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The day you discharge
a patient who nearly died
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is a very good day.
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It has never, ever
been about me!
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I do love you!
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I want you.
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- Say it.
- I love you, too.
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We're done.
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I'll be in my car.
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Lot B, 7:00.
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You say your goodbyes.
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- You wish them luck.
- We can't do this.
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And you hope like hell
you never see them again.
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Here at the Trade Center,
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we are getting reports
that a part of the tower
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has collapsed.
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Because
when a patient does return,
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there's a very good chance
you screwed up.
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I have loved you
when I was coupled up.
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I have loved you
when I was single.
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I have loved you
every second of every day.
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Teddy.
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I love you.
I'm in love with you.
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I'm in love with Cristina.
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And then you'll be looking
back to find what you missed,
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replaying every moment
to find the one thing
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you could have done
differently.
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And if you're like me,
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you'll obsess
over finding that mistake.
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I'll make pancakes.
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Until it drives you
out of your mind.
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*GREY'S ANATOMY*
Season 17 Episode 09
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Episode Title:
"In My Life"
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Aired on:
March 25, 2021
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Mama, I can't...
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Hey. Everything's okay.
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Okay? You want some more?
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There.
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Look at me.
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Mama's okay.
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Okay?
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- I want Mama.
- I know.
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Mama.
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Hey.
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It's the, uh...
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It's the raspberry jam you like,
from the farmer's market.
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Teddy,
you should really eat.
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Even if you're
not hungry.
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Teddy.
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So, Meredith's stable.
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Not off the vent
but stable.
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Webber says he wants to try
and wean her off the vent
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in a couple days, so...
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Mom sent me a video
of Leo.
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They made up
this new game where...
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Where she pre... she pretends
to wrap him in pillows
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and he pretends like
he's sleeping on a cloud.
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It's...
It's really adorable.
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Teddy.
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- Hey.
- Hey.
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Thank you.
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Is this really necessary?
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You can't get her to drink
a sip of water?
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No.
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Do you want me to try?
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I've been tested.
I'm negative.
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Me too
but it's not a good time.
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Allison's napping.
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But thank you
for the fluids
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and I'll keep you updated,
okay?
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Owen.
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Let me try.
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Let me try to help.
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Okay.
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Yeah.
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Hey, Altman.
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Is everything okay?
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Yeah.
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Sorry. Um,
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- aren't I supposed to be here?
- I don't know.
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How long have you
been off the vent?
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I was on a vent?
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Coming through.
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- Excuse me.
- DeLuca?
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Help!
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Help! Help!
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- DeLuca, what is wrong with you?
- Get me out of here!
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Do something!
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We've been seeing this a lot
in patients lately,
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- but trust me, she's gone.
- Help!
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Oh! How do people breathe
in these things?
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Okay, I'm good.
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So, you ready to start?
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Start what?
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The incision.
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You said you could
save her life.
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Save who?
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Meredith.
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I...
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I don't know
what to do.
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Allison?
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Teddy.
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Allison!
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Allison!
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Allison, wait!
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Allison?
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Any luck?
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No.
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If something
doesn't change soon,
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I'm gonna have
to have her admitted.
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Owen, she's overworked,
she's overtired,
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she just lost DeLuca.
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I mean, she probably just needs
some more rest.
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She hasn't spoken,
she hasn't eaten,
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she hasn't so much as
acknowledged her own daughter.
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Amelia, the only other time
I've seen that kind of look,
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it's in soldiers.
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And plenty of them
never came back.
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Teddy,
Amelia brought fluids.
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You will feel so much
betteronce you are hydrated.
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Allison?
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Allison?
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Allison!
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Wait.
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Allison, don't leave!
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Don't throw
your life away, Teddy.
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Allison!
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Tonight,
I'll be in my car.
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Lot B, 7:00.
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Hey.
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Hey.
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Not to tell you
how to live your life,
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but shouldn't you be
getting married right now?
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Owen's not there.
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You're thinking
of running.
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Amelia did the same thing
the night she married Owen.
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Poor bastard.
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It would have been better.
For everyone.
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I think your problems go back
a lot further than tonight.
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I have to try,
don't I?
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You breaking stuff?
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It's a bed for Leo.
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I can't make sense
of these instructions.
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I think
they're in Danish or something.
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Two heads
are better than one?
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Amelia,
you don't have to stay.
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I know.
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Okay.
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This and...
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Pick up
the bottom part.
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Yeah.
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And I'm being told
we have some breaking news...
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The daily body count
of COVID patients
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could exceed that of 9/11
in the upcoming mon...
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♪ Fini la musique,
la foule défile ♪
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I'm not a Vegas guy.
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I'mnot a Vegas guy.
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Hey.
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Feeling any different?
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We hurt Owen.
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No, you...
You hurt Owen.
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I'm just the guy
driving the getaway car.
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He'll be hurt,
but we...
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We always come back
to being friends.
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Speaking of, should you maybe
make a phone call?
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Mm.
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♪ Quand la gloire se fanait? ♪
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♪ Les bravos se taisaient? ♪
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It can wait.
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♪ Ou, ou étais-tu ♪
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Tonight's about us.
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This should be fun.
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♪ Quand le silence
s'approchait? ♪
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Morning.
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What time is it?
Mm.
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We have all the time
in the world.
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Have I ever told you what
excellent room service I make?
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If I could choose one meal
for the rest of my life,
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it would be this.
Pancakes and champagne.
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Oh, my God!
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I choose this and you.
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Owen's gone.
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What do you...
What do you mean he's gone?
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Apparently he took the kids
and got on a plane.
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Got on a plane to where?
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Here we go again,
eenie meenie miny snooze.
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You think this is funny?
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But my family is
gone.
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What? Your family?
Or Owen?
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I can't live
without him.
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Oh, which makes me the gum
stuck to the bottom of your shoe?
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I didn't think
that he would actually leave.
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Yeah. He left.
Owen Hunt is a man.
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He doesn't sit around
and wait while you play games
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and choose other people
and have babies with them.
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- What did you expect?
- Owen, you aren't thinking.
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Come back. Please.
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Yeah.
That should do it.
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You ruined my life.
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I ruined my life.
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You ruined my life.
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Teddy, Teddy,
Teddy, please.
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I love you.
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I don't want you
to love me.
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I love Owen
and I-I love my kids
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and I love my family,
and I... I don't...
