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[Gentle guitar melody]
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[♪]
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- Whoa.
- Mm-hmm.
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- Whoa.
- Oh, hello.
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Oh, sorry, I had
the TV on pause earlier.
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Now it's not the only thing
you have on pause.
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[laughter]
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- What's wrong?
- Where is that thing?
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I need to turn this off.
There we go.
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Hey, Martin.
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[exhales sharply]
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[♪]
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Hey.
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I like seeing you.
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[♪]
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- Okay.
- Yeah.
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Yeah, Martin, I can't.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
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I can't.
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You don't have to apologize.
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I'm sorry, I just,
you know.
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I love you, I just...
These issues are...
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I know.
I said...
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you don't have to apologize.
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[sighs]
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I get it.
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Really.
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It's late anyway.
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[exhales deeply]
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[♪]
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*NEW AMSTERDAM (2018)*
Season 03 Episode 07
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Episode Title: "The Legend of Howie Cournemeyer"
Aired on: April 13, 2021
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"We have seen
some dark days.
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"A deadly pandemic,
its epicenter right here
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"in New York City.
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"Americans dying
by the thousands,
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"forced to face their fates
scared and alone.
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"Sometimes it feels like
the storm will never end.
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"But believe this:
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"It will end.
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You will make it end."
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Those words
were written in 1985
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as this hospital faced,
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not the crisis we're in now,
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but a different one:
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The AIDS epidemic.
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So, here to honor
National HIV Testing Day,
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please welcome
the man who wrote those words.
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My personal hero,
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the former Medical Director
of New Amsterdam,
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Dr. George Helms.
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[cheers and applause]
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Yes! All right!
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Whoo!
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Thank you, Dr. Goodwin.
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[chuckling]
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I'm so proud
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to be here on a day
when we offer free care
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to every HIV patient
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that has come through
these doors.
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Undocumented, uninsured,
under-insured.
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It's top-to-toe coverage,
and it's on the house.
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- [pager beeping]
- Yes, amazing.
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Luna's banned from daycare.
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Banned?
C-can't you just give her
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a detention or something?
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I'm sorry, Max, but
we take biting very seriously.
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- Biting?
- Especially repeat offenders.
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She's teething.
She's not a felon.
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Look, let me come up there,
and I will calm her down,
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and then you can give her
a second chance.
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We've given her three.
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[quietly]
Three?
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Is any family around?
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My in-laws, but, uh,
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you know what
our hours are like.
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If she's not here,
I'm never gonna...
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I'm never gonna see her.
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Marsha,
I don't have a plan B.
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Neither do I, Max.
I'm sorry.
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I'll bring up Luna.
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[quiet emotional music]
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[sighs]
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[upbeat Indian music playing]
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Ig, Ig, look.
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I told Casey I'd be out of
the E.D. for like, ten minutes.
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Yeah, no, any second now
he's gonna
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walk through that door
and his sweet smile's
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gonna light up that perfectly
round bald head of his, kay?
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[door opens]
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Surprise!
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Shut the door, shut the...
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- He's not here yet?
- Nope, nope.
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Ig, look, I really got to go.
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Fudge. No, no, no.
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Let me text Ella one more time.
Don't... don't eat those.
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- Say hi for me.
- Um, you know what?
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Actually I just wanted to
pop my head in real quick,
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- and I got to get back to work.
- Wait, wait, guys.
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Have you forgotten that
he almost died?
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Okay, he had COVID,
he had open heart surgery,
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then he battled through
a hellish rehab.
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Now today,
our friend is coming back here
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and I want to celebrate him
for ten minutes
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of your time, please.
[door opens]
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- Surprise!
- Aah!
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- Shoot!
- Sorry I'm late,
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- I was working on my toast.
- Agnes...
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- What, he's not here yet?
- No.
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Yeah, you know what?
Give him my love.
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- Just give him my love.
- C'mon, Floyd...
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Just tell him to come into
the E.D. and say hey.
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Oh, Brunstetter,
you're back on too.
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Let me grab one more
of these pastry things,
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- and then I am right behind you.
- They're called laddu
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and they're decorative,
Brunstetter.
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God, what is wrong
with you people?
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Ten minutes! Guys, ten min...
Shut the door, at least.
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Just...
[door closes]
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Great, now it says "Kapoop."
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And then you start placing
one on each of the seats.
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Oh, and please don't
forget the pens, okay?
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Thank you.
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Uh, why are you all jittery?
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Because we're
about to be hit
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with an influx of HIV patients,
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and with 6 feet
between each chair,
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I'm not sure we have enough
hallway to accommodate them.
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No, you know what?
This feels more like
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the kind of freak-out you have
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when you're 24 hours away
from becoming a mum.
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Yes, Mina is coming tomorrow
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but I'm not her mum,
I'm her aunt.
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And a cool aunt doesn't
freak out, thank you.
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Uh,
she's a 16-year-old girl.
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You're never gonna be
a cool anything.
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Oh, shush.
I just mean I'm gonna provide
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a calm, accepting environment.
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My role isn't to control her
life, it's to follow her lead.
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And whatever may come,
this cool aunt
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- is just gonna roll with it.
- Ammeh Helen?
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[quiet plucky music]
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[♪]
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Mina. I'm...
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[chuckles]
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I thought that you were
coming tomorrow.
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I flew standby.
I thought I'd surprise you.
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Hi.
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Um, yes, yes, you did.
I just, um...
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Oh! I just wish you'd called.
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[chuckles]
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- I don't believe it.
- Believe it.
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Full refund from the venue
and from the caterer.
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Damn. What'd you have to do
to pull that off?
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I played the
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"His mom has diabetes
and he broke" card.
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- I'm not broke.
- [laughing]
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- Just say thank you, Floyd.
- Oh, I thank you.
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So what's left on the
cancelled wedding checklist?
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Nothing.
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All our business
is officially handled.
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- We're done.
- Good, all right.
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- How's Mama Nola?
- Mama Nola's good.
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Yeah, she's, uh, she's good.
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And what about Floyd?
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Is he good?
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Uh...
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- [door opens]
- Incoming.
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Oh, uh, Evie,
we got incoming.
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- I got to go.
- Go do your thing.
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Kwame Adu. Passed out
at HIV testing upstairs.
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Pulse 140 and thready.
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Kwame, I'm Dr. Bloom.
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You're in New Amsterdam E.D.
We're gonna take
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- good care of you, okay?
- Okay.
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Okay, let's get him
on the bed.
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- Take a look at these.
- Okay, nice and easy.
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- Okay.
- Nice and easy.
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- Hey, Kwame.
- Yes?
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We got the results from
the HIV test you just took.
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- Uh-huh.
- It's positive.
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No.
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No, that... that can't be true.
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Kwame, I'm sure it's not
the result that you wanted,
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but HIV isn't a death sentence
anymore.
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It's manageable.
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- This can't be happening.
- Hey, hey, hey.
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Look, just take it easy,
all right?
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That test is wrong.
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Okay, but the results
also say that
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your pancreas is damaged.
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That's why you're sick,
all right?
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- You just need to relax.
- That test is wrong!
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- Okay...
- Okay? Okay?
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Just... Kwame, Kwame,
just have a seat right here.
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- Kwame!
- [gasping]
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If you don't get treatment,
you could die.
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Okay, let him go, okay?
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You can't keep him here
against his will.
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His pancreas
is gonna explode.
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Then he's gonna be back.
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Mariana,
get Trauma room one
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ready for an acute
pancreatitis.
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Yes.
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Uh, look out.
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Oh, no, sorry about that.
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Hey. Hey, hey, Luna.
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Running from Dada is a bad,
bad move.
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It's not very good, okay?
If you keep doing it,
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you're gonna be on time out.
[crashing]
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Hey, that's just the way
the world works.
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Come here. There are rules.
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And we got to follow
the rules, okay?
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And when people do bad things,
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they don't just get to...
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To get away with it.
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[punchy drum solo]
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[♪]
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Dr. Val! Uh, any word on
the blood bank records?
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Yeah, here you go.
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All we got on
Howie Cournemeyer.
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Interesting stuff.
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- Cute kid.
- Yeah, she is.
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Until she gnaws your face off.
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Howie Cournemeyer
donated blood in 1986.
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- This is interesting why?
- Oh, it's much less the when
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than the how much.
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A thousand pints in a month?
