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[Prologue]
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[Chapter One: Grief]
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Hey.
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How are ya?
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Didn't we just talk about that?
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That was yesterday.
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Today is Tuesday.
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So I've been here long?
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A month.
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Wayne says that...
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my grief pattern is atypical.
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Yeah.
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Got to talk with Wayne.
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I think he gives too much medication.
Way too much.
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Stop it, please.
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Trust others to be smarter than you.
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He's straight out of medical school;
he doesn't know what he's doing.
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I've treated ten times
as many patients as he has.
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But you're not a doctor.
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No, I'm not.
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And I'm proud that I'm not,
when I meet a doctor like him.
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There is nothing...
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atypical about your grief.
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It was my fault.
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What about me?
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I was there too.
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I could have stopped him.
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No.
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You didn't know that he...
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had started waking up lately.
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I was aware that he would sometimes...
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wake up...
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and crawl out of bed.
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And walk about...
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just as he thought that
you were soundly asleep.
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He could open the baby gate.
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He...
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He woke up...
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And w...
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was confused.
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Hey.
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Dr. Wayne says he won't be back up.
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You couldn't leave it, could you?
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Had to mettle.
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This place leads nowhere.
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On the contrary.
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Grief.
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It's not a disease.
It's a natural healthy reaction.
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You can't just remove it.
You mustn't.
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Wayne knows you're a therapist.
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He said you shouldn't
treat your own family.
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In principle I agree, but...
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But you're just so much smarter...
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aren't you?
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I love you.
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Nothing hurts more than
to see the one that you love...
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subjected to mistakes and wrongs.
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No therapist can know
as much about you as I do.
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It hurts.
I know.
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There's no way around it.
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I want to talk to...
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Nah, I'm not gonna let you do that.
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Will it just go on and on?
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No.
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No, it'll change.
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Will it get any worse?
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Yes, it will.
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You've always been distant
from me and Nick.
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Now that I come to think of it...
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very, very distant.
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Okay.
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Can you give me some examples
of this?
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Hell, that's not that
difficult to understand.
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Like, last summer for instance.
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You were terribly distant last summer.
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As a father...
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and as a husband.
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And that was Nick's last summer
you missed out on.
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Too bad.
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I never interested you.
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Until now...
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that I'm your patient.
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Perhaps I'm not supposed
to talk about these things.
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There is nothing you can't talk about.
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You're indifferent
to whether your child is alive or dead.
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I bet you have a lot of
clever therapist replies to that.
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Haven't you?
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Well, actually...
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It was to honor your wish.
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You wanted peace to write.
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Perhaps I didn't mean it.
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What I understood...
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is that you wanted to write alone.
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That you and Nick,
were going to go to Eden;
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just the two of you.
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That way
you could finish your thesis.
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But I didn't.
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You didn't?
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You see?
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You didn't even know that.
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Why did you give up?
That's not like you.
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The whole project just seemed
less important up there.
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As you said, when I like talked
to you about my subject...
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"Glib".
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I never called your subject glib.
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Perhaps you didn't use that word,
but that's what you meant.
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And all of a sudden
it was glib.
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Or even worse...
some, some kind of lie.
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I see.
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No, you don't see.
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You see a lot of things,
but not that.
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Inhale, on the count of five.
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Calmly, calmly.
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Just... Follow me.
Do it with me. Inhale.
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Inhale, on a count of five.
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Inhale... Two.
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Stay with me...
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Stay with me.
I'm gonna teach you how to breathe.
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Inhale...
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2, 3, 4, 5, hold.
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2, 3, 4, 5, exhale,
2, 3, 4. Good.
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Imagine...
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Imagine you're blowing on your...
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thistle blooms.
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Calmly, quietly...
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Yes, yes, that's good.
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That's good.
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That's very good.
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I told you there would be a change.
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You're still mourning,
but you're in a new phase.
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What phase?
Anxiety.
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Anxiety?
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Yes.
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This is physical.
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It's dangerous.
