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And and. Then as you running loose mother fucking show.
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Way through the and was going on there are a little one.
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Sitting by me.
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Okay.
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Yeah.
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Because it was joined may have your parents but yeah like their work were getting bad.
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You know that the cops around something good must be yeah.
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But you need is like you're at work as to be alive.
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Three right and for that was just once.
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And i heard him flick flickers dick.
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And then i heard.
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The zingy you're married on i'm a dover and i get to save the added.
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The the flame was a really high any anyone like snooty good.
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He called me and said done.
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You motherfucker you put something in my line.
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No.
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I didn't say yes.
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He said yes you put lsd my wine because you want to fuck my wife.
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Oh yeah the time he pulled this blade on the made a day at the polo lounge.
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There was that.
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The cops says you know what are you doing stop.
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Angela i'm going to throw the of the window and the cop do his gun and said no you're not what they call me in a bar.
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In the old days was a good duke.
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See ultimate corrupt or find they seem across the street from me and he's unzip themselves nice taken as cargo.
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And he's that waving a business disdaining there he's running up or down the street people screaming and of horrified and finally they gather around him call.
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The police called covered the children's eyes call the blaze.
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The creative act is done that goddamn machine right here.
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That's where it down and talked a lot about his sexual prowess.
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He referred to as penis fences purple onion.
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Simon looking at me and on them quickly for were dumping my head to the money.
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It was move forward you never see him.
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With the first thing you learn.
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I've to the cousin drunk drunken one.
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Forgive me my so and i have your money.
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Please something out correct.
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Can't you get one over.
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On what the fuck shit.
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I feel like shown that beer right in your face.
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Why.
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I'll tell you why.
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Our.
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I'm cara my life time mike the big guys martin and i'm army hammer from all that shit.
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I'm a harmonic at it.
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How was i was gonna crash it.
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I'm not pure air.
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You know.
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A young blonde with a time pussy came too late.
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Cameras came to light.
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Don't grant me like that it's true.
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I came to weigh in on too strong.
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The to really put a good shield our mailman.
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I really have.
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I've been toughened up at the right time and the right way.
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They're still good to me.
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Lawrence from getty up in san francisco invited to cascade to go to san francisco to read the city lights poets theater.
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I'd never heard him read.
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Actually.
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It was very interesting we just met.
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We started to develop a relationship and bang.
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This thing happened so.
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I said i'm going to travel.
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Now have this is miniscule budget.
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I decided to shoot in black and white.
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City lights in the last year has started presenting american poets who.
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I believe our major writers in this country and at the moment like what else is have you mean besides casket.
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We go up and the plane is drinking scotch to got pretty drunk and a little silly and i was shooting a whole thing.
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Br.
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Br.
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Br.
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I wish.
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I were more nervous.
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You read matter when you're alone.
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Really it's like you know.
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Riders time.
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A rise in san francisco for this reading it for get he's poets theater and my god.
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It was like the second coming.
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He walked into this big gymnasium and they were bleachers set up and you know.
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They were like six seven hundred people.
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There.
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A right enough.
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Part on a bomb.
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Yeah a kid it.
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Shaver italian why man you guys with us.
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He was a little drunk and i think it is building himself up but i think it was a little scared.
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Great shape.
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Down here area.
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Okay childhood.
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The poetry readings he didn't los angeles where they'll be fifteen people.
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Twenty people you know you get thirty people.
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It was a crowd and here we walked into hundreds and hundreds and it was allowed rowdy audience.
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Yeah.
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I know you.
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One more beer.
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I'll take you all all way.
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And at the same time it was a certain electricity in the air we didn't have to share the podium.
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This is a because key event.
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Bukovsky was fairly well known underground figure in los angeles at the time because he wrote a column at the l a free press call.
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The know some dirty old man one week.
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He wrote this article in there about going to say was just go to read and having these punk ass hole all stupid filmmakers along and he was trying to kind of help them along and organizing this and that as these people bumble through and asking stupid questions and so it was quite an entertaining kind of funny peace.
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So i read a nice idea and i saw him later and i said the a said hank.
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I said i read that article he says yeah baby would you think i said well.
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I thought it was full of shit man.
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I said.
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I you forget.
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I have the film you're the guy who's drunk on the plane making a fool yourself and you made me.
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He says a baby when i right.
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The hero of my shit.
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And he says you got your film.
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You do your film.
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Born like this into this is the chalk faces smile as misses.
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A desk laughs as political landscapes dissolve as the oily fish it out.
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There only pray.
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We are born like this into this into hospitals which are so expensive that it's cheaper to die in two lawyers who charge so much.
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It's cheaper to plead guilty.
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Into a country or the jails are full and the mad house is closed.
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Into a place where the masses elevate fools into rich share rooms.
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Born into this walking in the living through this dying because of this castrated de barge disinherited.
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Because of this the fingers reach toured and unresponsive go.
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The fingers to reach for the bottle the pill to powder who were born into the sour full deadliness.
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It will be open and unpunished murder in the streets.
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It will be guns and roving mom's land will be useless.
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Food will become a diminishing return.
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Nuclear power will be taken over by the many explosions will continually shape the earth.
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Radiated men will eat the flesh of radiated man.
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The rotting bodies of men and animals when staying in the dark when and there will be the most beautiful silence never heard.
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Born out of that the sun hidden there and in the next chapter.
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His full name was henry charles.
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Bukowski jr and his father called him henry.
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With a very strong gruff voice so hank was sort of the nickname for henry and charles.
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Just charles bukowski and especially being a writer sounded a little better than henry bill cassidy.
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Another can make this on just two bottles and maybe three bottles.
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Ratings.
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Liquors like anthony classical music comes next.
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You don't use that is it down to this totally of into the sky when you're in pain and when years we have depression.
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I am a longer.
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I started reading this oh.
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And i hear this man's voice rising.
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Sun and my own i'm going to go all over again in law and changes will living and.
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I'm having a his as right has gotten them all.
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So watch a man.
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I'll take to lock up on monday.
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Your life you were right yeah no.
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Way every writer writer they only care.
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Well and i was i guess.
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I was about.
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Two years old.
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And i was covered with a sport also.
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First writing i did this.
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You know for school.
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I just found a council and i started writing.
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I filled out.
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For or.
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Just that it was the first time.
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The mechanism adage exposed so.
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Show actually pretty good sitting there right growth.
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Kosovo.
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I road on and on sale.
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Easy.
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Nice thing to do it still remains ac.
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A he said on the tape.
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I have somewhere.
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I know exactly when i became a writer was on such a delving day.
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I love that when he said that such a dull the day when i sat down and i wrote about a man with one arm lasted people out of the sky.
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Man's red necked awesome.
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And my father saw that there's a short story short.
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I would say after that he was a rider that was it.
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He was going to l a city college.
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It's still there and vermont and he walked into journalism class.
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I had two years of college but i didn't do anything.
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I just laid on the lawn miss classes.
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I couldn't get a job security.
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A safer out an application will watch him.
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It's a very hard job to go is a.
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It's so early on your decisions that you didn't work because to journalists know that i think if they had a hard man or woman in a church.
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And while i'm glad they didn't.
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He does book that.
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I write a ball.
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If you ever went to the me.
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Oh no.
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What.
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Are you manage it.
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Psychiatrists would not take me.
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Yeah man.
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You believe in the war.
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I said no.
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You're willing to go to the war.
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You're a very intelligent man.
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You come to a party at my house next.
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One.
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Then i will have artists writers painters lawyer.
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Well actually.
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I want you to come to my martin next wednesday night.
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We come to my party.
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I said no.
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Okay you can go.
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What you mean i can go in.
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You don't have to go to the war.
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Smile.
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On i first came to the united states and fell in love with american literature and music and jazz and a whole shebang really.
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I just fell for it.
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I was very uncool in england to be.
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Beholden to america but i was irish size forgiven you know and i just got last time and the poetry of the place.
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Names and city lights is important and stop off from me.
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So i picked up a few of hanks.
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Early books love is a dog from hell hot water music.
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And i started to discover a new kind of writing.
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That had a directness.
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The away from the beats which i'd started out with a beat sort of connection for an irishman because of you know you could eat the language and it was was rage and prosaic.
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But here's a guy was like look at no time for medafor.
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Because i and we just get straight down to add to the bone marrow of the bomb.
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It's not a large things and send a man to a madhouse.
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Das he's ready for our murder incest robbery fire and flow.
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No.
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It's a continuing series of small tragedies that send a man to the madhouse.
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Not the death of his lungs but a shoelace and slaps with no time left.
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With each broken shoelace out of one hundred broken shoelaces one man one woman.
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One st andrews a man hours so be careful millennium band door.
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Five to shoot a portrait now and get the picture.
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By read your local girl.
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The definition of.
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Surely you could do when you can't really.
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Over the first woman.
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I was the three hundred pound horror.
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I don't know my first piece as well as twenty four years.
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He really wasn't a pretty guy and i didn't have any money.
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I was a bomb yeah.
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I'm sorry you know i could never went to the high school board.
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It was an outcast.
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Simon this lady.
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She seemed like may first woman.
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I remind me and.
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She was big but she was a woman.
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Yeah i was proud to be withdrawn.
234
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With drinker beer on got him to.
235
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So i were to an hour or hour because i want to prove.
236
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I was a man well first time.
237
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Below are really try and an awesome boy.
238
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This is six.
239
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It sure is allow us to.
240
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Just that we're talking about a high school locker rooms.
241
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So we i don't know if i made it a problem.
242
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But anyhow we were both.
243
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True story on honor.
244
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There's a huge beast was lying.
245
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With broken the bear.
246
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We're like outta here.
247
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Abed what it's right.
248
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So on.
249
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Burn you know.
250
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Rush to my parents my wallet.
251
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I do our you took my wallet.
252
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Now now.
253
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Action.
254
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Pitch.
255
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And i don't know you've got up your congress.
256
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Where i started over after.
257
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I kind of.
258
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First time of the legs of them.
259
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Our external felt something around with my wallet.
260
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And hour.
261
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I don't know.
262
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Forget the and.
263
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She may not have as much per se.
264
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So.
265
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Right away around down the borrower it better.
266
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There was she told the board walker said listen.
267
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This girl.
268
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Saunders for review.
269
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With cancer.
270
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I see one of the reasons because key monday run a country was very simply a young man's need to see his country.
271
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And i think the other reason was he wanted to delve into life.
272
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He needed experiences so he when he bought a ticket and railways and he went all the way to florida as far as he could go.
273
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Now.
274
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He's had to get as far away from my father is possible probably that's true that he headed back to new orleans and he was in el paso.
275
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Falls to the forties he live in one rooming house or my little cold water hotel room.
276
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After another looking for that golden sentence.
277
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You know wanting to write that story that would put him up there on the charts.
278
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I would get a common laborer job summer for a week or two men live in a cheap room and type.
279
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I used to live on the one candy bar day.
280
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Cost a nickel.
281
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Always remember the candy bar was called payday.
282
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That with my pay their fines on.
283
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And that candy bar tasted so good.
284
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I have it at night.
285
00:22:03,099 --> 00:22:06,039
I'd take one by was so beautiful.
286
00:22:07,479 --> 00:22:12,849
I wrote for five short stories away during this time and i hand them out everywhere.
287
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I came bouncing back.
288
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He was looking for his art and he got rejections and basically what he was getting you're not good enough.
289
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Not you're not good you're not good enough.
290
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And he heard it and he understood it.
291
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Now.
292
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At that point you can make a choice or well to hell with it throw it out.
293
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I'm gonna go get a profession do something because can never did that.
294
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Laying in bed one night myself.
295
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August hell.
296
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Another voice him he said.
297
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Don't quit.
298
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Say that i'm a little amber.
299
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Of our never given that spark because if along as you have expired you start the great as far.
300
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As were in a ladies drescher.
301
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And they may may work two hours over time.
302
00:23:04,479 --> 00:23:05,915
I still kept the spark of.
303
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I will not quit.
304
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I will not let them kill me.
305
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I'm walking out.
306
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In two guys me off guard hey i because he come here a minute ever laughing at me and i knew they were laughing.
307
00:23:20,859 --> 00:23:23,559
Because i was just the slave standing there.
308
00:23:24,489 --> 00:23:29,439
From one on with a very long walk and remember the trees were frozen and winter.
309
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It was in st louis.
310
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Let you put these letters under my door.
311
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I opened the won.
312
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We've accepted your short story.
313
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Oh.
314
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The fire i saved has a chance.
315
00:23:46,989 --> 00:23:49,659
But the funny thing is a took a bad story.
316
00:23:58,839 --> 00:24:03,339
The young rider growing up the thirties and forties wanted to be in harper's atlantic monthly.
317
00:24:04,179 --> 00:24:07,419
That's why hemingway in civilian that's where the heroes published.
318
00:24:09,339 --> 00:24:17,949
I don't think it was quite the market for and the magazines during the forties who are pretty much published by is chin intellectuals.
319
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John steinbeck hello aren't.
320
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I'm getting recognised western rose just run out.
321
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Very much appreciated and recognized as they are today.
322
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Let me tell you that story of the first time.
323
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I read because he was really really.
324
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I'm.
325
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I'm one of those just happenstance thanks.
326
00:24:37,029 --> 00:24:39,969
I was about said see about twenty five at the time.
327
00:24:40,569 --> 00:24:44,289
I was in the bookstore with this girl that i really really wanted to fuck but.
328
00:24:45,129 --> 00:24:49,449
She was just my friend and i told the book clerk.
329
00:24:50,319 --> 00:24:53,139
He asked me if he could help me and i said yeah yeah yeah.
330
00:24:53,199 --> 00:24:59,379
There's this guy have been written about this people the time but this guiding bukovsky you only thing about this guy and the butler.
331
00:24:59,469 --> 00:25:09,579
I look how skilled just as my favorite coming to the bathroom with the bathroom in a way you kiss all if is because the steps goes up to the top shelf and it cools down so books and he has me this poconos yeah.
332
00:25:09,579 --> 00:25:12,309
This is because these latest and he has we.
333
00:25:12,309 --> 00:25:18,999
This clock has a moral the time the business as latest when you get is great if you know if you don't know the many should know the man.
334
00:25:19,299 --> 00:25:22,269
So i just i picked up the book and opened it.
335
00:25:23,229 --> 00:25:29,649
And i just fell to this page where here page one hundred and the first call i read was called oh yes.
