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-NARRATOR: How far would you
travel to find yourself again?
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♪♪
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♪♪
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[humming]
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Oh, no, that's wrong.
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Oh, gosh darn it.
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Goodness, what...
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What on Earth is that song?
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-TYM: Remember, you can always
ask for assistance.
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-Oh, goodness, no, no,
it's not that important.
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No. It's all right.
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Thank you, though, thank you.
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It's very kind of you.
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Thank you.
Very above and beyond.
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-TYM: Are you sure, Peg?
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-Well, it's just that...
[clears throat]
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I just didn't want to be
a bother.
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-TYM: But that's
what I'm built for.
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-Yeah, but still.
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When are we starting?
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-TYM: Starting what?
-The study.
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-TYM: Oh. We've been
conducting the study
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this whole time.
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The three days
you've been under,
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and now the 15 hours
you've been awake.
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-Oh, my goodness.
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-TYM: I was certain
somebody must have told you.
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-Oh. No, I... Well, yes,
I'm sure they did.
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I'm sure I just...
I just... Forgot.
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I should have remembered
about the study.
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I would have worn
a little rouge.
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To match this fancy pants
spacesuit they gave me.
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Don't want to look like
a slouch.
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Don't want to look ungrateful.
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-TYM: You don't
need to wear any rouge.
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-Right, all right.
Well... good.
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I guess I'd better start, then.
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[sighs]
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So, this is Peg Wykowski
on day four of
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the Odyssey Shuttle Solitude
Sweepstakes Study.
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-TYM: You don't
have to do that.
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-No?
-TYM: No.
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This isn't like television
or anything.
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-Oh.
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[chuckles]
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I've always wanted to be on
the silver screen.
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[laughing]
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Well, do I need to
do anything or...
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-TYM: Just be yourself.
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-Are you sure?
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-TYM: Sorry?
-Well, uh...
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Are you sure
that's what they want?
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-TYM: How do you mean?
-For the study.
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-TYM: Yes.
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-I just want to make sure
that if I am...
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If I'm being myself...
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that I'm still...
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-TYM: What?
-Counted.
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[electronic bleeps]
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-TYM: You will be, Peg.
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-I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to be a bother.
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-TYM: You're not a bother.
-I hate being a bother.
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-TYM: Can I ask you
something, Peg?
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-Mm? Yeah, anything.
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-TYM: Why did you
sign up for this study?
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-Oh, well, I was watching
"The Hologram Singer."
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You know it? And I saw
the commercial on television.
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"Senior citizens wanted.
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"Adventure ahead.
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"Journey to the farthest
reaches of the universe.
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"Go where no person
has gone before.
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"No experience required.
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Anyone can apply."
[chuckles]
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-TYM: You remember it verbatim.
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-Oh, yes. Mm-hm.
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So I went online and
I put my information in,
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and I... and I got a Zoom
interview the very next day.
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With Pru.
From your company.
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And she was nice.
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[chuckles]
She had a lazy eye.
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"You do realize what this means,
Peg," she said to me.
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"How do you mean
what this means?" I said.
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"The reason we're looking for
seniors in their golden years
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"is because, well...
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you won't be coming back."
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[chuckles] And I said,
"Well, sign me up."
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[chuckles] And she laughed.
That was nice.
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She liked my little joke.
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That was my smile for the day.
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I always try for
one smile a day.
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She said I was just what
the company was looking for.
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Me! Me and how about that?
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I mean, if I thought about it
too long,
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I would have realized
how crazy it all sounded.
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Me? Out in space?
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With my bunions
and my astigmatism
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and my little farts
after I have a snack.
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If I thought about it
too long,
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I mean, if I'd actually
looked in the mirror,
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I'd shaken myself and said,
"What are you doing, Peg?
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I mean,
what are you even doing?"
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But here we are?
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Isn't that something?
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Here we are.
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Up. Up. And away.
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Adventure ahead.
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[chuckles]
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They wouldn't believe it.
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-TYM: Who?
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-Oh, I don't know.
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My dentist... [chuckles]
for one.
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He wouldn't believe all this.
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Peg? In space?
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[chuckles]
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[deep breath]
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Adventure ahead.
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That was all I wanted.
