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LOVE (FT. MARRIAGE AND DIVORCE) 2

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EPISODE 12

I'll grab you a plate. Toast or waffle?

Want some sausages?

You should have come by earlier for a swim.

I took a cab here.

Right. Is Ji-a home?

She's going skiing.

-With Ms. Kim? -With Hyeon-jin's family.

Mother has errands to run today.

Shouldn't a family member go with her? She might get hurt.

Hyeon-jin's mom is a teacher and knows how to take care of kids.

Hyeon-jin's aunt is going too.

We should head out after brunch and surprise her.

I don't have any patients today.

Well?

We're going to court.

Who is this divorce for?

Do you think you'll be happy if you get a divorce?

And if I carry on living like this?

That depends on me. I'll do my best.

You did your best with that girl,

which is why she said you two are in love.

You always do your best with everyone.

Then give me three years.

I'll divorce you then if that's what you still want.

-I've made up my mind. -During 13 years of our marriage,

I've never done anything wrong except for this one incident.

Who knows?

I can't blame you for not believing me, but it's the truth.

I swear to God.

Have you ever been turned off by someone?

You never felt any attachment toward your birth mother, right?

Imagine how you'd feel if I was the one who had an affair.

I'll make it up to you.

You can hate me all you want, but think about Ji-a.

I have, over and over again.

Can you please just forget about everything

and do as I say this time around? I'm begging you.

Not seeing you is how I'll forget.

Actually, it'll be more like enduring.

If neither staying married nor getting a divorce

can bring you happiness,

let's do the former,

so that this won't take a toll on Ji-a.

I can't act like nothing happened.

I can hardly smile anymore.

Can you put on an act for us both?

I'll do anything.

I don't want to see your face or hear your voice anymore,

because everything was a lie.

I'll drive.

Head to court.

COURT

Turn left at the next intersection.

Even if you had been with another man, I could let it slide

as long as you didn't truly love him.

I must have married a saint.

A saint who cheated on his wife

with a girl who is 16 years younger than you are.

Just like how men can't fully understand women,

it's the same the other way around. We're just wired differently.

Women have affairs too.

Many do. It's just a matter of that person's character.

You only seem perfect on the outside.

You're going the wrong way.

AIRPLANE MODE

Forgive me.

I did a terrible thing.

You'll only hurt your knees.

Please take good care of her.

Right. I thank you in advance.

You're only exhausting me.

If I were your son, you would have forgiven me.

You're not just my wife, but my friend.

Not just a friend, but my lover.

There are also times when I depend on you like a son does to a mother.

-Only when I'm needed. -I can't live without you.

Get lost.

Ever seen a dead man come back to life?

If my mom returns from her grave,

I'll forget this ever happened.

So get up.

Get up. Even seeing you kneeling disgusts me.

There's no need to waste time or exhaust our emotions.

I won't change my mind even if you beg for forgiveness for ten years.

Me neither.

-How dare you! -I know I wronged you.

You've changed and that's why you turned to another woman.

That may be true, but I never gave her my heart.

If I didn't love you anymore, I would have wanted a divorce.

-Well, I'm grateful. -What if I were your son?

If your son had an affair, you would give him an earful and let it slide.

If it were my son, I wouldn't disown him for cheating on his wife.

But you're not my son.

I'm your wife, not your mother who gave birth to you.

Humans are emotional animals.

An AI robot would only feel what it's programmed to feel

and not be swayed even if a beautiful angel appeared.

But humans are living organisms.

Our emotions are easily swayed.

-It was a misjudgment. -I can see right through you.

I can tell whether you're being sincere or not.

You don't think I'm sincere right now?

Does this sound like I'm lying?

I know you mean it.

You were sincere with me,

but also with that A Mi girl.

I don't know if you loved her, but I could tell you sincerely liked her.

I guess you didn't love her since what we had wasn't love either.

-It wasn't? -You wouldn't cheat on me if it was.

You'll know at the very end.

Your kids still love you after finding the love of their lives.

That's how it is. We all love in unique ways.

Then you're admitting that what you felt for her was love

no matter how deep that love was.

This will all seem like a minor setback when we're older.

It's not a life or death matter.

Haven't you heard of "crime of passion"?

Love can lead to heinous crimes.

-I won't divorce you. -You don't get a say in it.

The decision is mine, you cheating--

Whether it's a mistake or wrongdoing, we should set things right,

not end the relationship.

We have Ji-a to consider.

We have a responsibility as parents.

I guess that includes having an affair.

I'm a parent but also an adult male.

How can a grown man do everything by the book all the time?

The world isn't always beautiful.

Grand waterfalls, rivers, and forests.

There are many beautiful things,

but we also have deserts that are too barren to live on.

Even Confucius, at the age of 70,

found that he no longer had any problems when following his heart.

I'm only in my mid-forties.

I'm a man still in the making.

We're just still too young.

You're too young to forgive me, and curiosity got the best of me.

Let's give this some time.

It's just formal paperwork. There's no need to rush into it.

Since it's not a deal, we'll file the papers today.

That's not what I meant.

A divorce is something we can do at any moment,

so let's give it some time.

I don't want to live another day as your wife on paper.

Life is about doing what you don't want to do and enduring the pain.

That's what you tell Ji-a.

In the big picture that is our lives,

this might not be a stain but an opportunity.

Those who live their lives to 80 and 90 without leaving a stain

are truly admirable.

I left a stain on my life and I'm embarrassed by it.

But I'm setting my pride aside and begging you to forgive me.

I could go to greater lengths to change your mind.

You're the only one for me.

