Original subtitles

CAZ: Transgender.

That's what it's called.

That's me.

Basically, when babies are born, they're assigned a gender

based on what the doctors think they look like.

For trans people, that gender doesn't match who we are.

And for many who want or are able to, we transition.

It's coming out ‐ hair and clothes,

maybe have surgeries, take hormones.

That's why I look really different.

I take testosterone.

You can save your fancy language.

I don't understand.

And I don't care.

(CAR BEEPS) Where are you going?

Dad. (BEEPING STOPS)

Dad, we need to talk about this.

10 years you've been gone, and now you wanna talk.

I thought...

maybe you didn't know,...

maybe you changed your number.

And you send flowers, so you knew.

You knew,...

and you didn't come home.

I can't even say how sorry I am.

Don't tell me.

There's your mum.

You tell her.

(SNIFFLES)

(EXHALES SHAKILY)

(SOBS QUIETLY)

(BIRDSONG)

RADIO HOST: Would you deliberately call a cheese

Camem‐bert?

WOMAN ON RADIO: Hell no. I know better than that.

But you don'tBut you'd mispronounce Opoho.

No, it's not mispronounced. That's my hometown, Marcus.

Well, it isBut if I told you how it was pronounced, right?

Well, it's a bit late now, dear. I'm 83 soon.

ButBut‐ But why's it too late now?

Oh, because that's my‐ that's my home,

that's my birthplace. It's my region, myNo.

No, and no disrespect to anybody.

But, Mary‐ Well, it is disrespect,

cos then you are being wilfully ignorant. You are.

No, like hell I am.

Well, youBut you're deliberately pronouncing‐

(RADIO CLICKS OFF)

GERALD: So...

Yeah.

How long, do you think?

I mean, uh...

You can stay.

Whoa.

No way.

Yeah, I guess it's...

a little bit different.

Your mum, uh...

She kept your room exactly the same. She wanted...

(SEATBELT CLICKS)

She wanted to keep it that way.

I'm, um‐ I'm staying with Anahera.

(SIGHS)

It's really hard for me, being here.

It's hard for you?

You know what ‐

at least you can come in for a bloody cup of tea.

(BIRDS CHIRP)

(UNEASY MUSIC)

It's not locked.

(BIRDSONG IN DISTANCE)

(COWS MOO)

(BIRDS WARBLE)

(GATE CREAKS)

(COW MOOS)

Oh, hey, man.

If you're looking for Gerald, he went up the way.

Hey, Jem.

Oh, sorry. Do we know each other?

Uh, yeah.

Oh, you wereyou were at the, uhthe council meeting today.

Uh, and high school.

(CHUCKLES) Sorry. Sorry, man. A long time ago.

We, uh...

We used to be a c...

actually used to be a couple.

A couple of what?

I'm, umI'm Gerald's kid.

What?

Holy shit.

Yeah. Name's Caz now.

Wait, so you're, um... you're a...

A guy, yep.

(BIRD WARBLES)

(CHUCKLES SOFTLY) We...

I'm... I'm so sorry. This is fuckin'...

really confusing. I'm not doing this right.

I shouldn't have come here.

I'm gonna... I'm gonna go.

Sweet as.

(CELL PHONE RINGS)

It's real good.

Hello? Shelley from Rūrangi Auto.

You brought in the Nissan, yeah? Yeah.

It's gonna be at least a week to get the parts in.

OK.

And it's gonna cost you about a grand. She's pretty stuffed.

Can I get back to you? Sure.

I just won't order anything till I hear from you.

All right? Yeah, whatever.

Hey, mate.

Do you know how much this fella spent on phosphates last year?

I don't live here.

(INTENSE ELECTRONIC MUSIC PLAYS THROUGH HEADPHONES)

(ELECTRONIC MUSIC CONTINUES)

(MUSIC FADES)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(LAUGHTER)

I seen you waving to him on the way to work every day.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER CONTINUES)

Oh, here we go.

Tweedledee and Tweedle‐stupid.

Ladies. How's it going?

Oh, slowly.

How are you? Good, good.

Not softly slowly. Oh, slowly.

Haz, what happened today? (INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(LAUGHTER)

(DOOR OPENS)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Hey.

