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[music playing]

I'm ready to truly live.

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I'm from Los Angeles.

I went to Rishikesh, my first time to India.

Since I was a kid, I've been wanting someone

that I could call my guru, a wise teacher.

I think we all want that.

I feel incredibly at home in Rishikesh.

I feel deeply connected, just at ease with meditation.

I wanted to study with a guru, a wise Yogi.

And I found Anand.

And to my astonishment, really, he's 27 years old

and lives in the modern world.

He rides a motorcycle.

He has an iPhone, very well off, and has

chosen the life of a Yogi.

I studied with Anand for three years in India and in America.

We had experiences where afterwards I'd ask him,

I'm like, were you doing something at that point?

Because I felt a huge shift in my body and my energy.

And so the next day I asked him, were you

saying something at that point?

And he's like, yeah, I was saying a mantra

and sending it to you.

And he's like, and I saw you receive it.

He's 27 and yet has the wisdom of who

knows how many lifetimes.

So Anand tells me that he wants to take this amazing journey

into the Himalayas, into Ladakh, over the highest

road in the world, which is more than 18,000 feet in altitude,

steep, icy cliffs, dangerous roads, all on motorcycles.

This is the hardest road you can ride your bike on.

This is not just a bike adventure.

This is the highest pass, the highest self.

Everything in me said, holy shit.

I don't know how to ride a bike, Himalayas, stupid.

I'm a crazy rider.

I've been riding bikes I don't know for how long.

Never wanted to ride a bike.

I think it's dangerous.

I have no desire.

And then I thought, well, OK, well I'm afraid of that.

I'll just say yes.

I'll just say yes now because I want to go to The Himalayas.

And I want to be with Anand.

That shows some commitment to transformation.

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Fascinating, in India, the name

for time, death, and illusion is the same word.

It's called kala.

Kala is time.

Kala is death.

Kala is illusion.

So death is just another name for time.

Whatever is bound by time will die.

And whatever is beyond time, cannot die.

For you to die, for something to totally destruct,

it has to be bound within time.

And that's kala.

So we offered this challenge to a group

of people who, unlike myself, are experienced motorcyclers,

but who have not studied with Anand,

other than Eric, who met Anand in America.

We just get stuck in these little boxes

of who we're supposed to be.

You become a husband.

And you have to be a husband in a certain way.

And then you become a father.

And having children, you have to become a certain way.

And I think a lot of times, you lose who you are.

And now with this trip, it's just

like my blossom of getting out of my box of who everyone

thought I was supposed to be.

How can we even live separated, so

disconnected from this?

How can we ever think that happiness is possible,

joy is possible?

Cannot be, because you're living in a lie,

caught up in a little box.

My concern would be each person's level of preparedness

for what we're about to experience.

Just in terms of going from this environment, which

can be upwards of 90 degrees, to this environment, which

could be 25 degrees, and all those varying

stages in between.

So my concern would be are we really

prepared for all of those different levels

that we may encounter?

This is like the Mt.

Everest of biking.

This is the highest drivable road a bike can reach.

So don't expect it to be easy.

Don't expect it to be 10 miles an hour

and riding 50 kilometers a day.

You cannot do it.

You have chosen to be on the highest pass.

The journey starts in Rishikesh, and then

on to Manali, the gateway to the Himalayas.

From there, it's in to a cold no man's land, one

of the most dangerous roads in the world, traversing mountain

passes over 18,000 feet high, exposing silence and beauty,

and all leading us to Leh.

From there, it's over the highest pass,

and into the hidden Nubra Valley,

a trip totaling 2,000 kilometers.

I've been riding for two weeks in America.

I bought a bike, and then two weeks in India, at the most.

Next thing, highest pass.

It could be a big truck trying to avoid a pothole.

And he's not going to be looking at me.

He's going to be looking at the pothole.

But so long as I'm looking at that truck,

you can swerve and avoid, and just those sorts of day

to day hazards, I think I'll be fine.

And we as a team will be fine.

As soon as we took off, I got inside.

And this truck's coming around and taking up the whole road.

I just had enough room between here and the dirt.

And the dirt was just a few more feet where it was, you know,

no man's land.

Is that common?

People getting hit because of the truckers?

They almost get hit, it's common, almost.

That's very common.

But getting hit is not so much because you get used to it.

So you just have to realize that you

have to not only drive safe.

But you have to take care of the other person's crazy driving

here.

Because those trucks don't care.

They are road killers.

You have to ride defensively.

Or aggressively.

Aggressive defensive.

Just go fast.

Just go.

Just keep going.

Don't stop.

Or just stop.

Don't do halfway.

They're going to the top of the Himalayas

at 18,500 feet on a motorcycle?

I'm in.

I'm looking for a higher purpose more than anything.

The sound just does something to you.

It just makes you clear, makes you still.

Purification occurs in stillness because when you're still,

when the water is still, it becomes clear.

So the highest pass is-- it's just sort of unloading stuff.

Conventional mundane society has told me

I should be married by now.

I should have children by now.

Do you see what I mean?

That's the story that needs to be let go.

Our job as people who were once children

is to come back to our own child because

in that there is freedom.

In that, there is freedom.

In that, there is joy.

[speaking hindi]

At about 18, I left Canada and was on my own in Europe.

And I was modeling in Europe.

And I was alone for the first time away from my parents.

Everything that God gave me through Christianity,

I wouldn't trade a millisecond of it,

except for maybe the judgment that I had on others

and made myself separate and sort

of more righteous in my mind and my heart.

These symbols, these are all representing ego.

This right here, this has to go in the fire above all,

the accumulated information.

