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♪ I've got your number, lonely
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♪ October 33
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It's a natural progression
in any profession
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for the student
to become the teacher,
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the mentee
to become the mentor.
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♪ Holds me down ♪
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♪ Like you know how, darlin' ♪
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♪ Hold me now
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♪ Like you know my plight
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♪ Got your number
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It's not that much different
from parenting.
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I'm your son.
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We learn
from our ancestors
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how to make
the perfect soup.
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♪ I'm sending love
where you are at ♪
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How to soothe an aching head
or heart.
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Your call has been forwarded
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to an automated
voice messaging system.
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♪ October 33
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♪ Your love's
my only good thing ♪
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♪ Like, fair, fair, fair
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♪ So, help me
hear the bird sing ♪
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♪ I'll help you
capture your dream ♪
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♪ Let's see it in the present
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♪ And try to let it be
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♪ I, I've got your number,
lonely ♪
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♪ October 33
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♪ Like, fair, fair, fair
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We measure milestones
and percentiles
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and first steps...
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...to try and gain insight into
the person they'll grow into.
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- Hello?
- ♪ October 33
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Tate,
you're early.
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I've just started
packing lunches.
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♪ Crying in the back
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As if knowing
a bunch of numbers on charts
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is any true measure of what
we might make of ourselves.
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Jackson.
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♪ I do, to you
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Hey, Dad.
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♪ Hold on
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♪ Hold on
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♪ Hold on
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♪ Fair, fair, fair
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♪ Hold on
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Alright.
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I know it seems, like,
impulsive and out of nowhere,
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but it's not...
It's just, uh...
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uh, fast.
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But it's not, like...
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impulsive, impulsive.
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It's...
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I thought it through.
It's just I thought it through...
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Oh!
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*GERY'S ANATOMY*
Season 17 Episode 14
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Episode Title: "Look Up Child"
Aired on: May 06, 2021
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Captions by VITAC...
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Sync corrections by srjanapala
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Everybody alive?
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Yeah. Yeah, yeah.
That's not...
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Not why I'm here.
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I thought
you were Tate.
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He delivers meals
for me to people
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in the community
that need them.
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Okay.
Not Tate.
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Well, come on in.
Take a load off.
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I tested clean yesterday
and haven't seen anyone.
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I haven't seen anyone,
either.
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I just made
a fresh pot of coffee.
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Want some?
I'm good.
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How have you been?
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I've been thinking a lot
about you lately,
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what with everything going on
in the world.
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I was gonna call,
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but the way we left things
last time,
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I figured you did not want
to talk to me.
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And... I didn't want to be
one of those
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added things
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on top of the pandemic
to deal with.
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How have you been?
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How's your little girl?
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She must be,
what...
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She's 3 1/2 years old.
Her name is Harriet.
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Right.
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Look, I didn't travel
all this way
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to just catch up,
so, um...
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I need... answers.
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Well, I've got about 150 lunches
to put together,
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so if
we're gonna talk,
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why don't you grab a pair
of gloves over here with me
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and, uh...
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help me out?
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Oh, my God,
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it's your night.
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It's... Wait...
It's your night?
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How can it be your night
with Harriet?
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She's not packed,
she's not ready, she's sick,
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- and I have a calendar.
- It's okay, no, no, it's not...
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- It's not my night. Alright? April, hey.
- No?
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- It's not?
- No, no, no, it's alright.
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Okay.
Just take a breath.
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What's going on?
What's wrong?
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- She has a temp of 102, and...
- Okay.
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And she's coughing...
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- ...and she has no appetite.
- Come here.
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But I-I took a rapid test...
It's not COVID.
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Come here, munchkin.
Come here. That's good.
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Hey. Why didn't you call
me? I don't know what it is.
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Whooping cough
or RSV or rickets?
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- It's not rickets.
- People get rickets, Jackson.
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And... And Matthew
just went out East with Ruby
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to see his sister,
and the power
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keeps going on and off,
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and I know,
I am a doctor,
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I need to take a deep breath
and I should be cool,
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- but I am...
- You're not being cool right now.
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You're not even breathing,
okay? Go ahead. Oh, God.
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She's been sick before,
obviously,
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but, like,
COVID just makes everything
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feel so...
big.
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And I know I need to calm down,
but no one
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in the history of calming down
has ever calmed down
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- by being told to calm down,
- so I'm not gonna, okay?
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I'm not
gonna tell you to calm down, alright?
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I'm not telling you to calm
down, I promise. I just...
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Why don't you let me
in the house,
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- Yeah, yes, okay. Just... sorry.
- Maybe? Okay?
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- Come in.
- Hey, sweetheart.
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I can't tell you
how long it took me
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to come up with
this nifty system.
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First, we start
with a bunch of these,
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what I've coined
the brawn bundle.
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Here's how we do it...
Two pieces of smoked ham,
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one slice of honey turkey,
and provolone.
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Are you serious
with all this?
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Roll it up, and once you have
your ingredients set,
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you move down here
to the bread.
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You won't believe
how much time that saves.
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Try a piece.
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Look, I'll make
the damn sandwiches with you
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in order to...
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It's fine.
Okay?
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But I don't need
to taste anything
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or have any food
or coffee.
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Just... I don't need anything
from you, honestly.
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I just need answers.
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Okay.
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Answers?
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Mom said
something to me
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that I cannot get
out of my head.
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Yeah,
she has a talent for that.
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She said,
for the first time ever,
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that I sounded
like you.
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Did you piss her off?
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I said
I can't really see change
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coming from inside
the foundation.
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- There's too much bureaucracy.
- Well, to be honest,
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I haven't thought about
the foundation in a long time.
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Yeah, but what do you think
she meant by that?
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Years ago, I learned
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to never put words
in your mother's mouth.
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If you had to guess.
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I've never been one
for the establishment.
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I always thought
the whole system is rigged.
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So, how we doing
over there?
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You know,
I don't think
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ham-and-turkey sandwiches
get enough credit.
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They're simple,
but they get the job done.
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So I said that
the whole system's just broken,
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needs to be thrown out
and rebuilt,
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understanding that
that's damn near impossible
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considering how many people
benefit from it
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the way it is
right now.
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That does sound
a little like me.
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You look like you could use
some more turkey.
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Ever use
a commercial meat slicer?
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- When would I have done that?
- Summer job?
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Anyway,
it reminds me of the O.R.,
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without the pressure
of possibly killing someone.
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Come on,
let me show you.
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Yeah, I can figure it out,
thank you.
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Okay.
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You might want to...
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You might want to
turn it on first.
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Yeah, right.
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Just,
what is it?
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Here, let me show you.
Okay.
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First of all,
you gotta lift this.
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Here's your gauge
for how thick
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you want to
make the slice of meat.
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Okay. Got it.
Thank you.
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The carriage goes
back and forth.Great.
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I got it.
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Kinda relaxing when you get
a rhythm going, huh?
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So... you're saying
you wanted change,
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but what?
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You felt powerless
'cause you were an Avery or...?
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As you know, the Avery name
carries a great deal of influence,
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but it also carries...
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a great deal
of baggage.
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That amount of money
can...
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become a burden
pretty quickly.
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Everybody knows
you have it, so...
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they expect you
to be responsible
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to fix everything
with it.
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And there's almost no one
in your shoes,
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so almost no one
seems to get it.
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At least
not when I said it.
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Certainly not
when the name is synonymous
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with just the worst
behavior imaginable.
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Well,
not here it's not.
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Here, nobody knows
who my father was
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or that
I come from money.
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Out here,
they just think
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I'm...
Robert, who runs the diner.
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God.
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Uh, Matthew's been working
a lot.
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I mean,
I've been working a lot.
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Yeah, don't worry about it.
My place is, uh...
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Please don't do that.
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Don't be all weird-nice
with your voice an octave higher
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like you do with people
at hotels or at the bank.
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I have
a weird bank voice now?
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It's making you nuts.
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You... You can say it.
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Just mess everywhere.
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Pillows all over
the place.
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I maintain
that throw pillows
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are useless and stupid,
yeah.
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How long has my munchkin
been sick?
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Couple days.
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She just
hasn't wanted to do anything,
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just lie on me.
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Also, she needs a bath.
She smells like feet.
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Well, I hate to break it to you...
that's you.
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- No, it's not.
- 100 percent you.
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Oh, God.
That is me.
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Yeah.
Go take a shower.
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Jackson, I...
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April,
go take a shower, please.
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- Hey, Jackson.
- Mm-hmm?
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I'm calming down.
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See?
I am. I am.
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- 10 minutes.
- 10 minutes.
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She ever taken
a 10-minute shower in her life?
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I don't think so.
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Some tunes?
Good idea.
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Let's see
what she's got.
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We got this, right?
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We got this, baby.
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We got this.
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You're gonna feel better
in no time.
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Harriet and Dad.
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We got this.
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Oh, come on!
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Or maybe we don't.
257
00:10:17,519 --> 00:10:21,192
John Moran's
"Thousand Watt Workout" plays...
258
00:10:21,276 --> 00:10:25,382
♪ Looking like a fisherman ♪
259
00:10:25,831 --> 00:10:28,971
♪ I'm dropping a line
in the sea ♪
260
00:10:30,343 --> 00:10:32,335
I gotta give it to you...
That's some good turkey.
261
00:10:32,419 --> 00:10:33,729
Best in the state.
