All language subtitles for 9-1-1.s04e10.720p.web.h264-cakes_track3_[eng]

Hey there,
all my Successful Super Moms.

This is Beth Reidman
coming to you live

from my son Bryson's
12th birthday party!

I am gonna show you
how a Successful Super Mom--

or Dad-- throws a birthday bash.

(quietly): Oh, and there's
the birthday boy right now.

How are you enjoying the party?

Oops. Technical difficulties.
(chuckles awkwardly)

Or maybe you could be
a normal mom

and not go live on the Gram.

And disappoint my sponsors

who were generous enough
to give us all this stuff

-for free, by the way?
-But it's so lame.

I can't believe
you made me wear this.

Why couldn't we
just do paintball

or laser tag, like I wanted?
This stuff is for babies.

Too violent.
Those games are like

simulated war--
I can't put that on my blog.

Oh, so this party is for you?

To give you content
for your blog?

My blog and all the sponsored
content is what pays the bills

-around here.
-You're embarrassing me
in front of my friends.

What are you talking about?

Everyone is having a great time.

The trampoline is a hit.

BRYSON:
Everything here

is for babies.

I'm 12, Mom.

So I guess that means
you don't want to play

pin the tail on the donkey?

BRYSON:
Pin the tail on the donkey?

I think I liked it better
when you had a real job.

("Chicken Dance" playing)

What do I have to do
to prove to her

I'm not a kid anymore,
pay taxes?

(electronic ding)

And now for a party favorite,

pin the tail on the donkey!

This game is a classic
that is guaranteed

to keep the kids having fun.

BOY:
We're not eight years old.

Come on, guys, try it.

It's fun!

-BOY: Mm, nah.
-Okay. I guess I'll go first.

Your mom's
really into this party.

-It's kind of weird.
-Shut up.

♪

I hate...

this stupid... party!

(Beth screams, shrieks)

-Mom!
-(others gasping)

I was jumping on the trampoline,

-and a spring flew off.
-Okay.

And it almost killed me.

All right,
let's see what we got.

-(Beth whimpers)
-Looks like she's pinned
to the wall in two places.

All right.
Let's go, let's go.

HEN:
Ma'am, don't move.

Any movement could cause
that spring to shift,

and that would not be good.

Must've been traveling
at top speed.

Put a hole
right through her hand.

-And her torso.
-BETH: Ow.

-Is she gonna be okay?
-Give us some space.

We're gonna take
real good care of your mom,

-I promise.
-Can you move your fingers?

I think so.

Good. Means the spring
likely missed the tendon.

-No nerve damage.
-Oh, thank God.
It's my selfie hand.

HEN:
Pulse is slightly elevated,
but BP's normal.

Miraculously, she's stable.

Getting bilateral breath sounds.

Spring likely didn't puncture
her lungs,

but it's probably millimeters
away from her spine.

I can pack the wound,
but I don't know

how to detach her from the barn.

We don't. Transport her
with it, donkey and all.

Where's Buck?

This is a circular saw.

This blade is strong enough
to cut through anything.

-Cool.
-Even metal.

I'll bet it could slice
through bone, too.

-Uh, yeah, we don't...
-Buck! We need that saw.

-I gotta go. Sorry.
-You went really hard-core

with this party design.

BETH:
It's my job.

Literally. I run a mommy blog.
I spent months

planning this thing, trying to

make it perfect,
and my kid hates me for it.

He doesn't hate you.
He's just 12.

-He'll get over it.
-Feels like no matter what I do,

-it's wrong.
-You did a great job
constructing the shed.

-Really quality work.
-It was from a kit.

I didn't even pick it out.

A sponsor sent it.

Well, at least
you have help taking it down.

BUCK:
Almost there.

Last one, Cap.

(Beth whimpering)

EDDIE:
Okay, so,
phase one was a success,

but there's no way we get her
in this door in the ambulance.

-We got to call for a flatbed.
-We got a penetrating trauma.

-I don't think we can wait.
-Got any other options?

(siren wailing, horn honking)

-(moans)
-Easy, guys, easy.

-Watch the springs.
-Easy.

-Good work.
-Oh, Mom!

-I got your phone!
-Thank you, sweetie.

I'm sorry I treated you like
a little kid. You were right.

-I'm just gonna go back
to my soul-sucking job.
-But, Mom,

I don't think
you should give up the blog.

Look.

