All language subtitles for This.Is.Us.S05E12

Previously onThis Is Us...

KEVIN:
My mom is sick, and,

uh, I'm still
barely talking to Randall.

But that's okay,
because I am very excited

to spend the next bunch of years
sharing walls with this family.

Uncle Nicky, what are you...
what are you doing here?

There is a job at Jack's school.

I already talked
to Dr. Salzman. She said

that I would be great for it,
and she offered it to me.

TESS:
Alex is a "they."

And they're not just
my best friend.

-We're together.
-You mean like a couple?

TESS:
Yeah, Mom, like a couple.

There's this girl
that I've been seeing.

I've wanted to propose to her

for a while now.

SHEEHAN:
Go propose to that girl,

Pearson.

[door opens]

-Hey, man.
-Hey.

Hey, so I got the hot chocolate.

-Uh-huh.
-I got the corn syrup
for the candied apples.

And I bought every box
of string lights

-they had at the hardware store.
-That's my guy.

Hey, do me a favor
and look at this.

I mean, did I get
these letters even?

Yeah.
You spelled "carnival" wrong.

I...

[laughs] I'm kidding. No.
No, it looks great, man.

Great's not good enough, Miguel.

I need this proposal
to be perfect.

Jack, you are recreating
your first date

with Rebecca in her apartment.

It's exactly the kind
of romantic gesture

that makes other guys hate you.

-Come on. Other guys
don't hate me.
-Yeah, they do.

Anyways, did,
uh, you ever end up

getting ahold
of Rebecca's dad?

No. Never called me back.

Finally spelled it out
to his secretary this morning.

"Hey, Darcy, it's Jack Pearson
calling again.

"Could please let
Mr. Malone know

"the guy he hates is planning
on asking his daughter

to marry him tonight
and just wants his blessing?"

Never called me back.

Probably thinks
I'm still just a drunken kid

who can't hit a golf ball
to save his life.

Well, you can't hit a golf ball.

Hey, you know what?

-[laughs]
-Youcan't hit a golf ball.

♪ ♪

It's official: your engagement
is national news.

-Mm.
-And your wedding is going
to make headlines, too,

because I pulled some strings

and locked in
the Villas at Solstice Cove.

Manny say what?

That just came out.
I can't control it sometimes.

There's nothing
I can do about it.

This is what we wanted.
This is our first choice.

-Yeah. Yeah.
-It's great, yeah?

What? What's wrong?

No. No, no, nothing.

It's just, um, I-I didn't think
we'd be able to book it.

-Oh.
-You know, it's-it's perfect.

It's big and beautiful and airy.

-Yeah.
-A dream pandemic venue.

-VANESSA: Mm.
-Mrs. Manny say what?

-There she is.
-[laughs]

-KEVIN: All right.
-[both laugh]

You know, I've never been
invited to a wedding.

Crashed one once.

Came across
this outdoor barbecue.

Biggest heap of mac and cheese
you ever saw.

That bride was pissed.

-[laughing]
-Speaking of invites,

I need guest lists and wedding
party names, like, yesterday.

Yeah, no. It's-it's not gonna be
a big list. It'll be small.

We're keeping it intimate.
You know, just the closest

-family and friends is all.
-MADISON: Yeah, the only person

in my wedding party
will be Kevin's sister Kate.

I asked her yesterday.
We screamed, we cried,

we sang "We Are Family"
by Sister Sledge.

It was... it was beautiful.

And you, Kevin?

Oh, right. Uh, well,

my best man will obviously be
my brother.

And when I ask him, I'm sure
it will be equally beautiful.

You haven't talked to him yet?

I mean, I, you know,
I-I want to...

No. I just... I want to make
sure I say it the right way.

-You should just ask him.
-Yeah, I will.

'Cause you guys are
in a good place now.

Yeah, yeah. No, I will.

I just, you know, I will.

Okay, let's talk
rehearsal dinner.

-Who's hosting?
-That would be my mom
and her husband Miguel.

-Mm.
-They just got back
to L.A. yesterday,

-both fully vaccinated.
-Miguel, huh?