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I mean, 71 years on Earth
and, heck, I...
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I just wanted some adventure.
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I mean,
I think I earned it, even.
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So that's why.
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[computer trilling]
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-TYM: If you look out
the window to your left,
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you'll see we are
currently passing the moon.
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-Oh... oh, wow.
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♪♪
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PEG: You know, I used to make
wishes on the moon.
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-TYM: What for?
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-Oh...
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-TYM: You don't have to...
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I don't mean to pry.
-It was for my dad.
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He got sick when I was five.
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Cancer.
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You know, cancer was this...
-TYM: I know about it.
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Yes.
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-Well, what could
the moon do, you know?
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It had to light up
the whole night sky.
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It had a lot on its plate,
so...
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Well, he died when I was six.
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It was just a few days
after my birthday.
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Couldn't come to my party.
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I often think he died
when I was five
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because he wasn't at
my sixth birthday party,
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but he...
he died when I was six.
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I remember I came home
from school,
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and my mom hugged me tight
and said,
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"Daddy went to Heaven."
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Oh, he was such a good dad.
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I'd make him do
the TikToks with me.
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You'd, uh...
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They were these little
music video things, you know?
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Um, how'd they go?
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[humming]
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Something like that.
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Oh, my God.
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Oh, we had this
secret handshake.
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It was like... Oh, um...
D-d-d-da, d-d-d-da,
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da, da, pew!
[chuckles]
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He loved me endlessly,
my dad.
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The week after the funeral,
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we met Dad 2.
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You know, one of those
Remember Me Bots?
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The company went
out of business years ago,
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but at the time, it was
something people did.
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Mom didn't like Dad 2.
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She pretended to
for me and Wilder,
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but she didn't.
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Well, she had to share
a bed with him.
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Just in case I'd
run into the room in
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the middle of the night.
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She didn't want Dad 2, like,
powered off in the corner.
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She thought it'd
traumatize me so...
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so she slept in that bed
every night with a robot.
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I think a lot about that.
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What... About what
my mom did for us.
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I think a lot about
my mom and Dad 2 and...
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and my dad.
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My mother died
soon after my father.
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It was just six months later.
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She was out for a run
and one of those
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driverless cars glitched,
took a wrong turn.
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I stopped wishing on the moon
after that.
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Didn't want to be a bother.
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Cried for days.
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I slept with her clothes
because I missed her so much.
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I missed her smell.
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You know, I still have
that sweater she used to wear.
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Sometimes,
I'll hold close and...
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And at night when I'm sad...
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or gassy.
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[chuckles] No.
I know that sounds funny,
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but, you know,
she'd always rub my back
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and it would get
the farts out.
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[chuckles]
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[makes farting noise]
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[chuckles]
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Or when I don't feel
anything at all.
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Over the years, that sweater
started to smell more like me,
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you know, just because
it's been in my drawers,
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and now it's... it's like
we've met somehow,
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her and me as women,
you know,
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in the fabric,
in the fabric of the sweater.
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When they found out that
we were living with Dad 2,
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they made me and Wilder go
and live with my grandmother.
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Yeah, we moved all the way
across the pond.
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To Bedford.
In England.
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Didn't know anyone
or anything.
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-TYM: That must have been
frightening.
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-Yeah, yeah, it was.
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After we moved to Bedford,
things got hard.
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You know I'm 71 years old,
and it still hurts.
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'Cause my bones and my organs
were developing then,
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so that pain is buried deep.
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It's covered over by tissue
and calcite and muscle.
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And to remove it,
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you'd have to untwine me
altogether.
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[computer trilling]
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-TYM: Did you have
any friends in Bedford?
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Um...
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yes, there was,
there was one boy.
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One boy who was nice.
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Ming Chon.
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He was a popular boy.
Smart and funny,
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and athletic and handsome.
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Oh, Lord, when he'd
look at me. Oh!
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I just... Oh, melt away
like Carvel cake.
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[chuckles]
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When we were 16,
everyone in the school
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wanted to know who Ming
was gonna take to the prom.
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All the girls and all the boys
were hoping it would be them.
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And then one day after school,
my grandma says,
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"There's a boy at the door,"
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and I come to the door...
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and there was Ming.
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And he put his phone on
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and did a little
solo flash mob dance.
