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There's no pressure.

Time will not harm you.

It is an invention, a
construct of the unimaginative,

of the oppressors.

The way you are feeling right
now is a by-product of toxins

and the toilet drugs that
have seeped into the waters.

I am very
angry with you, Richie.

Now go to your room!

- But Mommy, I didn't do it!
- Go to your room!

- I didn't do it!
- Your father will deal

with you later.
- I'll deal with him now.

Buddy, apologize to the boy.

- But he just-
- I just.

- You just?
- I just.

- And i-

- That's unjust.

Honey, I did it with my
little laundry markup thing.

Ritchie, darling,
come here to mommy.

- Good morning, Mr. Zach.
- Mr. Vivek.

- You call me just Vivek.

- You call me just Zach.
- Okay, just Zach.

My fiancee.
- You wish, Vivek.

- Oh, I do.

I do wish.

You would like this girl.

- Thanks, but I'm not looking.

- Still always be on

the look, just Zach.

How else do you find anything
of value in this life?

Bagel with butter, darling?

- Yes.

- I found that I'm able
to keep it around longer

with the clarity of knowing
how much I have and where.

- Huh?

- You watched me order the cash.

- Um, do you do that much cash spending?

- No, not really.

- Then what does it matter?

- Says the woman who just
paid in exact change.

- So I can keep the rest of
my carefully allocated funds

in my digitized banking account.

- Where it'll be more quickly
spent on the internet.

- Nope, not for me.

- I think you're both right.

Many people spend too much
money on the internet.

It's good to save.

Saving leaves more for family.

- Enjoy your coffee

- You too.
- And bagel.

- You too.
- Mm hm, I didn't get a bagel.

- Ah.

He's nice boy.

A bit nervous maybe.

- Yeah.
- But he's nice.

- I get enough nervous inside my own head.

Thanks.

- I understand.

I worry all the time.

It's hard these days.

- Thanks, Vivek.

Have a good night.

Make lots of money.

- Thank you.

Yes, you too.

More money is good.

Maybe I'll take a vacation.

- Hey.

Um, I'm not weird or anything.

- Kind of a weird opener.

- Sorry.

Can I ask you?

Why are you up so early on a Saturday?

- You first.

- Insomnia.

Bad.
- Yeah?

- Yeah.

- How bad?

- Pretty bad.

I think the worst of it is over

or I'm just very, very used to it.

- Oh, me too.

I mean, I have the same issue.

I'm also probably really used to it too.

I don't know, I'd rather be sleeping.

- Mm.

How long?

- I've been up about three hours, slept-

- I meant, I meant how
long has it been going on?

- Oh, always.
- Sorry.

That sucks.

- How bad has it gotten for you?

- Ooh, it's been two years.

Yeah.

I had to get help, like real help.

Couldn't tell where the line
was between sleeplessness

and I don't know, life.

Other things, not being
able to cope maybe.

I thought it was coping
and something broke.

You?

- Are you asking if I'm broken?

- What?

No, no, no, I meant, I don't know.

What's your strategy?

Like, are you, are you talking to someone?

You don't have to answer
if it's too personal.

- Not yet.

I mean, I haven't had
to talk to anybody yet.

I don't know.

It's not that severe.

Like I said, it's been my
whole life, so, yeah, maybe.

Maybe I should have
spoken to someone by now.

But I just can't seem to get
anything stable going you know?

- With sleep?
- Oh, yeah, with sleep.

With life too.

You know, I mean, there's stable

and then there's progress, right?

So.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Or at least that's what
other people talk about

as if it exists for them.

Yeah.

- That guy.
- Yeah, yeah.

So, um, are you doing anything?

I know it's a weird time and all.

I don't have anything planned.

Talking is better than...

- Mindless TV alone in the dark.

- Yeah, yeah.

Actually, I started
turning on all the lights

to sort of reestablish the line

between sleep and wakefulness.

- Ah.
- Yeah.

That's a good idea.

- So, are you doing anything?

- Oh, yeah.

I've got this birthday
party that I need to be at

in like a few minutes, so.

- Oh, what?

- No, I'm not.

I'm just burning time
before I have to go to work.

I was just gonna eat this
bagel and then go home

and watch some TV in the dark.

Oh, with the lights on now.

I'll probably try that out.

- So, you want to?

You wanna hang out?

- Uh, where would we go?

I mean, I, there is nothing
open for like an hour or more

and at least within walking distance

and I'm not getting on the subway.

- Well, we can walk for a while.

- And I'm supposed to
feel comfortable walking

the dark streets alone with
some guy that I just met.

- Well, we can keep to the well lit areas.

There are people around on the avenues.

Uh, yeah.

I mean, I know it's sleepy around here,

but it's still New York.

So...

Walk with me.

- Well, that was a text to my roommate.

She's gonna be up soon,
probably for her yoga class.

And now she knows that I'm
out with a strange dude

that I met who asked me
out before 5:00 a.m..

What's your name?

- Oh, sorry, Zach.

- Last name.
- Bell.

- Is that a fake name?

- It could be, but it isn't.

- And smile.

