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(melancholy music)

(horn honking)

(Kevin yawning)

(Kevin groaning)

(harmonica music)

(harmonica music)

- You going to work,

or are you just gonna play that fucking thing all day?

- Good morning to you, too, Snape.

- Morning, hey, listen,

I need to borrow $5 from you.

Is that possible?

- Look, Snape, I don't think you're bad or anything,

I just don't trust giving my money to you.

- All right, that's fair, I guess.

Even though I did pay rent in like, what, two months ago?

- Yeah, 'cause it was your turn to pay, okay?

You can't try guilt-tripping me if we take turns.

- Okay.

- Look, I have to go.

- Real quick, could you get me some bacon on the way back?

- Bacon's too expensive, I'll pick up some eggs.

- Eggs?

Come on, man.

- Look, if you want bacon,

you could spend it with your own money.

I'm not gonna spend my money on your wants.

- Nah, it's okay.

I'll be good for another three days. (sighing)

- Bye. - Have a good day at work,

muchacho.

Hey, brother, how's it going, man?

No, yeah, I'm good, I'm good.

I just, uh, was hoping I could, uh,

get some more of that shit that you...

Remember that shit you sampled for me last time?

You remember that?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I want some more of that.

All right, cool, yeah, yeah.

No, no, no, I want more of that, more of that, yeah, yeah.

All right, dope, dope.

When do you think you can come through?

Tomorrow? No, no, no.

Well, I was actually thinking about today.

Can you do it today?

No, yeah, no, no, I got the money

and everything, yeah, yeah.

All right.

All right, cool.

All right, dope, bro, thank you so much.

No, hey, I really appreciate it, thank you.

All right, cool, cool, cool.

Fuck.

What's wrong with me?

(sighing)

(water running)

(sniffing)

(drug crackling)

Fuck it, I deserve this.

(drug crackling)

Yeah, I don't, I don't understand either.

The old lady gives me shit sometimes when I,

when I get high. (snickering)

I see it as nothing wrong with it though, right?

You get me, yeah, you get me. (laughing)

I always wondered what it would be like to be a snowman.

You're all (chuckling)...

What?

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, no, I work at a restaurant.

Yeah, I know (chuckling) it's great, actually.

Yeah, yeah, it's good. (chuckling)

Do you want some?

Yeah, you can have some.

Yeah, sure. (chuckling)

It's all good.

Oh, man, what have you got planned today?

You wanna hang out with me?

All right, cool.

Let's go to the North Pole, man.

You're my only friend, Frosty.

(traffic whirring)

(dishes clanking)

(insects buzzing)

- Hey. - Uh, hey, can I come in?

- Yeah.

- I need to tell you something, Brenda.

- Okay, oh, I need to tell you something, too.

- No.

- What is it that you wanna tell me?

- (stammering) It's gonna be really hard

for me to tell you this.

- Well, what is it?

- I think we should break up.

- What? - Yeah, yeah,

we need to break up. - But,

but I love you, Kevin.

- Don't give me that.

- But I do, I love you!

- No, you don't.

You're still young, you don't know what love is.

- And you do?

What is it?

- I don't, I don't know.

- Am I not pretty enough for you?

- No, I don't think it's that.

- Or have I not shown you enough affection?

- No, it's not...

- Look. - No, please don't do that.

- Then what is it?

- I just can't do this anymore.

I can't be with someone that makes me feel

like I'm forced to be with all the time.

I mean, we could still be friends.

- Just shut up, Kevin!

(sighing) You don't have the slightest idea

of what I had to do to keep this relationship going.

Do you know how hard we worked,

how hard I worked to keep this?

- It doesn't matter anymore.

- It does to me!

I thought we had something special.

I don't know, I thought (sighing),

I thought you loved me.

- What made you think that?

- I don't know, maybe all the times of us hanging out

and watching movies or having sex in the car.

- You sound really upset.

- Well, because I am, you idiot!

- I'm sorry.

I mean, we can still be friends, right?

- No, go fuck yourself, Kevin.

- I'll call you tomorrow?

- Feel free not to.

(door opens and closes)

(melancholy music)

(Kevin sighing)

- Snape, Snape, are you dead yet?

(Snape sniffing)

- No, no, you fucking asshole, I'm not dead yet,

and stop hitting me, fuck.

(Snape groaning)

(Kevin sighing)

(tattered breathing)

(heavy breathing)

(melancholy music)

(refrigerator whirring)

(Snape groaning)

- You okay? - Yeah.

- You were sleeping heavy. - I know.

- If you mind me asking, what,

what drug did you do?

- Does it matter?

- I mean, if it's under this roof, yeah,

you're not the only one paying bills here.

- It's not a big deal, all right?

Just mind your fucking business.

- If it's not a big deal,

then it should be easy for you to spill.

- Brown sugar. - Brown sugar?

- [Snape] Yep, brown sugar.

- As in heroin.

(Snape chuckling)

- Kevin, ah, you know when you say it like that,

you make it sound so bad.

- Snape, because it is.

You know what it actually does to you?

- Kevin, like I said, don't fucking worry about me, okay?

I got a question.

What is that rope in there?

Hmm, not today, huh?