Oh, my God.
I was live the whole time?

Look. You're trending.
You're gonna be Internet-famous.

We're gonna be rich!

Oh! I am monetizing parenthood!

Ow!

KAREN:
Hey, sweetie.

-What are you doing up?
-Can I sleep with you and Mama?

Well, of course.

Get on up in here.

HEN:
You have a bad dream?

No.

Mm, you just want to cuddle,
that's it.

You okay?

You're worried about tomorrow.

About Nia leaving.

I don't want her to go away.

I know I get mad at her
sometimes.

I just don't want her to leave.

Neither do we.

It's like we talked about.

Nia came to live with us,

because her real mom
couldn't take care of her.

But now her mom is better,

so Nia gets to go home to her.

Now, that's gonna hurt for us,
but it'll be good for Nia.

You're not my real moms.

Are you gonna have
to give me back, too?

Denny, we are your real moms.

We're your mothers
in every way that matters.

And no one is ever
taking you away from us.

We even have a piece of paper
from a judge that says so.

Did my real... (sighs)

Did my other mom not want me?

Sweetie, she was sick,

and she wasn't in a place

where she could
take care of you.

And it was a hard decision,

but she wanted the best
for you.

And that's why
she gave you to us.

So we could love and protect you

and be your moms forever.

So, nobody's gonna come
and take me away?

Not ever.

I promise.

DENNY:
Here.

I didn't like it
when you took it off my bed,

but I want you to have it
so you can remember me.

And don't forget him.
I know he's your favorite.

You play later with me?

I don't think I can.

Oh.

You're going home
to your mommy today, remember?

Denny come with me?

Not this time.

Why don't you say goodbye?

(sniffles)

Oh, that's a good hug.

(sniffles)
I'm gonna miss those.

Hey. You know, we, uh...

we never gave this...

this guy a name.

-What are you gonna call him?
-Denny!

For... for big brother.

That's great.
That's great.

He'll look after you,
just like a big brother.

(voice breaking):
We love you, Nia.

(sniffles)

Always remember that.

I love you, too, Mama Hen.

You ready, Nia?

Ready.

-See you later.
-HEN: No.

-Sweetie.
-No, we will...
we will see you later.

We love you.

I love you, too.

(door closes)

(Karen sighs)

Hey, Denny, why don't you head
into the kitchen?

I think your grandma's
making you a special lunch.

Okay.

KAREN (sighs):
When we, uh...

When we took her in,

we weren't thinking about the
day we'd have to give her back.

-Yeah.
-That it would be this hard.

I know. I've been doing this
a long time.

And it's never easy.

It's not for everyone.
A lot of folks

never go back
for a second placement.

Yeah. I guess that's something
we have to think about

and discuss.

There's nothing to discuss.

I never want to do this again.

(Karen gasps, sniffles)

You're gonna be late
if you keep watching her.

CHIMNEY: (sighs)
You sure you're gonna

be okay on your own?
I hate to leave you guys.

-Yeah, we'll be fine.
-(Albert shrieks, thuds)

-Whoa. What the...?
-I'll go. You stay here.

-Albert, what happened?
-Yeah.

I was trying to get something
off the shelf.

I lost my balance.

Why didn't you ask
for me or Maddie?

You already have a baby to take
care of. You don't need two.

What we don't need
is you hurting yourself

because you're too stubborn
to ask for help.

I should be better.
The accident was weeks ago.

The doctor said
there would be lingering issues,

balance being one of them.

You just got to be patient.

And quit trying to do
stuff on your own. Let us help.

Are you going out?

Yeah, first day back to work.

We talked about that, remember?

Maybe. Still feels like
my brain's in a fog sometimes.

-(watch beeping)
-(Chimney sighs)

I got to go. Listen,
Maddie will be here with you.

If you need something, ask.

-Please.
-Maybe I could
make her breakfast,

help her for a change.

-(sighs)
-And it would be good practice.

Does Maddie like waffles?

Let's not overdo it, okay?

Just get some rest, Albert.

Don't worry about breakfast.

Feels like all I do is rest.

-Is he okay?
-Little mishap with a shelf.

I'll deal with it
when I get home.

You look really handsome
for your first day back.

-Sexy, too.
-Ah.

Well, you're gonna have
to hold that thought.

There's nothing we can do
about it while we're out here

sleeping on an air mattress.

Yeah. I love you.
Have a great first day.