Okay, now she knows your
name and what you look like.

- Okay, okay.

- All right let's-
- All right.

So, shall we

- I'm Sophia.
- No, I know.

I know everything about you, Sophia.

Kidding.
- Too soon, Zach Bell.

Too soon.
- Sorry.

Yeah, you're right.

Eventually I realized
that I'd gotten so crazy

about sleeping some exact
amount in the same way

I always had before that I never
allowed for the possibility

my sleep pattern could just change.

With age.

Maybe that.

Something else.

- Yeah.

I got sober...

More recently than not.

For about 18 months now.

A couple of weeks ago, I
realized that I never really

knew sleep without alcohol.

I mean, since I was about 15 at least.

Now, I mean, I didn't drink every day.

Although I did drink most days,

but life is simpler now since I quit.

- And so, sleep is simpler.

- Eh, sort of.

You know, most days I'm
lucky if I can sleep

five hours in a row.

that
keeps me healthy enough,

but it still feels off.

- Yeah.

That's sort of what happened to me.

I mean, not exactly, but
eventually I realized,

or if I just got up and went about my day

then it was easier to just get by.

Fighting it really burned me out.

I got...

I got really depressed.

- Oh.

Yeah, that's hard.

- Yeah, it's, I'm still, it's...

It's still hard.

Most days I just go to work, come home,

sit in front of the TV and repeat.

- Yeah.

- And I don't really go out
all that much anymore though.

I don't know if I would,
even if I did feel better.

I don't do those apps or anything.

- Well, thanks for sharing that with me.

- You've been pretty open as well.

- I usually am.

- Huh.

Isn't that hard?

- Uh...

It's harder, mm...

It's harder to fight it, I think.

It's like what you said with the sleep.

That's something I learned
with the sobriety especially.

I've taken some, some,
some knocks because of it,

being open for most of
the time, but I really,

I really would rather just be who I am.

It's more exhausting to
be or it's more exhausting

to pretend to fit into
everybody else's definitions

or like, society's definitions.

I don't know.

I think, I think that just,
I just think maybe I was,

I was really confused for a long time

about how or why I didn't fit in.

So, I just sort of covered myself up with

whatever I could find.

Booze, especially.

So, now you
think that who you are

is really just that open?

Yeah, for better or for worse.

Oh.

It's different for women.
- How so?

- Do you know what keeps me up at night?

Men.

Fear of men

- What, did I?

- No.
- I was only-

- No, you didn't do anything wrong.

Well, I mean, you did hit on me at a time

when I clearly would rather
have not been bothered,

but you did it right, basically.

I mean, I appreciate that your approach

was thoughtful, measured.

And even if, even if, you know,

I didn't wanna walk with you,

I wouldn't have been upset in these terms,

because, well, you're clearly
not that kind of a threat.

But it's the culture, you know?

Maybe, maybe not the culture in the way

that you described it or maybe it is,

but you know, it just,
it frightens me.

And all of the change
that's going on right now.

,

any sort of conflict
or violence.

Like, why did she think it was okay

to wait for me outside of the bodega?

- Oh, um...

Well, you seemed to know Vivek.

I did, too.

And so, we chatted a bit.

- And so, that tells you
that I was interested?

- It was more of an instinct thing.

I get what you're, what you're saying,

but it still needs to stand
for something doesn't it?

- Yeah, I agree.

And again, you're not the
greatest example of this, but...

Okay, how easy was it
for you to approach me?

- Uh, me personally?

- As a man.
- Relatively easy.

- Whereas for me, if one or two
of those factors from inside

of the bodega go a different
way than I need to be thinking

about whether I should scream
or run or whether or not

Vivek is going to be able to protect me

or whether he feels like he
can leave his store right away.

We don't need to talk about this.

- We can, if you want.
- I don't.

- Okay.

- It's just that it's
fucking everywhere lately.

And it frightens me, beyond
issues of misogyny even.

This default to a base animalistic fear,

this regressive sort of thinking.

You know, I get it a little bit,

but still that doesn't make
it any easier to stomach

or any less dangerous to be around.

I mean, we're supposed to be evolved.

People used to believe in
things and now they don't.

And so, they lash out,
they try to regain control,

and that leads quickly to intimidation,

otherism, ownership.
- Yeah.

- And so, so who do they
end up hurting, right?

Who are the closest, the easiest victims?

Wives, girlfriends, any
woman or any minority,

anybody on the other
side of the safe haven

of an anonymous threatening Tweet or DM,

or even not at an anonymous one.

I mean, one that's just
launched out into the open,

of nothingness.

I mean, and sometimes, often actually,

from the very top down.

I mean, imagine that.

You know, poison seeped into
the very fabric of society

from the top down in the very light of day

and people just accept it because it feeds

the atrophying narrative
that they've been force fed

for their entire lives and are too afraid

to shake off or let go.

I mean, sometimes I feel
like we'll never be rid

of these men who wield these lies,

who lord their power over
those with less power

just so they could fill that void,

the godless hole where there used

to be faith in their
lives, all their lives,

all of our lives maybe.

