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It's a natural
progression in any profession
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for the student to
become the teacher,
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the mentee to become the mentor.
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It's not that much
different from parenting.
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I'm your son.
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We learn from our ancestors
how to make the perfect soup.
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How to soothe an
aching head or heart.
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Your call
has been forwarded
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to an automated voice
messaging system.
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We measure
milestones and percentiles
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and first steps
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to try and gain insight into
the person they'll grow into.
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Tate, you're early.
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I've just started
packing lunches.
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As if knowing a bunch
of numbers on charts
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is any true measure of what
we might make of ourselves.
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Jackson.
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Hey, Dad.
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Alright.
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I know it seems, like,
impulsive and out of nowhere,
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but it's not... it's just, uh
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uh, fast.
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But it's not, like
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impulsive, impulsive.
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It's...
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I thought it through. It's
just I thought it through...
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Oh!
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Everybody alive?
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Yeah. Yeah, yeah. That's not...
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Not why I'm here.
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I thought you were Tate.
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He delivers meals for me to people
in the community that need them.
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Okay. Not Tate.
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Well, come on in.
Take a load off.
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I tested clean yesterday
and haven't seen anyone.
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I haven't seen anyone, either.
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I just made a fresh
pot of coffee.
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Want some? I'm good.
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How have you been?
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I've been thinking a
lot about you lately,
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what with everything
going on in the world.
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I was gonna call,
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but the way we left
things last time,
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I figured you did not
want to talk to me.
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And I didn't want to be
one of those added things
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on top of the
pandemic to deal with.
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How have you been?
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How's your little girl?
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She must be, what...
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She's 3 1/2 years old.
Her name is Harriet.
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Right.
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Look, I didn't
travel all this way
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to just catch up, so, um...
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I need... answers.
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Well, I've got about 150
lunches to put together,
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so if we're gonna talk,
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why don't you grab a pair
of gloves over here with me
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and, uh
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help me out?
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Oh, my God, it's your night.
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It's... Wait... It's your night?
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How can it be your
night with Harriet?
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She's not packed, she's
not ready, she's sick,
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and I have a calendar. It's okay, no,
no, it's not... it's not my night.
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No? Alright? April, hey.
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It's not? No, no,
no, it's alright.
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Okay. Just take a breath.
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What's going on? What's wrong?
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She has a temp of 102, and...
and she's coughing... Okay.
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And she has no
appetite. Come here.
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But I-I took a rapid
test... It's not COVID.
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Come here, munchkin.
Come here. That's good.
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Hey. Why didn't you call
me? I don't know what it is.
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Whooping cough or
RSV or rickets?
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It's not rickets. People
get rickets, Jackson.
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And... And Matthew just
went out East with Ruby
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to see his sister,
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and the power keeps
going on and off,
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and I know, I am a doctor,
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I need to take a deep
breath and I should be cool,
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but I am... You're not
being cool right now.
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You're not even breathing,
okay? Go ahead. Oh, God.
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She's been sick
before, obviously,
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but, like, COVID just makes
everything feel so... big.
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And I know I need to calm down,
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but no one in the
history of calming down
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has ever calmed down by
being told to calm down,
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so I'm not gonna, okay? I'm not
gonna tell you to calm down, alright?
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I'm not telling you to calm
down, I promise. I just...
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Why don't you let me
in the house, maybe?
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Yeah, yes, okay.
Just... sorry. Okay?
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Come in. Hey, sweetheart.
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I can't tell you
how long it took me
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to come up with
this nifty system.
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First, we start with
a bunch of these,
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what I've coined
the brawn bundle.
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Here's how we do it...
Two pieces of smoked ham,
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one slice of honey
turkey, and provolone.
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Are you serious with all this?
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Roll it up, and once you
have your ingredients set,
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you move down here to the bread.
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You won't believe how
much time that saves.
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Try a piece.
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Look, I'll make the
damn sandwiches with you
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in order to... it's fine.
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Okay?
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But I don't need
to taste anything
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or have any food or coffee.
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Just... I don't need
anything from you, honestly.
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I just need answers.
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Okay.
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Answers?
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Mom said something to me
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that I cannot get
out of my head.
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Yeah, she has a talent for that.
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She said, for the
first time ever,
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that I sounded like you.
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Did
you piss her off?
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I said I can't really see change
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coming from inside
the foundation.
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There's too much bureaucracy.
Well, to be honest,
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I haven't thought about the
foundation in a long time.
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Yeah, but what do you
think she meant by that?
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Years ago, I learned
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to never put words in
your mother's mouth.
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If you had to guess.
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I've never been one
for the establishment.
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I always thought the
whole system is rigged.
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So, how we doing over there?
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You know, I don't think
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ham-and-turkey sandwiches
get enough credit.
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They're simple, but
they get the job done.
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So I said that the whole
system's just broken,
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needs to be thrown
out and rebuilt,
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understanding that that's
damn near impossible
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considering how many
people benefit from it
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the way it is right now.
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That does sound
a little like me.
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You look like you could
use some more turkey.
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Ever use a commercial
meat slicer?
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When would I have
done that? Summer job?
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Anyway, it reminds
me of the O.R.,
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without the pressure of
possibly killing someone.
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Come on, let me show you.
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Yeah, I can figure
it out, thank you.
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Okay.
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You might want to...
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You might want to
turn it on first.
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Yeah, right.
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Just, what is it?
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Here, let me show you. Okay.
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First of all, you
gotta lift this.
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Here's your gauge for how thick
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you want to make
the slice of meat.
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Okay. Got it. Thank you.
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The carriage goes
back and forth.Great.
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I got it.
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Kinda relaxing when you
get a rhythm going, huh?
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So... you're saying
you wanted change,
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but what?
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You felt powerless 'cause
you were an Avery or...?
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As you know,
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the Avery name carries a
great deal of influence,
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but it also carries
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a great deal of baggage.
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That amount of money
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can become a burden
pretty quickly.
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Everybody knows you have it, so
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they expect you
to be responsible
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to fix everything with it.
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And there's almost
no one in your shoes,
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so almost no one
seems to get it.
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At least not when I said it.
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Certainly not when
the name is synonymous
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with just the worst
behavior imaginable.
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Well, not here it's not.
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Here, nobody knows
who my father was
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or that I come from money.
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Out here, they just think
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I'm Robert who runs the diner.
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April: God.
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Uh, Matthew's been
working a lot.
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I mean, I've been working a lot.
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Yeah, don't worry about
it. My place is, uh...
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Please don't do that.
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Don't be all weird-nice with
your voice an octave higher
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like you do with people
at hotels or at the bank.
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I have a weird bank voice now?
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It's making you nuts.
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You...
You can say it.
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Just mess everywhere.
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Pillows all over the place.
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I maintain that throw pillows
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are useless and stupid, yeah.
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How long has my
munchkin been sick?
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Couple days.
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She just hasn't
wanted to do anything,
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just lie on me.
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Also, she needs a bath.
She smells like feet.
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Well, I hate to break it to
you... that's you. No, it's not.
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100 percent you.
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Oh, God. That is
me. Jackson: Yeah.
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Go take a shower.
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April: Jackson, I...
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April, go take a shower, please.
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Hey, Jackson. Mm-hmm?
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I'm calming down.
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See? I am. I am.
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10 minutes. 10 minutes.
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She ever taken a 10-minute
shower in her life?
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I don't think so.
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Some tunes? Good idea.
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Let's see what she's got.
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We got this, right?
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We got this, baby.
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We got this.
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You're gonna feel
better in no time.
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Harriet and Dad.
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We got this.
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April: Oh, come on!
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Or maybe we don't.
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I gotta give it to you...
That's some good turkey.
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Best in the state.
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Yeah, I'll take
your word for it.
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So, what'd your dad think
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when you decided to
walk away from it all?
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At first, he thought
it was just a phase.
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But then when he
realized I was serious,
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he stopped speaking to me.
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Completely?
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He said I was selfish,
compulsive, lazy,
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a stain on the family name.
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Which I now see is
such a complete joke.
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No, he was never interested
in talking to me,
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unless it was about
the hospital image
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or profits or expansion.
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If I have to have
one more conversation
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about cutting hospital
costs, I swear...
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Someone's got to do it.
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I just knew it
wasn't gonna be me.
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I was never gonna be
the son my father wanted
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because I didn't want to be
the man the role required.
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That's why you're here.
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Why's that?
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Because
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you're ready to
leave it all behind.
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Why does anyone have an
electric water heater?
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A power outage is when you
need hot water the most.
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Well, Harriet cried
herself to sleep.
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I propped her head up to
help with the coughing.
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Okay, thank you.
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And I found a flashlight
and a few candles,
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but I can't find any damn
matches in this place.