The only woman I truly love.

And that will never change until the day I die.

I'll write a memorandum if you want, even in blood.

If it's what you want, I'll ask A Mi to come here…

Although it's not humane on our part,

I can swear my love to you.

You're the only woman I love.

Remember Mongsil, the dog we had when we were newlyweds?

It broke an expensive vase while we were playing.

You saw how upset I was

and patched it back together with glue.

It seemed like it was fixed,

but it still leaked

and the cracks remained.

So what if we live together under one roof?

It means nothing.

We're disrespecting the concept of marriage

-by living without love or respect. -I don't care if we disrespect it.

Because from this moment on, I will only live for you and Ji-a.

I don't care what happens to me.

Outside the broadcasting station,

I approached an actress about a jacket she had on.

She said it was a gift from her boyfriend.

Without even batting an eye,

you said that you were him.

It turned out to be true.

I always envied those with younger sisters,

so that's what I wanted.

Why lie if you had nothing to hide?

-You could have invited her over. -I didn't want you to misunderstand.

You hid her from me because you had feelings for her!

Your friend from middle school, named Cheol-ho.

Does he even exist?

He moved to another country.

We stayed in touch for a few years, but we drifted apart.

L.A. is too warm for puffer jackets,

so he would have given it to a relative visiting from Korea?

How can I possibly overlook all these lies?

To be honest, I don't even know who you are anymore.

You're not the person I knew.

They say we can't ever know what goes on in people's heads.

It was all true.

This will only sound like an excuse, but I just didn't want to upset you.

Doubt would have only made you miserable.

It would have driven a wedge between us.

She was new to Korea and it's not easy to settle down alone.

It's dangerous here.

I met her a few times to give her advice and we grew close.

There were no romantic feelings,

but she started to feel something more for me.

-I should've ended things then. -As a father of a daughter yourself,

how could you do that?

She only fell for you because you gave her a reason to!

I didn't give her one.

It seems like she mistook my good manners and chivalry.

Have a happy marriage with her then because I no longer want one.

I promise it's over, so please let it slide just this once.

I ended things first because it felt wrong.

I thought she had accepted it, but she came to the hospital in a mess.

It was after I had left.

You probably only ended it because

I asked about the jacket and went to the riding club to check.

If I hadn't, you'd still be dating her.

I had no idea that you were such a bastard.

I never dreamt of it.

I should have trusted you less

-and liked you less-- -Our assets…

will all be under your name.

Will having all assets under my name

help me heal from the pain and betrayal?

I'll make sure that it does. You'll be glad you listened to me one day.

Being a psychologist doesn't mean you know how I'll react.

I'm not one of your patients.

It'll take some time, but the truth will come out.

And once again,

the only woman in my heart is you.

I know money can't ease your pain,

but I'm willing to try anything.

Don't let this mistake

-make you doubt my true love for you. -How many faces do you have?

We wear our emotions on our sleeves, so which is the real you?

Now that I think about it, there was never any truth to your words.

As a psychologist,

you just had fun controlling others' emotions.

It's all a show, isn't it? You don't feel guilty at all.

-Give it a few years and you'll find out. -You'll give me all your assets?

Yu-sin, are you that crazy about women?

You must be. You even bought an imported car for your new girlfriend.

You go all out, don't you?

That was going to be the cost of ending things.

End it with me instead. I can't treat you like I used to.

I don't care about that and I don't expect you to do so.

I'd rather you just kill me.

Divorce is never an option.

Apart from that, I'll do everything you say.

Your father once told me that he was happier with his second wife.

The situation is different. My mother died.

Are you that against being divorced?

Your patients will think less of you.

But who knows how long we have left to live?

Every day should be spent in happiness.

Including the years we dated, we were together for 20 years.

-Of course you're sick of me. -We'll soon be in our fifties and sixties.

-You'll regret this. -You're doing this for me?

Because I might regret it?

I might.

But I can't look at you let alone live with you.

If Ji-a ends up in the same situation,

will you tell her that divorce is the answer?

-I'll ask you the same-- -I'm not a chronic cheater.

I took a step in the wrong direction without realizing it.

Easy for you to say.

Once a cheater, always a cheater.

See if that's true then. There's always an exception.

No two people are the same. Even the law is forgiving towards first time offenders.

Don't you dare justify your actions.

Besides, whether it's parents or children, you can't live their lives for them.

All we can do is wait and see what Ji-a decides.

Be that patient with me too then.

If you find someone better, I'll do as you say.

-Do you want to punish me that much? -I always keep my word.

I told A Mi to take you in.

Who's more important? Me or her?

-For 13 years, I was devoted to-- -Devoted?

Okay, I take that back. But I did my best.

-And I didn't? -It's not what I want.

I don't want to marry her.

You're being unreasonable.

You have some nerve saying that. What about me then?

I get it. I made a mistake and what I did was wrong.

If so, bear the fallout.

I said I would.

I said I'll sign over all my assets to you.

I'll do anything except divorce you. Why is divorce the only option for you?

Do you think I wanted you to cheat on me for that?

This marriage is over, so we'll go our separate ways.

I want to be next to you when I take my last breath. Please let me do so.

Everything you say sounds fake now.

When my friends make mistakes,

they're forgiven after writing memorandums.

I'm here begging for your forgiveness. I said I'm sorry.

Your mistress said

that you two were in love but you didn't agree to it.

You tried to come up with a way to fool me again,

so that you wouldn't be liable!

Just like I didn't expect this to happen, who knows how Ji-a's life would turn out?

You said women can be just as bad.

