Original subtitles

(birds chirping) (cars pass in the distance)

- You got my money bitch? Huh?

Don't act like you don't hear me.

You know what I'm here for.

You got my money, bitch?

I'll kill you. - No!

- I'll kill you. - No, no, no.

What are you doing? - Give me my money!

- What are you doing? - You stay out of this, hoe.

- I got you, I got is money right here.

- You stay out of this. - I got it!

- I said, or I'll kill you. - It's right here.

Eddy! - You workin' for him now?

- Get outta here! - You workin' for him now?

Huh? - No! Eddy, get out!

(hitting)

Eddy, get out!

- [Man] Shut your ass up!

- My name is Eddy Calderon.

I am an addict.

(slow, tense music)

I've always felt that there was

something missing in my life.

Nothing materialistic,

nothing that you can touch,

nothing that you can hold.

It's something that I had to feel.

I needed to experience.

Love...

Affection.

Fantasy was my reality.

My reality had no rules,

(sniffs)

and no boundaries.

(Eddy grunts)

- Come on, Eddy.

- [Eddy] Don't touch me.

Nobody could tell me nothing.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] The first time I snorted cocaine...

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] I didn't realize I was high.

(sniffs)

I was so used to the high of marijuana,

I was expecting the same thing.

- [Man] Eso.

(Eddy grunts)

Eso.

Ada, girl.

- [Eddy] I was talkative, energetic.

(men laugh)

And full of euphoria.

(laughing) (speaking in foreign language)

I liked it.

Nah.

I loved it, and I was hooked.

(panting)

(knocking)

Like I said, I'm an addict.

But every addict has the opportunity to change.

(soft, tense music)

My father and I didn't get along

as well as I would have liked,

but nobody gets to choose their parents.

- Oh, home run!

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] My father was a responsible man.

He always looked after the family,

but not only did he have a vice for women,

but he was a heavy drinker, as well.

The thing about my dad is that it made him very animated.

(Eddy speaking in foreign language)

He wanted to hug you.

He wanted to hold you.

(Eddy speaking in foreign language)

I liked my father when he was drunk.

(cars passing) (soft, tense music)

(speaking in foreign language)

(woman sobbing)

- I don't know what would have happened, man.

(speaking in foreign language)

He broke her arm.

Her en...

Her entire arm, just broken.

(Eddy breathing heavily)

No.

(speaking in foreign language)

- Where is he, man?

Where is he? (speaking in foreign language)

- I'll kill him.

I'll kill him.

- Hey, hey.

Eddy, Eddy. (Eddy sobbing)

- [Eddy] My father married my mother at a young age,

which is prevalent in Nicaragua.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] They had their fair share of good times,

but unfortunately I can only remember the bad.

(Eddy speaks in foreign language)

There were constant moments of verbal and physical abuse.

Eh...

The things he put her through. (speaking in foreign language)

(woman sobbing) (speaking in foreign language)

She remained by his side

which is something I can never understand.

I hated that.

I wanted her to leave in order to be safe.

No woman deserves to be treated like that.

Every person has a breaking point,

and my mother reached hers. (tense, dramatic music)

She tried to commit suicide.

(speaking in foreign language)

(Fernando sighs)

(speaking in foreign language)

(car starts up)

(insects buzzing)

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] I was tired of everything he got away with.

How could I be a good son if the man who created me

can't tell right from wrong?

And that was the last time.

I was angry.

I was upset.

If I had the guts,

I would've killed the old man...

But it wasn't worth it.

(soft acoustic music)

- So same opportunity that these men have,

you are being offered the same opportunity

for a second chance at this life, okay?

And what I want to do now is explain to you

the process that you'll be going through

in the next following weeks, months, if possible.

Like I mentioned to you, you're not forced to stay,

but I will let you know that you are alive

and you do have a purpose in this life.

It doesn't matter what you have done

or what you've been through,

but what matters is that you're here now

and that you go through this program.

But I am going to tell you, there are rules

that you have to follow.

One, we need obedience.

Two, we need for you to cooperate.

Three, we need you to recognize,

because if you don't recognize that you have problems,

there's nothing that can happen.

So what I'm gonna do now is I'm going to check your bags

and I'ma check you, too, all right?

All right. I hope you're okay with that.

- [Eddy] For what?

- Well, that way you don't introduce

anything into our facility.

Uh, maybe drugs or alcohol.

No magazines, none of that.

Okay. You can't keep your phone.

- [Eddy] How am I gonna call home?

- You'll call after your 21st day.

(insects buzzing)

This here is Dario.

- Hi. - Hi.