- Nope, not today.

- Well, I guess we both have problems then, don't we?

- Yes, we do.

- I think you may have a bigger problem though,

because that rope is not gonna do the trick.

Just saying.

What're you looking at?

- The people.

- And what are they doing?

- Just living their lives, walking.

You can tell each one of them has a destination.

You do not see them reach it, but you can still tell.

There's a lady that walks down this street right here

with round glasses and always wears her same red sweater.

- Really?

Is she cute?

- She's old.

- Oh.

Got it.

Why don't you ever go out?

- I do.

- Okay, besides work.

- I just never feel like it.

You go out for what?

- Uh, I don't know, clear your head?

- You see that's a waste of time.

- Wait, don't you have work?

- No, I called off.

- Why would you call off?

- Because I don't feel like working today, Snape.

- All right, damn, if that's how you feel.

Hey, I'll be right back, all right?

- Feel free not to.

(harmonica music)

(Kevin spitting)

(door opens and closes)

- Are you good?

- Yeah, I'm fine.

I'm not the one doing drugs here.

- All right, stop, all right?

I was just asking a fucking question.

- What's in the bag?

- Nothing.

- Is it nothing or you just don't wanna tell me?

- Pick one.

- I mean, you should just tell me.

It's not a big deal, remember?

- Cocaine.

- You do all the hardcore drugs, huh?

All the nasty ones, the ones that make you skinny,

have black teeth, that's probably gonna make you die

in like less than three years?

- You done?

- I'm not gonna do drugs, okay?

It's not me, it's not who I am.

But how does it feel?

- You wanna know how it feels?

- Yes, how does it feel when you're on it?

- Relaxed.

You feel completely relaxed.

You got no worries.

You feel amazing, actually.

- [Kevin] But is it worth it?

- [Snape] What do you mean by that?

- Snape, it's not rocket science.

Is it worth it?

Are you willing to risk your life for temporary pleasure?

- Well, if that's what I want, then let me be.

- I will let you be.

I was just asking.

- All right, well, let me ask you a question.

Why do you wanna kill yourself?

- I know you saw the rope.

- No, not just the rope, buddy, no.

I found this, actually.

It's a suicide note from you.

- I'm still here.

- Why do you wanna kill yourself?

- Because there's no point living if you're not happy, man.

- You feel sad. - I don't feel anything.

I try to be happy, or at least feel something,

but I feel nothing.

- You can't force it, I know.

Here.

Just take it from me.

One hit, that's all you need.

Just take one hit.

- What is it?

- It's weed, it's not gonna do anything to you.

- Are you sure it's just weed?

- Just take one fucking hit, man, that's all I'm asking.

(Kevin sniffing)

- No.

I appreciate the offer, but it's not me.

It's not who I am.

- All right, don't knock it till you try it.

- I'm not knocking anything.

I'm gonna go to bed now.

Don't bother me, okay?

- Hey, Kevin, have you seen my lighter?

Kevin?

Hey.

Hey!

Hey, Kevin!

You motherfucker, give me my fucking...

(Kevin groaning)

- [Kevin] Oh, fuck!

- Never take my fucking lighter again,

you stupid son-of-a-bitch.

Fucking idiot.

Dumb-ass.

(Kevin groaning)

Oh, no, fucking idiot.

(harmonica music)

Oh my god, stop!

Christ!

- Snape, shut up, man.

(harmonica music)

- Hey, hey, hey, now, seriously,

you really fucking suck, all right?

Stop, all right?

Please stop. - Can you shut up, man?

(harmonica music)

- Please give it a fucking rest, please.

I'm asking you, I'm saying please, all right?

- Snape, can you please let me play the whole goddamn song

without you interrupting me, man?

Thank you.

I'm trying to think.

(harmonica music)

- Yeah, that was better.

Now shut the fuck up, please!

- Fuck, you were fucking sleeping.

(Snape groaning)

Why you gotta be a dick all the time?

- Hit me again, hit me again, come on.

Hit me again!

Come on, Kevin, huh?

Hit me again!

Do it!

Look, you fucking suck, okay?

Please stop, all right?

Stop!

- Yeah, well, at least I can play.

- You play shit, that's what you play, all right?

- What the fuck's your problem, man?

- Look, I don't have a problem, all right?

I just wanna fucking sleep.

Now please, leave me alone.

- What'd you gotta do in the morning?

- Nothing, I don't have to do anything, okay?

Just go to sleep!

Go to sleep!

- Have a good night. - Yeah, fuck you!

(clock ticking)

(Snape sniffing)

Great.

Hello, honey.

- You're back on it again. - Yep, I sure am.

(Snape laughing)

You gonna say anything about it?

- Do I have to?

- I don't know, you do look a little disappointed in me, so.

- Because I am.

- Yeah, well, that's okay, I've accepted it.

- Why? - Why?

Why what?

- What's the whole point of you doing this?

- Oh, you mean the shit I'm sniffing,

is that what you're talking about?

- No shit. - Oh, why do I do this?

- Yeah, why? - You know, that's funny,

'cause you ask me that question a whole lot.

- But each time you answer differently.

- Okay, it's true, and I do that for a reason.