Maybe, you know, maybe
the question shouldn't be,

"why can't I sleep?"

Maybe it should be, "how
can everybody else?"

What?

- Nothing.

- I grant you permission
to react to my screed.

- I don't disagree, but
it's, it's just a lot.

- Doesn't make it any less true.

- Yeah, but that's a lot
to carry at 5:00 a.m.

- Somebody has to carry it.
- Eh.

- That's a lax attitude.

- I didn't mean it like that.

You know what?

I stand by what I said.

it's
a lot for one person alone

to carry at 5:00 a.m.

I get that there are battles to be waged,

but you can't fight if you can't stand.

- Well, I wasn't trying to carry it alone.

I'm talking to you.

It's easier to get going
when it's this quiet out.

I mean, to start your day.

- Sometimes, but today is easier.

I know.

Too soon, Zach Bell.

You don't know
that I was going to say that.

- You weren't?

- Maybe.

It's all a little weird.

- What, this?
- Yeah.

- Hm.

So, would it be better that we stop,

go back home to the TV
so we can scroll through

the wasteland of predawn social media?

- Point taken.
- Uh huh, okay.

Light enough for the park?

- Yes, I love the park
in the early morning.

- Me too.

What?

- Oh, wait.

I'm almost ready.

- Kinda early, no?

- You're here, aren't you?

- Good point.
- Prime real estate.

- Exactly.

She knows.

So, want to impress
your girlfriend, right?

- We just met.
- Ah, yeah.

- All more reason to impress.

- I'm not gonna disagree.

- Aren't you gonna be the one
impressing the both of us.

What's it gotta do with me?

- Look, boy-
- Boy?

What a statement.
- I shouldn't have

to explain this to you.

You give me some money.

I play pretty song for lady.

She feels good about it and
then they're on about you.

- Except you just robbed
all the magic from it.

- There's no magic left in this world.

It's all illusion.

We do this to forget.

- I like her, I'm in.
- Jesus.

- Ah, opa.
- Are you drunk?

- Are you not drunk?

- Damn, a 20?

- I am worth $100.

- I'm sober.

- Why?
- No, I mean, perpetually.

- Why?

- Can you play something sad?

- I'm Russian.
- So, yes.

- Why's that?

- I just meant thoughtful, contemplative,

ethereal to match the time of day.

I don't know.

It just seemed quicker to say sad.

- Okay, I play sad.

You add whatever else to it you want.

- What do you do?
- For work?

Well, I know
what you do for fun.

You stalk women outside bodegas.

Oh, I was there first.

And then you waited for me.

- Do you regret it?

Should I not have?
- No.

It's been nice so far.

What do you do?

- I dig pools.
- Really?

- No, I'm a writer.

- A real one or like a copywriter?

- Both are real.

And I do both, fiction
and copy, a little social.

You don't seem
like a social media guy.

Why not?

It's all information
at the end of the day.

Most of it fiction.

- Hm, maybe.

Why would you say you dig pools?

- I fell pretty hard for a bartender once.

And when she finally
gave me the time of day,

I was with a friend who dug pools.

She was much more interested in him.

- Yeah, well, can you blame her?

There are writers every
three feet in Brooklyn.

- The real ones?

- According to your definition.

- Hm, good point.

- I have been known to make them.

- Good points?

Mm, you do seem pretty practical.

- Yeah and that's actually more true of me

than I ever thought that
it would be or could be.

Maybe it's something to do with age.

I don't know.

At the same time though,
I still feel purposeless.

Maybe it's a generational
thing, I don't know.

Can I even help that?

It's not nothing.

- I follow.

- You didn't ask what I do.

- I was gonna get to it.

- I'm a server.

- That's okay.

- Yeah, of course it's okay.

But I don't know if it's
necessarily still okay at my age.

And I mean like the way that I do it,

and the places that I do it,

like the pace and stuff, you know?

I can't help but do my best,

which is something that
everyone says that they do,

but they don't, they know
they could do better.

I don't know, maybe I
should do something else.

- So, do something else.

- Oh, God, are you one of those people?

- Okay, I think I know what you mean,

but tell me anyway, what people?

- Just one of those people
who thinks it's so easy

to change something as huge as a job

by just saying it.

Gross, I mean, Instagram
quotes don't work in real life.

They're just something
that people thumb past

so they can get a hit of
positivity before they move on

to something that makes them
feel bad about themselves,

before moving onto the
next thing that makes them

feel good about themselves
and so on and so on

to the profit of the same
few hundred capitalists.

- Geez.
- Sorry.

I have opinions.
- Yeah, clearly.

No one asked
you to stroll with me.

- That's right.

I was the one that asked you to stroll.

- So, does that reaction mean that you are

one of those types of people?

- Maybe.

I didn't use to be actually.

- What changed?

- The sobriety, I guess.

I think in our society
it's not just alcohol

or drugs or debt even,

although that might be the
biggest one of them all.

No, no, no, no, no, food probably.

Anyway, you were talking
about hits on social media.

Interestingly, I think it
got you away from your point.

I think, no offense.

You're onto something there.