You know,
he's the guy who's, uh,

banging my brother's wife,
right?

Well, I call her "Mom,"
but-but yeah.

Um, I think he prefers

"Rebecca's husband
for over a decade,"

but-but yeah, that Miguel.

You know, um,
I'd like to help out

with the rehearsal dinner,
whatever the hell that is.

-Oh.
-Are you... are you serious?

Yeah. Why not?
Any schmuck who's read a menu

can pick out food
for dinner, right?

Yeah. I guess so. Okay, I'll
tell Miguel. He'll be thrilled.

-Thank you.
-Good.

Fabulous. And I need
the guest list ASAP.

-And you'll please
call your brother?
-MADISON: Mm.

I need his suit size.
What's his name?

Uh, Randall Pearson.

I can't believe they went
with "Mevin" over "Kadison."

Let me see.

I can't believe Bruno Mars
still picks up his dry cleaning

-like the rest of us. Holy cow.
-[laughs]

-Hey.
-Mm.

It's a big day today, baby.

Group therapy.

All right, remember,
it's your first day.

-You know, just ease into it.
-Mm-hmm.

You know, let other people talk.

I will try, Beth. I will.

But I am an orator.

-[laughs]
-I orate.

How you doing?

-Mm.
-You feeling okay

about Tess having Alex over
for the first time?

Oh, hell yeah, I feel okay!

Look, I got sodas chilling
in the fridge,

two dozen homemade jalapeño
poppers locked and loaded.

I mean, I just want them
to feel like

theyare totally
welcome here.

You're practicing Alex's gender
pronouns right now, aren't you?

Hell yeah. You know Tess is
mean when you get those wrong.

-I do.
-Ooh, you could always
call on me for backup.

My non-binary pronoun use
is impeccable.

Ooh.

-RANDALL: Mm.
-Huh.

Looks like J.Lo drinks
Frappuccino, just like me.

Yeah. Just like J.Lo.

TOBY:
Look at this.
Your Uncle Kevin

and future Aunt Madison
on the cover of a magazine.

And, wow. Look at that rock.

Can you say "herniated disc"?

-Okay.
-Oh. Wow.

-[laughs]
-Turns out, I'm hot for teacher.

-Yeah.
-I'm nervous.

Kate, a job
where you help blind youth

discover their inner musician
is tailor-made for you.

Thank you
for being such a trooper

on this whole transition.

Oh, I-I appreciate
the euphemism,

but I prefer, uh, "forced early
retirement without benefits."

Not funny.

I'm kidding. I'm kidding.

I actually really enjoy
all of this extra time

with our insanely cute children

before I move on
to the next thing.

Which I think is gonna be soon,
because, not to brag,

but in the tech world,
I'm kind of a catch.

You're a catch in any world.

TOBY:
Mm.

All right.

I love you. I love you.

I miss you already.

Text me updates
about the kids, please.

♪ I want to rock!♪

-No.
-No. Yeah.

[grunts]

-[Jack sighs]
-Wow.

-Yeah.
-This place is really
coming together.

-Oh, hey.
-Yeah? Hey, you know what?

We should start a side hustle
throwing indoor carnivals.

-[laughs] Maybe.
-Hey, so, okay,

when are we gonna start, uh,
practicing the proposal?

Oh, I don't need to practice.
I... I got it all right here.

-What? Jack.
-Yeah.

You can't just propose
to someone like Rebecca

without practicing first.

-You want to practice?
-Yeah.

All right, we'll practice.

This is gonna be like an episode
of I Love Lucy.

-Okay. Come on, let's go.
-Um...

-Rebecca...
-Wait. Do you have the ring?

You want to prac... you want me
to practice with the ring?

Yeah, Jack. It's your main prop.

-Okay.
-Okay. Um...

Rebecca...

-Wait.
-What?

Aren't you gonna get down
on one knee?

You want the whole thing.

This is serious, Jack.

Okay.

[Jack laughs]

Uh, um, Rebecca?

Yes, Jack.

Our first date was a disaster.

