All language subtitles for Losing.Breen.2017.1080p.WEBRip.x265-RARBG2_English

(upbeat orchestral music)

- Dearly Beloved, you can expect

that there to be obvious signs

of progressive degeneration
as the brain cells

continue to deteriorate,

beginning with the
thought processes,

decision making and
short term memory.

The progression of
familial Alzheimer's varies

from person to person,
from person to person.

(haunting music)

Familial Alzheimer's.

Familial Alzheimer's,
Alzheimer's.

(bird chirping)

(gentle music)

- Bryan?

- Hmm?

- It was the dream
again, wasn't it?

(Bryan sighs)

- Should I get you home?

- No.

- I have to get back to mom.

(clanging)

(engine rumbling)

(lively music)

(sighs)

- Bryan!

Bryan, Bryan.

It's me, it's Hope.

Can you hear me?

Open your eyes.

(intense music)

(gentle music)

(sighs)

- Grams.

- [Anne] We'll be
out in a minute.

* My love is like
the red, red rose *

- Hi, beautiful.

- [Breen] Hi.

- Do you know who I am?

(laughs)

Not so much today, huh mom?

- Bryan, that shirt's a mess.

Don't you ever iron?

- Not unless the occasion
calls for it, Grams.

Hi.

- Watch what you're doing,

she's more imbalanced
in the evenings.

- I've got her, she's fine.

- [Anne] You're
shoving her along.

- I'm not.

- [Anne] Just be careful.

- Yeah, I forgot, no one can

take care of her
quite like you, Grams.

- [Anne] Don't be so childish.

Here, let me have a hold of her.

You stay here while
I get her settled.

Go on now.

It's alright Breen, Momma's
here and I always will be.

Got your Mom to bed.

If you want some dinner,

there's still some
chicken in the oven.

- Been a long day, tired.

- Bryan, when it comes
to your Mom, I need...

No, I demand perfection.

We're talking about
her life here.

- Hers or yours?

Never mind.

I shouldn't have
come home this soon,

disrupting you and mom.

I'm gonna head back
out for a while.

- Who's disrupting whom?

- [Bryan] What?

- It just seems to me
that you, young man,

want to go all out and
buy that expensive ring.

Happily plan a life
with that Hope girl.

And your Alzheimer's Mom
and old divorced Grandma

are selfishly holding you back,

disrupting your life
of sheer contentment.

- Is that what you think?

- Maybe.

(Bryan sighs)

(birds chirping)

- She was so smug, harsh.

I mean it wasn't her
typical I'm Grams

and I can do everything
better than everyone else.

No, this was different.

Something more is
gnawing at her.

(sighs)

I don't know what to do.

- It's tough,
worrying about both

your Mom, your Grandma and oop.

- Sorry.

- That's all right.

You're also thinking
about us, aren't you?

The future?

- Sometimes it's hard
to see the future

through the present.

(gentle music)

(laughing)

(sighs)

- Is there even a remote
chance you could be wrong?

Well, I'm not surprised.

I guess getting
absolute confirmation,

just wasn't quite ready for it.

- I have a few more tests
that I want to run, Anne,

and then we can get
together to discuss in full

your treatment options.

It's imperative now that
you contact your family

and let them know
what's going on.

You'll need their support.

(bird chirping)

(melancholy music)

(crying)

- Pull it together.

Pull it together.

(solemn music)

- [Anne Voiceover]
God's special gift,

my smart happy girl, who
was so excited about life.

Alzheimer's has taken
so much away from you

and from all of us.

You loved your dancing.

(bangs)
- I told you no.

- [Anne] Are you two all right?

- She thinks she's
going to work.

I couldn't orient her, hey.

- [Anne] Oh here,
let me have her.

- No, we're fine, I have this.

Mom.

(sighs)

- No.
- Breen, honey.

You haven't worked
in a long time.

- No, but I got called back

and well, uh, there's, um,

there's a meeting, there's
a meeting I have to go to.

- At night?

- Yeah, it's a long way.

(sighs)
(gentle music)

- [Bryan] Mom.

You okay?

- Uh, who's that?

- Someone very special.

(melancholy music)

- [Bryan] She's quiet now.

More quiet than ever.

Sometimes I miss her
voice, I miss her laugh.

She's all I ever had and now,

I don't even know who she...

I mean when most people
suffer, that's it.

They suffer, they
mourn, they move on,

they find closure,
but with Alzheimer's,

it's a slow, painful daily loss.

Like there would never
be closure, only loss.

I'm losing a...

I'm losing a piece of
her each and everyday.

- I know.

- You asked me...

- Asked what?

- About the pills.

I mean I won't lie,
the pain was intense

and it
- That's okay.

I was able...

And the thought of you having
to go through this with me.

It was just plain selfish of me.

- Selfish?

Really?

I mean selfish would be
me not loving you well

in the hard times.

I want to hope I believe
just as sacrificially

as you do your mom now.

- What?

- You heard me.

- Yeah. (sighs)

- I just can't begin to tell you

what you thinking
like that does...

Okay, just because
your mom has it,

doesn't mean you will too.

I mean your grandma
doesn't, right?

Babe, please, I, I don't
want you to struggle

and I certainly don't
want you to think

I'd be better off without you.

I love you with all
my heart and I'm not.

I'm not going anywhere.

- How do you not
understand this?

How do you not get this?

I'm trying to protect you.

- I don't need
protecting, I need you.

(gentle music)

(birds chirping)

- Do you know anyone here?

- No, that's the point.

