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Okay you don't like nature. Horse a natural.

The trees the countryside.

They bore me.

Kyle waste their took us through a trip to germany showing us all the hell.

I'm not here with the greens.

I stared nodding are shit one time as giving a poetry reading up in oregon and washington.

Somewhere.

Some guy was driving as after the reading labs supposed to rape an english teacher female teacher that time and got there was so does that can even get my dick up.

Trees greenness.

It's okay it's okay but i mean i can finally be deadening is just like a green trees green tree green tree green trees okay.

All right what are you gonna do it.

Give me the city's give me smile.

I like what the kid tell me in paris the king of the what the king and upon us there he said people complain about smog.

I love it.

Stepped up and down.

And you know there is a way of loving smog.

It's not an non true.

It feels good you walk out you go.

Your pilot shit you're walking through smog you lived through smog.

He loved the buildings you lovely inflation.

There are creatures who had just to conditions.

There will be fired smog people inflation people.

The higher the price you're going to go and play some day and you're.

Gonna say that a waitress still say.

Well as and die or three hundred and sixty five dollars.

Her legs sandwich of martin.

You say is that all.

I'm going to pay you five hundred and sixty five dollars and there's a three hundred sixty five dollar tip.

These are the people are gonna survive.

Don't you say they're ready for inflation.

They're ready for smile.

They don't live it what's the difference.

It's only mantle.

Go away.

Air have a five hundred dollar tip.

No it's okay it doesn't mean anything unless the you want to make it means something hell.

So keep changing governments you keep changing the women.

What's the difference here we're back to women.

Huh.

You say that starving doesn't create art that it create many things but mainly creates time.

Oh yeah well a that's very basic.

I hate to use up your film to say this but you know.

If you work in a at our job nearly get fifty five cents an hour in and get it if you stay home and only get any money.

Driven have time to write things down on paper.

I guess.

I was one of those and rarities of of our modern times who did star for his art or i really starved you know.

To hair.

A twenty four hour day and intruded upon by other people.

I gave up food and gave up everything just too.

I was a nut.

I was dedicated.

But you see.

The problem is you can be a dedicated not and not be able to do it.

Dedication without talent is useless.

In stay on i.

Dedication alone is not a nerve even star and wanna do it.

Hey the out adequate i know and how many do that they starve and the gutters and they don't american but you knew you had done and they all think they have an idea know that you're the one you don't know.

It's a shot in the dark you take it or yeah.

You become a normal civilized person for made to five get married have children christmas.

Together.

It comes grammar hi there my camera on a in high you know shit.

I couldn't take that i rather murder myself.

I guess just in the blood of me couldn't stand.

The whole thing is going on the ordinariness of life.

I couldn't stand family life.

A couldn't stand job life.

I couldn't stand anything.

I'll look that i just a side and i either had to star make it go man comes through or do something even if i hadn't made it on right in.

Some i could not do the eight to five they were.

I would have been a suicide as dec something.

I'm sorry.

I could not accept the snail's pace eight to five johnny carson happy birthday or christmas new year to me.

This sickest stunt all sick science.

So i just had a lotta held on somebody took up on a short stories and lawyer.

Now i just sit around drink wine and i talk about myself because you guys ask questions not because.

I get the answers okay.

Huh.

So on time are working in this comic book cars.

And these to clerks can an argument about.

Comic book somebody counted a rack of.

Stack a comic books romney other mice arguing about icing jesus christ.

This job isn't even a comic book out of the even worse arguing about that's the first time we heard you speak and a couple of weeks.

We all know you always think you're a genius.

We know you think you're a genius.

We know you think we has all these teeth come out all the faces.

I wasn't trying to be a genius.

I just didn't wanna be in a comic book house.

I want to be out in a park.

I want to be the sailing down a river in a sailboat on it anything decent.

I could not resign myself to the eight hour job of nothingness.

I could not understand it.

That's our sidebar and and i'm bombed and and been and was one job.

After another was a park bench.

It was a job and dallas when some job in atlanta it was a job and miami name.

The city somewhere south and been there.

Nice home one day you ended up in philadelphia oh yeah.

Philadelphia first ended up new your.

Then new york was so bad.

I thought i want to go to a nice shady quiet city angus calm.

What people are decent.

There's no trouble philadelphia.

What are they call it the city of gravity brotherly love.

I just go there were people are dumb.

I don't fuck with anybody.

I went there was tougher than new york.

They killed on the streets.

They bribe the cops my first night and this bar.

I'm writing about that's what appease me attracted me.

I walked him have the discipline and for a beer.

And wasn't even a night was about one in the afternoon.

I walked in.

The place was packed with an a poor neighborhood.

A said drank appear looked around was packed.

Everybody was crazy and drunk.

They're all drinking beer but all of a sudden.

Came a bottle flying through the air.

This guy next to me about his name's danny freely turns.

Now.

He says give do that again man up kill you or this.

The place want to be something finally happening another bottle flew by through their crashed.

The bartender just poured another drink it insane.

In the last of this is a minor van everything's happening open violence decent open violence and then two guys.

Gotten fired the start slamming it around and i want to take a piss are still fighting and i went right through a as lk pardon me gentlemen.

They both do this.

And they start fighting again when i came back the as a pardon me german that meister as this is my era.

I'm going to drink in this bar.

I'm going to find like this and live like this.

This is the thing that i'm talking about this bar.

The spot you know what happened that might never repeated again.

It was like they had all planned it for me.

And the same people were there now waited and waited.

I waited two and a half years.

I'm going away year and i came back with two and a half years ago.

Msm stool was never any nine that first after now.

I was trapped and to and change and owner.

That song.

Shit.

Conversation on the telephone.

I could tell by the crouch of the cat.

The way it was flat.

Are they will soon same with pray.

And when my car came up palmer.

It rose in the twilight made off.

With bird and mouth.

A very large bird gray.

The wings down my broken low.

The fangs there.

Live still there but that much.

Not very much.

The broken love bird.

The cat walks and my mind.

I cannot make him out.

The phone rang as i answer our voice what i see him again and again.

And the lose when.

The lose gray away.

And this thing hell.

And i had had knows no mercy how put the phone down.

And the cats sides of the room come in upon me and i would screen.

