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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:11,538 --> 00:00:14,205 (ambient music) 2 00:00:22,508 --> 00:00:25,591 (somber piano music) 3 00:00:37,858 --> 00:00:40,525 (food sizzling) 4 00:00:48,322 --> 00:00:50,572 (chopping) 5 00:00:58,545 --> 00:01:00,795 (sizzling) 6 00:01:41,667 --> 00:01:43,917 (clinking) 7 00:01:46,508 --> 00:01:47,341 - Um. 8 00:01:48,350 --> 00:01:49,930 I was thinking maybe we could talk about it 9 00:01:49,930 --> 00:01:51,693 at small group this week. 10 00:01:57,660 --> 00:01:59,150 - Yeah, we could do that. 11 00:01:59,150 --> 00:01:59,983 - Okay. 12 00:02:00,890 --> 00:02:01,899 I think that'll be good. 13 00:02:01,899 --> 00:02:03,203 I think it'd be good for us. 14 00:02:04,990 --> 00:02:06,445 - Is Julia gonna be there? 15 00:02:06,445 --> 00:02:07,278 - Mhmm. 16 00:02:08,390 --> 00:02:10,850 - Has Julia done any more research for grad school? 17 00:02:10,850 --> 00:02:12,430 - No, not really. 18 00:02:12,430 --> 00:02:13,578 - No? 19 00:02:13,578 --> 00:02:15,040 - Uh uh. 20 00:02:15,040 --> 00:02:17,270 She says she wants to take it easy for awhile. 21 00:02:17,270 --> 00:02:19,450 - Yeah but she graduated six months ago. 22 00:02:19,450 --> 00:02:21,560 - Yeah, well she wants to save for a year first 23 00:02:21,560 --> 00:02:22,393 and then, 24 00:02:24,172 --> 00:02:25,005 I don't know. 25 00:02:26,343 --> 00:02:27,345 - Hmmm. 26 00:02:27,345 --> 00:02:28,440 - What? 27 00:02:28,440 --> 00:02:30,020 - Does she like working at Paradigm? 28 00:02:30,020 --> 00:02:31,387 - Not really. 29 00:02:31,387 --> 00:02:32,220 - Hmmm. 30 00:02:36,960 --> 00:02:39,960 - Have you talked to Jeff about your raise yet? 31 00:02:39,960 --> 00:02:42,110 - No, he was really busy with meetings today. 32 00:02:42,110 --> 00:02:44,210 I didn't wanna bother him. 33 00:02:44,210 --> 00:02:45,043 But 34 00:02:45,930 --> 00:02:47,140 I will. 35 00:02:47,140 --> 00:02:47,973 - You should. 36 00:02:49,320 --> 00:02:50,470 Because you deserve it. 37 00:02:52,536 --> 00:02:53,369 You do. 38 00:03:22,977 --> 00:03:26,060 (somber piano music) 39 00:04:24,867 --> 00:04:27,117 (sizzling) 40 00:04:33,430 --> 00:04:36,180 (birds chirping) 41 00:04:46,160 --> 00:04:47,430 - Hey man, what's up? 42 00:04:47,430 --> 00:04:48,640 - Hey, what're you doing here? 43 00:04:48,640 --> 00:04:49,473 - Not much. 44 00:04:49,473 --> 00:04:50,683 Just dropped off some files. 45 00:04:51,640 --> 00:04:52,473 You? 46 00:04:53,320 --> 00:04:54,340 - Grinding away. 47 00:04:54,340 --> 00:04:55,390 - Super. 48 00:04:55,390 --> 00:04:57,140 Hey, some of us were gonna go to Ram's Head. 49 00:04:57,140 --> 00:04:59,103 Drink some beers, play some darts. 50 00:05:00,010 --> 00:05:00,876 - I can't. 51 00:05:00,876 --> 00:05:01,709 - What? 52 00:05:01,709 --> 00:05:02,920 - I can't. 53 00:05:02,920 --> 00:05:06,090 Would you like to come to a bible study? 54 00:05:06,090 --> 00:05:08,010 - Uh, no. 55 00:05:08,010 --> 00:05:10,070 But I will talk to you soon. 56 00:05:10,070 --> 00:05:10,903 Take care. 57 00:05:10,903 --> 00:05:11,736 - You too. 58 00:05:13,345 --> 00:05:15,595 (thudding) 59 00:05:16,830 --> 00:05:17,663 - You got it? 60 00:05:17,663 --> 00:05:18,496 - Yeah. 61 00:05:27,979 --> 00:05:28,931 - Okay? 62 00:05:28,931 --> 00:05:30,590 - You could start making coffee. 63 00:05:30,590 --> 00:05:31,423 - Okay. 64 00:05:33,113 --> 00:05:34,154 - Fix those. 65 00:05:34,154 --> 00:05:35,955 - All right. 66 00:05:35,955 --> 00:05:39,703 (people chattering) 67 00:05:39,703 --> 00:05:42,786 (somber piano music) 68 00:05:44,827 --> 00:05:45,827 - Hey. - Hey. 69 00:05:47,285 --> 00:05:48,868 - How're you doing? 70 00:05:51,459 --> 00:05:54,542 (somber piano music) 71 00:06:00,725 --> 00:06:02,757 - "Perseverance must finish its work 72 00:06:02,757 --> 00:06:05,097 "so that you may be mature and complete. 73 00:06:05,097 --> 00:06:07,484 "Not lacking anything." 74 00:06:07,484 --> 00:06:10,567 (somber piano music) 75 00:06:13,580 --> 00:06:14,600 - Oh, 76 00:06:14,600 --> 00:06:15,433 I love that place. 77 00:06:15,433 --> 00:06:16,266 I got there all the time. 78 00:06:16,266 --> 00:06:17,290 I have a little boy. 79 00:06:17,290 --> 00:06:18,404 There's a park right next to it. 80 00:06:18,404 --> 00:06:19,410 - Yeah, exactly. 81 00:06:19,410 --> 00:06:20,652 I know, I love it too. 82 00:06:20,652 --> 00:06:22,819 - Do you wanna talk about? 83 00:06:25,836 --> 00:06:26,669 - No. 84 00:06:28,880 --> 00:06:29,921 - Okay. 85 00:06:29,921 --> 00:06:30,921 I can close. 86 00:06:32,002 --> 00:06:33,002 Let us pray. 87 00:06:35,900 --> 00:06:37,110 Jesus, 88 00:06:37,110 --> 00:06:37,943 thank you for. 89 00:06:39,167 --> 00:06:42,250 (somber piano music) 90 00:06:43,752 --> 00:06:47,220 (door thudding) 91 00:06:47,220 --> 00:06:48,560 - You okay? 92 00:06:48,560 --> 00:06:49,933 - Yeah. 93 00:06:49,933 --> 00:06:53,266 (rain pitter-pattering) 94 00:07:15,968 --> 00:07:20,400 I just thought we were gonna talk to them tonight. 95 00:07:20,400 --> 00:07:21,233 - Well, 96 00:07:22,100 --> 00:07:24,200 I was gonna bring up my questions to them. 97 00:07:26,320 --> 00:07:27,720 But I answered my questions. 98 00:07:30,030 --> 00:07:31,560 - You did? 99 00:07:31,560 --> 00:07:32,940 - Yeah. 100 00:07:32,940 --> 00:07:33,773 - So what? 101 00:07:38,290 --> 00:07:39,940 - I can't believe in God anymore. 102 00:07:44,158 --> 00:07:46,910 You know I'm not trying to hurt you. 103 00:07:46,910 --> 00:07:47,743 - I know. 104 00:07:49,460 --> 00:07:50,293 It's just, 105 00:07:52,710 --> 00:07:53,890 up until a month ago 106 00:07:53,890 --> 00:07:56,090 your faith was so much apart of who you were 107 00:07:57,570 --> 00:07:59,620 and now you don't believe in God anymore? 108 00:08:00,742 --> 00:08:01,750 - I don't know. 109 00:08:01,750 --> 00:08:02,583 I just, 110 00:08:04,540 --> 00:08:07,193 when I pray I feel like I'm talking to a brick wall. 111 00:08:10,730 --> 00:08:13,680 I've been thinking a lot about when I felt closest to God 112 00:08:14,896 --> 00:08:15,846 was when I met you. 113 00:08:17,460 --> 00:08:19,030 I think I prayed the most I've ever prayed 114 00:08:19,030 --> 00:08:20,680 that week before I asked you out. 115 00:08:21,980 --> 00:08:23,070 - Took you long enough. 116 00:08:23,070 --> 00:08:25,020 - Do you remember where we were in that old art building? 117 00:08:25,020 --> 00:08:25,853 - Yeah. 118 00:08:25,853 --> 00:08:28,060 - I bought you quadruple Americano 119 00:08:28,060 --> 00:08:31,050 and you had a final due the next day 120 00:08:31,050 --> 00:08:33,790 and I asked you out and it came out all backwards. 121 00:08:33,790 --> 00:08:35,458 Do you remember what I said? 122 00:08:35,458 --> 00:08:36,291 - I think you said, 123 00:08:36,291 --> 00:08:39,008 "Can I date you on a take?" 124 00:08:39,008 --> 00:08:39,841 I don't remember. 125 00:08:39,841 --> 00:08:40,719 - No, I think I said, 126 00:08:40,719 --> 00:08:42,997 "Can I out take you to a date?" 127 00:08:44,340 --> 00:08:46,040 - You stayed up with me all night. 128 00:08:46,040 --> 00:08:47,740 Can't believe a guy would do that. 129 00:08:48,860 --> 00:08:50,410 - See, 130 00:08:50,410 --> 00:08:53,210 that was the first time that I've ever felt 131 00:08:53,210 --> 00:08:55,170 God's approval 132 00:08:56,109 --> 00:08:58,513 or go ahead, or whatever, to ask you out. 133 00:09:00,050 --> 00:09:01,543 But I wasn't talking to God. 134 00:09:03,446 --> 00:09:04,279 I was afraid 135 00:09:05,460 --> 00:09:07,343 and I was just talking to myself. 136 00:09:10,640 --> 00:09:12,206 - So you've been lying to me? 137 00:09:12,206 --> 00:09:13,890 - No, no, no Emily. 138 00:09:13,890 --> 00:09:15,190 I just... 139 00:09:18,400 --> 00:09:21,200 When I think back to whatever it is that I had with God, 140 00:09:22,796 --> 00:09:24,173 I was lying to myself. 141 00:09:26,330 --> 00:09:27,163 - So you don't believe any 142 00:09:27,163 --> 00:09:29,123 of the conversations you had were real? 143 00:09:30,500 --> 00:09:31,650 - When you talk to God, 144 00:09:32,880 --> 00:09:34,163 how do you know it's him? 145 00:09:35,516 --> 00:09:36,349 - I don't know. 146 00:09:36,349 --> 00:09:37,253 I just feel it. 147 00:09:41,090 --> 00:09:42,290 So what're you gonna do? 148 00:09:44,460 --> 00:09:45,583 - What do you mean? 149 00:09:45,583 --> 00:09:47,483 - How're you gonna find God? 150 00:09:51,330 --> 00:09:52,163 - I'm not. 151 00:10:12,220 --> 00:10:15,553 (rain pitter-pattering) 152 00:10:27,986 --> 00:10:30,970 (sighing) 153 00:10:30,970 --> 00:10:31,803 - Hi. 154 00:10:33,460 --> 00:10:34,293 - Hi. 155 00:10:37,690 --> 00:10:39,340 - When's the last time you wrote? 