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(ambient music)
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(somber piano music)
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(food sizzling)
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(chopping)
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(sizzling)
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(clinking)
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- Um.
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I was thinking maybe
we could talk about it
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at small group this week.
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- Yeah, we could do that.
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- Okay.
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I think that'll be good.
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I think it'd be good for us.
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- Is Julia gonna be there?
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- Mhmm.
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- Has Julia done any more
research for grad school?
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- No, not really.
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- No?
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- Uh uh.
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She says she wants to
take it easy for awhile.
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- Yeah but she graduated six months ago.
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- Yeah, well she wants
to save for a year first
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and then,
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I don't know.
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- Hmmm.
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- What?
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- Does she like working at Paradigm?
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- Not really.
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- Hmmm.
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- Have you talked to Jeff
about your raise yet?
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- No, he was really busy
with meetings today.
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I didn't wanna bother him.
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But
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I will.
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- You should.
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Because you deserve it.
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You do.
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(somber piano music)
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(sizzling)
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(birds chirping)
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- Hey man, what's up?
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- Hey, what're you doing here?
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- Not much.
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Just dropped off some files.
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You?
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- Grinding away.
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- Super.
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Hey, some of us were
gonna go to Ram's Head.
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Drink some beers, play some darts.
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- I can't.
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- What?
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- I can't.
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Would you like to come to a bible study?
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- Uh, no.
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But I will talk to you soon.
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Take care.
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- You too.
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(thudding)
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- You got it?
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- Yeah.
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- Okay?
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- You could start making coffee.
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- Okay.
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- Fix those.
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- All right.
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(people chattering)
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(somber piano music)
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- Hey.
- Hey.
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- How're you doing?
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(somber piano music)
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- "Perseverance must finish its work
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"so that you may be mature and complete.
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"Not lacking anything."
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(somber piano music)
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- Oh,
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I love that place.
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I got there all the time.
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I have a little boy.
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There's a park right next to it.
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- Yeah, exactly.
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I know, I love it too.
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- Do you wanna talk about?
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- No.
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- Okay.
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I can close.
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Let us pray.
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Jesus,
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thank you for.
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(somber piano music)
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(door thudding)
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- You okay?
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- Yeah.
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(rain pitter-pattering)
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I just thought we were
gonna talk to them tonight.
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- Well,
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I was gonna bring up my questions to them.
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But I answered my questions.
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- You did?
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- Yeah.
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- So what?
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- I can't believe in God anymore.
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You know I'm not trying to hurt you.
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- I know.
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It's just,
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up until a month ago
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your faith was so much
apart of who you were
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and now you don't believe in God anymore?
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- I don't know.
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I just,
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when I pray I feel like I'm
talking to a brick wall.
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I've been thinking a lot about
when I felt closest to God
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was when I met you.
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I think I prayed the most I've ever prayed
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that week before I asked you out.
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- Took you long enough.
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- Do you remember where we
were in that old art building?
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- Yeah.
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- I bought you quadruple Americano
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and you had a final due the next day
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and I asked you out and
it came out all backwards.
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Do you remember what I said?
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- I think you said,
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"Can I date you on a take?"
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I don't remember.
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- No, I think I said,
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"Can I out take you to a date?"
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- You stayed up with me all night.
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Can't believe a guy would do that.
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- See,
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that was the first time
that I've ever felt
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God's approval
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or go ahead, or whatever, to ask you out.
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But I wasn't talking to God.
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I was afraid
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and I was just talking to myself.
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- So you've been lying to me?
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- No, no, no Emily.
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I just...
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When I think back to whatever
it is that I had with God,
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I was lying to myself.
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- So you don't believe any
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of the conversations you had were real?
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- When you talk to God,
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how do you know it's him?
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- I don't know.
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I just feel it.
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So what're you gonna do?
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- What do you mean?
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- How're you gonna find God?
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- I'm not.
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(rain pitter-pattering)
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(sighing)
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- Hi.
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- Hi.
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- When's the last time you wrote?
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- What?
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- I was thinking
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maybe you should spend
tomorrow just writing.
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You always come up with the best ideas
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about God and life when you write.
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- Yeah.
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Yeah, I can do that.
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(pleasant beat music)
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(groaning)
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(pleasant beat music)
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(rustling)
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(pleasant beat music)
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(glass clinking)
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(fizzling)
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(fizzling)
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(thudding)
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- What's all this stuff
doing in the sock drawer?
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- I don't know.
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- You don't know how it got here?
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- Who cares how it got there?
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It's my stuff, what does
it matter where I keep it?
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- Nathan?
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- What?
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- What's going on?
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- Those are my things.
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That's all.
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That's all that's left.
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Everything else
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is ours.
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But that,
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that's my mug
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and I wanted to keep it somewhere safe.
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- Hey.
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What's going on?
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- Everything that we have is ours.
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Someone bought for us.
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What happened to my stuff?
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- What're you talking about, sweetie?
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- I was
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walking through the house
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and
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I'm looking around
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and,
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none of it,
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none of it, none of it.
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None of it's me.
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I lied to you
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and I lied to myself.
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What kind of person does that make me?
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- Hey.
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Jesus--
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- Don't!
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Don't!
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(glass shattering)
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(dramatic music)
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(groaning)
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(crying)
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I'm sorry.
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I didn't mean to scare you.
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I didn't meant to scare you.
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- It's okay.
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It's okay.
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(somber piano music)
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(glass clinking)
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(somber piano music)
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(Nathan sighing)
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- Vanilla latte.
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So what does that mean?
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- He needs his space.
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- So are you separated?
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- No.
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He just needs a few days.
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- I said nonfat, right?
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Sorry.
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- It's fine.
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(fizzling)
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What?
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- Well, I don't know.
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I mean, do you think this is a good idea?
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- I don't know.
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- So he's what,
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at atheist, agnostic?
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- Nonfat vanilla latte.
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(faint beat music)
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I don't know.
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He just says that he
doesn't believe in God.
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That's all he says.
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- Well, that's probably
hard for you, right?
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- Doesn't matter.
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It was weird, though.
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Last night was the first night
I slept alone in like a year.
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- You don't think he met
someone else, do you?
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- You know,
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I'm okay out here.
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- Emily, I'm sorry.
- No, it's fine.
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- I didn't mean to sound--
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- No, no, no, no.
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You're good.
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Go.
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(faint beat music)
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(rails clanking)
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- I need some space to
sort some stuff out, man.
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I can't keep taking it out on her.
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- For sure.
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Well, this is it.
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It's guest bedroom.
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I've never really had a guest in it
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but it had been a room for awhile.
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Sorry it's not much.
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- No, this is,
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this is great.
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Thank you.
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- Cool.
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- Well, do you wanna talk about it?
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- No.
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- Cool, thanks.
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- For what?
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- For not wanting to talk about it.
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Just awkward, you know?
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- Anytime.
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- But good luck
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and I'm here for you.
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- Thank you.
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- Yeah.
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We are gonna go to the Ram's
Head and get some beers,
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if you wanna come.
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- I'm okay.
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I'm gonna get some writing down.
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- Well,
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sleep tight or whatever you're gonna do.
286
00:21:58,670 --> 00:21:59,503
- Thank you.
287
00:22:56,612 --> 00:22:57,778
(door creaking)
288
00:22:57,778 --> 00:23:00,611
(muffled talking)
289
00:23:05,330 --> 00:23:08,738
(girl laughing)
290
00:23:08,738 --> 00:23:10,738
- Do you have any tattoos or birthmarks?
291
00:23:14,749 --> 00:23:16,400
I don't wanna make you
feel self-conscious.
292
00:23:16,400 --> 00:23:19,391
I just wanted to try and get to know you.
293
00:23:19,391 --> 00:23:21,407
(muffled speaking)
294
00:23:21,407 --> 00:23:24,310
People have neck tattoos and tramp stamps.
295
00:23:24,310 --> 00:23:25,300
If you had a tramp stamp,
296
00:23:25,300 --> 00:23:26,765
I wouldn't call it a tramp stamp on you,
297
00:23:26,765 --> 00:23:28,680
I would call it a beauty mark
298
00:23:28,680 --> 00:23:30,398
or like a graffiti wall.
- Oh.
299
00:23:30,398 --> 00:23:32,067
Oh, a graffiti wall?
300
00:23:32,067 --> 00:23:33,357
- Whatever is classy.
301
00:23:33,357 --> 00:23:34,190
- Graffiti wall.
302
00:23:34,190 --> 00:23:35,275
That's pretty edgy.
303
00:23:35,275 --> 00:23:36,950
I feel like, yeah, graffiti wall.
304
00:23:36,950 --> 00:23:37,783
- Well, tramp stamp--
305
00:23:37,783 --> 00:23:38,920
- Hey, like my graffiti wall?
306
00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:41,609
- Check out my graffiti wall.
307
00:23:41,609 --> 00:23:44,323
(muffled laughing)
308
00:23:44,323 --> 00:23:47,406
(somber piano music)
309
00:24:30,238 --> 00:24:33,238
(traffic commotion)
310
00:24:40,051 --> 00:24:42,718
(phone buzzing)
311
00:24:44,849 --> 00:24:47,016
(sighing)
312
00:25:05,996 --> 00:25:08,663
(phone buzzing)
313
00:25:29,931 --> 00:25:32,380
(phone buzzing)
314
00:25:32,380 --> 00:25:33,803
- Oh my God, Mom, shut up.
