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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:21,870 --> 00:00:24,710 So is that what attracted you to her? 2 00:00:24,710 --> 00:00:26,710 The fact that she{i} needed{/i} you? 3 00:00:30,060 --> 00:00:33,150 The fact that I could be me...with her. 4 00:00:34,950 --> 00:00:36,900 I know this hurts. 5 00:00:36,900 --> 00:00:38,900 But the only truth I knew... 6 00:00:38,900 --> 00:00:40,900 ...was when I was with her. 7 00:00:42,390 --> 00:00:44,430 I need you tho hear that. I need.... 8 00:00:44,430 --> 00:00:45,750 ...you to know... 9 00:00:45,750 --> 00:00:47,750 ...and understand where I'm coming from. 10 00:00:48,120 --> 00:00:49,750 If.... 11 00:00:49,750 --> 00:00:52,740 ...There's any hope of saving our marriage.... 12 00:01:23,250 --> 00:01:24,600 Routine. 13 00:01:25,180 --> 00:01:27,700 That was what my life had become. 14 00:01:27,700 --> 00:01:29,700 A giant assembly line. 15 00:01:35,040 --> 00:01:40,100 Just a series of same actions repeated day in, and day out, for years. 16 00:01:44,150 --> 00:01:46,840 [alarm rings] 17 00:01:48,940 --> 00:01:58,420 [alarm rings] 18 00:02:00,350 --> 00:02:03,710 Hey, you better get up. You're gonna be late for work. 19 00:02:11,750 --> 00:02:15,090 I never questioned what I was doing or where I was going. 20 00:02:15,460 --> 00:02:19,750 I just moved blindly through life from point A to point B. 21 00:02:19,750 --> 00:02:23,840 A slave to monotony and predictability. 22 00:02:27,470 --> 00:02:30,630 I knew that life didn't have to be that way. 23 00:02:30,630 --> 00:02:37,220 I knew it wasn't some giant inevitability that marriage equated to boredom and complacency... 24 00:02:37,220 --> 00:02:41,900 ...because I saw how vibrant, authentic, honest, and happy... 25 00:02:41,900 --> 00:02:45,550 ...other married people seem to be. 26 00:02:46,800 --> 00:02:51,770 Really curious about double-penetration with Roy... 27 00:02:59,070 --> 00:03:02,870 Vickie had been my friend and coworker for 6 years... 28 00:03:02,870 --> 00:03:04,870 ...she was as free as they come. 29 00:03:04,870 --> 00:03:06,870 ...refreshingly unapologetic... 30 00:03:06,870 --> 00:03:11,780 ...in who she was...and blissfully married to the love of her life... 31 00:03:36,490 --> 00:03:38,460 Excuse me, everyone! 32 00:03:38,460 --> 00:03:42,820 But I'd like to say a few words before I lose everyone to the effects of booze... 33 00:03:42,820 --> 00:03:47,650 ...weed or whatever other drugs you might've struggled in here. 34 00:03:48,460 --> 00:03:49,650 17 years ago.... 35 00:03:49,650 --> 00:03:51,650 ...I met Vickie McDaniels... 36 00:03:52,170 --> 00:03:55,000 ...one of the most incredibly beautiful... 37 00:03:55,000 --> 00:04:00,250 ...and insanely honest...and emotionally crazy women I've ever met in my life. 38 00:04:01,490 --> 00:04:05,220 3 weeks later...we were married. 39 00:04:06,930 --> 00:04:09,980 Everyone said we...were too young... 40 00:04:09,980 --> 00:04:12,700 ...that we'd be divorced within a year... 41 00:04:12,700 --> 00:04:16,440 My mother even suggested we have the marriage annulled. 42 00:04:16,440 --> 00:04:18,440 But I knew better. 43 00:04:18,440 --> 00:04:20,440 I knew she was the girl for me. 44 00:04:22,340 --> 00:04:27,680 I think you for 17 of the best years of my life... 45 00:04:28,520 --> 00:04:32,170 You love me...love me for who I am... 46 00:04:32,170 --> 00:04:35,870 ...accepting me for who I'm not without any judgment or criticism. 47 00:04:36,500 --> 00:04:38,900 I love you sweetheart. 48 00:04:39,470 --> 00:04:43,370 It's the 17 years of proving everyone they're wrong... 49 00:04:44,040 --> 00:04:49,120 Ahhh! Congratulations! 50 00:04:50,780 --> 00:04:55,920 I don't know why he thinks the relationship is so much better than everyone else's just because.... 51 00:04:55,920 --> 00:04:59,310 ...they knew each other for 3 weeks before they got married. 52 00:05:00,200 --> 00:05:03,200 53 00:05:03,200 --> 00:05:05,320 That was exactly his point. 54 00:05:05,320 --> 00:05:11,000 Oh, look at us. We only dated for 3 weeks and we're still together 17 years later. 55 00:05:11,000 --> 00:05:13,400 We're better... 56 00:05:13,400 --> 00:05:15,400 Why do you... 57 00:05:16,020 --> 00:05:18,440 Because that is so phony, Drew. 58 00:05:18,440 --> 00:05:21,910 They're trying to show how happy they are together. 59 00:05:21,910 --> 00:05:25,160 If you're happy together, you don't have to prove it to anyone. 60 00:05:25,160 --> 00:05:26,900 They are kind of like us. 61 00:05:26,900 --> 00:05:28,900 They are happy. 62 00:05:28,900 --> 00:05:31,970 You know them better than I do. 63 00:05:33,550 --> 00:05:37,620 Thank you so much for coming tonight. It means so much to both of us to have you here. 64 00:05:37,620 --> 00:05:39,620 We wouldn't have missed it for the world! 65 00:05:39,620 --> 00:05:42,550 Congratulations! You two look so happy together. 66 00:05:42,550 --> 00:05:44,080 We are happy. 67 00:05:44,760 --> 00:05:46,760 I'm gonna have another cigarette, outside. 68 00:05:46,760 --> 00:05:49,830 I thought you were trying to quit? 69 00:05:51,120 --> 00:05:54,400 Well... 70 00:06:01,510 --> 00:06:03,680 Hey, can I bum a cigarette? 71 00:06:03,680 --> 00:06:05,680 Yeah. Cool. Thanks. 72 00:06:07,050 --> 00:06:10,660 Yeah. 73 00:06:11,240 --> 00:06:13,810 74 00:06:13,810 --> 00:06:17,630 3 weeks can turn into 17 years real quick. 75 00:06:17,630 --> 00:06:20,790 Yeah, it's quite the story brook romance. 76 00:06:20,790 --> 00:06:23,290 I think it's just incredible, they're just... 77 00:06:23,290 --> 00:06:26,280 ...defying all the odds and proving the naysayers wrong... 78 00:06:26,280 --> 00:06:29,110 It's very Romeo and Juliet without all that... 79 00:06:29,110 --> 00:06:31,110 ...mutual suicide! 80 00:06:33,040 --> 00:06:34,170 How do you know them? 81 00:06:34,170 --> 00:06:36,170 I think he's my aunt actually. 82 00:06:36,910 --> 00:06:39,450 Really? Yeah, yeah. 83 00:06:39,450 --> 00:06:43,900 I've actually worked with her for 6 years. She's a great lady. She's really great. 84 00:06:43,900 --> 00:06:46,380 Love her. 85 00:06:46,380 --> 00:06:48,380 Wait! Are you the uhh... 86 00:06:48,380 --> 00:06:50,380 Are you the niece who does amazing photography? 87 00:06:50,810 --> 00:06:54,320 Oh, my god! Did she say amazing? She's really exaggerating. 88 00:06:54,320 --> 00:06:56,110 But yeah, I'm her niece. 89 00:06:56,110 --> 00:06:59,290 I've seen it. It's really amazing stuff? Wow, thank you. 90 00:06:59,290 --> 00:07:03,980 I've been going to school now for a couple of years trying to perfect my technique... 