In the yoga sutra, Patanjali said

one of the biggest obstacles to freedom is knowledge,

the false idea of "I know."

The worst thing I tell myself: that I'm not good enough.

Before anyone was around, I nicked a tourist's heel.

And he just reminded me that it's not just me on the road.

Like, if I don't have the skills,

I'm putting someone else in danger.

And to me, I have a deep compassion not wanting

to hurt someone else.

So that's, so--

It's hard to believe that a Yogi with such

a free and adventurous spirit would also

be carrying the burden of ill-fated prediction

from the stars.

See in India, in the families we call it a Yogic path.

They make the chart of the child as soon as he's born.

So even the name comes from the chart.

And I read the scroll.

And I see, what's that?

And then I go ask one of my teachers.

They said, oh, that's the time you're going to die.

So I am that age.

And I am on that journey.

If the prediction will come true or not,

that we shall see together.

So this is like our collective ego, collective consciousness.

You see the coconuts representing

all the accumulated stuff.

So will you just hold it in your hands.

And put your intention what you want to clear,

whatever that may be which is holding you

from your own higher self.

We all have something.

So let's not pretend that we are all free.

So we will send a prayer into it.

What's that which we want to offer back into the universe?

I will pass it along.

And then we'll put it in the fire together.

[chanting]

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So the tying of the yarn acts as a physical reminder

so that our intention and attention

unite towards the Himalayas, the highest pass, and our highest

self.

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The first phase is three days through the hills and towns

just to get to the base of the Himalayas.

We travel with one support vehicle

which carries our supplies and our mechanic.

We'll be riding on a single cylinder 350cc Royal Enfield

street bike.

All right, guys.

Check this out. iPod.

Volume.

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To me, it was like going down a one way

street the wrong direction.

And everybody's coming at you, including families

with no helmets on in sandals, four people on a bike.

The pack had split up in two different directions.

And there was some confusion.

I'm not going to call it a panic mode.

But I kind of went into safety mode.

Guys pull over.

The support vehicle, he has to always stay with us.

Anand went one way.

Dean went one way.

The bikes went that way.

The last person who's the last rider in the back,

you know, he's watching all this--

We're having issues this early in the trip.

I was concerned about what other issues

we're going to have going up the rest of the mountain.

It would be an unpopular and unfun ride

if this kept happening.

That's all I'm saying.

And I don't want to go through it.

You know what I mean?

You cannot project just the start on the whole trip.

The journey starts now.

This is not the trip.

Now, from this point, we are going on the journey.

I feel better now.

And I shouldn't have had that extra cup of coffee.

But that's the way it is!

You look good in the helmet.

Such a rookie mistake.

And if I rush to keep up with these guys,

totally self defeating.

So slow down, Adam.

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It's beautiful to see the particular expression,

how the universe expresses itself in different facets.

And with the possibilities of growth,

possibilities of transformation.

One of them is Adam Schomer.

This journey is very important for him.

He's no more who he used to be.

And he's not yet who he's going to be,

which is extremely beautiful.

It's kind of a new kid learning new ways.

I'm one of the fortunate ones on the trip

because I got to come here with one of my best friends.

I mean, it's 19 years, right on.

Brooks is the one that got me on the trip.

He's one of my closest friends.

Everyone should have a friend like Brooks.

Five hours into our journey, and it's

the longest I've ever ridden a bike at one time,

and this in 100 degree heat.

A storm comes in, and I'm like, now that I've had fun,

now I'm, OK-- here comes a thunderstorm and rain.

And Adam, can you ride in this?

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I started getting really fatigued and tired.

He didn't realize what he was even

getting into simply because he has not done this before.

And he doesn't even have the right jacket for this trip.

There was a construction area, a lot of rocks and boulders.

I saw the whole thing.

It was like a water truck in front of us.

And Anand went around it.

He decided to make a pass on the truck

when it was a wrong time to do it.

The truck pinched into the left.

He put his foot down.

And then my fear was that he was going

to go underneath the truck completely.

I feel like-- I feel like it's numb.

All right, so keep the boot on.

He needs to get to the hospital before they take it off.

All right, let's take him.

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I was kind of in shock.

And I couldn't believe what was going on.

And I didn't even want to look at my foot.

I had no idea what was going-- when we took my boot off,

what was my foot going to be like?

And was it broken in 100 pieces?

I didn't know.

There was a big water tanker truck.

And I thought I could just maneuver right around it.

But I was tired.

And I wasn't thinking.

And I really didn't question, like,

oh, maybe I should just wait.

Yes

No break?

Woo-hoo!

Yeah!

Not broken.

It's just a really bad sprain.

I'm really grateful that-- I think

I felt like I was watched over.

Watching that happen with Eric,

the worst case scenario kept playing itself over and over

in my head, going, OK well, what if I lose focus for a second?

Or what if someone pulls in my lane?

And I'm going to be paralyzed for the rest of my life.

If you lose your concentration and your focus, you will die.

People are afraid.

It's true.

Everyone has a fear going on.

I know I have tons of it.

Today was a 14 hour ride covering only 260 kilometers.

It's too much to ask to not be afraid, not afraid at all.

But if you can hold still, and just breathe, and know,

and know in your heart that you are loved And have more

love in your heart than fear.

Our love can trump the fear.

The truck is coming.

And you're just going to the gravel.

if you just have more love in that moment, then you're OK.

You are OK, right?

But if the fear seizes you in panic, the mind becomes dumb.

Fear makes us dumb.

Love makes us supremely intuitive, intelligent.

This morning, Eric decides not to ride.

But his accident has helped heighten our awareness

as we ride to the next town, Mandi.

Thanks to Anand's first talk about replacing fear with love,

I found myself battling that line of fear and love again.

