took you so long?

I've been waiting for you for half a day.

How did you know that I'm coming back?

During the meeting,

Nie Xi went to see the people Mr Jiang wants

and insisted on getting you back.

Why?

It could be any reason,

but it's definitely not because of your work performance.

Don't assume that all young people like me

have a mild temper.

You have a mild temper?

The entire station knows

that you could explode at any moment, OK?

How dare you say that.

Sang Wu Yan.

I requested you back

not so that you can play around

or flirt around.

Arrange these materials.

We'll need it for the live show tomorrow.

Xi... Xi.

Flirting?

Where did you get this from?

Xiao Lu bought it. I'm not sure.

That's too troublesome for Xiao Lu.

Just eat it.

I'll pay back any favours to her.

Do you want to try it? I can feed you.

No.

You've touched it. Eat it.

You're exaggerating.

It's not that sour.

Don't you love to drink lemon juice?

Since when did I love lemon juice?

No way, Su Nian Qin.

[Mum]

Hello?

Not going home yet?

Because I have to work over-time today.

Why are you working until so late?

It's very dangerous for a girl to walk alone at night.

I've already told you

this really isn't a good job.

On top of that, we're not there with you.

There's no one to take care of you.

Mum, I'm working quite well here.

What do you mean well?

You're alone in an unfamiliar place.

Wouldn't you be bullied?

Tell me honestly,

all this while until today,

you're always been so busy,

what have you been busy with?

Is it because...

Mum, don't speculate.

My colleagues are quite nice to me here.

There really is no problem.

Then finish work soon.

Don't loiter outside.

Be aware of your safety when you're alone.

I know.

Xi.

You haven't been improving recently.

Your focus and angles in the writing are both wrong.

I'll change it.

You don't need to.

Just leave it be.

But, Xi...

What... this?

What's wrong with this?

Nothing is wrong.

I've arranged

these materials long ago.

There definitely won't be a problem for the live show.

So she...

I have no idea either.

Maybe Xi just wants to break you in.

[Nian Qin]

Hello?

Hold on.

Here's your coffee. Enjoy.

Thank you!

See, he came all the way just to see me and left.

Maybe he can tell

that I'm having trouble at work.

Our Su

can see quite clearly

when he needs to.

Wake up. You're so love sick.

Your boyfriend just needs to come over

and you'll forget any problem that you're having.

I can't just keep thinking about it.

I just don't understand.

This Xi

has always been quite nice.

She's usually quite friendly to me.

Although sometimes she's a little too strict,

she gives out

the vibes of a teacher.

Why did it suddenly change?

Why is this...

Are you being pranked?

You're so carefree,

you might not even realise when you've offended someone.

I don't think anyone would do that.

Wu Yan is just an intern.

Would someone waste time to prank her?

Wu Yan,

I think it's best not to overthink.

In the workplace,

the most important thing is

to not take yourself too seriously.

We lose our worth once

we've left our parents and school.

How someone would react depends solely on their mood.

We can't change anything, anyway.

It's important to just do your best.

Incoming call from Sang Wu Yan.

Hello?

Why are you not back yet?

It's only past nine o'clock now.

Yes, you have the routine of an old person.

My goodness.

You...

People who drink with you so late

are definitely not good people.

Not at all! They're my best friends.

And I asked them out.

The car is here.

I...

We're leaving.

I'm going to hang up. Bye bye.

Was that your mum?

No.

I'm staying at my friend's place.

You should bring Xu Qian with you. Go.

Then you should leave first.

I'm worried if you're waiting for a cab by yourself.

Good bye.

You take good care of Xu Qian for me.

Go.

Bye bye.

Bye bye.

Thank you, sir.

Su Nian Qin, you are absolutely...

My classmates asked

if it was my mum that called just now.

My goodness.

Don't move. I'm acting drunk.

Give it back.

No.

This is mine.

Is it?

Su Nian Qin, were the glutinous rice balls nice?

I don't know.

I gave it to Xiao Wei.

I was wrong.

I shouldn't get such a sweet candy for Xiao Wei.

She'll get cavities.

[Oh my god. How long has he been missing?]

[Topic: Yi Jin]

[I'm about to post a missing person notice.]

[What if the great god Yi Jin]

[is frustrated with the music scene's present standards]

[and decides to devote himself to other things?]

[Are you telling me he isn't]

[coming back after the New Year celebration?]

I'm so jealous of you young girls.

You don't gain weight even when you're eating two sets of meat.

Tell me.

Why would she suddenly

come and speak to me?

It's just...

But Xi was really nice to me before this.

Is this Xi that you're talking about Nie Xi?

I know her.

Of course you know her.

She did your interview before this.

No, she's Xiao Lu's senior.

She's quite close to Xiao Lu.