No, it's not dangerous.
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Just as your grief wasn't dangerous.
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A main part of anxiety...
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is physical,
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dizzy spells,
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dry mouth,
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distorted hearing,
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trembling,
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heavy breathing,
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fast pulse,
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nausea.
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Hey!
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Easy.
Never screw your therapist.
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No matter how much
your therapist may like it.
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I know that distracts you, but...
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it's not good for us.
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Do the breathing.
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Hold.
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Exhale.
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Do you love me?
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Yes, I do.
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Then help me.
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That's what I'm doing.
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Exposure.
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That's the only thing that really works.
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Everything else is...
just talk.
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You have to have the courage to stay
in the situation that frightens you.
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And then you'll learn
that fear isn't dangerous.
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Let's make a list of things
you're afraid of.
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At the top
you put the situation you fear the most.
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But I don't know
what I'm afraid of.
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Just... take your time.
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I'm thinking.
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Okay.
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I'm thinking ah, but I...
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Can't I just be afraid
without a definite object?
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No, no!
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Calm down.
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Come on. Calm down.
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This won't do.
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Stup... Stupidest thing I could do to you.
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If you can't tell me...
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what you're afraid of, maybe it
would be easier for you to tell me...
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where you're afraid?
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Where would you feel most exposed?
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What would be the worst place?
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An apartment?
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On the street?
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A store?
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The park?
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Listening to someone, maybe.
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The woods.
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The woods?
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The woods, yes.
It's funny because...
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you were the one that always wanted
to go into the woods.
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What scares you about the woods?
What frightens you, there?
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Everything.
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Tell me what you think
is supposed to happen in the woods.
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Is...
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Is it any woods in particular?
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Eden.
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Eden?
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Well, what do you say we put...
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The garden around Eden
at the top of the pyramid?
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No.
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Not quite at the top.
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No.
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Don't you...
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Stop it! Stop.
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Okay.
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Ow! Ow.
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It's okay, it's okay. I'm sorry.
It's alright.
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I don't know what...
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We can start by working
on your expectations.
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Close your eyes.
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Feel the seat underneath you.
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Feel yourself sinking down into it.
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Enfolding you...
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It's a nice feeling.
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All you feel is a pleasant warmth...
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and heaviness.
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Your breath... is deep,
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regular, easing.
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Now...
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imagine you're at Eden.
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Imagine you arrived
at Eden through the woods.
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Tell me what you see.
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I'm at the bridge.
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It's evening.
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Almost no birds can be heard.
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The water is running without a sound.
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Darkness comes early down here.
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I walk into it.
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The little deers are hiding
among the ferns, as usual.
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Is it difficult to walk there?
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No, not really.
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In fact, it's almost okay.
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In among the trees,
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on the slope,
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there's a big old foxhole.
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How do you feel there?
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I can't really tell.
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It should be easy...
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passing.
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And yet...
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It's like walking through mud.
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The trunk is thick.
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The tree rots so slowly.
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It has some strange kind of personality.
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I've always felt that.
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And now?
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Where are you? Are you,
are you heading for the cabin?
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Yes, I am.
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I'm walking up the path,
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through the tall grass.
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Then don't go in.
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Don't go in.
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It's the outside you're afraid of.
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Now look around.
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No.
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Lie down on the green.
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You want me to lie down?
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Lie down on the grass.
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On top of all the plants?
Y... yes, lie down on the plants.
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Are you lying down?
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Yes.
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Good.
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What is everything like around you?
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Green.
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It's all very green.
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Good.
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Now will you do what I ask you?
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Yes.
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What do you want me to do?
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I want you...
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to melt into the green.
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Don't fight it.
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Just...
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turn green.
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No matter what happens,
you were there. You did it.
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Let fear come, if it likes.
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Remember, what the mind can conceive
and believe it can achieve.
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What's wrong?
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The ground is burning.
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The ground is not burning.
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Gotta go.
281
00:33:30,580 --> 00:33:31,708
I want to lie down.