Love you, too. And text me
if she does anything cute.

Oh, okay.
So, like, every other minute?

-Exactly.
-(laughs softly)

That's the first time
she smiled.

Sure that's a smile?
That's the same face

Buck makes when he's gassy.

I will take that
as a compliment,

'cause it just means
she looks like her Uncle Buck.

God, I love her so much.
I don't even feel like

the same person anymore.
Is that weird?

What's that saying?
Having a kid is like

walking around with your heart
outside your body.

Okay, that's weirder.
And morbid.

Just means it's a whole
different kind of love.

How's Maddie doing?
First solo shift with the baby.

Babies. Plural. She's pulling
double duty. Albert and Jee-Yun.

Offer still stands, you know.
He can come back to my place.

He needs round-the-clock care.

He can't be on his own
for a whole 24 hours.

With the new schedule,
one of us is always home.

If you and Maddie are working
opposite schedules, when do you

-actually see each other?
-Haven't quite
figured that out yet.

Oh, uh, she-she's coming.
(clears throat)

CHIMNEY:
So, uh, yeah. The doctor said
Albert's physical therapy

is going great.

HEN (singsongy):
Welcome back!

Hey! I was just filling them in
on Albert's recovery.

I am disappointed in you guys.

Where's the banner?
Where's the balloons?

This is not how we do when
somebody comes back to work.

I said it was okay.
I don't need that kind of stuff.

-Not when, uh...
-No, no, no, no. We celebrate

every good moment.
When we can.

Now, let me see
these baby pictures.

Okay.
(chuckles)

(all laugh)

Oh, my God,
she's so big already.

-Yeah. They grow up fast.
-Aw.

(alarm ringing)

♪ Ah, yeah ♪

♪

(grunts)

Ow. Ow.
(spits)

(spits)

Ow.

-Oh! (groans)
-(crack)

Crap.

(whispering): Maybe both legs.
(panting)

Please, you have to send help.
I can't move.

What's your name
and location, sir?

2016 Irvine Street.

-And your name?
-I don't see why that matters.

Please,

just send someone, quietly.

Why are you whispering?

TRISH:
Yes, we heard a crash outside.

Where are you right now?

Can you see
if the intruder is armed?

I'm in the bedroom.
I don't know,

uh, I don't know if he's armed.

Tell them to send
the police, Trish.

I am.
Uh, can you please

send the police?
We're at

2016 Irvine Street.

Ma'am, i-is there
anyone else in your home

that might have also called 911?

No, it's just-just
me and my husband.

Why?

Josh, why are you sending
police units to my broken leg?

Homeowners called and said
there was a burglar outside.

That must be your guy.

My broken leg was breaking in?

Yeah.

Sir, uh, the address
you gave me--

-is this your residence?
-CONNOR (whispering): Yes.

Yes.

At least it used to be.

I'm gonna need your name.

(sirens wailing, horn honking)

CHIMNEY:
All right, let's
see what we got here.

Connor!

-(groans)
-HEN: Got a compound

tib-fib fracture
to the right leg.

It's pretty nasty.

Got some bone hanging out.

Sir, can you feel
when I do this?

-Oh, God. Yeah, yeah.
-Good. Then his pedal pulse

is strong, which means
he's still got blood flowing.

CHIMNEY:
PERRLA response is good.

Pupils are equal and reactive.

All right, sir,
I'm gonna give you something

to help with the pain,
but you have

to try and stay still.

After a fall like that,
we can't rule out

-spinal injury.
-This is all your fault.

I wasn't the one
climbing up the trellis

like some two-bit cat burglar.

It's 'cause you kicked me out.

Okay? It was either sneak in
or sleep in my car.

You had plenty of other options.

Like-- I don't know--
get a job, pay rent.

You don't need rent!
You're rich!

It's called hard work
paying off.

TRISH:
Will you stop being

so hard on him?

-(siren wailing)
-He's just going through

a quarter-life crisis.

-That's a load of...
-That's a real thing.

-I've been there.
-You need to stop enabling him.

You want to be the good cop, so
you always make me the bad cop.

-I'm sick of it.
-Can't you both be good cops?

-No.
-No.
-No.

Let's get him on a backboard.

But does tough love
actually work, or does it

just make your kid hate you?

Some kids need discipline.

-But not too much.
-I'm curious to know what

your definition
of "too much discipline" is.

All right, one, two, three.

Officer? I'd like you
to arrest this man.