I could barely afford
the tickets for the carnival.

And when it started to rain,
I was afraid

to spend my last two bucks
on an umbrella.

Jack, she was there. Come on.
Let's just get to the meat

-and potatoes of this.
-Okay, yeah, yeah, got it. I...

-Yeah, the meat...
-Okay, okay, no, no, no.

I got it. I got it.
I got it. Okay.

Bec, for reasons
I will never know,

at the end of the night,
you kissed me.

And I decided
right in that moment

that I would spend the rest
of my life making sure

you never had to stand
in the rain again.

So what do you say?

Rebecca, will...? Wait.

-Hold-hold on a second.
-What's happening now?

Uh... it's a key thing.

Key to it. [laughs]

Rebecca Malone,

will you stand
under this umbrella with me?

-[laughs]
-Yes.

Mm.

Okay.

So, what do you think?

-Hmm.
-"Hmm" what?

The ring feels kind of stuck.

What? What do you mean,
the ring is stuck?

It's-it's stuck.

The ring is... What do you mean,
the ring is...?

-Ow! Oh, it's pinching.
-Okay...

Just stop moving!

Why did you make me
use the real thing, huh?

Why did you put it
all the way on there?

I didn't know
you had a huge knuckle.

S... You can stop right there.
Ow!

-Okay.
-You know what?
This actually happened

-on I Love Lucy.
-Did it?

-Yeah.
-Here. Just keep...
keep it elevated.

-Keep it elevated.
-What's that gonna do?

Blood drains!

It was a very good proposal,
Jack.

I would have said yes.

All right. So, Madison
and the babies are

at the park with Toby,
which is great,

'cause it gives us
a couple hours to wedding-plan

without being crapped on
or spit up on.

Well, I hope
your fiancée works that out

-before you marry her.
-[laughs]

All right, first order
of business is, uh,

I got to email Randall
and ask him to be my best man.

Email him? Really?

Doesn't that seem
a little impersonal?

Just-just call him.

Yeah. You know,
I-I thought... I...

-I want to get the words right,
you know? Mm...
-[door opens]

Hey, guys.

-Have no fear.
M.C. Rivas is here.
-KEVIN: Nice.

Hey, Miguel,
Uncle Nicky's excited

to dive into rehearsal dinner
planning with you,

so just ignore me.

Nicky, I am thrilled to have you
aboard the planning committee.

Dinner.

I'm thinking small plates.

Really?

Won't that be hard
to fit the food on?

Oh, uh, no. The...

So, the plates--
they're not really small.

Uh, it's basically a bunch
of appetizers

that add up to a full meal.

And that way,
people can help themselves

-to as much as they want.
-Well, you're no stranger

to helping yourself
to whatever you want.

What was that?

Hmm?
What about pigs in a blanket?

I do love pigs in a blanket,

but I was thinking
salmon crostini,

bacon-wrapped dates and...

[Italian accent]:
bruschetta.

Hey, kid.

Hey! Kid!

Huh?

Do you want small, fancy food

or regular-sized, good food?

[chuckles]

Hey, I... You know,
it's up to you guys.

So, I don't think
we need anything crusty.

-Cr... Uh, crus...
It's not crusty.
-NICKY: No.

-MIGUEL: It's crostini. It's...
-NICKY: You know,

it doesn't sound good at all.

MIGUEL:
It's got salm... Look,
let me show you a picture of it.

Maybe you'll-you'll get it
a little. S-See how...

KATE:
Oh. Hi!

Hey, uh,
can I help you with that?

No. It's fine.
I'm, uh, already done.

You know, I like to get here
an hour early,

settle in.

I see you're more of a...

-"minute to spare"
type of person.
-Sorry.

I just... It was hard
for me to tear myself away

from my kids this morning,
but I'm sure it'll get easier.

Right? And I'm really excited
to be working with you.

This job is a dream,
and I still cannot believe

-I got it. [chuckles]
-Yeah.

All right!
Good morning, drummers.

Good morning, good morning.

[drumming]

Mom, do you know the difference

between agender and bi-gender?

