All language subtitles for Greys.Anatomy.S17E10.1080p.WEB.H264-STRONTiUM

Meredith:
Until pretty recently,

doctors would slap a newborn
on the back

immediately after birth.

It's not that they wanted
to make the baby cry.

Theyneeded the baby to cry.

Thank you.

Lexie!

It meant the baby could breathe on her own.

Thankfully,
we don't do that anymore.

But we still hold our own
breath until we hear that cry.

And it doesn't matter if you're the baby's doctor or mother...

...it's the most beautiful
sound in the world.

The first time, anyway.

Boston doesn't need you
as much as I do.

You know I'd stay
if I could.

Morning playlist.

It's better than coffee.

Yeah.

Intern Sara:
Marcella Diaz, 62...

...recently admitted to ICU
after sats dropped below 87%.

She was in a lot of discomfort
last night.

This one worries
too much.

He needs more patients.

Or a hobby.

Well, when are you gonna start
my singing lessons?

Marcella taught music
in high school for 35 years.

Maggie:
Recent chest films?

Opacities
in both lungs.

Veronica --

Of course.

And -- And --

Yes, I will call
my mother, too.

Maggie:
Veronica's her daughter.

She's positive, too,
but her symptoms are mild.

Mama!

How are you feeling?

Okay.

It's -- It's just a cough, Mom.

Don't worry.

You focus on you,
alright?

And do everything that Dr. Pierce says, alright?Okay.

Okay, I love you.

And when did you first start
to feel the pain?

A few nights ago.

I was watching
these cat videos online when --

For God's sake,
what happened?

The boys are fine.

A little worried.

I told them you'd call.They called me.

They thought
I might be interested to know

that their aunt left
in an ambulance.

She has a history of acid reflux
and lives with MS.

Right, yes.
She told me.

Irene, are you on any
medications other than steroids?

And those damn teas.

She has an infantile resistance
to Western medicine.

She's had a catastrophic
family experience

with Western medicine.

Okay, it -- it -- it looks to me
like it's kidney stones,

but I'd like to get a CT
just to --

Then what are you waiting for?
Let's go.

I'm waiting for you to let me
finish a single sentence,

but I'll give up
on that now.

Life of the party, isn't he?

I appreciate everyone
pulling extra shifts.

Bailey does, too.

She'll be back
in a few days.

Thank you, Dr. Ndugu,
for pitching in where needed.

Boston's hit another surge,
so we need to let him get back.

How's Meredith?Her vital signs
are stable.

Her morning labs
were good.

Oxygen requirements
are decreasing.

Enough to take her off
the vent?

Let's see if the trend
continues.

Richard: Well, let's hope it
does, and not just for her sake.

As of 5:00 this morning,

we are down to our last four
available ventilators.

So, until relief arrives, I need
us all to think creatively.

Ventilators
are our last resort.

Put them on BiPAP, the
hyperbaric chamber, proning.

Let's exhaust all options
first.

So, if you extubate
Meredith

and she starts to trend
downward again,

we may not have another one
available.

So let's not make the call
to pull her off

until we are 100% certain.

I love it here.

Me, too.

Are you gonna stay?

I don't know.

I don't know the rules.

I don't think
there are rules,

which is, um...

well, it takes some
getting used to.

I was big on rules.

I actually, like...

I think I lovedrules.

Man:
You totally did.

Mark!

You're early, killer.

What?

Too early.

Your oldest
is Sofia's age?

I promise you,
it's too early.

I don't know
how to get back.

I keep seeing Derek,
and he won't help me get back

or come close enough
to touch.

It's not up to him.
It's up to you.

What do you mean?

The sand isn't real,
Meredith.

I wish everybody would stop
saying that to me.

So, you two
are together?

On your beach?
Looks like we are.

Stop it!

Get away! Run away!
Quick, quick!Whoo!

Yes!

Yes!

I like it here.

Alive and well.
Sorry to disappoint.

You heard about
the vents?
I did.

So you know if we pull
Grey's tube

too soon,
we don't have --

I heard about
the vents, Tom.

Woman on P.A.:
...to Nuclear Medicine.

Dr. Sellers
to Nuclear Medicine.

Hi!
Hey.

Leo threw up
on the way over here.No!

Do you have a shirt
that I can borrow?