What, is he a whale?
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His blood type keeps changing.
Sometimes in a single day.
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Oh, yeah, that whole thing's
total B.S.
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Not sure how it'll help you
catch a vandal though.
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- Okay, check this out.
- His blood type changes,
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but his address stays the same
on almost every donation.
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Max with
the detective skills.
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Well, it's all about
keen skills of observation.
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Like I'm observing
your kid eating a plant?
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- Hey, um...
- Hey.
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What if I started
chewing on you?
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That's enough plant-based
eating for one day.
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Okay, come here.
So we are daycare-less.
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And, uh, recent development,
we don't have a plan B.
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Great story. Sign these.
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- Um, you love kids.
- Very much the opposite.
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Right. Let me rephrase that.
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You love being my assistant,
right?
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Yes, it's my childhood dream
come true.
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We would love to hang out
with you, Sandra.
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- 'Cause you're so cool.
- No.
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Really? Please?
I'm begging you.
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- Kay, try cash.
- Yeah, okay. I'll pay you.
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Double? Triple. Quadruple.
Whatever it takes.
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Please. Please take my baby.
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00:09:20,345 --> 00:09:21,741
- You're the best.
- What?
253
00:09:21,862 --> 00:09:22,971
She's the sweetest thing
in the world.
254
00:09:23,055 --> 00:09:24,973
Watch out,
she does bite sometimes.
255
00:09:25,058 --> 00:09:26,999
- Don't drop her. Food, water.
- I've...
256
00:09:27,084 --> 00:09:29,089
[upbeat music]
257
00:09:29,173 --> 00:09:30,598
Hello.
258
00:09:33,157 --> 00:09:34,878
- So sorry.
- I'm sure this isn't
259
00:09:34,962 --> 00:09:39,501
how you imagined spending
your first day in America.
260
00:09:39,795 --> 00:09:43,157
But I-I have a patient
who's in rough shape
261
00:09:43,242 --> 00:09:45,421
so if you need me,
I'll be in the Oncology...
262
00:09:45,755 --> 00:09:49,269
- [chuckles]
- What's... what's funny?
263
00:09:49,879 --> 00:09:52,540
I'm sorry.
264
00:09:52,719 --> 00:09:53,657
It's just like watching
265
00:09:53,742 --> 00:09:56,138
- Dr. Helen on TV.
- Ah.
266
00:09:56,223 --> 00:09:59,142
My father would watch you
sometimes, and...
267
00:09:59,227 --> 00:10:01,624
he'd say,
"Look, that's your Ammeh."
268
00:10:01,709 --> 00:10:03,322
But it just felt so odd.
269
00:10:03,486 --> 00:10:05,782
Like if he said my Amoo was
270
00:10:06,139 --> 00:10:08,728
Ryan Seacrest or something.
271
00:10:10,345 --> 00:10:13,000
Uh, well. Look, if, um,
272
00:10:13,223 --> 00:10:15,906
if it feels odd,
273
00:10:16,708 --> 00:10:19,796
calling me "ammeh," then, um,
274
00:10:20,002 --> 00:10:21,485
p-please don't.
275
00:10:21,570 --> 00:10:22,793
But that would be
disrespectful.
276
00:10:22,877 --> 00:10:24,890
No, no, no.
No, I'm asking you to.
277
00:10:24,975 --> 00:10:26,796
Um, I should be more like your
278
00:10:26,881 --> 00:10:29,757
big sister or your friend.
279
00:10:30,263 --> 00:10:31,828
Your friend Helen.
280
00:10:32,652 --> 00:10:33,880
That's what you should call me.
281
00:10:33,964 --> 00:10:35,926
Just Helen.
282
00:10:36,018 --> 00:10:37,500
"Just Helen,"
283
00:10:37,631 --> 00:10:39,914
I know it's rude to be
so direct,
284
00:10:39,999 --> 00:10:42,734
but can I get some tea?
285
00:10:43,421 --> 00:10:44,976
Oh, yes.
286
00:10:45,070 --> 00:10:48,250
Um, course.
You don't even have to ask.
287
00:10:48,756 --> 00:10:50,892
The cafeteria's on
the fourth floor.
288
00:10:50,977 --> 00:10:53,054
- Cool.
- Yeah.
289
00:10:53,212 --> 00:10:54,956
It is cool.
[chuckles]
290
00:10:55,094 --> 00:10:58,535
Hi, yes, I am in
desperate need of a nanny,
291
00:10:58,620 --> 00:11:00,496
and I heard you guys
are the best agency around.
292
00:11:00,580 --> 00:11:01,890
No, thank you.
293
00:11:01,975 --> 00:11:04,132
Well, I'm looking for
someone in the mid-town area.
294
00:11:04,268 --> 00:11:06,718
Uh, let's see,
teaching experience is a must.
295
00:11:06,803 --> 00:11:08,112
Bilingual is great.
296
00:11:08,197 --> 00:11:10,158
Trilingual is better.
297
00:11:10,243 --> 00:11:12,509
Uh, what else?
CPR certified, obviously.
298
00:11:12,697 --> 00:11:15,355
And, uh, oh!
Like a wizard with vegetables.
299
00:11:15,440 --> 00:11:18,011
I mean an actual wizard.
300
00:11:18,096 --> 00:11:20,014
[buzzer sounds]
301
00:11:20,099 --> 00:11:21,451
Great.
302
00:11:21,536 --> 00:11:22,846
Oh, that's great.
Yeah, that's amazing.
303
00:11:22,930 --> 00:11:26,662
Um, um, starting tomorrow,
if you have it.
304
00:11:27,732 --> 00:11:28,910
[chuckles]
305
00:11:29,125 --> 00:11:32,087
What... when you say
"ten-month waiting list,"
306
00:11:32,171 --> 00:11:36,469
do you mean actual months
or is that a figure of speech?
307
00:11:38,656 --> 00:11:39,660
Yeah?
308
00:11:39,744 --> 00:11:41,444
I'm gonna have to
call you back.
309
00:11:41,528 --> 00:11:44,578
Hi, are you Howie Cournemeyer?
310
00:11:44,662 --> 00:11:46,555
- Yeah.
- I'm Max Goodwin,
311
00:11:46,640 --> 00:11:48,507
Medical Director
at New Amsterdam.
312
00:11:48,717 --> 00:11:51,549
I knew you bastards
would come for me one day.
313
00:11:54,992 --> 00:11:56,546
I walk in this morning
with HIV,
314
00:11:56,630 --> 00:11:58,244
and now I have cancer, too?
[chuckles dryly]
315
00:11:58,328 --> 00:12:00,618
I mean this can't be happening.
I can't even pronounce it.
316
00:12:00,703 --> 00:12:02,161
Hemangiosarcoma.
317
00:12:02,245 --> 00:12:04,134
And we don't know for certain
that's what you have.
318
00:12:04,218 --> 00:12:05,381
Okay, then
what do you think I do?
319
00:12:05,465 --> 00:12:07,122
I mean, you just found a lump.
That could be anything, right?
320
00:12:07,206 --> 00:12:11,300
Hemangiosarcoma often occurs
when HIV goes undertreated.
321
00:12:11,384 --> 00:12:14,434
We won't know anything
for sure until your MRI.
322
00:12:14,518 --> 00:12:16,566
HIV is not supposed to be
a big deal anymore.
323
00:12:16,650 --> 00:12:17,916
I mean, I've been on
my cocktail for years
324
00:12:18,000 --> 00:12:19,744
and I've been fine.
Now I miss a few check-ups
325
00:12:19,828 --> 00:12:23,312
- and I might die?
- Let's not jump to conclusions.
326
00:12:24,156 --> 00:12:25,880
[coughs]
327
00:12:26,437 --> 00:12:28,047
Oh, my God, what's happening?
328
00:12:28,132 --> 00:12:29,841
Okay, can somebody
help please?
329
00:12:29,925 --> 00:12:31,959
Get her to the E.D.!
[elevator bell dings]
330
00:12:35,452 --> 00:12:36,922
He's back. No pulse.
331
00:12:37,007 --> 00:12:38,153
They found him
in a parking lot.
332
00:12:38,237 --> 00:12:39,750
V-TACH.
Charging at 360.
333
00:12:39,835 --> 00:12:41,243
Shockable rhythm present.