(television blaring in the distance)

- Whoa, whoa. - Hey I want Pinche's Tacos.

- Yeah, man. - You want tacos?

I'ma give you a concha, bitch.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] I tried to stay away from home as much as I could,

because my friends were better company than my own family.

- Oh, shit.

(laughs)

(speaking in foreign language)

- Hey, fool, I got the cotton candy, fool.

- You know, I'm not going to pay for that, aye.

I'm not gonna pay for that.

- Oh, you're talking about Big George.

- Hey, ooh, hey, excuse me, man?

It's almost two.

We just wanna get outta here.

We wanna pay and get out of your hair.

- Okay, brother, just like relax. Relax, okay?

Just relax, okay?

Just relax, then, okay?

Just let me help my customers first, okay?

- I know man, but it's almost two

and the law and all that.

(overlapping chatter)

- [Cashier] Sorry for that man.

I'm so sorry, man.

- I'll see you next time, man. - Okay.

Have a good night.

Be careful, okay? - Thanks bro.

Have a good night. Thanks, man.

- Okay, guys. Just be careful, okay?

- All right, cool. - You know.

- [Indio] All on the same.

Cito, you're paying separate.

- [Cito] Yeah, I got it.

I got it, already, I got it. - Okay, guys.

I have bad news.

I'm so sorry, you know?

I can't do it. It's already two.

- We were here. - Dude.

- We were here five minutes ago

and we are still here. - I know, but you...

- You just sold the guy.

You just sold him.

- This is why. See, this is why.

- We are not. The guy...

- [Cashier] Come on guys, you're already late, okay?

You're already late. - Seriously?

- And the guy, he buy it five minutes ago, you know?

Like, I can't do it, brother.

I'm so sorry. - Come on.

- [Indio] Let's just go.

- Hey fool, I want the cotton candy, I'm hungry.

(chattering)

- Hey, I'm gonna, I'ma get a cigarette.

- When did he start smoking?

- [Arturo] Hey.

- Hey bro.

- Hold on.

Yeah, what's up, man? - Hey, you got a cigarette?

- Yeah, hold on.

Hey, hold on guys, hold on.

Hang on, I know I got-

(hits) (grunts)

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Cito] Go, go, go.

Let's go, let's go, let's go! - Grab the bottle!

(laughing)

- [Arturo] Hurry your ass up.

(car starts up)

- [Indio] Get in the fucking car! Motherfucker, let's go!

(tires squeal)

(tense, dramatic synth music)

(tense synth hip hop music)

- Hey! (speaking in foreign language)

- My baby brothers.

How are you doing, huh? - Good.

- Doing good? - Good.

- Hey, hey. - Doing good?

- Look, what's up with you?

- Hey, man, just chillin'.

Grillin', chillin', eating, getting fat.

How's Ramon? - He's good, man.

He's good.

He recently got into bodybuilding. He's growing.

- Whatever, that fool's a punk, bro.

- [Benny] Are you sure? He's pretty tough, bro.

You should see his biceps.

- [Eddy] My oldest brother, Benny,

he was always at the wrong place at the wrong time.

He liked doing his own thing.

He was a very good liar and an even better thief.

As brothers we didn't get along too well.

I distanced myself from him for personal reasons.

Something I'd rather not talk about.

- [Benny] Pretty tough.

Call him up right now. - Call him up.

- Beat your ass up. - Call him up, let's see.

Let's see what's up.

- What's wrong with you, bro?

Why are you so hostile?

You're so hostile, angry.

You got issues.

Plus, I'm just playing with you bro.

- Yeah, well I'm not playing with you, man.

- Hey when did he grow some balls?

(speaks in foreign language)

They're at church, bro.

- [Eddy] They're still on that bullshit?

- Hey, why don't you respect it, bro?

It works for them.

It's their thing.

Anyways, what have you guys been up to?

- You know, working, partying.

- [Benny] Partying? What do you mean?

What kind of partying?

What kind of partying?

What kind of partying? With the homies?

- Yeah, no. - You like when I

touch you like that, huh?

Why don't you guys call me up?

- 'Cause we haven't gone to a sausage fest.

Isn't that your thing?

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Fernando] Hey, hey, hey, hey.

Hola, ma.

(speaking in foreign language)

- Okay.

(speaking in foreign language)

- Good.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] I was already so disconnected

from what my family was up to.

I couldn't put my finger on it but something was different.

Maybe he had changed.

Maybe the church thing was actually working.

(laughing)

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] Whatever it was, I still kept my distance.

(speaking in foreign language)

- Here we go.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Fernando Sr.] "Here we go?"