And fear was definitely winning.

I remember what I know from my own yoga, take these superhuman

deep breaths.

And that seems to really calm down

my nervous system for at least six seconds or so.

The constant flying down the road with trucks,

and cars, and people coming at you,

is just really hard on your mind and your body,

because it's that fear of death constantly,

because a car'll come right into you that last minute, you know,

move.

Or you have to move.

And it's just constant, like 110%.

I think it was really important for Eric

to see what has happened, and for him

to go through it, through his self doubt, and the fear,

and to really come out in one piece, you know?

And to really come out strong.

Gotta get back on that horse, man.

Anand put four fingers up.

And at that moment, I'm like four.

I saw me, and Paul, Mike, and Anand.

And I'm like, is that the four that

are making the highest pass?

My next thought right then, was, but what about Brooks?

Of course he's going to make it.

And I look in my mirror.

In my mirror, I see Brooks.

I just slowly start to make my turn.

And I look in.

And all of a sudden, this truck just shoots right out.

There's nowhere to go on the road.

And so I realize, I'm going to clip this guy.

Something just said to me, jump left.

Jump left!

He hit my left handle bar.

And it went down under the truck.

I heard the crack.

And I saw him tumble.

And actually like tumble and land kind of standing.

It was like the weirdest like pop up.

How did you not go under the bumper?

If you go under the bumper, you die.

I saw him go down.

As I'm sliding and tumbling, I just see in my peripheral,

I see Eric.

And I was right behind him.

Sliding by me.

I'm like, oh, shit.

I'm fucking done.

Fuck this.

Oh my God.

Fuck this.

I'm fucking done.

Honestly, after Eric and Brooks crashed,

there was like this feeling of, like, this is it.

Eric's like, I'm done.

That's it.

And Brooks, one of the best riders, get hits by a truck.

Are people going to bail?

Is it going to be done?

You know, every rider knows that whenever

they get on a bike, they're increasing their risk.

I don't want this to be the experience that kind of puts

them over.

Are you fine?

This is going to be a little swollen

and stiff tomorrow, ow, yeah, right there.

Do we notice one similarity?

That all the three things has happened at turns,

at these curves.

So you guys, we need to be really aware at how we turn.

Well, I think, it sounds like Brooks was aware.

That's why he's talking to us right now.

As we said the first day, our intention is we move as one.

And somebody gets hurt, we all get hurt, right?

So we have to be thankful as a group

that this just becomes a part of the adventure of the ride,

and not something that keeps us from riding, you know?

Seeing all these experienced riders go down,

I really don't want to ride right now.

But I don't have a choice.

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I really thought the trip, in some ways,

was falling apart today.

I mean, Eric was gone.

Where's the next airport?

Because I'm ready.

He was not in his body at all.

I just want to go home and see my wife, and play with my dog.

Holy shit, I don't know what's coming.

The guy didn't even get out of the truck.

Here it is in this hotbed of spirituality, and awareness,

and awakening.

And this guy couldn't even look at me

to see if my head was split open on the side of the road.

He just had to get the fuck out of there.

What I've seen in other people,

for sure, is this rising concern in people's faces,

especially at the end of the day, this rising,

like, don't let us ride in the dark again.

I've never had my nervous system fire

at 100% survival mode.

My awareness is so heightened right now

to what's coming around that corner.

Spirituality starts through humanity.

Situations like that, you get to choose.

Be positive, or freak out and be all dramatic about it.

And all that happened is I hit a truck.

It was a moment that he and I will certainly

share and laugh about.

I mean, he always goes to humor.

It's a beautiful thing.

It's a gift.

Incredible India, it's a paradox I guess.

I was pulled into that feeling of, why are we doing this?

Like, this is really crazy.

Why are we risking all these things?

I really told him that he always had the option of going.

And I would help him if he wanted to go back.

But he didn't have to ride the bike if he didn't want to.

But he had to stay on the journey.

Because it was not about riding, or proving to anybody about,

look, how powerful, or how courageous I am.

The biggest courage is to go beyond your mind,

to go beyond what your mind is telling

to you, to go beyond the familiar.

Why am I here, really?

It's not really about going up and doing what we do.

It's really about in here.

And, for me, fear, overcoming that fear,

getting in touch with it, getting past it,

and if I did get back on the bike,

I would just be giving in to that.

There's always this play of fear,

and conquering fear, fear, conquering fear, fear,

conquering fear.

And I see people doing that every day.

And people getting over it is exactly what

I would want from this trip, pure and simple,

just to see people grow and get over their fears.

I'm going to just chill behind you, OK?

Had I not had my helmet, my protective shoulder pads,

and kneepads, and boots on that accident that I had,

I probably wouldn't be sitting here talking to you right now.

And I told him, I said, it's my commitment

to make sure you get fully geared up.

I've seen what happens to people's heads

when even you're doing everything right

and you slam into the pavement, or your slam into a truck.

That'll be my little wisdom that I'll try to pass on to Anand.

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When we started this trip, I would

avoid thinking about these icy mountain passes.

Even Anand has never attempted these roads.

But now here we are, the gateway to the Himalayas.

Now is the real journey starting for us.

This is the highest pass, Khardungla.

This road that we start tomorrow is really

all the highest pass, the highest drivable

road in the world.

And it doesn't end until we get to Khardungla.

Ladakh means the land of passes.

It gets its name from this road.

The most number of passes are on this road.

So once we cross the first pass, Rohtang,

we are in no man's land.

We will find snow on the road.

We'll find mud streams on the road.

We'll find muddy road.

We'll sleep at Jespa at 10,000 feet.

And then we go up to Baralachala at 16,500.