91 00:07:04,520 --> 00:07:06,850 ...It's getting there. 92 00:07:06,850 --> 00:07:08,850 Mmmm. Yeah. 93 00:07:08,850 --> 00:07:13,070 Did you get any interesting shots in there? Yeah, I did. 94 00:07:13,070 --> 00:07:15,070 Got a lot. 95 00:07:16,750 --> 00:07:19,360 Take a look at this one. 96 00:07:19,360 --> 00:07:21,360 Why do you say that? 97 00:07:21,360 --> 00:07:26,410 There's just so much more going on with you than you're projecting in that moment. 98 00:07:26,410 --> 00:07:28,410 A lot in your lines right there. 99 00:07:28,410 --> 00:07:31,780 I was just zoning out. 100 00:07:31,780 --> 00:07:33,780 No the camera doesn't lie. 101 00:07:33,780 --> 00:07:35,780 I've been photographing people for years now. 102 00:07:38,240 --> 00:07:39,610 What are you, like 20? 103 00:07:39,610 --> 00:07:41,610 You haven't been doing anything for years yet. 104 00:07:41,610 --> 00:07:47,170 No, I've been shooting since I was 15. So that's 10 years now. 105 00:07:47,170 --> 00:07:50,800 106 00:07:55,420 --> 00:07:58,080 I'm, uh, I'm Mimi by the way. 107 00:07:58,080 --> 00:08:00,080 Drew. 108 00:08:03,500 --> 00:08:04,890 [sighs] 109 00:08:04,890 --> 00:08:06,890 See you around. Yeah. 110 00:08:30,310 --> 00:08:33,470 I feel horrible about the party. 111 00:08:33,470 --> 00:08:37,100 Stop beating yourself up about it. 112 00:08:37,100 --> 00:08:40,020 I know you're not a fan of Vickie and her husband but uh.... 113 00:08:40,020 --> 00:08:42,020 ...I don't need you to like them. It's OK. 114 00:08:42,020 --> 00:08:45,580 No. I don't feel horrible about hating Vickie and Roy... 115 00:08:45,580 --> 00:08:50,130 I feel horrible about...I've been right all along about their relationship. 116 00:08:51,990 --> 00:08:54,300 What are you talking about? 117 00:08:55,850 --> 00:09:00,070 I saw them...with another woman...in their bathroom. 118 00:09:00,070 --> 00:09:01,060 You what?! 119 00:09:01,060 --> 00:09:03,580 Yes. A three way! 120 00:09:03,580 --> 00:09:07,780 Right in front of me! It was like a circus act or something. 121 00:09:07,780 --> 00:09:10,960 During the party? Yes, at the party! 122 00:09:10,960 --> 00:09:16,470 I was in the master bathroom peeing, waiting for you to finish your cigarette.... 123 00:09:16,470 --> 00:09:20,850 And all of the sudden I hear a noise. So I went to peak out... 124 00:09:20,850 --> 00:09:24,290 And I saw Roy with another woman... 125 00:09:24,290 --> 00:09:26,080 ...which I thought, he was having an affair.... 126 00:09:26,080 --> 00:09:29,150 ...which would be hilarious, given the fact that he's so... 127 00:09:29,150 --> 00:09:31,150 ...in love with Vickie. 128 00:09:31,150 --> 00:09:34,000 They're touching each other and groping. 129 00:09:34,000 --> 00:09:35,740 ...Kissing. 130 00:09:35,740 --> 00:09:40,270 Fuck .... 131 00:09:40,270 --> 00:09:44,180 And then they start heading toward the bathroom that I'm in... 132 00:09:44,180 --> 00:09:48,020 So I freaked out! Jumped in the shower and shut the curtain.... 133 00:09:48,020 --> 00:09:50,020 ...and just hoped they wouldn't hear me. 134 00:10:54,630 --> 00:10:56,610 Vickie walked in. 135 00:10:56,610 --> 00:10:59,860 And I'm thinking that she's going to yell at Roy for cheating on her. 136 00:10:59,860 --> 00:11:01,870 But she joined in! 137 00:11:01,870 --> 00:11:05,730 This was clearly a threesome they had planned! 138 00:12:50,580 --> 00:12:55,860 139 00:13:26,190 --> 00:13:31,680 140 00:24:02,660 --> 00:24:05,200 Happy Anniversary, baby! 141 00:24:05,200 --> 00:24:08,570 Love you. Love you, amazing guy! 142 00:24:09,960 --> 00:24:12,790 143 00:24:46,620 --> 00:24:48,670 Oh. 144 00:24:54,070 --> 00:24:55,600 That's hilarious. 145 00:24:55,600 --> 00:24:58,620 No! It was horrifying! 146 00:24:58,620 --> 00:25:01,330 Now do you see what I mean when I say phony? 147 00:25:01,330 --> 00:25:03,990 They're sexual deviants, Drew. 148 00:25:03,990 --> 00:25:05,850 149 00:25:05,850 --> 00:25:09,170 Sexual deviants can be happily married. 150 00:25:10,400 --> 00:25:13,230 Let us hope they sanitize the bathroom. 151 00:25:13,230 --> 00:25:15,230 I mean they had people at their house. 152 00:25:15,230 --> 00:25:17,630 Couldn't he have waited until everyone left? 153 00:25:17,630 --> 00:25:19,260 It's called "passion" Christine. 154 00:25:19,260 --> 00:25:20,530 Spontaneity.... 155 00:25:20,530 --> 00:25:23,050 I tell you what...after 17 years of marriage... 156 00:25:23,050 --> 00:25:25,050 ...that's pretty impressive. 157 00:25:25,050 --> 00:25:27,790 Well, I think it's barbaric. 158 00:25:42,580 --> 00:25:44,050 [laughing] 159 00:25:44,050 --> 00:25:48,400 God! Is she okay? No. She's completely scarred. 160 00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:50,880 She should have just said something. 161 00:25:50,880 --> 00:25:52,880 I think she's too afraid. 162 00:25:52,880 --> 00:25:55,120 What? That we were going to ask her to join in? 163 00:25:55,120 --> 00:25:58,700 I mean....it wouldn't have been completely out of the question. 164 00:25:58,700 --> 00:26:00,700 It might loosen her up a bit. 165 00:26:01,690 --> 00:26:03,600 There's no loosening Christine up. 166 00:26:03,600 --> 00:26:05,600 167 00:26:05,600 --> 00:26:08,060 Well, as long as she's happy being that way. 168 00:26:09,070 --> 00:26:10,690 The truth was... 169 00:26:10,690 --> 00:26:13,730 ...I didn't know if Christine was happy being that way. 170 00:26:13,730 --> 00:26:15,730 For as long as I had known her... 171 00:26:15,730 --> 00:26:18,890 ...she had been straight and narrow in every aspect of her life. 172 00:26:18,890 --> 00:26:21,300 And no amount of loosening her up... 173 00:26:21,300 --> 00:26:23,300 ...will seem to work. 174 00:26:24,010 --> 00:26:25,660 I bought her new lingerie. 175 00:26:25,660 --> 00:26:27,660 I hate that color. 176 00:26:27,660 --> 00:26:32,040 Sex toys. 177 00:26:35,550 --> 00:26:38,660 Are you kidding me? 178 00:26:39,090 --> 00:26:42,340 Even attempted spontaneous foreplay. 179 00:26:45,540 --> 00:26:47,060 Whoa! 180 00:26:47,060 --> 00:26:49,060 No! Come on! No! 181 00:26:49,060 --> 00:26:51,060 No, Drew! 182 00:26:51,060 --> 00:26:54,370 I began to wonder if the root of our problems had more to do with my... 183 00:26:54,370 --> 00:27:00,380 ...inability to vocalize...those problems than they did her inability to unwind. 184 00:27:00,380 --> 00:27:02,380 Why couldn't I just tell her how I felt? 185 00:27:03,950 --> 00:27:05,310 So there I was. 186 00:27:05,670 --> 00:27:08,080 Going through the motions of life like a zombie. 187 00:27:08,080 --> 00:27:09,660 Craving change. 