(speaking in foreign language)

- We're only trying to live our lives, that's all.

(speaking in foreign language)

(soft, tense synth music)

(tense synth hip hop music)

(laughing)

- Shh, shh, shh.

(laughing)

(mumbles in foreign language)

(laughing)

(speaking in foreign language)

(laughing)

(phone ringing) (buzzing)

(Eddy grumbles) (phone ringing)

(birds chirping)

(sniffing)

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] What's up bro?

- What up, man? - You look tired.

- Well, what do you expect?

He's a little boy. He's a baby.

You can't hang with the big boys like us.

He's gonna grow up one day.

(laughing)

- [Eddy] So what you guys talking about?

- Well your brother here is thinking about

throwing a kickback at your pad.

- My pad? Really?

- Yeah. Indio and Arturo are down.

We're supposed to meet later tonight.

I'll tell you about it later.

Let's go.

- [Eddy] But I just got here.

- Hey, I gotta go to work, man.

- [Eddy] Just take the day off and work out.

- [Fernando] No.

- I finally get to see what you ladies are up to.

You guys have been gone. Busy, busy, busy.

- Don't you got some friends that you can kick it with, man?

- Yeah, yeah. We're gonna hang out later on.

I ain't got nothing to do with this.

I wanna hang out with you guys.

- [Eddy] Can't you throw a party with them?

- Yeah. Yeah.

But I want to hang out with you guys.

You guys are my brothers.

Spend some quality time. Is that a crime?

- It should be.

- Whatever, bro.

(door closes)

- [Announcer] One, two, and three. Go!

Let's see who's gonna be the winner here.

Throw the balls!

Get it in there, number two, three, eight, nine, or 10?

Number 10 is in the lead, but number two is catching up!

(camera clicking)

(people chattering)

(Leticia laughing)

- Really?

Yeah?

How long it took you to drive from Nicaragua to here?

- [Eddy] Took a couple weeks.

- You drove?

- No, I wanted to.

He didn't let me do a lot of things, so...

- Yeah.

My dad didn't let me do a lot of things either, you know?

Daddy's little girl. (chuckles)

- So how long did it take you to get here?

- [Leticia] We flew.

- Oh you flew? - Yeah.

It was first class, but it was just a gift.

It was a gift. - Wow.

- It was a gift. - First class, wow.

But it was first class, huh?

- But Eddy that's how I want you

to treat me from now on, okay?

(Eddy laughs)

Yeah, especially now that we're dating.

- We're...

What do you mean we're dating?

I didn't, I haven't....

(Leticia laughs)

You haven't asked me yet if I want to date you.

So like we're seeing each other is what you're telling me?

- I'm serious, you know.

- So I'm like, I'm your man now?

(laughing)

- I just wanna be with you.

- Yeah. I mean, I...

I would like to date you if you're available.

- Shut up. - I don't, I don't know.

She was a good girl.

Studious, family oriented, and loving.

I really enjoyed spending time with her.

We always had a good time.

I didn't expect to meet her.

Her name was Leticia.

(upbeat Spanish music) (speaking in foreign language)

- Let me go take a smoke.

(upbeat Spanish music)

- [Fernando] Arturo!

- Hey.

(speaking in foreign language)

- Hey, hey ladies. Careful with this guy.

- [Indio] Get the fuck outta here. Let's go.

Let's go get a drink. Come on, let's go.

(upbeat Spanish music) (people chattering)

(upbeat electronic music) (people chattering)

- [Ariz] Eddy, Eddy, Eddy.

- Get off my sister, what the fuck?

- What?

(hits) (grunts)

- [Ariz] Eddy, Eddy, Eddy!

(yelling)

- [Indio] Punkass motherfucker, let's go!

Get him outta here!

- [Arturo] Puta!

- [Cito] Lock the door!

- Well...

Let's keep dancing!

Let's keep dancing! (cheering)

(upbeat electronic music)

- [Cito] Benny.

Benny, benny! (woman gasps)

- [Woman] Benny?

(tense music) (chattering)

- [Fernando] Eddy? Eddy?

(tense music) (siren blaring)

- [Eddy] Hey, how is he, man?

- Good.

- Is he all right?

- [Eddy] Is he all right?

- What'd the doctor say? - He's all right, right?

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Eddy] What are we gonna tell mama?

- [Indio] Did he get an artery or something?

If he didn't get an artery, he's gonna be okay.

- I don't know what I'm- - Dad's gonna flip out.

- Okay, okay, everybody.

(speaks in foreign language)

- You know what? (speaks in foreign language)

You know what, I got something for you.