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And it ended with a banner
he had in his hands.
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"Will you go to the prom
with me?"
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I fainted.
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Yeah. I fainted.
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Well, Ming picked me up
from the ground,
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and when I came to
and saw him, I...
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I just laughed.
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He didn't laugh,
he was petrified.
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Here he was,
the boy of my dreams,
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asking me to go to
the school dance with him.
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-TYM: That sounds wonderful.
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Like a wonderful memory.
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-It was.
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[chuckling]
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I said no, of course.
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-TYM: What?
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-Yes, I told him thank you
but I was busy.
254
00:13:28,391 --> 00:13:29,726
I told him I had to
stay at home
255
00:13:29,809 --> 00:13:32,687
and help my grandmother
with something or other.
256
00:13:32,771 --> 00:13:35,732
-TYM: Why?
Why would you say no?
257
00:13:35,815 --> 00:13:38,527
-Oh, I knew what
the kids would say,
258
00:13:38,610 --> 00:13:40,820
I knew what they would
make of him.
259
00:13:43,156 --> 00:13:44,574
I mean,
it would have been nice
260
00:13:44,658 --> 00:13:46,952
for them to see me with him.
261
00:13:48,203 --> 00:13:50,288
It would have been nice
to be seen.
262
00:13:51,873 --> 00:13:55,293
But he was so nice and...
263
00:13:55,377 --> 00:13:56,503
[sighs]
264
00:13:56,586 --> 00:13:59,256
And so I said no.
265
00:13:59,339 --> 00:14:03,343
And I thanked him
and I went back inside.
266
00:14:03,426 --> 00:14:05,720
And I curled up in
my mom's sweater,
267
00:14:05,804 --> 00:14:06,972
and I cried.
268
00:14:10,725 --> 00:14:12,561
I mean, honestly,
I don't think he even
269
00:14:12,644 --> 00:14:14,729
really wanted to go to
the dance with me.
270
00:14:14,813 --> 00:14:17,607
I think he was just
a nice boy who felt badly
271
00:14:17,691 --> 00:14:19,776
for a quiet girl
who stopped dancing,
272
00:14:19,859 --> 00:14:21,903
and I...
273
00:14:21,987 --> 00:14:23,863
Well, I didn't want to be
a bother.
274
00:14:26,866 --> 00:14:28,118
So on prom night,
275
00:14:28,201 --> 00:14:29,536
me and granny watched
an old movie.
276
00:14:32,372 --> 00:14:35,083
That was "Speed 2."
277
00:14:35,166 --> 00:14:37,168
Yes.
278
00:14:37,252 --> 00:14:41,214
With that
wonderful screen star,
279
00:14:41,298 --> 00:14:42,507
Sandra Bullock.
280
00:14:42,591 --> 00:14:44,718
Do you remember her?
281
00:14:44,801 --> 00:14:46,052
She's so funny.
282
00:14:46,136 --> 00:14:47,345
Beautiful.
283
00:14:50,015 --> 00:14:53,101
It was 11 at night and
Granny snoring on the couch,
284
00:14:53,184 --> 00:14:54,477
and there's
a knock on the door,
285
00:14:54,561 --> 00:14:56,980
and I answer it and it's...
286
00:14:57,063 --> 00:14:59,357
Ming...
287
00:14:59,441 --> 00:15:03,570
standing there in his tuxedo
and he looked so handsome.
288
00:15:03,653 --> 00:15:05,113
And he looked so kind.
289
00:15:05,196 --> 00:15:08,033
And he looked a little drunk.
[chuckles]
290
00:15:08,116 --> 00:15:09,743
And the moon...
291
00:15:11,953 --> 00:15:15,415
The moon was
shining down on him.
292
00:15:15,498 --> 00:15:17,250
Like out of a movie.
293
00:15:17,334 --> 00:15:21,880
Like an alien ship was
beaming down right on him
294
00:15:21,963 --> 00:15:23,256
illuminating him,
295
00:15:23,340 --> 00:15:26,968
as if maybe the moon
had taken my wish
296
00:15:27,052 --> 00:15:28,845
all those years ago
about my dad
297
00:15:28,928 --> 00:15:31,890
and just got to hearing
about it all these years later
298
00:15:31,973 --> 00:15:33,767
and couldn't
get to it in time and...