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I don't want you to love me
and I don't want this life!
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Wait! Wait.
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We'll work this out.
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Don't ruin your life.
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Run away with me.
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I'll be in my car.
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7:00.
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Tom, this never
should have happened.
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Save yourself.
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Wait.
I didn't mean to...
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You know, personally, I never
got what you saw in that guy.
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But I-I didn't want
to hurt him.
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Well, maybe skip the grenade
next time?
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You're always
blowing things up.
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No.
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No. No.
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Amelia and I are done.
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There's nothing standing
in our way.
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- ...already...
- You can't just tell me when to go
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- and when to stay!
- I don't want you here anymore!
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Yeah, the snow wasn't
for the soldiers.
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It was for you.
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I'm done, Owen.
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We're done.
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Owen flew halfway
across the planet
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and you just
kicked him out.
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Well, Meredith was right.
I need to go back further.
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Pretty sure this is not
what she meant by that.
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But if we are
re-writing history,
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maybe you could, uh,
not kill me this time?
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I'm so sorry.
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But if I never meet you,
I can't hurt you.
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Owen, wait!
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Oh.
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Oh, I got to go
to work.
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New boss
is a real nutcracker.
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Stop it.
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Teddy, there's something
I need to tell you.
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You can tell me anything.
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I love living with you.
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I love working with you
but...
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but it's not enough.
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Wait, what?
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I want to marry you.
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Right here.
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Right here, in bed?
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Mm, I'd be happy to go
with living room.
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What?
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Teddy?
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Wait, what is it?
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I just...
I don't know.
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I don't want there to be
any secrets between us.
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Okay.
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So, Allison.
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Um...
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She wasn't...
She wasn't just my friend.
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She was...
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She was
the love of my life.
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Wait,
New York Allison?
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Yeah.
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Wow.
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Owen, I... I... I'm...
268
00:14:17,007 --> 00:14:18,382
Wow.
269
00:14:18,466 --> 00:14:20,148
I'm so sorry.
270
00:14:20,380 --> 00:14:22,945
I'm so sorry
that you lost her.
271
00:14:24,211 --> 00:14:25,911
Yeah.
272
00:14:25,995 --> 00:14:27,499
Me too.
273
00:14:27,823 --> 00:14:30,437
Hey, I want to take
all that pain and...
274
00:14:31,562 --> 00:14:32,922
I can't erase it
275
00:14:33,007 --> 00:14:35,421
but I can spend every day
trying.
276
00:14:36,609 --> 00:14:38,397
Please, marry me.
277
00:14:38,609 --> 00:14:40,143
Okay.
278
00:14:41,802 --> 00:14:43,673
Alright, okay.
You look great.
279
00:14:45,101 --> 00:14:47,193
Do you, Theodora Grace Altman,
take...
280
00:14:48,406 --> 00:14:50,289
Text message, sorry.
281
00:14:50,374 --> 00:14:52,155
Do you, Theodora Grace Altman,
take...
282
00:14:53,890 --> 00:14:55,266
- Could you...
- Yeah, of course.
283
00:14:55,351 --> 00:14:56,399
Amelia.
284
00:14:56,484 --> 00:14:58,488
"Yay wedding, yay joy.
285
00:14:58,573 --> 00:14:59,664
Xoxo."
286
00:15:00,889 --> 00:15:01,904
We good?
287
00:15:01,996 --> 00:15:02,997
Yeah.
Why wouldn't I be?
288
00:15:03,082 --> 00:15:04,477
- Okay.
- Okay, sorry.
289
00:15:07,341 --> 00:15:08,562
Beth.
290
00:15:08,646 --> 00:15:10,434
"Happy you're so happy."
291
00:15:10,518 --> 00:15:12,546
As in
your ex-fiancée Beth?
292
00:15:12,631 --> 00:15:14,419
Yeah. I didn't... I didn't know
that you still talked to Beth.
293
00:15:14,503 --> 00:15:16,682
Why are you saying it like that?
"Beth." What's...?
294
00:15:16,819 --> 00:15:18,659
Well, I-I just didn't think
that you still talked to her.
295
00:15:18,743 --> 00:15:20,008
Yeah.
Mondays at 11:00,
296
00:15:20,093 --> 00:15:21,134
but we had to change it
today
297
00:15:21,218 --> 00:15:22,595
'cause she had
her parent/teacher conference,
298
00:15:22,679 --> 00:15:23,882
but look.
She's so happy for us.
299
00:15:23,966 --> 00:15:25,064
The wedding
we all dream of...
300
00:15:25,148 --> 00:15:26,273
Stop it!
301
00:15:26,358 --> 00:15:27,842
Oh, my God, oh, my God.
302
00:15:27,927 --> 00:15:29,273
Cristina?
303
00:15:30,179 --> 00:15:32,063
Cristina's bought us tickets
to Switzerland
304
00:15:32,148 --> 00:15:33,718
as our wedding present.
305
00:15:33,802 --> 00:15:34,859
Wow.
306
00:15:34,944 --> 00:15:36,562
We can... We can go stay
with her
307
00:15:36,647 --> 00:15:40,240
and maybe teach a trauma class
at her hospital.
308
00:15:40,325 --> 00:15:41,943
Owen,
put your phone away.
309
00:15:42,028 --> 00:15:43,906
- Yeah, anything for you.
- Okay.
310
00:15:43,991 --> 00:15:45,500
Okay, as I was saying...
311
00:15:46,668 --> 00:15:49,108
Hey, I'm home.
312
00:15:49,510 --> 00:15:51,951
So, uh, Leo will do
Thanksgiving with me,
313
00:15:52,036 --> 00:15:53,118
and Christmas
with you...?
314
00:15:53,203 --> 00:15:54,381
Wow.
315
00:15:54,466 --> 00:15:56,132
I didn't know
we had bone china.
316
00:15:56,216 --> 00:15:57,524
Are you really sure?
317
00:15:57,608 --> 00:16:01,920
You, me, Teddy, our kids,
all of us, together?
318
00:16:02,271 --> 00:16:03,467
Really?
319
00:16:03,552 --> 00:16:04,677
Wow!
320
00:16:06,239 --> 00:16:07,752
You're amazing, Amelia.
321
00:16:07,836 --> 00:16:08,912
Bye.
322
00:16:08,997 --> 00:16:11,036
Hey.
So, come, sit, sit.