Addiction has wormed its way
around the American heart.

Like you were saying before,
we're a godless people now,

but we're crowded into a
cold, otherwise empty church.

So to speak, right?

We were, we were built on religion,

but it's really only ever been about money

and power the whole time.

I don't know, nothing
new there, but still,

people used to actually believe it all.

And now, everyone knows it's a farce.

We just don't know what to do about it.

I give you permission
to react to my screed.

- Well, I'm glad that you
said we by the end of it.

- What do you mean?

- I mean, it's a lot to bite off.

I mean, we were just talking about

the two of us a second ago.

- Wait, you just, you did
the same thing earlier.

- Yeah, maybe.

Maybe that's why we're
walking alone at night,

awake, complaining while everybody else

sleeps comfortably in their beds.

- Are they comfortable or lulled?

- I don't know.

Even if they are, I wouldn't
necessarily blame them.

I don't like being in my
thirties and feeling hopeless.

Directionless, purposeless.

I didn't know that you could be content

without being fulfilled.

And to be honest, it brings
me joy when I'm working

at the restaurant and a couple or a family

or a single lonely individual comes in

and leaves feeling like they matter to me,

or like they could just
forget and receive service.

And most days that's enough.

But then I get home and-

- And who's there to
give that feeling to you?

- Yeah.

Yeah, I guess so.

It's TV, by the way.

- What?

- TV is the most prevalent
American fiction.

- What about the internet?
- Same shit.

- What about movies?
- No, movies are great.

Everyone should watch movies all the time.

I can't eat without having coffee first,

but then if I have coffee without eating,

it upsets my stomach.

A vicious cycle
that seems backwards.

- It is vicious.

Maybe backwards too,
but no less true for it.

I'm a little unnerved, you know?

I'm a little upset by
what you said earlier.

- I'm sorry, what did I say?

- About other people's
supposedly addictions.

I think it's reductive.

- You joined the conversation.

- Well, I mean, that
doesn't mean that I agree

with your whole thesis.

And maybe I went along with it at first

because of how vocal you were,

but you don't, you don't agree?

You think that what you said is fine.

- I don't know if it's fine or not fine.

It's just the way I see it.

As far as whether I'm
being unfairly reductive,

I don't think so, no.

I just tend to think
things are more simple

generally than we allow.

A lot of the time what we take for nuance

for me feels like evasion.

Does that make more sense in
the context of what I said?

I, it's not necessarily hopeless.

It's just realism.

- No, I don't like any of that either.

.

People do have faith that life
does have more of a purpose

than chasing some
chemical hit in the brain.

You think that's funny?

- No, no, no, it's not.

- I just don't understand
what you think gives you

the right to judge others.

- It's not judgment-
- Isn't it?

- Necessarily.

I really didn't mean to upset you.

- What did you mean then?

Why did you even say it?

It isn't a solution is it?

- I was talking, sharing.

It's my experience.

I don't know that we're saying

different things overall really.

I used to overthink.

I tend to do that now.

.

I'm especially sensitive.

We talked about that before too,

but I think most people are like that.

Whether they accept it
or not or like it or not.

And I understand it is scary.

Life, the idea of life is frightening.

It's death's mirror, right?

So, even though I enjoy
being alive, it's...

It's also a struggle.

Because what's on the
other side is always-

- The unknown.

- Yeah.

- But that's ego that
you're talking about.

- Yeah, you're right about that.

Again, I think we're coming
to the same conclusion

from different perspectives.

- No, I don't think that we are.

I don't draw conclusions upon
other people's experiences

or my perceptions of them.

I don't generalize.

You know what?
- Ah, wow.

- I really don't like this.

- Sophia, i-
- I know, you've explained.

- Is there addiction in
your family or something?

- I don't know.

Yes, maybe, I don't know.

- I'm sorry I upset you.

I really didn't mean to.

In fact, I probably was
trying to impress you.

- Don't, just be normal.

You're not an accordion player.

Thank you for apologizing.

I'm sorry too, I didn't, I
don't know why I got so upset.

I just-
- It's fine.

- We can keep walking if you want.

- Okay.

Is there anything more specific

that you wanna talk about?
- Not today.

- Okay, okay.

Gonna need more coffee soon.

- Yeah, yeah, I could.

I could use more coffee.

Let's go.

Kind of like a bagel
sandwich in there, you know?

Between the coffees in your belly.

- You're really weird, dude.

- I've been told.
- And it's entirely accurate.

I mean, it would be more,
less like a sandwich

and more like a brown, wet,
chewed up mess and goo.

Yeah, I know, I know.

la, la, la, la, la, la

- Morning, guys.
- Good morning.

Do you know what you want?
- Uh.

- Half-caf Americana was cinnamon.

- I'm gonna pretend you
didn't just do that.

Um...

- Hey, no, no, no, I got it.

That's okay, I
can pay for the coffees.

You don't have to.

I like reversing gender norms.

- Damn.

- Plus I like getting extra
punches on my punch card.

- Give me that card.

I will have an oat
milk latte also with cinnamon.

- Got it.

Two.