But if you really wanna know, I'll tell you.

Give me a moment.

(Snape sniffing)

Okay, here's the truth.

My life sucks, all right?

It fucking sucks.

I'm a server, Kevin, that's how I make my money,

serving the fucking assholes.

But you know what I'd rather be doing?

I'd rather be selling, that's what I'd rather be doing.

You know, I get happy when I'm high

and I'm pissed off when I'm sober,

because my natural happiness is just gone,

absolutely gone, bye.

- It doesn't have to be that way.

- [Snape] That's the way it is, Kevin.

- Are you thinking of checking into rehab?

- Rehab, rehab. (chuckling)

Did you say rehab? - Yeah, to get better.

- Rehab, rehab, wow, rehab.

No, I'm not thinking about that!

Why the fuck would you bring that up?

- Snape, it was just a question.

- [Snape] Well, fuck your question.

Stupid asshole. (chuckling)

- I'm telling you, you're gonna die sooner than you think.

- Oh, no, who gives a fuck, all right?

I don't care if I die, all right?

Unlike you, I don't give a shit.

I'd rather die happy than live a life full of misery and depression.

Isn't that why you wanna commit suicide?

- Because my life is pointless. - Because your life is pointless, exactly.

Or hey, you know, if you want,

you can join the party with me.

- I already told you, nah, that's not me.

- (laughing) I was kidding.

Give you some of this, are you kidding me?

The last thing I want to do is give you some of this.

(Snape laughing)

You see, it's funny because I know drugs are bad, you know.

I do, I know.

I was a kid when I learned this.

I was in a drug-free plan, I was in D.A.R.E., you know?

You remember D.A.R.E., I was in that,

and they told me that this shit is bad

and I never thought I'd actually do it, you know?

I never thought I'd actually be on this,

but I tell you, this shit,

this shit makes you feel so fucking good,

so good.

It's almost like a rollercoaster, you know?

Like a big high rollercoaster.

You like rollercoasters?

I know I do.

What the fuck are you doing?

- I thought you were into heroin?

- Yeah, well, you can smoke heroin, too, motherfucker.

- I didn't know that.

- Well, now you know, and don't ever fucking touch me

again like that, you understand me?

You killed my high, thanks.

- It's the next morning and I know everyone's asleep,

even my brother, he's dead asleep.

So I was gonna ask if everyone else is sleeping,

I said I never wake up early, but last night-

(door opens and closes)

- Can I help you?

- Do you care about me?

- No, I'm not gay.

(phone video chattering)

Wow, okay, really, what the fuck, bro, huh?

What the fuck?

- Do you like me?

- What?

Do I like you?

(stammering) Do I care about you, like care care,

is that what you're asking me right now?

- Yes, do you care about me in some way at least?

- I don't know, do you care about me?

- I asked you first.

- Well, if you answer, it's gonna help me.

- Why can't you just answer on your own?

- [Snape] 'Cause I don't want to.

- I can answer for you.

Because you're a selfish piece of shit,

you don't care about anybody but yourself.

It's always you, it's always what you wanna do.

- What'd you want me to do? You want me to care about you for free?

- You could try to care for me.

- Oh, right, 'cause you do?

- I'm trying, man, I really am.

- What the fuck does that mean?

- It means that it's hard to care about someone

that does not give a shit about you.

My parents live in another place,

I feel alone, and it fucking breaks me.

- Do you want me to break it to you?

No one's gonna give a fuck about your problems.

- I know, (sighing) it sucks.

I'm giving you space.

- Good, now go get my phone.

- No. - Why?

- Because I wanna talk to you some more.

- No, we talked enough.

- No, I wanna talk to you some more.

- Why?

- Because if we don't, I feel like I'm gonna lose my head.

- All right. (heavy sighing)

Fine, what?

- Have you ever cared about anybody but yourself?

- The fuck question is that?

- An honest one.

- Yeah, I cared about a few other people in my life.

- Like who?

- My mom.

- Do you still care for her?

- No. - Why?

- Because. - Because why?

It shouldn't be hard,

it's not a hard question. - Because she's dead!

Okay? She's dead.

You wanna know how she died?

She killed herself.

Sound familiar?

I was only a sophomore in high school,

and she killed herself.

Am I mad that she killed herself?

Yeah, I'm really fucking mad, because she left me alone.

I didn't even have a dad.

- I thought you said your dad lives in another place?

- No, I lied to you about that.

Truth is I don't even know him.

I wasn't allowed to meet him.

I was told that I could meet him

when I graduate high school.

But, of course, that didn't happen.

I came back from school one day

and I found her in the bathroom

with pills in her hands and vomit in her mouth, yeah.

I'm stuck with that image in my head.

Look, I'm gonna be completely honest with you.

I really don't give a fuck if you kill yourself, all right?

I've been through it once and I know I can do it again.

- And I thought speaking to you

was gonna make me feel better.

- Yeah, well, it didn't.

Let me ask you a question.

Have you ever cared about anybody besides your family?

- Yes, many people. - Oh, really?

Did they care about you

the same way that you cared for them?

Did they?

- No. - No? Wow.

Stop wasting time caring for people

that don't give a fuck about you.

