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-A boy dreams of two fathers.

One he doesn't recognize.

One he can never know.

And so this living with ghosts.

-Man, echoing: Hello, young man.

-Boy, echoing: Hi.

-I'll tell you what.

Give you five bucks if I can pee in your pocket.

-You-- you can't do that. Don't you know who my father is?

-Oh... Never again.

It feels like demons are eating my brain.

-You could never have demons in you, Kengo.

-Why is that?

-Because you are a child of God.

- Right, I forgot.

-No, Evelyn, come on, please.

Oh, you smell.

-Taxi driver: Was that your girlfriend?

-Yeah.

-She seemed very nice, very pretty.

Does she smell good?

-Evelyn on answering machine: Hi, neither Kengo or

Evelyn are home right now.

Please leave a message after the tone and we'll call you back.

God bless.

-Oh, why'd you have to add

"God bless"? [beep]

-Shh...

-Hello? Hello?

-Oh, shit, I'm late for work.

-It's Glen Soon here.

Is anyone home?

Is anyone home?

I am calling to inform Kengo that he is late for work by more than one hour.

This is very late.

Please call me at the office.

And hello to you, Evelyn.

I hope you are... Good.

-He's so sweet. [beep]

Why does he have to be

so formal?

-Because he's a gentleman.

And a very... Spiritual man.

-Oh, please.

He's been in love with you

for years, Evelyn.

Please... Please let me get

through this day.

-You really are a man now.

-Really?

-And you're very handsome,

Kengo.

-I must get it from you.

Get to work.

-Hey, kid, you really

shouldn't be in here.

Why don't you come back

when you're 18?

-I'm just looking.

-Whoa, whoa, whoa. Careful with that.

It took me two weeks to put

that stuff back up there

after the quake.

-Sorry.

-You're, uh, you're...

You're Evelyn's son, right?

-Uh-huh.

-Yeah, she was in here a

couple of weeks ago collecting

donations for the church group.

She's kinda hot.

Oh, that's a good one.

That got four out of five

penises in loadmagazine.

-Cool.

-Kengo?

Better get going.

-Shit.

-Hey.

-Oh, hey, Kengo.

-What's going on?

-I don't know.

-What's the matter?

-I've been having

a super-bad day.

My cat disappeared.

-I thought you just found him.

-I did but it's

the full moon again.

You know what that means.

-Cats don't like full moons?

-Mine doesn't.

-Whew... I'm so hung over,

so late.

-You know what?

Um, it's that time

of the month again.

-Oh... -For me.

-Hmm, so we're even.

My mom has this weird tea

she drinks for that.

-Does it taste good?

-I don't know.

I never tried it.

-O.K.

-You're an hour and 45 minutes late.

-I know. I'm sorry.

-Just answer it.

-I missed it.

-You need to copy this manuscript.

It's being picked up today.

-Yeah.

-Thank you.

-It's a... a message.

It's probably my mom.

[beep]

I, I'll turn the ringer off.

-It's O.K., Kengo, I'm not your prison warden.

-Yeah, I know, but I feel bad

'cause I was late.

-Well, you're young. It's O.K. to go out and have

a good time.

I just think...

When I was your age,

I was in love with this girl

named Jessica.

-Jessica? Yeah?

What happened to her?

-Her family didn't

approve of me.

-When was that? -When I was a young man, I lived in long beach.

I know I told you about the

fruit store I had there.

-Oh, yeah, the fruit store,

yeah-- that sounded really cool, actually.

-Oh, you don't have to humor me, Kengo.

-I'm not humoring you.

You know I like to hear

about your life.

-Hello? -Yes.

-I need to send a fax.

-Please, let me help you.

-I need another word

for "Pleasure".

I use it twice in one sentence.

-"Enjoyment"? -Hmm...

-"Delight"?

How about "Satisfaction"?

-"Satisfaction...."

-O.K., I'll take care of it.

-Thank you.

Office.

He just got here.

Kengo? -Yeah?

-Telephone.

-I'm coming.

Sorry.

This is Kengo.

Hey.

Uh... Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Uh, I'm working.

No, I got them.

Yeah, they look...

They look really good.

I was just...

Uh, looking at them.

You know what? Yeah... No, I

shouldn't, I shouldn't talk.

I'm... I'm kind of in trouble.

I was late again.

What?

Where?

All right.

I'll, uh...

Yeah, O.K.

Well, I'll see...

I'll, uh, I'll talk to you soon.

I'll call you later.

O.K., yeah, you too.

Sorry, that was Sandra.

-You don't need to tell me

sorry all the time, Kengo.