- Thanks.
- You're welcome.

- You have a really nice voice.

- And you have beautiful eyes.

- Well, thank you.

- Thanks.

- Uh, I think that the
barista was um, what?

- You know what you just did, right?

- I made it into a date.

- Mm, kinda.
- Yeah.

Well, things like that are
pretty fluid nowadays, huh?

I decided that I was going to shift things

into that zone after I got upset with you

or that I would be okay if
you decided to shift things

into that zone because I didn't
really care, but I did care.

I don't know, but I
figured that you wouldn't

have made the next move because you seem

to genuinely get upset about
the fact that I was upset

about like the men stuff.

And so, I got really confused in my head

and I just decided to say, why not, right?

Just why not show that
you're interested in him.

Is that okay?
- Yeah.

If I can follow.

I followed it.

- I'm gonna get us a table.

- Do you open up here alone?

- Oh yeah, that little
turd that's supposed

to be here is always late.

Oh, that's not fair.

- Nope.
- Well, fuck that guy.

- Believe me, he's tried.

Ooh, is he cute?

- I haven't decided yet.

- Oh, that doesn't bode well.

You're hot, you should be picky.

Thank you.

- Is it okay if I eat my bagel in here?

It's from another place,
but it's only half.

- You can eat whatever you want.

We don't do bagels.
- Okay.

Thanks.
- Oh and when you're done

with whatever this is, come find me.

Okay?
- Yeah.

- If you were stranded on a desert island

and could only bring-
- Oh, I hate these.

- And could only bring three
books, what would they be?

- Okay, um...

"Moby Dick."
- Fine, approved.

- No comments.

- Sorry.

- "Moby Dick," "The Long Goodbye,"

and a comprehensive manual
on DIY ship building.

- No one ever says that.

That's what I always say.

Nice job, Zachary.

- Eh, Zach.
- Okay, yeah, sorry.

I hate it when people call me Sophie.

It's so diminutive.

Diminutizing?

You get what I mean.

- Zachary sounds pretentious.

- Oh, you did bring
"Moby Dick" to an island.

- Wait, what's the scenario
that leads to this circumstance?

Did someone kidnap me in the middle

of a purchase at a bookstore?

I mean, how many
bookstores are by the sea?

How many bookstores are-
- Oh.

are still are still around.

- All right.
- Period.

- Okay.
- Anyway.

- All right, I am sure there
are bookstores and libraries

and other places that have
books in them near the sea.

- Oh, well, fine, okay.
- Mm hm.

- But the salt air can't
be good for the pages.

- Maybe they're eBooks.
- Ah, I hope not.

- Okay, in this scenario your eBook reader

would be perpetually charged.

- Okay, then I would be able
to get more than three books.

- No.
- That doesn't make sense.

- Well, it's my question.

What's "The Long Goodbye?"

- Oh, Raymond Chandler.
- Mm hm.

- It's technically a
classic detective novel,

but actually a remarkable
exploration of the self,

the alcoholic self really by
a tortured, brilliant mind.

- And you relate to this
tortured, brilliant mind?

- I don't know.

I used to.
- And now?

- And now I wish I never had
an alcoholic mind at all.

- But you do.

- You're right, I do.

And I didn't even mean that.

I'm grateful for my past.

- That's very mature of you.

- Is it?
- I think so.

- Are you grateful for yours?

- Sure, what other choice do I have?

Well, there's bitterness.

- Mm, tried it.

Too depressing.

Mm, disappointment.

- Tried that too.

Very unproductive.

- Am I supposed to react to that?

- You know you find it gross.

- It just looks like oatmeal.

- And oatmeal is gross looking.

- I don't have to.
- That is unfair.

I answered about the books.

- You had an answer.

I don't really listen
to all that much music.

- That's impossible.

Don't be embarrassed.

- I'm not embarrassed.
- Uh huh, okay.

- Fine, Joni Mitchell's "Blue."

Solid, I think.

- You don't listen to her?

- I have, but not a full
album all the way through.

Oh, you've
probably heard all her songs.

- Quite possible.
- Yeah.

I mean, I have an upstairs
neighbor who is like 20 years old

and I literally hear her
playing the album all the time.

- There you go, there's an answer.

All right and I won't even
make you name two more.

- I guess so.
- Uh huh.

What kind of
music do you listen to?

- Uh huh, hugely eclectic.

I listen to a little bit
of mostly everything.

- Even metal?
- Even metal!

- Gross.

All right.

- You didn't have to pay for the coffee.

- Oh, it's fine.

I have plenty of money.
- Oh, oh, oh.

How nice.
- Oh, please.

Was it family money?

- No, everyone always thinks that.

- Sorry.
- It's fine, I get it.

I'm an anomaly.

Well, my parents did pay for my school,

which they paid for half
and I earned the other half.

And then I paid my expenses.

- Well, that's not nothing, no.

No, it's not nothing.

- How did you make your fortune then?

- Oh, it is not a fortune.

No, I just, I have savings

that I don't have to touch very often

because I have a job that
covers most of my expenses.

And I've made some spending money

in recent years off of my portfolio.