336
00:25:29,919 --> 00:25:34,449
There are worse things than being alone but it often takes decades to realize this.
337
00:25:35,379 --> 00:25:40,479
And most often when you do it's too late and there's nothing worse than too late.
338
00:25:41,619 --> 00:25:45,609
Sigh just close the book handed a batch one but i've never forgot that poem.
339
00:25:46,179 --> 00:25:48,179
There are worse things than being alone and like.
340
00:25:48,189 --> 00:25:53,469
I said the reason i mention that girl that i was weird because i sort of looked at her in a different light after that and looked at are like you know.
341
00:25:53,529 --> 00:25:57,219
There are worse things than being alone and i don't want to wait until it's too late.
342
00:25:57,939 --> 00:25:58,689
There are so.
343
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I would go away go away.
344
00:26:00,939 --> 00:26:07,389
Then we let me just worry about other things besides besides you so that was my first introduction of because it.
345
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I was.
346
00:26:25,539 --> 00:26:31,359
The for twenty five with around thirty five have you just accepted me.
347
00:26:32,289 --> 00:26:41,199
I don't understand that she was real fine looking woman with body and good from a little bit man.
348
00:26:41,799 --> 00:26:42,849
This is jane.
349
00:26:43,269 --> 00:26:44,769
This is former high school yearbook.
350
00:26:45,339 --> 00:26:47,919
There are many love poems the early love poems.
351
00:26:47,979 --> 00:26:51,159
Jane was the first woman the of really and relationship with.
352
00:26:52,449 --> 00:26:57,579
She was ten years older than he was she was born in nineteen ten and he was born in nineteen twenty.
353
00:26:59,539 --> 00:27:04,029
He he seem to be all alone except for this woman.
354
00:27:04,029 --> 00:27:07,419
He lived with that he would refer to sometimes.
355
00:27:08,919 --> 00:27:12,819
And a derogatory way the way men refer to.
356
00:27:13,599 --> 00:27:14,109
Women.
357
00:27:15,219 --> 00:27:19,599
I saw her once and it fit his description of on which was.
358
00:27:20,529 --> 00:27:25,359
She had a fat ass and was good to lean up against in wintertime.
359
00:27:26,259 --> 00:27:28,569
And beautiful know who are high.
360
00:27:30,219 --> 00:27:31,779
You not across the length.
361
00:27:33,339 --> 00:27:36,270
Skirt just kicking the here like this.
362
00:27:36,279 --> 00:27:39,459
I'm talking to him.
363
00:27:40,663 --> 00:27:41,709
Feel like a big.
364
00:27:42,849 --> 00:27:49,539
You know as she did not as she did not have the good looks and that of a of sophistication.
365
00:27:50,319 --> 00:27:53,739
Classy woman with beautiful legs you always failure.
366
00:27:55,599 --> 00:28:05,499
Even though you've only been there once you do your might be something else been and therapy find account might be something really marvelous list.
367
00:28:06,129 --> 00:28:08,289
It could be a moaning the.
368
00:28:09,669 --> 00:28:11,197
Something by looking at the name from.
369
00:28:13,419 --> 00:28:14,829
I think there's anything wrong with the.
370
00:28:16,209 --> 00:28:22,899
And i'm from yours imagine some extra magic when you're looking at the outside more even mean.
371
00:28:24,759 --> 00:28:27,699
She would just take off for a month and leave him.
372
00:28:28,479 --> 00:28:36,339
And then come back only because had exhausted all those opportunities out there or was sick and tired of what was going there and would come back to him.
373
00:28:36,609 --> 00:28:38,049
He was kind of like a home base.
374
00:28:38,049 --> 00:28:38,499
Only.
375
00:28:39,069 --> 00:28:41,649
They didn't have a really domestic life together.
376
00:28:42,939 --> 00:28:50,919
It was a continuous is going into bars getting into trouble getting kicked out of rooms do his attention and just.
377
00:28:52,899 --> 00:28:57,572
Find your lady already drunk dirty dishes in the sink a dog on fed.
378
00:28:57,572 --> 00:29:03,999
The flowers on watered the bed on made the ashtrays full of punched out lipstick smeared cigarettes.
379
00:29:04,659 --> 00:29:05,728
Those days were so.
380
00:29:06,939 --> 00:29:12,519
Are always drown getting kicked the he was like being in a war and never read landed.
381
00:29:13,299 --> 00:29:16,779
I you asshole what are your daughter them plan with yourself.
382
00:29:18,189 --> 00:29:28,749
It goddamn the whore what do you know about anything sit down your dad as suck and at the been all but there was a mild winters there because we both didn't care for sure.
383
00:29:29,979 --> 00:29:37,389
Though that may be usually hit me but you are near the man hell law and hit a man you think.
384
00:29:37,389 --> 00:29:38,319
I'm crazy.
385
00:29:39,669 --> 00:29:41,559
A where the hell you're going.
386
00:29:42,489 --> 00:29:47,499
Rondo the fuck and bar now without me that without the buster.
387
00:29:48,144 --> 00:29:49,689
I thought i really handsome.
388
00:29:50,619 --> 00:29:52,599
I did i have enough drama.
389
00:29:53,919 --> 00:30:03,369
To get our stores to said before the long mirror to tell a bartender vodka seven everything was far away then the post office the world.
390
00:30:03,819 --> 00:30:10,539
The past and the future to have our drinks arrive to take the first hit and the dark by.
391
00:30:11,821 --> 00:30:13,621
Live couldn't get any better.
392
00:30:16,861 --> 00:30:17,161
He do.
393
00:30:20,341 --> 00:30:20,971
Hello.
394
00:30:25,321 --> 00:30:25,561
No.
395
00:30:25,561 --> 00:30:34,021
I feel fog in the morning you wake up before the sun comes out the stiffer little while and minute burns away.
396
00:30:38,401 --> 00:30:38,941
Early.
397
00:30:40,471 --> 00:30:43,081
Absolute put a good answer for hate yeah.
398
00:30:44,161 --> 00:30:44,881
Quickly.
399
00:30:46,591 --> 00:30:51,331
It's just love is a fog and burn for the first day light of reality.
400
00:30:54,511 --> 00:30:55,111
Ama.
401
00:30:56,557 --> 00:31:01,801
The post office or i carry mail return after coming up.
402
00:31:06,192 --> 00:31:07,891
Really terrible place for.
403
00:31:14,491 --> 00:31:20,371
There was bought for five of us that was subset to carries and of which station.
404
00:31:21,811 --> 00:31:26,041
I think especially first impressions would ban would him.
405
00:31:26,611 --> 00:31:31,981
The guy was was didn't wear clothes well and he himself was big.
406
00:31:32,941 --> 00:31:34,021
Which could have been an asset.
407
00:31:35,461 --> 00:31:38,401
But he carried himself like a big gulu you know.
408
00:31:39,511 --> 00:31:43,771
And he had this heavy face with these heavy features that had to grow on you.
409
00:31:44,431 --> 00:31:44,931
There.
410
00:31:44,980 --> 00:31:45,271
There.
411
00:31:51,841 --> 00:31:52,081
Here.
412
00:31:53,761 --> 00:31:54,841
Pure hell.
413
00:31:55,771 --> 00:31:58,501
He hated it but don't blame.
414
00:31:58,501 --> 00:31:59,611
The job was him.
415
00:32:00,451 --> 00:32:02,821
He just hated the knees and regulations.
416
00:32:03,901 --> 00:32:10,111
He did as little as possible and he and the boss were enemies and at odds.
417
00:32:10,951 --> 00:32:16,081
And the boss saw to and that he got all the dirty crap on make the shit out to toy.
418
00:32:18,181 --> 00:32:21,241
I was and quick that think about my job a theater.
419
00:32:25,441 --> 00:32:28,021
In fact i hated it that i guess out.
420
00:32:29,461 --> 00:32:35,131
And how can you hate a good job out of states government lifetime secure and.
421
00:32:37,171 --> 00:32:38,431
Robbie curator this.
422
00:32:39,241 --> 00:32:40,441
Street right here.
423
00:32:42,511 --> 00:32:43,831
I know the tower alla.
424
00:32:45,451 --> 00:32:47,581
I only cured three or four year.
425
00:32:48,631 --> 00:32:53,191
Clerk arrest the town still you know it that way you learn the phone number.
426
00:32:54,031 --> 00:32:57,721
You get to think of our and you're wrong and now in our.
427
00:33:00,181 --> 00:33:04,231
He call your child or that horror story and it was a horse.
428
00:33:04,231 --> 00:33:06,571
They are you capital age.
429
00:33:08,971 --> 00:33:09,691
Why.
430
00:33:14,971 --> 00:33:17,221
And we've been beaten what a raise or strong.
431
00:33:18,601 --> 00:33:19,771
Three times a week.
432
00:33:21,031 --> 00:33:24,871
I'm the age of six to eleven.
433
00:33:25,651 --> 00:33:27,361
Normally beatings and.
434
00:33:30,541 --> 00:33:32,431
Well if any other yeah.
435
00:33:34,741 --> 00:33:38,101
So you see this was very good literary training on it.
436
00:33:40,471 --> 00:33:43,351
Beating me why that strap taught me something.
437
00:33:44,191 --> 00:33:45,091
One teacher.
438
00:33:46,081 --> 00:33:46,801
How to tie it.
439
00:33:48,301 --> 00:33:49,261
What's the link.
440
00:33:50,251 --> 00:33:51,271
The link is.
441
00:33:54,391 --> 00:33:59,041
When you get the shit kicked outta here long enough and long enough and long enough.
442
00:34:00,841 --> 00:34:03,961
He will have a tendency to say what you really me.
443
00:34:06,601 --> 00:34:09,841
In other words you have all the pretense be data do.
444
00:34:12,151 --> 00:34:14,491
But my father was a great literary teacher.
445
00:34:14,551 --> 00:34:15,511
He taught me.
446
00:34:17,311 --> 00:34:18,691
The meaning of pain.
447
00:34:20,911 --> 00:34:22,291
Pain without reason.
448
00:34:27,691 --> 00:34:38,341
To the postmaster los angeles california please accept my resignation as regular a carrier sector three eleven fifty five i find.
449
00:34:38,461 --> 00:34:41,491
This occupation is detrimental to my health.
450
00:34:41,731 --> 00:34:48,601
I am bothered with ulcers and the pressure and demands of the job are aggravating my condition.
451
00:34:48,871 --> 00:34:54,541
The post office had treated me well is only that i must seek a more.
452
00:34:55,621 --> 00:34:57,301
Congenial occupation.
453
00:34:58,141 --> 00:35:02,641
And i regret the severance can we see because he jr.
454
00:35:04,711 --> 00:35:06,121
I don't choose you know her.
455
00:35:08,611 --> 00:35:10,141
Nor do i thought it was too.
456
00:35:12,421 --> 00:35:13,681
From i just grew cold.
457
00:35:14,865 --> 00:35:15,331
Came out.
458
00:35:19,591 --> 00:35:21,481
Be surprised how much work there is.
459
00:35:22,351 --> 00:35:23,041
It coming.
460
00:35:24,991 --> 00:35:25,471
It's per.
461
00:35:27,211 --> 00:35:30,331
Anyhow they took me to county general hospital.
462
00:35:32,841 --> 00:35:33,001
Was.
463
00:35:37,872 --> 00:35:40,831
As i left the hospital on doctor told me.
464
00:35:41,611 --> 00:35:42,961
You take one more und drang.
465
00:35:43,861 --> 00:35:44,671
You're dead.
466
00:35:46,141 --> 00:35:48,331
See doctors lie to austin.
467
00:35:50,641 --> 00:35:52,381
I was supposed to die am.
468
00:35:52,981 --> 00:35:53,851
I just didn't.
469
00:35:55,591 --> 00:36:00,091
And i'd kind of felt like i had a free life and extra life too.
470
00:36:02,311 --> 00:36:05,341
Shaw came out of their got a job driving a truck.
471
00:36:06,751 --> 00:36:13,051
Drank a lot of beer each night thought a typewriter and just started typing.
472
00:36:14,791 --> 00:36:17,161
Only this time at all came out poetry.
473
00:36:17,581 --> 00:36:19,681
The pros had gone somewhere.
474
00:36:21,181 --> 00:36:26,221
Check the man who rose from the dead and and a whole new life to live in did.
475
00:36:27,798 --> 00:36:35,821
As often the case with a near fatal illness in their life the send someone often entirely rejuvenated direction.
476
00:36:36,781 --> 00:36:43,651
For started writing hundred pounds and sending them out you know poetry doesn't pay and may hamper.
477
00:36:43,801 --> 00:36:44,911
It was just a farm.
478
00:36:44,911 --> 00:36:45,511
I needed.
479
00:36:46,861 --> 00:36:53,581
Kind of a passionate pleasurable selfish nice far more you can scream a little bit.
480
00:36:54,991 --> 00:36:57,301
I'm just submitted to scream old now.
481
00:36:59,401 --> 00:37:02,251
Sometimes in your mid thirties your consciousness.
482
00:37:02,641 --> 00:37:06,151
Kind of explosion takes wings and that seems of happened with hank.
483
00:37:06,631 --> 00:37:08,281
He wasn't doing it with the stories.
484
00:37:08,971 --> 00:37:11,304
These things come out in one tenth.
485
00:37:11,304 --> 00:37:18,421
The time have a short story and because he had trained himself as a pros rider.
486
00:37:18,721 --> 00:37:19,921
How did the palms come out.
487
00:37:19,921 --> 00:37:21,361
They came out as stories.
488
00:37:21,421 --> 00:37:30,571
They were narratives when i took her home she said big red was the best horse she'd ever seen until i stripped down.
489
00:37:31,771 --> 00:37:35,611
I saw the cows give oh my what a great juxtaposition.
490
00:37:37,831 --> 00:37:45,511
All i can say is that while he was drinking all through the fifties and sixties he produced more poetry than almost any other person on the planet that i know of.
491
00:37:47,221 --> 00:37:53,431
The discipline of sending those palms out because it's you get lazy you have to go to the stationary shop and get the one hundred and beloved.
492
00:37:53,821 --> 00:38:00,631
You have to go the post office and get maybe the fact that he worked in the post office takes an enormous amount of energy and he did it every day.
493
00:38:03,001 --> 00:38:04,711
Now he was a hard working power.