But this pass is still closed, still not open.

They say they clear it, and then it snows again.

They clear it.

And then it snows again.

Day before yesterday, they had six feet of snow.

We will be the first riders who are going this season.

We will be the first.

We get to clear the mood of the highest road in the world.

But there is another option.

We can go from Manali, to Shinagar, Kargil, and then Leh.

This is open.

And it is the easier route.

You know, intellectually it is the safer choice.

But something keeps whispering to me to continue on our path.

So this road is the real choice.

It's the real truly living.

Either we go to safety, or we go for it.

We risk it.

And I think it's the choice that Anand's

been making his whole life, carrying a prophecy that he'll

die at a certain age, and yet still living

his life fearlessly.

I just pondered and pondered on it,

to know that the time of passing away is right here.

It kind of has a liberating feeling to you.

It liberates you.

It really makes you honest.

Are you OK with that decision.

taking the highest road, the highest pass?

Yes.

Oh yes.

Mike?

Yep.

We have to do it.

Working together, we'll have a great time, beautiful things

we will reveal about your own capacity.

It's just that you've never tested yourself.

You've never allowed or given yourself the opportunity

to reveal what you're capable of.

You're going to be driving through snow.

As soon as we start, in 10, 15 kilometers,

it's going to be ice winds.

We have to be aware not to let fear keep us

from our own capacity.

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What you will find out about your own self

through this journey is immense, not the adventure of it,

just the consciousness with which we are moving.

We are moving with the mountain.

We are moving with the snow.

We are moving with the wind.

Today, I actually feel like I can do it.

And that feeling alone is a lot for me.

And every time we would hit some

of this, the water and the mud, I'd very generously tell Mike,

I'd be like, I'm totally fine walking through.

This is not a problem.

He was like, hell no, kid.

Stay on the back!

Every time you go through those,

too, your ego is going don't fall.

Don't fall.

You don't want to be the one person that falls.

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Inevitably, the bike starts wobbling.

I just put my foot down like I normally would.

And that's when it hits you, it's like, ah!

So I got this searing pain from dealing with my foot.

And that made the climb that much more challenging for me.

I got it from the side of the road.

She goes, no, it's for rent For rent.

And I was like, 500?

And we settled at 700.

No, we were clear.

My relationship with Anand is very complicated.

There's this really intense almost like battle

that I feel between our egos.

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If you've been in this lady's hut,

it's just the most beautiful place.

The rocks of jewel, home, money, ohm.

I will let the sacred jewel of my heart shine

forth, bring joy and light to the world and to me.

That's the mantra of compassion.

That's the mantra you will see in the prayer wheels.

People sit here, and they carve them.

And then they leave.

And the most beautiful thing you'll see, they're all unique.

And none of them has a name on it that who wrote it,

or such and such date.

See, it's really about total annihilation of the ego.

Somebody by chance, like us, could come upon it

and feel at ease, kind of remember,

again, what life is all about, just by chance.

It feels like the spiritual journey is now

really beginning.

No more distractions of traffic or information.

It's just us, a tribe amidst the mountains.

I got a lot of noise that's going on inside my head.

And I get a lot of noise back in Los Angeles.

And I've just gotten so used to it

that when you start hearing quiet, especially

beyond the bike, and seeing the scenery,

it just takes me to another place.

And I'm trying really, really hard to just take all that in.

Oh, that was beautiful, man.

That was an awesome ride.

That was the best day yet.

It was gorgeous.

It was magical.

I've personally never ridden in anything like that

ever in my life.

You did great.

And it was cool just to, like, play on a bike.

And these things know what they're doing.

They like it.

They like the earth.

They like the mud.

And they play with us.

I'm glad I'm here.

I'm glad you're here too, buddy.

Glad you didn't hop on a plane.

There's always one of those things where you kind of go,

I'm never going to do that.

And I've done a lot of the never going to do thats.

And kind of the last remaining one for me was I'm

never going to get on a bike.

This is like tough stuff to learn on.

And I actually was surprised how natural

it was, the gear clutch thing on the left side.

The initial feeling was, not I'm one of them, clearly not.

But it was like, I'm 10% one of them, or maybe 5% one of them.

It wasn't so mysterious anymore.

It wasn't so, this is really foreign to me

and I'm just this chick hanging out on the back.

Wow, what an amazing place to learn.

I think when you have the opportunity

to push through something and you don't, it's

much worse to get back on a plane and go,

you didn't freaking do it.

You didn't do it.

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Anand can flip us right into the highest vibration.

And that's something Anand has done countless times

through the three years studying with him.

He has this ability to push me to places I wouldn't normally

go, things I wouldn't want to do.

And I start to realize that someone else can know me better

than myself.

And that's humbling.

The relationship with Adam is of deep love and respect.

He recognizes that there are certain things he doesn't know.

So that's the thing.

He has trust.

And that's the transformation.

And that's the big leap for him.

I think to ride here on this journey is really--

says a lot about his deep faith in me, and respect.

And trust in that he'll be fine.

So while the other riders rest for the day in Jespa,

Anand and I travel the 50 kilometers up

to the top of Barlachala.

It's this blocked, dangerous pass,

to check, to see if it's going to open.

It does feel like we're kind of shedding a layer.

And now the real rawness, and truth, and honesty part starts.

My first experience of Anand was super brilliant,

could teach me a lot of things.

And I'm not feeling his heart.

Yeah, he's more here.

He's more here than here.

I feel separate from Anand.

That's it.

And I can't speak for other riders.

I don't know how they feel.

And maybe that's the way it's meant to be.

And I'm OK with that.

Five kilometers before Barlachala

we encounter the chief army engineers

that are in charge of this pass.