Hey.

I'm sorry about today.

Yeah, whatever.

I mean...

Oh, fuck me.

Already did.

(CHUCKLES DRILY)

(CHUCKLES SOFTLY) Sorry. At least you're talking to me.

Oh, your old man?

Yeah.

Hey, he'll...

he'll come around.

I guess.

Man, I... can't get over your voice.

(CHUCKLES SOFTLY) Magic of testosterone.

Mate, (CHUCKLES) I don't know what that is.

Yeah, don't worry about it.

Uh...

See you like your beer now.

I always liked my beer. Yeah, right. (CHUCKLES)

I'm, uh...

Hey, uh, I'm‐

I'm gonna get a pint.

And I thought maybemaybe you want another one or something.

Um...

Yeah, OK.

Yeah? Yeah.

Cool.

Yeah, I'llI'll go get it.

Sorry. Pull. Pull. CloYeah.

Three. Wait, wait, wait.

Are you even gonna go, or‐? I am gonna go. Here we go.

Three, two, one, go!

(BOTH EXCLAIM, LAUGH)

(BOTH LAUGH)

I reckon I was close. No, I was closer.

(BOTTLES CLINK)

Mrs Rawlings' class.

Mrs Rawlings? Yeah.

Why do you wanna see Mrs Rawlings?

I dunno. Cos she was funky.

She always had weird decorations.

Your jacket.

Thank you.

Lead the way. Let's see if you remember.

I don't actually remember. OK. It's this way.

Yeah, right. That way.

Fuck, remember when we had to hand in our books

at the end of class? Wait. Wait, wait, wait, wait.

What? READS: Finish calculations.

This is the maths class.

Don't tell me it's Miss Girr. Yeah, I know.

What an appropriate name for such an angry lady.

Whoa. I'm fine.

You should stop drinking. Me stop drinking?

Do you understand all of it?

I'm not really...

on my game. No, no, no. (STAMMERS)

I think I get it. Like...

Gender it's...

it's complicated.

Ooh yeah.

You...

You were never exactly girly. (BOTH CHUCKLE)

Yeah, nah. Nah, I mean, your mum tried.

Oh... fuck.

Shit.

Sorry about your mum.

Yeah.

It's what I liked about you.

Well, one of the things.

You weren't like the other girls.

That's because I wasn't one.

Yeah.

I guess not.

I think it's cos we could, like, talk about stuff,

you know, easy, like mates.

And,...

you know,...

other things. (CHUCKLES SOFTLY)

Some stuff.

What?

We could talk about some stuff.

You know, when you left,...

I...

I got pretty messed up.

Fuck. Jem... Nah, nah.

I‐I get it.

It's...

We had all these plans.

I loved you.

That was never the problem. Then why'd you leave?

Because if I'd stayed, I would've...

What?

What?

I'd be dead.

You know, I thought this would be weird.

But it's not.

(CHUCKLES SOFTLY)

Yeah.

You look good. (CHUCKLES) (CHUCKLES)

Not too bad yourself. Oh, yeah?

(BOTH LAUGH)

Bit scrawny, maybe.

What? (LAUGHS)

I'mNo, I lift.

OK? I lift on the farm. (LAUGHS)

I think your eyesight isn't as good as it used to be.

You see, this‐ this is au naturel.

OK? Ooh.

Allow me.

Yeah.

This is way too heavy for you.

(CHUCKLES)

Piss off.

(INSECTS CHIRP)

Whoa.

I didn't, um...

Didn't like? Yeah. No! I...

I don't know.

YouYou're, like, the same,...

but not.

(SCOFFS) Yeah.

I caI cI can't.

I don't...

I have to go.

Yeah.

Yeah, II have to go.

(RANDA'S 'LIFEGUARD' PLAYS)

♪ Swim deep. I see you fight hard.

♪ If you would like, I'll be your lifeguard.

♪ When you disappear, I'll be your lifeguard,

♪ be your lifeguard. I'll be your lifeguard.

♪ Swim deep. I see you fight hard.

♪ If you would like, I'll be your lifeguard.

♪ If you could reappear, I'll be your lifeguard,

♪ be your lifeguard. I'll be your lifeguard. ♪