- [Cito] No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

- Please. - He ain't going nowhere.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

- [Eddy] Bust it out, dog.

Give him one, give him one.

Man just give it to him one.

- This is a temporary solution to this problem.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Cito] Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

(group exclaims)

- Dude come on, bro. - It's something you

can get upstairs.

It's prescribed.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Cito] It's from a doctor, bro.

- In fact, forget it. Here.

- Okay, take that, relax and then you know, go to bed.

- It's just a chill pill. - It's a chill pill, bro.

- [Indio] Pop a chill pill. Put it in your life.

- [Cito] Bro, it's just a chill pill, bro.

- [Indio] Chill pill.

(Arturo speaks in foreign language)

- [Cito] Oh yeah, there is is.

- You're gonna sleep good tonight, papa.

- [Cito] It's better. Prescribed.

- [Indio] You'll feel better, I promise.

- Let's go bro. - Give it 20 to 30 minutes.

- You good? - Come on, it's go, fool.

- [Indio] Let's get outta here to get to sleep.

- That asshole was mine, man.

I was gonna fuck him up. - I know man, we'll get him.

We'll get him, I know.

(Benny wincing) (grunting)

(Benny groans)

- [Benny] Oh.

(speaks in foreign language)

(speaking in foreign language)

- I know you have something to do with this.

I know too well, Eddy.

- [Benny] It wasn't his fault.

- No, papa, no. - Do, dad, it was nothing.

It was nothing.

(speaking in foreign language)

I thought you were better than this.

You disappoint me. You know that?

I guess I was wrong.

All of you, all of you have to change your lifestyle

or soon, God forbid, I'm gonna have to bury one of you.

(speaking in foreign language)

(birds chirping)

(speaking in foreign language)

- So what this basically teaches us

not to waste that much water.

You gotta see things in a in a brighter perspective,

in a positive way.

You see we come from a life that

we don't care about anything and this is teaching us how to,

how to come back to life.

- [Eddy] How many buckets do I have to fill up?

- [Counselor] Until it's done the whole water?

- The whole water? - Yeah, and you're lucky.

It's kind of empty right now, so...

So that bucket, we throw it on another side

over there in the back, which I'm gonna show you.

You might be thinking again why so much work?

Work, work, work.

Like I said again, we must learn how to value

everything in our lives.

Nowhere else.

You could look for it in the girls,

you could look for it in the drugs, sex, and all that.

It's not going to fill you.

But it all starts with carrying these buckets of water.

It all starts with truly starting from the bottom,

like they say.

And you might not understand it now,

but you'll understand it later.

Okay?

- Why does everybody keep fucking looking at me, man?

- Hey bro. - I don't like that.

- You know we can't cuss here, right?

- Why?

- Why?

You're in the house of God

and you need to respect the house of God.

Now this is the first

and only time I'm gonna let that one go.

All right?

And I know you come, I know you're struggling but,

you gotta respect, okay?

But on the other hand, they're doing their own thing,

so don't worry about that.

All right?

All right.

Enjoy.

(Eddy grunts)

(water pattering)

(residents chattering)

- [Man 1] What's your labor?

- [Man 2] Um dishes.

(residents chattering)

- Oh man, my life was uh,

you can say it was a destructive life, man.

I was always lost.

I started at the age of 13, you know,

when I just started using drugs and alcohol.

I started using marijuana.

I started using crystal meth,

and alcohol beverages because uh, my, my,

my life was just became a disaster, you know?

I got kicked out of my house, you know?

So after that it just led me into depression

and I started using these drugs, bro.

But after that, I just, it just like,

it led me into deeper and deeper into that hole, you know,

until one day that, you know, I almost lost my life.

So now thanks to God, you know,

they shot at me and they let me for dead, man, you know?

So it couldn't be anybody else, you know,

interceding for me at that moment.

So now that he spared my life, we're all sinners, bro.

We're all going to commit sin sooner or later,

but the whole thing is to try not to sin, you know?

But we're not perfect.

Nobody's perfect on this world, you know?

I'm not gonna say it's going to be a road of roses.

You know, I'm not going to say that it's gonna

be real easy, like, it's going to be

a walk in the park, you know?

'Cause there's going to be trials and tribulations

coming towards our lives, you know,

when we're gonna wanna to be like, you know what?

That's it, man, I don't wanna deal with this.

That's why you have to have set goals for your life.

(speaking in foreign language)

You know, so, I can do all things

through the Lord that strengthens me, you know?

So you gotta have faith in that, you know?

You have to, you have to apply it to your life.

- You know what's so hard, man is that,

it's my pride, you know?