334
00:12:41,327 --> 00:12:44,117
[AED charging]
335
00:12:44,307 --> 00:12:45,551
- Clear.
- Clear.
336
00:12:45,636 --> 00:12:46,988
Shocking.
[click]
337
00:12:47,072 --> 00:12:48,598
[monitor beeping]
338
00:12:48,682 --> 00:12:51,253
Screen for [murmurs].
339
00:12:51,337 --> 00:12:53,585
Airway is patent.
[beeping slows]
340
00:12:53,775 --> 00:12:54,822
He's back.
341
00:12:54,906 --> 00:12:57,046
- Normal sinus rhythm.
- Pulse ox, 97.
342
00:12:57,131 --> 00:12:58,919
- [door slams open]
- Kwame.
343
00:12:59,004 --> 00:13:00,575
- Whoa, whoa. Hey, hey!
- Are you all right?
344
00:13:00,659 --> 00:13:02,705
- No, out. You need to be out.
- I'm responsible for him.
345
00:13:02,789 --> 00:13:03,962
- You don't have a mask!
- I'm the president of
346
00:13:04,046 --> 00:13:05,580
his mission for
the Church of Jesus Christ.
347
00:13:05,664 --> 00:13:08,270
- Elder Shumway.
- It's gonna be okay.
348
00:13:08,354 --> 00:13:09,576
I'm here.
349
00:13:09,660 --> 00:13:11,360
I'll get the lidocaine
drip ready.
350
00:13:11,624 --> 00:13:13,006
Tell me what happened.
351
00:13:16,145 --> 00:13:17,539
I can't.
352
00:13:18,060 --> 00:13:20,070
You can tell me anything.
353
00:13:20,978 --> 00:13:22,429
Remember?
354
00:13:24,109 --> 00:13:25,578
I was...
355
00:13:28,780 --> 00:13:30,593
with a man.
356
00:13:37,719 --> 00:13:39,742
I have HIV.
357
00:13:45,086 --> 00:13:47,526
Please don't send me back.
358
00:13:47,611 --> 00:13:49,007
I want to finish my mission.
359
00:13:49,091 --> 00:13:52,575
The Church is all I have.
God is all I have.
360
00:13:52,937 --> 00:13:55,608
Then why did you
turn your back on Him?
361
00:13:57,534 --> 00:13:59,546
Your mission is over.
362
00:14:02,187 --> 00:14:04,148
Elder Shumway, please.
363
00:14:04,933 --> 00:14:07,329
Please! Please.
364
00:14:07,413 --> 00:14:10,203
[whispers]
Hey, it's okay, it's okay.
365
00:14:12,416 --> 00:14:15,321
Vijay! Oh, hey.
366
00:14:18,468 --> 00:14:20,367
What's up? What's wrong?
367
00:14:21,233 --> 00:14:22,977
He's not coming.
368
00:14:23,125 --> 00:14:25,930
No, I don't know. He probably
just forgot his glasses
369
00:14:26,015 --> 00:14:27,344
and he headed back
to get them...
370
00:14:27,429 --> 00:14:29,308
I just got an email.
371
00:14:29,392 --> 00:14:31,658
The whole neurology
department did.
372
00:14:31,890 --> 00:14:34,125
Dr. Kapoor just resigned.
373
00:14:38,749 --> 00:14:40,656
He's not coming back.
374
00:14:42,796 --> 00:14:44,265
Ever.
375
00:14:44,580 --> 00:14:47,412
[upbeat folksy music
in background]
376
00:14:47,497 --> 00:14:54,319
[♪]
377
00:14:56,574 --> 00:14:58,539
Okay, here's what
I think is happening.
378
00:14:58,734 --> 00:15:00,079
I think
you're embarrassed because
379
00:15:00,164 --> 00:15:01,644
you and I talk every day.
380
00:15:01,728 --> 00:15:04,742
And now you're worried
that I'm gonna be mad
381
00:15:04,843 --> 00:15:07,219
because you've been lying to me
literally the entire time.
382
00:15:07,304 --> 00:15:08,782
But I'm not. I'm not mad.
383
00:15:08,866 --> 00:15:10,672
I know that you have
one of those
384
00:15:10,757 --> 00:15:13,437
ancient answering machines
that you can actually hear me
385
00:15:13,554 --> 00:15:14,884
leaving a message for you
right now.
386
00:15:14,968 --> 00:15:16,790
You can hear me talking.
So just pick up.
387
00:15:16,874 --> 00:15:18,420
I'm not mad,
I swear I'm not mad.
388
00:15:18,505 --> 00:15:19,800
[line beeps]
389
00:15:20,878 --> 00:15:22,143
Okay, you know what?
I am mad.
390
00:15:22,359 --> 00:15:23,971
I'm pissed.
I'm furious with you
391
00:15:24,055 --> 00:15:25,581
because I'm your best friend.
392
00:15:25,665 --> 00:15:27,649
You told the entire
neurology department
393
00:15:27,734 --> 00:15:29,498
that you were resigning
before you told me.
394
00:15:29,582 --> 00:15:30,717
Y-you still haven't told me
395
00:15:30,801 --> 00:15:33,024
because you won't
pick up the phone!
396
00:15:33,108 --> 00:15:34,766
Pick up the phone, Vijay!
397
00:15:34,851 --> 00:15:36,070
[line beeps]
398
00:15:36,154 --> 00:15:38,203
Do you want to know
where I was when
399
00:15:38,287 --> 00:15:39,758
I heard your
little announcement?
400
00:15:39,843 --> 00:15:42,337
I was at your surprise party.
Surprise!
401
00:15:42,421 --> 00:15:44,306
I planned you a party
that you didn't show up to.
402
00:15:44,390 --> 00:15:46,454
And you know, I don't...
I don't deserve this.
403
00:15:46,539 --> 00:15:47,952
Vijay, I do not deserve this.
404
00:15:48,036 --> 00:15:50,258
Unless I'm just your
deluded work friend
405
00:15:50,342 --> 00:15:52,304
who's been putting himself
on for years.
406
00:15:52,388 --> 00:15:53,879
In that case, by all means...
[line beeps]
407
00:15:53,963 --> 00:15:55,519
Oh, n...
408
00:15:56,696 --> 00:15:57,787
[groans]
409
00:15:58,750 --> 00:16:00,689
[loud slurping]
410
00:16:01,788 --> 00:16:04,109
Oops. I forgot yours.
411
00:16:04,320 --> 00:16:06,953
Um, Mr. Cournemeyer.
412
00:16:07,070 --> 00:16:08,430
Howie, listen...
413
00:16:08,515 --> 00:16:10,125
No, you listen.
I'm not scared of you.
414
00:16:10,210 --> 00:16:11,976
I knew what I was doing
was against the law.
415
00:16:12,060 --> 00:16:13,238
That was the point.
416
00:16:13,322 --> 00:16:15,066
You're way too young
to remember any of this.
417
00:16:15,150 --> 00:16:17,547
But back in the '80s,
at the height of AIDS?
418
00:16:17,632 --> 00:16:19,352
The healthcare industry
failed its patients.
419
00:16:19,523 --> 00:16:21,855
New Amsterdam
failed its patients.
420
00:16:21,939 --> 00:16:23,465
Gay men
were treated like lepers.
421
00:16:23,549 --> 00:16:25,946
Your nurses wouldn't even touch
friends of mine with AIDS.
422
00:16:26,030 --> 00:16:27,984
Just left them alone
in the corners to die.
423
00:16:28,069 --> 00:16:29,176
Let me assure you...
424
00:16:29,261 --> 00:16:31,493
Big pharma?
Boy, do not get me started...
425
00:16:31,578 --> 00:16:32,779
I think that train's
left the station.
426
00:16:32,863 --> 00:16:34,520
Big pharma profiteered
427
00:16:34,604 --> 00:16:37,218
off the gay community's
desperation to survive.
428
00:16:37,515 --> 00:16:39,820
So I decided to fight
on behalf of those who had it.
429
00:16:39,937 --> 00:16:42,485
I became an activist.
Then I joined ACT UP.
430
00:16:42,570 --> 00:16:43,961
And we did
what we had to do.
431
00:16:44,046 --> 00:16:45,966
To make things right,
to make some noise.
432
00:16:46,050 --> 00:16:47,707
And, so, yeah.
433
00:16:47,791 --> 00:16:50,014
That's why I stole
the New Amsterdam seal.