You're right. Jeong-gyun is dating a married woman.

If it were Ji-a, would you cut her out of your life?

Like I said, it's not the same thing.

We aren't related, so we can easily go back to being strangers.

It's exactly how I feel.

We're still a family though.

Aren't families supposed to overlook each other's mistakes?

We've almost been married for 15 years. It's long enough for mountains to shift.

So how do you expect a person to stay exactly the same?

In my case, I haven't actually changed.

I was briefly distracted.

Well?

If only you held back.

I know.

I took a step forward not knowing there was a swamp.

How did it feel…

to hold her in your arms?

It must've felt good.

That's why you kept seeing her.

She must have been charming in a different way than me.

-I didn't feel anything. -Liar!

She kept turning to me for support and guidance,

and I felt I should care for her.

I just couldn't push her away.

It must have felt good to have a young woman cling to you.

Keep taking care of her.

What if something happens to her?

We never came across any hurdles in this marriage so far.

Let's think of this as our first one

and jump over it together.

-Don't let your emotions sway you. -You just said we are emotional beings.

You're better than me in every way.

So please forgive your fool of a husband just this once.

A Mi never knew her father growing up.

Her mother had her out of wedlock.

She was drawn to me because I'm a father figure.

Our relationship is not what you think.

So you never slept with her?

You sure are talented.

You justify everything without even faltering.

Not even a flinch.

I'll bear your lifetime of resentment and sneers.

Kimchi is only good when it's fermented.

It's the same with people.

I was like pre-fermented kimchi.

I was immature and lacked judgment.

They say that men never grow up.

Toddlers are at least adorable.

An immature man at your age?

A man who does what he wants to even though it's wrong?

Are you saying I should cope with that?

-With pity. -Women are the same.

We wish to be comforted and protected.

More so than men, if you ask me.

Are men allowed to cause trouble and be understood and forgiven

while women bear the heartache,

forgive them, and clean up after them?

Be the troublemaker from now on.

I'll clean up after you.

From now on, I'll stop every woman who wishes to marry a psychologist.

They have an answer for everything and are just too cunning.

You're twisting my words. Knowing would have only worried you.

The truth isn't always liberating

and lies aren't always bad.

They say sometimes it's better to stay in the dark.

I shouldn't put it this way, but I met her because I needed a change of pace.

I'm stressed out too, you know.

I tried so hard to be the best for you and Ji-a.

I see patients with broken hearts,

which means I have to hear their problems every day.

Running a hospital is harder for me than you think.

That's why you took up horseback riding,

and you loved it because it helped relieve your stress.

She must have been a great partner

for you to have taken her there as well.

Si-eun's husband caught you in the act.

He knew she was a mistress.

That's why he told Si-eun to tell me.

What did you say when Mother suggested that Ji-a and I go watch you ride?

You said we'd spook the horse.

The members aren't fond of distractions?

It was to keep us away.

Everything is clear now.

And you say family means the most to you?

Don't you dare mention the word family ever again!

Horseback riding was to keep things clean between us.

You won't admit a damn thing!

Fine, I'll use Ji-a as an example too.

Just thinking about it gives me the creeps,

but if she chooses to date a middle-aged married man,

will you tell her it's okay if she keeps things clean?

I'm done arguing. The more you talk--

Must Ji-a grow up without a father?

They say women are weak but a mother's love is strong.

Will you sacrifice Ji-a's happiness just because I broke your heart?

I won't tell her right away. Not until she can naturally accept it.

-What's natural about a broken family? -You caused it!

Ji-a will catch on.

Why don't you convince her with what you said to me today?

You said it wasn't serious, so what's stopping you?

Mankind may seem strong, but they're weak.

You can't cope with me because you're weak.

You're right.

No matter how hard I try, this is impossible to get past.

All the lies. The betrayal.

How could I let it slide? How could I forget?

If there was a pill that could erase bad memories,

I would choose to take it and forget.

A handsome and caring husband.

I'm envied by all those around me.

I want to keep living as a woman everyone envies.

Did your brain tell you to cheat on me?

My mind tells me to cope with the pain,

but my heart won't let me.

Your mind could have never wanted to cross the line either.

But your heart wouldn't listen.

You're a weak man who couldn't resist the temptation of a woman,

and I'm a petty and weak woman who doesn't have it in her

to forgive her husband.

We're compatible that way.

Wives in the past understood their husband's unfaithfulness,

but that's just something I can never forgive.

We'll live apart until your anger subsides.

That's my best offer.

I don't mind being called a bastard,

so ask your friends.

Ask if this is enough to break up a family.

Why didn't you ask your friends

if it was all right to cheat?

Or maybe you did and they encouraged it.

Your mother was miserable after her divorce.

I could see a shadow cast over her.

She never smiled sincerely, except for when she was smiling at Ji-a.

That's a low blow. Don't you dare bring up my vulnerability.

It's the same situation.

-Your mother-- -It's different!

My father never purposely lied to my mother's face!

Did he let your mother know before dating his secretary?

Unless the person's vile or the love has faded,

no one cheats because they're determined to.

It always happens unexpectedly.

A lot of things happen in life and this is one of them.

Life isn't always a joy.

We sometimes feel sad and wronged. We can also be in accidents.

Because we're not saints, we can't help but succumb to temptations.

It's just like how women impulsively buy designer purses.

Our basic desire is pretty much the same.

What's different is the object of our desire.

Again with the sophistry.

Is there fault in my logic?

What logically makes sense is the truth.

You may think you're right--

I never said I was! I admit that I lack in some ways.