Yeah, come on in.Thank you.

Okay.
Okay.

Hey, Leo,
come this way with me.

Here, let me take off
this jacket.

Let me just sit down
for a sec.

Yeah, he gets carsick.Okay.

He once puked on my op notesfor a glioblastoma.

You know, Ellis reallywants to show you

what she's working onin the playroom.

Do you want to go see her?She's right there. Look.

Go say hi.
Okay, bye-bye.

If you had told me
two years ago

that you and I
would be excited

to spend the afternoon togetherwith six small children...

I know that Owen asked you
to babysit me.

You don't have to
put on a show.

Both things can be true.

I need company.

We can have tea and discusslife pre-pandemic,

and we don't have to be coveredin puke alone for an afternoon.

It's great.

I just told Liam and Austin
not to worry.

Please tell me
I wasn't lying.

You know it's probably
minor, right?

It's not that.

I mean, it isthat,
but...

Irene insisted on moving down
here when the pandemic started,

and we drive
each other mad.

We do.

But I'd be lost
without her.

You're trying
to make me cry.

Don't go getting a big headin there, now.

Jo: Kidney stone,
like I thought.

In the right ureter.

It's big, so we should get
urology to weigh in.

Is Catherine Fox
here today?

For a kidney stone?

My boys already lost
their mother.

Irene's her sister and the onlyfamily they have left.

So, yes,
I want the best.

Woman on P.A.:
Nurse Hydren to the OR.
Nurse Hydren to the OR.

Well, there he is.

This is happening?

It is definitely
happening.

I hope this wasn't
a bad time.

I abandoned a play date,
and I need a calendar

to remember the last time
I operated.

So, definitely not
a bad time.

How severe is it?

See for yourself.

Crosswalks,
am I right?

Okay, folks,
let's get the OR ready

with the ex-fix set
and the C-arm.

Let's fix
this bad boy.

And, Dr. Webber?

Thank you so much.

Sorry to keep paging you,
Dr. Pierce,

but her breathing is becoming
more labored by the hour.

Let's consider BiPAP if she
continues to decompensate.

But it may be time
to consider next steps.

There's no directive.

Marcella says
that her daughter

will be making all decisions
for her.

Then...

it's time to call her.

Man: Hi. Who's calling?

Jackson?

Jackson:
Maggie, over here.

Rig brought her in
about half an hour ago.

Hey, Dr. Pierce.

Dr. Fox, thank you
for coming in.

I know how busy you must be,
so I appreciate you being here.

Irene: I told you not to give me
special treatment.

Did you pull strings?

He pulled
the biggest one.

I sign his checks.

Dr. Wilson?

Irene Davis, 35, nephrolithiasis
with a history of MS.

These are her scans
and a CT.-

They say
it's kidney stones.

Which is apparently
my fault.

I did not say that.

She gets some very strong teas
from her acupuncturist

to help manage
her MS pain.

You got to drink a lot of water
to flush those out.

Which she knows.Which she usually does.

So, this stone is apparently
lodged in your ureter.

That's the tube between
your kidney and your bladder.

I'm going to have to perform
a lithotripsy --

that's a procedure
with a tiny, tiny laser

that breaks it down
into smaller pieces.

Broken into pieces?

That's what killed
my sister.

No, this is nothing like
the morcellator, Irene.

If it was, I wouldn't let it
anywhere near you.

So it's safe?Completely routine.

Takes about 45 minutes,
in typical cases.

I have MS.
Am I still a typical case?

No.

Because you have me
for your doctor.

See you in the OR.

Link:
Another screw, please.

Everything okay?

Yes.

I just wanted to enjoy
the moment.-

Lord knows when
it'll happen again.

After this,
we'll secure the frame.

You'd never know you didn't do
three of these this morning.

Well, I didn't.

But I did change
three diapers.

One was what Amelia has dubbedthe "poo-tastrophe."

That's when the poo
actually kind of explodes

out of the diaper
and hits the wall.

Got it. That is impolite
adult conversation.

Sorry, I rarely get to talk
to adults.

Wait. What happened?

Heart rate's in the 120s
and his sats are dropping.

He could have throwna fat embolism.
Come on!

A-Alright, push fluids,

and let's get him packed up
for a CTA.