-Yeah, I know.

I just feel bad I was late...

Again.

-Is everything O.K.?

-What?

-With Sandra?

-Oh, yeah. It's great.

Everything's great.

-O.K. -Oh... You know what?

I was supposed to go help

Miss June Paik with her sink.

She had a leak and she wanted me to tighten it, so I'm just

gonna... head up there

and do that now.

-Right now?

-Yeah. Is that O.K.?

-O.K.

-All right.

I'll be right back.

Hey, Mr. Park.

How's that new stove?

Hello?

Come on.

What?

Fuck...

Hi.

Hi.

I have to get back to work.

-That was fun.

-It was fun last night too.

I always get horny when I have

a hangover.

Is that weird?

-You know what turns me on.

-Oh, this?

I always hated it.

It just looked...

Clumsy and stupid.

I just wanted to catch pop flies.

That's all I ever prayed for.

Instead...

God gave me this huge...

Cock.

What kind of world

makes deals like that?

What?

All I've ever wanted was...

To... Get married to you.

I want to have your child.

I want to have a boy with...

A big thing like yours.

-And we talked about that

already.

-I want you to tell me again.

-I can't marry you because...

I'm the son of God.

-Oh my... I can't believe

you're still saying that, Kengo.

I thought you would have

outgrown it by now.

-What if it's true?

-Kengo, it's not true.

It's never been true and it

never will be true.

It's over...

...My fucking shoes on.

Get the fuck out of here.

And so...

-Dear God...

I promise to have faith in you

if only you will let me

catch fly balls.

That's all I ask.

-Aw, shit, it's going

towards Kengo.

-Idiot!

Open your eyes!

-Fucker.

-Hey, sorry, I couldn't

get her to shut up about her

dumb pussycat.

Oh, God, the toolbox...

-Wait. -I'll be back.

-Wait.

-What?

Mr. Soon?

-Glen.

-Glen.

-I want to show you something.

It's a picture of your mother

when I first met her.

-Wow.

I want to tell you something,

Kengo.

I won't be alive much longer.

-What?

-This life is nothing but a

short, painful dream anyway.

-What are you talking about?

-Thanks to his guidance,

I made it through this far.

Before I die...

I...

It's a shame to say.

I've had lustful thoughts

toward your mother.

-Oh... O.K., Mr. Soon,

we don't have to have this conversation...

-Your mother is a pure-hearted

person... But still...

I've had violent cravings

for her flesh, cravings

that I cannot suppress.

I want to beg your forgiveness.

-Oh.

-Making peace with God.

-Fuck God.

Sorry.

I'm sorry.

You know...

You were always like

a father to me.

-Could you do me a favor?

Fill this prescription...

At the pharmacy?

You need some fresh air.

And... Get something to eat

while you're out too.

-O.K.

-Hi. -Hello.

-We're from the reformers

church of christ and we would

like to leave you some

literature.

-O.K., thank you.

What's your name?

-Kengo.

-Oh, yeah? How do you spell that?

-K-e-n-g-o.

-Be sure to visit us if you

ever have any pain or

difficulties.

We never push, we just offer.

-O.K. All right, thank you.

-Good job.

...There was a time when my soul

was wandering through the

deepest darkness...

Until the day I was saved

by our teachings.

I was carrying this child inside

me... And I was ready to throw

myself and him into the ocean.

But I was saved by his hand,

the one who is in heaven...

And now my son and I live

in the holy light of our lord.

-Peace be with you.

-Hello.

We're from the reformers...

-Fucking holy rollers, yeah.

Why don't your fuck off

and go to hell?

-Are you all right, Kengo?

-Mm-hmm.

-It's O.K..

-How's it going?

-Oh, Glen, it's great.

It's such... Satisfying work.

-Great. How did he do?

- He was good.

-Good.

-Evelyn?

-Call me mom.

-Mom....

-Yes?

-Where is my father right now?

-Your father is the lord.

Our lord must stay

high up in heaven.

-Why?

-Because he can't live

down here with us.

-Why?

-Well, he's... busy.

But he's always watching over

you, and he has your best

interests in his heart.

He sent you down here

to be with me.

-You know, it's true,

Kengo.

You're fortunate to live

in the embrace of his love.

You must be proud of that

and live a life that is

good and true.

-Yeah, I know, but...

God belongs to everybody.

Fathers are different, though.

Everyone has a different one,

right?

-Yes. Someday our lord, your father,

will reveal himself to you

as yours and yours alone...

And you will meet him

where you least expect it.

-I know where babies

come from...

And I know how they're made.

-Well, we're not going to talk

about that right now.