315
00:25:35,602 --> 00:25:38,602
(traffic commotion)
316
00:25:47,032 --> 00:25:49,699
(phone buzzing)
317
00:26:00,963 --> 00:26:03,170
That's a very pessimistic
way to think about it.
318
00:26:03,170 --> 00:26:04,273
- But come on.
319
00:26:05,130 --> 00:26:07,370
If we don't let Jesus into our heart
320
00:26:07,370 --> 00:26:09,290
or ask for forgiveness,
321
00:26:09,290 --> 00:26:10,363
then we go to hell.
322
00:26:11,800 --> 00:26:13,600
It's fear based.
323
00:26:13,600 --> 00:26:16,373
Just trying to keep us in
line like we're cattle.
324
00:26:17,490 --> 00:26:19,230
- An opiate for the masses.
325
00:26:19,230 --> 00:26:20,253
- Exactly.
326
00:26:21,103 --> 00:26:22,776
Nietzschey had a point.
327
00:26:22,776 --> 00:26:23,776
- Nietzsche.
328
00:26:24,615 --> 00:26:25,782
- "Nietzsche."
329
00:26:26,703 --> 00:26:28,303
- And it was Marx who said that.
330
00:26:29,350 --> 00:26:30,530
- Whatever.
331
00:26:30,530 --> 00:26:33,180
How often do you go to
church out of guilt?
332
00:26:33,180 --> 00:26:34,013
- I don't.
333
00:26:34,950 --> 00:26:35,783
- I did.
334
00:26:37,740 --> 00:26:38,573
- Hmm.
335
00:26:39,780 --> 00:26:42,180
- My parents always
expected me to go to church.
336
00:26:45,426 --> 00:26:46,676
It was the same with you.
337
00:26:52,130 --> 00:26:52,963
- So what?
338
00:26:54,330 --> 00:26:56,830
You just trying to put on
a show to make me happy?
339
00:26:59,430 --> 00:27:01,690
When I suggested that
we start a bible study
340
00:27:01,690 --> 00:27:02,590
in our living room,
341
00:27:02,590 --> 00:27:05,029
you were just being a good
little husband for me?
342
00:27:05,029 --> 00:27:06,960
- I was just trying to support
you and what you wanted.
343
00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:08,260
- But you were lying.
344
00:27:08,260 --> 00:27:09,093
- I know
345
00:27:11,010 --> 00:27:12,343
and I hate that.
346
00:27:13,860 --> 00:27:16,913
I hate that I had to
lie to make you happy.
347
00:27:19,080 --> 00:27:23,033
I was lying to myself and
I am not lying anymore.
348
00:27:25,930 --> 00:27:27,373
I wanna be real with you.
349
00:27:36,870 --> 00:27:37,703
- What?
350
00:27:39,100 --> 00:27:40,423
- Will you still like me?
351
00:27:45,720 --> 00:27:46,833
- You're my husband.
352
00:28:32,577 --> 00:28:33,410
- Amen.
353
00:28:34,493 --> 00:28:35,326
- Amen.
354
00:28:39,990 --> 00:28:40,823
Thank you.
355
00:28:42,497 --> 00:28:43,593
- How do you feel?
356
00:28:45,580 --> 00:28:46,413
- Sad.
357
00:28:48,700 --> 00:28:49,963
But a little less lonely.
358
00:28:54,460 --> 00:28:55,293
I don't know.
359
00:28:56,150 --> 00:28:57,563
Guess I'm feeling guilty.
360
00:28:59,860 --> 00:29:01,229
- Why?
361
00:29:01,229 --> 00:29:02,062
- I don't know.
362
00:29:04,070 --> 00:29:05,720
I try to look at this
thing from every angle
363
00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:07,420
and no matter what, it's my fault.
364
00:29:08,490 --> 00:29:10,530
He was always so
uncomfortable, this whole time,
365
00:29:10,530 --> 00:29:14,110
he just, what, I don't know, humored me.
366
00:29:14,110 --> 00:29:16,500
- He's uncomfortable around everyone.
367
00:29:16,500 --> 00:29:19,090
Remember that first
dinner with Mom and Dad?
368
00:29:19,090 --> 00:29:20,160
- Oh yeah.
369
00:29:20,160 --> 00:29:21,470
Where he wouldn't carve the turkey
370
00:29:21,470 --> 00:29:22,890
and Dad asked him to pray?
371
00:29:22,890 --> 00:29:24,367
- No, Mom ask him to pray
372
00:29:24,367 --> 00:29:26,160
and it was Dad who asked him to finish
373
00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:28,357
after a whole minute passed since he said,
374
00:29:28,357 --> 00:29:30,133
"Jesus, we just..."
375
00:29:32,037 --> 00:29:34,440
(laughing)
376
00:29:34,440 --> 00:29:35,887
- I think that's all he said,
377
00:29:35,887 --> 00:29:37,333
"Jesus, we just..."
378
00:29:40,766 --> 00:29:43,460
It was those moments, those
nights when he was so cute
379
00:29:43,460 --> 00:29:45,060
and I had no idea that it meant.
380
00:29:46,730 --> 00:29:48,231
- What?
381
00:29:48,231 --> 00:29:50,231
- That he couldn't be himself around me.
382
00:29:52,528 --> 00:29:53,361
God.
383
00:29:55,070 --> 00:29:56,460
It's like we have to start all over again
384
00:29:56,460 --> 00:29:59,340
and even then, only if he
feels comfortable with himself.
385
00:30:00,823 --> 00:30:02,193
- Well, I mean,
386
00:30:03,480 --> 00:30:05,130
what do you think you could do differently
387
00:30:05,130 --> 00:30:07,502
that would make him feel more comfortable?
388
00:30:07,502 --> 00:30:12,347
- I don't know.
389
00:30:12,347 --> 00:30:13,913
- You know, Emily,
390
00:30:14,920 --> 00:30:19,040
I really believe that God's
got a plan for you guys.
391
00:30:19,040 --> 00:30:20,210
- Then why would he want me to marry him
392
00:30:20,210 --> 00:30:22,110
if it's just gonna end in three years?
393
00:30:28,317 --> 00:30:29,150
I'm sorry.
394
00:30:32,690 --> 00:30:33,593
I'm just scared.
395
00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:36,873
- So am I.
396
00:30:41,828 --> 00:30:44,828
(faint piano music)
397
00:30:50,587 --> 00:30:52,837
(fizzling)
398
00:31:09,275 --> 00:31:12,275
(traffic commotion)
399
00:31:28,787 --> 00:31:29,751
- Hi.
400
00:31:29,751 --> 00:31:30,584
- Hi.
401
00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:32,807
- How are you?
402
00:31:32,807 --> 00:31:34,467
- I'm okay, how are you?
403
00:31:34,467 --> 00:31:35,300
- I'm good.
404
00:31:36,258 --> 00:31:37,708
Could I get a scotch, please?
405
00:31:42,290 --> 00:31:43,970
Thank you for meeting with me.
406
00:31:43,970 --> 00:31:44,803
- Of course.
407
00:31:46,090 --> 00:31:47,083
- Steve says hi.
408
00:31:48,010 --> 00:31:48,843
- Hi, Steve.
409
00:31:54,520 --> 00:31:55,920
So what have you been up to?
410
00:31:58,060 --> 00:31:58,893
- Writing.
411
00:31:59,990 --> 00:32:00,870
- Good.
412
00:32:00,870 --> 00:32:02,260
That's great.
413
00:32:02,260 --> 00:32:03,760
What have you been writing about?
414
00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:04,783
- Oh, you know,
415
00:32:04,783 --> 00:32:06,600
just ideas for stories
416
00:32:07,667 --> 00:32:09,230
and character sketches.
417
00:32:09,230 --> 00:32:10,063
Stuff like that.
418
00:32:11,120 --> 00:32:13,440
- Have you been enjoying
it more than copywriting?
419
00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:14,693
- Oh God, yes.
420
00:32:16,150 --> 00:32:17,240
- Why?
421
00:32:17,240 --> 00:32:19,660
- Copywriting is not inspiring.
422
00:32:19,660 --> 00:32:21,294
- Yeah.
423
00:32:21,294 --> 00:32:22,127
And?
424
00:32:23,306 --> 00:32:24,456
- It's what I wanna do.
425
00:32:25,560 --> 00:32:26,560
I wanna move people.
426
00:32:28,855 --> 00:32:29,688
- Okay.
427
00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:35,740
- What?
428
00:32:35,740 --> 00:32:37,560
- Well, it's great if
that's what you wanna do
429
00:32:37,560 --> 00:32:39,733
but there's a place for copywriting too.
430
00:32:42,440 --> 00:32:43,930
- I don't like it.
431
00:32:43,930 --> 00:32:46,163
- Okay, I can understand that, sure.
432
00:32:47,520 --> 00:32:48,910
I'm just saying that I think
433
00:32:48,910 --> 00:32:51,133
you should be proud of
the work that you've done.
434
00:32:52,248 --> 00:32:53,081
- Okay.
435
00:32:54,850 --> 00:32:55,683
Thank you.
436
00:32:59,650 --> 00:33:02,520
It's the little things
too, though, you know?
