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Previously on...

Let me be the first to welcome
you to "Temptation Island."

- Nothing bad's gonna happen.
- Nothing bad's gonna happen.

- Oh, here we go.
- Jesus.

You're at a crossroads.
You have come here

to embark on a journey where
you're gonna date other people.

If we come out of this
without each other,

that is like the scariest part
for me.

These single men
and single women

that you'll meet here
on the island,

they're here to find love.
- What are the rules

that you and your girlfriends
established?

- I didn't set rules.
- We're only here once.

This wasn't my plan
to come to the island.

Right now I'm feeling like
oh, shit,

like, what did Erin
bring me into?

I mean, if you have questions,
there's no better place to be.

I know, right?

I just want you to look
at why you're so flirty

and if it's necessary.

I know what you want
from me, babe.

I want you to look at yourself.

Yes.

I want you to take a look at why
you feel uncomfortable...

Yeah.

Instead of blaming it on me.

Like, I want so much
for you to find happiness.

I really do, and I...
hope it's with me.

I'm scared shitless, babe.

I would hate to lose you.

You're not gonna tempt me.

All right, guys, this is it.

Time to go.

Gentlemen, let's go.

See you soon. Bye.

Ladies, be there for
one another. I'll see you soon.

That was
the hardest goodbye ever.

Yeah. I'm scared,
and I'm nervous,

but I also deep down am grateful
because Mark said

one way or the other,
we're gonna get answers,

and that's, like, something
I've been longing for a while.

I feel like knowing
that we're not gonna see

our boyfriends for a while,

if not, you know,
maybe ever again,

you know, now it's real,
and I'm, like, scared shitless.

Starting that process
is gonna be extremely hard,

but I know that once
we give it a few days

and actually continue
throughout the process,

it's gonna be so beneficial.
- Oh, yeah.

- We need to do it, too.
- Yeah.

- 100%.
- Let's do it.

Girls.

Oh, they're running away
right when we come in.

What's going on?
You trying to escape from us?

- Oh, my God!
- What the hell is going on?

What's up?
You didn't expect us?

Ooh!

Oh, hi.

I think that we're all
a little nervous.

We're all a little scared.

We're gonna be living
with 12 single guys.

It's going to be a little wild.

- Cheers.
- I love you, guys.

Here, ladies. Cheers.
Oh, you're not gonna cheers us?

Oh, you're doing another thing.

You guys gotta give us
a minute. Thank you.

- Thank you.
- Absolutely.

I mean, they barged in, so...

I'm feeling a little uneasy
about the thought

of living with so many guys
under one roof.

It feels like way too much
testosterone that I can handle.

Whoo!

Who's ready to party tonight?

Jersey boy,
let's see your moves!

The biggest reason why we came
to this island

was for Kristen to be able
to find more trust in me,

and I think, you know,
being able to see me

being around a bunch
of single girls

and be able to just be myself
will kind of help her trust me.

This man did a split.

- To having fun.
- Cheers.

I'm feeling a lot.

I got a whole wide range
of emotions right now.

Like, I can't even enjoy myself
because, you know,

I still love and care
about Erin,

and she's still in the back
of my head right now.

We're on two paths right now
that, you know,

they may converge.
They may separate.

And it's gonna be nerve-racking.

I can't believe this.
This is a lot of fun.

My natural inclination
is to, like, be flirty,

and I want to kind of, like,
be teasing and flirty,

but I wanna make sure

that I'm also respecting
Chelsea's feelings,

and it's... it's just weird.

Cheers to everybody.

You said you've been dating
for two... a year and a half?

- Yeah, how long?
- We've been together a year.

- A year.
- Oh, wow. Is there, like,

something you're trying
to figure out?

She doesn't trust me.
From her perspective,

I'm too flirtatious.
Here's an example.

We're at a networking event,
and we're on line for a drink,

and the girl in front of me...

She's, like, Insta-Storying
or some shit,

and, like, I was in it.
I was like, hey.

And then we start talking.
Now it's a networking event.

- I got it.
- So we started,

you know,
we end up exchanging...

- Yeah, okay.
- Socials.

And from her perspective,

it's like, "You're exchanging
information with this girl

right in front of me?"
- Like, for what?

- You know? Okay.
- Yeah.