So go to A Mi who has a heart big enough to lie about only being friends

with a married man she's sleeping with!

I'm letting you go.

Let's not make our emotions leave a stain on our lives.

-Who are you patronizing? -This isn't just about us.

Please, think of our child.

What I did is in the past and it's over,

but Ji-a is our future.

Must you cast a dark cloud over her because of what I did?

I grew up just fine under divorced parents.

What don't I have that women from two-parent families do?

-Nothing. -Ji-a will be the same. Don't worry.

Just because you're clever and flawless

doesn't mean everyone else will see you that way.

If it weren't for Ms. Kim, my father wouldn't have approved of you.

No one can go through life alone.

We receive help from people and lend a hand too.

What I need right now is your tolerance and understanding.

If only your father was never persuaded back then.

For 13 years, I was a good husband to you. You admitted that countless times.

The affair went on for less than a year

and I never neglected my duties to this family.

But you still regret marrying me?

As a result, yes.

Even the sturdiest dam can collapse because of a rat hole.

We get upset by the smallest things

and relationships break apart.

Whether it was a year or two doesn't matter.

The trust between us has shattered.

Marriage is built on love, faith, and trust.

Even if your love for me hasn't changed,

the trust between us is now long gone.

I'll rebuild our marriage to what it once was.

We should at least try.

It doesn't make sense not to give me a chance.

Don't you ask me to be reasonable after doing something so unreasonable!

No one is perfect, you know.

I recommended marriage to a junior who was on the fence about it.

That it's different from dating.

That it just can't be explained in words.

"What if our love withers?

What if my husband falls for another woman?"

She was worried about that on top of how to deal with her in-laws.

So I told her that marriage is only for those who can handle all of that.

I gave her that advice in confidence but now I'm the one who can't handle it.

In some ways, this is my fault.

Just like you admitted your mistake,

I admit my flaws too.

You are not flawed in any way.

It's me who's flawed.

Whatever.

I turn my head when I see a handsome man

and find someone with a deep voice attractive.

But that's all.

I don't get any ideas.

I did my best as a wife,

so how could you want another woman?

While keeping your act up as a caring husband,

you cheated on me.

-I must have lost my mind. -Anyone can make mistakes.

But you can't call it a mistake when you've killed someone.

You took another woman in your arms when you have a wife.

You probably told her you love her. It should never happen.

How would you feel if I acted all caring

while cheating on you?

I was about to eat dinner

when my aunt, who should be in the Philippines, called

saying that my mom collapsed.

I ran over there in a frenzy.

My aunt yelled at me for not knowing she was severely ill

and even slapped me.

I fell to the ground, but I didn't feel any pain.

You weren't picking up your phone,

and my mom was taken to the family ward.

Nurse Park walked by, so I asked where you were.

She said you went to the VIP room to see A Mi.

It was on the same floor, so I hurried over there.

Someone went into that room by mistake and then headed to the next room.

When I got there, through the opened doorway,

I saw you rubbing cheeks with some female patient.

I guess I stumbled backward without realizing it.

I was so shocked.

I still don't get why I tried to go back to where my mom was.

I must have thought that I saw something I shouldn't have.

But then it struck me that I might have been mistaken.

So I headed back to the VIP room.

My knees gave in though.

The hospital walls were spinning,

and I couldn't move even though my aunt was talking to me.

"I must be wrong. There's no way."

That's all I could possibly think of

when you…

came out of that room.

That's as far as I can remember.

When I came to,

you were sleeping on the couch next to me.

Peacefully at that.

Anyway…

I wanted to ask about my mom's condition first,

but words wouldn't come out.

Saying I was in shock hardly explains it.

Never did I suspect you of cheating before.

That's how much I trusted you.

The word "betrayal" didn't even come to mind.

I just couldn't believe how you could do that to me.

You've been a certain way all those years.

You were a man who always took responsibility,

never said anything harsh, and were always the sweetest.

I was appalled.

Others thought my mom's condition caused my mutism.

My mom was dying

while my husband's mistress was in a neighboring room.

I couldn't breathe properly.

I even thought

that maybe I should just follow my mom.

Ji-a kept me alive.

But I should just look past that mistake of yours?

I want to do that too.

You can be attracted to other women,

but you shouldn't love them.

Or maybe just keep the affair brief so that I'd never find out.

A man only loves one woman. She never had a place in my heart.

If she had, I would have divorced you like Ms. Lee's husband.

What you did is worse.

He fell in love with someone

while you used this woman without feeling an ounce of guilt.

I guess it only makes sense since you didn't feel guilty toward me either.

That's not true.

No matter how hard I think,

you must have showered me with surprise gifts out of guilt.

You whispered sweet words in my ears to feel at ease.

They say people are the most terrifying and it's true.

You're living proof.

Is everything black and white with you?

Is there no gray for you?

One's heart and feelings can't be categorized like that.

When it comes to love, it can.

Either you love someone or you don't. There's no middle.

You love your wife but also another woman?

Only a lowlife thug would juggle multiple women.

One's job doesn't define one's character.

But as a husband and father,

how could you deceive your family?

That's why I'm truly ashamed. The level of guilt is tearing me apart.

But you never know either. They say you shouldn't guarantee anything

until your coffin is nailed shut.

-Anything can happen down the road. -So you're praying that I slip up?

Maybe that's true regarding what's inevitable,

but is an affair something you can't avoid?

It's avoidable for anyone with a conscience.

All you have to do is not do it.

Depending on how you see it, it might not be such a big deal.

This one time, we invited a monk to speak at the hospital.

It's better to be sick than to die and better to lose assets than to be sick.

