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[ Both breathing heavily ]

[ Insects chirping in distance ]

‐[ Sighs ]

‐Thanks.

Where are you at?

‐Huh?
‐The manuscript.

‐30,000 or so.

‐That's progress.

‐The last 5,000 are just words.

I'm going round in circles.

‐Maybe give it a rest
for tonight.

‐No, I'm gonna plow on.

‐I don't like it
when you sleep in here.

‐You also don't like it
when I wake you up.

‐Well, that's something I'll
have to get used to, I guess.

We both will.

If we have a baby.

‐Yeah, right.

‐Give me the towel.

[ Grunts softly ]
‐[ Grunts ]

[ Footsteps depart ]

Going to fall.

No, leave them.

Y‐‐ You've ruined it.

‐You'll live.
[ Sighs ]

[ Birds chirping in distance ]

[ Alarm beeping ]

‐Alarm off.

[ Beeping stops ]

[ Indistinct conversation
in distance ]

‐Time.

‐[ Exhales deeply ]

How'd I do?

‐There's room for improvement.

‐ls it the DNA sequencing?
‐lt's a few things.

‐Chain‐termination
I'm good with,

but the shotgun sequencing,

I can't ‐‐ ‐We'll get there.

‐You did this in your sleep,
huh, at minus 40.

‐More like minus 20.
It was summer.

‐[ Chuckles ]

I thought Alaska was no joke,

but Antarctica
must've been so gnarly.

‐You were saving lives.
I was just drilling into ice.

Let's go over your results.
‐Okay.

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‐lt's eating into
Aiko's training time.

‐There's no point in training
if you don't have

a way to get home.

The MAV is our top priority.
‐I understand that.

I'm just letting you know
we're gonna get jammed up.

‐I'm less concerned about Aiko
than Fletcher.

I've not been impressed
with his performance.

‐[ Sighs ]
Well, it's a lot to learn.

Sadie's doing a great job
with him.

‐Did we make a mistake?
‐No.

‐Now's the time to reverse it
before we get too entrenched.

‐I'd let you know
if we had a problem.

‐Kayla?

‐We're good.

‐When we realized the EHA issue
was fault masking,

we hoped that the respin
would clear the faults.

Um, I'm working
with Eitan's team

to determine why it caused
the deadly embrace.

If we can isolate the mo‐‐
‐How far along are you?

‐Here.

‐lf you finish
and still nothing?

‐We repeat the process.

‐The problem is that we can't
get the onboard computers

to talk back to us.
It's sort of like trying to heal

a patient that won't show up
at the hospital.

‐I can't say that
to the President.

‐lt takes time.

It's slow.

Every line of code
needs to be evaluated.

‐ls it a question of resources?

Do you need more people
on the software team?

‐No, no. Throwing more personnel
at it won't work.

‐We need to show them
a path forward,

otherwise
this mission gets scrubbed.

‐What path other than
what we're doing?

If you have a solution,
I'm all ears.

‐Listen, the, um ‐‐
the analysis is almost done.

That's scheduled
to be another week.

We can talk about ways
to accelerate.

‐Let us get back to work?

[ Door closes ]

‐She is who she is.

‐She is. Since day one.

It doesn't make it any easier.

Sometimes I feel like
I should've just stayed at NASA.

‐Mnh‐mnh. You pulled me
into this program.

You don't get to shit‐talk it.

‐Okay.

So how do we accelerate
the analysis?

‐I have no freakin' idea.

‐[ Chuckles ]

‐I have a NASA administrator
who has no answers.

I have a Congress
that feels like fools

for reallocating your budget.

The opposition is up my ass
for wasteful spending.

‐We're moving as fast as we can
to find a solution.

The MAV respin protocol

is a time‐consuming
and complicated process.

If the ‐‐ ‐I want a plan,

and I want it by next week.

If not, I'm having the Speaker
introduce a bill

to freeze your funding again.

‐Well, another freeze,
and we'll miss our prep target.

There won't be a mission.

‐I should've killed it
in the first place.

‐ls there anyone you want me

to talk to in Congress
before I fly back ‐‐

‐We are so far past the point
where glad‐handing

is gonna do any good.

Your time is best spent
with your team.

‐Ma'am?

The economic council.

‐Are there any other fuck‐ups
I should be aware of?

‐No, ma'am.

‐Finish your tea before you go.

They went to the trouble
of bringing it.

[ Door closes ]

‐[ Sighs ]

That's not fucking tea.

‐I ran the DNA sequencing
three times just to be sure.

It's solid data.

We're already finding complex
microbes in the core samples

20 meters above the lake.