Did you call
your mom?

I did, and she was
at a grocery store,

which I have asked her
not to go to

at least
a hundred times.

She's stubborn,
like you.

Marcella?

Marcella, Veronica's just been
admitted to the hospital.

No. No.

She was mild.

I know.

But her symptoms became
more pronounced.

Use your time with her,
not me.

Marcella,
you need care, too.

I don't care about me!

Save my baby girl!

Okay. Come on.

But my mom's still alive.

She is,
but she isn't improving.

Veronica, we need to know
whether your mom would want

a machine to breathe
for her if she --No, no.
She wants to live.

So instead of scaring
the hell out of me,

can you go
and concentrate on that?

Do whatever you can
to save her.

Maybe now's not
the best time, Maggie.

It may be the only time.

This is my fault.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so, so sorry.

Her sats are in the 80s.
I'm gonna increase the O2.

This is my fault.

All of this.

I-It was her birthday,
and...

and she'd --

she'd been alone
so long,

so I went over to her house
to -- to cook for her.

We wore masks
and we ate outside

and w-we -- we tried
to stay distanced,

but it was her birthday,
and she's my mom,

so I gave her a hug.

I just gave her one hug.

And I might have killed her.

I killed my mom.

No, no, no, no.
Listen to me.

Listen to me.

This is not
your fault, okay?

And I promise you, your mom
will never regret that hug.

Never.

Okay?

And, listen, my daughter's
a doctor here, too.

And she's with your mom
right now,

and she's taking care
of her, okay?

It's okay.

It's okay.

Down that hallway
is PACU.

That's recovery.

This is
a supply closet.

Nice.Here we have
someone's office.

You're an incredible
tour guide.

Well, not much to see
in a pandemic.

Is she here today, or are you
keeping me from her?

She? Who's she?
Come on, Mac.

The boys tell me
everything.

Said you've been talking about
somebody that you work with,

a general surgeon?

I work with several
general surgeons.

Okay.

Do you smile when you talk
about all of them?

I'd like to meet her.

Yeah, well, you can't.

Why?

'Cause she's on a breathing tube
in the ICU.

Mac...

again?

I'll...

check in on you
after the procedure.

Yeah, okay.

Well, he's stable,

but with that large
of an embolism,

he's gonna have to stay
on the vent

for at least
a few days.

This never
should have happened!

I know
I'm a little rusty,

and I probably shouldn't
have been talking

about exploding diapers,
but --

No, I am not angry at you,
Lincoln.

This was
a -- a complication.

I mean, there's nothing

you could
or should have done better.

I'm just angry
with this whole situation!

I mean, saving
this young man's life

means we're down
to one available vent!

Which now means I have to close
the doors to our trauma!

Which means people will die
unnecessarily!

Even more people
will die.

We're closing to trauma?

Looks like it.

Okay.

Cristina.

This is nice...

just being able
to talk to you.

What do you mean?

Well, I spend
a fair amount of time

trying to talk
to people.

Sofia, Callie, Arizona.

I try to warn them
sometimes.

Warn them about what?

I can't let go.

When you have
a little kid like that...

hard to let go.

So I hang out,
watch her grow up.

Sometimes I see
something coming.

Like the divorce?
Yep.

I stand beside them.
I yell in their ears, "Wake up!"

"Wake up!
You're missing it!

You're missingthe best part of life!"

When you love someone,
you tell them.

And then w-what do they do
when you yell in their ears?

Well, sometimes they listen.
Sometimes they hear me.

I never get
the credit, though.

They think
it's their own idea.

She looks
so much like you.

Ellis?

Everybody says she looks
like Meredith.

Yeah, she does, but also weirdly
just like you.

You really are sisters.

I'm not gonna ask.

You can. I just --
I don't know anything.

And Richard won't even let me
near the hospital

or any of the charts.

Well, that's because
you need a break,

not because
you did anything wrong.

DeLuca was not
your fault.

We all lost him.

That grief belongs
to all of us,

and it might...

be easier
if you learn to share that.

Is there a recovery program
for people who trash their lives

and can't blame drugs,
so that I can get some of that

sweet program
zen master stuff you have?

You don't have to be
an addict --

it's called therapy.

How many sessions
until Owen feels safe

to leave me alone
with the kids?