But they have places for people in the screen.

And the cat walks a cat walks forever in my brain.

That was kind of afternoon saying that.

Aside from one that's the way they are already serve as nature nature is not normal.

God is not normal.

Nature is not kind.

Nature doesn't give a fuck.

And i give a for.

So when i see something happening something something else killing something else.

I don't like it.

But you know the real intelligent people say well.

That's the way it is.

You say this is killing back in.

This is feeding bad and there is the grasshopper.

There this feeds upon them.

It's all arranged.

Except for one something jumps upon them my screen don't they.

You see they don't get themselves him with the spider on the fly.

I got myself am.

I am the fly that the spider he say they don't get themselves into their in there for him to whatever oh that's interesting alert what you see.

They too are written fall.

But kneeling isn't as a human going to kill them.

But they don't know it.

The arranging but they don't know.

They're done they're done.

Almost all people are done.

The receive people go into a restaurant to order food.

They don't even want to eat food and they come in because this time to a they're not even mongering.

The more i think you're humana t the less.

I wanna think of him.

Nothing else going to ask me something.

Jesus.

Huh.

You lived in east dollywood before moving here.

What are the places we could fin do.

Nowhere.

The bars or shut down.

The big time day.

Is covered with plywood like the like the place a come them.

They apply what across the try to head with little tax.

The big twenty twentieth close down like this malaria drive.

And that whole neighborhood is very rare dead man.

Waste a walk around there and you'd see camps and horse hang around the corner selling hot dogs with mustard dripping down there chance.

There's nothing there's nobody there on a lie.

There's no place the film anything and a lot.

I get the feeling the world as more and more drying up.

I don't know where the horrors ago and where the black panther going where the music as guy.

But my idea and i figure where the black pants or whether horace or whether music is playing for the bar where there juke boxes are playing in the bars where the lights are on.

That's where i live here.

That may seem to be a terrible type of lie to most people.

The he know that music and you walk into their bar.

Some time.

And you are can try to find a bar stool and you sit down and bar tender comes up and serve your drink.

Your glad to get it because you're not a lively guide or something is happening.

I think that you're gay shin black pants prostitution.

The flowers are they are it.

I think those joints for this is going on.

I think there's great happiness.

And terror and horror to about all counts.

I'm adding up when you walk into place to get a train.

It's a lively now when you clean up the city of kill it.

There's no place to film around hollywood and western anymore.

It's dead dead dead.

It stinks of their the puritans.

The christians have cleaned it up.

They've dried at the like.

No rose will never grow their.

Huh.

I've always been you speak some a good.

A woman when they meet mean they say who can use a son of a beer can push me around his knees and going.

So i do.

You know fun and get to resign and a bit when he resent.

Just being pushed pushed.

Yeah.

Jonas being push why do you like airsoft crushed by this kind of shit eat any it.

Why do you allow yourself to be pushed by this sort of thing.

I've told you a thousand times to leave.

He won't lead like yeah that they are have been a hernia that are valued that doesn't have anything do it why of the continually allow yourself to be push because i'm kind hearted or give the other person.

Another chance.

He did.

We have a new dozens of hand.

Keep pushing pushing him.

And you keep laughing at me and that's karma till you're getting a turn am going to get your ass women regard.

You think that have the guts she thinks.

I can't live without her.

I can move your ass outta here so bright and so fast with a jewish attorney.

You have to feel like your as a skin.

You think you're the last woman on earth without can get.

I hadn't thought about the yeah well.

You better start thinking.

I'm turning over to the next month fine thanks guy.

He can have you ever be.

The least bit jealous the mayor bob of bullshit.

All you know damn stay out every night bullshit.

I don't either kind of woman.

You are.

I don't need your shit.

I don't need.

Be wary about the hosted.

The.

I don't need them either.

See what luna doesn't realize when i met chang and she pushed the shit that i'm just putting on me now out every night shine not out every night.

I don't want you to give these people that impression because it's not true okay when you're not out every nine lives better.

Hi linda is mad out every night thank you a very limited.

You wanna fucking show me shit too.

I hate the liars.

He lied to ride into their faces.

You can't just then i did not the around five nights in a row last week.

You came in at five thirty one nine three.

Thirty.

The other night before last year came and to old one and there was a reason for every one of those nights.

Hey and i told you about them and you simply wouldn't accept them of course.

Now would you accept my mind yes.

I would.

I invited you along every time.

I said come you can see nothing is happening.

Com.

Enjoy.

Don't enjoy just come and understand that there is something that.

I'm doing that.

I require.

I need to do in my life and it's not bad.

It's not against you.

It doesn't make me love.

You less it might even permit me to love you more listen.

You don't see that.

I don't want a woman six nights a week after tonight to am in the morning.

I don't care what it was like that for six nights a week them the month of may route fifty nine.

It's past midnight.

That's true the calendar is mark.

So what so what what do you say why wait.

I'm going to get an attorney wait wait to get you off of my ass why you so ah shit on his high rate.

You why are you so offended by me doing something else because i live with a woman or she lives with me.

She doesn't live with other people i do live with other people and i'm going to for the rest of my life.

I know i'm going to turn you over to can now see no no.

Fucking.

You take your rock out on me every fucking night new talk and or.

You bitch who do you think you.

I am just i'm going to do this clip with other people idea heartland here.

We're glad to hear.

One three one twenty two mom would avenue house of war house of agony.

A house where i was almost oh man but not quite brokers.

Come on that i manicure.

The moon both way this way for them with.

I'm i had to get all the here with fear.

If i missed one here i gotta beat it one hair.

Very hard not to miss one hair try and some.

So i always got beat in here we have.

The torture chamber.

Though good he didn't go through the torture.

Chambers okay with me.

Whoa.

This.

Torture chamber.

This is where on learn something.

The oh man had to raise a drought used to hang here you just think it alone.

Drop your pants in your shorts and span about here.

He would begin.

And i don't many lashes a human being or and.

A ten twelve fourteen.

And course you can help screaming.

The human your six years old seven years old.

The going to room to be about ten or eleven or twelve us green glass and.

Last beating on guy didn't scream and on this.

Didn't make the some.

And i guess the terrorized.