- I treat people with care because I hope one day

they're gonna do the same for me.

- It's funny, because you and I have been roommates

for almost three months and nothing has changed between us.

- It's only you.

You made me realize you're not that important.

- [Snape] Good, now you're getting it.

- I'm gonna go now. - Good.

(chair thudding)

(melancholy music)

(zipper unzipping)

(Kevin coughing)

(harmonica music)

- Hey, man.

Mind if I sit with you?

Is that cool?

- You're already sitting down, so why not?

- All right, hey, I just wanna say I'm sorry

for like bullying you and stuff, man, I'm sorry.

Hey, did I hurt your feelings earlier?

- A bit, yeah, I'm not gonna lie.

- I'm sorry.

You just, you know, I like to be a dick to you, you know,

'cause it's fun. (snickering)

- Yeah, well, it's not fun to me.

I should have never said anything.

- No, no, it's good that you said something

because now you gave me more stuff to make fun of you for.

(Snape laughing)

- You can leave now. - No, no, no, no, no, no.

You wanted to talk earlier, all right,

so now we're gonna talk.

And we're gonna talk because I wanna talk.

- Are you high?

- (snickering) What?

What kinda question is that?

- Snape, it smells like a mixture

of sweet chemicals and vinegar.

(Snape laughing)

- Oh, Kevin, you know, when you say it like that,

you make it sound like it's really bad.

- Because it is, and you know it yourself.

(Snape laughing)

- Kevin, are you a virgin?

- What? - Are you a virgin?

- Why would you ask me that?

- Because I wanna know.

Are you a virgin? - What kinda question is that?

- It's a question for you.

- Well, I'm not gonna answer it.

- That's, (blows raspberries) that's 'cause you are.

You're a fucking virgin, aren't you, huh?

Huh? - I'm not.

- Okay, all right, Kevin,

then tell me please, how did you lose it again?

- I'm not gonna tell you how I lost it,

that's fucking weird. - Ah, that's because

you're a virgin.

Like a virgin. - I'm not, you idiot.

- A virgin. (laughing)

- Are you a virgin? - Oh, come on, really?

Fuck, no, dude, I slept with lots of chicks

in high school, bro, especially at parties.

Dude, dude, I had three-ways, and bro.

- That's so disgusting. - No, it's not.

I was having fun, dude, come on, I was livin'.

Now look, Kevin, all right,

I know you're a good boy and all,

but please tell me, at least tell me

you've smoke weed before.

- Yeah, once. - Ooh, really?

No shit, okay, tell me, what,

how did it happen, what happened?

- Well, for the first time and only time, it was terrible.

It made me think,

it made me think the reality we live in is not real,

that we just live in a simulation

being controlled by other people.

I'm telling you, man, it was scary.

- What the fuck weed did you smoke, man?

What the fuck? (laughing)

It sounds like it's "The Matrix" or some shit, what.

(Snape laughing)

Holy shit.

You know, the reason I asked is 'cause I feel like

with, you know, what you're going through,

I feel like that would be good for you,

right, don't you think? - No.

After that experience, I promised myself to never go back.

- Well, I guess that's probably a good thing then, huh?

You feel tense, man? - No, I'm good.

- All right, let Snape come in and help you out, come here.

- Snape, you don't have to do that.

- Hey, hey. - Snape.

- It's cool, hey, no, it's cool, man, just relax.

- Snape, it's fucking weird.

- Homeboy, I'm not gonna rape you, all right?

Just relax your fucking shoulders, relax, man, come on.

There we go.

Look, I'm in a good mood, man, all right?

Come on, just don't ruin it, all right?

Come on, just relax, relax the shoulder,

there we go, there we go.

Man, bro, you got knots.

Knots up for days.

- Well, I do work a lot. - Yeah.

Hey, you wanna know a little fun fact about me, man?

When I was young, I wanted to be a masseuse.

- Why didn't you pursue it?

- Oh, I didn't have money for school.

- There's always a problem with that.

- Well, don't you wanna be a musician?

- You know, that's not really working out, man.

- Oh, I know, I hear you every day, and you still suck.

- Thanks for the words of encouragement.

- You're welcome, all right.

On that note, I'm gonna go to bed.

- Goodnight, man. - Goodnight, muchacho.

(melancholy music)

- Hello? - Hi, mijo, happy birthday!

- Thanks, mom.

- Your father's here, too. - Happy birthday, mijo!

- Hey, dad.

- The big 20, how does it feel?

- It feels the same.

- Oh, let me take you to the strip club to change that.

- Really? - I'm kidding.

- So, what have you guys been up to?

- We've been good.

We've been talking about coming to see you.

What'd you think of that?

- What? - Yeah, is that a problem?

- No, no, no, it's not a problem, it's just...

- Good, we'll bring your favorite.

- We can watch "Suck It" like old times, mijo!

- And I'll bring a cake, too.

- Yeah, I don't think it's a good time to visit this week

or any week after that. - Oh, why not?

- You know, work, bills, and stuff, it's been really hectic.

- Oh, but your father and I

already bought our train tickets for tomorrow.

- You did?

- Don't you want to see us, mijo?