437
00:33:02,520 --> 00:33:04,070
Sitting in the coffee shops.
438
00:33:04,070 --> 00:33:06,020
People watching.
439
00:33:06,020 --> 00:33:07,930
I could do that anywhere.
440
00:33:07,930 --> 00:33:10,040
France, Spain.
441
00:33:10,040 --> 00:33:11,040
And I could be free.
442
00:33:14,010 --> 00:33:15,120
- You wouldn't be totally free.
443
00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:18,120
I mean, you'd still have
some responsibilities.
444
00:33:18,120 --> 00:33:20,276
- Yeah, I'd have to get
some writing done, sure.
445
00:33:20,276 --> 00:33:21,109
(chuckling)
446
00:33:21,109 --> 00:33:22,780
- No, I mean, like responsibilities.
447
00:33:22,780 --> 00:33:25,023
Like your family.
448
00:33:27,600 --> 00:33:30,200
And what if your wife doesn't
want to move to Spain?
449
00:33:31,090 --> 00:33:34,090
What if she wants to open up a
coffee shop here in Portland?
450
00:33:35,210 --> 00:33:36,643
You can people watch there.
451
00:33:47,050 --> 00:33:48,550
How are you feeling about God?
452
00:33:50,480 --> 00:33:51,430
- What do you mean?
453
00:33:52,490 --> 00:33:53,840
- How are you pursuing Him?
454
00:33:55,600 --> 00:33:57,957
- How do you think that
comes across, Emily?
455
00:33:57,957 --> 00:34:00,350
"How are you pursuing him?"
456
00:34:00,350 --> 00:34:01,260
- How do you want me to phrase it?
457
00:34:01,260 --> 00:34:03,123
- It's not about phrasing.
458
00:34:04,750 --> 00:34:06,250
I'm not pursuing him.
459
00:34:06,250 --> 00:34:07,083
- Why?
460
00:34:08,090 --> 00:34:08,923
- Emily!
461
00:34:10,575 --> 00:34:11,575
- I'm sorry.
462
00:34:15,390 --> 00:34:16,620
Can you tell me a little bit more
463
00:34:16,620 --> 00:34:18,020
about why you don't believe?
464
00:34:27,150 --> 00:34:28,400
- Do you realize that there's been
465
00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:30,683
three school shootings in the past month?
466
00:34:31,530 --> 00:34:33,003
There's no room for God here.
467
00:34:35,300 --> 00:34:36,133
- I disagree.
468
00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:39,600
The world is a shitty place, Nathan.
469
00:34:41,840 --> 00:34:44,250
I would lose it if I
didn't have God to turn to.
470
00:34:44,250 --> 00:34:46,230
- See that's why I can't believe.
471
00:34:46,230 --> 00:34:48,650
God and Heaven and all this other bullshit
472
00:34:48,650 --> 00:34:50,203
we make up to escape.
473
00:34:51,190 --> 00:34:53,110
- And what're you doing when
you read all those books, okay?
474
00:34:53,110 --> 00:34:55,083
Joyce, Hemingway, Cormac McCarthy.
475
00:34:55,083 --> 00:34:57,920
What're you doing when you're
losing yourself in them?
476
00:34:57,920 --> 00:35:01,040
- I'm dealing with the shit
that's going on in the world.
477
00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:04,200
The bible says stay away from
the world, stay out of it.
478
00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:05,400
Literature confronts it.
479
00:35:07,270 --> 00:35:08,630
Emily,
480
00:35:08,630 --> 00:35:11,000
this doesn't have to be a big deal.
481
00:35:11,000 --> 00:35:12,850
I still respect what you believe.
482
00:35:12,850 --> 00:35:15,220
- You think it's all made up.
483
00:35:15,220 --> 00:35:17,090
How do you respect what I believe?
484
00:35:17,090 --> 00:35:20,310
- You believe in God,
I don't believe in God.
485
00:35:20,310 --> 00:35:22,020
I'm not saying that you're wrong.
486
00:35:22,020 --> 00:35:23,900
I'm just saying that I don't believe.
487
00:35:23,900 --> 00:35:24,733
- Why?
488
00:35:28,313 --> 00:35:30,480
(sighing)
489
00:35:31,365 --> 00:35:35,230
Have you really thought both
sides of the argument through?
490
00:35:35,230 --> 00:35:36,063
- Emily,
491
00:35:36,063 --> 00:35:37,140
can you just
492
00:35:38,200 --> 00:35:39,133
let me be?
493
00:35:43,200 --> 00:35:44,033
- No.
494
00:35:51,636 --> 00:35:53,136
You're my husband.
495
00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:55,403
It's my job to push you.
496
00:36:06,960 --> 00:36:07,793
- I'm sorry.
497
00:36:15,100 --> 00:36:16,373
- When are you coming home?
498
00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:21,500
- He returns.
499
00:36:21,500 --> 00:36:22,960
- Hey.
500
00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:24,060
- How'd it go?
501
00:36:26,110 --> 00:36:27,073
- It was all right.
502
00:36:28,078 --> 00:36:30,160
(Steve laughing)
503
00:36:30,160 --> 00:36:31,860
- Are you sure about that?
504
00:36:33,429 --> 00:36:34,762
- I don't know.
505
00:36:37,523 --> 00:36:38,963
- What do you not know?
506
00:36:41,220 --> 00:36:42,520
- It was weird seeing her.
507
00:36:45,500 --> 00:36:47,553
- Well, are you gonna
move back in with her?
508
00:36:48,940 --> 00:36:50,170
- I don't know.
509
00:36:50,170 --> 00:36:51,073
I'd like to.
510
00:36:52,380 --> 00:36:54,613
I just don't know if
it's a good idea though.
511
00:36:55,580 --> 00:36:58,930
That guy she married, I
am not that guy anymore.
512
00:36:58,930 --> 00:36:59,763
- Yeah.
513
00:36:59,763 --> 00:37:01,473
- How could we possibly be happy?
514
00:37:03,230 --> 00:37:04,063
- Don't ask me.
515
00:37:05,400 --> 00:37:06,530
- I wasn't.
516
00:37:06,530 --> 00:37:08,060
- Well, yeah you were.
517
00:37:08,060 --> 00:37:10,290
I mean, you just said, "How
could I possible be happy?"
518
00:37:10,290 --> 00:37:12,790
- Oh my God, Steve, I
was being rhetorical.
519
00:37:12,790 --> 00:37:13,623
- What?
520
00:37:29,220 --> 00:37:31,013
This is why I don't get married.
521
00:37:32,330 --> 00:37:33,173
- Helpful.
522
00:37:34,240 --> 00:37:38,783
- I'm just saying, why do you
think the divorce rate is 50%?
523
00:37:40,620 --> 00:37:43,410
Because girls come and go.
524
00:37:43,410 --> 00:37:44,750
People change.
525
00:37:44,750 --> 00:37:48,030
You and Emily, you had a good run.
526
00:37:48,030 --> 00:37:49,923
- We're just separated.
527
00:37:51,110 --> 00:37:55,560
- Like I said, people change
and nothing lasts forever.
528
00:37:55,560 --> 00:37:56,590
- Yeah, you're right.
529
00:37:56,590 --> 00:37:58,596
You know, it's just my marriage.
530
00:37:58,596 --> 00:37:59,890
Why even try?
531
00:37:59,890 --> 00:38:03,353
- Some people get married for 50 years.
532
00:38:03,353 --> 00:38:04,550
50 years.
533
00:38:04,550 --> 00:38:06,780
If you're lucky, you'd
get out way before then.
534
00:38:06,780 --> 00:38:08,323
- Oh my God, shut up, Steve.
535
00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:12,550
- You know, I was married.
536
00:38:12,550 --> 00:38:13,710
- Really?
537
00:38:13,710 --> 00:38:15,800
- I was engaged.
538
00:38:15,800 --> 00:38:17,303
I had a serious relationship.
539
00:38:19,320 --> 00:38:21,513
Senior year, U-Dub,
540
00:38:22,580 --> 00:38:23,680
her name was Courtney.
541
00:38:24,930 --> 00:38:25,763
And
542
00:38:27,460 --> 00:38:29,650
we were together for like six months.
543
00:38:29,650 --> 00:38:31,420
She moved into my place,
544
00:38:31,420 --> 00:38:33,780
we got a cat, cooked dinners together.
545
00:38:33,780 --> 00:38:35,980
We even talked about marriage.
546
00:38:35,980 --> 00:38:38,460
And then, out of nowhere,
we just started fighting.
547
00:38:38,460 --> 00:38:39,600
Fighting about everything.
548
00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:42,210
I mean, I would say
we're out of mayonnaise
549
00:38:42,210 --> 00:38:44,700
and two hours later she
would be having an argument
550
00:38:44,700 --> 00:38:47,600
with me about how I don't take
responsibility for my life.
551
00:38:48,940 --> 00:38:51,430
I woke up one morning and I realized,
552
00:38:51,430 --> 00:38:53,383
it just shouldn't be this hard.
553
00:38:54,810 --> 00:38:55,910
So I broke up with her
554
00:38:57,360 --> 00:39:01,790
and I got this place and
I couldn't be happier.
555
00:40:04,350 --> 00:40:06,600
(inhaling)
556
00:40:22,114 --> 00:40:23,490
(entry belling ringing)
557
00:40:23,490 --> 00:40:24,890
- Hey, Dad.
