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I can't brush my teeth.

I never have breakfast. I'm never hungry.

I can hardly get up.

Can't take a shower. It's so hard to take a shower.

I get so wet and I have to use towels. I have no energy for that.

I'm always tired. It's just getting worse.

I can't do anything.

Hey... I think you're being a bit hard on yourself.

I think you have energy for lots of things.

You're here, at BUP. Not everyone has the energy for that.

Not everyone walks into BUP.

Except I didn't walk here. My mom drove me.

Yes, but you're still here now.

You're talking to me, a psychologist you've never met before,

and opening up to me about how you feel.

That's very brave.

And that's not all. You had to get here first.

You had to wake up, get out of bed, get dressed, get in the car.

Far from everyone would be able to do that.

It's hard.

You're being really, really, really, really, really great.

We should celebrate!

Look! This is the stuff.

There. Let's have a toast.

Here.

A toast because you're here today, because you're strong,

capable and brave.

Cheers!

We'll make this a tradition, Saga.

Every time you come in, I'll get you juice and cookies.

But I'm not allowed to keep coming here.

You're not? Why? You mean to BUP?

I've just turned 18 and have to change to the adult clinic. This is my last time.

Hey, it's great over there, too. I'm sure it'll be great over there.

I don't want to go there.

I have no energy for a change.

I see.

She told me that she's turned 18,

and that she's about to be moved to the adult clinic.

But she's frightened and insecure about that.

And I was wondering...

...if it would be possible to let her stay here a few months

as kind of a gentle transition to the adult clinic.

That's a nice thought. Well done.

I'd like to show you something.

-Have you seen this before? -Exciting.

What's that number?

-Um...that's a six. -Right.

If I turn it over, what number is it then?

Nine.

Right. From your perspective it's a nine, but from my perspective?

A six.

I think it's important to understand that we have different perspectives.

That we look at things from different angles.

And then I think about the adult clinic.

You see a six: let's keep Saga here. But at the adult clinic they see a nine.

What do you think it means to them?

Well... I don't understand what...

I think it'll make them feel sad.

Like we're stepping on their toes. A bit like we don't trust them.

Well, that's... I didn't mean it like that.

Saga, it was a bit more difficult than I thought, it's a bit...

...bureaucratically problematic.

My boss said it can't be done. It seemed to be set in stone,

but I have another idea.

We don't usually do this, but I thought I'd give you my personal phone number. OK?

You can call me anytime.

If you're feeling really awful or if you just want to chat for a bit.

I will always pick up. Can you promise me that?

OK.

Good.

Hussein? I made some food. Do you wanna come and eat?

-Thank you, but I'm not hungry. -Not hungry?

Is it yours, the lawn mower?

-No. -No... That was just a joke.

-Are you OK? -OK.

This is really good, Dad!

I've missed you.

I've missed you, too.

I'm sorry I haven't been in touch. I don't know what happened.

But...

You've changed a bit. For the better.

-What was I like before? -As a teenager, you were a bit...

A bit of a goody two-shoes, maybe. Strictly by the book. Not stiff, but...

Or maybe yeah, a bit stiff, a bit boring.

Sometimes, that's how I'd feel, but I wasn't...

Compared to me, who is extremely free.

I'm more like a force of nature. An Apache Indian.

And you're more like... maybe like a bureaucrat.

Here we go.

-Are you OK, Dad? -Yes. I was just a bit cold.

-I'm smelling a bit of smoke. -It'll pass soon.

-Did you open the damper? -No. It's a precision thing.

Just open it a little bit at first, to get the fire started. And the open up.

That really gets it going.

Oh, shit!

I'm thinking about the damper, Dad. Shouldn't we open it?

No! That's not how you do it! You have to get it going first.

You sure? Kinda feels like the smoke is coming in, not going up.

Buddy, this isn't my first rodeo.

Trust me. Just hang tight. You need to get it going.

-The smoke's really coming in. -No. What are you doing?!

-It gets cold! -Yes, but there's a lot of smoke.

-Fire? -I'm sorry, Hussein. It's...

Yes, it's fire. It's cozy. Welcome. We've started a fire.

-I'm opening the damper, Dad. -Don't you touch that damper!

Fuck!

Dad...

What's wrong, Dad? Hey...

-Why can't I do things? -You can do lots of things.

I'm useless. I mean, really? I can't even light a fire in the...

-Dad, you're not useless. -I thought it was chilly...

And you did great! It's burning really nicely. Right?

-You can't die being totally useless. -You're not going to die. Not now.

-Hey, so about your cancer? -I don't want to talk about it! Got it?

Damn! All the fucking crap we collect.

-And carry around. -Those are memories.

Memories? It's all just crap. This is supposed to be a life.

-Oops. -Goddamn!