- I do, it's just... (sighing)

- We really miss you, mijo.

- I really wanna see you guys, too.

- You know what, it's okay, we'll just cancel it.

- No, mom, wait. - What?

- I'll call off.

Wait, how many days are you planning to stay exactly?

- [Mother On Phone] We'll be there for a day or two.

- And what time are you coming?

- Tomorrow.

- Then I'll see you tomorrow.

- Perfect. - We'll see you tomorrow.

I love you. - I love you, too, mom.

- Love you, mijo! - I love you, too, dad.

Fuck.

- He was a little bit weird.

- He's a little strange, yeah?

- I think he found a, like a bugga pet,

he doesn't want us there.

(mother groaning)

What, you heard that, it's true.

You'll see, you'll see. - Go back to bed.

Make the bed yourself.

(door opening)

- Hey, man, it's your birthday?

- Yeah.

- (snickering) Since when?

- Since I was born.

- Cool, cool.

- You okay?

- Yeah, I'm just really, really high right now.

(Snape laughing)

- Okay.

- You have work today?

- Yeah, five today. - Cool.

- You sure you're okay, man?

- I just, just need some sleep.

I forgot to ask you, who were you on the phone with?

- Oh, my parents, they're planning to come.

- When? - Tomorrow.

- Nice.

- You sure you're okay?

- Yeah, I just

need to sleep.

(Snape snoring)

Yes? - We have to set down

some ground rules for tomorrow.

(Snape sighing)

- Ground rules, ground rules, why do we need ground rules?

- Because if something bad were to happen

or my parents were to find out the real you,

they're gonna call the cops,

and I don't think you would like that.

- Okay, fine, Mr. Kevin, go ahead and lay them on me.

- First rule is, don't do drugs.

Pretty obvious, right?

- Yeah, okay, don't do drugs.

- Second rule is, don't do drugs even before they arrive.

- Okay, I won't do drugs before they arrive.

- Third rule, don't talk about doing drugs

or don't even talk about your past even doing drugs.

- What about vaping, can I vape?

- No, you can't vape, that looks bad on you.

- Okay, I can't talk about drugs?

- No. - Why not?

- Snape.

- (laughing) I'm fucking with you.

All right, I won't talk about drugs.

- Please follow what I'm doing.

- I'm following what you're gonna do.

- Because knowing you, it sometimes slips out.

- Okay, damn, is that it? - Yes, that's it?

- Are you sure? - Yes.

- Okay, can you relax?

- Can you take me to work? - No.

- It was worth a shot.

- Why don't you go walk, you lazy fuck?

It's the last day to use you.

Like I had you for three days.

(harmonica music)

(Snape sniffing)

(Snape groaning)

How could this be bad if it makes me happy, huh?

Just don't judge me, all right?

I gotta do what I gotta do.

This is for you.

(Snape sniffing)

(drugs crackling)

Why won't you talk to me?

You and I have been friends for some time,

and you won't talk to me!

Talk to me, please, just talk to me!

Why aren't you talking to me?

Come on, why?

Why won't you talk to me?

I just wanna talk to you for a second, please. (crying)

You said that we were gonna go to a Dodger game.

(stammering) What's going on, huh?

Why, why does everyone leave me, huh?

Everybody always leaves me.

(Snape crying)

(stammering) Nobody loves me no more, what, what?

What's wrong with me?

Is there something... (crying)

Why, why?

Frosty, please talk to me, please.

Please, I just wanna talk to you.

Just talk to me, please.

You won't even look at me!

Look at me!

Why won't you look at me?

I wanna go.

Please just look at me, please.

Why won't you look at me?

Please, come on, I just wanna go.

Why won't you look at me?

Just look at me!

- Snape, are you okay?

- No, he won't he talk to me.

Tell him to talk to me. (crying)

- Snape, it is not a person. - Tell him to talk to me!

He won't, he won't talk to me. (crying)

Why won't he talk?

Please, just tell him to talk.

I just wanna talk to him.

- Snape. - He's my friend,

he won't even talk to me. - Snape!

- Please, (crying) why?

Everybody just leaves me.

I have nobody.

I have no one.

(Snape sobbing)

I just want somebody.

He won't talk to me.

I just want someone to talk to me.

(Snape sobbing)

Hey, Kevin.

- [Kevin] What?

- I have an idea.

I was thinking of hiding my shit

under these paper towels here.

What'd you think?

- [Kevin] It's stupid, but it could work.

- All right, well, I guess I'm going for it then.

All right, I think we're, yeah, I think we're good.

- [Kevin] Did you hide it well?

- Hmm, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, we're good, we're good, yeah.

(Kevin grunting)

- Shit.

Snape!

Did you eat all the eggs? - Uh, probably, why?

- Fuck, why would you eat all the eggs, you dumb-ass?

My parents are gonna be here any minute.

- [Snape] I was hungry, you fucker.

- Fuck.

Do you think I have time to get more?

- Uh, probably not because they're gonna be here real soon.

- Shit!

(melancholy music)

- Thank you for the ride.

Hey, next time, do you mind bringing some waters?

It was a long ride.

- Yeah, for sure, pal, for sure.

- [Father] Thank you.