Anand decides we should go up and see the pass for ourselves.

Here we got a Yogi who has got all this wisdom,

and can teach us a lot of things and everything.

But mechanically, what does he know?

I thought maybe we'd be in a little bit of trouble.

And actually I am humbled now, because things

started coming together.

And I realized that he knew what he was doing.

And he's one person I can honestly

say that the qualities he has, I would

like to take a lot of that and model,

because he keeps things so simple.

I don't say that about too many people.

Collected at 16,000 feet, collected at the source.

They are working there, saying around five to six kilometers

more.

After this turn, it's slightly thicker again.

But after five kilometer, there is no snow.

This is the thickest.

Where we are, as you are going up, 30 feet, 40 feet of snow.

Every pass has a temple.

But you have to request the pass to open.

The pass is still not open.

Who knows.

A mountain might listen.

If he listens, he might let us pass.

These are all piled by people.

Tremendous snow will clear from this place.

All that you will see is piles of rock.

Prayers peaking through.

People's prayers, yeah, coming out of the snow.

When we cross this, we have to cross it in the early morning

because as the day progresses, the chances of avalanche

increase because the sun beats down, and then--

It was right here that, two weeks ago, an avalanche

killed 1,200 goats and one man.

It would be my observation of Anand that he's a bit reckless.

To have a certain respect for the road and the environment

is very important because of the ripple effect

that might happen to other people in the group.

There's a part of me that goes I hope Anand doesn't convince

these guys to open it too early.

You know, I felt inside.

I felt a calling that we had to go.

We had to take the. chance.

It was as if the mountain was calling.

It was whispering for us to be the first one to cross over it.

[music playing]

We're waiting for a little bit.

I'm going to keep a clock.

We're not going to wait more than 20 minutes.

10:37, if by 11 no word, we can't stay anymore.

I don't want to stay up here very long.

The sooner we can roll, the better.

I didn't know how altitude would affect everybody.

Having been up there for two hours the day

before, and come down with a throbbing headache,

I knew two hours was too long.

Eric is already feeling the dizziness.

He just slid on the ice and went down.

So he might have somebody ride for him.

We'll see.

Hopefully he gets back on.

They're just checking on the pass.

If I don't hear in 10 minutes, then we'll

go up because we can't just wait for much longer.

Mike, Paul, and Brooks, we went forward.

And I was the first one.

And what I see is slush, just thick slush.

Where we were stuck was an avalanche-prone area

because there was just 15 feet of snow.

You look up and just mounds of snow,

a glacier on top, which could come down.

And sun was shining.

It could come down any moment.

So we made it through the first obstacle.

There was snow all over.

And we somehow made it.

And I look back, and there is no--

the three riders aren't there.

I'm just wondering.

Should I go back?

Well, Eric's back there.

Eric stopped.

He fell, but not bad.

He's just-- someone told everyone that it's closed.

I had a hard time turning corners.

I just feel like my coordination is just really off.

If you want Rajik to ride, then have him get on now.

Yeah, I think I'm going to make the call.

So I had to make a decision.

So I decided I would walk back to see

maybe these guys are closer.

And I start walking back.

I'm in this slush to my knees.

Somehow I keep walking.

And I come to the turn.

But I see there is no sign of the riders.

And now I realize, I can't walk to them.

My feet are floating in my boot, probably an inch of water

beneath my feet and the shoes.

So my feet are freezing.

My whole clothes were wet.

Thankfully, by that time I saw Adam.

And I was a little angry.

I shouted at him, hey, you can't wait for so long

because I thought they were just-- I was a little concerned

because it was all that area where these guys were waiting

was all avalanche prone.

And I wanted to get everybody out

of there as soon as possible.

As we go down, this whole area is blocked, just blocked.

We're totally stopped.

We're pushing five hours up there over 16,000 feet.

And these plows suddenly run out of gas.

Because of the altitude, everybody was slowing down.

I'm enjoying myself.

I'm Just a little beat right now.

Once the altitude sickness started hitting,

once the throbbing headache hits, then you wonder,

OK, am I getting this?

And how long are we going to be here?

Are we going to be overnight?

Of course the car gets stuck.

So at that point, that's where everything seemed

to turn a little bit to the negative

because we were helping to get this car out the best we can.

And nobody has a shovel.

Nobody has a shovel.

Some guy pulls out a bat.

The whole world had changed.

People were there stuck.

And everybody was screaming.

And I remember just being exhausted, just like, wow,

the air's really thin up here, obviously.

I can't.

I don't have the energy.

And I'm sitting back on the side of the road.

I'm watching all these people work.

And I'm like, oh, I should help.

But it's like I got nothing left.

We decide to syphon gas from our cars to give to the plows

so they can clear our path.

There was no road to be seen.

I mean, it was fascinating.

There was no road.

The sun was shining.

And because of the sun, there was the fear

of new avalanches being there.

Go, go, go.

I was wearing the helmet.

And I just felt I was in a movie.

I was in a movie.

I didn't feel the connection to the mountain.

So my visor, I just threw it off.

I keep feeling like, cool, we made it.

And there's exhilaration.

And then you're faced again with another huge pile of snow.

And how do we get through this one?

The water was increasing by the minute.

Oh my God.

Whose bright idea was this?

And since the road hasn't opened this season,

we don't know if the tent town of Sarchu even exists yet.

That means we would sleep outside in the cold.

So you have just walls of snow on your left and on your right.

And I remember going through a puddle.

And then I hit another puddle, and then another puddle.

And then what I thought was a puddle except it was ice.

And then I realized just how high up we were.

Just in five minutes' time, we go down.