Ohh. Has she ever been
in a relationship before

where she's had someone
cheat on her?

- Yes.
- So it's kinda...

- That's coming from the past.
- Getting over...

- Understood.
- But also, I feel like you

shouldn't be with someone

that makes you feel
consistently anxious.

- Yes.
- Like, at the end of the day,

you wanna be with someone
that makes you happy...

- Exactly.
- And that, like, gives you

that, like,
sick-to-your-stomach feeling.

So what is stuff
that you like to do?

I'm very adventurous.
Like, I love snowboarding.

Wait. I'm a snowboarder.

- Are you serious?
- Yeah, like, serious.

My two favorite things to do...
Snowboard, scuba dive.

I scuba dive.

I feel like I'm opening up,
and I'm doing what I can

to be in the moment

and not think about
what Tom's doing.

I'm just trying to focus
on myself right now

and not worry about
our relationship too much.

- Does he snowboard?
- He doesn't snowboard.

He doesn't scuba dive.
But it doesn't matter.

I think more I look at it
is, like,

my mom and dad's relationship
is, like, so good.

You know, they tell me. They're
like, "Find someone that, like,

you can do all the things
that you love to do."

Yeah. That's true.

Hey, what kind of sports
do you like?

- Said you're a soccer player.
- I am a soccer player.

Did you play in college or...

I played in college and then
a little professionally.

Oh, really?
So he played in college

and professionally as well.
- Yeah.

Oh, my God.

So where... where did you play
in college?

- So I went to Rutgers.
- Okay.

I thought you came here to send
your wife money back home.

Oh, yeah, she'll... she'll
love you. She'll love you.

I have zero predictions
right now

looking at these singles.

I don't know what to expect,
and you know,

that makes this whole experience
a little more fun.

Yeah!

Yes!

Champagne popping!

Hey! Now you're gonna have
to get on your hands and knees,

get some Clorox wipes,
and wipe that shit up.

Because it's our home. You are
not doing that up in here.

- Ohh!
- Oh, damn!

Like...

That kinda killed my vibe.

I thought that we're gonna be
sharing space with 12 men,

not 12 boys that are trying
to relive their frat days.

I really would like to talk
to you for sure.

- Yeah.
- If that's okay with you.

- Right now I'm good.
- Yeah. You're good.

I mean, I'm trying
to just chill.

- Trying to just hang out.
- I appreciate it, though.

No, it's cool. I mean, I'll take
the turn down. It's all good.

I can take it like a man.

Kristen... she just seems
closed-minded,

because you only know one guy.
You know, if you meet other men

that have
different personalities,

you might be able to grow,

and if you're not willing
to do that,

then I think
this whole experience

is kind of a waste of time.

You knew what this experience
was all about,

and you come on here,

and then you're totally, like,
standoffish.

No, I'm really not.

If you give me respect,
I'll give it back.

But how did I disrespect you
personally?

I definitely feel like we have
some animosity here

that we need to clear
in the air pretty soon.

Evan keeps coming at me,
and he obviously doesn't realize

the type of headspace
that I'm in,

and I'm just not trying
to continue this drama

that he keeps egging on.

Why you got so much sass
with me? You don't like me.

Because I don't like
that you disrespect me.

- You know?
- All right, I get it.

Have fun with her, Jesse.

I don't give a.

- What's up? Good morning.
- Hi. Good morning.

You're making eggs
for everybody?

Yeah, we're gon' hook it up
for sure.

These are about done, you guys.

I'm looking at those eggs like
I wanna have sex with them,

'cause I'm so hungry.

- I am so hungry.
- Don't do that.

Are you sure you're looking
at the eggs or...

- Oh, not to Julian.
- Oh, no, no,

she looking at the eggs.

- Where do you wanna sit?
- I mean, we can join the party.

- Okay.
- See what they...

See what they're talkin' 'bout.

Okay, this is so good.

Yeah, he makes really good eggs.

You guys are obviously here
for love and so forth,

but I'm sure there are things
that you guys

each wanna work on individually
in order to be

better in a relationship
with a male.

I wanna... I'm intrigued
to see what that is

with each one of you guys.

I want someone to break down
my walls.

Like, I want to let someone in,

and I'm really scared
to let someone in.

Was it because someone
cheated on you,

or what created the walls?