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Oh, yeah, well, I'm married
to a first responder.
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The matches are in a drawer
even I've never found.
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Alright. Well,
then, stove it is.
257
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Geez.
258
00:12:07,161 --> 00:12:09,032
Can you get some more candles?
259
00:12:10,381 --> 00:12:12,383
What?
260
00:12:13,471 --> 00:12:14,777
Oh, crap! Sorry.
261
00:12:14,821 --> 00:12:16,736
This is a nun.
262
00:12:16,779 --> 00:12:18,931
I just grabbed the, uh...
The first nun you could find?
263
00:12:18,955 --> 00:12:21,088
Saying
I'm going to hell?
264
00:12:21,131 --> 00:12:23,046
Since when do you
believe in hell? True.
265
00:12:23,090 --> 00:12:25,024
But they're your candles,
so you're going to hell.
266
00:12:25,048 --> 00:12:26,571
Okay.
267
00:12:26,615 --> 00:12:28,878
Alright, just give me
this. Yeah, grab that.
268
00:12:28,922 --> 00:12:30,140
Her fever's at 102,
269
00:12:30,184 --> 00:12:32,577
so you might be right about RSV.
270
00:12:32,621 --> 00:12:33,622
Okay.
271
00:12:33,665 --> 00:12:35,624
So we just give
her acetaminophen
272
00:12:35,667 --> 00:12:37,626
and wait it out unless
she gets short of breath?
273
00:12:37,669 --> 00:12:39,822
Versus driving in a blackout
to Grey-Sloan in a pandemic?
274
00:12:39,846 --> 00:12:41,238
Yeah, we're not going anywhere.
275
00:12:41,282 --> 00:12:42,762
The risk of exposure alone...
276
00:12:42,805 --> 00:12:44,938
We don't need doctors,
April. We aredoctors.
277
00:12:44,981 --> 00:12:46,156
And if she gets worse...
278
00:12:46,200 --> 00:12:47,418
Which she probably won't.
279
00:12:47,462 --> 00:12:48,506
Exactly.
280
00:12:48,550 --> 00:12:50,682
Yeah.
281
00:12:50,726 --> 00:12:52,554
How's Meredith doing?
282
00:12:52,597 --> 00:12:54,382
I've been praying for her.
283
00:12:54,425 --> 00:12:56,471
Oh, she's, uh...
She's awake. Yeah?
284
00:12:56,514 --> 00:12:58,342
And she's getting better
every day, stronger.
285
00:12:58,386 --> 00:12:59,474
Oh. Yeah.
286
00:13:00,780 --> 00:13:02,782
So, tonight wasn't your night.
287
00:13:02,825 --> 00:13:05,393
Yes. As usual, your
calendar is impeccable.
288
00:13:05,436 --> 00:13:06,437
Well done.
289
00:13:06,481 --> 00:13:08,222
No, I'm just saying,
uh, tonight...
290
00:13:08,265 --> 00:13:10,137
Tonight wasn't your
night, so why are you...
291
00:13:10,180 --> 00:13:12,095
How have I never
been to your place?
292
00:13:12,139 --> 00:13:14,141
I feel like I guess we
must always do drop-offs
293
00:13:14,184 --> 00:13:15,403
at mine or work.
294
00:13:15,446 --> 00:13:17,274
It's... It's nice.
It looks really nice.
295
00:13:17,318 --> 00:13:18,841
I like what you've
done. Jackson...
296
00:13:18,885 --> 00:13:20,688
You guys are happy, you
and... you and Matthew?
297
00:13:20,712 --> 00:13:22,323
We're busy, like everyone else.
298
00:13:22,366 --> 00:13:23,977
And Harriet and you
and him and Ruby,
299
00:13:24,020 --> 00:13:25,892
the same house, it's going...
300
00:13:25,935 --> 00:13:27,783
Exposed brick is... is cool.
I know you've always liked...
301
00:13:27,807 --> 00:13:28,958
Do you really think I can't
tell when you're being cagey?
302
00:13:28,982 --> 00:13:31,245
I'm not being cagey. Am I happy?
303
00:13:31,288 --> 00:13:33,208
Exposed brick? Would you
just talk like a person?
304
00:13:36,598 --> 00:13:38,556
I went to see my dad again.
305
00:13:38,600 --> 00:13:39,775
Oh, God. Is he sick?
306
00:13:39,819 --> 00:13:41,385
No, he's the same as always.
307
00:13:41,429 --> 00:13:44,388
Obliviously medium happy about
his obliviously medium life.
308
00:13:45,825 --> 00:13:47,541
I thought you never
wanted to see him again.
309
00:13:47,565 --> 00:13:49,002
I didn't.
310
00:13:49,045 --> 00:13:52,744
I needed to know if I
was right about what I
311
00:13:52,788 --> 00:13:54,181
what I wanted.
312
00:13:54,224 --> 00:13:56,661
And we're back to being cagey.
313
00:13:56,705 --> 00:13:59,142
I'm not trying to
be cagey, April.
314
00:13:59,186 --> 00:14:01,492
He couldn't handle it.
315
00:14:01,536 --> 00:14:02,842
Okay?
316
00:14:02,885 --> 00:14:05,627
He couldn't step up
or step into his own,
317
00:14:05,670 --> 00:14:06,976
and I can.
318
00:14:08,499 --> 00:14:10,980
I want to take over
the foundation.
319
00:14:14,114 --> 00:14:15,942
Is this the, uh,
coffee you showed me
320
00:14:15,985 --> 00:14:17,421
last time I was here?
321
00:14:17,465 --> 00:14:19,162
We sold out of our first batch.
322
00:14:19,206 --> 00:14:21,121
The local paper wrote us up,
323
00:14:21,164 --> 00:14:23,471
so we decided to add
four more roasts.
324
00:14:23,514 --> 00:14:25,821
I was gonna branch out into
other parts of the state,
325
00:14:25,865 --> 00:14:27,910
and then, ah, COVID.
326
00:14:27,954 --> 00:14:30,217
Yeah, I remember. You
guys got hit pretty hard.
327
00:14:30,260 --> 00:14:31,914
Hospital was turning
people away, right?
328
00:14:31,958 --> 00:14:33,350
It was a lot.
329
00:14:33,394 --> 00:14:34,961
I did everything I could
330
00:14:35,004 --> 00:14:36,701
to keep this place
open after COVID hit.
331
00:14:36,745 --> 00:14:39,791
But then I ended up
just bagging up food
332
00:14:39,835 --> 00:14:40,575
for the regulars.
333
00:14:40,618 --> 00:14:41,924
Word spread,
334
00:14:41,968 --> 00:14:43,970
and every morning,
I come in here
335
00:14:44,013 --> 00:14:46,929
and crank up the
Doobie Brothers,
336
00:14:46,973 --> 00:14:48,626
start packing lunches.
337
00:14:48,670 --> 00:14:51,194
It was weirdly therapeutic.
338
00:14:51,238 --> 00:14:53,153
Kept my mind occupied.
339
00:14:53,196 --> 00:14:54,545
Well
340
00:14:54,589 --> 00:14:56,591
you got quite the
bubble out here.
341
00:14:56,634 --> 00:14:58,941
Built a very different
life for yourself.
342
00:14:58,985 --> 00:15:00,160
We're all raised to think
343
00:15:00,203 --> 00:15:02,510
that's some kind
of wild concept.
344
00:15:02,553 --> 00:15:04,947
But what's wild is
going to work every day
345
00:15:04,991 --> 00:15:06,688
doing something you do not like,
346
00:15:06,731 --> 00:15:08,777
thinking one day, it'll
just magically stop.
347
00:15:08,820 --> 00:15:10,953
Yeah.
348
00:15:10,997 --> 00:15:13,477
I just feel stuck.
349
00:15:13,521 --> 00:15:14,609
Hmm.
350
00:15:16,002 --> 00:15:18,178
Like there's two of me.
Like there's this...
351
00:15:18,221 --> 00:15:21,485
This successful surgeon that
I worked so hard to become,
352
00:15:21,529 --> 00:15:23,574
was trying to push
the foundation
353
00:15:23,618 --> 00:15:24,706
to be more progressive.
354
00:15:24,749 --> 00:15:26,577
And also just the guy
355
00:15:26,621 --> 00:15:29,798
that didn't ask for
any of this, you know?
356
00:15:29,841 --> 00:15:32,975
I'm worried that
maybe it's too late...
357
00:15:33,019 --> 00:15:35,717
The system's beyond repair.
358
00:15:35,760 --> 00:15:38,546
Maybe I could be effective
from the outside.
