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Floyd, I need you.

Floyd, you're not still asleep up there, are you?

Mm.

I could stay here forever.

I am very open to that idea.

This is all I need.

Oh, I have to...

Yeah, absolutely.

Um...

Everything okay?

Family stuff.

Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com

- You wanted to see me, sir? - Whoa, prompt.

Good, I like that.

Already demonstrating you've got what it takes.

To do what, exactly?

To take over Dr. Kapoor's department.

Dr. Agnes Kao, interim chair of neurology.

Sorry, I like to keep things on the move. We'll work on that.

I can't take over Dr. Kapoor's department.

Why not?

I just finished my fellowship.

I just took the boards.

- So how'd you do? - 99th percentile, but...

- You're gonna be great. - But...

Behold, the king of cardiac, the duke of hearts

- returns to New Amsterdam. - Stop.

Sorry, it's too much?

- Excuse me. - I'm sorry.

You need to find someone else until Dr. Kapoor comes back.

Someone qualified.

You know, I'm trying to give her her own department,

- and she's playing hardball. - Been there.

What if I were just

the interim-interim chair of neurology?

Would that make you more comfortable?

Only marginally.

Sold. You got it.

Now get out there, and go get 'em, tiger.

Yeah, how you holding up?

Well, I'll take the fifth on that, but at least I'm here.

Well, I would love to be here to witness

- your triumphant return. - But?

I'm off to Connecticut. Assuming I survive rush hour on the FDR

and awkward silences with Georgia's parents,

I'm finally bringing home Luna.

I can't wait to see the look on her face

- when she sees me again. - That's great, Max.

- What should I... - Oh.

Uh, see Helen for instructions on your royal return.

Got it.

- So, um... - where is he?

He's out there.

Got it, okay.

- Good luck. - Thank you.

Linus Wilding?

You Linus?

Hi, how you doing? I'm Dr. Frome.

You can just call me Iggy.

I didn't do anything wrong.

- No, I know. - I know that, I know.

I'm just here to talk. That's all.

So, burning question.

You ever run away before?

No? You ever wanted to?

Okay.

So then I got to assume that something big,

something major happened, right?

To make you want to do it now.

And I know that this is hard to talk about,

but I have to ask...

did somebody hurt you, physically?

I didn't run away, okay?

My mom, she...

she threw me out.

Okay.

Well, maybe you can help me understand this, then.

Why did she call the police and file a missing persons report?

Okay. Hi.

I'm so grateful you found him, Dr. Frome.

- I haven't slept in days. - Yeah, I can only imagine.

Um...

did you manage to bring the things I...

Yes, everything you asked for.

Linus's birth certificate, immunization forms,

and recent school ID.

Oh, great, thank you.

Okay.

Ms. Wilding, can you think of any reason why

there's confusion about the events that led Linus to leave?

Did you guys have a fight? Anything?

No.

Four weeks ago, I sent him off to camp,

and he never came home.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay, here's what I think we should do:

The three of us should have a chat,

maybe clear up any of this confusion that's going on.

- Absolutely. - Okay.

I think now would be a good time.

Are you okay with that?

Linus.

What's going on here?

Well, I think your son is feeling a little...

I don't know who that is, but that is definitely not my son.

I'm...

I'm fairly confident that is.

He looks like my son, Dr. Frome, I know.

But they are not the same.

No, that boy is an imposter.

- A mother knows. - A mother can tell.

That's not my son.

- There he is, in the flesh. - Good to see you, Max.

No place I'd rather be.

Hey. Calvin.

I hope your drive wasn't too bad.

Yeah, it was okay.

We've got Luna's stuff all packed up, ready to go.

- Oh, that's very sweet. - Thank you, thank you, Gwen.

Where is she hiding?

Oh, she's just in the living room, playing.

Oh, great.

Please say you'll stay for lunch.

I'm perfecting my bread machine.

- No, I couldn't... - Couldn't say no to that.

Of course. I, um...

I would love that.

All this one-on-one time with her was priceless.

Luna! Guess who's here.

- Luna! - Dada's here.

Hammond Sims, 25-year-old male, possible kidney stones.

More like boulders.

You'll be all right, brother.

How long have you had this pain for?