Or, like, what was it
specifically?

I broke the heart, and, um...

So basically you cheated on him.

- Got it.
- Yeah.

That's very interesting.

Very, very interesting.

So that's why I haven't
dated since.

With Alexys, she'll literally
just make eye contact with me

and really look at me like,
"Okay, let's... let's connect.

Let's talk," and it's...

I feel like it's real
and genuine

even just so early
in this process.

To me, it sounds like you have

some fire and some passion
in you, too.

- Yeah.
- And I think that's great

to be able to explore that,
you know?

Yeah.

I'm really excited
to see Kendal,

but it was kind of weird
because I felt like

he was almost avoiding
eye contact.

I was trying to sneak in, like,
a "hi" or "I love you,"

and he was just so, like,
laser-focused.

So then I tried to tell myself,
you know what? Like, this is it.

This is the start
of your journey.

Embrace it and be present.

Hello, everybody.

- Hi, Mark.
- Hi, Mark.

Welcome to date selection.

This is your first chance

to really get to know
one single, okay?

So we're gonna let the guys
pick first. Julian, you ready?

- For sure.
- Okay.

Amanda, would you like to go
on a date with me?

- Of course, I'd love to.
- Cool.

For sure.

Oh, interesting.

Julian picks Amanda.

It felt really weird
choosing another girl

to go on a date
in front of Kristen.

You know,
11 years is a long time.

It's not like we've ever been
on dates with other people,

you know, so it was different.

Corey, you ready?

Nickole, will you go on
a date with me?

- Yes. Thanks.
- Nickole!

Aw, she's cute.
I don't hate her.

Thanks.

I think that being jealous is,
like, inevitable

when you're in this situation,

but I also know why
they're here.

They are looking for love
with our boyfriends.

That's kind of the part
that makes me most nervous.

Kendal, you're next.

All right, man.

Alexys.

Yeah.

Alexys.

The thing that rubbed me
the wrong way is the fact that

he didn't even get all the way
to the girl.

She just stepped out
like she knew

that he was gonna choose her,
and then he goes up

and he grabs her by the hand,
so it has me thinking,

what has gone on with you guys
within the last few days?

All right, Tom, you're at bat.
Let's go.

- Lauryn.
- Tom picks Lauryn.

A warning for her...
Tom is very flirty,

and he could potentially
lead you on

and don't take anything
too seriously.

It's just his personality.
Doesn't really mean anything.

All right, Kristen, your choice.

- Like to be my first date?
- Absolutely. Let's do it.

- Jesse.
- Yes, sir.

- Congratulations.
- Thank you, man.

- You're welcome.
- "Yes, sir."

I'm not gonna lie.

I'm not looking forward
to going on a date.

I know that I signed up
for this,

but that doesn't make it
any easier because

I feel like
I'm gonna be awkward.

We're gonna go with you next,
Chelsea.

Okay.

Blake.

Would you like to go

on a date with me?
- I would. Thank you.

You made an appointment
with Dr. Blake.

I did.

Blake seems a little bit older
than the other guys.

I heard he's a doctor.
You know, I'm not surprised.

She likes men, not boys.

- Erica.
- Okay.

Your turn.

You wanna go on a date with me?

- Let's get it.
- Let's do it.

Lex.

I feel like there's nothing
for me to worry about.

I honestly don't even remember
the guy's name.

Erica's a smart woman,

and if she's feeling comfortable
with him,

that's who she should go
on the date with,

because I know what I bring
to the table.

Erin, let's do it.

Okay. Let's do it.

- Griff?
- Absolutely.

You wanna go on a date with me?

Definitely.

I chose Griffin
because I felt like he is

a pretty good-looking guy,
you know?

He has that soccer swag,
and I felt like him and I

had a lot in common.

Well, your first dates are set.

They'll take place tomorrow.
Okay, enjoy.

You can head back to
your villas. I'll see you soon.

- Thanks, Mark.
- Thanks, Mark.

My worst fears came true,
and Erin picked Griffin.

They connect with soccer.
You know, they're both athletic.

It feels like Griffin's a little
more compatible than me,

and it sucks.

I'm just scared of losing her.

Who's ready to party tonight?

- Whoo!
- Damn!

We just need to let loose
a little bit, I feel like.