Bethany, Alex is a teenager,

not the gender police. Relax.

And yes, I do.

-I'm a woman of the times.
-[doorbell rings]

-TESS: Hey.
-ALEX: Hi.

TESS:
Mom, Mama C,

-this is Alex.
-Hi.

Uh, it's so nice
to meet you guys.

Great to meet you, Alex. Popper?

-Ooh, yes, please.
-Uh, we'll eat them upstairs.

-We need to go study.
-All right.

I hope they leave us
some poppers.

JASE:
Welcome, everyone.
Welcome, welcome.

So, for those of you
who do not know me, I'm Jase.

And I just want
to say this up front:

this is a transracial adoptee
support group.

This is not
the Harry Potter Alliance.

Last month
there was a little mix-up,

and we had a bunch
of very disappointed dudes

-with wands.
-[all laugh]

Nothing wrong with that.

So, we've got, uh,
two new additions today, right?

Uh, yeah.

Uh, Randall Pearson.

Thrilled to be here.

Uh, Andrew Levin.
Nice to meet you all.

So, which one of you want
to plunge in into the deep end

and tell us about yourselves?

Uh, okay. Sure.

Um... I mean,

-if you don't mind?
-No, please. Go for it.

Uh...
[chuckles softly]

Where do I start? Um,

I grew up
in Newton, Massachusetts.

Super white,

upper-middle-class,
Jewish parents.

It was actually
shortly after my bar mitzvah

that my depression started.

Something about staring out
at all those faces.

A whole congregation of people
that looked nothing like me.

It shook me.

Anyway, I've gotten it
mostly under control, but...

I have this need
to keep proving myself

that never goes away.

So, here I am.

Thank you for sharing, Andrew.

The mailman
was the first Black man

I saw in our neighborhood.

And I used to think,

"Is that him?

Is that my real father?"

At night, I would pray
for my birth mother to find me.

But then my adopted mom
would come tuck me in,

and...

You know,
I would feel so guilty.

Randall.

Anything you want to share, man?

I'm good. I just, uh...

Would it be all right if I
just kept listening for a while?

JASE:
Absolutely, man.

Absolutely.

Maybe if we grease it, you know,
like when a bolt gets stuck?

Oh, that's a good idea.

-Right?
-Yeah.

You know, this is not how
I imagined my day going.

-Yeah.
-[chuckles]
-[knock on door]

Hey, I thought you said
that Rebecca

wasn't gonna be home
for two hours.

It's not Rebecca.
I mean, this is her house.

She'd just walk in.

Mr. Malone.

Good to see you.

MIGUEL:
So, I was thinking

that after the cocktail hour,

I will give my toast.

Wait. You're-you're
gonna give a toast?

Of course.
Yeah, I'm-I'm hosting.

No, we're cohosting.

Oh, really? Uh, how much money
are you kicking in

to pay
for cohosting this dinner?

[sighs]
I'm sorry.

It's just that all day,
you have been shooting down

pretty much every idea
that I've had,

and it's just starting
to wear down on me.

No, no, it's kind of like
the way you wore down

my brother's wife
to get her to marry you.

Excuse me?

Nicky, what the hell, man?

Oh, forget it.

No. I don't want to forget it.

Go ahead.

We're both grown men.

Say what you're gonna say.

It just doesn't sit with me,
you know?

I mean, my brother
cuts me out of his life

and replaces me with you,

and then you come along,

and you swoop in,
and you marry his wife.

"Swooped in"?

I married Rebecca
13 years after Jack died.

And if you're wondering
whether or not

I spend a few minutes every day

wondering what Jack might think
about that,

well, then, the answer is yes.

I do.

There's only one person
that I owe an explanation to,

and that is the one person
that I can never give one to.

I certainly don't owe one
to you.

[mouths]

[kids laugh, scream]

MADISON:
So, I have been to every park

in a five-mile radius,
and this one is the best.

[kids chattering]

Aw, man, Patrick isn't here.

He's my favorite
of the stay-at-home dads.

That's too bad.

How's wedding planning going?

Oh, fine.