434
00:16:50,098 --> 00:16:52,973
And why I encased it
in a gigantic condom.
435
00:16:53,057 --> 00:16:55,309
And no,
I will never give it back.
436
00:16:57,235 --> 00:16:59,197
Wow, that's, uh,
437
00:16:59,281 --> 00:17:00,938
impressive, actually.
438
00:17:01,022 --> 00:17:02,722
But not why I'm here.
439
00:17:02,806 --> 00:17:04,071
No.
440
00:17:04,365 --> 00:17:07,218
Not for the... big condom.
441
00:17:08,812 --> 00:17:13,254
Uh, Mr. Cournemeyer,
I came here to ask you
442
00:17:13,338 --> 00:17:14,560
how,
443
00:17:14,789 --> 00:17:17,128
in March of '86,
you orchestrated a scheme
444
00:17:17,212 --> 00:17:20,368
to donate a thousand pints
of blood under your name?
445
00:17:20,453 --> 00:17:22,468
What?
I would never have
446
00:17:22,570 --> 00:17:25,701
donated a single drop
of my blood to your hospital,
447
00:17:25,785 --> 00:17:26,876
even to make a point.
448
00:17:26,960 --> 00:17:28,269
But then why is your name...
449
00:17:28,353 --> 00:17:32,099
Come to think of it,
March of '86, I was in jail.
450
00:17:32,183 --> 00:17:36,016
I demanded a coordinated
national policy to fight AIDS
451
00:17:36,100 --> 00:17:38,409
by chaining myself
to the Statehouse doors.
452
00:17:38,494 --> 00:17:39,742
They heard me.
453
00:17:39,891 --> 00:17:41,026
In jail.
454
00:17:41,453 --> 00:17:43,401
Wrong guy, Doc.
455
00:17:44,790 --> 00:17:46,273
[alarms beeping]
456
00:17:46,545 --> 00:17:47,375
Esophageal?
457
00:17:47,459 --> 00:17:50,016
No negative interactions.
458
00:17:50,866 --> 00:17:52,493
I'm thinking
variceal bleeding,
459
00:17:52,578 --> 00:17:53,772
likely from liver cancer.
460
00:17:53,857 --> 00:17:55,079
[alarms beeping]
461
00:17:55,163 --> 00:17:57,429
BP's dropping.
Have you got that tube in yet?
462
00:17:57,513 --> 00:17:59,257
- I'm trying.
- STEMI ruled out at this time.
463
00:17:59,341 --> 00:18:01,607
Looks a bit more distal.
464
00:18:01,691 --> 00:18:03,348
About 2 centimeters
should do it.
465
00:18:03,432 --> 00:18:05,828
Right...
[indistinct chatter]
466
00:18:05,912 --> 00:18:08,527
- There.
- Got it?
467
00:18:08,611 --> 00:18:10,050
I think so.
468
00:18:10,134 --> 00:18:12,226
We should know
once the bleeding stops.
469
00:18:12,310 --> 00:18:13,967
- [alarm silences]
- It's good for now.
470
00:18:14,507 --> 00:18:16,970
Fingers crossed that it holds.
471
00:18:17,054 --> 00:18:19,164
How did she let herself
get so bad?
472
00:18:19,687 --> 00:18:22,345
Because apparently
"HIV isn't scary anymore."
473
00:18:22,538 --> 00:18:25,965
Yeah, I guess some people
need to be scared.
474
00:18:29,153 --> 00:18:30,883
Have a seat.
475
00:18:34,202 --> 00:18:36,484
I can't tell you about faith.
476
00:18:36,652 --> 00:18:38,788
But I saw what your Elder did.
477
00:18:39,076 --> 00:18:41,921
You shouldn't have to repent
to someone who abandoned you
478
00:18:42,023 --> 00:18:44,476
at a time when
you needed him the most.
479
00:18:44,560 --> 00:18:48,262
Elder Shumway
loves me like a father.
480
00:18:48,346 --> 00:18:50,937
He knew I was gay.
481
00:18:51,132 --> 00:18:54,399
He treated me with grace
and acceptance.
482
00:18:54,483 --> 00:18:57,823
All he asked of me was
to not act on my desires.
483
00:18:58,878 --> 00:19:01,398
He did not turn his back.
484
00:19:01,508 --> 00:19:03,426
I did.
485
00:19:03,635 --> 00:19:06,728
I threw God away.
486
00:19:06,930 --> 00:19:09,101
And this disease,
487
00:19:09,554 --> 00:19:12,763
it means I will never
get God back.
488
00:19:19,160 --> 00:19:21,046
Is there a pill?
489
00:19:21,546 --> 00:19:22,862
A surgery?
490
00:19:22,946 --> 00:19:24,559
Anything to scrape these
491
00:19:24,643 --> 00:19:26,170
disgusting urges
out of my body?
492
00:19:26,254 --> 00:19:27,983
Kwame, Kwame.
493
00:19:29,692 --> 00:19:31,262
Brother,
this is not disgusting.
494
00:19:31,346 --> 00:19:33,742
This is who you are.
495
00:19:33,826 --> 00:19:35,076
[scoffs quietly]
496
00:19:37,656 --> 00:19:39,960
Sex is not who I am.
497
00:19:40,550 --> 00:19:42,860
I am my community.
498
00:19:43,140 --> 00:19:44,927
My family, my faith.
499
00:19:45,011 --> 00:19:46,407
I am an Elder
500
00:19:46,491 --> 00:19:50,150
in the Church of Jesus Christ
of Latter-Day Saints.
501
00:19:50,609 --> 00:19:51,978
That is who I am.
502
00:19:52,311 --> 00:19:54,286
That is not that simple.
503
00:19:54,456 --> 00:19:56,375
But it is that simple.
504
00:19:56,673 --> 00:19:58,330
Think of the one thing
505
00:19:58,640 --> 00:20:01,109
you can't live without.
506
00:20:05,989 --> 00:20:07,789
That is who you are.
507
00:20:13,103 --> 00:20:14,835
Well, so I gave it
some thought,
508
00:20:14,920 --> 00:20:16,142
and I realized I was being
509
00:20:16,250 --> 00:20:18,329
way too stringent with
the nanny requirements,
510
00:20:18,414 --> 00:20:20,188
so here's what
I'm looking for now.
511
00:20:20,273 --> 00:20:23,575
Anyone. I will take anyone.
Do you... do you have anyone?
512
00:20:23,659 --> 00:20:25,633
Dr. Val!
Ma'am, I will take
513
00:20:25,718 --> 00:20:27,361
a well-trained Saint Bernard
at this point.
514
00:20:27,445 --> 00:20:28,667
Okay, thank you very much.
515
00:20:28,751 --> 00:20:31,278
So Howie couldn't really
shed any light.
516
00:20:31,468 --> 00:20:34,063
He did have
a giant condom situation.
517
00:20:34,147 --> 00:20:35,413
Not really sure what
that's about,
518
00:20:35,497 --> 00:20:36,936
but I'll deal with that
tomorrow.
519
00:20:37,020 --> 00:20:38,242
- Makes sense.
- Does it?
520
00:20:38,326 --> 00:20:40,287
I need to track down the head
521
00:20:40,371 --> 00:20:43,203
of the blood bank from 1986,
and problem is,
522
00:20:43,287 --> 00:20:45,292
his information
on his W-2 is outdated,
523
00:20:45,376 --> 00:20:47,120
so I was wondering if you
could ask the older staff.
524
00:20:47,204 --> 00:20:48,339
Maybe they know him?
525
00:20:48,423 --> 00:20:49,818
Oh, yeah, sure thing.
What's the name?
526
00:20:49,902 --> 00:20:51,559
Uh, Dale Rustin.
527
00:20:51,643 --> 00:20:53,431
- You sure?
- Yeah, why? You know him?
528
00:20:53,515 --> 00:20:55,694
No, but the whole blood
bank's been talking about him.
529
00:20:55,778 --> 00:20:58,218
- He's upstairs.
- He still works here?
530
00:20:58,302 --> 00:21:00,641
No, he's a patient.
He's dying.
531
00:21:05,657 --> 00:21:07,488
I'm sorry about
that last phone call.
532
00:21:07,572 --> 00:21:10,608
Um, I didn't mean to
dump all that on you.
533
00:21:13,361 --> 00:21:16,527
I love you,
and I hope that you are okay.