262
00:10:33,813 --> 00:10:35,688
Yeah,
I'll take your word for it.
263
00:10:35,772 --> 00:10:37,094
♪ Hoping that
the graying skies ♪
264
00:10:37,178 --> 00:10:38,257
So,
what'd your dad think
265
00:10:38,341 --> 00:10:40,248
when you decided
to walk away from it all?
266
00:10:40,332 --> 00:10:42,964
At first,
he thought it was just a phase.
267
00:10:43,048 --> 00:10:45,553
But then when he realized
I was serious,
268
00:10:45,637 --> 00:10:47,992
he stopped speaking
to me.
269
00:10:48,076 --> 00:10:49,193
Completely?
270
00:10:49,277 --> 00:10:51,456
He said I was selfish,
compulsive, lazy,
271
00:10:51,540 --> 00:10:53,894
a stain
on the family name.
272
00:10:53,978 --> 00:10:57,550
Which I now see
is such a complete joke.
273
00:10:57,634 --> 00:11:00,115
No, he was never interested
in talking to me,
274
00:11:00,199 --> 00:11:02,868
unless it was
about the hospital image
275
00:11:02,952 --> 00:11:04,695
or profits
or expansion.
276
00:11:04,779 --> 00:11:06,820
If I have to have
one more conversation
277
00:11:06,904 --> 00:11:08,781
about cutting hospital costs,
I swear...
278
00:11:08,865 --> 00:11:10,044
Someone's got to
do it.
279
00:11:10,128 --> 00:11:12,347
I just knew
it wasn't gonna be me.
280
00:11:12,431 --> 00:11:14,750
I was never gonna be
the son my father wanted
281
00:11:14,834 --> 00:11:18,200
because I didn't want to be
the man the role required.
282
00:11:22,175 --> 00:11:23,669
That's why
you're here.
283
00:11:24,171 --> 00:11:25,045
Why's that?
284
00:11:25,129 --> 00:11:26,143
Because...
285
00:11:26,227 --> 00:11:28,588
you're ready
to leave it all behind.
286
00:11:42,939 --> 00:11:44,771
Why does anyone have
an electric water heater?
287
00:11:44,855 --> 00:11:47,556
A power outage is when
you need hot water the most.
288
00:11:47,640 --> 00:11:50,515
Well, Harriet cried herself
to sleep.
289
00:11:50,599 --> 00:11:52,692
I propped her head up
to help with the coughing.
290
00:11:52,776 --> 00:11:53,997
Okay, thank you.
291
00:11:54,081 --> 00:11:56,521
And I found a flashlight
and a few candles,
292
00:11:56,605 --> 00:11:58,306
but I can't find any
damn matches in this place.
293
00:11:58,390 --> 00:12:00,395
Oh, yeah, well, I'm married
to a first responder.
294
00:12:00,479 --> 00:12:02,501
The matches are in a drawer
even I've never found.
295
00:12:02,585 --> 00:12:04,919
Alright.
Well, then, stove it is.
296
00:12:05,003 --> 00:12:07,054
Geez.
297
00:12:07,138 --> 00:12:09,194
Can you get
some more candles?
298
00:12:10,358 --> 00:12:12,585
What?
299
00:12:13,448 --> 00:12:14,714
Oh, crap!
Sorry.
300
00:12:14,798 --> 00:12:16,672
This is a nun.
301
00:12:16,756 --> 00:12:18,848
I just grabbed the, uh... The first nun
you could find?
302
00:12:18,932 --> 00:12:20,688
Saying I'm going to hell?
303
00:12:20,772 --> 00:12:22,648
Since when
do you believe in hell? True.
304
00:12:22,732 --> 00:12:24,607
But they're your candles,
so you're going to hell.
305
00:12:24,691 --> 00:12:26,210
Okay.
306
00:12:26,294 --> 00:12:28,518
Alright,
just give me this. Yeah, grab that.
307
00:12:28,602 --> 00:12:30,077
Her fever's at 102,
308
00:12:30,161 --> 00:12:32,295
so you might be right
about RSV.
309
00:12:32,379 --> 00:12:33,558
Okay.
310
00:12:33,642 --> 00:12:35,560
So we just
give her acetaminophen
311
00:12:35,644 --> 00:12:37,224
and wait it out
unless she gets short of breath?
312
00:12:37,308 --> 00:12:39,418
Versus driving in a blackout
to Grey-Sloan in a pandemic?
313
00:12:39,502 --> 00:12:41,143
Yeah,
we're not going anywhere.
314
00:12:41,227 --> 00:12:42,667
The risk
of exposure alone...
315
00:12:42,751 --> 00:12:44,874
We don't need doctors, April.
We aredoctors.
316
00:12:44,958 --> 00:12:46,093
And if
she gets worse...
317
00:12:46,177 --> 00:12:47,355
Which she probably won't.
318
00:12:47,439 --> 00:12:48,443
Exactly.
319
00:12:48,527 --> 00:12:50,619
Yeah.
320
00:12:50,703 --> 00:12:52,490
How's Meredith doing?
321
00:12:52,574 --> 00:12:54,318
I've been
praying for her.
322
00:12:54,402 --> 00:12:56,407
Oh, she's, uh...
She's awake. Yeah?
323
00:12:56,491 --> 00:12:58,279
And she's getting better
every day, stronger.
324
00:12:58,363 --> 00:12:59,676
Oh.
Yeah.
325
00:13:00,530 --> 00:13:02,718
So, tonight wasn't
your night.
326
00:13:02,802 --> 00:13:05,329
Yes. As usual,
your calendar is impeccable.
327
00:13:05,413 --> 00:13:06,008
Well done.
328
00:13:06,092 --> 00:13:08,158
No, I'm just saying,
uh, tonight...
329
00:13:08,242 --> 00:13:10,073
Tonight wasn't your night,
so why are you...
330
00:13:10,157 --> 00:13:12,032
How have I never been
to your place?
331
00:13:12,116 --> 00:13:14,077
I feel like I guess
we must always do drop-offs
332
00:13:14,161 --> 00:13:15,339
at mine or work.
333
00:13:15,423 --> 00:13:17,211
It's... It's nice.
It looks really nice.
334
00:13:17,295 --> 00:13:18,778
I like what you've
done. Jackson...
335
00:13:18,862 --> 00:13:20,605
You guys are happy,
you and... you and Matthew?
336
00:13:20,689 --> 00:13:22,125
We're busy,
like everyone else.
337
00:13:22,209 --> 00:13:24,048
And Harriet and you
and him and Ruby,
338
00:13:24,132 --> 00:13:25,796
the same house,
it's going...
339
00:13:25,880 --> 00:13:27,290
Exposed brick is...
is cool.
340
00:13:27,374 --> 00:13:28,038
- I know you've always liked...
- Do you really think
341
00:13:28,122 --> 00:13:29,032
I can't tell when you're being cagey?
342
00:13:29,116 --> 00:13:30,812
- I'm not being cagey.
- Am I happy?
343
00:13:30,896 --> 00:13:33,396
Exposed brick?
Would you just talk like a person?
344
00:13:36,882 --> 00:13:38,180
I went
to see my dad again.
345
00:13:38,264 --> 00:13:39,400
Oh, God.
Is he sick?
346
00:13:39,484 --> 00:13:41,011
No,
he's the same as always.
347
00:13:41,095 --> 00:13:44,357
Obliviously medium happy about
his obliviously medium life.
348
00:13:45,395 --> 00:13:47,767
I thought you never
wanted to see him again.
349
00:13:47,851 --> 00:13:49,134
I didn't.
350
00:13:49,218 --> 00:13:54,178
I needed to know if I was right
about what I... what I wanted.
351
00:13:54,748 --> 00:13:56,598
And we're back
to being cagey.
352
00:13:56,682 --> 00:13:59,079
I'm not trying to be cagey,
April.
353
00:13:59,163 --> 00:14:00,991
He couldn't handle it.
354
00:14:01,075 --> 00:14:02,209
Okay?
355
00:14:02,293 --> 00:14:04,995
He couldn't step up
or step into his own,
356
00:14:05,079 --> 00:14:07,138
and I can.
357
00:14:08,476 --> 00:14:10,965
I want to take over
the foundation.
358
00:14:14,342 --> 00:14:15,878
Is this the, uh,
coffee you showed me
359
00:14:15,962 --> 00:14:16,921
last time
I was here?
360
00:14:17,005 --> 00:14:19,012
We sold out
of our first batch.
361
00:14:19,096 --> 00:14:20,971
The local paper
wrote us up,
362
00:14:21,055 --> 00:14:23,250
so we decided to add
four more roasts.
363
00:14:23,334 --> 00:14:25,602
I was gonna branch out
into other parts of the state,
364
00:14:25,686 --> 00:14:27,514
and then,
ah, COVID.
365
00:14:27,598 --> 00:14:29,780
Yeah, I remember.
You guys got hit pretty hard.
366
00:14:29,864 --> 00:14:31,741
Hospital was
turning people away, right?
367
00:14:31,825 --> 00:14:33,287
It was a lot.
368
00:14:33,371 --> 00:14:34,647
I did
everything I could
369
00:14:34,731 --> 00:14:36,638
to keep this place open
after COVID hit.
370
00:14:36,722 --> 00:14:39,654
But then I ended up
just... bagging up food
371
00:14:39,738 --> 00:14:40,773
for the regulars.