It's just like, I always wanna be the,

like I always wanna win.

I always...

I always wanna be right.

I always...

I feel like an animal sometimes, like in here, you know?

Like...

- And that's what God wants to change in you.

He wants to make you new.

He just doesn't wanna make you

any other man, but he wants to make you a man of God.

And that's why you have to go through these problems.

So you can be molded.

The Bible says that he's a potter,

and sometimes he has to break us, make us new.

How do you think God breaks us?

Through trials and tribulations.

And that's how we are made new.

(Pastor speaking in foreign language)

(residents exclaim) (clapping)

(Pastor speaking in foreign language)

(residents speaking in foreign language)

(tense, dramatic music) (disembodied chattering)

- [Counselor] If you don't go through any trials

and no tribulations,

that means nothing is happening in your life.

- You know what Eddy?

You do what you want.

- [Counselor] These moments are for you to grow.

And you know what? I'm gonna tell you something.

It's gonna get worse.

There's worst things to come.

- [Man] What do you think,

if we all celebrated, we do a line?

We do a line to celebrate.

(speaking in foreign language) (tense music)

(Eddy laughs)

(speaking in foreign language)

- That's all that you wanna say?

Can you even listen to me?

I'm talking to you!

Where is your phone, and why you not answer to it?

(tense, dramatic music)

(tires squeal)

- [Benny] Woo!

Yeah!

(cheering)

(crashing)

(phone ringing)

- Hey, what's up, bro? Como esta?

I remember my brother Fernando calling me that morning.

Huh?

I could hear what he was saying,

but I couldn't understand it.

(speaking in foreign language)

- He's gone.

He's, he's gone. - What?

(speaking in foreign language)

(sobbing)

- [Eddy] I had seen my mom in pain before...

(sobbing)

But never like this. (sobbing)

I didn't know what to say. (sobbing)

I didn't know what to feel.

(speaking in foreign language)

(sirens blaring) (flames crackling)

(speaking in foreign language)

(sobbing)

(speaking in foreign language)

(tense synth music)

(sobbing) (tense synth music)

(speaks in foreign language)

- I told you.

(tense synth music)

(loud sobbing)

- [Eddy] The news didn't hit me.

The commotion didn't move me.

The open casket did nothing... (sobbing)

Until it closed.

(Fernando Sr. Sobs)

(tense synth music) (sobbing)

- Nino.

Why don't you hook these guys up with some por muta, bro.

I'm sure they'll need it.

- Hey dog, I'm hungry, bro.

- Get some food, dog.

Look guys, I don't have any brothers. Blood brothers.

But you guys, you guys are my brothers.

And I'm sincerely sad, and I'm sorry for what happened.

Time doesn't stop.

No, it doesn't stop for you,

it doesn't stop for you, me, anyone?

And we know that.

But life goes on.

We go on.

Fernando.

Look guys, I'm not preaching forget about him.

I'm not.

What I'm saying is for us to live it up in his honor.

Okay?

For his legacy.

That's the way he'd want it.

Que no?

Arturo?

Cito?

- [Cito] Si.

- Fernando, live it up.

For him, brother.

Eddie.

What do you say?

- Just get me a drink. - Yeah, you know it.

Cito, let's get, let's get the drinks going, yeah?

Arturito, you know, go get it.

Eddie, what do you want to drink, bro?

Que quieres, man?

Eddie? - Let's get it going.

(Indio speaks in foreign language)

- [Indio] Let's go. For Benny, yeah?

Let's not forget that. - Relax, dog.

- This for Benny, bro.

For Benny, Fernando.

- [Eddy] Instead of changing our ways,

we continued to sinking in an abyss of substance.

(slow, tense rock music)

(tense synth music)

We did what we did. Our lives went on.

It wasn't the same after that.

About a year later, I kept doing my own thing.

Financially I was stable.

It wasn't all legal, but money is money.

It felt like life was passing me by,

day,

night.

I couldn't keep straight,

but at least I wasn't alone.

(tense synth hip hop music)

- Are you almost ready?

- Told you, I'm not going.

- Aye, Fernando.

Come on, let's go.

And then come back and do the things we do, you know.

(Fernando mumbles)

(speaks in foreign language)

I'm not gonna go without you.

Vamos.

- I don't want to go.

(sighs)

- You're having another one of those days, Fernando.

- Why do you wanna go, huh?

Why do you wanna go?

- [China] It's so much fun.

You act like we've never- - What's fun?

- Done this before. - What's fun?

- No, that's a problem.

We've done it every single time that we go to this place

and the noise and this and all this just over and over.

- [China] And what is wrong with that Fernando?