I've got an idea.

Could we have you help
us with something?

- My mom isn't here right now.

- That's okay, we just need you.

- Do you remember
how to use your fork?

There you go.

Now how about you take a bite

and let me see you're
doing all right.

Good job.

(doorbell rings)

Oh my word.

If that boy of yours has
forgotten his key again,

I'm gonna ring him.

It's cold in here.

What are you doing?

Does your Mother know
you're over here?

- They say she, uh, they
say you should come help.

- [Anne] Who said, George?

Come on.

(birds chirping)

(clattering)

- My little sister
ran in the forest

to find her puppy and I
don't know where she went

and we're new here.

Can you please help me?

Thank you.

(solemn music)

(bangs)

- [Anne] Breen, I'm back.

- Riley!

- [Anne] Breen?

Breen!

Breen!

(door slams)

What?

I said it was a
lapse in judgment.

What else you want from me?

- I want what's best for mom.

That's what I want.

What if this happens again?

- It won't.

- How do you know?

- I just do.

(sighs)

- Well, I think
it's probably best

to start making
other arrangements.

- For heaven sakes.

Bryan, I have to help
your mom get bathed

and ready for bed.

Honey, the drama now
is beyond overkill.

I don't have the time
for it, not right now.

(gentle music)

- Found you.

- You did indeed and I'm glad.

You know why?

- Why?

- Because I get so
afraid without you.

After all, you are
my super superhero.

(Bryan laughs)

Seriously, I could get lost.

- Mom, I could never lose you.

- [Breen] Ah.

(baby chattering)

(laughing)

(baby crying)

(Hope sighs)

- I want babies.

Maybe lots of them.

- Okay, you are officially
scaring me right now.

(laughs)

(Bryan sighs)

- Why do you always do that
when I touch you there?

- Just not comfortable with it.

- Those scars mean
nothing to me.

That's not your life any more.

- Grams and her issues,
mom and the Alzheimer's,

my dad up and leaving,
now grandpa leaving.

When the outside pain
got intense, I could...

You know.

- (sighs) No one can
predict what's gonna happen

to your mom and
gramma, any of us.

We can only know about today.

This moment.

- Sometimes I don't
even know that.

- You don't have to
have it all figured out.

Just take things
one day at a time.

- Yeah.

- Baby steps.

(laughing)

- Really?

* I've never been sure
about anything or anyone *

* I've lost that feeling

* But I don't change
when the tide come in *

* And you came rushing in

* I almost lost my mind

* I know that you are
the one I long for *

* Everyday I need every way

* You saved me, you gave me

* Only you could
change my world *

* Only you could
change my world *

* You saved me, you gave me

* Only you could
change my world *

* Only you could
change my world *

* You saved me, you gave me

* Only you can change my world

- Oh!

Uh.

(moans)

Hello, Evelyn.

It's Anne.

Can you come over, please?

How fast can the taxi be here?

(sniffling)

Okay, thank you.

(knocking)

Come in, Evelyn,
the door's open.

- Oh, Anne, you look terrible.

What happened?

- It's a migraine.

Horrible one.

I'm heading to the hospital.

I have to get some help.

- Well how are you going?

Are you calling Bryan?

Because I really can't
see doing this yourself.

- Calling Bryan is the
last thing I'm gonna do.

I called a cab.

I don't want Breen upset,

so I'll just go and get checked
out and I'll right back.

- I understand, you
go ahead and go on,

take care of yourself, get well.

We'll keep Breen company, okay?

- I hope you feel better.

(gentle music)

(gasps)

- Bryan, no.

It's Evelyn from
across the street.

I wasn't suppose to call you,

but I'm really very concerned.

- What are you doing here?

Ah, it's bad, isn't it?

- They're running tests.

The doctor should
be here any minute.

- Did she call you?

- No one called.

I was making rounds
and I ran into her.

- I knew something
was up with her.

If it was bad, then
why didn't she call me?

And Evelyn of all people?

You know her son,
George was the one

who got her out of the house.

- George was put up to
that and you know it.

He never would've...

I know you're upset, but
you have to stay positive.

Panicking isn't gonna solve
anything and you know that.

- Yeah.

- There's a lot of hurt
and despair in your family.

That's evident.

But I've also seen strength,
I've seen that in you.

- Not me.

- Oh yes.

Only God knows what lies ahead.

But right now you need to
be a pillar for your family.

You need to stand
up and be the man

that your father wasn't
and that your grandfather

is having difficulty being.

(sighs)

James?

You got a minute?

Yeah, there's something
we need to talk about.

(upbeat music)

- Yeah.

Okay.

What did they say?

* There's people
that who miss me *

Uh huh.

All right.

Thanks for calling, Collin, bye.

* And kiss me

That was Ashby spouting
off something about Anne.

I couldn't quite
make it all out.

- And I care why?

- Oh, I didn't ask if you cared.

I was just dousing your paranoia

before the nagging started.

Why do you always have to
get ticked off, Tawnie?

* So I sing hey, la la
la la la la la la la la *

* This time we have
just goes to fast *

* Sing hey, la la la
la la la la la la la *

Don't touch this.

- Somebody's gotta
straighten up around here.

- [James] Not these, you don't.

(upbeat music)

(bagpipe music)

(bagpipe music)

- Oh, my gosh, I just
felt so great up there.

(indistinct background chatter)

- Now that we have a definitive
answer on the headaches,

we can treat them.

- But?

- But we still have to address
the elephant in the room.

- (Laughs) You sure
have a way with words.

