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- Rachel, it's just every time

I try to make a change for myself I..

- I've been trying what you said

and asking for what I want, but nothing's changing.

It's just like people would rather punch themselves

in the throat than interact with me.

- Remind me of what it is you want.

- I don't know,

a steady paycheck.

- I'm here to be your accountability.

The point being is that this'll take some time.

- Time?

I don't have time.

- Like, okay, forget the debt.

I just don't really know what I'm doing.

Like, what am I really good for at this?

I dunno... nothing.

- Have you considered the culinary arts?

- Cooking?

No, never.

Isn't that something that only poor people have to,

you know, do ?

- I have to go to work, run my business.

Go take my dog to the chiropractor.

I don't have time.

- Now, what is it that you really want?

- I want a haircut.

Maybe some new shoes.

Yeah.

- Give yourself permission to connect with what drives you.

What I'm trying to say is that

I love you,

but it doesn't matter if you don't love yourself.

- You know what?

It's exactly what I needed to hear.

I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna talk to him.

- Yes, share your thoughts with your man.

There's likely something more internal going on.

- And if he doesn't listen?

- We could talk about it at our next session in three days.

- Love you.

So ready.

Oh, this month's payment is coming late.

I didn't want you to think that I-

- Don't stress it.

I just powered through like a hundred free consultations,

so this takes time.

We're just getting started.

Talk soon.

Hello.

- I am sorry about that.

Thanks for coming to my rescue friend.

I'm Brady, we talked a couple of days ago.

Polar vortex?

No?

Anyway, I don't know, this might be bad timing,

but I thought if you're free some time we could,

maybe not.

- You're welcome.

19 ounces, divided by

four, we'll call it,

4.8 ounces.

- Hey honey, here's your mail,

garbage?

- Yes, of course, that's okay.

- No rush.

- Thanks so much.

- Oh and sweetie by the way,

I was just gonna tell you it was so nice to see you out,

quite the fall, how are the groceries?

- Right, lost my jelly.

- Sweetie, your mom called and she-

- No thank you.

- No, no, no, you're right.

Okay. - Okay.

- Bye honey.

- Life, volume one.

Why aren't you outside right now?

That's the beauty of it.

You're doing it.

- It's true and I don't know.

It's like everything's been so amazing.

Like, is this real life?

- Oh my God, yes.

I love hearing it, girl, the goddess of fanny packs is here.

- Okay, so I'm celebrating,

by taking a trip to Hawaii and Rachel,

I want you to come with me.

- I..

- It's on me, you've been too good to me for too long.

Helping me become who I've always dreamed of,

please, what do you say?

- I can't.

- What do you mean?

- Travel, it's just, you go,

celebrate.

- Rachel, it's Hawaii with me.

Why don't you just think about it and-

- No, I can't.

No.

- Well, listen, I was hoping to give you the good news

over the trip, but I don't know.

- What is it?

- I think I'm ready to graduate.

- Graduating?

That's amazing.

- I'm gonna miss this.

- What?

- Putting myself out there again,

has been so great.

I'm sorry, I'm being selfish about this.

- No, no, you should be proud of yourself.

That's amazing.

Look,

just keep doing what you're doing,

we'll catch up at some point.

I'll send an email regarding this being our last session.

Enjoy Hawaii, okay?

- So I guess this is it?

- I guess so.

- Love you.

- Love you too.

Bye.

I'm not,

needed anymore.

Mom.

- Rachel everything okay?

- I need help.

- Honey you need to see a doctor.

- No I don't.

- Where are you right now?

- It's been a week since you called.

- It's just,

it's just, do you know anyone who needs..

- I can pay for your ticket.

You-

- Stop you're not listening to me,

I don't wanna see you.

Hello?

- Hello.

- Nora.

- Oh is this Rachel?

- That's me.

- Of course, hi,

so still life coach?

- That's right, but some people do prefer success coach.

Hello?

Sarah hi.