That was the last one when i didn't make this.

So.

This place whole from memory no.

I don't know it's just terrible place to stay stand and talk about.

You know and talk about it too much.

Let's forget it okay.

There were small creature and new large creature beating upon you and a mother.

Says okay okay the sounds very cheerful and life.

I'm weeping from mercy or something but at that time it's very very difficult because if no place to go there's nothing you can do.

But as we said earlier and five said other time.

My father taught me how to write.

Because even now and time so difficult problems i never we've been never and bag.

I go through the next situation quietly.

Without.

Asking last i just move on to the next situation.

And i guess good training.

I don't want that type of training for any money.

But for me now and i've gotten them.

It makes me you know know things like other people have get a flat tire something badly go crazy.

I say well as to something bad happens again at all it should happen so.

I take it better you know.

I lose a leg somebody leaves.

Somebody robbed the house yes well.

That's it see.

They made me ready.

And my father especially since my father left me.

I found other have enough quiet.

Sometimes and female.

So the father never leave even after he dead.

Others are with.

No olive against me.

Not in my heart he might be under my toenails somewhere like dirty graham.

Happy night you know.

A he you know sometimes you have a good night.

Everybody's laughing you're feeling good.

So while we're going to the store to get more bear course.

I'm buying.

I'm i'm one of these tae bo with by.

I'm a sucker any our.

So coming back and they're carrying all a six bags which i have a buddy three or four people around them were all laughing.

And i was sudden this guy comes up he says.

Gee you guys seem to be having a good time.

Ah.

You mind if i come along.

They offered yes yes yes and i said hey way.

Oh come on let me come on in iraq come on so well in western started dragging dragging.

So while.

As a piano there are going to play the piano the night goes on.

I can play but i play and i'm sitting in a chair is.

I don't like this guy too much and i'm giving him.

Oh what he's doing he's talking about the war he's been in and how many people a kill.

And i didn't interest me too much you know because than a war you can kill people and doesn't mean a thing.

It's illegal.

Takes guts to kill somebody one is not legal.

Got it okay.

The i told him.

They kept talking bragging.

Bad various things what a good shot he was home and he people he killed.

I said bullshit get outta here and i said you don't like me a said yeah lady.

So i laughed a while we're all talking you know you drank the lighter.

Ah.

So on.

I was suddenly came back.

He had a gun.

Suddenly had no friends around me know kind of disappeared away.

And then i came up behind me that you don't like me day where you know.

This is the point where people often make a mistake but among a talk about myself.

I i tell them the truth.

I said no.

I know like you.

Say came up by a man he put a gun to my tampa.

He says you still don't like.

I said now i still like you.

Let me tell you something.

I really wasn't frightened at all.

It was almost like seeing a movie mine.

They said well i'm going to kill you.

I said okay.

Let me tell you something.

If it if you kill me now going to do me a fair.

It was true at a cold.

I said i'm a suicide care if any era.

I've been wondering how to do this thing now you sell my prime.

How often i said pierre by the way if you kill a man you found my problem and you go to prom on a daily life in jail.

Or the electric chair where the hell's going on around here when it was silent and that.

I could feel like if pressing i.

Just stay there.

I didn't say anymore and anymore and then he put the gun down.

And the water the guy on the screen door slammed.

He walked out.

And what i said was really true.

I had a suicidal it didn't matter but he came up around a long around around and between on top of the wrong guy.

He came across the not as bad as a lot.

There was no solving but i think of the person and you know have been me and said oh no don't do it.

He might have done it.

Even i wanna come to do it the lay all all my friends gamer oh heck yeah.

I had yeah you guys are really great while i would have been a bit.

He really helped me didn't hear you're standing watching.

You couldn't grabbed him from behind in a while hacker ah okay.

For later with discovered.

He gone into some drug door.

With a gun and did something mayor somebody with a gun back and tried to shoot and they put him in a man have played.

So he he was really her true you know that you know there's nothing like one that talking to another you know there's no but a while there are many so crazy you can get to them that car.

I liked it.

But i was really ready to go wouldn't have been a big fan.

And a knew it if you know feel fear you don't react sometimes.

Damn don't feel affair and they operate.

Out there are no big story huh.

Huh.

And the lady fortune teller there.

I went in there one time he read my palm.

He said you're an alcoholic.

Rarely do i gambled to said yeah.

He gamble it'll be five dollar.

Wow holly wouldn't want here in of the play.

A governor gray there used to be the man band to that run.

Ben ali and fame people would sit there and all of people with that their the street people a cop daycare there all day long get near the corner where they arrive.

Added.

Were the people are.

At the old fact he did changing hands.

Leave the call it the big plot the big twenty but they changed the name now.

The the rail is their women across upgraded sit in the window.

It gets say.

I want you there isn't that married a woman who is not a hooker.

Or the dope dealer.

The place and never got alone.

I can tell you i've been there for liquor store.

Many anti.

Many a time.

Great player.

At one of my man.

Bank of america.

Her magnet.

At.

At and or that back i look at that hotel and lab paula partner.

Beautiful.

At all area that for our.

However strange place you know you want to get stuff about the devil go in.

There you can get all kinds of powder if you know your mail.

I'm to people may die.

For fifteen from you know something like that kill somebody.

Nice.

The end of your third this is the end they won't let me be on.

They didn't let me be on.

Why did i get all of stories out on a few blog.

Well i came to see mean the girl you know the most vicious women in the world knocked on my door.

They knew how to find a thought the.

Well now i'm all straightened out.

Feel great.

Miss a little or that dirty action now and i gotta admit it.

Teaches you were humanity.

Is you never want to forget that you know.

You never what quite wanna forget.

Who they are where they come from and how they act you want to get too far away from man.

This bar used to be cool the playwright.

Did you go there.

Not too often are just went there for five times still like kick me out gave me the eighty six.

I just one and drunk to deflate this call a playwright where the hell a the playwright.

The tenders not a playwright that guy that a playwright they took a fan.

Yeah under the pioneer.

So banal nine.

Not the hookers go up there you know late at night guy.

The murder get a late mag get the three thirty am get a little bite of something.

After they roll somebody you know quite show me and warm.

They're they're good feeling fair.

Ergo couple girl there.