299
00:15:33,850 --> 00:15:35,602
and couldn't do
anything about it now,
300
00:15:35,685 --> 00:15:39,898
so it tried to make up for it,
and it brought him here, Ming.
301
00:15:41,941 --> 00:15:45,737
And Ming said the whole night
he was thinking about me.
302
00:15:46,404 --> 00:15:48,406
[laughing]
303
00:16:00,502 --> 00:16:02,796
And...
304
00:16:02,879 --> 00:16:05,882
Anyway, he leans in
for a kiss, and I...
305
00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:08,885
adventure ahead...
[chuckles]
306
00:16:08,968 --> 00:16:11,054
I kissed him back.
307
00:16:11,137 --> 00:16:13,181
In the moonlight.
308
00:16:15,308 --> 00:16:16,559
And as soon as
I pulled away,
309
00:16:16,643 --> 00:16:18,978
I ran back inside
and shut the door.
310
00:16:19,062 --> 00:16:20,522
And I danced.
311
00:16:28,697 --> 00:16:29,739
[sighs]
312
00:16:31,700 --> 00:16:33,785
He called me right after
but I didn't pick up,
313
00:16:33,868 --> 00:16:37,497
I was too scared,
you know?
314
00:16:37,580 --> 00:16:38,665
Too scared.
315
00:16:40,625 --> 00:16:42,210
And I went to bed...
316
00:16:42,293 --> 00:16:46,047
I went to bed
dreaming about that kiss.
317
00:16:46,131 --> 00:16:49,134
I thought about it
every night.
318
00:16:49,217 --> 00:16:52,095
Day after night,
night after day.
319
00:16:54,389 --> 00:16:56,558
Ming called again
a few times that week,
320
00:16:56,641 --> 00:16:58,768
but I...
321
00:16:58,852 --> 00:17:01,020
Oh, I was too nervous
to answer.
322
00:17:02,856 --> 00:17:05,525
I guess I...
323
00:17:05,608 --> 00:17:08,820
Well, I just didn't want him to
say it was wrong or a mistake,
324
00:17:08,903 --> 00:17:10,530
or... or that he
didn't want to give me
325
00:17:10,613 --> 00:17:14,200
the wrong idea, you know?
326
00:17:14,284 --> 00:17:16,870
I was trying to muster
the courage.
327
00:17:16,953 --> 00:17:19,330
I was trying to muster it up.
328
00:17:21,416 --> 00:17:23,752
And I was going to call back,
I was going to call and say
329
00:17:23,835 --> 00:17:26,588
what a lovely kiss that was.
330
00:17:26,671 --> 00:17:29,299
And maybe we should
do it again.
331
00:17:31,509 --> 00:17:33,595
And every night
I thought about that kiss
332
00:17:33,678 --> 00:17:35,138
and how full it made me,
333
00:17:35,221 --> 00:17:37,307
and how I was going to
call him back,
334
00:17:37,390 --> 00:17:39,726
and what I was going to say
and...
335
00:17:42,729 --> 00:17:45,648
And then one day,
I'm standing in the market,
336
00:17:45,732 --> 00:17:48,109
and I see him there.
337
00:17:48,193 --> 00:17:49,652
And I smiled.
338
00:17:51,905 --> 00:17:54,115
And he sees me
and he smiles back.
339
00:17:55,492 --> 00:17:56,701
And I wave.
340
00:17:59,204 --> 00:18:00,663
And he waves back.
341
00:18:02,999 --> 00:18:05,835
And then we just
drift together...
342
00:18:05,919 --> 00:18:09,047
in the freezer aisle
in front of the fish sticks.
343
00:18:11,049 --> 00:18:13,885
And then a woman with
the curliest hair I've ever seen
344
00:18:13,968 --> 00:18:16,596
puts her hand on his shoulder.
345
00:18:16,679 --> 00:18:19,557
"This is my wife, Carol,"
Ming says.
346
00:18:19,641 --> 00:18:22,227
And then two little kids...
No, three little kids,
347
00:18:22,310 --> 00:18:25,230
two boys and a girl,
grab him by the leg.