It's been a minute. Thought to come in when it first hit...

But the nightclub got wiped out by the 'rona.

No health insurance.

Oh, yeah, you and half the city.

Oh, snap.

Okay, okay, we're gonna get you dialed in...

Get away from me!

- Stop! - No, stop!

- Guy's on K2! - Call security!

- Ahh! - Casey!

I will kill you!

I see you! I see you all!

I see you all!

Brunstetter's in surgery.

Fractured ocular orbit.

That guy just snapped.

I knew he was on something when we admitted him.

I should've paged security right then.

No, it's on me.

I should've gotten there faster or been closer...

Hey.

This is not your fault.

Or yours or yours.

How many of us have been attacked while on the job?

Assaulted...

slapped, bit, kicked, clawed.

Come on.

How many of you feel unsafe working here?

They said they were gonna install metal detectors.

I heard more security cameras.

Yeah, we keep waiting for someone else to protect us.

And now one of our own.

We all deserve to feel safe.

And today, I am gonna make that happen.

- Incoming! - Oh, got another one.

Here we go.

No, no, flight 117 isn't gonna work

because I need to leave New York now

to get there in time.

Yes, I appreciate it's short notice, ma'am,

but that's partly due to the fact

that I waited 45 minutes to talk to you.

I'm back and reporting for duty.

Yeah, yes, I'll gladly hold one more time.

Wait, you're back... like, here?

Max didn't tell you I was starting today?

No,

which is odd, because he's usually so great

about communicating important information.

Did he say what I was supposed to do?

He said you have instructions for my royal re...

Why don't I just pop up to cardio and jump in where they need me?

Sounds great, thank you.

Is everything good with you?

I'm just trying to book a last-minute flight to Iran,

but no one's willing to help, so...

Iran?

It's my brother.

Yes, n... Yes, I'm here.

No. No, no, no, no, no, no.

A layover isn't going to work because it's time sensitive.

Sorry, can I speak to your supervisor, please?

God, she's so big.

- And she uses a fork. - She's like a real person.

When you see the floor after she's done,

it won't seem as impressive.

What about peas?

She used to love peas for lunch.

Dada misses seeing you chomp on those peas...

Mm.

- Yeah... - What?

Luna's perhaps not as much of a pea aficionado these days.

- No, she hates them. - Truly.

- Really? - That's new.

Anyway, what she really loves is sausage.

- Sausage? No. - Yeah.

- Gwen, show him the thing. - Yeah.

Wow!

There's nothing wrong with me. I feel fine.

I know you do, but I'd like to run some tests, okay?

You don't understand.

He was supposed to come home from camp, and he never did.

Doesn't make any sense.

And then that other kid just shows up,

claiming to be my son.

Yana, I need you to take a deep breath and hold it.

And exhale.

Doing great, Yana. Good job.

So scary.

This random person trying to convince me he's my son.

Pretending.

You're sure they're related?

- Yes, I'm sure. - I checked.

Linus is definitely her son.

There's gotta be a better explanation.

There is.

So, you won't believe how fast HCC works

when you threaten to call the media.

We're getting new security cameras.

Better. They finally agreed to cough up some cash

for actual security around here.

Excuse me.

Is there a Dr. Bloom?

Ta-da.

Yes, officers. Welcome.

Thinking we would plant you here, there,

and how 'bout over there?

Private hospitals have had cops in the ED for years.

About time we got our own.

Problem solved.

_

Put me in, coach.

- Floyd, hey! - So great to see you.

We just heard you were coming back.

- Just heard, like... - Ten minutes ago?

- Hm. - Should've seen that coming.

Max isn't great with communication.

- Yeah, so I hear. - Well, sorry to surprise you,

but I am back, I'm here, I'm ready for action, and, uh,

yeah, just put me wherever you want.

I'll do that triple valve replacement.

Oh, Alvarez is already on that one.

Oh, okay, well.

Can't expect to start at the top.

What about the aortic valve replacement in OR 2?

That's you.

It's been crazy around here.

COVID cut our elective surgeries in half.

- Wow, okay. - Um, hell, I'll do anything.

What about the mediastinal node biopsy?

Okay, I know how this looks...

Duke, wow.