359
00:15:38,589 --> 00:15:40,504
Or maybe you could
let go of the idea
360
00:15:40,548 --> 00:15:43,246
that it's your job
to save the world.
361
00:15:44,508 --> 00:15:45,988
You know, there's nothing wrong
362
00:15:46,032 --> 00:15:48,121
with wanting to
keep things simpler.
363
00:15:48,164 --> 00:15:50,253
Yeah, I think about that a lot.
364
00:15:50,297 --> 00:15:52,386
Actually, I think, you know,
365
00:15:52,429 --> 00:15:55,302
I could get a small
place in the woods,
366
00:15:55,345 --> 00:15:57,347
maybe open a private practice,
367
00:15:57,391 --> 00:16:00,220
do things
I really care about.
368
00:16:00,263 --> 00:16:03,614
Explore the great
outdoors with Harriet.
369
00:16:03,658 --> 00:16:05,921
We all deserve to live
our lives however we want.
370
00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:07,488
Sure, yeah.
371
00:16:07,531 --> 00:16:09,751
You are an older white guy
who's always had money, so...
372
00:16:09,794 --> 00:16:11,579
If nothing changes in the world,
373
00:16:11,622 --> 00:16:14,277
you're still gonna be
fine, but I... I hear you.
374
00:16:14,321 --> 00:16:16,976
You given any
thought to what if?
375
00:16:17,019 --> 00:16:18,629
What if I didn't come back here?
376
00:16:18,673 --> 00:16:20,327
What if you chose
differently, yeah.
377
00:16:22,633 --> 00:16:26,986
Well, I'm more of a, hmm
378
00:16:27,029 --> 00:16:28,900
"never look back" type.
379
00:16:31,991 --> 00:16:33,644
Right, yeah.
380
00:16:33,688 --> 00:16:36,343
Yeah, um...
381
00:16:41,043 --> 00:16:44,133
When I was here last time,
I wanted to ask you why,
382
00:16:44,177 --> 00:16:46,179
and I... I didn't...
I couldn't...
383
00:16:46,222 --> 00:16:48,224
I guess I used to
say I was over it,
384
00:16:48,268 --> 00:16:49,225
but I'm not.
385
00:16:49,269 --> 00:16:51,967
I need to know why you left.
386
00:16:53,577 --> 00:16:55,057
'Cause, um...
387
00:16:58,104 --> 00:17:00,715
I realize that it's
really messed me up
388
00:17:00,758 --> 00:17:02,108
pretty badly.
389
00:17:02,151 --> 00:17:03,718
And, um...
390
00:17:05,024 --> 00:17:06,329
It just made it hard to, like,
391
00:17:06,373 --> 00:17:08,723
maintain relationships
and stuff.
392
00:17:10,072 --> 00:17:12,118
Having this inclination
to run away all the time.
393
00:17:12,161 --> 00:17:13,336
And I know, I know...
394
00:17:13,380 --> 00:17:14,966
Running away doesn't
actually solve anything.
395
00:17:14,990 --> 00:17:16,731
I know that.
396
00:17:18,037 --> 00:17:19,560
So... And I've tried.
397
00:17:19,603 --> 00:17:23,738
I've tried really hard to
rid myself of the shame
398
00:17:23,781 --> 00:17:26,306
and the pain that comes
with all that, and, uh...
399
00:17:26,349 --> 00:17:28,351
You know, just kind
of doubled-down
400
00:17:28,395 --> 00:17:31,093
on being the best
at everything...
401
00:17:31,137 --> 00:17:32,747
The best father I
could possibly be.
402
00:17:32,790 --> 00:17:35,184
I probably stayed in my marriage
longer than I should have,
403
00:17:35,228 --> 00:17:36,553
went along with
foundation business
404
00:17:36,577 --> 00:17:37,882
longer than I should have,
405
00:17:37,926 --> 00:17:39,971
but no matter what,
when it gets rough,
406
00:17:40,015 --> 00:17:42,409
I just end up... right there,
407
00:17:42,452 --> 00:17:44,715
running, into the woods.
408
00:17:44,759 --> 00:17:47,022
Try to fight the you in me.
409
00:17:49,677 --> 00:17:52,245
Can you not just sit there looking
at me? Can you say something?
410
00:17:52,288 --> 00:17:53,898
Pretend that I'm
worth talking to?
411
00:17:53,942 --> 00:17:55,876
I don't know how you can just
say nothing all the... Ow!
412
00:17:55,900 --> 00:17:58,120
God! Aah! Damn it!
413
00:17:58,164 --> 00:18:00,253
God!
414
00:18:00,296 --> 00:18:01,602
Oh, man. You alright?
415
00:18:01,645 --> 00:18:03,778
No, I'm not alright!
Give it... I got it!
416
00:18:03,821 --> 00:18:05,475
Pressure, pressure, pressure.
417
00:18:12,830 --> 00:18:15,050
Okay.
418
00:18:20,882 --> 00:18:22,884
Temp's down to 101.
419
00:18:22,927 --> 00:18:24,625
It's just a bad dream.
420
00:18:24,668 --> 00:18:27,149
Oh, yeah? How's her
breathing? It's better.
421
00:18:27,193 --> 00:18:28,629
Oh, good, alright. Yeah.
422
00:18:28,672 --> 00:18:31,762
So we could be out
of the woods. Yeah.
423
00:18:33,416 --> 00:18:35,375
So, were you hoping
424
00:18:35,418 --> 00:18:37,377
Matthew wasn't gonna
be here tonight? What?
425
00:18:37,420 --> 00:18:38,789
No, I don't have a
problem with Matthew.
426
00:18:38,813 --> 00:18:40,119
Really? What?
427
00:18:40,162 --> 00:18:41,922
Whenever you guys are in
the same room together,
428
00:18:41,946 --> 00:18:43,296
you say one of three things...
429
00:18:43,339 --> 00:18:45,254
"Yup," "Sure," "Not a problem."
430
00:18:45,298 --> 00:18:46,603
Well, okay, yeah.
431
00:18:46,647 --> 00:18:49,737
We're not best friends,
but, I mean, it's civil.
432
00:18:49,780 --> 00:18:51,565
He seems like a fine guy.
433
00:18:51,608 --> 00:18:55,525
He seems, uh, kind. Kind?
434
00:18:55,569 --> 00:18:56,894
I don't have a badword
to say about him.
435
00:18:56,918 --> 00:18:58,354
That... That's something.
436
00:18:58,398 --> 00:19:01,183
So then why did you want to
come tell me this in person?
437
00:19:02,619 --> 00:19:04,273
You're considering
running the foundation.
438
00:19:04,317 --> 00:19:05,753
What's that got to do with me?
439
00:19:05,796 --> 00:19:06,754
That's the thing...
440
00:19:06,797 --> 00:19:09,539
I'm not just considering it.
441
00:19:09,583 --> 00:19:10,584
I'm doing it.
442
00:19:12,020 --> 00:19:14,762
Running the foundation means
I got to move to Boston.
443
00:19:14,805 --> 00:19:17,939
W... Without Harriet?
444
00:19:17,982 --> 00:19:19,680
No. God, no.
445
00:19:19,723 --> 00:19:20,985
I'm moving to Boston,
446
00:19:21,029 --> 00:19:23,684
and I really need
you all to come.
447
00:19:24,989 --> 00:19:26,402
The foundation will
employ you and Matthew.
448
00:19:26,426 --> 00:19:27,470
You'll be set.
449
00:19:27,514 --> 00:19:28,950
You can do whatever you want
450
00:19:28,993 --> 00:19:31,561
in terms of an outreach
program or design or build.
451
00:19:31,605 --> 00:19:33,259
Anything you want to
do, we'll fund it.
452
00:19:34,303 --> 00:19:36,610
I would never leave Harriet.
453
00:19:38,264 --> 00:19:41,223
I could never,
ever leave Harriet,
454
00:19:41,267 --> 00:19:45,140
which means I really need
you all to come with me.
455
00:19:45,184 --> 00:19:46,576
Please.
456
00:19:51,407 --> 00:19:54,758
Doesn't look like there
are any tendon injuries.
457
00:19:54,802 --> 00:19:56,020
Yeah, the cut's not that deep.
458
00:19:56,064 --> 00:19:57,239
Okay.
459
00:19:57,283 --> 00:19:59,633
Another wash, then
let's glue it.
460
00:20:00,721 --> 00:20:01,896
I can handle it from here.
461
00:20:01,939 --> 00:20:03,090
Actually, just hand me the glue.
462
00:20:03,114 --> 00:20:05,900
Okay.
463
00:20:07,380 --> 00:20:09,208
Ow.
464
00:20:12,211 --> 00:20:14,387
Just give me your hand.