348
00:18:25,313 --> 00:18:30,276
"Dad, Dad, can we have
Chocolate Hobnobs, please?"
349
00:18:31,986 --> 00:18:33,196
And I looked down.
350
00:18:36,282 --> 00:18:37,784
My hands looked different.
351
00:18:40,578 --> 00:18:42,539
I have these wrinkles now.
352
00:18:44,374 --> 00:18:48,545
My legs have
varicose veins and...
353
00:18:48,628 --> 00:18:51,756
and I'm, um...
a little bit lumpy in parts,
354
00:18:51,840 --> 00:18:55,885
and stretchy and flaky and...
355
00:18:55,969 --> 00:18:57,804
and I have
a few gray hairs and...
356
00:18:59,806 --> 00:19:02,183
And I look in the freezer window
where the fish sticks are
357
00:19:02,267 --> 00:19:06,020
and I... I see myself
and suddenly...
358
00:19:06,104 --> 00:19:08,982
I'm 51.
359
00:19:09,065 --> 00:19:12,318
And he is, too, and I...
360
00:19:12,402 --> 00:19:16,322
suppose I'd, uh...
I just lost track of time.
361
00:19:30,879 --> 00:19:33,840
He introduced me to her,
his wife, Carol.
362
00:19:35,258 --> 00:19:37,302
She seemed uninterested in me.
363
00:19:40,513 --> 00:19:43,892
If she only knew
how much he meant to me,
364
00:19:43,975 --> 00:19:46,853
I think she might have been
more interested in me.
365
00:19:50,189 --> 00:19:52,609
If only Ming knew
how much he meant to me.
366
00:19:54,777 --> 00:19:58,156
If only I knew
how much I meant to me.
367
00:19:59,407 --> 00:20:01,826
And I thought...
368
00:20:01,910 --> 00:20:03,328
what if those were our kids?
369
00:20:05,330 --> 00:20:09,792
I thought...
I would have been a great mom.
370
00:20:09,876 --> 00:20:11,336
And I thought...
371
00:20:11,419 --> 00:20:14,380
if I died, my kids would have
kept my sweater,
372
00:20:14,464 --> 00:20:18,009
and curled up with it
when things got hard
373
00:20:18,092 --> 00:20:19,594
or they got gassy.
374
00:20:19,677 --> 00:20:23,056
And I thought, oh, I...
375
00:20:23,139 --> 00:20:27,852
I really should have
picked up his call.
376
00:20:27,936 --> 00:20:30,104
And I thought,
why do I always think
377
00:20:30,188 --> 00:20:32,023
I'm going to be a bother?
378
00:20:34,025 --> 00:20:39,489
And I thought, why am I
so scared of being seen?
379
00:20:45,119 --> 00:20:48,039
At least when I was younger,
I had some semblance of choice
380
00:20:48,122 --> 00:20:51,876
in the matter of
my invisibility.
381
00:20:51,960 --> 00:20:55,296
But now,
being of a certain age,
382
00:20:55,380 --> 00:20:58,466
to put it politely...
[chuckles]
383
00:20:58,549 --> 00:21:01,010
Well...
384
00:21:01,094 --> 00:21:04,305
that's what scares me the most.
385
00:21:04,389 --> 00:21:05,598
That I gave up
all those good years
386
00:21:05,682 --> 00:21:07,600
because I was scared,
387
00:21:07,684 --> 00:21:12,063
and now I'm here and I'm
losing my say in the matter.
388
00:21:13,356 --> 00:21:16,275
Old age is a strange,
blunt foe.
389
00:21:17,610 --> 00:21:19,195
And it fights dirty.
390
00:21:20,029 --> 00:21:21,656
It isn't fair.
391
00:21:25,284 --> 00:21:28,413
At first, I started
noticing it years ago
392
00:21:28,496 --> 00:21:32,583
when I turned 64,
this matter of "old."
393
00:21:34,961 --> 00:21:36,879
Little things.
394
00:21:36,963 --> 00:21:39,382
But little things add up.
395
00:21:40,967 --> 00:21:43,011
It was the bus ride back from
the funeral
396
00:21:43,094 --> 00:21:46,639
just a couple of months ago
that did it.
397
00:21:46,723 --> 00:21:48,933
I was waiting.