Glen, can we get going?

You can always talk to your dad

by praying to him.

-Hello.

-Hi.

-How's Mr. Soon?

-Uh, not so good.

He, uh... He just told me.

-Yeah, I guess Mr. Soon likes

to keep things, uh, to himself.

That's gonna get harder

from now on.

I'm sorry.

-Yeah, me too.

-This'll take a few minutes.

-Hey, do you have anything for a hangover out here?

-Sure. But you know what I do?

-No.

-I watch morning talk shows.

The shrill voices of those

witch-hunting correspondents,

oh, they bring up every last bit

left in your stomach from the

night before.

Fox news is foolproof.

By the way, I can have

the prescription sent over to Mr. Soon.

-O.K., that'd be great,

thank you.

-I usually do.

-Sandra.

Hey.

I, I'm sorry.

Look, i, I know it drives you

crazy when I say those things.

Yeah, and it, it kind of makes

me crazy too, but...

The... Hold on, hold on, just...

Can you listen to me

for a second?

I just came from work and I just

got some weird news and...

I need to talk to you.

I don't know, 10 minutes?

Um... The tofu house.

All right.

I'll see you there.

All right.

-Hello.

-Hi.

-O.K., you hungry today?

-I'm actually waiting for someone.

I'm gonna wait for them, so...

-Do you want something

to drink?

-Uh... A tea?

A tea.

-O.K.... one green tea.

There you go.

-Thank you.

This is the big one...

This is it...

Oh...

-Woman on tv: ...Aftershocks

making their presence known.

The last one was detected about

two hours ago...

-Shit...

-Who are you calling?

-Sandra. I can't get through.

-Well, I'm sure all the lines

are tied up.

-Yeah.

-Oh...

O.K., let's...

Get dressed and get some stuff

and head to the church.

-I'm not going.

-What?

-I'm not a believer, mom.

Not anymore.

I haven't been for a while.

I know today is probably the

worst day to tell you, but...

I just don't believe

in your God.

I can't keep pretending that...

-He just split.

But can I help you?

-Uh... No.

-Hey.

Weren't you at eighth and

Catalina last night?

-Yeah.

-Your girlfriend's hot.

How'd youget her?

-Mustache.

-Oh.

You know what? I, I...

I've been... been thinking about

growing one myself.

A fresh handlebar!

-You bastard.

-Mom?

-I can't take two earthquake

in one day, Kengo.

-I want you to tell me

who my father is.

-Your father is our lord.

He's... Up in heaven.

-No.

The truth.

-Mama, I'm not a kid anymore.

-Just tell me the truth.

If you don't, I'll...

I'll never be able to believe

in anything.

Please.

What the fuck you

looking at, man?

Hey...

You know Jesus?

-No.

-Hey...

...Forgot his hat.

-Ma'am, please sit here.

-Thank you very much.

Your parents raised you well.

You're a very handsome gentleman.

- Thank you.

-What is your name?

-Uh, my name is Kengo.

-Are you Japanese?

-No, I'm American.

I'm from here.

-With a Japanese name?

-Uh-huh, but I'm...

But I'm Chinese.

That's very American.

-Yeah.

-I'm from Poland. -Oh.

-We don't have a polish town.

You've got here a, a little

Tokyo and a chinatown...

Do you live there?

-I actually live in Koreatown.

- Oh, that's confusing.

-Yes. We're tricky.

-Pardon me.

Shit...

Glen, hi...

Sandra?

-Hey, you're not gonna believe

what's happening.

Sandra, my battery's dying.

-I'm such a stupid girl.

-Sit.

-Thank you.

Sometimes I just wanna...

Split.

-Don't you think Kengo

sometimes wanna split too?

-He's too in love with

his mother to ever wanna

go anywhere.

-Of course he loves

his mother.

But he's afraid that if

he leaves her, she'll

fall apart again.

Evelyn is a very fragile woman.

-All right, Evelyn.

Time to talk.

-I was...

Living in a deep darkness...

In my teen years.

Yeah... I...

Saw demons.

I would do everything I can

to just make them go away.

I tried everything, even L.S.D.,

but... That just makes 'em

worse.

And so I had...

Knowledge of...

Several different men...

Without love.

I don't want you

to judge me, Kengo.

-I'm not judging you.

Just... Keep going.

-You know what "Having

knowledge" Means, right?

-YeS. God, what century do you

think this is?

I know what it means...

To have knowledge of...

Someone.

-Do you have knowledge of...

What's her name?

-I remember when Kengo

abandoned the faith.

She, for a solid two weeks, ate

nothing, said nothing, never

once bathed or washed her hair.