188 00:27:09,660 --> 00:27:11,660 Unsure where to find it. 189 00:27:12,010 --> 00:27:14,240 Waiting for it to ... somehow find me. 190 00:27:16,300 --> 00:27:17,190 And then it did. 191 00:27:17,190 --> 00:27:20,470 Hi! Hi!!! 192 00:27:20,470 --> 00:27:24,100 How are you? Good. How are you? 193 00:27:24,450 --> 00:27:27,040 I just brought these from your uncle Roy. What do you think? 194 00:27:27,680 --> 00:27:29,410 Huh! I mean they're fun. 195 00:27:29,410 --> 00:27:31,410 They say, "hard at work!" 196 00:27:31,410 --> 00:27:32,440 Yeah. 197 00:27:32,440 --> 00:27:34,840 That's not something I need to see. 198 00:27:34,840 --> 00:27:36,840 Oh, do you like those better? 199 00:27:36,840 --> 00:27:38,840 No, I don't. 200 00:27:38,840 --> 00:27:40,840 [laughs] Crazy. 201 00:27:41,550 --> 00:27:44,700 Hi. I actually came by to ask you a favor. 202 00:27:44,700 --> 00:27:47,110 Hey, umm, ... I got a project from my art class. 203 00:27:47,110 --> 00:27:49,110 ...And they want us to... 204 00:27:49,110 --> 00:27:51,370 Have a subject portrayed as a.... 205 00:27:51,370 --> 00:27:53,810 ...whole set of emotions like anger.... 206 00:27:53,810 --> 00:27:55,870 You know, kind of exposed that a little bit... 207 00:27:55,870 --> 00:27:57,870 ...but if you would feel comfortable doing that...? 208 00:27:57,870 --> 00:28:01,650 Would you want to come over to my studio and let me shoot you? 209 00:28:01,650 --> 00:28:03,650 Sit down and talk... 210 00:28:03,650 --> 00:28:05,650 .... 211 00:28:05,650 --> 00:28:07,650 ... Sure... 212 00:28:07,650 --> 00:28:10,110 Do that... Is that cool? 213 00:28:10,110 --> 00:28:13,050 Maybe we'll just talk a little bit...and... 214 00:28:13,050 --> 00:28:15,790 Well thanks...I mean, I like that picture that I took of you.... 215 00:28:15,790 --> 00:28:17,790 ...so I mean... 216 00:28:17,790 --> 00:28:21,130 I just like the way you photograph. I can work with that. 217 00:28:21,130 --> 00:28:23,130 [laughs].... 218 00:28:23,130 --> 00:28:24,300 So...umm.... 219 00:28:24,300 --> 00:28:25,160 Cool... That's exciting. 220 00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:27,160 Thank you, I'll give you a call. 221 00:28:27,160 --> 00:28:29,710 Bye. Bye. 222 00:28:40,000 --> 00:28:41,750 You okay? 223 00:28:41,750 --> 00:28:43,750 Wow! This is... 224 00:28:43,750 --> 00:28:45,050 This is the real deal, huh? 225 00:28:45,050 --> 00:28:46,060 It is....! 226 00:28:46,060 --> 00:28:49,690 All this equipment...you own...? 227 00:28:51,670 --> 00:28:55,080 Wow, this is a pretty big adjustment. 228 00:28:55,080 --> 00:28:56,450 Being a photographer... 229 00:28:56,450 --> 00:28:58,450 230 00:28:58,450 --> 00:29:02,130 Can you just sit up? 231 00:29:02,130 --> 00:29:06,510 Yes, you had asked me earlier what I wanted to be... 232 00:29:06,510 --> 00:29:08,510 ...when I was younger.... 233 00:29:08,510 --> 00:29:14,190 Actually I had huge aspirations for being a pilot. Wanted to fly planes, yeah. 234 00:29:14,190 --> 00:29:17,730 My dad would take out these planes. We would fly... 235 00:29:17,730 --> 00:29:19,730 ...Inside the cockpit it was very interesting. 236 00:29:19,730 --> 00:29:22,650 We've been standing out there for like 6 hours! 237 00:29:22,650 --> 00:29:25,420 And like we're almost naked. I got a pacifier in my mouth... 238 00:29:25,420 --> 00:29:30,780 ...and wearing this weird diaper and stuff... 239 00:29:30,780 --> 00:29:37,090 And it dawned on me...I do not want to be in a fraternity. 240 00:29:37,090 --> 00:29:40,550 The techniques she used to achieve a variety of emotional shots... 241 00:29:40,550 --> 00:29:43,760 ...involved me sharing stories about my life. 242 00:29:43,760 --> 00:29:46,280 Everything from my wildest dreams... 243 00:29:46,280 --> 00:29:48,040 ...to my biggest fears... 244 00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:51,720 From my greatest accomplishments to my worst regrets. 245 00:29:52,490 --> 00:29:54,690 I don't know what it was about Mimi, but... 246 00:29:54,690 --> 00:29:59,260 ...I never felt more comfortable in my own skin than I did when I was with her. 247 00:30:13,470 --> 00:30:17,150 Nowadays nobody wants to step in and do anything. Everybody's afraid. 248 00:30:17,340 --> 00:30:20,170 It was really despicable what these guys did to that... 249 00:30:20,170 --> 00:30:22,730 You know and...the broken ribs.... 250 00:30:22,730 --> 00:30:24,730 ...the night in jail....well worth it. 251 00:30:24,730 --> 00:30:30,740 So I come home one day and on my apartment door...is this big handwritten letter. 252 00:30:30,740 --> 00:30:33,900 ...and it says, "please close your windows while having sex!" 253 00:30:33,900 --> 00:30:36,860 Exclamation point. 254 00:30:36,860 --> 00:30:38,860 I mean we just started dating... 255 00:30:38,860 --> 00:30:42,080 And making love all the time... 256 00:30:42,080 --> 00:30:44,080 ...This is so embarrassing! 257 00:30:44,080 --> 00:30:45,420 But you know I felt good. Cause... 258 00:30:45,420 --> 00:30:50,930 ...you know you're having really good sex when your neighbors are begging you to close your windows. 259 00:30:50,930 --> 00:30:53,710 I guess that's a good sign! 260 00:30:53,710 --> 00:30:58,880 You lose a piece of yourself when your parents die. 261 00:30:58,880 --> 00:31:02,960 My parents were the one constant thing I had in my life. 262 00:31:04,250 --> 00:31:06,350 When my mom passed away... 263 00:31:06,350 --> 00:31:11,270 ...I realized there was nothing, absolutely nothing in life... 264 00:31:11,270 --> 00:31:14,830 ...that's permanent. 265 00:31:24,780 --> 00:31:27,500 Thank you again for letting me shoot you again today. 266 00:31:27,500 --> 00:31:31,070 Thank you for...letting me be a part of your project. 267 00:31:31,070 --> 00:31:33,070 It was a pleasure. 268 00:31:33,510 --> 00:31:37,850 You know I haven't been this open...my entire life. 269 00:31:38,480 --> 00:31:39,850 I'm really glad you were. 270 00:31:39,850 --> 00:31:41,850 We got great shots today, so... 271 00:31:41,850 --> 00:31:43,850 ...I'll bring some by when they're done. 272 00:31:43,850 --> 00:31:45,850 Oh, yeah, I'd like that. 273 00:31:46,340 --> 00:31:52,520 Thanks. You know... 274 00:31:52,520 --> 00:31:56,330 ...I was thinking...inside there... 275 00:31:56,330 --> 00:32:00,480 ...I've been married 15 years to my wife... 276 00:32:00,480 --> 00:32:05,700 ...and I don't think she knows any of the stories I told you today. 277 00:32:39,560 --> 00:32:43,120 Hey. Those ankle weights I ordered ever come in the mail? 278 00:32:44,670 --> 00:32:46,800 I don't think so. 279 00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:51,560 God! I hate ordering stuff off the internet! Remind me to never do that again. 