372
00:14:40,857 --> 00:14:42,413
Word spread,
373
00:14:42,497 --> 00:14:44,343
and every morning,
I come in here
374
00:14:44,427 --> 00:14:46,550
and crank up
the Doobie Brothers,
375
00:14:46,801 --> 00:14:48,563
start packing lunches.
376
00:14:48,647 --> 00:14:50,902
It was
weirdly therapeutic.
377
00:14:51,113 --> 00:14:52,988
Kept my mind occupied.
378
00:14:53,072 --> 00:14:54,482
Well...
379
00:14:54,566 --> 00:14:56,527
you got
quite the bubble out here.
380
00:14:56,611 --> 00:14:58,878
Built a very different life
for yourself.
381
00:14:58,962 --> 00:15:00,096
We're all raised
to think
382
00:15:00,180 --> 00:15:01,789
that's some kind of
wild concept.
383
00:15:01,873 --> 00:15:04,609
But what's wild
is going to work every day
384
00:15:04,693 --> 00:15:06,362
doing something
you do not like,
385
00:15:06,446 --> 00:15:09,293
thinking one day,
it'll just magically stop.
386
00:15:09,395 --> 00:15:10,882
Yeah.
387
00:15:11,896 --> 00:15:13,314
I just feel stuck.
388
00:15:13,398 --> 00:15:14,989
Hmm.
389
00:15:15,705 --> 00:15:18,065
Like there's two of me.
Like there's this...
390
00:15:18,727 --> 00:15:21,791
This successful surgeon
that I worked so hard to become,
391
00:15:21,875 --> 00:15:23,345
was trying
to push the foundation
392
00:15:23,429 --> 00:15:25,108
to be
more progressive.
393
00:15:25,218 --> 00:15:26,806
And also just the guy
394
00:15:26,890 --> 00:15:29,734
that didn't ask
for any of this, you know?
395
00:15:29,818 --> 00:15:32,912
I'm worried
that maybe it's too late...
396
00:15:32,996 --> 00:15:35,514
The system's beyond repair.
397
00:15:35,737 --> 00:15:38,482
Maybe I could be effective
from the outside.
398
00:15:38,566 --> 00:15:40,441
Or maybe you could
let go of the idea
399
00:15:40,525 --> 00:15:43,448
that it's your job
to save the world.
400
00:15:44,485 --> 00:15:45,925
You know,
there's nothing wrong
401
00:15:46,009 --> 00:15:48,057
with wanting
to keep things simpler.
402
00:15:48,141 --> 00:15:50,190
Yeah,
I think about that a lot.
403
00:15:50,274 --> 00:15:52,384
Actually,
I think, you know,
404
00:15:52,468 --> 00:15:54,727
I could get a small place
in the woods,
405
00:15:54,811 --> 00:15:56,807
maybe open
a private practice,
406
00:15:56,891 --> 00:15:59,599
do things
I really care about.
407
00:16:00,029 --> 00:16:03,162
Explore the great outdoors
with Harriet.
408
00:16:03,345 --> 00:16:06,000
We all deserve to live our lives
however we want.
409
00:16:06,084 --> 00:16:07,174
Sure, yeah.
410
00:16:07,258 --> 00:16:09,911
You are an older white guy
who's always had money, so...
411
00:16:10,085 --> 00:16:11,375
If nothing changes
in the world,
412
00:16:11,459 --> 00:16:14,184
you're still gonna be fine,
but I... I hear you.
413
00:16:14,268 --> 00:16:16,912
You given any thought
to what if?
414
00:16:16,996 --> 00:16:18,566
What if
I didn't come back here?
415
00:16:18,650 --> 00:16:20,888
What if
you chose differently, yeah.
416
00:16:22,407 --> 00:16:25,263
Well,
I'm more of a, hmm...
417
00:16:26,357 --> 00:16:28,413
"never look back"
type.
418
00:16:31,866 --> 00:16:33,704
Right, yeah.
419
00:16:34,663 --> 00:16:36,330
Yeah, um...
420
00:16:40,621 --> 00:16:44,069
When I was here last time,
I wanted to ask you why,
421
00:16:44,153 --> 00:16:46,243
and I... I didn't...
I couldn't...
422
00:16:46,327 --> 00:16:48,161
I guess I used to say
I was over it,
423
00:16:48,245 --> 00:16:50,334
but I'm not.
I need to know
424
00:16:50,617 --> 00:16:52,129
why you left.
425
00:16:53,554 --> 00:16:55,219
'Cause, um...
426
00:16:57,673 --> 00:17:00,307
...I realize that
it's really messed me up...
427
00:17:00,391 --> 00:17:01,701
pretty badly.
428
00:17:01,785 --> 00:17:03,536
And, um...
429
00:17:04,830 --> 00:17:06,562
It just
made it hard to, like,
430
00:17:06,646 --> 00:17:09,221
maintain relationships
and stuff.
431
00:17:09,557 --> 00:17:12,013
Having this inclination
to run away all the time.
432
00:17:12,097 --> 00:17:13,273
And I know,
I know...
433
00:17:13,357 --> 00:17:14,883
Running away
doesn't actually solve anything.
434
00:17:14,967 --> 00:17:16,439
I know that.
435
00:17:18,014 --> 00:17:19,646
So...
And I've tried.
436
00:17:19,730 --> 00:17:23,818
I've tried really hard
to rid myself of the shame
437
00:17:23,902 --> 00:17:26,242
and the pain that comes with
all that, and, uh...
438
00:17:26,326 --> 00:17:27,864
You know,
just kind of doubled-down
439
00:17:27,948 --> 00:17:30,607
on being the best
at everything...
440
00:17:30,691 --> 00:17:32,683
The best father
I could possibly be.
441
00:17:32,767 --> 00:17:34,801
I probably stayed in my marriage
longer than I should have,
442
00:17:34,885 --> 00:17:36,221
went along with
foundation business
443
00:17:36,305 --> 00:17:37,571
longer than
I should have,
444
00:17:37,655 --> 00:17:39,885
but no matter what,
when it gets rough,
445
00:17:39,992 --> 00:17:42,345
I just end up...
right there,
446
00:17:42,429 --> 00:17:44,652
running,
into the woods.
447
00:17:44,736 --> 00:17:47,184
Try to fight
the you in me.
448
00:17:49,654 --> 00:17:52,181
Can you not just sit there looking
at me? Can you say something?
449
00:17:52,265 --> 00:17:53,835
Pretend that
I'm worth talking to?
450
00:17:53,919 --> 00:17:55,793
I don't know how you can just
say nothing all the... Ow!
451
00:17:55,877 --> 00:17:58,057
God! Aah!
Damn it!
452
00:17:58,141 --> 00:18:00,189
God!
453
00:18:00,273 --> 00:18:01,538
Oh, man.
You alright?
454
00:18:01,622 --> 00:18:03,714
No, I'm not alright!
Give it... I got it!
455
00:18:03,798 --> 00:18:05,637
Pressure,
pressure, pressure.
456
00:18:12,807 --> 00:18:14,606
Okay.
457
00:18:20,859 --> 00:18:22,820
Temp's down to 101.
458
00:18:22,904 --> 00:18:24,561
It's just
a bad dream.
459
00:18:24,645 --> 00:18:27,007
- Oh, yeah? How's her breathing?
- It's better.
460
00:18:27,091 --> 00:18:28,265
- Oh, good, alright.
- Yeah.
461
00:18:28,349 --> 00:18:30,661
- So we could be out of the woods.
- Yeah.
462
00:18:33,920 --> 00:18:35,101
So,
were you hoping
463
00:18:35,185 --> 00:18:36,976
- Matthew wasn't gonna be here tonight?
- What?
464
00:18:37,060 --> 00:18:38,370
No, I don't have a problem
with Matthew.
465
00:18:38,454 --> 00:18:39,720
- Really?
- What?
466
00:18:39,804 --> 00:18:41,674
Whenever you guys
are in the same room together,
467
00:18:41,758 --> 00:18:43,068
you say
one of three things...
468
00:18:43,152 --> 00:18:45,251
"Yup," "Sure,"
"Not a problem."
469
00:18:45,335 --> 00:18:46,172
Well, okay, yeah.
470
00:18:46,256 --> 00:18:49,673
We're not best friends,
but, I mean, it's civil.
471
00:18:49,757 --> 00:18:51,156
He seems like
a fine guy.
472
00:18:51,240 --> 00:18:55,118
- He seems, uh, kind.
- Kind?
473
00:18:55,202 --> 00:18:56,969
I don't have a badword
to say about him.
474
00:18:57,053 --> 00:18:57,726
That...
That's something.
475
00:18:57,810 --> 00:19:01,286
So then why did you want to
come tell me this in person?
476
00:19:02,158 --> 00:19:04,210
You're considering
running the foundation.
477
00:19:04,294 --> 00:19:05,429
What's that
got to do with me?
478
00:19:05,513 --> 00:19:07,349
That's the thing
I'm not...
479
00:19:07,880 --> 00:19:09,281
just considering it.
480
00:19:09,365 --> 00:19:10,591
I'm doing it.
481
00:19:11,591 --> 00:19:14,517
Running the foundation means
I got to move to Boston.
482
00:19:14,967 --> 00:19:17,875
W... Without Harriet?
483
00:19:17,959 --> 00:19:19,289
No. God, no.