And there is another big, big avalanche.

There is no way bikes are getting through it.

There is no passage.

There is a steep fall right next to it.

I puked.

I guess the altitude sickness is real.

When I saw Paul get sick and start puking,

that's when the stakes went the highest.

I'm trying to get down to 14,000 feet.

Puking is usually, like, a second level acute mountain

sickness.

And if he's stuck on the mountain,

and we can't go either way, then it's trouble.

Is Paul going to have some serious damage?

Because we're going to be up here

for three days at this altitude.

And there's no relief.

And what does that do to my brain?

And this one looks really hard to pass.

It's getting late.

The sun's about to set.

And I don't know.

The vans are definitely not getting through this one.

And we have no supplies and none of that.

My head was throbbing.

It felt like a vice grip was just squeezing, squeezing,

squeezing.

There was snow and ice on the outside.

And there was fire on the inside with everyone.

It was just raw.

Stuck, as the feeling, that's stuck.

Why are we here?

Why are the circumstances like this?

Who chose to be here?

Who can I blame?

I'm angry.

And I'm going to blame Anand because he's

the one that chose to come down.

We should have waited two days until the pass was clear.

And it would have been easier.

Then a sadness sets in really quickly because then realize

that you're not really angry at that person.

You're just afraid.

And the only thing you can do is just

choose: move forward or sit in the emotions.

Literally eight people pulling one bike, one by one,

one by one.

Finally the bikes make it through.

But the support vehicle cannot.

So we have no choice but to leave Eric and Arian behind.

[music playing]

We arrived in Sarchu.

This was the hardest ride ever.

As our bikes rolled in, the sheer joy

screams and claps from people as if we

had kind of brought a big hope to them.

We were heroes as we drove in.

There were people who had been waiting weeks

to get up to Barlachala.

When we got to the tent site, that's

when it started to get-- my concern then

started happening for the trucks.

That's the whole Barlachala.

It's like, you're happy for one second.

Then boom, then here comes the next thing.

And that's life, too.

You're like, ah, sweet, how sweet.

And then, real quick, worry can come in if you let it.

[music playing]

Morning.

Morning.

And people are just starting to get up.

And I'm going to have some chai masala tea.

20 rupees each.

I questioned the highest pass yesterday during the day.

What?

Shame on you.

I know, well, when the altitude was hitting.

And it's such a-- when you can't escape it, when you're stuck,

when you know you can't escape the altitude,

the whole trip is just day by day.

Just do one at a time.

I never felt bad about the choices

that were made for us at all.

That was, undoubtedly, the most amazing,

most life threatening, insane, ridiculous, action-packed

adventure of my life.

Regardless of me feeling as crappy as I did, I was tired.

But so were they.

If it wasn't for the camaraderie of all

the other bikers, we never would have made it through.

We were all going through it and everything.

And I think that's what made it easier.

Just to see people who didn't know each other kind of coming

together for one common mission, it was awesome.

It put my faith back in humanity.

Most important, at this altitude, is just to stay calm.

And to know that we are all cared for.

And we are all together again.

You have each of us energy and heart to tap into.

[chanting]

After a good rest, Eric hops back on to his motorcycle.

But we continue to feel the pounding headaches

and extreme fatigue from the altitude.

The way I feel about having done Barlachala

when we did it is that it's not something

I would have chosen myself.

And that's where a guide pushes you.

I was surprised Adam made it.

It was great to see he made it.

This is a new guy whose kid was due in, what,

about three weeks, one month.

And he makes it through one of the hardest riding days.

So I was really proud of him, actually.

Today we traverse mountain passes

in excess of 17,000 feet.

I think for the riders, it was a great lesson

in seeing their mind go, to see the fears come up.

And to know, at the end of the day, that they were fine.

So it was a great study as well, inquiry

into the nature of the self, into the nature

of the mind, a great opportunity given to us by the mountain.

It will be etched in every rider's consciousness,

that Barlachala.

[music playing]

So we pile rocks one top of one another.

That's your commitment to balance.

I go with balance.

I go with respect.

I live in balance.

That's the significance of piling rocks

on top of one another, is that I recognize balance,

the need for balance in our world,

the balance between the material and spiritual,

the balance between the Earth and me.

The plan before the highest pass

is to stop in Leh, where we get to spend time

at ancient monasteries and visit an oracle who can see into you.

And it's just difficult because I want to be there.

And I have this spiritual desire that I

have to balance with the fact that we still have two days

to get there, two days of a real journey across difficult roads.

After the really hard day of Barlachala,

I took the chance of taking people

to the dirt road, which for the mind would be very challenging.

But challenges reveal who you really are.

[music playing]

Hundreds of wild horses just running,

taking off into the field at that exact moment

when you are there.

I mean, if that's not divine mother smiling at you, telling

you how much she loves you, then what is?

[music playing]

The rest of the day started sliding downhill for me.

It was just crazy riding in the dirt, no paths, no road,

nothing.

And it was to jump the bike, and the bike

skidding all over the place.

It was crazy riding.

We'd been riding for maybe seven hours.

And the sun was going down.

It was getting cold.

Instead of just my mind going into fear, I just centered.

And I was just completely present, completely

present in the moment without fear, just let it go.

I was just one with what was going on.

At that point, I didn't want to ride behind people

and go at their pace.

I just got on the gas and just took off.

That's what happens.

One moment we're in bliss.

And the next, the mind goes to frustration and anger.

And I think we're all working on how do we find that balance?

Hey, I didn't sign up for easy.

You've got to appreciate there are

other people on the trip who are not like 100% right now.

Like poor Eric is back there already freaked out.

And we've got him in the middle of the night driving

on a cliff over a lake.