- Oh my gosh hi.

- How's life?

- We just got back from our honeymoon.

- Recently married?

- Last month.

- Great.

I'm so happy for you.

Hi.

Rachel

- Oh my gosh, you still have my number saved?

- Of course, don't be silly, what's up?

- Listen, I have a new spot on my roster.

- Well, Ben and I are still

working out our finances.

- Support group,

great place to find your clientele

and it's right down the street

and

hasn't happened yet.

You got this, you can do it.

Recommendation.

- Hello?

- Is this Gary?

- You're the life coach right?

When can I start?

- I'm sorry, what?

- When do I start?

- You're interested.

I mean, why yes of course.

Let me see, I don't have many openings for new clients,

so this is an opportunity for you and for me.

- Men usually sign up too?

- Yes, yes, men do bring on life coaches too.

You don't have to be nervous.

- Can I have the address there,

does tomorrow work?

- Tomorrow.

- Yeah I can come by.

- In person?

- Yeah.

- Whatever gets you to-

I mean whatever you're comfortable with.

- I'm available at three.

- Please, why not?

- 3.00 p.m then.

- All right.

See you tomorrow.

- Okay I gotta go. - Bye.

- In person.

- I know, I know, good to see you sweetie, bye.

- Hello,

Gary,

hello, welcome.

Welcome Gary.

Session

one

Gary... Happy face.

Welcome,

Gary is it?

Thank you for allowing me to be your new life coach

or success coach, whichever you prefer.

I don't mind either.

- You're my first.

- Excuse me?

- You said new, I've never had one before.

- Oh, swell then.

Today is your lucky day.

Please stand with me like so,

there you go, good job, brilliant.

- Are you hiding from somebody too?

- Sorry?

Let's not change the subject now Gary.

Out there is our future

and the only way we can get there,

is if we work together,

we just have to figure out where it is we want to go.

- Middle of the fucking forest.

- Why is that Gary?

- I don't know, people

it's too many of them.

I always feel like I'm being watched.

- No, no, no,

no smoking in here.

Sorry.

That's fine.

- You were recommended to me.

- By whom if I may?

- I feel so stupid.

I just want a new life.

Don't you know what that feels like?

- Listen to me very closely okay?

You are not alone.

You are good enough.

It's just,

we have to figure out what your next right move is.

Now, if you wouldn't mind sitting up.

- All right.

We have a confidentiality agreement thing, correct?

- To an extent but-

- I've stolen a lot of money.

That's a lie.

I made it illegally selling drugs,

actually both.

- Really?

- I want to be a provider you see.

I've had to accomplish such goals by means

I'm not very proud of.

- I too have done things I'm not happy about,

but it's taken me a long time to get to where I am

and I wouldn't change any of that for the world.

What we see as mistakes are just little-

- 12 Weeks of sessions.

- I see.

- She deserves better.

I don't know how to change.

- Let me fix us some tea.

- Rachel, thanks for the drinks and the snacks

and for your time.

I feel like there's something you're not telling me.

Don't misunderstand, but please, plainly, what can I do?

- Go home, write out a list of what you feel

your flaws are, your strengths

and all the reasons why you wanna keep your woman.

It's late.

Thank you.

We got this, don't you worry.

- Please don't touch me.

- So sorry.

- Something smells.

- Sorry again.

Thanks again for coming in person,

I feel adds a level of intimacy

that may help us reach new heights.

- Yes, 100% yes.

- Well, let's start with you filling me in

on how the talk went.

- I don't know, it's odd.

To talking it out helped a lot,

you're very supportive of me wanting more Susan time.

- Beautiful.

You've honored yourself.

- Yes.

- And how does that make you feel?

- I'm over the moon.

- I love the smile, but something's missing.

Please sit.

I have just the remedy.

- I didn't know you were allowed to prescribe medication.

- Well, I can prescribe you other things.

You think things are good now, I'm prescribing you this.

- The next right move is sex?