The to get him good hey man afternoon.

No or down.

Oh.

Oh yeah there's a motel here.

I stayed in here after linda king or and me out.

One night she came back and got me and i ended up living with her again terrible most movement thing with motel a great play.

They have a swimming pool.

Used to have their it is.

I had a terrible hangover and to big fat.

Guys were jumping and their they must await for hundred pounds be.

I started laughing at him and they came up the get me a boulder the door and they're beating on the goddamn door was another liquor store.

They're going to yeah here from a month.

Add about cover the.

So you see you don't have to come to hollywood not told y'all about hollywood and western you gotta relax forget.

It go to sleep.

He said.

Ah my favorite.

I think a man can you been drinking or i'm curious aber die.

Specially wine and beer.

But i'm too many.

Young people especially when i was working for open city.

Just smoking marijuana.

Within a two year period who were in college in it for than after two years of marijuana and just came around and go hey hey hi doing.

And the be the one of the first to say.

That marijuana is very out of really destructive.

And it finally that be government's today's to pool.

It totally harmful much more harmful than it's ever been exposed to have been.

Guess i've seen it through paypal that just and.

And i don't like that i like drunkards man because drunkards.

They come out of a thick and nice bring back the spring back and for.

But even though like drug free their jeff.

Okay okay it's like.

All mine circulation of spirit has been cut off.

I meant good old alcohol and you know this old guy.

Gm me a month ago and no fees and yeah yeah.

He's and for he was a great.

All guy got drunk every night and his face with heroin you know in coffee say well hank.

A target definite.

Language is other you know this kid.

This so yeah.

I'm anti drug put me down.

The very.

Or a lousy way to ago.

Yes out of what are thing.

Can't god.

The an alcoholic if you gotta be anything be an alcoholic what would it be.

Alcoholism.

Well or drunkenness if i hadn't been a drunkard.

I probably would have committed suicide bomber guy you know working the factories.

The eight hour job.

Slams the streak.

Okay you work a goddamn lousy job.

It come home at night you're tired what are you gonna do go to a movie turn on your radio in a three dollar a week room.

Are you an arrest up and wait for the job.

The next day for a dollar seventy five cents an hour hell.

No you and i get a bottle of whiskey and drinking.

And go down to a bar.

Maybe get the fist five.

And made some bitch something's going on then you go to work the next day and do your sample little thing right but you're not getting just.

The raid our job go back to your place in a bicycle factory.

This guy tell me i've woken up by he said you can have a job.

You're all your life if you want great.

Wow i mean alcohol.

Gives you the release of the dream without the degner.

The drown you know you can come back down.

You have your hangover to face.

That's a tough part you get over it.

You do your job.

You come back your drink again.

I'm all for alcohol korea.

Yeah the thing.

I love murder and loved anybody tried to murder me because i had a suicide complex.

So they told me anybody walked in there wasn't known would be murdered.

Of course i'm a suicide would walk a man.

I walked in and.

They didn't fulfill your problem.

Because you talk to the wife of the gangsters he can remember you talk to her you're dead man some on my right talked.

She was a good looker.

And you know like any other woman she played right along with me says hi how you do.

He shook her head you don't know right a be.

My was my and about thirty dollars.

So we're.

Some guy came out of there are two big in our the homies.

Italians look.

Both glaring at me but you know one to death is their death.

Looks like an anti and death can look like a milk bottle or a milk carton are on.

Death can take any form bigger human.

The human form doesn't even matter.

This guy came that you know when a tough guy tries to be tough and you're ready for death.

It doesn't matter came down.

He said hey buddy oh she went to take a leak.

That's what happened at the go down as long stay away.

I found out later.

I've been back.

I have to go there lady three and powder my.

I don't know she said that.

Okay moving on pay her.

Meanwhile she said you know my favorite in her tears flowed like the line.

The kept going to the jukebox and away must have been a nickel or dime.

It was an echo.

Pumping nicholson goddamn phone.

So all night long with her tears flowed rock climb and i love.

I like that song.

My son to got me.

All hyped them.

For found a while she was down there.

Some baby boomers can map.

He said hey man said yeah where.

You know.

You know what you're doing this oh laugh have.

You're messing with them bought his girlfriend.

I said yeah.

You know what that mean.

From you know what that means a man just lay off and get us outta here now yeah.

When i was a mutt.

For a walk down and have looked at each other and she came out.

My son put some more money and and cute baby or tears flow.

I'd climate think gum arm around your duties flow in line with go on like this.

These two guys and lucky the bosses out of town.

And this is a turret philadelphia.

John okay.

I'm still drinking so finally i gotta take a piss.

I walk down and go down stairway and effort.

I'm in are these two guys eat step by take a kind of and rid of him out or these two big guy something on them bar behind me like.

Two big shadows each time.

I would take steps to come on.

But you know.

I feel no fear no fear and are.

And go down and them both standing behind me.

And they're waiting on the and i start kissing.

And both standing on the seven this a harm raising.

I don't even move.

I feel it coming now.

I stammer.

Ah how funny stepping piss and this person a super.

This up and finish zipping up okay either way.

Such turn around and they both look at me.

In one on thursday other.

At all not way i say pardon me gentlemen want to get through a here.

Starcraft a stereo and dasa that's enough but just crazy you can kill him one upstairs gamma bartender to more drinks a jukebox stop trying.

I wanna put on some are costing us my tears.

And at the bartender didn't want to come off by said hey man.

I told you.

I want some more to drink the mean.

No lady no comment.

And a very recently came out on the couldn't look the other two guys.

I now mine.

And finally than i one on the park closed and i noticed this bar was different than the going to bars because on the front door closed.

All the people stayed inside kinda pouring drinks and fact the lights went out.

And so i'd i'm talking but i really wasn't interested in higher.

I was just trying to prove that i was not afraid.

And i'm defense a weakness when you try to prove you're not afraid.

I still have a weakness but i didn't even want to fuck it.

She'll have no she look like.

I wasn't even interested.

It was just a challenge that somebody else wanted.

I was both to pretend to on that they were supposed to law.

And i think they finally knew that i kept dragging drinking and fine line.

About three thirty am a pyro and we all went outside was singing saw by get our arms around each other.