323
00:16:11,121 --> 00:16:12,299
Come on.
324
00:16:13,029 --> 00:16:14,818
So, uh...
325
00:16:15,757 --> 00:16:17,092
You were...
You were talking to Amelia?
326
00:16:17,176 --> 00:16:18,732
Yeah, we talk every day.
327
00:16:18,844 --> 00:16:20,022
She is bringing Leo here
328
00:16:20,107 --> 00:16:22,319
so we can have the holidays
all together.
329
00:16:22,404 --> 00:16:25,204
You don't think that's something
that you should've asked?
330
00:16:25,288 --> 00:16:26,597
It's true love, Teddy.
331
00:16:26,681 --> 00:16:28,468
You really want
to ask permission?
332
00:16:28,553 --> 00:16:30,192
True...
You love her?
333
00:16:30,277 --> 00:16:31,467
How can you not
love Amelia?
334
00:16:31,552 --> 00:16:32,779
It's Amelia.
335
00:16:32,864 --> 00:16:34,326
So she comes first?
336
00:16:34,411 --> 00:16:35,670
No, no, God, no.
337
00:16:35,755 --> 00:16:37,186
Cristina comes first.
338
00:16:37,458 --> 00:16:38,609
Wait.
339
00:16:38,693 --> 00:16:40,045
But you...
You married me.
340
00:16:40,129 --> 00:16:41,725
You... You chose me.
341
00:16:41,810 --> 00:16:42,961
Oh, this is good.
342
00:16:43,045 --> 00:16:44,354
Listen.
343
00:16:44,438 --> 00:16:46,038
It's not your fault that
you don't know how to love.
344
00:16:46,122 --> 00:16:47,780
- What did you just say to me?
- I said I love you.
345
00:16:47,864 --> 00:16:49,905
- Oh.
- And pass the gravy. But I also love you.
346
00:16:50,052 --> 00:16:51,808
This...
This doesn't feel right.
347
00:16:51,893 --> 00:16:52,897
Because it's not.
348
00:16:52,982 --> 00:16:54,193
The only reason
that I came here,
349
00:16:54,277 --> 00:16:56,467
the only reason
that we have a baby together
350
00:16:56,552 --> 00:16:57,647
is because of Amelia.
351
00:16:59,295 --> 00:17:00,256
You know what?
352
00:17:00,341 --> 00:17:01,778
We really should be
thanking her.
353
00:17:01,890 --> 00:17:03,148
Do you want to call her back
or should I?
354
00:17:03,232 --> 00:17:04,318
Get out of my house.
355
00:17:04,403 --> 00:17:05,397
You know,
you say that a lot,
356
00:17:05,482 --> 00:17:07,189
but you never really mean it.
That's why I keep coming back.
357
00:17:07,273 --> 00:17:08,725
It's sort of our thing.
358
00:17:08,810 --> 00:17:10,115
I don't want it to be
our thing.
359
00:17:10,200 --> 00:17:12,599
Well, then the only alternative
is you realize
360
00:17:12,854 --> 00:17:14,076
one of these days...
361
00:17:14,161 --> 00:17:15,608
One of these days
what?
362
00:17:15,693 --> 00:17:17,474
Dessert.
363
00:17:17,732 --> 00:17:18,717
Ah, yes.
364
00:17:18,802 --> 00:17:20,216
You'll burn yourself.
365
00:17:20,307 --> 00:17:21,562
I've got it, Amelia.
366
00:17:21,646 --> 00:17:23,045
Teddy.
It's Teddy.
367
00:17:23,129 --> 00:17:24,829
What's wrong
with Teddy?
368
00:17:24,913 --> 00:17:27,724
You keep looking past me,
like you always do.
369
00:17:27,809 --> 00:17:29,680
Even though
I'm right here.
370
00:17:31,050 --> 00:17:32,097
Yeah, I'm done.
371
00:17:32,181 --> 00:17:34,483
I'm done.
I am done waiting for you
372
00:17:34,568 --> 00:17:35,701
and feeling like this
every time.
373
00:17:35,785 --> 00:17:37,919
- I'm done.
- It's Teddy!
374
00:17:38,004 --> 00:17:39,516
I know, right?
375
00:17:39,817 --> 00:17:40,908
I love Teddy.
376
00:17:40,993 --> 00:17:44,849
But... she's no you,
Amelia.
377
00:17:44,933 --> 00:17:46,514
Here.
378
00:17:46,739 --> 00:17:47,989
Eat.
379
00:17:48,177 --> 00:17:49,419
It's your favorite.
380
00:17:56,157 --> 00:17:57,470
So you guys haven't talked
since...
381
00:17:57,554 --> 00:17:59,718
Since she humiliated me at work
and destroyed our family?
382
00:17:59,802 --> 00:18:01,858
No. I was gonna say
since you brought her home.
383
00:18:01,943 --> 00:18:03,218
I just want to make sure
that she's okay,
384
00:18:03,302 --> 00:18:04,437
and I'm gonna head back
to the hotel.
385
00:18:04,521 --> 00:18:05,804
Owen. Amelia, I
don't want to talk to her
386
00:18:05,888 --> 00:18:08,090
because every time I do,
it just makes me angrier.
387
00:18:08,325 --> 00:18:10,551
Okay?
And I'm exhausted by it.
388
00:18:11,051 --> 00:18:12,441
So I'm done.
389
00:18:12,613 --> 00:18:14,096
Can you pass me the side part,
please?
390
00:18:14,180 --> 00:18:15,445
What about therapy?
391
00:18:15,529 --> 00:18:17,303
I go to therapy.
With Teddy?
392
00:18:17,388 --> 00:18:19,193
I don't need to pay
some stranger to sit there
393
00:18:19,278 --> 00:18:20,115
and listen
to Teddy lie to me.
394
00:18:20,200 --> 00:18:22,124
Would you cut her some slack?
She just lost DeLuca.
395
00:18:22,208 --> 00:18:24,410
We all lost DeLuca.
396
00:18:24,661 --> 00:18:27,587
I was standing right across
from her the day that he died.
397
00:18:27,671 --> 00:18:29,013
But we don't all have
the luxury
398
00:18:29,098 --> 00:18:30,926
of just shutting down
completely.
399
00:18:34,025 --> 00:18:35,564
I want her to be well.
400
00:18:35,649 --> 00:18:37,384
Obviously I do.