280 00:32:55,740 --> 00:33:00,320 Christine had always been fiercely independent. Had always done her own thing. 281 00:33:00,320 --> 00:33:02,320 It was what drew me to her initially. 282 00:33:02,320 --> 00:33:04,060 Her independence. 283 00:33:04,060 --> 00:33:08,380 She wasn't needy or demanding like my previous girlfriends had been. 284 00:33:08,380 --> 00:33:11,880 She did her own thing. Held her own ground. 285 00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:17,260 Got a ten-mile run today. Probably grab dinner with the team, so you're on your own. 286 00:33:19,760 --> 00:33:20,760 Okey dokey. 287 00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:22,760 But over time I realized.... 288 00:33:22,760 --> 00:33:24,760 ...I wanted to be leaned on. 289 00:33:24,760 --> 00:33:26,760 I wanted to be needed. 290 00:33:26,760 --> 00:33:31,270 And Christine didn't really need...anyone. 291 00:33:36,390 --> 00:33:39,520 Guess who called me during marathon training today? 292 00:33:41,650 --> 00:33:44,840 Who? Vickie. 293 00:33:46,780 --> 00:33:48,070 What did she have to say? 294 00:33:48,070 --> 00:33:52,920 Oh, she thought it was important for me to know you were seducing her niece today! 295 00:33:53,530 --> 00:33:56,290 She's 25 years old, Drew! 296 00:33:56,290 --> 00:33:58,290 Did you know that?! 297 00:33:58,290 --> 00:34:01,100 You could be her father! 298 00:34:02,370 --> 00:34:05,870 You're despicable! 299 00:34:17,780 --> 00:34:21,850 The next week I was consumed with guilt over what I had done. 300 00:34:21,850 --> 00:34:26,140 I kept replaying the kiss in my mind over and over again. 301 00:34:26,140 --> 00:34:28,840 I wrong it was. How right it felt. 302 00:34:28,840 --> 00:34:31,460 How reckless I had been. 303 00:34:31,460 --> 00:34:33,460 Did Vickie know? 304 00:34:37,330 --> 00:34:38,790 It was overwhelming! 305 00:34:38,790 --> 00:34:43,800 Thinking that I had somehow failed my wife. That I had wronged our marriage. 306 00:34:43,800 --> 00:34:45,800 So I did what I had to do. 307 00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:47,800 To try and right the wrong. 308 00:34:47,800 --> 00:34:54,870 To try and convince myself that what we had wasn't worth losing ... for anything. 309 00:35:03,250 --> 00:35:04,520 What are you doing? 310 00:35:04,520 --> 00:35:06,520 What do you think I'm doing? 311 00:35:06,520 --> 00:35:10,070 I'm trying to please and excite my wife. 312 00:35:10,070 --> 00:35:14,510 Oh, come on, Drew! You know I have an 18 mile run tomorrow. 313 00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:16,510 Christine. 314 00:35:17,330 --> 00:35:19,090 Drew! 315 00:35:20,050 --> 00:35:21,090 Please. 316 00:35:23,300 --> 00:35:25,040 Please. 317 00:36:16,990 --> 00:36:20,400 So soft in my mouth. 318 00:36:38,260 --> 00:36:40,900 Oh, Drew. 319 00:51:50,180 --> 00:51:53,050 But my feelings for Mimi lingered. 320 00:51:53,100 --> 00:51:58,540 For whatever reason, I just couldn't shake her. 321 00:36:40,900 --> 00:36:41,780 Oh, thank you. 322 00:52:03,850 --> 00:52:09,040 So...I have a question. And I can't give you all the details, but I need brutal honesty. 323 00:52:09,040 --> 00:52:11,060 Oh, yeah. Yeah. 324 00:52:11,060 --> 00:52:13,340 Why can't you give me all the details? 325 00:52:13,340 --> 00:52:16,040 I just can't. I can't. 326 00:52:16,040 --> 00:52:20,740 Well, how am I supposed to give you advice if I don't know what the hell you're talking about? 327 00:52:20,740 --> 00:52:24,180 Because we've been friends forever, and you know the person I am. 328 00:52:24,180 --> 00:52:27,840 You know what I would do. So just base it off of that. 329 00:52:27,840 --> 00:52:31,290 OK. I'll try the best I can. 330 00:52:31,290 --> 00:52:35,650 OK. So if you know something is really wrong... 331 00:52:35,650 --> 00:52:38,620 ...unequivocally wrong... 332 00:52:38,620 --> 00:52:43,320 ...but your gut is telling you to do it. Which one do you listen to? 333 00:52:44,520 --> 00:52:47,950 Well, if you know it's innately wrong... 334 00:52:47,950 --> 00:52:51,900 ...then your gut wouldn't be telling you to do it in the first place? 335 00:52:51,900 --> 00:53:03,630 336 00:53:04,270 --> 00:53:05,890 What is that! 337 00:53:06,690 --> 00:53:07,890 It's a dildo. 338 00:53:07,890 --> 00:53:10,470 Yeah, I recognized that! 339 00:53:10,470 --> 00:53:12,910 You're not going to use that on yourself are you? 340 00:53:12,910 --> 00:53:16,160 No, I'm going to stick it up my husband's ass. 341 00:53:17,710 --> 00:53:20,500 Yes, I'm going to use it on myself! Why wouldn't I? 342 00:53:20,500 --> 00:53:21,740 I don't know. 343 00:53:21,740 --> 00:53:23,460 Doesn't that intimidate Roy? 344 00:53:23,460 --> 00:53:25,460 Roy's the one who ordered it for me! 345 00:53:25,860 --> 00:53:29,110 Why does that not surprise me 346 00:53:29,110 --> 00:53:33,670 We're trying double penetration this weekend. I figured I'd start with the dildo... 347 00:53:33,670 --> 00:53:36,580 ...and then work my way into the real penis. 348 00:53:36,580 --> 00:53:39,400 OK. You're weekend's blocked out. I get it. 349 00:53:39,400 --> 00:53:42,080 [phone rings] 350 00:53:43,310 --> 00:53:45,800 Vickie McDaniels. 351 00:53:45,800 --> 00:53:47,800 Hi! 352 00:53:49,220 --> 00:53:50,980 Oh yeah? 353 00:53:50,980 --> 00:53:53,950 Vickie was so direct. So open. 354 00:53:53,950 --> 00:53:57,630 So free with every single thing she did or thought... 355 00:53:57,630 --> 00:53:59,630 I really wanted to know what that felt like. 356 00:53:59,630 --> 00:54:01,630 To really say what I felt. 357 00:54:01,630 --> 00:54:02,890 To do what I felt. 358 00:54:02,890 --> 00:54:06,080 Not censor myself for fear of being judged. 359 00:54:06,080 --> 00:54:09,250 The only time I had ever felt that way.... 360 00:54:09,250 --> 00:54:11,250 ...was with Mimi. 361 00:54:14,140 --> 00:54:15,350 Hi Drew. 362 00:54:15,350 --> 00:54:17,310 Oh, Mimi, Vickie's gone for the day. 363 00:54:17,310 --> 00:54:21,320 Oh, so sorry to come uninvited. I'm actually here to see you. 364 00:54:21,690 --> 00:54:24,120 There are copies of the pictures we shot. 365 00:54:24,270 --> 00:54:25,960 Oh. Yeah. 366 00:54:25,960 --> 00:54:28,320 Thank you. They came out really good. 367 00:54:28,320 --> 00:54:31,710 So I think you'll be proud. 368 00:54:32,140 --> 00:54:34,660 Can I look at them. Please do. OK. 369 00:54:37,910 --> 00:54:39,750 Wow. 370 00:54:39,750 --> 00:54:41,470 Yeah. 371 00:54:41,470 --> 00:54:45,990 [laughs] I remember that. 372 00:54:47,940 --> 00:54:50,150 I couldn't stop thinking about you! 373 00:54:53,460 --> 00:54:55,260 What are you doing? 374 00:55:00,720 --> 00:55:03,750 Like any affair, things started off intensely. 