Well, Duke, he's still a resident.

- I could supervise. - Already assigned.

Wow.

Hey, go set up your office,

and I'll page you if something comes up.

I don't really have an office.

No, it's on reserve.

They're just waiting on the visa.

Well, couldn't you...

Y... okay, yes, I understand.

Yeah. Yes, I'll have my phone on.

Hey.

Just wanted to check in on you

after that phone call this morning.

It's fine.

I didn't know you spoke Farsi.

Well, I do.

I don't know what's going on, but I'm here.

Let me help.

I need an immigration lawyer, not a trauma surgeon.

Well, I definitely didn't come here to make things worse.

I've spent this day wrangling travel agents and visas,

and it's been nothing short of a bureaucratic nightmare.

I'm barely holding it together.

So I'm sorry, but I really don't want to talk about it...

With anyone.

Best immigration lawyer in Manhattan.

"The dear deer dart and play,

while the crow crows the night away."

Sorry to interrupt.

Cal, do you think you could help get her

in the car real quick with me?

Come on, Luna.

We're gonna see Grampy and Grammy real soon.

I mean, maybe stay another few minutes.

I think she just needs a nap.

Yeah, I know. I just think I need to get her home.

- Okay. - All righty.

Oof.

- All right. - Thank you, Cal.

- No go. - No go!

Mama here.

We found small lesions in your mother's brain.

And they are the reason why she has been so confused.

Okay.

It's a rare misidentification disorder

known as Capgras syndrome.

But what does that even mean?

Well, it's like her brain's facial recognition system

has been rewired.

And the emotional ties that she should feel

when she looks at you are lost.

She doesn't feel them.

She thinks you're an imposter.

But... but I'm not.

I mean, I'm me.

She was fine when I went to camp, and...

I don't understand what's happening.

If the lesions were in a different spot,

maybe we could do surgery, but in your mother's case,

it's not an option.

Well, there's gotta be some medicine she can take, right?

Yeah, I've already prescribed it,

but the meds will only stop her symptoms from getting worse.

Uh...

Linus, there's no easy way to say this.

Your mother is never going to recognize you again.

Her condition is permanent.

So she's never gonna know who I am?

I am so sorry.

But... but she's my mom.

I mean, I don't have anyone else who...

well, what am I supposed to do? Where...

Where will I go? She's my mom.

Okay.

Where are we on the pain scale now, big guy?

Seven.

That's better.

Zero would be better.

Let's up his morphine 2 milligrams.

These kidney stones ain't no joke.

Don't worry, it'll pass.

Get it? "Pass."

Come on. It's funny because it's true.

What? Nothing? Wow.

Tough crowd.

Can we talk?

What's going on?

It's the cops.

But they're here for us.

To keep us safe.

You know what I see?

I see the people who've been stopping me

since I was 12 years old,

making me sit on curbs and face walls.

I got handcuffed coming home from work one day in my scrubs.

In my scrubs.

- Casey, come on. - You know that I would never...

Ask Weber and ask Mariana, Lauren.

We all got stories.

Hell, why don't you ask your little friend

who's always up in here using our showers?

Yeah.

I noticed.

Ask her if she feels any safer

with all these cops hanging around

watching everything she does.

Okay. Right.

So what are we supposed to do next time

there's another assault, huh?

Brunstetter's still upstairs

getting his eye socket repaired.

You think he'd want them gone?

You think cops make trans people feel safe?

Casey, I'm not blind, okay?

I know that there are bad cops...

You didn't just try to "not all cops" me now, did you?

But it's not all cops.

And you know that.

- And we need them here. - "We"?

Tell me who's "we."

Because the undocumented, they're gonna stay away.

The homeless, they're gonna stay away, too.

And what about the next patient who comes in here

under the influence?

You suddenly want these cops feeling compelled

to make arrests because, hell, they're already here?

What could possibly go wrong?

They're not making us feel any safer, Lauren.

It's just a different kind of unsafe.

Got a diaphragmatic repair.

40-year-old model rocket enthusiast

ironically failed to launch.

I'll need an OR. Oh, and another set of hands.

Right in here, but we're short staffed.

I'm available.

Who are you?

Floyd Reynolds, cardiothoracic.