465
00:20:14,430 --> 00:20:16,519
Come on, man. Let
me do this. Okay.
466
00:20:16,563 --> 00:20:19,218
I may not have
practiced in a while,
467
00:20:19,261 --> 00:20:22,046
but it is like riding a bike.
468
00:20:22,090 --> 00:20:23,700
Not exactly, but okay.
469
00:20:23,744 --> 00:20:25,746
Hold it together.
470
00:20:27,400 --> 00:20:29,402
See? Alright.
471
00:20:29,445 --> 00:20:30,490
That is not bad.
472
00:20:30,533 --> 00:20:32,013
Okay. Does it hurt?
473
00:20:32,056 --> 00:20:34,276
Do you want any Tylenol
or anything? Um.
474
00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:36,539
No, no, no. It's
actually just...
475
00:20:36,583 --> 00:20:39,063
It stings a little
bit, but that's fine.
476
00:20:39,107 --> 00:20:40,891
Thank you. Look at us.
477
00:20:40,935 --> 00:20:42,676
We ought to open up
a family practice.
478
00:20:47,115 --> 00:20:48,812
You know, I'm gonna...
479
00:20:50,510 --> 00:20:52,468
I'm just gonna grab some air.
480
00:20:58,474 --> 00:21:00,346
April:
I get it, Jackson.
481
00:21:00,389 --> 00:21:01,956
You're not the only
person in quarantine
482
00:21:01,999 --> 00:21:03,566
who's drowning in big.
483
00:21:03,610 --> 00:21:04,717
"What the hell am I
doing with my life?"
484
00:21:04,741 --> 00:21:06,177
Kind of questions.
485
00:21:06,221 --> 00:21:07,938
But you don't just up and
move across the country
486
00:21:07,962 --> 00:21:09,703
on a whim.
487
00:21:09,746 --> 00:21:11,550
No, no, no, that's not what
this is. It's not on a whim.
488
00:21:11,574 --> 00:21:13,750
Since the moment I
met you at Mercy West,
489
00:21:13,794 --> 00:21:16,753
you have rejected your
family name, the legacy,
490
00:21:16,797 --> 00:21:18,189
even the freaking plane.
491
00:21:18,233 --> 00:21:20,409
You've... You've wanted
nothing to do with any of it.
492
00:21:20,453 --> 00:21:21,778
I resisted. That's not
necess... No, no, no.
493
00:21:21,802 --> 00:21:23,762
Sorry, you've been running,
kicking and screaming.
494
00:21:23,804 --> 00:21:25,327
That is not where
this is coming from.
495
00:21:25,371 --> 00:21:27,198
Okay? I can use this
as an opportunity
496
00:21:27,242 --> 00:21:29,200
to make some profound
changes in the world.
497
00:21:29,244 --> 00:21:30,550
You understand?
498
00:21:30,593 --> 00:21:33,204
I respect that. I mean,
I-I admire that, Jackson.
499
00:21:33,248 --> 00:21:35,574
As long as it's not an inconvenience
to your perfect little life here?
500
00:21:35,598 --> 00:21:38,949
Uprooting my entire life
is not an inconvenience.
501
00:21:38,993 --> 00:21:40,342
Okay, you're right.
502
00:21:40,386 --> 00:21:42,213
But I need this.
503
00:21:42,257 --> 00:21:43,998
I know that I need to do this.
504
00:21:44,041 --> 00:21:45,410
I can feel it in my gut, and I
just want to trust that for once.
505
00:21:45,434 --> 00:21:47,001
Okay.
506
00:21:47,044 --> 00:21:49,351
How many times have you
"felt in your gut"...Don't
507
00:21:49,395 --> 00:21:51,397
the need to just pack up a tent
508
00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:53,181
and go for a walkabout
509
00:21:53,224 --> 00:21:55,183
and talk to yourself
amongst the trees?
510
00:21:55,226 --> 00:21:57,946
So I'm the only one that's walked
away when I was having a hard time?
511
00:21:58,578 --> 00:21:59,622
Just me, huh?
512
00:21:59,666 --> 00:22:00,884
How many times have you been
513
00:22:00,928 --> 00:22:02,166
sitting in the front
pew at a church,
514
00:22:02,190 --> 00:22:04,540
talking to God about
the plans for your life?
515
00:22:04,584 --> 00:22:06,368
It's not the same
thing. I... Why not?
516
00:22:06,412 --> 00:22:08,651
Why is it that you can find
solace and purpose in a church,
517
00:22:08,675 --> 00:22:10,372
but I can't find it in nature,
518
00:22:10,416 --> 00:22:12,611
where I can actually have some
time that's quiet
519
00:22:12,635 --> 00:22:14,435
hear myself think,
think about what I want,
520
00:22:14,463 --> 00:22:16,030
not what everybody
else expects of me?
521
00:22:16,073 --> 00:22:17,248
So how long did you spend
522
00:22:17,292 --> 00:22:19,425
thinking about going
to see your father?
523
00:22:19,468 --> 00:22:21,557
How much time did
you spend doing that?
524
00:22:21,601 --> 00:22:23,013
Don't reduce it to that! Or did you
just, like, get in a car and... and go...
525
00:22:23,037 --> 00:22:24,057
No, it's not on a whim, okay?
526
00:22:24,081 --> 00:22:25,189
It was a realization. Okay, I...
527
00:22:25,213 --> 00:22:26,432
I needed clarity,
528
00:22:26,475 --> 00:22:28,956
and I went and talked
to Robert, and I got it.
529
00:22:28,999 --> 00:22:33,177
You have never
wanted any of this.
530
00:22:33,221 --> 00:22:36,355
And... And I'm just
supposed to roll with it
531
00:22:36,398 --> 00:22:38,226
and see what happens?
532
00:22:38,269 --> 00:22:40,533
What... What happens
when you regret it?
533
00:22:40,576 --> 00:22:43,057
What happens when you realize
that you actually hate it?
534
00:22:43,100 --> 00:22:44,537
What you're asking of me,
535
00:22:44,580 --> 00:22:47,931
of... of our family, of
our daughter, it's...
536
00:22:49,193 --> 00:22:51,108
What happens if it doesn't work?
537
00:22:53,633 --> 00:22:55,852
Matthew got on one knee
and proposed to you...
538
00:22:55,896 --> 00:22:57,743
Please don't. Jackson,
I'm... No, no, no, it's true.
539
00:22:57,767 --> 00:22:58,962
He got on one knee
and proposed to you
540
00:22:58,986 --> 00:23:00,379
in front of me.
541
00:23:00,422 --> 00:23:01,902
I stood there,
542
00:23:01,945 --> 00:23:03,991
watched another man
become your husband
543
00:23:04,034 --> 00:23:06,602
and stepfather to my
child our child... Mm-hmm.
544
00:23:06,646 --> 00:23:08,996
And at no point did I
come to you and say,
545
00:23:09,039 --> 00:23:10,563
"Yeah, but what if
it doesn't work?"
546
00:23:10,606 --> 00:23:11,781
I didn't do that.
547
00:23:11,825 --> 00:23:14,436
I had your back that
day and every day since.
548
00:23:14,480 --> 00:23:16,743
He bugs the hell out
of you, doesn't he?
549
00:23:16,786 --> 00:23:18,571
I'm allowed to be
frustrated at the guy
550
00:23:18,614 --> 00:23:20,181
who makes sandwiches weird.
551
00:23:20,224 --> 00:23:22,705
Who... I-It's... And he
calls her Hair-Hair. I know.
552
00:23:22,749 --> 00:23:23,880
I know. I'm working on that.
553
00:23:25,708 --> 00:23:28,407
What I'm not allowed
to do, April,
554
00:23:28,450 --> 00:23:30,496
what... what I've
actually never done,
555
00:23:30,539 --> 00:23:31,758
is stand in the way
556
00:23:31,801 --> 00:23:34,108
of the happiness that
you chose for yourself.
557
00:23:35,588 --> 00:23:37,198
I had your back.
558
00:23:37,241 --> 00:23:39,243
I know this is a surprise,
559
00:23:39,287 --> 00:23:42,246
but I'm just asking
you... Do the same for me.
560
00:23:43,552 --> 00:23:45,902
I...
561
00:23:45,946 --> 00:23:49,645
I... I want you to
be happy, Jackson.
562
00:23:49,689 --> 00:23:52,169
You deserve it.
563
00:23:52,213 --> 00:23:55,738
But running the foundation?
564
00:23:55,782 --> 00:23:58,349
I... I'm sorry.
565
00:23:58,393 --> 00:23:59,699
It's just...
566
00:23:59,742 --> 00:24:01,962
You're not that guy.
567
00:24:03,180 --> 00:24:05,922
I don't think you ever will be.