She said, staring sadly
off into the distance.

-[chuckles softly]
-Just so you know, Madison,

I promise, whatever you say
on the playground

stays on the playground,

as the saying goes.

Ugh. It's stupid.
It's just, um...

We picked a venue.

It's beautiful.

But, um, between us,

it's not where I want
to get married.

Hmm. What did Kevin say?

Ah, you haven't told him. Okay.

Sometimes I have a hard time
saying what I want.

Especially with, um... men.

Mm-hmm.

Also women.

A little bit with children.

I think I'm having a...

I'm having a harder time

with this whole
"stay-at-home dad" thing.

Much harder
than I'm letting on to Kate.

The thing is, I l...
I loved my job.

And I loved
getting dressed up for it.

I loved
making coffee to take to it.

I loved doing it.
You know, and I love my kids,

but if I'm being honest...

-[sighs]
-Hey.

What you say at the playground
stays at the playground.

I love my kids,

but I don't love spending
ten hours a day with them.

-Mm.
-I didn't mean that.

I didn't mean that.

I totally meant that.

The couple of days
that I've done it,

time has moved
very, very slowly.

[breathes deeply]

-Do you think I'm terrible?
-No.

-No, I-I think you're honest.
-Yeah.

Honest.

Here at the Las Vegas
of playgrounds.

You should talk to her.

You should talk to Kevin.

-Puff?
-Please.

-Want one of these?
-JACK: No.

-TOBY: Want a cheese puff?
-[shakes puffs]

-[phone vibrating]
-JACK: No. No.

TOBY:
No? Can I eat all of them?

Hey. So, my next class starts
in about two minutes.

[sighs] Listen,
I'm sure that everything is fine

and I'm just being crazy,
but can you please just...

just text me back, let me know
that you guys are okay?

Okay.

Okay, I love you. Bye.

-PHILIP: Nice of you to join us.
-KATE: Sorry.

-I...
-I don't need an apology.
I need you to be present.

[phone vibrates]

KATE:
I'm sorry.

This is really important.
Just one sec.

[crying]

What's wrong?

Nothing. Nothing.

It's just,
I told my husband to text me

to make sure
that the kids were okay,

and he hadn't, and then...
I mean, he did.

Sorry, has s...
has something happened?

No. No, they're fine.

They'refine.

I am a total mess.

Um, it's just I haven't

been away from both of them
for this long.

[exhales]

Kate, there were a lot
of applicants for this job,

and you were not
at the top of my list.

I mean,
you have no teaching experience,

and you don't have a degree in
anything even adjacent to music.

But Dr. Salzman
loves your energy,

so here we are.

I get it.

You love your kids.

But if that means that you can't
be present for my students,

this isn't gonna work.

It's awful quiet up there.

Studying is
an inherently quiet activity.

Where are Tess and Alex?
I wanted to say hi.

-Oh, they're in her room.
-For real?

How come they're allowed to be
in her room

with the door closed,
but Malik and I aren't?

-Wait, hold up,
the door's closed?
-Mm-hmm.

Well, that is
definitely not allowed.

I mean, I think...

-Right?
-You didn't discuss
ground rules with Tess?

I was very focused
on the pronouns and the poppers.

But, um...

No, I think it's only fair

that Tess should have to follow
the same rules as Deja, so...

I'm just...

I'm just gonna go up
and check on 'em.

Bethany?

Do tread lightly.

[knocking]

TESS [gasps]:
Mom!

What are you doing?

I can't believe you
just barged in here like that.

I didn't barge in. I knocked.

And I would like
for the two of you

to please relocate
to the couch downstairs, okay?

-What? Why?
-ALEX: Hey, no.

It's fine.

[sighs]

Okay. Fine.

[quietly]:
Sorry she's such a psycho.

What did you call me?

I'm sorry.

You know what, Alex?
I think maybe it's time for you

to go home so I can talk to
my daughter about her rudeness.

Mom, please.

Hey, no. It's okay.

I'll see you soon.

Tess, it's cool.

Bye.

That was mortifying.

Maybe you should have thought
about that

before you called me
out my name.

