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♪♪♪

♪ Don't care what you think about it ♪

♪ Ain't here to please nobody ♪

♪ I'm a-running undercover

♪ Here comes trouble now

♪♪♪

♪ Me and my wicked ways

♪ I'll get you into trouble now ♪

♪ It's just so hard to behave ♪

♪ Got you seeing double now ♪

♪♪♪

♪ I'm the one your mama told you ♪

♪ Oh, boy, the world is torture ♪

♪ A risk you can't afford

♪ And here comes trouble now

♪ Turning it up all night

♪ Got you feeling high

♪ Turning it up all night

♪ Got you feeling high

♪ Get you into trouble now

♪♪♪

- Currently, I am in a polyamorous relationship.

There is a variety

[ laughing ] of ways to have sex.

- We just became sexual about two months ago.

- We went out for dinner, and you were like,

"I'm dating four guys. Would you like to be the fifth?"

And I was like, "What?" - And I said,

"I think you're hot as hell.

"If you're down for these guidelines, let's try it."

- So right now I'm dating, like, this married couple

and we had, um, this really cool threesome.

I guess that's adventurous to me because they were older.

Like, I've never been with older people like that.

I was like, "Oh, wow," like,

"This is what older penis looks like."

[ laughs ]

- You learn to really love someone

without being possessive,

and I think that's very important.

- It seems to complicate the situation.

It's not something I would want to do,

I have a lot of friends that have open relationships.

I was actually in a polyamorous relationship.

In polyamorous relationships, there's a lot of

emotional work that needs to be done

with jealousy and insecurity

and time and scheduling, and I want to be the queen bee.

I've been with multiple girls at one time.

I've never been with multiple men.

I would love to do a gang bang.

I've never had a gang bang. And I like dick, so--

you know, the more dicks, the merrier.

- I'm Ashley. - And I'm Timothy.

- I'm Meg. - Adam.

- Sydney. - Marvin.

- And this-- - This--

- This-- - And this--

- This is my wild sex life.

Whatever you like to do, as long as

you're not harming someone, go ahead and do it.

♪♪♪

- One of the reasons a lot of people are alone in the world

is 'cause they're waiting for the perfect person.

What if instead people were sharing their partners,

their husbands, their wives?

There'd be less lonely people in the world.

[ moaning ]

For me, polyamory was about creating

a more connected world and a world

there was just more love going around.

- Oh, harder. Fuck me--

- We wanted to create a community that makes

all of this safe and supportive.

- I'm hoping to inspire people to reach for something

outside of their comfort zones

to really increase community.

♪♪♪

I was born in Alabama.

I mean, I grew up a hippie kid in communes

and we had this utopian idea about the world.

And it's just something I think I took on

way more than the rest of my siblings.

Growing up in a sexually permissive and open family,

I just came by it naturally, and began to explore.

I'm definitely someone who's changed a lot

from being solo polyamorous and a single woman dating couples

or being in a pretty significant relationship

and having two or three other significant relationships,

to now being mostly with John.

[ cork pops ]

♪♪♪

- To the last day.

- We've been together for three and a half years

and we just got married this past December.

- We do have an open relationship

in comparison to people who

live strictly monogamously.

We look like any relationship between two people

who love each other very much

and are monogamous, except that we aren't.

- Cold!

- When Gabriella and I met, I was still involved with

one or two other people, and Gabriella was involved

with a number of people, too, and we didn't want

to just leave those people hanging

in our excitement for each other.

- And for me, it always felt like

I couldn't have just one person.

I wanted to let my partner also

have other connections that would be meaningful.

We do have way more sex probably than a lot of people

in the general population.

♪♪♪

For John and I, we want to keep growing

as a couple.

[ gasping ]

We want to keep deeply connected

and deeply serving each other.

[ moaning ]

The definition of good sex--

is the sex-- the amount of sex you want,

when you want with who you want.

Our sex life will continue to be a source

of intimacy, a source of excitement,

a source of play, a source of personal growth

that sometimes is challenging, but those things come out

of a number of aspects of our relationship.

But one of the funnest is sex.

[ moaning quietly ]

♪♪♪

There's gonna be a party at the house tonight.

- That's right. - As we know,

and let go of it. - Mm-hmm.

- Some people we don't know at all.

- And some people we know really well.

Some people we kind of know,

and some people we know really well.

- What are your expectations?

What are you interested in doing?

- For tonight? - Yeah.

- Sometimes they're just dinner,

and sometimes they're, like, orgy in the lounge.