558
00:40:24,890 --> 00:40:25,743
Sorry I'm late.
559
00:40:25,743 --> 00:40:27,060
- Hey, buddy.
- Hey.
560
00:40:27,060 --> 00:40:28,831
- It's not problem.
561
00:40:28,831 --> 00:40:29,914
Have a donut?
562
00:40:30,790 --> 00:40:31,623
- Sure.
563
00:40:33,520 --> 00:40:34,353
- I'm really sorry
564
00:40:34,353 --> 00:40:36,680
but I gotta get my Max
in a couple minutes.
565
00:40:36,680 --> 00:40:38,884
- Oh, it's okay, I understand.
566
00:40:38,884 --> 00:40:41,370
- So how's it going?
567
00:40:41,370 --> 00:40:42,203
What's up?
568
00:40:43,110 --> 00:40:45,863
- I wanted to ask you
about your first marriage.
569
00:40:47,852 --> 00:40:48,685
- Okay.
570
00:40:50,450 --> 00:40:52,090
- You never talk about her.
571
00:40:52,090 --> 00:40:52,923
- Why would I?
572
00:40:53,870 --> 00:40:55,300
- She was your wife.
573
00:40:55,300 --> 00:40:57,530
- Yeah, for a year, you know?
574
00:40:57,530 --> 00:40:58,903
Way before I met your mom.
575
00:41:00,680 --> 00:41:02,113
Why you asking about Alice?
576
00:41:03,920 --> 00:41:04,920
- Did you regret it?
577
00:41:06,480 --> 00:41:08,550
- Breaking up with Alice?
578
00:41:08,550 --> 00:41:10,423
No, of course not.
579
00:41:11,460 --> 00:41:13,790
If we hadn't broken up, I
woulda never met your mom.
580
00:41:13,790 --> 00:41:15,480
We wouldn't have had you
581
00:41:15,480 --> 00:41:16,800
or Lizzie or David.
582
00:41:16,800 --> 00:41:19,930
- I know but besides us
and besides mom, I mean,
583
00:41:19,930 --> 00:41:22,170
do you ever think about what
your life would've been like
584
00:41:22,170 --> 00:41:24,173
if you'd stuck with Alice?
585
00:41:26,670 --> 00:41:28,520
- What's going on with you and Emily?
586
00:41:29,935 --> 00:41:32,017
- I don't know.
587
00:41:32,017 --> 00:41:34,650
We're becoming different people.
588
00:41:34,650 --> 00:41:35,593
Or I am.
589
00:41:38,064 --> 00:41:39,830
It's just not working.
590
00:41:39,830 --> 00:41:41,440
- Like how?
591
00:41:41,440 --> 00:41:42,590
Give me a for instance.
592
00:41:43,900 --> 00:41:45,940
- It's nothing specific, Dad, it's just
593
00:41:47,160 --> 00:41:48,510
I'm changing and she isn't.
594
00:41:50,497 --> 00:41:51,660
- It happens, buddy.
595
00:41:51,660 --> 00:41:53,540
You know, people change over the years.
596
00:41:53,540 --> 00:41:56,473
- But I'm growing in the
opposite direction of Emily.
597
00:41:57,840 --> 00:42:00,470
- Like I said, son, that happens.
598
00:42:00,470 --> 00:42:02,363
You just find a way to make it work.
599
00:42:03,830 --> 00:42:06,270
- But what if we weren't
meant to be together?
600
00:42:06,270 --> 00:42:08,620
What if she's meant to
be with somebody else?
601
00:42:08,620 --> 00:42:10,490
What if she's my Alice?
602
00:42:10,490 --> 00:42:12,010
- She's not.
603
00:42:12,010 --> 00:42:14,770
When I married Alice I was 23, she was 21.
604
00:42:14,770 --> 00:42:15,983
- I was 25.
605
00:42:16,820 --> 00:42:18,990
What if I'm holding her back
606
00:42:18,990 --> 00:42:22,090
from being with the guy
she's supposed to be with?
607
00:42:22,090 --> 00:42:24,590
- The guy she's supposed
to be with is you, buddy.
608
00:42:25,850 --> 00:42:27,920
- How do you know that though, Dad?
609
00:42:27,920 --> 00:42:29,570
She'll just be miserable with me.
610
00:42:30,430 --> 00:42:32,290
- I know Emily
611
00:42:32,290 --> 00:42:33,283
and I know you.
612
00:42:34,790 --> 00:42:36,800
She's not your Alice.
613
00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:38,033
She's your Emily.
614
00:42:40,390 --> 00:42:41,673
Go back to your wife.
615
00:42:48,060 --> 00:42:48,893
- Hey, Gina.
616
00:42:51,370 --> 00:42:53,100
I'm good, how are you?
617
00:42:53,100 --> 00:42:54,000
Good, that's good.
618
00:42:55,310 --> 00:42:58,023
Um, I was calling because I was,
619
00:42:59,140 --> 00:43:00,930
Nathan's not doing so
good and I don't think
620
00:43:00,930 --> 00:43:03,250
we'll be able to host
bible study this week
621
00:43:03,250 --> 00:43:07,853
and I was wondering if
you and Cory wanna host.
622
00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:10,193
Oh.
623
00:43:11,320 --> 00:43:12,940
Oh, yeah, no that's totally fine.
624
00:43:12,940 --> 00:43:14,653
Yeah, no, I understand.
625
00:43:15,990 --> 00:43:17,415
Okay.
626
00:43:17,415 --> 00:43:19,203
Yeah, he'll be fine.
627
00:43:20,610 --> 00:43:21,790
Yeah.
628
00:43:21,790 --> 00:43:22,660
Okay.
629
00:43:22,660 --> 00:43:23,760
Talk to you soon, bye.
630
00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:31,013
Hey, Amy, how's it going?
631
00:43:32,472 --> 00:43:33,350
Good.
632
00:43:33,350 --> 00:43:35,580
Listen, I'm calling because
633
00:43:36,640 --> 00:43:37,580
I don't think we're gonna be able
634
00:43:37,580 --> 00:43:38,940
to host bible study this week
635
00:43:38,940 --> 00:43:41,440
and I was wondering if you
and Michael wanna host.
636
00:43:43,559 --> 00:43:46,309
(birds chirping)
637
00:44:06,418 --> 00:44:09,085
(door creaking)
638
00:44:17,450 --> 00:44:18,890
Hi.
639
00:44:18,890 --> 00:44:20,420
- Hi.
640
00:44:20,420 --> 00:44:21,620
I wanted to talk to you.
641
00:44:26,040 --> 00:44:27,443
- I wanna apologize.
642
00:44:29,570 --> 00:44:30,770
I was being unreasonable
643
00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:33,623
and I'm sorry.
644
00:44:36,120 --> 00:44:37,870
It doesn't matter what you believe.
645
00:44:39,540 --> 00:44:40,373
I love you.
646
00:44:45,208 --> 00:44:46,458
And I miss you.
647
00:44:49,080 --> 00:44:50,030
- I missed you too.
648
00:44:51,320 --> 00:44:52,393
- Please come home.
649
00:44:54,850 --> 00:44:56,480
- Emily,
650
00:44:56,480 --> 00:44:57,380
when I married you
651
00:44:59,260 --> 00:45:01,037
I made vows that I can't,
652
00:45:03,220 --> 00:45:04,183
it's not fair.
653
00:45:05,060 --> 00:45:06,353
- What're you saying, Nathan?
654
00:45:09,090 --> 00:45:10,890
- You're not supposed to be with me.
655
00:45:15,050 --> 00:45:17,763
There is someone out there
who is so much better for you.
656
00:45:19,748 --> 00:45:20,698
- This is bullshit.
657
00:45:21,650 --> 00:45:23,503
This is bullshit!
658
00:45:23,503 --> 00:45:24,910
What're you doing, Nathan?!
659
00:45:24,910 --> 00:45:26,480
- You deserve better.
660
00:45:26,480 --> 00:45:27,770
- How can you say that?
661
00:45:27,770 --> 00:45:29,920
- I know the kind of
husband that you need.
662
00:45:33,132 --> 00:45:34,270
(sighing)
663
00:45:34,270 --> 00:45:35,103
- Nathan,
664
00:45:36,380 --> 00:45:37,573
I just want you.
665
00:45:44,147 --> 00:45:45,105
- Emily, no.
666
00:45:45,105 --> 00:45:46,063
No.
667
00:45:46,063 --> 00:45:47,404
I can't.
668
00:45:47,404 --> 00:45:49,460
I won't hurt you.
669
00:45:49,460 --> 00:45:51,180
- No, Nathan, okay?
670
00:45:51,180 --> 00:45:53,060
You ran out on your beliefs!
671
00:45:53,060 --> 00:45:54,350
If you wanna be the cool writer
672
00:45:54,350 --> 00:45:56,970
and be Fitzgerald or Hemingway, then fine!
673
00:45:56,970 --> 00:45:58,600
You wanna go find yourself?!
674
00:45:58,600 --> 00:46:00,250
You wanna blame me, blame me all you want
675
00:46:00,250 --> 00:46:01,673
but you don't give up on us!