- By the way, do you have any money for gas, sir?

- I thought it was included in the application

coming over? - No, sir.

Thank you, sir.

(melancholy music)

- Snape, can you do the dishes?

- [Snape] What?

- I said can you do the dishes?

- Fuck, no, it's your turn.

You do the fucking dishes.

- So no?

(water running)

Dude, what are you doing?

My parents are gonna be here any minute.

- Jesus Christ, what?

- Dude, go put on a shirt now, please.

- Now my pants are wet.

- Dude, if they see you like that,

they're gonna think that I'm crazy

for moving in with a guy like you.

They don't like that.

- All right, I get it,

I get it, Jesus. - They're all mad at you.

What kind of shirt do you want?

- It doesn't matter, just go put on a shirt.

- Yes, it does, what kinda shirt?

- Dude, it does not matter.

(water dripping)

- Are you nervous?

- A little. - Why?

- On the phone, Kevin didn't sound right.

I feel like I'm forcing him to see us

and it's not right. - It's not that.

He wants to see us, he's just nervous.

It's been a long time we haven't seen him.

- You don't know how he feels. - I know, I know.

But come on, he's waiting for us.

It's gonna be fine, trust me.

- Does this look okay for you?

- It works. - Yeah?

(doorbell ringing)

- You sure? - Wait.

(doorbell ringing)

Oh, my parents are here.

- Yo, are you good?

- Yeah. - Buddy, relax, okay?

It's gonna be fine. - I know.

- Hey! - Hi, hey!

Oh, you haven't changed a bit.

(Kevin mumbling)

- It's good to see you, mijo. - It's good to see you, too.

It's good to see you, both of you.

Come inside, it's raining cats and dogs.

- Hi, you must be Kevin's roommate.

- Yeah, I'm Snape, nice to meet you.

My real name is George,

but everybody tends to call me Snape.

- That's cool.

That's the character's name from "Harry Potter."

- "Harry Potter."

- You haven't seen "Harry Potter?"

- No, I don't really watch that shit.

- Oh, you're missing out.

- Have you seen "Lord of the Rings?"

- I have.

- Now that's some shit right there, huh?

- Well, I say we go get some dinner, shall we?

- Yeah, yeah, Snape.

- But there's no Snape in that movie, though.

- [Snape] That's okay.

- I'm gonna leave the bag over here.

- [Kevin] You go do that, dad.

- I was gonna bring your favorite,

but it was gonna be cold by the time we showed up.

- That's okay, dad.

- We could order pizza. - Yeah.

- We could, but I'm not really in the mood for pizza.

- Oh, okay.

So how long have you two been friends?

- We've been friends for a long time.

- Yeah, honestly, so long I can't even remember, honestly.

- Oh, wow, sounds like a long time.

- So long that you guys are like best friends?

- (chuckles) No, best friends is a strong saying, dad.

Snape and I are just friends. - Yeah, we're just...

- So where did you two meet?

- You see, we knew each other for such a long time

that I don't even remember that.

- Yeah, I don't either.

- Was it a museum or a cafe?

- Yeah, it was like at a museum or a cafe, yeah.

- Or a cafe in the museum.

- Yeah, a cafe, yeah, yeah, it could be, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- How's the music career been?

Booked any gigs?

- No, I used to be in a local band here in town,

but I get kicked out for not showing up to practice.

- Why weren't you showing up?

- Work, my job needed me on days we had practice,

and money is more important, so I got out.

But don't worry about that.

I'm still looking for another band to join.

- Oh, that's good, right? - Yeah, I think so.

Are you practicing any other instruments?

- I really wanna learn how to pay the piano,

but not right now, because every paycheck,

it go to bills, you know?

- If you need help, don't be afraid to ask.

- No, mom, don't take this the wrong way,

but I don't want any of your money, okay?

I have everything under control.

I just need to ask for more hours

and money will feel like it's coming easy to me.

- I have an old friend

that has a piano sitting in the garage.

- Is it in tune? - In tune?

- Yeah, is it in tune, does it sound right?

- What the hell does that mean?

- It means the strings of the piano

have to be in the right place.

- Of course, they're in the right place.

- Yeah, but is it in tune?

- Does it matter?

- Yes, if you want it to sound right.

- It doesn't matter, a piano's a piano,

they all sound the same.

- Okay, fine, I don't want it.

- I'll call him. - No, dad.

I don't want it. - Fine.

- So, what else have you been up to lately?

- I've been enjoying the view a lot.

- Where? - Outside the window.

- Oh, basically, it looks like

you're living the life right now.

- Yeah, my life is pretty good.

- And Snape, what is it that you do?

- I'm a server at a restaurant.

- Which one? - It's called Osubu.

- What do they serve there?

- They serve Chinese food there.

- Cool, do they serve any dogs?

- Dad, what the fuck?

That's racist.

- What, I'm joking, he knows I'm joking,

plus he's not saying anything. - Yeah, they serve dogs.

- I knew it! - And cats, too.

(Snape laughing)

- You know, Kevin, if you wanna be in a band,

you could always come back home

and move in with your father and I, and join a local band.

- Mom, I'm not gonna do that. - Why not?