- I don't know who's gonna be there.

I don't know what it's gonna be like,

what type of connections people already have with each other.

I'm actually feeling really superb

in my body right now. - Okay.

- Better than last weekend. - Any insecurities

or anything like that we should talk about?

I would love to actually spend most of the night

in a onesie. [ laughs ]

- Are you feeling insecure about your body?

- A little bit. - You're so sexy.

- I'm not.

We're lifestyle, and "lifestyle" means

we have sex with people who are our friends

and we maintain those friendships.

So lifestyle versus poly-- polyamory is,

we have multiple loving relationships.

I love you, you love me, she loves me...

which is way too much for me.

It feels like it would be too easy

just to run away from the hard things

to another relationship.

- Mm-hmm. - Then the lifestyle

is a happy medium in between

where we like to have sex with other people

but we like them to be people we know,

and we may even love them, but we're not responsible

for their emotional wellbeing as a whole.

[ saw buzzing ]

We're looking to meet people who we really like a lot,

and we hang out with them.

- And we sleep with them. - And we sleep with them, yeah.

♪♪♪

[ indistinct greetings ]

- This evening we're having a group of friends over,

and we know everyone who's coming over.

- Most of the people that we've invited

are lovers with us and/or each other.

- Hey, guys!

- Hey. - Hey! Hoo hoo!

[ laughs ] Oh, my gosh.

- Emily, who we dated but haven't been with for a while,

she's bringing someone that we haven't met yet.

So we'll see what happens there. - His name is Eli.

- I'm Eli.

I've been poly forever,

very happily so, and it seems to suit me well.

- And I'm Emily. I'm bisexual,

and I've been connecting with John and Gabriella as a couple.

However, it kind of petered out a little bit.

You guys, we were thinking maybe some massages later.

- We were thinking the same thing.

- I was just doing that. - Yeah.

- It's a little hard to not touch you, so...

- I know, I know, I know. - [ laughs ]

- We have wanted to continue the lover-ship,

but just, I live in the Bay, they live in Oregon.

It's been a little bit challenging.

And so, I kind of was uncertain about like,

okay, how do they want to connect and relate with me now?

How is it gonna be with bringing Eli in?

And there's just--we didn't have communication,

so there's a lot of uncertainty.

- Remember the, uh, sensual cooking class?

- Mm-hmm. - That was really fun, and--

- Was that the one where you mixed up the vegetables

on my back? - Yeah. [ laughs ]

- Gus and Marianne are gonna be here tonight,

the couple that we've been dating for

several months now.

- So there's a strong, warm affection with them

that's playful and sometimes erotic.

Some of the people that are coming

we're not in relationship with anymore, but we were.

[ indistinct chatter ]

For instance, Natesh and I were lovers,

but we're still really good friends,

and he's got a partner who I'm not lovers with.

But they're lovers, or have been lovers,

with some of the people who are coming.

- That's beautiful, love. - Look at that.

- Gorgeous.

Getting together the way we do,

and connecting as friends, as future lovers,

as current lovers, I love bringing people together

because it's just such a good way

to build a stronger community.

So we have two, four, six, eight...

...nine?

All right, let's do this.

- Hello. - Eli.

- Hi, Eli. I'm Amelia.

- Hi, Amelia. - Nice to meet you.

- Yeah, you too.

You guys remember Emily, right?

- Natesh. - Natesh?

- You guys, should we hold hands?

[ laughter ] I want to hold hands.

I want to hold hands.

I just want to take a moment and thank Gabriella and John

for just bringing this tribe together,

and for all of you that contributed to this meal

and blessings, and thank you so much.

♪♪♪

- So are you guys living in a bus, then? Is that what--

- We recently purchased a bus

that we are converting into our home.

- Awesome. - Just over there by that shed.

- Very cool. I feel like there's some energy

between Emily and Eli and us,

we're kind of excited to see where that's gonna go.

It feels like there's a possibility.

- Emily and both her and Eli kept my gaze,

and I was like, "Wow, I can't look away from you.

I can't look away."

Blessings on your grand adventure,

wherever it leads you. - Thanks.

- That's one thing I enjoy about those evenings,

just, like, watching the connections other people make

and getting to bear witness to that

and sometimes I just, like, sit there,

maybe from a distance and look at the goings-on

and just think, "Wow, this is beautiful."

♪♪♪

- How about if you help me move this back about eight inches?

Just so we can get the--

It takes a lot of skill and grace to get people

to start to connect with each other

in a way where they feel comfortable

and also build comfort,

but don't feel coerced.