[ Chuckling ]
The whole team is flipping out.

If there's evidence in the ice,
there must be life in the water.

That means it's possible
anywhere ‐‐

Europa, Enceladus, maybe even
Mars in the subsurface.

It's just... so exciting, Ollie.

I can't sleep.

All this work,
and it's happening.

We have proof. I feel ‐‐

I feel drunk or,
I don't know, exhausted.

Both, maybe.

Maybe it's just the light.

You can sing now.

‐♪ Happy birthday to Sadie ♪

‐[ Chuckles ]
‐♪ Happy birthday to Sadie ♪

♪ Happy birthday, sappy Sadie ♪

[ Keyboard keys clacking ]

‐[ Sighs ]

I got my period.

‐Well, maybe next month.

‐Yeah.

[ Alarm beeping ]

‐Do you see chloromethane
in this data?

‐Uh, yeah,
at 15 parts per billion.

‐Good. This DNA sequence ‐‐

Is the signal here
strong or weak?

‐Strong.
‐And this one?

‐Strong?

‐I know it looks that way,
but see here?

There's too much baseline noise
for it to be reliable.

‐Right, right. Shit.

‐You're being too hard
on yourself.

‐Mm.
I got a perfectionist bent.

My sister says
it's a "Virgo thing."

‐Written in the stars?

‐Nah, written in her
frou‐frou astrology books

next to this massive pile
of quartz she has.

[ Chuckles ]

‐What about this one?

‐I know that this is harder
for you than it is for me.

I just wanted to say it,
at least once.

I'm amazed...

by everything that you know that
I'll never be able to grasp.

And I'm even more amazed about
how well you're handling this.

It's big of you, and it makes me
want to work even harder.

‐Let's keep going.

‐Hey, I wasn't trying
to make you uncom‐‐

‐I know.

What about this one?

‐11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17,

18, 19, 20.

Oxygen.
‐Copy.

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‐Colonel?

Ms. Ingram
would like to see you.

‐I'm in the middle of a sim.
‐Whenever you're free.

‐Well, let me finish up here
and change, okay?

[ Knock on door ]

‐Yep?
‐Uh, Colonel Price.

‐Laz.
‐Hi, Kayla.

Please, uh, sit down.
‐Oh, thank you.

‐How's it going with Matteo?

‐Oh, we're working out
the CPR protocol.

We're in good shape.
Uh‐huh.

‐Excellent.
Look, I won't keep you long.

I wanted your opinion
on Fletcher's performance ‐‐

whether we'd made
the right decision.

‐We all discussed this.

‐Yes, but we've a major problem
with the MAV,

and I don't want to compound
that with a crew problem.

So... if we made a mistake,

now is the time to correct it
while we still have time.

‐Well, don't you think
Tom should be here?

‐You've worked with the crew
for longer.

I wanted an honest
conversation ‐‐ just you and me.

‐You're bypassing
the chain of command.

‐Yes, so you can speak freely,
in confidence.

‐I gave my opinion months ago.

Tom decided to go
a different route.

Our job is to make that work.

‐What if Tom was wrong?

‐That's not for me to say.

It's a choice you make.
I should get back to training.

‐I would value your input.

I hope you don't see
bringing Tom back

as any kind of
lack of faith in you.

‐We don't need to revisit this.
‐lt wasn't just my choice.

NASA approved.
You and Tom spoke.

‐Was I going to say no?

I was the last person
to the table.

‐lf you resent
the decision to ‐‐

‐What I resent...

is being forced to discuss this.

‐But if there's a deeper issue,
we should address it.

‐All things being equal ‐‐

You didn't think I should be
the face of this program.

‐Are you suggesting ‐‐
‐Yeah, I'm black.

I'm a woman. I'm queer.

‐That has nothing to do
with anything.

‐I'm telling you how it feels.

‐Okay. There are a number
of reasons why ‐‐

‐I get why you did what you did.

The funding. His experience.

He was the first person
you brought on board.

‐So where's this coming from?
‐You asked me to speak freely.

‐lf you think that any of those
factors influenced ‐‐

‐I am saying
how it comes across to me.

You can divorce these things
from your mind.

My entire career, I have tried,
and here we are.

‐You're an astronaut and a great
one, and that is all I see.

‐You asked my advice
on a leadership issue.

I encouraged you to respect
the chain of command.

I should've left it
then and there, yeah?

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‐[ Sighs ]

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‐[ Exhaling sharply ]

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‐Hey, there.
‐Hey.

[ Door closes ]

‐This?
‐Yeah.

‐You want in on this?
‐No, thanks.

I'm doing lower body.

‐Do you want me to lift that?
‐Yeah.