484
00:19:19,373 --> 00:19:20,547
I'm moving to Boston,
485
00:19:20,631 --> 00:19:23,470
and I really
need you all to come.
486
00:19:24,622 --> 00:19:26,462
The foundation will employ
you and Matthew.
487
00:19:26,546 --> 00:19:27,407
You'll be set.
488
00:19:27,491 --> 00:19:28,312
You can do
whatever you want
489
00:19:28,396 --> 00:19:31,297
in terms of an outreach program
or design or build.
490
00:19:31,381 --> 00:19:33,419
Anything you want to do,
we'll fund it.
491
00:19:34,280 --> 00:19:35,911
I would never
leave Harriet.
492
00:19:37,616 --> 00:19:40,726
I could never,
ever leave Harriet,
493
00:19:40,810 --> 00:19:44,177
which means I really
need you all to come with me.
494
00:19:44,614 --> 00:19:46,191
Please.
495
00:19:51,975 --> 00:19:54,695
Doesn't look like there are
any tendon injuries.
496
00:19:54,779 --> 00:19:55,957
Yeah,
the cut's not that deep.
497
00:19:56,041 --> 00:19:56,836
Okay.
498
00:19:56,920 --> 00:19:59,208
Another wash,
then let's glue it.
499
00:20:00,330 --> 00:20:01,293
I can handle it
from here.
500
00:20:01,377 --> 00:20:03,560
Actually,
just hand me the glue.
501
00:20:03,874 --> 00:20:06,102
Okay.
502
00:20:07,794 --> 00:20:09,661
Ow.
503
00:20:12,655 --> 00:20:14,070
Just give me
your hand.
504
00:20:14,154 --> 00:20:16,407
Come on, man. Let
me do this. Okay.
505
00:20:17,178 --> 00:20:18,828
I may not have practiced
in a while,
506
00:20:18,912 --> 00:20:21,694
but... it is like
riding a bike.
507
00:20:21,778 --> 00:20:24,286
Not exactly,
but okay.
508
00:20:24,407 --> 00:20:26,634
Hold it together.
509
00:20:27,377 --> 00:20:29,339
See?
Alright.
510
00:20:29,423 --> 00:20:30,648
That is not bad.
511
00:20:30,732 --> 00:20:32,285
Okay.
Does it hurt?
512
00:20:32,397 --> 00:20:33,952
- Do you want any Tylenol or anything?
- Um.
513
00:20:34,036 --> 00:20:36,249
No, no, no.
It's actually just...
514
00:20:36,333 --> 00:20:38,774
It stings a little bit,
but that's fine.
515
00:20:38,858 --> 00:20:40,603
Thank you.
Look at us.
516
00:20:40,687 --> 00:20:42,612
We ought to open up
a family practice.
517
00:20:47,092 --> 00:20:48,974
You know,
I'm gonna...
518
00:20:50,231 --> 00:20:52,374
I'm just gonna
grab some air.
519
00:20:58,451 --> 00:21:00,038
I get it, Jackson.
520
00:21:00,122 --> 00:21:01,735
You're not the only person
in quarantine
521
00:21:01,819 --> 00:21:03,354
who's drowning in big
522
00:21:03,438 --> 00:21:04,718
"What the hell am I doing
with my life?"
523
00:21:04,802 --> 00:21:06,114
Kind of questions.
524
00:21:06,198 --> 00:21:08,332
But you don't just
up and move across the country
525
00:21:08,416 --> 00:21:09,230
on a whim.
526
00:21:09,314 --> 00:21:11,177
No, no, no, that's not what
this is. It's not on a whim.
527
00:21:11,261 --> 00:21:13,515
Since the moment I met you
at Mercy West,
528
00:21:13,599 --> 00:21:16,519
you have rejected
your family name, the legacy,
529
00:21:16,603 --> 00:21:17,769
even the freaking plane.
530
00:21:17,853 --> 00:21:19,784
You've... You've wanted
nothing to do with any of it.
531
00:21:19,868 --> 00:21:21,230
- I resisted. That's not necess...
- No, no, no.
532
00:21:21,314 --> 00:21:23,399
Sorry, you've been running,
kicking and screaming.
533
00:21:23,483 --> 00:21:25,052
That is not
where this is coming from.
534
00:21:25,136 --> 00:21:27,137
Okay? I can use this
as an opportunity
535
00:21:27,221 --> 00:21:29,137
to make some profound changes
in the world.
536
00:21:29,221 --> 00:21:30,131
You understand?
537
00:21:30,215 --> 00:21:32,898
I respect that. I mean,
I-I admire that, Jackson.
538
00:21:32,982 --> 00:21:35,249
As long as it's not an inconvenience
to your perfect little life here?
539
00:21:35,333 --> 00:21:38,886
Uprooting my entire life
is not an inconvenience.
540
00:21:38,970 --> 00:21:39,740
Okay,
you're right.
541
00:21:39,824 --> 00:21:42,150
But I need this.
542
00:21:42,234 --> 00:21:43,965
I know
that I need to do this.
543
00:21:44,049 --> 00:21:46,115
I can feel it in my gut, and I
just want to trust that for once.
544
00:21:46,199 --> 00:21:46,779
Okay.
545
00:21:46,863 --> 00:21:48,894
How many times have you
"felt in your gut"...
546
00:21:48,978 --> 00:21:51,333
- ...the need to just pack up a tent
- Don't...
547
00:21:51,417 --> 00:21:53,117
and go
for a walkabout
548
00:21:53,201 --> 00:21:54,892
and talk to yourself
amongst the trees?
549
00:21:54,976 --> 00:21:57,921
So I'm the only one that's walked
away when I was having a hard time?
550
00:21:58,348 --> 00:21:59,559
Just me, huh?
551
00:21:59,643 --> 00:22:00,724
How many times
have you been
552
00:22:00,808 --> 00:22:01,795
sitting in the front pew
at a church,
553
00:22:01,879 --> 00:22:04,373
talking to God about the plans
for your life?
554
00:22:04,457 --> 00:22:06,202
- It's not the same thing. I...
- Why not?
555
00:22:06,286 --> 00:22:08,466
Why is it that you can find
solace and purpose in a church,
556
00:22:08,550 --> 00:22:09,927
but I can't find it
in nature,
557
00:22:10,011 --> 00:22:12,147
where I can actually have
some time that's quiet... -
558
00:22:12,231 --> 00:22:13,976
...hear myself think,
think about what I want,
559
00:22:14,060 --> 00:22:15,349
not what everybody else
expects of me?
560
00:22:15,433 --> 00:22:16,778
So how long
did you spend
561
00:22:16,862 --> 00:22:19,179
thinking about
going to see your father?
562
00:22:19,445 --> 00:22:20,857
How much time did you spend
doing that?
563
00:22:20,941 --> 00:22:22,560
- Don't reduce it to that!
- Or did you just, like, get in a car
564
00:22:22,644 --> 00:22:23,944
- No, it's not on a whim, okay?
- And... and go...
565
00:22:24,028 --> 00:22:24,874
- It was a realization.
- Okay, I...
566
00:22:24,958 --> 00:22:26,073
I needed clarity,
567
00:22:26,157 --> 00:22:28,598
and I went and talked to Robert,
and I got it.
568
00:22:28,682 --> 00:22:33,045
You have never
wanted any of this.
569
00:22:33,591 --> 00:22:36,491
And... And I'm just
supposed to roll with it
570
00:22:36,575 --> 00:22:38,162
and see
what happens?
571
00:22:38,246 --> 00:22:40,469
What... What happens
when you regret it?
572
00:22:40,553 --> 00:22:42,993
What happens when you realize
that you actually hate it?
573
00:22:43,077 --> 00:22:44,287
What you're asking
of me,
574
00:22:44,371 --> 00:22:47,105
of... of our family,
of our daughter, it's...
575
00:22:49,613 --> 00:22:51,317
What happens
if it doesn't work?
576
00:22:53,109 --> 00:22:55,765
Matthew got on one knee
and proposed to you...
577
00:22:55,849 --> 00:22:57,780
- Please don't. Jackson, I'm...
- No, no, no, it's true.
578
00:22:57,864 --> 00:22:58,879
He got on one knee
and proposed to you
579
00:22:58,963 --> 00:23:00,315
in front of me.
580
00:23:00,399 --> 00:23:01,838
I stood there,
581
00:23:01,922 --> 00:23:03,732
watched another man
become your husband
582
00:23:03,816 --> 00:23:05,115
and stepfather
to my child
583
00:23:05,199 --> 00:23:06,539
- ...our child...
- Mm-hmm.
584
00:23:06,623 --> 00:23:08,932
...and at no point
did I come to you and say,
585
00:23:09,016 --> 00:23:10,193
"Yeah, but what if
it doesn't work?"
586
00:23:10,277 --> 00:23:11,413
I didn't do that.
587
00:23:11,497 --> 00:23:13,566
I had your back that day
and every day since.
588
00:23:14,872 --> 00:23:16,443
He bugs the hell out of you,
doesn't he?
589
00:23:16,527 --> 00:23:18,335
I'm allowed
to be frustrated at the guy
590
00:23:18,419 --> 00:23:19,946
who makes
sandwiches weird.
591
00:23:20,030 --> 00:23:22,146
Who... I-It's... And he
calls her Hair-Hair.
592
00:23:22,230 --> 00:23:24,042
I know. I know.
I'm working on that.