I was on the bus for some time,
398
00:21:49,017 --> 00:21:52,228
and I was waiting for my stop,
and an hour goes by,
399
00:21:52,311 --> 00:21:53,730
and then two,
400
00:21:53,813 --> 00:21:56,691
until I'm the last one
on the bus.
401
00:21:56,774 --> 00:21:58,901
Just me and the driver.
402
00:22:00,820 --> 00:22:04,323
I look out the window and
I don't recognize the streets.
403
00:22:04,407 --> 00:22:06,576
And finally, the bus
turns into a parking lot,
404
00:22:06,659 --> 00:22:08,369
the bus depot.
405
00:22:08,453 --> 00:22:09,704
The bus stops,
406
00:22:09,787 --> 00:22:13,332
and the engine cuts
and the lights turn off.
407
00:22:13,416 --> 00:22:16,627
And I didn't even say anything.
I just sat there.
408
00:22:18,129 --> 00:22:20,798
I just sat there until
the driver realized,
409
00:22:20,882 --> 00:22:25,344
he... he was walking off the bus
when he noticed me.
410
00:22:25,428 --> 00:22:28,222
He jumped like I was a ghost.
411
00:22:28,306 --> 00:22:31,142
"Oh! Didn't see you there,"
he said.
412
00:22:34,729 --> 00:22:37,356
I didn't see you there.
413
00:22:43,863 --> 00:22:45,114
How unfair.
414
00:22:46,365 --> 00:22:47,825
I paid my fare.
415
00:22:48,951 --> 00:22:50,369
Took my seat.
416
00:22:50,453 --> 00:22:53,372
But how unfair not to see me.
417
00:22:53,456 --> 00:22:56,918
How unfair not to know that
I have things inside of me, too.
418
00:22:57,001 --> 00:22:58,920
I... I have things I feel
419
00:22:59,003 --> 00:23:00,963
and I say
and I think and I know.
420
00:23:01,047 --> 00:23:02,340
I... I have funny jokes
sometimes.
421
00:23:02,423 --> 00:23:04,550
Really funny jokes.
422
00:23:04,634 --> 00:23:07,136
Jokes that the late hosts
would use on their shows
423
00:23:07,220 --> 00:23:08,971
if they knew them.
424
00:23:09,055 --> 00:23:11,182
Yeah, I'm bold in that way.
425
00:23:11,265 --> 00:23:13,518
And I'm wickedly smart.
426
00:23:13,601 --> 00:23:15,561
I mean, sometimes
I think of things, you know,
427
00:23:15,645 --> 00:23:18,022
inventions and things
that if I had the time
428
00:23:18,106 --> 00:23:19,357
or the money and...
429
00:23:20,691 --> 00:23:24,529
And, heck,
I'm sexy in here, too.
430
00:23:24,612 --> 00:23:26,405
I'm sexy.
431
00:23:28,074 --> 00:23:31,202
I could put on a red lip,
I could put on some rouge.
432
00:23:32,662 --> 00:23:34,664
I could dance...
433
00:23:34,747 --> 00:23:37,375
and love and excite and need,
434
00:23:37,458 --> 00:23:40,545
and deserve and exist and...
435
00:23:40,628 --> 00:23:42,588
And I am a person.
436
00:23:46,050 --> 00:23:48,344
That's what I wanted to say
to him;
437
00:23:48,427 --> 00:23:50,388
to the bus driver
on that cold bus
438
00:23:50,471 --> 00:23:52,723
in that cold bus depot.
439
00:23:54,350 --> 00:23:57,645
It's what I wanted to say
but I just said...
440
00:23:57,728 --> 00:24:00,064
[scoffs]
441
00:24:00,148 --> 00:24:03,276
"I'm sorry. My fault.
442
00:24:03,359 --> 00:24:06,863
I should have been
more 'seeable.'"
443
00:24:06,946 --> 00:24:10,324
And he told me not to worry,
that these things happen.
444
00:24:12,827 --> 00:24:14,704
But why do these things happen?
445
00:24:14,787 --> 00:24:18,124
Why am I scared of
automatic doors,
446
00:24:18,207 --> 00:24:20,835
and deli counters
and the bus?