HEN:
You want her

-to arrest your son?
-They're related?

We have a restraining order
against him.

He wouldn't leave. He was
taking us for everything we got.

I had to do something.

Are you gonna arrest him?

You might want
to check this out first.

Looks like the bolts have
been snapped, real clean breaks.

That's why the kid fell down.

Any idea how that happened?

-Nope, no idea.
-Well, you were up there

a few days ago repairing it.

-What kind of repairs?
-HARV: Yeah.

-Just, uh, some basic stuff.
-CONNOR: It was fine

-the last time I broke in.
-See?

That's what I'm talking about.

He's been breaking in for weeks.

He needed to be taught a lesson.

Are you saying that you knew
your son was using the trellis,

and you cut it intentionally
to cause bodily harm?

To your own flesh and blood.

You've coddled him too long,
Trish.

You need to decide
whose side you're on.

TRISH:
Is he gonna

-be okay?
-Well, he'll need surgery,

and it'll be a long recovery,
but he'll make it.

Don't worry, sweetheart.
Mommy will take care of you.

-Trish, you're making a mistake!
-(siren chirps)

You know what?
Find a new place to live, Harv.

-I'm changing the locks.
-(car door closes)

Interesting
parenting techniques.

Yeah. That kid is never
growing up.

(chuckles)

(sighs)

(groans)

You're home.
I am running so late.

-(Jee-Yun crying)
-Jee's having a fussy morning.

She cries every time
I put her down.

Um, I fed her an hour ago
so you're good for two.

There's breast milk in
the fridge, but not much else.

So maybe you could get
some groceries?

Oh, and don't forget, Albert has

his physical therapy
at 3:00 p.m., okay?

Love you. I love you. Bye.

(door closes)

(sighs)
Did you get all that?

Yeah, me, neither.

(groans):
Oh...

(indistinct chatter)

WOMAN (whispers):
She's coming. She's coming.

ALL:
Surprise!

-(laughter)
-Oh, my God.

You guys did not have
to do this.

SUE:
Well, of course we do.

We didn't get a chance
to throw you a shower.

Well, the least we can do is
give you a good welcome back.

LINDA:
Mm-hmm. That one is

-for baby.
-MADDIE: Aw.

This is for Mommy.

-(laughs softly)
-Uh, how does it feel
being back?

Weird. I mean, I haven't left
the house in two months,

except
for doctor's appointments.

Ah, just wait
for the mom guilt to set in.

And everyone's gonna have
advice. Don't take it.

You have to figure out
what works best for yourself.

-Except for this.
-JOSH: Didn't you just say

-that she should...?
-Uh, you can have it all,

but you can't do it all.

Delegate, get help.
Don't be a martyr.

SUE:
She's right. It takes a village.

-So use your village.
-Ah.

It's good to have you back.

It's good to be back.

-Let's go get cake.
-Yes.

You ready for this?

No. Basically ran out
of the house this morning

before I could change my mind

and not leave Jee's side
until she's 40.

-I have no idea
what that feels like, but...
-(laughs)

I do know that I'm here
for you, whatever you need.

Other than babysitting. That
feels like a lot of pressure.

It's okay.
Chimney's got us covered.

♪

Albert, did you take
your medicine?

I forgot.

Okay.

Here.

-Can you help?
-(steam hissing)

Uh, yeah, sure.
Just give me a second.

Aah! Damn it!
(inhales sharply)

-Are you okay?
-(knocking)

(Jee-Yun crying)

Definitely not.

(Chimney sighs)

Mrs. Lee.

Anne. That is still weird
for me. Please come in.

-Hi, Anne.
-I come bearing soup.

Aw. What are you doing?

Why didn't you let me know
you were coming?

I would have picked up a little
or lit a match.

Nonsense.

No need to make things perfect
for me.

(gasps softly)

Oh. I think she's hungry.

I was just making her a bottle
and Albert's lunch.

And I might need
to make her another one. Okay.

Here, let me.

I'll feed the baby, you two eat.

CHIMNEY:
Thank you.

So, I know that you didn't

just happen
to be in the neighborhood.

Did Maddie ask you
to come in and check on me?

(laughs)
So suspicious.

You know, Maddie asked me
the same question

when I called her yesterday.

I just wanted to see
if you two needed any help.

That's very sweet of you,
but we're fine.

I think we've all got it
under control.

We do?