494
00:38:04,711 --> 00:38:08,611
He was no no not fifty nine as king of a little magazines.
495
00:38:09,031 --> 00:38:13,291
He says out thousands of pounds without goblins them get on back.
496
00:38:14,071 --> 00:38:18,091
So he was no neither man as king of a little magazines.
497
00:38:23,817 --> 00:38:25,531
This is great were right right.
498
00:38:28,051 --> 00:38:30,481
Sometimes i'm taking my laundry to the lottery.
499
00:38:30,481 --> 00:38:35,138
I keep driving all the way to the racetrack almost because i'm so used to guy in a race track.
500
00:38:36,031 --> 00:38:36,901
Hey wait a minute.
501
00:38:39,361 --> 00:38:43,171
But i want to the racetrack to use as a substitute for drinking.
502
00:38:43,171 --> 00:38:46,471
I was going to give up drinking just use the restroom.
503
00:38:46,891 --> 00:38:47,791
I had a girlfriend.
504
00:38:49,891 --> 00:38:49,993
Oh.
505
00:38:49,993 --> 00:38:52,441
I can't drink what am i gonna do she said.
506
00:38:53,611 --> 00:38:56,461
Fuller horses i said horses what's going on.
507
00:38:58,081 --> 00:39:01,471
So we go to the track i'm a race against each of us.
508
00:39:01,561 --> 00:39:02,641
How stupid.
509
00:39:02,641 --> 00:39:06,331
I mean they have horses and they run against each other.
510
00:39:06,601 --> 00:39:07,951
This yeah you bet on ice.
511
00:39:08,821 --> 00:39:10,531
Yeah that so ignorant.
512
00:39:11,851 --> 00:39:13,171
They're almost every day.
513
00:39:15,961 --> 00:39:17,641
This would been back in the mid fifties.
514
00:39:17,881 --> 00:39:27,361
His idea was he was going to quit his job and follow the track wherever the horses were running del mar hollywood park santa neither and just be a full time gambler.
515
00:39:28,411 --> 00:39:37,471
He went to the tracker initially in the his wife to try to make a killing so he could quit whatever he was doing and right full time which of course never happened.
516
00:39:39,271 --> 00:39:47,241
I was at the track one way and i was late for the first grades but i'm our household them not good for your beer.
517
00:39:47,241 --> 00:39:49,801
Beersheba really coming on now i.
518
00:39:50,611 --> 00:39:57,317
Love with a sit down and i got my hands and shorts down real fast and then it came.
519
00:39:58,111 --> 00:39:59,911
Hi lori years and stage.
520
00:40:03,331 --> 00:40:05,671
One i got up and why don't look down on.
521
00:40:05,671 --> 00:40:07,291
There was my wallet or flow.
522
00:40:14,130 --> 00:40:14,469
Now.
523
00:40:19,209 --> 00:40:19,843
And no.
524
00:40:22,689 --> 00:40:24,339
I dipped in god and.
525
00:40:27,309 --> 00:40:30,489
He got out of as don't wash the lockdown.
526
00:40:31,299 --> 00:40:34,149
When the announcers there at the game.
527
00:40:35,049 --> 00:40:39,129
I ran around the corner found a betting window pulled one of the bills.
528
00:40:39,129 --> 00:40:42,459
Other my wallet and holler ten went on the nine or more.
529
00:40:43,539 --> 00:40:45,969
The seller picked up the bill and looked at it.
530
00:40:48,579 --> 00:40:50,379
Come on come on i say.
531
00:40:51,459 --> 00:40:53,259
It's good to get a little black.
532
00:40:59,799 --> 00:41:03,339
The seller looked at me hit the button and on hand and chicken.
533
00:41:04,719 --> 00:41:08,379
Then i went out and watch the race that my mind wars ran out.
534
00:41:12,429 --> 00:41:15,429
When i don't go to the track can't right.
535
00:41:18,729 --> 00:41:19,179
Goes on.
536
00:41:21,369 --> 00:41:26,379
Cautionary analyzer it goes away you can use of arm still can.
537
00:41:28,209 --> 00:41:29,469
Will you go to the true.
538
00:41:31,059 --> 00:41:33,969
You see many many cases or it's.
539
00:41:34,749 --> 00:41:36,549
Hundreds and hundreds of base.
540
00:41:39,459 --> 00:41:41,919
And they all have a dream they want to win.
541
00:41:44,709 --> 00:41:47,889
It's a bigger arena and you just see.
542
00:41:48,669 --> 00:41:52,269
What they are they don't get to know what happened.
543
00:41:54,948 --> 00:41:56,139
Just opens.
544
00:41:57,069 --> 00:41:58,449
Who tells me so.
545
00:42:02,529 --> 00:42:09,189
He just a few poems to that barber fry and she was ready to annoy him as the genius of the western world.
546
00:42:10,119 --> 00:42:14,799
Because she was getting tortured from all over from rebel magazine and here's something wow.
547
00:42:15,069 --> 00:42:16,419
I was like it was atomic.
548
00:42:18,489 --> 00:42:24,849
Barbara fry entered the magazine added taxes they got to writing letters in as time went on.
549
00:42:24,849 --> 00:42:27,099
They started discussion of fact that they're both alone.
550
00:42:27,999 --> 00:42:29,949
He had broken with jane at that time.
551
00:42:31,029 --> 00:42:33,639
He said i have a face like ravage lion.
552
00:42:34,029 --> 00:42:35,949
He was worried you'd see him and run the other way.
553
00:42:37,119 --> 00:42:38,889
She should i have been neck that won't turn.
554
00:42:38,949 --> 00:42:40,608
I was born with a net that won't turn.
555
00:42:40,608 --> 00:42:42,159
I so he well backs up like.
556
00:42:42,159 --> 00:42:43,599
We're both wounded lions.
557
00:42:45,159 --> 00:42:49,839
And they decided to get married and blitzes by a long distance love affair.
558
00:42:51,579 --> 00:42:56,499
So she pulls in l a and they go to las vegas to get a quick marriage.
559
00:42:57,399 --> 00:43:00,129
Basically said that she was sweet and sexy you.
560
00:43:00,129 --> 00:43:05,439
At the same time she was a rich girl or repairs really had money in texas and like a lot of people.
561
00:43:05,439 --> 00:43:08,919
I'm sure got involved with the cascade with them through his charm but then realized.
562
00:43:08,919 --> 00:43:14,229
Afterwards he was a handful and ultimately she thought that her money could control him and of course it could.
563
00:43:16,029 --> 00:43:20,739
It's all based on the battle of the sexes with because he hears the woman.
564
00:43:21,729 --> 00:43:22,569
Here's the man.
565
00:43:31,779 --> 00:43:40,989
Kids read his work and think you know how to do the old man show for a lifeguard flag because we've started publishing because que nineteen seventy two.
566
00:43:42,399 --> 00:43:49,389
And everyone was dumping only ones that are you doing publishing dirty studio man and i kept saying this man is more of an orange good.
567
00:43:49,389 --> 00:43:51,009
Any other people we publish.
568
00:43:51,789 --> 00:43:52,989
I was asking someone.
569
00:43:53,949 --> 00:43:56,649
What ford would have thought of or corners century.
570
00:43:57,699 --> 00:44:01,629
And she said there's one thing for couldn't have foreseen or destiny.
571
00:44:03,009 --> 00:44:04,119
Making everything que.
572
00:44:05,169 --> 00:44:13,179
Everything in life when i wrote something about to queue to try to justify why i was publishing him.
573
00:44:13,749 --> 00:44:19,209
I said he's devoted to the d disneyfication of all of wish.
574
00:44:19,809 --> 00:44:21,157
Someone has to kick them.
575
00:44:21,157 --> 00:44:22,749
Mickey mouse out of our hinge.
576
00:44:25,719 --> 00:44:27,309
A this five mickey mouse.
577
00:44:28,599 --> 00:44:31,239
Especially his hands i think he has three fingers.
578
00:44:32,499 --> 00:44:50,019
He could not handle the fact that the power over multi millions of human beings was in the hands of this three finger and foolish creature that taught you nothing whatsoever that expressed nothing real.
579
00:44:50,859 --> 00:44:55,959
Total absurd fucking fantasy not even good not even creative.
580
00:44:56,379 --> 00:44:58,659
He was appalled by mickey mouse.
581
00:45:00,579 --> 00:45:02,289
And i said well what about walt disney.
582
00:45:02,559 --> 00:45:04,629
He was a crazy son of a guy.
583
00:45:04,629 --> 00:45:05,530
He was eccentric.
584
00:45:05,530 --> 00:45:12,669
He was a genius he was amazing is a visionary yeah all of these ideas and he say yeah but for what ah well.
585
00:45:12,669 --> 00:45:17,379
I said to expand the imaginations and fantasies or little children yeah.
586
00:45:17,525 --> 00:45:19,629
This three finger and son of a bitches.
587
00:45:19,629 --> 00:45:22,419
This has no so for cry sake.
588
00:45:22,509 --> 00:45:25,119
Mickey mouse doesn't have a fucking sorrow.
589
00:45:36,039 --> 00:45:41,439
Dear sir is i was a regular terrier oakwood station with over three years.
590
00:45:41,439 --> 00:45:44,889
Service last april i resign from the service.
591
00:45:45,549 --> 00:45:50,589
This letter is written and hope that i may be reinstated as a substitute carrier.
592
00:45:51,069 --> 00:45:53,889
I gave my reason for resignation ill health.
593
00:45:54,279 --> 00:45:57,729
This i will state bluntly was an untruth.
594
00:45:58,269 --> 00:46:05,499
I realize now that i was in the wrong and if i had only taken a little time to cool off and be objective.
595
00:46:05,859 --> 00:46:08,229
I never would have handed in my resignation.
596
00:46:09,699 --> 00:46:13,689
I hope the previews and i can be a carrier worthy of my salt.
597
00:46:14,169 --> 00:46:14,289
Oh.
598
00:46:14,289 --> 00:46:21,159
This is hilarious the guys talking corny stuff where the of my salt the most and corny guy in the world you know.
599
00:46:21,369 --> 00:46:23,169
But i guess he figured his audience.
600
00:46:24,369 --> 00:46:38,319
I promise that should you decide in my favor that you will never regret the decision sincerely h bukovsky junior los angeles you know it really reads like somebody who grew up in the depression.
601
00:46:39,249 --> 00:46:41,469
Frankly and had been through hard times.
602
00:46:53,949 --> 00:47:00,639
Said twelve uses a post office freely about fifteen fellas as a carrier for three years.
603
00:47:03,249 --> 00:47:09,458
Stuck for twelve eleven step closer with how could a man like you use that was such a long time.
604
00:47:09,549 --> 00:47:12,399
This such a stupid you're doing this.
605
00:47:12,909 --> 00:47:14,469
All my work was stupid.
606
00:47:15,429 --> 00:47:16,479
But it was a lie.
607
00:47:18,429 --> 00:47:20,979
That how so can't sleep nights.
608
00:47:20,979 --> 00:47:21,279
I mean.
609
00:47:22,989 --> 00:47:30,219
Of course really what he was doing was getting a place that could be his little cave to write and once you get into a bureaucracy.
610
00:47:30,219 --> 00:47:31,089
Like the post office.
611
00:47:31,419 --> 00:47:35,860
It's a womb and ultimately he may have hated it but it was a regular paycheck.
612
00:47:35,860 --> 00:47:37,209
He knew he was going to retirement.
613
00:47:37,419 --> 00:47:39,609
It was the thing that he'd made work for himself.
614
00:47:39,939 --> 00:47:44,529
He never really thought in his mind that he could live off his writing.
615
00:47:51,729 --> 00:47:53,649
Yeah i was writing all during that time.
616
00:47:54,740 --> 00:47:57,309
Around nineteen sixty i started getting.
617
00:47:59,889 --> 00:48:01,509
And you are ready successful.
618
00:48:01,509 --> 00:48:02,049
It's a utter.
619
00:48:03,279 --> 00:48:05,769
Oh no successful you not to and my.
620
00:48:11,709 --> 00:48:12,669
Hello.
621
00:48:15,999 --> 00:48:19,209
Why are somewhere with the queue to.
622
00:48:22,899 --> 00:48:27,069
He was because he the low never gets lonely when he was drunk.
623
00:48:27,279 --> 00:48:34,299
He had to have some companionship and he found my letter and they have my phone number that was flying hum me.
624
00:48:34,689 --> 00:48:39,069
He was very charismatic anyway but when he was drunk it was even more songs that was like.
625
00:48:39,939 --> 00:48:43,599
Meeting an elemental forces them so of it.
626
00:48:44,589 --> 00:48:56,589
When i met him he was going to work at the post office at night and he would write every day before he went to work and so he didn't see me very often.
627
00:48:57,909 --> 00:49:01,539
The had been having unprotected sex for two or three years ever since.
628
00:49:01,539 --> 00:49:06,849
I got divorced and i do not think that i was going to get paid so when i do get nightly.
629
00:49:06,969 --> 00:49:07,689
I think.
630
00:49:08,469 --> 00:49:12,249
That it had to do with the change in my emotional.
631
00:49:13,899 --> 00:49:14,259
Oh.
632
00:49:15,489 --> 00:49:19,689
Stay because my reaction to kennedy's assassination.
633
00:49:20,559 --> 00:49:21,579
Anyway i did get.
634
00:49:22,839 --> 00:49:26,589
So i decided on just to a and could see what he wants to do so.
635
00:49:26,589 --> 00:49:32,979
He suggested right off that we get married and he was kind of taken aback lead in wanna get married.
636
00:49:33,099 --> 00:49:37,119
I really loved him but i do not ever want to get married again.
637
00:49:42,459 --> 00:49:48,999
I collect and everything and american literature melville henry james whitman faulkner scott fitzgerald.
638
00:49:50,199 --> 00:50:00,999
Then i was looking for that in post world war two writing and i found the beats ginsburg and and care whack and then one day.
639
00:50:00,999 --> 00:50:06,369
I picked up a copy of the outsider and read the casket and laws people.
640
00:50:06,369 --> 00:50:08,139
Just faded into the background.
641
00:50:10,389 --> 00:50:18,279
This is the first letter arrival the cascade and october nineteen sixty five just saying derby house gay boy you a good point.
642
00:50:18,459 --> 00:50:22,899
I was not a publisher that time and i had no idea that i would become one.