156 00:10:40,890 --> 00:10:42,350 - What? 157 00:10:42,350 --> 00:10:43,183 - I was thinking 158 00:10:43,183 --> 00:10:46,044 maybe you should spend tomorrow just writing. 159 00:10:46,044 --> 00:10:47,410 You always come up with the best ideas 160 00:10:47,410 --> 00:10:49,263 about God and life when you write. 161 00:10:54,380 --> 00:10:55,840 - Yeah. 162 00:10:55,840 --> 00:10:57,010 Yeah, I can do that. 163 00:11:02,902 --> 00:11:06,069 (pleasant beat music) 164 00:11:09,537 --> 00:11:11,787 (groaning) 165 00:12:06,586 --> 00:12:09,753 (pleasant beat music) 166 00:12:57,477 --> 00:12:59,727 (rustling) 167 00:13:11,354 --> 00:13:14,521 (pleasant beat music) 168 00:13:18,831 --> 00:13:21,581 (glass clinking) 169 00:14:01,947 --> 00:14:04,197 (fizzling) 170 00:14:08,965 --> 00:14:11,215 (fizzling) 171 00:14:17,260 --> 00:14:19,510 (thudding) 172 00:15:00,257 --> 00:15:03,033 - What's all this stuff doing in the sock drawer? 173 00:15:05,250 --> 00:15:06,083 - I don't know. 174 00:15:07,180 --> 00:15:08,360 - You don't know how it got here? 175 00:15:08,360 --> 00:15:09,790 - Who cares how it got there? 176 00:15:09,790 --> 00:15:12,900 It's my stuff, what does it matter where I keep it? 177 00:15:12,900 --> 00:15:13,733 - Nathan? 178 00:15:14,941 --> 00:15:16,060 - What? 179 00:15:16,060 --> 00:15:16,960 - What's going on? 180 00:15:21,130 --> 00:15:22,230 - Those are my things. 181 00:15:24,455 --> 00:15:25,662 That's all. 182 00:15:25,662 --> 00:15:26,812 That's all that's left. 183 00:15:28,990 --> 00:15:29,840 Everything else 184 00:15:32,910 --> 00:15:33,743 is ours. 185 00:15:35,010 --> 00:15:35,843 But that, 186 00:15:37,170 --> 00:15:38,003 that's my mug 187 00:15:39,840 --> 00:15:41,753 and I wanted to keep it somewhere safe. 188 00:15:47,020 --> 00:15:47,853 - Hey. 189 00:15:50,700 --> 00:15:51,533 What's going on? 190 00:15:55,170 --> 00:15:58,893 - Everything that we have is ours. 191 00:15:59,770 --> 00:16:01,163 Someone bought for us. 192 00:16:05,320 --> 00:16:06,933 What happened to my stuff? 193 00:16:08,036 --> 00:16:09,873 - What're you talking about, sweetie? 194 00:16:13,180 --> 00:16:14,013 - I was 195 00:16:16,630 --> 00:16:18,160 walking through the house 196 00:16:18,160 --> 00:16:18,993 and 197 00:16:20,800 --> 00:16:22,470 I'm looking around 198 00:16:22,470 --> 00:16:23,303 and, 199 00:16:26,012 --> 00:16:27,436 none of it, 200 00:16:27,436 --> 00:16:29,353 none of it, none of it. 201 00:16:31,023 --> 00:16:32,163 None of it's me. 202 00:16:33,950 --> 00:16:34,783 I lied to you 203 00:16:36,760 --> 00:16:38,403 and I lied to myself. 204 00:16:41,290 --> 00:16:43,190 What kind of person does that make me? 205 00:16:44,060 --> 00:16:44,893 - Hey. 206 00:16:51,250 --> 00:16:52,125 Jesus-- 207 00:16:52,125 --> 00:16:53,150 - Don't! 208 00:16:53,150 --> 00:16:53,983 Don't! 209 00:16:55,462 --> 00:16:57,422 (glass shattering) 210 00:16:57,422 --> 00:17:00,172 (dramatic music) 211 00:17:12,642 --> 00:17:14,892 (groaning) 212 00:17:19,318 --> 00:17:21,401 (crying) 213 00:17:25,577 --> 00:17:26,410 I'm sorry. 214 00:17:27,997 --> 00:17:31,624 I didn't mean to scare you. 215 00:17:31,624 --> 00:17:33,957 I didn't meant to scare you. 216 00:17:40,506 --> 00:17:41,506 - It's okay. 217 00:17:44,676 --> 00:17:45,509 It's okay. 218 00:17:49,222 --> 00:17:52,305 (somber piano music) 219 00:18:25,271 --> 00:18:28,021 (glass clinking) 220 00:18:31,159 --> 00:18:34,242 (somber piano music) 221 00:18:59,877 --> 00:19:02,627 (Nathan sighing) 222 00:19:19,283 --> 00:19:20,433 - Vanilla latte. 223 00:19:22,380 --> 00:19:23,913 So what does that mean? 224 00:19:25,220 --> 00:19:26,333 - He needs his space. 225 00:19:28,110 --> 00:19:29,570 - So are you separated? 226 00:19:29,570 --> 00:19:30,403 - No. 227 00:19:32,660 --> 00:19:33,910 He just needs a few days. 228 00:19:35,330 --> 00:19:36,623 - I said nonfat, right? 229 00:19:39,390 --> 00:19:40,223 Sorry. 230 00:19:40,223 --> 00:19:41,753 - It's fine. 231 00:19:41,753 --> 00:19:44,003 (fizzling) 232 00:19:53,330 --> 00:19:54,475 What? 233 00:19:54,475 --> 00:19:55,590 - Well, I don't know. 234 00:19:55,590 --> 00:19:58,134 I mean, do you think this is a good idea? 235 00:19:58,134 --> 00:19:58,967 - I don't know. 236 00:20:02,170 --> 00:20:04,140 - So he's what, 237 00:20:04,140 --> 00:20:06,083 at atheist, agnostic? 238 00:20:11,860 --> 00:20:13,683 - Nonfat vanilla latte. 239 00:20:14,992 --> 00:20:17,909 (faint beat music) 240 00:20:21,794 --> 00:20:22,627 I don't know. 241 00:20:22,627 --> 00:20:25,122 He just says that he doesn't believe in God. 242 00:20:25,122 --> 00:20:26,360 That's all he says. 243 00:20:26,360 --> 00:20:28,220 - Well, that's probably hard for you, right? 244 00:20:28,220 --> 00:20:29,573 - Doesn't matter. 245 00:20:32,610 --> 00:20:33,443 It was weird, though. 246 00:20:33,443 --> 00:20:36,323 Last night was the first night I slept alone in like a year. 247 00:20:41,670 --> 00:20:44,403 - You don't think he met someone else, do you? 248 00:20:46,640 --> 00:20:47,890 - You know, 249 00:20:47,890 --> 00:20:49,333 I'm okay out here. 250 00:20:49,333 --> 00:20:50,650 - Emily, I'm sorry. - No, it's fine. 251 00:20:50,650 --> 00:20:52,010 - I didn't mean to sound-- 252 00:20:52,010 --> 00:20:52,843 - No, no, no, no. 253 00:20:52,843 --> 00:20:53,676 You're good. 254 00:20:55,130 --> 00:20:56,696 Go. 255 00:20:56,696 --> 00:20:59,613 (faint beat music) 256 00:21:06,166 --> 00:21:08,916 (rails clanking) 257 00:21:09,837 --> 00:21:13,464 - I need some space to sort some stuff out, man. 258 00:21:13,464 --> 00:21:15,190 I can't keep taking it out on her. 259 00:21:15,190 --> 00:21:16,100 - For sure. 260 00:21:16,100 --> 00:21:17,820 Well, this is it. 261 00:21:17,820 --> 00:21:19,120 It's guest bedroom. 262 00:21:19,120 --> 00:21:20,670 I've never really had a guest in it 263 00:21:20,670 --> 00:21:22,960 but it had been a room for awhile. 264 00:21:22,960 --> 00:21:24,910 Sorry it's not much. 265 00:21:24,910 --> 00:21:26,670 - No, this is, 266 00:21:26,670 --> 00:21:27,780 this is great. 267 00:21:27,780 --> 00:21:28,640 Thank you. 268 00:21:28,640 --> 00:21:30,080 - Cool. 269 00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:32,333 - Well, do you wanna talk about it? 270 00:21:34,960 --> 00:21:35,793 - No. 271 00:21:35,793 --> 00:21:36,763 - Cool, thanks. 272 00:21:38,040 --> 00:21:38,873 - For what? 273 00:21:38,873 --> 00:21:41,100 - For not wanting to talk about it. 274 00:21:41,100 --> 00:21:42,983 Just awkward, you know? 275 00:21:43,890 --> 00:21:44,750 - Anytime. 276 00:21:44,750 --> 00:21:45,860 - But good luck 277 00:21:45,860 --> 00:21:46,693 and I'm here for you. 278 00:21:46,693 --> 00:21:47,810 - Thank you. 279 00:21:47,810 --> 00:21:49,210 - Yeah. 280 00:21:49,210 --> 00:21:50,920 We are gonna go to the Ram's Head and get some beers, 281 00:21:50,920 --> 00:21:52,410 if you wanna come. 282 00:21:52,410 --> 00:21:53,690 - I'm okay. 283 00:21:53,690 --> 00:21:55,450 I'm gonna get some writing down. 284 00:21:55,450 --> 00:21:56,320 - Well, 285 00:21:56,320 --> 00:21:58,670 sleep tight or whatever you're gonna do. 286 00:21:58,670 --> 00:21:59,503 - Thank you. 287 00:22:56,612 --> 00:22:57,778 (door creaking) 288 00:22:57,778 --> 00:23:00,611 (muffled talking) 289 00:23:05,330 --> 00:23:08,738 (girl laughing) 290 00:23:08,738 --> 00:23:10,738 - Do you have any tattoos or birthmarks? 291 00:23:14,749 --> 00:23:16,400 I don't wanna make you feel self-conscious. 292 00:23:16,400 --> 00:23:19,391 I just wanted to try and get to know you. 293 00:23:19,391 --> 00:23:21,407 (muffled speaking) 294 00:23:21,407 --> 00:23:24,310 People have neck tattoos and tramp stamps. 295 00:23:24,310 --> 00:23:25,300 If you had a tramp stamp, 296 00:23:25,300 --> 00:23:26,765 I wouldn't call it a tramp stamp on you, 297 00:23:26,765 --> 00:23:28,680 I would call it a beauty mark 298 00:23:28,680 --> 00:23:30,398 or like a graffiti wall. - Oh. 299 00:23:30,398 --> 00:23:32,067 Oh, a graffiti wall? 300 00:23:32,067 --> 00:23:33,357 - Whatever is classy. 