So isn't a heartache better

than being terminally ill?

Let's say I led a clean life

being a devoted father and husband, but became terminally ill.

If God told you that an affair would give me a clean bill of health,

you'd find a decent woman for me

and approve of the affair.

After a storm comes the calm.

Recent events have only reaffirmed my love for you.

You're the one--

That's because I take care of you.

No wife in the world would be as devoted as I am.

I'm one-of-a-kind according to people.

You're right. I also said there's no woman like you in this universe.

And from this moment on, I'll be like that too.

I'll take care of repairs around the house,

family business, and tend to Ji-a.

You can focus on your work.

-Do whatever you want, whenever you want. -You said you'd marry three times.

Once with your current wife, once with Sa Pi-young,

and once with Ji-a's mom.

How could you even say something like that

while fooling around with another woman?

But I meant it.

My actions may say otherwise, but that was the truth.

Even if I get to live 100 lives, I'd marry you every time.

I know that won't happen,

but if you end up dying first, I'll have you buried

and ask Ji-a to cremate you with me when I die too

and scatter our ashes together.

Says who? We're done. It's over between us.

If I die first, I'll ask Ji-a to scatter my ashes immediately.

I once said that I'd marry you again in my next life,

then Shin Yu-sin, and then Ji-a's father.

I regret it so much that I want to rip my tongue out.

If I could, I'd cut my own tongue to pieces!

Let's go to court.

I said what I needed to say and heard you out.

Let's go to court.

I said what I needed to say and heard you out.

I won't go with you. Only death will do us apart.

Why are you holding out like this?

I disappointed you and caused you pain.

Rather than divorcing you, I'll make up for it in some other way.

If we end things here, it'll end in hatred and resentment.

I'll love you until the day I die,

but you'll resent me for the rest of yours.

I'll make you realize that my love for you was real.

If you want to divorce me, do so when you love me.

That doesn't make any sense.

Queen Elizabeth II was married to her husband for 74 years.

You probably read the article, but I doubt their marriage was always smooth.

Despite all the ups and downs,

even the Queen of England endured the hardships that come with marriage.

These recent events will make me a new man.

I'll grow as a person.

I'll be born again as a great husband and devote my life to you.

I'll win back your love.

-Did you not hear a word that I said? -You can swear at me and spit on my face.

I won't complain even if you mistreat me or not let me touch you.

I deserve it.

Just let me grow old by your side as your husband.

Why are you being so stubborn? I want to be with another man too.

Someone who is the same on the inside and out.

My life so far has been in vain.

-I trusted you and look where that got me! -The outcome is all that matters.

A life you don't regret is a life well lived.

"Luck finds those who are patient.

Patience can ward off great disasters."

Why couldn't you hold back then?

I tried to be careful not to cross the line, but stumbled.

-You have an excuse for everything. -Must you make Ji-a

resent you just like you resented your mom?

That's only because my mom didn't let me see my dad.

You're free to see her.

-Whenever you want. I won't stop you. -I know from my patients.

They may seem fine on the outside,

but a divorce has a negative effect on the children.

-And cheating has a positive one? -I said I'd make up for that.

Don't judge everything by your rules and standards.

My pain…

You were probably sweet to her just like you were to me.

You probably touched her the way you touched me.

How can I not think of that? How can I not be reminded of that?

Whenever I think of you two, I feel like I'm going to change into a devil.

-How could I live on like that? -Leave that to me. Trust me.

Because of you, I didn't even get to say goodbye to Mom.

I should have told her I was sorry,

but I couldn't speak.

My mother passed away like that.

When my mom came from the Philippines,

I asked why she came and told her to go back.

I only gave her pain all my life

and told her it was her fault that Dad cheated on her.

I told her Dad found comfort elsewhere

because she had issues.

I can't even imagine how devastated she must have felt.

You need to experience it yourself to know.

You'll forgive me even if I cheat on you?

-If you didn't love him. -That's because you don't know.

I attacked my mom with words that broke her heart

only to end up with mutism.

I really believed

that it was her fault my dad stepped out on her.

What issues did I have though?

What did I do that was not good enough for you?

Tell me.

I should burn my own mouth

because I told Hye-ryung

that Professor Park cheated

because Si-eun didn't bother to doll up or look attractive.

It turns out that's not true.

Men don't cheat on their wives because of some reason.

That's just who they are.

I thought

our love would last and our trust wouldn't break

if I was the perfect wife.

On days you came home late,

I was curious who you were with but I didn't ask.

Whenever you looked dashing when you went to work,

I worried about other women fighting for your attention.

But I never once nagged you or kept tabs on you.

I was constantly at war with myself to hold back my suspicions

just to be a so-called wise wife.

One that lets her husband be at ease.

So that your home could be a peaceful sanctuary.

That's how hard I've tried.

But look where it got me.

There's no way that one-bedroom apartment is better than this house,

so it's the person you loved more.

The one living in it.

So tell me.

What did you like so much about her? That she was young and looked up to you?

-That wasn't it. -Then what was it?

-Tell me. -There's that book.

Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus.

You wouldn't understand.

Enough with the analogies and persuasive techniques.

Explain with logic instead.

Stop trying to wiggle your way out of this by saying it's "a guy thing."

As kids, girls play house with dolls.

Meanwhile, boys like toys.

But after a while, they grow sick of them and want new toys.

-You get that, right? -So you married a toy

and then sought out a new one.

I'm saying that's how it is.

We both did our best as husband and wife.

But then I met A Mi.

The way she talks and acts, and how she cares about me.