643
00:50:23,957 --> 00:50:37,424
Was managing a large office supply and office furniture and office printing company in los angeles and the print shop was under my control and after i had talked to because him saw the materially had i decided.
644
00:50:37,424 --> 00:50:40,514
I was gonna do some broadsides or because ski.
645
00:50:41,084 --> 00:50:47,594
A broadside is the most inexpensive and police difficult way to publish anything you print.
646
00:50:48,434 --> 00:50:52,604
One side of a piece of paper with usually one poll monitor one paragraph.
647
00:50:54,044 --> 00:50:58,064
Author was a heard good gear know at work all night.
648
00:50:58,094 --> 00:51:01,154
You know eleven years clerk and and i had to right.
649
00:51:02,024 --> 00:51:04,814
Get up start drinking and riding men go to work.
650
00:51:05,667 --> 00:51:08,714
Same vein get a drink and right.
651
00:51:10,124 --> 00:51:20,684
He really did suffer because first of all he was drinking too much and he the fact that he might skip a day without writing was just a care for him.
652
00:51:21,584 --> 00:51:28,664
And then in addition there was a thing they're the post office called the scheme was the he'd sit in a little plexiglass box.
653
00:51:28,664 --> 00:51:29,834
Like a telephone booth.
654
00:51:30,584 --> 00:51:36,524
They give you one hundred pieces of mail and you have to throw with a certain percentage of accuracy within a given amount of time.
655
00:51:37,574 --> 00:51:42,734
And he said he would get up from that stool and walk out and leave a puddle of sweat on the floor.
656
00:51:44,054 --> 00:51:48,194
Every six months they had to be tested you so he would study.
657
00:51:48,374 --> 00:52:02,478
He had a cheese lots and whole city up behind his desk which is that up right oh think little cubby holes he'd empty everything out of that cheese blogs and he would sit and need you have little cards with addresses on the money throw them.
658
00:52:02,478 --> 00:52:10,094
In see how does she gets older and and i was the nightmare to him to imagine that he might feel schemes.
659
00:52:10,094 --> 00:52:11,324
Illness lose his job.
660
00:52:12,685 --> 00:52:14,564
Could live my arms anymore.
661
00:52:15,764 --> 00:52:18,014
They wouldn't lift up after a night work.
662
00:52:19,664 --> 00:52:20,444
So said.
663
00:52:22,064 --> 00:52:24,674
You gotta get out of their diet go crazy.
664
00:52:26,504 --> 00:52:30,674
I was born on september seventh nineteen sixty four.
665
00:52:31,544 --> 00:52:37,694
And i just remember this little house and los angeles.
666
00:52:39,104 --> 00:52:40,364
Thanks typewriter.
667
00:52:42,164 --> 00:52:43,334
Hank work at night.
668
00:52:44,054 --> 00:52:46,394
Marina didn't sleep in the daytime.
669
00:52:46,394 --> 00:52:47,954
She didn't sleep at night either.
670
00:52:48,734 --> 00:52:52,694
I will never getting any sleep hours dreadfully unhappy and looking back.
671
00:52:52,694 --> 00:52:55,454
I will so sleep deprived that i wish.
672
00:52:55,454 --> 00:52:56,624
I was insane.
673
00:52:57,494 --> 00:53:11,894
And hey like the happy woman in the house he likes to to be singing and the kitchen and so on we we didn't really talk about this until one day he sat down and said are you going to have to get out pay your rent up to what i can afford.
674
00:53:12,884 --> 00:53:16,094
But we didn't move very far away so that he could still see marina.
675
00:53:16,514 --> 00:53:21,164
I used to take her over to his place whenever i ran out of money for food.
676
00:53:21,974 --> 00:53:24,116
And call him and say can we come over for dinner.
677
00:53:24,314 --> 00:53:24,764
We did.
678
00:53:26,054 --> 00:53:28,154
He makes stake in lima beans.
679
00:53:29,414 --> 00:53:31,064
Which i love to of course his.
680
00:53:31,094 --> 00:53:31,574
He read it.
681
00:53:33,647 --> 00:53:37,934
Remember he like to rest after he had a big meal and of horserace.
682
00:53:37,934 --> 00:53:41,024
Little wanted to play so one of the things.
683
00:53:41,024 --> 00:53:44,264
I like to play was batman and robin bullet went like this.
684
00:53:45,254 --> 00:53:47,804
You be batman were in a new kitten.
685
00:53:48,584 --> 00:53:57,614
Do things and i'll be arrive at and because he doesn't do anything if you apply of the bed and just sort of snooze alert to have the bed and batman.
686
00:53:59,954 --> 00:54:03,434
Certainly a new my father was very different than anyone else.
687
00:54:03,434 --> 00:54:04,094
His father.
688
00:54:05,264 --> 00:54:13,004
My mom was very different to open our lives or their friend and all of our friends were different so.
689
00:54:14,174 --> 00:54:19,124
Maybe maybe that led me to fill it was positive instead of feeling like.
690
00:54:19,124 --> 00:54:21,164
I wanted to fit in with.
691
00:54:22,004 --> 00:54:23,984
Something that i couldn't fit and more.
692
00:54:26,144 --> 00:54:28,334
The genius of the crowd.
693
00:54:29,924 --> 00:54:38,804
There is enough treachery hatred violence absurdity in the average human being to supply and a given army on.
694
00:54:38,804 --> 00:54:40,154
I'm a given day.
695
00:54:41,324 --> 00:54:46,694
And the best a murderer those who preach against it and the best at haider.
696
00:54:46,694 --> 00:54:53,414
Those who preached lows and the best at war finally are those who preach peace.
697
00:54:54,374 --> 00:54:59,924
Beware the average man the average woman be where there low.
698
00:55:00,734 --> 00:55:12,014
Their love is average seeks average but there is a genius in their hatred there's enough genius in their hatred to kill you to kill anybody.
699
00:55:12,944 --> 00:55:22,964
Not wanting solitude not understanding solitude they will attempt to destroy anything that differs from their own.
700
00:55:24,104 --> 00:55:28,814
Not being able to create art they will not understand art.
701
00:55:29,624 --> 00:55:35,744
They will consider their failure as creators only as a failure over the world.
702
00:55:37,154 --> 00:55:45,944
Not being able to love fully they were believe your love incomplete and then they will hate you.
703
00:55:47,204 --> 00:55:51,992
And their hatred will be perfect like a shining diamond.
704
00:55:52,784 --> 00:55:59,474
Like a knife like a mountain like a tiger like hemlock.
705
00:56:00,584 --> 00:56:02,774
Their finest art.
706
00:56:05,414 --> 00:56:10,004
On a way to about the go to heaven which currently math occupation again.
707
00:56:18,344 --> 00:56:18,704
Relax.
708
00:56:24,584 --> 00:56:24,884
The only.
709
00:56:36,254 --> 00:56:40,634
The people were working on experimental newspapers and magazines.
710
00:56:41,204 --> 00:56:43,574
We're operating out of eisenhower america.
711
00:56:44,414 --> 00:56:45,914
Cause an hour america.
712
00:56:48,344 --> 00:56:54,614
Fucking happening in our country not stand these little magazines were we started.
713
00:56:54,614 --> 00:56:59,294
We printed five hundred or that hundred thousand worse than the know circulation.
714
00:56:59,924 --> 00:57:02,084
So i decided i'd much rather.
715
00:57:02,564 --> 00:57:04,057
I took some acid in january.
716
00:57:04,094 --> 00:57:05,324
Nineteen sixty three.
717
00:57:05,954 --> 00:57:07,364
I quit my job to days later.
718
00:57:08,264 --> 00:57:14,744
Don't agree on newspapers you're promoting a new lifestyle and own new politics and america.
719
00:57:15,644 --> 00:57:17,414
When we made no attempt to the object.
720
00:57:18,344 --> 00:57:19,634
He would totally subjective.
721
00:57:20,954 --> 00:57:22,934
We said have dubbed activity was a lie.
722
00:58:23,264 --> 00:58:25,544
Before open city came into being.
723
00:58:26,984 --> 00:58:32,234
Was very well known and and little magazines we all reading but they weren't for many of us.
724
00:58:32,834 --> 00:58:35,084
I mean there might have been a couple of thousand and the whole country.
725
00:58:35,084 --> 00:58:36,584
You read these little magazines.
726
00:58:37,154 --> 00:58:46,334
So i put him on the streets in front of all the places where the hip was he hung out in hollywood and within six months.
727
00:58:46,334 --> 00:58:47,654
He was that very famous man.
728
00:58:49,364 --> 00:58:58,806
He appeared in the first issue of open city or the book review of a hemingway book and after that we're we're getting ready with the second issue as that.
729
00:58:58,806 --> 00:59:00,464
I want to lose something once a week.
730
00:59:01,274 --> 00:59:02,774
And he said what are we going to call it.
731
00:59:03,464 --> 00:59:08,744
You stand that said it was during oh man even been drinking all night as best was terrible.
732
00:59:09,104 --> 00:59:11,654
I said well you're a dirty oh man notes of the dirty oh man.
733
00:59:13,844 --> 00:59:20,504
He said he didn't like all this sippy shit who are these people and at work and know how starts a cell see.
734
00:59:20,504 --> 00:59:23,834
What life is all about their hippies.
735
00:59:24,224 --> 00:59:33,524
But he had a place where he could publish his stuff which was a pretty rare opportunity for him and so he used for him zone needs.
736
00:59:35,174 --> 00:59:42,494
The i saw somebody on a bus can know been work reading open city are working guy have a slave laughing his balls up.
737
00:59:42,494 --> 00:59:45,494
We want him because he scores and what's your favorite.
738
00:59:45,494 --> 00:59:46,065
Old lady.
739
00:59:46,065 --> 00:59:52,814
Louis way too hard work and guy coming home from work and from a factory and he's laughing at the story.
740
00:59:53,054 --> 00:59:57,486
You know that his book so was millions of people would enjoy and it.
741
01:00:08,054 --> 01:00:09,374
Well as bad.
742
01:00:10,184 --> 01:00:16,004
No many as twenty one a slimmer little apartment silver lake my dad.
743
01:00:17,534 --> 01:00:19,664
And i was reading the l a free press.
744
01:00:21,464 --> 01:00:31,784
Notes from under your man was in there are you says is remarkable is that scares them as guys the writer of the century and is being published in a in a scam.
745
01:00:32,878 --> 01:00:34,018
Rag weed same.
746
01:00:35,038 --> 01:00:46,228
Car poetic and perfect for him to be there because you felt much more like you had discovered him as well and it that he wasn't being brought to you but you had to dig and fired him.
747
01:00:48,478 --> 01:00:53,008
We had a mutual friend and he had a girl the marry him so they were having a party in the county.
748
01:00:53,008 --> 01:00:58,558
I'm going to the party and there was a guy wandering his lawn and kind of trimming the edges and i come to.
749
01:00:58,828 --> 01:01:03,058
I'm all alone here because he's as yeah come on a man bring a six pack.
750
01:01:03,898 --> 01:01:06,748
I offered yes yes yes and i said hey way.
751
01:01:08,728 --> 01:01:13,678
Oh come on let me come on for all right come on and they got to talking all of us.
752
01:01:13,678 --> 01:01:25,858
They all of us about the vietnam war how bad it was were all against the war and yeah war is bad because he says he's talking about the war he's been in and how many people eat kill.
753
01:01:26,698 --> 01:01:29,608
A bullshit get outta here l a if you don't like me.
754
01:01:29,608 --> 01:01:31,648
I said yeah lead sunday.
755
01:01:31,648 --> 01:01:32,908
The guy takes out a gun.
756
01:01:34,138 --> 01:01:38,248
And he says i was in the war and i believe in telling the enemy so.
757
01:01:38,248 --> 01:01:41,968
I had no friends around the another car disappeared away.
758
01:01:42,748 --> 01:01:44,458
I tried to edge towards the kitchen.
759
01:01:44,728 --> 01:01:46,528
I was going to go out and get help by maybe.
760
01:01:46,528 --> 01:01:57,628
I was running but i really think i was trying to a job to get help so came out by put a gun to my temple because he puts his belly and the muzzle the gun.
761
01:01:57,628 --> 01:01:59,848
He says go ahead new kill me man.
762
01:01:59,878 --> 01:02:01,588
I don't think you have the guts.
763
01:02:02,218 --> 01:02:04,798
I said a suicide care if any her.
764
01:02:08,368 --> 01:02:12,718
I've been wondering how to do this thing now use my primal couple.
765
01:02:12,718 --> 01:02:13,708
More minutes went by guess.
766
01:02:13,708 --> 01:02:15,478
I could a jolly kept looking at least.
767
01:02:16,558 --> 01:02:20,338
And you go to prom on a daily life in jail.
768
01:02:22,048 --> 01:02:26,818
Or the electric chair the guy looks up again come on man go ahead kill me.
769
01:02:27,118 --> 01:02:29,188
The guy drops the gun and starts crying.
770
01:02:29,188 --> 01:02:29,908
I didn't mean it.
771
01:02:29,938 --> 01:02:35,308
You know a screen door slammed to walk down the because he picks up the gun empties.
772
01:02:35,308 --> 01:02:37,798
It all my friends camera oh and you are.
773
01:02:37,798 --> 01:02:40,798
If yeah you guys are really great while i was younger.
774
01:02:41,068 --> 01:02:49,828
It really helped me didn't hear is standing watching you couldn't grabbed him from behind her and a while handkerchief okay.
775
01:02:50,908 --> 01:02:51,808
The hero a what.
776
01:02:51,838 --> 01:02:53,608
I think he just did cite the guy out.
777
01:02:54,658 --> 01:02:55,528
I loved it.
778
01:02:57,388 --> 01:03:00,298
But i was really ready to go wouldn't have been a big fan.
779
01:03:06,598 --> 01:03:10,378
John martin could see john morton could feel the public out there.
780
01:03:11,608 --> 01:03:30,778
After a certain number of books john martin started to realize that there was going to be an audience for this writer and that because needed to focus himself full time and because he was very resistant to that if i go out there and lose my tenure at the post office and lose my gig in my ability to support myself and we fail were why go.
781
01:03:33,336 --> 01:03:39,568
See this man came on steam whole staff john he should stay.
782
01:03:40,408 --> 01:03:41,098
Blacksburg.