282
00:33:32,740 --> 00:33:33,708
Just for a minute.
283
00:33:36,527 --> 00:33:37,487
Sure.
284
00:33:38,580 --> 00:33:39,727
Yeah, We'll take a rest.
285
00:36:01,040 --> 00:36:07,280
[Chapter Two: Pain (Chaos Reigns)]
286
00:36:08,820 --> 00:36:10,013
Shouldn't we go on?
287
00:36:17,140 --> 00:36:18,272
Yeah.
288
00:36:20,300 --> 00:36:21,381
Yeah, we should.
289
00:37:27,340 --> 00:37:28,730
Start.
290
00:37:31,940 --> 00:37:33,170
Stay with it.
291
00:37:38,740 --> 00:37:39,769
I know it hurts.
292
00:37:40,620 --> 00:37:42,678
Stay! Stay in it.
293
00:40:47,729 --> 00:40:50,068
It's just the stupid acorns.
294
00:42:19,474 --> 00:42:20,414
What are you doing?
295
00:42:21,374 --> 00:42:22,314
I'm just...
296
00:42:23,993 --> 00:42:26,983
setting up a little exercise.
297
00:42:28,493 --> 00:42:30,792
It's... it's like a...
298
00:42:32,980 --> 00:42:34,262
It's like a game.
299
00:42:34,632 --> 00:42:36,012
You cheated me yesterday.
300
00:42:37,081 --> 00:42:38,261
Running's no good.
301
00:42:38,521 --> 00:42:40,901
You have to
really feel the grass.
302
00:42:42,241 --> 00:42:43,720
I want you to go from this stone...
303
00:42:45,620 --> 00:42:47,000
to this stone.
304
00:42:48,789 --> 00:42:50,149
Pretty scary, huh?
305
00:42:51,519 --> 00:42:52,439
You ready?
306
00:42:54,079 --> 00:42:55,019
Here,
307
00:42:55,958 --> 00:42:56,948
I'll give you a ride.
308
00:42:58,708 --> 00:43:00,238
I'll put you on the first stone.
309
00:43:02,900 --> 00:43:04,657
Just stay with it.
310
00:43:06,167 --> 00:43:06,977
Here we go.
311
00:43:07,517 --> 00:43:09,116
Now put your foot down.
I got you.
312
00:43:09,616 --> 00:43:11,336
I got you!
I'm right here.
313
00:43:12,106 --> 00:43:13,136
I can't do this.
314
00:43:13,171 --> 00:43:14,355
Yes, you can.
315
00:43:15,035 --> 00:43:16,585
You can and you will.
316
00:43:16,735 --> 00:43:17,965
Just like I will.
317
00:43:18,115 --> 00:43:19,965
We're gonna walk together.
318
00:43:20,234 --> 00:43:21,614
We're gonna walk together, okay?
319
00:43:21,649 --> 00:43:22,744
Nope.
320
00:43:23,184 --> 00:43:24,744
Alright, now breathe.
321
00:43:25,260 --> 00:43:26,743
You're gonna step off the rock.
322
00:43:27,500 --> 00:43:29,283
You're gonna step on that grass.
323
00:43:30,180 --> 00:43:31,163
Step down.
324
00:43:31,540 --> 00:43:34,042
Safe. What happened? Nothing.
325
00:43:34,372 --> 00:43:36,402
Keep breathing.
Kee... keep breathing.
326
00:43:36,472 --> 00:43:37,600
I've got you.
327
00:43:37,940 --> 00:43:39,751
You're really doing great.
328
00:43:39,791 --> 00:43:41,921
You okay? Keep breathing.
329
00:43:41,956 --> 00:43:44,051
Five, five and five.
330
00:43:47,910 --> 00:43:48,980
You're almost there.
331
00:43:49,750 --> 00:43:51,480
You're almost there.
You're doing great.
332
00:43:54,340 --> 00:43:55,649
You're doing fine.