676
00:46:21,269 --> 00:46:23,852
(somber music)
677
00:46:30,960 --> 00:46:31,793
I love you
678
00:46:33,733 --> 00:46:34,783
and you love me.
679
00:46:39,455 --> 00:46:40,993
- I don't wanna hurt you.
680
00:46:43,790 --> 00:46:45,290
- I won't let you.
681
00:46:53,280 --> 00:46:55,620
- Hey, Genie, it's Nathan.
682
00:46:55,620 --> 00:46:57,620
Yeah, I don't think I can come in today.
683
00:46:58,510 --> 00:47:00,803
I think I got the
stomach flu or something.
684
00:47:02,130 --> 00:47:03,450
Okay.
685
00:47:03,450 --> 00:47:04,790
Okay, thank you, Genie.
686
00:47:04,790 --> 00:47:05,623
Thank you.
687
00:47:08,170 --> 00:47:09,710
I haven't used any of my sick days
688
00:47:09,710 --> 00:47:11,690
and my writing is going really well.
689
00:47:11,690 --> 00:47:12,893
- Oh, all right.
690
00:47:14,500 --> 00:47:15,680
I forgot to tell you.
691
00:47:15,680 --> 00:47:18,050
I was on a shoot the
other day for a magazine
692
00:47:18,050 --> 00:47:20,310
and they had a job opening
that I think you'd really like.
693
00:47:20,310 --> 00:47:21,157
- Yeah?
694
00:47:21,157 --> 00:47:22,430
- Mhmm.
695
00:47:22,430 --> 00:47:24,000
Travel writer.
696
00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:26,040
Pretty much review coffee shops, bars.
697
00:47:26,040 --> 00:47:27,450
You'd be on the road a lot
698
00:47:27,450 --> 00:47:30,020
but you'd have a lot to write about.
699
00:47:30,020 --> 00:47:30,853
- Hmm.
700
00:47:32,373 --> 00:47:34,330
- You want me to tell them
that you're interested?
701
00:47:34,330 --> 00:47:35,163
- Uh.
702
00:47:36,260 --> 00:47:37,770
Maybe.
703
00:47:37,770 --> 00:47:38,603
- What do you mean, maybe?
704
00:47:38,603 --> 00:47:40,640
This is what you've always
talked about, right?
705
00:47:40,640 --> 00:47:43,410
- I wanna write prose, not reviews.
706
00:47:43,410 --> 00:47:45,860
- You would drink scotch
and then write about it.
707
00:47:45,860 --> 00:47:46,693
- So?
708
00:47:46,693 --> 00:47:48,340
- So that's awesome.
709
00:47:48,340 --> 00:47:50,070
And that's what Hemingway would do.
710
00:47:50,070 --> 00:47:52,170
- Hemingway also shot himself in the head.
711
00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:54,433
- Right.
712
00:47:55,660 --> 00:47:56,860
This came for you today.
713
00:48:00,440 --> 00:48:01,940
Who's it from?
714
00:48:01,940 --> 00:48:02,773
- Emily.
715
00:48:12,480 --> 00:48:13,313
- Oooh.
716
00:48:18,900 --> 00:48:20,853
- I have always wanted one of these.
717
00:48:22,270 --> 00:48:23,103
Emily never let me have one
718
00:48:23,103 --> 00:48:25,780
because she said it would
make me look like a hipster.
719
00:48:25,780 --> 00:48:27,233
- She was absolutely right.
720
00:48:28,600 --> 00:48:29,433
She was.
721
00:48:32,010 --> 00:48:33,560
- I always wanted one of these.
722
00:48:35,210 --> 00:48:36,950
Why does she think that
buying this for me now
723
00:48:36,950 --> 00:48:38,990
is gonna solve our problems?
724
00:48:38,990 --> 00:48:40,340
- She thinks it's romantic.
725
00:48:41,990 --> 00:48:43,534
- Who asked you?
726
00:48:43,534 --> 00:48:44,850
- You did.
727
00:48:44,850 --> 00:48:46,120
You just did.
728
00:48:46,120 --> 00:48:47,600
(laughing)
729
00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:49,630
Come on, what?
730
00:48:49,630 --> 00:48:50,550
- I can't do this with you right now.
731
00:48:50,550 --> 00:48:52,320
- Oh yes you can.
732
00:48:52,320 --> 00:48:53,370
Come on, boy.
733
00:49:01,049 --> 00:49:03,966
(faint beat music)
734
00:49:15,558 --> 00:49:17,670
- Thought I'd give scotch a try.
735
00:49:17,670 --> 00:49:19,510
- You hate scotch.
736
00:49:19,510 --> 00:49:21,260
- I wanted to give it another shot.
737
00:49:22,480 --> 00:49:23,313
- All right.
738
00:49:28,370 --> 00:49:30,823
- So which one of the sonnets
do you wanna start with?
739
00:49:32,200 --> 00:49:34,873
- I have something to confess.
740
00:49:36,060 --> 00:49:36,893
- Okay.
741
00:49:37,840 --> 00:49:39,653
- I have never liked Shakespeare.
742
00:49:41,922 --> 00:49:42,822
- Are you kidding?
743
00:49:47,270 --> 00:49:49,642
Did you read any of the sonnets?
744
00:49:49,642 --> 00:49:50,475
- No.
745
00:49:51,910 --> 00:49:53,450
- Okay, that's okay.
746
00:49:53,450 --> 00:49:55,400
So you never liked Shakespeare.
747
00:49:55,400 --> 00:49:58,607
- I thought it made me look sensitive
748
00:49:58,607 --> 00:50:00,940
and romantic.
749
00:50:00,940 --> 00:50:01,773
- It did.
750
00:50:03,180 --> 00:50:04,250
- I'm sorry.
751
00:50:04,250 --> 00:50:05,083
- It's okay.
752
00:50:05,944 --> 00:50:07,894
We don't have to like the same writers.
753
00:50:08,780 --> 00:50:11,580
- I still have the list
that I made for you.
754
00:50:11,580 --> 00:50:13,080
- Now I'm confused.
755
00:50:13,080 --> 00:50:16,350
See, you wrote that list before
you had your little crisis.
756
00:50:16,350 --> 00:50:19,041
Do you even know what you
genuinely like anymore?
757
00:50:19,041 --> 00:50:20,890
- I don't have multiple personalities.
758
00:50:20,890 --> 00:50:22,690
I just said I liked Shakespeare.
759
00:50:22,690 --> 00:50:23,833
- Which was a lie.
760
00:50:24,830 --> 00:50:26,630
Any other lies you wanna confess to?
761
00:50:28,230 --> 00:50:29,230
- I'll let you know.
762
00:50:31,600 --> 00:50:32,433
- Okay.
763
00:50:34,480 --> 00:50:36,303
- So what do you wanna read?
764
00:50:39,890 --> 00:50:42,270
Nope, no, not Joyce.
(laughing)
765
00:50:42,270 --> 00:50:43,630
- Come on, you asked.
766
00:50:43,630 --> 00:50:44,680
- No, he is so boring.
767
00:50:44,680 --> 00:50:46,210
It's just "Ireland this, Ireland that."
768
00:50:46,210 --> 00:50:47,043
Blah, blah, blah.
769
00:50:47,043 --> 00:50:48,880
- I put up with your books.
770
00:50:48,880 --> 00:50:50,180
- No, you didn't.
771
00:50:50,180 --> 00:50:52,180
You were supposed to read
Shakespeare's sonnets,
772
00:50:52,180 --> 00:50:53,363
which you did not do.
773
00:50:54,640 --> 00:50:55,874
- In my defense.
774
00:50:55,874 --> 00:50:56,920
- Mhmm?
775
00:50:56,920 --> 00:50:59,330
- I was being stubborn.
776
00:50:59,330 --> 00:51:00,163
- Oh.
777
00:51:00,163 --> 00:51:01,460
Then it's okay then.
778
00:51:01,460 --> 00:51:02,293
- Thank you.
779
00:51:04,610 --> 00:51:06,820
- I will read Joyce on one condition.
780
00:51:06,820 --> 00:51:08,650
- All right.
781
00:51:08,650 --> 00:51:09,756
- You read Narnia.
782
00:51:09,756 --> 00:51:11,450
(groaning)
783
00:51:11,450 --> 00:51:13,090
Come on, I'm reading your stupid book.
784
00:51:13,090 --> 00:51:14,600
You know how much those mean to me.
785
00:51:14,600 --> 00:51:15,460
- Narnia,
786
00:51:15,460 --> 00:51:16,600
those books are for kids.
787
00:51:16,600 --> 00:51:19,760
- Oh my God, no they're not.
788
00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:22,480
And honestly, I think it
would be really good for you.
789
00:51:22,480 --> 00:51:23,460
(groaning)
790
00:51:23,460 --> 00:51:26,720
And you know my parents read
those to me when I was a kid
791
00:51:26,720 --> 00:51:29,170
and I wanna do the same
for our children someday.
792
00:51:34,670 --> 00:51:35,970
You don't wanna have kids.
793
00:51:38,560 --> 00:51:39,393
- I don't know.
794
00:51:40,494 --> 00:51:42,093
I haven't really thought about it.
795
00:51:44,390 --> 00:51:45,710
Every time that we were talking about it,
796
00:51:45,710 --> 00:51:47,793
I was just nodding.