Mm.

- I had a shitty high paying
job for a few shit years,

and I didn't spend any
of the money that I made.

And it was a very lonely
strategy, but also a sound one.

Especially given the
economy after the recession.

- Look at you.

I wouldn't even know where
to start with investments.

- Oh, that's how they want
you to be, in the dark.

But it really is quite easy once you learn

to frame your financial life in a way

that allows you to make
steady contributions

in amounts that make a difference.

What?

- You are smart.
- Yeah, yeah.

Your response is somewhat sexist.

- I wasn't being-
- Weren't you?

- I don't know, maybe.

- Huh, oh, well there you go.

That is improvement.

I don't know, maybe.

Now you are ahead of 70%

of the rest of the men in the world.

I will continue to educate you
on the basis of this promise.

- Huh.

- Makeover reality shows are
a near unimpeachable argument

for universal basic income.

- Yeah and extended vacation
leave and paid time off.

- Yes, yes!

Speaking of, I need to go serve
Mimosas for tips right now.

- Ah, sorry.
- Yeah, I know.

Could be worse.

- Indeed.

- Do you wanna walk home with me?

I mean, I was gonna like
shower and everything,

but I don't think that I have the time.

And so, I'm just gonna
freshen up and stuff.

- I'd love to come.

- Great.

Well then, let's go, nerd.

- I'm really glad we've learned to embrace

our sleeplessness today.

- Oh, my God.

- I miss weed.
- I don't.

- Oh, you stopped too?

- No.

I mean, I miss it since yesterday.

Hey, can I have your number?

- Uh, yeah.
- There you are.

- Oh, wow, that was fast.

- Why do you think I asked?

- I mean, I know why you asked,

but you could have played
it a little cooler.

- Yeah, you haven't
played it so cool so far.

- Yes, I have.

- Mm, yeah, maybe.
- Uh huh.

Yeah, I have.
- Mm hm.

- I mean, I am always cool.

What applies to me doesn't
always apply to others, so.

- Interesting.
- Yeah.

- Yeah, yeah.
- I am, thank you.

- Mm hm.
- Woo, here you go.

I saved it under a pseudonym.

So, once you figure that out,

then maybe I'll go out with you.

- Oh.

- I can't really entertain you
much while I'm getting ready.

You understand?
- No problem.

- Yeah.
- I don't have to do anything.

I can just hang out.

- Well, thanks for tagging along.

- Sure.

- It is easier being up this
early with someone else around.

Um, there's water and stuff
in the fridge if you want.

You can make coffee also.

- Oh, no, I'm good for now.
- Okay, all right.

- Um, don't snoop too much.

.

when we were anonymous

you loved me for who I am

time when were anonymous

- Did you make toast?

- Yeah.

Sorry.

- It's okay.

Don't judge my library.

- I wasn't.

You can tell a lot about a
person by which books they keep.

They're the type to keep only
some books versus too many.

- Take anything you'd like.

- And do you think
people find all of those?

You don't think that there's a surplus

or that some of those
books die on those streets,

get sent to the dump?

- What are you saying?

It sounds cynical.

You're kind of a contradiction, you know?

- I know, hm.

I just worry that we've
devalued true information,

full stories, a kind of
deep dive into knowledge,

truth in general really,

to satisfy the need for more always.

It's always more, more, now
regardless of usefulness,

decreasingly with a regard for quality,

it's all about that same thing
we've been talking about.

That temporary charge over and over again.

So, more and more books
get made to fill the need.

Throw the old ones away
without processing them.

So, if there are only
a few universal truths

or stories out there, the
ones that get made today

get so watered down,
they're hardly anything.

Fluff.

- You think a lot about
things that are way

outside your personal orbit.

- Huh, maybe.

I mean, I think this last thing

was in my personal orbit though.

- If you publish books,
have you published a book?

- No.

Soon, I hope.

- Good luck.

I'd give your book a try.

- Thanks.
- Yeah.

Just a try.

If it got too dark, I'd put it down.

- Aha, then you'd put it down too soon.

- Good enough?

- More than.

- Easy, killer, I already
gave you my number.

- Yeah, sort of.

- Okay, ready to go?

- Uh, yeah.

It doesn't look like two people live here.

- Uh, I live alone.

- You said you texted your roommate.

- Yeah, I texted my sister
a bunch of random letters.

I wasn't worried.

- Then why do it at all?

- Well, it was fun to
mess with you and her.

I mean, she will not
understand what is happening

when she wakes up later and her reaction

will give me some sort of amusement

in the middle of my shift.

Sorry.

Crap, is that the time?

It's actually pretty early.

I, I coulda showered.

- Oh, you still can if you want.

- No, Zach Bell.
- Oh, too soon?

- Yes.
- Mm hm.

- Um, do you wanna chill
for a minute in my garden?

- Ooh, too soon, Sophia
what's your last name?

- What?

Oh, hilarious.

Hilarious.

Come with me.

Come on.
- Too soon again.

- Yeah.

- This is all yours?

Yeah.

It's the one thing I spend extra money on.