301 00:23:33,357 --> 00:23:34,190 - Graffiti wall. 302 00:23:34,190 --> 00:23:35,275 That's pretty edgy. 303 00:23:35,275 --> 00:23:36,950 I feel like, yeah, graffiti wall. 304 00:23:36,950 --> 00:23:37,783 - Well, tramp stamp-- 305 00:23:37,783 --> 00:23:38,920 - Hey, like my graffiti wall? 306 00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:41,609 - Check out my graffiti wall. 307 00:23:41,609 --> 00:23:44,323 (muffled laughing) 308 00:23:44,323 --> 00:23:47,406 (somber piano music) 309 00:24:30,238 --> 00:24:33,238 (traffic commotion) 310 00:24:40,051 --> 00:24:42,718 (phone buzzing) 311 00:24:44,849 --> 00:24:47,016 (sighing) 312 00:25:05,996 --> 00:25:08,663 (phone buzzing) 313 00:25:29,931 --> 00:25:32,380 (phone buzzing) 314 00:25:32,380 --> 00:25:33,803 - Oh my God, Mom, shut up. 315 00:25:35,602 --> 00:25:38,602 (traffic commotion) 316 00:25:47,032 --> 00:25:49,699 (phone buzzing) 317 00:26:00,963 --> 00:26:03,170 That's a very pessimistic way to think about it. 318 00:26:03,170 --> 00:26:04,273 - But come on. 319 00:26:05,130 --> 00:26:07,370 If we don't let Jesus into our heart 320 00:26:07,370 --> 00:26:09,290 or ask for forgiveness, 321 00:26:09,290 --> 00:26:10,363 then we go to hell. 322 00:26:11,800 --> 00:26:13,600 It's fear based. 323 00:26:13,600 --> 00:26:16,373 Just trying to keep us in line like we're cattle. 324 00:26:17,490 --> 00:26:19,230 - An opiate for the masses. 325 00:26:19,230 --> 00:26:20,253 - Exactly. 326 00:26:21,103 --> 00:26:22,776 Nietzschey had a point. 327 00:26:22,776 --> 00:26:23,776 - Nietzsche. 328 00:26:24,615 --> 00:26:25,782 - "Nietzsche." 329 00:26:26,703 --> 00:26:28,303 - And it was Marx who said that. 330 00:26:29,350 --> 00:26:30,530 - Whatever. 331 00:26:30,530 --> 00:26:33,180 How often do you go to church out of guilt? 332 00:26:33,180 --> 00:26:34,013 - I don't. 333 00:26:34,950 --> 00:26:35,783 - I did. 334 00:26:37,740 --> 00:26:38,573 - Hmm. 335 00:26:39,780 --> 00:26:42,180 - My parents always expected me to go to church. 336 00:26:45,426 --> 00:26:46,676 It was the same with you. 337 00:26:52,130 --> 00:26:52,963 - So what? 338 00:26:54,330 --> 00:26:56,830 You just trying to put on a show to make me happy? 339 00:26:59,430 --> 00:27:01,690 When I suggested that we start a bible study 340 00:27:01,690 --> 00:27:02,590 in our living room, 341 00:27:02,590 --> 00:27:05,029 you were just being a good little husband for me? 342 00:27:05,029 --> 00:27:06,960 - I was just trying to support you and what you wanted. 343 00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:08,260 - But you were lying. 344 00:27:08,260 --> 00:27:09,093 - I know 345 00:27:11,010 --> 00:27:12,343 and I hate that. 346 00:27:13,860 --> 00:27:16,913 I hate that I had to lie to make you happy. 347 00:27:19,080 --> 00:27:23,033 I was lying to myself and I am not lying anymore. 348 00:27:25,930 --> 00:27:27,373 I wanna be real with you. 349 00:27:36,870 --> 00:27:37,703 - What? 350 00:27:39,100 --> 00:27:40,423 - Will you still like me? 351 00:27:45,720 --> 00:27:46,833 - You're my husband. 352 00:28:32,577 --> 00:28:33,410 - Amen. 353 00:28:34,493 --> 00:28:35,326 - Amen. 354 00:28:39,990 --> 00:28:40,823 Thank you. 355 00:28:42,497 --> 00:28:43,593 - How do you feel? 356 00:28:45,580 --> 00:28:46,413 - Sad. 357 00:28:48,700 --> 00:28:49,963 But a little less lonely. 358 00:28:54,460 --> 00:28:55,293 I don't know. 359 00:28:56,150 --> 00:28:57,563 Guess I'm feeling guilty. 360 00:28:59,860 --> 00:29:01,229 - Why? 361 00:29:01,229 --> 00:29:02,062 - I don't know. 362 00:29:04,070 --> 00:29:05,720 I try to look at this thing from every angle 363 00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:07,420 and no matter what, it's my fault. 364 00:29:08,490 --> 00:29:10,530 He was always so uncomfortable, this whole time, 365 00:29:10,530 --> 00:29:14,110 he just, what, I don't know, humored me. 366 00:29:14,110 --> 00:29:16,500 - He's uncomfortable around everyone. 367 00:29:16,500 --> 00:29:19,090 Remember that first dinner with Mom and Dad? 368 00:29:19,090 --> 00:29:20,160 - Oh yeah. 369 00:29:20,160 --> 00:29:21,470 Where he wouldn't carve the turkey 370 00:29:21,470 --> 00:29:22,890 and Dad asked him to pray? 371 00:29:22,890 --> 00:29:24,367 - No, Mom ask him to pray 372 00:29:24,367 --> 00:29:26,160 and it was Dad who asked him to finish 373 00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:28,357 after a whole minute passed since he said, 374 00:29:28,357 --> 00:29:30,133 "Jesus, we just..." 375 00:29:32,037 --> 00:29:34,440 (laughing) 376 00:29:34,440 --> 00:29:35,887 - I think that's all he said, 377 00:29:35,887 --> 00:29:37,333 "Jesus, we just..." 378 00:29:40,766 --> 00:29:43,460 It was those moments, those nights when he was so cute 379 00:29:43,460 --> 00:29:45,060 and I had no idea that it meant. 380 00:29:46,730 --> 00:29:48,231 - What? 381 00:29:48,231 --> 00:29:50,231 - That he couldn't be himself around me. 382 00:29:52,528 --> 00:29:53,361 God. 383 00:29:55,070 --> 00:29:56,460 It's like we have to start all over again 384 00:29:56,460 --> 00:29:59,340 and even then, only if he feels comfortable with himself. 385 00:30:00,823 --> 00:30:02,193 - Well, I mean, 386 00:30:03,480 --> 00:30:05,130 what do you think you could do differently 387 00:30:05,130 --> 00:30:07,502 that would make him feel more comfortable? 388 00:30:07,502 --> 00:30:12,347 - I don't know. 389 00:30:12,347 --> 00:30:13,913 - You know, Emily, 390 00:30:14,920 --> 00:30:19,040 I really believe that God's got a plan for you guys. 391 00:30:19,040 --> 00:30:20,210 - Then why would he want me to marry him 392 00:30:20,210 --> 00:30:22,110 if it's just gonna end in three years? 393 00:30:28,317 --> 00:30:29,150 I'm sorry. 394 00:30:32,690 --> 00:30:33,593 I'm just scared. 395 00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:36,873 - So am I. 396 00:30:41,828 --> 00:30:44,828 (faint piano music) 397 00:30:50,587 --> 00:30:52,837 (fizzling) 398 00:31:09,275 --> 00:31:12,275 (traffic commotion) 399 00:31:28,787 --> 00:31:29,751 - Hi. 400 00:31:29,751 --> 00:31:30,584 - Hi. 401 00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:32,807 - How are you? 402 00:31:32,807 --> 00:31:34,467 - I'm okay, how are you? 403 00:31:34,467 --> 00:31:35,300 - I'm good. 404 00:31:36,258 --> 00:31:37,708 Could I get a scotch, please? 405 00:31:42,290 --> 00:31:43,970 Thank you for meeting with me. 406 00:31:43,970 --> 00:31:44,803 - Of course. 407 00:31:46,090 --> 00:31:47,083 - Steve says hi. 408 00:31:48,010 --> 00:31:48,843 - Hi, Steve. 409 00:31:54,520 --> 00:31:55,920 So what have you been up to? 410 00:31:58,060 --> 00:31:58,893 - Writing. 411 00:31:59,990 --> 00:32:00,870 - Good. 412 00:32:00,870 --> 00:32:02,260 That's great. 413 00:32:02,260 --> 00:32:03,760 What have you been writing about? 414 00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:04,783 - Oh, you know, 415 00:32:04,783 --> 00:32:06,600 just ideas for stories 416 00:32:07,667 --> 00:32:09,230 and character sketches. 417 00:32:09,230 --> 00:32:10,063 Stuff like that. 418 00:32:11,120 --> 00:32:13,440 - Have you been enjoying it more than copywriting? 419 00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:14,693 - Oh God, yes. 420 00:32:16,150 --> 00:32:17,240 - Why? 421 00:32:17,240 --> 00:32:19,660 - Copywriting is not inspiring. 422 00:32:19,660 --> 00:32:21,294 - Yeah. 423 00:32:21,294 --> 00:32:22,127 And? 424 00:32:23,306 --> 00:32:24,456 - It's what I wanna do. 425 00:32:25,560 --> 00:32:26,560 I wanna move people. 426 00:32:28,855 --> 00:32:29,688 - Okay. 427 00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:35,740 - What? 428 00:32:35,740 --> 00:32:37,560 - Well, it's great if that's what you wanna do 429 00:32:37,560 --> 00:32:39,733 but there's a place for copywriting too. 430 00:32:42,440 --> 00:32:43,930 - I don't like it. 431 00:32:43,930 --> 00:32:46,163 - Okay, I can understand that, sure. 432 00:32:47,520 --> 00:32:48,910 I'm just saying that I think 433 00:32:48,910 --> 00:32:51,133 you should be proud of the work that you've done. 434 00:32:52,248 --> 00:32:53,081 - Okay. 435 00:32:54,850 --> 00:32:55,683 Thank you. 436 00:32:59,650 --> 00:33:02,520 It's the little things too, though, you know? 437 00:33:02,520 --> 00:33:04,070 Sitting in the coffee shops. 438 00:33:04,070 --> 00:33:06,020 People watching. 439 00:33:06,020 --> 00:33:07,930 I could do that anywhere. 440 00:33:07,930 --> 00:33:10,040 France, Spain. 441 00:33:10,040 --> 00:33:11,040 And I could be free. 442 00:33:14,010 --> 00:33:15,120 - You wouldn't be totally free. 443 00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:18,120 I mean, you'd still have some responsibilities. 444 00:33:18,120 --> 00:33:20,276 - Yeah, I'd have to get some writing done, sure. 445 00:33:20,276 --> 00:33:21,109 (chuckling) 446 00:33:21,109 --> 00:33:22,780 - No, I mean, like responsibilities. 447 00:33:22,780 --> 00:33:25,023 Like your family. 