534
00:21:19,280 --> 00:21:21,880
But I gotta draw
a boundary here, Vijay.
535
00:21:24,894 --> 00:21:27,987
You need to pick up the phone,
right now,
536
00:21:28,071 --> 00:21:33,471
or you and I can't ever be
537
00:21:33,555 --> 00:21:36,430
the same kind of friends
anymore.
538
00:21:36,514 --> 00:21:37,896
At all, really.
539
00:21:44,914 --> 00:21:47,035
So pick up the phone.
540
00:21:53,879 --> 00:21:56,001
Pick up the phone, Vijay.
541
00:21:58,101 --> 00:22:00,527
[line beeps]
542
00:22:02,758 --> 00:22:04,008
[call ends]
543
00:22:05,848 --> 00:22:07,534
[sighs deeply]
544
00:22:13,246 --> 00:22:17,283
Stage III Astrocytoma.
545
00:22:18,469 --> 00:22:20,155
I'm sorry to hear that.
546
00:22:22,212 --> 00:22:25,596
"New Amsterdam.
Shame then, shame now."
547
00:22:27,130 --> 00:22:30,513
You wouldn't know anything
about that, would you?
548
00:22:33,441 --> 00:22:38,666
I had worse things to say
about Medical Director Helms,
549
00:22:38,750 --> 00:22:41,800
but kids do use that hallway.
550
00:22:41,884 --> 00:22:44,324
Dr. Helms is a pillar
of this hospital.
551
00:22:44,408 --> 00:22:47,284
[scoffs]
552
00:22:47,368 --> 00:22:48,415
So you don't want to
explain yourself?
553
00:22:48,499 --> 00:22:50,156
You just want to
slander him anonymously?
554
00:22:50,240 --> 00:22:52,854
I'd slander him to his face
555
00:22:52,938 --> 00:22:55,509
if I thought anybody
would care.
556
00:22:55,593 --> 00:22:58,193
Try me.
557
00:23:00,424 --> 00:23:05,519
In 1986,
this hospital needed blood.
558
00:23:05,603 --> 00:23:08,290
As so many did.
559
00:23:11,479 --> 00:23:15,224
But sexually active gay men
560
00:23:15,308 --> 00:23:18,140
were banned from donating it
in this country,
561
00:23:18,224 --> 00:23:22,493
even if they knew they were
HIV-negative.
562
00:23:22,577 --> 00:23:23,842
That's not Helms' fault.
563
00:23:23,926 --> 00:23:25,931
It's...
[sighs]
564
00:23:26,015 --> 00:23:27,062
It's the way
the world was then.
565
00:23:27,146 --> 00:23:29,195
Gay men can't donate
566
00:23:29,279 --> 00:23:33,373
convalescent plasma
for COVID right now.
567
00:23:33,457 --> 00:23:35,375
So you tell me,
568
00:23:35,459 --> 00:23:38,335
what exactly changed?
569
00:23:38,419 --> 00:23:39,713
[gasps/groans]
570
00:23:40,638 --> 00:23:42,324
I'm fine.
571
00:23:45,991 --> 00:23:50,999
I was a gay HIV-negative man.
572
00:23:51,083 --> 00:23:53,422
My friends were dying.
573
00:23:55,827 --> 00:23:58,166
They needed blood.
574
00:24:00,484 --> 00:24:02,562
I couldn't donate.
575
00:24:05,228 --> 00:24:09,612
I was the head of
the damn blood bank.
576
00:24:11,277 --> 00:24:15,284
You know what that feels like?
577
00:24:15,368 --> 00:24:18,766
A person has to do something.
578
00:24:18,850 --> 00:24:21,581
Has to act.
579
00:24:22,724 --> 00:24:24,598
Like Howie Cournemeyer?
580
00:24:24,682 --> 00:24:28,196
[chuckles]
581
00:24:30,862 --> 00:24:33,346
Howie was fearless.
582
00:24:33,430 --> 00:24:35,130
I never met him,
583
00:24:35,362 --> 00:24:38,747
but God, was he inspiring.
584
00:24:40,466 --> 00:24:42,443
He made it so simple.
585
00:24:43,832 --> 00:24:47,169
Just do something.
586
00:24:47,661 --> 00:24:49,623
Act up.
587
00:24:49,966 --> 00:24:51,785
And I did.
588
00:24:55,496 --> 00:24:59,241
You had gay men
hide their identities
589
00:24:59,325 --> 00:25:00,888
and donate
590
00:25:01,597 --> 00:25:03,805
using Howie's name.
591
00:25:04,917 --> 00:25:07,618
That's the best thing to do
in a plague.
592
00:25:08,193 --> 00:25:09,861
Give.
593
00:25:10,099 --> 00:25:11,607
Help.
594
00:25:12,600 --> 00:25:16,318
I got to see scared men
going from
595
00:25:16,518 --> 00:25:19,513
helpless to heroes,
596
00:25:20,247 --> 00:25:22,099
drop by drop.
597
00:25:24,699 --> 00:25:26,146
Until...
598
00:25:26,927 --> 00:25:28,497
Helms found out.
599
00:25:29,348 --> 00:25:31,552
He said he'd fire me.
600
00:25:32,010 --> 00:25:33,997
My staff too.
601
00:25:35,435 --> 00:25:38,419
Howie Cournemeyer
would have kept fighting,
602
00:25:38,930 --> 00:25:40,990
but I needed my job.
603
00:25:41,716 --> 00:25:44,272
So I shut the program down.
604
00:25:47,548 --> 00:25:49,117
And that's something
I have to live with
605
00:25:49,201 --> 00:25:51,540
for the rest of my life.
606
00:25:59,121 --> 00:26:01,289
You refilled this hospital's
blood bank
607
00:26:01,961 --> 00:26:05,641
in under a month
during a pandemic.
608
00:26:07,560 --> 00:26:09,478
You're a hero.
609
00:26:09,657 --> 00:26:13,867
Yet you honor the man
that made me a coward.
610
00:26:16,664 --> 00:26:20,874
The world is burning,
Dr. Goodwin.
611
00:26:24,149 --> 00:26:27,068
And you spend your day
hunting me down
612
00:26:27,152 --> 00:26:29,970
for defacing a photograph?
613
00:26:32,331 --> 00:26:37,238
Shame then, shame now.
614
00:26:43,214 --> 00:26:45,074
You came back.
615
00:26:49,424 --> 00:26:51,339
Reynolds?
616
00:26:52,669 --> 00:26:54,371
What was that?
617
00:26:54,702 --> 00:26:57,316
What Kwame wants
more than anything
618
00:26:57,455 --> 00:27:00,308
is to be a Mormon husband
to a Mormon wife,
619
00:27:00,393 --> 00:27:01,801
and he thought he lost that.
620
00:27:01,886 --> 00:27:03,715
He has lost that.
He's gay.
621
00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:05,280
No, no.
He thought he lost that
622
00:27:05,364 --> 00:27:07,282
because he's HIV-positive,
623
00:27:07,366 --> 00:27:09,676
and he thought that meant
that he couldn't have children.
624
00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:12,897
Which is the cornerstone
of his spiritual community.
625
00:27:12,981 --> 00:27:14,855
Gay people can have children.
626
00:27:14,939 --> 00:27:18,337
But between HART therapy
and PrEP, of course,
627
00:27:18,421 --> 00:27:21,035
HIV can be untransmittable
and safe for conception.
628
00:27:21,119 --> 00:27:23,516
So I called the Elder,
let him know that,
629
00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:25,605
and he feels
there's a path for Kwame.
630
00:27:25,689 --> 00:27:27,972
He even suggested
that he can marry a woman
631
00:27:28,083 --> 00:27:30,335
who knows about his struggles.
632
00:27:31,728 --> 00:27:33,516
Are you kidding me?
633
00:27:33,741 --> 00:27:35,441
You used the science of HIV
634
00:27:35,525 --> 00:27:38,097
to put someone
back into the closet.
635
00:27:38,484 --> 00:27:40,824
Well, that's...
That's what he wants.
636
00:27:40,972 --> 00:27:43,405
So if he wanted to shoot
himself in the head,
637
00:27:43,489 --> 00:27:45,190
where would you have
stood on that?
638
00:27:45,274 --> 00:27:47,449
What if he wanted to leave
the E.D.