That's what Gabriella does really well.

- Well, like, what we usually do, like, just go around

and just kind of say how we're feeling right now

and then-- - A place for boundaries

or limits, too. - Yeah.

- What our work will be is to get people talking

and communicating about what they'd like to have happen

and what they wouldn't want to have happen,

and then for us to get creative from there.

- I mean, I'm open to a lot of things if we feel--

if the connection is there.

The most important thing to me

is Gabriella and I's connection

bubbles over to others.

- Yeah, people could just brush my hair

and rub my head and braid it really tight.

- Touch. Just have touching and connection.

- I wanna get in the tub, fo' sho'.

- I'm kinda interested in kissing someone.

- Mm-hmm. - If there's someone you're

interested in and they express what they're looking for

in the evening, maybe that gives you an idea

of how you can approach that person.

- I'm looking forward to having some fun.

- I am probably on the side of more, like, wanting

to receive than give.

- If I engage in any kind of sexual behavior,

it'd probably be oral sex.

- You must tolerate nothing.

Everything should come from a place of desire,

and if you do move into, like, a sexual space,

make sure that it's within the agreements

of your relationship.

- Rowr. - Yeah.

- Let's do it. - Something's happening.

♪♪♪

Can I sit, like, kind of in between your legs?

Like--and lean back?

- Is it okay if I touch you? - Yes, thank you for asking.

- Mm-hmm.

- You want one of these?

- Um, probably not. - What is that?

- Boner pill. - [ laughs ] Oh, okay.

- [ chuckles ]

- Fuck...

- You guys should keep going. That sounds amazing.

Yeah. [ plays bongo ]

♪♪♪

♪♪♪

- It's fun to watch people open and just connect

and experience themselves in a way that they don't get to

in life in general.

♪♪♪

♪♪♪

- I--I'm definitely heterosexual,

but I'm open to sensual touch with men.

There's like, this beautiful, like, brotherly

kindred spirit of being able to just, like,

you know, touch and connect and massage and so,

I love that, like, it ended up turning into

this five-men massage chain,

massaging each other's shoulders.

♪♪♪

- The men just spontaneously started

connecting with each other.

It feels so much safer for the women.

They just know that they've got each other.

They're not gonna be putting as much pressure on us

to meet their touch needs

or to meet their needs for affection or intimacy.

♪♪♪

- I got to look over and see you and Gabriella and John

all having that beautiful three-way kiss...

- Oh. - ...between you two?

That was just so hot to watch that.

- And I love to know that you were watching.

♪♪♪

- I enjoyed the way Emily showed up

and was so playful.

♪♪♪

- Wow. That's hot.

- I really loved watching the way they connected with John.

- That--that was kind of hot.

I thought that was really beautiful.

♪♪♪

- It's always just a microscopic bit edgy

for me to kiss another guy. - Of course.

- Like, I haven't done that.

- See, I get so turned on by that. I'm like, "Yes!"

- I love watching John be with other people,

being validated in his-- in his masculinity

and his attractiveness.

- Our love and our excitement

works so well for us and it's really fun for us

when other people-- - And it's really fun

for them, too, when we're together. [ laughs ]

'Cause we just sort of-- we work really well together.

- All right, let's go-- let's, uh--

Should we head up to the snuggle space?

- We're gonna start moving upstairs, guys.

♪♪♪

- We'll run the evening with--

facilitating it and guiding people.

So we--we should climb into the bed here.

- Mmm. - Find a place,

and just--and we'll just start snuggling.

The way we do the snuggles is, you know,

everyone starts together. We do, like, a big spoon,

so everyone is connected.

Normally I would say we should all start by asking

"What kind of touch do you want?"

But we're past that. [ laughter ]

- Gabriella does this, like, beautiful job

of guiding us all through this, like, wonderful way to connect.

- And we kind of shuffle throughout the evening

so that people get to experience different people.

Okay, so, I recommend that two people

get out, just randomly, and move to the ends.

And the nice thing about that is you--you might have

some ideas in your mind about, like,

whether I'm gonna be attracted to this person

or have good energy with that person.

Then you get really surprised.

Okay, so now we're gonna turn over.

- All right.

♪♪♪

- [ moaning ] Oh, yeah. Oh, God!

♪♪♪

- I think at one point it was you between Emily and I

and then Eli was in front of us

and you're like, "Whose hand is this?

Whose leg is that?"

♪♪♪

- I want to say that when I tell my mom some of these things

she's like, "Oh, my God, babe, we were doing that in the '60s."

