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SARAH (VOICEOVER): Do you ever feel closer

to the technology in your life rather

than the people in your life?

-Um.

Yeah, yeah I do.

Uh, wow, yeah.

-OK, so I would ask you some questions about technology.

-I'm actually avidly against technology.

-You are?

-I think it's ruining the world.

-So there are positives to it?

-Oh yeah, definitely.

Yeah, definitely.

I think it brings us closer to-- it can bring us closer.

-Why are you asking me these questions?

-Oh, I like to interview people.

I do research.

I've always had a soft spot for machinery.

[music playing]

Well, hello there.

So you're a nifty little gadget.

[knock on door]

LEON: Baby, are you all right in there?

-One sec.

So you bind the hCG hormone to a pigment molecule

which communicates to a digital chip.

And that either tells a computer program to say pregnant or not.

-OK.

I can't wait any longer.

-That-- that says-- [clears throat]

-Pregnant.

-Yeah.

It's actually a pretty good quality

[inaudible] for a disposable.

[heartbeat]

LEON: Oh my god.

It's a girl.

SARAH: This is so cool.

You're using surface rendering, right?

It looks so real.

I mean, it really looks like a baby.

LEON: It is a baby.

Are you getting that now?

-It was great.

I feel fine.

-Look, babe, I just-- I'm just not

totally comfortable with this.

-I know, honey, but I'm telling you, it's the easiest way.

-I don't understand why she can't come to your baby shower

in New York.

-Because she's a little crazy.

She thinks I need a real baby shower with lots of moms,

and she knows moms.

-We know moms too.

-We don't know moms.

Look, it's OK, really.

I owe her a visit.

It'll be weird, but I'll make it fun.

Hey, what should I get?

-Something safe, please.

GPS: Specialty Navigation Systems.

-Hello, Special.

GPS: Please say your name so I may

personalize our interaction.

SARAH: Sarah.

ELEANOR: Mommy!

-Emily?

-Oh, thank god you're here.

-What's the matter?

-Oh my god! Look at you!

-Where's Eleanor?

-OK, we are in crisis.

-Hi, Beautiful.

Oh, look at you.

Welcome to LA.

How's Leon?

-Great.

But what happened?

-We're doing one-day toilet training.

-Oh.

-Yeah.

Doesn't fucking work.

-Ah, keep it clean, please.

-Hi, Sarah.

-Hey, sweetie.

What ya got there?

-Bad baby.

He keeps peeing on me.

-It's not Potty Patrick's pee pee.

It's your pee pee.

-Gimme a gummy bear?

-Here you go, sweetie pie.

-What the F are you doing?

-The book says that we have to--

-No, no, no.

She just peed on herself, and you gave her a treat.

-How do you know it wasn't Patrick who peed?

-Patrick is broken.

-Did you figure it out?

-Why did you get a boy one?

-Because they were on sale.

We're very stressed about money.

-You guys seem stressed in general.

Are you sure you want to throw me a party?

-Are you kidding me?

We are dying to throw you this party.

This is the most important party of your life.

-It is?

-Yes, it is.

GEORGE: Em, she just peed on the laptop.

-What?

-Sweetie, do you have to go pee pee?

-No.

-Well, let's go try again.

-It works.

-Oh!

Thank you.

You're so lucky.

It happened so fast.

-Yeah.

Does mom know?

-I knew it.

I knew pregnancy would get to you.

-Emily, stop it.

-I'm sorry.

I told Georgie--

-Stop it.

-Sorry.

Yes, she knows.

-What'd she say?

-She was excited, you know-- Mom's way.

SARAH: So what's been the most, like,

useful device of parenthood for you?

-You know, nothing really makes it that much simpler.

SARAH: Right.

-It's just-- you know, because we gotta do what we gotta do.

-Right.

-You know?

-OK.

MAN: So--

-Yeah.

MAN: Yeah?

-Yeah, that's cool.