- I came to LA to be more a man, be somebody.

I won't feel like that if I live with you guys.

- There's nothing wrong with asking for a little help.

- I know there isn't,

but I just feel like I gotta do this on my own.

For example, most kids my age learn how to drive a car

by the time they're 16.

I learned when I was 18.

I would have learned a lot sooner

if you guys weren't babying me so much, you know?

- I was just trying to take care of you.

- So, dad, what have you been up to?

- I started my own mechanic company.

- And how's it going with that?

- He has one customer, and it's his cousin.

- And what's wrong with that?

- Nothing's wrong with that.

You should make business cards,

maybe you'll get more customers.

- And I'm gonna let...

- I think it's great you started your own company, dad.

- Thank you, I'm glad you appreciate it.

I'm gonna go to the bathroom.

What is this?

- That's... - Yeah, what is that, Kevin?

- You see, dad, there's a method

to keeping our odor smelling,

bathroom odor smelling clean.

Um, you get white flour

and then you put it in a small bag like that,

and you put it under all the-

- Paper towels. - Paper towels.

- Yeah, that's right.

- And, well, you already know the rest.

- Well, uh. - The bathroom doesn't smell

like shit, right? - Huh.

I thought it was a big bag of cocaine or something.

- What? No.

(boys laughing)

- He said cocaine.

- Like we're drug addicts or something.

- Oh, man. - Like "Scarface."

- Tony Montana, huh?

- Yeah, I was gonna say,

why would my son keep a bag of cocaine in the bathroom?

- Yeah, why would you do that?

You drug addict, you.

- Okay, well, I'm gonna put it back then.

- You go do that, dad. - I could take it off your hands if you want.

- I'll put it back. - Okay, you do that, thanks.

- Bag of cocaine, that is funny.

(all laughing)

- The roof? - Yeah.

(gentle music)

- [Father] Nice view, huh?

- Yeah, it's nice.

- Yes, it really is a nice view.

- It sure is.

- I always wanted to take you to see a big city.

Now where we live, we have no tall buildings,

and time and money was an issue,

and I never took you far either.

- And all we have in our city is sand.

- Oh, yeah, lots and lots of sand.

- I never really cared about traveling either way.

All I did was stay in my room and watch TV.

- And all I did was work.

- And all mom did was hang out with her friends.

- Oh, yeah, I never really liked her friends.

- No one did.

- All they do all day was talk, talk, talk, talk, talk.

- They were annoying, they were annoying, always talking.

- For a really long time, I thought you hated me.

- Why would say that?

- Because I was really never there when you were young.

You always asked me to hang out and I was at work,

and made promises to hang out with you on weekends

when I'm free, and I just ended up bailing every time.

- That can't be true. We did spend some time together, right?

- Not a lot.

And then when you hit puberty, you stopped asking me,

and then it started to worry me.

I would ask myself, "Am I a good father?"

I was stuck at a job, working long hours

to support you and your mom,

and never had the time to spend with you

until it was too late.

And then by the time I had the time to hang out with you,

you left, you came to the city to follow your dreams.

And now here you are.

I really regret not spending time with you

when you were young.

I'm sorry.

- You weren't the greatest father, I'll be honest,

but hey, you did your best, and that's enough for me.

You could have been worse.

You could have been abusive or not there at all.

But you were there and I love you for that.

- I'm sorry for not being the best.

- Hey, hey, it's okay.

- [Father] I love you, mijo.

- I love you, too, dad.

(gentle music)

All right, bye, mom. - Bye.

We won't take that long. - Yeah, it won't.

Bye, dad, be careful out there, okay?

LA is crazy. - We know, we know.

- Where'd they go?

- To some sushi place in Pomona.

- Oh, nice, nice.

How long they gone for, any idea at all?

- Why? - Oh, I'm just curious.

No reason.

- You're not thinking of doing your drugs

right now, are you?

- Kevin, come on, buddy.

Actually, that actually sounds like a really good idea,

yeah, I'm gonna go get high.

- [Kevin] Snape, no!

Snape, please tell me you're playing around, man.

- [Snape] I'm only playing, buddy.

- Goddamn it.

Snape, goddamn it, Snape, open the door.

- [Snape] I'm not opening the door.

- Snape, open the goddamn door, man.

- [Snape] I'm not opening the fucking door!

- [Kevin] Snape! (groaning)

- Get the fuck out of here!

What are you doing?

- You fucking promised me, man.

You fucking promised me you weren't gonna do this shit

while my parents were here.

Just shows you what kind of a person you are.

- Fine, have it your way.

(melancholy music)

(soft jazz music)

- I haven't had sushi in a while,

so this should be good. - Yeah.

- Is everything all right?

- I don't know.

When we were talking to Kevin back there, he...

Something's different. - Oh, he's growing up.

We gotta accept that.

- No, it's more than that.

He's different, he's not the same anymore.

- Maybe because we haven't seen him in a while.

- Yeah, but I know my son, and something's wrong with him,

like he's hiding something from us.

- Ah, just give him time.

Maybe that's what he needs right now.

- You're right, it's probably in my head.

- Now for once, try to enjoy lunch

without you stressing out about something small, yeah?