593
00:23:26,145 --> 00:23:28,343
What I'm not allowed
to do, April,
594
00:23:28,427 --> 00:23:30,170
what... what I've actually
never done,
595
00:23:30,254 --> 00:23:31,248
is stand in the way
596
00:23:31,332 --> 00:23:34,222
of the happiness
that you chose for yourself.
597
00:23:35,520 --> 00:23:36,925
I had your back.
598
00:23:37,449 --> 00:23:38,810
I know
this is a surprise,
599
00:23:38,894 --> 00:23:42,038
but I'm just asking you...
Do the same for me.
600
00:23:43,311 --> 00:23:44,941
I...
601
00:23:45,836 --> 00:23:49,191
I... I want you to be happy,
Jackson.
602
00:23:49,385 --> 00:23:51,191
You deserve it.
603
00:23:52,394 --> 00:23:55,675
But running
the foundation?
604
00:23:55,759 --> 00:23:58,286
I...
I'm sorry.
605
00:23:58,370 --> 00:23:59,860
It's just...
606
00:24:00,277 --> 00:24:01,974
You're not that guy.
607
00:24:03,010 --> 00:24:05,316
I don't think
you ever will be.
608
00:24:11,261 --> 00:24:13,287
So, that's it?
I'm either gonna fail or quit?
609
00:24:13,371 --> 00:24:15,646
I'm sorry, Jackson. I didn't...
I didn't mean that...
610
00:24:15,730 --> 00:24:17,139
Yeah, you did.
That's exactly what you meant.
611
00:24:17,223 --> 00:24:18,915
Ok...
612
00:24:18,999 --> 00:24:21,091
Fine. Yeah.
I did.
613
00:24:21,175 --> 00:24:23,486
Jackson,
you are a brilliant surgeon.
614
00:24:23,570 --> 00:24:26,173
You rebuild people's faces,
you rebuild their lives.
615
00:24:26,257 --> 00:24:27,707
You find a way
to make them breathe
616
00:24:27,791 --> 00:24:29,926
when...
When it seems impossible.
617
00:24:30,010 --> 00:24:32,229
You gave a little boy back
his hands.
618
00:24:32,313 --> 00:24:34,104
You prayed me
back into the world
619
00:24:34,188 --> 00:24:35,354
when I was almost dead.
620
00:24:35,438 --> 00:24:37,936
Y-You take out
impossible tumors,
621
00:24:38,020 --> 00:24:39,896
and you make people
walk out into the world
622
00:24:39,980 --> 00:24:41,507
with their heads
held high.
623
00:24:41,591 --> 00:24:43,858
That's where
you've left your mark.
624
00:24:44,371 --> 00:24:46,493
It's what
makes you exceptional.
625
00:24:46,577 --> 00:24:47,886
Wh...
626
00:24:47,970 --> 00:24:50,384
Why would you want
to give all of that up?
627
00:24:50,468 --> 00:24:52,298
It's not about what I want.
It's what I need to do.
628
00:24:52,382 --> 00:24:54,181
Well, you know what?
It's a little late to decide that.
629
00:24:54,265 --> 00:24:55,196
Excuse me?
630
00:24:55,280 --> 00:24:57,476
You don't get to choose
who I am in this world, April.
631
00:24:57,560 --> 00:24:59,118
Nobody does.
Not my father,
632
00:24:59,202 --> 00:25:00,101
not Mom... nobody.
633
00:25:00,185 --> 00:25:02,163
And you don't get to choose
your career over mine.
634
00:25:02,247 --> 00:25:03,513
That's...
I am happy.
635
00:25:03,597 --> 00:25:04,835
I'm helping people.
636
00:25:04,919 --> 00:25:06,845
I'm really helping them.
637
00:25:06,929 --> 00:25:08,457
I am building
support systems
638
00:25:08,541 --> 00:25:10,749
and resources for people
in rural communities,
639
00:25:10,833 --> 00:25:11,906
and they need
so much,
640
00:25:11,990 --> 00:25:14,188
and I can actually
do that for them.
641
00:25:14,272 --> 00:25:15,515
And you can
keep doing that.
642
00:25:15,599 --> 00:25:17,390
You can do it
on an even bigger scale.
643
00:25:17,474 --> 00:25:18,783
You can do it
across the country.
644
00:25:18,867 --> 00:25:21,091
I'm... You're literally
just gaining resources.
645
00:25:21,175 --> 00:25:23,153
April, I am not trying
to diminish your work.
646
00:25:23,237 --> 00:25:24,560
We have
an opportunity
647
00:25:24,644 --> 00:25:26,365
to do something really amazing
for all of us.
648
00:25:26,449 --> 00:25:28,325
Matthew will go along
with it.
649
00:25:28,409 --> 00:25:30,129
He'll follow you.
650
00:25:30,213 --> 00:25:32,356
That's why
I like him so much.
651
00:25:35,183 --> 00:25:37,341
Oh, God.
652
00:25:41,121 --> 00:25:42,481
You know what?
653
00:25:42,637 --> 00:25:46,260
You... You didn't always
have my back.
654
00:25:48,574 --> 00:25:51,381
When I found
what I needed in Jordan,
655
00:25:51,465 --> 00:25:52,705
you didn't go
with me.
656
00:25:52,789 --> 00:25:54,310
You left me alone.
I went alone.
657
00:25:54,394 --> 00:25:57,190
April, that's not fair.
You ran away from me.
658
00:25:57,314 --> 00:26:00,060
And Samuel and the pain
and the grief,
659
00:26:00,144 --> 00:26:02,717
which is understandable.
660
00:26:02,801 --> 00:26:04,677
You know,
I was resentful at the time,
661
00:26:04,761 --> 00:26:06,240
but I get it.
662
00:26:06,324 --> 00:26:07,404
You were surviving.
663
00:26:07,488 --> 00:26:09,956
You had to do
what you had to do to survive.
664
00:26:10,598 --> 00:26:12,537
But this isn't that,
anyway.
665
00:26:12,621 --> 00:26:14,295
I'm not
running fromsomething.
666
00:26:14,379 --> 00:26:16,119
I'm trying
to run tosomething.
667
00:26:16,203 --> 00:26:18,792
Trying to make
something my own.
668
00:26:23,602 --> 00:26:25,823
It's not fair,
Jackson.
669
00:26:27,082 --> 00:26:28,697
If you had
the opportunity
670
00:26:28,781 --> 00:26:33,659
to finally
make it all make sense,
671
00:26:34,746 --> 00:26:37,122
to become
what you were meant to be,
672
00:26:37,206 --> 00:26:41,049
wouldn't you try really,
really hard to get there?
673
00:26:42,708 --> 00:26:44,315
I would.
674
00:26:44,746 --> 00:26:46,581
I did.
675
00:26:47,512 --> 00:26:49,454
That's all
I'm asking for.
676
00:26:56,452 --> 00:26:57,985
I got it.
677
00:27:08,262 --> 00:27:11,396
99.3.
678
00:27:11,480 --> 00:27:12,572
- Oh, good. Alright.
- Yeah.
679
00:27:12,656 --> 00:27:13,779
So she's
a little more comfortable.
680
00:27:13,863 --> 00:27:15,554
Yeah.
She's talking in her sleep.
681
00:27:15,638 --> 00:27:16,708
- Oh, yeah?
- Yeah.
682
00:27:16,792 --> 00:27:18,017
Anything good?
683
00:27:18,122 --> 00:27:19,562
Just gibberish.
684
00:27:19,646 --> 00:27:21,842
She said,
"Amananome."
685
00:27:21,926 --> 00:27:23,950
Ah.
That is the sea anemone.
686
00:27:24,034 --> 00:27:26,497
Oh. She's been waking
me up the last few weeks
687
00:27:26,581 --> 00:27:28,892
with a different
sea creature fact.
688
00:27:28,976 --> 00:27:30,005
Are they really "facts,"
though?
689
00:27:30,089 --> 00:27:32,542
In her head, they are.
690
00:27:33,928 --> 00:27:36,326
It's the best alarm clock, ever,
I'll tell you.
691
00:27:36,410 --> 00:27:38,240
Last week,
she told me
692
00:27:38,324 --> 00:27:41,074
that she could hear "werewoofs"
throwing up in your basement.
693
00:27:41,158 --> 00:27:42,641
Really?
I don't even have a basement.
694
00:27:42,725 --> 00:27:43,983
Oh, I'm aware.
695
00:27:44,067 --> 00:27:45,644
There's no
convincing her otherwise.
696
00:27:45,728 --> 00:27:46,958
So stubborn.
697
00:27:47,042 --> 00:27:49,005
Which I would say comes
from her mother... - Mm.
698
00:27:49,089 --> 00:27:50,146
...but I think
we both know...
699
00:27:50,230 --> 00:27:52,409
- 50/50 split...
- right down the middle.
700
00:27:52,895 --> 00:27:53,782
Yeah.
701
00:27:53,866 --> 00:27:55,872
I could never give that up
going to Boston.
702
00:27:55,956 --> 00:27:58,779
Sea creature alarm clocks,
holding her when she's sick.
703
00:27:58,863 --> 00:28:00,576
But I can't walk away
from this chance
704
00:28:00,660 --> 00:28:02,051
to make real change
in the foundation.
705
00:28:02,135 --> 00:28:04,663
I mean,
Mom was able to do both.