But I mean, there's not like a-- like a--

MAN: A thing?

-A thing like a-- because there's

so many cool products out there.

-There are, there are.

But they don't really make a difference.

-I had a baby monitor that had a TV in it.

SARAH: Uh-huh.

-And I had just happened to look at the monitor,

and he was throwing up profusely.

And it was just all over him.

-Do you need things or do you need people?

-Both.

-Both?

-Yeah.

You need people, and it's great if you can have help.

And I had my mom helping me at the beginning.

-But does having these things make it more fun?

-More fun?

No.

[doorbell]

-Hi.

-Hi.

-Hi.

-Hi.

Nice to meet you.

-Hi.

You must be Sarah.

-Yeah.

Good to meet you.

-Thank you.

-Hi, Sandy.

-Thank you.

It's Sarah.

-Oh my god!

Hi!

Thank you for coming.

-16, 17, 18, 19, 20.

Ready or not, here I come.

I see you.

-Really, Chris?

You really think the baby's going

to take a nap in the bassinet while you and your friends

scream and watch basketball?

I mean--

-Oh my goodness.

-It's crazy, right?

It's crazy.

-Oh my god.

OK.

So we actually tried the pacifier to his head.

-Oh, well, you know what?

I think that's a good idea.

But I got Maxine to start sucking her thumb,

like, right away because I didn't want

to have to get up in the middle of the night.

-Genius, you're a total genius.

WOMAN: Yeah, and she slept through the night

at eight weeks.

[kid screaming]

KID: I don't wanna!

I don't wanna!

-Crazy, my two-year-old was driving me crazy.

-I couldn't get her to stop.

-Sex?

What's that?

-I couldn't get her to stop.

-What sex?

I'm not even interested.

Not interested.

[pop]

[screaming]

[heartbeat]

-Where are you going?

Come back here, Sarah.

This is your party.

Sarah?

I'm really sorry, Sarah.

I don't know what I was thinking.

-It's OK.

-Here, open this.

-Thanks.

-It's really cool.

You paste in things about your own mother,

then you start to paste in things about your daughter.

-I don't-- I don't have a mother.

-Yes, you do, sweetie.

-No, I-- I don't.

-Hi.

-Hi.

-You OK?

-I think I'm ready.

-For?

-I want to call her.

-That is a fantastic development.

But we can't.

-Why not?

-Mom went off the grid.

-What?

-She moved about a year ago.

I barely see her.

OK, hold on a second.

She's way north.

Redwoods.

-How could she possibly be surviving off the grid?

She's not the off-the-grid type.

-I don't know.

Dad says she likes it.

-How does Dad know that?

-I guess they write sometimes, you know, for our sake.

-I can't believe I didn't know any of this.

-You didn't want to know, remember?

EMILY: Find the shapes.

ELEANOR: Find the shapes after.

-What's this?

-Zucchini.

-Zucchini.

Kiwi.

What's this?

ELEANOR: I don't know what that is.

EMILY: I think you should do all this purple part, buddy.

ELEANOR: And look-- look at this square--

SARAH (VOICEOVER): Dear Mom, I'm not

used to writing letters anymore.

In fact, I hate writing letters.

-I can't do this.

-Yes, you can.

SARAH (VOICEOVER): Dear Mom, I realize it's probably

surprising for you to hear from me

after we haven't spoken for years.

I didn't really mean to stop talking,

but you didn't call so I didn't call.

And then you still didn't call, and then--

-I can't do mail.

It's too analog.

It's too retro.

It's too slow.

I mean, how will I know it even arrived?

-Live dangerously.

She doesn't have a phone or email.

You know that if you don't make the effort--

-She won't.

-I just practice the art of extremely low expectations,

and I get what I get.

And I'm OK with that.

GPS: Thank you, Sarah.

-The whole reason that I got the car

was so I could drive and see Dad for a day.

And she's just a little farther north from him.