- I'm serious!

You need to address
the situation asap

and and get it out in the open.

- I will when the time's right.

- Your grandson is
in the waiting room.

And your headaches
should improve

once you start your
new medication.

But he needs to know
about the other issue.

And you know I
can't tell him due

to HIPAA privacy laws
and confidentiality.

But you, you should.

- If he finds out it'll
only add to the stress

and even more headaches.

- You should tell him and soon,

before he finds
out some other way.

- I will, soon enough.

* And I will love
thee still, my dear *

* 'Til all the seas gang dry

* 'Til all the seas
gang dry, my dear *

* The rocks melt with the sun

* And that's

All momma knows, you're gonna
have to teach me the rest.

Breen, what's wrong?

- Where's dad?

- He's near.

- [Hope] Name, Kerbates.

- [Bryan] Thank you.

- In the midst of twilight.

You're poetry again.

- I'm seriously thinking about
getting back into my writing.

- That's good.

- And my writing
isn't the only thing

for the future I'm
thinking about.

- Oh yeah?

- Yes.

Now that your Grandma's better,

I think she'll listen more.

Won't be so quick to judge.

We finally have our chance.

- Maybe.

And I hope.

(lively music)

Come on, I wanna dance.

- In the middle
of the restaurant?

- Yeah.

- I so wish I could've
seen your mom dance.

- It was magic.

- Still with me?

- Yeah, I was just thinking,

my mom was brilliant to
watch, it was so graceful.

It was poetic, I know
you like that word.

They say she was an
amazing competitor.

I know she was a great teacher.

She deserves the
best that I can give.

* And the summer wind is easy

* The moon is right on time

* And every word that
hits the page just right *

* Strolling hand
in hand with you *

(laughing)

* In perfect common
time makes me smile *

* A better day
I've never known *

- It was amazing.

She looked to me and
just clear as day

asked where her Dad was.

- That's not just amazing,
that is a miracle.

- It's a miracle.

- It was and yes these
moments of clarity

are few and far
between, but wow.

I was talking to Breen again.

My Breen before the Alzheimer's.

(clattering)

It was so good to
talk to her like that.

- Oh, I'm sure it was.

(Bryan sighs)

- Can you come
back and say hello?

- [Bryan] I'm in a hurry,
I've got a lot to do.

- If you two will excuse
me for just a minute,

I wanna go check on something.

What's the emergency?

- I'm just tired,
it's no big deal.

- [Anne] When you're rude to
my guest it is a big deal.

- You mean the same
folks who had a hand

in breaking into our home?

- [Anne] No, the
same folks that came

to watch your mom when I
went to the emergency room.

- George and Evelyn
and those girls, I...

- Now listen here,
that poor soul

didn't even know
what he was doing.

Those girls tricked him
and they admitted it

when they got caught trying
to do it to somebody else.

Evelyn and I have made up.

Let it go.

- You guys are all in
there drinking tea,

acting like nothing is wrong.

Meanwhile, mom's
nowhere is sight.

Where is she?

- [Anne] She's sleeping soundly.

- Sleeping in the afternoon?

Great.

We're gonna have to deal
with the sundowners later,

you know that.

- For the last time Bryan,
I know what I am doing

when it comes to your mom,
the interrogation ends now.

And don't roll your eyes at
me, you know I hate that.

From now on, if we have guests,

don't come into the house

without at least
speaking to them.

Got it?

- [Breen] No!

You're trying to kill me.

(dramatic music)

No, no, no.

(crying)

- Hey, hey, mom, hey, no.

It's okay, it's okay.
- She's trying to hurt.

She's, she's trying to hurt me.

- Hey, beautiful,
you're all right.

I'm right here, it's fine.

- No, no, no, no, no, no.

No.

- Hey, mom, mom.

(crying)

Hey, hey, hey, mom,
look at me, look at me.

Hey, it's Bryan, you
see, hey, you love me?

You're okay.

* Speed bonnie boat

Remember, remember?

Right, right here.

Hey, sit down with me.

Sit down with me, yeah?

Come on.

What do they sing?

What do they sing, huh?

* Speed bonnie boat like
a bird on the wing *

* Onward the sailors cry

* Carry the lad that's
born to be king *

* Over the sea to Skye

* Over the sea to Skye

* Over the sea to Skye

* Over the sea to Skye

* Over the sea to Skye

* Over the sea to Skye

(Bryan sighs)

- How is she?

- She's in bed settling down.

- You were really
good with her tonight.

I appreciate it.

(gentle music)

- Hey, chief, what's up?

- Just out for a spring drive.

Good way to cool my head.

- What's got you
burned up this time?

- Anne, Tawnie, lots
of things, I guess.

(sighs)

- You walked away from
things a long time ago, James

and I'm not sure--

- And nothing!

It was horrific to be around.

Literally felt as if
I was going to snap.

- We've known each
other a long time.

- Yeah, even before
you got this job

working on Sundays. (chuckles)

- There's been a lot
of bad things said

and done over the years.

It's over with
Anne, I know that,

but you still have a
chance to make a difference

with Breen and with Bryan.

Don't wait until it's too late.

(gentle music)
(birds chirping)

- [Anne] Sweetheart, I let
you wear those every weekend

because we weren't
doing anything.

Today we need to change.

Breen, honey, will
you let me help you?

- This is fine.

- Breen, honey,
today's important.

I have an appointment to go to.

Evelyn's coming
over to be with you.

- No.
- You have to change.

- No, these are my clothes

and I won't let you or
the army steal them.