Some of the riders came up to me,

and are like, were genuinely like, what's going on, Adam?

Why are we arriving at night?

What is this shit, basically?

And it was the first time I had heard from a few people where

they were concerned about leadership.

The mind looks for something to blame.

But the fact is, this is the only place

we can stay for 100 kilometers.

I woke up in the middle of the night at one o'clock.

And I'm steaming hot.

My stomach hurt, completely sick feeling.

My head was pounding.

And I couldn't really breathe.

And everything future was coming up for me,

in terms of how am I-- I just got to get to Leh.

I just got to get to Leh.

And how am I going to ride tomorrow?

And so I just stepped back, went outside, looked at the stars

and started breathing.

And just got my breath back.

And for me, it was a big, big turning point

of just really coming to that breath.

Your physical body will react the first.

And then your thoughts start to follow.

And then what happens, it start to, like, magnify.

Even a little thing, starts to magnify it.

We are stuck in the mountains.

It starts to get dark.

And the mind can go in that moment.

Like, where the hell are we?

Turn it over to your prana, and you can balance your prana.

And the mind and the body will follow.

Being in nature right now is so calming

if you're not in your mind.

It calms you down, because there is no thought there.

There is just pure expression of prana.

And if you can connect to our own prana,

and unite it with this, we are free.

Then what happens is you become free of circumstance.

It was just fascinating to see everybody was feeling fine now.

There was nobody having a headache anymore.

There was no throwing up, no I need oxygen.

Just a great thing even for me as an individual

to see the shift that can occur in moments.

And in that moment, it was just amazing to see the willingness.

And since they were willing, transformation

happened just like that.

And even the water followed.

There was this calmness in the water.

And all of us around the lake had become more beautiful

and the mountains and the weather.

Satsanga it's called.

In Sanskrit we call it satsanga, meaning community of truth.

[music playing]

We travel as one to face our inner demons.

Entering the capital of this mystical region, Leh.

Known for tantric Buddhism, which

recognizes that the spiritual and meditative life is not

always so peaceful.

In the beginning, it's intense.

And as Anand says, you have to go to the fire

to come out gold.

Everybody was more aligned and centered.

And I think knowing, or at least prepared

for, like this transformation in themselves,

this real challenge in themselves

that they're all have now been physically put through,

and now are ready to jump into further

and deeper inside themselves.

When you ask human beings, are you afraid of death?

Most of the people say they are not because ego cannot

understand death.

So we are always in denial, because even when

we think about our death, we kind of survive it.

But when it knocks at your door, that's

when fear grips you by the throat.

But in that knocking, there is also this immense possibility

of liberation, of immense freedom.

But thankfully, also, I've had teachers

who have taught me to go beyond it, the five sensory,

physical label of what it means.

Only when she goes into a trance does she

start speaking in Tibetan language

because they say that the spirits which

channel through her is from Tibet,

from the land of the Dalai Lama.

She caught the guy before us in a lie.

She could see into him.

His liver was wilting.

She sucked the demons out.

And then my question was, will I have children?

And what will the mother be like?

I respect her answer because, yeah, I

guess it is a question of the mind.

I do find it funny, though, in a country where

the most important thing is marriage and having children,

where all of India is really about that, that she shuts you

down.

Before any ceremony, before any big step Dalai Lama takes,

he has his own state oracle who tells him which way to go.

I had no question for the oracle.

I just, in my head, asked to hear whatever

would help me the most on my journey.

Have you seen something?

I definitely felt she could see right into me.

You are a good, lucky man.

It helped me connect back to my heart, to that part of me

I know is so strong.

It's important to not try and intellectually

comprehend everything that she said, or make sense of it.

The mysticism of it is lost.

The beauty is lost.

Anand didn't even ask about his prediction.

I think that's the thing with humanity.

Before we try and understand, we jump.

We want to understand it before we fall in love with it.

It's important to just get in love deeper

and then understanding will reveal itself.

Lamayuru, the oldest monastery in Ladak.

This building that's standing is made on a rock

without any foundation.

And the walls are tilted so that they don't fall.

They're made with mud, and rock, and timber, still standing.

I brought them here so that they could

have a deeper experience, not just an adventure,

but also have this time to center in themselves

as we take off for the highest pass day after tomorrow,

and have this thousand year old place whisper into their ears

words of wisdom.

And fascinating that it's just us, nobody here.

If that's not magic, what is?

This was the route to come to Leh through here.

This was the monastery they would first come, and visit,

and pray.

So thousands of pilgrims have passed through here.

And one of the greatest teachers of Buddhism, Naropa,

he came here in 10th century and meditated.

So for me, it's really important

to be able to come to places like this,

and as the oracle said yesterday, to go deeper.

And so I listen to that.

To go deeper, and go deeper, and go deeper in this place,

I'm sure, will help.

Take this moment to allow yourself

deep realizations of obstacles that you have transcended,

of passes within your own psyche that you have crossed.

From the moment you chose, you decided

to come on this journey.

[drumming]

And as I go deeper, underneath the emotions,

underneath the angers, and the hates,

when we slash down and go below those, what remains

is this deep sense of gratitude for my teacher for getting us

this far, for leading us, and for all the teachers

that have come before him and have passed down

all these teachings.

And you can feel it here.

When fear sets in, and you get really scared,

that's the first thing you think about.

Just the safety of your family, being with your family,

and how much you miss them.

And that desire to just go there into that safety net,

and to be with them, and just be in their love,

it was almost dangerous to the mind.

And after a while, I just realized

that it was dangerous for me.

I love them.

And they're the most beautiful thing in my life.

But I found that it was almost keeping me down, that thought.