401
00:18:38,835 --> 00:18:41,445
You know, Leo's been
asking to see his Mama all day
402
00:18:41,774 --> 00:18:43,799
and I had to lie to him
and say that she's working
403
00:18:43,884 --> 00:18:45,697
because I don't want him
to see her like this.
404
00:18:45,782 --> 00:18:47,129
He needs her, you know?
405
00:18:47,213 --> 00:18:48,799
Allison needs her.
406
00:18:48,884 --> 00:18:50,610
But honestly...
407
00:18:50,694 --> 00:18:51,872
Honestly, I don't.
408
00:18:51,956 --> 00:18:53,495
Owen... All she's ever done
is lie to me.
409
00:18:53,579 --> 00:18:54,571
That's all
she's ever done.
410
00:18:54,655 --> 00:18:56,657
She didn't tell me
she was pregnant for months,
411
00:18:56,915 --> 00:19:00,118
she cheated on me for weeks
before our wedding night, and...
412
00:19:00,748 --> 00:19:02,588
And you remember Allison?
413
00:19:02,673 --> 00:19:03,667
Teddy's best friend
who died?
414
00:19:03,751 --> 00:19:05,244
The one we named
our daughter after?
415
00:19:05,329 --> 00:19:06,878
Well, it turns out that
she's not just her best friend.
416
00:19:06,962 --> 00:19:08,290
She's the love
of Teddy's life.
417
00:19:08,885 --> 00:19:11,326
And she didn't mention it
to me once
418
00:19:11,517 --> 00:19:12,937
in all the decades
that we've known each other.
419
00:19:13,021 --> 00:19:14,199
Not once.
420
00:19:14,283 --> 00:19:15,983
She just mentioned it
as some kind of excuse
421
00:19:16,067 --> 00:19:18,213
for all the horrible things
that she's done.
422
00:19:18,298 --> 00:19:20,235
And there's nothing I can do
about it
423
00:19:20,320 --> 00:19:21,525
and talking doesn't help.
424
00:19:21,610 --> 00:19:22,860
Okay?
425
00:19:23,116 --> 00:19:25,031
So can we please just build
this bed?
426
00:19:47,534 --> 00:19:49,024
I'm never gonna be enough
for you.
427
00:19:49,220 --> 00:19:50,513
You sound ridiculous.
428
00:19:59,241 --> 00:20:00,724
More lap pads.
429
00:20:00,808 --> 00:20:01,837
So much bleeding.
430
00:20:02,007 --> 00:20:03,707
Suction.
431
00:20:09,444 --> 00:20:11,005
I'll make pancakes.
432
00:20:15,431 --> 00:20:17,126
Turn that monitor off!
433
00:20:18,663 --> 00:20:19,798
Hey.
434
00:20:21,293 --> 00:20:22,962
It's not gonna make
any difference.
435
00:20:30,509 --> 00:20:31,972
Did you always love her?
436
00:20:32,056 --> 00:20:33,496
Allison?
437
00:20:33,580 --> 00:20:35,439
Can we talk about this
somewhere else?
438
00:20:35,524 --> 00:20:38,767
Teddy, this OR is very familiar
with your private life.
439
00:20:40,512 --> 00:20:42,081
Was it
love at first sight?
440
00:20:45,032 --> 00:20:47,048
I was always drawn
to her.
441
00:20:47,985 --> 00:20:52,906
She was the most alive person
I've ever known.
442
00:20:53,439 --> 00:20:55,259
She was good.
443
00:20:56,124 --> 00:20:57,563
And she was kind.
444
00:21:05,916 --> 00:21:07,775
9-1-1!
445
00:21:09,093 --> 00:21:11,316
He was stuck in a bush
by the bike path.
446
00:21:11,400 --> 00:21:12,665
I think he broke his leg.
447
00:21:12,749 --> 00:21:14,916
Allison, what? No, you're gonna
get psittacosis.
448
00:21:15,033 --> 00:21:16,321
First off,
that sounds fake.
449
00:21:16,405 --> 00:21:18,892
And second, don't you have
a medical kit in your bag?!
450
00:21:19,278 --> 00:21:21,326
Okay, okay.
451
00:21:24,670 --> 00:21:28,025
Both my parents died
that same year.
452
00:21:28,591 --> 00:21:29,856
She carried me
through that.
453
00:21:29,940 --> 00:21:30,857
Yeah, that's my mom.
454
00:21:30,941 --> 00:21:31,815
What?
455
00:21:40,995 --> 00:21:43,566
I will.
I will talk to her again.
456
00:21:43,650 --> 00:21:45,132
Thank you.
457
00:21:50,265 --> 00:21:53,385
That was the maintenance manager
at your mom's building again.
458
00:21:54,628 --> 00:21:57,579
Teddy, you're gonna have to go
through your mom's stuff
459
00:21:57,664 --> 00:22:00,253
or they're gonna
auction it off
460
00:22:00,338 --> 00:22:01,929
or... or throw it away.
461
00:22:04,235 --> 00:22:07,587
I would do it for you,
but I-I don't know what to keep.
462
00:22:11,666 --> 00:22:13,275
We played Scrabble.
463
00:22:13,941 --> 00:22:15,293
You mean
when you were a kid?
464
00:22:15,486 --> 00:22:17,595
Yes, but also when my dad
was dying.
465
00:22:17,680 --> 00:22:19,602
We played for almost...
466
00:22:20,548 --> 00:22:22,474
Almost a year.
467
00:22:22,641 --> 00:22:26,689
He was sick, so we would put
the board out on the bed,
468
00:22:26,774 --> 00:22:28,001
and...
469
00:22:28,085 --> 00:22:30,626
And me and my dad
and my mom.
470
00:22:31,437 --> 00:22:32,963
We played every weekend.
471
00:22:33,047 --> 00:22:35,305
My dad always won.
472
00:22:36,355 --> 00:22:38,360
Until he started
to lose.
473
00:22:38,444 --> 00:22:40,235
When he started
to lose...
474
00:22:41,594 --> 00:22:43,408
We had time.
475
00:22:43,492 --> 00:22:44,975
We had time to...
476
00:22:45,059 --> 00:22:47,564
To say goodbye?
But we didn't say goodbye.
477
00:22:47,649 --> 00:22:48,986
We cheated
so that he could win
478
00:22:49,071 --> 00:22:50,345
until he couldn't play
anymore.
479
00:22:50,430 --> 00:22:51,643
And then my mom and I,
we just...