I tried therapy.
It makes me uncomfortable.

Mammograms make us
uncomfortable,

but we still get them.

Yeah, the man stared at me
and nodded

and grunted
on every fourth word.

I counted the grunts.

It was an -- an expensive
kind of torture.

So, when the first therapist
you tried

was clearly the wrong fit,
did you...

try another one?

You know I was
just being nice

when I said
Ellis looked like you.

Boy: Now we're both
right side up.

How'd the mom take it?

How do you think?

Is it just me, or did this job
used to be fun?

Like, not even 10 years ago.
Like, very recently, fun.

This used to be the greatest job
in the world.

Please tell me
Veronica's okay.

Well, I'd hoped with
oxygen therapy and antivirals,

we'd see a better
response, but...

...that hasn't been
the case.

Crap.

I need you
to get back in bed.Take me back. Take me back.

I know, baby. I know.Ortiz, what the hell?

Sweetheart.No, no, no, no.

I found her halfway tothe elevator, almost collapsed.No.

Let's get you back in bed.I need to --

Alright.I need to see my mom,
please.

Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh.Okay.

Please,
I need to see my mom.Okay.

We want to get you
feeling better first,

then we can talk aboutvisitation, okay?No, no.

Everyone here is dying,

and you guys have no clue
how to save us,

so at least
let me see my mom.

Let me say goodbye.

Before...

Veronica.

Veronica? Hey!

Blood pressure's tanking.Veronica?

I've got no pulse.

Alright, get me epi and
a crash cart in here, now!

Okay.

I want to start compressions
right away.

Okay, go, go, go.

Come on, Veronica.

Come on, Veronica.
Here we go.

Levi: You're doing great,
Marcella.

Stay positive.

If you can make it to Friday
without needing a vent...

you're on your way.

You know, we're, um --

we're almost there,
because it's --

My mom gives me
that exact same look

every time
I do that rap.

Mnh-mnh.
No, no, that is not rap.

God.
She's decompensating.

I need a crash cart
in here, now!

And someone page Dr. Pierce!

What? Are you sure you don't
want to wait until the --

No! Her saturation levels
are plummeting and...

Female voice:
Code Blue. Code Blue.

Oxygenate patient.

Prep induction
and paralytic agent.

Ch-check,
pa-- patent cuff.

Tube ready?

Code Blue. Code Blue.

You're in.

No. No!

Schmitt, what did you do?

Levi: She was desaturating.
I had no choice.

Now, can we please get
a ventilator in here?

My God.

There isn't one.

Removing the last few
pieces of stone.

Stent?

Stent's gonna stay in place
to ensure proper drainage.

You know, you have
a really good touch, Wilson.

We don't have nearly enough
women in urology.

Have you ever considered
changing specialties?

Change specialties?

That would be just --
No.

I -- No.

N-no. No.

Okay, all done here.
Removing the scope.

My God.
Is that...?

I have never seen
this before,

only read about it
in a textbook.

This is
the patient's ureter.

Her tissues
are so friable,

the scope pulled
the whole damn thing out.

We're gonna have to
open her up.

Prepare an ex lap!

Jackson: Veronica's X-rays show
worsening consolidations.

I put her on BiPAP.

Her oxygen levels
keep decreasing.

She needs this vent.
She needs to be in ICU.

Marcella is already
intubated.

Schmitt can't bag her
forever.

Well...

Mama Ortiz:
Save the daughter.

Protocols say you have to save
the patient

most likely to recover.

We know.Yeah, we know.

If she wakes up and finds out
we chose her over her mother,

she's not gonna be able
to forgive herself.

Marcella's last words to me
were, "Save my baby girl."

Put Veronica on the vent.

Before somebody else
takes it.

How in the hell does her ureter
come out with a kidney stone?

We will try to reattach it
to her bladder

without having to remove
the kidney.

Irene is everything
to my boys, Wilson.

I mean, everything.

She's always been their aunt,
but now she's their teacher,

their football coach,
their -- their therapist,

their best bloody friend.

I-I can't believe this.

I can't. I can't.
I can't.

I cannot do this again.

I cannot look at my boys,
who've already lost everything,

and tell them that
they've lost her, too.

I cannot --
I cannot do that.
Okay, okay.
Stop. Stop.