Like, we've been holding back
a little bit.

You definitely have been
holding back.

I feel like we need
to take a shot.

All right.

Okay, so now were going
to the pool party.

- Let's do it.
- Yeah.

Pool party. The first one.
Here we go.

- You got it.
- Whoo!

The flipping actually came

from one of these stagecoaches
I was at.

I've never met a girl
I couldn't flip,

but there are some that are
easier than others.

There's specific things
that I came to work on,

and hooking up with someone

is definitely not
one of those things.

It's not... it's not why
you're here.

- I talk a lot.
- Mm-hmm.

Like, but I listen a lot.

So I hear everything
you're saying.

- Yeah.
- Like, noted. Gotcha.

Now that Kendal and I
have started

our own individual journeys,
I feel free because

he's not there for me
to cater to 24/7

and then leave absolutely
no time for myself.

So I mean, I'm excited to be
selfish for once

and to put myself first.

- Cheers.
- We good.

Let's do it!

Hey!

Who's your partner?

Erica, if you're uncomfortable
with this,

just, you know...
- No, you're so sweet.

I just wish my ass looked
as good as yours does.

Stop! Aah! I work hard
for this, okay?

I'd much rather be open
than closed-off

so that you get to know
what's up with me.

And I need to learn that,
which is why I...

I picked my first date
with you because I'm like...

I know. That's awesome.
I'm seriously so stoked.

I think we're gonna do something
cool. I think it's gonna be...

I was like, oh, boy,
is he gonna say yes?

Oh, what?

Come on. Are you kidding me?

I'm really excited to get to
know Kristen a little bit more.

Seems like she appreciated
my laid-back style

of just not being super pushy,
and I think that there's

a real possibility of me
making a connection with her.

I might stay in my comfort zone
where, like,

I feel comfortable with you.

- Right, right.
- Or, like, you know,

I'm gonna find out.
I'm gonna find out.

No, without a doubt.

What is this? Ho-ho-ho-ho-ho!

Ideal dig. They give me a spear.
We do spear fishing,

and I grab a lobster.
- Okay. I've never done that.

I'm into it. Like, I will do it.

- I'm so adventurous. Like...
- All right, so am I.

I feel like you should dip it.
This is, like, my strategy.

You know, you get it wet
before you...

Okay, never mind. You... You get
what I'm saying. You... Okay.

- I get what you're saying.
- This helps.

That's like a thing,
and I keep doing it.

Very nice.

Even though I'm having
a really good time,

and I'm partying
and I'm having fun,

I'm still thinking about Corey
in the back of my mind.

I'm always thinking, all right,
if I'm having fun,

he's probably having
just as much fun

if not more.

Okay, quit playing with me.
That's money.

Oh!

The way I look at it is one,
I'm genuinely not worried.

I know what I bring to the table
and my value.

Oh! Preach it!
Preach it, Thomas.

It's gonna be
another great night, man.

For sure. We're gon' turn up
for sure, for sure.

We gotta get
my man Corey's head right, bro.

Boo.

- Hi.
- Hello, hello.

- I brought you your drink.
- How's it going?

I'm good. How are you?

- Tonight was hard.
- Was it?

- Tonight's really hard for me.
- Really?

Yeah, I'm worried about Griffin,
you know.

They already have that soccer
they can relate to.

Right.

When she picked him,
it, like, really tore you.

- It did. It hurt me.
- I'm sorry.

I can't imagine
what that feels like.

I'm nervous that Erin
picked Griffin for a date.

I'm nervous about what
the future holds.

- You came here for a reason.
- Yeah.

It's gonna hurt, but I think,
like, this should be motivation

for something else now.

I don't know why I'm getting
overly emotional with this.

I really don't.

Because I think... you know,
I know I still trust her.

- Party's here!
- Whoa!

- Hey, hey.
- Look at that.

You the devil. I got stabbed.

Uh-oh, uh-oh.

The island has flown in
some devils and angels.

Now let's see if we can tempt
these fools.

Yeah.

Boys, boys, boys.

- That's how we doing it?
- Hey.

Today's
an emotional roller coaster.

I feel like
I almost overreacted,

but you know, being
with these 12 amazing girls,

it's gonna be a fun night.

Hey, um...

meant to steal your boy.