- How about you at least
let me brush your hair?

Come on.

- They blew a hole in the wall.

That way they can crawl
in when night, um,

when, when night,
when night comes.

They look at me with black eyes.

- I know it's a lot to consider,

but would you at least
contact a family member?

- There's a lot at
stake, so it's best

if I just keep it to
myself for right now.

- It is your decision,
but I must inform you

that you should
have this procedure

as soon as possible and
even with the surgery,

you most likely will
still need treatment.

- I know and I'll
need a family member

to bring me back and forth.

I've heard it all before.

- I know, Anne and I'm adamant.

- I'll contact you with my
decision about the surgery.

- There's your parents and you

when you were 14, you see?

Breen, you see?

Look at the picture, see?

Look at that.

Oh, hi, how are you?

Well, I would like to stay
a little while longer,

but George's case worker's going

to be dropping him off soon.

- Thank you for everything.

Especially for getting my
girl to change her clothes.

- Oh, I love doing it.

And when you get a breather,

I would like to hear
everything, okay?

- Up for a walk, kiddo?

- Wanna go for a
walk with your mom?

She's right there.

See, huh?

(gentle music)

* I will come again, my love

* Though it were 10,000 miles

- You can expect there
to be obvious signs

as the progressive degeneration

of the brain cells continues,

beginning with decision
making and short term memory.

(melancholy music)

- Thank you.

(sighs)

- But the progression of
familial Alzheimer's disease

varies tremendously
among individuals,

so that it could take some time

before you see this
in a substantial way.

This type of inherited
Alzheimer's is--

- Oh, wait, wait,
wait, wait a second.

Did you say inherited?

- [Doctor] Yes.

- Yeah, but sometimes those
things skip generations, right?

I mean, Breen's got
her grandad's eyes.

- Well, mutations on three genes

have been linked to early-onset
Alzheimer's disease.

For instance, a gene labeled PS1

may be responsible
for 30% to 60%

of early-onset
Alzheimer's cases.

- Wait, wait,
you're saying genes,

really screwed up
genes are responsible

for the hell my daughter
is about to go through?

- It's a bit more
complicated than that.

- My mom and sister
both had the disease.

Sis was only 40 and...

- That's right, your genes,
yours, not mine, yours.

(crying)

No, I don't believe this.

Our daughter has a
full productive life.

It's gotta be stress or
something else, it's gotta be.

- Ah, Mr. Loslee,
I really think--

- Wait, James, I
have more questions.

- No, no more questions.

We're getting another opinion.

(Anne crying)

- Hello, earth calling.

Huh, there you are.

Hey, do me a favor.

If you're gonna do any more
of that research thingy,

would you do it
in the other room?

I'm crashing.

And be a doll,
turn out the lights

before you go be
that mad scientist.

(sighs)

- You know they do all
sorts of transplants

and things now, right?

What if they gave her a
new brain or something?

Hmm, what if they do it right.

- Seriously?

(thunder clashing)

- It's wishful thinking.

There's nothing wrong with it,

it happens from time to time.

- Still you'd think
there'd be a cure by now.

This country that I
served and sacrificed for

can put a man on the moon,

or at least fake
it in the desert,

but they can't cure
a brain illness?

(soft music)

- Well, it's not for
lack of trying, I'm sure.

You have to have faith
that eventually--

- Faith?

You have to have it to lose it.

I don't need faith,
I need results.

And this research
is the one thing

that brings me some hope.

- And how's that
working out for you?

- You know when
it first started,

she would just forget
every now and then

there was a problem, you know?

But I could still talk to her.

Make her understand,
I still had my girl.

- And now?

- The last time, she
didn't know who I was.

- But you knew who she was.

Your own flesh and blood.

A beautiful child of God

with a blessed and
amazing purpose.

- Purpose?

What is my family's purpose?

My daughter is practically
a vegetable now,

and Anne, well we won't even
get started on that woman.

And my Grandson,
the drug addict.

- Bryan's been clean
for some time now.

He's been instrumental
in Breen's care.

- Still the whole
thing is just broken.

- You feel that way because
you want to be in control

and this research shows
you want to have control.

- [James] So?

- So you can't always
have it that way.

Sometimes life comes
at you and you just

have to accept it as it is.

(sighs) You have to
understand what you can

and cannot change
and trust that God

will strengthen
you for the rest.

You just have to ask.

- I can't bow before someone
I don't believe in anymore.

(engine rumbling)

- So I know you're
not pro nursing home,

but I appreciate
you checking it out.

So does Hope.

- Well, I love her poetry,

so making an exception
just this once.

- Maybe the nursing home
might grow on you, you think?

(gentle music)

- First the eye, then the hand,

the rest came simply after that.

Smiles and laughs filled
the days with wonder.

Seasons start and seasons end.

Tasting like salt they ran down.

Arms wrapped tight around,

shoulder to shoulder,
standing strong.

Seasons change again.

Silence, distance,
strangers met,

tolerated only for a
glimpse of what had been.

Many seasons, one
choice to join hands.

(applauding)

- You're really bad.

- [Harold] Incoming!

(upbeat music)

- Wait, Harold.

Harold.

Wait, Harold.

Harold.

Harold.

- Did you hear me, soldier?

Alert your men.

Now, now, now!

The enemy's on the move.

(laughs)

(gentle music)

(laughing)

- If I'm dreaming right now,

don't even think
about waking me up.

- You're not dreaming.

(sighs)

Tonight was great
though, wasn't it?

And the part with the war hero

rushing in to save your life.