568
00:24:12,538 --> 00:24:15,279
Jackson: So, that's it? I'm
either gonna fail or quit?
569
00:24:15,323 --> 00:24:16,561
I'm sorry, Jackson. I
didn't... I didn't mean that...
570
00:24:16,585 --> 00:24:17,368
Yeah, you did. That's
exactly what you meant.
571
00:24:17,412 --> 00:24:18,979
Ok...
572
00:24:19,022 --> 00:24:21,155
Fine. Yeah. I did.
573
00:24:21,198 --> 00:24:23,984
Jackson, you are a
brilliant surgeon.
574
00:24:24,027 --> 00:24:26,377
You rebuild people's faces,
you rebuild their lives.
575
00:24:26,421 --> 00:24:27,781
You find a way to
make them breathe
576
00:24:27,814 --> 00:24:29,990
when... When it
seems impossible.
577
00:24:30,033 --> 00:24:32,166
You gave a little
boy back his hands.
578
00:24:32,209 --> 00:24:34,429
You prayed me back
into the world
579
00:24:34,473 --> 00:24:35,952
when I was almost dead.
580
00:24:35,996 --> 00:24:38,172
Y-You take out
impossible tumors,
581
00:24:38,215 --> 00:24:40,130
and you make people
walk out into the world
582
00:24:40,174 --> 00:24:41,741
with their heads held high.
583
00:24:41,784 --> 00:24:44,352
That's where you've
left your mark.
584
00:24:44,395 --> 00:24:46,702
It's what makes you exceptional.
585
00:24:46,746 --> 00:24:48,095
Wh...
586
00:24:48,138 --> 00:24:50,750
Why would you want to
give all of that up?
587
00:24:50,793 --> 00:24:53,013
It's not about what I want.
It's what I need to do.
588
00:24:53,056 --> 00:24:54,381
Well, you know what? It's a
little late to decide that.
589
00:24:54,405 --> 00:24:55,885
Excuse me?
590
00:24:55,929 --> 00:24:57,559
You don't get to choose who
I am in this world, April.
591
00:24:57,583 --> 00:24:58,584
Nobody does.
592
00:24:58,627 --> 00:25:00,716
Not my father,
not Mom... nobody.
593
00:25:00,760 --> 00:25:02,564
And you don't get to choose
your career over mine.
594
00:25:02,588 --> 00:25:03,893
That's... I am happy.
595
00:25:03,937 --> 00:25:04,938
I'm helping people.
596
00:25:04,981 --> 00:25:07,027
I'm really helping them.
597
00:25:07,070 --> 00:25:08,637
I am building support systems
598
00:25:08,681 --> 00:25:10,813
and resources for people
in rural communities,
599
00:25:10,857 --> 00:25:12,336
and they need so much,
600
00:25:12,380 --> 00:25:14,034
and I can actually
do that for them.
601
00:25:14,077 --> 00:25:15,862
And you can keep doing that.
602
00:25:15,905 --> 00:25:17,646
You can do it on an
even bigger scale.
603
00:25:17,690 --> 00:25:19,039
You can do it
across the country.
604
00:25:19,082 --> 00:25:21,345
I'm... You're literally
just gaining resources.
605
00:25:21,389 --> 00:25:23,217
April, I am not trying
to diminish your work.
606
00:25:23,260 --> 00:25:24,740
We have an opportunity
607
00:25:24,784 --> 00:25:26,612
to do something really
amazing for all of us.
608
00:25:26,655 --> 00:25:28,570
Matthew will go along with it.
609
00:25:28,614 --> 00:25:30,529
He'll follow you.
610
00:25:30,572 --> 00:25:32,531
That's why I like him so much.
611
00:25:34,750 --> 00:25:36,796
Oh, God.
612
00:25:41,191 --> 00:25:42,366
You know what?
613
00:25:42,410 --> 00:25:47,241
You... You didn't
always have my back.
614
00:25:48,808 --> 00:25:51,027
When I found what
I needed in Jordan,
615
00:25:51,071 --> 00:25:52,768
you didn't go with me.
616
00:25:52,812 --> 00:25:54,640
You left me alone. I went alone.
617
00:25:54,683 --> 00:25:57,294
April, that's not fair.
You ran away from me.
618
00:25:57,338 --> 00:26:00,123
And Samuel and the
pain and the grief,
619
00:26:00,167 --> 00:26:02,735
which is understandable.
620
00:26:02,778 --> 00:26:04,911
You know, I was
resentful at the time,
621
00:26:04,954 --> 00:26:06,042
but I get it.
622
00:26:06,086 --> 00:26:07,740
You were surviving.
623
00:26:07,783 --> 00:26:09,959
You had to do what you
had to do to survive.
624
00:26:10,003 --> 00:26:12,353
But this isn't that, anyway.
625
00:26:12,396 --> 00:26:14,137
I'm not running fromsomething.
626
00:26:14,181 --> 00:26:16,183
I'm trying to run tosomething.
627
00:26:16,226 --> 00:26:18,838
Trying to make something my own.
628
00:26:23,625 --> 00:26:26,193
It's not fair, Jackson.
629
00:26:26,236 --> 00:26:28,761
If you had the opportunity
630
00:26:28,804 --> 00:26:34,201
to finally make
it all make sense,
631
00:26:34,244 --> 00:26:37,378
to become what you
were meant to be,
632
00:26:37,421 --> 00:26:41,382
wouldn't you try really,
really hard to get there?
633
00:26:42,731 --> 00:26:44,820
I would.
634
00:26:44,864 --> 00:26:47,170
I did.
635
00:26:47,214 --> 00:26:50,043
That's all I'm asking for.
636
00:26:56,702 --> 00:26:58,051
I got it.
637
00:27:07,321 --> 00:27:11,586
99.3.
638
00:27:11,630 --> 00:27:12,761
Oh, good. Alright.Yeah.
639
00:27:12,805 --> 00:27:14,197
So she's a little
more comfortable.
640
00:27:14,241 --> 00:27:15,938
Yeah. She's talking
in her sleep.
641
00:27:15,982 --> 00:27:17,331
Oh, yeah? Yeah.
642
00:27:17,374 --> 00:27:18,375
Anything good?
643
00:27:18,419 --> 00:27:19,899
Just gibberish.
644
00:27:19,942 --> 00:27:21,944
She said, "Amananome."
645
00:27:21,988 --> 00:27:23,685
Ah. That is the sea anemone.
646
00:27:23,729 --> 00:27:25,165
Oh.
647
00:27:25,208 --> 00:27:26,751
She's been waking me
up the last few weeks
648
00:27:26,775 --> 00:27:29,125
with a different
sea creature fact.
649
00:27:29,169 --> 00:27:30,692
Are they really "facts," though?
650
00:27:30,736 --> 00:27:32,651
In her
head, they are.
651
00:27:34,130 --> 00:27:36,567
It's the best alarm clock,
ever, I'll tell you.
652
00:27:36,611 --> 00:27:38,178
Last week, she told me
653
00:27:38,221 --> 00:27:41,137
that she could hear "werewoofs"
throwing up in your basement.
654
00:27:41,181 --> 00:27:42,704
Really? I don't even
have a basement.
655
00:27:42,748 --> 00:27:43,966
Oh, I'm aware.
656
00:27:44,010 --> 00:27:45,707
There's no convincing
her otherwise.
657
00:27:45,751 --> 00:27:47,274
So stubborn.
658
00:27:47,317 --> 00:27:49,319
Which I would say comes
from her mother... Mm.
659
00:27:49,363 --> 00:27:50,669
But I think we both know
660
00:27:50,712 --> 00:27:51,994
50/50 split... right
down the middle.
661
00:27:52,018 --> 00:27:53,846
Yeah.
662
00:27:53,889 --> 00:27:56,196
I could never give that
up going to Boston.
663
00:27:56,239 --> 00:27:58,981
Sea creature alarm clocks,
holding her when she's sick.
664
00:27:59,025 --> 00:28:00,505
But I can't walk
away from this chance
665
00:28:00,548 --> 00:28:02,115
to make real change
in the foundation.
666
00:28:02,158 --> 00:28:04,726
I mean, Mom was able to do both.
667
00:28:04,770 --> 00:28:07,163
And I know in my
gut, that I can, too.
668
00:28:07,207 --> 00:28:09,600
I mean, I owe it to
Harriet to try, at least.
669
00:28:09,644 --> 00:28:11,428
I know. And I know
I can't do it all,
670
00:28:11,472 --> 00:28:13,169
but, April, I am telling you,
671
00:28:13,213 --> 00:28:16,129
I can take this foundation
to a whole new chapter.