This is --

This is not a catastrophe,
this is a complication.

Then what in the hell
are you still doing here?

Get in there
and bloody fix her.

Maggie:
We've reached out to every
hospital in Washington.

I never imagined --

I know.

Schmitt, you did
the right thing.

Another vent will come.

It has to, right?

Have a nice lunch?

I was updating
Dr. Hayes.

You had to take
the kidney?

The remaining piece
of the ureter wasn't long enough

to do a simple
reattachment.

But Irene has MS.

She could have bladder issues
in the future,

which would be much more
complicated

with just one kidney.

Why would she only have
one kidney?

What?I'm putting it back,
Wilson!

You're doing
an auto-transplant?

I am trying to!

It'd be a lot easier if I had
a second pair of hands.

Are you coming or not?Yes. Yes.

Irrigation.

Child, who throws away
a kidney?

Lord.

Woman on P.A.:
Dr. Sikes to Recovery.

Dr. Sikes to Recovery.Thanks.

If she keeps breathing
over the vent consistently,

we should be able
to take her off it soon.

That's good to hear.

Be a shame if someone like me
got to walk away

while someone like her...

I'll, -
I'll get out of your way.

Hey, Tom?

When I got back
from Iraq, I...

I remember thinking,

"Why do I get to
keep working?

Why do I get to
cook dinner?

Swim in a lake?

Fall in love?"

It's a terrible feeling.

I wouldn't wish it
on anyone.

Even me?

Lexie: Tell me
your favorite thing.

Meredith:
About what?

About life.
Life right now.

There's
a global pandemic.

That
is your favorite thing?

No.
I just meant that I don't --

Okay.

You're saying
that the pandemic --

No, it just feels
very shallow

to talk about
my favorite things

when there's people dying
in record numbers.

Yeah. Okay.
Alright.

Well, that's --
that's stupid.

Excuse me?

You're saying that you're not
allowed to enjoy your life

because people are dying
in record numbers?

That makes
exactly zero sense.

If the having of a life
and a body

isn't cause
for celebration,

then what's the point
of avoiding death?

I mean, just -- if you're not
gonna enjoy it,

then you might as well
join them.

Bailey just had a birthday
and I asked him what he wanted,

and he said a whole cake,
all to himself.

He did not want
to share.

So, of course,
I got him the cake.

And so, do you know what he did
as soon as he got that cake?

What?

Faceplant.

Just planted his face
smack in the middle of the cake.

And we laughed and laughed
and laughed.

It was me and Zola
and Ellis

and Maggie and Amelia
and Link.

Zola laughed so hard,
she peed her pants,

so then we had a laugh
at that.

And then
as we were laughing,

Bailey started licking
the frosting off each finger

really slow and making
a whole production out of it.

And I looked at him
watching us laugh,

and I realized that
that was the point.

That was his plan -- he wanted
to make us all laugh,

because the baby had been
keeping us up all night

and the pandemic was
all over the news,

and none of us were having
any fun at all,

and nobody was laughing,
and he wanted to make us laugh.

Yeah.

And that's what he wanted
for his birthday.

And when I looked at him and
I saw that light in his eyes,

he looked
just like his dad.

That same sparkle.

That same delight.

That's a pretty good
favorite thing.

If I'd known I was going to
have to choose

whether to vent a mother
or her daughter,

I would have quit
med school.

If I'd seen a tenth of what
I've seen these past few months,

I would have quit, too.

We shouldn't even
be here.

How did we get here?

Let's quit.

Don't go back
to Boston.

We've got each other.
We've got our earbuds.

Let's just live
while we can.

I'll go where you go.

But we both know
you won't let yourself quit.

Take a break, okay?

I'll check on
your patients.

We can share earbuds.

And...?

What if they can share
a vent?

Tell Schmitt
to keep bagging!

Maggie: The machines
are capable of delivering

much stronger pressure
than any one patient needs.

And we just need
to adapt the vents

to serve
two patients at once

by using a T- or a Y-shaped
splitter on the airflow tube.

And we're using viral filters
to prevent cross-contamination

of particles
between patients.

All of this
was Pierce's idea.

It's not ideal,
but it buys us some time

until we get some
reinforcements.

Yes!

Hey!
Hey, hey!

Richard, you okay?

