Original subtitles

♪

(insects chirping)

♪

(crickets chirping)

♪

You know my mom was only 17 years older than me?

We'll get through this, River.

Together.

(crickets chirping)

I don't know what I would do without you, Amanda.

You'd figure it out.

(crickets chirping)

Not even in death did he show up.

Did you really expect him to?

I don't know.

What would you tell your dad if he were here?

He's dead to me.

I wish we meant more to you.

♪

Baby, do you know how much I love you?

♪

I love you too, Mom.

♪

Don't worry, I'll be back soon.

You are special, River.

♪

Should I be concerned?

♪

My little baby's leaving is all.

And I know you have to, babe,

and I'm proud of you

for taking ownership of your life.

Well, I know you're happy I'm not taking Jamie with me.

Mm, a little of that too.

Hey,

I just want you to live a full life.

Don't be like me.

What do you mean?

I love you.

I love you.

I'm gonna miss you.

Not more than I'm gonna miss you.

♪

And you're gonna be all right.

Yeah.

♪

Hey, look at me.

Just be strong.

I will.

-For you. -For you.

I know, I know.

Always.

My River.

♪

I feel so empty.

(crying)

♪

It's okay to not be okay.

(crying)

You can grieve.

♪

I don't know how to move past this.

You don't have to.

♪

How can I move

all her stuff into boxes?

♪

Just take it day by day, okay?

♪

I think you should live somewhere else, Riv.

Where would I move?

♪

This is North Carolina.

Everywhere I go,

it gives me memories.

I saw that old tree house we used to love is up for rent.

♪

I don't know, I don't know.

Come on, Riv.

The packing will be here when you're ready.

♪

I'm not ready.

(shakily breathing)

♪ Then he said ♪

♪ Girl,

I love your eyes ♪

♪ They're not the prettiest but then again ♪

♪ Just like your smile ♪

♪

What am I even doing?

♪

Ugh, how great does this energy feel?

Come on, Riv, this is so you!

I do feel some pressure lifted.

But still, I don't know.

Oh, no, you are at least

looking at the place before you say no.

Please?

-Okay. -Come on!

♪

How could you not love this place?

♪

It is magical.

But?

(sighing)

I just, I don't think I need more change right now.

You definitely do, Riv.

♪

(sighing)

Okay.

♪

I'm only doing this because you're my best friend.

♪

You're doing the right thing, Riv.

Then, why do I feel so weird?

Your mom just passed away.

Just give yourself some time.

♪

(laughing)

Did you bite the picture?

Who knows.

That was definitely your brother.

♪

Oh, yikes!

You could use a new pair.

Have you thought about going back to the store yet?

Not really thinking about it.

Just I need to save money,

and Michael,

that poor man needs my help.

♪

It's about the only job I can handle

at this point, honestly.

I get that.

My family has offered to help, you know?

I know, and I love you and your family,

but I have to do this on my own.

Mm, well, one day you'll take our help.

When have I ever asked you for help?

Hm, let's see,

uh, there was that one time in second grade,

when you desperately needed my Hello Kitty pencil.

(laughing)

Don't even think about that.

♪

How is this real?

♪

This isn't how I imagined coming back here.

♪

(car door closing)

♪

(birds chirping)

♪

(door opening)

♪

Well, I really miss that sweet marmalade smell.

♪

It feels like home.

♪

(sighing)

♪

(shakily breathing)

I can do this.

♪

(door opening)

-Hey. -Hey.

Mm!

♪

I'm surprised you wanted to come back to work so soon,

but I'm glad you reached out.

How are you doin', dear?

I'm okay.

And you need my help.

I do, I do.

Now, my office is always open to you as well.

I'm a therapist first and foremost.

I just,

I don't think I'm ready to talk about things yet.

Of course.

And you know how much I appreciate you.

I mean, those dinners are so amazing.

Your,

you and your mother will always be family to me.

The day you came to this Earth

was your mother's proudest moment.

♪

We don't have to talk about this right now, okay?

Where should I start first?

Well, all right, let's take Mrs. McKenzie's jams

and put 'em on that wall over there.

-Okay. -All right.