- Yeah.

For the time I can see
a light for all of us.

(squeals)
Oh, whoa, whoa, wait.

We're gonna do this right.

(thunder rumbling)

- Off playing the martyr again?

Maybe it was Anne, were
you making a house call?

- For the love of
everything holy

will you please just shut up!

For once in your life!

And don't even think
of throwing that.

Not that one!

- Oh why, did Anne give
it to you or was it Breen?

- [James] Leave her out of this.

- Look, it's not my fault

your first attempt
at family failed.

Your dream is dead.

- Don't push me.

Not a wise thing to do.

- Ooh, I'm shaking.

- What do you know
about this anyway?

What do you know about anything?

Ice princess.

- [Tawnie] Oh yeah?

- I'm talking.

- Well that doesn't
mean I'm listening.

- You, my dear, know
nothing of dreams,

sacrifice, loss, family!

You know nothing of what
I've been going through.

Never have.

You care more about that
ugly picture than our

relationship.
- This is art.

- Of all the heartless...

- Listen, don't you bad
mouth me under your breath.

I rescued you from
that nightmare.

I gave up the best
three years of my--

- This, this is your best?

I'll make you a deal.

You quit being a selfish
baby and I'll quit talking.

- Listen, I'll make you a deal.

I'll just leave, how's that?

- Fine!

- I'm outta here.

This was never a real
relationship anyway.

You're just a stupid,
stubborn old man

in love with a brain-dead--

(grunts)

- You're not worth it.

(gentle music)

(thunder rumbling)

* Gotta rhyme the
work time jam *

- [Anne] Bryan, breakfast.

* But back down,
fat chance, no go *

* Didn't even flinch,
it was bad luck, *

* My miss, time spent,
didn't have a chance *

* Didn't know and I should

- No, no, no, no, no, no.

* I found in my backwoods town

* Backwoods town

- Yes, I'm here.

Yes, they're mine.

I'll just come and pick them up.

Give Bryan some
time with his mom.

Thank you again, Hope.

This is very
embarrassing for me.

I'm sure you understand.

Nothing wrong with having
a little insurance.

Just playing it safe.

You hungry?

- Ah, no, not right now.

I'm gonna run out to the car.

- Everything all right?

- Yeah.

- [Anne] Just getting your
mom's medications refilled.

- All of them?

- Just started
doing it recently.

Can't have her running out.

I was wondering if you'd
sit with her while I'm gone?

- You mean you're trusting me?

- Can you help me or not?

I won't be long.

- I was relieved to
hear those were yours.

When I thought they
might be Bryan's

I just got this sick
feeling all over.

- I'm sure.

- I'm just glad they
found them for you.

- You have no idea.

Anyway, I won't
keep you any longer.

Need to get back to Breen.

I know you understand.

And also, Hope, like
I mentioned earlier,

this is really
embarrassing for me.

Can we please keep
this between us?

- Absolutely.

(solemn music)

(wind howling)

(upbeat music)

- [Anne] I'm back.

- We are just dancing, woo hoo.

- Well, I guess you had fun.

- [Breen] Do you wanna dance?

- Breeny, babe, I'm
not young, maybe later.

I'm a little wiped out.

- [Breen] I can dance.

- Where you going?

- Nowhere, just out.

- Bryan, if
something were wrong,

I mean...

You know you can
come to me, right?

- Yeah, right.

- Come on, come on, come
on, come on, come on.

Oh no, no.

Oh thank God.

(exhales)

(engine cranking)

(gentle music)

(rustling)

- I heard about
Tawnie, I'm sorry man.

- You're sorry?

Come on Collin, you were
never a fan of Tawnie.

- No, but I can still
be sorry about it.

- I walked the trails down
at the park this evening.

Hadn't done that in many years.

It was like visiting
a sad old friend.

Someone I'd dismissed
and neglected.

- I don't suppose the
park holds much joy

for you with Breen.

- Not much holds
joy for me anymore.

Deep down not even
Tawnie, if I'm honest.

Tell me where God went.

A wise old Highlander
once told me

that if I was still
and listened close,

(gentle music)

I could hear God's voice
among the hilltops,

and for a while I did.

- He's here more than ever.

And he's just waiting and
wanting to talk to you.

That's why you keep coming
back to this very spot.

- One man's opinion.

- Faith is the substance
of things hoped for.

The evidence of things
not seen, you know that.

- No offense Collin,
but as I said before,

I'm all faithed out, and
I didn't stumble in here

to be preached at.

- Sorry, James, I didn't
mean to preach at you,

but you asked where God was,

I was trying to
give you an answer.

- Yeah. fine.

I guess all I really
wanted was vent.

Tawnie's gone and
things are sinking fast.

- They don't have to.

Breen is here, your
family is here,

they need you, you can
always help them out.

- I don't have the strength
right now for them.

You and everyone, and what, God?

Him, too.

You all need to
understand that...

Just wanted to vent, you know?

- Anytime James.

You know I'm always here.

(gentle music)

- Looks like someone's
in a better mood.

- Yeah, I went for a
drive, got my head clear.

- So all's well
that ends well, huh?

- I guess.

- We saved some chili,
if you're hungry.

- Nah, I'm gonna go to sleep.

Been a long day.

- It certainly has.

What matters most is
that you stay put.

That's what's most important.

(birds chirping)

- So tell me, are you my father?

Son?

Friend?

Stranger?

- I've been all those
things at some point.

- Well, whoever you
are, I like you.

- I like you, too.