672
00:28:16,172 --> 00:28:18,740
I mean, creating real
racial equity in medicine.
673
00:28:18,784 --> 00:28:20,133
Are you kidding?
674
00:28:20,176 --> 00:28:22,222
It's a revolutionary,
lasting change.
675
00:28:22,265 --> 00:28:24,572
I could look my
daughter in the face
676
00:28:24,615 --> 00:28:26,835
and know that I've done
everything I possibly can
677
00:28:26,879 --> 00:28:28,141
to give her a better world.
678
00:28:28,184 --> 00:28:30,534
I know. I know.
679
00:28:30,578 --> 00:28:32,580
I could do all that
680
00:28:32,623 --> 00:28:35,539
and... and be the father
that mine never was.
681
00:28:38,194 --> 00:28:41,850
And all I need to do is
turn my life upside down.
682
00:28:59,172 --> 00:29:01,087
Puts a lot into
perspective, huh?
683
00:29:05,395 --> 00:29:07,354
Yeah, I come out
here every morning
684
00:29:07,397 --> 00:29:09,225
just to take it all in.
685
00:29:10,574 --> 00:29:12,794
Feel like I got a lot
more thinking done
686
00:29:12,838 --> 00:29:14,187
these last few days out here
687
00:29:14,230 --> 00:29:16,798
than probably
all year.
688
00:29:19,888 --> 00:29:21,629
Might find it hard to believe,
689
00:29:21,672 --> 00:29:23,936
but I've been thinking a
lot about our last visit.
690
00:29:23,979 --> 00:29:25,198
Everything you said.
691
00:29:26,242 --> 00:29:28,331
And the truth is,
692
00:29:28,375 --> 00:29:30,725
I left because that's what I do.
693
00:29:30,769 --> 00:29:33,815
I chose this place
because it's safe.
694
00:29:33,859 --> 00:29:36,992
Running the restaurant,
bagging lunches,
695
00:29:37,036 --> 00:29:39,778
none of it requires much of me.
696
00:29:39,821 --> 00:29:42,781
I can walk away and
not look back any time.
697
00:29:45,696 --> 00:29:48,395
And just forget about who
you're leaving behind, yeah?
698
00:29:48,438 --> 00:29:50,527
I was convinced you were
better off without me.
699
00:29:50,571 --> 00:29:51,833
Without a father?
700
00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:55,141
How would you think
I'm better off without
701
00:29:55,184 --> 00:29:58,361
my father never being
there for any birthdays,
702
00:29:58,405 --> 00:29:59,754
any graduations?
703
00:29:59,798 --> 00:30:02,844
That time I got beat
up by Billy Paxton?
704
00:30:02,888 --> 00:30:04,280
At my wedding?
705
00:30:04,324 --> 00:30:07,327
The birth of my child,
your granddaughter.
706
00:30:07,370 --> 00:30:09,938
My divorce... maybe that
would've been a good time
707
00:30:09,982 --> 00:30:12,985
for you to step in
and share some wisdom.
708
00:30:13,028 --> 00:30:14,769
A hug, I don't know.
709
00:30:14,813 --> 00:30:16,771
Help me make some decisions?
710
00:30:16,815 --> 00:30:19,861
It's not like it was
a few months, man.
711
00:30:19,905 --> 00:30:21,820
Or a year or 10 years.
712
00:30:21,863 --> 00:30:23,560
It's my entire life.
713
00:30:23,604 --> 00:30:26,259
How could you think that's
better? In my father's eyes,
714
00:30:26,302 --> 00:30:27,913
I was the screw-up
in the family,
715
00:30:27,956 --> 00:30:29,131
and I absorbed that story.
716
00:30:29,175 --> 00:30:31,177
Maybe I became it.
717
00:30:31,220 --> 00:30:33,440
And I didn't want to
pass that down to you.
718
00:30:33,483 --> 00:30:36,747
Robert: I did not
want to mess you up.
719
00:30:36,791 --> 00:30:39,141
Congrats.
720
00:30:39,185 --> 00:30:40,447
I get that now.
721
00:30:40,490 --> 00:30:43,363
I hurt a lot of people.
722
00:30:43,406 --> 00:30:45,800
You, your mother.
723
00:30:45,844 --> 00:30:51,806
And to have found out I
have a granddaughter that I
724
00:30:51,850 --> 00:30:54,243
may never meet...
725
00:30:54,287 --> 00:30:56,134
Yeah, well, it didn't have
to be that way, did it?
726
00:30:56,158 --> 00:30:57,725
You're absolutely right.
727
00:30:57,768 --> 00:30:59,596
So I buy her presents.
728
00:30:59,640 --> 00:31:03,252
An art set, a basketball,
tricycle, board games.
729
00:31:03,296 --> 00:31:05,013
What are you saying? And
you didn't send them?
730
00:31:05,037 --> 00:31:05,864
I don't have the right.
731
00:31:05,907 --> 00:31:08,344
I don't deserve
732
00:31:08,388 --> 00:31:12,218
to take your time,
be in your space.
733
00:31:13,262 --> 00:31:15,569
Not one day has passed
734
00:31:15,612 --> 00:31:18,528
that I haven't
regretted leaving you.
735
00:31:18,572 --> 00:31:20,791
It haunts me in my sleep,
736
00:31:20,835 --> 00:31:23,098
when I wake up in the morning.
737
00:31:23,142 --> 00:31:25,579
And I am truly, truly sorry.
738
00:31:25,622 --> 00:31:28,843
And yet I know an apology
will never make up for it.
739
00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:30,889
And I have to live with that.
740
00:31:30,932 --> 00:31:33,152
I will never get over it.
741
00:31:34,762 --> 00:31:37,156
Oh, Jackson.
742
00:31:37,199 --> 00:31:39,767
Crossroads like this, you
don't arrive at them often,
743
00:31:39,810 --> 00:31:42,291
but I know you will be okay,
744
00:31:42,335 --> 00:31:45,599
no matter what road you choose.
745
00:31:45,642 --> 00:31:46,992
I'm still an Avery, right?
746
00:31:47,035 --> 00:31:48,950
I still find some way to
747
00:31:48,994 --> 00:31:50,343
walk away from it all.
748
00:31:50,386 --> 00:31:52,127
Apple doesn't fall
far from the tree.
749
00:31:52,171 --> 00:31:53,172
Isn't that what they say?
750
00:31:53,215 --> 00:31:55,478
Nice.
751
00:31:55,522 --> 00:31:57,350
That's great. No, I'm sorry.
752
00:31:57,393 --> 00:31:59,134
I just thought that was funny.
753
00:31:59,178 --> 00:32:01,136
I'm the tree, you're the apple.
754
00:32:01,180 --> 00:32:03,051
Do you really think that?
755
00:32:03,095 --> 00:32:05,184
I'm sitting here, aren't I?
756
00:32:05,227 --> 00:32:08,143
Jackson, let me assure
you, you are not me.
757
00:32:08,187 --> 00:32:10,121
The fact that you're even
questioning your choices
758
00:32:10,145 --> 00:32:11,538
is proof of that.
759
00:32:11,581 --> 00:32:13,148
And if that's not enough,
760
00:32:13,192 --> 00:32:14,802
you are committed, Jackson.
761
00:32:14,845 --> 00:32:16,935
Committed to your
work, to your family,
762
00:32:16,978 --> 00:32:18,588
to people in need.
763
00:32:20,242 --> 00:32:23,158
And I know sometimes you
want to run away from it all,
764
00:32:23,202 --> 00:32:25,160
but anybody with
any sense does that.
765
00:32:25,204 --> 00:32:26,335
It's very different
766
00:32:26,379 --> 00:32:28,511
from actually following
through with it.
767
00:32:29,991 --> 00:32:31,775
I was scared.
768
00:32:31,819 --> 00:32:33,995
I'm scared.
769
00:32:34,039 --> 00:32:36,606
Yeah, but you're scared
of doing the wrongthing.
770
00:32:36,650 --> 00:32:40,175
I was too scared to
do the rightthing.
771
00:32:41,872 --> 00:32:43,570
You're not a runner.
772
00:32:43,613 --> 00:32:46,181
If you were, you would
have been long gone by now.
773
00:32:46,225 --> 00:32:47,680
Do you know how easy
it would have been
774
00:32:47,704 --> 00:32:49,030
for you to walk
away from everything
775
00:32:49,054 --> 00:32:51,099
after it all came out
about the foundation?
776
00:32:51,143 --> 00:32:53,101
Did you even consider it?
777
00:32:54,798 --> 00:32:56,061
Not really, no.
778
00:32:56,104 --> 00:32:57,801
Of course not.
779
00:32:57,845 --> 00:33:00,326
'Cause you have it in your
soul to do the right thing,
780
00:33:00,369 --> 00:33:01,675
to make things right.