I'm just gonna have a coffee with her

and fly back on Tuesday instead.

-Wow.

You're just gonna have a coffee with her?

Sarah, you two are, like, practically estranged.

-Oh, no.

We are estranged.

Everything's gonna be great.

-OK.

-I'll call you when I get to Dad's.

[music playing]

[speaking portuguese]

-Dad.

-That means "thank god you're here" in Portuguese.

You see, I've got this call-in soon with Viviani,

and-- oh, make that 15 minutes.

-Viviani?

-Yes.

And my Skype is down.

I mean, I've checked everything.

We haven't been able to talk for a day,

and I haven't been able to sleep.

I wracked my brain trying to figure out what's wrong.

I swear I've lost my touch.

-But you're my tech hero.

-Well, not any longer.

I just can't keep up with it all.

That's what retirement does to you.

-I guess I could take a look, but--

-Could you?

-Yeah, but who's Viviani?

So you haven't actually met her?

-I'll explain later.

I've got five minutes, and I'm afraid that if I don't

make this call, it could be over.

-OK.

Ah, let's see.

What-- how are your credentials?

"Hunky Henrique"?

That's your online persona?

-Yeah.

-OK.

Can you ping something?

-Yeah, I pinged the DNS.

It's just a Skype problem.

-Well what's the memory allocation?

-Fine.

I just-- I just relaunched it.

-It sounds like an issue with the firewall.

-You know, I did upgrade the router firmware.

I knew you could fix it.

You're amazing.

-You taught me everything I know.

What's your administrative password?

-[inaudible].

-How do you spell that?

What does that mean?

-Unbridled passion.

Oh, here, let me type it.

[inaudible], how are you?

So good to see you.

So good to see you.

You look very nice today.

Yesterday, we went an entire day without talking to each other.

Can you imagine that?

[heartbeat]

-Hi.

Um, Baby.

How's it, uh-- going in there?

HENRIQUE: Sarah?

-Dad?

HENRIQUE: I've lost my mic.

She-- she can't hear me.

-What?

HENRIQUE: Sarah.

She can't hear me.

My mic is down.

I'm trying to explain something to her.

She misunderstood something I said.

-Well, why don't you just call on the phone?

-Because we don't exist on that platform yet.

Can you just check on the headset for me?

I don't want to disappear.

Don't let her see you.

Maybe just unplug it.

I'll just use the computer mic.

Here.

It's OK.

It's OK.

[speaking portuguese]

-Vivi, me desculpe.

Me desculpe.

I am so sorry.

I am so sorry.

I'm working on a virtual trip to Brazil.

Just 6,000 more miles.

-Were you this excited when Emily and I were born?

You know, kind of energized?

-Well, we were pretty tired.

But if it wasn't for the total sleep deprivation,

I would say yeah, absolutely.

-Was Mom excited?

I mean-- or did we tire mom out?

Is-- is that why she left?

-Oh, no, honey.

It had nothing to do with you guys.

Your mother, she was just always looking for something else.

-Am I like her?

-No.

Yes.

Are you sure you want to see her now?

-Well, this is a good conversation starter,

and maybe by the time I hit Big Sur,

I'll think of something else to say.

-You know, I'm really sorry, but you can't make this trip.

SARAH: The desert?

-Well, she barely told anyone.

But she wrote me, you know, in case of an emergency

with you guys.

And then she moved out there.

I don't know, a month ago?

I've been trying to figure out how to tell you both.

-So she had to go even further off the grid?

-Oh, cutie.

Out there, the grid doesn't even exist as a concept.

Go home to Leon.

Spend some time with him before everything changes.

-Everything is not changing.

I wish people would stop saying that.

And Leon is real.

He is a real person, not some Skype apparition.

And we have a real relationship, and--

-Vivi and I are real.

We're just living in the moment.

I worry about you.

-I worry about you too.

I just need to ask her some questions.

LEON (ON SKYPE): Sarah, baby, this is crazy.