[ laughs ] So it's nothing new.

♪♪♪

I think orgies are more common, maybe,

in our world than in some other people's worlds.

♪♪♪

People have a really negative connotation about orgies.

When I say "orgy," I'm really talking about

an environment or situation where everything's possible,

nothing is expected.

♪♪♪

- Eli and Emily, with the two of them,

it was feeling very right.

And we decided maybe the four of us should go

connect with each other without all these other distractions.

We took them to our room.

- Good, good. I was thinking it'd be good for us

to just have, like, the STD talk?

- Yes. - Talk.

- I was last completely tested last July,

and I'm clean.

- I think that a lot of people

don't like to talk about STIs,

and there's a lot of fear.

- We are without STIs.

Every time we have a connection with somebody we don't know,

we have that conversation.

- Um, I was tested eight weeks ago.

- It doesn't take away from the energy

'cause we can still be having that conversation

and cuddling and touching.

- I've had a vasectomy.

Um, I've got, um, two partners currently active.

- I don't think it ruins the mood.

I think it is actually a super sexy thing

to be safe and to talk about.

♪♪♪

♪♪♪

- It's exciting to play with somebody new or different.

- [ laughs, moans ] Yes.

- Oh, baby! You're back!

I really felt Amelia like super open to me,

and I was like, "Okay, this is feeling really good."

♪♪♪

- [ gasps ] Yeah. Yeah. Oh, yeah.

Oh, my God!

Feeling you right next to me,

and feeling Eli next to me as well

while I receiving the pleasure she was giving me was--

I just felt so loved. I felt all, all of the support.

[ moaning ] Ah, yes.

[ moaning ]

- The way Emily uses her voice and interacts with me

made me feel really safe and it gave me the ability

to release and experience the orgasm that I had.

[ screaming ] Oh, yes!

[ screaming continues ]

Oh, yeah, I was squirting, baby!

- [ laughs ] Oh, my God. - Yeah.

- That was incredible. An amazing, amazing experience.

- All of a sudden, just gush, gush, gush, gush, gush.

Gush, gush, gush, ♪ gush! All over.

- [ laughs ]

- You fucking squirted all over me!

- Oh, it was so good.

- That was so-- that was such a gift.

- That was such a gift to me. - That was so good.

That was such a gift.

- I am really concerned about

a world where we're moving further and further away from

connecting on the physical level.

♪♪♪

- We're primates, you know. We're meant to connect.

We're meant to share. We're meant to bond.

What we want to do in an open relationship

is just share with others what's really working well for us.

And when they're attracted to that

and we're attracted to them, it feels like more.

Once you've, like, made love in front of people

or watched them make love, there's trust that comes.

These little gatherings are kind of like food for the soul.

But it's also about how do you bring

more love into the world? How do you have more,

deeper, loving connections with people?

I think that's what I'm here to do.

I really feel like I'm here to change the world.

♪♪♪

How do you feel about

getting naked and sitting on a cake?

- Getting naked and sitting on a cake.

- It's a thing to sit on a cake naked?

- Getting--I've-- Ooh, that sounds--

- Sploshing. I'm into it.

- Sitting on a cake? Oh, we should try that.

- I've never heard of that before, actually.

- That's--that's good.

That's good. I want to do that.

Hmm. Hold on, wait.

That sounds sexy. - How do I feel about

getting naked and sitting on a cake?

- A cake?

If I sat on a cake naked?

- I would probably eat the cake after we had sex,

but I would not sit on a cake naked.

- We like both things. - We do.

- Man, that was weird. Who asked that question?

- [ laughs ] No!

I would to sit on a cake naked.

- [ inhales, exhales ] That wouldn't do a thing for me.

A cake?

- Cake's pretty greasy, right?

It's good moisturizer. - Yeah.

That too. You know, the-- - I would probably be, like,

digging myself into the cake as much as possible.

- My ex and I used to joke around

about having sex with cakes.

We would always talk about it and like, go to cake shops

and be like, "Ooh, let's fuck that cake."

I would still do that.

- Sponge cake? Depends on how to sit on it.

[ laughter ]

- Can't say I wouldn't try it, but...

- Yeah. - I'd say...

I would do it right now. That would be inappropriate.

- I hate frosting in my mouth,

and I would not want it in my asshole.

[ laughs ]

- Agreed. On all the counts.

- Yeah, I don't know that I'm opposed to it.

That sounds really sexy.

Sounds like it would feel really good.

I would love to sit on a cake naked.

I would--do you have a cake?