- Yes.

- It's just, it's been a while.

I never know when it's okay to make a move,

he's been so tense.

- Have fun, the only thing better than having fun,

is sharing in the fun, you know what I mean?

Also remember,

it's not really about the sex,

it's just helping things get started.

- You're right, thanks for this.

- Tea?

- Sure.

- What's on your mind?

- Feel like he has a wall up, hardly laughs anymore

and when we do talk, it's always good news.

Which is odd, right?

I don't know.

Whoever only has good news all the time?

- Don't put it all on yourself, men,

well, all people, but especially men

have a harder time breaking down those walls

after they're built.

- You're saying I might not break through?

- All you can do is try,

every time I've been stubborn enough to keep pushing,

I've always come up with some sort of resolution.

- What about the time when you couldn't break through?

- It looks like we should get you out of here.

Lots of work, I mean fun, for you to have.

- I'm so sorry if I stepped over the line, I didn't-

- No, no another time maybe.

Do you have your session payments?

- I was gonna bring it next week.

I promise.

- Okay.

- You and Brady or...? You need his number don't you?

Don't worry, I've got it,

you know, perks of the job,

but only if you want it, okay?

Not gonna push anything.

- No, no, I have it too.

We've been talking so I definitely made sure to get it.

- Look at you.

- Rooting for you,

rooting for you.

- What to buy, what to buy.

Hi, got a package.

Just sign please.

Alrighty.

Here-

Here you go.

You have a nice da-

- Hi there.

- Hey.

Forget my delivery downstairs?

- Yes sorry, one sec.

- I was just kidding.

- Yeah, I was too.

- Me too, yeah.

It's hot out.

Almond milk?

- Water?

- Yeah I have that too.

- Thanks I'm parched.

- Mind if I play some jams?

- Sure.

- I don't think I have touched a puzzle since I was a kid.

- Keeps me entertained.

- It's a nice place, less traffic out here.

Quieter.

- Yeah, right.

- So what do you do?

- I like to cook.

I used to do yoga, but-

- Like, for work.

- I don't, currently unemployed.

I have a savings though, lucky right?

- What's your dream?

- What's yours?

- I asked you first.

- Fine,

traveling.

- Same.

Italy, France, Southeast Asia,

I wanna eat my way around the world.

Did you grow up here or where are you from?

- Can we just?

- Yeah.

What's this thing supposed to look like anyways?

- Only one way to find out.

♪ There's no way I'm not a mistake I'm a suck up to myself ♪

♪ Wish I was someone else ♪

♪ Face to face trying to erase ♪

- No, no, no don't.

Sorry.

There's no way, you have to know.

- Nope.

- Take a guess.

- Obama.

- Must be nice.

And you said no dating for how long?

- Almost three years.

- My mind.

- What's it like?

- What's what like?

- Being normal?

- What's normal anyway?

I mean like I hate when people pretend

like weird is a bad thing.

Normal people are just pushing down their weird,

which is blah you know?

- You know, some people are just more broken,

I believe, you can tell.

- And how you're not eating all that delicious food?

- See?

It's so apparent.

And that's cheating.

- Think I'm gonna do it.

- Do what?

- Start a business.

I don't know, maybe too daunting.

- For you?

- Don't think so?

- Once people know you exist,

they won't be able to help themselves.

Just do it.

Go for it.

As much as I enjoy you bringing me gifts all the time.

- Personal chef.

- Oh my God, yes.

You're a terrific cook.

- I did study at the CIA of New York so, yeah.

- Give that back.

Delicious.

- That's what I thought.

You're not reading the book I got you.

- Title was the point I thought.

- But, yes and no.

- I have to finish this one first.

Promised myself, it's a thing I'm trying.

Slow reader.

But I can read yours first.

- Well I appreciate your dedication.

I mean, I did read it and I wanna talk to you about it,

so if you could read at some point, be great.

- Are you sure?

- I'm sure.