I am so good.
I just have to dance

because you all doubled
the amount of vents

we have in the hospital.

I have to dance because we can
now open the doors to trauma,

and you have to dance
because you just got a raise.

Hey!

I'll dance to that.

Keep an eye on their vitals
and get labs every hour.

Page me for any change,
no matter how small.

Intern Sara: Mom...

Come here, mamita.

I know.

It's okay.

It's alright, baby.

I know.

Your vitals look good,
and you are making urine.

One of my party tricks.

You'll be able to go home
in three days

if your pain's
under control.

Hayes: Wilson?

Thank you.

For, um...

Just thank you.

Okay.

She single?

Who -- Wilson?Yeah.

I don't know. Why?
You trying to set me up?

I was hoping
you could set meup.

I mean, she did have my kidney
in her hands.

It doesn't get more intimate
than that.

Have you checked
on the boys?

Austin's supposed to be reading
"Animal Farm,"

and I'm worried he hasn't
made it past page 50.

Page 50?

We'll be lucky if he's even
opened the book.

Her lungs are clear.

Owen: Her ABGs are showing
improved oxygenation,

and she's passed her SBTs.

Her vitals are normalized.

Okay.

Prepare to extubate.

Suction, please.

Okay, here we go.

Meredith:
So, life is pain, right?

Life is pain,
and somehow that's the point?

No.
No.

I lost you both.

I lost George.

I lost my parents, and
even before my parents died...

They caused you
a lot of pain.

So much grief.
So much loss.

So much pain.

Yes.

Yeah, but what's the thing
that caused the pain?

I hate this.

You knowing things
that I don't.

What's
the thing that caused the pain?

I know it,
I just don't want to say it.

Stubborn
as you ever were.

The depth of grief that you felt
with all the losses --

it's because
of the depth of love.

As long as you're alive,
you get to feel it

and you get to do something
about it.

Everything changes all the time
when you're alive,

and all the time,
you fight the change.

You cling onto what you have
and what you know

like that's how
it should always be.

It's such a waste
of life.

Right?

What's a waste?

Fighting change.

Resisting pain.

I miss you both so much.

That's kind of a waste
of time, too.

Why?

Because
we never left you.

Sometimes we're right next
to you, yelling in your ear.

Don't waste it,
Meredith.

Waste what?

Don't waste
one single minute.

Meredith:
The first minute in a baby's
life is the most terrifying.

In that minute,
a million tiny air sacs

have to perfectly open
and fill with air.

Whoo!

It's a pretty traumatizing way
of entering the real world.Yes!

This is the first day
in I don't know how long...

...that I actually
liked my job again.

I felt inspired.

You wereinspired.

By you.

Well, by my earbuds.

No, by us.

By these moments of --
of joy and connection

that we've managed
to carve out.

I would not have had that idea
without you, Winston.

That life-saving idea,
it came from us.

And I know that
Boston needs you,

and I know that
I'm being selfish

when I say how miserable
I'm going to be if you go.

What are you doing?

Um...

I thought...

we could listen to something
before I leave.

I'm trying to tell you
I don't want you to leave.

I know, but I-I think you might
really like this song.

My God.
My God.

I still have my loose ends
to tie up back home.

So you have an out,
if you want one.

I hope you say yes...

...because I can't imagine life
without you anymore.

In that minute,
your whole world stops.

Yes. It's a yes.

Whoo!

It's as if time stands still.

Well, today ended a lot better
than it started.

Your mom is so scary.

What?
Why would you bring up my mom

while we're laying here
naked?

What's wrong with you?

Come here.

And if I'm being honest,
that minute is pure hell.

Owen: Look what I caught
in the laundry room

when I was scrubbing down.

I caught myself a Leofish!

Hey, Zola.

We, um...

We took your mom off
the ventilator today,

and she's breathing
on her own.

Yes! Thank God!

Bailey! Ellis! Scout!

Hope that was alright.

That's fine.
This is amazing.

My God.
Thank you!

But fortunately,
most of the time,

the crying starts,
the baby's okay...

Don't thank me.
Thank --

Thank Teddy.

She, - She's the one
who never gave up.

She stayed with her
night after night.

I just -- I just did
what the numbers told me.

...and the rest of us
in the room

can finally breathe again.

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