447
00:24:28,551 --> 00:24:31,095
And so that night...
448
00:24:31,179 --> 00:24:35,391
that night when I got home...
449
00:24:35,474 --> 00:24:38,978
I realized that if I was
destined to disappear,
450
00:24:39,061 --> 00:24:42,315
I was going to do it
on my own terms.
451
00:24:46,485 --> 00:24:48,613
Adventure ahead.
452
00:24:51,574 --> 00:24:55,453
So I sat on my bed
thinking about how to end it.
453
00:24:56,954 --> 00:24:58,247
But before I did,
454
00:24:58,331 --> 00:25:00,583
I remembered I had
fruit in the fridge.
455
00:25:01,334 --> 00:25:02,960
Mm.
456
00:25:03,044 --> 00:25:05,379
And it was supposed to go bad
the next day.
457
00:25:06,422 --> 00:25:07,924
So I went into the kitchen,
458
00:25:08,007 --> 00:25:11,510
I took the fruit from
the refrigerator to eat it.
459
00:25:11,594 --> 00:25:17,308
And there I ate the most
delicious strawberry
460
00:25:17,391 --> 00:25:19,936
I've ever eaten
in my whole life.
461
00:25:20,019 --> 00:25:23,606
And I sat there for a while
at the kitchen table...
462
00:25:23,689 --> 00:25:27,318
Well, no, for hours,
actually, really,
463
00:25:27,401 --> 00:25:29,028
thinking about the strawberry.
464
00:25:31,948 --> 00:25:35,701
And it grew quiet so
I turned the television on.
465
00:25:35,785 --> 00:25:38,454
And it was
"The Hologram Singer."
466
00:25:38,537 --> 00:25:41,916
And then,
this commercial came on.
467
00:25:41,999 --> 00:25:45,211
"Seniors wanted."
468
00:25:45,294 --> 00:25:47,255
[laughs]
469
00:25:47,338 --> 00:25:49,298
Right there on the television.
470
00:25:51,884 --> 00:25:54,512
No one ever wanted me before.
471
00:25:58,266 --> 00:25:59,767
Why did I apply?
472
00:26:02,103 --> 00:26:05,022
I lied to you before,
you know.
473
00:26:05,106 --> 00:26:07,024
It wasn't because
I wanted adventure.
474
00:26:10,069 --> 00:26:12,780
[sighs]
475
00:26:12,863 --> 00:26:15,324
It was because I felt like
the kind of person
476
00:26:15,408 --> 00:26:17,410
that if you gave
everyone on Earth
477
00:26:17,493 --> 00:26:23,374
a number a the deli counter,
every single person...
478
00:26:23,457 --> 00:26:25,126
there wouldn't be
one left for me.
479
00:26:27,878 --> 00:26:31,090
And I thought that
maybe somewhere
480
00:26:31,173 --> 00:26:35,469
in the farthest reaches of
the universe...
481
00:26:35,553 --> 00:26:37,680
I would finally have a spot.
482
00:26:40,224 --> 00:26:45,730
I would finally be counted.
483
00:26:53,154 --> 00:26:55,448
[computer trilling]
484
00:26:55,531 --> 00:26:57,783
-TYM: I don't think it's true.
485
00:26:57,867 --> 00:26:59,869
-PEG: What?
486
00:26:59,952 --> 00:27:02,705
-TYM: I think Ming wanted to
go to the prom with you.
487
00:27:02,788 --> 00:27:04,457
And to kiss you.
488
00:27:04,540 --> 00:27:05,708
And to have you
pick up his call
489
00:27:05,791 --> 00:27:08,002
so he could ask you on a date.
490
00:27:08,085 --> 00:27:09,712
And to one day marry you.
491
00:27:11,589 --> 00:27:12,798
I see you, Peg.
492
00:27:14,342 --> 00:27:17,011
-And you don't even have eyes.
493
00:27:17,094 --> 00:27:19,597
-TYM: I don't need eyes.
494
00:27:19,680 --> 00:27:22,224
There's more of you to see
than anyone I've seen
495
00:27:22,308 --> 00:27:25,353
or known or heard
in my whole existence.
496
00:27:27,271 --> 00:27:29,065
And you don't need eyes
for that.