(laughs)

- I see that Bryan took out
Breen this afternoon earlier.

- Yes, they went to the park.

- And you're okay with that?

- No, not really.

I'm just trying to
keep Bryan happy.

If I can do that, his
focus isn't so much

on the nursing home.

- [Evelyn] But it
seems like your family

is doing really well right now.

(gentle music)

- And it's going
to stay that way.

- [Evelyn] What do
you mean by that?

- I mean, if Bryan gets
himself in a tizzy again

over his mom, I've got an ace

in my back pocket
to bring him down.

I'm just a woman fighting
to keep her daughter.

I mean, her life was blessed
with the dancing and all.

I just flat refuse
to let her life end

in some dark, cold nursing home.

You doubt me?

- Oh, Anne, I don't doubt you.

It's just that I want you to
be realistic about things.

I mean Breen's health
is deteriorating

and what with your
condition right now.

- Evelyn, I appreciate
your concern,

but I can handle it.

All of it.

(birds chirping)

- What?

- [Breen] I, I wanna go home.

- Sure, okay.

Yeah, we'll go home,
we'll go right now.

Mom, what's wrong?

- This is not the way
to the bus station.

- Mom, our home is nearby.

We don't need the bus.

- Don't be silly, I
live miles from here.

- Mom, we're in Indiana
right now, in Connersville.

- This is not Indiana.

- Mom, I promise you,

this is Indiana.
- Hey.

- I promise you.
- No!

- [Man] Are you all right?

- [Bryan] Yes, we're good.

- [Woman Jogger] You
don't look all right.

- I said we're fine.

Yes, hey, it's okay,
mom, we're right here.

- No. (crying)

- I don't think the little
lady wants to go with you.

- Help, help, help,
I'm being kidnapped!

Help!

- This is my mom.

She has Alzheimer's.

Anybody wanna help me
get her to the car?

Anybody?

That's what I thought.

(crying)

Hey, mom, it's okay,
it's okay, hey.

Let's get in the car,
I'll drive you home.

- To Connersville?

- [Bryan] To Connersville, yes.

- Okay.
- Okay?

All right, here we go.

(solemn music)

You sit down right there.

You okay?

(exhales)

- Yeah, Grams, it's me.

Yeah, everything
is fine, all right?

I just wanted to let you know

that I'm taking mom for a drive.

- I see.

Well, I know she's
in good hands,

so we'll just see you both soon.

- Yeah.

(gentle music)

- I mean she was cool
about it, too cool.

- I told you she trusts you

and would come around in time.

- Yeah, but it's so weird.

I mean, she has never been
that nice to me before.

- Don't question it, just think

maybe we can move forward
with our lives now.

Be thankful.

- Maybe.

- Hey, time out, I
need a quick break.

Whoa, fetch.

(gentle music)

(clattering)

Hey, babe.
- Tell me to go fetch.

- What are you doing with
your grandma's pills?

- What?

- The pills.

- Let me see those.

- They're the ones that got
dropped at the nursing home.

They called me, I called
called your house,

your grandma told
me they were hers.

What are you doing?

- Sugar.

- What?

- Nothing.

Listen, I'm gonna run you home,

I'm gonna drop
these off at Grams.

- Okay, anything wrong?

- No, I want these
out of the car.

(gentle music)

(door slams)

- [Bryan] Grams.

- [Anne] What on earth?

- [Bryan] Care to explain these?

(gentle music)

- Well.

- No, save the excuses.

Hope told me everything.

Before you start
talking about Hope,

she didn't tell me on purpose.

Why would you put a bag
of sugar pills in my car?

- Maybe the better question is

why should I have to go around

with a bottle of sugar pills?

Needed to keep you
away from these is why.

And to spare your
mom from knowing

what a disappointment
and failure you are.

- So what?

You got those from Hope.

Why would you switch them?

Seriously, I wanna know.

- That doesn't matter.

What does matter
is these sure look

a whole lot like
the ones you stole

from your grandfather's home.

The ones that nearly killed you.

- [Bryan] I can't believe you.

- Yeah, well maybe you should
just try explaining these

to your grandfather.

Or better yet, the police.

- You gotta be kidding!

- Hey, gorgeous.

Looking to catch a ride?

(gentle music)

- [Bryan] You've gotta
be kidding me, look.

- Your mom's not in her room.

- What?

- As in, not in her
room, as in gone!

I'll call the police.

(intense music)

(engine cranking)

(dramatic music)

(sirens blaring)

- Folks, we want
to thank everybody

for coming out today.

We appreciate you
concerned citizens

banding together
to give us a hand.

Officer Perkins has some
instructions for you here.

He'll give to you.

Just be safe and stay
together, if you would.

I've got a one mile
radius marked off here.

It's where we oughta probably
concentrate the search.

- Okay.

With the two teams, we're
gonna divide up into.

Very important that you
listen to these instructions.

I wanna make sure
everyone stays safe.

As you search, make
sure you stay together.

We don't need anyone to
wander off and get lost also.

Team one, if you could
find a team leader

to make sure that
they are in charge.

Team two, make sure
you have a team leader.

As you search, make sure you
search all the buildings.

Team one, you're
gonna go off this way.

You see all the buildings,
make sure you go in them.

Make sure you search everywhere.

Team two, you're
gonna go off this way.

As you see, you also
have some vehicles,

make sure you search them
and in the buildings.

Make sure you stay
safe, that is important.

If you find anything,
make sure you contact us,

work your way back
to this point.

This will be the main
contact point for us.