333
00:44:00,568 --> 00:44:02,228
We're there. Gee, we're there.
334
00:44:02,338 --> 00:44:03,660
There you go.
335
00:44:08,447 --> 00:44:09,607
You did it.
336
00:44:13,196 --> 00:44:14,226
You learned something.
337
00:44:16,885 --> 00:44:18,025
Didn't you?
338
00:44:22,525 --> 00:44:23,900
You did beautifully.
339
00:44:25,644 --> 00:44:26,634
You did beautifully.
340
00:45:16,246 --> 00:45:18,320
I miss him so much.
341
00:45:38,033 --> 00:45:39,712
I've been afraid up here before.
342
00:45:41,742 --> 00:45:43,562
Yes, it seems likely.
343
00:45:45,981 --> 00:45:47,491
I just didn't know it was fear.
344
00:45:52,970 --> 00:45:56,470
I became afraid...
...and I stopped writing.
345
00:45:59,069 --> 00:46:01,259
What was different... the last time?
346
00:46:07,588 --> 00:46:08,638
I heard a sound.
347
00:46:17,240 --> 00:46:20,240
[Baby crying]
348
00:46:29,724 --> 00:46:30,684
Nick?
349
00:46:34,054 --> 00:46:35,213
Nick!
350
00:46:41,832 --> 00:46:42,922
Nick!
351
00:46:52,821 --> 00:46:53,651
Nick!
352
00:47:00,160 --> 00:47:00,989
Nick!
353
00:48:04,789 --> 00:48:07,000
You didn't hear Nick screaming.
354
00:48:10,528 --> 00:48:11,718
Apparently not.
355
00:48:12,218 --> 00:48:15,780
And because you experienced something
that you couldn't explain rationally,
356
00:48:15,797 --> 00:48:18,980
you placed Eden very
high on the pyramid chart.
357
00:48:24,260 --> 00:48:26,790
Eden was the catalyst
that triggered your fear.
358
00:48:27,060 --> 00:48:28,790
You jumped to conclusions...
359
00:48:29,460 --> 00:48:32,120
and tied the emotional
event with the place.
360
00:48:33,580 --> 00:48:36,000
When you feel threatened
it's natural to react.
361
00:48:36,580 --> 00:48:39,930
If the danger were real,
your fear would save your life.
362
00:48:40,140 --> 00:48:43,470
Because your adrenaline will be used
for fight or flight.
363
00:48:45,420 --> 00:48:48,420
But what you're experiencing
is panic, nothing more.
364
00:48:49,540 --> 00:48:51,330
The scream wasn't real.
365
00:49:01,860 --> 00:49:02,750
Stop!
366
00:49:05,630 --> 00:49:07,620
Ca... Calm down.
367
00:49:08,540 --> 00:49:09,980
You shouldn't have come here.
368
00:49:11,580 --> 00:49:13,388
You're just so damn arrogant.
369
00:49:15,620 --> 00:49:17,480
But this may not last.
370
00:49:19,240 --> 00:49:20,510
Ever thought of that?
371
00:49:31,900 --> 00:49:35,610
Oak trees grow to be hundreds of years old.
372
00:49:36,540 --> 00:49:40,420
They only have to produce
one single tree every hundred years...
373
00:49:40,740 --> 00:49:42,420
in order to propagate.
374
00:49:42,740 --> 00:49:44,420
May sound benal to you, but...
375
00:49:44,860 --> 00:49:48,530
it was a big thing for me to realize
that when I was up here with Nick.
376
00:49:54,740 --> 00:49:57,500
The acorns fell on the roof then too.
377
00:49:58,980 --> 00:50:01,990
Kept falling and falling.
378
00:50:03,140 --> 00:50:05,870
And dying and dying.
379
00:50:11,140 --> 00:50:12,730
And I understood that...
380
00:50:15,060 --> 00:50:18,390
everything that used to
be beautiful about Eden...
381
00:50:19,340 --> 00:50:21,260
was perhaps hideous.