797
00:51:51,004 --> 00:51:52,260
- Have you really thought about
798
00:51:52,260 --> 00:51:53,760
whether or not you wanna have children?
799
00:51:53,760 --> 00:51:56,063
I mean, have you seriously considered it?
800
00:51:58,690 --> 00:52:01,550
- When I think about the life that I want,
801
00:52:01,550 --> 00:52:03,223
I don't see kids fitting into it.
802
00:52:07,032 --> 00:52:09,607
- Do you know what really
pisses me off, Nathan?
803
00:52:11,330 --> 00:52:12,163
When I first met you,
804
00:52:12,163 --> 00:52:13,240
I thought you were the man of my dreams.
805
00:52:13,240 --> 00:52:14,867
I felt so blessed by God.
806
00:52:14,867 --> 00:52:17,367
"Thank you, Jesus, for
bringing him into my life."
807
00:52:18,584 --> 00:52:21,263
And I have tried really hard to love you.
808
00:52:23,980 --> 00:52:26,760
Hearing you say that makes it so hard.
809
00:52:26,760 --> 00:52:27,630
- I don't know.
810
00:52:27,630 --> 00:52:32,273
Maybe I could get behind the
idea of having kids someday.
811
00:52:33,385 --> 00:52:34,617
- Oh, how sweet of you.
812
00:52:36,000 --> 00:52:37,250
You would do that for me?
813
00:52:38,810 --> 00:52:41,540
You would get behind having kids?!
814
00:52:41,540 --> 00:52:44,050
Nathan, I don't want you to
maybe consider having children!
815
00:52:44,050 --> 00:52:46,903
I want you to want to have
kids with me, your wife!
816
00:52:49,240 --> 00:52:50,610
- I know that
817
00:52:51,960 --> 00:52:53,593
this doesn't mean much.
818
00:52:56,060 --> 00:52:57,133
But I'm sorry.
819
00:53:03,240 --> 00:53:04,690
I'm sick of all the fighting.
820
00:53:06,710 --> 00:53:07,543
Aren't you?
821
00:53:11,003 --> 00:53:14,586
Can't we just have a
normal night tomorrow?
822
00:53:18,978 --> 00:53:19,811
- Yeah.
823
00:53:27,401 --> 00:53:30,484
(somber piano music)
824
00:54:28,364 --> 00:54:31,614
(pleasant piano music)
825
00:55:04,462 --> 00:55:06,712
(knocking)
826
00:55:16,013 --> 00:55:16,846
- Hi.
827
00:55:17,763 --> 00:55:18,596
- Hey.
828
00:55:21,971 --> 00:55:23,054
- Come on in.
829
00:55:33,240 --> 00:55:36,073
(paper crunching)
830
00:55:39,951 --> 00:55:42,868
(faint beat music)
831
00:55:53,300 --> 00:55:54,133
- Thanks.
832
00:56:02,900 --> 00:56:04,050
- I can take your coat.
833
00:56:18,701 --> 00:56:19,534
Hungry?
834
00:56:22,740 --> 00:56:24,403
- You are so sexy.
835
00:56:26,120 --> 00:56:27,583
- Thank you.
836
00:56:27,583 --> 00:56:28,833
And you're very handsome.
837
00:56:29,730 --> 00:56:30,633
- Handsome?
838
00:56:31,900 --> 00:56:34,113
I call you sexy and you call me handsome?
839
00:56:35,340 --> 00:56:37,260
You know how long it
took me to get into this?
840
00:56:37,260 --> 00:56:38,093
- No.
841
00:56:38,093 --> 00:56:39,390
You're sexy tonight too.
842
00:56:39,390 --> 00:56:41,560
- See, now I think you're
just trying to make up
843
00:56:41,560 --> 00:56:43,124
for being inconsiderate.
844
00:56:43,124 --> 00:56:44,260
- No, no.
845
00:56:44,260 --> 00:56:46,260
You are the sexy.
846
00:56:46,260 --> 00:56:47,093
I promise.
847
00:56:47,093 --> 00:56:47,950
- I don't believe you.
848
00:56:47,950 --> 00:56:49,700
You're gonna have to prove it.
849
00:56:49,700 --> 00:56:50,970
- That you're sexy?
850
00:56:50,970 --> 00:56:53,150
- Oh, I know that I'm sexy.
851
00:56:53,150 --> 00:56:56,608
You're just gonna have to
prove that you think I'm sexy.
852
00:56:56,608 --> 00:56:57,525
- Oh, okay.
853
00:56:58,779 --> 00:57:01,696
(faint beat music)
854
00:57:49,396 --> 00:57:51,580
Yeah?
855
00:57:51,580 --> 00:57:52,413
- Yeah.
856
00:57:54,500 --> 00:57:55,333
- More wine?
857
00:57:57,583 --> 00:58:01,250
(pleasant piano beat music)
858
00:59:18,035 --> 00:59:20,202
(huffing)
859
00:59:24,697 --> 00:59:26,343
Can we go in the bedroom?
860
00:59:31,300 --> 00:59:32,640
Wait 60 seconds.
861
00:59:39,067 --> 00:59:41,234
(sighing)
862
00:59:53,410 --> 00:59:55,243
What the fuck is this?
863
00:59:57,286 --> 00:59:58,369
What is this?
864
00:59:59,830 --> 01:00:00,663
Nathan!
865
01:00:00,663 --> 01:00:02,169
- Sorry.
866
01:00:02,169 --> 01:00:04,277
- What the hell is wrong with you?!
867
01:00:05,160 --> 01:00:06,917
You come in here, you dress like that
868
01:00:06,917 --> 01:00:08,120
and you dance with me
869
01:00:08,120 --> 01:00:10,410
and then you were gonna have sex with me
870
01:00:10,410 --> 01:00:12,120
and then just say goodbye with this?!
871
01:00:12,120 --> 01:00:12,953
- Sorry, I wasn't gonna come here--
872
01:00:12,953 --> 01:00:14,280
- Oh, you're sorry!
873
01:00:14,280 --> 01:00:15,630
- Emily, please.
874
01:00:15,630 --> 01:00:16,620
- What?
875
01:00:16,620 --> 01:00:18,470
You can't give up on us, Nathan.
876
01:00:18,470 --> 01:00:21,440
- I'm not giving up on us!
877
01:00:21,440 --> 01:00:23,500
You want me to be someone else!
878
01:00:23,500 --> 01:00:26,410
Someone smarter, someone
kinder, someone better.
879
01:00:26,410 --> 01:00:28,820
I will never be that person for you!
880
01:00:28,820 --> 01:00:30,500
I will never believe in God!
881
01:00:30,500 --> 01:00:32,090
I will never want children!
882
01:00:32,090 --> 01:00:34,850
I will waste away being somebody I am not
883
01:00:34,850 --> 01:00:35,890
so you can be happy!
884
01:00:35,890 --> 01:00:37,667
I am not worth it!
885
01:00:37,667 --> 01:00:38,500
- How could you say that?!
886
01:00:38,500 --> 01:00:39,710
How could you say that
you're not worth it?!
887
01:00:39,710 --> 01:00:40,543
I married you!
- Emily!
888
01:00:40,543 --> 01:00:42,417
- And you insult me like that!
- Emily!
889
01:00:42,417 --> 01:00:43,270
You need to let this go.
890
01:00:43,270 --> 01:00:45,510
You need to grow up and
realize that this is dead.
891
01:00:45,510 --> 01:00:47,250
- You are the one that
needs to grow up, Nathan!
892
01:00:47,250 --> 01:00:48,147
Just because something is broken
893
01:00:48,147 --> 01:00:51,050
doesn't mean that they just throw it away!
894
01:00:51,050 --> 01:00:53,640
- Emily, if I wasn't a Christian,
895
01:00:53,640 --> 01:00:55,563
you would've never married me.
896
01:00:57,570 --> 01:00:59,307
We don't make any sense.
897
01:00:59,307 --> 01:01:00,140
- No.
898
01:01:01,050 --> 01:01:01,883
I love you.
899
01:01:03,200 --> 01:01:04,320
Okay?
900
01:01:04,320 --> 01:01:05,482
I love you so much.
901
01:01:05,482 --> 01:01:06,840
- I love you too.
902
01:01:06,840 --> 01:01:08,090
- I will always love you.
903
01:01:09,864 --> 01:01:12,320
- I can't, I can't, I can't.
(Emily mumbling)
904
01:01:12,320 --> 01:01:13,840
I can't.
905
01:01:13,840 --> 01:01:15,010
- Please?
- Emily, no.
906
01:01:16,480 --> 01:01:17,914
- Nathan, don't leave me!
907
01:01:17,914 --> 01:01:19,082
Don't leave me, don't leave me!
908
01:01:19,082 --> 01:01:20,582
Don't, Nathan, no!
909
01:01:22,787 --> 01:01:23,620
No!
910
01:01:24,703 --> 01:01:25,536
No!
911
01:01:27,717 --> 01:01:31,797
Nathan, come back!
912
01:01:31,797 --> 01:01:34,100
Nathan, please come back!
913
01:01:34,100 --> 01:01:34,933
What the?!
914
01:01:34,933 --> 01:01:36,427
Why would you do this?!
915
01:01:36,427 --> 01:01:37,845
Why would you do this?!
916
01:01:37,845 --> 01:01:39,977
Why would you do this to me?!