‐Let's get this set.
‐[ Exhaling sharply ]

‐Can't help it if I'm stronger.

[ Indistinct conversation ]

Are you jealous?

‐lt's not a competition,
brother.

‐Let's see if you'll feel that
way when we're doing squats.

‐You have beautiful thighs.

‐[ Sighs ]
‐Yeah. Yeah. I know.

[ Zipper zips ]

‐Hey.
‐Hey.

‐Can I be a total pain
in the ass?

Do you mind
if we meet up tomorrow?

I know it's the weekend.
‐Sure.

‐You know, if ‐‐ if you don't
want to, that's cool.

I could just really ‐‐
‐lt's fine. I'd be happy to.

‐I could really put in the time.
‐Just come by the house.

‐Okay. Uh, 10:00?
‐Great.

‐Alright, great. Thanks.
10:00 sharp.

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‐She's right. Y‐You put her
in a very unfair position.

‐I know.
‐So why did you go around me?

‐I wanted to have an
honest conversation with her.

‐Eroding my authority.

‐My job is to prevent problems,

and when I can, to solve them,

and that's what
I was trying to do.

‐Do you not trust my judgment?

‐I ‐‐ I was looking to do
a holistic evaluation.

‐I've got four people whose
lives depend on my judgment.

That's disruptive enough

that they've got to adjust
to a new commander,

especially when the former
commander is on the crew.

But I can't have them
doubting me.

I can't have you doubting me.

And I definitely can't have you
doubting them.

[ Door opens ]

[ Insects chirping ]

[ Plates clatter ]

‐Hey.
‐Hey.

‐I didn't have time to cook,
so I hope Vietnamese suits you.

‐Mm‐hmm.

Uh, Fletcher's coming around
tomorrow for some tutoring.

We won't disturb you.

‐No worries.

‐I've been taking my pill again.

You knew.

‐I thought maybe.
I wasn't sure.

‐And you didn't say anything?

‐You seemed to be
processing something.

‐I wish I could explain.
‐You don't have to.

‐I want to.
‐I don't.

We've had this conversation
too many times.

‐lt was a few months ago.
I was late, and it just ‐‐

It scared the shit out of me,
and then...

If you suspected,
why didn't you ask?

Why didn't you ‐‐ ‐Why didn't I?

‐Obviously I couldn't figure out

how to bring it up ‐‐
not that that's an excuse.

Would you just ‐‐
Would you stop?

‐I'm saying fine ‐‐ you didn't.
Let's not belabor it.

‐But you just played along.

‐ "Played" is a very
poor choice of words.

‐Oh, who cares what fucking word
I use. You get the point.

‐I don't get it.
I've never gotten it.

I will never get it,

which is why
I didn't believe you

when you said you wanted to try.

‐But when I said it, I did.

‐We can't do this.
This is how it starts,

and then, five hours later,
where are we?

Nowhere.
‐This time is different.

‐No, it's not.
It's not different.

[ Insects chirping ]

‐I should've just walked out
of there before it escalated.

Found a way to ‐‐
to get out of the room

without it being a thing,
you know?

‐No, I think it's good
you pushed back.

‐No, leaders
don't break like that.

‐She needed to hear
what you were feeling,

and you needed to say it.

‐My feelings are irrelevant!

W‐What don't you
get about that?!

‐What don't I get about that?

Look, when we first spoke
about this, you said,

"I'll just recalibrate,"
and that didn't work,

and it's been eating you up.

This needed to be addressed!

‐But it wasn't the right way
to go about it.

That's all I'm saying.
‐What is?!

All your rules and your ‐‐
your chain of command?

I think you hide behind that.
‐[ Scoffs ]

‐Yeah, you say it got you
where you are,

but also keeps you
where you are.

‐I achieved the rank of colonel
in the United States Army.

I'm one of the top astronauts ‐‐

‐Yeah, you got
the rank you want.

Do you have
the respect you want?

‐I have the respect of my crew.

‐But it isn't your crew
anymore, is it?

‐No, Nancy,
it's not my crew anymore,

and that's not gonna change.
‐Well, something's gotta change.

[ Dog barks in distance ]

‐Have you spoken to Kayla?
‐Not yet.

I'm hoping she'll call.

‐lt's good... that
you're giving her space.

‐Hmm. We'll see.

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‐I don't know.

Maybe she feels
that it isn't hers anymore.

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‐Could be.

But it just doesn't sound like
Kayla,

the way that Laz described it.

‐Well, she's human.
‐Yeah, she's also a rock.

‐Mm.
‐She is the coolest cookie

in the candy store.