- Why did he leave us?

- Kevin? - Yes.

- I thought we agreed to not talk about this.

- I know, but if we don't talk about it,

I'm just gonna keep thinking about it,

and I don't want it to build up in my head.

- He didn't exactly leave us.

He just went to go follow his dream,

to do his own thing, to be a musician, you know?

- I just worry about him.

- Me, too, but he's gonna be fine, I promise you.

- But when we were talking to him,

he's just a completely different person.

Back then, we used to talk to him more,

he used to laugh more, smile more.

And back there, it was like we were interviewing him,

like asking all these weird questions.

- Maybe because his friend was there.

- Who, Snape? - Yeah.

- They've been friends for a long time.

Unless, you don't think they're lovers, do you?

- What? No.

- And he's been keep it from us?

- All right, you need to relax.

Have you ever thought about the real reason

why he left? - What?

- Maybe it's because you babied him too much,

and he didn't like that.

- How do you know that to be true?

- Because he would tell me when you were.

- Like when?

- When you didn't let him drive

on the freeway that one time,

or when by the time he turned 18,

instead of hanging out with his friends,

you forced him to hang out with us at some zoo.

- Okay, so it's all my fault.

- No, no, that's why I said maybe.

- Maybe, and a whole lot more.

- Look, why do you care that he doesn't live with us?

He's fine, we just gotta have trust in him.

- You're right, maybe I am to blame.

- Look, come on, don't put the blame on you.

- I'm not putting the whole blame on me.

That's why I said maybe.

- Correct.

- I just really miss him, you know?

- I miss him, too, but we've gotta let our kid grow up.

- Maybe we can have another one.

- I don't know about that.

- Oh, come on, why not?

- Because we're too old.

- We are not too old. - Yes, we are.

- Okay, well, what about adoption?

- I don't know how I feel about that.

- What do you mean?

- Are you being serious?

I mean, honey, I need time to think about this.

- Hmm, it's okay, I understand.

You don't wanna have another kid.

- If we have another kid,

he's probably gonna call me grandpa.

(Mother laughing)

What? - Nothing.

It's just funny to think about.

- All right, we're changing the conversation.

(harmonica music)

(Snape sniffing)

I had good food for once in this town.

- Oh, you know Kevin can't cook.

- Where are the kids? - I don't know, mijo?

Let me go talk to him.

- You think he's all right?

- He should be, okay?

I'm just gonna go talk to him for a minute.

- I'll wait out here. - You do that.

Hi, honey.

Can I sit right next to you?

Do you got something on your chest?

Do you wanna talk to me about it?

- I wanted to die.

I don't know when I realized it,

but when I did, I felt like hell.

I'm sorry.

- As a parent, this is one of the worst fears that we have.

And many parents just hope that it just passes on by

or that it's just a phase,

and then they're looking at their child from above a coffin.

But I'm not that parent.

I'm here with open arms, with open ears.

I'm here to understand, to learn, to help.

Why did you wanna die?

(Snape sniffing)

(Snape gasping)

- I hear a loud sound in the bathroom.

- Shit.

Shit, shit, Snape, Snape!

(all yelling)

- Put him on the side.

- Dad, get the fuck outta here.

Dad, get the fuck outta here.

You're not making any room on the side.

Goddamn it. - Hurry!

Hold his head.

- Hold the fucking edges first!

That's how you make sure that he doesn't bite the tongue,

because he rolls on his back.

- [Mother] They said make sure he doesn't bite himself.

- [Father] There you go, there you go, there you go.

- Please come quick. - Did you call 911?

- [Mother] They're coming, they're on their way.

Please come quick, please.

Please come.

- [Father] He's gonna be okay, don't worry, don't worry.

- He's shaking so bad. - He's very scared,

but I think he's gonna be okay.

It's just scary, it's just scary.

- Just hold him right. - Are you talking to them?

- [Mother] They're coming, they're coming,

they told me to stay on the line.

- I'm gonna be honest with you,

it was rough in there for a while,

but your friend's gonna be fine.

- Thank you. - You're welcome.

You can see him in about 10 minutes.

- So your roommate really does do drugs.

- Yeah.

- And the bag in the toilet really was cocaine.

- Yeah.

(speaking in Spanish)

- Oh, Snape, you are an idiot.

(Snape laughing)

- Yeah.

I don't know what got into me, honestly.

- You almost died.

It's a good thing my father heard you.

- I guess God wasn't ready to see me yet, huh?

- I don't think he wants to see you.

- I don't think so either.

(both laughing)

So did the doctor tell you?

- About rehab?

He did, it's good news.

- I guess it's a good thing I almost died then, huh?

- Why?

- 'Cause now I'm for sure going to rehab.

- I tried to help you first.

- I know, I'm sorry.

- Don't be sorry, be careful.

- Fuck you, man.

(both laughing)

So what are you gonna do for the rest of the night?

You gonna go back home or are you gonna chill here?

- Did you not want me to stay?

- I do want you to stay.

Only if you're cool with it.

- I'll be here.

(gentle music)

- Kevin, I don't think I've ever told you this.

Thank you for always being a good friend to me, man.

I was tired of being alone.

(gentle music continues)