639
00:27:47,550 --> 00:27:48,802
with a failing pancreas?
640
00:27:48,886 --> 00:27:51,756
You think I like this?
I don't.
641
00:27:51,841 --> 00:27:53,807
But we can't pick and choose
when to respect
642
00:27:53,891 --> 00:27:55,156
our patient's wishes.
643
00:27:55,240 --> 00:27:58,185
And being a Mormon
is more important to Kwame
644
00:27:58,270 --> 00:27:59,465
than his sexuality.
645
00:27:59,549 --> 00:28:01,510
Well, the guy he had
unprotected sex with
646
00:28:01,594 --> 00:28:03,512
- disagrees with you.
- Oh, come on.
647
00:28:03,596 --> 00:28:05,819
Nobody's torturing him.
He's choosing this.
648
00:28:05,903 --> 00:28:06,989
Yes.
649
00:28:07,074 --> 00:28:09,183
Yeah, he is choosing a life
650
00:28:09,377 --> 00:28:11,425
based on the idea
that he has to
651
00:28:11,517 --> 00:28:13,958
be somebody that he's not.
652
00:28:14,042 --> 00:28:17,178
Because there's something wrong
with who he is.
653
00:28:17,262 --> 00:28:20,007
Look, I get what you were
trying to do here, Floyd,
654
00:28:20,403 --> 00:28:23,917
but we're talking about
his heart.
655
00:28:39,692 --> 00:28:41,115
Well, hello there.
656
00:28:41,599 --> 00:28:44,553
So, I noticed that
you went out earlier.
657
00:28:44,637 --> 00:28:47,295
Yes. With Kevin.
He's my old friend.
658
00:28:47,379 --> 00:28:49,515
- Your old friend?
- Yes.
659
00:28:49,599 --> 00:28:51,125
You've been in New York
five hours,
660
00:28:51,209 --> 00:28:52,344
and you've got an old friend?
661
00:28:52,428 --> 00:28:53,475
He's a friend
from the internet.
662
00:28:53,559 --> 00:28:55,216
From when we were kids.
663
00:28:55,300 --> 00:28:57,654
I see. And he's, um,
664
00:28:57,738 --> 00:28:59,612
how old?
665
00:28:59,696 --> 00:29:02,397
I'm not sure.
Can I go to your office now?
666
00:29:02,481 --> 00:29:05,749
Mina.
Did you get my texts?
667
00:29:05,833 --> 00:29:07,576
I was busy.
668
00:29:07,660 --> 00:29:09,100
Busy.
669
00:29:09,184 --> 00:29:10,754
Is there a problem?
670
00:29:10,838 --> 00:29:13,191
I thought you said to
treat you like a friend.
671
00:29:13,275 --> 00:29:14,583
Yep, absolutely.
672
00:29:14,667 --> 00:29:17,482
And I didn't text any of my friends
to tell them
673
00:29:17,567 --> 00:29:18,929
- that I was hanging out with Kevin.
- Yes, no, of course.
674
00:29:19,013 --> 00:29:20,328
It's just, um,
675
00:29:20,412 --> 00:29:22,278
you've never
been to New York before.
676
00:29:22,363 --> 00:29:25,238
Oh, it's a lot like Tehran,
just a little less crowded.
677
00:29:25,692 --> 00:29:27,591
I'll see you when you're done?
678
00:29:30,727 --> 00:29:32,022
[sighs]
679
00:29:33,034 --> 00:29:35,430
Max, you wanted to see me.
680
00:29:35,514 --> 00:29:37,723
Hey, George.
I, uh...
681
00:29:39,699 --> 00:29:41,951
I heard about
Howie Cournemeyer.
682
00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:48,106
Oh, I know how that looks.
683
00:29:49,266 --> 00:29:51,750
If I let that continue
for one more day,
684
00:29:51,835 --> 00:29:54,653
it would have been
an unmitigated disaster.
685
00:29:55,578 --> 00:30:00,281
It did circumvent a ugly,
very discriminatory regulation.
686
00:30:00,365 --> 00:30:03,415
No, no, it violated
federal policy.
687
00:30:03,499 --> 00:30:04,633
I may have been a maverick,
688
00:30:04,717 --> 00:30:06,766
but I wasn't about to
become a criminal.
689
00:30:06,850 --> 00:30:10,204
The liability alone
would have crippled us.
690
00:30:10,288 --> 00:30:12,434
What did you do with
all that blood?
691
00:30:13,621 --> 00:30:15,234
Disposed of it.
692
00:30:15,467 --> 00:30:17,472
Even though all
donated blood is screened?
693
00:30:17,556 --> 00:30:20,475
You threw it away, George.
694
00:30:20,559 --> 00:30:22,086
You could have helped
people.
695
00:30:22,224 --> 00:30:24,563
And you chose not to.
696
00:30:30,243 --> 00:30:31,682
You know, the last time
I checked,
697
00:30:31,788 --> 00:30:35,012
those were still
the FDA guidelines.
698
00:30:35,183 --> 00:30:36,950
And as far as I can tell,
699
00:30:37,200 --> 00:30:42,638
you aren't doing a damn thing
about them either.
700
00:30:46,934 --> 00:30:51,637
[phone rings]
701
00:30:51,769 --> 00:30:54,291
- Ella? Hi.
- Hey, hey, Dr. Frome.
702
00:30:54,419 --> 00:30:56,076
Hi, are you okay?
703
00:30:56,160 --> 00:30:57,338
What about Vijay?
What's happening?
704
00:30:57,422 --> 00:30:59,166
No, hey, we're good.
We're all good.
705
00:30:59,250 --> 00:31:00,864
Um, I just have to be quick
706
00:31:00,948 --> 00:31:02,169
'cause he doesn't know
I'm calling you.
707
00:31:02,253 --> 00:31:03,823
I heard your messages.
708
00:31:03,907 --> 00:31:06,695
Okay, well,
I'm glad somebody did.
709
00:31:06,779 --> 00:31:10,003
Yeah, uh, Iggy,
you have been so good to him.
710
00:31:10,087 --> 00:31:12,005
- To me.
- [exhales]
711
00:31:12,089 --> 00:31:14,689
You deserve to know
what's going on.
712
00:31:16,615 --> 00:31:18,359
You know, honestly, Ella,
I don't...
713
00:31:18,443 --> 00:31:21,275
I don't really care
anymore, so...
714
00:31:21,359 --> 00:31:24,017
Vijay's doctor told him
he's never gonna work again.
715
00:31:24,101 --> 00:31:28,185
Um, about a month ago.
He didn't want to believe it.
716
00:31:28,270 --> 00:31:29,501
He kept saying that
the guy was crazy,
717
00:31:29,585 --> 00:31:30,662
didn't know what
he was talking about.
718
00:31:30,746 --> 00:31:33,716
But, um, a couple days after,
he got ready,
719
00:31:33,806 --> 00:31:35,770
and decided to come into
the hospital early,
720
00:31:35,855 --> 00:31:37,817
and surprise everybody.
721
00:31:38,409 --> 00:31:41,183
Um, he couldn't make it out
the front door.
722
00:31:48,030 --> 00:31:49,973
He won't talk to me about it.
723
00:31:51,020 --> 00:31:52,611
He won't talk to anyone
right now.
724
00:31:52,695 --> 00:31:54,177
So, um,
725
00:31:55,227 --> 00:31:57,231
that's why I had to call.
726
00:31:57,830 --> 00:32:00,227
- You know, so you'd know.
- Yeah.
727
00:32:00,311 --> 00:32:02,664
Uh, a couple days ago,
728
00:32:02,748 --> 00:32:04,449
he told me a story about you.
729
00:32:04,533 --> 00:32:07,060
About a patient
who thought he was dead?
730
00:32:07,144 --> 00:32:09,280
Yeah. Yeah,
I remember.
731
00:32:09,364 --> 00:32:11,760
And Vijay said how much
you helped the guy.
732
00:32:11,844 --> 00:32:15,155
Helped his fiancée
to understand.
733
00:32:15,591 --> 00:32:16,940
And Vijay said that
734
00:32:17,024 --> 00:32:19,122
he might have saved
the guy's life but...
735
00:32:19,823 --> 00:32:22,437
But you saved his soul.
736
00:32:22,560 --> 00:32:23,869
That's what you do.
737
00:32:24,063 --> 00:32:26,997
Dr. Frome, you just
go around saving souls.