I mean, I'm not happy about it,

but it's fine.

- Well thank you.

- You're welcome.

- Again tomorrow yeah?

- Yeah, tomorrow's great.

Pretty sure I'm free.

I,

drive safe okay?

- Let me take you out next time.

- My place is just so comfy.

- My treat, anywhere you like,

seriously, where's your favorite place to eat?

I'm sure we can make it happen.

- Let me think on it and let you know tomorrow.

- Works for me.

- Please excuse my dogs, they're friendly.

You okay?

Come on.

- She said one thing,

I think we're gonna be great friends.

- You're serious?

- Yeah, I mean we've exchanged multiple text messages

over the course of the last 24 hours.

What I'm trying to say Gary is,

that's how I feel about this.

- Yeah, I'm not looking for any new friends.

- But you have listed here that's why-

- I've changed my mind.

- Look we cant' just-

- You know what, it's quite clear that you-

- Gary it's just-

- You don't have any experiences

and you don't know me.

- Then why are you here?

- What?

- Why are you here?

- For my wife.

- How do you feel about her?

- Love her.

Love my wife.

- Good, now if we can just use that

as a starting point.

- Let's do this, swap me out,

put me under, whatever it is you do, I'm ready.

- Gary.

- Yeah I've thought about this don't you worry.

It's okay.

- We're here to make your life, the one worth living Gary.

Not to change who you are.

- I don't wanna be me anymore.

I can never be what I need to be for my lady.

I've tried.

- What have you tried?

Step one is love yourself.

If you love you, then she will too.

Do you wanna stay with her?

- More than anything else.

- Then talk to her.

Share your feelings.

You can't expect anyone to be a mind reader.

- Sharing is caring?

- It is.

- Should I get it?

- No, no, no I..

Thanks come in.

- I was just on my way out.

Sorry to take up so much of your time.

Don't you worry, I'll have those weeds pulled

and my motivations reexamined by next week.

Gary, the gardener,

- Brady, the boyfriend?

- You two have a good day.

- Held onto it all day.

- Thank you.

- So he's not your gardener,

he's not a lover.

- Look- - Wait,

I wanna guess.

You look terrific, you've kept the lighting moody,

the air's a little stuffy.

He's a private investigator.

You hired to track down a previous ex for a car

they stole in the breakup.

- Sorry about that, he was a client of mine.

- Last I asked, you said you didn't work.

- Boyfriend?

You told him you were my-

- I did not say I was your boyfriend.

- Yeah, you did.

You meet this guy for the first time

and you introduced yourself to him as my boyfriend.

I mean like we've never even talked about it.

- I asked in sort of a cute way, it doesn't matter.

What matters is, I need to know who that was

and what you do for work.

- Life coach.

I'm a life coach.

Behold.

- Spicy.

How do I know you're telling the truth?

What's in the box?

- It's just my refills on shampoo and conditioner.

Fine, look.

- Off the hook for now.

That guy did scare me though.

- Yeah.

So what are we doing today?

- I don't know, you tell me.

- How adventurous are you feeling?

- A library sounds fun.

- Well, in that case, it's no library.

- Almond milk?

- Close second though, I've got a friend who's hosting

this cool hangout thing, I know it's gonna be fun,

love for you being a plus one if you,

feel free to say no.

- I want to,

but you're gonna judge me.

- No,

try me.

People…

- People, don't like me.

- So you don't leave your apartment?

- See if you're gonna judge me,

they're gonna judge me.

- I mean, it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you.

- Look, I want to go.

- If you wanna go, let's give it a shot.

They're all super friendly.

They'll love you.

Shall we?

- Okay.

- Made it, how you feeling?

- Feeling great.

Yeah.

Shall we?

- Brady, my dude.

- My man.

- Buddy.

- Happy to see you.

- You too.

- I'm Amy.

- Hi.

- Looks like you guys lost some weight, congrats.

- Keto. - Keto.