The bitches gone from our i around even care and found that guy says hey hank they learn my name.

He says.

Man we really love you get that gotcha a madman your and saying you got the courage you're beautiful.

You know what we want why.

We want you to join our gang for the toughest gang and philadelphia.

We want yeah man you got what we need.

I said she i don't fuck with a cashier cute guy.

I've gotta go away.

In nice been with him good night babies not just walked off all by myself.

I hadn't well.

I should have gone this way see them off standing here at the circle home brown and block and go back to my rooming house for you and i know what i did.

I was smarter than now.

I was trying to circle this way a police car came by and i said hey.

I've been black jack somebody try to take my money and these medical attention is bleeding like man that took me to a hospital.

The pan yeah.

They say you ran to you and i said when officers you're not going to believe this.

But it was two sailors.

He jumped me from behind and try to take my money on my mom.

You really mess and yeah.

From city man they're there everybody's on my side well.

It could be eating santa very sympathetic to me but the nurse who was playing with my head.

He and beautiful lane and she hadn't crossed not all the send.

My drunken got across from the island oh you the edge on after playing mother fucking me and the cops and oh this guy's no fucking good.

They just stood up missing get him outta here in adapter said okay okay.

We'll let him go get him out push me amateur.

But i did get mine teachers in man which are still here he later.

Told you that's that's one of those bars door and.

Ah.

And that whole gang.

Fittingly other bar about three days later my skin you hear what i had what help them with what happened up in the well collect from interface.

The cops came in and not there were some tables to cash out some guns.

One guy got kill.

They all got locked them.

I gotta didn't join them can get married and and here we have had little garden or three everybody's right see he wall the right things down.

There may be fine.

Shit.

Oh.

I told you.

I'm not a girl.

I'm not a leader.

I drink my wine and play the horses my type on that all area of it.

I have nothing to say about anything.

There's nothing to say the last i say that better i.

Tried keeping quiet all day long a more mature way so you that asleep and better yet if sleep all day long and forget the day get up the next day or feel great.

People do too much they say much they're giving directions but you know it on man.

Forget it hey that's my problem.

I'm usually living or a woman.

I try not to somehow find myself for one when i'm alone.

Handling my own proposition so i always i usually when i'm alone.

I have periods where it and i feel a little weird pretty per after.

Forget the the ladies aren't going down right.

I just go to bed for three days and for night pull down.

All shade had just go to bed get up.

It is drink a beer now and then go back to bed.

I come on or that completely reliant on for two or three months.

I get our a man.

I think someday.

I'll say this psychotic guy knew something that no and days of head of medicine and how they figured the things everybody should go to bed now and then when they're down below and just give it up for three or four days.

Then they'll come back good for a while.

That were so obsessed with we have to get up and do it go back to sleep.

In fact.

The woman i'm living with now gets around twelve thirty one pm to.

I say.

I'm sleepy want to go to sleep.

She fit what you want to go to sleep.

It's only one pm.

We're not even trying to hang out.

Later that often do you sleep.

People are nail cutter processes.

Up down do something get up do something go to sleep gonna.

They can't get out of that circle.

You'll see some day of a the cascade new lay down for three or four days or get your juices.

Back then get up a look around and there.

But who i can do a cushion need a dollar.

That's a long speech movement but it means something.

Oh wait trying to avoid you float.

Yeah basically all as every inch you can you walk in you meet a waitress you know you are cancer want a cup of coffee.

Right there it starts if you don't even know if you want a cop car because she is she's up too fast or she's around too long.

As always questions and answers and my after it.

Or never allowed to.

You know.

That's why we all enjoy seeing mad man and movies or something.

We admire them.

Because they're doing exactly what they want to do it might be cutting heads off a little girls and putting mall and them in the bath tub or something.

We admire that creature because it's a line to do exactly what it wants to do.

And the closer you get exactly what you want to do.

The better you are are as a human creatures or if any kind of thing.

This would anything.

It's waiting to get burned.

Let's forget that.

But you know my point so if you get people are pointless.

Shit.

Unmarked car what is it.

Oh no.

Ah.

The tragedy of the leave.

I awaken to to i now turn to were dead.

The potted plant see.

I was car.

My woman was gone and the empty bottle of i'm glad corpse.

Surrounded me with are useless.

The sun was still good.

And my landlady is no crackled and fine and i'm demanding yellow what was needed.

Now was a good comedian.

Ancient style.

A gesture with jokes upon absurd pay.

Pain is absurd because that exists nothing more.

I shave away with an old razor.

A man who had once been young.

And said to have january.

But as tragedy of delays.

The dead fair and a dead plan.

I walked into the dark how with the landlady stood exit creating and final.

Sending me to hell waving their pants where they are and screaming screaming for the ram because the world had failed us oh.

Good car even at all day when i write much better shit.

With the difference.

Different say there is no different.

I read the same.

The difference is.

Area.

But you know the terror alistair.

The ugliness of fall.

There's no way out it'll get a beautiful woman living or here and she them be more ugly.

And putting your quarter and can newspapers family thing at up the take out the next day know.

There's never any escape.

I'm anything at all always going to be fair.

Never any question of this easy enough enabler.

And be burnt down to the grave.

No matter how much you know matter much you feel your pain or bark bark bark.

The last minute you brave to open a cap on a mustard jarring and a baby burn.

It.

The open up a can i can feel ya again.

Everything is burning all you're trying to do is walk across a room and drank a glass of water and take it easy.

There are things and burning wrapping at.

The whole universe and everything.

Women man for and everything rip some tear.

Rip senate tear i wanna do as thing same as a good eight hours sleep.

If you get it.

If you can't imagine get trapped.

Huh.

On november.

Let's go to paris and burn that town now.

Oh.

You know the only thing the whole wheat of i don't mind.

It appeared again even.

There should be a carer doing what what kind of do it wait to get fired.

Well.

Good.

Ah i feel bad thing to do what something's coming out something's going down what are you know that this are accurate can you hear.

Or should load of crap hello henry miller his dad.

They gotta find somebody to die and.

Gee that we haven't done that with hanrahan at last day.

Yeah.

He appeared on our talk show baby you're not going to get.

This is just as bad as.