If you find anything,
let us know.

You guys have any questions?

Okay, team one,
you can take off.

Team two, you take off.

(solemn music)

(birds chirping)

- It's okay.

Watch your step.

(crying)

A woman called and
reported seeing them pull

into a grocery
store parking lot.

She recognized the description
you gave of your daughter.

- Thank you, Jesus.

- I'll call Bryan.

- Thank you.
(gentle music)

- (sighs) Pick up, Bryan.

- [Bryan] You've
reached Bryan Loslee.

- Voicemail again.

(sighs) It must be off.

(solemn music)

- [Anne] Why, maybe to keep
you away from these is why.

And to spare your
mom from knowing

what a disappointment
and failure you are.

- [Hope] Just think,
maybe we can move forward

with our lives now.

Be thankful.

- [Collin] You need to stand up

and be the man that
your father wasn't

and that your grandfather
is having difficulty being.

(melancholy music)

(gentle music)

- Hello.

Hello.

(clanging)

Hey, you can't park here.

Hello.

Oh.

Oh no.

Yeah, yeah, I need an ambulance

at Roberts Park, right away.

(sirens blaring)

(gentle music)

- [James] I can't believe this,
any of this, what you did.

- All right, that's
enough already.

Give me a break.

- Give you a break.

You kept those
pills as insurance

to use against Bryan
in order to keep Breen,

and when the time was right
you went straight for the kill.

You're a monster.

- Don't you dare
talk to me that way.

- I had those pills,
I had them with me.

The nursing home
called me and so

I called Anne, she
told me they were hers.

This all started
because of those pills

and it's all my fault, why
didn't I just not say anything?

- It's not your fault.

Okay, listen.

- You know that boy's only
been clean a couple of weeks.

That's like setting
a liquor bottle down

in front of an
alcoholic who's been

to maybe one or two meetings.

Yeah well, crying's
not gonna save you.

I don't buy your
emotional tricks anymore.

And furthermore,
I want you to know

if our grandson dies,
this is all on you

and your twisted ways.

- It's not your fault.

None of this is your fault.
- I just...

I love him so much
and he's so good

and wonderful and kind
and he cares so much

about everyone, truly he does

and he's tried to be
strong for so long.

- I know he has fought his
demon so long and so strong.

- At least I gave him
a roof over his head.

That time he came
out to see you,

you turned him away.

- Yeah well, that's
because I was an idiot.

I wasn't thinking of
anyone but myself.

But I do care about that boy,

regardless of what
you might think.

- You say you care about him,

having barely been around him.

You have to understand
my love for Breen

and why I did what I did.

I don't want to lose her.

- Listen, no matter
how bleak this looks,

I promise God has
his hand in this.

- You don't want to lose Breen,

yet you don't care that
she might lose her son.

How deep does his
pain have to be

that he thinks cutting
deeper will help?

- And we must hang on in faith

and pray for a miracle.

- How is he, doctor?

- He lost a moderate
amount of blood,

which we were
easily able to stop.

However, he did
not cut an artery,

so that's a good sign,
but the wound is deep.

So he will need to stay in
the hospital for a few days.

Just so we can check for
infections or complications.

But he will need to remain here,

so they can have a
psychiatric evaluation.

- Uh huh, thank you, doctor.

Thank you so much.

- Can we see him?

- Well, one at a time
and only for a moment.

(gentle music)

- I'm here, right here.

Bryan, honey, can you hear me?

Please let me see your eyes.

Thank you, God.

Bryan, it's me, it's Hope.

You're in the hospital.

- Why?

- Okay, you're gonna be okay.

- Where's my mom?

- It's okay, we found
her, she's safe.

- I messed up.

It's over.

- No, no, not at all.

- Grams.

I failed.

- Well Collin, this is
how it was meant to be

for my family.

My ex has a secret that
could affect us all,

Bryan's near suicide
and my daughter's lost

in her own little
world of chaos.

And I'm at strike
two in relationships.

(sighs)

- I don't pretend to know
the ways or hows of God.

What I do know, is
that everything seems

to work for good for
those who love the Lord.

- Well, that is what
the good book says.

You know, Collin, none
of it really matters,

not the ribbons or the dancing,

or any of our one time dreams.

The real dance goes on.

It's just too bad that it
took all of us being alone

and getting here
to figure it out.

- James, you're
not really alone.

All you have to do
is ask for the Lord.

Speak to him from your heart.

He's here.

(gentle music)

- [Hope] Bryan, this
is just a setback.

- No, it's not just a setback.

Look at me. (crying)

I've no business starting
a family and with you.

(melancholy music)

I don't deserve you.

- Stop.

- I'm so tired.

I'm so tired.

(sighs)

Wait. (crying)

Hope.

(crying)

(gentle music)

(birds chirping)

- [Anne] Thought you'd be
here with the home wrecker.

- She's not here, not any more.

- Why'd you wanna
meet me out here?

- [James] We need to talk.

- About?

- Doctor Watkins spoke to me.

- [Anne] Is it
Bryan, is he okay?

- He's resting.

But she said under the
circumstances we should talk,

she didn't say what about.

So do you wanna tell
me what's going on?

- It's nothing, nothing at all.

- Don't tell me that.

I can tell by that
look in your eyes

there's something wrong.

- Why can't you just
leave it alone, James?

It doesn't concern you.

- Because I can't.

And it does concern me if
it affects our daughter.

Now for the last time, Anne,

are you gonna tell me
what's going on with you?

We need to get everything
out in the open,

if we are all going
to move forward.