I think they need to match us
and take their shirts off.

Damn, y'all, though. I mean...

That's what we gotta do?

- That's what we gotta do?
- Whoo! Take it off!

To make you feel like a king

because I know
you were really sad before...

The king!

Cheers to the king
getting his swagger back.

- Hey.
- Yep, yep, yep.

So what do you think
about our outfits?

- Huh?
- What do you think

about our outfits?

Uh, you look really good,
a little too good.

I gotta monitor how long
I look at you

just 'cause it's dangerous,
you know?

- Dangerous? What do you mean?
- Dangerous. Dangerous.

What do you mean?
You think I'm dangerous?

I think you can look at me
longer.

Hmm?

- Ow!
- Hold on, hold on, hold on.

Everybody listen to me.

I think tonight we're gonna
pull up some chairs,

and you guys are gonna
have a dance-off for us.

Sit in the hot seat.
Sit in the hot seat.

Oh, boy.

Oh, clear us out. Uh-oh. Whoa.

- Oh, oh, oh!
- Aah!

Whoa!

Okay, hold on, hold on.
Angels on this side,

devils on this side.
- Angels and devils.

Oh, my God.
We're already that lame.

Come over here.

The deed is done.

Oh!

He's in detention again. Damn!

He's been a bad boy.

Erica and I stated
that we didn't wanna do rules,

so for me, I'm taking
every opportunity that I can

to enjoy myself, and I hope
she's doing the same thing.

- Katrina.
- Yeah.

Truth or dare?

- Dare.
- Whoa.

I dare you...

to kiss someone on the cheek.

Whoa.

On the cheek.

Gotta kiss my girl.

Yeah.

Oh!

We're here for a good time.

I'm not here to take myself
too seriously.

I'm not afraid to be who I am
and show the guys,

like, this is me, like,

take me or leave me,
but, like, take me.

- Kendal, truth or dare.
- Dare!

- Let's get it!
- Aah!

Super sensual lap dance.
10 seconds.

- Yeah!
- Oh, my gosh.

- Whoo!
- Hey!

Hey!

Ohh!

Okay!

Whoa.

All right, I'm done.

Hold up, hold up.
Alexys.

You gotta do it right back!

Oh!

Oh, my gosh.

Kendal is ready to risk it all.

He's risking all of it.

- Here on "Temptation Island."
- Every single thing.

His girlfriend should be
a little bit concerned,

because some of the girls
are ready to risk it all

right with him.

Okay, truth or dare, Tom.

Like, are you gonna be upset

if you don't leave
with your girlfriend?

Ooh!

Of course I'll be
very devastated.

I don't expect to leave
without her.

The... The point is to leave
together better and stronger.

I've been clear about that,
so yes.

The point is to find someone
that matches you.

That's... No, that's not my point.

Don't tell me what my point is.

Look, I-I know why I'm here,
and I appreciate...

I appreciate...
- I wasn't trying to say it

in a negative way.
- No, I know.

I didn't say you were,
but I know why I'm here.

I know what my point is.

And it could be
your girlfriend, too.

I just said someone
that matches you.

Tom turns to me
and gets really mad at me,

as if I have horns coming out
of my head.

I don't feel like I should be
treated that way at all,

and I don't think anyone
should feel like

they're not worth getting
to know.

Here's my problem.

You got upset,
and you made it sound like

us singles are not
worth your time.

- No, that wasn't my...
- You did.

You think this is a game,
like, it's a chance for you

to, like, fight your urge.

It's not that.
Like, I'm a human being.

I don't give a who your girl is,

but give us an opportunity.
We're here for a reason.

It's disrespectful.

I wasn't meant
to disrespect you.

Well, I was. The way you made me
feel when you said that

was, like, wow,
we're nobodies to you. Hmm.

I didn't mean to make you
feel like that.

- You did. That was it.
- If you... If you choose

to feel like that, I...
That's unfortunate.

Fine. Fine.

♪ [ bird chir

Oh, my God!

Wait, look out.
Look out. It's high.

No! Oh, my God!

Today I am going on a date
with Griffin.

We are going ziplining,
and it's been a long time

since I've been on a first date.

I think that I'm definitely
more nervous

than I thought I was gonna be.

So they said half a mile.