480
00:22:51,727 --> 00:22:53,673
Uh, we put the board away.
481
00:22:54,677 --> 00:22:57,633
But even with...
With all that time...
482
00:22:58,725 --> 00:23:01,704
it just... it...
It was unimaginable
483
00:23:01,804 --> 00:23:03,845
that he could leave us.
484
00:23:03,930 --> 00:23:07,266
He would never... He would...
He would never leave us.
485
00:23:10,867 --> 00:23:12,742
I always wanted a pet.
486
00:23:12,826 --> 00:23:14,423
You mean after he...
he died?
487
00:23:14,508 --> 00:23:15,745
No, when I was young.
488
00:23:15,829 --> 00:23:17,964
I wanted a pet,
and my dad said no.
489
00:23:18,048 --> 00:23:20,377
He said, "When you get a pet,
best-case scenario
490
00:23:20,462 --> 00:23:23,157
is that you love that pet
with all your heart
491
00:23:23,251 --> 00:23:26,344
and then it leaves you
'cause, you know, life span.
492
00:23:27,351 --> 00:23:30,354
So for sure
a pet means heartbreak."
493
00:23:33,788 --> 00:23:36,861
He just... I... I guess
he just wanted to protect me.
494
00:23:36,946 --> 00:23:38,798
But he wouldn't even let me
get a gerbil
495
00:23:38,883 --> 00:23:40,798
because he didn't want me
to suffer
496
00:23:40,883 --> 00:23:43,860
and then he just up and dies
at age 58.
497
00:23:43,944 --> 00:23:45,905
But at least
we got to play Scrabble.
498
00:23:45,989 --> 00:23:48,212
My mom just...
499
00:23:48,296 --> 00:23:49,474
You can't pack up
her stuff
500
00:23:49,558 --> 00:23:52,782
because that would mean
she died.
501
00:23:52,866 --> 00:23:55,088
And she can't have died
because she was too young.
502
00:23:55,172 --> 00:23:57,961
And she wasn't even sick.
503
00:23:58,045 --> 00:24:02,271
And there wasn't even time
for another game.
504
00:24:03,482 --> 00:24:06,997
Okay, I get it.
505
00:24:07,924 --> 00:24:10,234
But I'm gonna need the keys
to your mom's place.
506
00:24:10,318 --> 00:24:11,732
Allison...
Teddy,
507
00:24:11,817 --> 00:24:13,764
I am not letting them throw
awaythat Scrabble board.
508
00:24:13,848 --> 00:24:15,148
And I'm not letting them
509
00:24:15,232 --> 00:24:16,733
throw away your photo albums.
510
00:24:16,818 --> 00:24:18,416
And I bet your mom
wore perfume
511
00:24:18,500 --> 00:24:20,200
and I'm gonna go over there
and I'm gonna find it
512
00:24:20,284 --> 00:24:21,936
and I'm gonna get
one of her scarves
513
00:24:22,021 --> 00:24:23,856
because you are in shock
right now,
514
00:24:23,940 --> 00:24:26,076
but one day you're gonna want
some of the stuff
515
00:24:26,160 --> 00:24:29,732
that reminds you
how loved you were.
516
00:24:29,816 --> 00:24:31,084
You're gonna want
some of the stuff
517
00:24:31,168 --> 00:24:33,373
that... came from the people
who loved you too much
518
00:24:33,458 --> 00:24:35,390
to let you get a gerbil.
519
00:24:35,474 --> 00:24:37,957
The people
who made you you.
520
00:24:38,216 --> 00:24:40,220
Wonderful, wonderful you.
521
00:24:51,378 --> 00:24:52,490
Whoa.
522
00:24:52,575 --> 00:24:54,209
I'm sorry. I'm...
523
00:24:56,233 --> 00:24:58,848
I'm sorry,
but I'm not sorry.
524
00:25:22,085 --> 00:25:24,536
I didn't mean
to hurt anyone.
525
00:25:26,576 --> 00:25:29,583
Just fell in love
with Allison.
526
00:25:30,273 --> 00:25:31,756
So what did you do?
527
00:25:33,419 --> 00:25:34,884
I killed her.
528
00:25:34,968 --> 00:25:37,333
I'll make pancakes.
529
00:25:38,825 --> 00:25:40,763
I'll make pancakes.
530
00:25:43,177 --> 00:25:44,850
Oh.
531
00:25:44,934 --> 00:25:46,841
I have to go to work.
532
00:25:59,357 --> 00:26:00,677
I should have said yes.
533
00:26:00,762 --> 00:26:02,201
Teddy,
you couldn't have known.
534
00:26:02,286 --> 00:26:04,653
I wanted to say yes.
535
00:26:04,848 --> 00:26:08,830
I wanted more than anything
in the world
536
00:26:08,915 --> 00:26:11,678
but to stay in that room
with her forever.
537
00:26:11,763 --> 00:26:14,701
If I had just said yes...
538
00:26:15,490 --> 00:26:17,216
She'd still be here.
539
00:26:18,518 --> 00:26:20,123
Maybe you'd still be here.
540
00:26:20,208 --> 00:26:21,408
Hey.
541
00:26:21,778 --> 00:26:23,584
I forgive you.
542
00:26:26,367 --> 00:26:27,588
But you are.
543
00:26:27,673 --> 00:26:29,416
You are still here.
544
00:26:29,776 --> 00:26:30,868
But I'm not.
545
00:26:30,953 --> 00:26:32,267
But you are.
546
00:26:32,352 --> 00:26:34,246
Which means...
547
00:26:36,072 --> 00:26:38,469
What if it's not too late?
548
00:26:38,553 --> 00:26:40,515
What if it can change?
549
00:26:46,909 --> 00:26:48,871
It's not too late.
550
00:26:53,307 --> 00:26:55,051
Teddy, are you okay?
551
00:26:56,484 --> 00:26:58,010
You're having a nightmare.
552
00:27:10,895 --> 00:27:12,766
I'll make pancakes.
553
00:27:14,502 --> 00:27:15,985
Okay.
554
00:27:29,678 --> 00:27:31,982
She barely naps
for more than 30 minutes.
555
00:27:32,067 --> 00:27:34,498
I swear she doesn't know me
since she moved in with my mom.
556
00:27:35,365 --> 00:27:36,818
Owen.
557
00:27:37,220 --> 00:27:38,573
You need
to forgive Teddy.