497
00:27:32,026 --> 00:27:33,069
-Really?
498
00:27:34,278 --> 00:27:35,321
-TYM: Really.
499
00:27:41,827 --> 00:27:44,121
-How far are we?
500
00:27:44,205 --> 00:27:47,083
-TYM: From where?
-From where we're heading.
501
00:27:47,166 --> 00:27:49,794
-TYM: We're here, Peg.
502
00:27:49,877 --> 00:27:51,545
We are where we're heading.
503
00:27:56,759 --> 00:28:00,721
-Maybe I... I could call Ming,
504
00:28:00,805 --> 00:28:02,681
ask him if he'd like to
get dinner one night,
505
00:28:02,765 --> 00:28:05,559
or see a movie and...
506
00:28:05,643 --> 00:28:07,186
and maybe I could dance.
507
00:28:07,269 --> 00:28:10,314
Like I used to
before I stopped.
508
00:28:12,566 --> 00:28:15,152
And maybe I could be myself
again.
509
00:28:15,236 --> 00:28:19,573
But that version of me
that I've always been
510
00:28:19,657 --> 00:28:23,244
was a girl who said "yes"
and wasn't scared...
511
00:28:23,327 --> 00:28:24,954
and could see herself.
512
00:28:30,626 --> 00:28:32,920
Well, maybe I'll start.
513
00:28:33,879 --> 00:28:36,549
Maybe today is a new day.
514
00:28:36,632 --> 00:28:39,844
I mean, 71 isn't so old
when you think about it.
515
00:28:39,927 --> 00:28:44,014
71 isn't so old
from where I'm sitting.
516
00:28:44,098 --> 00:28:47,852
So, starting today,
I'm gonna be a whole new me.
517
00:28:47,935 --> 00:28:50,813
A whole new Peg.
518
00:28:50,896 --> 00:28:55,568
Today, it's time for Peg
to do Peg, as they say.
519
00:28:55,651 --> 00:28:56,694
How about that?
520
00:29:00,281 --> 00:29:04,535
So, can you
turn this thing around, Tym?
521
00:29:04,618 --> 00:29:08,038
-TYM: Peg, this is
a ship of no return.
522
00:29:09,790 --> 00:29:11,917
-Well...
523
00:29:12,001 --> 00:29:14,920
maybe you can make
an exception?
524
00:29:17,798 --> 00:29:19,758
[electronic bleep]
525
00:29:19,842 --> 00:29:21,427
-TYM: I'll see what I can do.
526
00:29:23,429 --> 00:29:25,556
-Only if it's not a bother.
527
00:29:28,225 --> 00:29:29,894
Or maybe even if it is.
528
00:29:37,026 --> 00:29:39,028
[humming]
529
00:29:42,281 --> 00:29:43,949
♪ This is Ground Control
to Major Tom ♪
530
00:29:44,033 --> 00:29:47,620
That's it. That's it.
531
00:29:47,703 --> 00:29:48,746
That's the song.
532
00:29:50,789 --> 00:29:52,124
That's it.
[humming]
533
00:29:52,208 --> 00:29:55,002
♪ And the papers
want to know ♪
534
00:29:55,085 --> 00:29:58,797
♪ Whose shirts you wear ♪
535
00:29:58,881 --> 00:30:04,762
♪ Now it's time to leave
the capsule if you dare ♪
536
00:30:06,972 --> 00:30:11,936
♪ This is Major Tom
to Ground Control ♪
537
00:30:12,019 --> 00:30:16,649
♪ I'm stepping through
the door ♪
538
00:30:16,732 --> 00:30:22,112
♪ And I'm floating in
a most peculiar way ♪
539
00:30:23,739 --> 00:30:29,995
♪ And the stars look
very different today ♪
540
00:30:31,121 --> 00:30:34,333
♪ For here ♪
541
00:30:34,416 --> 00:30:38,629
♪ Am I sitting in a tin can ♪
542
00:30:38,712 --> 00:30:45,636
♪ Far above the world ♪
543
00:30:45,719 --> 00:30:48,180
♪ Planet Earth is blue ♪
544
00:30:48,264 --> 00:30:54,603
♪ And there's nothing
I can do ♪
545
00:30:54,687 --> 00:30:57,690
♪♪
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