♪♪♪

♪♪♪

I was nine years old. I was in the bathtub shaving.

Got a little too much shaving cream on me,

and I was like, "Okay.

There needs to be more on me."

It was just like, wow.

Why do I just like lathering?

Or just feeling myself?

♪ It's loud and clear

- That orgasm through sploshing

was my first orgasm.

♪♪♪

- Start getting all the food in place.

Bill and I will get the lights ready.

- Oh, there's so many cakes, I love it.

- Let's see if we can get this scene lit.

- I think one of the most appealing sights

is a line of cakes at the bakery,

all freshly decorated, very beautifully done.

It looks like all the bakers took their sweet time

on each single one of them.

And what runs through my head whenever I see that is

"I wanna smush 'em."

Sploshing is erotic food play...

...with certain textures.

Frostings,

cakes, pies.

That sensation...

having that covering, you're losing yourself

into the texture.

♪♪♪

- Put this over this one real fast.

What draws a lot of people into the sploshing interest

is everybody's taught don't play with your food,

use your silverware correctly, you're not supposed to be messy.

What we do is the antithesis of that.

Down a little bitty bit more.

Okay, let me have you hop back in the pool, pretty please.

♪ So much confidence

♪ Let me show you my present tense ♪

♪ Baby, there is no consequence ♪

♪ Feel me...

- Give me a big ol' bite of marshmallows.

♪ Who's this new girl?

♪ Who's this new skin?

♪ What's this new life

♪ She been fighting?

- Gonna have you extend this guy out at me

so we get that 3-D punch.

- [ giggles ]

I got sent to etiquette school when I was younger.

- Right there, perfect.

- My mom was like, "Stop touching your food.

Stop playing with you food."

'Cause I would always get ice creams,

then have it slipping all over my mouth.

♪ I've been hiding so much of myself ♪

♪ I don't know where to start

♪ This new girl

♪ Who's this new skin?

- This is insane. Sploshing with a view?

Whaa!

♪ She been fighting

[ camera shutter clicking ]

♪♪♪

- Fucking thick, I love it.

I knew Clix as a really cool photographer.

Let's see what we can stick onto the butt.

[ camera shutter clicks ]

And I was going on Instagram,

and I came across MessyHot's page.

I started really looking at it.

I was like, "Wait a minute."

These girls are in cakes.

These girls are covered in icing.

I was like, "This is exactly what I'm doing

at home by myself."

♪ Who this new girl?

♪ What's the new plan?

- She messaged me a while back and said,

"Hey, I like what you do. I'd like to give this a shot."

And she had bright blue hair, and I was like, "Ah,

this is right up my alley. I'll do the thing."

So came out to California, and we did our first shoot

on a beach in Malibu.

♪♪♪

Basically we just went on the beach,

made a huge mess.

And she had this constant look of joy on her face.

So we wrapped our shoot and I put it online,

and then all of a sudden I was just getting all these messages.

"Hey, we really like this new model."

Lum has become one of the faces of MessyHot.

♪♪♪

- When I'm in the zone and I'm sploshing,

I'm just letting go.

It's honestly made me such a happier person,

because it's my release.

It's my freedom, my safe space.

One, two, three!

Oh!

[ gasping, giggling ] Oh, my God, that feels so good!

And there you have it.

There's a lot of people who have

a very specific response trigger

to the feeling of being sticky or the feeling of being messy.

A lot of people that I shoot with love the sensation

of sprinkles just pouring over their face.

- [ gasps ] - and you can feel each

little individual ball bouncing off your face.

♪♪♪

The feeling of slipping on the frosting...

♪♪♪

Sometimes it's the sound of the crunching

from stepping on the crunchy stuff.

- Ooh! - It just gives

a really powerful emotional and neurological response.

There's just something that pushes people's buttons

and for a lot of people, that's wired to a sexual response.

♪♪♪

- Gorgeous!

♪♪♪

- Is it cupcake o'clock? - Mm-hmm.

[ gasps, laughs ]

- Ooh, what's wrong with my aim today?

♪♪♪

[ cheering ]

All right, let's make that whipped cream

explode real quick. - Yes!

- All right, give me a three.

- Three, two, one.

[ exclaims ]

I got it right in my face!

- Beautifully well-executed.

♪♪♪

Oh, my God. Here we are, um,

shopping for the first time with my cutie,

and this is the first time we're gonna do this,

and get really messy together.

I'm really excited to see what kind of cake options they have,

so... [ laughs ]

Mwah.

Let's see how messy we can get.