♪

We'll do what we can for her, Mama.

♪

I miss you too.

(door opening)

River.

Hey!

-Ditching your brother already? -What?

I thought you were helping him wedding plan today?

Oh, yeah, you know how he is.

Yeah, but,

you know how Vanessa is.

A lunatic.

♪

Are you all right?

Yeah.

I'm off in about 20 minutes.

Okay.

♪

You thought about hiking yet?

♪

No, not yet.

I think it would be good for you.

Yeah, me too,

but you saw my old ones,

and I just need to save up money to buy new ones, so.

♪

Hey!

That display looks great!

Thank you!

Do you need me to move anything?

No, no need.

Well, hey,

-how you doin', Amanda? -Hey.

How's your brother's wedding coming along?

Is he gettin' the jitters yet?

Uh, it's coming, you know how he is.

Well, I know that Jamie had all the ladies chasin' him,

that's for sure.

You know, I always thought you two

would get back together, River.

Well, some things are better

-left in the past. -Oh.

Perhaps.

♪

Oh, God, he's getting married.

Why am I thinking about him right now?

♪

Should I reach out to him?

♪

Maybe I'll send a text?

♪

This is ridiculous.

♪

Oh, my God.

Hey, baby, I'm just leavin' practice.

Um, I know you wanna check out that movie,

so I'm a come by and get you,

and then, uh, we'll have dinner and a movie.

How could I walk away?

River, please don't cut me out of your life.

I know how you want to move to L.A.,

but I know we can make it work.

Riv, stop!

♪

Loved you my entire life.

Jamie, please stop.

We haven't been with anyone else

to understand that this is even real.

Tell me,

what's more real than me and you?

♪

I've never left this small town

and neither have you.

♪

You're makin' a mistake.

♪

Maybe,

but I need this.

My mom has never even left.

♪

I want more, I can't explain it.

♪

Whatever, that's it.

I'm calling him.

Oh, God, but what if he answers?

♪

Ugh.

(phone trilling)

Oh, no.

And, defeated.

Riv?

Why do I do this to myself?

I feel like such an idiot.

♪

River.

♪

(owl hooting)

♪

(knocking)

Sorry!

Hey!

Hey.

♪

So, you comin' over later to help me unpack?

Um?

What?

Riv, we unpacked all your stuff yesterday?

-We did? -Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm just--ever--

I'm just off.

Then I'm glad I stopped by to check on you.

Oh, my God, is that the real ti--

Uh, yeah, 10:15.

Oh, my God.

Oh, I'm so late for work.

Let's hang out later, okay?

Okay.

I have to be at the store to get a package,

-and I hope I've-- -Hey,

deep breaths, okay?

I'll just see you later.

♪

Welcome to Ruffin's Roost!

♪

Shit.

This is not happening.

Hey.

♪

Hey.

Do you need something?

♪

Not really.

♪

How, how's wedding planning going?

It's goin'.

You know, Vanessa's nice.

Yeah, okay.

I'm lucky to have Amanda, you know how she is,

she's way more organized than I am.

Yeah, your sister's the best.

♪

So, Vanessa?

Here it comes, I knew it was comin'.

What?

You know she's always had a thing for you.

You haven't changed.

Did you expect me to be that different?

Well, a year's a long time.

♪

Yeah, well,

I know you didn't come here

to ask me to help you plan your wedding.

So, what is it?

♪

Just wanted to see you.

Your mom.

♪

Well, you know how much your family means to me and Amanda.

Yeah, I know.

♪

For what it's worth,

I'm sorry I didn't come to the funeral.

That was a dick move.

Listen, I get it, okay?

Riv, I had to let go of a lot of friends.

You gotta understand.

Isn't that a red flag?

What do you mean?

To let go of all your friends

and miss my mom's funeral just because your fiancé

doesn't want you around his ex-girlfriend,

who happens to be best friends with his sister?

And who grew up together?

I know.

Does she know you're here now?

♪

Jamie, what do you want?

Amanda told me everything,

and I know you're sorry.

I got your letters.

♪

You called.

♪

Honestly,

I didn't expect to see your name pop up.