783
01:03:43,948 --> 01:03:45,058
He came by.
784
01:03:46,108 --> 01:03:46,828
One night.
785
01:03:47,698 --> 01:03:51,568
We sat down in his little dingy room and got out a piece of paper.
786
01:03:52,768 --> 01:03:55,498
And we figured out what it cost him to live.
787
01:03:56,608 --> 01:04:01,588
And he was putting down these amounts like three dollars and fifty cents a month for cigarettes.
788
01:04:02,458 --> 01:04:08,938
And nineteen dollars for food don't remember this isn't a mid sixties rent was eighty bucks.
789
01:04:09,118 --> 01:04:17,008
Child support was fifteen and we came up with a hundred dollar is and i think you could really get along on one hundred dollars a month we said yes so.
790
01:04:17,008 --> 01:04:17,938
I said okay.
791
01:04:18,088 --> 01:04:20,728
I'll give you twenty five percent of my income for life.
792
01:04:20,788 --> 01:04:26,098
Whether this works or not but you've gotta quit and right for time very reckless.
793
01:04:26,278 --> 01:04:27,418
I didn't tell my wife.
794
01:04:29,758 --> 01:04:34,048
Give you a hundred dollars a month enough to liberia right anything on now.
795
01:04:34,828 --> 01:04:35,968
That's pretty good.
796
01:04:39,919 --> 01:04:43,419
It gets the rack and may not have the charge that against.
797
01:04:44,908 --> 01:04:46,738
So that gave me some money.
798
01:04:48,825 --> 01:04:51,298
Didn't you feel kind of odd like casting your favorite.
799
01:04:51,298 --> 01:04:56,728
This guy this hard drinking kind of wild man now because that was all overridden.
800
01:04:57,658 --> 01:05:01,348
By the fact of who he really was not played distorted part of him.
801
01:05:02,338 --> 01:05:08,368
But what when he really stood for and and am and what made him important i mean i the first time i read him.
802
01:05:08,368 --> 01:05:09,148
I said my god.
803
01:05:09,238 --> 01:05:10,708
This is today's whitman.
804
01:05:11,548 --> 01:05:14,668
This is the man of the street writing for the people in the street.
805
01:05:15,898 --> 01:05:21,748
And when you get an opportunity where whether you're a banker aura or hold up man.
806
01:05:22,648 --> 01:05:26,224
You go for it and there was built our ski in california.
807
01:05:26,224 --> 01:05:30,658
Have this guy will commit his future work to me that will start me off.
808
01:05:34,138 --> 01:05:37,258
I said the him with the end of and nineteen sixty nine.
809
01:05:37,438 --> 01:05:40,078
I know you're a poet and that's what i'm planning the publishing.
810
01:05:40,078 --> 01:05:42,988
That's why i'm starting black sparrow press to publish your poetry.
811
01:05:43,648 --> 01:05:50,248
But if you've ever could write a novel that would be really great because novel so a lot better than books of poetry.
812
01:05:51,058 --> 01:05:52,828
But no rethinking that he could or would.
813
01:05:53,818 --> 01:05:59,848
So he started work for me one hundred dollars a month on january second nineteen seventy.
814
01:06:01,078 --> 01:06:06,388
And he call me around the twenty fifth of january and said in kind of a milky way come and pick.
815
01:06:06,388 --> 01:06:06,748
It up.
816
01:06:08,248 --> 01:06:10,168
I should will pick up what he said my novel.
817
01:06:10,168 --> 01:06:17,278
He said the write a novel and i said how how could you write a novel in three or four weeks and he said fear.
818
01:06:18,988 --> 01:06:22,288
Murkowski hated those pastoral beginnings.
819
01:06:22,648 --> 01:06:28,078
It was a beautiful land rugged that were snow capped mountains in the distance and tom.
820
01:06:28,078 --> 01:06:42,478
Haney came along and his old jalopy you know that that all my god because he would say why why do they start with crap like that that isn't real and so how does post office begin.
821
01:06:43,018 --> 01:06:50,640
What is the first line it began as a mistake and what a great opening than than a reader things well what began as a mistake my life.
822
01:06:50,640 --> 01:06:54,808
We have has a postal worker for twelve years and here's the story.
823
01:06:55,468 --> 01:07:00,298
What did he finally do for all the pain for all the trouble of working.
824
01:07:00,298 --> 01:07:00,628
There.
825
01:07:00,718 --> 01:07:02,398
He brings us a humorous novel.
826
01:07:03,838 --> 01:07:06,328
My name was dumb noodle right.
827
01:07:07,468 --> 01:07:12,088
He changes it to tom which is legitimate moto which is japanese.
828
01:07:12,088 --> 01:07:14,848
I mean didn't they didn't even realize it stuff.
829
01:07:17,938 --> 01:07:23,668
No slur against the japanese it's and so you know it's a wonderful name either way but.
830
01:07:24,538 --> 01:07:26,068
Where's his creativity.
831
01:07:26,938 --> 01:07:28,798
He could have call me graziano.
832
01:07:28,798 --> 01:07:30,298
A sudden you know oh.
833
01:07:32,428 --> 01:07:33,568
Was the book accurate.
834
01:07:34,378 --> 01:07:35,428
The book was accurate.
835
01:07:36,718 --> 01:07:40,828
Yeah my dad's fella time in the bars so i was drawn to.
836
01:07:42,718 --> 01:07:48,448
I that dark places my dad drag in the afternoon really dark bars.
837
01:07:50,188 --> 01:07:50,968
And.
838
01:07:51,898 --> 01:08:02,638
So i guess that's how it began and course courses much more than that but by the place that i didn't do unless the back that he was home seem to be a writer.
839
01:08:02,638 --> 01:08:05,608
The common people in street people in.
840
01:08:06,568 --> 01:08:11,008
Looking in the corners of the dark corners where no one seems want to go for it.
841
01:08:11,008 --> 01:08:13,018
We are right about anime.
842
01:08:14,188 --> 01:08:14,818
So.
843
01:08:15,658 --> 01:08:20,248
Yeah seem like the he was the writer for the dispossessed and.
844
01:08:21,988 --> 01:08:23,368
People in our voice.
845
01:08:25,438 --> 01:08:30,868
I saw that collection to reverse of california santa barbara for fifty thousand dollars.
846
01:08:31,198 --> 01:08:32,578
There were all first editions.
847
01:08:32,848 --> 01:08:38,480
This is back in the mid sixties and fifty thousand dollars was fifty thousand dollars and that's what i started.
848
01:08:39,238 --> 01:08:45,178
And by that after about two years three years because i wasn't working and those other income.
849
01:08:45,388 --> 01:08:47,128
I got down to five hundred dollars.
850
01:08:48,208 --> 01:08:49,558
Well it's back to work.
851
01:08:50,338 --> 01:08:54,920
This has been a great run but it's over and then that week for the first time.
852
01:08:54,928 --> 01:08:56,458
More money came out.
853
01:08:57,928 --> 01:09:00,328
And at that point because can i run away.
854
01:09:19,978 --> 01:09:27,748
Anybody feeling the ups and downs in a capitalist society you're good at reading about a guy was actually preaching.
855
01:09:28,798 --> 01:09:30,358
A refusal to work.
856
01:09:31,168 --> 01:09:41,188
What factotum creatures his a refusal to work not boot up integration of the protestant work ethic but you know the fundamental wrongness of it.
857
01:09:41,188 --> 01:09:46,708
All incredible wave of a life dictated by august.
858
01:09:49,408 --> 01:09:49,978
The magic.
859
01:09:51,868 --> 01:09:52,858
Sarge right one.
860
01:09:55,168 --> 01:09:56,488
Let the king at a party.
861
01:09:57,497 --> 01:09:59,428
And she invited me and i do.
862
01:10:00,268 --> 01:10:05,488
On because he didn't invite me let a cage ferociously flirting with every man.
863
01:10:05,488 --> 01:10:08,998
They're laid off work out so it so at the end of the party.
864
01:10:08,998 --> 01:10:09,748
There's like eight or nine.
865
01:10:09,748 --> 01:10:10,918
People left early.
866
01:10:11,788 --> 01:10:15,538
I'm to the door get out of worries use up the door later.
867
01:10:15,538 --> 01:10:16,694
I was any just started.
868
01:10:16,708 --> 01:10:19,866
This rage is about six what violence.
869
01:10:19,866 --> 01:10:20,947
It's what i watch it.
870
01:10:20,947 --> 01:10:25,108
I just i didn't understand a word volcano erupting.
871
01:10:25,948 --> 01:10:28,978
Global done stuck in place and started.
872
01:10:29,068 --> 01:10:29,578
I'm look out.
873
01:10:30,418 --> 01:10:34,708
It started to reduce reduced in size and high proportion.
874
01:10:35,482 --> 01:10:37,492
That's where we got a shot.
875
01:10:37,492 --> 01:10:38,242
I believe in god.
876
01:10:38,332 --> 01:10:40,522
I sort of guy is to have feet tall.
877
01:10:41,782 --> 01:10:48,592
As as i see by hand now though i saw him to and i just didn't well anyone to get big again.
878
01:10:48,592 --> 01:10:50,872
So i turned around and went by out the front door.
879
01:10:52,852 --> 01:10:56,452
I was with my girlfriend and she had her foot up there.
880
01:10:57,772 --> 01:11:02,032
I was going in circles on the street stopping starting.
881
01:11:02,992 --> 01:11:03,802
Standing.
882
01:11:04,582 --> 01:11:09,292
Her heal them that one briefing herself she thought we were going to die.
883
01:11:10,822 --> 01:11:11,272
With it.
884
01:11:12,202 --> 01:11:14,212
The nice design like it.
885
01:11:16,396 --> 01:11:18,172
Cars beginning to look like me.
886
01:11:19,492 --> 01:11:22,492
You know i used to send and girls too ugly.
887
01:11:23,262 --> 01:11:23,602
Women.
888
01:11:24,652 --> 01:11:26,812
Women are very strong.
889
01:11:28,222 --> 01:11:34,012
If you and something good to the room you know like you're feeling.
890
01:11:35,332 --> 01:11:40,822
Women are strong and they don't care if you have one arm.
891
01:11:41,722 --> 01:11:47,122
Or five fingers missing or your nose blown off if you just.
892
01:11:48,352 --> 01:11:49,102
No such luck.
893
01:11:51,052 --> 01:11:53,302
Women was the book that hank was writing.
894
01:11:54,562 --> 01:11:58,702
When i met him yes as matter fact because he was doing.
895
01:11:59,572 --> 01:12:00,742
What he called research.
896
01:12:02,302 --> 01:12:11,722
And it started out with a woman who he had been with for a long time linda king and he was sort of breaking up with her when he got a little bit of notoriety.
897
01:12:12,682 --> 01:12:18,052
Women started coming to him and he had the opportunity to sort of take his pick.
898
01:12:18,052 --> 01:12:30,292
I'm just sort of have experiences and it like a charm almost he was discovering this whole world of women in a way that he hadn't and then he was involved with this other one named cupcake so brian.
899
01:12:32,272 --> 01:12:34,102
I thought of him more as a friend.
900
01:12:34,102 --> 01:12:36,652
He was to me more of a father figure.
901
01:12:37,582 --> 01:12:41,182
I didn't take a relationship that seriously.
902
01:12:41,182 --> 01:12:42,832
I can't say that i ever.
903
01:12:43,672 --> 01:12:44,782
Was in love with.
904
01:12:47,662 --> 01:12:51,052
The sing we occasionally the song and winter and to this day.
905
01:12:51,052 --> 01:12:52,342
I don't know that i've ever heard that.
906
01:12:52,342 --> 01:12:53,812
I don't know if it's a real started.
907
01:12:53,812 --> 01:12:55,912
Other that was part of the just made up.
908
01:12:57,202 --> 01:12:58,012
Go something like.
909
01:12:59,362 --> 01:13:00,262
Me too.
910
01:13:01,462 --> 01:13:04,252
Why must you be so mean to me.
911
01:13:04,762 --> 01:13:13,402
I mean to me hello when you leave me new.
912
01:13:13,582 --> 01:13:15,939
This is before my time ha.
913
01:13:17,152 --> 01:13:18,112
You the me.
914
01:13:19,972 --> 01:13:23,602
So yeah he was crazy about her and she had him.
915
01:13:24,472 --> 01:13:29,392
At her beck and call in other words she didn't care she could go on for we weekend.
916
01:13:29,392 --> 01:13:32,902
I didn't think about him and he would just agonize a whole week.
917
01:13:33,562 --> 01:13:37,522
You know that one tom but the confused all man driving around in the rain.
918
01:13:43,732 --> 01:13:44,152
Oh no.
919
01:13:52,282 --> 01:13:52,582
Right.
920
01:13:53,842 --> 01:13:54,382
Go ahead.
921
01:13:56,572 --> 01:14:01,762
Yeah you're right now she she'll be mad for a week.
922
01:14:03,262 --> 01:14:04,102
Why are you use.
923
01:14:11,452 --> 01:14:12,112
To me.
924
01:14:14,242 --> 01:14:16,282
Why must you be.
925
01:14:21,472 --> 01:14:25,132
Honey it seems to me.
926
01:14:26,242 --> 01:14:27,532
You does.
927
01:14:28,942 --> 01:14:29,902
Me cry.
928
01:14:36,202 --> 01:14:36,982
Nice day.
929
01:14:39,442 --> 01:14:41,032
When i when use.
930
01:14:42,112 --> 01:14:42,382
You.
931
01:14:45,652 --> 01:14:46,582
Don't.
932
01:14:48,472 --> 01:14:49,342
The law.
933
01:14:54,172 --> 01:14:56,962
Cry eye member was going over to his place.
934
01:14:56,962 --> 01:14:57,802
On current way.
935
01:14:57,802 --> 01:15:03,142
In there was a beat up or couch on the porch and front and here's these two absolutely.
936
01:15:04,582 --> 01:15:09,712
Untouched beautiful blonde dutch girls waiting for him to come home.
937
01:15:10,852 --> 01:15:11,272
And.
938
01:15:12,202 --> 01:15:13,222
He wanted to know where he was.
939
01:15:13,222 --> 01:15:13,492
I so.
940
01:15:13,492 --> 01:15:16,492
I guess is a to track but i'm meeting him at five o'clock.
941
01:15:17,332 --> 01:15:22,972
And this is all we want to see because i said well what do you assume for should all the fuck him.