- I don't wanna do it anymore, okay?

So if you want to go, you go. I'm staying.

- You know what?

I'm tired of this shit.

Daniela, Carol. - Oh.

- What? Am I not enough?

(speaks in foreign language)

- You know what?

I'm the best thing you'll ever have.

- [Fernando] You're just the hand me down cochina.

(speaking in foreign language)

- Forget her. I don't need that in my life.

And neither do you.

- Don't make this about me, man.

It's about you.

(speaks in foreign language)

- What's up with you, man?

- It's not about, it's not about China

or Leti or none of that.

It's about this.

- [Eddy] What about this?

- [Fernando] It's not good.

- [Eddy] Man, I don't know what you're talking about.

This, this is all- - Just...

Just come back home.

You have a good job.

Leti's a good girl.

You can start fresh. - I am fresh, Nando.

- No, Eddy.

You don't look good.

(Eddy chuckles)

- Bro, I look better than you, okay?

- I'm looking out for you, bro.

(speaks in foreign language)

To be honest, I'm worried.

Ma is worried.

Y tu su papa.

- Worried about what?

I got things under control.

Unlike you, you're still living at home.

- What's wrong with you, Eddy, eh?

(speaks in foreign language)

- [Eddy] Don't!

Don't touch me.

- You know what Eddy?

You do what you want.

(speaks in foreign language)

Not this.

(speaks in foreign language)

- Fernandito.

What up, player?

How you doin'? Oh, it's like that now?

We ain't cool?

- Hey, I got some coworkers and they're looking to buy.

(sniffs)

(Indio sighs)

- Let me ask you something, Eddy.

How come...

(sighs)

How come every time I see you nowadays

it's to get for your coworkers?

Hm?

Like I'm some type of dealer or somethin'?

- Isn't that what you are?

- Hey. (laughs)

Watch it.

- [Eddy] Come on bro, just...

- What? So what do you need?

How much do you need?

- Whatever this can get, huh? (sniffs)

- Whatever this can get?

Why don't you pour me one, too?

- [Eddy] Cool man. Thanks.

- Where you goin'?

Where you goin'?

Eddy!

- You know, I guess in our perfect world,

we would want every single one of them to be here.

But uh, you know the word also says that

not everyone, you know, gets the opportunity to be here,

because we have freewill.

So we can pray for them and keep talking to them

about the Lord but you know, it's up to them,

just like it was up to you and it was up to me.

I wanna thank you.

I wanna thank you, um...

Because I came in here, man, and, and...

I came in here stubborn.

I didn't understand then but now I understand that,

you know, doing those simple things

gives you this discipline to, to be simple, to be humble.

And um, that prepares you, you know, to, to,

to go out there and try to bring in

those friends that are lost,

and I wanna thank you for that, man.

- There's many things, bro.

Many questions that we have

and very few answers.

but one thing we do know is that we live for a reason.

Many people have many other reasons,

but the thing is we live and we die,

and what are we going to do while we are alive?

And you have a second chance.

Okay?

So what are you going to do with your life

from now on is what counts.

Sometimes you feel like you have nothing to fight for, but,

think about it, you're still young,

and you have a bright future up ahead of you.

Many things can happen. You just gotta believe.

There's hope.

There's still hope.

No matter how far you've gone,

no matter how low you've gone,

no matter what you've done there's still hope for you

and dying, it's not the answer.

(Eddy sniffles)

- [Eddy] You got any, eh, you know?

- Um, no, I don't.

- You got any coke? (sniffs)

- Coke?

Uh, no, I don't have coke, but I got something better.

- Better than coke?

- Yeah. Way better than coke.

- What is it?

- You ever tried crystal?

- No.

- No?

Um, it's just like coke, but better.

- Okay.

(woman sniffles)

- [Woman] You got a car?

Just hit it all the way.

- [Eddy] You wanna go first or, or not?

- [Woman] It's okay.

(snorting)

(Eddy laughing) (tense, strange music)

(tense, strange music) (disembodied chattering)

- Hey, yo, what's up, chavalas? (sniffs)

Hey, so, so what are you gonna...

Sorry.

What are you going to do tonight, man?

You guys don't have a charger, eh?

Hm?

Sit right here, man. - Hey.

Aye.

- All right, all right.

Ain't gotta get all mad, right?

Shit.

(sighs)

- You know what, man?

We're just gonna chill tonight, all right?

(speaks in foreign language)

- Indio.

- Hm?

- Aye uh, my boy needs some more coke, man. (sniffs)

(speaks in foreign language)

(sniffs)

I have some money, man.

- I got money too, bro.