448 00:33:27,600 --> 00:33:30,200 And what if your wife doesn't want to move to Spain? 449 00:33:31,090 --> 00:33:34,090 What if she wants to open up a coffee shop here in Portland? 450 00:33:35,210 --> 00:33:36,643 You can people watch there. 451 00:33:47,050 --> 00:33:48,550 How are you feeling about God? 452 00:33:50,480 --> 00:33:51,430 - What do you mean? 453 00:33:52,490 --> 00:33:53,840 - How are you pursuing Him? 454 00:33:55,600 --> 00:33:57,957 - How do you think that comes across, Emily? 455 00:33:57,957 --> 00:34:00,350 "How are you pursuing him?" 456 00:34:00,350 --> 00:34:01,260 - How do you want me to phrase it? 457 00:34:01,260 --> 00:34:03,123 - It's not about phrasing. 458 00:34:04,750 --> 00:34:06,250 I'm not pursuing him. 459 00:34:06,250 --> 00:34:07,083 - Why? 460 00:34:08,090 --> 00:34:08,923 - Emily! 461 00:34:10,575 --> 00:34:11,575 - I'm sorry. 462 00:34:15,390 --> 00:34:16,620 Can you tell me a little bit more 463 00:34:16,620 --> 00:34:18,020 about why you don't believe? 464 00:34:27,150 --> 00:34:28,400 - Do you realize that there's been 465 00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:30,683 three school shootings in the past month? 466 00:34:31,530 --> 00:34:33,003 There's no room for God here. 467 00:34:35,300 --> 00:34:36,133 - I disagree. 468 00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:39,600 The world is a shitty place, Nathan. 469 00:34:41,840 --> 00:34:44,250 I would lose it if I didn't have God to turn to. 470 00:34:44,250 --> 00:34:46,230 - See that's why I can't believe. 471 00:34:46,230 --> 00:34:48,650 God and Heaven and all this other bullshit 472 00:34:48,650 --> 00:34:50,203 we make up to escape. 473 00:34:51,190 --> 00:34:53,110 - And what're you doing when you read all those books, okay? 474 00:34:53,110 --> 00:34:55,083 Joyce, Hemingway, Cormac McCarthy. 475 00:34:55,083 --> 00:34:57,920 What're you doing when you're losing yourself in them? 476 00:34:57,920 --> 00:35:01,040 - I'm dealing with the shit that's going on in the world. 477 00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:04,200 The bible says stay away from the world, stay out of it. 478 00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:05,400 Literature confronts it. 479 00:35:07,270 --> 00:35:08,630 Emily, 480 00:35:08,630 --> 00:35:11,000 this doesn't have to be a big deal. 481 00:35:11,000 --> 00:35:12,850 I still respect what you believe. 482 00:35:12,850 --> 00:35:15,220 - You think it's all made up. 483 00:35:15,220 --> 00:35:17,090 How do you respect what I believe? 484 00:35:17,090 --> 00:35:20,310 - You believe in God, I don't believe in God. 485 00:35:20,310 --> 00:35:22,020 I'm not saying that you're wrong. 486 00:35:22,020 --> 00:35:23,900 I'm just saying that I don't believe. 487 00:35:23,900 --> 00:35:24,733 - Why? 488 00:35:28,313 --> 00:35:30,480 (sighing) 489 00:35:31,365 --> 00:35:35,230 Have you really thought both sides of the argument through? 490 00:35:35,230 --> 00:35:36,063 - Emily, 491 00:35:36,063 --> 00:35:37,140 can you just 492 00:35:38,200 --> 00:35:39,133 let me be? 493 00:35:43,200 --> 00:35:44,033 - No. 494 00:35:51,636 --> 00:35:53,136 You're my husband. 495 00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:55,403 It's my job to push you. 496 00:36:06,960 --> 00:36:07,793 - I'm sorry. 497 00:36:15,100 --> 00:36:16,373 - When are you coming home? 498 00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:21,500 - He returns. 499 00:36:21,500 --> 00:36:22,960 - Hey. 500 00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:24,060 - How'd it go? 501 00:36:26,110 --> 00:36:27,073 - It was all right. 502 00:36:28,078 --> 00:36:30,160 (Steve laughing) 503 00:36:30,160 --> 00:36:31,860 - Are you sure about that? 504 00:36:33,429 --> 00:36:34,762 - I don't know. 505 00:36:37,523 --> 00:36:38,963 - What do you not know? 506 00:36:41,220 --> 00:36:42,520 - It was weird seeing her. 507 00:36:45,500 --> 00:36:47,553 - Well, are you gonna move back in with her? 508 00:36:48,940 --> 00:36:50,170 - I don't know. 509 00:36:50,170 --> 00:36:51,073 I'd like to. 510 00:36:52,380 --> 00:36:54,613 I just don't know if it's a good idea though. 511 00:36:55,580 --> 00:36:58,930 That guy she married, I am not that guy anymore. 512 00:36:58,930 --> 00:36:59,763 - Yeah. 513 00:36:59,763 --> 00:37:01,473 - How could we possibly be happy? 514 00:37:03,230 --> 00:37:04,063 - Don't ask me. 515 00:37:05,400 --> 00:37:06,530 - I wasn't. 516 00:37:06,530 --> 00:37:08,060 - Well, yeah you were. 517 00:37:08,060 --> 00:37:10,290 I mean, you just said, "How could I possible be happy?" 518 00:37:10,290 --> 00:37:12,790 - Oh my God, Steve, I was being rhetorical. 519 00:37:12,790 --> 00:37:13,623 - What? 520 00:37:29,220 --> 00:37:31,013 This is why I don't get married. 521 00:37:32,330 --> 00:37:33,173 - Helpful. 522 00:37:34,240 --> 00:37:38,783 - I'm just saying, why do you think the divorce rate is 50%? 523 00:37:40,620 --> 00:37:43,410 Because girls come and go. 524 00:37:43,410 --> 00:37:44,750 People change. 525 00:37:44,750 --> 00:37:48,030 You and Emily, you had a good run. 526 00:37:48,030 --> 00:37:49,923 - We're just separated. 527 00:37:51,110 --> 00:37:55,560 - Like I said, people change and nothing lasts forever. 528 00:37:55,560 --> 00:37:56,590 - Yeah, you're right. 529 00:37:56,590 --> 00:37:58,596 You know, it's just my marriage. 530 00:37:58,596 --> 00:37:59,890 Why even try? 531 00:37:59,890 --> 00:38:03,353 - Some people get married for 50 years. 532 00:38:03,353 --> 00:38:04,550 50 years. 533 00:38:04,550 --> 00:38:06,780 If you're lucky, you'd get out way before then. 534 00:38:06,780 --> 00:38:08,323 - Oh my God, shut up, Steve. 535 00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:12,550 - You know, I was married. 536 00:38:12,550 --> 00:38:13,710 - Really? 537 00:38:13,710 --> 00:38:15,800 - I was engaged. 538 00:38:15,800 --> 00:38:17,303 I had a serious relationship. 539 00:38:19,320 --> 00:38:21,513 Senior year, U-Dub, 540 00:38:22,580 --> 00:38:23,680 her name was Courtney. 541 00:38:24,930 --> 00:38:25,763 And 542 00:38:27,460 --> 00:38:29,650 we were together for like six months. 543 00:38:29,650 --> 00:38:31,420 She moved into my place, 544 00:38:31,420 --> 00:38:33,780 we got a cat, cooked dinners together. 545 00:38:33,780 --> 00:38:35,980 We even talked about marriage. 546 00:38:35,980 --> 00:38:38,460 And then, out of nowhere, we just started fighting. 547 00:38:38,460 --> 00:38:39,600 Fighting about everything. 548 00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:42,210 I mean, I would say we're out of mayonnaise 549 00:38:42,210 --> 00:38:44,700 and two hours later she would be having an argument 550 00:38:44,700 --> 00:38:47,600 with me about how I don't take responsibility for my life. 551 00:38:48,940 --> 00:38:51,430 I woke up one morning and I realized, 552 00:38:51,430 --> 00:38:53,383 it just shouldn't be this hard. 553 00:38:54,810 --> 00:38:55,910 So I broke up with her 554 00:38:57,360 --> 00:39:01,790 and I got this place and I couldn't be happier. 555 00:40:04,350 --> 00:40:06,600 (inhaling) 556 00:40:22,114 --> 00:40:23,490 (entry belling ringing) 557 00:40:23,490 --> 00:40:24,890 - Hey, Dad. 558 00:40:24,890 --> 00:40:25,743 Sorry I'm late. 559 00:40:25,743 --> 00:40:27,060 - Hey, buddy. - Hey. 560 00:40:27,060 --> 00:40:28,831 - It's not problem. 561 00:40:28,831 --> 00:40:29,914 Have a donut? 562 00:40:30,790 --> 00:40:31,623 - Sure. 563 00:40:33,520 --> 00:40:34,353 - I'm really sorry 564 00:40:34,353 --> 00:40:36,680 but I gotta get my Max in a couple minutes. 565 00:40:36,680 --> 00:40:38,884 - Oh, it's okay, I understand. 566 00:40:38,884 --> 00:40:41,370 - So how's it going? 567 00:40:41,370 --> 00:40:42,203 What's up? 568 00:40:43,110 --> 00:40:45,863 - I wanted to ask you about your first marriage. 569 00:40:47,852 --> 00:40:48,685 - Okay. 570 00:40:50,450 --> 00:40:52,090 - You never talk about her. 571 00:40:52,090 --> 00:40:52,923 - Why would I? 572 00:40:53,870 --> 00:40:55,300 - She was your wife. 573 00:40:55,300 --> 00:40:57,530 - Yeah, for a year, you know? 574 00:40:57,530 --> 00:40:58,903 Way before I met your mom. 575 00:41:00,680 --> 00:41:02,113 Why you asking about Alice? 576 00:41:03,920 --> 00:41:04,920 - Did you regret it? 577 00:41:06,480 --> 00:41:08,550 - Breaking up with Alice? 578 00:41:08,550 --> 00:41:10,423 No, of course not. 579 00:41:11,460 --> 00:41:13,790 If we hadn't broken up, I woulda never met your mom. 580 00:41:13,790 --> 00:41:15,480 We wouldn't have had you 581 00:41:15,480 --> 00:41:16,800 or Lizzie or David. 