Yeah, because that's
what you're mad about.

What is that supposed to mean?

Nothing.

Tess?

I saw the look on your face
when you opened the door.

When you saw me with them.

What look? I didn't give a look.

Sure.

Oh. Come in.

[door creaks closed]

JACK:
This is, uh,

this is my friend Miguel.

-He, um...
-Hey.

he was helping me set up
for a proposal tonight.

[Miguel chuckles softly]

Yeah, we had a little snafu
with the ring.

-Yeah.
-Butter.

Uh, so it's stuck.

Good luck with that.

Uh, look, Jack,
I'm sorry it took me so long

to get back to you today.

Um...

I was just gathering
my thoughts

or, as my wife would say,
licking my wounds.

Look...

we both know Rebecca's already
made up her mind about you,

with or without my blessing.

So I will...

do the best I can
to be civil to you

and to tolerate this marriage.

And I wanted to tell you that
man-to-man.

I promised my wife I would.

[takes deep breath]:
So...

now I'll let you get back
to whatever this is.

No.

I'm sorry, sir, that's just...

-that's not good enough.
-You know, Miguel, let's just...

Jack is not the kind of man
that you "tolerate"

being married to your daughter.

Jack is the kind of man
that you thank

your lucky stars
that your daughter

was lucky enough to meet,
let alone marry.

Did you know that Jack and I met
when he needed to buy a jacket

just to get
into your country club?

I-I had never seen anybody

look so serious about anything.

I told him, "Just-just relax,
it's, it's just a jacket," but

he said,
"It's not about the jacket, man.

"It's about the girl.

"Everything that I do

from this moment forward
is gonna be about the girl."

And he meant it.

It was about the girl

when he worked his first
construction job for free

because the foreman
couldn't afford to hire him.

It was about the girl

when he moved
into a new apartment,

a place Rebecca
could be comfortable in.

And it was about the girl

every time he ate cup of noodles

because he was scrimping
and saving just to buy the...

ring stuck on my pinky finger
right now.

That is the kind of man
that your daughter is marrying.

And if you can't find it
within yourself

to give him your blessing,

well...
[scoffs]

that says a whole lot more
about you

than it does about him.

Do you have any dental floss?

Janet's fingers
turn into sausage

when she has too much salt.

So...

I know a trick
to get that ring off.

Yeah, let me just go check
and see if sh...

Hold that.

[sniffs]

-[exhales]
-[chuckles softly]

Is-is it gonna hurt?

Not much.

Great.

I've been thinking a lot
about my ghost kingdom.

Oh, for the new people,
"ghost kingdom" is

a term that we use
for a hypothetical world

where adoptees imagine who
their birth parents might be.

I used to imagine
Rita Moreno was my mom.

-[others chuckling]
-She's so funny.

I thought we must be related.

Of course, when I actually met
my birth mother, she was

nothing like Rita.

We didn't have anything
in common.

Or maybe we did.

It's hard to tell.

I can't speak Spanish,
and she can't speak English.

Lately, I've been letting myself
feel something

I think I've known deep down
for my entire life.

I wish I'd never been adopted.

I made the mistake of telling
my adopted family

how I've been feeling.

I said, "I love you,

"but I wish I never knew you.

"Because if I could go back
in time and choose,

I'd choose to stay
with my bipolar birth mom."

Now half of them
won't talk to me.

[playing
"I Could Have Danced All Night"]

[shyly]:
♪ I'll never know♪

♪ What made it so exciting♪

♪ Why all at once♪

♪ My heart took flight.♪

[playing stops]

Okay. Amelia,

at the top of the song,
it says "allegro."

What does that mean?

Uh, brisk and lively.

Good. Yeah, well...

let's remember that

and go again.

Can I just say one thing?

-Real quick.
-Sure.

So, Eliza,
the woman who's singing,

she was basically told
her entire life

that she was worthless.

And now she's finally realizing

that she is smart
and she is a badass.

-[students chuckling]
-[Kate chuckles]

I don't know
if I'm allowed to say that.