Actually, Anne,
do you mind taking me

to my therapy session
so that Howie doesn't have to?

-Happy to.
-Hey.

You remembered your appointment.
That's great.

Uh, no, but I still know
how to read.

You two have busy schedules.

Yeah. I know it looks crazy,

but, uh,
Maddie and I are making it work.

We don't want
to lose a second with Jee-Yun,

and leaving her
with strangers...

Of course, I...
I wouldn't want to overstep.

-(crying)
-Oh. No. No, no, no, I-I...

I didn't mean that.
That's not what I...

-I'm ready.
-Great. Um, we should get going.

-Well, wait, uh... Well, uh...
-See you later, Howie.

-Goodbye, Howard.
-Well, uh, wait.

-(crying)
-Anne?

♪

TONI:
Thought I'd find you in here,

torturing yourself.

It's a little hard
to let it go, Ma.

And please don't tell me I knew
what I was signing up for.

I wasn't gonna say anything

'cause I don't have the answer.

I wish I did.

I hate to see you
hurting like this.

(sighs)
I just miss her.

And I loved her
like she was my own.

And a year from now,

she won't even remember
who I am.

I'm not so sure about that.

She might not be able
to recall specific memories,

but she will remember
how you made her feel.

Loved.

Protected.

Safe.

She won't forget that.

She will carry that
with her always.

Because of you.

(sobbing)

Honey, I know.

I know.

Let it out.

ATHENA:
All right, make sure
you have everything you need

before you get in the car

-or your dad will have my head.
-MAY: Uh,

Harry, can you pass me my phone?

I said to pass me the phone,

-not check it.
-HARRY: Laila liked
your post on Instagram.

-Give it.
-HARRY: Wait, isn't she

that mean girl that you went
to high school with?

Why are you talking to her?

She reached out to me
a couple weeks ago.

Out of the blue.

Said she wanted to apologize
for what happened.

Hmm. And you told her,
"Go to hell."

No. Um, I met her for coffee
and heard her out. That's it.

She trashed your reputation
on social media,

said terrible lies about you,
and that's it?

-No big deal?
-I feel like I at least
owed it to her to listen.

You don't owe her a damn thing.

After what she did to you?

You did arrest her.
Or did you forget that part?

I didn't forget a single thing
about that... incident.

I-I can't believe

that you didn't tell me
about this.

Why would you hide it from me?

Hello? This entire conversation.

I never know

how you're gonna react
these days. You're always

worried about me-- you don't
like my job, and apparently,

-now you don't like my friends.
-So now she's your friend?

May! What-what-what
are you doing?

Letting this girl
get back in your head again?

She's changed. I have changed.

So I'm giving her
a second chance.

What's wrong with that?

Because the last time
you were friends with that girl,

you tried to kill yourself!

♪

LAFD!

Can I help you?

LAFD, ma'am. We got a call
about an overdose?

You must have the wrong address.

-HEN: This is
4941 North Orchard Drive.
-Yes.

Dispatcher said they got a call
from an Ellen Saxton?

What? Uh, that's my mom.

Mama?

Finally.

Mom, wh-what's wrong?
You called 911?

Are you okay?

(exhales)

I'm dying, Julia.

Cancer.

Also, I may have taken

something to...
speed up the dying process.

Oh, my God, Mama.
Are you crazy?

HEN:
Ma'am, what did you take?

I'm not telling.
And I'm not crazy.

I still have
all of my mental faculties.

But not for long.

Cancer's spreading.

It's in my brain, baby,

and I am not sticking around
for that.

Blood pressure's 80/40.
She's in the danger zone.

HEN:
Looks like an opioid overdose.

-Prepping naloxone.
-That won't be necessary.

Or legal.

It's a do-not-resuscitate order.

With signed verification
from my doctor.

No lifesaving measures,

no medical intervention.

It's all there.

Advanced directives.

Don't listen to her.

D-Do whatever you have to do
to save her!

No. You can't save me.

Just...

delaying the inevitable.

Why the hell did you call 911
if you didn't want help?

I called them for you.

So you wouldn't be alone

when I go.

Mom,

if you don't want me
to be alone,

don't do this.

We don't know

how much time you have left.

It could be months.

I don't care if you're sick.

I want that time with you.

I want all the time I can get.

ELLEN:
This isn't living.

It's suffering.

And I'm not talking about me.

I see what this
is doing to you, and...