I mean, Arizona is like, how many miles away?

And you alone on the road?

Look, maybe I should just come meet you.

-No, no, no.

I've got my phone.

I've got my navigator.

You can Google Earth me.

I think I've got to do this on my own.

I mean, look, my dad is more excited about this woman he's

never met than I am about our baby girl in my stomach.

It's like I'm completely disconnected

to what's going on.

-Right, right.

I know you are.

That's what I'm saying, is you should just come back home

and we can figure it out together.

OK?

Sarah, you barely even know your mother.

You really think she's going to be

able to help you more than I can?

-I don't know.

GPS: Continue on Interstate 15.

-Continuing on.

GPS: Continue on Interstate 15.

-Thank you.

GPS: You're welcome, Sarah.

-So you think this is a good idea, right?

GPS: Continue on course.

Decision is right.

Your mother loves you.

-Thank you so much.

-No.

Thank you so much.

Recalculating.

Recalculating.

Recal-- recalculat-- Interstate 40.

15.

40.

15.

102.

50.

-Where am I?

GPS: 40-- 40-- 40-- 40-- 40-- 40-- 40-- 40--

-That's enough!

Las Vegas?

I-- I don't know what happened.

This is a disaster.

According to my phone, I'm hundreds of miles off course.

-Actually, baby, this is not a disaster at all, OK?

Towie's in Vegas right now.

-She is?

-Yeah, remember I told you she's doing

that massage therapy course thing?

-Oh, yeah.

-Yeah, she's been there for three weeks already.

You can stay with her.

-Leon, wait.

Maybe no.

-Sarah, yes.

Listen, you need to rest, OK?

My sister will take very good care of you.

It'll be chill.

All right?

-OK.

-Sarah!

Sarah!

Sarah!

And baby!

Baby!

Baby!

Baby!

Welcome to my castle.

-Hi, Towie.

-It's Auntie Towie.

It's Auntie Tow Tow.

It's Auntie Tow Tow.

Can you hear me in there?

Can you hear me in there?

-Thanks for taking me in.

-Of course.

I am going to rub, rub, rub the both of you.

All your fingers, your toes, your arms,

your legs, everything.

What I really love about this place is the history.

-The history?

-Yeah.

It's fascinating.

You know anything about medieval times?

King Arthur?

-Well, just from TV, I guess.

-Exactly.

But this place is so much richer because you

feel like you're there.

I mean, it really takes me back to this essential core

of human place, you know?

Like, just behavioral, pre-modern.

-But we're in Las Vegas.

-That's the irony.

But you still can't argue with pre-modern.

I mean, deep down, we're all just animals.

And every human being must come to terms

with that essential fact.

-You guys did study pregnancy in massage, right?

-Yep.

Extensively, for a whole afternoon.

Lay on your side.

-Wow.

That feels amazing.

-See?

-I've been really exhausted.

-Tell me what's been going on.

-It's my family, and it's me.

I'm trying to prepare myself for being a mom.

But mostly, I just feel numb.

And I'm afraid of that.

-I have an idea.

-What are you doing?

-Besides detecting any leaks and tears in your aura?

I'm looking for your chi animal.

-My chi has an animal?

Like a pet?

-A representative force, like a parallel being.

Let's identify it so that we can reconnect

you to your behavioral world.

Mm.

It's very strong.

OK.

Yeah, I'm getting a-- I'm getting

a really clear idea of--

-What?

-It's interesting.

-But did you find him or her?

-Let's go for a walk.

-So are you gonna tell me now?

Or--

-I definitely felt a lizard.

-A lizard?

-A lizard, which is not a bad thing.

It's-- it's introspective, grounded,

methodical, risk-adverse.

-OK.

So--

-I also felt a light bulb, which, as we know,

is not an animal.

-No, it makes sense.

-A chi animal that's part lizard, part light bulb.

-That actually makes me feel better to be honest.