Xiao Lu gave you Momo's recording before this.

I asked Xi to help find a studio too.

Everything makes sense then.

That means even before the live show,

you and Xi were quite close already.

Not really close.

We're just friends.

That was unexpected, Su Nian Qin.

You always look so distant,

but you're actually quite popular.

What do you mean?

I don't mean anything.

It's a psychological analysis. You wouldn't understand.

Wu Yan,

can you eat less when you're home for New Year?

Your belly is getting kind of soft.

Who says you can touch me?

You're

still touching?

Stop it.

You're not allowed to touch. No touching.

Are you sure you don't want me to send you?

It's alright.

I'm not bringing a lot of luggage.

There's no need for you to travel.

The car is here.

I'm leaving.

I'll come back earlier to spend time with you.

Be good.

I'm leaving.

Be good. I'm leaving.

Bye.

Be good when you're alone.

I'm leaving.

Bye bye.

Where's our daughter?

Still sleeping?

She's studying.

Studying?

Don't bother her.

Rain is hitting the eaves,

the swallow has returned home.

Next to Zhuque Bridge,

the boat has long sailed.

After we part this year,

when will we meet again?

Read that again.

Rain is hitting the eaves,

the swallow has returned home.

Next to Zhuque Bridge,

the boat has long sailed.

After we part this year,

when will we meet again?

I wonder under the umbrella,

in Wuyi Alley,

the light colours of twilight.

What's wrong?

I suddenly realised

that your voice sounds nice.

What are you doing?

Why are you suddenly studying old poems?

Nothing.

I'm doing lesson preparations.

When I'm back

I need to teach the children at the special eds school.

I'm doing lesson preparations.

Then why are you wearing your earphones?

This...

Well...

There's a kid who is very slow at learning.

He can't finish the winter holiday assignments and called me.

I'm just giving him some guidance.

OK, Mum.

Go cook.

The student is asking me what's happening.

I'm already a teacher,

but my mum is still asking about everything.

Isn't that shameful?

Now that we're out, it wouldn't be as stuffy right?

We're wasting so much effort for this.

Why can't we just sit her next to the window to get some air?

Do you know him?

Bring grandma to the park.

I'll be over in a second.

That's my mum.

She doesn't come home for New Year often before this.

Wu Yan saw her by chance.

So why did you...

I prepared some gifts for house visiting.

Bring it back and tell Aunty I said hi.

That's funny.

You want to say hi to her.

No, but...

If you see her in the future, ignore her.

If she asks to borrow some money or for your help,

pretend you don't know me,

and just refuse.

Why would you say that about your mum?

Because I'm tired.

I keep seeing her getting hurt by another

prick the same way.

Then coming back and leaving over and over again.

It's always been like this.

I'm tired.

So,

don't care and don't ask.

Just pretend that you didn't know.

You're helping me by not doing anything.

I've told you.

You're helping me

by not doing anything.

Incoming call from Sang Wu Yan.

Incoming call from Sang Wu Yan.

What are you doing?

Not doing anything.

What about you?

What are you doing?

Not doing anything.

The New Year celebration is just like that.

Like what?

We have a reunion dinner, watch performances.

give some red packets, play with some firecrackers,

watch the fireworks and stuff.

It's boring.

So you're calling me because you're bored?

No.

I'll share a playlist in NetEase with you.

Let's listen to some music together, OK?

Playlist?

You've never seen a playlist?

My goodness.

Let me show you the world.

[Picked Up a Fragment of a Star]

Wu Yan. "Picked Up a Fragment of a Star."

Did you know,

Although I'm a science student,

when I was chatting online

about Yi Jin before this,

I was really creative with blowing his trumpet.

It means using very extravagant words

and poems and other things to compliment Yi Jin.

But ever since I've fallen for you,

I feel that a lot of times,

I would think of you when I hear a certain song.

The feeling the song gives me

is the same one I have for you.

After a while,

I've collected a lot of songs without realising it.

I want to describe my feelings,

but I can't find the words for it,

or when I miss you a lot,

I'll listen to those songs.

And soon after that,

I stopped

blowing his trumpet.

I feel that

if I share this playlist with you,

you will definitely understand.

You'll clearly know my feelings for you.

So why is it called "Picked Up a Fragment of a Star"?

Because

there's a secret you've forgotten,

but I know of.

Su Nian Qin,

the universe in your heart isn't all dark.

I've picked up a fragment of a star.

So no matter where

I lose you,

I'll definitely be able to find you.

Ten, nine, eight, seven, six,

five, four, three, two, one!

Happy New Year, Nian Qin!

Happy New Year.

OK. I'm going to listen to some songs.