It just felt different,

so I guess I wanted something new for a while.

It really is no big deal.

If only you'd think of it differently.

They say that men are the sky while women are the Earth.

Rain falls from the sky, right?

Rain clouds move around to spray rain,

but land can't move around to be caught in it.

It's the natural order of things.

Mankind is a microcosm

and that's why women are the Earth.

"Men can't refuse women that come their way."

Proverbs reflect reality.

They were coined because we're different.

What was it like to be with her?

-Good? -If I say it wasn't,

you'd ask why I still bought her a car

and took her horseback riding.

But some toys you keep with you for the rest of your life

while some you get sick of.

So I'm a toy that lasted 13 years

while she only lasted one.

When we got married,

you laughed at what was in my box of my valuables.

That robot toy I had.

Do you really think that's the only toy I had growing up?

It had a different sentimental value.

That's just how men are wired.

No wonder we're called animals.

For a person to live with one, there may be hardships

and things you're not happy with.

We're a different species.

That I honestly admit.

Women are on a higher level.

Then why did you pretend to be human when we dated?

A perfectly fine human to be exact.

Intellectual, well-mannered, and with common sense.

-I know. -Are you saying

that it's hard to keep up the act after marriage?

We try.

We do, but our true nature shows every once in a while.

I'm fazed by it too despite it not seeming that way.

The guilt I felt toward you was unbearable.

In some ways, I'm more at ease now.

My conclusion is this though. I can only live with a human being.

A man who's a person inside and out.

If such a man doesn't exist, then I'll be living on my own from now on.

Look on the bright side for once.

Kids don't always do bad things. If so, how could we raise them?

We do so because they bring more joy than pain.

When Ji-a turned four, she started talking back to us

and upset us in more ways than one.

Apart from this incident, I never caused you pain.

Financially, most of what I have was provided by my father.

But I'm not a terrible drunk and I respect you as your own person.

And unlike other men, I care about my personal hygiene.

I'm not embarrassing to be around

and I am easygoing.

Just think of my good qualities.

One mistake is enough. Never will I make another one.

-I'd be a son of a bitch to-- -That's not the point.

Everything you say seems logically right,

but that perfection of yours?

In your case, it showed in the worst way.

How can you have an affair

when you have a wife and child who look up to you and trust you,

and pretend as if nothing happened?

That side of you I got to know

seems foreign to me and inhumane. You're no longer the man I married.

The love I had for you is now gone.

I can't look at you without scowling

or with affection.

I can't say words of affection either, so how can we be a family?

Must I still stay married to you though?

How? Just for the sake of our kid?

By putting on a show?

Are we supposed to live fake lives?

Is that how we taught Ji-a?

If you're home late, I'll think there's another woman.

If you give me a gift, I'll think you're guilty of something.

Even when you're nice to me and even when you're not,

I'll have doubts.

Affection, respect, and trust?

Your affair threw those out the window.

I feel bad too. It has left me dumbstruck and heartbroken.

Why should I endure this and carry on?

For Ji-a?

For our image?

Our lousy future?

Because people will envy us

if we go around hand in hand when we're old with wrinkled faces?

That could happen.

Just like you said, if I keep enduring the pain,

I might someday forget or just learn to live with it.

We're wired to forget, right?

I guess it's a mistake a young man can make.

I could even be grateful

that you didn't ask for a divorce sooner.

But still,

I thought it over again and again when I couldn't speak,

but I couldn't get over it.

How could I?

When I show you trust, I expect you to trust me back, not deceive me.

-It wasn't deception. -Then what?

Was it mockery?

How did it feel to fool me?

While not knowing you were cheating on me,

I laughed and smiled at your sweet words.

Was that fun for you?

Was it reassuring to know that you had me completely fooled?

It's never good to push your luck though, is it?

So when I told you I saw A Mi,

and Si-eun's husband saw you horseback riding with a younger woman,

and I went to the club to confirm my suspicions,

you knew it was time to end things.

You might think I'm cruel

for not changing my mind after all your begging.

If I had been a mediocre wife like most women,

I might've screamed a few words at you

and looked past this mishap after getting you to write a memorandum.

But not after what I did for you. And the man I finally got to see

isn't someone I can live with.

You are of a different kind.

Just like how not all women are the same,

not all men are animals.

I've said my piece.

There's nothing more to say or nothing I want to hear.

Do you want some water?

If your mother

had forgiven your father's extramarital affair,

you might've been able to do the same.

They say you learn through hardships.

You spent your whole life resenting your mother for the divorce,

but here you are doing the same.

Watch your mouth.

Don't just think about my flaws and mistakes

and think about yours.

Is this really the right call to make?

Could you proudly tell Ji-a about this someday?

Would she approve?

"Mom, you made the right decision.

My friends didn't make fun of me

for being from a broken home,

and my fiancé's parents didn't have to tell me

I grew up in a good family despite only being raised by one parent."

Hit me some more.

I'm going to say everything I want to anyway.

Children are our mirror image.

Is that how your father taught you?

This must be how Ms. Kim taught you.

Don't badmouth people behind their backs.

She didn't do you any wrong.

Children are our mirror image.

She raised you, so this is how she taught you.

Just like my father, I'm a decent person.

You can't deny that.

I didn't put on a show

and deceived you for the fun of it.

He just taught me to be a chivalrous man.

What about you though?

Were you taught to never forgive?

No matter how much I beg,

you stubbornly stick to your initial decision.

I let myself have a little fun. So what?

-You didn't suffer a loss. -I didn't?

I didn't buy her gifts with the money you earned.

I brought home enough money for the family.