‐What?
‐Yep. What did I just say?

[ Both laugh ]

W‐What does that even mean?

‐Cookie?
‐She's a cool cookie.

‐I'm more worried about you
than her. [ Laughs ]

Whoopsie‐daisy.

‐Oh, you didn't. You didn't.

‐I did. I did.

I said that.
I just said whoopsie‐daisy.

Now we are both idiots.

Wow.

What ‐‐ Is that them?
‐Yeah.

‐lt's amazing.

This is... so haunting.

‐She's got her mother's genes.

‐You really feel Diane's
presence here, huh?

‐Yeah. Every inch.

Every splinter.

Every... chair, spinning.

She carved this... log

that... washed up from the river.

And this ‐‐
We got it in an eBay war.

I don't know if it works.

[ Chuckles ]

She used to keep a jar with
quarters around here somewhere.

‐When was the last time
you've been with someone?

‐How do you mean?

‐You know how I mean.

‐[ Clears throat ]

A long time.

‐Yeah.

‐Have you? Since Matt?

‐No.

Should we?

[ Sighs ]
Should we gives ourselves that?

No strings.

Friends.

Just... tonight?

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‐Do you wish
you hadn't married me?

‐I want kids. You don't.

‐I'm not saying
that I don't want them.

I'm just s‐saying
that right now ‐‐

‐How many times
have I heard "right now"?

How many times
have I heard it tonight?

It's always "right now."

‐There's still a chance
I can go.

It's slim, but...

maybe I am just using that.
I don't know.

Maybe I'm holding on to that
and I shouldn't.

I know it's hurting you,
but if there's...

still a chance,
just the smallest chance...

[ Insects chirping ]

[ Owl hooting ]

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[ Toothbrush whirring ]

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‐[ Sighs ]

[ Whirring continues ]

[ Whirring stops ]

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[ Keyboard keys clacking ]

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‐I'm turning in.

‐Okay.

‐I told Nick
not to come tomorrow.

That I'd meet him at the office.

‐Okay.

‐Will you come to bed with me?

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‐[ Sighs ]

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[ Dog whimpers ]

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[ Birds chirping ]

‐Oh.

Hey.

I forgot to change my ‐‐
‐That's okay.

Go get ready.
I'll look after it.

‐Are you sure?
‐Yeah.

‐I just ‐‐ I have to go.
‐Go, go. It's fine. I got it.

‐Okay. Thank you.

‐[ Sighs ]

‐This'll be fast.
I know you got to get going.

‐Mm. No rush.

I'm not picking her up from
my Mom's till this afternoon.

You're a good boy.

You are a good boy.
Oh, yes, you are.

‐He's just trying to charm you
so you'll give him bacon.

‐Oh, you want bacon?
You will get bacon.

You will get ‐‐

‐Hey.
‐Morning.

‐Hi.
‐Oh, you're up early.

‐I smelled the food.

‐Wanna join us?

‐I could eat.

‐We were looking at some
of your art last night.

‐You took her downstairs?

‐Well, I'm proud of you,
and I wanted to show Ellen.

‐That one on the easel.
It's so beautiful.

‐Hmm. It's not done.

‐Well, I was impressed.

And the way the color
is coming through the black,

it's really eerie.
In a good way.

‐My mom.
‐That was your mom?

‐Well, I guess
it's not that good

if you didn't recognize her.

‐Oh, no, I...

[ Chuckles ]
D‐Did she have short hair?

‐That's not Diane.
‐W‐‐ How would you know?

‐Stop.
‐What?

‐[ Inhales, exhales deeply ]

‐[ Chuckles ]

You know, I think that maybe
I should get going.

‐No, you don't have to leave.
‐lt's okay.

It was really nice to see you,
Denise.

‐I'll walk you out.

I'm sorry.

‐Don't sweat it.

[ Door opens, closes ]

‐What was that about?

Okay.

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[ Engineers discussing
Mars Ascent Vehicle ]

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[ Device chimes ]

[ Door opens ]

[ Indistinct conversation ]

[ Girls singing indistinctly ]

‐I'm so sorry.
I‐ls it you we're blocking in?

‐Yeah.
‐Real sorry.

[ Car alarm beeps ]

All the handicap spots
were taken.

‐lt's fine. Don't worry.
‐lt was supposed to be

a really quick in and out.

[ Whispers ]
Bathroom emergency.

‐Can I help?
‐Oh, no, no. We've got it.

Thank you, though.
Girls, let's take a break.

New song.
Can you help me, please?

‐Thank you, girls.

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‐Beautiful night.

‐Hmm. The gardenias.

‐Mm‐hmm.