- Strong move.
- Yeah, I know.

- This is unheard of.
- I know.

- Can I?
- Yeah, of course.

I mean, most people are amazed,
but you're almost gleeful.

- Well, I don't get out enough.

You know, in nature.

- We live right by the park.

You were just there.

- Yeah, I'm there all the
time, but this is different.

This is, this is private, intimate.

It's got like this feeling, you know?

- Yeah.

Oh, wow.

Um, you sure
you don't want any coffee?

- Yeah, can you do a decaf or half?

- Yeah.
- Thanks.

Um, decaf or half?

- Oh, half, half, sorry.

- Okay.
- Thanks.

- Mm hm, sure.

- I hope we don't lose it all.

- What?

Trees and everything.
- Yeah.

- Yeah.

We won't.

- You believe that?
- Yeah.

We won't lose all of it if we're careful,

but the fighting is going to
get worse until it gets better.

And who knows how much of it will survive.

- The planet?

- As we know it.

Yeah.

What are you gonna do the rest of the day?

I'm going to have
breakfast at your restaurant.

You are not.

Nah, I don't know.

Take a nap, clean my room, catch a movie.

Do you live alone too?

Yeah, yeah actually, I do.

You find it hard living alone?

Yes and no.

Mostly yes, but the no is the
strongest no of all of them.

- What does that mean?

- I treasure my independence.

- Is that why you're still single?

- What makes you think I'm single?

- Uh-

- Oh, I'm just kidding.

I'm single, I'm single.

Yeah, I mean, I guess that's the reason.

Yes and no.

Maybe it is the reason.

It shouldn't be, but it might be.

- They're all crazy.

The guys that, that
haven't held on to you.

- Cute.
- Oh, God.

- What?

Are you one of those guys that

doesn't like being called cute?

It is a good thing.
- I don't know.

Between that and what you
said in the coffee shop.

- What did I say?

- Suggesting I wasn't gonna make a move.

Whereas I was the one
who asked you to hang out

in the first place and
asked you for your number.

Except-
- I was just kidding.

- Ah, no you weren't.

- Oh, okay, well maybe I wasn't,

but I did like notarize our date

and I did give you my number

and I just called you cute
and oh, my God, you're right.

You have every reason to be so upset.

- Ah, now you're laughing at me.

- Oh my gosh, honestly enough.

Stop it.

- Slow down.
- No, red flags rising.

Too much history with male sensitivity.

Not my job.
- Sophia, I'm sorry.

Hey, hey, I am, I'm sorry.

We both got some stuff, I guess.

- You are really sensitive.

- Yeah, double-edged sword.

- Me too.

I mean, I'm really sensitive too.

Usually not the best combination.

- No, not usually.

I'm decisive too, you know?

- Okay.
- Where at counts.

- I believe you.
- Thank you.

I don't know why you're
making this so difficult.

- Oh, my God.

Are you proving the point that I just made

about the men that I've dated?

That was fast.
- Hold, hold, hold on.

Hold on, okay?

Counter question, are you maybe
creating the circumstances

to make me prove your point?

Maybe even just a little bit.

- I don't know.

It's possible.

- Why did you make your
phone number a game?

- I don't know.

- I'm sorry.

You didn't do anything.

- Maybe I did.

Either way I'm sorry.

- You apologize a lot.

- Red flag?

- No.

Well, I mean, to be determined.

I'm sorry, I've been pushing
you away all morning.

I don't know what's gotten into me.

Maybe, maybe this isn't a good idea.

Maybe we're too alike.
- I don't think so.

- Well, we've established that
we're both sensitive people.

And I think also we've
established that we both have more

than a few hangups and
we both can't sleep.

- That's about it as far
as challenges though.

So far.
- So far.

- So far.

Still, we've known each
other less than four hours.

We could be the perfect
Venn diagram of suitability.

Huh?

There's only one way to find out.

Look, maybe we're supposed to date.

All right, help each other
I don't know, sleep easier.

Despite all the shit that's going on

in our lives and in the world.

- Our lives aren't that bad.

- Everyone needs people.

- Yeah, okay.

- Anyway.

Is it this way?

- Yeah.
- All right.

- You want some mints?
- Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Hold on.

So, I was thinking.

You ever hear that thing
that you're the average

of the five people you
spend the most time with?

- Yeah, sure.
- Who are your people?

- My coworkers, my sister
if you count the phone,

and my therapist.

- Ah.
- What about you?

My boss, my sponsor, therapist,

my brother if you count the phone.

- That's only four.
- And coffee.

For real though.

I have an open slot, I guess.

- Not today you don't.

Our grand adventure
comes rapidly to an end.

- Mm.
- Work.

- Yeah, you joke, but I
did have a great time.

- Yeah, me too.

It wasn't boring.

- Good?

- Yeah, it was very random.

- Ah, yeah, yeah, true.

- I actually have a few
minutes before I have to be in.

Do you wanna sit for a bit over there?

- Yeah, sure.
- Okay, cool.

Can you hold my compact for me?

Like that.

Should I put on makeup?

- I don't think you need it.

- Right.