♪

River, you're my entire childhood and 20s.

So when you called, of course you know I'd pick up.

I can't talk about this right now, Jamie.

I see some things haven't changed.

Please stop.

I went to Los Angeles, and you chose to stay.

That,

that's not how I remember things at all.

You didn't want me to go.

♪

(door opening)

Jamie?

(door slamming)

What are you doing?

I told you this isn't the time

or place to talk to her.

She called me first.

Why did you call him?

Okay, even if she did call you first,

did you really think now would be a good time to hash this out?

It's not like I meant for this to happen.

And what did you think would happen

when you came here?

I shouldn't have called.

Then, why did you?

Everything is just off.

Hm, all right.

Well, I'm taking the rest of the day off since you had me

all day yesterday,

and now I'm pissed.

Yesterday?

I texted you, you knew that.

I can vouch for Amanda, she was with me.

Don't even speak, Jamie.

Okay, guys,

I have to get back to work, as much fun as this is.

-Can I see you later? -Ugh,

I taught you better than that, brother.

Last time I checked, you're my younger sister.

And still.

Both of you, Michael's gonna be back any minute, so.

All right, let's go.

♪

Hey, Riv, this conversation isn't over.

Yes, it is!

Amanda!

Where was your car this morning?

What do you mean?

This morning when you stopped by and scared the hell out of me.

I was with Jamie all morning, Riv.

Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

♪

Isn't Michael a therapist?

What are you trying to say?

I don't need help, Amanda!

Just know we love you, Riv,

and we're here for you.

♪

Why does everyone keep telling me that?

♪

Amanda!

♪

Mom, why did you leave me?

Why?

You all right?

(crying)

I'm so sorry!

You got nothing to be sorry about.

We're humans, not machines.

It's good to let it out.

♪

-Thank you. -For what?

(sniffling)

For allowing me to be human.

♪

Hey!

Hey.

♪

-Thanks for coming over. -Of course.

Where should I start?

I don't know.

-I'm feeling like-- -Riv, I'm here.

♪

Amanda, do you remember when we,

when we went white water rafting?

With Jamie?

And the raft guy kept telling him to sit down.

And we all flipped out.

How could I forget?

Your mom took us.

Wish we still had those pictures.

Yeah.

Wait, Amanda, we do.

-The time capsule! -The time capsule!

Oh, my God, do you think it's still there?

It better be!

♪

Are you sure this was the spot?

Yeah, I'm positive.

We buried it by this lonely wolf.

♪

It's really weird how much she loved that thing.

♪

And this backyard.

She loved you way more.

How long ago did we bury this thing anyway?

Oh, I don't know.

I think we were like in fourth grade or something.

-But we-- -How could I even forget?

I never forgets these things.

We definitely put stuff in here over time though.

(gasping)

I think this is it.

Oh, my God.

What?

I remember that.

-It was so long ago. -It really was.

And this,

we definitely stole this.

We stole so much from her.

Mrs. McKenzie was crazy.

What's this?

Ugh, it looks like Jamie's old bracelet.

-I definitely did-- -That's most definitely mine.

Don't remember inviting you.

You know me, I invited myself.

Figured you might need help.

Is this okay with you, Riv?

Yeah.

I need all the help I can get with packing.

Said she wouldn't trip.

How did you even know about our time capsule?

Read your diary.

Even described this, uh,

crusty-ass wolf.

You didn't make it hard to find, baby sis.

Always having to put your

-two cents in. -You know me.

You Banks are notorious for that,

and that's why I love you.

Both of you.

That includes you too, if you didn't know.

Whatever.

♪

What's this?

Oh, um...

♪

(door opening)

♪

Oh, shit.

Nice try.

What are you doin', babe?

Are you gonna take him to Los Angeles with you?

♪

You already told Amanda, he's bound to find out.

Better you tell him than her.

♪

Mm.

♪

My beautiful baby girl.

I'm jealous!

You, you have your whole life ahead of you.

♪

Mom,

what am I gonna do when I get there?

And am I even making the right choice?

Only you know the answer to that.

What are you gonna do without me?

Eh, you'll be back

when the time is right.