382
00:50:24,060 --> 00:50:28,320
Now I could hear
what I couldn't hear before.
383
00:50:31,260 --> 00:50:35,370
The cry of all the things that are to die.
384
00:50:39,900 --> 00:50:41,340
It's all...
385
00:50:42,020 --> 00:50:43,500
very touching,
386
00:50:44,420 --> 00:50:46,710
if it was a children's book.
387
00:50:50,100 --> 00:50:52,130
Acorns don't cry.
388
00:50:53,620 --> 00:50:55,610
You know that as well as I do.
389
00:50:56,260 --> 00:50:58,160
That's what fear is.
390
00:50:59,220 --> 00:51:02,140
Your thoughts distort reality.
391
00:51:03,420 --> 00:51:05,330
Not the other way around...
392
00:51:11,100 --> 00:51:14,000
Satan's Church.
Satan? Jesus!
393
00:51:14,010 --> 00:51:15,880
Nature is Satan's Church.
394
00:51:17,700 --> 00:51:18,740
What?
395
00:51:22,100 --> 00:51:23,610
Well, there you have him.
396
00:51:25,260 --> 00:51:26,630
That was his brother.
397
00:51:57,540 --> 00:51:58,570
Nick.
398
00:52:00,140 --> 00:52:02,470
He drifted away from me the last time.
399
00:52:05,020 --> 00:52:07,251
He was always out and about.
400
00:52:07,861 --> 00:52:10,960
He might have made more of an effort
to be there for me.
401
00:54:10,820 --> 00:54:12,500
You look like you slept well.
402
00:54:13,300 --> 00:54:14,400
Thanks, I did.
403
00:54:21,319 --> 00:54:24,029
I just wanted to say how happy
I am that you're here.
404
00:54:28,118 --> 00:54:29,158
I love you darling.
405
00:54:38,537 --> 00:54:40,000
Did you have a good sleep?
406
00:54:42,836 --> 00:54:44,326
I've just been having a lot of...
407
00:54:45,226 --> 00:54:46,325
crazy dreams.
408
00:54:47,555 --> 00:54:50,550
Dreams are of no interest
in modern psychology.
409
00:54:51,884 --> 00:54:53,454
Freud is dead, isn't he?
410
00:54:56,600 --> 00:54:57,540
Yeah.
411
00:55:13,381 --> 00:55:14,581
What are you doing?
412
00:55:14,781 --> 00:55:15,710
Look!
413
00:55:18,560 --> 00:55:19,870
I'm well again.
414
00:55:28,639 --> 00:55:29,838
I'm cured!
415
00:55:32,198 --> 00:55:33,598
I say, clever.
416
00:55:36,977 --> 00:55:38,227
I'm fine.
417
00:55:45,046 --> 00:55:47,056
You cannot just be happy for me, can you?
418
00:57:53,816 --> 00:57:56,875
Chaos... reigns!
419
00:58:06,840 --> 00:58:12,360
[Chapter Three: Despair (Gynocide)]
420
01:02:07,060 --> 01:02:09,340
I'd like to do one more exercise.
421
01:02:09,420 --> 01:02:10,870
It's like role-playing.
422
01:02:12,740 --> 01:02:13,554
My role...
423
01:02:14,780 --> 01:02:15,474
is...
424
01:02:16,260 --> 01:02:18,580
All the thoughts
that provoke your fear...
425
01:02:19,020 --> 01:02:19,983
Yours...
426
01:02:20,260 --> 01:02:21,700
is rational thinking.
427
01:02:27,140 --> 01:02:28,250
I'm nature.
428
01:02:29,620 --> 01:02:31,580
All the things that you call nature.
429
01:02:39,540 --> 01:02:41,630
Okay, Mr. Nature.
430
01:02:44,089 --> 01:02:45,810
What d... what do you want?
431
01:02:49,300 --> 01:02:51,100
To hurt you as much as I can.
432
01:02:57,580 --> 01:02:58,590
How?