I don't feel like putting any on.

- So, don't.

- A made up Sophia makes more tips.

.

- What?

- It doesn't seem to, I don't know,

align with your perspective.

Also, it's an ironic turn of phrase.

Capitalistically speaking.

Yeah, it kind of goes back to a part

of our conversation before,
fiction being reality.

- Whatever.

I have some tinted moisturizer I can use

to smooth things out later.

Also, by the way,

I can be a woman who
cares about her appearance

while also rejecting the
bullshit that is classically

assigned to the identity of womanhood.

- Sure, I know.
- Mm hm.

- I just like who you appear to be.

Okay?

All right.

This could also be something that,

that is none of my business, but-

- Oh boy.
- No, no, no, no.

I'm just thinking about your difficulty

with the desert island album question

and knowing what to do while sitting on

what sounds like some savings.

You should travel.

No, I mean, since you can.

That's what a lot of people
would do if they had the means.

- I have and I will travel more.

For now though, I like it where I am.

I mean, I don't love my job,

and I would like some more purpose,

but that's not everything.

I mean, the day-to-day
here is pretty good,

and that's not necessarily
something to mess with.

- Hm.
- Besides, I mean,

I can't, you know, just jump
around from place to place,

avoiding the questions of my life.

- Yeah.

But wouldn't travel help you sleep though?

- Well, exhaustion isn't the
same as sleeping healthy.

- Ah, I guess that might be true.

I'm exhausted a lot of the
time and I don't sleep.

- Maybe you're supposed
to find out something.

Maybe you should travel.

- Uh, same answer.

I have, I will.

But I like it here right now.

And I don't have the means necessarily.

- Something to work towards.
- Yeah.

Oh, maybe you could volunteer
or work for a nonprofit.

I don't know.

- Yeah, maybe.

I don't know what I'd be good at though.

- Talk to the people like you talk to me.

- Yeah, maybe.
- Mm hm.

- Boobies O'Shaughnessy.

- What?
- Boobies O'Shaughnessy.

That's the name I put in
your phone with my number.

- Huh?

That certainly would have stuck out.

- Yeah, that's why they call her boobies.

- Don't.

- I really don't wanna go to-
- Hey, Sophia.

- Hi, Lisa.

- I'll see you inside.
- Yup.

call in sick, call in sick

Is that your manager?
- Yup.

- Huh, you should go in and puke

wet, brown bagel all over her.

- Yeah, no.

I mean, I mean, I do wanna
hang out, but not that badly.

- All right.
- Gross.

Okay.

Dirty butt?

- Uh, a little, a little bit.

- Yeah.
- Mm hm.

- Yeah, go ahead.

Utility purposes only.

- Okay, um.

- Weirdest date ever.

Okay, all right.

- All right.
- Yeah.

- How about my butt?
- Yeah, I mean it's dirty,

but you don't have to go to work.

So, it doesn't matter.

- I'm not walking around
with a dirty butt.

Come on now.

Come on, come on.

Okay, see-
- All right, all right.

- You're being a little
nice to it, but all right.

Thank you for cleaning my butt.

- Okay.

So, du-du-du-da, it was-

- Oh, do-
- What?

- Do you wanna hang out tonight?

- Oh, um, maybe.

I'll text you.

- Um, you don't have my number.

- So, text me first, dingus.

- I'm never changing Boobies
O'Shaughnessy in my phone.

- Yes, you will.
- Mm mm, no.

- Oh yeah.
- No.

- It's got a little heart emoji.

- Yes, boobies.

- Okay, well, it was a nice meeting you.

- Yeah, likewise, Boobies.

- Zach, all right, okay.

You, enough already.

You knifed it.

You killed the joke.
- Okay, okay, okay.

- It's done, it's dead.
- Okay, sorry, sorry.

- It's okay.

Okay, so I...

I will talk to you later.

- Okay.
- I'm gonna...

- All right, I'm just gonna go-

- Yeah.
- This way.

- Okay.
- Have fun at work.

- Yeah, hm.
- Okay.

- Hey, thanks for the help
with the door by the way.

Who's the serious guy?

Oh, it's not serious.

- No, I meant-
- We just met, so.

I meant it looks like
he takes things seriously.

- Oh, yeah.

Yeah, that's probably accurate.

- Okay, so for today, I think
if we just really get started-

- I sort of too though.
- You what?

- I take things seriously.
- I don't know.

I think it kinda depends.

Okay, so, for today, maybe
if we just get started-

- You know what, I need to find out.

What do you mean?

- I need to find out who he is.

- What, where are you going for today?

- I mean, oh gosh.

I'm so sorry, I'm sick.

- You're definitely 1,000% not sick-

- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- At all.

- Yeah, no, I am.

I'm so sorry.
- Nope, talk to him later.

- I've gotta go.

I don't want to.

- Okay, this is not okay.

- Yeah, I'm so sorry.

- You're fucking me before
the day has even started.

Oh, I know, I'm sorry.

- I'm pissed but exceedingly curious.

- Zach, Zach!

Zach!

tired of kicking home alone

nothing left to talk about