I'm like, well, how long
does that take?

It's gotta be like probably
a full minute.

First date in 11 years.

Let's hope it's a good one.

Yeah, I'm ready for this now.

- All right.
- You ready?

- On one, two, and three!
- Let's go.

- Whoo!
- Oh, hell, yeah.

Aah! Oh, my God!

Aah!

Whoo!

All right, I was taking in,
like, the scenery,

and you're, like, oh, yeah,
let's make it a competition.

He gave you a big push.
I was like, what's going on?

He did. You scared me. I'm like,
oh, where is he? Back there.

Toast to a great day.

First date, just really getting
to know one another.

- Cheers!
- And let's get it.

Cheers. Put 'em up.
Salud, salud.

Let's turn up.

You know, it's weird being
in this kind of setting

with... with a different date
besides my girlfriend.

But Amanda's definitely,
you know, very open-minded

and makes me feel comfortable
talking to her.

- Yeah.
- Ahh!

Ohh!

Whoo!

♪ Where do you wanna go?

I'm not the best swimmer,

and I'm feeling a little scared,
honestly.

But Alexys is making me feel
a lot more comfortable.

I just trusted her.
There was even a time where

I was holding onto Alexys,

and she was just swimming
for both of us,

and I respect that.

Let me see you dive, bro.
You can't just jump in.

Whoa!

Bringing Lauryn
on the date today

takes me out of my head.

I can really just let loose
and be myself around her

while still being someone
that's in a relationship.

My hope is that Chelsea
can see that I'm being myself

and that it's fine.

I don't know if I could be
in your shoes

with what you and your boyfriend
have chosen to do.

- I didn't wanna come here.
- So...

- So...
- Like...

I was talked into coming here,
so it's like

I don't want us to have to go
on dates with other people

to, like, realize that
we wanna be together.

It's like, how many people
do you need to date

to figure out, like,
I'm good enough?

It's not about, like,
you being good enough.

- Yeah.
- Because it's like,

that's where you have to find
your self-confidence

and know that
you're good enough.

Yeah.

Tom does make me feel confident,

but his actions...
They make me feel insecure,

so when Blake says that
I am good enough,

it makes me feel happy...

and... and confident,
and that's what I'm looking for.

- Cheers.
- Cheers!

♪ Oh, would you be good to me?

You know, I feel like
it's really hard

when you're telling people
about, like, your soccer journey

and they don't really understand
how it affects you.

- Yeah.
- 'Cause for me, like,

I didn't deal with it well.

Instead of kinda talking to
someone who has been through it,

I just shut down.

So, like, how did you deal
with it?

I would be lying to you if
there was days I wasn't like,

waking up, wishing, like, I wish
I was going to the facility

- to just, like...
- Right?

Put my gear on,
be in the locker room.

You know, I miss that.
It's like,

I don't think that's ever
gonna go away.

But I think at the same time,
like, finding, like,

other things to, like,
be my new soccer.

My work, like, now is like
I'm like 100% vested in.

I think, like, that's, you know,

something that definitely
helps me.

Yeah.
Griffin and I...

We're getting more comfortable
with each other.

It's not awkward,

which is something, you know,
that I like.

It was a good date.
It was a good date overall.

It feels weird saying that,
'cause it's not with Corey.

You know, I would really like
to get to know you better,

and, you know,
hopefully we can...

- Absolutely.
- We can hang out more.

- For sure.
- Cheers.

To fully immerse myself
in this, and, like,

fully just dive in...
- Right.

Like, I kinda need to push
my feelings away from Erin.

- Yeah.
- But I feel like, you know,

I am nervous about her.
I... I miss her and everything.

- Of course.
- You know?

- You have me.
- I know.

I'm excited to, like,

open up a lot more.
- Good. I'm excited.

Literally when I'm out here,

I feel like
we're in the middle of nowhere.

That's another thing
with the comfort zone, too,

like, I'm used to being
in control.

- Right.
- Like, used to always, like,

I don't know,
planning stuff out.

Yeah.

Oh, I already knew
that question...

I already knew that question
was coming.

Hey, we haven't even gotten
to each other as far as

what do you do for a living?
What is...

What is your daily life like?
Talk to me.

- So I'm a personal assistant.
- Okay.