I just want you to live first.

Live first?

What does that even mean?

Not growing old in the same town you grew up in.

♪

-Mom, what's wrong? -Hm?

Nothing, baby.

♪

This is for you.

You'll know when the time is right to open it.

"When the time is right?"

Yes.

♪

Okay.

♪

My mom gave me this.

It's, uh, just a letter.

Just save it for when you get home, okay?

♪

Just breathe.

♪

(laughing)

♪

(crying)

♪

Thank you guys so much.

I couldn't have done this without you both.

We've got your back.

Although, Vanessa has been blowing up your phone.

I'm surprised the police haven't shown up yet.

I'm shocked, too, actually.

Not really sure what you're doin', brother.

This is marriage we're talkin' about.

To be honest,

sometimes I don't even know what I'm doin'.

Jamie, you didn't do anything wrong.

You just helped me out with the toughest time of my life.

I agree, but I'm not sure she'll see it that way.

Hey, Amanda, do me a favor and change the subject.

You can't run away from this forever.

♪

(Jamie buzzing lips)

(laughing)

♪

I can't believe we actually found it.

I know!

He actually showed up though.

(indistinct speaking)

Hey, can I talk to you?

♪

-Oh, okay, I'm just gonna--Yeah. -Just.

♪

So, thought we could finish our discussion from the other day.

♪

No offense, but there's nothing really to talk about.

Really?

So, why'd you call me?

♪

I don't know.

♪

All right.

♪

How 'bout this?

What's this?

It's for you.

Figured you might wanna get out more.

♪

Why are you doing this?

Well, if you must know,

I didn't, if it makes you feel better.

Michael gave 'em to me as a gift

to give to you.

♪

On a serious note,

no one pities you.

Like I said before, we just care about you.

You're my best friend, too, you know?

You can't lose that.

Jamie, you're getting married.

Think I proved I'll always be here,

even with Vanessa.

♪

I'm not sure what you want me to say.

Nothin'.

Just wish things were different, you know?

-Yeah, me too. -Really?

-Yeah? -Can I come back now?

Yo, you got a really good talent for ruining a perfect moment.

Would I even be your little sister

-if I couldn't? -Mm, I don't think so

because this is what you always do.

You're lucky you're cute.

So, we done?

♪

(water rushing)

♪

Nothing is the same anymore, Mom.

I'm here walking our favorite trail

alone,

something we enjoyed so much together...

♪

...now feels so empty.

♪

(water rushing)

♪

Is there something I could have done?

Could I have saved you?

I should have never left.

You gave me signs.

Why did I not see?

♪

How do I move forward

when everything seems so dark?

You're not really gone, Mom.

You can't be.

♪

I see the stars creeping out right now, Mom.

Our favorite thing was to stargaze right here

and point laser pens at satellites,

hoping it was something else.

We never did get that message back.

♪

You were my best friend,

not just my mom.

♪

(water rushing)

♪

(heavily breathing)

♪

Yo, Riv, hit me up.

I talked to Michael.

I'm with Amanda, we're lookin' for you.

We haven't seen you in weeks.

Thought you went on a hike,

but we haven't heard from you.

Please, hit me up ASAP.

♪

River, this isn't funny!

Call me back.

You missed your shift.

Just wanna make sure you're okay, honey.

Give me a call.

♪

(car door closing)

♪

River?

♪

Amanda, I went on a hike, relax!

What?

It wasn't just a hike,

-you've been-- -I can assure you,

it was just that.

River?

♪

How could you do this to us, River?

I don't--

Where have you been?

I went on a hike, and it was yesterday.

No!

Jamie and I have been hanging those in town

for days.

Riv, we've all called you at least 100 times.

We searched the woods, your home, literally

-everywhere you could think of. -Well, I'm fine.

I'm here, I'm fine, okay?

When did you get home?

I woke up in my bed this morning.

Well, I'm just glad you're back.

Wait a minute, what do you mean--

Michael,

come outside for a second?

-Now? -Now.

-I'm stayin' here. -No.

You come too.

♪

We shouldn't push her right now.

She's dealing with something bigger than we imagined.