- Thanks for calling it out, jerk.

- This is Rachel.

- I'm Nolan.

Okay, you guys want some drinks or?

- Designated driver, so just a water.

- You want a drink?

Cool.

- Please make yourselves at home.

- Yeah all right.

- Come join the conversation?

Talk about life goals.

- People talk about that?

- No, they don't.

We're actually talking about the generational gap

and how millennials will likely be the ones

to step up and save the planet.

Kidding again, sorry.

We're just grilling Demi.

- Make this easy on me please.

- Of course, what are you thinking?

We can leave or,

shall we?

- I don't know, I handled it like anything else,

I was down, but you know what?

I picked myself up by my bootstraps.

- Right, right.

- Wait so no second date?

- Well, I don't know,

but, well I do know it's not that interesting.

- She loves to hype.

- Fine, I'll tell you.

No, you won't.

- Yes I will, watch me.

- No, you won't.

- I'm watching.

- She didn't like it when I mentioned,

that I liked to sit in what we call the power seat.

- What "we" call the ?

- We don't call - No, I don't think,

- that's ever been a thing. - Maybe kind of a new thing.

- Yeah.

- That isn't a thing is it?

- No.

- Yeah, you got it, you totally get it.

Who cares, if I like to sit in the middle

of the establishment and see the entrance

and exit of the place, come on,

don't act like you don't do this.

- Are you sure it was even a date?

- Well, it sounds like a date.

- It doesn't sound like a date.

- It doesn't sound like a date,

it sounds like a seating arrangement.

- Rachel any ideas?

She's a life coach of sorts.

Go ahead, she won't take offense.

- Jeez thanks.

So a life coach, huh?

- I would never have even guessed that.

I would have said maybe school teacher or nurse even.

- Oh yeah, or like a receptionist.

- Librarian.

- Cleaning technician.

- Yeah or a school teacher.

- No, I said school teacher.

- Oh yeah.

- Restroom?

- Oh yeah, it's..

- Rachel, you in there?

Did you see a girl in a denim jacket go in there?

Okay.

You guys see Rachel leave?

- She didn't pass out in our bedroom did she?

- Think I offended her

with that whole school teacher thing?

Smells like throw up everywhere over here.

- You don't have to do this.

- But I want to.

You're so strong.

- What?

- Think about it.

Look where you are.

Out of your apartment all the way across the city even,

when's the last time you've been out like this?

- It's all new.

- Even more amazing then.

I'm surprised you trusted me, honestly.

- You make it look so easy.

- It's all a cover.

Took a lot of work to make this look like

I got my shit together.

Seriously.

I have to go to Johnny's at least twice a week

to get a bagel sandwich and a chocolate cupcake

just to maintain my sanity.

It's true.

- I..

- What?

- I don't know, it's just,

I think too much, it's stupid.

You see,

my dad was never a good listener,

growing up we'd always argue,

I felt the need to stand up to him,

but this one time when we were driving,

just the two of us,

we got into it bad,

I couldn't take it anymore, so I told him to pull over.

I got out and he left.

I realized I left my cell phone in the car.

Sorry, you don't wanna hear this.

- It's fine.

- It's also,

I panicked.

I felt like I was gonna die.

My heart hurt and that was it.

There was just all these people looking at me,

some were laughing, some looked disgusted.

- That's..

- I ran as fast as I could,

hoping he'd still be there,

he was,

I got there just in time to see,

to see him get hit.

I'm sure he took one look at me and saw how broken.

- Stop that is not fair.

- So you did think that?

- I didn't say that.

You're a good person.

That's what I saw and I liked it.

- Thank you.

- For what?

- For listening to me.

- I think the coast is clear,

ready to break out of here?

Let's do it, come on.

- Now I really have to pee.

Thanks for everything.

- Anytime.

- Thanks again.

- No problem,

- so yes… - I wanna say something.

- OK.

- I like you.

- I like you too.

- I want..