706
00:28:04,747 --> 00:28:06,732
And I know in my gut,
that I can, too.
707
00:28:06,816 --> 00:28:09,170
I mean, I owe it to Harriet
to try, at least.
708
00:28:09,254 --> 00:28:10,999
- I know.
- And I know I can't do it all,
709
00:28:11,083 --> 00:28:12,965
but, April,
I am telling you,
710
00:28:13,535 --> 00:28:16,290
I can take this foundation
to a whole new chapter.
711
00:28:16,387 --> 00:28:18,998
I mean, creating real
racial equity in medicine.
712
00:28:19,082 --> 00:28:19,880
Are you kidding?
713
00:28:19,964 --> 00:28:22,382
It's a revolutionary,
lasting change.
714
00:28:22,574 --> 00:28:24,240
I could look my daughter
in the face
715
00:28:24,324 --> 00:28:26,709
and know that I've done
everything I possibly can
716
00:28:26,793 --> 00:28:28,015
to give her
a better world.
717
00:28:28,099 --> 00:28:30,634
I know.
I know.
718
00:28:30,870 --> 00:28:32,117
I could do all that
719
00:28:32,201 --> 00:28:35,302
and... and be the father
that mine never was.
720
00:28:38,170 --> 00:28:41,284
And all I need to do
is turn my life upside down.
721
00:28:58,828 --> 00:29:01,339
Puts a lot into perspective,
huh?
722
00:29:05,649 --> 00:29:07,138
Yeah, I come out here
every morning
723
00:29:07,222 --> 00:29:09,012
just to
take it all in.
724
00:29:10,541 --> 00:29:12,560
Feel like
I got a lot more thinking done
725
00:29:12,644 --> 00:29:13,750
these last few days
out here
726
00:29:13,834 --> 00:29:16,627
than... probably
all year.
727
00:29:19,598 --> 00:29:20,938
Might find it
hard to believe,
728
00:29:21,022 --> 00:29:23,957
but I've been thinking a lot
about our last visit.
729
00:29:24,041 --> 00:29:25,485
Everything you said.
730
00:29:26,725 --> 00:29:28,026
And the truth is,
731
00:29:28,110 --> 00:29:30,592
I left because
that's what I do.
732
00:29:30,676 --> 00:29:33,138
I chose this place
because it's safe.
733
00:29:33,476 --> 00:29:36,939
Running the restaurant,
bagging lunches,
734
00:29:37,023 --> 00:29:39,670
none of it
requires much of me.
735
00:29:39,812 --> 00:29:42,967
I can walk away
and not look back any time.
736
00:29:45,820 --> 00:29:47,885
And just forget about who
you're leaving behind, yeah?
737
00:29:47,969 --> 00:29:50,228
I was convinced you were
better off without me.
738
00:29:50,312 --> 00:29:51,469
Without a father?
739
00:29:51,553 --> 00:29:54,107
How would you think
I'm better off without...
740
00:29:54,825 --> 00:29:57,963
my father never being there
for any birthdays,
741
00:29:58,047 --> 00:29:59,456
any graduations?
742
00:29:59,540 --> 00:30:02,771
That time I got beat up
by Billy Paxton?
743
00:30:03,305 --> 00:30:04,658
At my wedding?
744
00:30:04,742 --> 00:30:07,488
The birth of my child,
your granddaughter.
745
00:30:07,795 --> 00:30:09,633
My divorce... maybe that
would've been a good time
746
00:30:09,717 --> 00:30:12,904
for you to step in
and share some wisdom.
747
00:30:13,005 --> 00:30:14,706
A hug,
I don't know.
748
00:30:14,790 --> 00:30:16,469
Help me
make some decisions?
749
00:30:16,553 --> 00:30:20,022
It's not like
it was a few months, man.
750
00:30:20,265 --> 00:30:21,756
Or a year
or 10 years.
751
00:30:21,840 --> 00:30:23,094
It's my entire life.
752
00:30:23,178 --> 00:30:26,014
- How could you think that's better?
- In my father's eyes,
753
00:30:26,098 --> 00:30:27,669
I was the screw-up
in the family,
754
00:30:27,753 --> 00:30:28,889
and I absorbed
that story.
755
00:30:28,973 --> 00:30:30,690
Maybe I became it.
756
00:30:30,774 --> 00:30:33,178
And I didn't want
to pass that down to you.
757
00:30:33,460 --> 00:30:36,221
I did not want
to mess you up.
758
00:30:38,325 --> 00:30:39,178
Congrats.
759
00:30:39,262 --> 00:30:40,608
I get that now.
760
00:30:40,754 --> 00:30:42,792
I hurt
a lot of people.
761
00:30:43,383 --> 00:30:45,962
You,
your mother.
762
00:30:46,520 --> 00:30:49,760
And to have found out
I have a granddaughter that I...
763
00:30:52,550 --> 00:30:53,630
may never meet...
764
00:30:53,714 --> 00:30:55,738
Yeah, well, it didn't have to
be that way, did it?
765
00:30:55,822 --> 00:30:57,434
You're absolutely right.
766
00:30:57,518 --> 00:30:59,307
So I buy her presents.
767
00:30:59,391 --> 00:31:02,964
An art set, a basketball,
tricycle, board games.
768
00:31:03,048 --> 00:31:04,742
What are you saying?
And you didn't send them?
769
00:31:04,826 --> 00:31:05,800
I don't have
the right.
770
00:31:05,884 --> 00:31:07,690
I don't deserve...
771
00:31:08,114 --> 00:31:11,932
to take your time,
be in your space.
772
00:31:13,239 --> 00:31:15,694
Not one day has passed
773
00:31:15,778 --> 00:31:18,615
that I haven't regretted
leaving you.
774
00:31:18,699 --> 00:31:20,953
It haunts me
in my sleep,
775
00:31:21,285 --> 00:31:23,260
when I wake up
in the morning.
776
00:31:23,371 --> 00:31:25,515
And I am truly,
truly sorry.
777
00:31:25,599 --> 00:31:28,780
And yet I know an apology
will never make up for it.
778
00:31:28,864 --> 00:31:31,050
And I have to live
with that.
779
00:31:31,340 --> 00:31:33,354
I will never
get over it.
780
00:31:35,426 --> 00:31:37,209
Oh, Jackson.
781
00:31:37,293 --> 00:31:39,703
Crossroads like this,
you don't arrive at them often,
782
00:31:39,787 --> 00:31:42,453
but I know
you will be okay,
783
00:31:42,746 --> 00:31:45,128
no matter
what road you choose.
784
00:31:45,314 --> 00:31:46,848
I'm still an Avery,
right?
785
00:31:47,012 --> 00:31:48,714
I still find
some way to...
786
00:31:48,970 --> 00:31:50,146
walk away
from it all.
787
00:31:50,230 --> 00:31:51,932
Apple doesn't fall far
from the tree.
788
00:31:52,016 --> 00:31:53,006
Isn't that
what they say?
789
00:31:53,090 --> 00:31:55,415
Nice.
790
00:31:55,499 --> 00:31:57,286
That's great. No, I'm sorry.
791
00:31:57,370 --> 00:31:59,071
I just thought
that was funny.
792
00:31:59,155 --> 00:32:01,298
I'm the tree,
you're the apple.
793
00:32:01,813 --> 00:32:03,162
Do you really
think that?
794
00:32:03,246 --> 00:32:04,568
I'm sitting here,
aren't I?
795
00:32:04,652 --> 00:32:07,591
Jackson, let me assure you,
you are not me.
796
00:32:07,675 --> 00:32:10,038
The fact that you're even
questioning your choices
797
00:32:10,122 --> 00:32:11,577
is proof of that.
798
00:32:11,661 --> 00:32:12,779
And if
that's not enough,
799
00:32:12,863 --> 00:32:14,612
you are committed,
Jackson.
800
00:32:14,696 --> 00:32:16,746
Committed to your work,
to your family,
801
00:32:16,830 --> 00:32:18,625
to people in need.
802
00:32:20,219 --> 00:32:22,771
And I know sometimes you want
to run away from it all,
803
00:32:22,855 --> 00:32:24,948
but anybody with any sense
does that.
804
00:32:25,032 --> 00:32:26,631
It's very different
805
00:32:26,715 --> 00:32:28,672
from actually
following through with it.
806
00:32:29,968 --> 00:32:31,937
I was scared.
807
00:32:32,465 --> 00:32:33,675
I'm scared.
808
00:32:33,759 --> 00:32:36,948
Yeah, but you're scared
of doing the wrongthing.
809
00:32:37,051 --> 00:32:39,784
I was too scared
to do the rightthing.
810
00:32:42,223 --> 00:32:43,506
You're not a runner.
811
00:32:43,590 --> 00:32:45,976
If you were, you would have been
long gone by now.
812
00:32:46,060 --> 00:32:47,357
Do you know how easy
it would have been
813
00:32:47,441 --> 00:32:48,708
for you to walk away
from everything
814
00:32:48,792 --> 00:32:50,798
after it all came out
about the foundation?
815
00:32:50,882 --> 00:32:53,025
Did you even
consider it?
816
00:32:55,343 --> 00:32:56,740
Not really, no.
817
00:32:56,824 --> 00:32:57,613
Of course not.
818
00:32:57,697 --> 00:33:00,232
'Cause you have it in your soul
to do the right thing,
819
00:33:00,316 --> 00:33:01,806
to make things right.