558
00:27:38,657 --> 00:27:40,609
So you think that if I tell her
that she's forgiven
559
00:27:40,693 --> 00:27:42,484
it'll bring her out of this?
I mean, I can try but...
560
00:27:42,568 --> 00:27:45,100
No. No. I am not saying you
needgo in there and pretend.
561
00:27:45,185 --> 00:27:46,885
I'm saying...
562
00:27:47,100 --> 00:27:49,758
Owen, I-I know that Teddy
hurt you badly,
563
00:27:50,100 --> 00:27:52,568
and nothing about what she did
with Tom is okay.
564
00:27:52,717 --> 00:27:53,979
But...
565
00:27:54,063 --> 00:27:55,529
Owen, she's Teddy.
566
00:27:56,318 --> 00:27:58,941
You have loved her
in some form for decades.
567
00:27:59,025 --> 00:28:00,333
And just the fact that
she was in love with Allison...
568
00:28:00,417 --> 00:28:01,625
It's not the fact
that she was in love with her.
569
00:28:01,709 --> 00:28:03,162
It's the fact
that she lied.
570
00:28:03,246 --> 00:28:04,694
Okay?
And she lied relentlessly.
571
00:28:04,779 --> 00:28:05,671
For decades.
572
00:28:05,756 --> 00:28:06,949
She said
that she's not over her.
573
00:28:07,033 --> 00:28:08,405
So not only did she cheat on me
with Tom Koracick,
574
00:28:08,489 --> 00:28:10,789
she's been in love with someone
else our entire relationship.
575
00:28:10,873 --> 00:28:13,085
It's despicable and she doesn't
deserve my forgiveness.
576
00:28:13,514 --> 00:28:15,218
Despicable?
What is wrong with you?
577
00:28:15,303 --> 00:28:16,262
What is wrong with you?
578
00:28:16,346 --> 00:28:17,481
You're taking her side.
579
00:28:17,565 --> 00:28:18,922
You're pissed
because she has a Cristina,
580
00:28:19,006 --> 00:28:20,827
and you don't like it.
Why can't Teddy be
581
00:28:20,912 --> 00:28:22,492
allowed to love more
than one person when you have?
582
00:28:22,576 --> 00:28:24,461
I never lied about having
past relationships, okay?
583
00:28:24,545 --> 00:28:26,397
She did. Ask yourself why, Owen!
584
00:28:26,482 --> 00:28:29,225
She probably had PTSD
from losing the love of her life
585
00:28:29,310 --> 00:28:30,712
in a horrific tragedy.
586
00:28:30,796 --> 00:28:31,887
You of all people
should understand that.
587
00:28:31,971 --> 00:28:32,975
Then why didn't she
just tell me that?
588
00:28:33,059 --> 00:28:34,344
Do you walk around
telling everyone
589
00:28:34,428 --> 00:28:36,718
about how
you strangled Cristina?
590
00:28:39,390 --> 00:28:40,584
Wow.
591
00:28:42,416 --> 00:28:44,147
I think you should leave.
592
00:28:44,232 --> 00:28:48,499
Owen, her trauma response
is different than yours.
593
00:28:48,584 --> 00:28:50,788
You don't get to just casually
throw in my face
594
00:28:50,873 --> 00:28:52,320
the worst thing that I ever did
in my life, okay?
595
00:28:52,404 --> 00:28:54,083
I did not do it
casually.
596
00:28:54,350 --> 00:28:57,553
No part of you ever, ever
thought that you were capable
597
00:28:57,709 --> 00:29:00,742
of choking someone
that you loved but you did it.
598
00:29:00,826 --> 00:29:02,179
I was asleep, okay?
599
00:29:02,264 --> 00:29:04,771
- I-I had PTSD...
- So does she, Owen.
600
00:29:04,889 --> 00:29:06,748
So does she!
601
00:29:07,006 --> 00:29:09,929
Sometimes
traumatized people lie.
602
00:29:10,014 --> 00:29:11,147
They lie to you.
603
00:29:11,232 --> 00:29:12,188
They lie to themselves.
604
00:29:12,272 --> 00:29:14,581
That does not mean
that everything is a lie.
605
00:29:14,665 --> 00:29:16,866
When you were hurting,
you hurt other people.
606
00:29:16,951 --> 00:29:19,108
When I was hurting,
I hurt other people.
607
00:29:19,192 --> 00:29:20,265
But we both got help.
608
00:29:20,350 --> 00:29:22,328
Teddy needs help.
609
00:29:27,826 --> 00:29:29,248
I'll go check on her.
610
00:30:09,459 --> 00:30:11,421
♪ Eg veit pú kemur
í kvold til mín ♪
611
00:30:11,505 --> 00:30:14,641
Ugh,
why do we even have jobs?
612
00:30:14,726 --> 00:30:16,515
Doing nothing
is so much better.
613
00:30:16,600 --> 00:30:17,601
It is.
614
00:30:17,685 --> 00:30:22,529
♪ Pótt kveojan vaeri
stutt í gaer ♪
615
00:30:24,692 --> 00:30:26,967
I want to tell Claire
the truth.
616
00:30:27,956 --> 00:30:29,030
She'll hate me.
617
00:30:29,115 --> 00:30:30,921
And... I'll hate that.
618
00:30:31,006 --> 00:30:33,573
But she deserves
the truth.
619
00:30:33,657 --> 00:30:35,444
I know.
I know she does.
620
00:30:35,529 --> 00:30:37,256
I just...
I don't want to hurt her.
621
00:30:38,401 --> 00:30:41,225
Life comes with pain though,
Teddy.
622
00:30:41,989 --> 00:30:43,428
Life comes with pain.
623
00:30:43,615 --> 00:30:44,715
Not today.
624
00:30:44,799 --> 00:30:46,889
Today doesn't come
with pain.
625
00:30:47,628 --> 00:30:48,975
Not for us.
626
00:30:49,060 --> 00:30:50,373
Not this time.
627
00:30:50,457 --> 00:30:52,335
♪ Sko áour en pú veist,
pú veist ♪
628
00:30:52,420 --> 00:30:54,116
Your dad...
629
00:30:54,217 --> 00:30:56,015
he should've let you have
the gerbil.
630
00:31:06,734 --> 00:31:08,530
We've got
somewhere to be?
631
00:31:08,615 --> 00:31:10,670
No, no, no, no.