375 00:55:11,830 --> 00:55:14,740 Having sex wherever and whenever possible. 376 00:55:20,120 --> 00:55:24,740 And for whatever reason, the guilt I had felt before was suddenly gone. 377 00:55:24,740 --> 00:55:29,750 Looking back it seemed odd that I felt less guilty the more things progressed. 378 00:55:29,750 --> 00:55:33,950 Maybe I just wanted this too badly to let the guilt ruin it. 379 00:55:33,950 --> 00:55:37,630 Every prevailing thought was about my relationship with Mimi. 380 00:55:37,630 --> 00:55:42,270 And the next moment I would get to spend with her. 381 00:55:43,420 --> 00:55:46,360 I finally had something to look forward to. 382 00:55:46,360 --> 00:55:47,960 [alarm clock sounds] 383 00:55:51,720 --> 00:55:52,810 You're up early. 384 00:55:52,810 --> 00:55:57,370 Yeah.... 385 00:55:58,460 --> 00:56:02,830 And for the first time in, it felt like forever, I was actually living. 386 00:56:02,830 --> 00:56:04,830 Not just getting by. 387 00:56:14,940 --> 00:56:17,990 You're happy today. 388 00:56:17,990 --> 00:56:19,990 How do you know I'm happy? 389 00:56:20,670 --> 00:56:22,900 It's permeating through the air. 390 00:56:22,900 --> 00:56:27,300 That's nice. 391 00:56:28,060 --> 00:56:32,070 Embrace it! It suits you. 392 00:56:32,070 --> 00:56:34,070 How could I not be happy? 393 00:56:34,400 --> 00:56:40,460 For the first time in my life, I had a relationship that was both emotionally and physically fulfilling. 394 00:56:40,460 --> 00:56:42,460 I was totally unguarded. 395 00:56:42,460 --> 00:56:47,660 I could share absolutely anything with Mimi without fear of being criticized or judged... 396 00:56:47,660 --> 00:56:49,660 Aside from Vickie.... 397 00:56:49,660 --> 00:56:51,660 ...she was the most open person I knew. 398 00:56:51,660 --> 00:56:53,660 Wise beyond her years. 399 00:56:53,660 --> 00:56:57,540 A friend to me. Not just a lover. 400 00:56:58,110 --> 00:56:59,540 We laughed often. 401 00:56:59,540 --> 00:57:02,390 Encouraged one another's hopes and dreams. 402 00:57:02,390 --> 00:57:05,950 Enjoyed a sense of freedom I'd never known with Christine. 403 00:57:20,820 --> 00:57:23,030 But as with every affair... 404 00:57:23,030 --> 00:57:26,020 Reality rears its ugly head at one point or another... 405 00:57:26,770 --> 00:57:28,760 You know I'll figure out a way to make that happen. 406 00:57:28,760 --> 00:57:32,750 I know. I just...really want to know what it's like to wake up next to you. 407 00:57:32,750 --> 00:57:33,950 I hate that I can't. 408 00:57:33,950 --> 00:57:37,060 Does your roommate mind? Does ... know about us? 409 00:57:38,090 --> 00:57:41,220 Yeah, he knows and he thinks it's wrong. 410 00:57:41,220 --> 00:57:42,510 He just doesn't get it. 411 00:57:42,510 --> 00:57:45,920 I just don't think I want to subject ourselves to that sort of negativity right now. 412 00:57:46,430 --> 00:57:51,820 Yeah. I will get ourselves a hotel room in the next week or so. 413 00:57:51,820 --> 00:57:53,820 You'd really do that? 414 00:57:53,820 --> 00:57:54,950 Of course. 415 00:57:54,950 --> 00:57:58,240 I'm a bit frustrated myself, so.... 416 00:57:58,240 --> 00:58:02,230 Listen, I got to go. So I'll call you in the morning. 417 00:58:02,700 --> 00:58:04,660 OK. Sweet dreams. 418 00:58:04,660 --> 00:58:06,660 Bye. 419 00:58:16,550 --> 00:58:19,250 Who were you talking to just now? 420 00:58:19,250 --> 00:58:20,560 What? 421 00:58:20,560 --> 00:58:23,570 It's almost midnight. Who were you talking to? 422 00:58:23,570 --> 00:58:24,430 Vickie. 423 00:58:24,430 --> 00:58:27,190 I didn't want to keep you up taking the call in here. 424 00:58:27,390 --> 00:58:30,300 Why were you talking to Vickie about getting a hotel room? 425 00:58:30,300 --> 00:58:32,100 Because we're taking a business trip. 426 00:58:32,100 --> 00:58:35,860 And she's talking about saving the company money, staying with her sister, and... 427 00:58:35,860 --> 00:58:38,320 ...We'll just get a hotel. 428 00:58:38,320 --> 00:58:40,320 Hmm. When is the trip? 429 00:58:41,120 --> 00:58:43,570 Not for a few weeks if we take the trip at all. 430 00:58:47,810 --> 00:58:51,120 And suddenly, all the guilt I thought I was immune to... 431 00:58:51,120 --> 00:58:53,120 ...had returned full force. 432 00:58:53,330 --> 00:58:55,620 Blind to Christine felt wrong. 433 00:58:55,620 --> 00:58:58,690 I was sick about it. But I was terrified to... 434 00:58:58,690 --> 00:59:00,690 ...to come clean. 435 00:59:00,690 --> 00:59:05,120 Terrified to admit that a relationship that I had spent nearly 20 years of my life in... 436 00:59:05,120 --> 00:59:07,120 ...had somehow failed. 437 00:59:14,340 --> 00:59:19,830 Living more honestly had ironically propelled me into the affair to begin with. 438 00:59:19,830 --> 00:59:21,830 Now here I was. Lying again. 439 00:59:22,140 --> 00:59:23,830 Deleting text messages. 440 00:59:23,830 --> 00:59:26,290 Voicemails...emails... 441 00:59:26,290 --> 00:59:28,290 Afraid to admit what I really needed... 442 00:59:28,290 --> 00:59:32,040 ...in an effort to protect what I no longer wanted. 443 00:59:32,840 --> 00:59:35,150 How could you do something so selfish? 444 00:59:35,150 --> 00:59:39,390 I know, I know that it's wrong. But I can't help how I feel. 445 00:59:39,390 --> 00:59:42,020 Don't get mad at me for saying this....but.... 446 00:59:42,020 --> 00:59:45,240 ...married men never leave their wives, Mimi. 447 00:59:49,140 --> 00:59:51,230 You actually think that he's in love with you don't you? 448 00:59:51,230 --> 00:59:52,910 Yeah, I do. 449 00:59:52,910 --> 00:59:54,500 Mimi? Seriously? 450 00:59:54,500 --> 01:00:00,230 I know I sound like every other stupid girl that falls in love with a married man, but this is different. 451 01:00:01,460 --> 01:00:05,260 Every woman that falls in love with a married man thinks that she's somehow different. 452 01:00:05,260 --> 01:00:08,130 But you're not any different. You're a walking cliché. 453 01:00:08,130 --> 01:00:10,130 You're half his age for chrissake! 454 01:00:10,620 --> 01:00:11,630 It's not what you think. 455 01:00:11,630 --> 01:00:13,370 It's never what anyone thinks. 456 01:00:13,370 --> 01:00:18,210 Just don't get too wrapped up in thinking that you have some future with him, cause... 457 01:00:18,210 --> 01:00:20,210 ...you don't. He's never gonna leave his wife. 458 01:00:20,210 --> 01:00:22,210 Trust me. 459 01:00:23,820 --> 01:00:25,910 Mimi shared her concerns with me. 460 01:00:25,910 --> 01:00:30,290 Her fear was that I wasn't in this for the long haul. 461 01:00:30,610 --> 01:00:35,150 And as much as I tried to convince her that my intentions were sincere... 