Next question.

It.

Ah.

Why you know where going going.

Going to a talk show.

Okay.

A man begins typewriting with a typewriter.

Generally he's got a tiny room somewhere and and begin.

Telling something.

I won't say that the bothering him something that must come out.

And it just comes out naturally.

Like a firecracker exploding and put on match to it it blows up.

And this process goes on a while and it's a very good process and all the sudden you get a letter in the mail.

I wrote his get a little better and somebody for i'll give you three hundred seventy five dollars to appear on a talk show for fifteen minutes.

The other gas will be so unsound fafsa and you know what they bite on it.

How can they have the strength to begin were to be original and then had a very non strength to appear on a talk show and sit in a chair.

And say little unreal things because they're not going to say anything a real sitting on the other people.

Why do they do it.

I don't know.

Fuck following your own vomit.

I was gonna say if he ever catch me on a talk show off.

Okay.

You can shoot me know.

The only talk show i've gone on be dick cavett.

The that's the only guy i respect.

To go on merv griffin or johnny carson any allow his swallowing your own comment.

I know you would go don't look at me.

I am me you are you speaking to my companion.

My female companion.

At the moment.

No.

It's really bad.

I don't see on and think care.

Person can have that non instinct to finally by the poison that they've been trying to avoid.

I don't know what after say as just it's just there home.

So place a disease with the presence of everybody but my myself.

Linda gonna come back and luckily happy when she comes back.

To say hey.

I just know why people i only like myself.

Or something wrong with me.

I know one earlier.

But i'm not gonna try to cure.

All i want is what i am i won't keep on up when i love.

You smell.

I'm rose up your asshole.

Irrational and dead she had to begin with a dozen men.

Other roses are but or of and debt good.

God you keep it.

I understand any in van.

A decent fear an acer.

We just so some level true but imo blair.

The whatever currency just a ride tendered little wave of nowhere.

You have no original courage your definition.

You're off lap pancake mom this with syrup spell know rear.

You have nothing they have no direction.

You have no mode it.

Are you want this money.

He or even a wouldn't money is you want it.

The when you get it you would even know i could do it just squared up your ass our swallow it op cit and as job of death.

Ah.

Ah.

And i know as the new either if know.

I talk about it please that smooth it out and dances around which makes more sense of just letting their ah.

I'm pretty clever and i went down the story.

I handle liar so scared to or.

Okay next question saxophone.

It hi.

I'm sure you all been at places like this.

The man at the piano.

The man at the piano plays a song.

He didn't write.

Things words the dark hair.

Upon a piano he doesn't on.

While people at table ate drank and car.

The man at the piano finishes to know applause.

Then begins to play a new song.

He didn't write begins to saying words that are at his upon a piano that isn't here.

As the people at the tables continue to ate drank and top.

When he finishes to know a plan.

A announcers over the mike that he is going to take a ten minute break.

He goes back to the men's room enters a toilet.

Both both the door sit down pulls out a giant lights up.

He's glad he's not at the piano.

And the people at the table to eating drinking and talking or glad.

He isn't there a there.

This is the way it goes almost everywhere with everybody and everything as fiercely and the hinterlands the black swan burn.

Huh.

You know sometimes i walk down the street you know when i felt like you want to reach and grab this woman and to but you think just before you reach you think why or why haven't other men reach didn't you think because it's a penalty.

Criminals were off screen.

Or screen through the years.

Very interesting be realize how well we're screen but then they think they scream the and i was suddenly fool and finally on from right day and special player.

And they cut off their legs are am for had heard them down the river laugh and drink wine and a dark chocolate cake okay.

Raul atlanta not only me but you you in.

We're all rapists or all murderer.

Is just one that murder the just can we get away with.

Cold home man.

I think.

Maybe i'm wrong hope and.

And i've admired old man adolf hitler.

Oh grow evil creatures have something.

Because i don't believe in the rules i mean you're supposed to this is not this guy just come out loud.

The well.

They there if they have escaped from our teaching.

And so resting humanity safe there and.

There they're insane.

What happens when the woman that attracting following.

Well if nothing evil man attract enough followers in the followers spread all over the years and they become good man.

Then we need new evil man to overthrow.

Evil is what most people don't do well by people who do the other thing.

The wrong with either.

Well all a good man or evil that i can think of only using in the terms of human terms of they say this magazine on her to me.

The evil men are the good man with say.

It's all me first.

Anybody and see the opposite of what's going on.

I think is a classroom.

Like any place you go if you see a long line of people standing.

See another line you see learn and fifty people standing in one line and for people standing in another.

You know which line you get him to don't your baby did.

He always get him a line of ten people and you'll be better off.

Family life right automatically in any way.

It's because the masses are all was wrong the feline a bit about all them and lot of eight hundred line at fifty a lot of twelve a line of to if you got fired out and play the waiting for nobody's gonna go.

There go right there and that's going to be it.

Wisdom.

Is doing everything the crown does not do.

Are you do a reverse the totality of their learning and you have the heaven they're looking for.

That's true there are you sure that's how you win at the track.

Well that's how i break even to try and and why they lose.

Yeah and so basically system wherever the crowd goes around the other direction.

Two hours now.

Three centuries there will always be one.

Oh.

Look.

As a center human privacy i believe that everybody should have.

And if they come in with three hands on that their business.

If i come in with foreheads on that my investment are you just take a collapse and go back and say well.

I have french fries and onion.

It's what i call wow style that's very important handsome decent thing.

If we have nothing else where the monk fire.

Current never ask a latin a.

Anti him and anti life as why should have a minor sense of style left and all of rubbish we should realize wow.

We're all dead wow that but at least give us and collapse and federal with her and differences and order and males and leave each other alone.

I think graceful for francis.

Why they're why live if you stare a trying to defeat and say i am better than you are.

Course i am better.

I don't have to glad there.

Yes.

That a tiger.

A blight.

Everything.

David.

The whole will be waiting around that the.

I think style is more important.

I was like a you that more important than true yeah like i say endure into some aren't point country.

I think all things are more important than true.

We keep thinking of truth.

We're not going to get there what we do we do all things outside of truth in we may arrive.

There are we don't search for truth will do everything except a true.