738
00:32:29,471 --> 00:32:30,605
[sighs]
739
00:32:30,689 --> 00:32:32,680
I learned from the best.
740
00:32:34,311 --> 00:32:37,041
[sniffles]
741
00:32:39,411 --> 00:32:42,139
Great news.
It's just a hemangioma,
742
00:32:42,223 --> 00:32:43,444
which is a collection
of blood vessels
743
00:32:43,528 --> 00:32:44,654
that should
disappear on their own.
744
00:32:44,738 --> 00:32:46,004
Oh, my God. Thank God.
745
00:32:46,227 --> 00:32:48,058
- Okay.
- So, next step is to
746
00:32:48,142 --> 00:32:49,798
adjust your antiretrovirals.
747
00:32:49,882 --> 00:32:51,322
I'll need to see you
back here tomorrow.
748
00:32:51,406 --> 00:32:52,787
Oh, my God,
I'm so behind on work.
749
00:32:52,872 --> 00:32:54,659
There's no way
I can come in tomorrow.
750
00:32:55,817 --> 00:32:57,740
Your HIV care is important,
Karla.
751
00:32:57,825 --> 00:32:58,938
Yes, I know it's important,
752
00:32:59,022 --> 00:33:00,722
but it didn't give me cancer,
right?
753
00:33:00,806 --> 00:33:02,376
Didn't almost kill me.
754
00:33:02,460 --> 00:33:04,756
So can I call you when
I come back up for air?
755
00:33:06,157 --> 00:33:09,106
Perfect. Next time I see you,
it'll be in the morgue.
756
00:33:11,806 --> 00:33:13,974
You are walking out of here.
757
00:33:14,516 --> 00:33:15,999
You're lucky,
'cause the kind of cancer
758
00:33:16,083 --> 00:33:17,391
we thought you had is deadly,
759
00:33:17,475 --> 00:33:20,067
and it's God's own luck
that you don't have it.
760
00:33:20,478 --> 00:33:22,962
If what you take from this
is that you can continue
761
00:33:23,046 --> 00:33:24,572
treating your HIV
like it's hay fever,
762
00:33:24,656 --> 00:33:26,717
then I have no doubt
I'll be seeing you very soon,
763
00:33:26,802 --> 00:33:28,744
whether you have room
in your schedule or not.
764
00:33:29,809 --> 00:33:31,539
Um, tomorrow's good.
765
00:33:35,527 --> 00:33:36,706
I can take him from here.
766
00:33:36,961 --> 00:33:38,748
Ah, this one.
767
00:33:38,888 --> 00:33:40,849
This one, unfortunately.
You mind?
768
00:33:40,933 --> 00:33:43,489
I don't retract
a word I wrote.
769
00:33:43,574 --> 00:33:45,911
Shame then, shame now.
770
00:33:46,013 --> 00:33:49,692
Yeah, well, I hope you don't,
because you were right.
771
00:33:50,552 --> 00:33:54,153
Dale, I'd like you to meet
Howie Cournemeyer.
772
00:33:58,342 --> 00:34:00,812
- Mr. Cournemeyer...
- Howie.
773
00:34:02,565 --> 00:34:04,396
Excited to meet you.
774
00:34:04,575 --> 00:34:06,449
You know, the gay blood ban?
775
00:34:06,534 --> 00:34:07,930
It's not just a regulation.
776
00:34:08,091 --> 00:34:09,487
It's hate.
777
00:34:09,571 --> 00:34:11,880
We should be ashamed
for allowing it.
778
00:34:11,964 --> 00:34:15,319
So I'm initiating a new policy
regarding the gay blood ban.
779
00:34:15,403 --> 00:34:19,831
I'm ignoring it.
And Howie is our first donor.
780
00:34:23,190 --> 00:34:25,877
You can't.
They'll strip your funding.
781
00:34:28,198 --> 00:34:29,942
[whispers]
Yeah.
782
00:34:30,026 --> 00:34:31,639
Well, then we'll just take
them to court.
783
00:34:31,723 --> 00:34:33,163
And when we win,
784
00:34:33,247 --> 00:34:37,036
they will throw that
bigoted law in the trash,
785
00:34:37,120 --> 00:34:39,329
thanks to you.
786
00:34:43,609 --> 00:34:47,364
I've been screaming about
this nonsense for 30 years,
787
00:34:47,536 --> 00:34:50,397
and nothing happened.
788
00:34:50,793 --> 00:34:52,828
Look what you did.
789
00:34:55,792 --> 00:34:58,168
[sobs]
790
00:35:02,711 --> 00:35:05,064
Hey, I'm finishing my chart
on Karla.
791
00:35:05,148 --> 00:35:06,544
Any surprises at discharge?
792
00:35:06,628 --> 00:35:09,068
Uh, no. She just needed
a little bit of tough love.
793
00:35:09,152 --> 00:35:10,548
- Scared her to death, huh?
- [chuckles]
794
00:35:10,632 --> 00:35:12,550
Love it when
you get all Mama Bear.
795
00:35:12,634 --> 00:35:14,073
A quality
that's deserted me now that
796
00:35:14,157 --> 00:35:16,510
there's a Baby Bear
in my office.
797
00:35:16,594 --> 00:35:18,730
Um, honestly,
798
00:35:18,814 --> 00:35:20,297
Mina walked all over me today,
799
00:35:20,381 --> 00:35:21,820
and I'm just letting her do it.
800
00:35:21,904 --> 00:35:23,333
I... I don't know what to say.
801
00:35:23,418 --> 00:35:26,085
Just talk to her
like she's a patient.
802
00:35:26,169 --> 00:35:27,387
But she's not.
803
00:35:27,472 --> 00:35:30,220
I mean her father's just died,
she's in a new country.
804
00:35:30,304 --> 00:35:31,656
If someone should be
playing bad cop with her,
805
00:35:31,740 --> 00:35:33,614
it really shouldn't be me.
I barely know her.
806
00:35:33,698 --> 00:35:35,312
I'm not her aunt at all.
Really, I'm just...
807
00:35:35,396 --> 00:35:38,358
[chuckles]
some woman.
808
00:35:38,442 --> 00:35:40,708
My sister and I,
we're both addicts
809
00:35:40,792 --> 00:35:42,580
who only trust chaos and
810
00:35:42,664 --> 00:35:45,670
are incapable of having
intimate relationships.
811
00:35:45,754 --> 00:35:48,890
That's what happens when no one
gives you boundaries.
812
00:35:48,974 --> 00:35:50,675
You're all Mina has now.
813
00:35:50,759 --> 00:35:53,504
You've got to be her mother,
her aunt, her friend.
814
00:35:53,588 --> 00:35:54,853
Her everything.
815
00:35:54,937 --> 00:35:58,117
And if you can't do that
then, yeah, you're right.
816
00:35:58,201 --> 00:36:02,208
You're just some woman
who doesn't deserve her.
817
00:36:02,292 --> 00:36:05,472
Those are wise words
coming from someone that
818
00:36:05,556 --> 00:36:07,866
let a stranger
live in our storage closet.
819
00:36:07,950 --> 00:36:09,955
Well, you can't win 'em all.
820
00:36:10,039 --> 00:36:12,305
- [chuckles]
- Good luck.
821
00:36:12,389 --> 00:36:13,640
[sighs]
822
00:36:16,186 --> 00:36:17,481
[clears throat]
823
00:36:19,222 --> 00:36:21,372
- Hi!
- Here's Baby Dahmer.
824
00:36:21,457 --> 00:36:23,011
That bad?
825
00:36:23,095 --> 00:36:25,536
When she wasn't
gnawing on me,
826
00:36:25,620 --> 00:36:27,625
I checked out
some parenting blogs.
827
00:36:27,709 --> 00:36:29,975
Um, apparently
biting's pretty normal,
828
00:36:30,059 --> 00:36:31,890
so I wouldn't, like,
beat yourself up.
829
00:36:31,974 --> 00:36:35,807
Yeah, I guess it's their way
of, I don't know, acting out.
830
00:36:35,891 --> 00:36:39,637
I... she's trying to tell me
she's missing something.
831
00:36:39,721 --> 00:36:42,756
Yeah, her data plan,
by the looks of it.
832
00:36:45,641 --> 00:36:47,058
Her grandma.