The most consistent question I would get--

"How do I get into this?"

Look at how excited she is.

"Where do I even start?"

- [ laughs ]

- Oh, my God, that one's really cute, though.

You go to the grocery store,

picking out your favorite colors,

what kind of icings,

what kind of sprinkles that you want to use--

just incorporating your specific thing.

I want to get frosting on me already.

- That cake is bigger than you.

Get the full experience of picking out your groceries

and getting really personalized. It builds up.

It builds up the sensual connection.

This is so exciting. [ laughs ]

♪♪♪

- I don't think I've ever seen a cake that big before.

Especially not my own cake.

- It's our cake, oh, my God.

- We got a cheesecake. We got, like, confetti cake.

We got the sheet cake. Oh, my God.

- Do you think we have too much?

- Mmm, I don't think so. - [ laughs ]

- I think it's just the right amount.

- I met Lum Through Clix.

He needed a little help doing a photo shoot.

So I helped take some pictures,

and it just kind of sparked something in me.

I was like, "That looks really fun."

♪ Pie!

"Maybe I could try getting messy myself."

- I'm, like, eyeballing this jelly so hard.

I'm...[ laughs ]

One...two...

Three!

Four.

Five.

Six. - Six whipped cream.

- Seven! Let's say seven.

- I have to work in a very professional environment

where I can't truly be myself.

How may corn syrups do we have?

I don't like having to pretend I'm somebody else

or hide certain aspects of myself.

I think everyone should be able to be who they are.

- Yum!

Yes, okay. I think it's time I take these clothes off.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

Much better.

- You look so cute. - Youlook so cute!

- Okay, so we need to add more whipped cream.

Lum definitely is an inspiration to me

to be myself and to not be afraid

to take chances and experiment.

- All right, one, two, three.

- Oof! [ laughter ]

Oh...

♪♪♪

- It's being able to just fully let go

and be in a moment, and wherever that moment takes you.

[ laughter ]

However messy you get.

However wet you get.

Whatever texture, whatever liquid,

whatever the sensation of you're messing yourself up with,

you are having that kind of mental freedom.

How do you feel, being all messy?

- Amazing. - Yeah?

- Mm-hmm. So soft and squishy.

Show me your butt.

Oh, my God! [ laughs ]

- This is intense.

This is a really nice sensation.

Or having another person here,

being able to feel textures with.

- Aww.

- I've been very lucky to be

around people and meeting partners

that have been very willing and very open.

It's not weird, it's not wrong to understand what you like

and know what you like specifically.

♪ Can't control

I like to tell people, "Start lightly.

"Start slow. Know what you want to do,

and play around and just be openminded."

♪ Roll, let it roll

Even if it's really just straight down to just

lathering yourself up in a tub.

♪ 'Cause you can't control

♪ When the thunder meets the lightning ♪

♪ Let it roll

- A lot of people, for some reason,

imagine that participating in this sort of thing

would be degrading.

- [ laughter ]

- With MessyHot, it's a celebration.

It's a celebration of beauty.

It's a celebration of sensuality.

♪ Let it roll

- It's sparked this beautiful journey

that I'm apparently on of just understanding my sexuality

and understanding who I am.

♪ You can't control

♪ When the thunder meets the lightning ♪

Sploshing really...

It really opened me up to be just me, 24/7.

♪♪♪

- Unlikeliest person I've ever fantasized about?

Is that someone who's like not traditionally hot?

I don't think this is that weird,

but I have, like, massive crushes on Will Ferrell

and Jason Seagal. They're like my--my dream men.

- I do have a hard-on for Anthony Hopkins.

I have to admit. It's just something

that I really find myself drawn to as opposed

to say, you know, Brad Pitt, where it's like,

"Yeah, aesthetically, you're really hot,

but I don't really think I'd keep you in the bed very long."

I'd probably just be like, "Okay, we're done. Get out."

- The unlikeliest person I've ever fantasized about was

my law professor.

He was like... had to have been 70.

He's passed away now, that's how old he is.

But I totally thought he was a dirty boy,

so I really fantasized about him all the time.

And he gave me a good grade.

- Theo Von. He's a comedian.

I'm a comedian, but I can't ever fuck him

because I'm not as famous as him.

So then I'd just be known as like the chick who fucked

a famous comedian.

- I think Carrot Top's really hot.

I know it's odd.

Yeah, I mean, yeah, I have a thing for redheads,

Covered in freckles, redhead, I'll lie in bed

and like, play connect the dots.