632
00:31:10,779 --> 00:31:13,698
I just... I never want
this moment to end.
633
00:31:23,359 --> 00:31:24,732
Something's going on.
634
00:31:24,881 --> 00:31:27,453
Uh, we-we're okay.
635
00:31:27,537 --> 00:31:28,741
No,
but something's wrong.
636
00:31:28,826 --> 00:31:30,100
I know,
but... but we're okay.
637
00:31:30,185 --> 00:31:31,366
You're with me.
638
00:31:31,451 --> 00:31:32,676
You know what?
639
00:31:32,760 --> 00:31:34,842
You're right.
Let's tell Claire.
640
00:31:34,998 --> 00:31:36,078
She deserves
to know the truth.
641
00:31:36,162 --> 00:31:37,475
She'll hate me
because losing you
642
00:31:37,560 --> 00:31:38,638
is the worst thing
in the world.
643
00:31:38,722 --> 00:31:41,201
But she won't hate you.
I promise she won't hate you.
644
00:31:41,674 --> 00:31:43,515
Because, Allison,
it's impossible
645
00:31:43,600 --> 00:31:45,035
to do anything
but love you.
646
00:31:47,514 --> 00:31:48,779
What do you think?
647
00:31:50,299 --> 00:31:52,087
I smell smoke.
648
00:31:52,475 --> 00:31:54,306
Do you smell smoke?
649
00:31:54,390 --> 00:31:56,221
No, no, no, no,
you're with me.
650
00:31:56,305 --> 00:31:57,475
You're safe.
651
00:31:58,756 --> 00:31:59,760
I can't breathe.
652
00:32:03,740 --> 00:32:05,404
Allison, don't leave me.
653
00:32:05,488 --> 00:32:07,545
No,
please don't leave me.
654
00:32:07,646 --> 00:32:08,799
Allison.
655
00:32:08,982 --> 00:32:12,324
Don't leave me, Allison.
656
00:32:12,408 --> 00:32:13,848
Come on!
657
00:32:13,932 --> 00:32:15,110
Come on, Allison.
658
00:32:16,456 --> 00:32:17,686
Please don't leave me,
Allison!
659
00:32:17,771 --> 00:32:18,929
Clear!
660
00:32:20,721 --> 00:32:22,265
Charge to 200. Clear!
661
00:32:23,942 --> 00:32:25,424
300! Clear!
662
00:32:29,251 --> 00:32:31,244
Teddy, I'm sorry.
663
00:32:31,329 --> 00:32:32,896
This is over.
664
00:32:37,216 --> 00:32:38,521
Time of death,
665
00:32:39,475 --> 00:32:41,440
September 11, 2001,
666
00:32:41,646 --> 00:32:43,181
9:59 a.m.
667
00:33:00,413 --> 00:33:01,983
It's all my fault.
668
00:33:02,067 --> 00:33:04,986
It's all my fault.
669
00:33:05,070 --> 00:33:06,896
It's all my fault.
670
00:34:03,128 --> 00:34:05,046
I just got her
back down.
671
00:34:05,377 --> 00:34:07,383
I think she knows there's
something going on with her mom,
672
00:34:07,467 --> 00:34:09,789
so she's just off.
673
00:34:09,873 --> 00:34:11,095
Yeah.
674
00:34:11,179 --> 00:34:12,280
I know
you want me to leave.
675
00:34:12,365 --> 00:34:14,436
But I am here
because I love you
676
00:34:14,521 --> 00:34:16,201
and I want to help you.
677
00:34:17,098 --> 00:34:18,788
You know, it almost
would've been easier
678
00:34:18,873 --> 00:34:20,324
if she'd just run away
with Koracick.
679
00:34:20,409 --> 00:34:21,845
You know?
680
00:34:23,818 --> 00:34:24,968
You ever think
about doing that?
681
00:34:25,052 --> 00:34:28,759
Just getting in the car
and driving away?
682
00:34:29,023 --> 00:34:32,459
A feeling of being free
from all responsibilities,
683
00:34:32,544 --> 00:34:34,070
even just for a second...
684
00:34:34,185 --> 00:34:37,561
no kids, no
messy relationships,
685
00:34:37,646 --> 00:34:39,384
no dying patients...
686
00:34:39,468 --> 00:34:41,008
If you'd have asked me that
six months ago,
687
00:34:41,092 --> 00:34:42,850
I would have said no,
but now...
688
00:34:42,935 --> 00:34:44,584
of course I do.
689
00:34:45,822 --> 00:34:47,600
I don't know how to describe it.
690
00:34:47,685 --> 00:34:49,090
It's like...
691
00:34:49,287 --> 00:34:51,353
It's like there's this...
692
00:34:51,545 --> 00:34:52,725
blanket on top of me.
693
00:34:52,810 --> 00:34:57,233
Like a wet, heavy blanket
of just... fatigue.
694
00:34:57,326 --> 00:34:58,302
Defense.
695
00:34:58,387 --> 00:34:59,827
What?
696
00:34:59,912 --> 00:35:01,475
When I get
that blanket feeling?
697
00:35:01,560 --> 00:35:04,131
It's because
I'm defending
698
00:35:04,225 --> 00:35:08,748
against having
to feel anger, rage, hurt.
699
00:35:09,895 --> 00:35:11,326
She hurt you.
700
00:35:12,169 --> 00:35:13,663
You're hurt.
701
00:35:15,396 --> 00:35:18,232
Well, it's easier
to just feel numb.
702
00:35:19,552 --> 00:35:21,482
You don't have
to go back to her.
703
00:35:21,568 --> 00:35:26,083
But you cannot afford to spend
every day hating her.
704
00:35:26,167 --> 00:35:27,693
It's too hard.
705
00:35:27,967 --> 00:35:29,869
That blanket
will never lift.
706
00:35:33,261 --> 00:35:35,334
I don't know.
W-What do I do?
707
00:35:37,700 --> 00:35:40,232
In NA, we pray
for the people we resent.
708
00:35:40,859 --> 00:35:42,741
It's the worst.
709
00:35:42,826 --> 00:35:44,498
I always hate it.
710
00:35:45,725 --> 00:35:49,413
We pray
for them to get well.
711
00:35:49,498 --> 00:35:52,233
Uh, for them
to find happiness,
712
00:35:52,318 --> 00:35:55,417
get all of the things that
we would want for ourselves.