(exhales)
I don't want to do it anymore.

HEN:
Legally,

aren't we obligated
to render aid at this point?

We-we can't just stand here
and let her...

The DNR is clear.

Legally,
we shouldn't do anything.

I-I'm sorry, our hands are tied.

Fine. You can't do it.

-I will.
-No. No, no.

(shushing)

You gave up your entire life

to take care of me.

Well, now it's time

for me to give it back.

-I can't.
-Shh.

I'm not leaving you.

I am setting you free.

(chuckles softly)

When you have your own kids,

you'll understand.

Mama, please. I love you.

ELLEN:
Oh, I love you, too.

("Landslide"
by Fleetwood Mac plays)

This is the last thing

I can do for you, baby.

So let me.

♪

-No.
-♪ I took my love ♪

♪ I took it down... ♪

-Did you check under the bed?
-ELLEN: I did.

All clear. No monsters.

Good night, sweetheart.

-(kisses)
-Can you stay?

I'm scared to sleep by myself.

I thought we agreed.

Big girls sleep by themselves
in their own big-girl bed.

I'll be a big girl tomorrow.

Can't you just stay
with me tonight?

♪ Oh, mirror in the sky ♪

-Scoot over.
-♪ What is love? ♪

All right.

-Just for tonight.
-♪ Can the child ♪

♪ Within my heart rise above? ♪

(whispers):
Sweet dreams, sweetheart.

♪ Can I sail
through the changing... ♪

Uh, how much water
am I supposed to use again?

Check the recipe.

Or you could just tell me.

If I do it for you,
you'll never learn.

-♪ Life... ♪
-(sighs)

Okay.

-It's my life.
You don't get to ruin it.
-ELLEN: Of course I do.

I'm your mother,
and what I say goes.

-I hate you!
-The answer...

(exhales)

(chuckles)
Oh.

Mama, I got this.

You should be resting.

No, no, you don't have
to do this, you know.

I can hire a full-time nurse.

-My insurance will pay for it.
-No one

is going to take care of you
the way that I will.

-♪ If you see my reflection ♪
-Hmm?

-♪ In the snow-covered hills ♪
-No nurses.

I want to do this.

♪ The landslide bring it down ♪

You'd do the same thing for me.

♪ And if you see my reflection
in the snow-covered hills... ♪

(Ellen exhales)

HEN:
Julia,

I think she stopped breathing.

Is it okay if I check?

(bag unzips)

(Julia sniffles)

Chim, can you confirm?

I'm gonna go call it in.
I'll be outside.

What do I do now?

HEN:
Take her with you.

And you move on.

(birds chirping)

-Oh, God! (gasps)
-HARRY: Mom!

-What's wrong with May?
-Baby, I need you to call

your father, tell him
to meet me at the hospital.

Pulse is weak and thready.
What did she take?

-Uh, hydrocodone.
-Pupils aren't responding.

MAY:
Hi. This is May.

I'm right here. Can you hear me?

-(siren wailing)
-It's okay.

-(sighs)
-MAY: Hi.

This is May. Leave a message.

-Hey.
-ATHENA: Hey.

-You, uh, talk to May yet?
-Mm, keep trying,

but she's not answering
my calls.

Sending me
straight to voice mail.

Sounds like things
got pretty heated.

That girl hurt my child.

All bets are off.

She lucky all I did
was arrest her.

(sighs)

Sorry if I can't just forgive
and forget.

Well, they were kids.
She barely knew better.

Oh, she knew what she was doing.

I don't get it.

Why would May want to have
anything to do with her

-after what she put her through?
-I don't know.

But I do know
that you sometimes don't agree

with May's decisions.

You didn't want her to take
the job at the call center.

-You wanted her
to go to college.
-I didn't want her

to take that job
because it's emotionally taxing.

Right. She has been keeping up

with her counselor sessions.
Seems like she's handling it.

And she's
practically an adult now.

You don't have to like
her choices,

but they are her choices.

And if she says she's fine

talking with Laila, maybe you
just have to trust that she is.

That's the mistake I made
last time.

I trusted that she was fine,

and I almost lost her.

She was right here
living under my roof,

and I didn't know
what was going on.

I was so wrapped up with me
and Michael and the divorce

that I didn't even realize
what was going on

-with my own daughter.
-Well, she was

a teenager at the time.
It's their whole M.O. in life

not to let their parents know
what's going on.