820
00:33:01,911 --> 00:33:03,657
And you didn't just
fix a disaster,
821
00:33:03,741 --> 00:33:05,446
you made it better.
822
00:33:05,530 --> 00:33:09,160
So if you don't want
to stay, don't.
823
00:33:09,244 --> 00:33:11,120
But don't
blame it on me.
824
00:33:13,816 --> 00:33:15,277
'Cause on
your worst day,
825
00:33:15,361 --> 00:33:17,480
you are 10 times
the man I am.
826
00:33:38,756 --> 00:33:40,327
- Jackson?
- Hey.
827
00:33:40,411 --> 00:33:41,646
- Come in.
- I can't stay.
828
00:33:41,730 --> 00:33:43,279
Honey,
it's pouring out here.
829
00:33:43,363 --> 00:33:44,060
Here, Mom.
830
00:33:44,144 --> 00:33:46,123
I mean, I can't stay
at Grey-Sloan in Seattle.
831
00:33:46,207 --> 00:33:47,904
I can't keep doing
what we've always done.
832
00:33:47,988 --> 00:33:49,297
You know how many
people of color
833
00:33:49,381 --> 00:33:51,300
we've already lost
since the pandemic started?
834
00:33:51,384 --> 00:33:53,232
The system keeps diminishing
and erasing us.
835
00:33:53,316 --> 00:33:55,514
T-They're literally letting
people just die in the streets,
836
00:33:55,598 --> 00:33:56,584
and we can do something
about it.
837
00:33:56,668 --> 00:33:58,587
I got to show Harriet
that we can put our money
838
00:33:58,671 --> 00:34:00,459
and our attention
where our mouths are.
839
00:34:00,543 --> 00:34:02,288
And we can acknowledge
the connection between our work
840
00:34:02,372 --> 00:34:03,726
and what's actually happening
in the streets
841
00:34:03,810 --> 00:34:06,860
and give a sense of equity
in this world, okay?
842
00:34:06,944 --> 00:34:08,696
It's not gonna change
after COVID.
843
00:34:08,780 --> 00:34:10,177
We know that.
844
00:34:10,261 --> 00:34:13,178
White supremacy is woven into
the fabric of this country,
845
00:34:13,262 --> 00:34:14,946
and that
means medicine, too.
846
00:34:15,030 --> 00:34:16,365
People that look like us
847
00:34:16,449 --> 00:34:18,847
should not have to be
gaslit, shamed, and ignored
848
00:34:18,931 --> 00:34:19,927
when they're
just going to the doctor,
849
00:34:20,011 --> 00:34:22,257
constantly having to prove
that their lives have any value.
850
00:34:22,341 --> 00:34:24,662
It's like this constant
cycle of stress
851
00:34:24,746 --> 00:34:26,927
from poverty and trauma
and racism,
852
00:34:27,011 --> 00:34:29,482
and it's definitely
impacting mental health...
853
00:34:29,566 --> 00:34:31,224
It's definitely
killing us.
854
00:34:31,308 --> 00:34:32,420
Where are people
supposed to turn?
855
00:34:32,504 --> 00:34:33,771
They don't feel safe
going to the doctor.
856
00:34:33,855 --> 00:34:35,643
They're scared
to call the cops.
857
00:34:35,727 --> 00:34:37,732
This is like
a deep-seated neglect.
858
00:34:37,816 --> 00:34:40,685
And if our deaths are not
affecting their profit margin,
859
00:34:40,769 --> 00:34:42,692
then it's not
gonna change.
860
00:34:45,051 --> 00:34:46,629
I want to take over
the foundation.
861
00:34:46,713 --> 00:34:48,052
What?
862
00:34:48,136 --> 00:34:49,858
I want to reallocate
every penny that we have
863
00:34:49,942 --> 00:34:50,982
to equity
in medicine...
864
00:34:51,066 --> 00:34:53,146
Women's health, trans health,
racial equity.
865
00:34:53,230 --> 00:34:57,292
I want everyone who this country
abuses to be served, okay?
866
00:34:57,376 --> 00:34:59,537
We need to challenge
all the ways that we teach,
867
00:34:59,621 --> 00:35:01,382
everything that
we're doing.
868
00:35:01,466 --> 00:35:03,626
If that means dismantling
the whole medical system
869
00:35:03,710 --> 00:35:06,585
a-and... and designing something
that actually serves everyone,
870
00:35:06,669 --> 00:35:07,443
then that's
what I want to do.
871
00:35:07,527 --> 00:35:08,826
I-I see that now.
I'm ready.
872
00:35:08,910 --> 00:35:10,960
Jackson,
where have you been?
873
00:35:11,044 --> 00:35:12,365
It doesn't even
matter anymore, Mom.
874
00:35:12,449 --> 00:35:14,586
It matters that I'm back
and I know where I belong.
875
00:35:14,670 --> 00:35:15,685
Oh!
876
00:35:15,769 --> 00:35:17,310
- I gotta go. I love you.
- Ah!
877
00:35:17,394 --> 00:35:19,271
Where on God's earth are you going now?
878
00:35:19,355 --> 00:35:20,373
I got to go
talk to April.
879
00:35:20,457 --> 00:35:22,176
What?!
Jackson...
880
00:35:29,402 --> 00:35:31,642
Here we go.
Yummy!
881
00:35:31,726 --> 00:35:34,000
Are you gonna go with
crazy fork?
882
00:35:35,197 --> 00:35:37,898
Pancakes
go in your belly.
883
00:35:37,982 --> 00:35:39,247
Why do you always go
for the big ones?
884
00:35:39,331 --> 00:35:40,084
Hey.
885
00:35:40,168 --> 00:35:41,567
Take all the small pieces,
alright?
886
00:35:41,651 --> 00:35:43,404
You want to cut your own little piece?
887
00:35:43,488 --> 00:35:44,905
- A small one.
- What are you doing...
888
00:35:44,989 --> 00:35:47,299
A small one this time,
that's soaked up in syrup?
889
00:35:47,383 --> 00:35:48,545
Extra syrup?
890
00:35:48,629 --> 00:35:50,397
Ooh.
There she is.
891
00:35:50,481 --> 00:35:52,172
- There she is.
- Hi!
892
00:35:52,294 --> 00:35:53,582
Mommy!
893
00:35:53,692 --> 00:35:55,698
Hi!
894
00:35:55,782 --> 00:35:57,474
Oh!
No fever.
895
00:35:57,558 --> 00:36:00,261
Oh, good,
good, good.
896
00:36:00,345 --> 00:36:01,632
I want orange juice.
897
00:36:01,716 --> 00:36:03,200
Yeah, you can have
some orange juice.
898
00:36:03,284 --> 00:36:04,388
You want me
to get it for you, baby?
899
00:36:04,472 --> 00:36:06,101
No,
I get it myself.
900
00:36:06,185 --> 00:36:07,674
- Okay.
- Okay.
901
00:36:08,708 --> 00:36:10,050
Go ahead, baby.
902
00:36:10,550 --> 00:36:13,026
Are you gonna unscrew the top
and pour it?
903
00:36:17,090 --> 00:36:19,409
You are that guy,
Jackson.
904
00:36:20,176 --> 00:36:22,541
I was an ass
for saying otherwise.
905
00:36:22,625 --> 00:36:24,156
Yeah?
906
00:36:25,535 --> 00:36:27,310
Pillows in every room.
907
00:36:27,394 --> 00:36:29,483
They come in handy.
908
00:36:29,567 --> 00:36:31,690
Hey,
are you sure about this?
909
00:36:31,988 --> 00:36:33,990
I'm not sure
it's gonna work, but...
910
00:36:34,074 --> 00:36:36,049
I'm sure
it's what I want, yeah.
911
00:36:36,325 --> 00:36:39,263
Why is our timing always
so terrible?
912
00:36:39,347 --> 00:36:41,444
I thought that was kind of
our thing... bad timing.
913
00:36:41,528 --> 00:36:42,802
We just
never figured out
914
00:36:42,886 --> 00:36:45,182
how to want the same thing
at the same time.
915
00:36:45,266 --> 00:36:46,596
Even with Harriet.
916
00:36:46,680 --> 00:36:49,564
Yeah, but, I mean,
it worked out pretty well.
917
00:36:49,648 --> 00:36:51,276
Yeah,
but we were fighting,
918
00:36:51,360 --> 00:36:52,462
and then we had sex
919
00:36:52,546 --> 00:36:54,471
while our marriage
was falling apart.
920
00:36:54,844 --> 00:36:56,324
That was actually
our thing...
921
00:36:56,408 --> 00:36:58,703
Arguing until we were blue
in the face and then having sex.
922
00:36:58,787 --> 00:37:01,191
Yeah, I guess
we were doomed, huh?
923
00:37:01,695 --> 00:37:05,517
Look, if you're really
living your dream here,
924
00:37:05,601 --> 00:37:06,892
I'll give it up,
because you're right.
925
00:37:06,976 --> 00:37:08,372
I'm totally
springing it on you guys.
926
00:37:08,456 --> 00:37:09,461
No. What?
927
00:37:09,545 --> 00:37:11,290
You do not
get to do all the speeches
928
00:37:11,374 --> 00:37:12,376
and the convincing
929
00:37:12,460 --> 00:37:15,206
and that thing where your face
just lights up
930
00:37:15,290 --> 00:37:16,501
just to
take it all back again.