And I also work at a hospital,
and...

Oh, dope.
See, I didn't even know that.

Yeah, and so, you know,
like, I'll go to the gym

and cook dinner.
- Right.

But I'm also really just, like,
tending to Kendal.

And, like, I'm not gonna
sit here

and just talk about him or...
- Nah, nah, you're good.

- But so, like...
- It's part of your life.

- I get it.
- Yeah, so I'm tending

to that side more than I am
tending to myself.

- So you do a lot for your man.
- Yeah.

Do you feel like you get
that reciprocated? Honestly.

He... He does a lot for me
in his own way.

- Okay.
- But I just think that

sometimes our relationship
feels like... like a...

Like a... like I feel like
I'm operating in a business.

- Oh, really?
- Like I have to remind myself

this is a... a relationship
requires two people.

Mm-hmm.

It's not just... It's not just me.

- Everybody needs more.
- So, yeah.

Obviously, it's been
two and a half years

since I've gone on a first date,
and I feel like

on your first date,
you're not supposed to cry.

It's good. It's okay. It's okay.

- Wait. Just give me a second.
- You're good.

I'll, like,
get it back together.

When you're in a relationship
with someone

who's constantly telling you
how to feel about something

or what to do next,

when you don't have that person
anymore,

it's like now you really have
to rely on yourself,

and it's like the only thing
that I felt like I could do

is just cry and let it out.

Sorry.

It's okay.

I promise, it's good.

I promise, it's good.

- What's up, everybody?
- Hi!

- Hey, Mark!
- Oh!

How you doing? How you doing?
What's up, Shaq?

It's all good.
I'm just checking in.

- How are you, ladies?
- Good.

How were the dates? Any vibe?
You guys, uh, connecting?

- Were they gentlemen?
- Gentlemen for sure.

- They were gentlemen.
- Yeah, definitely gentlemen.

Yes? Ladies, I also want to stop
by and give you some updates

and let you know that tonight...
- Don't say it.

Is your first bonfire.

- Oh, my God.
- What did I tell you?

- All right.
- That's all I got.

- I will see you soon. Fellas.
- Thank you, Mark.

- Thank you. See you. Take care.
- See you later.

Damn.

Tonight is our first bonfire,
and I feel really nervous.

You don't know what
you're walking into.

You don't know what
you're about to see,

so I tried my best to sort of
keep my composure,

but right now it's just
really hard.

I've been emotional
all day today,

and it's like when we were
doing date selection...

and... like,
Corey walked up,

and he was like, "I love you,"
and Julian, like,

you guys each had
a little something...

- Yeah.
- And I'm like,

looking at Kendal. I feel like
the second I made eye contact,

he, like, looked away or...
And I told him...

We were sitting down. I'm like,
I went to look at him,

like, "I love you,"
and he's just turning him away.

And it's like...

Aw.

Help me.

I do think that our relationship
is on the line,

just because I have this
weird feeling in my gut.

I just feel like
something's not right.

I'm so blinded by everything
that's going on,

and, like, I know the type
of person that Kendal is,

and he's... he's very strategic,
so I'm anxious.

I wish it was tomorrow that I
could just find out

whether or not our relationship
is gonna work out.

- Hi, you guys.
- Hey, Mark.

- Hey.
- Hi.

Welcome to your first bonfire.

So this is where we get to
discuss your experience so far.

It's also where you'll get
a glimpse

into how your boyfriends are
adapting to single life as well.

Okay?

- Let's talk to you, Erica.
- Okay.

Today was really tough for me.
I've been in my head a lot.

And I'm trying to be present
in the moment,

but it's so hard for me.

Are you seeing yourself
for the first time, maybe?

Are you getting to know
yourself?

Yeah, I am, and today
for the first time,

I was like, I love myself.

Like, I... I'm gaining
this sense of self-love,

and I'm a giver.

I wanna do whatever makes
the other person happy,

and I don't think twice
about it.

And that's the problem.

I've now given all of myself
to someone else,

and I don't have anything left.

They always say put
the air mask on you first.

- Yeah.
- Right?

Um, I love that you met Erica,
and you like that girl.

- Yeah. I love her.
- Aw.

Yeah. That's a good start.
So here's how this works.

Each time at bonfire,
you're going to see a clip

of your boyfriend's experience
on the island.