833
00:36:47,816 --> 00:36:49,434
Oh, problem solved.
834
00:36:49,519 --> 00:36:51,127
Can't she just spend more time
with her?
835
00:36:51,211 --> 00:36:52,668
Uh...
836
00:36:54,833 --> 00:36:56,620
Gwen would love nothing more.
837
00:36:56,955 --> 00:37:00,339
And that's bad because...?
838
00:37:03,239 --> 00:37:06,129
Just means I can't
do this on my own.
839
00:37:11,958 --> 00:37:14,019
Max.
840
00:37:14,263 --> 00:37:16,607
I don't think
you're supposed to.
841
00:37:21,937 --> 00:37:24,856
Days like this make me think
of His mysterious ways.
842
00:37:24,940 --> 00:37:32,940
[indistinct conversation]
[click]
843
00:37:35,777 --> 00:37:37,825
[video call rings]
844
00:37:37,909 --> 00:37:39,392
Hey.
845
00:37:39,476 --> 00:37:41,351
Floyd.
846
00:37:41,435 --> 00:37:42,961
Did the Venmo not go through?
847
00:37:43,045 --> 00:37:44,702
No, no, everything's
all good.
848
00:37:44,786 --> 00:37:47,008
Uh, I was just thinking.
849
00:37:47,092 --> 00:37:48,967
Well, not thinking.
850
00:37:49,051 --> 00:37:50,955
I, uh...
851
00:37:52,620 --> 00:37:55,016
I know that...
852
00:37:55,100 --> 00:37:56,975
Know what?
853
00:37:57,059 --> 00:37:58,528
That I made a mistake.
854
00:38:00,149 --> 00:38:01,284
Floyd, I...
855
00:38:01,368 --> 00:38:02,372
You know that
old school joint,
856
00:38:02,456 --> 00:38:04,243
- "If loving you is wrong..."
- Floyd.
857
00:38:04,327 --> 00:38:05,970
I know you feel me.
858
00:38:07,287 --> 00:38:08,726
I do.
859
00:38:08,810 --> 00:38:11,685
[chuckles]
860
00:38:11,769 --> 00:38:12,991
I do.
861
00:38:13,075 --> 00:38:15,907
But I also know that
I'm nobody's wrong.
862
00:38:15,991 --> 00:38:18,562
And if I were your right,
863
00:38:18,646 --> 00:38:23,958
we wouldn't be having this
talk thousands of miles apart.
864
00:38:24,042 --> 00:38:25,873
But if our love was real,
865
00:38:25,957 --> 00:38:29,050
you know, we can cover that.
866
00:38:29,134 --> 00:38:31,270
The "if"
867
00:38:31,354 --> 00:38:33,737
is doing all the lifting
in that statement.
868
00:38:35,445 --> 00:38:37,711
You saying it wasn't real?
869
00:38:37,795 --> 00:38:40,105
I'm just saying
870
00:38:40,189 --> 00:38:43,195
that whatever it was,
871
00:38:43,279 --> 00:38:46,372
it obviously wasn't enough
for you.
872
00:38:46,456 --> 00:38:48,447
You need to own it, Floyd.
873
00:38:50,939 --> 00:38:53,147
You made your choice.
874
00:38:54,464 --> 00:38:56,934
And so have I.
875
00:38:57,685 --> 00:38:59,037
Evie...
876
00:38:59,121 --> 00:39:01,996
[somber piano music]
877
00:39:02,080 --> 00:39:09,468
[♪]
878
00:39:11,046 --> 00:39:14,444
[line rings]
879
00:39:14,528 --> 00:39:15,706
- Hi, Gwen.
- Is everything okay?
880
00:39:15,790 --> 00:39:17,229
No, no, no,
everything's fine.
881
00:39:17,313 --> 00:39:20,450
Um, uh...
882
00:39:20,534 --> 00:39:23,148
Well, we were just wondering
if, um,
883
00:39:23,232 --> 00:39:25,498
you might be able to come over.
884
00:39:25,582 --> 00:39:27,892
Uh,
885
00:39:27,976 --> 00:39:31,939
a few days a week?
886
00:39:32,023 --> 00:39:34,812
I think Luna really needs ya.
887
00:39:34,896 --> 00:39:38,642
And, uh,
888
00:39:38,726 --> 00:39:40,992
I think I really need the help.
889
00:39:41,076 --> 00:39:42,733
["By the Time It Gets Dark"
by Yo La Tengo playing]
890
00:39:42,817 --> 00:39:47,955
♪ Baby, every cloud
has a silver lining ♪
891
00:39:48,039 --> 00:39:53,831
♪ Baby, every dog
really has its day ♪
892
00:39:53,915 --> 00:39:59,010
♪ And it matters to me
to see you smiling ♪
893
00:39:59,094 --> 00:40:04,189
♪ Why don't we blow
all your cares away ♪
894
00:40:04,273 --> 00:40:09,542
♪ Yesterday's gone
and will be forgotten ♪
895
00:40:09,626 --> 00:40:14,982
♪ And today is where
every new day starts ♪
896
00:40:15,066 --> 00:40:16,666
- Hey.
- Hey.
897
00:40:18,592 --> 00:40:20,161
How was your day?
898
00:40:20,245 --> 00:40:22,773
Ugh, long. How 'bout yours?
899
00:40:22,857 --> 00:40:26,066
Oh, my God, so long.
So long.
900
00:40:28,645 --> 00:40:30,389
Can you remind me
whose bright idea it was
901
00:40:30,473 --> 00:40:32,435
to put a full-length mirror
in our bedroom?
902
00:40:32,519 --> 00:40:34,654
Uh, yours?
903
00:40:34,738 --> 00:40:38,049
[chuckles]
Course.
904
00:40:38,133 --> 00:40:41,661
Glutton for punishment.
905
00:40:41,745 --> 00:40:44,969
[exhales deeply]
906
00:40:45,053 --> 00:40:47,798
Vijay resigned today.
907
00:40:47,882 --> 00:40:50,714
Oh, no, really?
908
00:40:50,798 --> 00:40:52,498
Yeah, I was really
upset about it for
909
00:40:52,582 --> 00:40:54,413
most of the day, actually.
910
00:40:54,497 --> 00:40:57,416
Selfishly.
911
00:40:57,500 --> 00:40:59,462
- He validates me, you know.
- Mm-hmm.
912
00:40:59,546 --> 00:41:01,507
Waiting most of my life
for a father figure
913
00:41:01,591 --> 00:41:03,901
to tell me that
I'm good enough.
914
00:41:03,985 --> 00:41:05,468
Now he's gone.
915
00:41:05,552 --> 00:41:08,848
- Hey, I'm sorry.
- [sighs]
916
00:41:11,122 --> 00:41:14,085
It's okay.
917
00:41:14,169 --> 00:41:16,522
Because I, um,
918
00:41:16,606 --> 00:41:19,482
I think it's time
that I start to feel
919
00:41:19,566 --> 00:41:23,137
like I'm good enough on my own.
920
00:41:23,221 --> 00:41:25,705
I want to look in this mirror
921
00:41:25,789 --> 00:41:27,911
and I want to see someone...
922
00:41:30,315 --> 00:41:32,582
Good enough.
923
00:41:32,666 --> 00:41:38,457
♪ By the evening
we'll be laughing ♪
924
00:41:38,541 --> 00:41:42,809
♪ Just wait and see
all the changes there'll be ♪
925
00:41:42,893 --> 00:41:47,771
♪ By the time it gets dark
926
00:41:47,855 --> 00:41:50,034
You are...
927
00:41:50,118 --> 00:41:51,339
more than good enough.
928
00:41:51,423 --> 00:41:55,082
♪ By the evening
we'll be laughing ♪
929
00:41:55,166 --> 00:41:56,954
You're beautiful.
930
00:41:57,038 --> 00:42:01,437
♪ Just wait and see
all the changes there'll be ♪
931
00:42:01,521 --> 00:42:04,918
♪ By the time it gets dark
932
00:42:05,002 --> 00:42:07,064
No. No, no, no,
933
00:42:07,232 --> 00:42:08,976
Leave 'em on.
934
00:42:09,146 --> 00:42:11,283
Leave 'em on.
935
00:42:12,159 --> 00:42:17,254
♪ By the time it gets dark
936
00:42:17,440 --> 00:42:21,041
♪ By the time it gets dark
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