713
00:35:55,501 --> 00:35:58,985
And we do it every day,
for weeks.
714
00:35:59,310 --> 00:36:03,164
And I don't know why it works
but it does.
715
00:36:03,248 --> 00:36:05,898
The resentment lifts
and forgiveness sets in.
716
00:36:05,983 --> 00:36:07,074
Then you coparent.
717
00:36:07,162 --> 00:36:09,953
And maybe eventually...
718
00:36:10,184 --> 00:36:11,998
something can be rebuilt.
719
00:36:13,606 --> 00:36:15,219
I don't think
I can do that.
720
00:36:16,722 --> 00:36:18,553
You can do it.
721
00:36:18,646 --> 00:36:20,006
You've done it before.
722
00:36:21,498 --> 00:36:22,791
You did it with me.
723
00:36:30,188 --> 00:36:31,670
It's all my fault.
724
00:36:31,754 --> 00:36:33,368
All of this
is yourfault?
725
00:36:33,452 --> 00:36:36,069
Yes! My parents, Allison,
Henry, DeLuca...
726
00:36:36,154 --> 00:36:37,067
Don't say me.
727
00:36:37,151 --> 00:36:38,068
I'm still here.
728
00:36:38,152 --> 00:36:40,350
I couldn't save them.
I should have saved them!
729
00:36:40,435 --> 00:36:43,232
No. Even I know that
they couldn't be saved.
730
00:36:43,636 --> 00:36:45,578
I don't know
what happened with your parents,
731
00:36:45,662 --> 00:36:48,288
but Allison and DeLuca
were tragic casualties
732
00:36:48,373 --> 00:36:51,280
of circumstances
you had no power to control.
733
00:36:51,365 --> 00:36:53,225
And Henry...
Henry was already dying
734
00:36:53,310 --> 00:36:55,085
when you married him. I love Owen.
735
00:36:55,239 --> 00:36:56,585
You run from pain.
736
00:36:56,670 --> 00:36:59,220
Your parents died
and you ran to Allison.
737
00:36:59,459 --> 00:37:02,875
Allison died, and you joined
the Army and ran to Owen.
738
00:37:03,146 --> 00:37:06,792
Owen chose Cristina,
you dove into Henry.
739
00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:08,185
This isn't fair.
740
00:37:08,269 --> 00:37:11,279
And then Owen is with Amelia,
and you used Koracick.
741
00:37:11,364 --> 00:37:12,889
Please stop.
Stop it.
742
00:37:12,974 --> 00:37:14,429
You run from pain, Teddy.
743
00:37:14,514 --> 00:37:15,608
Stop it. We all do it.
744
00:37:15,693 --> 00:37:17,673
Something terrible happens,
745
00:37:17,757 --> 00:37:19,608
we blame ourselves
and we don't want to feel it
746
00:37:19,693 --> 00:37:20,951
so we run.
747
00:37:21,717 --> 00:37:23,680
We run
from joy too because we think
748
00:37:23,764 --> 00:37:24,854
we don't deserve
happiness.
749
00:37:25,094 --> 00:37:26,757
But it's a package deal.
750
00:37:26,842 --> 00:37:28,804
There is no joy
without pain.
751
00:37:31,514 --> 00:37:33,952
Come on, Teddy.
Let's leave this place.
752
00:37:35,170 --> 00:37:36,605
Please don't die.
753
00:37:36,881 --> 00:37:38,514
I'll do my best.
754
00:37:52,286 --> 00:37:54,444
There's a problem
with trying to understand
755
00:37:54,529 --> 00:37:56,189
every mistake you've made...
756
00:37:56,476 --> 00:37:57,697
you can't.
757
00:37:57,857 --> 00:37:59,367
Sigur Rós's "Starálfur"
plays...
758
00:38:01,443 --> 00:38:03,022
And trying to robs you
759
00:38:03,106 --> 00:38:06,475
of your life, your plans,
your future.
760
00:38:06,560 --> 00:38:09,507
♪ Blá nótt yfir himininn ♪
761
00:38:09,920 --> 00:38:12,163
Plus, you can't really learn
from your mistakes
762
00:38:12,248 --> 00:38:13,655
if you stop moving forward.
763
00:38:13,740 --> 00:38:17,950
♪ Blá nótt yfir mér ♪
764
00:38:18,232 --> 00:38:20,232
You sure you don't want me
to stay?
765
00:38:20,451 --> 00:38:22,287
Probably a stupid question.
766
00:38:22,372 --> 00:38:23,537
Just call me
767
00:38:23,622 --> 00:38:24,827
- if you need me.
- Yeah.
768
00:38:24,912 --> 00:38:26,182
Hey, thank you.
769
00:38:26,616 --> 00:38:28,318
For everything.
I mean it.
770
00:38:28,403 --> 00:38:29,709
I know you do.
771
00:38:30,525 --> 00:38:32,508
Oh, and especially thank you
for helping with that bed.
772
00:38:32,592 --> 00:38:34,228
I'm gonna share credit
with Leo.
773
00:38:34,312 --> 00:38:36,000
Alright, just don't break it
if you get mad.
774
00:38:36,084 --> 00:38:38,144
I'm not gonna...
Okay, yeah.
775
00:38:38,228 --> 00:38:39,581
Bye.
776
00:38:41,537 --> 00:38:44,310
♪ Starir á mig ♪
777
00:38:44,513 --> 00:38:45,513
It's scary.
778
00:38:45,598 --> 00:38:47,328
- ♪ Lítill álfur ♪
- It's uncertain.
779
00:38:47,412 --> 00:38:49,693
But you'll find something
pretty
780
00:38:49,778 --> 00:38:51,193
- special there...
- Shh. Shh.
781
00:38:52,504 --> 00:38:53,943
♪ Breytir mér í ♪
782
00:38:54,027 --> 00:38:55,615
I'm here.
783
00:38:56,653 --> 00:38:58,527
I'm here.
784
00:38:59,029 --> 00:39:05,737
♪ En hreyfist ekki ♪
785
00:39:05,821 --> 00:39:10,873
♪ Ur stao... sjálfur ♪
786
00:39:10,957 --> 00:39:12,657
I'm here.
787
00:39:14,416 --> 00:39:15,333
...hope.
788
00:39:18,356 --> 00:39:19,912
♪ Starálfur ♪
789
00:39:27,443 --> 00:39:30,144
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