582 00:41:16,800 --> 00:41:19,930 - I know but besides us and besides mom, I mean, 583 00:41:19,930 --> 00:41:22,170 do you ever think about what your life would've been like 584 00:41:22,170 --> 00:41:24,173 if you'd stuck with Alice? 585 00:41:26,670 --> 00:41:28,520 - What's going on with you and Emily? 586 00:41:29,935 --> 00:41:32,017 - I don't know. 587 00:41:32,017 --> 00:41:34,650 We're becoming different people. 588 00:41:34,650 --> 00:41:35,593 Or I am. 589 00:41:38,064 --> 00:41:39,830 It's just not working. 590 00:41:39,830 --> 00:41:41,440 - Like how? 591 00:41:41,440 --> 00:41:42,590 Give me a for instance. 592 00:41:43,900 --> 00:41:45,940 - It's nothing specific, Dad, it's just 593 00:41:47,160 --> 00:41:48,510 I'm changing and she isn't. 594 00:41:50,497 --> 00:41:51,660 - It happens, buddy. 595 00:41:51,660 --> 00:41:53,540 You know, people change over the years. 596 00:41:53,540 --> 00:41:56,473 - But I'm growing in the opposite direction of Emily. 597 00:41:57,840 --> 00:42:00,470 - Like I said, son, that happens. 598 00:42:00,470 --> 00:42:02,363 You just find a way to make it work. 599 00:42:03,830 --> 00:42:06,270 - But what if we weren't meant to be together? 600 00:42:06,270 --> 00:42:08,620 What if she's meant to be with somebody else? 601 00:42:08,620 --> 00:42:10,490 What if she's my Alice? 602 00:42:10,490 --> 00:42:12,010 - She's not. 603 00:42:12,010 --> 00:42:14,770 When I married Alice I was 23, she was 21. 604 00:42:14,770 --> 00:42:15,983 - I was 25. 605 00:42:16,820 --> 00:42:18,990 What if I'm holding her back 606 00:42:18,990 --> 00:42:22,090 from being with the guy she's supposed to be with? 607 00:42:22,090 --> 00:42:24,590 - The guy she's supposed to be with is you, buddy. 608 00:42:25,850 --> 00:42:27,920 - How do you know that though, Dad? 609 00:42:27,920 --> 00:42:29,570 She'll just be miserable with me. 610 00:42:30,430 --> 00:42:32,290 - I know Emily 611 00:42:32,290 --> 00:42:33,283 and I know you. 612 00:42:34,790 --> 00:42:36,800 She's not your Alice. 613 00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:38,033 She's your Emily. 614 00:42:40,390 --> 00:42:41,673 Go back to your wife. 615 00:42:48,060 --> 00:42:48,893 - Hey, Gina. 616 00:42:51,370 --> 00:42:53,100 I'm good, how are you? 617 00:42:53,100 --> 00:42:54,000 Good, that's good. 618 00:42:55,310 --> 00:42:58,023 Um, I was calling because I was, 619 00:42:59,140 --> 00:43:00,930 Nathan's not doing so good and I don't think 620 00:43:00,930 --> 00:43:03,250 we'll be able to host bible study this week 621 00:43:03,250 --> 00:43:07,853 and I was wondering if you and Cory wanna host. 622 00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:10,193 Oh. 623 00:43:11,320 --> 00:43:12,940 Oh, yeah, no that's totally fine. 624 00:43:12,940 --> 00:43:14,653 Yeah, no, I understand. 625 00:43:15,990 --> 00:43:17,415 Okay. 626 00:43:17,415 --> 00:43:19,203 Yeah, he'll be fine. 627 00:43:20,610 --> 00:43:21,790 Yeah. 628 00:43:21,790 --> 00:43:22,660 Okay. 629 00:43:22,660 --> 00:43:23,760 Talk to you soon, bye. 630 00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:31,013 Hey, Amy, how's it going? 631 00:43:32,472 --> 00:43:33,350 Good. 632 00:43:33,350 --> 00:43:35,580 Listen, I'm calling because 633 00:43:36,640 --> 00:43:37,580 I don't think we're gonna be able 634 00:43:37,580 --> 00:43:38,940 to host bible study this week 635 00:43:38,940 --> 00:43:41,440 and I was wondering if you and Michael wanna host. 636 00:43:43,559 --> 00:43:46,309 (birds chirping) 637 00:44:06,418 --> 00:44:09,085 (door creaking) 638 00:44:17,450 --> 00:44:18,890 Hi. 639 00:44:18,890 --> 00:44:20,420 - Hi. 640 00:44:20,420 --> 00:44:21,620 I wanted to talk to you. 641 00:44:26,040 --> 00:44:27,443 - I wanna apologize. 642 00:44:29,570 --> 00:44:30,770 I was being unreasonable 643 00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:33,623 and I'm sorry. 644 00:44:36,120 --> 00:44:37,870 It doesn't matter what you believe. 645 00:44:39,540 --> 00:44:40,373 I love you. 646 00:44:45,208 --> 00:44:46,458 And I miss you. 647 00:44:49,080 --> 00:44:50,030 - I missed you too. 648 00:44:51,320 --> 00:44:52,393 - Please come home. 649 00:44:54,850 --> 00:44:56,480 - Emily, 650 00:44:56,480 --> 00:44:57,380 when I married you 651 00:44:59,260 --> 00:45:01,037 I made vows that I can't, 652 00:45:03,220 --> 00:45:04,183 it's not fair. 653 00:45:05,060 --> 00:45:06,353 - What're you saying, Nathan? 654 00:45:09,090 --> 00:45:10,890 - You're not supposed to be with me. 655 00:45:15,050 --> 00:45:17,763 There is someone out there who is so much better for you. 656 00:45:19,748 --> 00:45:20,698 - This is bullshit. 657 00:45:21,650 --> 00:45:23,503 This is bullshit! 658 00:45:23,503 --> 00:45:24,910 What're you doing, Nathan?! 659 00:45:24,910 --> 00:45:26,480 - You deserve better. 660 00:45:26,480 --> 00:45:27,770 - How can you say that? 661 00:45:27,770 --> 00:45:29,920 - I know the kind of husband that you need. 662 00:45:33,132 --> 00:45:34,270 (sighing) 663 00:45:34,270 --> 00:45:35,103 - Nathan, 664 00:45:36,380 --> 00:45:37,573 I just want you. 665 00:45:44,147 --> 00:45:45,105 - Emily, no. 666 00:45:45,105 --> 00:45:46,063 No. 667 00:45:46,063 --> 00:45:47,404 I can't. 668 00:45:47,404 --> 00:45:49,460 I won't hurt you. 669 00:45:49,460 --> 00:45:51,180 - No, Nathan, okay? 670 00:45:51,180 --> 00:45:53,060 You ran out on your beliefs! 671 00:45:53,060 --> 00:45:54,350 If you wanna be the cool writer 672 00:45:54,350 --> 00:45:56,970 and be Fitzgerald or Hemingway, then fine! 673 00:45:56,970 --> 00:45:58,600 You wanna go find yourself?! 674 00:45:58,600 --> 00:46:00,250 You wanna blame me, blame me all you want 675 00:46:00,250 --> 00:46:01,673 but you don't give up on us! 676 00:46:21,269 --> 00:46:23,852 (somber music) 677 00:46:30,960 --> 00:46:31,793 I love you 678 00:46:33,733 --> 00:46:34,783 and you love me. 679 00:46:39,455 --> 00:46:40,993 - I don't wanna hurt you. 680 00:46:43,790 --> 00:46:45,290 - I won't let you. 681 00:46:53,280 --> 00:46:55,620 - Hey, Genie, it's Nathan. 682 00:46:55,620 --> 00:46:57,620 Yeah, I don't think I can come in today. 683 00:46:58,510 --> 00:47:00,803 I think I got the stomach flu or something. 684 00:47:02,130 --> 00:47:03,450 Okay. 685 00:47:03,450 --> 00:47:04,790 Okay, thank you, Genie. 686 00:47:04,790 --> 00:47:05,623 Thank you. 687 00:47:08,170 --> 00:47:09,710 I haven't used any of my sick days 688 00:47:09,710 --> 00:47:11,690 and my writing is going really well. 689 00:47:11,690 --> 00:47:12,893 - Oh, all right. 690 00:47:14,500 --> 00:47:15,680 I forgot to tell you. 691 00:47:15,680 --> 00:47:18,050 I was on a shoot the other day for a magazine 692 00:47:18,050 --> 00:47:20,310 and they had a job opening that I think you'd really like. 693 00:47:20,310 --> 00:47:21,157 - Yeah? 694 00:47:21,157 --> 00:47:22,430 - Mhmm. 695 00:47:22,430 --> 00:47:24,000 Travel writer. 696 00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:26,040 Pretty much review coffee shops, bars. 697 00:47:26,040 --> 00:47:27,450 You'd be on the road a lot 698 00:47:27,450 --> 00:47:30,020 but you'd have a lot to write about. 699 00:47:30,020 --> 00:47:30,853 - Hmm. 700 00:47:32,373 --> 00:47:34,330 - You want me to tell them that you're interested? 701 00:47:34,330 --> 00:47:35,163 - Uh. 702 00:47:36,260 --> 00:47:37,770 Maybe. 703 00:47:37,770 --> 00:47:38,603 - What do you mean, maybe? 704 00:47:38,603 --> 00:47:40,640 This is what you've always talked about, right? 705 00:47:40,640 --> 00:47:43,410 - I wanna write prose, not reviews. 706 00:47:43,410 --> 00:47:45,860 - You would drink scotch and then write about it. 707 00:47:45,860 --> 00:47:46,693 - So? 708 00:47:46,693 --> 00:47:48,340 - So that's awesome. 709 00:47:48,340 --> 00:47:50,070 And that's what Hemingway would do. 710 00:47:50,070 --> 00:47:52,170 - Hemingway also shot himself in the head. 711 00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:54,433 - Right. 712 00:47:55,660 --> 00:47:56,860 This came for you today. 713 00:48:00,440 --> 00:48:01,940 Who's it from? 714 00:48:01,940 --> 00:48:02,773 - Emily. 715 00:48:12,480 --> 00:48:13,313 - Oooh. 716 00:48:18,900 --> 00:48:20,853 - I have always wanted one of these. 717 00:48:22,270 --> 00:48:23,103 Emily never let me have one 718 00:48:23,103 --> 00:48:25,780 because she said it would make me look like a hipster. 719 00:48:25,780 --> 00:48:27,233 - She was absolutely right. 720 00:48:28,600 --> 00:48:29,433 She was. 721 00:48:32,010 --> 00:48:33,560 - I always wanted one of these. 