It's important to remember
that what you're seeing

is a moment of his experience.

What you don't get to see
is what led up to it.

You don't get to see
what happens after it.

You don't really get context.

I understand that this can be
difficult, even painful

for you to watch, but hopefully,

this will help you get
the perspective you say you want

and you're searching for
for your relationship, okay?

- You ready for this?
- Yeah.

Chelsea, you're gonna be first,
okay?

Mm-hmm.

Here we go.

She doesn't trust me.
Here's an example.

Let's go.

We're at a networking event,
and the girl in front of me,

she's like Insta-Storying
or some shit,

and, like, I was in it.
I was like, hey.

We ended up exchanging socials,
but, like,

from her perspective, it's like,

you're exchanging information
with this girl

right in front of me.
- Like, for what, you know?

- Yeah.
- You shouldn't be with someone

that makes you feel
consistently anxious.

Like, at the end of the day,
you wanna be with someone

that makes you happy...
- Exactly.

And not give you that, like,
sick-to-your-stomach feeling.

- Sick-to-your-stomach feeling.
- Relax, girl.

I always ask this question,
what did you see?

Tom's perspective of an event
that actually started

these feelings
of my insecurities.

You wanna tell us
about that event?

It's a networking event
where my boyfriend

is talking to this girl,
and he doesn't acknowledge that

I'm standing there,
and I'm his girlfriend.

- Mm-hmm.
- And that's where

my insecurities come in.

So it makes you feel
insignificant.

Yeah.

Have you felt insignificant
in the past?

Oh, every relationship
I've ever been in.

Why?

It's...
I feel like I'm really nice.

So... even in friendships...

Like, I feel like
people take advantage of me,

and... and I wear my heart
on my sleeve,

and I want everyone to be happy,
and it's like,

I try so hard
in all my relationships,

and I give everything and 100%,

and it's like...
that's where I need confidence,

and that's why I'm here because
if I have confidence in myself,

if you don't see what you have
right in front of you,

then you don't deserve me.

I see you.

Okay?

Erica, you ready? Okay.

- Don't worry. I'm fun-sized.
- Dang, like that?

Yes, just like that.

What do you want,
and what does she want

that doesn't, like,
see eye to eye?

I feel like our communication
styles are different.

She's very emotional.
Um, I'm very practical.

And I feel like I wanna see
if there's somebody

that I can get along
with better,

that understands me
a little more.

Hey!

Give him attention again. Damn!

- He's been a bad boy.
- Bad boy.

- Hey, bad boy.
- Now the king. Ow!

I don't know Kendal,
so tell me what you saw.

Um...

the first thing that stood out
to me was he said

he was there to see if
there was someone that

he could
communicate with better,

and I thought the first thing
would be to say,

"Oh, I'm... I'm here to get
a different perspective"

or "I'm here to see what it is
that I need to work on

to make my relationship better,"
and it felt like

I was seeing a different person.

I thought that he understood
how hard it was for me.

You know, I know it's really
hard for him,

but he's just so mature
and wise and advanced,

I feel like, that he doesn't
necessarily...

like, things don't ever
bother him.

Mature? Advanced?

- You see him in that light?
- I do,

and some parts of that make me
feel insecure for some reason.

Do you see yourself
as not quite on the his level?

- I do, all the time, and...
- What's that about?

I feel like he's sort of
done that to me.

I feel like I'm lost sometimes.

Um, I don't... I feel like
I'm not an individual.

I don't know why
that's the first thing

that comes to mind.

I don't know why
the first thing is,

"Oh, you're not enough,"
or you know,

"You don't... you don't have
it figured out,"

or "You're incapable
of doing that."

I don't know why I do it,
but I do.

And I'm, like, begging myself
every single day

to let myself out of that cycle,
because it's draining,

and sometimes I feel like
I can't take it anymore.

Um...
it's like I've never been

surrounded by so many people

and still felt like
I was all by myself and, um...

Erica, you looked in the mirror

for a brief moment today,

and you said,
"I love that girl."

But now I feel like
I don't believe it.

I don't know. Sometimes I feel
like I just talk,

and I keep talking

until I actually believe
what I'm saying.

- Um...
- We all do it.

I do that.

It's okay.

I feel so confused.