931
00:37:16,585 --> 00:37:17,951
Don't take it
all back.
932
00:37:18,680 --> 00:37:20,261
You deserve this.
933
00:37:20,345 --> 00:37:21,868
Wait.
What are you saying?
934
00:37:21,952 --> 00:37:23,657
I am saying...
935
00:37:25,211 --> 00:37:27,905
...we will
make Boston work.
936
00:37:28,832 --> 00:37:30,220
I'm saying yes.
937
00:37:30,304 --> 00:37:32,384
What?
You're saying yes?
938
00:37:32,468 --> 00:37:33,876
To my question,
you're saying yes? Yes.
939
00:37:33,960 --> 00:37:35,845
I'm saying... Yeah. I thought
that's what you wanted.
940
00:37:35,929 --> 00:37:37,887
Yeah, but... Yes?
941
00:37:37,971 --> 00:37:39,970
Like, I didn't think
it would be that easy.
942
00:37:40,054 --> 00:37:41,668
I'm sorry.
You call this night easy?
943
00:37:41,752 --> 00:37:43,102
No, not...
Not easy like that,
944
00:37:43,186 --> 00:37:45,951
but, like, I thought
you'd have to pray
945
00:37:46,035 --> 00:37:49,040
or consult with Matthew,
maybe get your pastor involved,
946
00:37:49,124 --> 00:37:51,735
- some additional praying...
- Yeah. Yeah. Matthew will be fine.
947
00:37:51,819 --> 00:37:53,227
Alright, well,
when does he get back?
948
00:37:53,311 --> 00:37:54,876
I can help with the pitch.
I can talk to him.
949
00:37:54,960 --> 00:37:57,255
- What do you want me to...?
- Uh, no. No. No.
950
00:37:57,339 --> 00:37:59,157
No, that's a horrible
and weird idea...
951
00:37:59,241 --> 00:38:00,172
- Yes.
- ...obviously.
952
00:38:00,256 --> 00:38:02,288
Um, but tell him that
I can help him with work.
953
00:38:02,372 --> 00:38:04,296
I'll make sure everything is
arranged for him and for Ruby.
954
00:38:04,380 --> 00:38:06,193
We split up.
955
00:38:09,699 --> 00:38:11,177
Oh.
956
00:38:18,490 --> 00:38:22,237
We kept trying to tell ourselves
that our whole winding road
957
00:38:22,321 --> 00:38:25,247
was God's plan
to bring us back together.
958
00:38:26,562 --> 00:38:29,966
But he was still so angry
and so hurt.
959
00:38:30,666 --> 00:38:33,797
I mean, I left him at the altar,
and then his wife died.
960
00:38:33,881 --> 00:38:36,119
You know,
you don't just stop feeling hurt
961
00:38:36,203 --> 00:38:37,679
'cause it's a better story
962
00:38:37,763 --> 00:38:40,950
if God brought us together
in our pain.
963
00:38:41,687 --> 00:38:43,257
He denied it
for so long.
964
00:38:43,341 --> 00:38:46,423
You know, he tried so hard
not to hate me.
965
00:38:46,507 --> 00:38:49,959
I think loving me,
making us a full circle
966
00:38:50,043 --> 00:38:52,353
was the story
he was writing.
967
00:38:52,437 --> 00:38:54,836
I mean, I guess it was the story
we were both writing.
968
00:38:54,920 --> 00:38:56,569
I mean, I was trying
to get past my guilt.
969
00:38:56,653 --> 00:38:58,620
He was... He was
trying to forgive God
970
00:38:58,704 --> 00:39:00,732
for the loss of Karin.
971
00:39:03,842 --> 00:39:07,325
But, y-you know,
ultimately, we learned that...
972
00:39:10,297 --> 00:39:14,659
...life just
isn't always so tidy.
973
00:39:17,572 --> 00:39:21,282
And God's plan isn't always
so easy to understand.
974
00:39:22,622 --> 00:39:24,100
He's always been so good
with Harriet,
975
00:39:24,184 --> 00:39:25,667
and I adore Ruby,
976
00:39:25,751 --> 00:39:27,867
but we both started
working longer hours,
977
00:39:27,951 --> 00:39:29,106
just avoiding coming
home.
978
00:39:29,190 --> 00:39:31,892
And then, his sister got sick.
She lives in Philadelphia.
979
00:39:31,976 --> 00:39:34,156
So he and Ruby went to
Philadelphia to be with her,
980
00:39:34,240 --> 00:39:36,682
and... now she's better,
981
00:39:36,766 --> 00:39:38,865
uh, but they're
still in Philadelphia.
982
00:39:40,771 --> 00:39:42,599
And...
983
00:39:43,349 --> 00:39:45,435
they are
not coming back.
984
00:39:49,030 --> 00:39:50,825
I had no idea.
985
00:39:52,126 --> 00:39:53,958
Yeah, I mean,
I was gonna tell you,
986
00:39:54,042 --> 00:39:56,896
but, you know, hundreds of
thousands of people were dying.
987
00:39:56,980 --> 00:40:00,900
I just didn't think my marriage
counted as a casualty.
988
00:40:00,984 --> 00:40:05,263
And you were maybe
a little too proud to tell me?
989
00:40:05,467 --> 00:40:07,254
Yeah, fine.
990
00:40:07,338 --> 00:40:09,565
I was a little...
A little too proud.
991
00:40:11,647 --> 00:40:13,525
You okay?
992
00:40:16,191 --> 00:40:17,809
It's hard to say.
993
00:40:20,612 --> 00:40:22,443
But...
994
00:40:22,732 --> 00:40:25,006
it looks like
I'm moving to Boston.
995
00:40:26,285 --> 00:40:27,514
So...
996
00:40:29,055 --> 00:40:32,388
Fingers crossed
for new horizons.
997
00:40:33,115 --> 00:40:35,372
Fingers crossed
for new horizons.
998
00:40:35,646 --> 00:40:38,500
♪ I know you're out there,
doin' the best you can ♪
999
00:40:38,584 --> 00:40:40,130
No one said it was easy,
1000
00:40:40,214 --> 00:40:42,028
becoming the person
you're meant to be.
1001
00:40:42,112 --> 00:40:45,096
♪ But everybody needs
a helping hand ♪
1002
00:40:45,180 --> 00:40:48,492
It takes bravery a step into
the power you found
1003
00:40:48,576 --> 00:40:50,318
and earned and deserve.
1004
00:40:50,402 --> 00:40:52,190
♪ 'Cause we're all alone in this
together ♪
1005
00:40:52,274 --> 00:40:53,195
♪ But the storm
won't last forever ♪
1006
00:40:53,279 --> 00:40:54,987
He'll come back.
1007
00:40:55,189 --> 00:40:57,848
And you'll visit,
and he'll visit.
1008
00:40:57,932 --> 00:40:58,980
I know.
1009
00:40:59,064 --> 00:41:01,384
You know,
it's okay to be sad.
1010
00:41:01,468 --> 00:41:04,078
It's hard handing over something
you put your life into.
1011
00:41:04,162 --> 00:41:07,716
- ♪ So much light
- I'm not sad.
1012
00:41:08,022 --> 00:41:13,309
It's just, like,
I never in my life
1013
00:41:13,393 --> 00:41:15,009
felt pride
1014
00:41:15,093 --> 00:41:20,542
- ♪ We can hold each other up
- quite like this.
1015
00:41:20,626 --> 00:41:26,072
♪ We can hold each other up
1016
00:41:26,156 --> 00:41:28,857
♪ Yeah
1017
00:41:28,941 --> 00:41:30,703
♪ Hold each other up
1018
00:41:30,787 --> 00:41:34,080
The trick is, to take the
people who were there for you,
1019
00:41:34,164 --> 00:41:35,255
with you.
1020
00:41:35,339 --> 00:41:37,257
To remind you
you're not alone.
1021
00:41:37,341 --> 00:41:38,976
It's gonna
take a few days,
1022
00:41:39,060 --> 00:41:41,555
figure out what to tell
the chief.
1023
00:41:41,639 --> 00:41:43,841
Feels weird
to say Boston.
1024
00:41:44,952 --> 00:41:46,864
Feels like a...
1025
00:41:47,983 --> 00:41:49,312
I don't know.
1026
00:41:49,396 --> 00:41:52,213
It feels "I don't know"
to me, too.
1027
00:41:52,297 --> 00:41:54,266
♪ 'Cause I see hope
in togetherness ♪
1028
00:41:54,350 --> 00:41:56,438
Thank you.
Oh!
1029
00:41:56,522 --> 00:41:57,851
♪ So much light
1030
00:41:57,935 --> 00:41:58,844
Mommy, Daddy!
1031
00:41:58,928 --> 00:42:01,151
- ♪ And so much love
- I got her.
1032
00:42:01,235 --> 00:42:03,957
- ♪ There is strength ♪
- You go. Get ready to go.
1033
00:42:04,041 --> 00:42:06,279
♪ Strength in tenderness ♪
1034
00:42:07,632 --> 00:42:10,092
You...
have an entire legacy
1035
00:42:10,176 --> 00:42:12,771
behind you
as you create your own.
1036
00:42:12,855 --> 00:42:18,631
♪ We can hold each other up
1037
00:42:26,375 --> 00:42:28,211
Captions by VITAC...
1038
00:42:28,295 --> 00:42:30,085
Sync corrections by srjanapala
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