You were hurt and felt betrayed since you've found out,

but I didn't let my infidelity affect my role as a family man.

Did I fall out of love with you and abuse you instead?

I only met with her a few times because our fates entwined,

but you make me out to be some lowly bastard.

Even the truth hurts, you know.

You won't even budge despite my apologies.

Finally your true colors are showing. You're the one who let it go this far.

If only you had come with me to court.

Must I dive into fire just because you want to?

You want to break up this family

and break our daughter's heart,

so how can I accept it?

-You made your own bed. -Put yourself in my shoes.

-If you were a man-- -What about my perspective?

I understand how you feel right now,

which is why I apologized

and said I'd looked past your infidelities too.

Live your life however you want.

Only a crazy man would say such a thing!

This must be the real you.

Yes, there are even more sides to me than you know about.

If you had accepted your mother's decision

and had been a good daughter to her,

she might have not fallen ill.

Then she wouldn't have been taken to the hospital that day,

and I would've ended it with A Mi as I planned.

Because of me, you didn't get to say goodbye to your mother?

Right. I'm responsible for causing your mutism.

But you could have not known about it.

And people make mistakes at least a few times in their lives.

-It depends on the mistake. -All souls are damaged.

Most women just yell at their husbands for having an affair

and forgive them at least once.

Gyeong-cheol and Dr. Ha's wives didn't forgive them

because they're any less of a woman than you are.

Dr. Ha's wife is an interpreter

while Gyeong-cheol's wife earns more from her academy business.

What makes you so much better than them?

You look more sophisticated than the average woman

and have worked hard to look younger than women your age.

But if I didn't earn enough,

we would have had to live off what you earn too,

which means you would have looked the same as other women.

You wouldn't have had the luxury to care for yourself.

Did being raised by a single mother hinder my role as a wife?

Do women who grew up in a two-parent household

have hearts of saints?

I was a better wife than any of them!

Exactly.

I'm well aware of how good you are as a wife,

which is why I won't divorce you.

I know what to be grateful for.

No one could possibly be a better wife to me.

This is a hardship

brought on by me,

and I'm begging you to forgive me just this once and forget.

I know I would.

Whenever you're reminded of my affair,

you're free to lay out your resentment on me.

But after a while, you'll get sick and tired of it

and your anger will subside.

In the end,

we will start laughing again.

That's how humans are. It's a flaw but also a blessing.

So you're saying that I'm the problem, not you.

I'm saying we should stop pointing fingers now.

When kids do something wrong and ask for forgiveness,

it's a parent's job to forgive.

Must you sever all ties and kick them out when they're begging for forgiveness?

It's the same with husbands.

I'll leave then. To my mom's place with Ji-a.

Live here with Ms. Kim forever

or marry A Mi for all I care.

Forget the alimony.

Just pay for Ji-a's education since you're her father.

-I'm in tears of gratitude. -Same here.

To justify your wrongdoing,

you dug out your wife's painful memory and her long-term trauma.

I was finally able to realize how much I lack as a person.

And I thought I was a saint.

-Pi-young-- -Just like that,

you probably called A Mi's name numerous times.

I'd rather you never say mine again.

You must have called her multiple times in a drunken state.

What did you say to her?

That you miss her and want to be with her, right?

Juggling the affair

probably cost you your sleep.

I doubt you got to enjoy waking up next to her,

so do that to your heart's content.

You know what men say.

Their ideal woman is someone they haven't met before.

You said I should think from your perspective

rather than a wife with a kid.

If I were a man, I'd choose A Mi.

A man who's as meticulous as you

could probably keep dating her while pretending that it's over between us.

That's why I can't maintain this marriage.

Because all I'll do is doubt you.

I beg you one last time.

Forgive me this once,

and tell Ji-a the truth when she's of age.

And then you can teach her to be a forgiving wife

when her husband cheats on her.

It's hard for men

to resist these kinds of temptations.

If it were that easy,

the presidents of the United States and English noblemen

wouldn't have succumbed to it.

I say this again. Men are wired differently.

If you were a man and beautiful women kept fighting for your attention,

you wouldn't have found it easy

to reject those women like they're sour milk.

Think of how we crave unhealthy snacks more.

Your mother went through this, and now you.

There's also a high chance this will happen to Ji-a too.

Lead her by example

so that she can stay strong and endure the pain.

I know I haven't lived that long,

but I never regret holding back.

Not holding back ensues regret.

Just like how you're finding it hard to hold back your anger,

I too could not hold back.

Ask A Mi if you can't believe me.

Ask her who started it.

When it's not happening to you, you can guarantee anything

and make textbook choices.

But it's easier said than done when you're caught in the mess.

I know what you're trying to say.

I want Ji-a to look up to you as a role model.

So when she makes the same choices you did,

I want her to think that she did the right thing

by listening to you.

You said

you wanted to ask your mom for her forgiveness.

But you couldn't because I made you mute.

I don't want Ji-a to have regrets like that.

Regrets shouldn't be passed down. Let it end with you.

My mom has always been my weak spot.

To be more accurate,

it was actually the void my dad left me with.

I resented my mom for not having a dad,

which is why I promised myself that I would never get divorced

no matter what happened in our marriage.

"I'll make sure nothing like that happens.

I won't give you a reason to cheat on me."

That's what I thought

and I had confidence in myself.

That's why I made sure to give you my all.

But…

the beautiful glass castle that I worked hard to build

shattered in pieces overnight.

It was as if my brain stopped functioning

as if I were a corpse.

Listening to what you had to say

made me realize how sad it is to be born

as a human.