Here are my report cards from high school.

Look. This is my life.

I have to carry this around like a fucking turtle.

Damn... It's a failure.

-Did you take those? -Yes, as a matter of fact.

-They're kind of cool. -Yes.

I wanted to be a photographer.

This is a good one! A photo project I did with old people.

This is death. In Sweden, we die alone with all our stuff.

-I like it. -It's great. You're very good.

Thanks for letting me have this comfy bed.

Absolutely, no worries. You're worth it.

Still, thanks.

I'll be fine out there.

-Are you sure? -Yes, I love sleeping there.

-Good. -Good night. See you tomorrow.

Gösta?

I want to ask you something. Come here.

OK...?

What's the meaning of life?

Seriously.

Well...I don't know.

-Like...and this is just an example. -OK.

Say I wanna sleep with...Alicia Vikander. Just as an example.

Or let's do another one. Say I want a palace in Venice.

-I'll never get that. -No, maybe not.

So, what's the point of those dreams?

Is it to learn to accept that we can't have what we want?

Is that the meaning of life?

It's good to have dreams.

Do you think it was my dream to be a high school teacher?

-Well... -I hate being a teacher.

-You do? -Yes.

I had to take a leave because apparently I yelled too much at the students

and graded them too low. So they forced me to take a leave.

-Oh. I didn't know that. -Right.

Hello, it's me.

Hope you are doing well.

Call me when you feel like you want to.

Bye! Kisses!

Come on!

-Gösta! -Sorry.

I just needed to get the recycling.

I'll drop them off after work.

Put your seatbelt on.

Dad. Use your seatbelt.

Put your seatbelt on!

That way.

How do you usually get to work?

I usually ride my bike, but it got stolen.

Fucking cyclists! What's up with that?

Those fuckers think they're good people because they care about the environment.

So they get act however they want and run people over?

Fuck traffic rules, right? Pisses me off.

-"I'll do what I want. Straight ahead!" -No! Dad, please don't!

-Not even looking. Dangerous. -Yes, it's...

-That's not funny. -Yes.

-No! -It's so scary!

-Yes, so don't do that. -I have to.

-No. -Yes, one more time.

-Please? -Dad, please. No.

-It's scary. -I'm closing my eyes.

-No, don't close your eyes! -Holy shit!

It's all dirty.

-All food is dirty? -Yes.

-There's nothing you like? -Yes, I like pears.

But I need to peel them first.

-You can't just rinse the pear? -I used to do that.

And I used dish soap. But I stopped that.

I was afraid the soap might stick.

And I didn't really want to eat dish soap.

No, that probably doesn't taste very nice.

But what do you eat in a day?

Mom usually boils rice or potatoes.

But she needs to wear plastic gloves.

Or else I won't eat the food she makes.

-Got any hand sanitizer here? -Yes.

We have hand sanitizer in the waiting area.

'Cause it's pretty dirty in here.

Should we try and get started?

What are you doing?

It's great that you're socializing. That you have a social life.

I think that's great. It's not...

It's not important to sit here and talk to me.

-Did you take a picture of me? -No.

No, just kidding.

-Hello? -Hi. What the hell did you do?

-What? What's wrong? -You know what it's like in school.

No! What? Stop it, you can't blame it all on me.

Do you need to listen? Can't you leave? It's really annoying.

I've talked to the principal. Apparently, he's doing much better in school now.

I was happy to hear that.

But I don't know how...

I'm sorry to interrupt, but what is that smell?

-Something smells so bad. -I smell it too.

Can you guys smell it?

I'm so sorry.

It's very possibly me.

Or, I mean...I brought some trash.

-Trash? -Yes. I mean...

My recycling. It's right here.

I'm sorry. I planned to do it before work, but I didn't have time to, um...

Then I got here, and I didn't want to put it in my office.

It felt awkward with my clients and stuff.

So I put it here, but I forgot about our meeting.

Seriously, Gösta...

Maybe the sun heated it up, making it smell that much worse.

In that case, we need to ask you to get rid of the trash.

I'll get rid of it right away.

-It's not just one bag, either... -It fills up quickly.

-There you go. -Thank you so much. God bless you.

Take care.

Hi. Do you remember me? Gösta.

I helped you home the other night.

-What do you want? -I bought you some food.

You said you have no one to help you. I figured I could help you.

Look, a veal hamburger.

Scrumptious stuff. It's made by that famous TV chef.

Well... Fancy.

-And some dish soap. -You're so kind.

-You think so? -Yes.

We should all be kind.

-Here are the used ones. -Right. They're nice.

-I thought I'd get a men's bike, though. -We have those, too.

-Let's have a look. -I'd love to.

Oh, no! I'm so sorry!

I'm really sorry.

-But I think it's... -That's not good.