781
00:33:01,718 --> 00:33:03,720
And you didn't just
fix a disaster,
782
00:33:03,764 --> 00:33:05,940
you made it better.
783
00:33:05,984 --> 00:33:09,552
So if you don't
want to stay, don't.
784
00:33:09,596 --> 00:33:11,946
But don't blame it on me.
785
00:33:14,035 --> 00:33:15,341
'Cause on your worst day,
786
00:33:15,384 --> 00:33:17,560
you are 10 times the man I am.
787
00:33:38,494 --> 00:33:40,105
Jackson? Hey.
788
00:33:40,148 --> 00:33:41,976
Come in. I can't stay.
789
00:33:42,020 --> 00:33:43,456
Honey, it's pouring out here.
790
00:33:43,499 --> 00:33:44,761
Here, Mom.
791
00:33:44,805 --> 00:33:46,391
I mean, I can't stay at
Grey-Sloan in Seattle.
792
00:33:46,415 --> 00:33:48,069
I can't keep doing
what we've always done.
793
00:33:48,113 --> 00:33:49,462
You know how many
people of color
794
00:33:49,505 --> 00:33:51,464
we've already lost since
the pandemic started?
795
00:33:51,507 --> 00:33:53,596
The system keeps
diminishing and erasing us.
796
00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:55,400
T-They're literally letting
people just die in the streets,
797
00:33:55,424 --> 00:33:56,860
and we can do
something about it.
798
00:33:56,904 --> 00:33:58,862
I got to show Harriet
that we can put our money
799
00:33:58,906 --> 00:34:00,734
and our attention
where our mouths are.
800
00:34:00,777 --> 00:34:02,581
And we can acknowledge the
connection between our work
801
00:34:02,605 --> 00:34:04,018
and what's actually
happening in the streets
802
00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:07,132
and give a sense of equity
in this world, okay?
803
00:34:07,175 --> 00:34:08,959
It's not gonna
change after COVID.
804
00:34:09,003 --> 00:34:10,744
We know that.
805
00:34:10,787 --> 00:34:13,225
White supremacy is woven into
the fabric of this country,
806
00:34:13,268 --> 00:34:15,009
and that means medicine, too.
807
00:34:15,053 --> 00:34:16,576
People
that look like us
808
00:34:16,619 --> 00:34:19,057
should not have to be
gaslit, shamed, and ignored
809
00:34:19,100 --> 00:34:20,623
when they're just
going to the doctor,
810
00:34:20,667 --> 00:34:22,340
constantly having to prove that
their lives have any value.
811
00:34:22,364 --> 00:34:24,845
It's like this constant
cycle of stress
812
00:34:24,888 --> 00:34:27,108
from poverty and
trauma and racism,
813
00:34:27,152 --> 00:34:29,632
and it's definitely
impacting mental health...
814
00:34:29,676 --> 00:34:31,373
It's definitely killing us.
815
00:34:31,417 --> 00:34:32,766
Where are people
supposed to turn?
816
00:34:32,809 --> 00:34:34,135
They don't feel safe
going to the doctor.
817
00:34:34,159 --> 00:34:35,986
They're scared to call the cops.
818
00:34:36,030 --> 00:34:38,163
This is like a
deep-seated neglect.
819
00:34:38,206 --> 00:34:40,948
And if our deaths are not
affecting their profit margin,
820
00:34:40,991 --> 00:34:42,689
then it's not gonna change.
821
00:34:45,387 --> 00:34:46,712
I want to take over
the foundation.
822
00:34:46,736 --> 00:34:48,390
What?
823
00:34:48,434 --> 00:34:49,846
I want to reallocate
every penny that we have
824
00:34:49,870 --> 00:34:51,306
to equity in medicine...
825
00:34:51,350 --> 00:34:53,569
Women's health, trans
health, racial equity.
826
00:34:53,613 --> 00:34:57,356
I want everyone who this country
abuses to be served, okay?
827
00:34:57,399 --> 00:34:59,749
We need to challenge all
the ways that we teach,
828
00:34:59,793 --> 00:35:01,447
everything that we're doing.
829
00:35:01,490 --> 00:35:03,971
If that means dismantling
the whole medical system
830
00:35:04,014 --> 00:35:06,539
a-and... and designing something
that actually serves everyone,
831
00:35:06,582 --> 00:35:08,018
then that's what I want to do.
832
00:35:08,062 --> 00:35:09,019
I-I see that now. I'm ready.
833
00:35:09,063 --> 00:35:11,152
Jackson, where have you been?
834
00:35:11,196 --> 00:35:12,719
It doesn't even
matter anymore, Mom.
835
00:35:12,762 --> 00:35:14,938
It matters that I'm back
and I know where I belong.
836
00:35:14,982 --> 00:35:16,244
Oh!
837
00:35:16,288 --> 00:35:17,724
I gotta go. I love you. Ah!
838
00:35:17,767 --> 00:35:19,354
Where on God's
earth are you going now?
839
00:35:19,378 --> 00:35:20,770
I got to go talk to April.
840
00:35:20,814 --> 00:35:21,815
What?! Jackson...
841
00:35:28,952 --> 00:35:32,042
Here we go. Yummy!
842
00:35:32,086 --> 00:35:34,175
Are you gonna go
with crazy fork?
843
00:35:35,220 --> 00:35:37,961
Pancakes go in your belly.
844
00:35:38,005 --> 00:35:39,330
Why do you always
go for the big ones?
845
00:35:39,354 --> 00:35:40,399
Harriet: Hey.
846
00:35:40,442 --> 00:35:42,183
Take all the small
pieces, alright?
847
00:35:42,227 --> 00:35:43,291
You want to cut
your own little piece?
848
00:35:43,315 --> 00:35:44,968
A small one. What
are you doing...
849
00:35:45,012 --> 00:35:47,362
A small one this time,
that's soaked up in syrup?
850
00:35:47,406 --> 00:35:48,842
Extra syrup?
851
00:35:48,885 --> 00:35:49,930
Ooh. There she is.
852
00:35:49,973 --> 00:35:52,019
There she is. Hi!
853
00:35:52,062 --> 00:35:53,281
Harriet: Mommy!
854
00:35:53,325 --> 00:35:55,762
Hi!
855
00:35:55,805 --> 00:35:57,764
Oh! No fever.
856
00:35:57,807 --> 00:36:00,549
Oh, good, good, good.
857
00:36:00,593 --> 00:36:01,898
I want orange juice.
858
00:36:01,942 --> 00:36:03,465
Yeah, you can have
some orange juice.
859
00:36:03,509 --> 00:36:04,909
You want me to get
it for you, baby?
860
00:36:04,945 --> 00:36:06,164
No, I get it myself.
861
00:36:06,207 --> 00:36:07,527
Okay.
Jackson: Okay.
862
00:36:08,731 --> 00:36:10,646
Go ahead, baby.
863
00:36:10,690 --> 00:36:13,823
Are you gonna unscrew
the top and pour it?
864
00:36:17,262 --> 00:36:19,655
April: You are
that guy, Jackson.
865
00:36:19,699 --> 00:36:22,441
I was an ass for
saying otherwise.
866
00:36:22,484 --> 00:36:23,790
Yeah?
867
00:36:25,095 --> 00:36:27,533
Pillows in every
room.
868
00:36:27,576 --> 00:36:29,099
They come in handy.
869
00:36:29,143 --> 00:36:31,711
Hey, are you sure about this?
870
00:36:31,754 --> 00:36:33,930
I'm not sure it's
gonna work, but...
871
00:36:33,974 --> 00:36:35,889
I'm sure it's what I want, yeah.
872
00:36:35,932 --> 00:36:39,632
Why is our timing
always so terrible?
873
00:36:39,675 --> 00:36:41,653
I thought that was kind of
our thing... bad timing.
874
00:36:41,677 --> 00:36:43,244
We just never figured out
875
00:36:43,288 --> 00:36:45,246
how to want the same
thing at the same time.
876
00:36:45,290 --> 00:36:46,552
Even with Harriet.
877
00:36:46,595 --> 00:36:49,424
Yeah, but, I mean, it
worked out pretty well.
878
00:36:49,468 --> 00:36:51,339
Yeah, but we were fighting,
879
00:36:51,383 --> 00:36:52,775
and then we had sex
880
00:36:52,819 --> 00:36:54,560
while our marriage
was falling apart.
881
00:36:54,603 --> 00:36:56,388
That was actually our thing...
882
00:36:56,431 --> 00:36:59,173
Arguing until we were blue in
the face and then having sex.
883
00:36:59,217 --> 00:37:01,436
Yeah, I guess we
were doomed, huh?