Sorry. But, on top of all that,

she just finished dancing

with her cranky but charming
tutor for the first time,

and-and it's making her
just feel

so excited she could burst.

So it's safe to say

that when you're singing
the song,

that you would feel
all the things.

Okay. Got it.

Okay. W-Well, let's...

-let's go again.
-[playing keyboard]

♪ I'll never know♪

♪ What made it so exciting♪

♪ Why all at once♪

♪ My heart took flight♪

♪ I only know when he♪

♪ Began to dance with me♪

♪ I could have danced♪

♪ Danced, danced...♪

♪ All♪

♪ Night.♪

I did not tread lightly.

So I heard.

Tess said
she saw a look on my face

when I walked in
on her and Alex,

saw me reacting to them...
being together.

Mm.

I don't know
what's wrong with me.

When Tess first came out,
I was totally fine.

And now I-I...

[sighs]

I think
I'm having trouble letting go.

[stammers]

What are you letting go of?

She's my firstborn daughter.

I had all these dreams
about what it was gonna be like

when she got older, you know?
Like...

she'd talk to me
about the boys she liked

or I'd help her get ready
for dates.

One day, I would watch her
walk down the aisle

towards a man every bit as good
as her father.

I thought I had let all that go,
but I...

Well, it's-it's more
than letting go.

You have to adjust.

It's part of being a mother.

This is the part where you let
go of what you thought would be

and adjust to what is.

When you left dance,

I thought that you would go
into academics, like me.

I thought you would choose
to stay in D.C.

and be close, always.

See, that was my picture
of your life.

But the real picture--

the woman you actually become,

the things you actually want--

they're just as beautiful.

It took me some time
to see that.

[exhales]

Too much time, if you ask me.

So I hope that you
will adjust quicker, Bethany.

Time is so precious.

You blink

and your daughter's grown

and you're holed up
in her house,

trying to make up for 20 years

of not adjusting.

Okay.

Twins are finally in bed
after a long day at the park.

Had to sing "Rock-a-bye Baby"
to them about ten times.

[both chuckle softly]

It's some bleak, bleak lyrics,
but it works.

Least it's not
"Ring Around the Rosie."

-Yeah.
-'Cause that song
is the stuff of nightmares.

-[chuckles]
-Oh, that song is just brutal,
isn't it?

Kevin...

-Yeah?
-I...

I don't think I want
to get married at the Villas.

You don't?

So, my father was a pretty...

withholding man.

Emotionally, I mean.

And, um, he wasn't around a lot
when I was little.

-Traveled a lot.
-Mm.

So, my mother...

One day,
she finally put her foot down.

You know, told him to...

"Take us with you
on one of your business trips.

Make time for us, or else."

He took us to Japan.

Which explains
the Kabuki mask collection.

-Yeah.
-We spent a perfect day

walking around
the most beautiful garden

I have ever seen.

My mom laughed a lot.

I remember my dad
held both our hands,

actually asked me questions
about school.

We had a picnic
under the cherry trees.

[both chuckle]

For one day...

we were a family.

A few weeks later, they told me
they were getting divorced.

I guess you would think

that would have soured the trip
in my mind, but...

I have spent a lifetime

chasing the happiness
I felt in that garden.

So, there's this garden

that I really love.

It's not as fancy as the Villas,

but it's outside,
and it's-it's COVID-safe,

and it has
a lot of the same trees

-and flowers.
-Yes.

Yeah, let's get married there.

Just like that?

Just like that.

I mean, it sounds perfect.

[knock on door]

Come in.

Hey.

Hey.

Tess.

You will not call me names.

Not in front of anyone.

Not in private.

That is not the way we do things
in this house.

Understood?

Understood.

But...

you should be able to tell me
how I make you feel.

If you saw anything
on my face today

when I saw you and Alex
together on your bed,

you need to know this.

It has nothing to do
with how much I love you.

Actually, it has nothing to do
with you at all.

Because you're perfect.

Just the way you are.

And Alex seems pretty perfect

just the way they are.
[chuckles]

Is there anything else
you want to say to me?

I know you're trying.