Instead of loving them, and wanting

to be with them out of fear, now I'm

just wanting to be with them out of just pure love.

[music playing]

We're coming to this right hand turn.

And you could see this black like in the line

of the middle of our lane and everything.

But nobody knew it was oil.

He turned his handlebars to the right,

and it just didn't stick.

And it just washed out.

And he went down.

And he was riding on top of the iron.

You could tell he was shocked.

It caught him off guard.

Oh my God.

Anand just went down.

It was just like, holy crap.

Brooks had asked me two, three times, saying, well,

I want you safe-- to be safe.

Why won't you wear the gear?

In the morning, I was packing, but then the gear wouldn't fit.

I said, you know what?

I'll just wear them.

So divine mother is very kind.

Paul's like, going, dude, can I borrow your pants tomorrow

with the pads in it?

You know, Anand's all messed up and everything.

And I'm thinking, oh, do you think we could take care of him

first?

We'll talk about tomorrow.

One thing I like about the helmet that I had yesterday on,

it said in the back, crazy grace.

It's all broken.

The top is broken.

No way.

The top of your helmet's broken.

So I think it was crazy grace yesterday.

When Adam came up and he saw.

And he's like, oh, you're OK.

You're not hurt.

I said, yeah, the prophecy's not about me getting hurt.

It's about me dying.

The biggest gratitude was it was me and not any other riders

because we don't want that before the highest pass.

We want all the riders there.

Had Anand not worn his helmet, he probably would have died.

So that's bringing death right back

to the forefront of our minds.

At the same time, we realize just how

divinely protected we've been this whole trip.

The highest drivable road in the world is within us.

All this journey is to realize that.

The last experience with the pass

was just really scary for me, for everyone,

so-- A big part of me says, yeah, go up in the car.

You've done great stuff.

You could go up in the car.

But I want to do it.

I definitely want to do it.

[music playing]

We traverse over 7,000 feet in only 50 kilometers

to reach Khardungla.

And then it's into the Nubra Valley.

[music playing]

Here I am on the highest pass, nearing

the pinnacle of this road, the highest road.

And I find myself still trying to keep up,

still falling, and still getting angry

because of the falls because I'm not keeping up.

These old patterns are still controlling me.

Just need to catch my breath for a sec.

I saw in him that he wasn't doing his 100%.

I purposely didn't say anything to him in that moment.

It was important for him to go into himself

and find that strength because he knows enough information.

He has enough wisdom.

And we have shared enough time and space together.

And he has the right to the consciousness which I carry.

[music playing]

After nearly 2,000 kilometers, 15 days on the road,

we finally reach the highest pass.

[music playing]

The inner journey's important.

But there's a big part of me that

did want to say I made it, that I didn't give in to my fears,

that I kept pushing.

Because there's that part of me that did

believe I could make it.

I'm a little overwhelmed with gratitude

because I didn't think I would do it on a bike.

Connecting with the whole team when

we're on top of the mountain, like, guys,

look at that, 18,300 feet.

I know that years are going to go by,

and I'm gonna look back on this being one of the greatest

adventures that I've ever been involved in.

Despite all the setbacks and accidents,

we really came together as one to make it here to the top.

But ultimately, it's an incredibly personal journey.

And I realize that amidst all this chaos, the hugeness,

the unknowing, that inside there's a deep, deep faith,

that regardless of the circumstance,

I'll always come through.

And that knowing will stay with me forever.

After what we've been through, there's

no ceiling on what we can do as people.

I am a lot stronger than I thought I was,

and a lot more capable of overcoming and not

turning back.

You don't get to realize it until you've

pushed yourself and explored.

You know, I'm just-- I'm very present to the absence of fear.

Like Anand says, well, you can't have

fear and faith in the same bucket.

I think going back to the states and everything,

I just have-- I'm in a different state of mind

in terms of release and control.

I'm confident it's one of those experiences that

will stay with me for a very long time.

Sharing this incredible experience with us

has been a tremendous journey.

It's been the most outrageous, life-threatening, insane,

blissful, audacious adventure that I've had.

The intention is fulfilled.

The riders have gotten deeper into themselves.

The beginning of the trip was all about teachings from Anand.

And so I heard them.

And they landed.

There was a sense of him kind of, like, being way out there.

And everyone kind of like struggling to keep up,

feeling uncertain, all those things.

And the second half of the trip

was all about connection with Anand.

There's a greater sense of unity.

I feel him.

I see him.

I see the beautiful desire to actually share this experience

and give to us.

He really lives what he spoke about.

I'm going to be a mess when I have

to say goodbye to everyone.

That's what I feel.

I really plan on sitting down and talking with my sons,

and sharing a lot of the philosophy

that he has to make them better people.

Go into their lives fearlessly and enjoy it

as much as they can.

I am still here.

So through awareness, we can transform everything.

But the fact is we all have a prophecy to die that is coming.

So how are we going to live with that awareness

every movement, every breath, every step?

How are we going to choose to live, to stand, to be

in our heart?

Who are we?

And what are we living for?

[music playing]

Adam is a very sincere walker, a sincere rider,

a sincere being.

I think it's been a big coming of age for him,

to get on a bike you have never ridden, to go and do this,

and kind of stepping into a new him, which is more true him.

So it's important to really ask ourselves,

and myself, what I really need.

And not from a fear place.

What motivates me?

What's that inner source that's left that pulls one through?

That's a good question.

This journey marks like a full circle.

It's written out there that it marks

my full circle of my own journey with death,

a total death, and a new, new birth.

I'm in love more.

I cannot say it enough.

Finding that love that leads us to truly living,

it's worth the risk.

[music playing]