Ever worked a diaphragm before?

Once or twice.

And we have liftoff.

Diaphragm is exposed.

Oof, rocket did some damage.

Yeah, one small step for mankind,

one huge abdominal tear for James Feller.

Biological mesh.

You know, a monofilament mattress suture

might work better.

Mesh will provide a tension-free closure.

Yeah, but why not close it

without introducing a foreign object, you know?

Because the uneven edges

of the monofilament closure would pucker.

Eh, sutures could be laid down to minimize it.

- I'm sorry, Doctor...? - Reynolds.

Dr. Reynolds was chair of cardiothoracic...

Oh, it's fine, Kat.

Chair or no chair, I asked for another set of hands,

not a second opinion.

This is my OR, and surgeries will be done

the way I want them.

Now, you can either get on board or get out.

On board it is.

Mesh.

- No, it's above and beyond. - Truly.

Thank you.

Okay, you too. Buh-bye.

Okay, so Linus's cousin in Ohio

is going to take him in permanently.

That's good news, right?

- It's better than foster care. - That's true.

Or worse yet, a runaway shelter.

Oh, man.

So what's wrong?

It's Yana.

I can't stop thinking about Yana.

I mean, she's still convinced

that her son is out there somewhere, right?

And she's never gonna stop looking for him,

and we will never be able to convince her of the truth.

That's just facts.

It's all just so...

What?

What?

You're looking at me.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah, I think this is usually the time

when Vijay says something profound

and gives me like a... a good idea.

Well, I don't know what to say!

Just try something. Throw it at me.

Try what?

Yana thinks that Linus is an imposter,

and you'll never be able to convince her that he isn't.

I just said that.

Just like you'll never be able to convince me

that I can fill Dr. Kapoor's shoes.

These are facts!

I can't do this, and Linus may as well be dead.

So no, I don't know what to say.

That's...

that's genius.

What is?

Therapeutic fibbing.

That is a great success in similar syndromes.

Wait, no.

You want to tell her that her son is dead?

I didn't mean that literally.

Look, all she wants is a way to move on.

Right? A way to get on with her life.

Oh, what about Linus?

He lost his mom, and he knows that she's not dead.

Yeah, he's looking for a relationship with her.

He's looking for a connection. That's it, so...

why don't we give him one?

One of you took it!

Hey.

Thanks for getting rid of those cops.

- Yeah, yeah. - Back to covering our own butts.

- Give it back! - And right on cue.

- It's my phone. - I know you took it!

- And I want it back. - Sir, can you just...?

But sir... sir!

You told us you left your phone at the bar.

- Not true. - Everyone stay back.

- Where's my phone? - No, Casey, I mean it.

If anyone else is getting hurt today, it's gonna be me.

Think you can just hold me here?

- Sir, sir. - I need you to look at me.

We're gonna get you sobered up,

and we're gonna get you out of here.

But right now, I need you to return to your bed.

I do not need to sober up.

What I need is my damn phone.

No, you need to return to your bed.

Can you do that for me?

I'm not getting back in that stupid bed.

And you can't make me.

This is my ED.

I make the rules.

Now put your damn mask on, and get back in your bed!

I bet this whole "I'm a tank" thing you got going on

comes in pretty handy when you mess up someone's drink.

Actually, I was a bouncer.

Not sure how I missed that.

Thank you for the lawyer.

Did she help?

It was too late.

My brother died.

Half-brother.

We weren't close, but...

I mean, I wanted to be, I just...

I just thought that I had time.

According to Islam,

he needed to be buried before the next sundown.

But I ran out of time.

I keep...

I keep running out of time.

And I... I nearly got there, but then my visa...

What does it matter?

I don't want to make excuses anymore.

About him...

about you.

What was your brother's name?

Farhad.

Sorry.

We haven't visited since...

Since the funeral.

She just thinks we're at the park.

She doesn't realize...

"Mama here."

I want to do the right thing, but I...

I don't know what that is.

I love her so much. I just don't know...

if I'm enough...

without you.

I don't know if I'm ever gonna be enough.

Hi.

Just came by to check in.

I know this has been a lot,

with the diagnosis and your son.

I can't believe he's gone.