942
01:15:23,932 --> 01:15:30,202
While reading your book women are good impression that for your woman is nothing more than and behind that a pair of tennis.
943
01:15:30,982 --> 01:15:33,832
Oh come on you read it and that's all you got.
944
01:15:35,032 --> 01:15:37,293
You didn't even get the prior to our ike.
945
01:15:37,293 --> 01:15:39,772
I cried in bed because.
946
01:15:40,912 --> 01:15:43,972
Tears came to my face because i am i invited.
947
01:15:44,962 --> 01:15:47,566
To him and to have thanksgiving with me.
948
01:15:47,627 --> 01:15:49,852
I didn't know which one to go to.
949
01:15:52,372 --> 01:15:55,282
I'm a know their many moments in there were.
950
01:15:55,942 --> 01:15:59,722
I look like a complete asshole and i fell like on.
951
01:16:01,882 --> 01:16:04,522
No no i will watch isn't that just wasn't.
952
01:16:05,392 --> 01:16:11,962
Jumping into bed and fucking and jumping out of and i'm sorry for would be nice for me to say that and ten.
953
01:16:11,962 --> 01:16:12,982
I'm a tough guy.
954
01:16:13,312 --> 01:16:14,137
But i'm not that.
955
01:16:15,382 --> 01:16:20,032
But in your stories love is always a synonym for sexual intercourse.
956
01:16:22,072 --> 01:16:25,162
Or do you have to learn where do you get this crap buried.
957
01:16:27,922 --> 01:16:29,662
Love as a dog from hell.
958
01:16:32,002 --> 01:16:35,872
Saw it has it's own egg and it's said bring the tone agonies where the.
959
01:16:38,122 --> 01:16:41,482
But i mean i don't know where you get your concepts from man.
960
01:16:43,252 --> 01:16:44,332
He really fucked the.
961
01:16:45,532 --> 01:16:49,192
You know i remember that there was a moment over here.
962
01:16:49,192 --> 01:16:51,799
I talked about it in the sense.
963
01:16:51,802 --> 01:16:54,592
It the accusations of massage any.
964
01:16:56,872 --> 01:17:01,432
The he said it was a simple you have a reddit knows the percentage basis.
965
01:17:02,452 --> 01:17:06,022
I am i treat man worse every time.
966
01:17:06,982 --> 01:17:15,562
Okay in it and and in essence he does it is so so much as autobiographical and it's about making mistakes and a messy world.
967
01:17:18,502 --> 01:17:20,059
Tom this is clogged.
968
01:17:22,732 --> 01:17:23,632
The shower.
969
01:17:25,312 --> 01:17:30,472
We like to shower afterwards i left the water hotter than she.
970
01:17:31,402 --> 01:17:34,282
Interface is all with soft and peaceful.
971
01:17:35,062 --> 01:17:44,452
And she'll watch me first spread the so over my balls lift the ball squeeze them been washed the car hey.
972
01:17:44,452 --> 01:17:46,102
This thing is still her.
973
01:17:48,022 --> 01:17:50,782
Then get all that hair down there for ballet.
974
01:17:50,782 --> 01:17:52,882
The back that neck the leg.
975
01:17:53,782 --> 01:17:58,102
I grin grin graham and then i wash her.
976
01:17:59,002 --> 01:18:13,882
Another kiss and she gets out first towel and sometimes singing the last day and turn the water on hotter feeling the good times of loves america when the you brought it to me.
977
01:18:15,622 --> 01:18:16,012
Sir.
978
01:18:21,802 --> 01:18:30,082
When you take it away two it slowly and easily.
979
01:18:33,562 --> 01:18:39,712
Make it as if i were dying in my sleep instead of in my life.
980
01:18:39,802 --> 01:18:44,392
A man say i'm getting this way sound and my mom.
981
01:18:45,802 --> 01:18:47,122
Ship sorry.
982
01:18:49,612 --> 01:18:51,832
That's the one i split with.
983
01:18:52,762 --> 01:18:53,152
Try.
984
01:18:54,532 --> 01:19:05,692
It's not a very good reading in a blender when i to their own pong shit.
985
01:19:09,052 --> 01:19:11,452
Getting softer and softer can.
986
01:19:14,932 --> 01:19:21,052
And during that time i met him at a poetry reading in l a it's a true.
987
01:19:21,052 --> 01:19:21,532
The door.
988
01:19:22,492 --> 01:19:32,272
But he was still doing all this research with women so i had no intention of becoming a girlfriend or anything so you just sort of dissolved friendship and i was somebody.
989
01:19:32,272 --> 01:19:41,848
Hit always call on the phone and did talk to me about all these other women and then it just got more and more involved in the women came in and out went smooth.
990
01:19:41,848 --> 01:19:43,102
His life and finally.
991
01:19:43,972 --> 01:19:44,482
He.
992
01:19:45,322 --> 01:19:46,942
This research was complete.
993
01:19:49,132 --> 01:19:50,332
I ended up the air.
994
01:19:51,862 --> 01:19:53,542
Iran gone are the them.
995
01:19:54,982 --> 01:19:59,799
He did a beautiful painting for this we reproduce and is still on the cover.
996
01:19:59,962 --> 01:20:01,852
Spoke isn't about a third printing.
997
01:20:03,742 --> 01:20:05,482
And then the used to send me these.
998
01:20:07,372 --> 01:20:10,162
Letters that women would ride him who got a book.
999
01:20:10,312 --> 01:20:11,872
He received a torrent of male.
1000
01:20:11,932 --> 01:20:19,822
I mean hundreds of these letters are begging to meet him and offering him all kinds of of delightful experiences and here's one.
1001
01:20:20,932 --> 01:20:24,412
This woman has decided to take off all her clothes and lane and tub.
1002
01:20:25,192 --> 01:20:30,772
Can read women she would very much like to meet him so she was trying to make a connection there.
1003
01:20:32,512 --> 01:20:34,252
When i started coming around.
1004
01:20:35,032 --> 01:20:36,142
I'm going to catch.
1005
01:20:38,017 --> 01:20:39,247
That i haven't had.
1006
01:20:40,777 --> 01:20:44,227
One that i was in bed with six different women in a row.
1007
01:20:46,057 --> 01:20:46,327
Bill.
1008
01:20:48,516 --> 01:20:49,387
It must be some.
1009
01:20:50,527 --> 01:20:52,057
But i would go.
1010
01:20:52,927 --> 01:20:53,437
Actress.
1011
01:20:54,517 --> 01:20:55,087
Your turn now.
1012
01:20:58,927 --> 01:21:01,057
If go to shame that would i was doing.
1013
01:21:03,037 --> 01:21:03,247
A good.
1014
01:21:08,197 --> 01:21:08,767
Be safe.
1015
01:21:09,667 --> 01:21:11,467
Bird a member or here.
1016
01:21:16,186 --> 01:21:16,687
Cash.
1017
01:21:19,147 --> 01:21:19,627
Bad.
1018
01:21:21,097 --> 01:21:22,987
Much germany.
1019
01:21:24,487 --> 01:21:25,717
And is bad news.
1020
01:21:26,287 --> 01:21:27,787
This reminds me.
1021
01:21:28,927 --> 01:21:33,547
You know what kind of hesitant not really iron cross my until today.
1022
01:21:37,837 --> 01:21:47,887
He had published still fragments in magazines in and in the chat books about as your the lies and i really wanted him to write a novel about his life.
1023
01:21:47,887 --> 01:21:51,877
From time he was born basically until he graduated from high school.
1024
01:21:52,447 --> 01:21:58,117
What about this book that the right now the book on childhood three quarters earnest.
1025
01:21:59,887 --> 01:22:01,297
It's a horror story.
1026
01:22:05,557 --> 01:22:07,507
Been harder to write than the others.
1027
01:22:09,326 --> 01:22:16,041
I've tried to put in some lightness and some humor so we won't really feel.
1028
01:22:16,057 --> 01:22:24,127
Yoder grimness my child when he finally got to the point where he could write about his childhood.
1029
01:22:24,487 --> 01:22:27,457
I think that was less cathartic experience for him.
1030
01:22:27,487 --> 01:22:44,287
I am it was a struggle for him to write it and it took many years for him to even get to that point to be able to get get back in there and read relive it sunlight by typing it out and remembering sir and terrible things and but i think by doing that it really.
1031
01:22:46,057 --> 01:22:52,177
It it relinquished him from a lot of of those terrorists and is terrible experiences.
1032
01:22:54,007 --> 01:22:59,197
Because keys grandfather came from germany and somehow ended up in pasadena.
1033
01:22:59,197 --> 01:23:01,747
California were apparently he was a building contractor.
1034
01:23:02,017 --> 01:23:09,907
They had several children one of whom were courses henry bukovsky senior who was a doughboy and went back to germany as an american soldier.
1035
01:23:10,687 --> 01:23:35,887
And in the little town of honor not on rhine met because skis mother they get together and hank is conceived and born and they say and honour not for a couple years then come to the u s it back to los angeles and because his father was a melt delivery man for a while had a lot of odd jobs didn't have a lot of money but they had a pretty nice place on longwood avenue.
1036
01:23:35,887 --> 01:23:38,077
Finally at least by the depression years.
1037
01:23:39,007 --> 01:23:43,027
He's twenty one twenty two.
1038
01:23:43,807 --> 01:23:52,147
Would have a new the house of horrors the house of agony the house where i was almost or man.
1039
01:23:52,927 --> 01:23:53,737
But not quite.
1040
01:23:54,607 --> 01:23:55,147
Doctor.
1041
01:23:59,677 --> 01:24:02,287
Come on that i manicure.
1042
01:24:03,757 --> 01:24:04,807
More both way.
1043
01:24:05,647 --> 01:24:07,297
This way for them with.
1044
01:24:09,007 --> 01:24:11,677
I'm a had to get all the hair with a few.
1045
01:24:13,747 --> 01:24:16,177
If i missed one hair i got a beating.
1046
01:24:17,137 --> 01:24:17,797
One hair.
1047
01:24:19,747 --> 01:24:21,847
It's very hard not to miss one hair.
1048
01:24:22,807 --> 01:24:25,897
Try it sometime i always got a it.
1049
01:24:26,527 --> 01:24:28,447
The oh man a raises strong.
1050
01:24:29,456 --> 01:24:31,987
Used to hang here and you just think ago.
1051
01:24:34,537 --> 01:24:38,737
Trump campaign's new sure it's understandable here.
1052
01:24:40,567 --> 01:24:41,617
He will begin.
1053
01:24:44,767 --> 01:24:47,527
An animal i'm a new and she's a good movie.
1054
01:24:49,927 --> 01:24:52,807
Hey to twelve full team.
1055
01:24:53,647 --> 01:24:59,077
Cause you can help screaming specially when you six years old seven years old.
1056
01:25:00,397 --> 01:25:05,707
As a good the room to be about ten or eleven and twelve scream last and.
1057
01:25:07,837 --> 01:25:10,867
Last beating and guy didn't scream and all and his.
1058
01:25:12,757 --> 01:25:13,987
Didn't make to sign.
1059
01:25:15,937 --> 01:25:20,737
And i guess so terrorized because i was a last one.
1060
01:25:20,737 --> 01:25:21,967
I didn't make the same.
1061
01:25:23,047 --> 01:25:27,697
No no it's just terrible place to stay in town combine.
1062
01:25:29,947 --> 01:25:31,897
You know and love the moment too much.
1063
01:25:34,837 --> 01:25:36,247
He was cruel man.
1064
01:25:37,477 --> 01:25:39,773
He made mean beat me to watch a lot.
1065
01:25:40,897 --> 01:25:46,327
She she was german on her expression ross while he was beating me.
1066
01:25:47,227 --> 01:25:49,657
Your father is always right.
1067
01:25:51,457 --> 01:25:52,807
A charm charlie was too.
1068
01:25:54,877 --> 01:26:01,057
I guess he was right now and then on our figure about eighty six percent of the time he was wrong as hell.
1069
01:26:02,677 --> 01:26:08,617
Hanks father's values will probably normal american values just doesn't evil about him at that level.
1070
01:26:08,617 --> 01:26:10,057
Beating a child is evil.
1071
01:26:10,117 --> 01:26:12,997
There's the evil part on the other hand that was a tradition.
1072
01:26:12,997 --> 01:26:16,177
People did it all through the centuries feel back the leviticus.
1073
01:26:16,177 --> 01:26:20,137
If your son speaks against you you're able to kill him.
1074
01:26:20,227 --> 01:26:22,327
So we come a long way since jill.
1075
01:26:22,627 --> 01:26:26,587
It's not like can we because he was alone in the beating of the sun.
1076
01:26:27,547 --> 01:26:28,388
He was an asshole.
1077
01:26:28,388 --> 01:26:31,297
He was a coward and has blood is in my blog.
1078
01:26:31,777 --> 01:26:33,697
Sometimes i feel it have meant to me you know.
1079
01:26:33,697 --> 01:26:35,197
I'm argued with a woman or something.
1080
01:26:35,197 --> 01:26:39,397
I feel kind of shitty and crappy and i'm not quite josh.
1081
01:26:40,567 --> 01:26:43,417
And sometimes i got my father's blood and may.
1082
01:26:44,197 --> 01:26:46,207
A chicken shit blood on afternoon.
1083
01:26:46,987 --> 01:26:48,187
That's a bad nine.
1084
01:26:49,597 --> 01:26:58,657
This is a picture of hey from his high school graduation and this is the picture that been touched up as you can see.
1085
01:26:59,137 --> 01:27:02,827
His face was really quite marked.
1086
01:27:02,857 --> 01:27:08,197
It was very noticeable the he wasn't interested in have his picture taken.
1087
01:27:08,197 --> 01:27:12,517
He made sure that he was never in any of the pictures that the kids took.
1088
01:27:14,227 --> 01:27:16,177
We all know what acne is for acne.
1089
01:27:16,177 --> 01:27:25,267
Vulgaris is sort of an exaggerated form of that ailment at he had to go all the way across town to a doctor.
1090
01:27:25,357 --> 01:27:30,187
They would stick needles into all of these horrible huge.
1091
01:27:30,187 --> 01:27:34,777
Pus filled things on his face and on his neck all over his back.
1092
01:27:35,107 --> 01:27:36,607
His arms chest.