When it happened, I assumed

it was because of me
and Michael splitting up,

but it was about something
I had absolutely no clue about.

-None.
-Right.

So you-you have to forgive
yourself, Athena.

Do you know how many suicide
calls I've been on where nobody

had any idea? You can't
take on that kind of blame.

I'm her mother.

I should have known
something was wrong.

But I missed it.

I'm scared
she hates me right now.

But I'm more scared

that I'm gonna miss it again.

(exhales)

Morning.

I think I did a bad thing.

U-Ultimately good

but still bad.

What are you talking about?

I found Nia's birth mother.

Her name is Evangeline Gonzalez.

She works here
as a nurse's aide.

Karen, how did you find her?

And isn't that
completely against the rules?

Uh, I may have hired
a private investigator.

Look, I had to know.

The not knowing was killing me.

Killing you.

I had to know

if Nia was gonna be okay.

And is she?

Single mom.

Struggling to make ends meet.

She got evicted.

She was living in her car
with Nia.

People saw her,
and they called child services,

who placed her with us,
temporarily,

while she got her life
back together.

-That was January.
-(exhales)

And then the pandemic hit.

Not an easy time to be trying
to put your life back together.

She couldn't catch a break.

Unless you were willing to work
at a long-term care facility.

-Mm.
-She's been here since June.

The residents love her.

And there's a day care
down the street.

She goes over on her lunch hour
to eat with Nia.

Every day.

(sighs)

Nia's gonna be okay.

Yeah.

We did the right thing, Hen.

You want to do this again.

I love Nia.

I will always miss
having her in our lives.

But knowing that she's
with a mother who loves her,

that we helped
to give them a second chance,

I'm proud of us for that.

(inhales)

It's gonna hurt like hell
every time we do this.

-Yeah.
-We're gonna love them
like our own

and then have to let them go.

But I guess we can take it.

(scoffs)
I'm just tired

-of always fighting with her.
-Mm-hmm.

She doesn't think I'm capable
of handling anything.

Yeah. But she knows you have
a good head on your shoulders.

Hmm?
She's just being protective.

And I can't say
that I blame her.

But you didn't act
like a lunatic

when I told you
Laila reached out.

Right.

And I wasn't the one
that found you either.

What difference does that make?

You know,
when Harry called me that day,

he said that you were sick,

that you and your mom were going
to the hospital.

By the time I got there,

found out what really happened,

it was all so... (exhales)
just confusing and scary.

But you were alive.

Exactly.

You weren't
when your mother found you.

You weren't breathing, May.

She thought you were dead.

And she blamed herself for it.

Why would she think that?

They were her pills, May.

Pills that I told her
to throw out.

-Wait, you blamed her, too?
-No.

We both said a lot of things.

Because we were scared.

And then we got past it.

We realized what was
the most important thing,

and that was just being there
for you.

Yeah, not all this guilt
and blame.

It was pointless.

I know you think

that your mom is made of steel.

She's not.

And I'll never know

what she went through
when she found you.

And I'm kind of grateful

that I never will.

(overlapping chatter)

FEMALE VOICE:
Access granted to LAPD Archive.

DISPATCHER:
911. What's your emergency?

ATHENA:
It's my... (exhales)
it's my daughter.

She's-she's just overdosed.

I think she...

(whimpering)

I think she's dead.

(cries)
She's not breathing.

She's turning blue.

We need an ambulance. Now!

DISPATCHER:
Does she have a pulse?

ATHENA:
I don't feel anything.

There's no...

(shuffling)

(faintly):
Wait.

Wait. There it is.

Her heart is-- It's beating.

I feel it. Barely.

(panting):
Hur... Hurry.

Hurry.

(louder):
Baby, wake up.

Come on, come on. Wake up, May.

-Wake up, May.
-Ma'am,

-are you still there?
-I'm here.

I'm here, I'm here, I'm here.

DISPATCHER:
What's your location?

ATHENA:
1810 Fallsgrove Street.

DISPATCHER:
Medical rescue is on the way.

-How old is your daughter?
-She's 14.

She's just a child.
Please hurry.

DISPATCHER:
Can you see if her chest
is rising?

ATHENA:
It's not.

Her airway's clear,

-but she's still not breathing.
-Okay.

I'm gonna need you to give
a few rescue breaths by mouth,

just until paramedics arrive.

You think you can do that?

ATHENA:
Yes.

Yes. I'm a police officer.