722 00:48:35,210 --> 00:48:36,950 Why does she think that buying this for me now 723 00:48:36,950 --> 00:48:38,990 is gonna solve our problems? 724 00:48:38,990 --> 00:48:40,340 - She thinks it's romantic. 725 00:48:41,990 --> 00:48:43,534 - Who asked you? 726 00:48:43,534 --> 00:48:44,850 - You did. 727 00:48:44,850 --> 00:48:46,120 You just did. 728 00:48:46,120 --> 00:48:47,600 (laughing) 729 00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:49,630 Come on, what? 730 00:48:49,630 --> 00:48:50,550 - I can't do this with you right now. 731 00:48:50,550 --> 00:48:52,320 - Oh yes you can. 732 00:48:52,320 --> 00:48:53,370 Come on, boy. 733 00:49:01,049 --> 00:49:03,966 (faint beat music) 734 00:49:15,558 --> 00:49:17,670 - Thought I'd give scotch a try. 735 00:49:17,670 --> 00:49:19,510 - You hate scotch. 736 00:49:19,510 --> 00:49:21,260 - I wanted to give it another shot. 737 00:49:22,480 --> 00:49:23,313 - All right. 738 00:49:28,370 --> 00:49:30,823 - So which one of the sonnets do you wanna start with? 739 00:49:32,200 --> 00:49:34,873 - I have something to confess. 740 00:49:36,060 --> 00:49:36,893 - Okay. 741 00:49:37,840 --> 00:49:39,653 - I have never liked Shakespeare. 742 00:49:41,922 --> 00:49:42,822 - Are you kidding? 743 00:49:47,270 --> 00:49:49,642 Did you read any of the sonnets? 744 00:49:49,642 --> 00:49:50,475 - No. 745 00:49:51,910 --> 00:49:53,450 - Okay, that's okay. 746 00:49:53,450 --> 00:49:55,400 So you never liked Shakespeare. 747 00:49:55,400 --> 00:49:58,607 - I thought it made me look sensitive 748 00:49:58,607 --> 00:50:00,940 and romantic. 749 00:50:00,940 --> 00:50:01,773 - It did. 750 00:50:03,180 --> 00:50:04,250 - I'm sorry. 751 00:50:04,250 --> 00:50:05,083 - It's okay. 752 00:50:05,944 --> 00:50:07,894 We don't have to like the same writers. 753 00:50:08,780 --> 00:50:11,580 - I still have the list that I made for you. 754 00:50:11,580 --> 00:50:13,080 - Now I'm confused. 755 00:50:13,080 --> 00:50:16,350 See, you wrote that list before you had your little crisis. 756 00:50:16,350 --> 00:50:19,041 Do you even know what you genuinely like anymore? 757 00:50:19,041 --> 00:50:20,890 - I don't have multiple personalities. 758 00:50:20,890 --> 00:50:22,690 I just said I liked Shakespeare. 759 00:50:22,690 --> 00:50:23,833 - Which was a lie. 760 00:50:24,830 --> 00:50:26,630 Any other lies you wanna confess to? 761 00:50:28,230 --> 00:50:29,230 - I'll let you know. 762 00:50:31,600 --> 00:50:32,433 - Okay. 763 00:50:34,480 --> 00:50:36,303 - So what do you wanna read? 764 00:50:39,890 --> 00:50:42,270 Nope, no, not Joyce. (laughing) 765 00:50:42,270 --> 00:50:43,630 - Come on, you asked. 766 00:50:43,630 --> 00:50:44,680 - No, he is so boring. 767 00:50:44,680 --> 00:50:46,210 It's just "Ireland this, Ireland that." 768 00:50:46,210 --> 00:50:47,043 Blah, blah, blah. 769 00:50:47,043 --> 00:50:48,880 - I put up with your books. 770 00:50:48,880 --> 00:50:50,180 - No, you didn't. 771 00:50:50,180 --> 00:50:52,180 You were supposed to read Shakespeare's sonnets, 772 00:50:52,180 --> 00:50:53,363 which you did not do. 773 00:50:54,640 --> 00:50:55,874 - In my defense. 774 00:50:55,874 --> 00:50:56,920 - Mhmm? 775 00:50:56,920 --> 00:50:59,330 - I was being stubborn. 776 00:50:59,330 --> 00:51:00,163 - Oh. 777 00:51:00,163 --> 00:51:01,460 Then it's okay then. 778 00:51:01,460 --> 00:51:02,293 - Thank you. 779 00:51:04,610 --> 00:51:06,820 - I will read Joyce on one condition. 780 00:51:06,820 --> 00:51:08,650 - All right. 781 00:51:08,650 --> 00:51:09,756 - You read Narnia. 782 00:51:09,756 --> 00:51:11,450 (groaning) 783 00:51:11,450 --> 00:51:13,090 Come on, I'm reading your stupid book. 784 00:51:13,090 --> 00:51:14,600 You know how much those mean to me. 785 00:51:14,600 --> 00:51:15,460 - Narnia, 786 00:51:15,460 --> 00:51:16,600 those books are for kids. 787 00:51:16,600 --> 00:51:19,760 - Oh my God, no they're not. 788 00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:22,480 And honestly, I think it would be really good for you. 789 00:51:22,480 --> 00:51:23,460 (groaning) 790 00:51:23,460 --> 00:51:26,720 And you know my parents read those to me when I was a kid 791 00:51:26,720 --> 00:51:29,170 and I wanna do the same for our children someday. 792 00:51:34,670 --> 00:51:35,970 You don't wanna have kids. 793 00:51:38,560 --> 00:51:39,393 - I don't know. 794 00:51:40,494 --> 00:51:42,093 I haven't really thought about it. 795 00:51:44,390 --> 00:51:45,710 Every time that we were talking about it, 796 00:51:45,710 --> 00:51:47,793 I was just nodding. 797 00:51:51,004 --> 00:51:52,260 - Have you really thought about 798 00:51:52,260 --> 00:51:53,760 whether or not you wanna have children? 799 00:51:53,760 --> 00:51:56,063 I mean, have you seriously considered it? 800 00:51:58,690 --> 00:52:01,550 - When I think about the life that I want, 801 00:52:01,550 --> 00:52:03,223 I don't see kids fitting into it. 802 00:52:07,032 --> 00:52:09,607 - Do you know what really pisses me off, Nathan? 803 00:52:11,330 --> 00:52:12,163 When I first met you, 804 00:52:12,163 --> 00:52:13,240 I thought you were the man of my dreams. 805 00:52:13,240 --> 00:52:14,867 I felt so blessed by God. 806 00:52:14,867 --> 00:52:17,367 "Thank you, Jesus, for bringing him into my life." 807 00:52:18,584 --> 00:52:21,263 And I have tried really hard to love you. 808 00:52:23,980 --> 00:52:26,760 Hearing you say that makes it so hard. 809 00:52:26,760 --> 00:52:27,630 - I don't know. 810 00:52:27,630 --> 00:52:32,273 Maybe I could get behind the idea of having kids someday. 811 00:52:33,385 --> 00:52:34,617 - Oh, how sweet of you. 812 00:52:36,000 --> 00:52:37,250 You would do that for me? 813 00:52:38,810 --> 00:52:41,540 You would get behind having kids?! 814 00:52:41,540 --> 00:52:44,050 Nathan, I don't want you to maybe consider having children! 815 00:52:44,050 --> 00:52:46,903 I want you to want to have kids with me, your wife! 816 00:52:49,240 --> 00:52:50,610 - I know that 817 00:52:51,960 --> 00:52:53,593 this doesn't mean much. 818 00:52:56,060 --> 00:52:57,133 But I'm sorry. 819 00:53:03,240 --> 00:53:04,690 I'm sick of all the fighting. 820 00:53:06,710 --> 00:53:07,543 Aren't you? 821 00:53:11,003 --> 00:53:14,586 Can't we just have a normal night tomorrow? 822 00:53:18,978 --> 00:53:19,811 - Yeah. 823 00:53:27,401 --> 00:53:30,484 (somber piano music) 824 00:54:28,364 --> 00:54:31,614 (pleasant piano music) 825 00:55:04,462 --> 00:55:06,712 (knocking) 826 00:55:16,013 --> 00:55:16,846 - Hi. 827 00:55:17,763 --> 00:55:18,596 - Hey. 828 00:55:21,971 --> 00:55:23,054 - Come on in. 829 00:55:33,240 --> 00:55:36,073 (paper crunching) 830 00:55:39,951 --> 00:55:42,868 (faint beat music) 831 00:55:53,300 --> 00:55:54,133 - Thanks. 832 00:56:02,900 --> 00:56:04,050 - I can take your coat. 833 00:56:18,701 --> 00:56:19,534 Hungry? 834 00:56:22,740 --> 00:56:24,403 - You are so sexy. 835 00:56:26,120 --> 00:56:27,583 - Thank you. 836 00:56:27,583 --> 00:56:28,833 And you're very handsome. 837 00:56:29,730 --> 00:56:30,633 - Handsome? 838 00:56:31,900 --> 00:56:34,113 I call you sexy and you call me handsome? 839 00:56:35,340 --> 00:56:37,260 You know how long it took me to get into this? 840 00:56:37,260 --> 00:56:38,093 - No. 841 00:56:38,093 --> 00:56:39,390 You're sexy tonight too. 842 00:56:39,390 --> 00:56:41,560 - See, now I think you're just trying to make up 843 00:56:41,560 --> 00:56:43,124 for being inconsiderate. 844 00:56:43,124 --> 00:56:44,260 - No, no. 845 00:56:44,260 --> 00:56:46,260 You are the sexy. 846 00:56:46,260 --> 00:56:47,093 I promise. 847 00:56:47,093 --> 00:56:47,950 - I don't believe you. 848 00:56:47,950 --> 00:56:49,700 You're gonna have to prove it. 849 00:56:49,700 --> 00:56:50,970 - That you're sexy? 850 00:56:50,970 --> 00:56:53,150 - Oh, I know that I'm sexy. 851 00:56:53,150 --> 00:56:56,608 You're just gonna have to prove that you think I'm sexy. 852 00:56:56,608 --> 00:56:57,525 - Oh, okay. 853 00:56:58,779 --> 00:57:01,696 (faint beat music) 854 00:57:49,396 --> 00:57:51,580 Yeah? 855 00:57:51,580 --> 00:57:52,413 - Yeah. 856 00:57:54,500 --> 00:57:55,333 - More wine? 857 00:57:57,583 --> 00:58:01,250 (pleasant piano beat music) 858 00:59:18,035 --> 00:59:20,202 (huffing) 859 00:59:24,697 --> 00:59:26,343 Can we go in the bedroom? 860 00:59:31,300 --> 00:59:32,640 Wait 60 seconds. 861 00:59:39,067 --> 00:59:41,234 (sighing) 862 00:59:53,410 --> 00:59:55,243 What the fuck is this? 863 00:59:57,286 --> 00:59:58,369 What is this? 864 00:59:59,830 --> 01:00:00,663 Nathan! 865 01:00:00,663 --> 01:00:02,169 - Sorry. 