♪

We need to give her space.

♪

I'll call the sheriff and let him know she's back.

♪

I'm driving you home.

-I drove. -Then I'm coming with you.

Okay.

Take a few days off, then come back next week.

-I'm comin' with y'all. -No.

You stay here.

-Come on. -Amanda.

♪

Riv? River?

♪

What the hell is that?

The attorney put the sign up.

♪

Where is all of our stuff?

Jamie and I took some of it to storage

before the banks moved in.

♪

(hyperventilating)

♪

Hey, hey.

River, you listen to me.

This is not you.

You're my strong girl.

Be strong, baby.

-Mom? -You can do this.

River?

River?

River!

♪

Mom?

(heavily breathing)

♪

(rain pattering)

♪

Maybe you should shower.

Do I smell?

You have been gone.

How can I help?

(shoes thudding)

♪

Stop looking at me like that.

What am I looking at you like?

♪

Like I'm crazy.

♪

Uh, I'm just.

I'm just tired.

♪

Just,

I do feel like I'm going crazy sometimes.

♪

Amanda...

♪

...I don't remember how I got home.

You're not crazy.

♪

(heavily breathing)

♪

How is this happening?

♪

My whole body aches.

♪

(distorted owl hooting)

♪

(panting)

♪

Amanda.

♪

I'm going crazy.

You're not.

♪

What's--what's happening to me?

You're evolving.

♪

Try to bring your heart rate down.

(heavy breathing)

♪

That's enough for today.

♪

I'm so scared.

I'm so scared.

♪

(heavy breathing)

♪

Hey. Dr. Glenn?

It's River.

♪

I'm happy you're here.

And I'm happy you asked for help.

♪

Don't be nervous.

I'm just here to listen to you

and see what we can uncover in your subconscious mind.

Okay.

♪

You're gonna give me medication, though,

to help me through this, right?

If you need it to help you sleep,

we'll see after we have the session.

You ready?

♪

Please tell me about the days

leading up to your mother's death.

♪

The last time I talked to her...

♪

Hey, look at me.

Just be strong.

♪

I...

♪

I was in California, and...

♪

...that's--that's when my mom called me.

It's the last time I talked to her.

She--there was something so wrong.

I couldn't understand anything she was saying.

Mom.

Mom!

Wait, Mom, slow down!

I can barely hear you!

♪

Mom!

♪

You're scaring me, what's going on?

♪

Mom!

I don't understand what you're saying!

♪

The phone--the phone hung up

and I got on the flight the same day.

That's when--that's when the police called me

and told me that she was found dead

in her bathtub.

Can you describe the feelings you were having?

♪

I was so angry, I was so angry.

I--I know she didn't kill herself.

♪

The report stated that she did.

(electricity zapping)

♪

(panting)

♪

That's what the report stated.

♪

(camera shutters clicking)

♪

My mom didn't kill herself.

♪

I feel like someone's controlling my body.

It's a form of trauma, River.

It's normal for people to have feelings of guilt

and out of body experiences.

♪

No.

Make it go away!

We're in the middle of a session!

Go wait in the lobby.

♪

Let's go fill this up.

Bye, Dr. Glenn.

♪

How did you know where I was?

Why did you go to the doctor's without calling me?

I asked you first.

You weren't at work, you weren't at home,

so I assumed you were at Dr. Glenn's.

♪

I can take care of myself.

I know.

♪

You don't believe my mother killed herself, do you?

I don't know, Riv.

We weren't there to know what happened.

♪

Nothing makes any sense.

This or me appearing in the forest.

♪

The medication will help.

Whatever happened to you in the woods,

this will help.

♪

You're not concerned?

♪

If Dr. Glenn said you'll be okay,

then you'll be okay.

Yeah, but he didn't say anything.

He did to me.

We're gonna fill this up for you.

♪

What kind of feather is that?

Looks like an owl's feather.

♪

I feel like I'm losing my mind.

♪

Hope is dwindling away and things are happening to me

that I can't explain.

♪

Maybe this will give me some answers.

♪

My beautiful River,

now you see I meant it when I said you were special.