Why can't we be perfect? Why are we so weak?

Is God even perfect himself?

He tells us to offer the other cheek when struck on one side

and that patience is a virtue,

so why does he speak about being punished too?

Shouldn't God embrace and forgive mankind

since we're designed to be flawed?

You and I both should have met someone perfect.

Someone like God. Someone perfect like a deity.

But like you said, such a person doesn't exist.

Exactly.

So can't we move forward with our lives and forgive and understand each other?

My heart flipped multiple times in your presence

and thought many times that I couldn't be happier.

How can I possibly live without you?

They say that mankind is wired to adapt to any situation,

but not all of us.

I…

tried to persuade you by letting you think it was for your sake,

and I only used Ji-a as leverage just to save myself.

Because I knew I couldn't cope with the pain.

How could I possibly live in this house

without you?

I'm not saying this as an excuse,

but I looked back on myself while I was with A Mi.

"What am I doing?

I shouldn't be doing this."

I evaluated myself from a psychological standpoint.

My mother didn't give me enough love.

Not only was she cold towards me,

but she also passed away at an early age.

Ms. Kim tried to fill that void,

but she could never be a replacement for my mother

despite how horrible she was.

And my father was always busy running his hospital.

And because of that lack of love,

made me have an affair.

I craved acknowledgement from people.

From those at work as well as women.

Your love should have been enough,

but my greed got the best of me.

Was this really your first affair?

That's probably why I acted chivalrously toward women.

It wasn't just to be nice,

but to somehow make them fall for me in a way.

I guess that's my problem.

Then you'll continue to be that way.

You'll keep wanting the attention of women.

I don't have the energy anymore.

With you gone, it's pointless.

You were my joy, and now it's over.

Will you really be dating someone new?

Would you be willing to?

I don't know.

I don't think I can after hearing what you said today.

All men are pretty much the same.

-What about A Mi? -It's already over for me.

I'm just trying to give her some time so that she won't act out.

What are you going to tell Ji-a?

-The truth? -For now,

I told her we'll be moving into

where my mom stayed to mourn her.

Did she say yes?

Because of my flaws

and my foolishness…

Like you said, it could be me who's flawed.

Come back to me any time if you change your mind.

When you can forgive me.

The disappointment and the shock

must have caused you so much pain.

So how would Ji-a feel? She might cut me out of her life.

She takes after you and is very straightforward.

I won't keep her from you. She loves her father.

Since she's still young, she might not think it's a big deal

-if you stay in her life. -That would be a relief.

Being hated by my daughter would give me no reason to live

even though I brought it on myself.

I remember hearing on TV that it's impossible for us

to only live with one partner when the average life expectancy is 100 years.

We need to switch things up once in a while,

so just think that the time came for us a little early.

Could you do it?

Can you really live without me?

I'll have to.

I'll make it happen.

If only I could turn back the clock a year

I wouldn't have sold the house in L.A.

This was bound to happen at least once.

Take good care of yourself for Ji-a's sake.

Although Mother would make sure of it.

It won't matter unless it's you who's caring for me.

I can tell I've caused you a lot of pain

and I'm sorry.

Because of me,

you weren't able to properly bid farewell to your mother.

I'm so sorry.

I won't ever be able to forgive myself.

I did the unthinkable to you and Ji-a,

but I also should have looked in on your mother

more often.

I spent that time with A Mi instead.

All that's left for me is a one-way ticket to Hell.

My heart aches when I think of your mother.

I'm her son-in-law,

but I only called once in a while and didn't visit.

Neither did her daughter for that matter.

No wonder her illness spread so fast.

I should have been more grateful for the little things in life.

-Now that I've lost everything-- -I couldn't speak,

so I wrote the words on her chest.

"I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I love you."

The moment I was done, her heart stopped.

I should have said those things while she was alive and healthy.

If the affair was inevitable, why couldn't you have had it sooner?

Then I would have made up with my mother

and apologized properly and asked for her forgiveness.

I'm sorry.

I really am.

Mom…

I caused her illness.

It was my fault.

She gave birth to me and raised me,

but never did I once

express my gratitude toward her.

All I did was bombard her with resentment.

I don't know how I'll be able to manage my life from here on out.

I will still be there for you,

so call me if anything happens or if you need my help.

Day or night, I'll come running.

I hate you!

We could have had a good life together.

Everything we did to make this marriage work was all for nothing.

Whenever I want to see you,

whenever I want to be with you,

should I just take comfort in the fact that

we're in the same city?

Just promise me this though.

Call me first when you're met with hardship.

Whatever it is, ask me for advice and assistance.

Okay?

Hate me all you want,

but don't doubt my love for you.

You will be

my one and only true love, Pi-young.

Here.

Do the papers just need to be filed?

Then we'll do things properly.

I'll pay alimony and have our assets divided.

Just pay for Ji-a's tuition.

I have a job too.

We're getting a divorce like you want, so let me decide on the details.

Will we be able to sit down for a meal from time to time?

Will you not allow that?

Fine.

Subtitle translation by: Hye-lim Park

I want to talk to you. I have something to discuss with you.

-It gets lonely. -Are you?

Mr. Seo.

Maybe she's joking.

What time did you get up to make these?

It didn't take long.

I kind of like the new me.

Why all of a sudden?

Aren't you glad?

I can swear too and do even worse than that.

-Go ahead. -Are you taunting me?

I'm going to move in with him no matter what Yu-sin says.

Who were you drinking with? You'll get sick.

You're the only woman for me.

I guess you're right. Everyone else is gone.

What?

Did you call her over?

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