DISPATCHER:
Good. Then you know what to do.

-One every five seconds.
-Come on, May.

(louder):
I need you to breathe.

You have to wake up.
Do it for me.

I'm sorry I wasn't before,

but I'm here now.

I'm here, baby.

I'll get you through this.

I promise.

Whatever it is. Please.

Please, don't leave me.

Aw.

Good, you're changing her.

Hey, did you and Albert eat?

Chim.

What? Who's ready to eat?

What did I miss?

You fell asleep while standing.

(sighs)
I know. I'm sorry.

I'm just so tired.

Yesterday I fell asleep
while holding the baby.

On the toilet.

(both laughing)

How do other people do this?

I don't know.

But I think we might need help.

Yeah.

And I think I know who to call.

I know it's a lot to ask.
(exhales)

Albert can stay with us
as long as he likes.

Give you two your space.

And, honestly,

I think John's kind of excited
about having him around.

(chuckles):
Well,

life can be pretty boring
when you're both retired.

-(laughs)
-(Jee-Yun fussing)

And we're available
for babysitting services

any time you and Maddie
need a night off.

Oh. Albert's medications.

I should grab them, too.

-I'll take her.
-Okay.

Grandma's gonna hold you
while Daddy goes to pack.

Howard, uh, I'm not...

-um...
-(chuckles softly)

I mean, your mother...

Would be so grateful to you.

That you took in her kid
after she was gone,

loved him.

Loved me.
(chuckles)

You finished the job
she started, and...

I'm not sure
I ever said thank you for that.

We're family.

Nothing to thank me for.

(chuckles)

Okay.

("Solsbury Hill"
by Peter Gabriel plays)

Oh, don't worry, Jee-Yun.

Grandma's got you.

I know it's been really hard,
so...

if you're not ready,
that's okay.

We don't want to make a big
decision without talking to you.

It affects all of us, so...

we should decide together.

What do you want to do, Denny?

HEN:
Being a parent is a process

-of letting go.
-ATHENA: Oh, you're home.

I want to...

Oh. What's all this?

♪ Climbing up
on Solsbury Hill... ♪

Are you okay?

I'm sorry, Mom.

I'm so sorry
I put you through that.

I'm sorry, too.

I love you, May.

So much.
(exhales)

HEN:
We struggle to see them
as their own person,

with their own voices
and opinions...

♪ To observe... ♪

...instead of just an extension
of ourselves.

She's asleep.
(exhales)

Oh, what is this?

I thought we'd do dinner
and a movie.

(gasps)
It's like a date night.

Exactly.

So, what do you want to watch?

Ooh, um...

HEN:
It's not until you have kids
of your own

that you realize just how much
parenthood changes you

and your priorities.

♪ Home... ♪

It becomes about your kids
all the time.

I can't sleep.
Can I watch TV with you guys?

Of course.
Squeeze in here.

♪ Day to day... ♪

Okay. That means
you got to pick something good

-for us to watch.
-(chuckling)

HEN:
Sometimes that dedication

isn't always a good thing.

We put our kids first
for so long,

we can lose sight of ourselves.

♪ I walked right out
of the machinery... ♪

We live our lives
for our children.

Every single thing we do
is for them,

even the things that are hard
for them to understand.

♪ Grab your things,
I've come to take you home... ♪

No, Linda needs
those two days off.

Family stuff.

Maddie's, what,
our fifth baby this year?

And Alvin's wife is due
next month. And I'm pretty sure

that's what Jenny wants
to talk to us about tomorrow.

Well, we'll figure it out.

-We always do.
-(chuckles)

How come you and Don
never had kids?

Oh.

Sorry. None of my business.

I have kids.

I have a floor full of 'em.

HEN:
And sometimes a family
is what you make it.

You can be a biological parent
to a child

or a parent figure to many,

guiding them
and taking care of them,

like any other parent.

We're glad you called us.

It'll just be a few days.

Their aunt is driving down.

♪ I'll tell them what the smile
on my face meant... ♪

Denny, why don't you take Chloe
and Miles to their room.

-Show them around.
-Okay.

I can show you
all the good toys. Come on.

♪ They've come to take me home ♪

DENNY:
You're gonna like it here.

My moms are awesome.

♪

HEN:
And if you're doing this whole
parenthood thing right,

it's your kid who's teaching you
the life lessons,

not the other way around.

♪ Take me home. ♪

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