433
01:03:00,300 --> 01:03:01,580
How do you think?
434
01:03:08,980 --> 01:03:10,320
By frightening me?
435
01:03:13,980 --> 01:03:15,110
By killing you.
436
01:03:18,140 --> 01:03:19,670
Nature can't harm me.
437
01:03:20,500 --> 01:03:22,630
You just old greenery outside.
438
01:03:22,700 --> 01:03:24,530
No, I'm more than that.
439
01:03:27,140 --> 01:03:28,640
I don't understand.
440
01:03:30,540 --> 01:03:33,090
I'm outside, but also...
441
01:03:36,380 --> 01:03:37,220
within.
442
01:03:39,940 --> 01:03:41,910
I'm nature of all human beings.
443
01:03:42,420 --> 01:03:44,640
Oh, that kind of nature.
444
01:03:49,549 --> 01:03:51,149
And the kind of nature that...
445
01:03:51,239 --> 01:03:55,278
causes people to do
evil things against women.
446
01:03:55,500 --> 01:03:57,280
That's exactly who I am.
447
01:03:57,820 --> 01:04:00,980
That kind of nature interested me a lot...
448
01:04:01,420 --> 01:04:02,700
when I was up here.
449
01:04:04,060 --> 01:04:07,240
That kind of nature
was the subject to my thesis.
450
01:04:10,100 --> 01:04:12,720
But you shouldn't underestimate Eden.
451
01:04:15,380 --> 01:04:16,900
What did Eden do?
452
01:04:17,380 --> 01:04:20,900
I discovered somethng else
in my material than I expected.
453
01:04:23,260 --> 01:04:25,810
If human nature is evil...
454
01:04:26,700 --> 01:04:28,430
then that goes as well...
455
01:04:28,740 --> 01:04:30,133
that the nature...
456
01:04:31,300 --> 01:04:32,530
Of the women.
457
01:04:35,100 --> 01:04:36,240
Female nature.
458
01:04:36,620 --> 01:04:38,760
The nature of all the sisters.
459
01:04:41,500 --> 01:04:44,160
Women do not
control their own bodies.
460
01:04:44,340 --> 01:04:45,710
Nature does.
461
01:04:47,020 --> 01:04:49,330
I have it in writing in my books.
462
01:04:49,780 --> 01:04:52,090
The literature that you
used in your research...
463
01:04:52,100 --> 01:04:55,300
was about evil things
committed against women.
464
01:04:55,310 --> 01:04:58,080
But you read it as proof
of the evil of women?
465
01:04:58,860 --> 01:05:02,410
You were supposed to be critical of
those texts; that was your thesis.
466
01:05:02,900 --> 01:05:04,750
Instead, you're embracing it.
467
01:05:05,340 --> 01:05:07,200
D... do you know what you're saying?
468
01:05:08,860 --> 01:05:09,750
Forget it.
469
01:05:10,660 --> 01:05:12,310
I do not know why I said it.
470
01:05:13,780 --> 01:05:15,570
I... I can't work anymore now.
471
01:05:27,380 --> 01:05:28,350
Hit me.
472
01:05:29,460 --> 01:05:30,223
What?
473
01:05:30,540 --> 01:05:32,223
Hit me so it hurts.
474
01:05:33,100 --> 01:05:33,902
No.
475
01:05:34,300 --> 01:05:35,850
Hit me, please!
476
01:05:35,980 --> 01:05:36,742
No!
477
01:05:37,380 --> 01:05:39,080
I can't stand it!
478
01:05:39,740 --> 01:05:40,980
I don't want to.
479
01:05:41,180 --> 01:05:42,520
I don't want to.
480
01:05:53,620 --> 01:05:55,170
Then you don't love me.
481
01:05:58,420 --> 01:05:59,808
Okay.
482
01:06:00,940 --> 01:06:02,170
Maybe I don't love you.
483
01:06:02,260 --> 01:06:02,998
Yeah.
484
01:06:57,940 --> 01:06:59,019
Again.