- [Eddy] Hm, but you don't got this money, man.

- [Indio] You're doing too much right now, bro.

- Am I?

- Yeah.

You are.

Look at you.

You're going too fast, bro. Look at yourself, man.

You're going 160. Pump your brakes right now.

- Oh. - Chill.

- It's like that?

- Yeah, it's like that.

Serio. Seriamente.

- It's like that? - Yeah, it's like that.

(Arturo speaks in foreign language)

We're tired of your shit.

- I thought that you and you

and you were my friends. - Friends?

- Hm? - Friends.

We're not your friends.

You distinguish friends from hermanos, no?

No, but you can't fuckin' do that-

(yelling)

- Eh, let me go, bro. - Let him go, bro.

Come at me, man. - It's not worth it, dog.

- Huh? No.

Get outta here, bro, you're done!

(cars passing in the distance)

(water running)

- Hola.

So, so, so, um, I'm here.

- Eddy.

(Leticia chuckles)

(speaks in foreign language)

- It, it, is, is, is, is...

Is it mine, is it mine? Is it mine?

(Leticia laughs)

(speaks in foreign language)

- Are, are, are you, are you gonna, are you gonna keep it?

Are you gonna keep it?

- Yeah.

Of course I'm gonna keep it.

Are you going to stay?

(sniffling)

- I...

I, I want, I want, I wa...

I wanna...

I wanna stay.

I want...

(sobbing)

(speaking in foreign language)

(speaking in foreign language)

- You're good?

Good to see you. - Yeah.

(Fernando chuckles)

- I, I tried calling you, but I couldn't,

couldn't reach you.

- I changed my number.

- Indio said you left.

That's good.

That's good.

(speaks in foreign language) (Leticia chuckles)

Ma! Pa!

(speaking in foreign language)

- What you gonna call him if it's a boy?

- Jonathan.

Yeah.

- Or Christian.

(speaking in foreign language)

(laughing)

- I'm an uncle, yeah. I'm an uncle.

- [Fernando Sr.] Abuela!

- [Norma] Si.

(laughing) - Bueno. Mira.

I have to go, though. I have to go.

- [Norma] What?

- Yeah. - What, where, where,

where are you going? - Believe it or not,

I have a date. (laughing)

- Cochina?

- Aye, no, no. Que eh, no.

No.

This one, this one's a good one, right, mom?

(speaking in foreign language)

- Good seeing you, bro.

(speaking in foreign language)

- [Fernando] Take care.

(speaking in foreign language)

(speaking in foreign language)

(laughing)

- If you can raise your hand...

(woman speaking in foreign language)

How many of you here have asked

God, can you forgive me?

(woman speaking in foreign language)

If you asked God, can you raise your hand?

Have you ever asked him,

God, can you forgive me for what I've done?

Can you forgive me for being wrong?

(woman speaking in foreign language)

I've got a news flash for you. (speaking in foreign language)

You don't have to do that. (speaking in foreign language)

You don't have to ask God... (speaking in foreign language)

To be God. (speaking in foreign language)

He is abundant in mercy and grace.

(woman speaking in foreign language)

So how silly do you look asking him,

God, can you forgive me? (speaking in foreign language)

He's like, yes, of course.

What do you think I did 2000 years ago?

(speaking in foreign language)

He forgives you for everything.

So next time you wanna ask God to forgive you...

(woman speaking in foreign language)

Don't ask. (speaks in foreign language)

Just say, thank you, Lord, for your love.

(woman speaking in foreign language)

Thank you for forgiving me, Lord.

(speaking in foreign language) Thank you.

(singing in foreign language) (soft music)

(upbeat music) (singing in foreign language)

- [Eddy] Watching my parents have such peace,

if that's what it did for them,

then that's what I wanted.

I never really understood why people went to church.

I'd never seen anything like this before.

It felt as if everyone was united,

like they were meant to be there.

Everyone is accepted no matter who they were.

Except for me.

(snorting)

Why didn't that help me?

Why wasn't I getting better? (tense, dramatic music)

I started hearing voices.

I hit the point of no return.

(snorting)

(tense synth hip hop music)

(car beeping)

I tried to keep my addiction hidden

from everyone except Fernando.

He knew.

- [Man 1] You got my money?

- [Man 2] No, bro.

- [Man 1] I ain't here to play with you.

You already know, I came here for my money.

You tell me that every week.

(speaking in foreign language)

(Eddy grunts)

- Shh, shh. - Huh? What?

- Hey, hey.

Hey.

Vamano, vamano.

- No, no, no.

I don't, I don't, I don't wanna go.

- Eddy, Eddy.