And then we just don't fuck with true when i got a campo when i got a special occasion.

We sit and mario's pull down the shade and jack off.

I read a magazine.

That's the true where huh.

Huh.

The further away i am from the human race better.

I feel.

Even though i write about the human race further way i am from the better i feel.

Two inches is great.

Two miles is great.

Two thousand miles is beautiful as long as i'm able to eat.

They feed me because i feed them but i'm like a be near them and somebody even brushes against with an elbow in a crowd iran.

I do know like the human race know mike their heads that i'm happy faces don't like defeat.

I like the conversations.

I don't like their hair do's.

I don't like the automobile don't like their dogs are the cancer.

The room.

Earthquake.

Americans don't know what tragedy is a little six point five earthquake and send them to chattering like monkey.

A piece of china were broken the union rescue mission fall down.

Six am they said in their car their all driving around where are they going.

A little excitement as broken into their candle i am.

Stranger stands next to stranger chattering gibberish fair anxious fair anxious laughter my baby my flower pot my feeling my bank account.

This is just a tick glare father and they can't bear it.

The poet they bombed the city as other cities have been bombed not with an a bomb but with ordinary blockbuster day after day.

Every day or that happened in other cities that the world.

If the rest of the world could only see you today their laughter would bring the fan to it's name and even the flowers would leap from the ground like bulldog and chase you way to where you belong wherever that is and who cares where it is as long as it's somewhere away.

From here.

I'm not interested in solving the ios of society.

I don't want to save the world.

I really want to save me.

An anchor most talk is so boring.

I mean save this do that do this.

I think we're also boring thing everything we know you want to save ourselves with so boring talking about it.

There's nothing left the same with so fucking boring.

Let it die.

Let there be a new beginning.

It's awful.

Good night what they think i've been shut off for twenty minutes.

You guys don't fool me that the he could hit.

And you miss the best.

No.

Heating today there is absolutely no way there the human food and new who.

We know anybody asked that question would have to swallow a martini an hour before answering it would you ask me that again within.

A new wave your way that including a good group.

The.

Problem.

I would say the rainbow.

And ah.

I would say.

If you're really serious.

I would say we would need last.

Gone girl spiritual outlet which allow people to.

Escape their pains and another god form another and in order to exist.

In other words if you have an altered god up there that you can crawl to.

After you've been defeated all day long.

By a guy you're working and fourteen hour day for for six dollars an hour three dollars an hour well.

Then you're only helping that man.

In other words i would say the only way you're many can never escape oh.

What is bothering them a little bit.

His by removing.

The creatures in the sky and coming down and facing what's looking at them.

But you know gonna get them to do that.

So they're going to keep on except thing.

They're bad husbands or bad wives are bad job.

They're bad horse.

They're bad children.

Because they have guns up in the sky later are going to solve all these things for them when i fall on scrambled after they die the.

But after you die if no time to unscramble thing.

And i can even be unscrambled now but i can be a few kinks can be taken out of the air hostess.

A can breathe a little better.

I'm not a girl.

I wish you wouldn't post race thing.

Asked me about women are fun.

The only time i've been felt desperate for company is when i consider by a bride.

Like you know they're making used to them you know from black red haired badge walking along with her hair look at yourself in a mayor putting on that dig talk and.

They cause the and say when they're gone.

But it's not a true vacancy.

You see what you're trying to do is find.

Someone to substitute fared what is gone when they are gone but this is not you.

This is what they built a new division that they want but if they stay over sixty seven days.

Two or three league it heals you don't need anybody.

You don't need a replacement what it is.

It's just a mirage or somebody.

You think you to say.

No gun.

I go with absence the strongest man or without.

I think it with it.

If it wasn't whoever said it was a fine gentlemen when you talk about it.

I would be about your leg in utah.

I than that the luck luck and luck we can go into that for centuries.

His talent and next where circumstance and next to where.

Been there at a certain spot when somebody is looking at you.

That's all.

I have no more to say get me.

No there isn't any and discover cannot laying around at it and bush's what does not there in fact as time goes more and more on a sense of be and attrition.

How natural.

Creative talent i guess it is the cursor that numbers upon the earth and also.

The fact that were all narrow down through.

Shit like television and newspapers communication communication as the greatest destroy your town because it makes everybody like everybody else and the only away.

A child you must start as a child to big become original has to be shut out crime race horses communication.

And eleven can do that have cruel parent to be buried under ground for six months or something terrible.

They're brilliant child cannot be brilliant because he's taught to be brilliant.

He say he must be the counterpart of always courses that are telling him what to do.

It gets harder and harder.

Her child become individual because they're more and more melded together into one piece.

First time goes on and on the be a more encourage more difficult when have to look in a little places in africa and them.

Okay that sounds very dismal but that's it a chance for a genius becomes the last and last.

The other say becomes more and more but the same kind of a genius if they agree with he say.

A true genius like a day and man adolf hitler and charles because do.

I'll become less and less.

Further questions.

There is something behind a light had devil spaces.

Huh.

Generally speaking you're free tell you about four years old.

And then.

Five era and you got a grammar school than than you start becoming demanded and solved and orientated and shoved into areas.

You lose what individualism you have if you have a nice of course.

He retained some of it at most don't have enough though you become.

Watchers a game show fine.

And you work the eight hour job with olive.

A feeling of goodness what you're doing some when you get married like marriages a victory.

You have children like children as a victory but most things most people do our total glad marriage birth children.

It's something they have to do because if nothing else to do with no glory and at there's no the national fire very very flat.

And they are if it's fuller.

Sorry but that the way i see it.

The proud then dying.

I see old people on pensions in the supermarket.

And they are thin and they are proud and they are dying.

There they are starving on their feet and saying nothing.

Long ago among other to live they were taught that silence was bravery.

Now having worked a lifetime inflation this trap them.

They look around deal a grape chew on it.

Finally they make a tiny purchase a day's work.

Another lie they were cow.

Thou shalt not steal.

They'd rather starve them feel.

One grape won't save them.

And in tiny rooms while reading the market and they'll star.

They'll die without a sound pulled out of rooming houses.

By young blonde boys little long hair those slide the men and pull away from the curb.

These boys handsome of i thinking of vegas and pussy and victory.