485
01:06:59,820 --> 01:07:00,899
Again!
486
01:07:06,260 --> 01:07:08,190
The sisters from Ratismith...
487
01:07:08,380 --> 01:07:10,090
could start a hail storm.
488
01:07:52,260 --> 01:07:55,310
I'm not gonna continue this
if you don't listen to me.
489
01:07:57,060 --> 01:07:59,050
Good and evil...
490
01:07:59,700 --> 01:08:01,540
have nothing to do with therapy.
491
01:08:03,660 --> 01:08:08,250
Do you know how many innocent women were
killed in the sixteenth century alone...
492
01:08:08,260 --> 01:08:09,348
just for being women?
493
01:08:10,140 --> 01:08:11,940
I'm sure you do. Many.
494
01:08:13,180 --> 01:08:14,850
Not because they were evil...
495
01:08:16,420 --> 01:08:17,210
I know.
496
01:08:18,340 --> 01:08:20,270
It's just sometimes I forget.
497
01:08:24,140 --> 01:08:27,200
The evil you talk about is an obsession.
498
01:08:27,980 --> 01:08:31,290
Obsessions never materialize.
It's a scientific fact.
499
01:08:32,380 --> 01:08:36,290
Anxieties can't trick you into doing things
you would do otherwise.
500
01:08:36,300 --> 01:08:37,610
It's like hypnotism.
501
01:08:37,620 --> 01:08:41,190
You can't be hypnotized into doin
something you wouldn't...
502
01:08:41,660 --> 01:08:44,260
normally do.
Something against your nature.
503
01:08:46,700 --> 01:08:47,740
Do you understand me?
504
01:08:48,500 --> 01:08:49,950
Yeah, I think so.
505
01:08:50,100 --> 01:08:53,090
You think so? Well, you don't have
to understand me; just trust me.
506
01:09:13,180 --> 01:09:14,180
What's this?
507
01:09:14,380 --> 01:09:17,560
It's from the medical officer.
It's a copy of the autopsy report.
508
01:09:21,260 --> 01:09:22,260
The autopsy?
509
01:09:24,660 --> 01:09:26,540
Did they perform an autopsy?
510
01:09:27,380 --> 01:09:29,661
I didn't wanna tell you,
because you weren't feeling well.
511
01:09:32,020 --> 01:09:32,570
Well...
512
01:09:33,060 --> 01:09:34,290
what did they find?
513
01:09:35,780 --> 01:09:36,980
Nothing that would have any...
514
01:09:37,540 --> 01:09:38,870
bearing on the case.
515
01:09:40,180 --> 01:09:41,660
The only abnormality...
516
01:09:41,820 --> 01:09:44,390
in the victim is a slight deformity
517
01:09:44,400 --> 01:09:47,410
of the bones in his feet,
of an earlier date.
518
01:09:49,380 --> 01:09:52,000
We do not attach any significance to this.
519
01:10:06,580 --> 01:10:10,020
You aware that you put Nick's shoes on
wrong in this picture?
520
01:10:15,700 --> 01:10:16,630
So, I had.
521
01:10:18,820 --> 01:10:19,840
How weird.
522
01:10:22,660 --> 01:10:24,470
Slip of the mind that day.
523
01:10:24,700 --> 01:10:25,690
I wish.
524
01:11:33,580 --> 01:11:34,700
Herself.
525
01:11:36,650 --> 01:11:37,280
Oh!
526
01:11:38,020 --> 01:11:38,320
Ah!
527
01:11:38,380 --> 01:11:40,980
Bastard!
You're leaving me! Aren't you?
528
01:11:43,140 --> 01:11:44,310
You bastard!
529
01:11:45,500 --> 01:11:46,740
You're leaving me!
530
01:11:46,940 --> 01:11:47,630
I'm not.
531
01:11:48,220 --> 01:11:49,230
I'm helping you.
532
01:11:49,500 --> 01:11:51,130
You're leaving me, aren't you?