I think,

I don't know, I..

- I think you did really well back there.

Next time we'll do something more low-key.

- What?

- Just the two of us, there's no pressure.

- Next time?

- Yeah.

- I just need to be alone.

Thanks.

Oh,

hey.

- Hey.

- I've been logging it all, so much progress.

You know why?

- Were you let down and left with a bunch of time?

- No, I know the truth, I've allowed myself to be inspired.

I've given myself permission to connect with what drives me.

I've grown to love myself.

- Great, go on.

- It's been amazing.

Let's see, we've had sex at least once a day

since you prescribed it.

And he's been so open with my me time as well.

I started four new books this week

and next step is Hawaii.

- No.

- Rachel?

Rachel, you don't look at me.

Head up.

What's gotten into you?

Girl, that move got me out of sharing with you.

- It's,

it's nothing.

- I don't wanna have to twist your arm here.

- I'm already in enough pain.

- Oh, I was only poking fun, it's just an expression.

- I'm not good at jokes,

I don't do anything well really.

I don't know how to meet people, I never travel,

I never know how to make friends.

- Stop.

This isn't helping you,

there's nothing wrong with you.

Remember what you tell me all the time?

- What?

Matter?

You're really pulling that on me right now?

- Rachel I..

- You think I leave this place?

This week is the first time I left my apartment in years

and I want to be of value to people,

but I don't have what it takes to be anything.

- You have me.

We're friends, we'll always be friends.

- I'm sorry.

- Why?

- I'm supposed to be the strong one.

- Please.

There's no reason why we can't trade off.

Let me help you.

If you're up for it,

join me and my hubby for dinner tonight.

- Let's do it.

- Wow, okay then.

- I’ll…

I'll just come back and pick you up in a few hours then?

- Perfect.

- Four thirty?

- Yeah.

- Okay.

Be ready?

♪ London Paris Rome ♪

♪ All the places I'd go ♪

♪ If I wasn't alone or stuck at home ♪

♪ The parts of you that you feel the most ♪

♪ Control you lose is just a… ♪

♪ Now it's time to step outside ♪

♪ Break down these walls and no longer hide ♪

♪ London Paris Rome all the places I'd go ♪

♪ If I wasn't alone ♪

♪ or stuck at home ♪

- What are you doing?

- You're always so beautiful.

Rachel.

- What? - I'm ready.

- Brady.

Rachel.

Rachel.

Rachel!

Rachel!!

Oh Rachel, are you okay?

- Maria? - Yeah.

You okay?

Sweetie, the windows were open,

I saw you laying here I had to come in okay?

- No, yeah.

- I know how you can, you know?

- Thank you.

- You're welcome.

- But please.

- Sorry.

But I know how you can-

- Yes.

- Okay.

- Yes, I'm working on it.

- I know.

- I was just taking a nap.

- Okay.

'Cause remember the laundry room?

- Maria, I'm okay. - Okay.

- I'm just tired. - Okay.

Promise?

- Promise.

- Okay.

Okay.

How do you feel?

- I'm okay. - Yeah?

- Yeah. - Okay.

- Ready spaghetti?

- Sorry in the middle of getting ready.

- Say no more, take your time.

Oh, sorry, Susan this is Maria.

- Neighbor. - Hi.

- Sweetie I'm gonna get on my way,

okay but you need to get some rest, please,

okay?

- Okay.

Just one sec.

- Hey what are you doing out there?

I don't want you burning up, come on.

Make yourself at home.

- Thank you.

- I'm so glad you could make it,

heard you been having a rough time as well.

Chocolate?

No, don't want to ruin that appetite right?

Please come in, have a seat.

- Thirsty?

We have some chardonnay some Cab, Merlot.

Even some tequila if you're feeling up for it.

- Almond milk?

- Coming right up.

- I'm starving.

- It's kind of a community, serve yourself type of thing,

so feel free.

- So…

You mentioned that you don't leave your apartment?