866 01:00:02,169 --> 01:00:04,277 - What the hell is wrong with you?! 867 01:00:05,160 --> 01:00:06,917 You come in here, you dress like that 868 01:00:06,917 --> 01:00:08,120 and you dance with me 869 01:00:08,120 --> 01:00:10,410 and then you were gonna have sex with me 870 01:00:10,410 --> 01:00:12,120 and then just say goodbye with this?! 871 01:00:12,120 --> 01:00:12,953 - Sorry, I wasn't gonna come here-- 872 01:00:12,953 --> 01:00:14,280 - Oh, you're sorry! 873 01:00:14,280 --> 01:00:15,630 - Emily, please. 874 01:00:15,630 --> 01:00:16,620 - What? 875 01:00:16,620 --> 01:00:18,470 You can't give up on us, Nathan. 876 01:00:18,470 --> 01:00:21,440 - I'm not giving up on us! 877 01:00:21,440 --> 01:00:23,500 You want me to be someone else! 878 01:00:23,500 --> 01:00:26,410 Someone smarter, someone kinder, someone better. 879 01:00:26,410 --> 01:00:28,820 I will never be that person for you! 880 01:00:28,820 --> 01:00:30,500 I will never believe in God! 881 01:00:30,500 --> 01:00:32,090 I will never want children! 882 01:00:32,090 --> 01:00:34,850 I will waste away being somebody I am not 883 01:00:34,850 --> 01:00:35,890 so you can be happy! 884 01:00:35,890 --> 01:00:37,667 I am not worth it! 885 01:00:37,667 --> 01:00:38,500 - How could you say that?! 886 01:00:38,500 --> 01:00:39,710 How could you say that you're not worth it?! 887 01:00:39,710 --> 01:00:40,543 I married you! - Emily! 888 01:00:40,543 --> 01:00:42,417 - And you insult me like that! - Emily! 889 01:00:42,417 --> 01:00:43,270 You need to let this go. 890 01:00:43,270 --> 01:00:45,510 You need to grow up and realize that this is dead. 891 01:00:45,510 --> 01:00:47,250 - You are the one that needs to grow up, Nathan! 892 01:00:47,250 --> 01:00:48,147 Just because something is broken 893 01:00:48,147 --> 01:00:51,050 doesn't mean that they just throw it away! 894 01:00:51,050 --> 01:00:53,640 - Emily, if I wasn't a Christian, 895 01:00:53,640 --> 01:00:55,563 you would've never married me. 896 01:00:57,570 --> 01:00:59,307 We don't make any sense. 897 01:00:59,307 --> 01:01:00,140 - No. 898 01:01:01,050 --> 01:01:01,883 I love you. 899 01:01:03,200 --> 01:01:04,320 Okay? 900 01:01:04,320 --> 01:01:05,482 I love you so much. 901 01:01:05,482 --> 01:01:06,840 - I love you too. 902 01:01:06,840 --> 01:01:08,090 - I will always love you. 903 01:01:09,864 --> 01:01:12,320 - I can't, I can't, I can't. (Emily mumbling) 904 01:01:12,320 --> 01:01:13,840 I can't. 905 01:01:13,840 --> 01:01:15,010 - Please? - Emily, no. 906 01:01:16,480 --> 01:01:17,914 - Nathan, don't leave me! 907 01:01:17,914 --> 01:01:19,082 Don't leave me, don't leave me! 908 01:01:19,082 --> 01:01:20,582 Don't, Nathan, no! 909 01:01:22,787 --> 01:01:23,620 No! 910 01:01:24,703 --> 01:01:25,536 No! 911 01:01:27,717 --> 01:01:31,797 Nathan, come back! 912 01:01:31,797 --> 01:01:34,100 Nathan, please come back! 913 01:01:34,100 --> 01:01:34,933 What the?! 914 01:01:34,933 --> 01:01:36,427 Why would you do this?! 915 01:01:36,427 --> 01:01:37,845 Why would you do this?! 916 01:01:37,845 --> 01:01:39,977 Why would you do this to me?! 917 01:01:39,977 --> 01:01:41,894 What were you thinking? 918 01:01:45,316 --> 01:01:47,483 (sobbing) 919 01:01:48,615 --> 01:01:50,782 (gasping) 920 01:02:30,316 --> 01:02:31,983 Why did you do this? 921 01:02:35,284 --> 01:02:36,867 You broke my heart. 922 01:02:45,890 --> 01:02:47,663 He was my happiness 923 01:02:48,706 --> 01:02:50,706 and now he's a stranger. 924 01:02:59,562 --> 01:03:01,562 I can't do this anymore. 925 01:03:10,375 --> 01:03:11,458 What do I do? 926 01:03:16,128 --> 01:03:17,211 What do I do? 927 01:03:29,920 --> 01:03:30,753 Okay. 928 01:03:40,221 --> 01:03:41,054 Okay. 929 01:04:13,335 --> 01:04:17,002 (muffled traffic commotion) 930 01:04:33,358 --> 01:04:35,691 (sniffling) 931 01:05:11,017 --> 01:05:13,267 (knocking) 932 01:05:24,080 --> 01:05:24,913 - Hey. 933 01:05:32,710 --> 01:05:35,293 What made you change your mind? 934 01:06:02,029 --> 01:06:02,862 Goodbye. 935 01:06:21,136 --> 01:06:23,219 (crying) 936 01:06:34,470 --> 01:06:36,637 (sighing) 937 01:06:48,050 --> 01:06:49,743 - Just doesn't make sense to me. 938 01:06:53,610 --> 01:06:55,140 Does it make sense to you? 939 01:06:55,140 --> 01:06:55,973 - No. 940 01:06:58,270 --> 01:06:59,710 - How can you sit there like that? 941 01:06:59,710 --> 01:07:01,990 How can you give up so easily? 942 01:07:01,990 --> 01:07:03,300 - I'm not giving up. 943 01:07:03,300 --> 01:07:07,410 - You divorced your husband, Emily, I call that giving up. 944 01:07:07,410 --> 01:07:09,360 - Calm down, Julia. - No! 945 01:07:09,360 --> 01:07:10,554 No, I won't stand for this. 946 01:07:10,554 --> 01:07:12,453 What makes you think this is the right thing to do? 947 01:07:12,453 --> 01:07:13,517 - I told you. 948 01:07:13,517 --> 01:07:16,010 - No, scripture doesn't justify it. 949 01:07:16,010 --> 01:07:17,780 God doesn't allow it. 950 01:07:17,780 --> 01:07:19,220 He would never let you give up. 951 01:07:19,220 --> 01:07:21,330 - I'm not giving up! 952 01:07:21,330 --> 01:07:23,830 Okay, I can't make Nathan fall in love with me. 953 01:07:23,830 --> 01:07:25,423 It's not up to me anymore. 954 01:07:26,450 --> 01:07:28,760 I'm still his wife and nothing can change that, 955 01:07:28,760 --> 01:07:30,083 not even a legal document! 956 01:07:31,810 --> 01:07:32,973 But he's gone. 957 01:07:35,590 --> 01:07:37,970 And if he never comes back, then so be it. 958 01:07:37,970 --> 01:07:40,543 He's free to make up his own decisions. 959 01:07:41,810 --> 01:07:44,230 He's free to live his own life the way he wants. 960 01:07:44,230 --> 01:07:46,253 But if he wants to come back, he can. 961 01:07:47,940 --> 01:07:49,963 This is the life that God wants for me. 962 01:07:52,540 --> 01:07:53,540 - No. 963 01:07:53,540 --> 01:07:54,690 This isn't right. 964 01:07:54,690 --> 01:07:56,543 - Why don't you just go home? 965 01:07:58,310 --> 01:08:00,613 I can't take another lecture, so just go. 966 01:08:05,399 --> 01:08:08,399 (traffic commotion) 967 01:08:13,745 --> 01:08:16,828 (somber piano music) 968 01:09:04,727 --> 01:09:06,693 - You think you'll take that interview now? 969 01:09:09,341 --> 01:09:12,030 (phone chiming) 970 01:09:12,030 --> 01:09:12,863 Someone's here. 971 01:09:14,970 --> 01:09:15,920 Hello? 972 01:09:15,920 --> 01:09:17,520 - Is Nathan there? 973 01:09:17,520 --> 01:09:18,970 - Uh, yeah, who's this? 974 01:09:18,970 --> 01:09:20,850 - It's Emily's sister. 975 01:09:20,850 --> 01:09:22,043 - Oh, shit. 976 01:09:26,070 --> 01:09:27,750 - She told me everything 977 01:09:27,750 --> 01:09:29,760 and I've advised her as much as I can 978 01:09:29,760 --> 01:09:31,510 but it's up to you now. 979 01:09:31,510 --> 01:09:32,343 - Julia, it's-- 980 01:09:32,343 --> 01:09:33,176 - No, Nathan! 981 01:09:33,176 --> 01:09:35,780 Don't tell me I'm too young or too inexperienced 982 01:09:35,780 --> 01:09:36,870 to know what I'm talking about. 983 01:09:36,870 --> 01:09:37,703 - Julia! 984 01:09:38,780 --> 01:09:40,720 She would be miserable with me. 985 01:09:40,720 --> 01:09:41,823 - You don't know that. 986 01:09:43,570 --> 01:09:45,800 - Do you understand how painful it is 987 01:09:45,800 --> 01:09:47,620 to look her in the eye and tell her that 988 01:09:47,620 --> 01:09:49,240 her husband doesn't want to have kids with her? 989 01:09:49,240 --> 01:09:50,630 - No. 990 01:09:50,630 --> 01:09:51,926 I just... 991 01:09:51,926 --> 01:09:52,759 (groaning) 992 01:09:52,759 --> 01:09:55,170 Emily is turning into a nun and you couldn't care less. 993 01:09:55,170 --> 01:09:57,060 I feel like I'm the only sane one here. 994 01:09:57,060 --> 01:09:57,893 - Wait, 995 01:09:57,893 --> 01:09:58,726 she's becoming a nun? 996 01:09:58,726 --> 01:10:00,400 - Well, she might as well. 997 01:10:00,400 --> 01:10:01,410 - What do you mean? 998 01:10:01,410 --> 01:10:03,563 - She married you, Nathan. 999 01:10:05,180 --> 01:10:06,483 - What did she tell you? 1000 01:10:08,520 --> 01:10:10,433 - There's never gonna be anybody else. 1001 01:10:13,210 --> 01:10:14,823 - That's why I left. 1002 01:10:16,210 --> 01:10:17,833 I just want her to be happy. 1003 01:10:19,430 --> 01:10:20,993 - Well that's what I don't get. 1004 01:10:21,950 --> 01:10:26,480 It's almost as if she is not really happy 1005 01:10:27,461 --> 01:10:30,743 but she was at least content. 1006 01:10:33,200 --> 01:10:34,940 - This doesn't make any sense. 1007 01:10:34,940 --> 01:10:36,823 - She just wants to live her life. 1008 01:10:38,010 --> 01:10:41,190 Please, Nathan, just make things right. 