1093
01:27:37,897 --> 01:27:47,257
It's fine lame manifest physically when your foot down like that continually over years and years physically emotionally mentally in every way.
1094
01:27:50,257 --> 01:27:56,017
You know that wonderful chapter in i am on rye where he standing outside his senior prom.
1095
01:27:57,337 --> 01:28:11,287
To disfigured the go in in the too ashamed to go in and he had wrapped toilet paper around his head and then punched guy holes in the bleeding acne had come was starting to come through the toilet paper.
1096
01:28:11,737 --> 01:28:14,047
They just stood there and watched all the other children.
1097
01:28:14,917 --> 01:28:19,147
Graduating from high school having a wonderful time but he stood out there in the dark.
1098
01:28:20,047 --> 01:28:24,517
What's on some fucking bus with a girlfriend.
1099
01:28:26,257 --> 01:28:28,177
And here came and guy.
1100
01:28:29,197 --> 01:28:35,497
Walking toward us slogan for a back seat he is were deeper than mine.
1101
01:28:36,577 --> 01:28:41,947
And the to know something i was jealous charles yeah.
1102
01:28:43,177 --> 01:28:46,087
I said joseph faceted you see him.
1103
01:28:46,777 --> 01:28:48,157
She said yes there.
1104
01:28:49,897 --> 01:28:55,477
I said or shit what a beautiful man a while.
1105
01:28:57,337 --> 01:29:02,407
Hank actually stayed with his parents quite a long time for a guy who was brutalized.
1106
01:29:02,707 --> 01:29:09,817
I have some photos and nineteen forty four and there's bukovsky with his mother and father in the backyard of the house on longwood.
1107
01:29:09,957 --> 01:29:16,207
The three of them are standing together getting a photo so he may have hated them and a certain way but he always return to the nest.
1108
01:29:16,207 --> 01:29:16,357
It's.
1109
01:29:24,247 --> 01:29:25,657
I'm such a long way to the alone.
1110
01:29:26,527 --> 01:29:29,227
Cause other longer if you so that making it.
1111
01:29:30,127 --> 01:29:31,147
And all that.
1112
01:29:32,377 --> 01:29:34,627
This is the best laundry in town on song.
1113
01:29:39,307 --> 01:29:43,837
Too much too little too fat to feed.
1114
01:29:44,767 --> 01:29:45,517
Or nobody.
1115
01:29:46,477 --> 01:29:55,927
Strangers with faces like the backs of thumb tacks armies running through streets of blood waiting wine bottles and any fucking virgins.
1116
01:29:56,857 --> 01:29:56,960
Oh.
1117
01:29:56,960 --> 01:29:58,837
I know guy in a cheap room.
1118
01:29:59,454 --> 01:30:00,347
The photograph.
1119
01:30:03,037 --> 01:30:09,967
There is a loneliness in this world so great that you can see it in the slow moving the hands of clock.
1120
01:30:10,807 --> 01:30:13,027
People so tired mutilated.
1121
01:30:13,837 --> 01:30:21,007
Either by love of by know love people are just not good to each other one on one the rich and i'm good to the rich.
1122
01:30:21,337 --> 01:30:24,337
The poor not good to the poor were afraid.
1123
01:30:24,937 --> 01:30:29,497
Our educational system tells us that we can all be big ass winners.
1124
01:30:30,217 --> 01:30:37,597
He doesn't told us about the gutters of the suicides or the terror of one person aching in one place alone.
1125
01:30:38,731 --> 01:30:46,381
The beads will swing clouds will clad and the killer will be had a child like taking a bite out of an ice cream cone.
1126
01:30:47,341 --> 01:30:48,091
Too much.
1127
01:30:48,901 --> 01:30:52,411
Too little too fat too thin.
1128
01:30:53,491 --> 01:30:54,211
Or nobody.
1129
01:30:55,561 --> 01:31:00,991
More haters than lovers people are not good to each other perhaps if they were.
1130
01:31:00,991 --> 01:31:03,061
I'd deaths would not be so sad.
1131
01:31:04,051 --> 01:31:08,521
Meanwhile i look at young girls stems flowers of chance.
1132
01:31:09,121 --> 01:31:11,191
There must be away surely.
1133
01:31:11,191 --> 01:31:13,441
There must be a way we've not yet thought of.
1134
01:31:14,371 --> 01:31:21,871
For this brain inside of me and cries it demands it says there is a chance it will not say no.
1135
01:31:44,071 --> 01:31:46,921
Is linda the second linda came into his life.
1136
01:31:47,281 --> 01:31:52,201
She hung in there and he knew that she really cared about him and she was there to stay.
1137
01:31:52,381 --> 01:31:55,078
She could hold her own with with a lot of rakowski.
1138
01:31:55,771 --> 01:31:59,101
You know wild friends but ultimately she had a certain focus on.
1139
01:31:59,101 --> 01:32:00,901
I give her a lot of credit for saving his life.
1140
01:32:00,901 --> 01:32:03,451
I'm in a certain point in or she got him out of east hollywood.
1141
01:32:03,811 --> 01:32:05,791
They bought a place down in san pedro.
1142
01:32:06,331 --> 01:32:08,011
It's a great part of los angeles.
1143
01:32:08,011 --> 01:32:12,391
Not many people really know about and you know probably out and about ten years to because his life.
1144
01:32:13,651 --> 01:32:16,501
Basically it allowed him a different part of his life.
1145
01:32:16,561 --> 01:32:19,651
He continue to write and he continued to get more and more famous.
1146
01:32:21,361 --> 01:32:28,441
He rode through and as she became more popular image him more successful at the same famous really.
1147
01:32:28,591 --> 01:32:34,715
He wrote about that so he took ya away from slaughterhouses to san pedro and energies.
1148
01:32:34,715 --> 01:32:36,871
He's a nice houses.
1149
01:32:37,741 --> 01:32:39,339
You know neighbors who play golf.
1150
01:32:40,501 --> 01:32:41,671
Nice cars and.
1151
01:32:42,991 --> 01:32:45,541
So he he he took a you are you.
1152
01:32:46,381 --> 01:32:50,371
Let you go with my journey which.
1153
01:32:51,511 --> 01:32:53,886
It's really great for me and have some.
1154
01:32:53,889 --> 01:32:55,081
I looked up to her.
1155
01:32:56,641 --> 01:32:57,451
Take you were.
1156
01:32:58,261 --> 01:32:59,341
Gonna pass her.
1157
01:33:00,991 --> 01:33:19,351
Barb a shoulder didn't have enough money to make barfly the film yet and so he decided to get some professional people and do a documentary on hank sort of interviewing him over a period of several months coming over here on weekends for hours after hour.
1158
01:33:19,351 --> 01:33:32,221
After hour and sitting inside and outside and one night he was interviewing hank and it have been a long day and hang out three or four five or six bottles of wine and is getting a little belligerent.
1159
01:33:33,331 --> 01:33:36,391
I've always been used some a good guy.
1160
01:33:38,191 --> 01:33:40,201
A woman when they may mean they say.
1161
01:33:41,611 --> 01:33:45,961
Immune system better for some around is easy going guy.
1162
01:33:46,891 --> 01:33:47,731
So i do.
1163
01:33:50,011 --> 01:33:52,051
You know fun and get to resign and a appear.
1164
01:33:52,861 --> 01:33:53,551
What he was him.
1165
01:33:55,591 --> 01:33:56,881
Just being punished.
1166
01:33:57,691 --> 01:33:58,051
Bush.
1167
01:34:01,471 --> 01:34:01,741
Him.
1168
01:34:06,031 --> 01:34:11,521
Jones span why do you let yourself be pushed by this kind of shit in any idiot.
1169
01:34:11,581 --> 01:34:14,731
Why do you allow yourself to be pushed by this sorted then.
1170
01:34:15,271 --> 01:34:18,721
I've told you a thousand times to leave your leave.
1171
01:34:19,501 --> 01:34:23,821
Yeah my that they don't have any are now and that italia do that doesn't have anything to do it.
1172
01:34:24,151 --> 01:34:30,091
Why are they continually allow yourself to be kush because i'm kind hearted.
1173
01:34:30,091 --> 01:34:31,951
I give the other prefer another chance.
1174
01:34:35,527 --> 01:34:35,851
Do.
1175
01:34:36,931 --> 01:34:38,011
I'm given you dozens.
1176
01:34:40,771 --> 01:34:42,211
Keep pushing bush.
1177
01:34:44,881 --> 01:34:50,221
People laughing i have karma till you're getting and turn am going to get your ass me carter.
1178
01:34:57,511 --> 01:34:57,721
Some.
1179
01:34:57,903 --> 01:34:59,311
I have the guts she thinks.
1180
01:34:59,311 --> 01:35:00,331
I can't live.
1181
01:35:02,311 --> 01:35:06,811
I can move your ass outta here so bright so fast of a jewish attorney.
1182
01:35:08,701 --> 01:35:11,071
You have been a feel like your has skin.
1183
01:35:15,631 --> 01:35:18,451
You think you're the last woman on earth that i can go.
1184
01:35:21,091 --> 01:35:22,021
Yeah well.
1185
01:35:23,641 --> 01:35:24,301
But better stern.
1186
01:35:27,871 --> 01:35:30,601
Turning over to the next next.
1187
01:35:31,381 --> 01:35:34,651
Next guy he can have you ever be the least picture.
1188
01:35:35,731 --> 01:35:40,531
The mayor bob of bullshit all you have stay out every night oh shit.
1189
01:35:41,431 --> 01:35:41,971
I don't either.
1190
01:35:43,891 --> 01:35:46,531
Night after night going out what good are you.
1191
01:35:46,531 --> 01:35:57,391
I'm gonna get my jewish lawyer out of you out on you and he's getting get you out of this house get out and i mean it was as mortifying and he the camera was rolling.
1192
01:35:57,391 --> 01:36:09,571
I mean they had a perfect thing going there and this is pretty exciting why are you so afraid and that by me doing something else because i live with a woman or she lives with me.
1193
01:36:09,571 --> 01:36:11,341
She doesn't live with other people.
1194
01:36:11,851 --> 01:36:15,961
I do live with other people and i'm going to for the rest of my wife.
1195
01:36:16,951 --> 01:36:21,061
I know i'm gonna turn you over to the now say no.
1196
01:36:21,841 --> 01:36:23,251
I'm sure.
1197
01:36:24,301 --> 01:36:24,702
Fucking.
1198
01:36:26,251 --> 01:36:28,951
You'd think iraq army every fucking night.
1199
01:36:29,941 --> 01:36:31,711
New fuck and harm.
1200
01:36:33,091 --> 01:36:35,668
You fetch who do you think you.
1201
01:36:35,668 --> 01:36:36,811
I am just.
1202
01:36:37,171 --> 01:36:39,451
I'm gonna do this live with other people.
1203
01:36:39,571 --> 01:36:41,401
I do you outlined here.
1204
01:36:42,601 --> 01:36:44,611
That's when i got my guts.
1205
01:36:45,421 --> 01:36:47,911
I never took it again never.
1206
01:36:48,721 --> 01:36:52,471
The next time he try that i said he said of a bitch.
1207
01:36:52,681 --> 01:37:01,891
You can you can scream your ass off at at the clouds in the sky and it yourself that you're not gonna do it to me.
1208
01:37:02,011 --> 01:37:03,421
I'm not going to take it anymore.
1209
01:37:03,931 --> 01:37:10,681
I just get up walk up the stairs and i'd listen to on ranting and raving down here.
1210
01:37:10,741 --> 01:37:16,651
Nobody sometimes and go on for about thirty minutes and just just scream and out.
1211
01:37:19,771 --> 01:37:25,831
She learned a strategy for dealing with him and i saw that evolve over the years were at a certain point.
1212
01:37:26,761 --> 01:37:32,401
She would just die he would be baiting are and i could see he was trying to get this response.
1213
01:37:32,401 --> 01:37:36,031
He is trying to get the fire guy that wanted to give a fight going you.
1214
01:37:36,031 --> 01:37:40,081
Know and lender were just just sit there and clincher her teeth.
1215
01:37:40,561 --> 01:37:42,961
I can see her her jaw clenching.
1216
01:37:43,741 --> 01:37:47,161
And she would say that's right papa you're right.
1217
01:37:47,611 --> 01:37:49,171
You're absolutely right.
1218
01:37:50,101 --> 01:38:03,451
And she were just agree with everything he said and then he were just science and just kind of graph hair because he was so angry because you just can't fight with yourself you know and and she does wouldn't do it.
1219
01:38:04,141 --> 01:38:14,101
How did.
1220
01:38:19,741 --> 01:38:30,391
He seemed happy to be getting married and something he definitely wanted to do and they really did love linda all along and the and i think it took awhile for him to get.
1221
01:38:31,441 --> 01:38:35,281
Get warm up to idea that he was gonna get married you know.
1222
01:38:36,241 --> 01:38:36,361
I.
1223
01:38:43,621 --> 01:38:46,591
He cried at the wedding in front of minister.
1224
01:38:47,401 --> 01:38:49,261
It got very teary forum.
1225
01:39:00,721 --> 01:39:06,421
Mickey rourke he didn't like the idea of rehearsal a free dunaway.
1226
01:39:06,511 --> 01:39:13,771
She was really to rehearse as much as possible and i wanted to reverse because when you're on a tight schedule like that.
1227
01:39:14,581 --> 01:39:22,771
Much better if you have reversed but that know so we had to do without it and i guess he wanted to stay fresh.
1228
01:39:23,851 --> 01:39:26,581
Oh how could make he will portray hang.
1229
01:39:26,971 --> 01:39:29,671
It's an impossibility why don't.
1230
01:39:29,671 --> 01:39:31,171
They get some old duffer.
1231
01:39:31,711 --> 01:39:39,571
They want to make a world to be a humphrey bogart and pick up girls and lamar and level like that barely.
1232
01:39:40,051 --> 01:39:45,691
I've been whether some really beautiful girls in there which weren't of all it kind of girls and hang call him.
1233
01:39:45,691 --> 01:39:48,811
After he went after people a slightly damaged.
1234
01:39:49,981 --> 01:39:53,521
Hey really over data you know the her hanging there.
1235
01:39:54,151 --> 01:39:59,401
I don't think the kids ever been on schedule you know when the guy walk them.
1236
01:40:00,961 --> 01:40:04,531
Oh robin mirth i should run for mayor.