At least part of it's animal.

[gasp]

-I can feel it.

Oh!

That's beautiful!

-Yeah.

It is.

[music playing]

[cell vibrating]

-Hi, is everything OK?

-Hi.

Did I wake you?

-It's OK.

I went to bed early.

Towie went out dancing, but I was too tired.

-Yeah.

Listen, Sarah.

Your mother faxed.

She, ah-- doesn't want you to come.

-What?

You talked to her?

-Well, I FedEx-ed her a postcard, and she faxed back.

-She faxed?

-Yeah.

True.

I don't even know where she got the fax.

-A fax?

I'm her daughter.

-She just said she can't do it right now.

She's going through something.

She said that she would visit you

in New York when you have the baby.

-You know she won't do that.

-You're probably right.

-She won't see me now?

She can't do that.

What is wrong with her?

-I don't know, cutie.

You know, this is why I didn't want you to go.

Even Viviani agrees with me.

-I don't care what Viviani thinks.

-What?

-I gotta go.

-Are you sure you're OK?

-I'm fine.

I just want to get the first flight back to New York.

TOWIE: Oh, don't forget your book.

-Ugh.

-I dreamt about you last night.

Open it later.

-Wow.

Thanks.

Towie Wowie was happy to see you.

[music playing]

-I would love to take a picture of you guys.

OK.

You'll always remember this moment.

Can we get together?

One, two, three-- three-- three.

Is there ever a moment when you look at your photos

and-- on a trip like this that's really memorable--

and you think that was the worst day ever?

Or-- but you look back on the photos, and everyone's smiling,

so you're like, oh, maybe I was happy?

Or-- no?

-No.

Not for me.

-Do you sometimes see pictures of, let's say,

other families that look like a happy family,

and do you think that's necessarily an accurate

representation of what's happening?

Or--

-Yeah.

-Are-- are these photos useful?

Or are they just part of a big happy family

charade we're playing?

Or is this technology actually just a way for us to run away

from real experience, real despair, real loss?

-Um.

-Hello?

Hi.

Yeah, um, this is Sarah Sparks calling

in for my appointment with Dr. Sage.

Yeah, I can hold, but um, I think

my battery's about to die-- hello?

Hi, Dr. Sage.

Thanks.

Yeah.

Thanks so much for doing my appointment over the phone.

Great.

I-- I think my battery is about to die,

so we should probably do this-- hello?

-I can't believe she faxed.

-I know.

-What kind of mother faxes her daughter through her ex-husband

after they haven't talk in years?

I mean, a fax?

-Well, I don't know.

There's no reason to beat up on faxes.

Faxes aren't bad.

It's how you use them.

-OK.

OK.

-Anyway, I-- I'm going.

I'm sure deep down, she really wants me to come.

And it doesn't matter.

I-- I'm going.

-Well, why don't I meet you there?

-No, no.

-Well, why not?

-I don't know.

Just don't.

-Baby, are you sure that deep down,

you don't want me to come?

-No.

Yes.

I don't know.

It's already too confusing.

-All right, well, don't get mad.

-I'm not mad at you, but I-- I guess I am mad.

-OK.

All right.

Hey, baby, mad-- mad is OK.

I think you should just let it out.

-I'm mad.

-Ooh.

[scream]

-Do you think I hurt the baby?

-Nope.

Nope.

I think the mad is useful.

[music playing]

[static]

-All right.

Marjorie?

Excuse me.

I'm looking for Marjorie Sparks.

I'm sorry.

Do you know Marjorie Sparks?

Would somebody please, please talk to me?

Jesus.

-We've taken a god damn vow of silence.

-Oh.

-Who are you?

-I'm Sarah Sparks.

Marjorie's daughter.

-Oh, god.

-Can I see her?

-She's not in the Dome.

She's in the Annex.

And it's far too late.

-What's too late?

-We've been meditating all night.

We go to bed soon.