1009 01:10:41,190 --> 01:10:43,030 - Why should I? 1010 01:10:43,030 --> 01:10:44,320 If that's how she wants to live her life, 1011 01:10:44,320 --> 01:10:45,480 then that's her problem. 1012 01:10:45,480 --> 01:10:48,880 Don't try to guilt trip me into getting back with her. 1013 01:10:48,880 --> 01:10:50,480 That is why I left. 1014 01:10:50,480 --> 01:10:52,410 Do you understand? 1015 01:10:52,410 --> 01:10:56,550 I was pretending to be someone else for her 1016 01:10:56,550 --> 01:10:59,310 because I was afraid she wouldn't like who I really was. 1017 01:10:59,310 --> 01:11:00,363 And she doesn't! 1018 01:11:02,470 --> 01:11:03,560 The only way that this would work 1019 01:11:03,560 --> 01:11:05,810 is if I were to pretend to be that guy again. 1020 01:11:08,546 --> 01:11:09,730 And I can't do that. 1021 01:11:12,330 --> 01:11:13,163 All right? 1022 01:11:16,304 --> 01:11:17,610 - I'm sorry. 1023 01:11:17,610 --> 01:11:19,033 I'm sorry, I just, 1024 01:11:21,170 --> 01:11:22,660 I really loved you guys 1025 01:11:26,098 --> 01:11:27,287 and I'm gonna miss you. 1026 01:11:29,808 --> 01:11:33,058 (dramatic piano music) 1027 01:11:36,321 --> 01:11:39,154 (leaves rustling) 1028 01:11:46,998 --> 01:11:48,050 - I think I've experienced 1029 01:11:48,050 --> 01:11:49,283 all I can in Portland. 1030 01:11:50,120 --> 01:11:53,177 There's just so many cities out there calling my name. 1031 01:11:53,177 --> 01:11:55,133 "Nathan, Nathan." 1032 01:11:55,133 --> 01:11:56,780 You know what I mean? 1033 01:11:56,780 --> 01:11:57,613 - Absolutely. 1034 01:11:57,613 --> 01:12:00,540 I'm an insufferable Anglophile. 1035 01:12:00,540 --> 01:12:02,968 England is always calling my name. 1036 01:12:02,968 --> 01:12:04,430 (chuckling) 1037 01:12:04,430 --> 01:12:06,352 - Why don't you move there? 1038 01:12:06,352 --> 01:12:07,260 - Eh. 1039 01:12:07,260 --> 01:12:08,363 Lose it's magic. 1040 01:12:10,200 --> 01:12:12,400 Some places you visit, some places you live. 1041 01:12:15,180 --> 01:12:17,983 Well, I think we've about covered everything. 1042 01:12:19,073 --> 01:12:19,906 Like I said before, 1043 01:12:19,906 --> 01:12:21,670 we really like the samples you sent us, 1044 01:12:21,670 --> 01:12:23,510 and I have to talk to my boss, 1045 01:12:23,510 --> 01:12:26,120 but I've got a good feeling. 1046 01:12:26,120 --> 01:12:26,953 - Cool. 1047 01:12:26,953 --> 01:12:28,110 Thank you. 1048 01:12:28,110 --> 01:12:29,600 - Oh, 1049 01:12:29,600 --> 01:12:31,440 I did have one last question. 1050 01:12:31,440 --> 01:12:33,170 Given the job description, 1051 01:12:33,170 --> 01:12:35,020 you automatically understand 1052 01:12:35,020 --> 01:12:37,630 that this is a traveling position. 1053 01:12:37,630 --> 01:12:39,420 So, I mean, we're gonna need you in a lot of places 1054 01:12:39,420 --> 01:12:41,135 all the time. 1055 01:12:41,135 --> 01:12:42,540 Is your wife okay with that? 1056 01:12:48,184 --> 01:12:49,017 - Um. 1057 01:12:51,102 --> 01:12:54,019 (faint beat music) 1058 01:13:00,949 --> 01:13:03,282 (sniffling) 1059 01:13:35,929 --> 01:13:39,262 (rain pitter-pattering) 1060 01:13:52,458 --> 01:13:53,291 - Hey. 1061 01:13:55,127 --> 01:13:55,960 - Hi. 1062 01:13:59,203 --> 01:14:00,393 I talked to Julia. 1063 01:14:01,860 --> 01:14:02,733 - Sisters. 1064 01:14:07,190 --> 01:14:09,033 - She said you were becoming a nun. 1065 01:14:10,120 --> 01:14:10,953 - Yeah. 1066 01:14:15,620 --> 01:14:17,370 I don't need a husband to be happy. 1067 01:14:19,782 --> 01:14:21,082 And I don't need children. 1068 01:14:23,360 --> 01:14:25,810 If I expected my life to turn out perfectly, 1069 01:14:25,810 --> 01:14:26,993 I'd never be happy. 1070 01:14:32,623 --> 01:14:34,040 - You astound me. 1071 01:14:37,840 --> 01:14:39,790 You live your life with this conviction 1072 01:14:41,301 --> 01:14:42,401 that I have never had. 1073 01:14:56,520 --> 01:14:58,650 I can't say that I didn't have my doubts 1074 01:15:00,210 --> 01:15:01,610 about walking away from God. 1075 01:15:04,300 --> 01:15:05,450 - Do you believe again? 1076 01:15:07,865 --> 01:15:09,908 - No. 1077 01:15:09,908 --> 01:15:12,187 I don't know. 1078 01:15:12,187 --> 01:15:13,563 I don't know anything. 1079 01:15:14,621 --> 01:15:17,120 (chuckling) 1080 01:15:17,120 --> 01:15:20,140 All I know is that I have never had 1081 01:15:20,140 --> 01:15:22,600 a belief or an unbelief 1082 01:15:24,095 --> 01:15:26,277 with as much conviction as you. 1083 01:15:30,142 --> 01:15:30,975 I envy that. 1084 01:15:36,521 --> 01:15:38,021 I'm broken by you. 1085 01:15:40,860 --> 01:15:44,993 I abandoned you and you still love me. 1086 01:15:50,550 --> 01:15:52,446 You conquered my heart. 1087 01:15:52,446 --> 01:15:54,530 (Emily sniffling) 1088 01:15:54,530 --> 01:15:57,980 I can say that my life wouldn't be as worth while 1089 01:15:57,980 --> 01:15:58,883 without you in it. 1090 01:16:04,150 --> 01:16:05,700 You've always pushed 1091 01:16:08,430 --> 01:16:11,320 and I regret that I ever resented you for that. 1092 01:16:15,141 --> 01:16:16,808 Because I need that. 1093 01:16:18,978 --> 01:16:19,978 I want that. 1094 01:16:23,404 --> 01:16:24,321 I want you. 1095 01:16:28,870 --> 01:16:29,703 Please. 1096 01:16:31,992 --> 01:16:32,909 Forgive me. 1097 01:16:43,544 --> 01:16:45,377 Can I be your husband? 1098 01:16:50,382 --> 01:16:52,465 (crying) 1099 01:17:06,113 --> 01:17:08,280 (sobbing) 1100 01:17:11,528 --> 01:17:14,195 (rain thudding) 1101 01:17:37,598 --> 01:17:39,303 I miss you. 1102 01:17:39,303 --> 01:17:41,053 - I miss you. 1103 01:17:43,037 --> 01:17:44,620 - You know, I got a job offer. 1104 01:17:44,620 --> 01:17:45,580 - Oh, yeah? 1105 01:17:45,580 --> 01:17:46,963 - Yeah, for a magazine. 1106 01:17:48,000 --> 01:17:49,713 Cultural articles. 1107 01:17:50,580 --> 01:17:52,690 I would travel around North America 1108 01:17:52,690 --> 01:17:53,960 writing about bars 1109 01:17:53,960 --> 01:17:57,280 and restaurants, coffee shops. 1110 01:17:57,280 --> 01:17:58,580 Whatever. 1111 01:17:58,580 --> 01:17:59,913 - Did you respond? 1112 01:17:59,913 --> 01:18:00,746 - No. 1113 01:18:01,610 --> 01:18:03,843 I was thinking I should tell them I can't do it. 1114 01:18:05,810 --> 01:18:07,129 - No. 1115 01:18:07,129 --> 01:18:08,700 I think you should 1116 01:18:08,700 --> 01:18:10,543 and I wanna come with you. 1117 01:18:12,070 --> 01:18:13,450 - Really? 1118 01:18:13,450 --> 01:18:15,990 - Seriously, I think we should do it. 1119 01:18:15,990 --> 01:18:18,200 What about the coffee shop? 1120 01:18:18,200 --> 01:18:19,033 Your sister. 1121 01:18:19,033 --> 01:18:20,350 I mean, your whole life is here. 1122 01:18:20,350 --> 01:18:21,183 - I know. 1123 01:18:22,380 --> 01:18:23,720 But I think it's time for a change 1124 01:18:23,720 --> 01:18:26,543 and I wanna go on an adventure with you. 1125 01:18:27,890 --> 01:18:29,270 - You wanna travel? 1126 01:18:29,270 --> 01:18:31,194 - Start agreeing with me or I'm gonna change my mind. 1127 01:18:31,194 --> 01:18:33,060 (laughing) 1128 01:18:33,060 --> 01:18:33,893 - Okay. 1129 01:18:35,281 --> 01:18:36,615 Yeah. 1130 01:18:36,615 --> 01:18:37,540 Yeah. 1131 01:18:37,540 --> 01:18:38,750 Let's do it! 1132 01:18:38,750 --> 01:18:41,410 I mean, they gave me articles I could choose form. 1133 01:18:41,410 --> 01:18:43,190 Best new beers in San Francisco, 1134 01:18:43,190 --> 01:18:45,450 a steakhouse in Montana, 1135 01:18:45,450 --> 01:18:47,040 organic smoothies in Indianapolis, 1136 01:18:47,040 --> 01:18:48,980 cheese mongers of Wisconsin. 1137 01:18:48,980 --> 01:18:50,320 - Indianapolis. 1138 01:18:50,320 --> 01:18:51,940 - Oh God, that is a terrible idea. 1139 01:18:51,940 --> 01:18:54,360 - No, they say it's the new Portland. 1140 01:18:54,360 --> 01:18:55,800 - The new Portland? 1141 01:18:55,800 --> 01:18:58,030 What does that even mean? 1142 01:18:58,030 --> 01:18:59,163 - That's what I heard? 1143 01:19:00,740 --> 01:19:02,290 - I was thinking San Francisco. 1144 01:19:03,470 --> 01:19:04,897 - Eh. 1145 01:19:04,897 --> 01:19:05,730 - "Eh." 1146 01:19:06,570 --> 01:19:07,403 - Okay. 1147 01:19:09,860 --> 01:19:10,693 Wisconsin. 1148 01:19:11,930 --> 01:19:13,720 Cheese mongers? 1149 01:19:13,720 --> 01:19:14,723 We love cheese. 1150 01:19:16,238 --> 01:19:17,405 - Yeah, we do. 1151 01:19:21,831 --> 01:19:25,081 (pleasant piano music) 1152 01:20:27,828 --> 01:20:30,411 (upbeat music) 1153 01:21:11,735 --> 01:21:14,985 (pleasant piano music) 1154 01:21:54,187 --> 01:21:56,770 (upbeat music) 1155 01:22:49,366 --> 01:22:52,033 (somber music) 69147

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