917
01:01:39,977 --> 01:01:41,894
What were you thinking?
918
01:01:45,316 --> 01:01:47,483
(sobbing)
919
01:01:48,615 --> 01:01:50,782
(gasping)
920
01:02:30,316 --> 01:02:31,983
Why did you do this?
921
01:02:35,284 --> 01:02:36,867
You broke my heart.
922
01:02:45,890 --> 01:02:47,663
He was my happiness
923
01:02:48,706 --> 01:02:50,706
and now he's a stranger.
924
01:02:59,562 --> 01:03:01,562
I can't do this anymore.
925
01:03:10,375 --> 01:03:11,458
What do I do?
926
01:03:16,128 --> 01:03:17,211
What do I do?
927
01:03:29,920 --> 01:03:30,753
Okay.
928
01:03:40,221 --> 01:03:41,054
Okay.
929
01:04:13,335 --> 01:04:17,002
(muffled traffic commotion)
930
01:04:33,358 --> 01:04:35,691
(sniffling)
931
01:05:11,017 --> 01:05:13,267
(knocking)
932
01:05:24,080 --> 01:05:24,913
- Hey.
933
01:05:32,710 --> 01:05:35,293
What made you change your mind?
934
01:06:02,029 --> 01:06:02,862
Goodbye.
935
01:06:21,136 --> 01:06:23,219
(crying)
936
01:06:34,470 --> 01:06:36,637
(sighing)
937
01:06:48,050 --> 01:06:49,743
- Just doesn't make sense to me.
938
01:06:53,610 --> 01:06:55,140
Does it make sense to you?
939
01:06:55,140 --> 01:06:55,973
- No.
940
01:06:58,270 --> 01:06:59,710
- How can you sit there like that?
941
01:06:59,710 --> 01:07:01,990
How can you give up so easily?
942
01:07:01,990 --> 01:07:03,300
- I'm not giving up.
943
01:07:03,300 --> 01:07:07,410
- You divorced your husband,
Emily, I call that giving up.
944
01:07:07,410 --> 01:07:09,360
- Calm down, Julia.
- No!
945
01:07:09,360 --> 01:07:10,554
No, I won't stand for this.
946
01:07:10,554 --> 01:07:12,453
What makes you think this
is the right thing to do?
947
01:07:12,453 --> 01:07:13,517
- I told you.
948
01:07:13,517 --> 01:07:16,010
- No, scripture doesn't justify it.
949
01:07:16,010 --> 01:07:17,780
God doesn't allow it.
950
01:07:17,780 --> 01:07:19,220
He would never let you give up.
951
01:07:19,220 --> 01:07:21,330
- I'm not giving up!
952
01:07:21,330 --> 01:07:23,830
Okay, I can't make Nathan
fall in love with me.
953
01:07:23,830 --> 01:07:25,423
It's not up to me anymore.
954
01:07:26,450 --> 01:07:28,760
I'm still his wife and
nothing can change that,
955
01:07:28,760 --> 01:07:30,083
not even a legal document!
956
01:07:31,810 --> 01:07:32,973
But he's gone.
957
01:07:35,590 --> 01:07:37,970
And if he never comes back, then so be it.
958
01:07:37,970 --> 01:07:40,543
He's free to make up his own decisions.
959
01:07:41,810 --> 01:07:44,230
He's free to live his own
life the way he wants.
960
01:07:44,230 --> 01:07:46,253
But if he wants to come back, he can.
961
01:07:47,940 --> 01:07:49,963
This is the life that God wants for me.
962
01:07:52,540 --> 01:07:53,540
- No.
963
01:07:53,540 --> 01:07:54,690
This isn't right.
964
01:07:54,690 --> 01:07:56,543
- Why don't you just go home?
965
01:07:58,310 --> 01:08:00,613
I can't take another lecture, so just go.
966
01:08:05,399 --> 01:08:08,399
(traffic commotion)
967
01:08:13,745 --> 01:08:16,828
(somber piano music)
968
01:09:04,727 --> 01:09:06,693
- You think you'll take
that interview now?
969
01:09:09,341 --> 01:09:12,030
(phone chiming)
970
01:09:12,030 --> 01:09:12,863
Someone's here.
971
01:09:14,970 --> 01:09:15,920
Hello?
972
01:09:15,920 --> 01:09:17,520
- Is Nathan there?
973
01:09:17,520 --> 01:09:18,970
- Uh, yeah, who's this?
974
01:09:18,970 --> 01:09:20,850
- It's Emily's sister.
975
01:09:20,850 --> 01:09:22,043
- Oh, shit.
976
01:09:26,070 --> 01:09:27,750
- She told me everything
977
01:09:27,750 --> 01:09:29,760
and I've advised her as much as I can
978
01:09:29,760 --> 01:09:31,510
but it's up to you now.
979
01:09:31,510 --> 01:09:32,343
- Julia, it's--
980
01:09:32,343 --> 01:09:33,176
- No, Nathan!
981
01:09:33,176 --> 01:09:35,780
Don't tell me I'm too
young or too inexperienced
982
01:09:35,780 --> 01:09:36,870
to know what I'm talking about.
983
01:09:36,870 --> 01:09:37,703
- Julia!
984
01:09:38,780 --> 01:09:40,720
She would be miserable with me.
985
01:09:40,720 --> 01:09:41,823
- You don't know that.
986
01:09:43,570 --> 01:09:45,800
- Do you understand how painful it is
987
01:09:45,800 --> 01:09:47,620
to look her in the eye and tell her that
988
01:09:47,620 --> 01:09:49,240
her husband doesn't want
to have kids with her?
989
01:09:49,240 --> 01:09:50,630
- No.
990
01:09:50,630 --> 01:09:51,926
I just...
991
01:09:51,926 --> 01:09:52,759
(groaning)
992
01:09:52,759 --> 01:09:55,170
Emily is turning into a nun
and you couldn't care less.
993
01:09:55,170 --> 01:09:57,060
I feel like I'm the only sane one here.
994
01:09:57,060 --> 01:09:57,893
- Wait,
995
01:09:57,893 --> 01:09:58,726
she's becoming a nun?
996
01:09:58,726 --> 01:10:00,400
- Well, she might as well.
997
01:10:00,400 --> 01:10:01,410
- What do you mean?
998
01:10:01,410 --> 01:10:03,563
- She married you, Nathan.
999
01:10:05,180 --> 01:10:06,483
- What did she tell you?
1000
01:10:08,520 --> 01:10:10,433
- There's never gonna be anybody else.
1001
01:10:13,210 --> 01:10:14,823
- That's why I left.
1002
01:10:16,210 --> 01:10:17,833
I just want her to be happy.
1003
01:10:19,430 --> 01:10:20,993
- Well that's what I don't get.
1004
01:10:21,950 --> 01:10:26,480
It's almost as if she is not really happy
1005
01:10:27,461 --> 01:10:30,743
but she was at least content.
1006
01:10:33,200 --> 01:10:34,940
- This doesn't make any sense.
1007
01:10:34,940 --> 01:10:36,823
- She just wants to live her life.
1008
01:10:38,010 --> 01:10:41,190
Please, Nathan, just make things right.
1009
01:10:41,190 --> 01:10:43,030
- Why should I?
1010
01:10:43,030 --> 01:10:44,320
If that's how she wants to live her life,
1011
01:10:44,320 --> 01:10:45,480
then that's her problem.
1012
01:10:45,480 --> 01:10:48,880
Don't try to guilt trip me
into getting back with her.
1013
01:10:48,880 --> 01:10:50,480
That is why I left.
1014
01:10:50,480 --> 01:10:52,410
Do you understand?
1015
01:10:52,410 --> 01:10:56,550
I was pretending to be
someone else for her
1016
01:10:56,550 --> 01:10:59,310
because I was afraid she
wouldn't like who I really was.
1017
01:10:59,310 --> 01:11:00,363
And she doesn't!
1018
01:11:02,470 --> 01:11:03,560
The only way that this would work
1019
01:11:03,560 --> 01:11:05,810
is if I were to pretend
to be that guy again.
1020
01:11:08,546 --> 01:11:09,730
And I can't do that.
1021
01:11:12,330 --> 01:11:13,163
All right?
1022
01:11:16,304 --> 01:11:17,610
- I'm sorry.
1023
01:11:17,610 --> 01:11:19,033
I'm sorry, I just,
1024
01:11:21,170 --> 01:11:22,660
I really loved you guys
1025
01:11:26,098 --> 01:11:27,287
and I'm gonna miss you.
1026
01:11:29,808 --> 01:11:33,058
(dramatic piano music)
1027
01:11:36,321 --> 01:11:39,154
(leaves rustling)
1028
01:11:46,998 --> 01:11:48,050
- I
think I've experienced
1029
01:11:48,050 --> 01:11:49,283
all I can in Portland.
1030
01:11:50,120 --> 01:11:53,177
There's just so many cities
out there calling my name.
1031
01:11:53,177 --> 01:11:55,133
"Nathan, Nathan."
1032
01:11:55,133 --> 01:11:56,780
You know what I mean?
1033
01:11:56,780 --> 01:11:57,613
- Absolutely.
1034
01:11:57,613 --> 01:12:00,540
I'm an insufferable Anglophile.
1035
01:12:00,540 --> 01:12:02,968
England is always calling my name.