- It's cancer, okay?

The cancer is back.

Satisfied?

- Well, it's not to the point

where it can't be
treated, is it?

- I'm not having
treatments or surgery.

- [James] Why?

- Why?

Everybody keeps trying
to take Breen away.

If I have trouble
with the treatments,

I'll probably lose her,

and I might as well
be dead anyway.

I don't have anything else.

- That's not true,
that's just not true.

You and I will
always have Breen,

even if she's not with us.

We also have Bryan.

- We?

- Look, it's not
about us anymore,

but it can still be about them.

I'm here for the family.

* Fare thee well a while

* And I will come again

(dramatic music)

- Breen honey, you
have to be gentle

- Stop.

You shouldn't, you
shouldn't do that.

- She's fine.

- I don't know
what to say to you.

- Yeah.

- What I did was wrong.

I know that now.

But at the time it
just made such sense.

By holding onto the pills--

- No.

I get it.

You know I hadn't taken
those pills in a long time.

- But honey, why were
you keeping the pills?

Help me to understand.

You know, you look
like your mom.

And you've gone above and beyond

in trying to help
take care of her.

But Bryan, she's mine, too.

I can't let her go.

- Even if you know
it's what's best?

- I'm selfish, I know.

- Excuse me, my
daughter has Alzheimer's

and her son is a patient here,

right there in room 341.

I have something
really important to do

and I was wondering
if you would mind

keeping an eye on
her while I step out

for just a minute.

- Sure, I'll be
happy to do that.

And you said that was your
daughter with Alzheimer's?

- Yes.

- Yeah well, once you get
past pronouncing that word,

you realize that was
actually the easier part.

I'll be happy to look after her.

- Thanks.

(Anne crying)
- Anne, what's wrong?

- Leave me alone,
just let me go.

- Seriously.

- I can't do it, okay?

- Can't do what?
- I just,

I just can't.

- Talk to me.

(gentle music)

- I can't let her go.

(crying) Dear merciful God
in heaven, I know I need to.

I've known for a long
time, but I just can't.

- Okay, it'll be all right.

Everything'll be all right.

Look, do you wanna
really help Breen?

I mean really help her.

You've gotta get
past your emotions

and fight the right battles.

The cancer, you know what to do.

- I don't want her
with strangers.

People pointing and laughing.

Getting irritated with her.

She needs to be
able to see Bryan.

- Look, just because she's
getting care elsewhere,

it doesn't mean
you've abandoned her.

You and I both know
things between us

will never be like they were.

But I promise, I'll keep
the family connected.

The entire family.

For her sake.

For all of us.

(crying)

(birds chirping)
(gentle music)

- I'll write everyday.

- Oh, you don't have to do that.

- You don't want me to write?

- Well, don't be silly.

I just don't want you to waste
all that money on postage.

Since I'll be living
so close and all.

- I'm completely lost.

- [Hope] I took an apartment
close to the rehab center.

- Okay, Mr. Loslee, here are
the doctor's care instructions.

Now we've already
gone over this,

but do you have any
questions for me?

- No, thank you, nurse.

(gentle music)

Now what?

An apartment?

- Okay, look, I know our
wedding plans are on hold

and just on hold, but
you're still my soulmate

and I'm not going anywhere.

Let's just take things
one day at a time

and don't even try talking
me out of this, Bryan Loslee.

Besides, I've already paid
my first month of rent.

(gentle music)

- You're too good to me.

- Let's get going.

- Grams, I...

- You don't have to explain.

The people at the
center are really nice.

You just go and get better
and hurry back to us, okay?

- Mom?

You stay strong, okay?

- So I like to come
over for breakfast.

They have a very good
breakfast plate here.

So how has things been?

- Can't complain.

Anne decided to go to
Indy for treatments.

She's staying with her brother.

Bryan's doing well at that
rehab center, Hope is nearby.

Still planning a wedding,
just don't know when yet.

- I'll be ready.

- That just leaves
me and my girl here.

For now we're just
taking things day by day.

Learning to lean
on God once again.

Gonna keep this family
together for as long as we can.

I'm not losing Breen.

That's the goal.

- That's good to hear.

I'll be here if
you need your vent.

I'm not the only one
listening, you know?

Sometimes God has a
way of blessing us

right out of our mess.

- Thanks for everything, Collin.

- My pleasure.

* Just follow your dreams

* You just got to believe

* You just got to

* Just follow your dreams

* You just got to

* You just got to believe

* You just got to

* Just follow your dreams

* You just got to believe

* Got to

* You just got to

* Just follow your dreams

(gentle music)

* Oh, my love is like
the red, red rose *

* That's newly sprung in June

* Oh, my love is
like the melody *

* That's sweetly
played in tune *

* As fair art thou,
my bonnie love *

* So deep in love am I

* And I will love
thee still, my Joe *

* 'Til all the seas gang dry

* 'Til all the seas
gang dry, my dear *

* 'Til all the seas gang dry

* And I will love
thee still, my love *

* 'Til all the seas gang dry

* 'Til all the seas
gang dry, my love *

* And the rocks
melt with the sun *

* And I will love
thee still, my dear *

* While the sands
of time shall run *

* But fare thee
well, my only love *

* And fare thee well a while

* And I will come
again, my love *

* Though it were 10,000 miles

* Though it were
10,000 miles, my love *

* Though it were 10,000 miles

* And I will come
again, my love *

* Though it were 10,000 miles

* I will come again, my love

* Though it were 10,000 miles

(gentle music)