- The unlikeliest person I've fantasized about

is the Hound from "Game of Thrones."

His, like, whole face is burned,

and he's got, like, this, like, greasy wig,

but he's like 6'6" and super hairy

and I'm just so into him.

My friends make fun of me all the time for it.

- You know what, I've been fantasizing a lot

about older women. For whatever reason,

now that I've got older,

I have a crazy fetish, sometimes,

depending on my mood when I wake up,

for older ladies.

Sometimes it can be GILF porn.

If a grandma looks nice and it's crazy,

and it's spontaneous, and it's spun the right way,

it'll fucking get me off.

- Fidel Castro is probably the unlikeliest person

I've had a sexual fantasy about.

I was going through a dark phase in my time

and a dictator just seemed sexy to me.

I've grown out of that phase now.

♪♪♪

♪♪♪

- A successful model, she knows how to talk

and she's a real person.

And that's how she grabs you.

Before I started camming, I was working

for a pharmaceutical company.

So I went from doing, like, a modest job

to something that's more, like, on the edge.

- You are in Hollywood and you come into an office,

like everybody else, but what you're doing

is not what they're doing.

- Well, hello there.

Studio 20, they pretty much groomed me

to be a successful model.

♪♪♪

- So it starts in free chat,

where you have lots of members,

and you're meeting everybody.

But the moment they press the "private" button

is when you start making money.

How are you doing today?

[ chuckles ] That's good.

What's your name, baby?

Oh, Cowboy.

Where you from?

Texas. Of course you're from Texas,

Cowboy. So I heard everything is bigger in Texas.

Is that true?

It's not a myth? Really?

[ chuckles ]

♪♪♪

Ooh, I can be your cowgirl?

I've been camming for about a year and three months.

I like to describe myself as an onion.

I have lots of different layers of different people

when I'm in mistress mode, when I'm in teacher mode,

when I'm being seductive.

The thing I really like about camming

and when we're online is like, I'm in control.

These guys know a lot about your life,

but we can text them on an app

so we can get, like, FaceTime calls,

text messages, so they really feel like

they're your friends, like they're a part of your life.

You're their therapist, you're their fantasy,

you're their everything.

You like me like that, don't you?

♪♪♪

- Yeah? Okay.

Hi there, Katie.

- I'm Andra. I'm the P.R. and marketing manager

for Studio 20.

- The problem that we have

is that you don't look into the camera.

- I have a law degree.

I worked in marketing and social media before,

so when this job opened up, I was very curious about it.

- You're looking at the TV, but the camera's here, you know?

So let's look at how-- let's move the camera a bit,

and let's look at how it looks afterwards.

A lot of people have this preconceived idea

that webcamming is just about sex,

but it's more about creating the connection

with our members. That is actually how you get

to become a good webcam model.

♪♪♪

Studio 20 is the biggest livecam network in the world.

We provide facilitation for the girls

that want to work as webcam models.

A webcam model is a performer

that broadcasts from our studio

onto a cam site platform.

So it's basically like broadcasting live

on a social media platform,

just that for this one, you get paid for it.

For a model that has been working for a year,

she should expect around 6,000, even 8,000,

after two weeks.

It's also a safe environment for them,

because we provide the rooms, the training,

the cameras, the lighting,

the bedsheets, everything for the performers

to come and do their work.

Okay, awesome, Katie.

You look gorgeous, by the way. - Thank you.

We're trying to help every girl that domes into the studio

explore her full potential.

♪♪♪

- Camming is an occupation like any other.

It's a career, not just a job.

So we invest a lot more time into it,

and enjoy our work.

- You know, she's gorgeous. I love her.

There's powder in her room.

- Oh, yeah. She never-- - Okay? Always.

All the time. - We bought her some.

- The staff cares about us a lot.

They get really excited for us,

and they're not faking it, either.

They're, like, really happy when we do well.

- Like, real close. Real close.

The role of the trainers is to help the girls,

so we're giving constant feedback and support

to every performer that we have,

and seeing them grow and seeing them develop

and learning about themselves.

We're actually building them up for success.

Now, awesome.

- You like it better? - Yeah. What do you think?

- She's still not looking at the camera.

- She's not looking at the camera, but it's...

because she's not looking at the camera.

Camming is about being empowered,

and being free to explore who you are.

Oh, okay, there we go. - Okay, much better.

- There we go, see?

Awesome. - Okay.

- Awesomeness. And you see her beautiful face.

This is the empowerment, and this is why we do it.