And if you're reading this and something's happened to me,

I wish I could've protected you from it.

I wish I could've told you from the start

who you really are,

why I always told you you were special.

Now you know.

Don't be afraid, River.

This is who you are,

this is who you were meant to be.

♪

Don't ever forget how much I love you, baby.

Be strong.

I love you.

Love, Mom.

(sobbing)

♪

What does that even mean?

♪

I know you didn't kill yourself.

I know it.

(knocking)

♪

So you just show back up.

♪

I didn't know I was missing.

River, you know that's a load of bullshit.

♪

You can't just do this to everybody.

I know you're going through a lot right now,

but if something would've happened to you, I don't--

What did Amanda tell you?

♪

Amanda didn't tell me anything.

None of this makes sense.

♪

Tell me about it.

I can't process this myself either.

♪

Do you know how much you mean to me?

♪

I did.

♪

I don't think you understand.

♪

You're the love of my life.

When you moved to LA, it was like a piece of me died.

♪

Until I thought you were dead somewhere.

♪

You can't do this to me.

I called off the wedding.

♪

No.

I love you.

I love you so much.

I can't marry Vanessa if I can't move on from you.

♪

We can do this together. Riv?

♪

(radio static)

♪

Please talk to me.

Riv?

♪

You know what to do now, River.

♪

I do?

Baby, Jamie can't go with you.

This is your journey.

♪

I understand.

Good.

♪

Is this real?

♪

What did you do?

I didn't do anything, I thought she'd wake up.

Does she look awake to you?

God, you have no idea what she's going through.

And you do?

I've been with her every day.

And where were you when her mom died?

Amanda, you know that's not fair.

♪

You really think she'll be in a relationship with you now

just 'cause you're single?

Well, news flash,

she's gone through a lot of shit,

and the last thing she needs is you over here

pining for her.

♪

Leaving her is not an option.

I know.

♪

Why don't you keep me updated?

I'm not your watcher.

-No, just my sister. -So?

♪

Girl, you've been really acting off

since River disappeared.

You think you were the only one panicking?

Well, guess what, you weren't.

♪

The world doesn't revolve around you, Jamie.

♪

You need to give her space and leave now.

♪

Who do you think you are?

I said leave.

♪

Fine.

♪

Be back later.

♪

Tell her that, all right?

Maybe.

♪

Wake up, River.

♪

Amanda?

You've been asleep for a while now.

♪

I don't feel very good.

Did you take your meds?

♪

Yeah.

But something strange is happening.

I keep having these flashes,

and every time I wake up, I don't remember.

♪

The last time I remember something,

I was talking to Jamie,

and then something hit me.

It was like I was with my mom and she told me that--

What did Jamie have to say?

Did you not hear what I just said?

Yes.

Are you not concerned?

I just think you're experiencing

a lot of trauma.

♪

I feel so lost.

Don't be so hard on yourself.

It's hard not to be.

So what did Jamie have to say?

♪

What do you mean, "What did Jamie have to say"?

♪

He adds no value to your life, Riv.

Value?

Why would you say that?

-Jamie has a lot of value. -Of course, he has value,

I just mean you went missing for over a week

and now you're back like nothing's happened to you.

♪

I need to make-- I need to make an appointment

with Dr. Glenn.

I made one for you while you were sleeping.

♪

I don't need you to mother me.

It won't happen again.

♪

Where are my mom's letters?

How would I know?

They were right here, I read them.

♪

When I came in, you were sleeping.

♪

I'm sure I opened it.

♪

Just leave me alone.

Your appointment's at 12.

♪

Hi, dear, come on in.

♪

So how are we doing today?

♪

I don't know.

I'm not entirely sure.

I keep seeing these images and these scenes

that play over and over in my head.

Well, that's trauma.

Let's just give the medication some time.

♪

Everything heals in time.

♪

Do you think I'll ever be normal again?

Come on.

Honey, who knows what normal is?

Well, I found out a few years ago

that my blood type isn't normal.

I'm Rh O negative.

Oh, that is really very rare indeed!

♪

I--I know this sounds ridiculous,

but I've been hearing owls everywhere I go.

Oh?