No, no!
533
01:12:05,580 --> 01:12:07,610
I love you.
I don't believe you!
534
01:12:07,620 --> 01:12:08,120
Aagh!
535
01:12:08,900 --> 01:12:10,100
I don't believe you!
536
01:12:10,480 --> 01:12:12,120
I don't fucking believe you!
537
01:12:15,420 --> 01:12:15,920
Aagh!
538
01:17:16,680 --> 01:17:17,580
Where are you?!
539
01:17:21,540 --> 01:17:22,620
You bastard!
540
01:17:24,220 --> 01:17:25,440
Where are you?!
541
01:17:34,840 --> 01:17:35,980
Where are you?!
542
01:17:50,060 --> 01:17:51,000
Where are you?
543
01:18:00,420 --> 01:18:01,390
Where are you?
544
01:18:07,140 --> 01:18:08,240
You bastard!
545
01:18:19,860 --> 01:18:20,580
Where are you?!
546
01:18:24,280 --> 01:18:25,300
Where are you?!
547
01:18:29,700 --> 01:18:31,060
How dare you leave me?!
548
01:18:42,740 --> 01:18:44,800
You said you wanted to help me!
549
01:18:46,420 --> 01:18:47,700
Where are you?!
550
01:18:51,520 --> 01:18:52,500
Where are you?!
551
01:20:15,280 --> 01:20:16,180
Where are you?!
552
01:20:21,380 --> 01:20:22,640
You bastard!
553
01:21:34,000 --> 01:21:34,960
Get out!
554
01:21:35,540 --> 01:21:37,520
Get out! You bastard!
555
01:21:38,940 --> 01:21:39,900
Get out!
556
01:21:41,980 --> 01:21:43,020
You bastard!
557
01:21:44,020 --> 01:21:44,880
Get out!
558
01:21:47,520 --> 01:21:48,620
Come out!
559
01:22:09,040 --> 01:22:10,300
Get out!
560
01:22:12,540 --> 01:22:13,880
You bastard!
561
01:22:15,620 --> 01:22:16,780
Come out!
562
01:22:58,680 --> 01:23:02,280
[Chapter Four: The Three Beggars]
563
01:23:17,040 --> 01:23:18,380
I'm sorry.
564
01:24:04,820 --> 01:24:07,935
You gotta get this thing off... my leg.
565
01:24:30,580 --> 01:24:31,740
I can't find the wrench.
566
01:25:37,140 --> 01:25:38,440
Did you want to kill me?
567
01:25:40,000 --> 01:25:40,800
Not yet.
568
01:25:44,420 --> 01:25:46,600
The three beggars aren't here yet.
569
01:25:47,540 --> 01:25:48,760
The three beggars?
570
01:25:51,540 --> 01:25:52,580
What does that mean?
571
01:25:54,400 --> 01:25:56,260
When the three beggars arrive...
572
01:25:57,000 --> 01:25:58,380
someone must die.
573
01:26:01,480 --> 01:26:02,600
I see.
574
01:26:26,600 --> 01:26:29,360
The crying woman
is a scheming woman.
575
01:26:41,230 --> 01:26:44,180
False in legs.
False in thighs.
576
01:26:46,650 --> 01:26:49,720
False in breasts,
teeth, hair and eyes.
577
01:28:42,480 --> 01:28:43,300
Hold me.
578
01:28:48,000 --> 01:28:49,380
Hold me.
579
01:30:13,500 --> 01:30:16,040
There's no such constellation.
580
01:30:43,160 --> 01:30:44,940
But none of it is any use.
581
01:30:45,000 --> 01:30:46,360
None of it is any use.
582
01:30:51,340 --> 01:30:52,079
No!
583
01:30:52,080 --> 01:30:53,180
No!
No!
584
01:32:47,340 --> 01:32:48,280
Aagh!
585
01:32:48,560 --> 01:32:49,060
Ye-aagh!
586
01:35:45,640 --> 01:35:46,320
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