♫ ♫The warm sunlight idly crawls into the window♫ ♫

♫ A faint and tipsy scent of coffee aroma ♫

♫ Suddenly you're by my side again ♫

♫ Smiling as bright as the stars ♫

♫ Turning to the next page of the storybook ♫

♫ You said the wind will dry the tears shed by the clouds ♫

Why are you so quiet?

after coming back from the New Year holidays?

Did I tell you that I need to give an open lecture?

I'm anxious about it.

Nian Qin,

what do you think students like to listen to?

Like when you were in special education school

as a student,

is there anything that you would like to learn in particular

but wasn't taught by the teachers?

I was only in the welfare home until I was six.

So the time I spent in the special education school

is just around one year.

I don't remember very well anymore.

Just there until you were six.

Were they good to you?

I mean the aunties taking care of you.

There's really no good or bad.

Taking care of abandoned kids

is just a job to them,

it's not because of love from their hearts

or any other feelings.

Of course, just like how we treat Xiao Wei,

they would have their favourite child.

But for me,

I liked to be alone when I was a child.

I always feel that the world is really noisy.

Everyone is talking,

but it's none of my business.

I only feel calm

when music starts playing.

There's the safe feeling of being wrapped up.

What happened after you turned six?

I don't want to continue with this topic.

OK.

Since you've already gotten a boyfriend,

why are you still bringing me clothes shopping?

You know why.

I see you cooped up at home studying every day.

So I brought you out for some fresh air.

That's not it.

I think you just don't want to tire out that person at home.

By the way,

when you're back home for the New Year,

did you tell your parents

that you're in a relationship?

You should do it soon.

See,

our mum has all my messages.

Shouldn't you leave a copy of all his messages

with our parents?

Since you're not going home,

if anything happens,

he would be a bigger suspect than I am.

Suspect number one.

Why can't you hope for something good for me?

Aren't I hoping for something good for you now?

Let's shop,

buy clothes.

What do you think, do I look good?

No.

You can't even see, but you're saying it doesn't look good.

Nian Qin,

are there no treatments for your eyes?

No.

It's congenital.

Do you want my eyes to be cured so badly?

Not really.

But if you see what I look like,

you might not dote on me anymore.

I know that you're a beautiful girl.

How would you know?

I can hear it.

No.

My beauty is incomparable.

Think of it this way.

If I'm not the prettiest,

then I would be the cutest.

If I'm not the cutest,

then I would be the person who loves you the most.

Since you put it that way,

now I really want to know.

What the person who loves me the most looks like.

Come here.

These are my eyebrows. They're messy.

I don't really like to groom them.

These are my eyes.

I don't have a lot of lashes,

and my eyes love to tear up,

but my eyesight is perfect.

This is my nose.

It's small.

I have to check

to see if there's flaws, to return you.

You want to return me?

No way.

What's up?

Everyone

including us that are "normal"

would feel the anxiety that I mentioned

when interacting with people.

The level of anxiety differs for everyone,

and it's different based on experience too.

It's unavoidable.

It's not something only you have,

and it doesn't happen because you're not good enough.

The important thing is that you should bravely open up your heart,

bravely speak up,

so that people know your thoughts.

That way, you will find

that the possibilities in our future

are a lot more than we can imagine.

OK. That's the end of the lesson.

Dismiss.

All rise.

Goodbye, Miss.

Ms Sang.

Xiao Wei.

Xiao Ling told me

that she saw Mr Su before the class began.

Did you invite him to listen in?

I didn't know that.

But thank you for letting me know.

Go back to your seat.

Let's see.

[Xiao Lu, did Nian Qin come to the school?]

Yes.

[Sister]

Hello?

OK.

Please send the flight number to me.

I'm going to start driving. Bye.

Xiao Wei and Xiao Lu were double witnesses.

Don't deny it.

You slipped away.

You have to help me take a picture.

How are these two things related?

Of course they're related.

You're my boyfriend,

so you need to help me take pictures.

Why do you need a photo?

Because I dressed up differently today.

Just push here later.

Just push when I tell you to.

Push.

Push twice more.

Don't you know the secret of taking pictures

is to take two more?

Push three more times.

Then?

Then,

have we never taken a picture together?

Let's take a picture together.

Come here.

Don't block, don't block.

Here.

You need to smile.

You look good when you smile.

Look at the camera.

Let me see.

It looks quite good.

Wait a moment.

Hello?

Wu Yan,

why are you not home again?

I...

I have something on in school.

Come back at the end of the month.

Your dad and I have contacted a high school.

They're looking for a psychology teacher.

Mum...

Bring your resume

and those certificates back.

You need to prepare for it.

There's an interview.

It's inconvenient for me to discuss this with you now.

I can't talk now. Talk later.

What do you mean inconvenient?

Why have you been sneaking around lately?

OK, I'm hanging up. Bye bye.

What's wrong?

My mum called.

She told me something about work.