That could have some meaning,

maybe it's your mom trying to give you a sign.

♪

Maybe.

I don't know, owls have always been

some sort of spirit animal to me.

Ever since I was a little girl,

I've seen owls everywhere I go.

I mean, just-- just the other day,

I was with Amanda, and we found an owl feather

on her windshield.

♪

Um...

♪

So, last night...

♪

...I--I opened a letter

that my mom gave me.

♪

I put it in that time capsule that Amanda and I...

♪

Go on.

♪

I don't know, it was...

it wasn't anything monumental.

♪

Just really confusing.

♪

You know, sometimes, when you try to find closure,

it's not always that easy to find.

We might not truly find that.

♪

I'm gonna figure it out.

♪

Someone has to know something.

♪

Let's go back to these images.

Tell me what you're seeing.

♪

(panting)

♪

I don't--I don't know.

♪

I don't know.

I'm...

I'm running from something.

♪

Nothing adds up.

I don't know.

♪

I don't want to talk about this anymore, okay?

Okay.

Let's see, well, our time's up anyway.

I'm sorry, I just...

You know I don't talk, I just--

I hate talking about this.

I know.

I do, I know.

But you're doing it.

Help me, Dr. Glenn.

Do you think I can come back to work yet?

Yeah, if you feel up to it.

Yeah, all right.

Tomorrow at five, then, A.M., sharp, okay?

Mopping floors and scrubbing toilets.

(laughing)

♪

River.

(atmospheric humming)

♪

(owl hooting)

♪

Riv?

♪

What are you doing?

♪

Why are you here?

I was driving by and saw your car.

Then I saw you standing in the damn street.

♪

You know, whatever's going on with you, let me help.

♪

You sound like Amanda.

I'm not sure you can.

Amanda's acting off, too.

♪

So what am I supposed to do here?

♪

Jamie, I think we should just stop

while we're ahead.

Okay?

♪

You always do this.

♪

Listen, I'm not the same person before my mom died,

and I'm not the same person before I went missing.

You can't help me, Jamie!

This is what's best for you.

I'm so tired of you telling me what's best for me

when you are what's best for me and you know it.

Jamie, please.

♪

So this is what you want?

This isn't what I want at all.

For me to truly move on, never look back?

♪

Yeah.

♪

Did you hear me?

♪

Yeah, I heard you.

♪

One day, you'll look back at this moment

and wish you had a different answer.

-Jamie. -I hope you find your answer.

♪

It's all or nothing with you, isn't it?

Huh?

We can't even be friends.

♪

I think you and I both know that's not gonna work.

♪

You're cutting me out of your life

because I say you can't be with me.

♪

You've been cutting me out of your life for years.

I was just too blind to see.

♪

Jamie.

♪

(sighing)

♪

-Happy? -Why would I be happy?

You get her all to yourself, that's what you wanted, right?

What are you talking about?

Don't play dumb, sis.

You never had a boyfriend, follow River all around.

Yeah, I know who you really are.

Actually, I don't.

I'm starting to think you're a creeper.

So where will you be going?

Who said I was going anywhere?

You and River are done for good,

so where will you be moving now?

I'm not leaving.

Just as I thought.

You are leaving, Jamie.

You and Vanessa are gonna work it out.

Vanessa and I are done.

That's what you think.

Why are you smiling like that?

Aren't you exhausted from chasing someone

who will never be with you?

♪

As far as I'm concerned,

me and you are done, too.

How about that?

♪

I have a feeling we're not.

♪

Michael!

Dr. Glenn!

(knocking)

Dr. Glenn!

♪

Sorry, we're closed.

Are you okay?

♪

Michael, it's me.

It's River.

River?

♪

What's wrong?

Nothing, I'm just tired today.

I'll work the store for you today,

you can go home and rest.

I--I was so hard on you earlier, I'm...

No, I think we could be closed for a day.

-Are you sure? -Yes.

♪

Owls and aliens,

I have officially lost my mind.

(knocking)

-Hey! -Hey.

You left your keys.

(atmospheric humming)

♪

River?

♪

You okay?

♪

Not really.

What are you looking up?