1237
01:40:06,811 --> 01:40:10,201
Because i'd walk and i say on the nasdaq especially.
1238
01:40:11,911 --> 01:40:13,291
So you know bragg it.
1239
01:40:14,281 --> 01:40:16,231
It's low key all time.
1240
01:40:16,861 --> 01:40:19,771
He had it all and have exaggerated.
1241
01:40:20,635 --> 01:40:21,151
True.
1242
01:40:22,831 --> 01:40:24,691
A little bit show off about.
1243
01:40:28,021 --> 01:40:29,071
Now.
1244
01:40:31,051 --> 01:40:32,372
It was kind of nest.
1245
01:40:39,031 --> 01:40:45,991
I found out that hollywood is more crooked dahmer ruler stupider than our books.
1246
01:40:45,991 --> 01:40:46,951
I read about it.
1247
01:40:47,281 --> 01:40:49,741
They didn't go deeply enough into our lack.
1248
01:40:49,741 --> 01:40:54,391
The i saw them and hard how it's really a piece of crap.
1249
01:40:55,513 --> 01:41:02,203
There are too many hands directing their too many fingers in the pub and they're all kind of ignorant about what they're doing.
1250
01:41:02,203 --> 01:41:04,933
They're greedy and they're vicious.
1251
01:41:05,713 --> 01:41:07,723
You don't get much of a movie.
1252
01:41:09,853 --> 01:41:12,793
I never got to meet him whilst now is reading him.
1253
01:41:13,513 --> 01:41:17,863
It was only later after really drunken night with sean penn.
1254
01:41:18,913 --> 01:41:20,773
Back in my house in dublin.
1255
01:41:21,733 --> 01:41:27,763
Talking and stupid rhymes really in sound that the was a great santa hats.
1256
01:41:28,693 --> 01:41:31,273
And i said you know is a is a friend of mine.
1257
01:41:31,903 --> 01:41:34,273
It's is now well as yeah.
1258
01:41:34,903 --> 01:41:42,313
He was resigning some of hanks harrison and and me like the him and you gotta be excused himself to make a phone call.
1259
01:41:43,723 --> 01:41:46,903
A key is there where they'll are yeah.
1260
01:41:47,353 --> 01:41:49,633
I saw moving around a little.
1261
01:41:50,872 --> 01:41:51,673
Is is out.
1262
01:41:54,343 --> 01:42:00,643
As it as linda says whose mana turns ivan and so lady been to every you to show.
1263
01:42:01,633 --> 01:42:04,483
Since we came since we were like kids like carriage van.
1264
01:42:05,023 --> 01:42:09,430
She been to everyone and gb into more you to shows and i'd been to lend his back.
1265
01:42:09,433 --> 01:42:11,323
I'd say of you guys play out.
1266
01:42:11,323 --> 01:42:12,343
Here we will cause.
1267
01:42:13,453 --> 01:42:17,983
Was sure nurse invited him down by to the to them down on the next play.
1268
01:42:17,983 --> 01:42:20,383
Los angeles not ever thinking they would come.
1269
01:42:22,723 --> 01:42:23,473
But they didn't come.
1270
01:42:24,793 --> 01:42:26,143
He says nato.
1271
01:42:27,913 --> 01:42:31,453
That the world at some to hear this wasn't a political rally.
1272
01:42:31,453 --> 01:42:36,853
This was the musicians on stage and this many people in this kind of sand analyst.
1273
01:42:37,843 --> 01:42:39,583
All this and more show.
1274
01:42:40,583 --> 01:42:41,113
Says.
1275
01:42:41,893 --> 01:42:44,480
He comes to the legacies is this is for charles lindbergh.
1276
01:42:44,480 --> 01:42:49,393
The task and i think we got to the oh fuck her because they're in a hurry.
1277
01:42:50,173 --> 01:42:53,593
I think we might have moved him a little get a child crazy.
1278
01:42:53,803 --> 01:42:54,703
They knew who it was.
1279
01:42:55,663 --> 01:42:57,703
And he was taken off guard.
1280
01:42:58,453 --> 01:43:00,286
He really was a lot of emotional.
1281
01:43:00,286 --> 01:43:03,103
I think if you linda dance to the saw yeah.
1282
01:43:05,443 --> 01:43:08,803
Mycoskie was fortunate enough to see and his own lifetime.
1283
01:43:09,643 --> 01:43:10,573
His own work.
1284
01:43:11,713 --> 01:43:13,033
Be translated die oh.
1285
01:43:13,093 --> 01:43:23,653
God knows how many languages to make him more than a comfortable living and you go out in your thirty or forty printings and you know that's very rare thing for a poet.
1286
01:43:24,913 --> 01:43:32,833
If he had made any money and yet he had been able to do all the riding that would have been enough for him and absolutely convinced of really were worked in a candy store.
1287
01:43:32,833 --> 01:43:38,923
The edges were shining shoes and we would have stated the post office retired on some bentley ass lindsay.
1288
01:43:41,233 --> 01:43:46,033
I'm afraid i have to agree with john william kind of prediction.
1289
01:43:46,033 --> 01:43:46,783
She made him.
1290
01:43:47,743 --> 01:43:52,873
Nineteen sixty two use totally i use it by the end of the century.
1291
01:43:52,873 --> 01:43:54,405
Bukovsky will be known as the guy.
1292
01:43:54,405 --> 01:44:05,203
You liberated poetry from the clutches of the academics and it would once were was attempting to do what the arm who actually did you know you.
1293
01:44:05,353 --> 01:44:09,133
This is the company that he put him in and sixty two and i'll be a turn of him.
1294
01:44:10,873 --> 01:44:11,803
Are you afraid of death.
1295
01:44:12,703 --> 01:44:13,033
No.
1296
01:44:13,903 --> 01:44:15,223
How cool would like to.
1297
01:44:20,233 --> 01:44:23,023
It's not a matter how old you can be go.
1298
01:44:24,143 --> 01:44:27,493
You can go having all we're oxy.
1299
01:44:29,874 --> 01:44:30,763
I can answer that.
1300
01:44:32,533 --> 01:44:34,813
So they my light dwindling now you know.
1301
01:44:34,813 --> 01:44:38,473
I went to the track today the came back from the track.
1302
01:44:39,103 --> 01:44:40,063
I looked down.
1303
01:44:41,023 --> 01:44:44,203
I get on one black true and one browns shirt.
1304
01:44:45,694 --> 01:44:46,273
He flies.
1305
01:44:47,353 --> 01:44:51,763
Even i won two hundred and twelve dollars a more if i look down.
1306
01:44:53,383 --> 01:44:55,423
The light is going to a boy.
1307
01:45:21,403 --> 01:45:31,363
He continued to lessen the amount of alcohol in cape over the is even knowing that meant he had to be less than his myths.
1308
01:45:32,203 --> 01:45:36,943
I think he found a kind of confidence in himself of course when he became successful.
1309
01:45:37,363 --> 01:45:43,873
I that took away a lot of the psychological pressure that had been on him for so many years.
1310
01:45:44,023 --> 01:45:54,853
He didn't need to me yet so much he knew that he was a cause of goodness and that he could be a cause of goodness and.
1311
01:45:55,993 --> 01:46:02,233
I don't think he felt that way about himself in the past in his early years or in his mid years even.
1312
01:46:04,633 --> 01:46:06,793
Invited time he gets his last nine years.
1313
01:46:06,823 --> 01:46:13,513
Cause is really a wise man and very far from man and was not afraid to me long ago.
1314
01:46:14,053 --> 01:46:15,853
He was sad turning.
1315
01:46:16,663 --> 01:46:17,083
The.
1316
01:46:18,133 --> 01:46:24,103
The ball around and five you like to see me sides are seeking see himself.
1317
01:46:24,703 --> 01:46:28,003
Here's a thing called the new formalism.
1318
01:46:28,633 --> 01:46:34,423
In there is a little group of people call the new formalists and they want to go back to sonnets and.
1319
01:46:35,293 --> 01:46:35,833
You know.
1320
01:46:36,973 --> 01:46:38,683
Poetry at it's most structured.
1321
01:46:39,463 --> 01:46:43,723
And to me as exactly the wrong way poetry should be headed.
1322
01:46:45,103 --> 01:46:48,103
Saw this is a little new year's reading that we did.
1323
01:46:49,333 --> 01:46:50,053
Called art.
1324
01:46:51,163 --> 01:46:56,743
And that's one of his greatest poems just one word above the other as the spirit.
1325
01:46:57,133 --> 01:46:58,093
Wayne's.
1326
01:46:58,753 --> 01:47:00,433
The form appears.
1327
01:47:01,483 --> 01:47:09,463
As an artist or a poet or anybody loses the spirit that first brought them into whatever they do as that wayne's.
1328
01:47:09,643 --> 01:47:16,573
They do get more concerned with form and try to cover up the fact that they're not writings well anymore my writing formal work.
1329
01:47:21,703 --> 01:47:38,713
Top dedicated the bad writing dad just is the because he story right there not that he wrote badly but that he took chances that was an older man's novel and yet it's so filled with a younger man's inventiveness and suppleness.
1330
01:47:39,733 --> 01:47:41,203
Hollywood gotten away.
1331
01:47:41,833 --> 01:47:45,763
Let's see from this way and pope got an airplane.
1332
01:47:45,913 --> 01:47:46,813
This way.
1333
01:47:47,653 --> 01:47:55,903
Right and ham and or i gonna no way this or think about it and then the short stories came on a way that way and then palms rushed down the freeway.
1334
01:47:55,903 --> 01:47:59,233
This way you don't was that ruined landscape.
1335
01:48:01,063 --> 01:48:02,293
Of los angeles.
1336
01:48:03,073 --> 01:48:04,033
That he wrote about.
1337
01:48:05,623 --> 01:48:07,393
Pulp course is a pure fantasy.
1338
01:48:07,633 --> 01:48:18,103
It isn't a real life because cows so a fantasy though as the life of the mine so it was something that was always on his by the man was dying zero you live his life and he writes about lady death.
1339
01:48:18,493 --> 01:48:21,733
That's how he does is die to make our anonymous.
1340
01:48:33,973 --> 01:48:38,263
I'm in minute long ah and it was coming to the end.
1341
01:48:39,283 --> 01:48:44,923
And he was in and out of consciousness the room at the hospital.
1342
01:48:46,813 --> 01:48:51,013
We were just sitting there with them not just whispering gently a little bit.
1343
01:48:52,033 --> 01:48:54,253
Just being around him and.
1344
01:48:55,213 --> 01:48:56,683
I'll sort of sitting a few feet.
1345
01:48:57,523 --> 01:49:06,403
By towards his feet or his head was in front of me and i had been looking over on the other side of his bed to marine and his daughter and and.
1346
01:49:07,243 --> 01:49:09,013
I glanced at hank and.
1347
01:49:10,603 --> 01:49:11,321
There were.
1348
01:49:13,243 --> 01:49:15,103
He was emitting from his mouth.
1349
01:49:18,463 --> 01:49:20,113
Little paths like.
1350
01:49:23,713 --> 01:49:26,503
Just gentle little pass and.
1351
01:49:27,673 --> 01:49:30,703
I instantly realize that these are his last breaths.
1352
01:49:30,733 --> 01:49:36,763
I know that was what was happening them and in i'm in a matter of of several seconds.
1353
01:49:36,763 --> 01:49:38,293
I suppose well.
1354
01:49:38,293 --> 01:49:41,833
I got up to him to come to his face and hold them and.
1355
01:49:44,233 --> 01:49:46,393
That happened a few more moments.
1356
01:49:47,263 --> 01:49:47,623
And.
1357
01:49:49,003 --> 01:49:50,533
Then he lets.
1358
01:49:51,553 --> 01:49:52,153
And.
1359
01:50:05,863 --> 01:50:07,843
At that moment his face.
1360
01:50:10,303 --> 01:50:10,933
Became.
1361
01:50:12,733 --> 01:50:15,583
Absolutely transparent and serene.
1362
01:50:16,423 --> 01:50:22,663
Every every wrinkle a scar tense share everything.
1363
01:50:23,713 --> 01:50:28,243
Completely relaxed and there was an utter.
1364
01:50:30,013 --> 01:50:35,443
Tranquillity that existed in permeated every thing at that point.
1365
01:50:36,283 --> 01:50:37,033
And.
1366
01:50:38,563 --> 01:50:39,703
It was so example.
1367
01:50:40,483 --> 01:50:42,073
And so pure.
1368
01:50:43,243 --> 01:50:44,053
And.
1369
01:50:50,083 --> 01:50:54,973
He had a smooth face like a newborn baby.
1370
01:50:56,647 --> 01:50:59,467
It was just a smooth and saw like that.
1371
01:51:06,757 --> 01:51:10,837
Does your be in my heart that wants to get out but i'm too tough time.
1372
01:51:11,677 --> 01:51:14,677
I say stay in their i'm i'm going to let anybody see you.
1373
01:51:16,057 --> 01:51:24,607
There's a blue by the my our that was to get our but i have a whiskey on him that a hailed cigarette smoke and the horse and the bartenders on the grocery.
1374
01:51:24,607 --> 01:51:27,067
Clerks never know that he's in there.
1375
01:51:27,847 --> 01:51:32,287
There's a blue bird in my heart wants to get out and i am too tough for him.
1376
01:51:32,527 --> 01:51:37,657
I say stay down do you want to mess me do you want to screw up the works.
1377
01:51:38,077 --> 01:51:40,237
You want a ball my book sales and europe.
1378
01:51:41,317 --> 01:51:45,427
There was a blue bird in my heart that wants to get out but i'm too clever.
1379
01:51:45,517 --> 01:51:46,987
I only let him out at night.
1380
01:51:46,987 --> 01:51:48,937
Sometimes when everybody's asleep.
1381
01:51:49,777 --> 01:51:53,077
I say i know you're there so don't be sad.
1382
01:51:54,397 --> 01:51:58,387
Then i put him back but he's singing a little in there.
1383
01:51:59,347 --> 01:52:01,207
I haven't quite let him die.
1384
01:52:02,287 --> 01:52:05,977
And we sleep together like that that our secret pact.
1385
01:52:07,057 --> 01:52:09,577
And it's nice enough to make a man weep.
1386
01:52:11,467 --> 01:52:12,457
But i don't weep.
1387
01:52:13,499 --> 01:52:13,957
You.
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