462 01:00:35,150 --> 01:00:38,020 ...my actions began to fall short. 463 01:00:38,020 --> 01:00:41,540 I'm so sorry Mimi, I'm gonna have to take a rain check for tonight. 464 01:00:41,540 --> 01:00:42,540 What happened? 465 01:00:42,540 --> 01:00:46,590 Christine's car battery is dead and AAA hasn't shown up. 466 01:00:46,590 --> 01:00:48,590 Oh... 467 01:00:48,590 --> 01:00:50,890 OK, don't worry about it. 468 01:00:50,890 --> 01:00:55,140 It's your birthday. Oh god, I feel so terrible about this. 469 01:00:55,140 --> 01:00:57,660 Don't worry about it. We can celebrate next week. 470 01:00:57,660 --> 01:01:01,530 I promise. I'm going to make this up to you ten-fold. 471 01:01:01,530 --> 01:01:03,530 I know you will. 472 01:01:25,070 --> 01:01:26,550 The problem is... 473 01:01:26,550 --> 01:01:31,840 ...you can't sustain two independent relationships without one of them getting the brunt of the sacrifice. 474 01:01:31,840 --> 01:01:34,140 I couldn't be in two places at once. 475 01:01:34,140 --> 01:01:36,730 And no matter how badly I wanted to be with her... 476 01:01:36,730 --> 01:01:39,860 ...I still had an obligation to Christine and our marriage. 477 01:01:40,380 --> 01:01:45,160 Missing Mimi's birthday was the first of many events I couldn't meet. 478 01:01:45,550 --> 01:01:48,580 But none more important than her gallery opening. 479 01:01:51,920 --> 01:01:53,730 None of my teachers are coming. 480 01:01:53,730 --> 01:02:00,060 Maybe one photography teacher and a journalism teacher....and a couple of friends... 481 01:02:00,060 --> 01:02:02,470 But you'll be there, right? 482 01:02:02,470 --> 01:02:05,950 Absolutely! I promise I'll be there. Wouldn't miss it for the world. 483 01:02:05,950 --> 01:02:10,740 Good, cause I know we can't hold hands or be affectionate...but... 484 01:02:10,740 --> 01:02:14,440 ...it would mean so much to me if you were there... 485 01:02:14,440 --> 01:02:15,770 For my first big show. 486 01:02:15,760 --> 01:02:16,650 I will be there. 487 01:02:18,860 --> 01:02:20,750 And I'll be there after... 488 01:02:20,800 --> 01:02:22,960 ...for our celebration. 489 01:02:23,800 --> 01:02:26,680 Sushi....? Sushi. 490 01:02:26,680 --> 01:02:30,980 Oh, you tiny girl... 491 01:02:45,580 --> 01:02:46,840 What's wrong? 492 01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:50,900 Dad had a heart attack! 493 01:02:50,900 --> 01:02:52,900 He's in the hospital. 494 01:02:56,620 --> 01:02:58,350 Is he going to be okay? 495 01:02:58,350 --> 01:03:00,160 Yeah, they think he's gonna be fine. 496 01:03:01,450 --> 01:03:03,720 But I think I might head up there this weekend. 497 01:03:03,720 --> 01:03:05,720 Yeah, of course, of course! 498 01:03:05,950 --> 01:03:09,410 Drew, I'd really like it if you'd come with me. 499 01:03:09,700 --> 01:03:12,980 I'm afraid I might fall apart on this one if I do it alone. 500 01:03:12,980 --> 01:03:15,310 It was the first time... 501 01:03:15,310 --> 01:03:16,630 ...in a long time. 502 01:03:16,630 --> 01:03:19,450 Christine had admitted to needing me emotionally. 503 01:03:20,110 --> 01:03:22,540 And even though the timing couldn't have been worse... 504 01:03:22,850 --> 01:03:24,420 How could I say "no"? 505 01:03:30,720 --> 01:03:32,940 Hey. Hey. 506 01:03:36,190 --> 01:03:38,550 I was just hanging this on that. 507 01:03:38,550 --> 01:03:40,550 Right in the middle. 508 01:03:40,550 --> 01:03:43,110 It's my favorite one of you. 509 01:03:43,110 --> 01:03:45,110 What's wrong? 510 01:03:45,620 --> 01:03:47,110 You okay? 511 01:03:51,300 --> 01:03:54,870 Christine's father had a heart attack. 512 01:03:55,680 --> 01:03:57,690 Oh my god. 513 01:03:58,000 --> 01:03:59,900 I'm sorry is he okay? Is he alive? 514 01:03:59,900 --> 01:04:01,320 Yeah. Yeah. 515 01:04:01,530 --> 01:04:02,800 He's OK. 516 01:04:02,800 --> 01:04:05,320 We're gonna drive up there tomorrow afternoon. 517 01:04:06,600 --> 01:04:09,450 Which means... 518 01:04:11,560 --> 01:04:14,810 Yeah. I understand. 519 01:04:17,130 --> 01:04:20,250 You know...if I could be here to support you... 520 01:04:20,250 --> 01:04:22,250 ...your big night...I would be. 521 01:04:23,760 --> 01:04:25,600 [Sighs] 522 01:04:26,050 --> 01:04:27,600 I know you would. 523 01:04:31,370 --> 01:04:33,810 It's really amazing work though. 524 01:04:33,810 --> 01:04:36,520 I think everybody's gonna be so impressed with you. 525 01:04:40,980 --> 01:04:42,780 You know it's funny... 526 01:04:42,780 --> 01:04:47,240 ...is this entire year, I've never once asked you about your wife. 527 01:04:47,630 --> 01:04:50,250 I thought that...I could be your escape. 528 01:04:50,250 --> 01:04:54,460 That if I pretended that she didn't exist then I could pretend that I wasn't just your mistress. 529 01:04:55,860 --> 01:04:58,050 You're not just my mistress... 530 01:04:58,050 --> 01:05:02,120 By anyone else's definition that is exactly what I am! 531 01:05:02,120 --> 01:05:04,690 My dad cheated on my mom. 532 01:05:06,250 --> 01:05:10,100 I never told you that because it devastated her. 533 01:05:10,740 --> 01:05:12,810 I saw what that did to somebody! 534 01:05:12,810 --> 01:05:16,750 I saw how much that hurt, and I swore I would never do that to somebody! 535 01:05:17,190 --> 01:05:18,750 But... 536 01:05:18,750 --> 01:05:21,350 ...you know look at me...I'm just a hypocrite. 537 01:05:22,230 --> 01:05:24,160 This is different Mimi. 538 01:05:25,050 --> 01:05:26,440 How is it different? 539 01:05:26,440 --> 01:05:28,440 I mean really! 540 01:05:28,440 --> 01:05:30,440 Because I'm in love with you. 541 01:05:30,440 --> 01:05:32,990 And I know deep down in my gut... 542 01:05:33,400 --> 01:05:35,760 ...that I can't feel for anyone... 543 01:05:35,760 --> 01:05:37,760 ...the way that I feel for you. 544 01:05:38,330 --> 01:05:40,980 If you understood his direction for life...it got too boring. 545 01:05:40,980 --> 01:05:42,980 That's not true. 546 01:05:42,980 --> 01:05:44,980 But it is. 547 01:05:45,630 --> 01:05:48,240 If you were truly unhappy with her... 548 01:05:48,240 --> 01:05:51,670 ...and what we really had meant something then why would you stay married? 549 01:05:51,670 --> 01:05:54,340 I was married to Christine for close to 20 years! 550 01:05:54,340 --> 01:05:56,340 That's almost as long as you've been alive! 551 01:05:56,340 --> 01:05:59,700 That's a huge amount to walk away from. 552 01:06:00,330 --> 01:06:03,490 It's also a helluva lot to compete with. 553 01:06:05,110 --> 01:06:08,170 I'm not asking you to compete. 554 01:06:09,570 --> 01:06:10,800 I can't. 555 01:06:10,800 --> 01:06:12,800 I can't do this anymore. 