Let's see what happened.

You see? The pedal over there. It had a bit of a knock here, I see.

-What, just now? -Yes, it's a little sprained.

I'll have the repairman take a look.

And that's a bit of a cost there.

-You're saying I should pay for it? -Yes.

You sure that's not from before? It's a used bike, after all.

No, we checked it when it came in. That happened now.

The price isn't too bad.

Let's say you pay 2,700. But we knock off 100, so 2,600 SEK.

This isn't quite what I had in mind. I was going to look at men's bikes.

Yes, we can return to this one later. But just so you know,

the repairs will cost 200 SEK.

-But if I buy this one...? -You get a discount. 2,600 SEK.

Maybe I should try it.

Although this wasn't what I had in mind...

-Oh, there's no pedal brake. -No.

This isn't top-notch, but you get plenty for that price.

Gears and all that.

-Great, isn't it? -Yeah...

-What happened? -I tore down the shower.

-Why? -I'll build you a new one.

I don't know... It wasn't my shower.

Never mind that. This will increase the value of the house.

-You can demand some rent back. -I don't know...

I know I haven't been the greatest dad, but now we have this.

It'll be a project of ours to build you a nice shower.

-And I'll show you something else. -OK...

-This will be great! -Sure...

So...

I'm going to sleep in here.

-But this is Hussein's room. -I took care of it.

-Where is he? -Come have a look. It's great.

It turned out wonderfully.

The lawn mower.

Hi.

Look. Isn't it great?

-Did you do this now? -Yes. No, we did it together.

It's cozy and nice.

Isn't it great?

-Are you sure it's OK here? -OK.

Maybe it's be good for you here with some more privacy.

That might be good for you. I don't know.

It's good here. Thank you.

This showerhead is all-in-one. One that is more...fixed.

And one for...the private parts.

We need to decide on the flooring. Do you want tiles...

...or do you want acrylic? You need to choose.

-There are so many decisions to make. -I get it. I have confidence in you.

Still, we need to find out about tools...

And maybe where to start.

-Hello. -Hi!

Maybe you can help us out?

It's a nice old cabin, so we want to do it historically correct, make it blend in.

It's not big, so we just need enough stuff to build the shower.

-Do you know what you might need? -Yes, I feel I do.

-Is there a foundation? -No, it's gone.

There was a foundation. Or more like a tiny stick.

-That was the foundation. -Let's ask the expert.

That's exactly what I'd like to do.

Our question to you is, how do we build the foundation?

-A good foundation. -Yes.

-What is the house built on? -What's it called? Crawl space.

-What do you have at home? -It's his cabin.

-What do you have lying around? -What do you mean?

-How big do you need it to be? -Enough to stand and take a shower.

A meter in each direction.

-We can have a look over here. -Right.

This is really simple.

You basically just need to put it together and take it inside.

-Inside? -Do you want to shower outside?

Yes. There's no room for a shower inside.

You need to put that up before you do all the plumbing.

-You can't put these right on the grass. -No, of course not.

But maybe on a sand bed?

I'll put together a wooden square and put it on a sand bed.

And then tiles on top. Isn't that a good solution? For outdoors?

-No, that sounds like crap. -Right...

You can't build a sandbox and put this on top.

What about acrylic? Is that a better solution?

No, you're not even close.

I don't think you're at the level of expertise you want to be at.

I don't know...

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed right now.

Maybe we need to go home and talk this through a bit more.

Sure, you do that.

Thanks for your help.

I'm feeling a bit tired now. Can we put this project on ice?

-I can't deal with it. -That's fine.

He was so fucking tall and... "I know everything."

He works here. He knows this stuff.

OK, but maybe don't make it sound like brain surgery.

Because it's not. It's nailing boards together.

-It wasn't like that. -I want to do it right.

I'll go home and look at YouTube clips to make sure I do it right.

Dad?

I haven't been a good person.

Sure, you have, Dad. You've been a great person.

No.

I failed my children.

I just left.

And I've been unfaithful.

Drinking.

You have your chance now.

I never had a chance with my dad.

He died too soon.

You can demand answers from me.

Sorry, Dad. I need to take this.

-Leave that thing alone. -I think it might be a client.

-I really need to take this. -We're talking here.

Hello, this is Gösta.

-Hi, Saga! -I'm opening up now.

Hi, Saga. Hello... How are you?

But...where are you, Saga?

-Call her back. Please. -Hang on, Dad.

Yes, but where are you, Saga?

-I'm opening up to you. -OK. I'll be right there.

Stay on the line. I'll... Saga?

We need to... Start the car and drive.

-I don't know... -I know where we're going.

-Shit... -I'm sorry.

-I'd like to talk more about this. -Where am I going?

That way. But I'd like to talk more.

It was a client. She's not well.

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