884
00:37:01,480 --> 00:37:05,310
Look, if you're really
living your dream here,
885
00:37:05,353 --> 00:37:07,181
I'll give it up,
because you're right.
886
00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:08,665
I'm totally springing
it on you guys.
887
00:37:08,704 --> 00:37:09,749
No. What?
888
00:37:09,792 --> 00:37:11,577
You do not get to
do all the speeches
889
00:37:11,620 --> 00:37:12,839
and the convincing
890
00:37:12,882 --> 00:37:15,668
and that thing where
your face just lights up
891
00:37:15,711 --> 00:37:16,775
just to take it all back again.
892
00:37:16,799 --> 00:37:17,844
Don't take it all back.
893
00:37:17,887 --> 00:37:20,325
You deserve this.
894
00:37:20,368 --> 00:37:22,327
Wait. What are you saying?
895
00:37:22,370 --> 00:37:23,850
I am saying
896
00:37:25,243 --> 00:37:27,767
we will make Boston work.
897
00:37:28,855 --> 00:37:30,596
I'm saying yes.
898
00:37:30,639 --> 00:37:32,685
What? You're saying yes?
899
00:37:32,728 --> 00:37:34,140
To my question, you're
saying yes? Yes.
900
00:37:34,164 --> 00:37:36,384
I'm saying... Yeah. I thought
that's what you wanted.
901
00:37:36,428 --> 00:37:37,951
Yeah, but... Yes?
902
00:37:37,994 --> 00:37:40,301
Like, I didn't think
it would be that easy.
903
00:37:40,345 --> 00:37:41,998
I'm sorry. You call
this night easy?
904
00:37:42,042 --> 00:37:43,565
No, not... not easy like that,
905
00:37:43,609 --> 00:37:46,655
but, like, I thought
you'd have to pray
906
00:37:46,699 --> 00:37:49,832
or consult with Matthew, maybe
get your pastor involved,
907
00:37:49,876 --> 00:37:51,897
some additional praying... Yeah.
Yeah. Matthew will be fine.
908
00:37:51,921 --> 00:37:53,551
Alright, well,
when does he get back?
909
00:37:53,575 --> 00:37:55,335
I can help with the
pitch. I can talk to him.
910
00:37:55,360 --> 00:37:57,405
What do you want me
to...? Uh, no. No. No.
911
00:37:57,449 --> 00:37:59,102
No, that's a horrible
and weird idea...
912
00:37:59,146 --> 00:38:00,669
Yes... Obviously.
913
00:38:00,713 --> 00:38:02,758
Um, but tell him that I
can help him with work.
914
00:38:02,802 --> 00:38:04,606
I'll make sure everything is
arranged for him and for Ruby.
915
00:38:04,630 --> 00:38:06,936
We split up.
916
00:38:09,722 --> 00:38:11,245
Oh.
917
00:38:18,818 --> 00:38:22,604
We kept trying to tell ourselves
that our whole winding road
918
00:38:22,648 --> 00:38:25,390
was God's plan to
bring us back together.
919
00:38:26,695 --> 00:38:31,091
But he was still so
angry and so hurt.
920
00:38:31,134 --> 00:38:34,050
I mean, I left him at the
altar, and then his wife died.
921
00:38:34,094 --> 00:38:36,183
You know, you don't
just stop feeling hurt
922
00:38:36,226 --> 00:38:37,880
'cause it's a better story
923
00:38:37,924 --> 00:38:41,667
if God brought us
together in our pain.
924
00:38:41,710 --> 00:38:43,321
He denied it for so long.
925
00:38:43,364 --> 00:38:46,367
You know, he tried so
hard not to hate me.
926
00:38:46,411 --> 00:38:50,023
I think loving me,
making us a full circle
927
00:38:50,066 --> 00:38:52,417
was the story he was writing.
928
00:38:52,460 --> 00:38:55,245
I mean, I guess it was the
story we were both writing.
929
00:38:55,289 --> 00:38:56,832
I mean, I was trying
to get past my guilt.
930
00:38:56,856 --> 00:38:58,684
He was... He was
trying to forgive God
931
00:38:58,727 --> 00:39:00,686
for the loss of Karin.
932
00:39:04,124 --> 00:39:08,737
But, y-you know, ultimately,
we learned that...
933
00:39:10,609 --> 00:39:14,787
life just isn't always so tidy.
934
00:39:17,877 --> 00:39:21,402
And God's plan isn't always
so easy to understand.
935
00:39:22,925 --> 00:39:24,405
He's always been so
good with Harriet,
936
00:39:24,449 --> 00:39:25,972
and I adore Ruby,
937
00:39:26,015 --> 00:39:27,930
but we both started
working longer hours,
938
00:39:27,974 --> 00:39:29,584
just avoiding coming home.
939
00:39:29,628 --> 00:39:32,370
And then, his sister got sick.
She lives in Philadelphia.
940
00:39:32,413 --> 00:39:34,633
So he and Ruby went to
Philadelphia to be with her,
941
00:39:34,676 --> 00:39:37,113
and... now she's better,
942
00:39:37,157 --> 00:39:39,072
uh, but they're still
in Philadelphia.
943
00:39:40,943 --> 00:39:43,642
And
944
00:39:43,685 --> 00:39:45,731
they are not coming back.
945
00:39:49,038 --> 00:39:50,823
I had no idea.
946
00:39:52,477 --> 00:39:54,348
Yeah, I mean, I
was gonna tell you,
947
00:39:54,392 --> 00:39:56,959
but, you know, hundreds of
thousands of people were dying.
948
00:39:57,003 --> 00:40:00,963
I just didn't think my
marriage counted as a casualty.
949
00:40:01,007 --> 00:40:05,446
And you were maybe a little
too proud to tell me?
950
00:40:05,490 --> 00:40:07,317
Yeah, fine.
951
00:40:07,361 --> 00:40:09,363
I was a little...
A little too proud.
952
00:40:11,670 --> 00:40:13,323
You okay?
953
00:40:16,370 --> 00:40:17,763
It's hard to say.
954
00:40:20,635 --> 00:40:23,290
But
955
00:40:23,333 --> 00:40:25,423
it looks like I'm
moving to Boston.
956
00:40:26,598 --> 00:40:27,642
So...
957
00:40:29,383 --> 00:40:32,212
Fingers crossed
for new horizons.
958
00:40:32,255 --> 00:40:35,955
Fingers crossed
for new horizons.
959
00:40:39,262 --> 00:40:40,655
Jackson: No one
said it was easy,
960
00:40:40,699 --> 00:40:42,111
becoming the person
you're meant to be.
961
00:40:45,399 --> 00:40:48,750
It takes bravery a step
into the power you found
962
00:40:48,794 --> 00:40:50,491
and earned and deserve.
963
00:40:53,755 --> 00:40:55,278
He'll come back.
964
00:40:55,322 --> 00:40:58,020
And you'll visit,
and he'll visit.
965
00:40:58,064 --> 00:40:59,152
I know.
966
00:40:59,195 --> 00:41:01,371
You know, it's okay to be sad.
967
00:41:01,415 --> 00:41:04,810
It's hard handing over something
you put your life into.
968
00:41:06,072 --> 00:41:07,726
I'm not sad.
969
00:41:07,769 --> 00:41:13,340
It's just, like,
I never in my life
970
00:41:13,383 --> 00:41:17,344
felt pride quite like this.
971
00:41:31,053 --> 00:41:34,143
The trick is, to take the
people who were there for you,
972
00:41:34,187 --> 00:41:35,318
with you.
973
00:41:35,362 --> 00:41:37,320
To remind you you're not alone.
974
00:41:37,364 --> 00:41:39,235
It's gonna take a few days,
975
00:41:39,279 --> 00:41:41,760
figure out what
to tell the chief.
976
00:41:41,803 --> 00:41:44,023
Feels weird to say Boston.
977
00:41:44,066 --> 00:41:46,112
Feels like a...
978
00:41:47,417 --> 00:41:49,376
I don't know.
979
00:41:49,419 --> 00:41:52,379
It feels "I don't
know" to me, too.
980
00:41:54,686 --> 00:41:56,775
Thank you. Oh!
981
00:41:57,819 --> 00:41:58,907
Harriet: Mommy, Daddy!
982
00:42:00,169 --> 00:42:01,214
I got her.
983
00:42:01,257 --> 00:42:02,563
You go.
984
00:42:02,607 --> 00:42:04,217
Get ready to go.
985
00:42:07,655 --> 00:42:10,919
You have an entire
legacy behind you
986
00:42:10,963 --> 00:42:12,921
as you create your own.
987
00:42:28,023 --> 00:42:30,939
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