556 01:06:12,800 --> 01:06:13,780 What?! 557 01:06:13,780 --> 01:06:16,770 I can't be your fallback relationship. 558 01:06:16,770 --> 01:06:20,880 I can't be the person who's waiting around for your marriage to fall apart. 559 01:06:21,640 --> 01:06:25,830 I don't want to be with you if it means sneaking around. 560 01:06:25,830 --> 01:06:27,830 Borrowed time. 561 01:06:27,830 --> 01:06:31,960 Spending birthdays and holidays and monumental events in my life... 562 01:06:31,960 --> 01:06:33,400 ...without you! 563 01:06:33,400 --> 01:06:36,050 Because you should be at home with your wife. 564 01:06:36,050 --> 01:06:39,760 I know that anybody listening to me right now would think that I'm... 565 01:06:39,760 --> 01:06:43,010 ...selfish brat and just trying to ruin a marriage. 566 01:06:43,010 --> 01:06:46,040 But it was never my intention. 567 01:06:49,510 --> 01:06:54,190 I didn't mean to fall in love with a married man, but I did. 568 01:06:54,190 --> 01:06:56,190 And I love him. 569 01:06:58,130 --> 01:07:01,360 With all of my heart and my soul. 570 01:07:02,590 --> 01:07:05,580 But I can't...I can't do this anymore. 571 01:07:08,520 --> 01:07:10,920 What are you saying? 572 01:07:14,310 --> 01:07:16,790 I'm saying that I can't share you. 573 01:07:20,340 --> 01:07:22,010 I'm sorry. 574 01:07:36,780 --> 01:07:38,610 And just like that... 575 01:07:38,610 --> 01:07:40,610 ...it was over. 576 01:08:01,520 --> 01:08:04,270 jesus...you're home late! 577 01:08:04,270 --> 01:08:06,270 Where were you? 578 01:08:06,270 --> 01:08:07,920 Out. 579 01:08:10,100 --> 01:08:11,910 Are you okay? 580 01:08:13,720 --> 01:08:15,890 No.... 581 01:08:17,180 --> 01:08:21,940 And I know that you're just gonna wanna say, "I told you so". But don't, please. 582 01:08:21,940 --> 01:08:25,040 Even though it's over, it wasn't what you think it was. 583 01:08:25,040 --> 01:08:28,700 It was...it was...real. 584 01:08:28,700 --> 01:08:30,580 He's really incredible. 585 01:08:30,580 --> 01:08:34,720 I'm upset. 586 01:08:37,660 --> 01:08:40,790 I would never say, "I told you so". 587 01:08:40,790 --> 01:08:43,620 I just wish it didn't have to hurt so bad. 588 01:08:44,370 --> 01:08:47,510 That I could just wake up tomorrow and... 589 01:08:47,510 --> 01:08:49,510 ...forget him and... 590 01:08:51,110 --> 01:08:54,110 ...forget the life we'll never have together. 591 01:08:57,570 --> 01:08:58,840 What are you doing? 592 01:09:00,940 --> 01:09:03,150 Helping you forget. 593 01:21:36,190 --> 01:21:38,440 You can sleep in my room tonight if you want. 594 01:21:41,060 --> 01:21:43,250 No I can't. 595 01:21:43,250 --> 01:21:46,870 I can't sleep with you tonight. 596 01:21:46,870 --> 01:21:49,900 I just...I don't even know... 597 01:21:49,900 --> 01:21:50,780 ...where my head is. 598 01:21:50,780 --> 01:21:52,780 I don't know if I should be... 599 01:21:53,460 --> 01:21:57,170 ...angry or devastated or sad. 600 01:21:58,370 --> 01:22:02,000 It's just a lot to take in. So I just... 601 01:22:02,000 --> 01:22:07,130 ...I need to sleep in my room. 602 01:22:28,290 --> 01:22:32,260 Wanna talk about it? 603 01:22:33,070 --> 01:22:35,050 About what? 604 01:22:35,050 --> 01:22:37,050 What's troubling you. 605 01:22:39,380 --> 01:22:40,990 No 606 01:22:43,410 --> 01:22:46,590 Is it Mimi? 607 01:22:50,900 --> 01:22:53,290 I know Drew. 608 01:22:53,290 --> 01:22:54,290 I've known. 609 01:22:54,290 --> 01:22:56,290 You know about what? 610 01:22:56,680 --> 01:22:59,080 Everything. Since the beginning. 611 01:22:59,660 --> 01:23:01,550 And I'm not judging you. 612 01:23:01,550 --> 01:23:02,680 Don't worry. 613 01:23:02,680 --> 01:23:04,680 Why didn't you say anything then? 614 01:23:04,680 --> 01:23:08,350 Because she asked me not to, and my loyalty is to her! 615 01:23:12,320 --> 01:23:14,400 How is she? 616 01:23:14,400 --> 01:23:15,920 I wanna know how you are? 617 01:23:15,920 --> 01:23:18,560 [sighs] Torn up. 618 01:23:19,010 --> 01:23:21,310 Conflicted. Confused. 619 01:23:21,310 --> 01:23:23,310 Unhappy. Brokenhearted. 620 01:23:23,310 --> 01:23:24,510 You want me to go on? 621 01:23:24,510 --> 01:23:26,510 If you'd like. 622 01:23:26,510 --> 01:23:28,180 I never intended to fall in love with her. 623 01:23:28,180 --> 01:23:31,890 I'm not the stereotypical guy that cheats on his wife with a younger woman. 624 01:23:32,580 --> 01:23:34,460 So what are going to do? 625 01:23:38,560 --> 01:23:41,090 I've spent most of my adult life with Christine. 626 01:23:41,090 --> 01:23:43,090 If I walk away... 627 01:23:43,090 --> 01:23:45,090 ...I throw all that time away. 628 01:23:45,520 --> 01:23:47,090 Like it's meaningless. 629 01:23:47,810 --> 01:23:51,010 Spending time with someone is never meaningless. 630 01:23:51,010 --> 01:23:53,010 Yeah, I know. 631 01:23:53,010 --> 01:23:54,350 But you need to ask yourself... 632 01:23:54,350 --> 01:23:56,130 ...do you want to spend the rest of your life... 633 01:23:56,130 --> 01:23:58,130 ...in a marriage with someone who isn't your ideal companion? 634 01:23:58,670 --> 01:24:01,020 In hopes that one day she'll change? 635 01:24:01,810 --> 01:24:03,020 I just... 636 01:24:03,310 --> 01:24:06,430 I just...think Christine deserves a chance. 637 01:24:07,000 --> 01:24:08,430 Then work it out with her. 638 01:24:09,180 --> 01:24:10,430 But be honest. 639 01:24:11,540 --> 01:24:12,590 Be honest... 640 01:24:12,590 --> 01:24:14,590 ..about everything. What... 641 01:24:15,790 --> 01:24:16,850 ...you did... 642 01:24:16,850 --> 01:24:19,330 ...what you want...what was missing. 643 01:24:19,870 --> 01:24:22,880 The worst thing you could ever do is lie to yourself. 644 01:24:24,950 --> 01:24:28,880 Better to spend 15 years in a bad marriage than 30, Drew. 645 01:24:32,800 --> 01:24:35,450 I didn't know where to begin with Christine... 646 01:24:35,450 --> 01:24:37,450 ...but I decided to start with the truth. 647 01:25:28,760 --> 01:25:31,400 At first she was disgusted by me. 648 01:25:31,400 --> 01:25:33,400 How could you?! 649 01:25:33,400 --> 01:25:35,400 How could you do this?! 650 01:25:37,030 --> 01:25:43,200 And when the anger subsided, she fell into a deep depression that I couldn't pull her out of for weeks. 651 01:25:47,110 --> 01:25:54,900 But eventually she came around and decided it was time for us to talk. 652 01:25:56,850 --> 01:26:00,170 Why did you do it? 653 01:26:06,530 --> 01:26:09,510 Because I felt trapped. 654 01:26:10,720 --> 01:26:13,200 Trapped? 655 01:26:13,200 --> 01:26:14,970 I never held you back! 656 01:26:14,970 --> 01:26:19,280 I never put any demands on you! I know and I didn't mean it that way. 657 01:26:19,280 --> 01:26:21,280 I just didn't feel free. 658 01:26:21,280 --> 01:26:24,990 Marriage isn't about freedom, Drew. It's about commitment! 