You must be tired, sweetie.

-I'm exhausted in fact.

WOMAN: Of course you are.

-And I don't know what I'm going to say to her.

-Take a bath and sleep on it.

You two can talk this afternoon.

And I'm not going to tell her you're here.

-OK.

[music playing]

[knock]

-Hi.

It's me.

Um, I didn't want to disturb you.

It seems like a good thing that you're doing, so-- um.

But I can't wait any longer.

I guess I'm here because I realized

that I don't really know what to do.

I've never had to take care of anyone.

And I thought maybe you could tell me something.

Anyway, and-- and you not being in my life,

well, it's made me wonder about what

it means to be a mother myself.

And I think because of it, I'm a little screwed up somehow.

Thankfully, I met someone who's really great,

and loves me anyway, and won't leave me.

And I-- I really wish he was here right now.

Regardless, I think that you shouldn't beat yourself up

any more about it, in case you are, you know.

But you know what, you probably aren't.

Why am I even here?

Why am I forgiving you?

I really wish you would just come

out and say something to me.

-So you broke your vow?

-Yeah.

I suck at meditating.

I always have.

It's never really been my thing, but I keep trying.

I'm just trying to belong to something.

Anyway, you probably have a lot of questions for me.

-Yeah.

I was curious about your experience of motherhood,

and also wanted to know why you haven't

contacted me all these years.

-Well, let's see.

Where to start?

You're having a baby.

-And I'm not going to do what you did,

no matter what happens.

-When you were a kid, it-- it wasn't so hard to be me.

You didn't really understand what it meant that I left.

And you just-- you kind of just went along

with visiting me occasionally.

But once you-- once you grew older,

you-- you were really angry.

And I-- I moved away.

It was easier.

I'm not as together as you and Emily.

I'm not-- I know I hurt you both terribly, and I--

I can barely forgive myself for that.

But-- but I try.

-OK.

So do you have any words of advice for me?

-No.

I think I'm the last person in the world

you want to take advice from.

Let's see.

Mm.

Cardboard boxes.

You loved playing with all sizes of cardboard boxes.

-Really?

That doesn't sound like me.

-Well, you were a baby.

-Anything else?

-You always finished what you started.

-I did?

-Oh, yeah, you did.

-Hi.

Um, I-- I thought-- I don't know.

I have to leave early in the morning.

Do you wanna grab some dinner?

-Oh.

Oh, I'd like to, but, um-- I took this vow.

I mean, I could break it, but-- well, I guess,

I actually already have broken it.

I mean.

Not that it matters anyway, but it's-- it's just one more day.

-Well, you should finish it.

-Thanks, sweetie.

I knew you'd understand.

So we can do dinner in New York.

-Yeah.

[heartbeat]

LEON: Hey, Sarah!

-What are you doing here?

-What am I doing here?

I was worried about you, damn it.

-I can't believe it.

I can't believe you're here.

How did you find me?

Who's that?

-Oh, that's Gordie.

He's a cab from the airport.

Hey.

Thank you so much.

All the best, brother.

-You didn't even use technology?

-Technology?

No, baby.

I relied on my human instinct.

That and I called your dad.

-Let's get out of here.

-Let's do it.

-Um, I was hoping I could meet your mom.

-You'll meet her sometime.

-What?

How did-- how did it go with her?

That bad?

Well, what's gonna happen next?

-I honestly don't know.

That's my parallel being.

-Towie.

-I'm actually quite fond of it now.

LEON: Yeah?

-Yeah.

You're reading all of these at the same time?

-Yeah, I guess.

They all have different opinions,

so it's actually really confusing.

I'm actually a little freaked out.

-Yeah, me too.

-And excited.

-Yeah, me too.

[music playing]

[baby laughing]

SARAH: I gotcha.

I gotcha.

[chomping noises]

Get back here.

Get back here.

Get back here.

I'm gonna get you.

I'm gonna get you.