[ Insects chirping ]

You were right.

[ Indistinct conversations ]

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‐Hi.
‐Hey.

‐Thanks for coming.
‐Of course.

‐Can I ‐‐
Can I get you something?

‐No, I'm good.

‐[ Sighs ]

What did Laz tell you?

‐Not much...

just that she had asked you
about Fletcher,

and that there was some tension.

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I think she put you
in a terrible position.

I let her know as much.

‐Yeah.

We should talk about Nick.

I was thinking we could
carve out some more time for him

with Sadie
if we split up the buoyancy t‐‐

training into ‐‐ into two groups

so we really don't need the...

[ Sighs ] It's...

No. No, no, no, no, no.

I'm just gonna put it out there.

It stung.

It stung, Tom.
Losing command.

And that is not an easy thing
for me to admit.

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When you asked me
if it was okay,

I got on board like I always do.

‐Yeah, we never had
the real conversation.

‐Exactly.

We didn't have
the real conversation.

‐Yeah, I know.

I took for granted
that you'd say yes.

The time that I was gone
was hell.

I was lost.

I asked and you said yes
and I never questioned it.

And I know. It was selfish.

But I needed that yes.

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‐We both need this mission.

It's who we are.

‐Yeah.
‐Mm‐hmm.

‐What do you want
to do about Laz?

‐[ Sighs ]
No need to do anything.

‐You want an apology?
‐I don't want an apology.

I want respect.

‐She respects you.
‐I mean yours.

♪♪

‐[ Sighs ]

Colonel...

you have no idea
how much I respect you.

♪♪

‐Want a beer?
‐Yeah, I'd like a beer.

‐L.T., here.
‐And two shots.

‐[ Laughs ]

[ Laughter,
indistinct conversations ]

♪♪

‐Hi, Denise.

‐Hey.

Can I get you s‐started
with a drink?

‐A whiskey, neat.

‐What kind?
‐Well, you pick.

‐Johnny Walker Black?

‐That's fine.

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‐Why are you here?
‐I hope you don't mind.

Your dad told me this
is where you're working now.

You look well.
‐ls this like ‐‐ A‐Are you...

Did my dad ask you
to come here or something?

‐No, he doesn't know
that I'm here.

‐Are you checking on me?

‐You know, you can call me
if you need anything.

‐Like what?

‐Denise Hagerty. Share contact.

‐I've been clean over a year.

Dad's not gonna have
any meltdowns,

if that's what you're worried
about, and neither am I.

♪♪

I'll... go get your drink.

‐Eh, Denise.

Maybe don't tell your dad
that I came.

♪♪

‐Lights off.

♪♪

‐You ever get a pebble in
your shoe you can't get loose?

No matter how much you
shake the hell out of it,

it's still there ‐‐
rock against flesh,

trying to dig
its way to the bone.

♪♪

You feel helpless, defeated.

I can hear it in your breath.

Darling, you can't go barefoot
when you're walking on glass.

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[ Cacophony
of technical discussions ]

‐Nobody can see
what's in your mind.

Nobody can hear your thoughts.

‐I want a plan.

‐You don't deserve it.

Now all they'll ever see is did
you get us there or didn't you,

and if you don't,
you'll be nothing.

You hear me? Nothing.

As if you never was.

Unless you show them something.

Can you find it?

Can you see it?

Look where you ain't looking.

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‐We should be looking
at the simplest solution ‐‐

a hard reset.

‐We just unplug it.
A short‐circuit.

Cut the power,
reboot the computer.

We short the power lines
coming from the reactor.

We just need to find a way to
bridge the high side to the low.

‐With what?
‐I'm not sure.

‐We'd have to strip
the insulation, expose the line.

‐That's repairable.

‐I'm more concerned about frying
the hardware.

If we short that line
with too much current ‐‐

worst case,
we blow up the reactor.

‐I don't have all the answers.

I just have the beginning
of an answer.

I'm asking you to look at this

from a different angle.

‐The survey rover ‐‐
We could, um, use its drill

to strip the insulation
and be the conduit.

‐That drill bit could cut that
line instead of stripping it.

‐That's an easy enough
test to run.

We can get in touch with JPL.

‐The rover arm's pretty slow.
Don't know how we'd pull

the bit away in enough time
before we overcook it.

‐Well, we just need to check
its conductivity first.

‐Steel and titanium nitride.
It should hold a current.

‐What if it's not the drill?

Or maybe it's something else
we use to short the circuit.

Let's inventory all our assets.

Anything that could get us
through that insulation.

And let's make a list of all

the electroconductive parts
of the rover.

If not the drill,
I'm thinking...

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