659 01:26:24,990 --> 01:26:26,990 I'm not talking about free to go sleep with people! 660 01:26:26,990 --> 01:26:29,520 It's exactly what you did. 661 01:26:29,520 --> 01:26:33,300 Christine we spent 15 years tiptoeing around our marriage! 662 01:26:33,300 --> 01:26:35,970 We never opened up. We never shared anything! 663 01:26:35,970 --> 01:26:37,690 We just functioned. 664 01:26:37,690 --> 01:26:39,690 We functioned like two autonomous creatures. 665 01:26:39,690 --> 01:26:42,890 We never had any real connection with each other. 666 01:26:42,890 --> 01:26:44,890 If that's how you felt then why did you marry me in the first place! 667 01:26:44,890 --> 01:26:47,960 Because that's what I loved about you in the first place! 668 01:26:47,960 --> 01:26:49,250 I loved your strength! 669 01:26:49,250 --> 01:26:51,250 I loved your independence! 670 01:26:51,250 --> 01:26:52,630 ...and emotional hardness. 671 01:26:52,630 --> 01:26:55,850 I loved the fact that I didn't need to be the grounding force. 672 01:26:55,850 --> 01:26:57,420 In your life...all the time. 673 01:26:57,420 --> 01:26:58,780 And what changed? 674 01:26:59,150 --> 01:27:00,270 I got tired. 675 01:27:00,270 --> 01:27:02,760 I got tired of living on the surface. 676 01:27:02,760 --> 01:27:04,760 Never sharing how I felt... 677 01:27:04,760 --> 01:27:06,760 ...never honoring who I was! 678 01:27:06,760 --> 01:27:08,760 I saw how strong you were. 679 01:27:08,760 --> 01:27:10,380 I saw that you didn't need me. 680 01:27:10,380 --> 01:27:12,760 And that scared me...to need you! 681 01:27:12,760 --> 01:27:16,660 To...try to feel comfortable sharing something with you. 682 01:27:19,210 --> 01:27:21,670 So is that what attracted you to her? 683 01:27:22,560 --> 01:27:24,610 The fact that she needed you? 684 01:27:25,780 --> 01:27:28,360 The fact that I could me ... with her. 685 01:27:30,810 --> 01:27:32,350 I know this hurts. 686 01:27:34,090 --> 01:27:36,360 The only truth I knew... 687 01:27:36,360 --> 01:27:38,360 ...is when I was with her. 688 01:27:39,390 --> 01:27:41,430 I need you to hear that....I need... 689 01:27:41,430 --> 01:27:42,750 ...you to know... 690 01:27:42,750 --> 01:27:44,750 ...and understand where I'm coming from. 691 01:27:44,750 --> 01:27:49,270 If....If there's any hope of saving our marriage. 692 01:27:58,120 --> 01:27:59,870 Christine and I spent the next year... 693 01:27:59,870 --> 01:28:01,870 ...trying to recover from my affair. 694 01:28:26,250 --> 01:28:29,090 But ... no matter how much work we put into things... 695 01:28:29,590 --> 01:28:32,660 ...it always fell short to the way I felt when with Mimi. 696 01:29:18,280 --> 01:29:21,160 Are you still in love with her? 697 01:29:27,570 --> 01:29:30,660 Desperately. 698 01:29:51,210 --> 01:29:53,680 Hey. 699 01:29:54,720 --> 01:29:57,740 Hi. 700 01:29:58,080 --> 01:30:01,260 I see your shooting daisies now. 701 01:30:01,720 --> 01:30:03,260 Uh, yeah. 702 01:30:04,300 --> 01:30:06,220 They've always been my favorite. 703 01:30:06,220 --> 01:30:08,220 Yeah, I remember. 704 01:30:10,710 --> 01:30:12,660 What are you doing here? 705 01:30:16,120 --> 01:30:18,980 What do you mean? 706 01:30:19,950 --> 01:30:22,570 I just came to tell you... 707 01:30:22,570 --> 01:30:27,120 I'm really sorry about the way things went down between you and I. 708 01:30:28,680 --> 01:30:30,750 Me too. 709 01:30:32,760 --> 01:30:34,830 You know... 710 01:30:34,830 --> 01:30:36,830 ...sometimes it feels like... 711 01:30:36,830 --> 01:30:40,590 ...one has to go down this...convoluted... 712 01:30:40,590 --> 01:30:42,590 ...fucked up road... 713 01:30:42,590 --> 01:30:45,460 ...to get to where they need to be. 714 01:30:47,120 --> 01:30:50,000 Well as long as you end up there eventually, right? 715 01:30:50,970 --> 01:30:53,040 Yeah. Yeah. 716 01:30:53,550 --> 01:30:55,040 Well I have. 717 01:30:56,290 --> 01:30:58,150 Where is that? 718 01:30:58,150 --> 01:31:01,590 Right here....with you. 719 01:31:02,760 --> 01:31:05,780 I don't know if you're in a relationship...or... 720 01:31:05,780 --> 01:31:08,480 ...what your situation is, but ...uh... 721 01:31:08,480 --> 01:31:10,480 ...I'm single now. 722 01:31:11,330 --> 01:31:14,540 And...if you're single too.... 723 01:31:14,540 --> 01:31:16,170 ...I'd like another shot. 724 01:31:16,170 --> 01:31:20,580 Another chance to start things over with you...the right way. 725 01:31:21,220 --> 01:31:22,170 Fully committed. 726 01:31:22,190 --> 01:31:26,730 Fully...ready to give this relationship what it deserves. 727 01:31:30,050 --> 01:31:33,320 I know what our situation must look like to the outside world. 728 01:31:33,320 --> 01:31:35,320 Fuck the outside world! 729 01:31:35,320 --> 01:31:38,020 OK. I cheated. You were the woman I cheated with. 730 01:31:38,020 --> 01:31:40,390 And I did everything all the wrong way. 731 01:31:40,390 --> 01:31:42,390 But I'll be damned if I'll be vilified! 732 01:31:42,390 --> 01:31:45,210 From the outside world for falling in love with you. 733 01:31:45,210 --> 01:31:47,210 Mimi, we're not the cliché! 734 01:31:47,840 --> 01:31:49,210 What we have is real. 735 01:31:50,670 --> 01:31:55,020 All the naysayers can say our relationship was doomed from the beginning, but... 736 01:31:55,530 --> 01:31:58,510 ...I'm ready to prove them wrong. 737 01:32:01,150 --> 01:32:04,190 I'm... 738 01:32:04,560 --> 01:32:06,190 I'm not seeing anyone. 739 01:47:20,730 --> 01:47:24,230 The best things in life don't always fall into place perfectly. 740 01:47:24,230 --> 01:47:26,230 But if their meant to be... 741 01:47:26,230 --> 01:47:28,230 ...they'll fall into place somehow. 742 01:47:30,770 --> 01:47:35,150 There are a lot of people who will tell you that betrayal is the worst thing in the world. 743 01:47:35,150 --> 01:47:39,900 That it can never amount to anything but pain and suffering and hurt. 744 01:47:40,180 --> 01:47:44,620 And most of the time these people are right!2 745 01:47:46,740 --> 01:47:49,880 But in my situation...the betrayal saved me. 746 01:47:49,880 --> 01:47:51,880 And it saved Christine. 747 01:47:51,880 --> 01:47:54,230 It taught us to live more honestly. 748 01:47:54,230 --> 01:47:57,110 To not deny who we were and what we needed. 749 01:47:57,110 --> 01:47:59,300 And for the first time in our lives... 750 01:47:59,300 --> 01:48:02,880 ...it gave us the chance to know true and lasting freedom. 751 01:48:02,880 --> 01:48:06,050 ...within the routine of life. 752 01:48:20,370 --> 01:48:41,490 56744

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