It's silly.

♪

You want to explain this?

I know it sounds ridiculous,

but I keep hearing owl noises everywhere I go,

and I just thought it would have

some correlation to something.

I don't think you're off.

Why are you messing with me?

Trust me, I'm not.

(cell phone chiming)

Who's that?

Um, it's Michael.

Did I tell you how weird he was today?

Weird how?

I showed up at the store,

and he acted like he didn't even know me.

That is weird, but he's really old.

He was probably just having a moment, you know?

♪

I don't know.

I'm gonna go check on him.

I can drive you.

No, I just want to be alone right now, okay?

Okay.

I'll call you later.

Sure.

♪

(cell phone ringing)

Riv, where you at right now?

Why? I'm heading to Michael's store.

Is everything okay?

I don't know.

Look, I'll meet you at the store, all right?

-Riv? -Yeah.

♪

I'll see you soon.

Fine.

♪

(heavy breathing)

♪

It was just running.

♪

I can just take you home.

♪

River.

(owls hooting)

♪

God, River, get it together.

♪

I'm going to see Jamie.

♪

Jamie, can you tell me what the hell is going on?

-Amanda. -Amanda what?

Can you honestly say she's been acting normal?

Has she ever acted normal, Jamie, really?

Something weird's going on.

She looks like Amanda, but she's not my sister.

What makes you think that?

Everything, why is she always around you?

She's my best friend and I just lost my mom.

She randomly shows up without a phone call.

♪

I can tell by the look on your face you get it.

♪

Something strange is happening to me.

-I'm just-- -Yeah, you went missing

for over a week.

No.

It's more than that.

-I keep seeing-- -Let me guess.

Amanda was with you the whole time.

♪

Yeah.

She told me to go back to Vanessa,

to leave North Carolina.

The crazy thing is it's like I had no control

over my body.

(atmospheric humming)

♪

Look, I don't know what happened,

but when you went missing,

she wasn't as concerned as me and Michael were.

♪

Listen, Jamie, something's wrong with me,

and it's not PTSD.

♪

Hey, we've gotta go.

Jamie? You're leaving.

-No. I'm not. -Yes.

-I'm not leaving. -She cannot--

You're not listening, I'm not leaving you.

No, she cannot suspect you're here helping me, no!

So what do you wanna do?

♪

What do you wanna do?

If she wanted me harmed, it would've happened already,

so please just leave.

I'm not crazy about this idea,

but if you wanna go, go,

but I'll be close.

Just leave, okay?

♪

(car dashboard chiming)

♪

Why are you here?

I don't see Dr. Glenn's car.

Amanda, you've been acting really strange.

It's my job to watch you.

It's my job to make sure you're okay.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure it's not your job.

♪

(car engine starting)

♪

River.

(owls hooting)

♪

You were there.

I was where?

The flashes I keep having, you were there, too.

I honestly have no idea what you're talking about.

♪

What are you not telling me?

(owls hooting)

♪

This place, I've been here before.

♪

(vomiting and coughing)

♪

Can you tell me what you see?

(coughing)

♪

I don't see anything.

Why are you lying to me?

♪

You're the one to talk.

And here I thought you wanted answers.

♪

I do.

My purpose is to guide you, so I will.

Where are you going?

Do you want to come with me?

♪

There's no turning back now.

♪

We've arrived.

♪

Arrived?

Do you not remember this place?

♪

-Is this-- -Yes.

♪

This is where you began your transition.

♪

What does that make me?

The better species.

And that species is?

-Not of this world. -"Species"?

Am I not even from this world?

♪

Who are you really?

♪

A watcher.

♪

And my mother?

It's time for your final transition.

What has she done with Amanda?

♪

I don't understand.

Who you truly are,

who your mother so desperately tried

to protect you from:

yourself.

♪

You are special, River.

♪

Riv?

-Amanda, what'd you do? -Jamie.

I tried to keep you out of this.

-I told him we'd be here. -Why?

Because he would never stop either.

♪

Riv, I can't move.

♪

Jamie can't go with you.

This is your journey.

Now I realize everything my mom told me...

-River. -...led me here.

♪