It's the order of thing each one gets a taste of honey then the night.

Who.

No.

The.

Where i live in.

And drank.

Story.

Home man reminded me outta hell of a lot of trouble.

I guess trouble make story.

Audio play like a lot of work down here great.

This is where you wrote woman knew where most of women happen.

A lot of them were here.

Under go on and mean.

One time i the.

There were a lot of them.

You and man movie man.

But again a book.

New memnon i mean everyone.

London airplane.

God usually third go over there no and come here and nine.

The line down in a helicopter hit.

The survey pan humanely look at them nude and make you blaring.

It was a great.

Right now kill you on this that be glass breaking me see shortage of.

Flying through the know you'd hear screaming what you know the cops measure came and gone should two tier three hours and family.

There would be guy and ship can.

So you knew somebody to every day.

Dreamed up the ass for the telephone call you something thing you know and they got what they mean and.

To san pedro sorry but economists those to.

I was like the cops never can enough kate.

Who.

The big hype now is to bring up that's a message goes through the underworld of all the grapevine you know all a big wave.

The big message you hour to bring up elizabeth taylor back to where she used today.

Now all i can that propagandists to say there's a taylor is a great beautiful woman.

She's a most a wonderful creature of all time allah.

Hi paula maybe has been told to do this and i'm doing an our sudden.

I read the paper that having god you must be some kind of super gotta.

All these films i sorry and were really crappy accept the one you know.

I was afraid of virginia law.

Oh.

I read of oh i miss something.

If even a quote from jd.

Salinger he's the most beautiful woman have ever seen.

And you know on.

I was a kid and i'm sixty one.

When i saw her as a kid.

This okay i did that that woman does a really ugly her face is ugly either and player mouth is ugly.

And i always thought i was a tailor is one of the muslim ugly or him and i've ever seen.

Most part choose evil grabbing growth.

She exemplifies build the.

Female creature grabbing for everything because her lips are farmed of little bit like that or higher a little bit like that our eyes a little bit like that their hair so little bit alike and have to have him do with beauty.

Ass thing to do with a mad at him mathematical equation of where the chin should be an eerie should be.

Beauty in not saying it's an idea from thank the gods don't give beauty.

The gods down give beauty.

There's no idea physical beauty.

So she's a stupid woman.

Ah my guy that makes me sick.

I'm sorry.

And chicken to me.

Than donna.

Put it right on him.

I said what i said i will say elizabeth taylor.

You are an ugly woman.

And we will go into the course to prove whether you're ugly or beautiful.

The judges will say you're beautiful but the guy and serve everywhere.

The on this place will know that you are not beautiful.

You just the areas where farmed certain way.

With a certain way your eyes reform the certainly but you are not beautiful.

Taylor.

You were hardly anything.

This is vieira.

Who.

Millionaire you know faces no faces at all laughing at nothing.

Let me tell you.

I have drunk and skid row room with ember so why know.

Who's cause was better.

Those eyes still held them alive whose voices retain some sensibility.

And when the morning came we were sick but not ill core but not deluded.

And we stretched in our bed and rose in the late afternoon like millionaire in those places.

People were closer to each other a knock on the door and when has a bottle to share.

Yeah very true.

There was almost.

Of no night there to that way to turn know night there you went without a drink in if you didn't have one.

Somebody show up again why they did it.

I don't know but it just happened while.

Many are not i'd be lying and gave her for my guess.

I have a lot of money.

Somebody would not go adored open here come a hand with a bottle.

I do and i a come on in then you start drinking.

Pretty soon someone else come here and pretty funny look up the three or four people.

A tiny room.

Now with certain people start getting up money they run out of wine.

Somebody gets up a or somebody gets up a dawn somebody runs down the hall come back with the pretty.

Soon somebody goes down and more wine bottles that you can have a buddy smoking drinking talking the radio's on every budding from.

Can you imagine that happening in this neighborhood.

Among.

Quite interesting.

For the poor.

And they have what's the difference between having seventy five and for nothing you know you might as well give it the summer share.

Pretty good.

Style.

Style as the answer to everything.

A fresh way to approach your go are dangerous than.

The do a go thing with style as preferable to doing a dangerous thing without it.

Joan of arc had style.

John the baptist cry socrates the there.

Garcia lorca.

Style is the difference.

A way of doing a way of being done.

Thick hair are standing quietly in a pool of water.

Are you walking on at the bathroom naked without saying a man huh.

Huh.

I'm not wanna way.

Self and and genius we have a new character who wakes up and.

I'm more like a and more like ah.

A very slow he a creature.

I really don't wanna do anything.

I wake up in the morning and just wanna lay in bed three or four mara.

It's nothing i wanna do.

In fact.

Even going to the typewriter.

And i walk toilet realize that must be a writer because you know.

I made money at an event like a look for the typewriter.

Sometimes i stay away from that for a day because at think like jobs i used to have.

The minute i sit down to the damn thing.

I have a few bottles of wine you for.

Well a half a bottle of wine the things that harming and the word start popping out and like popcorn kernels.

So there isn't there isn't.

For me there's no egocentric or.

I'm not doing something doing to me face.

I walk into and here's the gear hey baby and it happened.

That's not just false modesty.

It just occurred i'm sarah reptile.

I guess.

I'm just a good old kid from the stockyards railyard yards from a poster.

I'm thinking my sixtieth birthday saturday.

We last ten years ago i was a postal clerk down and alameda street sticking letter come to slap fight fucker.

Within ten year.

And published in germany norway france how to italy and on ah and are more.

I can't name six or seven mar what happened.

I don't know care act yeah.

I guess wrote down the word though they were meant to be.

And it scares me a lot because i wanted her.

Now you get a little touch of luck can you carry on with the same crazy.

The good bloody hard care.

I mean okay.

I'm sick day feel now be fuck.

They want.

To sixty the seven seventy three who on be eighty three eighty five eighty nine.

I'm still going to be typing at ninety two.

I just heard from my uncle he's ninety three fed.

I hope you're and good how are marrying.

With and i are in good health accept her knees hurt.

Maybe i'll be heard a good writing about hurting name.

At the age of ninety three i hope not.

I hope.

I'm wrong the wrong guy.