-Jesus.

I'm sorry.

Is that why he's so...

-Unpredictable? -Yeah, exactly.

-Even though sometimes he acts

like a man, but he's still

just a boy.

His behavior proves it.

-I know, I just... I'm not trying to change him.

I just want him to be more...

Oh, this is...

-You are a romantic girl,

Sandra, but remember...

Life is made not just of dreams.

You can't let your imagination

construct an ideal love without

being in touch with reality.

-Sandra.

Ah.

-Mom, please stop stalling.

I got pregnant in the third

year of high school.

A friend of mine introduced me

to a doctor who...

Gave me an abortion.

"Abortion is good neither for

the body nor the spirit."

That's what he would say.

I should also be careful about

venereal disease, so I should

always be sure to...

Use a condom.

And he gave me a new box of

them.

I told him I had condoms and he

told me the guys probably didn't

put them on right.

Kengo, you'd be amazed at

how few people know the right

way to use them.

But I wasn't stupid.

I mean, I was really careful

about contraception.

I mean, the minute we'd take our

clothes off, I would be sure to

put it on the penis myself.

You just can't trust men with

anything like that.

Kengo...

You know about condoms, right?

-Yes. Come on.

-Well, O.K.

About six months after another

abortion, and I... Just...

A series of weird events...

I ended up having knowledge of

the doctor himself.

He was handsome.

He was 30 at the time

and I was 17.

He was still a bachelor.

Kind of boring to talk to...

But we didn't talk much.

His... Left ear was kind of...

Mangled.

A lot of it was missing.

He was a medic in Vietnam,

but he said that's not

how it happened.

A dog chewed it off

when he was a boy.

You know, I think it happened

in the war.

He used to say that

he was glad it was just his ear

and... Not his nose.

Being with him...

Really helped me...

Get myself together.

When I was having knowledge

of him... I managed not to have

any disturbing thoughts.

I even grew to...

Like his ear.

I thought it was... Cute.

He would be lecturing me about

the use of the condom while we

were in bed.

You'd think it would make for a

foolproof contraception, but...

I ended up pregnant again.

He called me a slut.

He demanded I get

another abortion.

There was no way I could

do that again.

And... And that...

Was the last I ever saw of him.

Never even...

Called or anything.

I was ready to kill myself.

I was gonna just drive

to San Francisco and jump off

the golden gate bridge.

Glen... Glen found me crying,

out wandering the streets, and

he took me to a church shelter.

Without him...

I would have died.

-So... Biologically speaking,

my father is that...

Obstetrician that you had

knowledge of?

-No. No. Listen...

This isn't the whole truth.

I took the most rigorous

contraceptive measures

and I became pregnant.

As a matter of fact, I became

pregnant three times in a row.

That's not chance.

The number three is used by our

lord for revelations.

You came into this world

not through carnal knowledge, but through...

An act of our lord's will.

-I know you want that...

To be true for me.

Does he even know I exist?

Does he know that you had... Me?

-No, I don't think so.

I mean, I never saw him again.

I'm sure he has no idea.

-Hey, mom...

-Hmm?

Yes, honey?

-Am I... Like him... At all?

Or... Did I get anything

from him?

-Not his ears.

-What? My... My big wee-wee?

-No. Your big wee-wee

is a sign.

It shows that you are

the child of God.

It is true.

-You look so far away...

In a sad place.

Whatever is troubling you

will be gone.

Things change.

They don't stay the same.

See? Everything is different

than it was a second ago.

-You're right about that.

Are you a psychic?

- No.

I'm just old.

-Would you mind if I took your portrait?

I'm a, I'm a photographer.

-Why, because I'm a relic?

-No. I... I just think you

have a great face.

-It's O.K.?

All right, just one second, O.K.?

Hello, Evelyn?

Hi, it's Sandra, Kengo's

girlfriend.

I can't get a hold of him.

Do you know where he is?

Oh.

Well, I'm up at, uh,

Glen's apartment.

Glen's not feeling so well.

He's asking for you.

Yeah. Yeah, O.K.

All right, O.K., bye.

-Ready?

-What? Bad?

-It was great.

It's just my last shot.

Thank you.

This is my stop.

-Dad?

No, no, no...

Oh.

- Ay, Luis... Cabron...

-Mr. Soon?

Mr.... ?

I love you.

You O.K.?

How you feeling?

-I'm O.K., you?

-O.K.

I saw my father today.

-"Through the dark,"

He said, "Through the dark...

Death will come...

And truth...

If you wait long enough.

And in between...

A big cock, if we're lucky."

Hey...

Good night.