- Susan.

- Let her respond.

- I'm working on it.

- With the help of a Brady?

- I don't really know if he's helping or hurting.

- What do you mean?

- I like this guy, but…

It's not even about that.

- See, it's not even about that.

- Heard her dear.

- It might be quite odd that Susan and I

were both your clients.

- Sorry to keep that from you.

- Yeah, no, I'm sorry.

It is a little weird though.

You two seem so happy.

- Thanks to you.

- Like, I've been seeing both sides of this

and offering my advice,

so like it's been good,

it's all working.

- Yeah, the open communication,

the sharing of feelings.

- But how,

how can you both know everything you know,

and still be able to offer yourselves

fully in the relationship?

- Listen, Rachel,

how do I put this?

We both work really hard at this.

- Something was a bit off for a while, but

you helped us get back on track,

as individuals and as a couple.

- I don't know.

It's nice knowing whether we say it or not,

that our feelings are there for each other.

I know I love Susan too much

to let the little things get in the way.

- Dork.

- Cheers.

- To progress.

- I don't usually like sweets, but this is good.

Oh my gosh, I'm so full.

- Sure you don't want a slice to take with you?

- No, no, no.

Thank you though.

- Thank you for coming.

- Yeah, it was great to have you,

speaking of great to have you,

look Rachel I don't know how to say this because,

- Because you haven't done anything wrong.

- We're in a good place and..

- And we're not going to need your services anymore.

Rachel we love you and we wanna stay friends,

it's just..

- Is it,

is it because you think I'm crazy now?

- No.

- Because of what happened earlier?

- Rachel.

- I share a bit of who I am and you run off?

Huh?

I should have,

this is,

I thought this..

- Rachel please.

- Don't touch me.

- Rachel.

- Thanks.

- Hey, keep it.

- Wow.

Look at you, wow, all this way.

Hashtag impressed.

I'm sorry I said that,

I don't normally do that.

- You're not perfect.

- I'm sorry..?

- Meant to say, you're not perfect

and neither am I and that's okay.

- I'm sorry if I,

I just want to make sure I was giving you enough space

because I know-

- It's okay. Smart move. I just wanted to see you.

- Good.

Thanks for finding-

Did you want some of this?

- Yeah, but just a bite.

Yum thank you.

- Listen,

I'm sorry if,

join me on the rest of my route?

I only have a few stops left.

- Okay, yeah.

♪ My eyes are bigger than my appetite allows ♪

♪ I wanna give myself but someone else comes out ♪

♪ I try to impress you ♪

♪ Give my best attempt ♪

♪ But you would never know it ♪

♪ 'cause I'm still such a mess ♪

♪ So there's no way I'm not a mistake ♪

♪ I'm a suck up to myself wish I was someone else ♪

♪ Face to face try to erase but I'm a sucker to myself ♪

♪ I'm nobody ♪

♪ Another new disguise ♪

♪ Versions of a theme ♪

♪ I try to figure out my name ♪

♪ But it's symbols I can't read ♪

♪ I try to dissect it, I hold every piece ♪

♪ But everything's different, nothing I can keep ♪

♪ Slip through my own fingers, can't seem to connect ♪

♪ I know it's not right but just let me pretend ♪

♪ So there's no way I'm not a mistake ♪

♪ I'm a suck up to myself, wish I was someone else ♪

♪ Face to face try to erase but I'm a suck up to myself ♪

♪ And I'm nobody ♪

♪ I'm a thousand versions of myself ♪

♪ When I wake up ♪

♪ And I don't think any of them ♪

♪ Will ever be enough ♪

♪ I am a thousand versions of myself when I wake up ♪

♪ And I don't think she's ever gonna tell me I'm enough ♪

♪ So there's no way I'm not a mistake ♪

♪ I'm a suck up to myself, wish I was someone else ♪

♪ Face to face I try to erase ♪

♪ But I'm a suck up to myself and I'm nobody ♪