And the strangest thing is,

a part of me feels...

relieved

to finally know the truth.

Is that awful of me?

No.

No.

When I thought he was still out there,

all alone, lost,

needing me, and I couldn't find him, it...

it was excruciating.

Now...

Now you can grieve.

I get it.

Yeah.

So, listen,

I know that this might not be the best time, but...

there's actually someone here

that is going through the exact same thing,

if you wanted to talk to him.

Now?

Yeah.

I think that it would be great for you to talk to someone

who knows what this feels like.

You know?

But only if you want to. It's up to you.

Yeah? Okay.

- You! - She doesn't want to see me.

- No, no, no. - Yana, hang on, listen.

Just hear him out, okay?

He broke into my house!

I know, I know, and that must have been really scary.

But I'm asking you if you would please let him explain.

That's all.

Thank you. Good, okay.

Okay.

I, uh...

I did break in.

And I'm real sorry about that.

Tell her why.

I, uh...

I...

I just lost my mom.

And, uh...

it was sudden.

And... I didn't know

what to do, where to go, but...

your place... Your place, it felt safe.

Felt familiar.

Like home.

I'm sorry about your mom.

I know how hard that must be.

I just really miss her.

What was she like?

I know.

Go on. Tell her.

She was...

one of a kind.

She was funny

and smart and honest.

I lost my son, you know.

You on the list?

Am I what?

You on the list?

- It's cool. - He's with me.

I'm with her.

I just came by to check on Brunstetter.

No ocular damage, and the bone is stabilized.

- He's gonna be okay. - Good, great.

And what can you tell me about them?

- We defunded the police. - What?

While I was in Connecticut?

All these bouncers,

who know a thing or two about de-escalation,

were out of work thanks to COVID.

Now they have a job that comes with healthcare.

Is this gentleman bothering you?

I was just leaving.

Seriously?

I heard about your day.

And I came to apologize.

Epic fail on my part,

but then I pictured Cassian

not even knowing who you were.

Sorry, sorry.

Thanks.

It's kind of funny.

Right? Sorry.

- What did... - This is, like,

- the worst apology ever. - I know.

Sorry, again. I just, um...

I had kind of a day myself.

I got nothing left in the tank.

You got nothing left.

I'm living out of my suitcase, with my mom,

my marriage was over before it ever began,

and the one place that I ever felt right

doesn't have a place for me.

I know lots of places that would happily give you

their cardio department.

I don't care about other places, man.

I care about here.

Look, you wanna stick me in the classroom, teaching interns,

I'm there.

You want me to assist in general surgeries,

I'll take it.

That's a huge step down for you.

- Huge step down from what? - I'm already there.

What I need is a hand getting back up.

In Korea, women in mourning wear white bows in their hair.

This is the best I could do in K-town.

May I?

Yeah.

We had the same father.

He was younger than me.

I didn't even know that he existed till six years ago.

I only met him once.

But once was all it took.

I knew he was my brother.

Without a doubt.

Is this what your family does when someone dies?

Martha and Tim Shinnler?

No, they wouldn't know a Korean mourning custom

- from a hole in the ground. - Wait, Shinnler?

I was adopted.

When I was three.

I shortened my name right after college.

As far as the hairclip, I learned about that

in my Korean lit class.

Huh.

So your family's...

German Irish.

I actually had to teach myself to be Korean.

Still really don't know how.

So what else did you learn in these college classes of yours?

Leyla, we should talk.

I knew using your showers was too good to last.

Well, get it over with.

Grab your stuff. It's not safe out here.

This is my secret spot.

Why do this for me?

I protect my people.

Here we go, you ready?

- Yeah. - Here it is.

This is home.

You remember this place?

- Yeah. - Yeah?

There's a couch over there, right?

This is our kitchen. Remember the kitchen?

- Yeah. - Yeah.

This is where you're gonna throw lots of food at Dada

until he figures out what you want,

which I guess is not peas anymore.

And this is our sleepy room.

This is my bed.

And this, this bed is for you.

- You like it? - Yeah.

Yeah.

And this place...

this is just for you.

I know it's not much,

but, uh...

Dada here.

Yeah.

Yeah, Dada here.

Dada's always here.

- Yeah. - Yeah.