1036
01:12:02,968 --> 01:12:04,430
(chuckling)
1037
01:12:04,430 --> 01:12:06,352
- Why don't you move there?
1038
01:12:06,352 --> 01:12:07,260
- Eh.
1039
01:12:07,260 --> 01:12:08,363
Lose it's magic.
1040
01:12:10,200 --> 01:12:12,400
Some places you visit,
some places you live.
1041
01:12:15,180 --> 01:12:17,983
Well, I think we've
about covered everything.
1042
01:12:19,073 --> 01:12:19,906
Like I said before,
1043
01:12:19,906 --> 01:12:21,670
we really like the samples you sent us,
1044
01:12:21,670 --> 01:12:23,510
and I have to talk to my boss,
1045
01:12:23,510 --> 01:12:26,120
but I've got a good feeling.
1046
01:12:26,120 --> 01:12:26,953
- Cool.
1047
01:12:26,953 --> 01:12:28,110
Thank you.
1048
01:12:28,110 --> 01:12:29,600
- Oh,
1049
01:12:29,600 --> 01:12:31,440
I did have one last question.
1050
01:12:31,440 --> 01:12:33,170
Given the job description,
1051
01:12:33,170 --> 01:12:35,020
you automatically understand
1052
01:12:35,020 --> 01:12:37,630
that this is a traveling position.
1053
01:12:37,630 --> 01:12:39,420
So, I mean, we're gonna
need you in a lot of places
1054
01:12:39,420 --> 01:12:41,135
all the time.
1055
01:12:41,135 --> 01:12:42,540
Is your wife okay with that?
1056
01:12:48,184 --> 01:12:49,017
- Um.
1057
01:12:51,102 --> 01:12:54,019
(faint beat music)
1058
01:13:00,949 --> 01:13:03,282
(sniffling)
1059
01:13:35,929 --> 01:13:39,262
(rain pitter-pattering)
1060
01:13:52,458 --> 01:13:53,291
- Hey.
1061
01:13:55,127 --> 01:13:55,960
- Hi.
1062
01:13:59,203 --> 01:14:00,393
I talked to Julia.
1063
01:14:01,860 --> 01:14:02,733
- Sisters.
1064
01:14:07,190 --> 01:14:09,033
- She said you were becoming a nun.
1065
01:14:10,120 --> 01:14:10,953
- Yeah.
1066
01:14:15,620 --> 01:14:17,370
I don't need a husband to be happy.
1067
01:14:19,782 --> 01:14:21,082
And I don't need children.
1068
01:14:23,360 --> 01:14:25,810
If I expected my life
to turn out perfectly,
1069
01:14:25,810 --> 01:14:26,993
I'd never be happy.
1070
01:14:32,623 --> 01:14:34,040
- You astound me.
1071
01:14:37,840 --> 01:14:39,790
You live your life with this conviction
1072
01:14:41,301 --> 01:14:42,401
that I have never had.
1073
01:14:56,520 --> 01:14:58,650
I can't say that I didn't have my doubts
1074
01:15:00,210 --> 01:15:01,610
about walking away from God.
1075
01:15:04,300 --> 01:15:05,450
- Do you believe again?
1076
01:15:07,865 --> 01:15:09,908
- No.
1077
01:15:09,908 --> 01:15:12,187
I don't know.
1078
01:15:12,187 --> 01:15:13,563
I don't know anything.
1079
01:15:14,621 --> 01:15:17,120
(chuckling)
1080
01:15:17,120 --> 01:15:20,140
All I know is that I have never had
1081
01:15:20,140 --> 01:15:22,600
a belief or an unbelief
1082
01:15:24,095 --> 01:15:26,277
with as much conviction as you.
1083
01:15:30,142 --> 01:15:30,975
I envy that.
1084
01:15:36,521 --> 01:15:38,021
I'm broken by you.
1085
01:15:40,860 --> 01:15:44,993
I abandoned you and you still love me.
1086
01:15:50,550 --> 01:15:52,446
You conquered my heart.
1087
01:15:52,446 --> 01:15:54,530
(Emily sniffling)
1088
01:15:54,530 --> 01:15:57,980
I can say that my life
wouldn't be as worth while
1089
01:15:57,980 --> 01:15:58,883
without you in it.
1090
01:16:04,150 --> 01:16:05,700
You've always pushed
1091
01:16:08,430 --> 01:16:11,320
and I regret that I ever
resented you for that.
1092
01:16:15,141 --> 01:16:16,808
Because I need that.
1093
01:16:18,978 --> 01:16:19,978
I want that.
1094
01:16:23,404 --> 01:16:24,321
I want you.
1095
01:16:28,870 --> 01:16:29,703
Please.
1096
01:16:31,992 --> 01:16:32,909
Forgive me.
1097
01:16:43,544 --> 01:16:45,377
Can I be your husband?
1098
01:16:50,382 --> 01:16:52,465
(crying)
1099
01:17:06,113 --> 01:17:08,280
(sobbing)
1100
01:17:11,528 --> 01:17:14,195
(rain thudding)
1101
01:17:37,598 --> 01:17:39,303
I miss you.
1102
01:17:39,303 --> 01:17:41,053
- I miss you.
1103
01:17:43,037 --> 01:17:44,620
- You know, I got a job offer.
1104
01:17:44,620 --> 01:17:45,580
- Oh, yeah?
1105
01:17:45,580 --> 01:17:46,963
- Yeah, for a magazine.
1106
01:17:48,000 --> 01:17:49,713
Cultural articles.
1107
01:17:50,580 --> 01:17:52,690
I would travel around North America
1108
01:17:52,690 --> 01:17:53,960
writing about bars
1109
01:17:53,960 --> 01:17:57,280
and restaurants, coffee shops.
1110
01:17:57,280 --> 01:17:58,580
Whatever.
1111
01:17:58,580 --> 01:17:59,913
- Did you respond?
1112
01:17:59,913 --> 01:18:00,746
- No.
1113
01:18:01,610 --> 01:18:03,843
I was thinking I should
tell them I can't do it.
1114
01:18:05,810 --> 01:18:07,129
- No.
1115
01:18:07,129 --> 01:18:08,700
I think you should
1116
01:18:08,700 --> 01:18:10,543
and I wanna come with you.
1117
01:18:12,070 --> 01:18:13,450
- Really?
1118
01:18:13,450 --> 01:18:15,990
- Seriously, I think we should do it.
1119
01:18:15,990 --> 01:18:18,200
What about the coffee shop?
1120
01:18:18,200 --> 01:18:19,033
Your sister.
1121
01:18:19,033 --> 01:18:20,350
I mean, your whole life is here.
1122
01:18:20,350 --> 01:18:21,183
- I know.
1123
01:18:22,380 --> 01:18:23,720
But I think it's time for a change
1124
01:18:23,720 --> 01:18:26,543
and I wanna go on an adventure with you.
1125
01:18:27,890 --> 01:18:29,270
- You wanna travel?
1126
01:18:29,270 --> 01:18:31,194
- Start agreeing with me or
I'm gonna change my mind.
1127
01:18:31,194 --> 01:18:33,060
(laughing)
1128
01:18:33,060 --> 01:18:33,893
- Okay.
1129
01:18:35,281 --> 01:18:36,615
Yeah.
1130
01:18:36,615 --> 01:18:37,540
Yeah.
1131
01:18:37,540 --> 01:18:38,750
Let's do it!
1132
01:18:38,750 --> 01:18:41,410
I mean, they gave me
articles I could choose form.
1133
01:18:41,410 --> 01:18:43,190
Best new beers in San Francisco,
1134
01:18:43,190 --> 01:18:45,450
a steakhouse in Montana,
1135
01:18:45,450 --> 01:18:47,040
organic smoothies in Indianapolis,
1136
01:18:47,040 --> 01:18:48,980
cheese mongers of Wisconsin.
1137
01:18:48,980 --> 01:18:50,320
- Indianapolis.
1138
01:18:50,320 --> 01:18:51,940
- Oh God, that is a terrible idea.
1139
01:18:51,940 --> 01:18:54,360
- No, they say it's the new Portland.
1140
01:18:54,360 --> 01:18:55,800
- The new Portland?
1141
01:18:55,800 --> 01:18:58,030
What does that even mean?
1142
01:18:58,030 --> 01:18:59,163
- That's what I heard?
1143
01:19:00,740 --> 01:19:02,290
- I was thinking San Francisco.
1144
01:19:03,470 --> 01:19:04,897
- Eh.
1145
01:19:04,897 --> 01:19:05,730
- "Eh."
1146
01:19:06,570 --> 01:19:07,403
- Okay.
1147
01:19:09,860 --> 01:19:10,693
Wisconsin.
1148
01:19:11,930 --> 01:19:13,720
Cheese mongers?
1149
01:19:13,720 --> 01:19:14,723
We love cheese.
1150
01:19:16,238 --> 01:19:17,405
- Yeah, we do.
1151
01:19:21,831 --> 01:19:25,081
(pleasant piano music)
1152
01:20:27,828 --> 01:20:30,411
(upbeat music)
1153
01:21:11,735 --> 01:21:14,985
(pleasant piano music)
1154
01:21:54,187 --> 01:21:56,770
(upbeat music)
1155
01:22:49,366 --> 01:22:52,033
(somber music)
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