I also know you don't have
to try with Annie.

Or Deja.

And it makes me sad.

Makes me wonder
if we'll ever be close again.

Oh, Tess, of course we will.

We areclose now.

We are, and we always will be.

Okay, Mom.

And then my speech
helped Amelia soar.

I mean,
Philip wouldn't admit it,

but we both know
that she really soared.

Bam! Hell yeah, she did.

Nobody summarizes My Fair Lady

-like you, babe.
-Thank you.

You okay? I'm sorry,
I know I've been talking

-a mile a minute
since I got home.
-Uh, yeah.

No, I'm fine.
I'm just really, really tired.

I do have some good photos
from today. You want to see?

What? Holding out on me?

[gasps]
Babe.

Look at him on a swing! Aw.

[sighs]

[phone vibrating]

Hello?

Oh, hey.
Uh, hey, Miguel. It's Nicky.

Oh. Uh... hey.

Uh...

I j... I just want to apologize
for the way I acted before.

Th-That was...
That was my own stuff.

Had nothing to do with you.

Okay. Um...

Well, thank you.

Okay. Well, anyway, that's it.

Um...

Sorry to bother you.

-Good night.
-He never replaced you, Nicky.

YOUNG MIGUEL:
All right.

Well, my work is done here.

It's all on you now, my friend.

Hey, things go well tonight,

you know, like, she says yes

-and everything...
-[scoffs] She's gonna...

...would you stand
at the altar with me?

You know, maybe say a few words
at the reception?

MIGUEL:
We both knew what he meant,

but he just, uh...
[chuckles]

He couldn't say the words.

He, he couldn't call me
his best man

because I think
that somewhere deep down,

he was saving that place
for you.

You know,

if you wanted to,

we could do the rehearsal dinner
toast together.

Oh, no, I-I don't want
to give a toast. I just...

I just didn't like the idea
that you were gonna do it.

[laughs]

["Without Your Love"
by The Paper Kites playing]

♪ I can dance, I can shake♪

♪ I can move, and I can break♪

♪ Like a fire in the soul♪

♪ I can burn, I can grow♪

♪ I can come, I can go♪

♪ I can rock, and I can roll♪

♪ Down the road,
start again...♪

-[clears throat]
-RANDALL: Hey, Kev.

Saw your big news
in the tabloids.

Yeah.

Thank God
the five-o'clock shadow

is quarantine chic, right?

Um...

So, so, Randall,
the reason I'm calling

is, uh...

I'm calling to ask you
to be my best man.

Absolutely.

Uh, I'd be honored.

[sighs] I've been putting
this call off all day.

[chuckles]
All week, if I'm being honest.

And it's not because I thought you'd say no. It's just...

When you stand up there
next to me,

I don't want there
to be anything between us.

And-and I know
when the twins were born,

you said it was a bad time
to talk about our childhoods

and, uh, how you felt
growing up in our family...

Hey, Kev, I don't want you
to take this the wrong way,

but I don't think now
is the right time

to have this conversation,
either.

It's, uh, it's been a day.

I agree. No, I-I don't want
to have that talk right now.

In fact, I don't want to have it
over the phone at all.

I was, um...

What if I come... What if I come
out? What if I come see you?

You... Really?

Yeah, yeah. You know, I talked
it over with Madison, and I got

some free time.
What if I come out?

You know,
after we all get our shots?

Yeah, brother.

That's-that's cool with me.

Well, all right, then.
I'll, you know...

I'll book a flight.

Okay.

Talk to you later.

♪ I can scream, I can fight♪

♪ I can read, and I can write♪

♪ I can love, I can leave♪

♪ I can get down on my knees♪

♪ I can go, I can stay♪

♪ In the night
or in the day...♪

Manny say what?

♪ I can try...♪

[chuckles softly]

♪ Without your love,
without your love♪

[door closes]

♪ And it ain't nothing♪

♪ Without your love,
without your love♪

♪ We ain't nothing♪

♪ Without your love,
without your love♪

♪ Nothing♪

♪ Without your love,
without your love.♪

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