- When I first got to Studio 20,

I had no idea what to expect,

but people were friendly. It didn't seem like

a cam studio. I was very, very comfortable.

There's all women here,

so the team really is supportive.

It's not like you're in a room by yourself

and they're just sticking you in a camera

and you're just gonna masturbate all day.

Like, no, it's nothing like that.

So, Mr. Cowboy, are you single?

Are you married?

You are--ooh. Naughty, naughty boy.

Where's your wife?

You want to keep them talking, that's the thing.

That's where you're gonna make

the majority of your money is from the conversation.

My trainer told me, you know, the first private I had.

As soon as I go in there, I'm like, taking my clothes off.

My trainer was like, "Whoa, like, slow down."

I'm gonna introduce you to Coco and Chanel.

Mmm, they're my new twins, Cowboy.

Mm-hmm, Cowboy.

Just let him tell you what he wants,

'cause not everybody wants you to get naked.

Some tight shorts? Really naughty.

But I think when you're online,

it kinda gives the guy an opportunity

to get to know you better,

because they can't actually touch you

so if I can't touch you I have to figure out

another way to get to you, so that's through your mind.

That's through the conversation.

There's different guys that want different things in a private.

You can be asleep. Some guys want to watch you

do your makeup. So it's not all sexual

and this is what people misunderstand about camming.

It's whatever you want it to be, whatever your fantasy is,

is just on the camera.

You have your own will.

That's the thing I really like about camming is

you're in control of what you do.

If you don't feel comfortable in doing anything,

you don't have to do it.

They tell me all the time,

like, I can be myself here.

I love girls and guys.

I'm greedy. I like both.

[ chuckles ]

Hello, hello, ladies.

- Hello. - Hey, how's your day going?

- All right.

"We succeed together"

is the motto of Studio 20.

It means that we cannot do anything without each other.

We need people in our lives,

and we need each other to help each other grow.

- This environment is kinda like a family here.

You know, it's really like a family setting.

Just being in a studio is great, 'cause there's lots of girls

who come through that have been cam models

and cammed from home and it's a totally different experience.

- I was. - Camming from home

than being here and having the support

and having--yeah. - It's a lot better.

- I always knew sexuality was something that I need to

find a job with. - Right.

- And then I found this place and I was like, "Oh."

- Yeah, it's like you can get into it,

and it's a professional setting.

- The studio holds us accountable to our goals.

- Exactly.

- Regardless of all the sexuality,

the staple of what we do is about the intimacy,

and in the day-to-day check-ins.

- As soon as you have this type of conversation with them

in private and they find out, you know,

more about your personal life and you start to let them in,

then they realize that you're a real person

and these are just fantasies that we all have.

Once you start sharing things with them, they're like,

"Oh, my god, I feel the same way."

And it's like they just didn't have anybody to talk to

that's just open 'cause they didn't want to seem weird

to anybody or seem like you were too sexual.

- I know I've talked to you many times about it

and you really--you involve your own sexuality a lot.

- Mm-hmm. - And you like--you like

hearing their voice, remember we said, right?

- Like when they're coming or while they're wanking,

you can hear their voice quiver. They're like, "Oh, baby."

It's hot. [ laughter ]

Like, I love that part. It's like, I want to hear you.

And then, like, I'll tell them,

"I want to hear out of your mouth--

tell me how you feel. Tell me what you want to do to me."

And it's just like-- I think it makes them, like,

have a better orgasm because they're actually saying it.

They're confessing it with their mouth.

So it's like, I want to push them to do

stuff that they normally wouldn't do, you know.

So it is a power thing.

♪♪♪

But I'm not gonna stop until it's throbbing, baby.

Until it's leaking come.

For me to go back to a 9-to-5,

I would never want to. Like, I feel like

you're successful when you get paid

doing the things that you love to do.

Now I want you to brush it across my lips.

Women that judge me and other cam models,

they're actually doing the same thing that we're doing

with the sexting and sending nudes and all that stuff.

Hey, you can send nudes. I send 'em, too,

but the difference is I get paid for it and you don't.

We can do this whenever you want.

Did you add me to your favorites?

We're here for us not to be judged

and for us to do the things that we like to do.

It was nice meeting you. Mwah.

Bye, shy Cowboy. [ chuckles ]

Talk to you soon, babe.

Bye.

♪♪♪

♪ Ain't it crazy

♪ How you love someone

♪ Ain't it crazy

♪ Whoo-hoo

♪ Ain't it crazy

♪ When you can't get enough

♪ Ain't it crazy

♪ Whoo-hoo