- I don't wanna go.

- Let's go. Time to go home.

(Eddy grumbles)

- This, this, this is...

This is..

This is my home.

This, this is my home.

I wanna stay.

- Eddy, look at me.

(speaking in foreign language)

- Huh, huh?

- You need to go home to Leticia.

Okay?

- [Eddy] Le-Leticia?

(speaks in foreign language)

- Come on.

Vamano.

- Leticia?

(men speaking in foreign language)

When we were little I...

I...

I wanted to be you. (chuckles)

Did you, did you know that?

- No.

- I remember your...

Your first boxing match.

We were running late

because....

(speaks in foreign language)

He blamed it on me. (chuckles)

You know, like he always did.

Papa (mumbles) kept saying this is mi hijo.

(speaks in foreign language)

You know, he was proud of you, man.

He was proud of you.

Like a father should.

(Eddy chuckles)

He'll never be happy with me. Yeah.

It's, it's all right, it's all right.

(Eddy mumbles)

(sniffles)

(sobbing)

You think you can take me to see Leti?

- Yeah.

We're gonna go see Leti.

(sobbing)

(mumbles)

- I wanna see Leti. (whimpers)

(insects buzzing)

(speaking in foreign language)

- I, I went out, I...

- You went out? - Wha...

- You went out where?

With whom? - What are you doin'?

- [Leticia] Where were you?

(grunting)

- Leti, Leti.

Leti. - Leti, que

Leti, que?

Leti, que? - The baby.

The baby. - The baby.

Now you care about the baby.

Now you care about the baby.

- Give me, give me- - Now you care about the baby.

- Give me a chance, give me a chance.

- Still doing that stupid drugs?

- No. No, no, no.

- Give me a chance for what?

- I, I, I, I fucked, I know.

I fucked up. - You fucked up.

You fucked up.

You're fucked up right now. - Leti, let's just...

(Leticia sobbing)

(knife clatters)

(sobbing)

- I hate you.

I hate you!

(tense, dramatic synth music)

- [Eddy] All I could think about was my unborn son.

Because of me, he won't live a normal life.

Because of me, I can't be there for him.

Because of me.

- You need to look into yourself

and say, do I want to be chained?

Or I do want to be changed?

For your family.

For your girl.

(tense, dramatic synth music)

(knocking)

(speaking in foreign language)

(sobbing)

- And that was it for me.

I had hit my limit. I wanted change.

No.

I needed change. (soft music)

My father's church managed a rehabilitation center

for its followers and extended families.

It was a small center with nothing but labor

and the word of God to fill the day.

Rehab brought me back to the basics.

Every part of me had to be reset.

If I couldn't get through this, there was no hope for me.

I didn't want to leave this place until I was a changed man.

It took nine months before I was deemed rehabilitated.

For others, it takes years.

I thought about a lot during my time here,

mostly about Leticia, my son, Fernando,

my mother, and even my father.

I knew I could climb out from the belly of the beast.

I believed it, otherwise I wouldn't have tried.

Whether it's God or fate or the universe,

or even ourselves, people need to have faith in something.

It is the last thing we resort to in our darkest times,

the core of our own beings.

And I'm glad I found mine when I needed it most.

(cars passing in the distance)

(Leticia chuckles)

(speaking in foreign language)

- Fernando. - You look good.

- I learned a lot.

I did a lot.

Made new friends.

I, I...

I wrote to you.

- I didn't wanna believe it.

I wasn't sure, you know...

- Yeah.

I understand.

I know that uh...

It's hard to believe in something that you can't see.

You know, when I, when I went to the rehab I uh,

I didn't believe in anything or in any one,

and I found something.

You know and...

And that something was something that Papa knew.

I had so much hate towards him and...

But I found something.

Faith.

(cars passing)

And uh...

All of this time, you've been taking care of me,

and I see that now,

and I've always had faith in you.

Have faith in me, bro.

Have faith in me.

(laughs)

Fernando.

(cars passing) (birds chirping)

(speaks in foreign language)

I missed you, man.

- Missed you, too.

(speaks in foreign language)

(laughing)

(speaking in foreign language) (parishioners cheering)

(soft rock music) (parishioners cheering)

(soft rock music) (singers vocalizing)

(speaking in foreign language) (soft rock music)

(parishioners clapping) (speaking in foreign language)

(soft rock music) (parishioners clapping)

- [Eduardo] Hallelujah!

(soft rock music) (speaking in foreign language)

(soft rock music) (singers vocalizing)

(woman speaking in foreign language)

- [Woman] Hallelujah!

(woman speaking in foreign language)